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surge and kit designs <3
#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic fanart#sonic art#sonic the hedgehog fanart#sonic idw#idw sonic#surge the tenrec#surge#kitsunami#kitsunami the fennec#kit the fennec#kit the fox#kit#Good lord he has so many tags#and how#Not that happy with kit but eh it is what it is. i can always rework her later#and i am very happy with surge so theres that at least :3#also stating again gms is my name its not an au thing in case ne one gets confused
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Idk man I just think that mizu/ena5 and its progression was really beautiful actually. I just think that the release of the ena5 song was also really beautiful and kind of the nail in the coffin for me and I haven't been able to get the event(s) out of my head all week and that I kind of want to talk about it, actually.
It's about being hurt so deeply and continuously that any kindness that could be offered to you manages to feel like a sin, that it makes you crumble and shatter but for all the wrong reasons, not because of the newfound safety, not out of relief, but something worse and more deeply ingrained in you than kindness ever was. It's about carefully measuring the distance at which you keep others away from yourself, to ensure that it never happens again ("To save yourself the trouble", if that makes it easier).
It's about realizing that the people you've been spending all this time with are drifting closer, that they just might bump up against the unsightly parts of yourself that you've tried to keep locked away, it's about turning around and sprinting at full speed and slamming the door shut and holding onto the handle behind you to stop it from turning, because you're as frightened of the possibility of another wound being inflicted on you as you are of the possibility that kinder, gentler hands will reach out and smooth over the exposed scar. It's about hating eyes that judge and silently condemn you as much as you hate eyes that simply see you and take all of you in without scrutiny, because no matter what they're looking and they're looking at you and they know that your hand's on that door handle and they know that you're hiding something because, as much as you try to keep it shut, they've seen through the crack that you foolishly left open.
(The prominence of eyes in Bake no Hana, specifically eyes looking and searching, and finally landing on you, the viewer, Mizuki, is so fucking. Visceral in my opinion. Every character in the MV stares at the viewer in a deadpan, almost judging way. Even though Mizuki knows deep down that niigo won't really hate them, won't judge them, she just can't stand their kindness either; any gaze directed at her is a loss, another prick in their skin. It screams "don't look at me" while making sure that you know, with horrific certainty, that they're looking for you, that you're being watched. You can't go outside, can't leave your room, because they're searching for you, and while that should be reassuring, to you it's anything but).
It's about not wanting to be dissected, whether it's with hands that want to pull your organs apart or stitch them back together because no matter what they're there, and they're getting frighteningly close to your heart. It's about blinding yourself and covering your eyes to it all because seeing means exposure and exposure means they're taking something from you and you can't do anything about it, much less take it all back, much less have a say in the matter. Everyone's just taking and taking and taking and you wish you could just be alone. You wish everyone would just disappear and you could live in a world all to yourself, for only yourself (but is that really what you want?).
It's about the way that, near the beginning of the Yoka ni Mitoreta MV, Mizuki and her loneliness is represented as a dark, splotchy stain in the shadows. No colors, no patterns, no way to clean it or wash it all away, just raw ugliness marring a blank canvas. It's about the way that Ena reaches out to it anyway, the way she startles when the glass shatters just when she finally starts reaching forward, the way that the rest of the MV/song represents her searching for and reaching only further out to Mizuki, even if the broken shards of glass will only cut her fingers, potentially leaving scars.
It's about how, in every way, subtly, directly, consciously, and subconsciously, Ena shows that she fucking cares.
It's about the way that Ena lets Mizuki have autonomy, despite the situation being so horribly out of their control. And it's such a delicate thing: If she really wants to, Mizuki can take the opportunity to just run away, keep running forever, repeat the cycle over and over, and maybe she'll just destroy herself with it again, but it can't be denied that it's something important to them, something she can't quite live without just yet, their means of survival. Mizuki's autonomy is their identity, it's her tailoring her own clothes and choosing her own ribbons and styling her own hair the way she does. Ena letting them have that is as much about trust as it is about understanding that Mizuki of all people should have this right, when control was something stripped from her throughout so much of her life. She couldn't control how she was born, how people look at her or why, can't control what they think of her; lacking control has only left Mizuki vulnerable to the cruelties of others, has only caused them to suffer, which is why it's so important that it's given to them now.
She had the control to make the choice to see niigo's welcoming love and run away instead of staying, and she has the control to make the choice now whether she wants to keep things the way they are or take a step forward to be at their side again. She has every right to have it, and I think the fact that Ena realizes and respects that, even if it's subconsciously, is really beautiful (there is an entire fucking Verse about this in the new song and just. God Look at this. It's so caring, unconditional, and for fucking What. I think there is something to be said about how much Ena is willing to put aside for Mizuki, and maybe deep down it isn't healthy, but for now I'm just kind of in awe)
It's about how insanely patient Ena has been this whole time. Mizuki says that she basically lied to Ena's face about telling her their secret, even after Ena said with such conviction that she would wait for Mizuki as long as it takes, and Ena is just kept waiting and waiting and worrying like this seemingly indefinitely. It's about how Mizuki danced around it, avoided it, kept the distance, straight up ran when she was finally pushed, but Ena still chased anyway when she saw that she couldn't wait anymore, kept chasing just enough to intervene and get a straight answer out of Mizuki when she really needed to, but still leaving her enough space to leave if that was truly what she wanted. It's about how relieved Ena is the moment that Mizuki finally says outright how much they want to be with her and niigo, how much she wants to try, how much more light Ena's voice sounds when she grabs her hand, relieved, the way that the relief she feels can be felt through the music, throughout the entirety of Yoka ni Mitoreta, the way that warm colors always follow her when she chases after Mizuki, just to hold onto her and stop her from running away completely.
It's about how that careful combination of Ena's directness, Ena's persistence, Ena's warmth, her patience, her bluntness about her feelings, the way she chases and holds on but not too tight and her regard for how unsafe and exposed Mizuki feels actually works and breaks it all down. It's about how she really did reach through to Mizuki, despite the thorns and broken glass shards and nearly-unfulfilled promises, the way that Mizuki did finally let her turn the door handle and step through to see what she'd been hiding all this time, the way that Mizuki's hand, limp, when Ena first grabs onto it, shifts to hold hers back as they cry in the face of Ena's gentleness.
Despite how harsh Mizu/Ena5, and even Ena herself as a character can be (or at least was in the very beginning of pjsk), everything is somehow gentle and warm in the end, blindingly so. And you know what, I think that's beautiful. And what's even more beautiful than that is how Mizuki allows themself to crumble and shatter under that kindness, that warm light, but this time, finally, out of relief.
On a final note, I just want to say that I also appreciate how all that didn't have to solve everything. The scars haven't disappeared, haven't gone away, and Mizuki knows that their desire to run hasn't gone away forever, and maybe it never truly will. But for now they've calmed it, at least a little. She's learning to allow herself to be seen, learning that when someone's fingertips brush over their scars the way Ena's did that it's only out of care, and that maybe taking in that care and allowing herself to feel kindness and safety is okay. They're safe, for now, somehow. They're learning. They're trying. And I think that's cool :)
#txt#pjsk#project sekai#mizuki akiyama#akiyama mizuki#ena5#ena shinonome#shinonome ena#25 ji nightcord de#niigo#n25#mizuena#i'll tag it for the shippers too bc why not they'll enjoy this#closing my eyes and hitting post because on one hand i want to keep editing this because it's a mess but if i spend another minute on this#I Will explode#physically i have moved on mentally i am still staring at that damn card on my monitor while the music swells and mizuki is wailing out#that damn image has like actually rearranged my brain chemistry it's not even funny#i'm so fucking weak for this specific character dynamic/relationship yeah it might be cliche yeah i'm lame whatever#but like. FUCKKKK THEY DID IT SO WELL. THIS IS ACTUALLY INSANE. they put so much care into mizuki as a character it's crazy#oh mizuki. i hope you find peace and happiness.#i hope you look around you and the people you've surrounded yourself with one day and realize that you've found safety#anyways yeah sorry this is incomprehensible nonsense also sorry if the pronouns were confusing i hc she/they for mizuki#y'know partway through writing this i half considered turning this around into a fic but like. nahhhhh. tumblr text word vomit it is#sorry about the *checks* 1.4K word text ramble. but thanks for reading if you got here B))
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have you ever drawn anti cosmo and anti wanda? I think they would look really cool in your art style
You just reminded to finish this drawing I started forever ago, I doodles them right as I started watching the show but never got around to coloring them
#not entirely happy with anti-wandas dress but Ive been fiddling with it for too long lol#Look if Anti-Cosmo gets a fancy outfit Anti-wanda should get one too#they are an important family they have appearances to keep up#He has to help dress her bcs all the layers make her confused hes so sweet and patient with her about it too#fop#fairly oddparents#anti cosmo#anti wanda#art#digtal art#fanart#coloring anti fairies is so hard Im not used to working with blues#I am a red and warm color enjoyer
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An AU where Merlin is literally a God in Mordred’s eyes. Like, a genuine God.
In this AU Mordred and Merlin’s relationship is not fucked up by prophecy. So, everytime, kindhearted Merlin saved Mordred without hesitation. And Mordred grew up in a Druid camp that reinforced the idea that Emrys was a literal god. So naturally, HE WORSHIPPED MERLIN.
Once Arthur became king and magic was legalised, Mordred came to Camelot to become a knight because that was the best way to serve Emrys.
But when he arrived at Camelot, he struggled to comprehend the fact that Merlin was… human???? A very clumsy one, in fact. The rest of Camelot, though might know about Merlin magic, did not know how great ‘Emrys’ actually was so they were just confused, concerned, and/or entertained by Mordred’s ‘crush’ on Merlin.
He would stare at Merlin the entire first meal they had together, and people would be like: awww, Sir Mordred is crushing on Merlin so hard!!
Mordred: Emrys??eats??food?Food??Is ?eaten?by? Emrys?emrys?consumes?meal????
Or when he saw Merlin tripped on the training field
Mordred: i think the area is cursed. Strongly cursed.
Leon: what—
Mordred: THEN WHY ELSE WOULD EMRYS TRIPPED?????
Arthur: So, how have you adjusted to life in Camelot so far? Is there anything that is bothering yo—
Mordred: Merlin
Arthur: what did my stupid manserva- I mean Court Sorcerer do-
Mordred: I saw him drank water today
Arthur:
Mordred: He just drinks water????? From glass?????? Like?? He drank?? Water???? You know??? Literal water????????????? For drinking???HE??needs??water?to??live?why??
Morgana: why did I saw Mordred ran out of the meeting room screaming that you guys are trying to ‘Destroy his faith in his religion’. You knights better not bully him because he is a druid and has magic—
Gwaine: I told him Merlin is not here because he needs to take a shit.
Lancelot: Hey, Mordred, I noticed that Merlin has not received the note I asked you to deliver to him yet.
Mordred: But I already send it to him?
Lancelot:
Lancelot: Tell me how
Mordred: I burned it at the altar
Lancelot: what altar—
Mordred: and pray to him, as one should???
Merlin: WHY IS THERE SOMEONE SCREAMING IN MY HEAD THAT I HAVE AN IMPORTANT MEETING TOMORROW AT NOON!?
Or when they went on a long mission or hunting and Merlin, out of his old habit, made food for the knights
Mordred: ‘this is the most excellent food ever had bestowed on me, I shall never forget about this Emrys. I will pray to you even harder. I am the luckiest Druid to ever live—- ‘
Percival: … is the stew that good?
part 1| part 2 | part 3
#bbc merlin#merlin#mordred#bbc mordred#au#kinda crack kinda humour#sir mordred#merdred#merlin au#merlin bbc#incorrect merlin quotes#merlin crack#i edited this post a few times because i am not happy with many of my languages i am sorry if it cause confusionthe content is the same#i also keep adding stuff in the tag cuz new weird scenarios keep popping up in my head and idk where to put it#so again so sorry for confusion this might cause.. i trying to.. adjust to tumblr.. again#my post#cryptic god!merlin and no1worshipper!mordred au
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Something different and self indulgent??
Happy Eevee Day~ 11/20 🤎🩶
I do get a kick out of naming my eevee after cute & short kodaka game protag characters ✨
#rain code#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#danganronpa#danganronpa trigger happy havoc#makoto naegi#pokemon#eevee#eevee day#my art#pixeldoodles#just a quick thing#my pokemon art is hit or miss tbh#I don’t like it much but maybe you all will??#oops forgot my signature#naegi evolves into a leafeon and yuma into an umbreon#and yes I call him naegi because there's another character named makoto that I am fixated with and I get them confused ;w;#my DR phase it over but I cannot deny I still name my eevee after him and his sister sometimes xDD#anyone outside of raincode don't follow me for pokemon or DR you'll be disappointed lol
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csp mini guide: edge eraser!
@lunasun hihi!! i tried to make an visual and wrote an explanation i hope this makes sense but if not then i failed LOL i hope you don't mind the tag
Erase Along Edge (Edge Eraser) text version!
1. Sketch or line as normal on one layer. 2. On a separate layer, below the lineart, color as normal. 3. Return to the lineart layer, and set it as the "Reference Layer". (Toggle ON by clicking on the lighthouse icon!) 4. Return to the color layer, select the "Erase Along Edge" tool, and erase the offending overlap! Aaand then you're done! Try stick to the outside of your lineart to avoid accidently erasing what's inside. As long as your brush size is reasonable, it shouldn't erase what's inside too much or at all unless if your cursor is inside of the lineart!
Quick Troubleshoot
"It won't erase properly?" "My lines aren't opaque and/or is too messy." That's OK!! While I do recommend solid lines (few gaps or none) or opaque lines (at 100% opacity), it's NOT necessary! It just makes using the tool easier! Most of the time you can get away with it, so don't worry about having to change your style or anything. If the lines are not solid (have gaps) or aren't opaque (lower than 100% opacity), please refer to the tool properties/settings! You may need to experiment here. Adjust the "Tolerance" and "Area Scaling" settings and repeat the process until you reach your desired result! Please note: If lines intercept (creating small "pockets) or opacity is still an issue you may have to manually erase anyways (sorry lol). By all means, it isn't perfect BUT it is a BIIIGG time saver once you have it down! The creator (pharan) makes more specific points and fixes in their guide that is far more in depth! I just want this to be easy to understand for anyone who's never used it before or is trying it for the first time! :)
#clip studio paint#csp ex#csp pro#fnaf daycare attendant#dca fandom#moondrop#pingdoobles#god i HOPE this makes sense#please tell me if it doesn't!!!#im not used to making guides or anything and i DO NOT claim to be a professional#im also happy to answer more questions or help further explain if there's still confusion!#ok i need to sleep i have to work and it's almost 6am awkughaw#will make a 2nd guide on the lasso fill tool “ice cream man” thing sometime l8r#idk when later is but at some point#my eyes are drooping while i type god#i am the eeper gn!! (or gm??)
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I had an entire day of painting and I decided I wanted to paint Annatar from The Harrowing by Chthonion, because he is a very expressive character and therefore very fun to draw :D
Here's some close ups~
These are all somewhat paraphrased btw-
For a general idea, picture one (top left), can be applied to pretty much any scene where Annatar has a cup of tea, the one to the right of that is a representation of Annatar's thought processes during chapter 39.
Next row- we have Annatar after his nightmare and subsequent language mishaps, valiantly fending off any attempts to call up the actual master healer in the house- and next to that Annatar's Look™ which anyone who upsets people who are important to him (looking at you- names starting with C) have been on the receiving end of.
And on the row below that we have Annatar laughing for once (because I saw all the other pictures I had done and decided I needed at least one picture of him smiling), which is directly after Frodo plays that card in association- and the one next to that is pretty obvious, Annatar making tea when Finrod's upset and he's not sure how to handle it. Then the last one is from chapter 39 (again), and I think Maedhros was more like 'is that food?' but eh. The feeling is the same~ (even if Annatar had to think about it before he decided he could actually say it).
@chthonion >:)
#the harrowing#art for fanfic#annatar#in various states of distress#and confusion~#with one happy one#just to balance it out#:)#sauron#lotr#lotr fanfic#nyehehehe#watercolour#watercolour art#expressions#lots of misery#HEH#had an entire day of art stuff#and it was great#i just did painting all day#my exams are over as of a week ago and I am taking full advantage of that#>:D
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“you got a plan, little buddy?”
“i always do >:)”
#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#wholesome sonic and tails wednesday#my art#not pictured: the massive bomb about to go off#anyway happy wednesday! almost done with my second week and i am generally confused ! goodnight !!
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I never understand fully whats happening on wild west, like from the bottom of my yeehawrt what the fuck is happening
#im always confused its amazing please do not explain it to me I am perfectly happy not knowing#wild west smp#wildwestsmp#wwsmp#wildwest smp#Ferals chatter🪿
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he's got the fire and he walks with it
#utsukushii kare#my beautiful man#hira kazunari#kiyoi sou#hira x kiyoi#gifset#*brace's#//#not the first not the second not even the third nor the fourth person to associate hirakiyo to this song#but god am I the most annoying about it#this was made on a whim but I spent the whole night working on the coloring so I hope it doesn't look awful#I also had Hira's spirit hovering over me as a manifestation of my fear of not making Kiyoi justice. wanted to quit gifmaking forever#but now that is done I think it actually looks above my skill level so I'm very happy with the result#also!! especially for this occasion I finally learned how to make gradient text 😃😃#I got confused a few times and it took me an embarrassing length of time but look!! I did it!!#(for the theme of the set itself there is not much I wanna comment except ^*!!:-@*£shxbs@^& what a beautiful man what the hell)
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ghost ichiro who is very interested in his brand of world domination with kuukou and ghost kuukou who is confused by the affection and as any kuukou does when uncertain, they withdraw LOL
#vee queued to fill the void#ghost kuukou: ????? what’s his fcking problem?????#ghost ichiro: *senses his confusion and finds it adorable* so!!!! you and me???? taking these guys to paradise later tonight???? 🤭🤭🤭#i’m glad ghost ichiro is as showboating as i thought he would be lol like i am not joking that ghost ichiro card saved me LOL#ghost kuukou still being a monk makes me happy too lol that means he still wants to guide others to nirvana (paradise)#and whaddya know that’s another pair of ichiro and kuukou aligned in their goals!!!!!! ❤️💜👻💜❤️#ghost naughty busters can cure cancer end wars decimate plagues end famines cure depression—#also happy ichikuu day lol i'm so happy to have another new shiny version of them LOL#vee is arting
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Okay so I listened to “It’s Time” (the Icarus inspired song from my first Fable album), and I’m actually really surprised with how well it lines up with Icarus’ arc throughout the entire series, but especially their finale.
Like the running lyric of “I don’t want to face my responsibility” or even it’s counterpart, “I don’t wanna face all of reality”, is just like- huh?? What?? Why does that actually fit so perfectly with the end of season 3 and the whole Icarus having to take up the mantle of Quixis thing??
And then, and then the whole “but it’s time” thing in the chorus. Like, I just imagined Icarus singing that to Rae at the end and I just cried a little.
Anyway Sherbert’s character design for Icarus was really cool and I have no idea how the song I wrote a year prior predicted the future, but um yeah. Yay! I think?
#I am just so confused#but also happy#cause yeah!! I nailed it#but also huh?? I nailed it???#anyway go watch Fable smp it was a wonderful Series with good character development and plots and things#fable smp#mcytblr#fablesmp#icarus morningstar#fables from the smp#mcyt#songwriting
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Ne Bi Smel by Joker Out, Vienna 09.12.2024
More dancey Kris but this time Princess Version!!!
#that bow is so important to me#like#Bojan picked it up from a fan and went ‘now how am I supposed to wear *this*’ and held it up to his collar like a bow tie#fans shouted ‘in your hair!’ at him obvi so he looked confused for a second but then went up to Kris#Kris had a little❓moment when Bojan came to mess with his hair but then seemed very happy to wear it#Bojan called him a Princess and Kris did a little 🥰#insane actually#thank you thank you#anyway#ne bi smel#joker out#kris guštin#nace jordan#linden’s concert clips
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Seeing Rayman angry(upset but not sad) while he normally is so cheeriful is something
#rayman#rayman x reader#I write this as I listen him sing sexbomb#all this new info about him confusing me to collect who he actually is ffff#who am I gonna believe#games?#series?#loves kids. check#happy go lucky attiud. check#knows when to act. check#knows humor. check#having some kind of sense of responsibilities? check#all those alcohol and stuff? you lost me#everyone says itso in character (it's a bit like that in the games too)#so i guess that's cool now dkjdkd
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new profile pic yippieeee
#taikko art#taikkowaikkowo#art#artistsona#artists on tumblr#digital art#the amazing digital circus#taikkopom#pomni#i think it would be really funny to just tag 'tadc' in my sona posts just to make people confused#blud thinks hes a part of the team#i am pomnis boyfriend husband housemaid and fiance#im so happy with how this turned out aa the colors <333#also hi everyone i am SEMI back#what the fuck is cara#taikko sona
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The tragedy of ur boyfriends not letting u bite them just a little. As a Treat.
A Tup from @trudemaethien’s excellent fic Edeemi, Baby, One More Time that I drew back in May! I didn’t have a Star Wars tumblr at the time and wasnt planning on posting it anywhere so I forgot about it until now, but I had such a fun time playing around with lighting effects and his expression!
I really love their mer universe and I’m especially fond of Tup’s POV in this fic. It’s such a good job of expressing the confusion and frustration of communication barriers and reasonable, best-intent misunderstandings between all of them, while still leaning into the positive aspects of discovering the world and representing it from slightly different perspective than people normally take 10/10 highly recommended
Closeup of the sketch for his expression under the cut because I was super happy with it
#clone trooper tup#mermay#my art#sw tcw#mermay bc technically i drew it may 23rd or smth#the background is very boring but im ok w that honestly bc i made this for myself to live on my tablet forever#actually i also sent it to my mom and she said it made her happy :)#anyway i vibed so hard w this tup and his confusion/frustration/rejection sensitivity at wooley going hoshit dont bite me#as someone whos Strong Feelings often get redirected into Bite Impulse the twin frustration and disappointment that someone takes it bad?#so real#me and tup shaking hands over partners who let us bite. as a treat.#the sketch i channeled the feeling of going to bite To Be Sweet and ur partner going ‘no!!! mean!’ real hard#like please i am overwhelmed with affection i need to feel it in my teeth#anyway @trudemaethian (sp?) u got me out of a literal years long art slump to start making meaningful amnts of content bc i was so Overcome#so thank u very much and very deeply for that!#in exchange the fruits of me relearning how to use my drawing program
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