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how do you make things when you are horribly depressed and tired 24/7 and have no motivation to do anything. i dont have the energy to do Anything i enjoy i can get things done fine like necessities and eating and work its just the moment i Wanna do something i like its Over i Cant Do It. i want to draw so bad!!!!! i love creating!!!!!!! im incapable of doing it though!!!!! i am a wild animal running in frantic circles in its cage
#i dont know if its art block#maybe kinda but im also just#generally more fatigued#and i dont feel like doing things#nothing specific going on to make me feel as bad as i do#but the depression is Hitting Harder lately!!!#i am on medication at least#its just not doing much recently#im not miserable 24/7 but i also am not getting joy out of much#and when i do its only for a short period of time#im SICK OF IT i want to draw again#i wanna make things!!! so bad!!!!
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My personal understanding of the situation
#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 medic#tf2 miss pauling#tf2 pauling#i wish i was home and could draw this digitally or at least well#i found out medics name at 2 am and couldn't go back to sleep from hysterics. funniest choice of a name for him istg#and i realized we were given miss Paulings name in the comic 5 minutes before drawing this#i love both their names. i will forever mourn Joseph Ludwig#but#this is so funny its so worth it#and flo..... Florence Pauling.... okay lesbian omg......... i#good for her#i hope she's happily married to the loveliest woman who loves her sm#and i hope medic doesn't cry himself to sleep after heavy laughs at his name for 3 hours
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mentioned Ibe in the previous post so in case anyone doesn't know him he is a doctor who makes medical illustrations showing black people.
and my personal favourite:
#dengue one is personal yeah I got comments on how at least it doesn't look so bad on my skin#because lighskin as I am rash still looks more brown than bright pink on me. but we associate it with the bright pink spots#even if it's mainly pardas and black women catching it so yeah it changed something in me seeing a black man in the drawing#it's not by him I think the illustrator is a woman doctor even but his association does have a drawing of a black woman bit by a mosquito#which isn't something I expected myself to be so excited and emotional about but. yeah#my first contact with him was in one of my classes in college about publishing school materials#and fuck if it didn't solidify a lot of reflection about the images that go on textbooks#which yes. includes women only appearing if the condition is exclusively of the female sex in this#but fuck if his work didn't make me cry. I'm an educator and the daughter of a black healthcare professional. and I never thought about it#how every single anatomical drawing I had seen in my life and even photographs of medical conditions. had been of white people#I come from a predominantly black family with a history of skin cancer dammit. I had never questioned it. part of me was embarrassed of me
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I think. some people are so eager to fit everything that pisses them off into their political framework that they end up with very strange takes
#spitblaze says things#not everything u dont like is a moral or political issue#sometimes things or people are just annoying or a pain in the ass or dont vibe with u#i am forever thinking about the takes i saw on here in like the late 2010s that were like#'homework is a capitalist invention made to condition people into thinking taking their work home with them is normal'#and a different take i saw a bit ago along the lines of#'diseases and diagnoses are arbitrary and made up completely for the benefit of the medical and insurance industries'#which. i dont think thats true at all if im being honest#like at the very least im positive its not a profit motive thing. if it was then every single individual symptom would be its own diagnosis#but also someone not getting any medicine from getting diagnosed doesn't bring in money either??? idk that one just hurts my brain a bit
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A redraw of an old thing because exam season is the only time i get creative energy ig
#but no fr i just came home from 2 consecutive exams. like consecutive as in one after the other in 2 hours#next week is all finals and theyre all like 2 hours 1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon like bro#whatevs tho medical update THE MEDS ARE WORKING alhamdulilallah i feel im getting way more energy :)#2 years on immunosuppressants and at least 3 months of corticosteroids which means no salt :( BUT we are getting thru it#im cooking again :')#ok enough my life is not what you're here for. idk if cbeeduo at the end of 2023 *is* but idc#i just rly missed them yk and the vibes and the place i was in plus i have fun drawing them so suck it#i hope my good cbee mutuals enjoy this love yall#my art#dsmp fanart#cranboo#ctubbo#cbeeduo#fashion notes for the cool peeps still reading is i am dying on the hill that cranboo was decked in a 70s aunt wardrobe argue with the wall#also tubbo cowboy cus. like. look at him.#will probably draw tommy next i rly miss him. nothing big as always im a doodle kinda guy at heart#anyway xoxo love yall still here <33#fennec.art
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please. “there is no ethical consumption under late stage capitalism” does not mean that all consumption is EQUALLY unethical. it’s a structural critique of systems of production it’s not a get-out-of-guilt-free carte blanche to invoke while carelessly consuming whatever you want
#knowing that there’s no perfect or accessible choice for many things doesn’t mean every choice is equally justified#i don’t think medical supply chains are v ethical but i still consume a lot of plastic for medical reasons#but where i am able to make choices i at least want to think abt the ethics yknow? even if it’s all bad?#i thought y’all loved lesser evils#consumerism
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what do you think about the charters (Nico, Percy and others) using mobility aids? (Especially after all the wars, fights, and other general injures they've probably got over the years)
I may be biased as someone who uses mobility aids, but I definitely think more demigods should have mobility aids in general. Nico in particular definitely could use it with how often he collapses and with how he generally exhibits some symptoms of low blood pressure at the very least if not POTS or EDS. I'm particularly biased to drawing him with my own crutches, lol (they have knee rests!!!!).
Also I always love seeing Grover with crutches. He was introduced as having a muscular disease - i know that's implied to be just cause he's actually a satyr, but also he's the only satyr to be described as "walking like every step hurt." So give him crutches!!!! He needs them!!!
I dont have any particularly strong opinions for other characters, except maybe usually giving Leo a prosthetic leg so he can thematically match his dad and sometimes crutches alongside that, and my friends and I have talked about Jason using a rollator before, particularly in Jason Lives!AUs. But regardless I always love discussing comorbidity between various other conditions and disabilities with ADHD and dyslexia and a not insignificant number of those comorbidities may require mobility aids. Functionally demigods are kind of more like intensive athletes with magic healthcare, and very few are on the level of like Nico where they've been through the wringer so much that it has lasting effects on them - actually very few in general seem to get a lot of physical damage that doesn't get healed quickly (i think in part cause most campers don't actually go on quests). mostly just psychological damage - so i don't think every demigod would need mobility aids, but like statistically there should probably be more just given the comorbidity stuff to begin with. Everybody who's come back from the dead should probably have more going on with them though imo.
#ask#Anonymous#pjo#riordanverse#headcanon#headcanons#eds nico#disabled nico#disability#I WANNA TALK ABOUT DEMIGOD ADHD/DYSLEXIA COMORBIDITY!!!!!#i will say though as much as i love nico with mobility devices sometimes the fandom gets weird about it :(#i think mostly cause the fandom infantilizes nico a lot to begin with as an autistic/disabled character#(or at least more visibly disabled than his peers)#also i think just most of the fandom is unfamiliar with mobility devices in general and just kind of randomly throw stuff at him#(really the fandom is just kind of unfamiliar with disability topics in general and has some bad habits/oversights because of it)#(even when it comes to just adhd/dyslexic/etc stuff the fandom can lean pretty ignorant and etc which is kind of ironic)#ftr if people want explanations of stuff i am perfectly willing to talk about mobility devices and other medical stuff/assistive things#and how i think those would relate to pjo or specific characters within my realm of knowledge
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#blissey#looming#they're soooo proud of this egg#anyway why is this one of the three-ish designated Medic Pokémon? the bitches you always see at pokémon centers#this and audino#the pink motherfuckers. the generally Effeminate motherfuckers#is it just because they match nurse joy. or is there some other reason here#hmmmmm .#ahh well. these guys#in legends arceus. if you're low on health. and you go near them#normally they're all skittish but#they'll come up to you and try to help you if you're low on health. which i think is a cute detail#i think this is true‚ at least. i should always make a point of saying that#because my memory is incredibly fallible#and i am also somewhat gullible
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TMNT: Stabilize [ part one ]
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#fuck it we ball#see i told yall fifteen pages was reasonable#tmnt stabilize#tmnt iteration#tmnt fan comic#tmnt fan iteration#tmnt comics#blood#blood and injury#self harm#psychosis#kinda sorta#thats the closest thing i figure i can put that'll work as a cw tag i think?#chronic illness#y'all know im always trying to find new ones to torment turtles#this guy has got kinda dark themes#degenerative illness and kids taking care of themselves and medical shit and all that jazz#and daddy splinter being mentally not there for at least some of the time#part of me is like shouldnt we wait until its not two am to post this#shouldnt we wait for a better time#but then im like#the most well received tmnt comic uve made yet u posted at 4 am the moment you finished it#so why not#fuck it#lesgo#fidgetwing#tmnt
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One day I need to figure out the one drink/food that can sustain me when im extremely exhausted
Ya panda is rawdogging life by sheer will because:
1. Coffee makes me sleepy (or give me a head splitting headache no in between)
2. Tea works although not too long
3. Music also work sometimes but not consistent
#am I envy of people who can rely on caffeine to stay awake? a bit even if its not a good thing#me counselling the patient: it is important to get at least 8 hours of sleep for proper rest and regulations#also me: is awake for 18 hours with 4 hours of sleep on most week days#the only best solution is this thing call 风油精#it is chinese medicated oil that has a spicy smell which keeps me awake#also great for headaches#that or yoko yoko (also spicy smell) but that is used for muscle aches#anyways i go sleep now#gummmyspeaks
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as much as i complain abt studies i think i really fit where i am. it makes me happy :3
context: i just got prescribed some antibiotics & my first reaction was "WHOOP >:D" & immediately reading and highlighting the leaflet lol
fun fact about me i have been saving and storing away drug leaflets (yk the ones that come with medicine) for YEARS i have quite the collection. been reading them for as long as i remember and my favourite section was always the side effects lmao.
i adore blood tests and injections so so much (tbf this one is fairly new i used to hate needles when i was younger). big fan of vaccines, the true mvp and loml. venous blood is my favourite colour IT PRETTY
#i am a weird person there is no denying the fact#but every now and again i realise just how weird i am#i break the fourth wall with myself and its always hysterical#to me at least idk#now that i think about it#this probably isnt universal to med/ healthcare students#(unless it does in which case pls tell me)#this is made 17 times funnier when u know i failed pharma TWICE (but passed my resit exams both times lmao)#med school#med student#medical school#medical student#medical#me stuff#antibiotics#i wasnt expecting bacteria ngl im shooketh#cant believe it#baby's first diagnosis WAS WRONG#idk still have to read the report thingy for myself. will update#(unless its too much lol in which case im sorry)#lol
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Gyjo in the fandom
cw: light discussion of ableism
Gyjo… what am I thinking about gyjo…
I like them. I like them a lot, actually. They have paralleled narrative arcs, they complement each other nicely, the romantic subtext is incredibly obvious to the point that even the most homophobic fan you know will admit they understand why people ship it… so why do I also have a problem with it?
There’s a lot of good fanart. Hell, I’ve reblogged plenty. Maybe it’s just something that’s more pronounced in fic.
I’m trying to word this correctly. My issue with gyjo has nothing to do with the text itself. I think my problem is just how people portray it in the fandom.
Maybe it’s because it’s so popular, or maybe it’s the sheer prominence of applying ‘Character A’ and ‘Character B’ dynamics without considerable regard for the characters involved, but I feel gyjo is very prone to flanderization. I believe the intersection with how ableist people are toward Johnny (intentionally or not, subtly or not) and the old tropes these two get shoved into makes it so I have trouble enjoying fics in the fandom.
I’m not saying it’s bad to enjoy certain tropes. I’m not saying headcanons are bad either. What I am saying is that writing is hard, but if you’re going to write fanfiction please have consideration for the characters you’re writing. The arcs of these two are complex and multilayered, which is why I think they have such staying power, but I also think they also provide a good opportunity for us as writers and artists to examine our biases when it comes to the portrayal of certain groups, personality types, mental illnesses, queerness, disability, etc. and maybe come out better people for it.
#gyjo#steel ball run#sbr#jjba#very rough idea of my thoughts concerning their portrayal in the fandom#imo there’s weird implications in any situation where gyro is written as johnny’s doctor or some such since it presents many power issues#again: what I am Not saying is that you can’t have a medical kink or whatever it may be#it’s just that#there’s a prevalence of ableist presentations of Johnny in so many ways but for me it’s especially bad in gyjo fic for whatever reason#perhaps it’s people continuing to write heterocized power tropes for a gay couple#on top of an already complicated presentation of disability and mental illness in the form of Johnny#(thanks Araki)#and to be honest gyro is not treated much better. he’s usually very ooc. I think its probably due to just how much he changes that#people could just find it easier to pick a certain aspect of his personality and make that the whole thing#but I just don’t enjoy the gyjo that’s in the ao3 tag. and I want to emphasize there *is* good stuff by people who do treat these topics#with respect#but it’s not the norm which makes it just not enjoyable to check out the tag#at least to me#vent post#kind of#my posts#gyro Zeppeli#Johnny Joestar#ugh I don’t even know why I’m writing all this#to reiterate this is me talking. on my blog. please don’t hate spam or w/e
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me, an aroace: *talking about being aroace*
dumbass coworker who is making her masters in psychology her entire personality: okay but have you considered that psychology thinks your lack of attraction is a form of psychological dysfunction?
#ara rambles#I Am Tired#i think at the very least psych majors should take a basic history class before they talk about any concept in psych#you wanna speak on psychology of sexuality? well you shouldnt be fucking allowed if you cant talk about#the role of psychology in legitimizing and medicalizing homophobia!!!#thats just my opinion tho!!!!!
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Hey y'all! Do you have any advice about making smoothies? Like, what kinds of fruit and veggies go well together, what combos very much don't work, and especially if you have any advice on what frozen fruits or veggies work best. I am thinking about trying making smoothies but I know pretty much nothing about it lol
#the person behind the yarn#food mention#I don't even know where to start when it comes to making smoothies#except that I should avoid coconut (allergic) cucumber (possibly allergic) and bananas (sometimes allergic)#and that I should probably stick to frozen fruits and veggies as much as I can#because I have histamine issues#and while I tolerate some fruits very well#some fruits I do not#so this will be a bit of trial and error#but dang. I just really want to be eating more fruits and veggies before I end up with Yet Another Vitamin Deficiency#(my body processes several vitamins and minerals Very Wrong so I have to take...a lot of supplements)#(plus I am on medication to fix some of them that messes up other vitamins. it's a process)#and when it comes to ways to eat frozen fruits and veggies smoothies seem to be the best way#or maybe not best but most efficient?#I tried with non-frozen fruits and veggies but the produce in Tennessee goes bad SO QUICKLY#or at least so quickly compared to where I used to live#so...frozen! frozen fruits and veggies
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being disabled is expensive
i hardly ever have the energy to cook
and sometimes physically can't stand long enough to do so
so i have to get quick premade, precut or precooked food
im also autistic and there are certain foods i can't eat
and safe foods i need for days im struggling from a sensory standpoint
its tiring to have to equate for these extra costs
and disability insurance doesn't cover them
food has become a luxury item in this economy
and the first affected are going to be the poor and disabled
#.faeposting#i just had to get groceries#and i get groceries per fornight#but i am one person#and it came to over $100#for ONE PERSON#i can afford it but i have to plan for it yk?#not to mention im out of the house a lot with uni and other commitments so have to get external food just solely from not being near#any other options at the time#which is even more expensive#and im transitioning so i need more food due to literal puberty#im so tired of capitalism#disability#disability justice#capitalism#anticapitalism#anti capitalism#anticapitalist#anti capitalist#disabled#crippunk#cripple punk#cripplepunk#crip punk#not to mention the cost of my meds#and every other medical expense#on top of existing#i have insurance for those at least#but thats being threatened to be taken away#and i dont really have enough to last till november
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Every now and then i have a reminder of my fear that i go on testosterone or get top surgery and i regret it. And then i remember how i view gender and sexuality. They are fluid things. Especially mine. But I’ve thought about it. I’d be happier on HRT. I’d be happier without my tits. So what if I’m not a boy? Maybe I’m just a sick ass butch. Shit changes. Exploration of the self is necessary.
OP is a minor!
#not quite sure where i was going with this#i am a boy. at least right now. i think if i was able to medically transition I’d be happier. one day. one day.#personal#transgender#trans#trans guy#trans boy#transmasc#queer
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