#i am meredith grey

[anastasial0vesy0u]

“she’s so me!” and it’s just a bitch with a severe avoidant attachment style who thinks she’s unlovable

[liveorganism]

cristina going into preemptive grief and trying to distance herself only to come back a WRECK and be one of the most impacted people by meredith almost dying AND the person who literally could not give up on her and insisting on another try and meredith's wacky death dream singling out cristina and her literal boyfriend as the two people who would be destroyed and who she couldnt bear to part with, and the way burke almost bitterly tells cristina to go to the woman she calls her person like he knows she would choose meredith over him in a heartbeat. sorry but that was the most insanely romantic greys thing for me CRISTINA LITERALLY BROUGHT MEREDITH BACK TO LIFE AND STAYED WITH HER WHEN SHE WOKE UP THEYRE EACH OTHERS PERSON

[detective-jane-rizzoli]

[lesbiansayaishii]

i need a touch starvation meredith character study. a touch starvation disorder, if you will. walk with me,

[libbybuxbaum]

if taylor’s cats wrote speak now they’d call it speak meow

[morallygreyintrovert]

Guys HELP I’m at the hospital for a breast appointment after a finding a lump and I’m waiting for a scan and freakin’ ‘Chasing Cars’ by Snow Patrol starts playing, so I’m dying?? Right??

[toxic-yuri-poll]

ROUND TWO

[dumbs0ckss]

no one will ever understand him like I do

[zyrafowe-sny]

Earl Grey Meredith Blitzmeyer Appreciation Day

[try-set-me-on-fire]

Optimistically working on the cover image for trapped buck and chris fic even though I probably have another 2-3k to write…. Interact with this post if you want to be tagged when I post it?

[horsetailcurlers2]

YET ANOTHER long and obnoxious stream of my thoughts while watching greys anatomy for the first time (SEASON 16 bc i decided i will try to catch up to you guys who are awaiting S20)

-tom koracick, despite all outward appearances, is far too nice

-bailey pisses me off sometimes bc she usually isn’t wrong, but within the parameters of how everyone behaves on the show, her decisions feel wrong, yk? like irl absolutely she should have fired them without a doubt. but in this soapy medical show in which everyone commits malpractice five times a week, it feels like she’s overreacting lmao. does that make any sense?

-meredith in her community service outfit is kind doing something to me

-a man on a scooter just ran into maggie and amelia’s car and it startled me so bad i drew blood with my cross-stitching needle!

-lisa ann walter!! and charmed cast in the same ep!

-bailey and i are beefing actually

-do NOT have another affair, richard webber

-“how come my mom hasn’t called from sleepover community service?” sleepover community service PLS

-a lumineers song in the background!!! the music is good again

-why is owen pulling this bullshit again!!!!!!!!!!

-bailey is making me so fucking mad right now. she has no room to act morally superior considering some of the shit she’s pulled. she also continues to have this attitude that meredith should owe her something for being her teacher…. which is sort of valid but let’s not pretend that bailey doesn’t owe meredith quite a bit too. idk again it’s one of those things again where in real life, she’s be perfectly justified but within the fictional guidelines set up by the show, she’s being a vindictive asshole.

-patricia!!!!!

-“she is the sun and she is unstoppable” !!!!!

-addison wrote one too!!!!

-this episode is potentially a little too sentimental and overly emotional but i really really like it. the nostalgia bait made me like it even more actually

-more lumineers!!!! i really like this episode. (i’ll stop now but it’s the first episode in a really long time that i’ve really enjoyed the entire thing)

-everyone is being really dramatic about koracick he really isn’t that bad

-i want to like schmitt it just feels like we were sort of thrown into deep emotional story lines for him without getting to know him beyond surface level. maybe it’s just me it just feels like the show wants me to have a certain level of emotional investment in him that i don’t have (yet?)

-beanie feldstein!

-teddy’s sparkly little winter hat is so cute

-TEDDY NO. i don’t mind if you cheat on owen tbh but plz don’t play with tom’s feelings instead of facing your problems.

-i’ll not comment a lot on the alex thing bc i had spoilers for it and honestly it’s just so ridiculous. it’s one of those things that i don’t blame the character for bc i know it was the writers and other irl circumstances. i imagine from izzies perspective this is the culmination of a beautiful crazy love story akin to the notebook. but from our perspective this sounds like the lie you tell your kids when the family dog dies- “oh he went to live on a farm”

-does richard have another brain tumor??? this doesn’t seem like a relapse but…

-i know it’s wrong but i wouldn’t mind this affair if i thought the show was treating teddy/tom as a serious option. as it stands, i just think teddy is being selfish

-i knew the baby wasn’t gonna be owens

-i KNEW this would be a boy who cried wolf situation with deluca. unfortunately, he also is struggling mentally i think but i don’t know if he’s manic or suffering from a break. they had me convinced i was wrong for a minute, but i knew it would turn out that he was right about the girl being trafficked. but i definitely think that he was nowhere near ready to come back to work and that the psychologist should not have cleared him. i hope he gets the help he needs soon bc i really like deluca :(

-the conference in LA would’ve been the perfect opportunity for an addison cameo

-OOH A TWIST IN TEDDY’S BACKSTORY. this explains a lot

-OOH SO MANY TWISTS THIS EPISODE.

-i am fighting for my life trying to defend teddy in my head. i hate owen as much as the next guy but this whole thing is brutal to watch.

[butch-kyouka]

[idolbound]

You only know what I want you to I know everything you don't want me to Oh, your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine You think your dreams are the same as mine

Ooh, I don't love you, but I always will Ooh, I don't love you, but I always will I don't love you, but I always will I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back The less I give the more I get back Ooh, your hands can heal, your hands can bruise I don't have a choice, but I still choose you

Oh, I don't love you, but I always will Oh, I don't love you, but I always will I don't love you, but I always will Oh, I don't love you, but I always will I don't love you, but I always will I don't love you, but I always will I don't love you, but I always will I always will

I always will I always will I always will I always will

[i-perfect-please]

Watching greys anatomy while youre drunk isss the best thing everrrrrrr

[lesbiansayaishii]

how did one way revenge at derek for not telling meredith about addison turn into three way revenge (meredith against derek for mistreatment of addison, derek against addison for sleeping with mark, addison against meredith for dating finn (minorly))

[escapingreality101]

i want to live with someone and have them KNOW me. all my little quirks and the things i do that maybe I don't even realize, that make up who i am and love me entirely. i feel like nobody really knows me or maybe i'm too scared to let people know me, but i want that. i want to be seen and known and loved. i want to be someone's number one priority and vice versa. maybe not an all consuming love but love none the same. that's in the little things and idk. i just want to be cared for and feel like i matter to that person and that my presence is wanted in their life. i don't know if i want to be someone where i am needed by them or if being wanted is enough. i don't know if i want a relationship where either of us can't survive without the other. i just want something warm. i feel like i'm always holding parts of myself back and i just want to be free in this person's presence and feel safe enough to just be ME.