#i am my worst enemy

[whispering-clan]

Why do the demons in me keep making these fucking character designs so complicated 💀

Yall I might need to make simplified versions of these cats Creekslip ur stripez killing meeeee

[aniimoni]

having drawings with lore and not being able to share with the class is pissing me off and motivating me even more to finish this comic

[andrastes-cheeks]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN AO3 IS DOWN, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO BEFORE BED???

[thatstoomanysausages]

After Scar died in the cactus ring, the lilacs and poppies in his hair and behind his ear turned to spider lilies.

They died as Scar did, and Grian would never have the part of their reunion with him, as every lilac and poppy he touched wilted, and in its place would quickly bloom a bouquet of spider lilies.

[noddynods]

So guess who has a new obscure ship fixation that has no content on the internet

Listen i just think Luigi should get two prince boyfriends as a treat

[oodlesndoodles]

I’ve gyat to be real, I don’t know why u gave her so many details.

sigh.

[luffysprincess]

I get so caught up in tiny insignificant details and then I wonder why it takes me for-fucking-ever to write anything 🙄

[hungryhannya]

Thinking of posting update links to my fics but then i have to organize my tumblr page + tags and im lazy but it would help others to see my work easier but also im lazy…

[lawfuljude]

at home. working on it. And by “it” I mean…well, absolutely nothing.

[jellyfishbeansontoast]

was so tired today and now it’s almost 4am and i haven’t slept bcs i have a headache and my neck hurts

[daffodilsinspring]

Mocks are coming up for me😣

Good lock to everyone in exams❤

🌸Here's a cute song to cheer you up🌸

[urdadsceilingfan]

YES I LOVE REVERSE PORTAL AUS!

And honestly I can only IMAGINE the sheer amount of guilt Ford will feel once that portal is turned on and Stan steps out of it alive and well and missing an ARM. The guilt he feels knowing that Stan was alive the whole time and he never turned on the portal, not even once to save him. The guilt would eat him up, seeing the twin brother that he knew, hollow, traumatized and changed forever. And what would be even worse is Stan forgiving him upon seeing him.

Most would say Stan would be angry. But honestly Stan is the type of guy that would blame himself, he’d take one look at Ford and hug him cuz he missed Ford, and that makes Ford feel that much worse, cuz Stan should be enraged, he should hate him, because Ford hates himself. He’s convinced himself all these years that his brother was dead, cuz it was easier to think that, when in reality he was just telling himself that so he wouldn’t have to face the guilt and shame of choosing the world over his brother, his family.

When he knew if the roles were reversed Stan would do everything to get him back, because he loved him that much, the world be damned, he would get him back. Because that was Stan and Ford realizes with horror that hadn’t been him, for 30 years that hadn’t been him, and he feels like the worst human in the world.

AGHHHH THE ANGST ITS IN MY BRAINNN

I’m so sorry I completely forgot this was in my drafts

Throughout Stanleys travel he’s constantly thinking “wow he [Stanford] would have loved this place” or “ I always ruin everything, maybe this time I won’t get in anyone’s way” Because through everything he held onto his family as we can see through the years he lived in his car and never fully blamed Ford for it

Stanley would definitely be upset at Ford when he realizes nobody has been in the basement since the incident and even more so that Ford never even tried to open the portal again,In my head Stan did punch Ford after Ford started rambling asking if he was dreaming

“Stanley? No it’s, No it can’t be you, I must be having some sort of fever dream-“

*gets punched*

“Did that feel real enough for you”

I believe it would take time to forgive his brother but he definitely doesn’t hate Ford either

The sheer GUILT ripping Ford apart he almost can’t stand looking at his brother after his return, wishing Stan would just yell or punch him again instead of looking at him with a half smile or complaining about how high the prices have gotten

All of the twins efforts to get him to have a decent sleep schedule during the summer is thrown out the window But why? Stanleys back and safe now! He’s alive he should be having the most peaceful sleep of his life!

In one moment Ford finds himself back the night his brother was kicked out, their no, his room was quiet and empty with no loud snores to remind him he’s not alone and that Stan is right there for him but now Stanley is back! Only he doesn’t snore anymore, pretty sure he doesn’t sleep much at all anymore, really sure he isn’t the same anymore

Both of them made mistakes and ones not more at fault then the other but they each carry self blame

[taknyanz]

woah alright clay lol.. some sketches for today

[verucac]

Update: 26 written, 5 to go (3 ideas are already in my head, but for the last two I'm still looking for inspiration - day 31 is the worst because it's "free/no prompt")

Editing is slow, but there is progress (we are talking about more than 22000 words)

I'm a master of creating my own problems.

I am currently being held hostage by my muse.

I found this Kinktober list and now I am 'somehow' forced to write 31 kinky stories.

Good news: 22 are written, 3 more ideas are in my head, only 6 to go.

Bad news: All still need editing. But there is over a month left until the beginning of October.

It was a mistake to start writing again. Once I start, i can't seem to stop anymore.

[crimsonbubble]

these are the hands that pull your hips back when he's giving you backshots

[lovesickeros]

popping in randomly after almost an entire month just to talk non stop about the tsaritsa again everyone sit down.

specifically just thinking about the implications of tsaritsa's ideals originally being about love + the abandonment of those ideals to complete her goal of, presumably, destroying Celestia or whatever she's cooking up. to the point even her people don't love her and I probably don't even remember a time her ideals were of love. now it's all just ice and snow and cold.

which makes romantic fics w her even funnier because she's purposely removed this part of herself and suddenly reader walks into teyvat like they own the place (they do) and I can only imagine her reaction. angry, probably. because why you? what are you doing to her that's caused her hundreds of years of strict adherence to rejecting "love" both from others and to others to just. collapse. absolute shattering of her world and you probably don't even know it bc if nothing else she's good at hiding it. a lot of denial. tries to pick you apart and see what's makes you so different.

and oh she just hates it. she loathes it.

basically one sided enemies to lover trope because she can't stand you for a while but if you stick around she starts warming up to you and it makes it WORSE. so much worse. tries to distance herself but your just everywhere and it gets on her nerves because why does she love you? she isn't capable of love, not anymore. she thought she was.

g-d forbid one of the harbingers or PIERRO notices she'd never live it down. might even consider the implications of just killing you (she doesnt). worse if you know about it and act like a brat she will lose her damn mind

just the tsaritsa being an absolutely horrible mess internally.