#i am on medication at least
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how do you make things when you are horribly depressed and tired 24/7 and have no motivation to do anything. i dont have the energy to do Anything i enjoy i can get things done fine like necessities and eating and work its just the moment i Wanna do something i like its Over i Cant Do It. i want to draw so bad!!!!! i love creating!!!!!!! im incapable of doing it though!!!!! i am a wild animal running in frantic circles in its cage
#i dont know if its art block#maybe kinda but im also just#generally more fatigued#and i dont feel like doing things#nothing specific going on to make me feel as bad as i do#but the depression is Hitting Harder lately!!!#i am on medication at least#its just not doing much recently#im not miserable 24/7 but i also am not getting joy out of much#and when i do its only for a short period of time#im SICK OF IT i want to draw again#i wanna make things!!! so bad!!!!
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A redraw of an old thing because exam season is the only time i get creative energy ig
#but no fr i just came home from 2 consecutive exams. like consecutive as in one after the other in 2 hours#next week is all finals and theyre all like 2 hours 1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon like bro#whatevs tho medical update THE MEDS ARE WORKING alhamdulilallah i feel im getting way more energy :)#2 years on immunosuppressants and at least 3 months of corticosteroids which means no salt :( BUT we are getting thru it#im cooking again :')#ok enough my life is not what you're here for. idk if cbeeduo at the end of 2023 *is* but idc#i just rly missed them yk and the vibes and the place i was in plus i have fun drawing them so suck it#i hope my good cbee mutuals enjoy this love yall#my art#dsmp fanart#cranboo#ctubbo#cbeeduo#fashion notes for the cool peeps still reading is i am dying on the hill that cranboo was decked in a 70s aunt wardrobe argue with the wall#also tubbo cowboy cus. like. look at him.#will probably draw tommy next i rly miss him. nothing big as always im a doodle kinda guy at heart#anyway xoxo love yall still here <33#fennec.art
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”Am I Still Pretty?”
#ihnmaims#ted ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#I haven’t posted art in 4 days geez#Partially inspired by jack stauber’s “mirror man”#I kind of love the idea that ted is horribly disfigured and just pretending he isn’t *giggles*#I had to do a butt load of research on what lasers do to skin so i hope this is at least a little medically accurate#I’ll draw my interpretation of what i think his face really looks like if this gets 30 likes /joking#Or am i
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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what do you think about the charters (Nico, Percy and others) using mobility aids? (Especially after all the wars, fights, and other general injures they've probably got over the years)
I may be biased as someone who uses mobility aids, but I definitely think more demigods should have mobility aids in general. Nico in particular definitely could use it with how often he collapses and with how he generally exhibits some symptoms of low blood pressure at the very least if not POTS or EDS. I'm particularly biased to drawing him with my own crutches, lol (they have knee rests!!!!).
Also I always love seeing Grover with crutches. He was introduced as having a muscular disease - i know that's implied to be just cause he's actually a satyr, but also he's the only satyr to be described as "walking like every step hurt." So give him crutches!!!! He needs them!!!
I dont have any particularly strong opinions for other characters, except maybe usually giving Leo a prosthetic leg so he can thematically match his dad and sometimes crutches alongside that, and my friends and I have talked about Jason using a rollator before, particularly in Jason Lives!AUs. But regardless I always love discussing comorbidity between various other conditions and disabilities with ADHD and dyslexia and a not insignificant number of those comorbidities may require mobility aids. Functionally demigods are kind of more like intensive athletes with magic healthcare, and very few are on the level of like Nico where they've been through the wringer so much that it has lasting effects on them - actually very few in general seem to get a lot of physical damage that doesn't get healed quickly (i think in part cause most campers don't actually go on quests). mostly just psychological damage - so i don't think every demigod would need mobility aids, but like statistically there should probably be more just given the comorbidity stuff to begin with. Everybody who's come back from the dead should probably have more going on with them though imo.
#ask#Anonymous#pjo#riordanverse#headcanon#headcanons#eds nico#disabled nico#disability#I WANNA TALK ABOUT DEMIGOD ADHD/DYSLEXIA COMORBIDITY!!!!!#i will say though as much as i love nico with mobility devices sometimes the fandom gets weird about it :(#i think mostly cause the fandom infantilizes nico a lot to begin with as an autistic/disabled character#(or at least more visibly disabled than his peers)#also i think just most of the fandom is unfamiliar with mobility devices in general and just kind of randomly throw stuff at him#(really the fandom is just kind of unfamiliar with disability topics in general and has some bad habits/oversights because of it)#(even when it comes to just adhd/dyslexic/etc stuff the fandom can lean pretty ignorant and etc which is kind of ironic)#ftr if people want explanations of stuff i am perfectly willing to talk about mobility devices and other medical stuff/assistive things#and how i think those would relate to pjo or specific characters within my realm of knowledge
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TMNT: Stabilize [ part one ]
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#fuck it we ball#see i told yall fifteen pages was reasonable#tmnt stabilize#tmnt iteration#tmnt fan comic#tmnt fan iteration#tmnt comics#blood#blood and injury#self harm#psychosis#kinda sorta#thats the closest thing i figure i can put that'll work as a cw tag i think?#chronic illness#y'all know im always trying to find new ones to torment turtles#this guy has got kinda dark themes#degenerative illness and kids taking care of themselves and medical shit and all that jazz#and daddy splinter being mentally not there for at least some of the time#part of me is like shouldnt we wait until its not two am to post this#shouldnt we wait for a better time#but then im like#the most well received tmnt comic uve made yet u posted at 4 am the moment you finished it#so why not#fuck it#lesgo#fidgetwing#tmnt
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please. “there is no ethical consumption under late stage capitalism” does not mean that all consumption is EQUALLY unethical. it’s a structural critique of systems of production it’s not a get-out-of-guilt-free carte blanche to invoke while carelessly consuming whatever you want
#knowing that there’s no perfect or accessible choice for many things doesn’t mean every choice is equally justified#i don’t think medical supply chains are v ethical but i still consume a lot of plastic for medical reasons#but where i am able to make choices i at least want to think abt the ethics yknow? even if it’s all bad?#i thought y’all loved lesser evils#consumerism
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Gyjo in the fandom
cw: light discussion of ableism
Gyjo… what am I thinking about gyjo…
I like them. I like them a lot, actually. They have paralleled narrative arcs, they complement each other nicely, the romantic subtext is incredibly obvious to the point that even the most homophobic fan you know will admit they understand why people ship it… so why do I also have a problem with it?
There’s a lot of good fanart. Hell, I’ve reblogged plenty. Maybe it’s just something that’s more pronounced in fic.
I’m trying to word this correctly. My issue with gyjo has nothing to do with the text itself. I think my problem is just how people portray it in the fandom.
Maybe it’s because it’s so popular, or maybe it’s the sheer prominence of applying ‘Character A’ and ‘Character B’ dynamics without considerable regard for the characters involved, but I feel gyjo is very prone to flanderization. I believe the intersection with how ableist people are toward Johnny (intentionally or not, subtly or not) and the old tropes these two get shoved into makes it so I have trouble enjoying fics in the fandom.
I’m not saying it’s bad to enjoy certain tropes. I’m not saying headcanons are bad either. What I am saying is that writing is hard, but if you’re going to write fanfiction please have consideration for the characters you’re writing. The arcs of these two are complex and multilayered, which is why I think they have such staying power, but I also think they also provide a good opportunity for us as writers and artists to examine our biases when it comes to the portrayal of certain groups, personality types, mental illnesses, queerness, disability, etc. and maybe come out better people for it.
#gyjo#steel ball run#sbr#jjba#very rough idea of my thoughts concerning their portrayal in the fandom#imo there’s weird implications in any situation where gyro is written as johnny’s doctor or some such since it presents many power issues#again: what I am Not saying is that you can’t have a medical kink or whatever it may be#it’s just that#there’s a prevalence of ableist presentations of Johnny in so many ways but for me it’s especially bad in gyjo fic for whatever reason#perhaps it’s people continuing to write heterocized power tropes for a gay couple#on top of an already complicated presentation of disability and mental illness in the form of Johnny#(thanks Araki)#and to be honest gyro is not treated much better. he’s usually very ooc. I think its probably due to just how much he changes that#people could just find it easier to pick a certain aspect of his personality and make that the whole thing#but I just don’t enjoy the gyjo that’s in the ao3 tag. and I want to emphasize there *is* good stuff by people who do treat these topics#with respect#but it’s not the norm which makes it just not enjoyable to check out the tag#at least to me#vent post#kind of#my posts#gyro Zeppeli#Johnny Joestar#ugh I don’t even know why I’m writing all this#to reiterate this is me talking. on my blog. please don’t hate spam or w/e
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Hey y'all! Do you have any advice about making smoothies? Like, what kinds of fruit and veggies go well together, what combos very much don't work, and especially if you have any advice on what frozen fruits or veggies work best. I am thinking about trying making smoothies but I know pretty much nothing about it lol
#the person behind the yarn#food mention#I don't even know where to start when it comes to making smoothies#except that I should avoid coconut (allergic) cucumber (possibly allergic) and bananas (sometimes allergic)#and that I should probably stick to frozen fruits and veggies as much as I can#because I have histamine issues#and while I tolerate some fruits very well#some fruits I do not#so this will be a bit of trial and error#but dang. I just really want to be eating more fruits and veggies before I end up with Yet Another Vitamin Deficiency#(my body processes several vitamins and minerals Very Wrong so I have to take...a lot of supplements)#(plus I am on medication to fix some of them that messes up other vitamins. it's a process)#and when it comes to ways to eat frozen fruits and veggies smoothies seem to be the best way#or maybe not best but most efficient?#I tried with non-frozen fruits and veggies but the produce in Tennessee goes bad SO QUICKLY#or at least so quickly compared to where I used to live#so...frozen! frozen fruits and veggies
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being disabled is expensive
i hardly ever have the energy to cook
and sometimes physically can't stand long enough to do so
so i have to get quick premade, precut or precooked food
im also autistic and there are certain foods i can't eat
and safe foods i need for days im struggling from a sensory standpoint
its tiring to have to equate for these extra costs
and disability insurance doesn't cover them
food has become a luxury item in this economy
and the first affected are going to be the poor and disabled
#.faeposting#i just had to get groceries#and i get groceries per fornight#but i am one person#and it came to over $100#for ONE PERSON#i can afford it but i have to plan for it yk?#not to mention im out of the house a lot with uni and other commitments so have to get external food just solely from not being near#any other options at the time#which is even more expensive#and im transitioning so i need more food due to literal puberty#im so tired of capitalism#disability#disability justice#capitalism#anticapitalism#anti capitalism#anticapitalist#anti capitalist#disabled#crippunk#cripple punk#cripplepunk#crip punk#not to mention the cost of my meds#and every other medical expense#on top of existing#i have insurance for those at least#but thats being threatened to be taken away#and i dont really have enough to last till november
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Every now and then i have a reminder of my fear that i go on testosterone or get top surgery and i regret it. And then i remember how i view gender and sexuality. They are fluid things. Especially mine. But I’ve thought about it. I’d be happier on HRT. I’d be happier without my tits. So what if I’m not a boy? Maybe I’m just a sick ass butch. Shit changes. Exploration of the self is necessary.
OP is a minor!
#not quite sure where i was going with this#i am a boy. at least right now. i think if i was able to medically transition I’d be happier. one day. one day.#personal#transgender#trans#trans guy#trans boy#transmasc#queer
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Me: ah nice a week off! I can hopefully finish some of the drawings I started :D
Also me: gets like 5 new ideas and it’s monday
#Charlie stuff#And at least 3 of them are so long 😞#Shaking myself by the shoulers why are you like this#There’s a couple of short silly ones at least so if I get overwhelmed with the big boys I can have a break#I don’t think I’ve been this actively creative in a fandom since my yugioh days and it does make me really happy#Weirdly I have more free time now than then but alas. I am old and frail#Also there’s something I should definitely be medicated for and whatever it is it’s getting stronger#Anyway it’s almost 2am again oops. night!!! 👋
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One day I need to figure out the one drink/food that can sustain me when im extremely exhausted
Ya panda is rawdogging life by sheer will because:
1. Coffee makes me sleepy (or give me a head splitting headache no in between)
2. Tea works although not too long
3. Music also work sometimes but not consistent
#am I envy of people who can rely on caffeine to stay awake? a bit even if its not a good thing#me counselling the patient: it is important to get at least 8 hours of sleep for proper rest and regulations#also me: is awake for 18 hours with 4 hours of sleep on most week days#the only best solution is this thing call ��油精#it is chinese medicated oil that has a spicy smell which keeps me awake#also great for headaches#that or yoko yoko (also spicy smell) but that is used for muscle aches#anyways i go sleep now#gummmyspeaks
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Update 2: the germaphobia didn't win bc he sneezed so hard he cried kinda and I can't not hug the people I like when there's tears so that's where we're at now lmao I'm literally so fucked but at least I'm not doing anything the next week 😭 checked him over since caution has been thrown to the wind, dude for sure has the flu but I'm hoping I can dodge it bc I got vaccinated so fingers crossed there. Ran out of tissues, so he's resorted to napkins and his jacket which isn't nearly as hot irl as it is in fic, but this is what it's come to 😔 also he's gone through three more masks and I'm lowkey scared he's gonna run out of those too 😭😭
#kinda snz again#how am i supposed to tag this actually#obs? is that what people call it??#idk#anyway#I'm not actually that worried about runn out of masks bc we have so fucking many and also i bring my own#i am worried about him getting me sick tho but it seems unavoidable at this point 😔#i feel so bad for him but I'm still disgusted ngl#dude has a hell of a fever like you hate to see it#had to go sit in the back where we put the patients so he could lay down for a bit and try to nap#bro literally sounds worse and worse as the hours go by it's fucking horrific#i fr feel like a mom rn patting this dude's back and getting him shit smh#like I'm the mom friend always so it tracks but doing vaguely medical things @ someone who has a higher scope than me is wild lmao#also for the record my partner isn't antivax he just planned on getting them closer to the end of the month#that's not working out so well for him now but it's not like he wasn't gonna get them at all so there's that at least lmao
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blogging live from the hurricane shelter
#giving it a few hours before I take some xanax and pass tf out#am glad at least I have that medication for my neuroticism#ovo.txt
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who's this freakazoid (loadout ref is medimedes + heat of winter + wings of purity)
#tf2 medic#team fortress 2#tf2#art#bright colors#one day i'll draw the mercs in more interesting situations than Standing Around. one day. but today i am not skilled enough for that#btw when i was using loadouttf for the reference i noticed that for all of his idle poses (ie stand melee stand primary and stand secondary#he just doesnt fucking move. at all. while the other mercs are at least like bouncing. why is he such a freeeeaaaak throws up
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