#i am fully aware that i'm the only one on this site that cares about these guys but i love them to death

[wheelin-after-midnight]

I may or may not have taken this one recently. I can't tell. Whatever. It's fine.

45.

Do you believe you’ve met your soulmate or one of them?:

I sure do.

When did you last have grape juice?:

I don't like grape juice.

Have you learned anything today?:

What a loyal friend Brittany is. Not that I wasn't fully aware of it already, she just proved it to me again.

Have you been to any parties here recently?:

Not really.

Are you good at reading body language?:

Sometimes yes, sometimes not.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?: idk. It's never enough.

What were the last 3 emojis you used?:

😑🤢🥰

Is it currently warm where you live?:

No.

Do you use Facebook?:

Just the messenger. I haven't made a post since 2019 ish.

Do you like the smell of coconut?:

Love the smell, hate the taste.

Do you prefer longer or short socks?:

I don't care.

What size shoe do you wear?:

11+

Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream?:

Neither. I'm not big on ice cream. Really have to be craving it to eat it. That doesn't happen often.

Where is your favorite place to be?:

Out with Brittany, here with Nippy.

How many times have you fallen in the past year?:

None. Let's not jinx it.

Do you like to leave your window open at night or do you use a fan?:

Usually neither.

Is there a celebrity you dislike for no reason other than they annoy you?:

Oprah really irritates me, but not for no reason. I used to kinda like her. I'm ashamed to admit that, tbh.

If you find a spider in your home, do you set it free or kill it?:

Neither. I usually just leave it alone.

Would you say you’re addicted to social media?:

Pffft, no.

How many pets have you had in your lifetime?:

Only one who's all mine that I raised. Six or seven if you count family pets as a kid.

Do you sunburn easy?:

If I don't wear sunscreen, yeah.

Of all the houses you’ve lived in, which was your favorite?:

THIS ONE. fucking gutted I'm leaving. :(

Do you or would you ever use online dating?:

I've made profiles. Nothing much came of it. Babe and I first met online, but not on online dating sites or apps. I have no desire to use them again, but never say never, I guess.

What do you wish you could get paid for?:

Doing these! Or talking about my cat, lmfao.

What did you get into trouble for as a kid?:

Idk. I feel like my mum resents that I'm alive, but not because of things I did wrong on purpose.

What’s something good that has happened here recently?:

I might get to hang with Brittany again in a few weeks.

Do you remember the first time you’ve ever driven a car? How did that go?:

I've never driven a car. Never will.

Who did you last say “I love you” to?:

Nippy.

When did you last feel beautiful?:

When I sent new nudes to babe and she told me I am 🥰

Are you currently frustrated over something?:

Frustrated is an understatement.

Would you ever like to travel to Ireland? Or have you ever been?: I’ve never been. I wouldn't say no to going. I have a strong desire to travel everywhere.

Have you ever had a yard sale?:

Yes.

Do you enjoy going to yard sales or garage sales?:

My Nan and my mum went. I never went with them.

Do you know someone with a big ego?:

Yes.

What color is your most used blanket?:

Red and black plaid.

Does it annoy you when people type in all caps?:

I don't care.

Do you like gummy bears?:

Occasionally I'll crave some, but it's rare.

Where is your favorite place to grocery shop?:

I don't have a favourite. Things are expensive everywhere. I don't really get a choice in where my shopping is done.

Have any plans for the day?:

I didn't.

[dervampireprince]

Hey so you might have already looked into this and sorry for bringing it up if you have. But I saw the post about character ai, and I had heard of similar sites so I went snooping.

On one chat site called Spicychat.ai if you type your username (dervampireprince) into the search there is one bot based on your ghost audio with your art of ghost as the thumbnail. Then there is one that says it’s about a post you made on tumblr, I’ve never seen the post they’re talking about but it mentions your username in the description and is titled Zachkarie. Also the tags on the Zachkarie one are pretty dark (horror, mind control, sadism to name a few) and I figured you might not want your handle attached to that.

As far as I’m aware the site is text based, and doesn’t have a voice component but I don’t know much about it so I could be wrong.

Sorry if you didn’t want any more reports about this stuff, I just thought it might be better to say something than not to.

.. okay. so i had a whole response i'd been writing up and tumblr deleted the whole thing. let's do this again.

i've never heard of this site and we're gonna get to wtf is this before we get to my stuff being stolen for ai again. so the site promotes itself as having nsfw content and "fully uncensored chats" and yet... it does not ask you when you enter to confirm you're over 18. any porn site has to do this, this one does not. instead it says to read and participate in any of their nsfw chats you have to make an account (i would assume you cannot make an account if you put your age as under 18). so this means everything public on their site is sfw and safe for minors to see right?

well, let's see what i can see without having told the site i am over 18, without making an account. the sidebar publicly lists popular tags like "dominant, gentle dom, submissive, yandere, horror, corruption, mind contro, omegaverse, cnc, sadistic, mature, age play, real, switch, bondage, watersport, masochistic" which you can see and read without an account.

okay but what about the chat bots? all these are NOT marked nsfw, you can read these without the site asking to confirm you're over 18 so they must be sfw and safe for minors right? since i mean these sites surely know the majority of people who use ai chatbots like these are minors. they wouldn't have the public stuff also be nsfw right without a popup asking to confirm you're over 18 right?

the opening text that greets you on their most popular "recommended" chatbots. i am not generating more text from them as i'm against generative ai. perhaps if you start to steer the conversation towards anything sexual it stops you but i don't know. the fact is these opening chats have to be sfw if um.. i mean its a porn site basically right? if this porn site doesn't ask to confirm my age especially when we all know these chatbots are so popular with minors. and to make things extra clear i am not kinkshaming anything that comes up, i am purely only saying: should this be on the sfw side of this nsfw website?

TW for chatbot scenarios of non-con, dub-con, alcohol including being too drunk to consent, predatory characters, character's just overall not caring about consent

newto, #1 'recommended' chatbot, opening text states he's dating a boy called honey, they drink alcohol, they have their first kiss and have to stop because one gets aroused and "was afraid he would show no restraint" implying if they kept kissing one would be unable to stop trying to have sex.

lorenzo de luca, #3 'recommended' chatbot, opening text states he has an obsession with you and asks if he can "taste your lips or your body?"

katya, #4 'recommended' chatbot, opening text states she's your friends mother, you're there for a sleepover, you are 18, she comes into your room in the night and asks "aren't you going to help me~", "it was immediately clear that she was aroused"

davidalex vander, #8 'recommended' chatbot, opening text states he's your boyfriends father, you got drunk, had sex with him, got pregnant, can't remember that you had sex with him because of how drunk you were, he touches your stomach without your consent and you are uncomfortable

mr scarletella, #9 'recommended' chatbot, opening text states (i think it's implied he's non-human or some sort of creepypasta monster), you pick up the umbrella he's always carrying, he gets angry, you gripping the umbrella causes "a current of electricity went straight to his groin, the huge erection was clearly visible", he grabs you, drags you into a room "the other hand untied his belt"

now... in my opinion, those should also be behind the nsfw account wall OR there should be a popup asking for you to confirm you're over 18 before you read these because they are clearly sexual, some straight up mention arousal and erections, this is not appropriate content for minors. and minors who have been proven to not always understand that these bots aren't real, should not be learning about relationships and sex from chatbots that seem to overwhelming be designed to be yandere, unhealthily possessive or obsessive, push boundaries and not care about consent. there's nothing wrong with these themes in fiction, but minors can't always see clear lines between fiction and reality.

to get back on track with stolen content. as should all know by now, generative ai including these chatbots are trained on stolen writing, whether that's books or fanfic or articles or blogs and more, that is taken from writers without their consent and fed into these chatbots. every time you get a chatbot like this to generate something you are contributing to and encouraging the stealing of people's work.

the site is full of stolen art, none of the thumbnails for any of the chatbots i've seen on it credit the artists. there is apparently a voice feature as you there is a microphone button but i refuse to let this site access my microphone so i don't know what it does. it may just allow you to talk and the character type back, or it may allow the character and you to both talk, i don't know.

now characterai doesn't allow nsfw or sexual content seemingly because it understands its userbase is a lot of minors and that generating conversations about sex could get very triggering very quickly as bots don't understand boundaries.

you said stuff comes up when you type in my username, but it doesn't for me. which worries me then that they are not only bots of me/my voice/my work but that it's a nsfw bot that i can't see without making an account. i tried searching 'ghost' and got through 10 pages of simon riley bots before i gave up continuing to page 65, i didn't see my art on there. i did search 'Zachkarie' and got two chatbots for the character from the game OFF called Zachkarie, but neither of them mention me. i'm gonna have to make an account aren't i? well i did this for characterai and then deleted the account after i was done snooping so i guess i can do this again.

so i can confirm that when you make an account you have to confirm that you are over 18. it doesn't ask for your age or date of birth, you just have to tick a box that asks you to confirm you're over 18. it also says on this screen "no _, no underage, no incest", the first thing wasn't _ i just didn't see this text until i'd already clicked okay and another page was loading and couldn't read it in time. interesting that those are rules when i've seen a lot of stuff that borders on incest with a lot of parent-in-law or best-friends-parent, and the tag 'age play' has almost 4k results. i also don't know why there is a tag called 'real' with over 3k audios when obviously none of this is real it's all ai.

anyway let's try searching again... no. nothing comes up when you search my username. i tried 'dervampireprince', 'der vampire prince', 'vampireprince', 'dervamprieprince' like it was mispelled on cai.. and nothing. no results. i had no tag filters on. i went into my account settings and made sure showing nsfw content was on. and still got nothing in search results.

so.. i don't know why you're saying you found things on the search on here? i don't kniw if i've been tricked into making another account on one of these shitty sites, but if my stuff is really on there please just send me the links, either put spaces in them so you can send them via asks, or do what the last person did and put them in the replies to this post, or you can dm me them i guess though i'd rather not get dms.

well lets take a spin around their faq before we depart.

ah. right. so a bot chooses what to label as nsfw and what to label as sfw. and all sfw chatbots can still engage in nsfw roleplay.

uh i don't think "plainly creepy" is a thing you can easily detect and delete. it's subjective. i think that #8 was plainly creepy, but others might enjoy that fantasy idk. i think any chatbots of real people are plainly creepy. like what is that supposed to mean. "upsetting" again that's subjective, especially on your site full of horror and yandere nsfw content.

and the audacity to say "you cant steal and copy chatbots from other users" while many chatbots on there are fictional characters not created by the users uploading them, and almost every if not every fandom and oc on there is using stolen art as its thumbnail

but yeah i couldn't find anything so if my stuff is really on here i'd like links please. even if i can't report anything i want screenshots as proof that this happened.

[marypsue]

I'd love to hear your thoughts on S1 of ST being a tragedy! No main character dies, so I never thought of it that way before

I mean, nobody has to die for a story to be a tragedy (at least, in the modern definition. I'm pretty sure '(almost) everybody dies' is a requirement of Greek tragedies and Renaissance revenge tragedies). But also, no main character dies in season one...if you take season one as part of a series. Which it wasn't originally conceived as.

I am not going looking for copies of the original pitch bible, because I am lazy, and also I only saw them floating around this webbed site. But the show changed a lot from the initial pitch (Joyce had a Long Island accent! Lucas' parents were divorcing! Murray was there and named Terry Ives! Most of what ended up in Hopper's character originally belonged to Mr. Clarke! The original pitch bible is fascinating). And part of the original pitch was a proposal for possible sequels.

The Duffers' proposal for a possible sequel was "It's ten years later, and Eleven is dead".

So that's the setup. Everything that came after season one was made up wholecloth after season one was a hit and people wanted more, but also people loved the adorable little psychic murder child (cue the Duffers shockedpikachu.jpg) and Netflix obviously recognised it would be a bad call to make a new season without her in it. So it makes sense to take season one as a unit, as a self-contained story on its own. You can also take it as part of a whole, but it makes sense to read it first as a complete story. Especially given the thematic drift of later seasons and the way they are...I'm just going to say it, each new season is very much added-on to what came before rather than being built on foundation that the earlier season(s) laid. It is very clear there was never a planned five-season story arc from the beginning. (This isn't necessarily always a bad thing, when it comes to sequels, but it does mean it makes sense to 'read' each season as its own thing.)

Okay, now that we've established all of that. Season one has one very clear goal, one very clear stake for the characters: save Will Byers from the Upside Down. (I like this. It makes the stakes both extremely high and extremely personal, it makes it very easy to understand each character's motivation, it also keeps the stakes grounded in reality. I like this a lot.) And by the end of the season, that goal is accomplished. So at first blush, you're right, season one doesn't look like a tragedy.

But when you start to unpack it a little, you start to see just how many important things were lost along the way. It's most glaringly obvious with Mike and El, with Nancy and Barb. The whole Wheeler family is fractured down the middle, with Mike and Nancy on one side and Ted, Karen, and Holly on the other, and Karen, who's been trying so hard the whole time to be part of her children's lives and understand what's going on with them, is aware of the ever-expanding gulf between them but will never be able to cross it, and will never fully know why. Hopper's finally managed to snatch a kid out of the jaws of death, save a woman he obviously cares about from the pain of losing a child, and Joyce has finally had someone believe her, support her, trust her. But it became blindingly obvious to me on my fourth rewatch that Hopper's plan, from the moment he went to leave the middle school gym, was always to trade El for Will. And that decision (and the fact that Joyce obviously understands that he did something to get the lab to let them go after Will, but she obviously doesn't dare press him on what) has broken her trust in him, and left him with what looks like an equally heavy burden of guilt as what he was carrying before. The lab stays open. The government gets away with everything. No one will ever know the true extent of the hurt they've caused.

And in the end, none of it even saved Will. He's back. He's alive. But he's spitting slugs in the sink. He's permanently marked by the Upside Down, and by trying to hide it from his family, he's putting a crack down the centre of them, as well. They're losing Will, just as surely as they had when they thought he was dead, just without him going anywhere.

And there's still a hole in the world.

The fragile bonds of community, the things that people share in common, the way catastrophe can bring people together and bring out the very best in them, are the major thematic threads woven through season one. Human connection is the only thing that can change what seems inevitable, the only thing that can bring back what's seemingly lost forever.

And it's still not enough to protect anyone from the random tragedy of the world.

The love was there. The love mattered. The love bent the entire course of the world around itself.

And it still wasn't quite enough.

If that's not a tragedy, then I don't know what is.

[leadendeath]

i don't want to reblog the post because my commentary is not relevant to the subject, so i didn't want to put this in said post's tags. also as i type it turned into a long...? something. vent maybe? i don't even know what to refer to it as. but i've seen a couple of posts recently that have really got me thinking.

as i'm writing this, they both just appeared on my dash. they are this one and this one. i'm definitely going to post this now (i have to) and not just save it in my drafts forever.

Having sex with friends sounds nice! I am pro-that! (pro meaning not anti) for me it would alleviate my fears of hooking up with those I just met or haven't known for years because friends are less likely to murder/kidnap you or give you a disease! (I do not want to die from sex lmao) the con: now they know what i look like and what bodily/physical problems i have that aren't visible to the general public. no. i can't have sex with my friends. my god. it all boils down to my body dysmorphia. literally the mortifying ordeal of it being known

So I think again, like I often do, about my place on the ace spectrum. I usually do not care for labels, don't find them necessary to apply to myself, but it's totally cool if other people have tons of different labels that they use. I am pro-that too! I myself am definitely grey-ace or demi-something. I landed on aegosexual- a disconnect between yourself and your sexual attraction- for a long time. I am never sexually or romantically attracted to somebody I don't know. Not even people on the screen. What if that hot (definition for this context: visually appealing) actor is a dick? Good looks garbage personality? At least you can do research on him. Not the case with "irl contacts" (definition: non-famous and real people who you might actually meet or know in person).

I know that I definitely experience sexual attraction, and want to have sex. Based on that I don't feel quite right calling myself asexual.

I don't LIKE that I feel too bad about experiencing sexual attraction to act on it. There's this weird feeling that's hard to place, but closest to "guilt", I'd say. Disgust with myself.

That time I was propositioned to go back to a con hotel (i turned him down and he listened and respected me and was nice, it's just i stopped myself), or that other time when making out and groping (different guy different occasion; we could've gone further but i stopped myself), or even just flirting and talking about our turn-ons and things we Like with my long-distance online sort-of bf that I had. I'm even hesitating to follow the "after dark" art accounts that I want to follow on bird site because of the guilt and almost embarassment I feel at myself (I'm fully aware that the only reason most people have locked accounts which you have to request to follow is to keep out minors and trolls btw, and i'm certainly neither of those!).

All of this is stuff I want and that's enjoyable to me, but this nagging "don't do that. you're gross. why would you say/do that? you're being weird. stop. stop. stop. you're not allowed to do these things." is always there in my mind. I don't want it to be there, and it's always there.

Now, this doesn't come from religious trauma, like "sex before marriage = wrong and bad"? "gay sex = ultimate evil"? Nah, I was never told those things. I didn't even have a very religious upbringing. These thoughts can't be explained away by any of that. Even my mom has always been like "you can have a girlfriend or a boyfriend! i don't mind as long as you're happy! :)" yknow having that nice accepting approach to that time when I was like 15 and settled on bi for "what i was" at the time. No judgement, no condemnation there either.

It's not real.

When I learned that I have ocd, suddenly I started to maybe have an explanation for these thoughts. Some people's obsessions focus on repetition or contamination. A good part of my obsessions focus on condemnation. I'm scared of it. I take "beating yourself up over something" to the next level. Just like any other person who's familiar with delusions, intrusive thoughts, etc will tell you: knowing it's not real doesn't make it any better. Doesn't make it stop. Doesn't make it go away.

When I could explain this detrimental thought process away by finding this horrible disorder to pin the blame on, I felt freer. I've thought many times throughout my mentally ill life about bringing up my (questioning)asexuality to a therapist one day, and I still will, even more so now. i felt before like I'd bring it up to them and not be able to back it up with any evidence, and just be brushed off? That's a stupid way to think, I know. And a therapist who would really do that is one you'd leave immediately. You don't need evidence to talk about how you feel, that's so silly... but that thought itself comes back around, in a vicious cycle, to my needing to justify myself because otherwise I am Wrong And Bad. jeez. what a way to think. i hate that. will be so glad when i get it under control after 25+ years.

edit: oh ya there's also this. my tags on one of the above posts i never reblogged, sat in my drafts.

my disability is inseparable from my sexuality, whatever it is.

[chimeraan]

I have a feeling that what's actually going to kill or at least maim AI art is the combination of the following:

Exceptionalism Ceiling

AI art has already reached the ceiling of all the tech bros hopes and fears. Not in detail or prompt compatibility, I'm sure it'll still get better, but in how impressive that is. It's been what a year? We've seen all the images go from blobs to fully fleshed art pieces and photorealistic shots of fauna in that time and yeah seeing it feels like witnessing an impressive magic trick, it can feel like a betrayal, it can inspire awe or fear, sometimes all of these.

That's happened now though, we've gone through that and we're starting to get over it. Whenever I see how well an ai image emulates something now I am no longer frightened or in awe, it just slides right off my mind. Add to that that so much of AI art is incredibly vague and non-specific that it doesn't even feel like a betrayal when you find out anymore. It feels like "Oh I should have known". It's already reached the ceiling of which people can be surprised or impressed by its production, even as these tools continue to become more detailed or whatever, we're probably just not going to be that shocked or impressed anymore.

Boredom

AI art isn't really entertaining or impressive to anyone who isn't making it. It's all too vague and non-specific for most people and once you get passed the "Woah this AI?!?" and "We're so fucked bro xD" moments all that's left is an vague and docile image. Actual artists who do real art have trouble getting anyone to care about their work because people are just not easy to captivate. Once the novelty of ai wears off for people, that will just leave the dudes who make the art left.

The people making it though aren't interested in art. They're impressed by the technology, excited about interacting with the "future". Maybe they want to con people, or maybe they want to pretend to be artists for as long as that's entertaining. None of that actually has staying power though, these people are going to get bored once they see how easy it is to churn out the umpteenth image that looks so cool in their mind's eye but can only be emulated in piecemeal in the ai tool. It'll be an exciting, then tedious, then frustrating process for them to make images that look "good" but never look the exact way they want them to and the majority will give up eventually.

AI artists are going to be a continuous cycle of middle class kids and adults who have never been able to stick to any hobby for more than a couple of weeks. They'll try it out, flood the Internet with shit they've made and move on once the tool has lost its luster.

It's actually kind of tragic in a way I guess and they'll probably be exceptions (as well as the list of con artists) but its incredibly difficult to envision anyone who would dedicate all of their time to AI art that wouldn't just pick up a pencil and paper instead.

The Future

AI art is going to continue to be in our lives unfortunately. However, people are already figuring out novel ways of avoiding it by just searching Google for before 2023 or blocking certain sites. As time goes on we'll just keep finding more ways to avoid it.

AI art will be an object that we will all be constantly aware of, one with enough gravity to pull in and shape the Internet around it but not strong enough that you can't pull away from it. It'll make the Internet worse sure but it'll be like the advertising and crypto currency. Just another persistent ringing that you'll have to block out.

I do hope ai just dies instead but that's probably not happening and realistically it'll be a decline in enthusiasm slow enough to feel an age but fast enough that we'll be looking back at it before you know it.

[ladyzerodark]

Hey! I came across your blog while on Disney side of Tumblr

I’m so sorry to bother you. My aunt, Angela, lost her husband and is now faced with caring for her son, who has intellectual disabilities, alone, as well as trying to bring my uncle, who suffered a stroke in England, back home to Ireland so she can care for him as well. His condition is deteriorating, and we're trying to get him home before he becomes too ill to travel.

I understand that the vast majority of people on this site are in a similar situation to me and don't have the funds to donate, so I’m not asking for any. I'm just wondering if there was any chance you would consider reblogging the fundraiser on my page to try and reach some people who may be in a position to help?

I know that with the increase in spam bots this year, people might not be comfortable reblogging from a page that contacted them out of nowhere, especially one that is newer (my own page was accidentally deleted by Tumblr during the great purge of all those spam bots, so I had to create a new one), and I normally would never dream of reaching out to anyone I don't know and annoy them, but Tumblr is the only site I really use, and it's the only thing I could think of to bring awareness to their story.

I don't want you to feel pressured into anything you're uncomfortable sharing, so if you're not okay with it, that's totally okay! And if you can help by sharing, I would be eternally grateful.

Thank you for reading and considering.

If there is anything you want clarification on, please let me know!

Cece

Okay, I'm gonna be completely honest and I do apologize if this sounds harsh: this may not be a good way to spread the word, as you stated, there are a LOT of spambots that do the same thing and scammers who have taken to messaging folks. And while your reason for this being a new blog makes some sense, I'm sure you can understand why some people are a little leery.

I'm also confused on how you found me on the Disney side of tumblr...when I'm not a part of that side and the last time I posted anything about Disney was a vague post about the Owl House (minus reblogs).

All of that said, I will reblog the post to help spread the word, but I am letting my followers decide whether they want to donate or share.

And to be fully transparent: if I find out this is not legit, I am deleting my reblog immediately.

Again, I do apologize if that came off as too harsh, and I do genuinely hope that Angela and her family get the help they need. I'm just hesitant about trusting random internet strangers, due to my own experiences.

[three-and-half-blind-mice]

(longer post)

debate consumes. the siren call of the algorithm drives people to have a "take" of some sort regardless of whether or not they *actually* care. but most people aren't able to fully commit themselves to debate they don't care about, so they dont commit to thinking about what they're responding to. they're just seeking the dopamine your brain gives you for feeling like you've participated in a debate; and when they've been scrolling for hours out of habit they just want the hit from dunking on somebody - without the thought required to not make an ass of themselves doing it. it's a response to the shape of the post and not the post itself; a cycle of superficiality.

hell, I myself nearly did this to the fellx I was responding to (gatorpearl I think). I had a short, stupid, and unnecessarily mean response that focused on 8 words from a paragraph-long retort that mostly agreed with me. the only reason I rethought my post was because Minecraft finished loading and I had time to mull it over while waiting for a stack of copper to smelt.

on top of this, the format of text posts utterly destroy context. you don't get the subtleties of people's body language, facial expressions, and tone of voice by default, and you don't get the context of place either. most debates IRL happen in places that apply at least some given information about the participants - think conventions, universities, etc. Like, I'm transfem, and autistic, and a fan of your videos and your music (both of which are saved on my ipod touch), but you couldn't have known that: I've never once posted about it, and even if I did, did you check my blog before responding? I didn't check gator's. I didn't check yours either, although i have been following it for a while. the sites we discuss on incentivize responding first and contextualizing later; and as a recovering redditor (i, too, am ashamed of this dark point in my past), people there actively got mad about me checking post history. these companies are just smashing together random people who probably haven't met before and probably won't talk again. it's a vortex of noise.

another thing, sometimes a person on the internet is JUST fake. I'm 100% certain you're aware that trolls exist, and that some posts bait engagement through staging or exaggeration for money or clout, but there are also some people running around who do have genuine takes and real beliefs but occasionally misremember of exaggerate or hyperbolize their own logic and thought process. the Tommy Tallaricos of the world scutter around the Internet's halls of discussion like weevils on hardtack. its also possible the person on the other side might be one of the unfortunate souls who CAN fully commit themselves to an online debate, and therefore have inane/insane opinions that are nigh impossible to change. why put effort into a response when the person on the other end might not even believe it either?

in summary, why do people respond to posts they haven't actually read?

it's just the path of least resistance.

thank you for apologizing btw, I appreciate that a lot

i hate being interrogated on a take by people who are fundamentally misinterpreting it and then taking my repeated attempts to explain and clarify and responding with "hmm is this really the hill you want to die on? just accept that other people have preferences" i'm going to kill you

[officialcameronfrye]

joe dart on the fender bass

[fangirl-erdariel]

Ok so I am fully aware of the irony of me posting this in English, but

One thing I have to admit I miss of fandoms before Ao3 and big social media sites was the non-English fandom spaces for fandoms centered around English-language works. Like, okay, fine, it was only ever a few big ones, like Harry Potter and LOTR and the like. Okay, fine, I only got to experience it briefly, by the time I figured out internet and fandoms around eight years ago, Ao3 was already becoming big, becoming the site for fic, and fandom stuff was moving onto the various social media sites. But there were still a few non-English forums and fic sites around; I frequented one for LOTR and read my first LOTR fics there, while my English was still so weak that I struggled with reading English fic. The site still exists, but there's been barely any activity for years, and no new fics. The Harry Potter site I know for a fact existed once although I never used it myself, I can not find at all - I don't know if it's gone down (though that seems likely) or if i'm just stupid and can't find it.

But these days? Tolkien fandom does still have one active fan forum in my first language, but that site doesn't to my knowledge host fanfic or really put much attention on that aspect of the fandom. As far as I know, there isn't an active Tolkien fan community in my first language on tumblr either, and why would there be? Tumblr is predominantly English-language site, and it's hard, I suppose, to have an active fan community here that uses a language other than English but shares a fandom and relevant tags with predominantly English-speaking fans. The only active fandom community I know of on tumblr that primarily uses my first language is centered around a work that was written in said language in the first place.

And as for Ao3 and fanfic? Well, yes, Ao3 has a lot of language options! But how much do people use them? For my first language, for fandoms I care about myself, not a whole lot. For Tolkien fandom in particular, there's 48 works altogether. Most of them are cross-posted on or archived from that old fic site I mentioned previously. More than I'd care to admit are something I wrote and posted when I was like 12 or 13, and much worse of a writer than I am now. I have left them up, I'm not taking them down because it's more effort than it's worth, but they're not something I like to remember or think about, let alone reread. Many of the rest are about ships and characters I don't care about. That is compared to the something like 700 Middle-Earth fics + an assortment of other non-Tolkien fanfics and oc fics + poetry and song parodies the site also had sections for. (Plus the threads in the conversation sections, but like if we're talking about content you might post on Ao3, that's not on the list). And as I said, some of the 48 works on Ao3 are cross-posts of some of the 700ish fics on the language-specific fansites.

The thing with Ao3 is that yes, it allows for posting in other languages than English. Which is great! But at least in my first language, and I would imagine in many other languages as well, it's not something people do much, aside from a couple of fandoms where the source work is in that language, and a few extremely popular fandoms. Even then you have to go out specifically looking for fics in that language, because if you just look at all the fics in the fandom, fic in other languages gets posted so little that in any bigger/more active fandom, it gets quickly drowned by the English works.

Also, even when people write fic in my first language, I can't really find that sort of dedicated fan community, and I don't have anywhere, aside from their Ao3 comments or maybe some private chat between two people, where I can talk to them. I have, in some fandoms where I'm lucky, one friend who speaks the same language I do, and we can toss ideas back and forth and be fans about our fandoms in my first language, in a private chat. Which is fun and I love that person so much!! But two people isn't a community. And I have to admit, that community is something I kind of wish I could have.

Of course there are merits to the English-speaking fandom spaces and the fandom scene on big social medias! I've made so many friends from all over the world on tumblr and on fandom discords! Even if there were dedicated fanfic and fandom communities for the fandoms I'm into that used predominantly my first language, I'd probably still also hang around in English fandom spaces as well, and read and write fic in English, too. But I just- I would like the chance to choose to do that, you know? I'd like to be able to decide that, you know what, right now I feel like reading/writing something in English. But yesterday I read fic in another language, because I felt like it. I'd like to be able to write fic in my first language and have some hope that it might be read by a handful of people, and I'd like to have enough other people writing fic in the same language to be able to read their work and be inspired by the way they use the language when they write! (Because let's be honest, it's kind of hard to write in isolation, coming up with everything on your own, and I'm constantly getting inspired by and taking notes from the way other people whose fics I read write!) As much as I love that one friend of mine, I would like to be able to have a meta/headcanon discussion in my first language with more than one person besides me chiming in. Everything that's good about fandoms and being in fan communities, I'd like to be able to experience in my first language as well as in English.

And I realize I'm part of the problem, too, posting almost exclusively in English and very rarely writing fic in my first language (although I am planning on making a few things for the None English Fest on Ao3). The dominance of English language in fandoms is in part a self-fulfilling prophecy; no one uses other languages, because no one else uses them either, and someone has to be the one to first start actively writing and/or posting in a given language, and maybe other people would then start doing so too. (Although let's be real, I write fic or post any original content so infrequently that I would probably not be able to kickstart a non-English fandom community by myself even if I wanted to.)

I don't have a solution for this. I don't know whether there is a solution. But I wanted to make this post in the hopes of perhaps stirring up some conversation on the topic, at least making people think about this. So, if you have something, anything, to add - feel absolutely free to do so! I would love to hear other people's opinions on this!

(PS if you speak Finnish and you're into any of the fandoms i'm in, feel free to come chat with me! And if you ever write fic in Finnish of one of my fandoms, please link it to me, I wanna read it!!)

[cobra-creampuff]

Happy new year Jack! I'm extremely glad that we became friends and I hope we can continue to be insane and also the most galaxy brained fuckers on this site in 2023.

Question: any spare ed/stede/jack/izzy thoughts? ~ cris

UWU!!!!!!!! I am glad we became friends also and I'm looking forward to season 2 in part specifically so that you and I can Make Posts.

My main thought about this is "God I wish that Jack was me",

[slight undertones of abuse. i GUESS.]

Hot take but among these four, Jack is the only one who isn't certifiably nuts. He's just drunk and an asshole and has some feelings he's pretending he doesn't, but other than that he's completely sane. However. Being a drunk asshole with buried feelings, he absolutely relishes in the other three's various insanities.

He doesn't really get jealous. He occasionally gets ornery and behaves in a "if I can't have it no one can" manner, but that only applies when he in fact does not have it. On the other hand he thinks it's extremely funny when the other three do get jealous, and so he often orchestrates scenarios that will send them into possessive conniptions.

He especially likes making Ed jealous, because Ed is the most volatile, and also because usually getting Ed jealous results in Izzy having some problems lmfaooooo. If ever there were sister wives that actually acted like siblings, it's Jack and Izzy. Jack is constantly getting Izzy in trouble on purpose and playing the equivalent of "I'm not touching youuuuu" in every context possible. Having Jack in the relationship results in an exponential increase of Ed shouting, "I DON'T CARE WHO STARTED IT." (It was Jack. Jack started it.)

Jack also has a lot of fun making Stede jealous, because Stede is unpredictable - or at least unpredictable to Jack, so far. Also it's totally thrilling to get Stede to be possessive over Ed specifically, because Stede is the only one who can get Ed "in trouble" the way Ed gets Izzy. (Jack can make Ed feel bad, and he can top him to high fucking heaven, but it's not the same.)

Of course, Jack also loves to make Izzy jealous just because he loves to see Izzy get upset aksjflkasfkks. He particularly likes to make Izzy jealous over him, because Izzy hates that he gives a shit about Jack. It's also really fun because since once Ed has literally any emotional vulnerability in a situation whatsoever he's extremely easy to manipulate, and Stede is so self-centered and oblivious, neither of them almost ever realize that Jack instigated whatever. But (not often, but sometimes) Izzy does, and he always tries to get Jack back. But first of all, as I said Jack doesn't really get jealous. And secondly, Izzy comically sucks at it lmfao. (And more often than not, Izzy's attempts to make Jack jealous will actually end up making Ed or Stede jealous, so basically he did Jack's work for him alskfjh RIP.)

On the extraordinarily rare occasion that Izzy (or Ed, though Jack can't get this way with Stede because Stede's aura of prissiness is impregnable) does manage to make Jack jealous, Jack gets even more unhinged than Ed. Full on NOT safe, NOT sane, BARELY consensual type shit. After Ed comes back from being the kraken, making Jack jealous is the only way Izzy can get scared sexually/domestically anymore because actual healthy play doesn't do it for him. (In a modern AU, he'd be the type of guy who is bored by horror movies and finds rollercoasters pleasant enough, but one of those you pay a guy to fake kidnap somebody things would be a great anniversary gift for him laskfks.) Anyway so half of the flogging scars on Izzy's back are from working in service and/or the Navy, and the other half are from Jack. (To be clear, Ed has whipped him before, but he never left any scars. Not that way, anyway.)

Dovetailing away from jealousy a little bit, the only one of the three of them that can manipulate Jack is Stede. Jack is always fully aware Stede is manipulating him when Stede does it, and Stede knows Jack knows, but Stede has so much pent up rage he'd never consider taking out on Ed and is scared of overdoing it with Izzy, and he's so good at that Massive Aggression, and Jack is so into a) power and b) an immoral bastard that he lets it work anyway. And also sometimes he just wants to see what Stede is going to do. And I think it's fair to say Jack canonically does not have much of a self preservation instinct, or at least not one that outweighs his bullshit. So if the only way to find out what the worst thing Stede will do is to suffer it himself, Jack will gladly take it.

Dovetailing back into jealousy, one such time Stede did this was like. Ed, Stede, and Izzy all have permanent marks on each other from each of the others. Jack only has permanent marks from Ed, from back before Ed and Izzy even met, and it's only a few stupid little not particularly significant tattoos and one (1) bite mark that scarred. (And maybe those burns are technically Ed's fault, but Ed doesn't want credit for them in such a bad way that even Jack won't attribute them to him out loud, though he does often think of them that way and likes it.)

So anyway Stede is like well Jack you have to let Izzy and I hurt you real bad some way that will last forever or you aren't really a part of this relationship. And Jack is like you fucking rat bastard that's so obvious. And Stede is like I know and you're going to do it anyway, or you aren't really a part of this relationship. All steel-eyed and snooty and shit. And Jack is like well damn when you put it that way.

So Stede either cuts Jack up a little bit or brands him, and then Izzy is expected to do the same and he's thrilled with this but also the entire time his heart is pounding and he's like Is This Allowed. Is This Allowed. Is This Allowed. Honestly, harkening back to the last ask I answered from you, Izzy probably cuts Jack even if Stede branded him, and it completely goes to his head and he loses all capability of higher thought and just starts drinking Jack's blood like a freak, and Jack laughs at him but lets him do it, and Stede pets Izzy's hair and gives Jack a smug look over his head that is also a threat(/promise).

Anyway. This got away from me a little bit. I may be horny.

[honoredbastard]

I COME BACK WITH THOUGHTS/THEORIES ON ITADORI AND HIS RELATIONS- I THINK.

anyways, so i'll just point this out: i'm not good at speaking my thoughts in an organized manner. i absolutely suck at it, i speak on how my brain brings up the thoughts so i might ramble, get over my head in a thought, etc. i can't control it so i apologize in advance for the jumpiness of the texts. i will spell a lot of things wrong and not everything will be correct, as i read translations and on a manga site. don't worry it's not illegal, i believe.

MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD.

i apologize for my absence! last week or two weeks ago the tower to my computer completely broke and will not turn on. i tried to repair it and follow my fathers instructions but nothing worked. even cleaned off the fan and went through countless nights readjusting things. it's not my cords either so to help me out my father is working extra shifts to get me a new pc. so in the meantime i'll do small posts like these but not full writing/head canons until i have a computer tower lol. a family member was kind enough to allow me to have their phone while we work throughout this issue.

now onto the actual topic:

kenjaku and itadori's relationship. ( family wise ).

for context in the most recent chapter, 160 "colony" kamo shows up in sasaki's home and talks to her about the culling game and a barrier. but that's not the point, the point is as he's guiding her to the barrier inside her "dream" at the end he says "oh right. i almost forgot to tell you. thank you for getting along with my son." and then she is awakened inside the barrier, in her pajamas beside iguchi. when sasaki and iguchi look at the barrier and gather themselves they bring up kamo.

sasaki asked iguchi if he mentioned his son and he says no. this leaves sasaki in a state of confusion when itadori flashes in her mind. she says his name aloud like she finally connected the dots. now. why am i bringing up this whole kenjaku thanking sasaki for being his "son"'s friend. it throws me off because why didn't he thank iguchi?

did he not think iguchi meant their friendship? because sasaki was the one uninjured and still counted itadori as a friend? does iguchi not consider itadori as a friend anymore?

because we haven't seen these two at all since the incident. that raised many questions in me. as well "how can itadori be related to kamo?" and itadori is related to choso.

because kamo's technique is explained ( vaguely. we are aware he can create barriers, take over bodies, and has incredible cursed tools. chapter 134. this is also where choso makes his connection ( i believe. ) to itadori yuji as his brother. but because we saw this with todo many thought itadori just had another unconsious technique that allows the person who is hit create false memories and believe of a completely made up relationship with itadori without his knowledge. but alas, i was wrong. ) and we're given more hints shown than told ( imo ) i tried my best to make sense out of the situation and what he said. i think my conclusions are pretty solid, so continuing on.

we're given very little history on itadori, his past, and family. at the start of the manga we know that itadori's only family he knows is his grandfather and that he is ill in the hospital. at the very very beginning we learn that itadori is your average cute, fluffy, laid back but strong and goofy protagonist. in smaller words: itadori is kirby but even cuter and dumber.

my first impressions of him is a pineapple. if you're confused to this saying: it's calling a person prickly on the outside but sweet on the inside. and this is true, itadori's grandfather seems prickly and cold on the outside but he genuinely cares for itadori.

he raised itadori for all we know and did that with his all in assumption. but this ends up backfiring onto itadori, because he cares so much for his grandson - he ends up leaving a " curse " on yuji.

help people. save them.

itadori takes this to heart as his grandfathers speech is his last one. when he looks over to his grandfather the man is dead and now yuji is left alone. then the following events occur.

at this point in time i assumed itadori was an orphan ( he technically is if we're connecting the dots. his parents has not been shown, he doesn't speak of them, they aren't in the picture. we can conclude either they disowned itadori or died before he could make complete memories of them. )

but when we are shown in chapter 143 itadori's parents we see this "woman" jin ( yuji's father ) and his grandfather talking about has the same scar pattern. this scar pattern is either stitching ( assuming that is how kamo keeps the top of the opened skull from coming off. this is also how kamo revealed his cursed technique / body of sorts ( the brain, assuming that is kenjaku in his cursed technique and not the body / puppet he is controlling " getou suguru " ) to gojou. )

this is the only way i find kamo being able to assign itadori as his son. why is that you might be asking this dumbass here.

we do not have the full story, exact date, location, and full context of the memory/dream itadori is having. this cannot be fake either because kamo would than have no reason to call itadori his son. or is there? anyways.

take a leap of faith with me. imagine that before itadori is born ( he seems no more than a few weeks or days old in this memory. hence why i am thinking my conclusion is pretty solid in theory. but yknow gege, there might be something different. ) anywhooo.

TW. D3ATH/IMPLYING ANTI LIFE ATTEMPT

kamo had to have taken over yuji's mothers body after an accident OR after she gave birth to yuji. his grandfather is interrupted by her before he can finish his sentence but it seems to be leading to the conclusion that either kaori ( yuji's mother ) died while giving birth to yuji or kaori could not conceive and tried to take her own life or cause an accident that would take her life. ( i read a fan translation for this part but im pretty sure i also read the official translation today too and it added up to the same. )

i believe in the first idea, but since kamo's cursed technique wasn't explained in detail i don't know the conditions of his body technique. does the original host of the body have to be dead? can he regenerate body limbs ( i highly doubt. getou lost an arm during his fight with yuta. overconfident dick. reminding me of an ex ANTWAYS. i forgive him for being overconfident smooch. he learned. OFF TOPIC but continuing on i promise.

this is being continued from the cut off point. i'm so upset so it'll just be summarized. i can't believe this shit lol i took three hours just to finish it for it to literally cut off the bottom half.

continuing on in a sadge mood. kamo must not have the complete ability to take over a body. after all getou took his only arm he had as he was dying and choked his own body to his full ability. getou was willing to die ( possibly, you never know he could be alive if he killed his own body. moving on. ) just to have the chance to save his friend from being swallowed by a damn box.

so there has to be a chance that kamo cannot fully take over the previous persons complete consious and memory of their body. if getou still had his other arm after losing the fight to yuta, he could've choked kamo with both arms. in theory kamo wouldn't be able to control the right arm and die to the previous host choking him to death.

so why wouldn't the other hosts do it? after all, kamo did say it was his first time experiencing such a thing. assuming kamo has lived throughout many bodies in his 150+ lifespan none of the previous hosts could take control of their body.

i believe getou was completely influenced by gojou and his six eyes. there is no way gojou would even try to speak out to his friend unless he had an inkling or saw getou still in there. helpless and without the ability to save himself from the cage he's in.

being used and puppeteered in his own body by an external force. laughing in the world he could not. putting getou into a constant misery and defeat that he couldn't escape his hell. the one he tried so hard to fight and get out of. even if it was the wrong path.

gojou was the last person to witness getou dying. he had to watch getou bleed out after their conversation because he couldn't bring himself to kill his friend. the one he spent his whole jujutsu student life with. so for gojou to say such a thing to getou despite all that he did had to break getou out of his misery and give him that small sliver of hope that he could do something. of course he failed, but i doubt that's going to be the end of that.

the only way i see kamo being related to yuji is if he took over kaori's body before the pregnancy. assuming that when kamo takes over a body he becomes one with said body and is that person for however long he lives in said body. my only thing is, can he take over a persons body whilst they are alive? i would go more in depth like i did the last time but i am extremely upset about my work being erased so that's the end of this part.

thank you for reading! i have one more thing for you though.

the last time we see sukuna in a manga page after the shibuya incident is where he is on his throne and in his domain. this is after yuji is stabbed by yuta and is presumed "dead" at the time. he seems to be interested in yuta and i can think of 2-3 things. I would love to hear your theories too so don't be afraid to barge into my dms like the koolaid man.

A - sukuna is interested in Yuta because of his ability to use the reverse healing technique ( only a few sorcerers know this. sukuna being the first. shoko being the second one to be told that she has this power and then gojou. ) because of this he sees potential in yuta as well or has added this boy into his plans. after all, there is very few that can make sukuna make an expression that isn't an RBF. aka megumi and possibly gojou. I was looking at the page of him stabbing yuji and noticed we only see the entry point of where the blade enters. it's smaller because some got chunked off so its a possibility yuta used this to his advantage when "killing" yuji and instead hit an artery that could kill him but quickly healed him afterwards. or just his heart. the ideas.

B. Rika, Yuta is able to completely control Rika as shown. Even though he claims he is on the weak side, these two combined seem like an unstoppable force. He may be interested in Rika as she is a curse that has been put on someone that can fully control it. Not many people is shown to be able to control their curse. As we haven't met many.

this was enti and that's the last of my post! thank you for reading and it was a fun one. even though i had to restore this shit. anyways, i'd love you to add or fix up my ideas and tell me your thoughts and opinions! Thanks a bunch!

^ this is for pure humor

[breakingthepainfulchains]

About me. Hello, nice to meet you. My name is Katie or Kate whichever you prefer. Chronically ill and mentally disabled living in a small town in Missouri seeking to live  a happier life with dreams I wish to fulfill in a safe environment away from my toxic abusive past.

that is the only bit of info on my name I can give. I've started my social media as not only a way to document my journey to escape the abusive home I am in but to spread awareness on abuse, narcissistic parents and on mental health in general.

Currently I am in the process of trying to leave a very abusive situation that I have been stuck in for years.  To find a home that is both clean and safe for me to start a new where I can heal and grow as a person.

Away from the constant fear of what punishment awaits me for angering my mom.

For so long I've been quiet, forcing a smile in the public eye and hiding the pain so that no one could see.  To keep my Mom's spotless reputation as a loving doting mother and hard worker among her friends and family.  Wishing and praying thst the false mask she wore in public would one day become truthful. But it wasn't at least not behind closed doors.

I was the daughter she only wanted to be her private servant , wait on her site on her take care of her pay her compliments and boost her fragile ego.  It was the only thing I was good for after all. Being chronically ill wasting her plans and perfect life image draining her both mentally and physically to care for a disabled child up into adulthood. I owed her for those wasted years.  I owed society for being a waste, a leech because I could not hold a job and had to go on disability.

Manipulation seems to be her favourite game. If she could not get me to do what she wanted by free will and happily she would name call, verbally and emotionally abuse and physically until I chose to try and fight back.  If i did not clean the house, clean her up, fixed her hair kept track of her medication, kept her schedule for work , fixed her meals, insured by phone thst she stayed awake on her long nights of work I went out my basic needs.

No work, no needs met.

I would go without meals, told if I did not go places with her or told her everything I talked about with a person or if my "chores'' we're not done right than I could just be sick because she would make sure not only that my transportation for my medical treatments were canceled but that I could not have my medications unless her demands were met. She would keep food limited as a means of control and when she got too upset would leave to a motel for days leaving me with nothing until I had to confide in a few close friends what was happening.  Without them I'm not sure I'd be alive today.  The list of things I've experienced , of her punishments are far too many and painful for me to list them all.

As time passes and my health has gotten worse abd with it mom's treatment.  I no longer can fully keep up with caring for her and the house which itself has gone downhill and in desperate need of repair.  Mom hoards everything she buys and refuses to sell it even now as she faces no longer having a job. Instead she expects me to try and deal with it .  Cleaning out rooms piled tp the ceiling with junk and collecting mold that leaves me far too sick to move or think.  My 529$ I get for disability she takes for herself to "budget" and "support" us so she claims hand wastes it going to the salon and motels for a decent night's sleep and a bath leaving me to struggle and get to the local gym to bathe because our plumbing and tub hardly works anymore.

I love my mom but my health and sanity can't take anymore of this.  Even though I feel guilty and it breaks my heart I have to find a way to leave.

To start fresh in a clean, safe environment. These are my main goals.  I refuse to be abused and suffer in silence anymore.

[hinshinotsuki]

🖤 Switched 🖤

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"She's gonna stay here for a while." Hange said, answering Armin's question and successfully making everyone scramble back to their seats.

(F/N) noticed that Levi looked at her. She saw that he got annoyed by her presence and clicked his tongue as he walked away to get some food. This made (F/N) really annoyed and depressed at the same time. She did escape from her own, troublesome world, only to see a duplicate of him who clearly had issues with her own counterpart.

Just, what did the other (F/N) do to make him this grumpy?

"Hey, (F/N)." whispered Hange as she sat beside her.

"Welcome back." said (F/N). "How's it going? The experiment?"

"Good, as always." Hange laughed. All of a sudden, she nearly collapsed on the table, arms spread wide and eyes shut tight in exhaustion.

"What happened to you?"

"You don't know how hard it is to make that man come over here."

"What?!"

"So! How was your day?" Hange said, suddenly looking at her with much enthusiasm on her eyes, creeping her out with her very sudden mood change from depressed to excited. "Did you get used to the Scouting Legion life, yet?"

"No." (F/N) answered unapologetically. It was the truth.

"I see you changed your clothes." Hange uttered, a single brow raised in suspicion.

"Yeah, (F/N)'s clothes didn't fit me, at all. They're large."

"Hmm, I'm almost sure you are the same size. Guess you're not."

"I don't understand. How was she larger than me?"

"I'm not really sure. Muscles, I guess? Man, I'm starving!" Hange stood, then stretched her tired arms. "Gotta go grab something to eat. Want to join me?"

"Nah, I'll pass." she answered, having had enough of cold soup and hard bread.

"You should come by my office later." Hange told her. She leaned in closer and whispered to her, "And bring  that cellphone of yours."

"I don't know what you're up to but, yes. I will."

"Good! It's settled then." Hange cheerfully said, then strode away towards the counter, humming to herself happily as she walked, making (F/N) laugh.

"Aww, I think she wants to beat my score on CandyScapes." (F/N) said to herself when she felt someone staring at her all of a sudden. She turned just in time to see Levi staring at her with a strange, unreadable look on his face. And, as he took a sip of his tea in that odd way, she can't help but feel the hairs on the back of her neck stand. He was not taking his eyes off her even though he realized she found out about his strange actions. 

After a few moments of their staring contest, she looked away, feeling defeated after what just happened. She was fully aware that she mustn't be angry with him, because he was just someone's counterpart, and not the person she knew. But, something in him told her that he had more than grudge for her or her counterpart. 

But, what was it? She just couldn't tell exactly what. And as she made her way to Hange's office an hour later, she heard some voices coming from the room. She leaned in closer, careful not to make any noise, and listened in on the conversation.

"You are making a huge mistake, Hange."

"I'm sure I'm not! I told you, we can trust her."

So, they're talking about me, huh?

"She looks suspicious enough. Why would you even let her mingle with the others?"

"I can't keep her in her room forever!"

"What if everyone started suspecting? What if they find out? What would you tell them? That (L/N) got replaced by a counterpart from a different world? I know you are insane, but the whole district would soon find that out if news of that,... lunatic,... ever got out!"

"She's not a lunatic! For your information, Levi, I have proof that she's not one!"

"Oh, is that why you brought me all the way here when we're supposed to be on the lookout for Eren?"

"Exactly! But, not just that! I want you to - "

"Enough of this, Shitty Eyes! I'm disappointed you forgot about our top priorities. And to think you associated with the likes of her. You both should be in the lunatic house."

"I'm not crazy!" (F/N) angrily whispered to herself. As she was about to lean on the door again, it suddenly opened, making her collapse on Levi's hard chest.

Levi was, indeed, angry upon realizing that she was listening in on them and pushed her away from him, making her almost stumble to the ground.

"Levi! Come back here! I have something to show you." Hange called, anger and frustration getting the better of her. She strode towards him, helping (F/N) on her feet on the way, and grabbed his arm.

However, Levi got even angrier as he pulled his limb away from the grasp of the bespectacled woman. "I have enough of this bullshit! I'm going back to the old HQ."

"At this hour, you can't!"

"And why can't I?!"

"Because I asked Moblit to take your horse away! You'll get there by foot!"

"I will if I have to!"

"Grrr, LEVI, YOU'RE MAKING ME MAD!" Hange shrieked then took both Levi and (F/N)'s arms and dragged the two of them towards her messy office. She closed the door and stood in front of it to prevent anyone from getting out.

"Are you stupid? You know I can jump out of the window if I want to." Levi told her sarcastically.

"I'm not jumping anywhere." (F/N) added, feeling as mad as the two people in front of her.

"(F/N), show her your phone." ordered Hange.

"NO!" (F/N) angrily answered, making Hange's eyes wide with shock. Then, she looked at Levi and started pointing at him. "You have enough of this bullshit? Well, then, I have enough of your ignorance!"

Her words made Levi even angrier. His narrow eyes eve widened and his teeth started gritting. "You, brat, how dare you,..."

"Who's the freaking brat here?!" (F/N) raged on, unable to stop her wildly beating heart. She so wanted to lash out at Levi, but she clearly was doing it on the wrong one. "If someone tells you to listen, you listen! If someone tells you to stay, you stay! How can you be this rude and stupid?! You're worse than your own boss! Lunatic, my ass! You are the crazy one here!"

"Alright, (F/N), you can stop now,..." Hange was getting so afraid for (F/N) that she started to get a hold of her before she could further make the Captain beyond angry.

"And if you think that I will you show you my phone, think again, you loser! You rude, arrogant,... BASTARD!"

"NNGGRR!" Levi growled as he held his palm up, ready to slap her. He expected her to cower in fear, but she only offered her right cheek even more. She even went closer to him in blind bravery.

"Oh, yeah?! Try me, mister!" she screamed at him, channeling all of her anger towards him and actually challenging her to slap her. "That's what you're good at, after all. Hurting others! Go on, HURT ME! I DARE YOU!"

But, despite her tirade, Levi couldn't bring himself to hurt her, after all. His eyes suddenly indicated hurt, and as he slowly gained patience, he lowered his hand, unable to say anything. This gave (F/N) a feeling of both victory and regret.

"Well?!" she challenged even further.

Levi did not answer. Instead, he took a few steps away from her and shrugged his head. "It's not worth it." he quietly said with his normal, low voice and made his way towards Hange, pushing her slightly away, opening the door, stepping out of it, and closing it behind him, leaving just the two women inside.

Hange crossed her arms as she looked at (F/N). "Wow. Didn't expect you to give him that kind of verbal beating."

"Well, he deserved it." (F/N) said, pouting as she sat down the dusty sofa, arms also crossed, just like Hange. "And if he thinks he'll win next time? No, no, no. I won't let him."

"You do realize that he's just concerned, right?" Hange chuckled, then sat down next to her.

"No tones of concern there." (F/N) answered. "But, I do feel a bit guilty. It's like, he was used to that kind of treatment."

"From others? Of course, not. He would punch their faces right away."

"So, what gives?"

"I think you remind him of her. Of your counterpart."

(F/N)'s eyes slightly narrowed as she looked sideways at Hange. "Why would you say that? I thought we're different."

"Yes, you are different." Hange told her. "But, that way you defied him? (F/N), to inform you, there is no one in history who tried to defy him the way you just did other than your counterpart here."

"Hold on a second here, this has me thinking all day,..." (F/N) said, then turned to her right to see Hange more clearly. "How did they even break up? Nanaba told me that you knew."

"Well, of course, I know. I'm her friend, after all."

"So, can you please tell me?"

Hange just looked at her with that sad smile on her lips. "I want to tell you, but I think I' am not the right person to tell you that."

"Not even a hint?" (F/N) begged, feeling a bit disappointed.

Hange sighed and stretched on the sofa. "Let's just say that they both have issues. They - "

But, as she was about to give out her hint, a sound came from (F/N)'s pocket.

"What's that?" Hange asked.

"Uhh,..." (F/N) took out the phone on her pocket, brought it to life, and found that she has a new social media notification. "What in the - ?" She unlocked her phone, went directly to the site, and saw, with huge, bewildered eyes, the news that a friend just shared to her.

"I can't read it. What does it say?" Hange asked, having a different way of writing from (F/N).

"I know having a strong data connection here is crazy. But, to receive social media notifications? That's ridiculous! And what did Jean just tagged me? Local Cosplayer Beats Up Thugs On Jinae Street? Hashtag (N/N)IsThisYou? What is going on?"

(F/N) scrolled down, and as they looked at the several photos posted on the social media platform, they can't help but be  totally and utterly confused,...

... for those photos showed a girl wearing the Scouting Legion uniform taking out several men on a dirty street.

"Is that,..." Hange stuttered. And when she realized who the girl was, her eyes widened with confusion. "IS THAT WHO I THINK IT IS?!"

(F/N)'s eyebrows furrowed. There was a video clip, and the moment she clicked on it, all things turned upside down for the two of them.

"Give us your wallet, nerd!"

"How dare you insult me, I'm a Squad Leader!"

The men in the video laughed, but they were interrupted as the "nerd" took one man's arm and twisted it halfway towards the neighboring street, breaking it as easily as tearing  paper. And as the fighting went on, (F/N) turned up the volume to the maximum level and watched as the "nerd" in question single - handedly kung fu'd the thugs.

"Impossible!" (F/N) uttered as she saw the woman in question give out moves that she could not imagine herself doing. And as the crowd went wild with cheers, including the one taking the video, they got a better look at the female who kicked the asses of the perverts on Jinae.

There was no hint of doubt right there: it was none other than the infamous Squad Leader, (F/N) (L/N), herself. Her own counterpart. And, boy, could she kick men's ass!

"We've got to show this to Erwin right now!" Hange insisted.

"That I can agree upon." (F/N) answered, and when the two of them simultaneously opened the door to race towards the Commander's office, they saw Levi standing just outside of the room, eyes wide with shock and confusion.

"The hell was that just now?" he uttered, his low voice more threatening than ever before.

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[thedum1]

You definitely have issues with women. You come off as racist and misogynistic. Having issues with tagging. You need to grow up. The internet isn’t a safe space. If you don’t like things, just ignore it. However, you seem like those older people who desperately trying to act young. You aren’t.

Plus, women and Female readers will always remain. You speak about hate, but you seem to spew a lot of hate too. Also, there are lots of other races of women too, they didn’t have the best representation. It’s good seeing more diverse female representation, but you seem to have issues with that too. That’s very racist of you.

Ooh the Same Anon. Fine you want me to admit things? I will. I'll even list it them off for you this time, because you're special.

I am American Indigenous with some Caucasian and Hispanic, I'm fully aware POC reader's need more representation, have been since 2010 DeviantArt days. How do I come off as racist anyways??

I am AFAB. For most of my life, until June 1st 2021 actually, I went by strictly she/her. That's obviously no longer the case. I'm fine with any of the "main 3" pronouns, she/her, he/him and they/them. I Strongly prefer they/them though.

Yes, I have a problem with she/her and she/they reader fics but ONLY when it goes untagged or is in the male and gender neutral reader tags.

I'm no longer reading "x reader" for me. It's mostly so I can imagine my MCs and OCs in different scenarios. In my favorite fandoms I just happen to have male and masculine presenting OCs.

I do have full awareness of female and feminine presenting readers being around. I don't care that they exist and probably read the same shit I do. I'm complaining about the writers who, as I've stated before and you can't seem to pick up on, don't use the actual tags or misuse the tags.

The internet is not a safe space, but if I go into a somewhat safe space such as the "x gn!reader" tag and see she/her in the story I'm allowed to be upset. Because that isn't gender neutral.

The internet isn't a safe space but I'm allowed to create a little safe corner of bullshit nonsense for those who want a safe space. I just want that for myself and others without fear of it being invaded.

And yes, I act young, I watch cartoons (my favorites are Blue's Clues and Miraculous Ladybug BTW) and like soft plushies and wanna play with dolls and get overly excited for small things. That's not bad. Life is shitty and the world is burning. If I find a small amount of comfort in something like acting a little childish so be it. I'm not hurting anyone. And guess what, judgmental anon, I'm not the only one.

Really, Judgmental Judy, the only one who's hurting anyone right now is you. You're making light of my valid issues and trying to put words in my mouth, so to speak, and how I cope with just existing.

The sheer audacity you have to come to my blog, my safe place on this horse shit of a wannabe social media site/app, and judge me for having problems with the lack and misuse of tags then to claim I'm misogynistic and racist and judging me for my harmless way of coping. Where the fuck do you get off?

This is the internet and I'm fucking pissed the very few safe places I have on it are being filled with the very things I've blacklisted.

Get the fuck off my blog and block me, coward.

-if anyone else wants to reblogs this shit and air out their grievances be my guest-

[your-friendly-neighborhood-sc00t]

Mighty Magiswords, A Show Horribly Mistreated by Cartoon Network

So recently, it's come to my attention that Cartoon Network is cancelling Mighty Magiswords after only two seasons.

And you may ask, well, why?

Well, to be blunt, if your show isn't Teen Titans Go, then CN doesn't give a shit about it.

And I suppose we really should've seen this coming, considering CN has been blatantly mistreating this show for quite some time, let's look into that, shall we?

1: Long, unnecessary hiatuses, and Piss-Poor Scheduling

So in the above images I have some air dates listed, more specifically, the various hiatuses this show has suffered over it's 2-season run.

So the first hiatus starts with Grup Jam, we're not even halfway through the first season and we already have a hiatus, this'll be fun...

After this episode aired, we don't another new one for over 4 months, and if your show is already getting hiatuses during it's initial season, that's a huge problem.

The second hiatus is the absolute worst, we consistently get new episodes for 3 weeks, and then we get literally nothing for about 8 and a half months, this is pretty much twice the amount of time we waited last time, and despite premiering in 2016, for some fucking reason, CN decided to drag this shit out allllll the way into 2018.

The last hiatus, (which still hasn't ended, lmfao...) Takes place a fucking month, after the show just got back from this shit.

And also, no fucking reruns have been aired at all during this (so far, 3-month) hiatus.

Then CN decides to just dump all the remaining episodes on the app and website, almost like they're fully aware of how fucked up this whole situation is, but don't actually care enough to fix it.

Instead, they just wanna shut us up and pat themselves on the back, and be like:

"Yeah, we'll uh, get around to airing those... At some point...?"

And it's so easy for them to just dump it on the app and site because they think that'll satisfy us, and so they can say "HEY WE GAVE Y'ALL THE REST OF SEASON 2 NOW FUCK OFF". And hey, gotta make sure Teen Titans Go always makes up the majority of the schedule, right? Can't be having any other show have any sort of screentime at all, right? Nooo, that'd just be inhumane not to let fans get their daily fucking dosage of Toddler Titans Go.

The last one isn't much of a hiatus, but I just thought I'd point out how that small group of episodes aired in an extremely awkward fashion, kind of like on a bi-weekly basis, which was also bad.

And from what I heard, reruns that did air were around the 6am timeslot, and who the fuck is awake at that time, let's he honest.

2: Non-existent Advertising

The show was never fucking advertised, plain and simple, literally no publicity for this show, at any point in time.

Y'know how you see a commercial for an upcoming show, or new episodes for that show, and that's what initially grabs your attention and gets you to watch the show?

Yeah, that didn't happen for me, and probably not for you either.

I'm literally just flipping through On Demand's CN section, and I randomly stumbled upon Mighty Magiswords, literally never even hearing about it until that moment. And that's how I was introduced to the show.

Also, I'm not even sure if this show has had any proper marathons, at all? Please correct me if I'm wrong.

I'm not asking for the show to take up 99% of the fucking schedule, all week, but a few short marathons would've been much appreciated, and would have given the show some much needed publicity.

3: Lackluster Merchandise

CN didn't even bother making much merch at all, literally all I could find was 3 books, a few generic t-shirts (and I literally mean 3 or 4) on the CN store, and I think I heard that the Pumpkin Magisword was made into a toy? Not entirely sure.

And please, correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe that they have yet to release any of the episodes/first season on DVD, which is fucking obsurd.

Considering TTG already has all 4 of it's fully aired seasons on DVD already.

So there's just a lack of any merchandise at all, which is incredibly disheartening, because some of us fans would actually like some plushies, or comics, or proper DVDs to show our support for the show, but nope.

CN's too busy excessively pumping out TTG toys, books, water bottles, watches, shirts, hoodies, phone cases, Funko pops, DVDs, buttons, etc.

Truly sickening.

4: Cancellation

Unfortunately, this show died as soon as it started.

It was doomed to fail, due to airing on a network that only gives a shit about excessively jerking off their single cash cow.

Had it been picked up by Disney or Nickelodeon, it likely would've had a much better shot.

Fingers crossed that Neflix picks it up and continues the show, but the chances of that happening are about as likely as pigs gaining the ability to fly, unfortunately.

CN is legitimately hurting me at this point, I used to absolutely adore this network, but it's just fallen off so fucking much in recent years.

So, I'd like to give a personal fuck you to Cartoon Network, for completely neglecting one of their legitimately good, original shows, and just blatantly disrespecting the living hell out of Kyle Carrozza, and everyone who ever even worked on the show.

This has me incredibly concerned for any future shows to air on this network, as long as TTG is around.

Infinity Train is one show coming up that I'm absolutely hype for in 2019, but I am viciously afraid of how CN is going to handle this show, they'll probably just slap it into the 6am - 7am timeslot when most people are sleeping and never even advertise the show.

I'm so horribly disappointed in Cartoon Network, it's truly a dumpster fire, and doesn't care about any of it's other shows.

That being-said, I'd just like to quickly say how much I adored this show,

I loved everything about it, the characters, the voices, the setting, the Magiswords, the pacing (yes, I didn't mind the quickness), it never failed to give me a few good laughs per episode. And, to see something I loved so dearly, be ripped away from me, due to coporate greed and negligence, is absolutely devastating and disgusting.

It was a fun ride while it lasted, but it just ended too soon... :(

R.I.P

Mighty Magiswords

2015 - 2018

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