#i am :) feeling it

[shrewmingledotcom]

itsuki's phantom illusion looking a lot smaller and unfinished because of the experimentations of alter trigger on to him affecting the way he can produce phantom illusions

it's damaged but still nonetheless beautiful

[chaosinstigator]

soooo is yuki trying to get a full minute?

[phemiec]

Ahhhh shit boys I went without my sertraline for 3 days because pharm was shut down for Thanksgiving long weekend and FFFFFFF

[hesperio]

schlumps to the floor

[wildermouse]

the lesbian urge to buy more pants

[boogieboba]

It is 12:30 am. The man is back in my house but this time I am emotionally sound (well, more than last week, but that’s not a good starting point) and have been assured it will actually be a one night thing this week. I have 11 hours of band things tomorrow, followed by three hours of actual work. I do not possess caffeine. I have to animate. The question is this:

[itspeanutlove]

I'm rereading Chainsaw Man chapter 77-81 and wow, I am in severe pain

[hlsng]

me, rolling in about to reboot this entire blog for The Boy (derogatory.) 

[dxmoness]

@sidra-29 might be writing a Malleus fic?

[dreamties]

i think a hug from Michael Myers would FIX me actually

[algolstare]

Familys gone from so pissed to being nice to try and manipulate to giving me the silent treatment like I am not here

[inbabylontheywept]

so once me and my wife were watching a documentary where a snake ate like a million eggs. that snake just went to fucking town on eggs. and the snake made the eggs look so good that i kept thinking about it, and thinking about it, and thinking about it, and eventually it was 11pm and i ran out of willpower and decided to eat one (1) singular raw egg just to prove to myself that the snake was surely a liar.

the snake was not a liar. texture is like, super important to me and raw eggs are very Texture so i had another one, and then another one, and then another one, and eventually i ran out of eggs.

i had like, fifteen raw eggs.

i didnt really know how to explain this momentary madness to my wife, so my Plan was to put all the eggshells into a grocey bag, and then throw that grocery bag in the dumpster, and if she never noticed that would be Excellent and if she noticed immediately i could lie and say that the eggs went bad.

except i cant lie very good, and of course with murphys law being such, i got salmonella.

so i threw up a lot and my wife asked me what poisoned me so and i tried very hard to dodge the question but i was oozing shame like oil from a room temperature cheese and eventaully i gave in and told her everything and to her enormous credit she was more flabbergasted than actually upset. she did make me promise to not eat any more raw eggs, which i have stuck to, and she gives me weird looks during nature documentaries now as if desire was the only thing keeping me from eating thousands of pounds of krill anyway i made a joke earlier about being able to eat my age in eggs and my sister in law in law made a drawing to comemorate the moment and also because it was my birthday. she's excellent. thank you 10000000% @cintailed. you should all visit her page and admire her work.

[sunnylolli]

Something, something, what if it all went really wrong and they were forced to speed-run the brotherly bonding

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

[etherealspacejelly]

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

[skrunksthatwunk]

see 0 note flop posts aren't that bad when they're personal but 0 note fandom posts feel literally so bad. like if you don't wanna play toys with me anymore just say that. i'll pack up my super cool awesome things and go and i'll sit on the other side of the playground by myself and i won't even look at you. fuck