#i am so predictable wow

[sunlightsonata]

and finally it seems my lonely days are through i've been waiting for you

[weaverofink]

oh, gears and starters!!

[laurmaus]

all my pdh s2 doodles i need u guys to keep in mind i didnt know All That was gonna happen😭😭😭😭

[sysig]

Coding woes (Patreon)

[dreamerdrop]

So turns out that writing 55k words in two months is less "being healthy and productive" and more "experiencing a burst of mania", and in a very unexpected turn of events, I seem to be shifting into the depressive phase which tends to follow those manic phases...

Could not possibly have seen this coming, of course.

[joelletwo]

v what realization did i have the other day. i think thinking about the agoraphobia and where the hell that came from bc other than the ambient Scared Of Everything anxiety i never really had a prompting fear and i also had the behaviors like. as far back into my childhood as i cant remember. so the impulse was to go 'oh im just [dismissive self insults] then'

but then i thought no actually like. avoidance feels like a perfectly reasonable possible response to the autism/shit parents experience of like. whats the. some rat study where arbitrary shocks were applied vs predictable/prompted ones and eventually the arbitrary group rats just give up and stop trying stuff. when youre doing normal kid exploring what behaviors are okay investigation. and you cant figure out any pattern or consistency to which behaviors get punished and which dont. u stop trying stuff and trying stuff gives u fear of being punished.

[marigoldbaker]

ah MAN season one in particular seems to have me in my xander feelings this time around, specifically because he is so WILDLY and OBVIOUSLY incorrect about buffy and about buffy/angel!!! like, okay, in the pack he is talking incessantly and obsessively about how buffy wants her men "mean and dangerous," and we will see this line repeated by him many, many times -- his perspective on the buffy/angel relationship is that buffy wants a hot older guy & that xander himself is the nice one who deserves to be rewarded! which, again, of course, disturbing gross i understand why this would hit a Really Really Specific Button with viewers.

BUT THE THING IS -- buffy's draw to angel is not because he is Mean and Dangerous, it's because he is guiding her! from the very start, he's been demonstrating that he cares about her, albeit through cryptic warnings and shop talk, and she is at her core this little girl who wants someone to look out for her and protect her. angel is someone who is objectively very attractive, QUITE emotionally unavailable, but consistently through s1 and s2 providing buffy with a place of cozy, cuddly vulnerability where she gets to be seen as a little girl. AND YES sometimes that can be patronizing as all hell but it also means she gets to feel like she's being protected! THIS, not the danger, is why she is so into angel. he is older and he is strong so he has the capacity to (ostensibly) keep her safe.

and so i'm looking at the people going "xander is gross because he thinks this way" and i'm like. yes. fully. absolutely. but i feel that then this line of thinking is continued on into "xander is gross because he thinks this way and the show agrees with him" which i do not agree with at all. we are shown very consistently through the way that buffy/angel is presented that xander is misguided as hell in the way he frames the buffy/angel relationship and that it's only in s3, when he is very clearly over her, that his anger starts coming from this very anti-vampire specific place.

[honouredsnakeprincess]

Places of mundane life are transported into a hell, and your university campus has been transformed into a site of mortal peril. You encounter someone you think you had a class with last year, but she insists she's never met you before in her life, and denies even being a student here.

She does know the person you think looks like her, and curses her name and her lack of honour. Is this a monster wearing her face?

[outforflowers]

I felt like a main character in 2024. I could never have foreseen all that happened to me and all the possibilities. The script was great. Hoping 2025 is not as crazy, I am a little tired.

[vitoruwii]

Kay I can already predict what’s gonna happen in bsd

Aya will succeed, Bram will take control over him and disable all vampires and go save her immediately

that way chuuya, akutagawa, etc will all come back to normal

Chuuya aids dazai blah blah blah they go stop Fyodor and save sigma; or, chuuya aids dazai while sigma regains consciousness and finds a way to stop Fyodor himself

atsushi either regenerates or gets saved by the agency

then boom all of them go destroy fukuchi (including jouno because he knows he’s a traitor and he’s not a vampire anymore)

yayyyy that’s it

[mezimraky]

i could not be an academic because any time i write something i always rotate the same handful of books in my citations because they are just that good

juhanni pallasmaa, the eyes of the skin

juhanni pallasmaa, the thinking hand

jun'ichirō tanizaki, in praise of shadows

john berger, about looking

petr rezek, whatever book i pick up at the moment

and i'm sure i'll love lucy lippard's dematerialisation of the art object, i just have not gotten around to it yet

[lwieserce]

is it just me or the claymore has a khaenriahn vibe to it

[capriciousvisage]

just kidding luocha is apparently akira ishida so i downloaded hsr finally

[lokilysolbitch]

i ran out of room in the tags but i want to make it known that this was only a small percentage of the things that got predicted. it's my turn to write a chapter now and i want my character to get a tattoo of 9 knives down her back bc it's a tarot reference but i'm afraid of what that might cause so i have not written said chapter. im literally just scared

Shout out to the day i killed the queen via AO3, legendary (name of the fanfic is jigens sick adventure, yes it is a sickfic)

[linophrynelight]

The fun thing about having a personality disorder is not knowing where the personality ends and where the disorder starts

[azotowanie]

happy 3rd anniversary to the song 'B ME' by Stray Kids that to this day is my 1st most listened track of all time on Spotify despite the fact that I have not listened to it for good two years yay!