#i am just manic today

[wannaeatramyeon]

Hello 🤗

I just wanted to say that i love your blog hehe

I hope you can mention some other lookism blogs that you like that i will enjoy or maybe one of your favourite mutuals?

This is a GREAT ask but I MADE A COMPREHENSIVE DRAFT AND TUMBLR FUCKED IT. Holy shit I am going to rage.

Anyway, I started to type out literally my whole following list. Searched for Lookism tags. Searched in blogs for posts to recall my memory. It was getting out of hand. This exercise and tumblr fucking me over has made me UNWELL. I started on this over TWO hours ago 😭😭😭

So... I've culled and got a list of writing blogs with more comprehensive masterlists/fics below. (I am so sorry if I've missed anyone out. I can bet I read your stuff and LOVED it but if I have to format and copy and paste or whatever I think I will legit keel over and die. And I'm currently on a teams work call LOL. Please forgive me)

But seriously, the talent and FUN in this fandom. I cannot exaggerate the way I have scoured Tumblr for tags and crumbs, scrolling through and reading everything. This goddamn fandom has made me obsessed and love characters I never paid a second glance to

@royaltyoon SHE'S BACK AND ACTIVE. A mix of fun and angst. Johan simp, but tbh I think about the Goo tie fic and Vin Jin hc every day

@lookismaddict does any Gun simp not know of this person? Rendezvous will guarantee to get you hot and bothered

@lookismfanfics sweetest writing AND THE ACTOR AU POSTS. READ THESE

@amayochew great fics and also the funniest incorrect lookism. Makes me lol everytime

@anticapitalistclown Soooooo many hc. A LOT of fun scenarios

@lokislytherin Jay/Daniel. It's canon. Can't change my mind. The funnest AUs!

@zaiisaii the steamiest NSFW (you'll need a cold shower afterwards)

@4ut0p5y hc that are absolute nuggests of joy

@spaceyflowerswriting THE FORMAT. Asks sent as messages, texts etc. And they respond in character!

@lychee-drinks really fun works and hc, some of the best domestic stuff (and NSFW)

@bread-writes No longer active :( I can't even remember that much of their stuff, I just remember INHALING it all

@vascoprints No longer active :( not a lot of Lookism hc but the writing will embed itself into your brain

@k-dokja I live in FEAR everyday that they will delete their account/posts. I might have reblogged them like crazy to create my own archive lol. Amazing Lookism + HTF writing (less active in this fandom). The Taehoon fics are like crack

[dangeroustaintedflawed]

ariana grande and mac miller, shooting ‘the way’ music video ౨ৎ

[strawberrybyers]

realizing i’m so funny and talking a lot and making a million plans right now is not because i am healing for a new year new me era but because i am entering a state of ✨hypomania✨

[gayteddy]

stays up until 5am writing 4k of OC fanfiction that 3 people tops will ever see including myself. <3

[thatdemiboymess]

Getting that laundry done! (<- is severely out of breath and faer heart is beating out of its chest)

[queeriboh]

debby I am hungover/still drunk I am not dealing with your negative ass today holy shit

[glittergoats]

Fuck This World—A Nightheart PMV

(YT link below cut)

[dykethang]

i need more bipolar vibes songs. Honestly. like yeah there's bipolar baby! by ftsk but like. there needs to be fucking more. i can't just listen to this song and maps by tfb and get better by frank turner on repeat. unfeasible.

[jackgoodfellow]

[WIP]

I need to make a Facebook post soon to update my friends and family on where I'm at in terms of my general wellbeing. I have been very isolated, and while I am getting better, I at least want my friends to know that I have ghosted them due to severe illness rather than a lack of love.

For motivation, I told myself i could make some art to go with it, but uhhh... I think maybe it is too scary for Facebook? 😅 But then again, it is both eye-catching and accurate, even if it doesn't incorporate the kind of righteous rage and feral joy I sometimes find in survival. But that's an art project for another day.

This was basically DIY art therapy. Maybe someday I'll post all the paintings I made when I was in art therapy in IOP! I have tried a lot of different therapies, and art therapy is in my top 3 "therapies that actually work on me." I hope those paintings haven't warped too much in storage...

[orcelito]

Coworker also reassured me about the tattoo idea I've had not being that cliche

I still feel like it's pretty cliche. But. Also...

[one-winged-dreams]

I feel awful and terrible and everything sucks, supersoldier taking me into his beefy arms when

[orangetintedglasses]

( in fact what if I just upcycle all the old twin-centric things I had for Vash and Nai and throw a big middle finger at narc. ex in the process because fuck him )

[wwiitchcraft]

i am trying to love myself enough to recognise that im not a bad person or awful or unredeemable and despite all of that, i still am sitting here wishing i had the guts to die

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

"I'm so hungry," I say as I endlessly scroll through Tumblr instead of making dinner. Seriously the ingredients are in the fridge, the recipe is in front of me, please for the love of god

[citizen-zero]

WIBTA for taking advantage of my boss’ possible manic episode?

I know this already sounds bad but hear me out.

So I (30M) am the sole employee of this guy (62M) who’s honestly just a miserable boss and an even more miserable person. It sucks so bad working for him—the pay is horrendous, he’s verbally abusive, and the working conditions are awful (in the winter I literally have to stay bundled up the whole work day because he refuses to put the heat on in the office). He wouldn’t even give me holidays off if it wasn’t for the fact that there’s basically nothing to do those days because everywhere else is closed. I’m almost positive he unironically thinks poor people should die if they can’t work. His nephew (aka his only living relative and just the nicest guy) came by yesterday to invite him to Christmas dinner and he told him he’d see him in hell.

I cannot stress this enough—it’s BAD. I’d quit, but it’s been hard finding a better job and I’ve got four kids at home, including one with special needs.

Anyway, so here’s where I’m wondering if I’d be the asshole. Today was Christmas Day and he showed up at my house out of nowhere (huge red flag, I know). At first I thought he’d forgotten I had the day off and he was here to chew me out, which was worrying enough, but then his whole demeanor changed and he was super happy and excited and talking about how he was going to raise my salary. He even mentioned possibly making me a partner in the firm.

Now if that was it, I’d feel a little weird about the suddenness of it but it’d be fine. I’m not going to complain about having more money to feed my family. But then he started talking about how he wanted to pay our mortgage off. He talked about wanting to pay for our son to get the very expensive medical care that’s probably going to save his life. He mentioned at one point that he was going to be donating a huge amount of money to charity too—I knew he was rich but it staggered me. All this from a guy who doesn’t (didn’t?) even want to turn on the heat or the lights because it costs too much money.

It was such a sudden and drastic change that happened very literally overnight and now I’m kind of concerned he’s having a manic episode or something. I really, really want to accept his sudden generosity (I probably will; my wife is all for it and thinks he owes it to us), and I would love to believe that he’s truly had a sudden change of heart (an actual Christmas miracle lol) but I’m just worried about the possible consequences of accepting huge financial gifts like this from someone who I believe might be experiencing some kind of break from reality. Even if there’s nothing legally wrong with it, I’m worried about the ethics of it.

TLDR, my asshole boss might be in the middle of a mental breakdown. WIBTA if I accepted his offer to pay off my mortgage and my son’s medical expenses?

[neverendingford]

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