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goldnhourwrites · 1 year ago

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HEARTSTEEL COLLEGE AU HEADCANONS

This phrase seized me yesterday and I have not been able to stop thinking about it. Who knows, maybe I'll write a fic :)

inspired by my experiences as a college student in the US!

Yone

Pre-med student with a minor in psychology

Does peer tutoring and notetaking for his biology classes

always doing work. being a pre-med student is so much Work All The Time. this is why Yone is always seen with coffee and dark circles under his eyes.

He manages fairly well for someone with so much on his plate - he keeps an impressively functional sleep schedule (goes to bed at 10pm every night, wakes up at 8am every morning)

Is an RA (resident advisor) for his dorm floor and tries to be a good resource for freshmen

Bikes everywhere, enjoys taking walks/getting outdoors for a break from studying

Likes to make and listen to music in his free time (which is not a lot)

Sett

Majoring in athletic training to be a sports coach

Student athlete on the wrestling team - spends a lot of time training and traveling to meets off-campus, so he's not around much until the off-season

Hangs out with the boxing club when he's not doing wrestling

Part of an all-men a capella group and enjoys singing/rapping

Joined a fraternity in his sophomore year because most of the wrestling team was on it and enjoys chilling with his friends in it

Casually bakes things in his free time and brings them to the wrestling team/his classmates/office hours/his frat brothers

K'Sante

Anthropology major, education minor - interested in becoming a teacher/professor and enjoys working with kids

Also a student athlete, on the powerlifting team

Part of a hip-hop dance group on campus and likes to choreograph

Involved in campus queer life and helps organize/run events

Takes voice lessons - used to play trumpet, but didn't have time for both in his schedule

Also part of a fraternity, enjoys the sense of community it offers and plays an active part in organizing/managing their social events

Seems like he's constantly busy, but always makes time for his friends and enjoys the feeling of being on-the-go

Ezreal

History major with a minor in classics (studies Latin/ancient Greek literature and languages)

Acts with a theater club in his spare time - loves musical theater and plays, especially Shakespeare

Hung out in the history/special collections section of the library so much he got a student job there

Loves wandering around campus to find cool, obscure places that he's probably not supposed to be in

Joined a debate team in his freshman year (Kayn was on it) (they hated each other)

Big on going to parties but can't handle alcohol so instead of getting drunk he goes back to his dorm and falls asleep at like 11pm

Aphelios

Computer science major with a minor in graphic design

Does digital art and traditional art; enjoys taking studio art classes when his schedule isn't full

Occasionally does game design and similar coding projects

In the orchestra and plays the violin!

Enjoys physically making things every once in a while - jewelry, paintings, etc. and often doodles in a sketchbook absentmindedly

Sometimes publishes his art and poetry in a student magazine under a pseudonym

Kayn

Political science or government major with a minor in studio art

Spends a lot of time in the woodworking/metalworking studios, partially for art classes and partially because he just likes hands-on projects

Plays electric guitar and was part of a student band for a while (the one he got kicked out of)

Likes parkour and rock climbing, regularly shows off his ability to climb up things that he definitely should not be climbing on

Member of a fraternity (but it's the kind that throws a bunch of parties and probably has illegal drugs)

Goes out to party every weekend and doesn't wake up until 1pm the next day

Skateboards everywhere and knows a bunch of cool tricks

Alune

Film production major with a minor in biology

Part of a fashion design club and does photoshoots for/with them

Does a capella and loves performing! Does musical theater every once in a while

Active in political causes on campus

Works as a barista in one of the campus cafés

Likes to roller skate around

i have a couple combined/group headcanons that i'll post tomorrow if i have time :3 this AU has grabbed me and is currently shaking me by the shoulders and won't let go

#heartsteel #heartsteel headcanons #heartsteel yone #heartsteel sett #heartsteel k'sante #heartsteel ezreal #heartsteel aphelios #heartsteel kayn #heartsteel alune #as you can see this was inspired a bit by my “jobs heartsteel would have if they weren't doing music” post #did i just spend 1.5 consecutive hours making this post? maybe. who's to say

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yuriverses · 3 months ago

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i finally finished the list of music mentioned in the mighty boosh (+ a very brief radio show cameo) :) i'm gonna put it under the cut but i also turned it into a list on rateyourmusic, this version is in alphabetical but the rym list is done chronologically by their first mention.

10cc - dreadlock holiday

1x1, killeroo // bob fossil dances to it

abba

1x7, electro // “two of them, two of us. it'll be like the indie abba”

adam ant

1x4, tundra // “you dressed up the lion as adam ant” “it wasn't me. he did that himself.”

alice cooper

1x6, charlie // charlie goes to an alice cooper concert

allan holdsworth

1x5, jungle

bee gees

2x5, the legend of old gregg // old gregg's story

bonnie tyler - total eclipse of the heart

1x4, tundra // dixon bainbridge doesn't like to end on a down note

bootsy collins

2x5, the legend of old gregg // old gregg's story

bryan ferry

1x8, hitcher // raised vince when he was in the jungle

charles mingus

3x4, the strange tale of the crack fox

charles & eddie - would i lie to you

3x5, party // saboo's dj idea for howard's birthday party

charlie parker

1x7, electro

fleetwood mac

1x4, tundra // “i'm listening to fleetwood mac” “ah, rumours?” “tusk.”

3x5, party // tony harrison's dj idea for howard's birthday party is tusk

gary numan

radio, the hitcher

1x3, bollo // vince has cars as his ringtone

1x4, tundra // “do you really think that the animals are interested in gary numan?” “i don't talk to them about gary numan” “you're always going on about gary numan to ‘em” / vince's ringtone / gary numan helps them get to the arctic while cars plays / vince's ringtone Again, obscuring the last words of biggie shackleton / vince tries to talk to the polar bear about him

1x8, the hitcher // “this is the best of the 60s. and this is the best of the 70s. and this is gary numan.” / cars calms ivan down and howard nearly crashes while dancing to it

3x3, the power of the crimp // howard seems to have kidnapped him and shut him in a cupboard in case vince ever needs cheering up

george clinton

2x5, the legend of old gregg // old gregg's story

hall & oates - i can't go for that

3x3, the power of the crimp // bob fossil dances to it

iggy pop

3x2, journey to the centre of the punk // “iggy's working in tesco metro” makes vince cry

jimmy hendrix

1x7, electro // “i play just like hendrix”

joan jett

3x4, the strange tale of the crack fox // vince's joan jett jumpsuit

john coltrane

1x3, bollo // howard wants blue train to be played at his funeral, but vince can't find it and plays the thomas the tank engine theme instead

3x4, the strange tale of the crack fox

johnny thunders

2x1, call of the yeti // “think of johnny thunders, mick, and keith.”

kings of leon - aha shake heartbreak

2x6, the nightmare of milky joe // all vince has on the island is a kings of leon cd

kiss

series 1 // vince has a kiss patch on his jacket's right shoulder

klaxons

3x1, eels // vince's celebradar

level 42

3x6, the chokes // bollo plays one of their songs

mark knopfler

2x2, the priest and the beast // naboo has howard and vince drink “the tears of mozart mixed with the urine of mark knopfler” (lucozade)

miles davis

1x7, electro

mozart

2x2, the priest and the beast // naboo has howard and vince drink “the tears of mozart mixed with the urine of mark knopfler” (lucozade)

ramones

3x2, journey to the centre of the punk

rick wakeman

2x5, the legend of old gregg // old gregg's story

robert smith / the cure

2x3, nanageddon // goth juice is made from robert smith's tears / the moon sings lovecats

robots in disguise

1x7, electro / 2x3, nanageddon / 3x1, eels // technically an honorable mention, their band is never mentioned but they play multiple characters

rolling stones / mick jagger

1x1, killeroo

1x5, jungle // “can anyone really be a hero anymore in the modern world?” “mick jagger”

1x6, charlie // “swear on jagger” + satisfaction by the rolling stones plays

2x1, call of the yeti // “think of johnny thunders, mick, and keith.”

3x2, journey to the centre of the punk // “mick jagger's got a bald patch. he's put on a stone and he has to wear chucks” makes vince cry

santana

1x1, killeroo // “these are the original tracksuits carlos santana wore when he was training for woodstock” / “come on, carlos”

sid vicious

3x2, journey to the centre of the punk // “this is the original pin sid vicious wore through his nose”

simon & garfunkel - scarborough fair

1x7, electro

steve davis

1x7, electro

2x6, the nightmare of milky joe // “all the greats play pie-face”

the horrors

3x1, eels // vince's demonstration for the celebradar

the human league - don't you want me

1x7, electro // what vince started his day with

the stooges

3x2, journey to the centre of the punk

weather report

2x3, nanageddon // howard slips weather report in while djing. “blows their minds”

3x2, journey to the centre of the punk // “remember when [vince] listened to weather report and his neck went big?”

3x5, party

whitesnake

2x6, the nightmare of milky joe // “all the greats play pie-face”

yello - oh yeah

1x1, killeroo // howard does the “chickachicka” noise (twice)

#i <3 unnecessary personal projects #my stuff #the mighty boosh

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flowersandbirdsflyingfree · 5 months ago

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Hi, I've been very interested in your match up posts and was curious to see which postal dude I can matchup with.

I'm an 18 year old transgender man, I have long curly brown hair, brown eyes and fair skin. I mostly wear in a nu metal fashion, have many band tees, baggy pants and chains in my closet. I'm very polite at first, but later on will be very playful and somewhat of a weirdo. I really like drawing, graffiti, DIY and music (can range from nu metal, grindcore, techno and breakcore). Sometimes I get into episodes of deep depression and loneliness, so I search someone who is nice and understands me well.

Thank you.

Hello! Thank you for the super cool matchup info! I match you with…

Postal 2 Dude

He digs all of your style. You inspire him to want to start wearing chains sometime. You’re one hell of a good lookin’ guy in his book!

Thank God you love nu-metal too! Half of his music taste tends to be more obscure bands, but he also appreciates the classics like System of a Down. His favorite bands are (but not limited to): Ph8, Dope, Sevendust, Adema, Flaw, A Fall to Break, and Godsmack. Please don’t give him shit for Nickelback being his all-time favorite. It hurts his feelings.

Hey, his best match has to get weird with it too! The Dude is a partner you can be playful with. Aside from snarky comments, he’ll purposely throw himself into antics just to make you laugh. He is forever young at heart.

Graffiti’s fun! Can he join? He’s nowhere as good as your art. But he will write stupid shit on the side of buildings. Like go to the side of bank and write something edgy because of a bad experience he had with the teller. And yes he will draw dicks. He’s not a gentleman.

He’ll ruffle your hair at whatever you’re working on with a brief “Nice work!” He tries to soften his voice as best he can but it’s hard because his monotone is something he’s always been insecure about.

Dude sort of just adapted to his loneliness. But you really helped bring the light into his life. Since he finally melted his ice cold exterior for you, he does his best to be understanding. Even in a semi-rough way of words, his actions say otherwise. He’ll sit next to you. Listen, hug you, try to distract you. In his words, ��I’m your problem now. And it sure as hell gonna take a lot to get rid of me.”

#postal #postal dude x reader #postal dude #postal matchups #postal matchup #postal 2 #postal 2 dude

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nero1forte · 1 year ago

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persona 3 music headcanons

(yay)

i’m taking in the time period the game takes place. (2009-2010ish) also. idk what type of music was popular in japan, so i’m just going off of western music :^)

Makoto

Ok. so i might be projecting a bit on this one, but he listens to early 2000’s emo/grunge/rock music.

A few bands i’m specifically thinking: mcr, deftones (i know im sorry but cmon), green day, maybeee the cure idk

He’ll really listen to anything though. if he doesn’t like something that’s put on he won’t say anything to the person. just. internalize how much he hates it

Makoto also listens to instrumentals. he likes to turn his brain off and do stuff around the dorm or just sit in his room. songs with lyrics sometimes are too overwhelming in those specific instances

Junpei

Junpei definitely listens to bands like Linkin Park and The Offspring. Maybeeee some rap here and there too

“SHAWTYS LIKE A MELODY IN MY HEAD” (thinks of Chidori when he listens to that song)

He def has “concerts” in his room where he blasts his music and sings obnoxiously loud

I feel like he’d also secretly like some pop music, but he’d never admit it

Yukari

She listens to whatever’s popular at the moment but she definitely has some favorite bands/artists

Mainly listens to female artists (P!NK? maybe avril lavigne)

Lovesss pop music and love songs (Junpei teases her for liking love songs and it makes her SO MAD)

Aigis

Aigis doesn’t really care what music is playing. But she has a tendency to… over explain things about the music.

Will give unnecessary info about the artist that is currently playing

She’ll also try to find songs she thinks the others will like based on the stuff they play around her

Shes basically like the DJ thing on spotify

Fuuka

I can see Fuuka liking music with lots of different instruments. But also liking softer songs (idk if she’d listen to this band but my first thought was songs like Never Shout Never makes)

Prefers live recordings and acoustic versions of songs

She usually lets the others pick out music when they’re listening together and generally likes anything (unless it’s super heavy)

Her and Yukari like a lot of the same music. Junpei also tries to get her to listen to more rock

Akihiko

Aki doesn’t really listen to music… He either does things in silence or turns the radio on a random station

He goes to Power Records and buys CDs based on the cover art

If someone plays a song and he likes how it sounds, he’ll awkwardly go up to them and ask them what the song is called

Mitsuru

Mitsuru is a bit hard to place for me. But I feel like she would mainly listen to classical music (on the rare occasions she does listen to music)

She doesn’t have CDs, a radio or an MP3 player. But she definitely has a record player and collects records

Like Fuuka, she’ll usually let the underclassmen pick out music to play and some of the lyrics make her question the things they’re into…

Shinji

Shinji listens to very very very underground stuff. (can’t decide if he would listen to 90s rock or not.)

He tried to show his music to Aki ONE TIME. Aki immediately hated it

No specific bands or songs rlly come to mind

I imagine the stuff he likes is … very hard to listen to :)

He also hates pop music with a passion

Kotone

She’s like a mix of Yukari and Makoto

The type of person to listen to anything… ANYTHING. and most likely enjoy it

Kotone is also one of the only people who actually likes Shinjis obscure ass music

Ken

Ken. Idk.

He seems like the type to not really care about music honestly

Just. Listens to whatever the others put on without much objection

#.pdf #persona #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #yukari takeba #junpei iori #akihiko sanada #kotone shiomi #mitsuru kirijo #shinjiro aragaki #shinji aragaki #aigis #ken amada #fuuka yamagishi

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padfoot0216 · 2 years ago

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911 Lone Star Headcannons

- Is Autistic (I have already established this)

- Has Borderline Personality Disorder

- Idk why but I think he would like country music

- Really likes sea shanty’s

- Would 100% make that’s homophobic jokes (ex. Is told to clean the bathrooms, would reply that’s homophobic)

- Was a band kid, played a variety of instruments, started on obscure instruments one of the first being the accordion

- Carlos tries to teach him guitar, he gets it but can’t make his fingers move the right way

- Hates singing in public but is good at it

- Seeing as everyone in the 126 are part of a family they would be siblings. He would be the youngest middle child

- Would have done theater, didn’t act but did lights instead

- Yet somehow still has every script memorized

- Sucks at acting

- Literally just runs everywhere, whether he could get a ride or not.

- Favorite subject in school was biology

- Least favorite was math (he can’t do math)

- When he finds out Carlos likes photography he spends hours researching stuff about photography. He learns about how cameras work and we’re made and stuff. He tells carlos about it. Carlos does not know any of this. He just likes taking pictures doesn’t know the history. He appreciates it though.

- If he has a hogwarts house it would be ravenclaw

- can draw but thinks he can’t

- Would never swear, not because he has anything against it he just wants to see how many obscure substitutions he can make before people get annoyed

- Can’t drive. He used Mario kart to practice for his driving test that’s all you need to know.

- Would have watched don’t hug me I’m scared

Judd

- Hates country music

- Oldest son

- He would love squishmallows (you’ve seen him with pillows)

- Favorite subject in school was English

- Least favorite was history

- if he had a hogwarts house would be hufflepuff

- Sexuality would be unlabeled. Like he knows he likes men and woman but doesn’t exactly know what he is.

- One of the only ones in the 126 who can drive

Owen

- Good person, but bad parent (to his son)

- Dad of the 126

- Good parent to everyone but his son

- Is also autistic

- favorite subject in school was health

- least favorite subject was history

- hogwarts house would be gryffindor

- Can somehow only drive obscure vehicles but not like a normal car.

- Says he’s ‘not gay’ but has definitely dated at least one man and liked it.

Carlos

- can play guitar

- TK tries to teach him instruments, is confused but likes to listen

- Not good but not bad at singing enjoys singing in front of people

- is a photographer

- Has anxiety

- Is a cat person

- Can drive and enjoys driving

- favorite subject in school was photography

- least favorite subject in school P.E.

- would listen to TK rant about whatever for hours and be genuinely interested

- hogwarts house be slytherin

- can’t draw but thinks he can

- Begs TK to just say the word fuck

- Can drive but he failed his test 4 times

- The drunker he gets the more unhinged he is.

Paul

- Loves puzzles

- Oldest middle child

- Favorite subject in school was math

- least favorite was English

- hogwarts house would be ravenclaw

- Like will wood

- Can drive but is a perfectionist. Like if they need to be somewhere at noon they need to leave at 7 am because Paul will check every little detail before leaving.

Marjan

- Aroace

- Oldest daughter

- Favorite subject in school was P.E.

- Least favorite was health

- hogwarts house gryffindor

- Worst driver in the 126 don’t let her in a car pleasr

Mateo

- Has ADHD

- Yougest child

- can’t cook

- Favorite subject in school was science

- Least favorite was history

- hogwarts house would be hufflepuff

- Can drive but that’s all he can do. Like he can’t ride a bike and can barley walk.

- Poly/Pan

Nancy

- Not a sibling but like a cousin

- Was also a theater kid, can actually act

- favorite subject in school was art

- Least favorite was P.E.

- hogwarts house would be ravenclaw

- Can only drive small cars

Tommy

- Mother of the group

- Favorite subject in school was science

- least favorite was health

- hogwarts house would be slytherin

- Can drive

Grace

- Favorite subject in school would be music

- least favorite subject would be English

- hogwarts house would be slytherin

- Is a really good driver

- Similar to Judd her sexuality is unlabeled

- Would platonically flirt with Tommy

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extraordinaryhistories · 11 months ago

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#2 – 'A Winner Needs a Wand' (A Sun Came, 1998)

There is an alternate universe somewhere out there where Sufjan Stevens becomes an indie rock musician of the Pavement or Modest Mouse variety – all rough and ready (but not truly heavy) guitars, shambolic drums, tense chord progressions and grim lyrics gesturing at deeper meaning that no quantity of relistens will ever unlock. In this universe, he is not very popular. But we get a glimpse of it throughout A Sun Came, an album that tries to be a million different things at once and seems to fail (sometimes charmingly, sometimes not) at many of them.

‘A Winner Needs a Wand’, somewhat uncommonly, is actually quite successful at that sound. It is in many ways the harder-edged twin of ‘We Are What You Say’. While that song is still entrancing in an obscure, mystical sort of way, there is very little trance in ‘A Winner Needs a Wand’. The drums are bashed, the guitar is loud, and the song’s heart is quite literally ripped out, musically-speaking – you’ll only find power chords in its riff, a series of unsettling back-and-forth lurches on an acoustic guitar that give the song an almost grunge-like character. Of course, Sufjan being Sufjan, the fiddles, flutes and mournful piano lines prevent that comparison somewhat (the more antiquated instruments seem to be here for no other reason than Sufjan... knows how to play them.) But throw that riff on an electric guitar and turn the distortion up to full. It is remarkably authentic, and remarkably listenable. ‘A Winner Needs a Wand’, even despite its 5/4 trickery, is a bona fide rock-out.

‘A Winner Needs a Wand’ was written in the days before Sufjan emerged nearly overnight as a pop master, and so there isn’t much in the way of a chorus here. The song shifts through multiple sections, multiple melodic ideas, and shockingly – for this stage of Sufjan’s development – almost all of them work. The motif that dominates the first handful of verses snakes around the 5/4 groove with a surprising effortlessness, but I am particularly enamoured with the melody attached to the ‘never want to blame you’ sections, sung by Sufjan and Marzuki vocalist Shannon Stephens. It sort of shoots up into the air, dives down a little, and then shoots up immediately again, perfect for the climactic moments in which it appears. (The ‘tries to make you’ section at the end feels like an attempt to recapture that particular lightning in a bottle, and it sort of succeeds, but barely.)

There are a lot of words in this song, every one of them oblique. We can try to break them down, but we would only get so far. Unlike ‘We Are What You Say’, ‘A Winner Needs a Wand’ is singular, not plural – ‘I’ and ‘me’ abound, in a more conventional Sufjan style of lyrical confessionalism. But there is definitely another person in this narrative. There are references to conflict and to unmet expectation; Sufjan cannot deliver on the responsibilities vested on him by the other (‘There’s still nothing you can do to exchange my dues to you’). It is very possible to read ‘A Winner Needs a Wand’ as a eulogy to a failed relationship, if one is so inclined. There are the hints of sex (the titular ‘wand’ being a particularly clear phallic symbol, as well as the invocation of an epicene) and of emotional torture. But then you hear him sing ‘like the fennel seed, the funny gene you found’ and ‘that fits me like a quarter door, that hits me like a sound’ and you begin to wonder whether the granular interpretation is worth it. There are themes here, but a clear narrative? Much less so.

And in any case, it is perfectly possible to enjoy ‘A Winner Needs a Wand’ (or any Sufjan song, really) without a single thought given to that narrative, because this is one of the most musically compelling songs on A Sun Came, a full-band workout quite unlike anything else you will find in Sufjan’s career. It is not triumphant or contented – it brims with anguished tension – but it remains consonant, and that’s the space where Sufjan works best. An early success; still a little belaboured, but endearingly so. The day Sufjan mashes this up with ‘All Good Naysayers’ in a live performance is the day I die happy.

#sufjan stevens #sufjan #music #folk music #the furious fight #in life there is always a winner and a loser

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celestialgloaming · 1 year ago

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6, 8, 23, 34 !

6. Describe your dream home. Honestly pretty close to my current one. It's Relatively compact, but has a spacious balcony you can properly go outside on. I think i'd prefer to live with less other people but I can go either way. I'd love a bit of a bigger living room, one that's not cramped when trying to play ttprgs . In general I think I like things to be just big enough, but not too big. I think my dream would be a balcony facing the sunset, somewhere I can sip tea, eat biscuits, and watch the sunset.

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

High key I find binge watching pretty stressful. The only long series of full length tv I can think I've properly binged is Breaking Bad. Which is amazing but that's not a hot take. "Binging" for me is mostly watching a 12 episode anime in like 2 days, which isn't actually a big binge. But in that case it's Yuru Camp my beloved, I've at least watched it, like, multiple times!

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

Lately I've unfortunately caught "listens to VGM" disease and been been mostly listening to the Guilty Gear OST which I mean out of all OSTs is one of the less embarrassing but still I need to get back into listening to a variety of bands.... remembering song and band names is hard for me tho. But! I'll give 5 of my faves here, mostly focusing to ones I don't think most people will know but there's a mixture:

Hemlocke Springs, apparently she got famous through tiktok? Anyway her music is such a vibe I love it

Smiling Broadly/Twinkle Park, I feel like the you and probably most of the kinds of people that follow me know Hazel the anime youtuber, well she makes music and I've been really into it lately.

Astrophysics, he's a synth guy on youtube. Love both his own stuff and his Miku covers, though I think I found him through his JoJo's synth covers. Still need to listen to his new album. A lot of his own stuff is a bit more breakcore-ey so it can be hit or miss for me but when it hits it hits.

Covet, a math rock band. Math rock is always super chill to me, I need to start listening to it more again.

MARINA, far from obscure but I ran out of more obscure ideas. Her older stuff is just, The Vibe, I'm obsessed.... I should do it at Karaoke next time I go to it!

34. What’s your coffee order?

I haven't ever actually tried coffee.... but I like bitter drinks so I should try it!!!

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robbiefischer · 1 year ago

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im very sorry in advance this is so many so plz no pressure but maybe you could do ❣️🎢🧸🐾 🥰🎲 for julian and niko?

Oh my gosh, please do not ever apologize for sending me asks about my kids (or anything, really)! I was so happy to get this and loved working on these questions, tysm! I'm sorry I took so long to finish it up.

❣️ - What are their love languages?

Julian's love languages are physical touch and quality time, as well as words of affirmation. All things he did not get much of growing up. He lives for hugs, and forehead kisses, having his hair played with, and the way Niko always wants to hold his hand and keep him close while they're in public. Do that, tell him he's good and loved, listen to him play guitar and talk about his musical influences and favorite artists and he will melt.

Niko's love languages are receiving gifts and quality time. And while it's probably not one of his main love languages, he's also really fond of physical touch. Nothing makes him feel more loved than realizing that Julian's hanging on his every word as he talks about some obscure artistic movement or the intricacies of restoring an old canvas (well, nothing except for the perfect, unexpected gift).

🎢 - Do they like amusement parks? What’s their favorite ride?

Sorry, this is probably boring but neither of them feel like amusement park people to me. I'm sure once they have their daughter that they'll enjoying watching HER enjoy amusement parks, but they wouldn't like spending time at one otherwise.

🧸 - Do they have any stuffed animals? If so, are they decorative or do they sleep with them?

Ooookay yes I love this question so much, thank you for giving me the opportunity to talk about possibly the softest idea I have ever come up with for any OC.

Niko has a very cute stuffed bunny that Julian gave him as a present before he knew that Niko is allergic to rabbits. They joke that it's the only bunny he'll ever like because it's the only one that doesn't make him want to die. It's more decorative, but not entirely. He doesn't sleep with it every single night but he does want it when he's really stressed out or not feeling well, or if Julian's been gone for a while on tour and he's lonely without his husband.

Julian has a stuffed kitty. It is the same stuffed kitty he had as a baby/young child, except it's not exactly the same kitty because his awful mother threw his out as a punishment when he was around 5 or 6 which devastated him at the time. It came up once during a conversation with Niko who was just incensed at the idea of that happening (especially since Julian tried to shrug it off and say he probably was misbehaving or something and deserved it), and he and Julian's aunt Clare (who had pictures of Julian with the OG kitty) went on a hunt for another of the same kitty on eBay and estate sales. It took about a year but they finally found one in perfection condition and surprised him with it. He definitely cried. It's very much not decorative - he sleeps with it every single night, to the point that he'll pack it in his suitcase if they go on a trip or he goes on tour with the band. If he doesn't have his kitty, he sleeps so much worse than he would with it.

🐾 - Do they have any pets?

They have four cats - Frodo, Sam, Merry and Pippin. Yes, I know. Sorry, I'm a slut for Tolkien and therefore, so are my favorite boys. They adopted their kitties two at a time, as bonded pairs - Frodo and Sam came first, then Merry and Pippin about a year later.

🥰 - What pet names do their partner(s) use for them? How flustered do they get by them?

Julian mostly calls Niko 'love', 'sweet pea' and Izzy (which comes from his middle name, Isidore - Julian is the only one allowed to call him that). Sometimes he'll go with angel as well, although that one's less common. Niko doesn't really get flustered by any of them, but he's *so* soft whenever Julian uses a pet name for him. He has a lot of feelings about how much he loves his husband and how lucky he is.

Niko has SO many pet names for Julian it's almost ridiculous. Sweetness and kitten are the most common (and Julian's favorites), but he also calls hm sweetheart, darling, my love, honey. If he feels like speaking French, he'll go with mon amour or mon cherí. Julian really doesn't get flustered by Niko calling him pet names either, he loves it so much, absolutely eats it up. He's never had that in a relationship before and he loves it so much. If he were a cat, he'd purr so loud every time Niko uses a pet name for him.

🎲 - Pick a random question to answer from this list.

Okay, so here's the deal. I'm combining two because answering one without the other just doesn't make sense to me.

🍳 - How well can they cook? / 🍪 - How well can they bake?

Julian is a fantastic baker, and a really good cook but baking is his one-true-love. He bakes multiple different types of bread including sourdough, cinnamon rolls (because Niko loves them), he's done his own puff pastry and croissants... if the base is any kind of flour, he can figure it out.

Niko is a really great cook, but he's not much of a baker. He could handle a batch of muffins, or a tray of a basic cookie and does when they have their daughter, Thea. But he's just not really into baking and doesn't have the patience for it, so it's not a skill he's worked on improving. Julian's just fine with that - he likes being the baker in their house.

#oc ask meme #my ocs #anon ask #asked and answered #oc: julian #oc: niko #honestly i am so delighted that people love julian and niko #every time i get an ask for them i melt #it's my favorite thing #you are the best anon

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dablesretrospective · 5 months ago

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2012 - Dables - Can’t Not

Not too much to say about this short, very experimental EP. I recorded it in 2 days, then uploaded it online on Day 3 with the intentions to specifically share it with a Facebook group called “Un_Scene: Music of a Different Flavor” that I posted in a lot which was moderated by my buddy Caleb Riley (later vocalist of Trolls, also of CCOC & Jericho Bros). It was a group based in South Carolina but had members from all over who shared the weirdest and most experimental music they could find with each other. Stuff ranging from harsh noise like Merzbow or Hanatarash, obscure IDM/EDM stuff like Squarepusher or various ambient projects, or stuff like Sun City Girls and The Residents. I also remember discovering Bubblegum Octopus from that Facebook group. A lot of members uploaded their own experimental or oddball music too. So I wanted to make something that would fit that bill that the members of that group would enjoy or find interesting and it was a total success! A lot of people in the Un_Scene group absolutely loved it, including a guy named Drew Smith who ran a moderately popular blog called “Music You May Not Have Heard” and tiny indie record label Sarcastic Magician Records who enjoyed my Can’t Not EP so much, he commissioned me to make another EP for his label that would be a split with another experimental artist from Chicago named Otto Rollo. I will write about the outcome of that in a later blog which ended up being called “Refuge” and came out in 2013, a year after this release.

Additionally, I tend to refer to this album as my “Lortab album”, because I was basically bombed on Lortabs the entire 3 days I was working on it lol…

As for the songs themselves, not much to say… ”Storm’s a Brewin’” was simply an experiment with tremolo picking with a flanger pedal on with a few samples of a thunderstorm thrown in.

“Sang Branch Settlers” was a riff I had been playing for a few years at that point as a warm up song that I played when I practiced my guitar. I finally decided to record it and set some drum machines to it. The title comes from a book written about my great grandpa Dave Couch and his family. He and my great great uncle Jim Couch were bluegrass/folk musicians who recorded some music in the 1950’s and who were also moonshiners, miners, and grew ginseng (aka “sang branch”). Later on in 2012, I recorded an entire tribute album to my ancestors The Couch Family, that I will of course go into detail about in a later blog.

“Def” was an experiment in recording everything with the input turned all the way up, as hot as it would go, to overdrive the sound and put it extremely ‘in the red’, meaning all the levels were maxed out completely. Then I simply put compression on it so it would be somewhat listenable. Titled as such because listening to this loud, obnoxious track might make you go deaf…

“Detective Cop Doctor” was an inside joke with my friends Sid and Brittany, a running gag where we would pretend to narrate a shitty fake movie trailer…as in “COMING THIS FALL TO THEATERS NEAR YOU…He’s a DETECTIVE…He’s a COP…but he’s also…A DOCTOR. He heals crime while arresting it!” kinda shit…Technically Brittany came up with that joke so I titled this track after it to make her and Sid laugh. The joke itself did end up getting recorded as a skit called “Dt Cop Doc” on the DAN album “Honey Berry Surprise” so check that out if you want to hear it. The song itself is an experiment in playing the bass while messing with the tuning pegs. Somehow it ended up kinda making sense and sounding slightly like lazy stoner metal…

“Can’t Not” is probably the most normal or straightforward track on here, and I was babysitting my 8 year old nephew Carlos later that night and I recorded him yelling into a microphone with heavy delay and reverb on it and slapped a looped sample of it at the end of this track. No reason, just experimenting & shit…nowadays he is 20 and plays bass in a country music band. I tried to show him some metal bands and stuff like Ween & Primus but he gravitated towards country with a little classic rock being as wild as he gets with the music he likes. Oh well…nothing else to say about the last two tracks really. “Stay at Home Dad” is a loop pedal experiment and “Scat” is also a loop pedal experiment with vocals only.

Years later when I uploaded Can’t Not to all the steaming services, I added some extra tracks from all 3 of my “Stuff” compilation albums to fill it out because I never uploaded any of the 3 “Stuff” albums due to having too many cover songs, which makes it too expensive to do so. So that’s why if you check out “Can’t Not” on Spotify or Apple Music, there are several extra songs, that I will write about in a later blog when I get to the album they originally came from.

The title itself doesn’t mean anything, I just liked that it was an odd double negative. I think it came to me from thinking about the They Might Be Giants song “Don’t Let’s Start”. I just liked the mush-mouthed nonsense of it.

The album art was straight up 100% stolen from online. I tried to figure out who the original artist is and have been unsuccessful tracking them down. Oh well, I have made literally 0 dollars from “Can’t Not” so they aren’t missing out on anything. Sorry I stole your artwork, buddy! But I really do love this weird ass image you made of little kids in Disney character masks in front of a burning car. Fuckin’ badass lol…don’t sue me please!

All in all, for the minimum amount of work I put into this album, I believe I accomplished all of my goals with it and I like it, except for “Scat” which makes me cringe and should probably have been left off the album, but oh well, too late for that.

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Released on January 12, 2012

All music written, recorded, and performed by David Walker.

My nephew Carlos Garcia was sampled on Track 5 “Can’t Not”.

Recorded in Jan 2012 in Fountain Inn, SC in 2 days.

Slackerpop Records 2012

1.Storm’s a Brewin’ 2.Sang Branch Settlers 3.Def 4.Detective Cop Doctor 5.Can’t Not 6.Stay at Home Dad 7.Scat

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doctorofmagic · 4 years ago

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My thoughts on What If... Doctor Strange Lost His Heart Instead of His Hands?

The very title of the episode sends a shiver down my spine. And this is where we’re going to start.

~ long post under the cut ~

A year ago, I wrote this post as an attemp to dive into one of the most important traits in Doctor Strange’s personality: love. Stephen is a being made of love, made to love, no matter which interpretation you have when you watch Infinity War. If you don’t read comic books, you’ll understand the moment you meet Donna. You’ll begin to understand how her death reshaped his entire subjectivity out of fear of failing, being powerless and unable to control everything around him (especially death), thus the arrogant and yet a disaster of a man we all know.

Where do I even start? Stephen loved her sister deeply and felt responsible for her death. And then, slowly, he also lost his parents and his brother. He fell in love with Clea but he also pushed her away. He loved Zelma platonically and lied to her, which was enough for them to break their bond. He felt attracted to Kanna but screwed things up, even though they remain friends. He was forced to kill the Ancient One, the only father figure he had ever since his father died. And lastly, the only person who would never leave his side... also left. Yes, even Wong. Stephen has SO much love to give but he’s also afraid because he’s cursed. He truly believes his love in poison. And would you look at that? What If really delivered a story where this is actually true.

What If Doctor Strange Lost His Heart Instead of His Hands?

The level of understanding when it comes to the character is... inconceivable. What could possibly reshape Stephen into following a dark path but love? The very premise of the whole episode. This is so much more than a love letter. This is literally too much, in all senses.

Fine, let’s begin.

What if the best of intentions has very strange consequences?

No. You used the word “strange” for the pun but this is not the word. Nah-ah. I’d go with ATROCIOUS, for starters. Things are gonna escalate so quickly, my friends.

Seriously, tho? Christine is SO SO SO SO beautiful, they’re so cute together. I have this feeling that MCU!Stephen was quite toxic because of his arrogance and this is why they didn’t work out. But WhatIf!Stephen???????? He’s always praising her, teasing her in a healthy way, respecting her and listening to her. HE TRULY LOVES HER, I’M GONNA CRY ALL OVER AGAIN, PLEASE, NOT THE CRÈME BRÛLÉE, PLEASE

I’m going to leave this shot here because we need to go back to it later. Hold that thought.

And bonus points to “Yeah, well, I would call that quite remarkable.” / “Well, I would say the same about you.”

GODS. THE PAIN. STOP THE PAIN.

So in this reality, Stephen didn’t caused the car accident because he was checking his phone while driving. Also it was not the reckless attempt to pass the truck. Well, maybe it was the consequence of this act? The fact is, the car behind them loses control, which makes them crash. Does it matter? We’ll learn later that no, it doesn’t.

And yep... Christine dies. Have you noticed the shattered heart? Ah, the pain only gets better and better.

Again, Stephen blames himself. More than anything, this is so important because Stephen is all about guilt. We still need to meet Donna so we can add yet another layer of guilt. But the feeling exists. This is what corrupts Stephen’s heart and soul in all his iterations. This is what makes him the character I love so much. I love this SO. MUCH. In addition, his stubbornness to accept his condition. Man won’t take a no. This, this is Doctor Strange in character. Stop complaining about NWH Stephen, it’s pathetic.

Okay, “grief-stricken”, Stephen found the Mystic Arts and became a sorcerer. That’s when he learned about the Time Stone, the Eye of Agamotto and Dormammu. Nothing changes, he saves the universe. But time does not heal his deepest wound.

I love Wong so much. Every time Wong does something, the world is healed. Really. We’re going back to him as well but for now I’ll just leave this shot.

BUT STEPHEN, DOING SOMETHING RECKLESS? HE’D NEVAH

Aaaaaaaannnnnnd then he did.

He goes back in time. It’s been two years since he lost Christine. I think he reacted pretty nicely, despite the circumstances. Now let’s go back to that shot I said I was saving for later.

Stephen is so light-hearted here. Also, during the first time he lost Christine, he had no idea what “The Price is Right” was. He knows now, which means he probably tried to learn more about the show because of her, because of grief. HAHAHA MORE PAIN

AND THEN HE

AND THEN SHE DIES AGAIN

AND THEN HE KEEPS GOING BACK IN TIME

AND SHE KEEPS DYING

AND THE MUSIC

AND HIS VOICE

AND HE TRIES TO CHANGE FATE BUT IT CAN’T BE AVERTED

HE EVEN TRIES TO STAY AWAY FROM HER LIFE BUT SHE DIES ALL THE SAME, WHY

AND EVERY TIME THEY CRASH, HE FEELS THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL PAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN, WHY

I’M-- *ugly sobbing noises*

Apparently, not.

And this scene when he simply... closes his eyes before she dies again...?

This is where this episode had me in endless tears. It got me the four times I watched it. I’m dead serious.

Okay, so, next the Ancient One appears to Stephen, explaining that Christine’s death is an Absolute Point in time. It cannot be changed. Stephen needs the accident to become the Sorcerer Supreme and defeat Dormammu.

And this is where Stephen starts his journey into darkness. “Nothing is impossible, you taught me that. I only require more power.” Disobeying the Ancient One, Stephen then travels in time, seeking the Library of Cagliostro. Now, if you’re not aware of that, Cagliostro was a sorcerer who studied time in comics, and later became Sise-Neg (there’s a recent post on this because of the new Defenders run). It’s funny to think that Sise-Neg also destroyed the world when he became a god, however he grew past his pettiness and remade reality. Stephen did not possess such power, as we’re about to see.

PS: “Stop torturing yourself, Stephen.” Naur but he should use this line like a mantra. Especially comics!Stephen.

Not gonna lie, tho. This place reminds me of the Temple of the Vishanti from T&T (of course I was going to insert T&T somewhere, it’s me).

And of course they’d go for a pun with his name haha. I don’t know how to feel about this, tho. I feel like the episode is too heavy and dark for comedy. But it is what it is.

Okay but why some books are in cages??????????? And wow, it seems Cagliostro also gathered knowledge about several fields of magic.

And then Stephen learns that, in order to break an Absolute Point, he needs to absorb more power. This is when I went “oh-oh, here we go”.

And for real, is this Shuma-Gorath? Why are they keeping his name a secret? Is this the same creature from the first episode with Captain Carter, right? RIGHT? It has to be Shuma-Gorath.

Of course he tries to be polite and ends up all hurt haha. O’Bengh warns him about love but he will not listen. “Love can break more than your heart. It can shatter your mind.”/ “Is she worth the pain?”. Please, this is Stephen. He eats pain for breakfast.

Also, also, let’s take a break. We’re finally going to get monsterf0cker tentacle-lover Stephen Strange. It will cost us everything but here we goooooooooooo (yes, I went frame by frame for your more obscure fanservice needs)

Gods, I love this sequence so much it hurts. Okay, here we go.

Shmebulock???????????

AND HE STOLE THE CAPE??????????? AND DREW THE LINE ON BUGS??????

The grasp this man is holding on me right now...

Some of you will understand. I’m with you.

And here are the grostesque ones. These are hard to take SS but I had to.

Animation, sound effects, OST? CHEF’S KISS TO ALL

And lastly... the tentacles. Yeah, if you’re new... this is a thing.

Fanservice. Fanservice everywhere. (low-key the reason I also waited to write this review, I wanted to enjoy this part so badly but I was too sad for that lmao)

Okay so. O’Bengh is suddenly OLD and DYING, until we realize that Stephen spent CENTURIES absorbing mystic beings. CENTURIES. WTF STEPHEN. He had nothing in mind but the goal to save Christine. And people wonder why he went insane???? I’m sorry, O’Bengh, but I can’t take you serious when you still call Stephen Sorcerer Armani. Oh, and also because you watched him absorb beings for centuries in silence lmao. But I guess I have to because you said that Stephen is split in two since the Ancient One cast a spell on him, splitting the timelines and making them exist in the same reality before he could travel back in time. I know, it’s complex. Anything for the plot.

And now good!Stephen has an evil!twin who wants to absorb him back in order to become whole and break the Absolute Point. Cool.

I said I wanted to talk more about Wong because I think people are not talking about him enough. Wong is so important in this episode. He’s the one who’s trying to heal Stephen after Christine. He’s Stephen’s anchor.

Also, THEY FINALLY USED A SPELL WITH THE NAME OF THE VISHANTI. HOORAAAAY

So, for the sake of our understanding, I’m addressing the characters as evil and good!Stephen. Let’s go. Evil!Stephen summons good!Stephen and gods, he still holds such a strong grasp on me... unbelievable. THE DEEPER VOICE BENEDICT USES???? PLEASE, DIDN’T WE HAVE ENOUGH?

Imagine his strength to hold so many beings inside him, fighting to control him. BRO, THIS IS TOO TOO MUCH

Fine, I’ll not post SS about the fight because I’d be here all night long but I WILL say this: NOT CLOAKIE!!!!! NAAAAAAAAAAUR

Also if you ask me if I recognize any of the spells? Maaaaybe the Flames of Faltine, the not-so-crimson Bands of Cyttorak and a little trick Magik does with her portals. That’s how far I go.

I’ll not comment on the “seducing yourself to stay in the trap”. I will not. I’ll just say that the first person Stephen thought of when “Christine” was talking about the crème brûlée was Wong. That’s it.

And finally evil!Stephen absorbs good!Stephen and releases... UNLIMITED POWER (I love when the stone goes red as if it was bleeding aaaaaaa)

I can fix him...

This scene here? Poetic cinema. (I love his wings so much)

And when Stephen says her name and the other monsters’ voices echo “Christine”, AAAAAACKKKK

AND OF COURSE CHRISTINE WOULD FREAK OUT, BRO. LOOK AT WHAT YOU’VE BECOME BECAUSE OF YOUR TWISTED LOVE. I’M NOT DOING FINE.

Oh, but it’s too late anyways because Stephen broke reality haha. This scene is interesting because Stephen is the only one who sensed and/or talked to the Watcher until now. I read an interview that the Watcher kinda showed up but it’s also about Stephen’s keen senses. Bit of both, let’s say. Still, man, 616-Watcher is not that cold. 616-Watcher would watch this and say “how about I intervene anyway?”. WhatIf!Watcher is brutal.

The way Christine looks at Stephen one last time also KILLS ME, DESTROYS ME, BREAK ME INTO A MILLION PIECES.

And this is where my soul left my body.

This is how they end the episode. This is how you leave me speechless and with teary eyes. This is how you give me a whole existential crisis.

This... this was brutal to watch. Really.

What can I say after this? I’m used to reading painful things when it comes to Stephen. Aaron’s and Cates’ runs are heartbreaking on so many levels. Hickman’s New Avengers is not easier. Coincidentally, What If? Magik Became Sorcerer Supreme and The End. And now Death of Doctor Strange. And yet, after everything I’ve been through, I’d never expect to watch something so brilliant, so tragic, so heartbreaking and unexpected in the MCU. Never. This is top tier content and this is my favorite character with SO MANY LAYERS and SO MUCH UNDERSTANDING. I can’t put into words how meaningful this whole episode is to me, or how deep it touched my heart and soul.

I’ve been struggling to find the proper words since then, I still can’t. All I can add is, I cried for the 4th time now. This is too, too much, even for Stephen stans. Even for the ones who are used to pain, regardless of which media you’re into: comic books, live actions or animated movies. This is literally more than I can take and yet I’m so, so grateful. The voice acting, gods, how did Benedict manage to create a better Stephen than the one he’s literally playing in real life???????????? HOW

This episode really took the max potential Stephen had to offer as a character, added tons and tons of layers based on his grief, depression, arrogance and need to control everything and created a tragic masterpiece. In 7 years of being a Doctor Strange fan, I've never read or watch something that could go this deep into the character. The closest I can think of is Mr. Misery and the metaphor of Stephen's depression. This is a whole new level of respect and understanding. This is more than a love letter. This is peak maestry. It’s perfect, it’s heartbreaking, it’s... gods, I can’t.

Sorry for dragging you until this far. Before I wrap up this review, I just wanted to remind you all that Stephen will appear again, he will smile again, he will be surrounded by people again. So this is not the end. It was painful but be brave. We still have a few more steps to take.

#what if...?#doctor strange #stephen strange #what if doctor strange lost his heart instead of his hands?#wong #christine palmer #the ancient one #long post #review #he did nothing wrong #so what? he destroyed a whole universe #/j #benedict cumberbatch

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theringers · 4 years ago

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V-card anon: hi sorry about that first ask i kinda went into a fugue state (spelling?) altered state of reality maybe when i wrote that and damn near outlined a fic in your inbox

The way we played hot seat was either part of a larger drinking game when a certain card was pulled from a deck, or just on it's own. You sit in a circle, everyone has a drink, usually a beer or cider. In the card pull version, the one who pulls the card gets asked a question by every person playing and if they refuse to answer they drink from their drink. In the standalone, you do that but everyone gets a turn being asked until people get bored and leave. Fun way to find out shit about people. Usually the unwritten rule is that you can't lie. I imagine everyone sitting on shitty chouches and chairs in a semi circle around a table full of cups and bottles playing it

Questions i have been asked: are you a top or bottom? Do you like anal? Wheres the weirdest place you've fucked? Body count? Favorite position (sexual)? Fuck marry kill/ignore people in this room (EVERY TIME I PLAYED I GOT THIS QUESTION)? Tits or ass or other? Favorite non sexual body part ex. Thigh? Ideal fuck buddy? Sex regrets? Etc

Also more weird details i have head cannoned out for some drivers and most likely does not fit with irl personalities, do with this what you will, use it or don't i just have feelings. Also everyone is like compressed in age to like 20-27ish except for some of the grid who i will just think of as younger alumns who come back:

Danny R: social chair, owns a jeep he takes the doors off of in the summer, walks girls home at night to make sure they're ok, tries to DJ house events and is rebuffed by literally everyone, has like 30 pairs of vans you trip over in his room, stolen roadsigns everywhere, masters in something arigcultural or physiological, cutoff frat shirts for days, fuckboy but nice, a bit cringe, will drive around with you at night so you can scream, met reader bc she had a band tee on and wanted to talk to her about it (no gatekeeping)

Charles: some kind of engineering or math degree but no one has any idea how the fuck he's gotten so far, 4.0 never studies, games with other house members, will show up at events randomly you will have no idea how he gets on your couch but he is there, the best and worst taste in clothes, is the only one allowed to play the piano in the house, sweet, cannot help you with studies but is always down for helping you out after, has to be reminded to clean stuff, disaster bi, reader met his gf first and they probably met through that

Pierre: good fashion and music taste, shirt is gone halfway through the night, also fuckboy but wholesome, actually studies, plays a sport for sure probably soccer in some way either club or Division he's too good for rec, will hold your hair back so you can throw up, will tell you your outfit sucks, good at math, also part of the squad that games, econ major, workout buddies with reader anday have taken a math class together

Max: is part of the hockey team he will go pro, also actually studies, got into gaming because of Charles, has the nicest car, is serious until he gets a couple drinks in him, he and Daniel are close and roomed together at some point, owns like 30 sets of the same outfit a white tee and jeans, knows reader through Dan and they get dragged by him to some of the same stuff

Lando: is a pledge or new member his big is Carlos, undeclared major, just happy to be here, gaming squad, used to play lacrosse or something equally obscure, king of knowing where the good snacks are, weirdly good at beer pong, growing into a fuckboy wholesomeness level tbd, probably sweet with reader as she helped him through a blackout or something, met her because she's basically house mom for some of the new boys (the kind of mom who will teach you to do laundry or iron ONCE)

Carlos: hockey flow but does not play hockey, actually studies and is smarter than what people give him credit for, came from a private high school and uni really opened his horizons, also good study buddy, gets along with most people, goes to office hours the most out of the actually studies gang, fun at parties, owns the frat dogs, he and reader met at Office hours (they were the only students) and found they had mutual friends too

Lewis: is/was president of frat, great grades greater bod, did full evolution from fuckboy to good man, has the back tests and the moral support, up for late noght talks about life, definitely was a D1 athlete, best fashion game, implemented no hazing policy, fits into notable alum or PhD category

Mick: undergrad like Lando, also plays soccer or something, too sweet, also walks girls home/holds your hair back etc, cleans parts of the house that aren't his responsibility, higher alcohol tolerance than you expect, everyone is bizarrely protective of him, legacy member (his dad was a legend), drives a motorbike around campus and can't decide between law and psychology, actually studies, met reader through the frat and she would die for him, brings her to class on the bike sometimes because the bike is faster

George: business major, frat treasurer, three ring binder business casual in class kind of guy, nice enough, shirt comes off when drunk, runs marathons and a podcast about investments, best notes in the game and great study partner, actually studies, is drinking monster at 6AM but not because he stayed up late, he and reader met through the frat and sometimes drink wine and bitch together

Lance: hockey player, legacy member, studies sometimes, sarcasm on point, great at stack cup, very chill, knows every good nap spot on campus, also has high alcohol tolerance, is the kind of person who does well in the cold but does not like it, wears headphones so people don't talk to him, great one on one but not in crowds, business major and minor in computer science, probably also met thru Lance's gf but vibe as more introverted people and will cover for each other if one does not want to go out

Nicky: a good boy, part of the walks people home squad, sets up designated drivers for parties, good snack game, future in medical field, good listener, pretty good study buddy, midnight snack enabler, met reader through frat and his gf he and reader are on babysitting duty together sometimes when others get too drunk/high

Yuki: also a pledge or new, majoring in games or computer science as they gave me the same energy as him, games squad, bit of a mad lad, has several stolen street signs, good, met reader through frat and Yuki is the only one patient enough to explain some games to reader, they cuss people out on mic

Esteban: good man, has a full ride scholarship, actually studies, also good study buddy, Dan's little, plays soccer but maybe on a rec team because he prioritizes school, very sweet guy as well, probably chose a really practical major/dual major, met reader through Dan and are also dragged similar places by him

Antonio: manbun, philosophy or classics major possibly business dual, generally good natured but can be seen supplying his own wine at parties, used to be really into metal but kept the hair, does not know that people find him attractive, soccer boi, met reader through frat and she's the only one who will (pretend) to listen to him rant about philosophy

Alex Albon: another full scholarship guy, somehow gets along with everyone, switched majors due to an asshole professor, electrical engineering or computer engineering, actually studies, helps with frat pets,will show you pictures of his cats at home, sweetie, another contender for will hold your hair or walk you home, probably met reader through a class or club and found they had mutual friends and that reader is friends with his gf

Notable alums:

Checo - dad, successful in finance somehow (he looks like an really successful accountant of CFO to me idk why)

Kimi - dad but people forget he is, holds the record for most drinks in 24 hours that will never be come close to by anyone else, shows up on random alum weekends with 2 kegs, legally cannot tell you what he does or he would actually have to murder you

Valterri - was good at a sport when he was there, now a very effective lead engineer at an architectural firm

Seb - environmental or mechanical engineering, all around good guy with someone the best grades in frat history

Alonso - legendary for sexual exploits (consensual)

Anyone I put as actually studies is probably the type reader would hang around for more serious stuff/schoolwork and would probably be closer to, with the exception of Dan bc I feel like he'd be like we're friends now :)) we shall hang or Charles bc he will just show up. I also imagine she has a pretty good friendship with any existing gf, however if a driver does have a gf and he is the love interest sorry bb girl u gotta go for the purposes of this fic

Sorry this is so long hahaaaaaaa glad you liked my Charles thoughts ilu

i honestly wasn’t going to share this like the rest of the anon asks i’ve gotten that i keep close to my heart but this was just too good to keep to myself.

LOOK! AT! THIS!

f1 drivers as frat bros/college students headcannon

i’m writing a series - each “chapter” will be a smut with a different frat bro and i’m hoping to post a sneak peek this week some time but here’s something to hold you over and give you some ideas

to my vcard anon - i appreciate this so much. my inbox is always open for ur thoughts bc they are SO GOOD !! can’t wait for you to read the first part of the series bby

PS if some of this doesn’t make sense to u feel free to send in asks (i know a lot of this is focused on american college culture so if u don’t get it i’m happy to explain)

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doomstypewriter · 4 years ago

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Excuse me while I panic

New chapter, yay! Didn't I tell you I'd be faster?

Thanks for all of the lovely comments and interest, it really motivates me to write more.

Word count: 3041 | AO3 | <<Previous

Summary: Roman gets to work. Wooing Virgil will be a piece of cake!

Right?

CW: Swearing, anxiety, mild angst, maybe unsympathetic Janus (I don't really think so but it could somehow be interpreted as such because of Virgil and Roman talking about him, so I might as well give a warning). I don't think there's anything else, but, if you spot it, do tell.

Be yourself and let things develop naturally... that's just boring

Once he returned to the main living area, the noises of arguing and Logan’s screams could not be heard anymore. They were instead replaced by the clicking of spoons against teacups and mugs.

The moment the three noticed him they looked upwards at the same time. Patton, Logan and Janus were sitting at the table, drinking hot chocolate, coffee and tea respectively. The lights in the kitchen were on, illuminating them partially.

Logan nodded at him.

“How did it go?” he asked.

Meanwhile, Patton smiled and Janus stared at him inquisitively.

Roman went fully downstairs, hurrying to move a chair back. With his hands still on the backrest, he began to speak.

----

“Haha… I actually wanted to ask you…”

“Did something happen?” Virgil held his breath. “Is it about me?”

Roman could not stand the tension emanating from every pore of Virgil’s body. Thinking optimistically, he probably had no idea about his real motivations to come there, still, the thought of it eliciting such a reaction made Roman feel even more frozen in place.

“No!” he answered all too fast.

His body language went even stiffer with worry, to the point where he raised a hand to his mouth and began to nibble on the sides of the tip of his thumb.

“Then…”

“Everything is fine, Pierce the Nerves, I promise”.

“Okay… hmm what’s up with the rose?”

“It’s… uh…” Roman looked at it and began to felt ridiculous. “I just picked it up and it’s the same red as my sash!” he laughed as he placed it on the lapel of his suit.

“No comments. What did you want to ask me?”

----

Janus looked at him with a mix of horror and disbelief as Roman finished his recollection of the events.

“So I panicked and then I said that you had decided to help Patton bake something and now we need to make cookies this instant because Virgil will suspect something if we don’t!”

For a moment there was silence. Then, Janus ran his hands over his face.

“Roman, please take a seat already or put the chair back in place”, said Logan.

“Yeah, right” Roman sat down.

“Brilliant idea, Roman, there’s no way Virgil won’t buy that I’m making cookies and, of all things, invited him to try them. Why would you get me directly involved in it?”

Roman stood up, earning an exasperated eye roll from Logan.

“I drew a blank! I cannot come up with perfect stories on the spot while under pressure!”

“So you thought putting me in it would just magically fix how terrible you are at talking to your crush?”

“He’s not my--” Roman went deadly quiet, rethinking his life in a matter of microseconds. “Look, if I can trust you to do something is lie. So when Virgil comes down those stairs you need to help me fix this! You were the one who insisted I talk to him, so it’s your problem too”.

“Can I trust YOU not to mess up any of my--”

“Hey”.

“Aaaah!” Roman and Janus screamed in unison.

One sigh later, Virgil added:

“You invited me to have cookies”.

“Oh, yeah, well… about that…” Roman began saying. “Patton and Janus haven’t started--”

“Kiddo, we already got them ready while you went to call Virgil” Patton interrupted him. “They’re cooling in the kitchen” he pointed.

“If you had paid attention you would have noticed the bowls in the sink” Logan added without bothering to look at him.

“Roman, close your mouth, you’ll catch flies” Janus finished the series of comments directed at him.

----

Virgil’s chair moved back as he stood up.

“Well, uh…” he said. “Thanks for the cookies. Hmm…”

A frown appeared on Virgil’s face as he was leaving. His feet stopped all of a sudden and he turned around.

“Janus?” it sounded like saying the name itself pained him.

The side in question raised his head, looking openly confused. Or was it an act?

“Yeah?”

“Hmm… Roman told me you invited me. And that’s… em…” he bought time, wondering what to say. Whether to lie or not. “Suspicious. So, a word?”

Janus raised his eyebrows, not buying it, but he followed him nonetheless.

They left the room, both walking at a distance from each other. For a second, Roman thought he saw worry in Janus’ face.

“What the hell was that?” Roman asked no one in particular.

“He’s trying to be nice” Patton smiled. “I’m so proud of him!” his tone was ecstatic.

“I guess… hey, padre, how did you know I’d ask you for the cookies?”

“Patton anticipated a few outcomes from your confession attempt and decided cookies would serve as a suitable response for either” Logan replied matter-of-factly.

“Yes…” he grimaced apologetically. “I thought that if everything went well we could celebrate, and if it didn’t… well, we’d be there for you, so the cookies might cheer you up”.

----

A few days after the confession fiasco, Roman decided to try again and woo him a little before pouring his heart out.

He popped into the living room, only to find Virgil and Janus sitting six feet apart. One was listening to music and, presumably, checking out Tumblr, while the other read a thick book.

With the volume of the music, Virgil didn’t notice him, Janus on the other hand…

His face stopped being obscured by the wing of his hat as he looked up at him.

Janus shook his wrist, making Logan’s watch appear on it. The other side wouldn’t be happy about that, but if Janus had survived stealing his crofters, Roman figured he could get away with pretty much anything.

“Well, look at the time!” he said theatrically as he stared at the watch. “I need to take care of other things, pitty to miss out on your company”.

Virgil moved his headphone to the side, managing to listen to the last part of what Janus had said.

“At least he doesn’t make it awkward”.

“What?” Roman asked.

“Yeah, you’re still angry with each other, right? I can ignore him, but having the two of us in the same room with him would be like asking for an argument”.

One short stare later, Virgil spoke again, a bit unsure.

“Do you want me to move so you can sit here too?”

“No”

“Oh, okay”

“I mean, I didn’t come here to be on the couch, actually I came to see you”.

“Miss me that much?” he teased.

And it was too good of a bait to just let go without reply.

“Terribly, I’ve been swooning and mopping because I didn’t have someone blasting Paramore around me!” Roman answered draping a hand over his forehead.

“Truly tragic”.

“I know. Anyhow, I was wondering…”

Virgil raised one of his hands to stop him right there.

“If you want me to do something stupid and dangerous in the imagination with you, I’ll pass”.

“Afraid you won’t be able to keep up?”

“No, it’s more like I don’t want to have to drag your ass back here when you get hurt”.

“Hey, I’ll have you know I’m the best swordsman in there”.

“So is it like, empty then?”

Roman gasped.

“Tss. It seems like it is”.

“No it’s not!”

“Well, if you keep inviting me, I guess it isn’t, even if we are the only people in there”.

“Virgil, you have seen my servants”.

“Hmm… yeah” he looked to the ceiling playfully, then back at Roman,

“I don’t seem to remember about it”.

“Okay, well, I guess I won’t ask the royal artisans to frame your painting, since they don’t exist”.

“What painting? Are you also hallucinating art?”

“No. I was about to ask you if I could paint you!”

“Wha-- really? You want to paint ME?” Virgil pointed at himself as if to make it somehow clearer.

“If you’re willing”.

----

The whole painting idea had gone well. Still, Roman wasn’t able to get the right atmosphere to confess with Virgil constantly teasing them. To be honest, he ended up forgetting about it once they began to get caught up in the conversation.

He had tried other things, of course.

None had gone as planned.

Writing poems would just make Virgil uncomfortable or even correct him, because, apparently, listening to all of those lyrics from obscure indie bands had made him a better poet than him.

Then there was the whole incident with the ukelele.

Roman had been trying to play something to catch his attention, set the tone and just tell him, but the string snapped and hit him in the face. Now he had an ugly cut and some bruising on his cheek.

He felt stuck.

Worse than all of that, Janus kept lurking around Virgil. Pretending to be nice and reformed.

But never mind about everything else. He needed to keep trying.

Eventually, Roman would manage to get it right.

-----

Finally, he had a plan!

The last time Roman had gone to Virgil’s room to confess, he had panicked and let the effect of the room get to him. But, none of that could happen if he didn’t speak.

This would be perfect because Virgil would love it. Roman had recorded a playlist of their favourite songs into a vinyl record, just to make it a bit fancier. He’ll gift it to him and Virgil would understand.

Maybe he’d even ask him to dance to it!

Roman crossed the darkness of the entrance almost running.

This could work!

His mood deflated instantly when he emerged into the room.

Virgil was sitting on his bed, knees to his chest, hiding all of his upper body inside his hoodie. He left the vinyl on Virgil’s desk and walked up to the bed, making sure to be a bit noisy so Virgil wouldn’t be caught by surprise.

The other let a long breath out in some kind of acknowledgement.

Eventually, Roman sat next to him.

“What’s wrong?”

Virgil sighed and let his face come out of the cocoon of his hood.

“It’s not that something’s wrong per se. I…”

Without thinking, Roman placed his hand on top of Virgil’s. The contact made him feel like nothing bad could happen to Virgil as long as he held onto him.

Roman got the sudden realisation that he would be willing to protect him from anything. Which wasn’t too groundbreaking of a concept. He’d try to save pretty much everyone if given the chance, but that was his need to be the hero, to be “good”, whatever that eventually entailed. With Virgil, though… he just didn’t know what he’d do without him.

“Whatever it is, I’m here and I’ll make sure you’re okay” Roman promised.

Virgil chuckled. It stung a little.

“You can’t just say those things so seriously when I’m feeling bad, Princey, I never know how to react when you’re being so…”

“Annoying?” Roman tried to complete the sentence.

His head turned to the other side. He still didn’t let go of Virgil’s hand, but he could afford to, at least, not let him see how self-conscious he felt right now.

“Princey, look at me”.

“I’m not sure I want to, Virge”.

“Hey, I’m the one who’s feeling low. Don’t try to steal the spotlight, it’s kind of an asshole move…”

Hearing that only made him feel worse, now adding guilt to the mix.

“Especially since”, Virgil continued, “I was about to say you’re nice”.

“I’m sorry I reacted poorly” Roman finally managed to stare at him, “here you are, feeling like crap and I’m only thinking about myself. I can be very selfish sometimes. I apologise”.

Virgil frowned.

“Okay. Fuck off”.

“Did I--”

“No. Listen to me. Whatever you’re thinking I’m thinking right now is wrong. I know what you’re doing because I do it all the time. I’m not mad. And you’re not selfish. Not one bit. You’re self-centred, very much so, but not selfish”.

“Virge, I’m pretty sure those are the same thing”.

Virgil shook his head.

“You can be annoying when you make everything about yourself and try to be the centre of attention. But you never ignore people when they need you, even if that doesn’t benefit you. You’re willing to give up things you want just to do what you think is right. Hell, Princey, you let go of your pride just to be friends with me. How could anyone think you’re selfish when you’re so stupidly wonderful?”

“I--”

“Don’t get too smug about it” Virgil cut him.

It got quiet for a second. Roman savoured the moment and squeezed Virgil’s hand. His smile began to return to him a little bit.

“Thank you. It means a lot, you have no idea” Roman muttered.

Virgil visibly relaxed. He slumped a bit more, letting himself fall against Roman’s side. The dark hair tickled his collarbone, but Roman wouldn’t ever dream of complaining about it.

“Yeah I do” Virgil whispered, so quietly Roman could have imagined it.

Having Virgil’s head on his shoulder made sense. Like it was meant to be there all along.

“What were you sulking about?” Roman asked.

“Not sulking”.

“Sure thing, All the time low”.

He felt Virgil muffle a laugh against the shoulder pads of his suit.

The laugher died down soon after a long sigh.

“I’ve been thinking about doing something”.

Roman stayed quiet for once, leaving him room to breathe and let things out at his own pace.

“I… I am considering forgiving Janus”, Virgil paused, twisting his neck to see Roman’s expression. “Maybe be friends again if it comes to it”.

A sigh.

His thumb started to move in circles, caressing the back of Virgil’s hand. Roman swallowed.

“Isn’t that a good thing?” he asked tentatively.

“You’re not mad?”

“I don’t know. Should I be? It’s not like I’ve exactly forgotten about all of the bad blood between us. But… he makes Patton very happy and it seems like he’s trying to help, so I don’t know what to feel about it”.

“Roman, I know he hurt you”.

“Is that what you’re worried about?”

“In part. There’s more to it. But I can’t just go and bury the hatchet with him if that would hurt you again”.

A small part of Roman felt good knowing Virgil would keep on being angry with Janus if he wanted him to. In a way, it showed his willingness to stay by his side.

That’s why Roman couldn’t ask him that.

Besides, Janus had been helping him too. It wouldn’t be right for him either, as much as it stung to admit it.

“If that makes you happy, I will be happy too”.

“Yeah, but that’s not what I’m asking. I don’t want to know if you would ignore your issues with Janus for my sake”.

“I really don’t mind--”

“And I know that. But… fuck, Roman, you shouldn’t be constantly forced to put everyone first just to make things better for everybody else except you”.

That was… a lot to take in. Roman didn’t know very well what to respond. Eventually, Virgil must have interpreted his silence as him doing something wrong.

“You’re my friend. I… I care about you. I won’t do something you’re not okay with. You’re more important”.

“No need. It’s okay. Getting over my stuff with Janus is my own

problem. I also care about you, a lot. If you want to be friends with him I’ll support you, it has nothing to do with my problems. You won’t hurt me. I promise”.

“That’s good to hear. I mean, I’m still struggling with the decision and I don’t think I’ll be making up my mind anytime soon. But knowing that helps a lot”.

“Do you want to talk about it more?”

“Hmm. It’s… it’s so confusing. I thought nothing he did could rub off how angry I’ve been at him, make me want to trust him again. Before… well, no need to get into the specifics, but it made me feel very betrayed” his voice trembled a little. “The problem is, he didn’t exactly betray me, so I guess the doubts about whether or not things could go back to what they were, remained”.

Virgil swallowed, trying to compose himself.

“And it sucks because there’s a part of me that can’t tell if this is all part of a big scheme and he’s just trying so hard to be nice to me because he wants something, or because he actually cares. I’m scared of letting my guard down and have him ruin everything I’ve tried to achieve. What if I go back to how I used to be?”

“I won’t let that happen”.

“How can you be sure? How can we be sure of anything when it comes to him?”

“We can’t. But I have no doubts that, no matter what happens, we’ll figure it out. Even if it gets to the worst, you know me and I know you. Most importantly, I believe in you, Virge. I’m not going to tell you, of all people, that there’s nothing to be afraid of. But if you’re scared, know that you can trust me and you can trust who you’ve become. We’ll be fine”.

“Roman…”

For a second, it seemed like Virgil was going to cry, or worse, do something like hug him AND cry.

“To be fair, though”, Roman went back to his usual self. Both would welcome the respite after… well, big conversation to unpack. “I honestly don’t think Janus is planning anything. He’s even trying to get on my good side just to make you happy. I’m not the best side for him to manipulate anymore, not after everything, and he isn’t that stupid. So I’d say the bitch is being sincere. That being clear, it would still be a pleasure to punch him if you asked”.

Virgil shifted a bit.

“Ouch!” Roman shouted after Virgil elbowed him. “What did I do now?”

“You’re dumb”.

“So are you, emo, what’s your excuse?”

“I’m friends with you and I think it might be starting to affect me”.

“Well, it’s about time. I knew even you weren’t impervious to my dashing good looks”.

Oh. Perhaps he had let on too much. Roman tensed up the slightest bit.

“Yeah, yeah, whatever lets you sleep at night, Princey”.

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Dancing with a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

Izumi Midoriya was not expecting this. She had been on edge ever since arriving at the venue that night—the Grand Ballroom of the Royal Hotel in the capital city of Japan. Her anxiety stemmed from the fact that the man she was here to meet, the infamous villain known as “All For One,” would be present tonight.

“Midoriya Izumi, I presume?” The speaker’s voice echoed through the room. Izumi turned around to see a tall man dressed in black standing there, his face obscured by shadows cast by a chandelier above them.

She took note of his attire, then replied in a flat tone: “Yes.”

“Allow me to introduce myself. Please refer to me as how you called it ‘Sensei.’” He spoke with a Japanese accent and held out a hand toward her, waiting for her to shake it.

Izumi hesitated before reaching out to take it. It felt like they were being watched, so she couldn’t help but feel nervous.

Sensei noticed her unease and chuckled slightly. “It’s just me. You’re safe now.”

She nodded once and allowed herself to be guided into the centre of the ballroom, where music played softly from a band hidden somewhere in the back. It didn’t stop the butterflies from fluttering in Izumi’s stomach as she waited.

“Now,” Sensei said quietly after taking a step backwards. “Let us dance.”

“No, thanks.” She shook her head quickly, refusing him.

Sensei frowned and raised his voice slightly to be heard over the music: “I know you want to avoid dancing with me because of your feelings for All Might, but—”

“That’s not it!” Izumi interrupted him. “I’m here at my father’s request! I don’t have time for this!”

Sensei sighed and looked down at her apologetically. “Very well.” He paused and gave a slight nod. “But if you do choose to speak with me, please keep in mind that ears are listening everywhere. So let us dance first.”

He took another step away from her before turning around slowly. The music began playing again almost immediately—a slow waltz song that made Izumi feel like she could melt into the floor.

He extended his hand toward her, which Izumi hesitantly reached out and accepted.

He pulled her closer to him so that they were nearly touching from shoulder to hip, then turned them both to face each other.

“You look nervous,” he whispered into her ear as she tried to suppress a shiver running down her spine.

She shook her head slightly and looked back at him with wide eyes. “No, I don’t think so...”

All For One laughed quietly before moving his hands to rest on her shoulders. His grip tightened ever so slightly, making it clear he wouldn’t be letting go anytime soon.

“Relax,” he said calmly, still smiling faintly. “You’re safe now.”

Izumi gulped nervously and took several deep breaths in an attempt to calm herself down. But the more she concentrated on her breathing, the more her heart raced faster. It felt like something was crawling up her throat, threatening to choke her. She closed her eyes tightly for a moment until the feeling passed. When she opened them again, All For One’s smile seemed even wider than before, but Izumi wasn’t sure whether that was the case.

“Now then,” he said, releasing his grip and taking another step back so they were once again standing side-by-side in the centre of the room. “Let us talk.” He paused briefly to glance at her before continuing: “What do you think about when you see me?”

Izumi stared at him blankly. Her mind went completely blank as she struggled to find words to describe what it was she thought whenever she saw him. The only thing she could come up with was how much she hated everything about him. She couldn’t help but imagine him killing people left and right, laughing maniacally all the while.

She shook her head quickly. “I...” She sighed heavily. “Nothing good comes to my mind.”

Sensei nodded silently. Then he took one step closer toward her again. His hands came up around her waist and rested on her shoulders. Izumi tensed up slightly before relaxing a moment later. He pulled her in close to his chest once more, this time wrapping both arms around her.

“I know.” His voice was soft and gentle, almost comforting. “I’m not your favourite person either, am I? But there are things you need to know about me.”

He leaned back just enough so that he could look into her eyes as they stood together like two trees rooted deep within the earth. It felt strange being held by someone who looked at her like she wasn’t even worth their attention. Izumi swallowed hard and forced herself to meet his gaze head-on.

“First,” he began after a brief pause. “You’re wrong about something important.”

“What’s that?” She asked cautiously, unsure where this was going.

“All Might didn’t die because of your power,” he said softly before leaning forward again and pressing his lips against hers. Izumi stiffened up immediately, shocked by how fast the kiss had come out of nowhere. Her heart raced as she tried to process what had just happened. The last thing she wanted to do right now thought about kissing someone else, but she couldn’t help it—it felt too natural.

Sensei broke off from their embrace first and took several steps away from her until he reached a table near the wall. He picked up a bottle of champagne sitting on top of it and poured himself a glass before turning back toward Izumi with a smile. “Izumi Midoriya, I have never been fond of you.”

Izumi blinked rapidly for a moment, then looked down at herself in shock as she realized that her hands were trembling ever so slightly. She clenched them tightly together to try to hide it, which only made it worse. She quickly dropped her eyes once more and stared at the floor.

“I don’t care,” she muttered quietly. “It doesn’t matter to me one way or another, whether you like me... or not.”

“Oh?” Sensei raised an eyebrow, his smile widening. “Why is that?”

Izumi hesitated before speaking again. “Because no matter how much we may dislike each other personally, there are things about myself that you can’t change.” She paused briefly before continuing: “And even if you could somehow make me into the kind of person you want me to be, I wouldn’t feel happy doing so anyway.”

Sensei frowned slightly and took a step closer to her. Izumi flinched backwards instinctively but forced herself to stop as soon as she noticed him moving toward her instead. He stopped just inches away from her face, looking down at her with those intense, luminous red eyes of his.

“What do you mean?” His voice was soft and low. Izumi gulped nervously as he continued: “You said that you’re not my favourite person either... but I think you might be wrong about that, Midoriya Izumi.”

She swallowed hard. “I’m sorry?”

“No, no,” he shook his head slowly. “You’re not the only one who has been through a lot in this world. You should know better than anyone how painful it is to have someone you care for die right before your eyes.”

Izumi froze up completely at those words, her mind going blank as she struggled to process what had just happened. The man standing in front of her suddenly seemed so familiar—so close that it felt like they were sharing the same body. And yet all she could feel was dread running down her spine. Her heart raced faster and faster, threatening to choke her again.

“I’ve lost too many people I cared about already,” he said after another moment’s pause. “But even though we don’t always see eye-to-eye on certain things, I can never hate someone else enough to want them dead.” He looked at her closely. “Can you say the same?”

Izumi couldn’t help but notice how calm he sounded as he spoke those words. But there was a hint of something dangerous lurking beneath his surface, waiting for the right opportunity to emerge. She gulped loudly and clenched her hands into tight fists.

“I... I’m not sure,” she admitted quietly, unable to look him in the eyes anymore. “I haven’t had much experience with that kind of thing.”

“Oh?” Sensei raised an eyebrow, his smile widening. “What do you think would happen if someone killed me right now? Would you cry tears of joy over my death, or would you be relieved to finally put an end to the suffering I caused you?”

Izumi hesitated for a moment before shaking her head quickly. “I’d be relieved.” She bit her lip nervously as she added: “But it wouldn’t make me happy either. It just means that I won’t have to live through the pain of losing anyone else I care about ever again.”

“You’re wrong,” Sensei replied, his voice low and gentle. “It doesn’t matter what your personal feelings are towards me. You should know better than anyone how much it hurts when someone you love dies right before your eyes. And yet you still want me to die so that you don’t have to feel any of that hurt yourself.”

He paused briefly and turned around toward one of the pillars lining the walls. He clasped hold of it with both hands, leaning forward slightly until he was hanging from it upside down. His feet swung gently back and forth several times while he waited for Izumi’s response.

“I... don’t think I understand what you mean,” she said slowly, trying hard not to look at him. “How could killing you make me happier?”

Sensei laughed quietly before turning around again and facing her directly. “If you truly understood the nature of our world, then you would realize that there is no such thing as happiness in this place, there are only things we can do and things we cannot—only actions we may take or refuse to take.”

He stepped closer to her until they were standing just inches apart from each other once more. “And if you’re willing to accept the fact that some people will inevitably suffer pain and misery, then it’s only natural that it should also give those same people a way out of their suffering.”

“That doesn’t sound like something someone who cares about others would say,” Izumi replied after another moment’s pause. “It sounds more like something someone who enjoys causing pain and suffering might say instead.” She looked away quickly as she spoke.

Sensei chuckled lightly before responding: “You don’t get it, do you? You see, the world is through your limited perspective because that is all it has ever shown you since birth.” He leaned forward even further until he was practically touching her nose with his own. “But if you open up your eyes and mind enough to see beyond what you know, you will realize that everything around you has its reasons for being the way it is—that no matter how much suffering someone causes others, there are always things they can do to stop themselves from doing so again.”

“What kind of logic is that?” Izumi asked sceptically. “If I could save everyone else just by killing you right now, then why wouldn’t I?”

Sensei sighed quietly as he stared into her eyes. “Because you still have a chance to change your fate... and theirs.” He smiled at her gently. “And that means you owe it to them to help keep their suffering to a minimum while you try to figure out how to end this nightmare of yours.”

Izumi bit her lip nervously but said nothing in response.

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