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Luck has finally run out for the inspection bullet trains called Doctor Yellow, which will be retired over the next few years due to their age and condition, according to West Japan Railway Co. (JR West) and Central Japan Railway Co. (JR Tokai).
Since the schedules for the bright-yellow Shinkansen were never announced publicly, sightings of the trains were said to bring good luck to all who spotted them.
The Doctor Yellows only ran once every 10 days or so, entrusted with inspecting railways, overhead wires and track signals.
With the schedules and tracks that they would run on not disclosed, the belief arose that sighting one was lucky and that, ”If you see Doctor Yellow, you become happy.”
Currently, JR West and JR Tokai each operate a Doctor Yellow inspection bullet train utilizing the 700 Series Shinkansen.
However, both the operation and other qualities of the 700 Series trains are inferior to those of the latest N700S Series.
In addition, the inspection method using bullet trains in regular operations has been improving.
Subsequently, JR Tokai decided to quit running inspection bullet trains from January 2025 and JR West will end the inspections from or after 2027.
#お疲れ様 dr yellow!#i didn't know who you were when i first saw you#but i was happy to learn later how lucky i was!#i always hoped i'd see you again#now i guess i have to devote my energy to hoping extra hard!
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What you said about Grian keeping his modesty even after leaving the Watchers.... Hmmmm.... Grian in Hijab.... Yes that's the shit...
i think hijabs are just for women ! i'm unsure what the male equivalent is
But ! The Watchers i write are inspired by Catholicism, his mum is a nun who veils. This is also just for women, but if he wereeee to veil then it'd be something like that--i mean not the full extent of a nun, but there are head scarves that allow hair and neck to be shown
headscarves are very pretty regardless tho <3
#ask#hijabis fr look like princesses anytime i see them on tiktok im awe struck#<- which i hope is ok to say ! i think flowing fabric is pretty#i used to draw Tommey veiling with a bandana ! pagans also veil and i think its gender neutral#also im a pretty modest person too so i always prefer drawing clothes/extra layers *_*#modesty is also a touchy subject i dont think anyone should be forced to cover.-#-you should only dress how ur comfortable. and never tell others how to either !-#-regardless of religion imo !! religion is very personal !#Catholics usually only veil within churches but it depends eh#AUGH im thinking abt kid xelqua again. always seeing his mum wear a veil so he does too. just bc hes a kid. they copy. so cuTE#in 3L he should wear a veil and no one knows he has cat ears#i think more people should write the watchers using their own religions it'd be rly interesting i think#PERSONALLY i always saw veiling as ... protection from evil eye ? i guess how i'd word it ? and less abt ~purity or whatever
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on my quest to find more books to read this year, there's been something kind of heartwarming to see that of the books on hold at my local library, or on the weekly bestseller's list at my local bookstores, there's always at least one book up there that's about Palestine. It's at least nice to see that some people in my area want to learn about the historical context of what's happening now, and learn far more than what a few posts on their feed can tell them. It makes me hope that public perception will continue to change for the better - and that the kind of support I've seen in my area won't die down immediately after a ceasefire is called
#storyrambles#palestine#i'm always hesitant to make any posts about palestine given my lack of personal connection or deep knowledge beyond the#continuous reading i've been doing#but idk. i wondered if this might be nice to see for people who do have a connection and feel discouraged.#and well. i don't think there needs to be a personal connection for one to feel happiness in this sort of situation#it needs to be so much better than it is currently. but i'll be honest#i really thought these protests were going to peter out very quickly after they started. that people would say 'it's a shame'#but not act. i've seen the same thing from previous outrage.#and i think that's because outrage doesn't carry as long or as strong as knowledge does.#eh i'm rambling again. i guess it's just nice to see people caring. even when the people who should speak for us civilians do not.#it's a mixed bag of emotions.#all my love to everyone affected by this. i wish you didn't have to be as strong as you are.#but for as long as you have to. i'd like to stand strong with you. and i hope that's enough to see real change.#ceasefire now
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the council has spoken
#milgran't#council posting#the council has spoken. literally#but no sorry im just. celebrating a mild(ish) victory#i think i like. shared food? with another part?? for the first time??? like. Ate Together???#idk i always heard/saw other systems talk about doing stuff like that. like doing Things Together.#and i was just kinda like... :/// when i'd see it bc i didnt know what the Fuck they were talking about because we dont communicate for shi#so. I Suppose There Was Some Envy There. Perchance. (<- you cant just say ''perchance'' /ref)#usually ''doing things together'' means one alter doing something while another yells from somewhere about how much they want to die lmao#or the ''thing'' we do together is fight about what we want to do#but now.... i have experienced..... the mythical ''system bonding''............. feels good...................#..... i hope they come back again soon to share food again... 🥺#idek who it was so. i guess ill just get the same food out occasionally and be like ''pspspspspspsps''--#going to achieve internal communication via feral cat techniques
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huh... the way my parents showed me the world worked was really kind of fucked up, it's no fucking wonder i have an anxiety disorder frankly.
#this post brought to you by#i voted today#and it's really weird to vote in not just a state but a whole area where voter suppression isn't like just low-key constantly happening#and also knowing now it wasn't targeted at my family but my family always talked about it like it was#because hilariously voter suppression helps suppress ALL votes even the ones for your side so like jokes on the conservatives in the area#but like... the concern that I would do something at the polls that would make them turn me away was always constant#were my clothing choices neutral enough? did i have any stickers or pins i'd forgotten about? what color were the sample ballots this year?#if i only grab one people will know who i'm voting for better grab all 3 and then not use them because they'll be able to tell somehow#did they move our voting location again this year or is it back at the library? will the machines work? where will we park?#and like... yes you get a sticker but also will people somehow Know and will that get my ballot disqualified?#i moved to a slightly less-fraught area and still had all the anxieties and now they were tripled because now i was voting against my famil#and every election i have voted in so far has gone opposite my vote so i am Very Concerned about that on top of things#but yeah like. it's weird that it's so easy to vote up here. it's weird that there's so many incentives#it's weird and uncomfortable but definitely not bad just....weird#but also having a celebration of your first vote with a cake and a poll watch party where your cake is a fake ballot and your mom takes#a picture of you ''voting'' on the cake for the Correct Guy That You'd Better Be Voting For Or Else on it might also be a little weird#so like. different weirds#this one's better i gotta say#i'm just... just gonna sit and Hope okay#i've done what i can time to wait and see
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realizing how much physical affection means to me literally. like i always get that as my #1 love language for every fun test i do but oh my god they're right. i don't get enough physical affection or i don't get people saying they're giving me physical affection when they can't and suddenly i'm staying up that everyone hates me
#logically i understand my best friend loves me but oh my god. we haven't hugged in a week. what if he never cares to see me again#or like . i understand my guy probably likes me but haven't been told i'm getting affection in a while . my affection has been rejected. .#so . ugh. just need a fucking hug dude#i wanna ask my friend for niceys rn but it's 3 am so she's probably asleep and also . :( what if he doesn't like me#(<- guy who's been friends with it for years)#like . i wish i could tell someone like “hey give them reassurance rn” without.... asking for that#like i'd post “need someone to be niceys to me rn” because that's usually the most i can do to communicate that but he rarely is on tumblr#and what? do i send this post to my friend? no wtf#this happens with like. everyone close to me btw. i just care a lot about my best friend#so just. ugh. gonna try and sleep now. i'm getting a hug from him tomorrow#i really hope he plans something with me...i think that's all i need reassurance wise#i don't plan shit with people because what if they don't wanna be around me? but when ppl plan shit with me? YEAH . <3#godddddd#🤞 please invite me to something soon i miss you and i feel like you hate me for no reason but that i'm sad always
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this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately
#marzi speaks#I PROMISE I'M NOT TRYING TO EARN GOOD BOY POINTS HOLD ON LET ME. EXPLAIN MYSELF HERE#obvs we're in kinda a tense political climate rn#and i'm noticing trends have been getting . increasingly misogynistic lately?#in like . a subtle but for sure still noticeable way#and women are being dismissed and all this awful shit#and ppl are going. completely mask off about it when the woman happens to be a trans gender#and it reminds me of when i was a little girl. and how my mom spent so much time in my childhood#training me to not stand for and take misogynistic bullshit from anyone. and to defend other women too#she taught me to assert myself in professional or academic environments. she taught me to stand proud and take up physical space#once as a kid my great uncle (who's always been a nut) didn't let me come on a fishing trip because i was a girl#when i came to my mom crying about it because i loved boats and fishing and my family she just about murdered him. completely tore into him#my whole life my mom has been there to tell me that people will try to put me down. they will try to overlook me or dismiss me#or make me feel smaller. and if i dare to get too confident i'll be labeled bossy or a bitch#and that no matter what i do i cannot let those pieces of shit win. i cannot let that stop me#and that i'd have to fight so fucking hard for it my whole life and it won't be fair but i will do it because i have no other option#and i'm seeing a lot of transfems having to navigate that now too#but they didn't get the privilege of being trained in this since day 1. they have to figure it out on their own#and the demonization right now is so strong that a single misstep can be. so dangerous#and it makes me so mad. all of that built up anger from every time i've had to learn how to not take misogynistic bullshit comes to a boil#the little girl scout in my brain who grew up forcing people to see that a girl can do whatever the fuck she wants fuck you is ACTIVE rn#she's angry. she's so angry. because she's seeing the same bullshit she dealt with in middle school being repeated again#anyways. transfems. i love you so much. you deserve so much fucking better.#i hope you can safely advocate for yourself. until then i will fucking yell and scream from the rooftops because this shit is so unfair#you should be allowed to succeed and you should be allowed to fail. and you should be allowed to take up as much goddamn space as you want#and wear whatever the hell you want. transfems i love you and i am so so angry on your behalf. modern feminism has failed you#and i am going to kill someone over it#remember to be loudly and unapologetically yourself as much as you safely can. do not let them crush your spirit
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Shigeo Saves The Cat
A Dive Into What The Cat Symbolises
During the Mogami Arc, Mogami had created a world in which Shigeo had no powers, and was hated by all the people he loved. In this cruel world, Shigeo was presented with a cat, and this cat died because he was unable to protect it.
During the car crash, Shigeo used his powers in public, to save the cat. He has, at this point, come to accept that his powers can be used for good, and that they're not just to be used in dire situations. He used them to help the others call a ufo, after all! That's pretty chill! For... you know, having super cool powers that you can do just about anything with.
Although he hasn't begun to use them for his own sake, he saw the danger coming, and was able to save the cat. [And, to a different extent, using his physical powers, saved the kid. But this isn't about the kid or the fact he used both sides of himself to save 2 different entities, haha]
Then he gets hit, and ??? takes the stage. He still rejects his powers as part of his personhood; (a conscious being made from his own repressed self) he can accept them as if they're a certain muscle in the body, or an extra limb, but only now is he able to see that this is a mental thing, not physical.
During the final arc, in large part thanks to Reigen (of course, also thanks to Hanazawa, Ritsu, and Dimple, but the point is Reigen's words are the ones to calm him down) this repressed self is accepted not as part of his body, the way the body is a case for the mind, but as part of himself. A part of his mind. Which he very much had been sealing up and repressing.
Then, in the after-part, Shigeo sees a cat, and assumes it's stuck. He acts, moving forward to climb the pole. He doesn't think anything like "it might be easier with psychic powers, but I should use the body I've been working on" or "I would rather use my physical body than my powers to save this cat" he simply moves. Not a single complicated thought goes through his mind. He acts. His powers are part of him; his body, his person, his ESP - all of it is him, and he simply did the most natural thing that came to mind. He climbed the pole using muscles he'd worked on, but not as opposed to his powers - just because it was the first response he came up with. [And as a muscle obsessed boy, it's unsurprising haha!]
But he does not save the cat.
Because the cat, regardless of him and his story, is just that. It's a cat. It's got nothing to do with him; it's neutral. It's an entity with its own path, it doesn't need him in order to survive. It's not on him to save or to protect it, not on him to do anything at all about it. It's on him just to want to act, to want to care. He's changed from a boy who was afraid to act at all, to one who acts without reservation.
And saving the cat was never his goal in the first place.
Tldr:
Mogami presented a cat that he needed to save, but that he was unable to save.
The car-crash presented a cat that needed saving, and that he was able to save.
And the finale presented a cat that, at the end of the day, has nothing to do with what he must do to live life to the fullest. He's just a teenage boy who has a girl he likes, and who goes to school like everyone else. His powers are just a part of him, nothing he has to pay the universe back for. There's no big magical destiny, no cats to save.
He can finally simply exist.
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For now!! Dun dun dun...
I'm kidding.
Or am I?!
#haha thanks for reading I hope you liked the twist ending!#anyway it's 2am again so it's definitely poorly written and I'll be editing it tomorrow for sure#why do I always disappear for days and then come back with Stuff To Say ugh why can't I just partayyy#anyway I'm signing up to Hanazawa's boyband's fanclub did you see his hair he's popping OFF#excellent I loved the finale#reigen I'd die for you any day bro any day ur a real one#mp100#mp100 spoilers#mob psycho 100#mp100 analysis#lulu on the mic#shigeo#mob#kageyama shigeo#shigeo kageyama#usually I at least save these posts to drafts if I'm writing them at 2am and then rework them before posting but uh#I'm glancing at the tsubomi post I've been writing and re-editing because it ended up being So Much lmao#my drafts are full of absolutely too many essays I'm writing and rewriting and short essays and jokes and stupid dumb stuff#anyway if you're reading these tags know that I'm very boring and love to overanalyze dumb crap#this? this is 100% me looking way too deeply at the secret hidden unlockable meanings#but am I still gonna post it? uh yeah#cuz otherwise it goes to draft purgatory with the others#draft... superhell...
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I hated the Switch so fucking much, I gave mine away so I didn't have to have it around, anymore.
That said, very excited for the people who intend to play that new pokemon, when it comes out.
#em.txt#it's important to know first & foremost. i am a hater.#i hate that console so fucking bad. I can't stand it. the price the drift the battery the PLACEMENT OF THE WIFI CARD#the shit internet connection BECAUSE of that placement. it is not a console. it is a fucking handheld that can stream to tv.#i want to like ot so fucking much bc i like that concept but the execution is shit#& the only game i owned that i legit miss playing is PLA bc it's good. everything else can burn#for further context. the man i gave it to was my older brother#who has shared many things with me when i was young & had no consoles of my own.#i gave it to somebody because he had done the same for me & i refused to charge him when he gave me so much#I am interested to see what this new game will be like & will definitely watch lets plays#but if you think i am rebuying that pos console again you must be out of your damn mind#I'd rather keep the 300 dollars & put it towards a gaming pc so i can emulate that shit.#my interest in consoles had always been towards nintendo but i cannae stand this co. or its products rn#i hope legends continues to be a series. i hope they can do literally anything with kalos.#the switch was in its box w/ the games taking up space i wanted that shit gone bc every time i saw the box#i remember that i was a chump that forked over 300 dollars (not uncluding games) for a console#i never fucking touch bc it's more annoying than its worth
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GOD i wish i had the power and/or contacts to get people performance roles. there's a busker out today and she is one of the best fucking singers i have ever heard i'm not joking. she did i will always love you and i cried in a shop bc it was so beautiful. someone needs to put her in their musical right now
#i really hope she gets scouted by someone i just wish i'd had more than 20p on me to give her...#today has been so mad i also fistbumped a guy who was collecting for a charity for young people's mental health#again didn't have much on me but next time i see him i'll give them something bc mentally ill young people!! that's me!!!#there was also a guy who had a very good voice and was amazing at the guitar like people are expected to be normal about this???#also also theres a bus driver on the bus and he reminds me of rowan from bake off. miss u babe :(#AND the person on the bus in front of me looks like my doppelganger. and my bestie thought they saw me in boots#and there was someone at the bus stop with a pansexual badge and the 'you are safe with me' one david tennant has#AND i have the cinema tomorrow and the christmas garden centre thursday. and nella left the jungle today#HOLY SHIT everything is happening today#i keep bursting into tears randomly someone help#beep beep gets personal#personal#textpost#text post#singing#singer#music#musician#busker#i will always love you#theres a loud child on the bus again gdi
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I assume it's different for everyone but no one warned me that dysphoria gets more intense as i get older
#been thinkin about a trans friend i had in high school#we had times where he would tell me abt his dysphoria and he once went really in depth#and thats when i realised that (at the time) i didnt experience dysphoria#and i think thats partly because i didnt 100% accept that i was trans too#i mean he was out the closet. had teachers call him his preferred name. i sometimes had to defend him but it wasnt crazy#it was easy to get the chorus teacher to let him sing in tenor and not alto but i digress#at this rate i'd imagine he started T and honestly i hope he did i wish him the best#in the off chance he sees this i miss you man. i wish we could speak again. you were right all along lol#i just wish i wasnt a coward about it like i still am#if i really come out the closet and try to transition i will lose so much i think#but then it'll be a 'why are you so masculine' idk girlie maybe i've always been masculine you just love the word tomboy for some reason
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For the concert asks: 13 and 24?
Ahh, thanks so much for asking, JoAnne! :'D
13. Have you ever had a backstage pass?
Um, hmmm...no? Well, wait, maybe...okay, well, there was that time where I had a VIP package/meet-and-greet and got to meet Ann and Nancy Wilson of Heart (as much as I love this question, I unfortunately don't feel like rewriting it because I've already written about that experience!), and then, well, right before the pandemic, because I was a member of Thunderpussy's fanclub, "Club Pussy," through their app, my best friend and I got to go to The Showbox before the concert started and we got to meet 3/4 members of Thunderpussy! It was kind of endearing because the first member we talked to was the drummer, Lindsey Elias, and after we chatted briefly and she moved on, my best friend leaned toward me and said something to the effect of, "Okay, so...who was that?" and I was like *facepalm* "That was the drummer!!" and they were like "Oh shit, really? I had no idea. Oops." (They admitted to me then they weren't so great at remembering musicians' names and putting those names to faces.) So after that, I pointed out the other members and told my friend their names so they'd know and be prepared...and then when I finally got the chance to talk with my favorite member of Thunderpussy I was the unprepared one (she started talking to me pretty much as soon as I put a chip in my mouth, sigh 😞). But anyway...that was their little pre-New Year's Eve concert party that they offered to fanclub members if we gave them our name and anyone who'd be joining us, which is how we got in once we got there. So technically there wasn't any backstage pass involved, and we didn't get to meet them in any more of an intimate capacity than in the bar area of the venue before the show, but that was totally fine with me (although it was kind of awkward since I don't drink, and Thunderpussy weren't going to not drink but, meh, it was still fine). I don't need to meet my favorite bands, anyway, but when I have the fortunate opportunity to do so, I don't care if it's meeting them in the venue bar area or before a show for a brief meet-and-greet or at their merch table* or what - if the experience ends up being good (which, in the case of Heart and Thunderpussy, it was!!), I'll be grateful for even 30 seconds of their time to get to tell them how meaningful their music is. :')
24. Who is an artist you think everyone should experience live at least one?
Heeheehee, I was hoping someone would ask me this one! :D I'm gonna go with The Black Tones, first and foremost! They may be mostly known locally, but they deserve to be known by such a wider audience - their shows are SO MUCH FUCKING FUN EVERY SINGLE TIME! And I've seen them live 3 times now, and while during the third (and most reccent) time that I saw them I got the impression that they're afraid to bore their local fanbase, I would like to say right now that their shows could never be boring, which is why I'm happy to see them live again every time I possibly can! Everyone needs to see their live shows at least once (but then they'll probably want to see them more than once!). :'D
#music asks#*okay I've talked to and met a few bands at their merch tables but my favorite experience was meeting#Eva and Cedric Walker of The Black Tones at their merch table and I told them I'd seen them live 3 times now and am always happy to see#them live again and Eva gave me a hug!! :') I was not expecting that especially since it was after the show but AHHHH so lovely!!#OH GOD ALSO THAT TIME LAST SUMMER WHEN BLACK ENDS DMed ME ON IG AND WERE LIKE 'WHERE YOU AT!! we want to#dedicate a song to you because you're the whole reason we're playing here in your town!!' and...long story short I GOT TO MEET THEM ALSO#and they were great and so nice but I was so so awkward and I know they recognized that so they didn't dedicate any songs to me#WHICH I WAS GRATEFUL FOR. LOL even though I love them I am NOT ever prepared to be put on the spot like that. lol#which yes is a thing about me...but I think it also says a great deal about them that they sensed that and were like 'probably just#hanging out and chatting a bit before the show will be enough' AND IT WAS. :') 100000000% it was more than enough. :') and I miss them.#I almost went to see them live again earlier last month but it didn't work out. :( but I do hope to see them live again sometime!!
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Maybe we'll get a surprise cameo from Brainy 🤞🤞🤞
Oh man if only. 🥺 They were pretty extensive listing who was confirmed to be appearing on the Flash's final season so while I don't hold out much hope, I can still dream. 😉
#supergirl#the flash#brainiac 5#my asks#not writing#i mean you never know! i'd love to see jesse's brainy again.#if all we get is a throw away line mentioning him i'll take it but i can always hold out hope for more
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If you're driving on a two lane road and the road ahead of you is empty and the road behind you is a line of cars, please know that you are in fact the problem, and you really need to pull over and let them pass you. My commute is 30 miles of 2 lane roads on either side of a 20 mi highway stretch and yall fuckers make ny commute vary by a magnitude of twenty goddamned minutes. Not a single one of you is doing the speed limit (it's 50 the ENTIRE way, yall do 35-40). When I already log 3 hrs minimum on the road everyday I really don't fucking need it to climb uo to four hours. And no, I can't just move closer to work, because housing crisis. You can drive whatever speed you want to but for the love of God do me the courtesy of allowing me to do the same.
#Well I'm#Passing cars too!!!#I wouldn't even be mad if people even did the limit. But they DONT. On roads that USED to have higher speed limits!!!#The only reason the limits went down is state regulation on population density and speed limits. Not because we literally ever had any#Fucking accidents out here#Then again every time this happens and I'm either late to work or late home#It's a fucking bmw or audi or *gags* a cadillac or mercedes or some other car that costs more than 50k#Like yeah I get that you're loaded and work 20hrs a week for 1.5mil a year but some of us have to actually work and commute in the world#You're ruinning. Anyway if you see a line of cars behind you and think “lmao oh well. Sucks to be yall” I hope a rage roader totals your ca#Because you're a fucking inconsiderate assholr and that is the LEAST of inconvenience you could have happen to understand what you do to#People. Like seriously fuck you. Same for if you're going slow in the left lane and don't get out of it to let people pass. No you're not.#Larger hazard than any individual speeder actually poses. Someone flashing their brights frim behind you isn't a personal attack on#Your character that's them saying “hey man come on. Get over. It'll be easier for us both”#And you know what? I dont even say this as someone whose always the fastest on the road. I get passed FREQUENTLY all the time and I'm movin#Between the left and center lane constantly (with my blinker and checking my mirrors and blind spots).#I'd *like* to be out in front of traffic but if someone is mov8ng faster than me then they're moving faster than me#Letting them over is the polite and CONSIDERATE thing to do. Because who fucking knows! Their mom could be dying in the hospital or some#Shit and they need to be there NOW. It's not your job to police them.#It's literally so easy to just be considerate on the road and no one does it.#Which is FUCKING CRAZY because considerate driving eases traffic congestion! There's less harsh breaking and tailgating and it allows#Cars to move fluidly AND it's means every car is on the road for as little time as possible#Which is ultimately the ONLY way to ease congestion - removing cars from the road#Idk yall just be nice. It's so fucking stressful to do 35 down a 50mph road after a 12 hr day with 2 hrs of chores ahead of me and not#Enough time to get them done unless I cut into my sleep time.
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🥭🎴🎸♟️🤺
#on the off chance that you see this because i know i gave you my url before we broke up#and i know you don't use this site but maybe if you end up curious#i hope you know i still love you and i always will and i havent been able to have anything with the same flavours as i used to drink#when i was over there and there are so many things I'll never do again. i used to do things in threes because i thought#if i didnt then youd leave me but it didnt really help anything and once the worst happened i lost any of the fear associated with it#so there was nothing to spiral about.#ive picked more things up like how i cant touch peeble - the jellycat you gave me- without washing my hands enough that i know theyre clean#and i sleep next to him every night and talk to him like hes a person. and i used to have to type out everything to you longhand without#using autocorrect or typing suggestions because i felt like that created a sense of lack of effort. i undetstand a lot now how ocd fucked u#my relationship with you and my sense of love at all. i think I'd still do anything to have you back and ill find something to do to pass#the time but I'll just be waiting for you to come back and trying in the meantime to collect as much as i can do so i can never be unsure o#feel too inexperienced to settle down. ill feel happy and sure if you come back. ill wait#but if you find someone else do you think youll tell me? do you think its possible there's someone out there youll love more than me#it'll hurt me to have to settle for 2nd place#text
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Y'know, it's cases like Orchard's (and even "hunter" personalities like Mamämax) that make me genuinely perplexed on why predatory individuals will ride the highest horse against their own behaviour. I know it's a way to deflect attention from their own nasty shit, but it's always a self-defeating method once the same community that rallied in their name learns about the contrary.
What's worse is that they can fall from upon high into the deepest shit, and have the gall to walk right back into the townsquare, covered in their crimes like nothing happened.
Often enough, some- if not many- of the townsfolk will re-cover their eyes with wool too.
#vee vibrates#“You are not immune to propaganda” really fuckin applies here because even *I myself* (as a young unaware teen having survived horrors) ...#... looked to Max for hope. That people cared about bringing justice to survivors when the courts were too lazy and negligent to.#Again I was just a teen who had been taught L&R that people like Chris Hansen were Saviors of Children in the flesh.#So as I grew up and Max's details/videos started fumbling I realized that something was wrong with how invested he was in his cause.#The “I could cancel you Charlie bc I'm the ped hunter” comment made me realize what a megalomaniac he was & how he profitted from his role.#This isn't to say that ALL advocates for something are bad people trying to hide their sins. B&W thinking like that gets people killed.#But it's mindboggling to see those who make their advocacy their entire identity/reason for living often be the same perps of the same abuse#Again absolutely not always. I think the biggest distinguisher is seeing what an advocate is getting out of their work.#If their goals are outward-oriented (i.e bettering life for all) with little to no financial benefit then it's hopefully a noble indicator.#If there is a pull to “amass funds to help the cause” and that money is solely going to the advocate for them to “distribute themselves”#I'd wager that's a massive red flag because even in my own experiences with IRL advocacy & organizing. it. doesn't happen like that.#Dons are carefully stored with and kept track of via 3rd parties BECAUSE dons are heavily preyed upon by misery profiteers joining the cause#(This is ofc highly dependent on if access to 3rd parties is around; something that causes like for 🍉 have to adjust around for example)#But yeah huge red flag if the advocate is not only trying to get all the spotlight away from actual sufferers/victims but the money too.#Orchard & Max are extremely alike in this regard even if Orchard's “advocacy” is just more bigotry lol.
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