#i am in a trance

[ccrites]

no i did not forget about it's a compliment,

however.

brain worms are dictating that I must write a oneshot with chef!reader and recently dumped Ghost for his lack of cooking skills ...

But not for his lack of knife skills.

because let's be honest, a man having survived on MRE's most of his life would not know how to cook.

but he would know how to sharpen those knives.

and they would meet at an adult's late night cooking class reader teaches

he would not know how to spachcock a hen, too brutal for his own good, nor how to dice an onion in anything smaller than one-inch chunks

brb creating a new google docs

[seneon]

it’s a marsen halloween 💄👻

HELLO OMG THIS IS SO COOL N CUTE

[mafufuu-2-with-cheese]

interpret this how you will and take it with as many grains of salt as is needed

[theabigailthorn]

a musician called Altair sampled the speech I made at my first ever trans pride and turned it into a trance track lmao

okay, now that's fucking cool

[vaguely-concerned]

on the one hand I think inner demons could stand to have a bit more romanced rook specific content, but on the other hand the underlying in-built implication that 'yours is the one true voice of comfort and safety in my inner world' is a sentiment and intimacy so way beyond the romantic or the platonic or any secret third thing you could care to name that it makes me lose my entire poor little mind a bit. it's so big and fundamental — near-existential — that in that exact moment at least the distinctions kind of seem irrelevant.

all the people lucanis' mind conjures up along the way are relationships he has that are unavoidably mixed and fraught in some ways even when they're also full of love (they are fraught BECAUSE they're full of love) — the good in them inseparable from things that hurt him at the same time. (it's about: the basic disorganized attachment patterns this poor guy is dragging around with him. careful with those, they're dellamorte heirlooms. what you love also inevitably hurts you and you won't be allowed to have one without the other, you have to surrender parts of your soul to hold on to what little you have left: this is the story up until now.) and the idea that rook isn't that to him — that beneath the fear of wanting them when romanced (which is more its own separate thing because within this psychology, actively wanting something and not just clinging on for dear life to even a meager status quo lest you lose it is in itself dangerous bordering on catastrophic), this is a relationship where there isn't resentment, or guilt, or shame, or dread, or rage, or self-hate, or any of the other emotions that keep him paralyzed, unable to move this way or that. no debts, nothing owed of yourself and your soul's substance except what you can freely and safely and happily give. love and freedom don't coexist — but, I mean, you're almost starting to make me think........... unless...👀👀👀. the unconditional and undramatic 'you are here and I am here with you, you can be exactly how you are right now with me and it's safe for us both even though you're afraid it won't be, I'm not going anywhere' acceptance rook shows him here that he returns to them in the big romance scene, when it's rook who needs it. the way he's just. standing there in the center of it all, like a child desperately helplessly waiting to be found, hiding in the place he hopes you'll know to look first. (rook does know. it's one of the first things they say in there.)

in short the most important room in his little mind palace for the romance is the very first room — the one where rook isn't. where, in fact, rook cannot be, because they disprove the entire structure of the place with their existence and presence in his life. with everyone else he's putting words in their mouths about what they think of him, and rook is the one who actually gets to come in to speak their own words to him — and have him listen. ('he'll listen to you, he always listens to you', 'your voice is a comfort'.) of course rook isn't present anywhere else in there — at the risk of stating the obvious to a tedious degree, they aren't one of the locks, they're bringing the key. in the very finest 'the messenger and the message' sort of way.

[toanw]

HeartTrace Precure (and their allies)!!

[anonymous-existences]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'VE BEEN *POSSESSED*

DANNY PHANTOM FANART CUZ I AM OBSESSED WITH IT SO MUCH

[arealtrashact]

We tried the gay cake at IKEA and it turned us into bears?!

[hobermallowed]

“My companion is Claudia. My coven is Claudia.”

[duohensheng]

thinking about how, since they’re a folk tale, hua cheng and xie lian are still out there in a shrine somewhere thousands of years later. gods fade away if they’re not worshipped, but as long as hua cheng is there, xie lian will be worshipped. born and reborn for him, time has never been an obstacle. hua cheng is nothing if not tenacious

[ink-stained-clouds]

anyone else ever just stare at their blank essay doc and feel true despair and then go into like the avatar state and suddenly write a whole page?

[scaredforboomboom]

me too jere me too

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

I just had to make 4 gifs of this cute expression lol.

| Tour No0 - Hikari no Teikoku

[toyastales]

Video Presentation of "Am I Tripping" By LaToya Cole

https://toyastales.blogspot.com/2024/07/video-presentation-of-am-i-tripping-by.html

[kelpermoosee]

Some booigi doodles I like, but not enough to finish hehe 💚💜

[ayetei]

You are in a whole different state now..... And this time, it's on purpose!!!! Congrats on tapping into the void last night!!! Look at you!! You knew you were going to do it and YOU DID!! I'm proud of you!!!! ♥️♥️♥️😘