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backtodecembertv · 7 months ago

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me thinking about him every time i listened to the lyrics "i can't say that i can make you feel complete or free from your worry, but believe me when i tell you, babe, you'll never be lonely" vs him saying we had no emotional connection at all lmaoooo

#i am so delusional it's fine #being openly pathetic on tumblr dot com is my favorite hobby #i had this stupid list in my notes app that i made just for laughs but it was 'things [his name] likes' (and i had one for dislikes too)#and now i read it and i'm like 1) we definitely were close because how else would i know all that #and 2) i am so pathetic lmao #i made it as kind of a joke with myself because he has these topics he talks about over and over #mostly politics/how he hates capitalism and rich people #and how he wants to make art even if it's 'bad'#and music and the obscure bands he tries to make me listen to #and sometimes i'd kind of roll my eyes like we've had this conversation 40 times already. so i started writing those things down #he's got the memory of a fruit fly and he'd forget he'd already told me things sometimes #so yeah but now it's just this stupid testament to how much i cared about him and his interests

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actual-changeling · 1 year ago

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I don't think I can ever forgive you for that. But I would like to try.

I'd like that.

#alex edits tlou #tlou #the last of us #joel and ellie #joel miller #ellie williams #tlou game #tlou edit #sorry it's almost 3 am i always get a bit delusional around that time #so another edit pretending they'll be fine #oh and pain #always more pain

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causeimcrayzeebee · 15 days ago

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*shakes you violently*

HASEMURA. OT CAN BE ANYTHING.. I JS WANNA SEE THESE GOOBERS BE SILLY TOGETHER

yw bestie💯💯💯💯

hey guys I think I have something called a problem.

idk how I even did this I just saw hasemura n now this is here in front of me. hell ya. heres some cute hasemura winter shenanigans before Tetro Friday where we prepare for nothing but pain and suffering! yay! I don't live in a place where it snows or really gets that cold but damn lately its been too cold for my unprepared ass LMFAOOO...

#tetro danganronpa #tetro danganronpa pink #tetro pink #fanganronpa fanart #hasegawa ken #kamimura kazutoshi #hasemura #kamigawa #why am I lowkey so proud of it omg #sigh I love them #they're so screwed this next batch of eps #its fine guys we can be delusional TOGETHER

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rowrowronnie · 1 year ago

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they should call him gale of waterawesomeguy instead cause he’s just a really awesome guy i think

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate gale #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 fanart #fanart #art #doodle #waiting in limbo to play the rest of the game because the update just came to mac (i am a mac user.. apologies..)#plus i need a terabyte of storage. so that is more limbo time for me. its fine. it is Fine.#at least pookie will give me company .. in my brain … (i am delusional)

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trobed1989 · 1 year ago

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happy shibuya incident eve anniversary to those who celebrate

#i am so delusional about this show #also fyi gege told me everyone is fine it was all a dream actually #anyways here is my attempt at a sukuna pumpkin #ive only carved a pumpkin like twice before in my life so im pretty happy with how he looks #shibuya incident #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo #gojo satoru #ryomen sukuna #sukuna #shibuya #halloween #pumpkin #pumpkin carving

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kyunniebuns · 1 year ago

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What's the difference? Nothing

What does it make me? Even more delusional and insane

#∞ ₒ ˚ ° 📎— kyunnya speaks #artem wing #sung jinwoo #sung jin woo #Zuo Ran #solo leveling jinwoo #Tears of Themis #IM COMPLETELY GONE MY LORD #WHY IS MY TYPE SO CONSISTENT LIKE BLOODY HELL #GOD IS REALLY MOCKING ME BY SHOWING ME TWO SIMILAR MEN WHO I CAN NEVER HAVE #GODDAMNIT #forever bitchless and a hopeless romantic #Im not even pretty 2 and thats a skill issue ofc I wint pull an Artem or Jinwoo #so this is why #I'm forever delusional #im fine #i swear i am #im actually sobbingth give me a man like them pls

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zelda-without-a-licence-plate · 2 years ago

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hear me out okay-- HEY COME BACK I SAID HEAR ME OUT!!!

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spaghett-onaplate · 11 days ago

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new years vibes

#in the city for thr fireworks woo and everyone is worried bc my mum lowkey threatened to kill herself..#cant tell if we are all over or under reacting #eiee i hope she will be ok tho im texting her rn. should have gotten up earlier to get ready with her #so she could come along to the city too #but anyway. all should be fine. hopefully #the fireworks are really good #the 9pm ones were decent and it isnt long til midnight now #idk i feel mostly unemotional abt the new year but it also makes me feel like a particularly unaccomplished loser #but then. being upset over all i lack does not make me work toward improvement. so there is no real point ij being upset #anyway. happy new years everyone #i am a bit concerned about some friendships. and about the slight crush stirrings #bc i swear im not delusional. he was always the one to approach me and keep in contact. more so than any other friend ive had #which is firstly just yay nice friend but now were joke friend flirting except hes come out to me? helloooo #like. after the initial spiral i mostly don't feel super emotional about it #but a bit confused and stressed #eeee #anyway hope my mum is ok.. tbh i think my brothers gf shouldn't be so upset over it #like yeah its concerning and kinda inappropriate to say to a child #but isn't being upset over this indicative of the privilege we have of this being uncommon

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kkujo · 1 year ago

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something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it.#talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭#it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !

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whsprings · 2 months ago

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#cw// ed #didnt check my weight today but it doesnt change much so its probably about the same. anyway #i keep thinking about how im at my lowest weight in 1615241616 years #and how every time ive admitted ive been at a higher weight than this #and how things seem stable day to day but over the past few months have def slowly and steadily deteriorated as far as intake + variety #and how realistically i cannot keep doing this and expect nothing to happen #but at the same time lalalalalala i cant see it i cant hear it everything is fine!! i am fine!!#going to treatment again wont fucking fix me lmao #itll just give my ed temporary validation and make me gain weight that ill lose as soon as i leave #bc I don't actually want to change #theres no point in going back bc it hasnt done anything for me thats stuck #and im not dying so whatever #if it comes to it ill do a hospital stay or whatever but it wont bc im not that good at having an ed. so.#or maybe im fucking delusional who knows!!! rip

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girlivealwaysbean · 2 months ago

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so tired of being a shitty bandaid for my parents' loneliness. like have u ever considered you passed your curse to me and some days i feel so lonely it's like i can't breathe around the emptiness in my chest????

#my dad is like #you can't just be in your room all the time then what's the point of you living here if ill be sitting here all alone then #and im like bhai what #mom also says this to me she always wanted to sit and rant and she used to say you never talk to me #both of these people don't even fucking get it that they're not even interested in me listening to me #mom just wants a sounding board for her venting and dad just wants someone to pretend everything is okay and happy all the time and #the only important things in life is the immediate present and food and making money and stuff #i swear this is why i feel so ????? about myself my identity like no i can't describe myself #because there is no myself there is just a white sheet of paper where people can write whatever they want #im so tired man #why can't they just go and live with each other and leave us kids out of it 😭🙏#like i genuinely am getting teary eyed about such a small thing but god. i want to have my own life so bad. im sick of feeling all these #complicated emotions guilt and anger and pity and obligation and duty like just god pls fuck off #people my age are so fucking mature and put together than me so confident so clear about their path #have friends partners breakups parties just so many new memories #and im just stuck.#and im fine with it now because i get it studying is really important and this is quite basic requirement to be perfect at #atleast my syllabus to survive in this industry #but then. let me do that only. please don't make me pretend to like you like spending time with you and everything #ive hated you for like. idk 14 whole years. since the first time you hit mom in front of me #i remember it so well like my childhood broke that day you slammed her into a wall for some stupid fight and her hair was all messy and #untied and you shouted so loud i thought surely everyone can hear. and then you left to roam around the city at night with your friends #i remember this because my mom and my sister sent me to check up on you with the excuse of a painting of a parrot that i had made #i didn't understand anything back then #but yeah fuck you fuck you fuck you for being so fucking delusional thinking i love you or something #ive prayed to god that you die and i still do #it would directly mean 4 people being happy #anyway #dni #this was meant to be fun and short lol fuck

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dennisboobs · 2 years ago

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im gonna let you guys in on a little secret.

the more macden shippers shit on other pairings, the more multishippers like me will move towards their secondary and/or tertiary pairings. if i can't go into the charden tag without seeing a post intentionally tagged with multiple ships and trying to spark discourse between them by saying people who ship "rarepairs" are stupid and delusional, first of all, that's an instant fucking block, but like. I'm not going to feel like talking about macdennis when it feels like there's such an obnoxious pressure on you to fall into line and accept the widely preached and accepted fanon canon.

I love macden too. and I would post about and enjoy it a lot more if y'all didn't make it feel like we had to pick a side. just because you prefer the big popular ship, that doesn't make you smarter, or more correct than anyone who ships charden or charmac, it just means you have different preferences. i think macden has the biggest chance of being an actual couple on the show, and obviously mac and dennis are both gay and queer respectively, but if i want to ship charden, why can't i do that too? fandom is supposed to be fun, and it's supposed to be enjoyable, i don't want to have to fight to prove that this ship that i personally see working and enjoy the dynamics of is a "valid ship" when i am fully aware that they're not going to be canon that's kind of the point, and why i prefer it. and for the love of god... if you hc a pairing as platonic, that is perfectly fine. that's how i see charmac myself, but that is your view and your problem, not the shippers'. just block the tag so you don't have to see it if it bothers you that much.

and i don't like several of the other common rarepairs, but have any of you ever seen me talking shit on charmac or chardee shippers? no. stay in your lane and let people live. i'm sick of seeing people acting superior over a fucking it's always sunny in philadelphia ship.

#ada speaks #i am so tired #of feeling like im being judged constantly because of this lmao #its fine if you dont see charden personally but shut the fuck up about it #i purposefully mangle the word mac//den so it doesn't show up in tags if im being critical of their dynamic #AND I SHIP THEM SO LIKE.#i am just vibing bro! i just want to write about charden shared trauma!#idk how its seemingly so hard to understand why people would ship other members of the gang #theyre like. friends.#people crackship characters in other FANDOMS and this is somehow the hill you choose to die on re: 'delusional' ships?#i think its based as hell for people to ship people who've never interacted actually because it brings out cool fucking dynamics #that you wouldnt normally see in canon! have your fave blorbos interact who gives a shit #just so frustrating to feel like you need to justify Why you ship characters when its.... rlly not that farfetched #and yet people will actively vague and point and laugh at you for shipping characters whove been friends for the majority of their life #okay rant over im just. huheeuheu

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pochapal · 3 months ago

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smartest girl in the world (agreeing to formal transfer dates in early december despite the work not being done, having spent 3 weeks in bed sick with what might have been covid, and at least 20 thousand words minimum left to complete instead of begging for another deadline extension like a normal person)

#:)#my delusional brain goes 'that's only 1.5 umineko writeups you can do that in a couple weeks no sweat'#ignoring the part where twice i took extended hiatuses due to burning myself to a crisp doing that and also i have severe fatigue problems #but!!! i am in this hole now so here we are :3 #it's like 4 novel chapters and an 8 to 10 part essay that i already have outlined #i will probably be fine. maybe. if i stop being Tired

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sheliesshattered · 4 months ago

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my 7 yards of silk-rayon burgundy velvet has been handwashed, dried, and properly hung up so it won't get creased before I get around to cutting out my pattern pieces

#and now I am le tired #sewing #fabric #velvet #my sewing #Yule dress #velvet Yule dress #Very Fancy Santa Hat #I did end up with a couple of teeny tiny marks from when I hung the fabric to drip-dry on the line before I could put it in the dyer #there's one visible in this photo if you know where to look #I've seen some techniques for getting those kinds of marks out of silk velvet but I'm not going to worry about it right now #once I actually lay this out to cut out pieces for my dress and Jack's hat (and whatever else this fabric ends up being) I'll deal with it #on an as-needed basis and not like. scouring the whole 7 yards for every little imperfection #generally it came through the washing and drying process FANTASTICALLY and is actually way less creased and marked than it was before #and I'm not such a delusional perfectionist as to think that I can keep velvet looking photoshoot-pristine when worn in real life lol #but at least this way I won't have to baby the fabric and fear spilling something on it and being unable to wash it out #and actually the silk brocade I washed for my Rhaenyra cosplay last year held up so well that even when I DID spill an alcoholic beverage #the dress just completely shrugged it off. I used a wet napkin on it at the time and it's completely disappeared #don't listen to anyone who says you can't get silk wet. you just have to wash it and dry it BEFORE you sew it and then it's fine #I bought this fabric from SYFabrics.com if anyone happens upon this in the tags and wants to buy similar fabric #highly recommend SYFabrics they have never failed me

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago

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Oh boy I can't wait to get 5 hours of sleep before this gp 🌚

#fernando. im gonna need you to pull out a banger performance today #to make me waking up worth it #hes gonna win the race guys.......#forgot to draw him with a crown but tnats fine because hes gonna win #if not im gonna need to draw myself au comfort art 😭😭😭😭😭#but god i really hope its noy a boring race(for me) cause ill just be morose and pass out for 4 hours #I WANNA BE HAPPY AGAIN 🥺 LIKE ZANDVOORT #hey guys remember that 15 years ago he won from starting 15 place- dont worry about the circumstances behind that #but ugh i guess i try to think about how good his starts are #like p5 wasnt that promising 2 race ago but hey look where we go #*got #sorry but i am kinda just manifesting a ferr//ari fuck-up and me//rc of course #nothing else matters as long as nandos on top 👏👏👏👏👏👏#my mclaren boy isnt even up there either so :((((#MANIFESTING PLEASE #sorry i am tiresd and delusional and am resigning myself to so little sleep 😭😭😭😭#i gotta be positive in some form!#im tired enough that i really am considering praying to my fernando poster HAHAHAHAH 😭😭😭😭#about to kneel down i swear to god #catie.rambling.txt

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wikaliyag · 2 years ago

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absolutely devastated, it kinda looks like greg is kissing his hand

#succession spoilers #tomgreg #no but like tom freaks out and greg just comes up to tom #takes his hand and kisses it while saying 'it's fine tom... i am right here'#and then tom makes a funny face and starts ugly crying #and then i scream #this last ep made me so delusional i might lose my sanity soon

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