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dreamingcricket · 1 year ago

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may i request some poly head canons with wyll and gale dating a male dwarf tav ? i am Very Sad i cannot kiss both of them - maybe they are dating each other too, wyll/gale is a very cute ship =]

Wyll was easy to like, and almost easier to love. He was noble, gentle, as ready with a bolstering quip as he was his blade. More than once, you catch yourself gazing longingly after him on the battlefield. If you weren't so busy trying to stay alive, you'd have noticed him looking back.

An Eldritch blast explodes behind your head, and you whirl just in time to see the goblin crumble, it's weapon missing you by inches.

Wyll flashes you a grin. "Don't get slow on me now!"

You ignore the flutter in your chest and charge back into the fray. You couldn't afford to be distracted by your feelings. Not here. Not now.

It's a long shot anyway.

After the grove is saved and the camp engulfed by eager and intoxicated partygoers, you find Wyll standing on the shore of the river.

You fail to convince him to return to the party, and instead take a seat at his side. "It's a little loud for my taste anyway. Reminds me a little too much of home."

Wyll throws his head back in laughter. "Some truly mighty feasts then?"

"The drink alone would kill you."

"You'll have to take me underground sometime. When all this is over, if we survive."

"I will."

You trade stories by the campfire over the coming nights, delighting each other at first with epic tales of heroism, but later, when everyone has gone to bed, stories about home. Wyll began to confide in you, and you moved, night by night, from across the campfire, to to near one another, to painfully close, your hands only inches apart.

"This is... not how I expected my life to go."

"The pact or the tadpole?"

"Both."

"Are you disappointed?"

"In some ways, yes. But it brought me to you."

His hand moves, only a little bit, but it finally, finally covers yours.

"I would have liked to do this all the proper way. Wining and dining, and courting and whatnot."

"As if anything about this situation is proper."

He considers for a moment. "You're right. But you deserve the world. I can at least give you this."

He leans down to kiss you, and both of you tumble backwards.

If the others notice your tent is unoccupied and Wyll's is a little full, they don't say anything.

Well, one of them noticed.

Gale was... more complicated. He was pompous, arrogant, and brilliant enough to almost justify his hubris. The two of you clashed often. Sometimes over important things, which routes to take and who to trust, but just as often over petty nonsense, the shape of clouds and how much spice should be used in the soup. The wizard was stubborn, but had clearly not spent much time around dwarves, who have honed stubbornness into an art form.

Gale backs down. Again and again.

To his surprise, Gale finds himself happy to do so. He finds himself troublingly enamoured of the particular expression you make when you win an argument, your eyes glinting.

At some point, it changed from arguments to a game, a private jest between the two of you. Not that you'd let anyone know, not even Wyll. And he certainly didn't annoy you any less.

"If you'd put on some decent armour, you wouldn't be injured as often!"

"I can't wear armour, I can't cast in armour!"

"If your stubbornness gets you killed, it's on your head!"

"And if your constant whinging about the state of my defenses causes the orb to combust, it's on all of our heads!"

"Fine!" You storm away.

"Fine!" Gale calls after you, red in the face.

And Wyll just smiles.

"He drives me mad!"

"Mhmm." Wyll runs his fingers through your beard, comb in hand and a lot of oil nearby, as you rant, hours later, in the privacy of his tent.

"Have you met a more stuck-up, boar-headed man anywhere?"

"Mhmm."

"He won't shut up!"

"Is this about the arguing, or something else?"

"I- What do you mean by that?" You narrow your eyes.

"You wouldn't be this worked up if he only drove you mad. You would have simply punched him, and left him in a ditch."

"I concede that. But what are you implying?"

He leans down to kiss your forehead. "Just know, whatever your feelings for anyone otherwise, I love you."

You hold his jaw, turning his face towards yours. “Are you… do you like Gale?”

“I've had my moments, he has his charms. Are you… uncomfortable with that? If it hurts what we have-”

“The concept of multiple partners, no, but… Gale!?” You sputter. And try desperately not ot think of Wyll kissing Gale no not thinking of that not at all–

Wyll playfully tugs your beard. “Alright, lover-boy, whatever you say.”

“I’m not…”

You realize you have no real defense. Wyll saw right through you, and while that usually made him even more of a delightful lover, in this instance you merely huffed and roll into your blankets.

You toss and turn all night.

In the morning, you storm up to Gale as he cooks. "It smells delicious."

"Well if it's not- what?"

"It smells delicious. You're a good cook."

Shadowheart's mouth falls open, and Astarion chokes.

Gale considers for a long moment. "...Thank you."

"And if you can't wear armour, you should stand behind me."

And then you leave.

It turns out, when Gale stands behind you, he feels much safer. Not to mention, he can admire the view.

The newly brokered peace between you is tenuous, but in the silence where you're no longer shouting, something else blooms. Gale begins to ask about your life underground, and you ask about his magical studies, carefully avoiding the subject of Mystra. It's not that you have any particular interest in the arcane arts, but the way his face illuminates and his gaze becomes distant but intense, it endears you.

You kneel by the river with him, washing pots and pans after dinner. He takes a sharp breath in. And then he says it.

"I love you."

"... I'm sorry?"

"Shit. That... wasn't how I meant to say that." He scrambles to his feet and looks as though he's about to flee into the brush.

"I'm not-"

"I don't..." Gale sighs and runs a hand over his face. "I can't ruin what you have with Wyll. I won't do that to him, or to you. If you don't feel the way I do, I'll never speak of it again. But you should know that I admire you beyond words." He takes a steadying breath. "I admire you, and adore you, and even as you infuriate me, I can't help but love you. Desperately. But I understand that you're not free."

You ball the front of his robes in your fist and pull him down to your level. "Kiss me, idiot."

"What about Wyll?"

"Oh, don't stop on my account."

Wyll is leaned against a nearby tree, goblet in hand. "I can't think of a better sight than the two of you."

You wrap your arms around Gale's shoulders and pull him in for a kiss. You hear Wyll's footsteps, and he's suddenly on his knees behind you.

Gale pulls back, gasping, his mouth falling open and shut. “I…both? Both is good? I can… both?”

It doesn't surprise you that Mystra was too jealous to require anything but monogamy from her chosen, but there’s still a flicker of some protective emotion as you watch Gale grapple with his feelings. “You don’t need to commit to anything now. Or ever.”

He takes a deep breath. “I have more than one burning fuse on the end of my life. I’m not giving this up. Not for anything.”

The speed with which he hauled both you and Wyll to his tent is startling. You didn't think the wizard was athletic in any capacity, but he seemed determined to prove you wrong.

The next morning, as you passed Astarion, he glanced up at you. “So. Are the three of you investing in a bigger tent? You’ll be a circus before long.”

You throw a sausage at him, but make a mental note to search for roomier lodging.

#wyll ravengard #wyll x tav #baldurs gate 3 #gale dekarios #gale x tav #bg3 gale #bg3 wyll #male tav #bg3 x male reader

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morningmask27 · 4 months ago

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Ivypool's heart rant under the cut lol

WHISTLEPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAW, my little Whis is important, WHISTLEPAW is a big part of the story (hopefully). Oh boy, I hope they won't do Whis too wrong with this book or I'll go fight the Erins myself.

this little scene was very funny to me. Whistlepaw is a shit fighter confirmed

we also get descriptions for the new children, FINALLY. Don't think anyone expected Branchkit to be fully white, but the Erins like being chaotic with their pelt colors, so whatevz. I've already played with fully white kits in this family, Branchkit is deaf now.

Anyways, I am pretty okay with Ivypool and Rootspring hanging out to mourn Bristlefrost. It's touching in a way that they bond over this shared grief (also impressed they mentioned Antpelt. They do remember things from time to time. Impressive)

The way they made Wrenflight have a crush on Rootspring does annoy me just a bit. Crush shenanigans will obviously annoy me personally more, but they truly couldn't find anything better to do and they had to make A Girl fall for Root? (Also I don't know my SkyClan family tree that well surprisingly enough, so I don't have the ability to immediately say if these two are closely related. It seems okay, but who knows). They also made her a

whoopsies </3

However I truly don't feel like Ivypool should be deputy at all in such a situation. It's stated multiple times that she hasn't done a good job at her tasks or even Be On Time and I do wonder why Squirrelstar never immediately choose Cinderheart to be her deputy (also girlpower <3). I am slightly aggravated with Ivypool's worries that she'd be replaced on the long term by Cinder, who in two phrases looks to be such a better deputy than Ivy, so that weird entitlement was a bit annoying tbh. Hope it gets addressed, but I assume it won't.

Fernsong is a nothing character and that doesn't change all that much. He's ~moved on~ with Bristlefrost's death and it does characterize him a bit, but goddamn I didn't know who I found more annoying when he and Ivy were talking. Thriftear and Flipclaw look like they'll be completely forgotten by the story after their one Obligatory Scene and it's a bit disappointing. Fernsong did mention multiple times specifically taking care of the kits, but in such vague terms that it just sounds stupid. Why are the Erins still so wishy-washy about having Fern live up to his earlier promise?

God, just get a divorce if you're not going to talk at this point. Wdym The Father of the kit you just lost doesn't understand the grief you're going through. Okay he's a cardboard made to feel whatever's necessary, but still, this is dumb

*chanting* divorce divorce divorce divorce

Anywaaaaaaays. Harestar gets one emergency gathering, as a treat <3

That was Whistlepaw's little sister, so obviously that would be traumatic (I will bite the Erins if they forget in the rest of the book) and

Whistlepaw does not like public speaking. Whis already had a same-ish reaction last time in Thunder when lying about Frostpaw's death, so this is a funky character trait.

Anyways, Whis <3 (they also don't let Whis finish explaining that damned dream. Constantly interrupting with useless comments. Goddamnit, you don't help a cat that doesn't like public speaking already by constantly speaking up and stopping the story)

And as I yelled in another post, Cloverfoot gets a few good lines here. Not a lot, but she's rational

Whistlepaw gets two free mom's

I find the group of cats so funny to. Ivypool, deputy of ThunderClan and hero of the dark forest, Dovewing, one of The Three super powered cats that saved the Clans, Rootspring, light in the mist, helped to defeat Ashfur and has sister powers, Icewing (joins a bit later), senior warrior of RiverClan, trained in the dark forest too and then there's Whistlepaw, apprentice with a dream. (This will make for a funny daily Whis drawing lol)

#morningtalks #warrior cats #asc spoilers #Ivypool's heart spoilers #Love my silly kitty

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rev-wrath · 6 months ago

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I am feeling thinfs about Jason Todd, beloved. + immediately thought of u so here I am. And I might be a little tipsy rn which makes me more emotional than normal but!!! I came across the knowledge that Jay's death was a community vote??? Like imagine that.

Your life and your death is decided upon you by entities beyond your comprehension. It alters your relationship with you pseudo-father, your brother, and everyone around you. You die because some readers thought you were annoying. You were a funny lil kid who annoyed these higher entities by being yourself and a child. You were a kid that strived to meet the expectations of the man who adopted you. You liked learning things and school. You were a child. You die and Batman can't do anything about it. Because it was prewritten. It was against your will and his, but it happened anyway, and it will always happen. Was it truly the Joker that killed you? Or was he a vessel for these higher entities to kill you? Did you really die at the hands of a maniacal clown or was it something else entirely? You don't know. Not really. You died, and you came back. Why? Because the higher entities thought that maybe they made a mistake? Maybe because they realised they were being cruel? It doesn't matter because you died. And you came back. Not as the naive child as before, but as something more bitter. more cynical. Something about destiny and shakespearan tragedy but my thoughts are a little scattered at the moment.

That was a bit of a meta-rant, but I've been feeling things for Jason and I can't wait to write him in the fic (even tho it'll take a while to get to him)

Hello to you too. Love that I’m now your go-to for DC. Yes, Jason’s death was a community vote. People called in to vote, multiple votes were allowed. People hated him for taking up the mantle and quickly after his death kids would send in letters mourning Jason, asking why he died. There should be an issue coming out of what would have happened had he been saved. The direct wording, interestingly enough, also included “Joker succeeds” and “Joker fails” as you question if Joker is truly at fault.

He came back a writer wanted to do something big and bring back a dead character so now we have Red Hood. He was a good kid, one that believed in magic, not because he knew it was real, but because he could feel it. I feel like if Jason ever became aware of this knowledge, like one of a fourth wall break or something, it would break him. He is truly some Shakespearean tragedy. Or maybe a Greek one.

Anyways can’t wait to see you write him, and the others. I will get around to responding to the message I sent you, currently not feeling that well.

#reed answers #my beloved rael

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cathumanthing2 · 1 year ago

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Roseblings Chatfic AU Chapter 8

(TW: Implied/referenced injury, implied/referenced child abuse)

hopeless romantics

1:34 PM

elsa boi added Katherine Elizabeth to the groupchat

Katherine Elizabeth: what.

Shroom: Oh hi katherine!

elsa boi: I apologize to the groupchat for adding one of the braincells into the group but it was urgent

elsa boi: the gays were being oblivious

elsa boi: i had to act

simp for elves: fair. Anyways, i have a date with xorny i need to get to so bye

elsa boi: …YOU CANT BE DATiNG MY SIBLINg

simp for elves: but i am :3

engineer salmon: joey, please dont ever use that face ever again

engineer salmon: it feels wrong to see you use it

simp for elves: why :3

Shroom: im going to cry

Katherine Elizabeth: Nooo don't cryyyy :(

Shroom: ok I won't i dont want to make you cry :(

elsa boi: im starting to regret bringing katherine into the mix

magic bitches

2:02

tech wizard: gem gem gem gem gem gem gem gem gem gem gem

actual wizard: Shat.

actual wizard: Oh shoot no-

actual wizard: *what

blood sheep man: Shat.

actual wizard: Shushhhhhhh

tech wizard: gem do you wanna go see that one new version of the mermaid movie i hated when we were yougner

actual wizard: fWhip i have too much work to do-

tech wizard: gem, the last day of school was at least a week ago

tech wizard: what work

actual wizard: 1. Summer reading, 2. An essay competition, 3. Tutoring people in a few subjects, 4. Honing my magic skills and expanding my knowledge, 5. My actual job

tech wizard: not all of that has to be done right now. Gem. please

actual wizard: I'm sorry i cant i just

actual wizard: theres too much and its better to get it done sooner than later

tech wizard: ok thats fine

mushrooms and plants belong together because they are besties :D

2:25

Shub :D: Katherine why were you added to the simp chat?

Kath <3: Oh, scott asked me if i had a crush(which i dont) and i told him i didnt but i found this one person to be cute, and then ranted about why they were cute, and now I'm stuck in that groupchat i guess!

Kath <3: Why're you there?

Shub :D: i told him about my crush and he decided that i was a, and i quote, "useless sapphic who needs to get her shit together" and added me to the gc

Kath <3: Dang.

Kath <3: If you wouldn't mind telling me, who do you have a crush on? /nf

Shub :D: Oh i don't really want to tell, don't want it getting out to them, ya know?

Kath <3: Ok, I'll try to remember that :)/gen

Ice elf + literal plant

2:34

literal plant: Scott, you keep saying im a simp but i dont even know what a crush feels like

literal plant: so i was wondering

literal plant: What does a crush feel like? /genq

Ice elf: A simple rule i follow to make sure i really have a crush on someone is asking myself a series of questions

Ice elf: if the answer is mostly yesses, most likely a crush

Ice elf: and i assure you

Ice elf: I myself am a simp and you are showing clear signs of the gayness

literal plant: …ITS NOT MY FAULT SHE'S ALL MUSROOM-Y AND CUTE AND FUNNY AND HER VOICE SOUNDS NICE ITS ALL AESTHETIC ATTRACTION RIGHT??

Ice elf: oh no…. You're further gone than I thought….

hopeless romantics

2:40 pm

elsa boi changed Katherine Elizabeth 's name to mushroom lover

mushroom lover: scott i will murder you. Im serious.

elsa boi: chill. Everyone here is oblivious. No one'll understand it.

Shroom: I thought i was the ultimate mushroom lover D:

elsa boi: See?

engineer salmon: …I'm going to cry this is both beautiful and annoying at the same time

mushroom lover: So everyone is seriously oblivious? No one'll understand it?

polyamorous bisexual idiot: pretty much

mushroom lover: I don't know if I truly like them like that but Scott says im a simp, and they have the cutest voice, and her hair looks so fluffy, and their eyes are so, so bright and beautiful, and they have these little freckles on their button nose that I just want to bop, and she's so funny and kind and nice and I just don't want her to be sad because she doesn't deserve to be sad, and I just love how much light they bring everywhere

Shroom: Yeah, you like them. I feel a similar way about my crush.

elsa boi: Ohhhh my goshhhhhhhhhhhh-

engineer salmon: *facepalm*

Roseblings :D

3:05

Tnt deer: Gem, are you ok? You've been really distant lately, it's starting to get concerning.

Magic deer: I'm fine, just busy! Don't worry about me!

Tnt deer: Ok, sure.

fWhip set down his phone and sighed.

When fWhip was younger, Gem was strong.

And she still is. She always will be. But her strength is ebbing away, fading, and she's exhausted all the time.

She was hurting, and putting piles and piles of weight on top of herself, and bending and breaking. And fWhip didn't know what to do, she was the strong one, wasn't she?

fWhip huddled up near the wall, eyes black and blue, a small cut on his upper lip, head throbbing in pain, and a sob choked its way out of his throat. He flinched as something touched his face, expecting another blow, but instead his chin was gently cradled as soft thumbs wiped away his tears.

He opened his eyes to see a familiar freckled face littered with bruises, her usually neat orange hair messy, her eyes watering, and he threw his arms around her for comfort.

She gave him a shaky smile. "It's ok, they're done. It's fine. We can do this, we're strong." she reassured him.

"Gem, I'm scared, they were really angry this time," his voice was muffled by her clothes.

Gem hugged him closer, sniffling. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I couldn't protect you this time…"

She murmured a simple spell under her breath, which caused some of his bruises to lighten slightly, as they started healing.

fWhip had heard crying from her bedroom later that night.

#roseblings chatfic au #roseblings #geminitay #fwhip #nature wives #empires smp season 1 #empiresblr #empires smp #fanfiction #fanfic #chat fic

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zyiainautumn · 4 months ago

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Hi!! So this is a rant and a vent and really just everywhere so you don't have to read at all. If you do or don't just know that I love you!

[this shit is genuinely just a ramble. I've got so much on my mind]

Anyway... My birthday is in 6 days, I'm turning 16 and “You shouldn't put your age on the Internet” [Shrug].

I feel like my life is genuinely going to mean nothing, like that's not a problem to others but to me it is. With the way I grew up I feel like I have to be important but it's so hard.

I have this urge, this stupid thought that I've got something I need to do in my life but I don't know what it is and it definitely won't matter. That's the truth. It's so annoying. I have so many dreams but I'm not talented and I know this.

Yes I can draw - It's not good enough

Yes I can write - It's not good enough

I'm not pretty, I'm not smart enough, I can sing but I'm not good enough to be anything, if I tried I could possibly act but again I'm not good enough. Sure all of these insecurities are probably my fault and I should get over them but it's so hard.

I could've been talented I really could've but I've gotten to a point in my life, unfortunately, where I can't. I could try and apply myself but it won't help.

I had something going for me at some point. I was in band. I guess I was good and even if I wasn't , I had a purpose. I quit because it got to be too much. I've had to go through so much in my life while still being able to attend practices and be there.

Sure the performances were worth it, the feeling of accomplishment was worth it, it was worth it to hear the place we got and jump around excited, and absolutely house a whole bunch of junk food but at the end of the day I was exhausted and the finances were too much for my mom while everything was going on so I quit.

I only went to one performance to watch my friends perform and the moment I heard the intro I was done for. I've never actually had to leave something because I was like an actual sobbing mess but I did that night. It was like a realization that I didn't matter without band.

Now however...that changed. I love band and it's the biggest part of me but I couldn't do it again. I realized now that I couldn't handle it again. I had every right not to like the people I didn't like. I didn't like one of the directors, a kid in my section made me...UGHHHH, it truly was exhausting, and I'm absolutely not built for that.

I'm doing theater my junior year but maybe this'll be better and I'll feel better about myself.

Okay because that was random here's my real problem. I want to do so much with my life but at the end of the day I feel like I'm just gonna end up being the living embodiment of Jobless Monday by Mitski. I know dwelling on these thoughts are practically manifesting it but what the hell else am I supposed to do? I have no help and can't get any. Fuck insurance because why is it cheaper for me to just sit and suffer? whatever anyway.

Take some of my favorite songs.

#a penny for my thoughts𖦹ʚ♡ɞ #tw: vent #ramble ramble ramble #i feel like God was just mixing dramas together to get my family life cause wtf is this? let me start over(just kidding love my friends)#but it's okay cause i got friends and a girlfriend who i love(and my mom)#Spotify

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choccyhearts · 2 years ago

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ooookay, im gonna rant rq so feel free to scroll past...

but im getting so sick of the under appreciation for Argyle and his character

i haven't written a tooon of argyle-centric fics but when i do post things for him they underperform greatly compared to my eddie and steve stuff

none of my argyle works have ever surpassed 100 notes but one of my eddie imagines is nearing 1k (and thank u for that truly) but i just started posting steve stuff and even that has gotten more love than argyle

i understand if he isn't some people's cup of tea, that's totally okay

but....lowkey side-eye👀

i knew what i was getting into when i got into the st fandom but seeing it first-hand is genuinely upsetting/annoying

and this hits especially hard for me because i am also a person of color, so ofc i'm gonna hype up argyle (plus he's epic anyways) but this just makes me want to stop writing eddie/steve stuff entirely until i see more love for my argyle stuff (which will likely not happen, ik)

like ik some of you are chill and it isn't anything personal or weird, but i hope ya'll understand where i'm coming from and ik others on here feel the same

so yeah, i just wanted to post this because i'm so sick of posting argyle works that i'm excited about and then feeling insecure and upset towards my writing when they don't do as well as my eddie/steve stuff

also, i'm not trying to sound ungrateful for the appreciation for my works that i do get, it truly means a lot to me since this is a fun hobby for me and i do see every comment/reblog and every like makes my day better, but i just needed to get this off my chest

anyways, spring break is nearing so i hope to have more stuff out soon, i have lots of ideas and few ongoing series ideas that i want to start

ok, thanks for reading all of this if u did <3

#argyle #argyle x reader #argyle stranger things #stranger things #st4 #eddie munson #eddie stranger things #steve harrington #steve stranger things

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phantom-miria · 2 years ago

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Omg, yes i agree with everthing you said! I really don't necessary think that most people hate on f!robin just because they're misogynistic, they're most likely just other queer people that are feeling "vindacted" that IS finally acknowledging m!chrobin (and like, I get it! IS has a horrible track when it comes to mlm rep, the fact that m!chrobin isn't a thing in canon and the way they handled the queer male options in 3H is super annoying so I do sympathise with them a lot!) I just wish they wouldn't discount their hatred on her? IS bullshit and homophobia is not her fault?

And yeah, we have this amazing high fantasy world full of dragons, magic and trime travel but queer people having a child is where people draw the line? And why do they feel the need to go on posts of people having fun to remind them that "it's not canon"? I swear that those people love to do that with queer ships, is so annoying. I had this terrible experience recently with some f!chrobin shippers and idk I just felt like they were disgusted at the ideia of Chrom being bi from the way they talked, I hated so much.

Anyway, I'm really sorry for the rant and for reminding you of all the fandom bullshit that you were trying to ignore. I'm just so tired of all of this and I feel like no matter what I say about this anywhere else, I will get called of something bad. You felt like a person that would understand where i was coming from and you did, thank you for your time and understanding! Have a good day/night.

I definitely agree - I see how we got here, and I have sympathy, but a lot of it dries up the longer I'm in fandom and I get worn down by people swerving all over the place to take it out on F!Robin or people who did enjoy what we got in canon, I think. And there's also been a weird narrative about her being favored, which I think is extremely untrue if you look at the history of their inclusion in Smash and the trailer, then the amiibo, then the Fates cameo, then Warriors, etc etc. He always gets the lion's share in crossover content and it's really fucking depressing to people who like her!

FEH was the only spot she really had anything "over" him (and even then it was uneven, with him being available at launch with a summoning movie while she was relegated to grail unit added later) and now after an admittedly big wait his legendary here, with a bunch of shippy hints and getting to be himself in his legendary, plus he got the duo I'd give my eyeteeth to have her in, etc. I really think he was always doing fine as far as official rep, and Engage DLC just came along to confirm the same old pattern of "when only one is picked for representing the character in a crossover, it's him". Officially he has historically done well outside of giving nods to shippinness with Chrom, so I think it is both great and understandable that people are so excited about it now. Of course it feels vindicating! But I don't see the reason to sneer at other fans for what they enjoy or their hopes or personal disappointment about a female avatar not being allowed to officially rep the character, lol.

I really can't understand why people see those fans celebrating and decide they have to ruin it. As if those fans aren't already accutely aware of the fact that it isn't canon in the original game. As if that isn't the reason they're so happy in the first place? It is truly such an unwarranted dick move.

I'm really sorry to hear about that recent experience, anon! I love bi Chrom with all my heart - unfortunately I don't talk about it so much because I am an OTPer who's ended up unfathomably annoyed about the male player character, so I only really end up engaging with ship content for him with a female character most of the time, and so functionally the fact that I headcanon him bi ends up not coming up super often. But I love that idea and am extremely attached to it. There are dozens of us! Dozens!! Especially as a queer woman. It's important to me that they are both bi in my head.

I'm unfortunately not surprised to hear that people reacted with disgust - I remember that from my days in DA fandom :( but it never gets easier. It just makes it feel like there's no real place, because the people who like the version you do suck, but if you don't like the other version as much and those people think you suck for liking the one you do, it's just kind of well...here I am, then. Lol.

No need to apologize, anon, I like talking about this kind of thing! I think I'm just worried that I've been spending too much time doing so recently and my friends are going to be absolutely sick of it, lol. And realistically it is better for me to spend less brainspace on people in fandom being shitty, probably? But I think it's good for you to hear that other people in fandom feel the same way and have problems with a lot of different corners, like you do. I hope you have a good night too! There are people out here who just want to ship and have a good time. It's not all bullshit, even if it feels like it sometimes, or even if you end up focusing on it a lot like me. <3

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roguestarsailor · 3 days ago

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ranting about how hard it truly is to talk to people out here!! and im just not in a good mood today

i might be just sad because my friends moved to nyc and i miss them and i feel very lonely right now! could also be the bad weather too?

i had lunch w head honcho + 2 other coworkers. we do this yearly and its suppose to be a chance for us to talk to someone we don't usually talk to. its a good idea but at this point im more bothered than anything and it feels like such a chore. the thing is i genuinely try to talk to everybody and meet them where i can!

head honcho is soooo difficult to talk to i swear. idk if he's got time to truly dislike me but i don't get the vibe that we're that chill. but anyways, talking to him is like pulling teeth i swear. he recently had twins and so i was trying to ask him questions about that to get him to talk with me! and he gives me like one sentence answers. he's not mean but it's soooooooooo fucken dry. then i'll try to talk about myself and he doesn't really respond!

during the lunch, one of my coworkers was talking about how during thanksgiving his family makes paella every year and he's unsure why they do that and i was like oh i love paella, that's my goal one day to make it. and then everyone, mostly head honcho who was like oh its so easy just do it and i was like but i need to buy the pan and then hes like just buy the pan its everywhere; it's not that difficult. which ok yeah its true if you break it down step by step and theres an abundant places to buy the pan and get the ingredients and i feel like i have to defend myself. when i say these things i dont mean i physically can't do it it means i don't have the energy to do that in the present moment and it's just something i want to learn to do. i hate when they rag on me and make me feel dumb!

not a single question was ask to me and it was just boys talking to boys. its not like sports or anything but just like work talk, sales, and regular family things especially since thanksgiving is coming up. and i just felt ready to leave. it was so unfulfilling and it wasn't conversation that i can jump in to say anything useful. its so annoying.

times like this is when i really need to figure out how to change my language. i speak and talk to people with the expectation that everyone is participating and open them to speak on their own experiences but maybe i do it so wrong that it makes everyone think i'm dumb and need help?? anyways, its the type of thing where i cant fake my way through. how does he have this so often and can't hold a conversation? or is that reserved for other people? i'd rather sit in silence!!!

i had dinner w another friend and it was also awful ok im being dramatic i think it was just surface level. i think if i have to repeatedly say "oh and look at us that's why we're still friends" i think its a bad sign. that dinner was purely her talking about herself and what she's been doing and how she's got all these people she's got to see and call and facetime and dinners and parties and all that. it's fun to see her be so active but the connection was not there. it was me asking questions and then the same thing that happened at the lunch happened here too. i was saying ugh i want to go shopping and i miss just being able to go. she immediately goes into problem solving mode and tells me oh just go shopping and then proposed we go shopping at this suburban mall where she also has a pizza event and i was like ok yes! this is great! but i am also like wait a minute, it's not even stores i want to shop at?? and she also goes oh i won't be shopping but you can and i dont like that because i don't want to be taken care of, come because you ALSO want to go shopping. you're not my chauffeur and i dont want you to be!

actually i wish people would stop trying to solve my problems. there are times when i ask and times when i am just complaining and ranting! and i want you to rant with me!!! i like when people just get what i mean! when i say ugh i hate that XYZ i'd prefer if they said yeah XYZ is annoying and when ABC happened to me i was just as mad. that's what im looking for. i'm not helpful but i am full of complaints and rants!

i feel like i need to fix my language...but i don't know how to hold a conversation well. i don't want it to be just purely statements. it should be interactive and shouldn't we all be trying to be in someone else's shoes as they speak?

anyways im not happy today. stupid russian man was in my brain today because he is interacting w that friend that moved to nyc's strava and im filled with jealousy and rage and on top of that, it's just so much of these surface level interactions and i am sick of them. absolutely sick of them. fighting my demons and loneliness and it was especially hard today.

#amandathoughts #just ranting

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dead-air-radio · 7 months ago

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I've talked about this person before on here in a long rant so this is like a continuation of it but like okay so this person is my father figure but he's not bio father ykyk. But like I'm so content with him like I'm fine with the fact they aren't my bio father and I don't have any want really to know my bio dad other than for curiosity. But I know he's not content with me as his kid. Like ik he would be happier with bio kids. And I'm just kinda that replacement for it. His gf (pretty much my mom) doesn't want kids and he wants kids a lot but respects it so when I came along they treated it like a compromise. And for people who have actual fathers just imagine you love you dad but you know he doesn't want you type thing like you know he's like okay with you but he yearns for another child that isn't you. That's how I feel. And yk it's like a weird feeling cause like it feels like being replaced all over again by yet another father but this time the father chose me yet still doesn't want me. Like first my bio dad leaves and now the person I relate as my father is also discontent. Idk how to be a good child guys. The other day he accidentally sent smth he meant to send to his friend and I think about it wverytime we talk. It's just like those like gender reveal parties or like baby posting ykyk he sent it with the message like "how am I meant to catch a break with wanting a kid with all this with all this on my feed" and I thought the message was for me so I like thought it was heartwarming like oh this reminded them of me...when I responded they were like "I sent these to the weong person I am so sorry kiddo I love you I am so sorry" so I'm taking it as he feels guilty cause they weren't actually for me and that he truly just doesn't see me as his kid and it hurts cause like I see him as my father. And now like every time we talk I'm like "oh God I'm annoying this dude who I revolve my world around and tell him everything I'd tell a bio dad and he isn't even content with me being his kid"

Anyways guys I want to kms I hat myself sm

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losfacedevil · 11 months ago

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Hi Crystal, I think I sent this yesterday but I'm not sure if you've seen it, if I've sent it twice please just ignore, sorry for the inconvenience😬😬 anyways Here you go your long(ish?) anon message!!

I am still fairly new to the fandom and your blog is one of the very first I've came across and it brings me comfort everyday! We don't have a lot of interactions, I am just one of your many readers but your page feels like a safe space to me. I believe it is completely coincidence but your fics always come at the most appropriate timing! the most recent example being Sanctuary, I can't express how it just calms my nerves the right way when I was experiencing almost the same emotions as y/n in the fic that day and then boom! a josh hurt/comfort fic!🥺🥺🥺 like ma'am you don't understand!! And the way you master both fluff and smut (lol also sugar and spice as I like to call them) so well! Good Vibrations is so sexy!! one of the my go-to Jake fic hehehe....And I wait for the All My Love update every week, you always post it the day I have an assignment due, so I save it as a reward :D

and I love how you seem so passionate about every character you write, like one can really feel the writer's love upon reading them. I like how you have your little universe for Sophia and Sam. and I love it when you post saying you have a bad day, I know some people may feel vulnerable or afraid that they are being annoying when they post personal rant, but I like reading them, because it feels relatable, although we do not have the same problem, we all live in this nutso world and it feels good knowing that even some of our most talented writers also have bad days (or maybe it is a double sword, letting them delivering the most delicate emotions the most eloquent way but that also means extra sensitivity?🤔) anyway never feel sorry about those feelings, that's what makes us human. plus this is your blog, do whatever makes your heart happy!

wow this is really getting long, if you managed to make it here I just want to tell you that you are amazing, I love your writing, thank you for creating magic by channeling our imagination in comforting ways, thank you for creating a safe space for me, rock on!! sending much love <33

Hi Nonniebug! I think tumblr ate your first ask 😅. But thank you so much for your kind words! This was such a nice message to wake up to. Many of my fics are extremely self indulgent so there’s a good chance whatever is portrayed in the way of comfort in them is something I truly needed myself that day. We all have bad days and that’s okay! I am so so glad you enjoy my silly little writings and characters and that this mess I call a blog has become a safe space for you! I strive for it to be a safe place for all and a judgement free zone! Sending all my love, Nonniebug 🫶🏻

#my asks

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l8nitewriting · 11 months ago

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Some info before we start :)

Hi! So I made this account to be able to post my story ideas and random thoughts, I would've on twitter but I don't know how anything on twitter works and it keeps having problems with the writers I follow so I'm going to just stick with what I know and post my garbage here :)

I like to write for fun and for myself and thought I had some pretty good ideas every now and again and thought I could share them so that maybe I could inspire some talented artists and writers to do their thing.

I write some weird things, stuff that include :WARNING FOR TRIGGERS: Murder, assault (I don't glorify it in anyway and would like anyone who see's what I write in result of it to tell me if I did or said something wrong and I will adjust accordingly) Serial killers (fake ones based off of real ones that I will warn everyone of who and what) some offensive words but never anything racial seeing as I am a white woman and do not have any knowledge or experience with it and have no right to mention those words, offensive phrasings in the idea of a bad character and/or a messed up character is aiming to demean and hurt another character, drug use, graphic content such as how the characters died and what bodies are like after death, violence, and depressive idealisms and unhealthy ways of coping with them. I WILL tag and put the appropriate warnings before I post anything and again will take down anything that truly harms someone's well being because I never want to hurt anyone with my mindless writings. Also another warning is that I cuss a LOT! Like an absurd amount of cussing its almost annoying sometimes.

Another weird and possibly annoying thing I do is that I misspell a LOT. I love to write and do it quite often but I still can't spell things or most times don't make sense with my phrasings or meanings. I will include pictures, songs, poems and many other references to try and convey what I mean when I go off on a tangent.

Please feel free to expand on any idea I have, tag me in the work and I'd absolutely love to read and witness your work! It would be appreciated if y'all would offer KIND AND HELPFUL criticism in my writings or other ideas.

Thank you for taking the time to read my whole rant and I hope to make some new friends on here and make some memorable work here :)

#trigger warnings #literature #writerscommunity #intro post #hello tumblr

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girlfrandletters · 2 years ago

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Valentines Day Letter That Can't Possibly Fit On A Generic Card

I never thought I'd say this, but I sometimes wish that our anniversary and Valentine's Day were not so close together. Obviously, that's not something that we can really choose - the first day we spend together that would unknowingly become "The Anniversary." Maybe we could make our new anniversary that day in October when you said you loved me for the first time ever. The only reason I'm stressing about this is because everything that I want to type to you now, in your Valentine's Day "card," is literally everything that I should say to you on our Anniversary. You know, the day that actually matters the most. But I could also just type a different post with similar words and meanings and you would still enjoy every second of it. I would enjoy typing it. I always love telling you all the reasons why I love you.

Anyway, enough of that rambling. I'm typing this because I tried to get you an obnoxious card, which I didn't have much space to write on. And the space I did have to write on was annoying because the front of the card was too lumpy bumpy. So here I am, typing away to let you know how much I love you and how much I mean to you.

Today is the second Valentine's Day we have celebrated together. Well, we haven't celebrated yet. We are going to. With Kumo (maybe), a movie (still deciding which one), and mind blowing loving sex (obviously). And to be honest, even if we were just going home to sit in bed stare at the ceiling and talk about silly things for hours, that would be just as perfect for me. For us. Because that is us. We are the people who don't overdo the romanticism. We have our own form of romanticism that doesn't fit into the usual mold. We don't get caught up in the flowers and chocolates and premade cards so symbolize our love. We don't have to put each other's faces on social media to tell the world that we love each other.

I always found that kind of stuff very shallow. Even back when I was a stupid romantic nerd who liked grand gestures and verbal declarations of love and affection - I always thought the cards and posts were stupid and fake and not a real show of affection. And maybe I was always bitter about it because I never had someone that I truly felt like cared for me. Or just because I used to do that kind of stuff and never got the same in return. But maybe I just realized those kinds of displays of affection hid a plethora of other problems, and the people truly in love never needed anything like that.

I would be lying if I told you I didn't sometimes want to put our best photos on my Facebook and go on a whole rant about how much you've helped me, supported me, and given me the best feelings of love I could have ever asked for. But I also like that I don't have to do that, that you just know me enough to know all these things and when I tell you and only you, it means nothing less.

If I were to make a Facebook post, or if someone did ask me about you, this is what I would say:

"Anthony has been... a wonderful additional to my life. Even back when I wasn't really romantically attracted to him, he helped open me up to the idea of exploring - exploring people outside my comfort zone, adventuring to places I never would have thought to go to, doing crazy things like driving down to South Carolina with a stranger with no worry about life or death. Maybe I was a little too naive. But I am glad I did everything I did with him. Because by doing all that, we developed such a new and different relationship, and we have both grown into people that we love very much. We are not the same people we were when we first started dating. I drove out an hour and a half to get into someone's bed for a night periodically, and now I drive 45 minutes home to get into his bed for the night every night. I love him to the ends of the Earth, and I hope to go there with him."

According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary, the definition of Love is as follows: 1) strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties 2) attraction based on sexual desire 3) affection and tenderness felt by lovers 4) affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests

Love is such an interesting concept. Because all of those definitions of apply to us. We have a strong affection for each other. We are definitely sexually attracted to each other. We have affection and tenderness between us. And we admire each other, are benevolent to each other, and have common interests.

How is it that nearly 2 years ago, two strangers met in a town (ironically, a town that pushes love all the time), knowing nothing about each other at all, having no feelings towards each other other than "I need to fuck someone," and we have become these people who literally hold each other at night and are content with being wrapped up in each other, laughing and smiling, and if we get to have sex, it's an added bonus. We have come a long way.

We have developed a love between us that I don't think will ever go away. I certainly hope not. I am so happy with the way that this feeling between us developed too. We didn't just fall in love. We tumbled headfirst down a rabbit hole, flailing our arms, laughing, shouting into the dark void.

I'm still falling.

Happy Valentine's Day. <3

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frogtanii · 4 years ago

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iwaizumi was... overwhelmed, to say the least.

the past few days had been such a whirlwind of change that hajime could barely properly process, much less appropriately react to it all, so he behaved much like a zombie, saying yes when prompted, signing papers when told, and packing up what was his entire life for the past 11 months.

wow. iwaizumi collapsed on his bed as he scanned his now barren bedroom. he’d been here for almost a year and yet, all his belongings were in boxes within a couple of days.

hajime couldn’t keep the disbelieving chuckle from escaping his chest as he leaned back on his bed, dark brown eyes trained on the ceiling.

it felt like he’d spent such a large chunk of his life trapped in this house, under the foot of the woman who he thought he’d marry but in reality, he’d been in little leagues longer than he’d been in love.

iwaizumi scoffed and rolled his eyes. yeah, “in love”. it’d been about a week since his whole life started to unravel and he had hardly seen, let alone spoken to meiko throughout that entire time.

over text, she’d sworn up and down that she loved and cared about him but as she passed by him packing his things a few days ago, she’d barely spared him a second glance.

hajime wasn’t going to lie. it hurt. he’d opened his heart up to her, something he didn’t do easily, and she’d taken his trust and used it to twist him into her weapon.

he always believed he was stronger than this — he’d never forget his mother telling him so when he was younger. he had fallen and scraped his knee yet he refused to cry to keep from upsetting his mom. iwaizumi existed to live up to what his mother thought of him but here he was, completely enveloped in meiko’s shit, doing her dirty work and following her bidding like some mutt.

god, toorū was right. he really was her bitch.

“i could hear you thinking from down the hall, iwa-chan.” speak of the devil...

oikawa stood at his doorway, leaning against the frame with a posture that seemed relaxed at first glance but if you looked a little closer, you’d notice the tenseness in his shoulders and the tightness of his smile.

hajime quickly sat up on his bed before motioning for his old friend to enter. “uh, yeah,” he began, his voice cracking a little from disuse, “i have a lot to think about.”

the light haired brunette let out an understanding hum before wandering into the room, sharp observant eyes darting to look at all the empty walls. “looks like you’re all packed.”

“pretty much,” iwaizumi nodded before the room fell into an awkward silence, the two childhood friends completely avoiding one another’s eyes.

“look, i-“

“iwa-chan, i’m-“

they both paused for a moment before bursting into laughter, the sound carrying into the hall and throughout the house.

hajime wiped a few stray tears from his eyes, shaking his head at their awkwardness. “you first, shittykawa.”

toorū gasped in halfhearted mock offense before quickly sobering up, training iwaizumi with a completely serious look. “i’m sorry and before you go on some bullshit, self sacrificing rant, you’re not the only one to blame for what happened to our friendship.”

he sighed while making his way to iwaizumi’s bed, sitting down gently beside him. “i should’ve known better, okay? i shouldn’t have let my jealousy and insecurities get in between us but i guess i got swept up in the attention, yknow? meiko is actually charming when she wants to be.”

iwaizumi nodded in agreement, knowing all too well how compelling meiko could be. the room fell into a more comfortable silence as both boys escaped into their thoughts, questions about the future of their friendship flitting throughout their minds.

“oh!” oikawa was pulled out of his own head at hajime’s exclamation, his eyes moving to observe his friend dig through his pockets to procure a thick white envelope. “here. i’d like you to give this yn.”

all toorū could do was nod, his brain short circuiting at the sight of iwaizumi’s apparent kindness to the woman he tormented for so long. “uh, what’s in it?” he ventured to ask, his soft hands toying with the sealed envelope flap.

a soft chuckle came from across the bed. “don’t be so nosy toorū, just give it to her, yeah?” oikawa rolled his eyes but obliged, the bed creaking as he stood to his feet.

“so... this is it, huh?” it was like the reality of the situation was just now sinking in — they hadn’t been close in a while but iwaizumi was still his best friend and he wasn’t quite ready to let him go.

they’d been through so much together, practically growing up together and now, they’d only see each other on holidays, if even then, and then he’d never be invited to hajime’s wedding as his best man as they’d planned and he also wouldn’t be the coolest uncle/godfather of iwa’s children and—

“fuck no,” hajime scoffed with a bright grin on his face. “thought you were gonna annoy me til the end of time shittykawa. don’t tell me you’re quitting your job now.”

the hidden meaning behind iwaizumi’s words brought tears to oikawa’s eyes and before he could stop himself, he launched his body into iwa’s arms. hajime hesitated, his hands stuttering at toorū’s sides as though he’d forgotten how to hug but the feeling passed, his arms winding around his friend’s lithe waist.

“‘m gonna miss you hajime,” oikawa’s voice came out as a broken whimper, his arms tightening around his shoulders.

iwaizumi hummed instead of responding, too afraid of his voice cracking under the weight of his emotions. they stood there for a moment but the honk of the moving truck outside signaled the both of them of their limited time.

hurriedly, oikawa wiped the tears off his cheeks before waving awkwardly at iwaizumi as he left the room with a friendly, “don’t be a stranger.”

and then he was gone.

toorū finally allowed himself to collapse into sobs on his best friends empty bed, his palms pressing into his eyes as he sat there and just let himself feel.

apparently, he wasn’t crying very quietly because it took only a few moments for you to find him, your soft footsteps alerting him to your presence. oikawa scrambled to wipe away what he knew was an unattractive mixture of tears and snot as you got closer.

you were one of the last people he wanted to see him like this.

“hey,” you whispered, standing a few feet away from him. “um, i know this is probably a bad time but i just wanted to thank you for apologizing? back at the awards show?”

toorū sniffed as he looked up at you with confusion written on his face. “what? you shouldn’t thank me for apologizing. ‘s common courtesy.”

you laughed softly, nodding in agreement. “well, not always. so, thank you.” finished with your piece and not too keen on lingering where you weren’t wanted, you moved towards the door but were swiftly stopped before you got there.

“um, here. it’s from iwa-chan.” you gaped at the thick envelope oikawa was handing you before taking it and opening it, a low curse falling from your lips.

inside the package was a dense wad of cash, more money than you’d seen in months. accompanied with it was a letter, written in beautifully loopy handwriting.

you shut it quickly before oikawa could see, stuffing the envelope deep within your pocket where you could access it alone in the depths of your room.

“do you wanna come eat? last i heard, bokuto and tsumu were doing a cooking competition and i’m sure it’ll be fun to watch.” you were severely thrown off by the money and letter but you were determined to show toorū that you’d accepted his apology and were on your way to making amends.

he gave you a shy nod and trailed behind you to the kitchen, the loud sounds of fire and screaming coming from down the hall. you wanted to focus on the fun and merriment but the envelope was practically burning a hole in your pocket.

later that night, you finally got the chance to open the letter and read it, your former manager’s words bringing tears to your eyes.

dear yn,

i’m probably the last person you expected to hear from. you probably didn’t want to hear from me at all if i’m being honest and i don’t blame you. i know there is nothing i can say that could make up for what i’ve done to you but i’d like to try.

i’m sorry. those words don’t nearly express in and of themselves how truly remorseful i am but they needed to be said. there’s no excuse for how i treated you — not meiko, not my stress, absolutely nothing.

you deserved my common decency and respect and i didn’t give that to you. instead, i abused my position and made your life hell. i’ll never forgive myself for that.

uh, i bet you’re wondering what the money is? i promise i’m not trying to pay you off, it’s just all the money i’ve denied you since you moved here. i have a lot of wrongs to right and this is one of them.

sorry, i’m not very good with words but i just wanted you to know that i’m very sorry for everything that i’ve done. and i’m in no place to make demands or anything but i just wanted to ask if you’d keep an eye on oikawa for me.

he’s strong but he’s also vulnerable. he might be a pain in my ass but he’s my best friend and since i can’t keep him from drowning, i was wondering if you’d do that - not for me but for him.

anyways, this letter is shit but i suppose you get the gist. use the money for whatever you want and if you’re as unselfish as i’ve heard, you don’t owe me anything. you don’t owe me money, kindness, or forgiveness.

take care of yourself,

iwaizumi hajime

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so... this is it

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writerofjourneys · 2 years ago

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My Rants: Honest Opinions

My Problem With KaSumi|re Yoshizawa/Violet

A/N: If you just love to make hate messages over personal thoughts over what someone thinks and are willing to accept the character that is being written about, who you don’t even know, on their posts just because of it then what’s even the point of having a matter of honest opinions anyways?

Fandom(s): Persona 5: Royal

Summary: Yoshizawa rubbed me off the wrong way since the moment I saw her. I immediately got the sense of ‘Market Seller Waifu For Increase In Sales For Royal’ after seeing her unoriginal thief getup. And I’m unapologetic to admit that she’s my LEAST favourite character despite the amount of positive reviews she’s had after Persona 5 Royal’s release and the hate attacks on anyone who thinks differently. She really does have potential. And I couldn’t stop thinking about it after the Atlus announcement for Xbox and PC. Then I figured, I thought to finally expel these annoying thoughts in order to release my pent up frustration and understanding of her away and my perspective changing, not a lot, but changing somewhat.

So here’s why.

Warnings: Spoilers for Persona 5: Royal.

My Conversations with Others Regarding This Topic (think of it like extensions from this post): 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5

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Or as I call her: the tropey Doormat Kohai.

I know. I put her in my story but things will be different as the chapters progress. I am actually interested in how her character adds to the game’s story, but it really only happens for Third Semester. But how Atlus did her involvement feels like wasted potential. A rewrite would help, I think.

The only time she really does anything in the real world is defend and help Joker when he is arrested, but ALL his confidants do that! They’re supposed to do those things after he deepens his bonds to max level, there is nothing new or unique about it with her!

A side note: I find it humorous that crossovers adding Yoshizawa just have to be emphasized with Royal and not simply Persona 5 even though Royal is Persona 5 in general, or I suppose to emphasize update.

Her very presence is a shoehorn. Her appearances never really feels natural. She just pops in and out whenever she wants. I would’ve honestly forgotten her if it wasn’t for Third Semester.

Her looks are an uncreative and reusable mix of FeMC, Mitsuru, Yuko and from P3.

Overly attached to Joker because he’s pretty much the only person she wants to revolve around in her life. She hardly interacts or befriends anyone else. Her gymnastics club members, classmates, other schoolmates, her parents who barely show relevance to her personally, other honour students (there’s no way in hell she’s the only one), and the thieves. As Kasumi, for someone who acts like an extroverted socialite it doesn’t really make sense as to why she doesn’t. Which might be because any acquaintance feels off about her because of her cognition that they don’t talk to her but I don’t get how pretty much anyone doesn’t even have a simple conversation with her. But it’s probably just a front for her Sumire side. But if she truly wanted to be everything Kasumi was, then having that socialite behaviour would’ve made sense. Kasumi’s extrovert personality is the main point about what it means to imitate her. Her mentality was ALL about her obsession with Kasumi, before and after her death. The way her brain works is weird with Maruki’s mind powers.

And about the thieves; they, for some reason, blindly love her so much after only meeting, like, twice in the real world. They don’t know her as much and have rarely interacted or hung out outside the Metaverse. Not as much or as close to as Joker. She kind of bypasses them.

She does not contribute anything to the main plot except for 3rd Semester. Which is at the end of the game. Her first entrance to “save” Joker in Sae’s Palace was wasteful. He’s, not counting Mona, the most experienced fighter out of all the thieves. Joker did not need her help in any way shape or form. P5 vanilla proves that, he didn’t need any of the other thieves as backup when he was evading the Shadows. He’s the freaking main character! Joker’s supposed to have the spotlight for the player. She even said it herself that she’s not a member of the Phantom Thieves so she has no right to interfere, and interferes anyway. It’s just a lazy introduction to a new character. Why is her All-Out Attack the first we even see?? And that gives the thieves a reason to have her for their “Hey, We Saved The World From Corruption By Taking Down a False God” party? She didn’t even help in the fight with Yaldabaoth. So I could hardly count her as a member.

KaSumi/re’s social link for the first couple of ranks go the SAME route. You do a family friendly activity, she falls into her so called “slump”, you cheer her up, she promises to work harder than ever, and the cycle repeats five times to the point where it’s predictable and easy to gain her rank up. How is that interesting? She phrases her slump like it’s a small thing that she doesn’t know the cause for, hindering her performances and believing that it’s a lack of confidence.

There was nothing off about her being Kasumi in the first place that led to the indication that she wasn’t actually Kasumi. Her attitude stays the same, perky, polite, overly positive, being an airhead (that goes for Sumire too. Seriously, how does one take crappy code names as Appetite and Leotard into actual consideration? How do unused scenes like Akechi suspecting her as the Palace Ruler because of her association with said Palace being about one who craves attention and just let it slip by her?) the foreshadowing monologue could just be something to add for her backstory if a player didn’t think about it much. Nothing really showed that anything was wrong in her happy go lucky world aside from the few interactions she has with Maruki. Which still hardly makes a difference. Their connection feels loose. Though it didn’t matter if her reveal would’ve happened or not, Sumire just goes back to being the SAME person as when she first started in the true ending. What were all those 120 hours of progress for..?!

Morgana wanting to recruit her then changing his mind because of Shido makes me deadpan. The thieves faced a perverted and abusive P.E. teacher, a manipulative and gaslighting artist, the freaking mafia, and a selfish and money-hungry CEO father! Everyone had their own lives on the line each! What makes Yoshizawa’s any different..?! I just don’t get it. Didn’t that cat say that powers in numbers is a good thing after recruiting Ann? That whole conversation after Maruki’s Palace was pointless, because it meant nothing for the main story after she decides to want to join and is turned down.

Her reason for awakening is weak and contradictory. Because, when voices of people who talk poorly of her, her motivation for awakening is that they spoke down on the dream she shares with her sister. That is not a strong and a good enough reason to even summon a Persona. This goes completely against P5’s themes and it doesn’t work. KaSumi/re never even cared about their opinions anyways, she even vocalizes this as a statement and brushes off them off all the time. And her potentially losing her honour student status was her own fault. Even with her second awakening being more meaningful, it still doesn’t justify having a “Spirit of Rebellion”. She could’ve done that without having her “true awakening” and it still would’ve worked. It didn’t make sense for her to even have a Persona when she became a scatterbrain for almost a year. It doesn’t add up, she committed to being Kasumi, that’s against who she actually is. P3 is facing mortality, P4 is facing the truth, P5 is facing against an unjust society, impacting them personally that it becomes a motivation for courage. Everyone in SEES, Investigation team, and the main Phantom thief crew follow these guidelines, I don’t understand why the scenario had to be changed.

Her thief outfit is nothing but a market seller for Royal. Atlus even admits it in their interviews. The only symbolism it has is that she admires Joker so much and sees him as a spitting image of rebellion that she replicates her attire to his, including keeping her Kasumi ponytail. Even Atlus admits this in their interviews that her outfit was just a market seller! The only thing original about it is the leotard because she’s a gymnast. And when she finally awakens as Sumire (though not really), her outfit stays the same, hair the same, Persona the same. There is no visible representation of Sumire showcasing individuality that separates her from Kasumi/re. Not even a small one. Which is a clue to how she goes back to looking the same as when she was in the beginning. Character development what now? Violet is the same way, Kasumi with just a mask on.

She got to have a magical girl/sailor moon transformation for what? Fan service. Which doesn’t fit with the game’s themes and aesthetics whatsoever but her Persona is Cinderella so sure, why the heck not? (sarcasm) Heck, if that were the case then the thieves should’ve gotten the same treatment. The idea of watching Ryuji do a spin is too amusing for me. Yusuke could pull it off given his theatrical eccentric side.

Black just doesn’t seem like Yoshizawa’s colour palette. There’s no reason for wearing black when the only time she does wear it is her Shujin blazer and that’s it.Gymnasts don’t really wear plain black either; it’s usually with a flashy design that comes with dark and light colours, or one with a simpler look. Her leotard being plain black is too… simple? Purple works since she actually wore that for her gymnastics. Everyone somehow loves the inaccuracy of her in a sleeveless leotard that showcase an exaggerated body that isn’t her at all, they seem to like using her just for their perverse entertainment, (then again pretty much every female fictional character is like that so this isn’t anything new or a big deal anymore, I don’t know, I can’t be bothered to give a crap knowing that the media does whatever it wants), when gymnasts always wear sleeves. And the internet loves to debauch her for the most dull and impractical suit in Persona, a great advertisement to promote the game. This is just a notice I have over her costume.

Her showtime is weird. (Plus, why can’t Joker have a showtime that gives him the spotlight?) So she jumps into his arms for a spin as he shoots down enemies, tosses her to make this strange performance with her deceased sister (does that mean she’s actually touching air and Kasumi is all in her head?), and pulls Joker to twirl her into a dip. Just how deprived of his attention are you? Did Nintendo really have to give us the unnecessarily pointless scene of Yoshizawa’s dancing and her showtime as part of P5’s trailer of branching out to other consoles? Akechi’s showtime clip hardly balances that out considering it was short and at the end.

What was the whole point of that ridiculous dance cutscene of her and Joker? A shoehorn by Atlus as ship bait between the true star of the game and an in-and-out character. Why weren’t any of the Shujin students of the thieves there? Or Mishima? We just get a fancy flashy dance animated cutscene purely showing off Sumire. Maybe I missed the reason.

Sumire’s backstory is just a recycle from the other girls’ story arcs. Especially Lavenza, who goes on to have an identity crisis herself where she is split into TWINS. I find that no body that I’ve seen has mentioned this. As a standpoint, we didn’t need another twin story AGAIN.

Her connection to Cendrillon is off and strange. Which is ironic since she’s actually the jealous sister. All the stories of Cinderella have many things in common: she’s a waif, she is looked down on by her household, verbally abused, put into forced labour, shown to be a genuine person, and is saved by a man who solves all her problems. All these bad things in Cinderella’s life happens TO her out of jealousy, spite, and cruelty. Sumire goes through none of that. She has a sister who does care about her, and parents that care about her, too. There is no ill mistreatment anywhere done TO her from when she was Sumire before Shujin. But I guess it’s a minor thing where she’s like Cinderella’s stepsisters. The thing she said about Kasumi making the decisions for her, like her clothes, is because Sumire lets her. She could’ve said anything at anytime and Kasumi would’ve listened. Sure, she is implied to be overbearing who couldn’t read between the lines. But they’re siblings! Twins for crying out loud! They would’ve spent everything together knowing each other’s quirks, habits, and flaws. Yet Sumire puts the image that Kasumi is perfect in every way (Mary Sue) when she’s spent years learning all about her twin. Sumire’s a Mary Sue for the fact that everything she does or doesn’t do is positively received no matter the situation. There’s no consequence or anything. There’s also the fact that there doesn’t seem to be any ground reason as to why Sumire has an inferiority complex over her sister other than that Kasumi is considered the better gymnast. They trained the same but Kasumi came out on top. Perhaps that could be the reason for her lack of confidence as Sumire. Depression can happen to anyone, of course, but her large amount of jealousy of Kasumi feels kinda off in the writing aspect. It’s ALL over her sister more so than herself. And since we only get to see Real Kasumi once, ONCE, we don’t know the dynamics of their relationship. She and Cendrillon share a few things: they go to a ball pretending to be someone else, a chance to have their lives be what they want, and is saved by a man who solves all their problems. Joker saves her by revealing the truth of her identity, and her coming back as Sumire after almost a year of being brainwashed. Though the same can be applied to Maruki as she sort of consented to the identity crisis, and tried to stop Joker from undoing so. That part’s understandable, don’t get me wrong. But what, after a short timespan when the thieves rescue her she figures herself out and then suddenly accepts Kasumi’s death with a big ole speech? Sure, she talks about it with Joker, and while it’s nice to have someone to talk to about these things, that doesn’t magically solve all of a person’s problems in one fell swoop. Sumire should’ve gone back to therapy with an actual therapist, and talked honestly to her parents about her mental problems and sort and heal from the burdens she’s carried. She doesn’t struggle much from being in her own skin again. Joker isn’t the center of her existence! She feels like an imaginary friend from all the times she’s around Joker and no one else. To me, her interactions with the thieves happens more in the Metaverse. Having Cendrillon as her Persona just feels off in some ways, considering that her Persona doesn’t change after reclaiming herself as Sumire.

I’m sorry (not really), but saying Joker is her ‘Prince Charming’ does not really fit. It demeans Joker’s story and his character. He’s a rebel, he’s forced to live in a rough situation out of his control, he’s had to play the role of not standing out, be invisible and blend in, control his own behaviour and actions in public. But we all know Joker does not have a ‘princely’ personality. More so the opposite. He hides his real feelings under a facade in most cases. He’s pictured as her ‘Prince’ because he’s pretty much the only person who interacts with her, who’s there, who basically solved all her problems for her. Which is why she ‘falls in love’ with him. The thing I’ve never liked in the Third Semester is how little everyone cared for Joker when they lived the illusions of perfect lives. It was only because they went through sufferings and hardships that they depended on him so much, but it changes in reverse after everything he did for them. Which is just so damn shallow! What does that say about who they really are? Joker deserved more that! He’s not a crutch! Sumire is no different either. She’s the same circle we’ve always known. Joker is literally depicted as a sort of ‘antihero’, given the whole Phantom Thief role, Arsene, the strive for rebelling, unburdened, helping. But he isn’t prim proper, or a complete empty shell who is flat/static who is Mr. Perfect that saves the day. There’s layers to it all, and it’s a journey getting to where he is. That in spite of his difficult circumstance, he thrives. With friends, supporting himself financially, helping others not just because it’s right but because he knows better than anyone what it means to be helpless. He’s sarcastic, cheeky, quiet, doesn’t always like to follow the rules (like when Sojiro tells him to keep his head down, turn a blind eye, not cause trouble) and it would actually make sense that he isn’t a big fan of hierarchies and the system of society (the cons and darker aspects), especially when abuse, power play, gaslighting, etc are involved. Definitely not the type who does duty and follows the structure he’s surrounded by.

When the game FINALLY reveals what her deal is, I’ve already clocked out, exited, lost interest in her reused backstory that the element of surprise failed. To have to go through the main plot (the important part) of the entire game, we had to reach the end with Third Semester to get her reason for being meaningful, to the end, just leaves everything dry. We could’ve gotten to know more about how Maruki’s powers work and what other patients he might have affected. Because is it really believable that he only inflicted Yoshizawa throughout the time he had gotten his Persona? Wouldn’t he get more Shujin patients outside the main crew? Maybe not Shujin?

Isn’t it part of her wish that she wanted to become Kasumi so much that she found an opportunity to do so deep down? To fill her sister’s dream for her feels kinda off and complicated regarding her cognition is only that of how she sees herself versus how others see her. All this seems to reveal just how obsessed Sumire is about Kasumi. And her relationship with her sister doesn’t show except for the one clip where real Kasumi appears. We can only go off of what Sumire says. For example: Valentine’s Day, White Day, real ending, she goes back to her default Kasumi self. I’ve never seen a character have such a slow burn-to-rushed progress to then digress it all.

Like, isn’t it the fact that she became Kasumi and made herself be the one that died just a cycle of what happened but reverse?? If Sumire is the supposed dead one then that means as Kasumi she didn’t blame herself because she’s happy as her sister and the grief she showed throughout the most part of her social link was fake. She got what she wanted so she didn’t feel guilty or saddened about the death? What the hell? She just puts herself back where she started, how did that dodge anything?! And it’s not even because of Maruki! She’s doing this with full awareness and freely choosing to do so. Absolute ridiculousness.

She’s in loves with Joker no matter what you do. It’s like she doesn’t know what platonic relationships are. It’s like spending time with a guy has to mean romance. Then again, any person but Joker doesn’t exist to her. And who did you love him as exactly, Sumire? Kasumi or you? Because Joker has only ever known Kasumi. To him he’s only just met you. It makes me appreciate Aigis, Rise, and Marie more because they were nothing compared to the level of shoehorning Yoshizawa brings. She’s basically passing her obsession with Kasumi to Joker instead. Though this time with a sort of idealistic infatuation and expectations, but much less extreme to how she is with her twin. For crying out loud Sumire barely hits the peak of actual maturity. She just turned fifteen a month before the actual game starts, a first year who is still growing out of her kid phase. Top that with her fragile mental struggles that she has hardly had time to heal from, her goals which are the only thing she cares about, how was it appropriate to date her? So what if Joker is at least a year older, she doesn’t have full understanding in what it means to be in a romantic relationship with someone, serious and committed with her mentality; much less ready for it. At least Marie interacts with everyone and has that become a factor in her growth.

KaSumi/re seems to have the habit of being an overbearing airhead. Everything flies passed her unless it’s about herself. Makes sense for the 10% amount of times she shows up in the game. Because she’s busy with competitions? So is everyone else, but they make the goddamn time to actually BE important and involved, we can only take her word off it and she’d just be gone for a period of time.

Whether it’s Kasumi or Sumire, they’re stalkers regardless. Her following the thieves into Sae’s Palace because she “felt something big was going to happen” is such a poor excuse. What, does everything Joker does have to apply to you? Just how long did you wait in the Palace? Because you were worried about him and followed even though he’s always respected your boundaries and doesn’t step out of line on your privacy? Did you have anything to eat? Creep. Her stalking the team in the nurse’s office out of no where was weird. How long have you been tailing them, huh? How did you conveniently find out about their meeting? Lavenza’s butterfly form was only a sight Joker picked up on while she was invisible to everyone else. Morgana can’t count because he was created by Igor, so of course he could see her. And Lavenza stays in the nurse’s office while Joker gathers everyone to meet. It’s like the same situation for the other Velvet Room Attendants, they can have this sort of invisibility projected in the outside world where bystanders can’t see them except their guests or be visible and interact with people. Especially the locations of the Velvet Room, where only the guests can see the entrance and the attendant. The thieves or any of the teams can’t see the glowing blue door or them either in the other world like Tartarus and the Metaverse. They only think that the leaders are zoning out in reality. So the idea that she knew to follow Joker because she saw Lavenza is confusing.

Why does her being skinny while eating a lot matter so much to everyone that it has to be brought up all the time? She’s an athlete, we get it. It’s part of her ‘honour student status’. Ryuji is no different! He’s an athlete for track for track and field! This trope is used so much for every time she eats something. Past Persona games didn’t do this and be so absorbed in a side character’s trait.

All Kasumi cares about in this big wide world is gymnastics and nothing else. Sumire’s goal is not too different either. Yet her growth for betterment feels too short for someone who had an identity crisis for almost a year. Was she completely conscious for her cognition? Was acting as Kasumi a recollection as she adjusted back to being herself? Did she forget who she was deep down until the reveal? Did loss hit differently over what she feels between herself and Kasumi? It makes me curious over the fuctions of Maruki’s powers, not enough answers.

KaSumi/re has hardly any stakes as a phantom thief. She doesn’t even have a reason to join their cause! She just joins as a kind gesture and because of Maruki. She didn’t even agree with them that time she met up with Joker and Akechi. It makes sense that she’d be there for Maruki but is a temporary member until they defeat him.

How she got the MetaNav makes no goddamn sense. Because Yaldaboath is the one who gave Joker and Akechi access, and others (such as the Thieves) being in close proximity to either of them would cause them to get the app as well. But KaSumi/re can break that rule? It goes against the very functions the game has made. Like seriously?

Vanadis may be more original and suited to her compared to Cendrillon from what I’ve heard, but it’s amazing how even deep down as Sumire, she still copies from Joker instead of actually being individualistic. Especially for an Ultimate Persona. Like, seriously, black and red colour palette? Bird wings hanging from the lower back? Sounds way too familiar to another Persona we know well. Vanadis is supposed to be a goddess, why the hell does she look like a demon? It says a lot about her either as Kasumi or Sumire. You try so hard, Atlus. You really do. It honestly surprised me to see these shoehorns.

When she said that only the person has to be the one to change their situation, she is literally undermining what happened with the cases of Kamoshida, Madarame, Kaneshiro, Shiro. Their victims were people who couldn’t stand up to them because they were powerless with hardly much choice. Joker, Shiho, Mishima, Ann, Yusuke, etc. There’s nothing wrong with help and inspiration. Sumire gets that herself technically, and that’s fine, but that just makes her a hypocrite. But I guess I’m taking her words as being that change has to be done alone so that might be on me.

Joker, Violet, and Crow are a bizarre team. Her and Crow don’t even have anything in common for their dynamic. Of course Joker and Akechi would know what’s going on, but for Kasumi it just feels different for me. She’s just there for curiosity. Everyone has been affected by Maruki, and she has the longest, so it doesn’t feel right for her to be there.

Thank gods she isn’t in Strikers, all she’d be was an out of place extra. She’s not even mentioned in Strikers, her only appearance in the Persona universe is literally just Royal. Unlike Marie who has made multiple appearances. And as I’ve phrased before, she has no motive to even be one of them. Royal’s true ending proves that when she isn’t in the van with the thieves. Her only concern was Maruki. Her life is back in order and she’s thriving for herself. And that’s fine, I don’t really have a problem with that. It just makes me wonder how much of an afterthought Atlus made her after Royal was finished. Whether or not she’d be in the game wouldn’t have made a difference for the whole plot but her own story. Atlus just seems to fail in fulfilling that entirely.

Out of all the three new additions I felt like Jose had the least amount of time and attention. And for me, personally, I would’ve liked to see more of him and his story, you know? Because he’s so mysterious and gives off similar vibes to the Velvet Room Attendants but we don’t get to know more about his origins. In Royal he’s just there to provide. It’s only a theory that he’s associated with Philemon like the attendants are with Igor but there’s not a whole lot of evidence to link that connection; since Philemon hasn’t made a real appearance in years. It’s a shame we don’t get more Persona 1 and 2 or a new remake or something. But with the age gap in the Persona timeline it’s understandable.

Part of me was disappointed that Persona 5 vanilla wasn’t coming to Switch so that I could avoid the pain of dealing with Yoshizawa for certain moments. But not entirely. At least there’s 3 and 4 to look forward to.

But hey, if you can make reasonable opinions over this then I’ll respect that, and maybe my thoughts of her will be persuaded. Unless you want to be an asshole about free will of opinions and open mindedness then please leave this post now. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ It’s not like this post is a matter of life or death that demands bitchy responses. I draw the line on hate over just having an honest opinion different from others. Especially with any fans of any fanbase, that take things unnecessarily too far. Your love for this character doesn’t give you the right to attack me when I’m only pointing out what I’ve noticed about her and how my personal perspective is affected by those points. And as I’ve stated, I am open to seeing her in a different light, given reasonable and understandable viewpoints without the hostility.

I may continue making these points further. I just had to get this off my chest, even if her fans blast me for my personal opinions that have obvious pointers. If you don’t like it, then you don’t have to see it without replying with hateful words and rude comments towards me and my post.

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