#i am Scared

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

bpd is being TERRIFIED of being forgotten but also wishing people couldn’t perceive you. so weird

[k3t4min5]

more scared of getting old than dying young

[that-one-raccoon]

More Magic and Mystery lets gooooo

[nat-20s]

rtd i am begging

[furiousgoldfish]

I'm writing this scared and upset, because I am hoping someone could help me see things more clearly. A nightmare scenario has happened. I received a call, from a person I don't know well, but who has my name and my number, and lives nearby. This person described to me, that there were people on her doorstep, looking for someone with my name and description. My fake name that I use so I wouldn't be found.

This person swears they didn't tell on me, but I am unsure. The story of the people looking for me were 'we are the parents of x, we haven't seen them in 8 years, we just all want to see them, their siblings miss them'. I admitted that it probably was my parents, and I explained why they were looking for me, and asked to be kept a secret from them, as I was sure they would try to drag me back to a life of violence, and I barely escaped. The person calling asked me if I was lying! And then offered to call my parents and tell them I no longer live in the city. I panicked and said no, because if my parents knew this person has my contact, they would be harassing them endlessly until they got my location. The person calling just laughed, not taking it so seriously, and I begged them to just pretend they don't know me.

The location they were looking for me, is not that far from where I live! I am now too scared to go outside. If they ask anyone closer to where I live, people here know my fake name, they'll tell them! Neighbours and people I introduced myself to, they don't know my story, or that they shouldn't betray my location, I felt it safer to be kept a complete secret.

I don't know what to do. I don't have enough money to move right now, or the resources. I am scared to go outside. This is completely insane, they're walking around in the city asking door to door, for my location, under pretense they're just so worried and aching to see me! My mind is going insane from one scenario to the next, if they find my location I can't stay, I'll die. I am thinking about how to get to work tomorrow unrecognizable, I'm working on changing my appearance as much as possible. My life has come to a halt. I can't think about anything but impending confrontation that will decide whether I get to live the rest of my life or not.

 It's literally a matter of luck whether I'm found or not. If they stumble on someone dumb enough to point them in my direction, I'm done for. If they search for a while and find nobody willing to point them anywhere, they'll maybe give up. I already called one person on the block and asked them to not betray me, but I don't have numbers for most of the people, and it's terrifying.

Also, I told one of my roommates my situation, because they heard me on the phone, and first they looked down on me for thinking this is an actual threat, but when I explained how serious it was, they started complaining how this is stupid and they now feel uncomfortable living with me if there's people who might come in and cause violence or disturbance. Which hit me like 'now that you're associated with dangerous people you're a burden on society, you shouldn't drag us innocent people into your mess' like this is my fault. Made me feel worse. Roommate is not on my side.

[bearrverine]

drew this in-between anxiously checking the polls to see if i will have rights by this time next year.

i know there will be so many more people more disenfranchised by the laws imposed on our lives and on our bodies if trump is voted into office, but i'm still scared. i will be 18 next year and i may not get to transition into the man i have waited for over a decade to be, and i am scared.

but it doesn't mean i wont fight. it doesn't mean i won't continue to be loudly queer and it doesn't mean that i won't find a way to be me and fight for my rights. if trump makes it illegal to get trans healthcare safely, i will do it myself, and i will fight for others to do it themselves, too.

[valc0]

folks, why is a pillow filling machine company following me on tumblr.com?

[tolerateit]

this is a threat

[incaseyouart]

can I play Link in the upcoming live-action movie please

I'm 5'5", strong and athletic, and I can yell "HYAAAH" for days

c'mon it'll be great I promise

[clearly1vampire]

how I feel having to specify that I am a 'perfectly sane person' every time my friends see me freaking out about the new chapter of bsd, monthly.

[thoughtfulstudentsalad]

The pointlessness and horrors of war is brought up over and over again.

Yet this place, this heavenly abode is basically world peace.

There is a reason to all this. What are those creepy dragon gods really thinking? Why do they use humans as objects, as if they are without souls, minds?

And why are they so desperately yandere over Hiryuu and Yona?

Thoughts on the recent chapter

They wanted to bring Yona back to the heavens. They are there to bring her back. So it seems like Yona is not going to leave anytime soon.

That's the same reason they made the dragons have short lives, elongated Zeno's life, and made the crimson illness descendants ill.

They hid their imperfections, wanted to look like nice and endearing HUMANS so Yona would be pleased with them.

If they are human, her heart will open. There is definitely a disagreement in regards to how they viewed humans.

Meanwhile they hide a blood lake, the ugly truth.

Is this really how dragons would act to their liege? Aren't they all supposed to get along?

I'm thinking that Hiryuu and the dragons had fought with one another at one point. Something related to fate and human beings, humans. And Hiryuu felt very trapped by these dragon gods and wanted to escape.

Finally, I haven't seen anyone mention this, but am I really the only one who's now kind of scared for Yona because of the direction she fell into the lake?

She's not diving into the water. Not swimming. She's not head-first. It looks like she's fallen backwards. She's literally sinking.

Had she been tossed into the lake? Had she been unable to swim? I don't think it looks like she's determinedly moving or knows where she's going here. In fact it reminds me a lot of THIS panel:

She's just... sinking, aimlessly. I am scared for Yona right now. She is literally sinking in a lake of blood. Don't tell me she's going to drown now?

[kriskrass]

uh oh

[james-spooky]

tim fearon does it again ladies and gentleman

[artifex-nb-2000]

I grew up in a scary world

but I was never scared

the haunted houses in which we lived

the people who may hurt me

the screaming of family

the people who leave me

me almost dying

heights...spiders.. roaches...bugs..bees

all those things and more scary things

but I got over it in a few seconds

but you

you scare me everyday

I'm scared you will drift away

I'm scared you will stop talking to me

I'm scared you will go away one day

I'm terrified of you

that we will never even get the chance

to talk to you outside of the screen

N.B.

🌻

[swiftlydnp]

HIGHLY UNORTHODOX WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

[change-name-later]

Man, I’m going to be out when the new episode drops… and I don’t know when I’ll be able to sit and watch it..

I sure hope nothing bad happens! And that it’s a completely normal and fun episode!