#i am ashamed and i apologize

[confettiinred]

something about these audric and grim pieces make me feel so ?? at ease ?? I CAN’T FUCKING EXPLAIN IT BUT AUUFJDHFJGJFJ,,, I LITERALLY MADENTHE FIRST ONE MY WALLPAPER AS SOON AS I SAW IT AND IT’S SO . 😢😢😢 do NAWWTTT PERCEIVE ME!!!!!!!

[zours025]

im so fucking obsessed with how you draw england 🛐🛐

THNAK YOUUU this means alot to me... always v nice to hear ppl actually enjoy my stuff lole

England drawing for you because this made me happy to read teehee

[lynnical]

Lmao dudes short as hell

[butchvamp]

i had time to play a decent amount today and actually further the main quest & companion quests and. i dont have anything eloquent to say this time and im not feeling generous anymore... taash's writing sucks dogshit

[luderailing]

For the drawing prompt:

Matthew and Tolys celebrating Christmas 🎄^^

I have a drawing for you I promise I do

and it would be better. this is what I get for not posting it last week

or even saving it

why

[flor-de-un-salon-viejo]

sorry but the first time i saw his image in the trailer i was like meh now that i see him in the game and i heard him talk and i was like

[arendaes]

It's 5:30am, I can't sleep because I had a bad night last night and I need to vent.

Sometimes I wonder if not being more open about my offline life is to my detriment, because it never fails that I seem to attract people who see me as someone who's easy to walk all over. So many people I've known both online and off really like to treat me however they like, including being rude, condescending, and sometimes just downright cruelly, but the moment I have enough and draw a line in the sand they just want to wipe it away and tell me all about how I'm the one in the wrong.

I once had a friend who ignored my existence for six months and then got mad when I told her I wasn't coming to her son's birthday party. When I say "ignored my existence", I don't just mean unanswered texts; I mean I worked at a store in town and saw her in there multiple times. Every time I would wave and say hi while she was looking right at me and she would walk right by me as if I wasn't there. She knew I worked there too because we met working there. Literally we went from hanging out every day off we had together to that and still she got mad when I was hurt and just didn't want to come to a child's goddamned birthday party (when I have no kid of my own) because of it. The kid was only a year old so it wasn't like he knew who I was, either.

And online has been worse in a lot of ways. I made a friend a few years ago back when I first started getting involved in fandom. At the time I was resistant to the idea but now I realize I befriended him out of pity, because no one seemed to really want to be involved with him and he'd always been so nice to me. That was a mistake, because it turned out he was an alt-right chud who waited until he thought we were close enough and then started deliberately baiting me into arguments where he'd say horrible shit to me and make me upset and then fucking laugh He admitted it was fun for him to upset me. He stopped laughing when I finally stood up for myself and cut him out of my life, only to repeatedly ignore my requests for him to leave me alone. He would send me messages and like my posts, along with asking his friends to do the same and even writing a fic about one of my favorite characters where an unnamed OC treated said character poorly (all while said OC said things that were word for word things I said to him in out last conversation) and posting it where he knew I'd see it. Thankfully his conscience got the better of him with that last one and he took it down just a few days after posting, but the damage was done. He's the reason my ask box is closed most of the time and I have it set to where only followers can message me or comment on my posts. I think he's moved on - I hope he's moved on - but I live with this ever-present fear he hasn't and if I let my guard drop he'll start again.

And this is just two of the biggest incidents in a long line of family members saying I can't have boundaries with them because they're faaaamily and honest conversations with friends about how they've hurt me only to have them turn around and blame that hurt on myself. I'm just...so confused about what I can even do anymore. It feels like no matter what I do I just attract people who want to use and abuse my good nature. Hell, it's been so bad that I typed that and immediately thought "are you good-natured or do you just have an unnecessarily high opinion of yourself?" Which I know is the brain demon talking, but sometimes it's hard to drown it out, especially when this is all I've ever known.

[quailsprout]

just when i thought jayce couldn't get any more peak he instantly and wholly surrenders to viktor on the rooftop when he realizes he is in the very spot where he is destined to fail. and then mind meld psychosex partners "in every timeline" happens. love wins YIPPEE

[wearevillaneve]

Just a reminder that the entertainment you and I consume and enjoy is created by real people with real lives which means they have real responsibilities and real bills. The actors and writers are on strike and deserve to be fairly compensated for the work they do. One mo' thing...

Sandra Oh is not just an actor. She is an icon.

[furbhii]

wait. we gotta do a poll about this.

[cohlecosa]

fuck her flip her bend her backwards baby put your back into it smash it grab it go bananas listen im gon talk you through it

[secondjulia]

Human Studies: Ferdinand Kingsley's Nails

Me, working on Happy Hob after days of Sad Hob, Miserable Hob, Hob Angst, Tortured Hob, Lonely-Pining-Weeping Hob: So... it would be inexcusably rude to point out the Ferdinand Kingsley bites his nails, right? Like that would be totally uncalled for, even if it's very very cute and very Hob Waiting Nervously For His Stranger To Return His Affections Or Storm Out Again... right?

Does it help if I also bite my nails — & compulsively pick at my lips & skin to the point where I've taken to wearing gloves at my desk in an attempt to stop, and I swear to Murphy I'm not making fun here?

[i-am-church-the-cat]

pls dont say sorry my ultimate goal in fandom life is CHURCH MAXIELLLLL

Lolol Maxiel is actually the first F1 ship i ever read fanfiction for, I got attached to it before I was even attached to Loscar. Ig the main reasons I’ve never written it are 1) it’s pretty well-established already and idk what i personally could say, and 2) i’m a blue and silver girlie (history of man might as well be my master’s thesis) so writing in red would have a different vibe to it.

That being said, I do plan to write for it soon, if not for my HDD series than for something else.

[lyssafreyguy]

I don't even know your TT handle and you have somehow infected mine with DMMD content. how did you do that. what furry butch powers do you possess in order to infect MY for your page with DMMD content in 2024. EXPLAIN YOUR WAYS, SIR.

Sincerely, a long-time follower that remembers your DMMD days VIVIDLY. (/j, but every time I do see them I do think of you and I am so sorry that I've associated you with DMMD in my mind 😭)

LYSSA'S FUCKED UP LITTLE TRICK!!!!!!!!!! >:3

[jelliegirl]

my paranoia about social situations is so bad rn

[loverboybrightsideghost]

me once i got my final schedule after saying i wouldn't overwork myself this semester