#i am in hell of my own making
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so i watched all of HBO's The Idol (2023) against my better judgement and unsurprisingly it was ass, i dont have anything to say about it besides what others already said. however then i found out The Weekend posted this and i do have something to say about that.
these are images comparing The Weekend's character Tedros to Tony Montana played by Al Pacino in Scarface (1983). first of all this is an insane thing to post, lets get that out of the way. but then i started really thinking about it and the more i thought about it the more sense it made. throughout the whole show The Weekend's character is nothing but repulsive and unlikable. he talks big shit despite being shorter than almost everybody else including his love interest, is abusive to everyone around him, has a truly terrible haircut. and it clicked for me oh my god. that IS Tony Montana. is that what they were going for with this character?? because Tony manages to be an entertaining and sometimes funny character despite being a horrible person, he's awful in an almost charming way. so was that supposed to be why Jocelyn stayed with Tedros? was he supposed to be awful in an almost charming way? did they try to recreate Tony Montana without having Al Pacino's charisma? i cant stop thinking about it, it's plagued me for days
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Me: oh i have a whole month to do these things, that's like a thing a week, no problem!
Also me: ehhhhh i still have a monthhhh, there's still timeee
#i am in hell of my own making#i mean not *yet*#i still have timeeeee#yes this is a regular occurance#yes i just finished beating myself up over this not two weeks ago#yes it will happen again#katie thinks she's relevant#death by hubris
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had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing
#normally I don't chronicle my dreams here but fucking hell that one was funny#I think this would genuinely make tumblr better tbh#@ staff do this cowards#spy has thoughts#my life is a sitcom and i am my own laugh track#functional website#spy's smash hits#Glock function#edit for everyone in the notes saying 'everyone clapped'#I know I can't prove to you that it happened for real you're just gonna have to trust me on this#but I swear on my goddamn life I'm not making this up#I make so many conscious puns that sometimes my subconscious cooks up a real good one
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A new challenger approaches (slowly)
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen chao#jin zixuan#jiang cheng#lan wangji#tulu xuanwu#Wen Chao's turtlephobia starts now. I wonder if that's ever going to come back into play?#Slight re-ordering of events for the funny punchlines but we're close to getting back on track.#The mianmian stuff happening right after we also have a Torment Tortoise looking for blood makes this scene so chaotic.#A good kind of chaos as it is supposed to be overwhelming and anxiety inducing!#I have been sitting on the idea of the Beast being just a normal turtle with a knife for ages. Years in fact.#It's stupid as hell but that's sometimes what art is. Indulging the past you who would have loved to see the dumb thing be drawn.#Making it canon now that A-Qing's turtle (the one pd-Lan Sizhui found) is a descendant of this turtle.#Maybe she was so defensive because she has eggs she was watching over! How insensitive of these cultivators!#You can insert your own choice of boss music here - I did not grow up playing video games so I have nothing off the top of my head.#I am making a BOTW reference here so you could substitute one of those themes but I find them more melancholic than menacing.
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I know damn well I misunderstood the assignment but we roll, I'll understand it some day
It's killer and dust btw. If you couldn't tell. Which you probably couldn't.. forgor to say but shhh 🤫 Killers having a convo with himself..
..I kinda wanna change my url but idk to what
#I got this compliment once and I was like :3 bc I like compliments. then 4 days later I recognise the name and pfp on#on a tumblr I rlly rlly like bc they're super cool make super cool art and has super cool ideas and I'm just like woah they complement me s#so I search my notifications to find which post they complimented me on and I find out. they're following me. ummm IJWEHFOIWJ#i just can't get over this bc they're literally so cool what#anyways#I got two whole documents of canon dust things and one ao3 of canon things about killer#so I'm learning a way to do justice to the creators image while still putting my own twist on it bc I love fanon and that's how I grew up#I'm literally so passionate about fanon. specifically Gacha fanon bc it's literally so fun and no one else know that#like. literally everyone just like had terrible experience apparently idk how I didn't experience that#am I the only one who knows these characters still had lore Ben though unrelated to anything canon at all#anyways I'm rambling too much whoops#sans au#utmv#undertale au#sanscest#if u want#killer sans#dust sans#kist#if u want...#LOVE affair#teaching myself to use this tag too but eh#did you know Horror is more likely to be a part of the bad Sanses than Dust#Jesus fuck I rambled these tags to hell
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Golden Age boys
#in case anyone was wondering: i ship it#this is my OTP#i am in a fandom of one#there are zero ao3 fics for me#i am in a hell of my own making#please pray for my mortal soul thank you#plastic man#the spirit#patrick eel o'brian#denny colt
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yet another v1 in a fishing shirt
#ultrakill#v1#art tag#i saw a modern au floating around and went 'seems interesting! i wanna make my own too'#so i gotta figure out what sort of clothes everyone would wear#bc what else is modern au for but dressing them all up#(this is hard for me. i am not a clothes kind of person like man just wear anything idc)#anyways v1 was not hard for me to figure out#i believe in v1 wearing fishing shirts (if it wears anything at all). always#auugh shit looks grainy as hell. idk how to fix that
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“But think of the resale value!”
Listen, I am not paying a ridiculous mortgage amount every month just to treat my home like a fucking rental.
If I wake up one day and decide I want a giant hand-painted LOTR map on my bedroom wall, not even god himself could stop me from doing it.
#homeowner perks: getting to do things to your walls that would make your mother faint#owning with a 30yr mortgage was (for my particular region and situation) waaaay cheaper /mo than continuing to rent shitty 500ft apartments#and god knows after I’ve spent so much time doing necessary maintenance on this very neglected home#i am also taking full advantage of the ability to do whatever the hell fun things I want#and that means LOTR wall#shut up e
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me, thinking up a fic with a dense y/n: "Hehehe this will have people pulling their hair out in frustration when they read it >:)"
me, writing said fic, pulling my hair out in frustration: "HOW are you this DENSE he is being so OBVIOUS about it just KISS HIM already!!!!! COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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Ford overestimated his brother's social skills and charisma, thinking that this alone would allow Stan to survive on his own out there. Also, Stan screamed that he didn't need Ford or anyone when he was driving away from home and Ford probably believed that Stan was cutting him from his life by saying that. And the fact that, from Ford's perspective, Stan never tried to contact him again (we know that this is not true but Ford don't) just made this seem true.
Also, if someone didn't desevered Stan was Filbrick. Stan spent over ten years homeless, in poverty, going in and out of prison and getting into trouble with bad groups of people because of Filbrick's decision of kicking him out of home. Stan could have easily died or been seriously hurt in that span of time, under those conditions and that would be Filbrick's fault not Ford's fault.
Yes, tbh. On both accounts.
Ford probably did think Stan'd be fine because of his social skills and charisma. And with caller ID not being a thing, Ford would have no idea Stan did call him during that time, but hung up without saying anything.
And yes, Ford is not the villain here. Filbrick is.
#if i were in ford's position i'd be telling myself stan could make it cause of his charisma and social skills too#hell as it is i know damn well my younger siblings are FAR better equipped to make it in the world on their own than i am#because they actually have charisma and social skills where i am sorely lacking in that department#my little brother's already moved out and is doing fine#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#grunkle ford#stan twins#stanley pines#stan pines#grunkle stan#filthy ford apologist squad#ford defense squad#ford protection squad#anon#answers
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realistically i am aware that diomedes didn’t have any of his father’s boar motif armor because then he wouldn’t have given it away in that armor exchange in the iliad .however. Since it gives a lot of drama for odysseus to see a shadow on the ground of the battlefield of tusks emerging from a massive boulder of a man and for a second in the haze of battle he thinks it’s the boar from his youth come back to finish the job and he blinks and it’s just diomedes. i have elected to ignore canon and just start making shit up
#posts for like 2 mutuals lol#if any others among you care about diomedes reveal yourselves to me immediately#ive been rotting in a hell of my own making (weird greek hero that doesn’t get a lot of fandom action)#I am writing a little something to get some of this brain rot out#this is getting ridiculous#diomedes#odydio#if anyone does know whether Diomedes does for sure have any boar armor during the iliad please tell me because i tried to search but didn’t#get very far
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ill probably delete this in a minute but ive just been fuckin boggled by what ive seen across tumblr in the last few days in particular. its why i havent really been around. like holy fucking shit, its really like some of yall just dont want a chunk of the trans community to exist. like some of yall are thisclose to saying it verbatum. way too many already have. 'shut up sit down be quiet and smile for us' type shit, gee where have i heard that before. oh yeah my entire life cause i was forcefully gendered as someones daughter. shock horror i know. you might be surprised to remember and/or learn that very few trans folks know theyre trans before we're 5, or even 10, and that that gendered experience stays with all of us in both/either small or large ways. either bc we literally dont have a solid identity yet (bc we're very small children), dont have the words, we're repressing it out of fear from how others will treat us, we're actually enjoying or enjoyed being another gender in our childhood, or we just genuinely didnt fuckin know until shit lined up later in life. weird isnt it that transmascs dont pop out as 6'1 brick shithouse cis men when we're born so yall know for certain that we're confused lost girls/women oops i mean big dangerous scary men. its almost like we're transgender too. none of yall actually know what intersectionality is or means
#my t#transandrophobia#yeah ill tag it why tf not#i just dont understand why transmasculinity is scrutinized and dissected like this within the trans community#when its just not the case for other gendered trans folks amongst themselves more often than not these days#which is a good thing! a really really good thing! but why are we scapegoating transmascs#''we need more weird trans people!!'' yall cant even handle like. a pre-everything trans guy coming out for the first time#yall cant handle a pre-everything tguy wearing a tshirt without tearing him to shreds & calling him shit like afag/theyfab & ukelele boy#im tired of my identity being treated as a debate. i had enough of that in highschool as#very literally. **the only trans kid in my grade** surrounded by cis teachers & peers USING ME AND MY BODY AS A TALKING POINT#i was the only one who wasnt deeply closeted that is. and holy fuck do i still not blame anyone for being closeted in that school#why is it only okay to try to separate trans ppl from our gender when we're not fem/me#why is one celebrated and the other treated like radioactive waste **within our own community**#god i need to find an irl community fuckin badly online trans circles are hell on earth#ill be describing smth that happened to me as a clocky tguy and someone else will say TO MY FACE#that what happened to me wasnt bc i was a clocky guy but purely bc i was trans#like i. what. how. how does that make any kind of fucking sense#i wouldnt be clocky if i wasnt trying to look like my gender. like i. hello?#would u say that to any other trans person or am i just that special?
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double life
#masks: a new generation#masks a new generation#ttrpg#pbta#superheroes#dad mode and this job is ruining my life mode#this hell i am in#me before: i don't really care about superheroes#me making my own superheroes: I SEE NOW#gm mode is just going ham on the npcs#masks: overlook city#masks: overlook#trying to explain he's a serious character in the same breath as describing how his life was ruined by a giant dinosaur balloon#TS in rare video footage shouting about how a balloon doesn't have a soul but he does!!! LOL#all my character must struggle to maintain their dignity it's my favorite thing#hard to root for him though he basically chose being a supe over being a good husband and father so... oop.#anyway#true strike#truestrike#antonio salvo#tony salvo#sorry masks tag for flooding you with npc stuff i'm the gm and i still need enrichment
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to rome: a play by fearandhatred
(5k words, 1/1 chapters)
While trying to tempt Caligula, Crowley makes a discovery that renders all his efforts for naught. But then it turns out that Aziraphale is here too, so maybe his trip to Rome isn't wasted after all.
***highly recommended to read on a phone because of the Multiplicity Of Line Breaks that just look very weird on a laptop unless your font size is huge
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i've always loved the idea of crowley falling in love with aziraphale in rome. in some ways it really is my roman empire so i figured i might as well make it happen! featuring many shenanigans and an annoying emperor :)
any and all support is greatly appreciated <3
anyway it all started with a dream:
so this is for @eybefioro @captainblou @crowleys-bentley-and-plants who challenged me to write a fic with no angst and also, coincidentally, for that one commenter who asked me on the same day if i would consider writing something happy for once. against all odds and with much difficulty, i have done it. love u guys sm <333
#fearandhatred#fearandfics#fearandart#i need to stop making that roman empire joke.#thank you to my muse george bernard shaw. i consulted many playbills and plays i owned for this fic but saint joan was the main one#if you guys see any mistakes in the fic. even a Space (especially a space) literally just tell me bc this is unbetaed#also i wish i could have done more monologues like older plays usually have but due to the Nature and Tone of this fic i couldn't#maybe another time i'll do another play but a more serious one because i really wanna try that. but also formatting was hell so maybe not#anyway. begging you to not see this as a measure of my writing skills because i have never done anything like this before#both in concept and in trope (happy)#ok the longer i let this sit the more i started to doubt it was any good so i am going to sleep now lmfaooo goodnight#i literally almost chickened out of posting this helppp it is not that serious#good omens#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#crowley#aziraphale#good omens fanart#good omens fanfic#good omens fic#good omens fic rec
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[ID: a digital drawing of characters from the owl house based on the song "up the wolves" by the mountain goats. At the top of the drawing there's a rectangular panel showing Camila and Eda. Camila looks out at the boiling isles at night with her bat. Eda mirrors her pose, with her arm covered in feathers. Shadows form to look like the collectors face, covering Eda's eyes and parts of Camila. Beneath this panel is a star with King and the Collector inside of it, holding hands and spinning midair. Beneath this is the archway portal from thanks to them, which is glowing, and at the bottom of the image is the hexsquad lined up in their designs from for the future, lit by the portal light and looking determinedly into the distance. The lyrics that span the image are "our mother has been absent/ever since we founded Rome/but there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home". The background is black. End ID]
I knew I couldn't say goodbye to this show without redrawing one of my favorite old pieces, this lyric comic based on Up The Wolves by the mountain goats. I made it pre-ttt and was honestly really vindicated by all the wolf imagery that ep, lmao
#the owl house#toh#toh spoilers#watching and dreaming#luz noceda#hunter toh#willow park#amity blight#gus porter#eda clawthorne#king clawthorne#the collector toh#camila noceda#I REALLY DID DRAW 9 CHARACTERS FOR THIS DIDN'T I#hate this fucking show and the way it has constantly inspired me to push my own artistic boundaries. mad as hell about that#i don't have time for a full-on tag ramble rn but just know that i am so fucking sad about this show ending and fighting with myself#bc it feels like it'd be so much easier to like. shut my love for it off??? in order to not feel as bad about it ending#I've had a year or so with it (barely tho) surely this can satisfy me#but that's just. straight up not true and makes me feel bad in a whole different way#it is weird!! it's weird that this show I've watched 5 times over is ending and i might never get anything else from it#but I'm not gonna let that sour the show or fandom as a whole for me?? if that makes sense#i love this show top to bottom front to back. not bc it's perfect but bc it sees me and i love it for that#also it's really funny and beautiful and well written and. just. AUGHDHDJDJ!!!!!!! I'M NORMAL!!!#okay i have to go shower now#I'm going to gently leave this with you guys. i put a lot into her. do with it as you will#that's all#i love you 💖
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ordered myself a wesker tsum tsum i love poor financial decisions
#i am in a hell of my own making#11pm at night whats a boy to do#he will watch me play 5 like shit and weep#spook skull art#digital art#albert wesker#wesker tsum#re wesker
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