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i hsve no motivation sorry
#i also recently started school so#im a lil bit more stressed than normally#cries#brokenheart trio#c!wilbur#fanart#c!quackity#jschlatt#my art#doodles#cat#tbh creature#rubius
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#ts4#sims 4#sims#simblr#dl i THINK#these are the only pics i have that are kinda recent ;-;#i've been sucked into bg3 and starfield PLUS my oldest started school and we do part at home and part in person so we've been busy#also!! now u know who i ended up picking!#i might put the other two up for dl#maisie ables
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alright call me crazy but. how do folks feel about an android wall-e jesskas au
#like it's the plot of wall-e but it's jesskas and they're androids instead of non-humanoid robots#am i crazy?? most likely#also ik it's been dead on here sorry about that 😶 currently in my senior year of undergrad so things are ramping up for me#just trying to focus on school as much as i can but i promise I'm here!!!😁#also just a lot of personal shit going on but nothing bad#love everyone who's still here with me 🫶 not trying to make this all mushy! this post is about JESSKAS#haven't been drawing much in general lately but once ive cooked up something nice I'll share it on here#whenever that will be...#unrelated but does anyone here listen to tma? i started it recently and im loving it so im wondering how i can project jesskas onto it#perhaps if i make some good headway into it by october i can start drawing some spooky mcsm stuff relating to it 😻#anyway yeah sorry for rambling in the tags buh bye see you guys when i see you 🫡
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for sfth fans who don't know: shoot from the hip is also a photography technique where the photographer doesn't raise the camera to their eye and instead just holds the camera in their hand at waist level (hence "shooting from the hip"), which is usually used by street photographers to create more natural sceneries without drawing too much attention to themselves
so if you see a random photography post in this tag, that's why :]
#shoot from the hip#I haven't been able to take any photos recently :(#partially because of school but also canada has this awkward period in late fall/early winter where the sceneries are ass#like there's the fall maple leaves and winter snowscapes but there's a transition period where there's neither#and the supermoons have also passed#so there isn't much for my to photograph :((#BUT! it is starting to snow here so hopefully we can get some nice sceneries soon :]]
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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venting like an idiot
the main reason i dont wanna go back to uni is that i feel like i've completely embarrassed myself last year. idk, i feel horrified at the thought of returning and looking these people in the eye. i didn't do anything, i was lazy and barely finished my projects and the only way to redeem myself somehow would be to come back with some new energy and work hard. i didn't even really get a job this summer because i really wanted to rest, cause i thought i would drop out. and i just feel worse, i feel even more tired
#ughhhh#im not going to drop out just yet#itd be a shame i think#theres many opportunities at my uni that i just dont take cause i cant commit to them or im too tired or im too scared#idk if doing any of this is worth it if i don't truly commit tho#i dont think ive learned anything these past 2 years tbh i feel like ive been wasting time and money#and i know my mental state is just my fault cause i cant get myself to do anything and i feel shame and spiral but goddd#idk i just feel like shit#the academic year starts so soon and i just dread everything thats to come#idk i dont even feel like im going to come out of this school with a portfolio. im literally nothing and ive done nothing#i have no idea how i could write a dissertation because ive literally learned nothing i have no desire to learn i just want to fucking chil#i cant get myself to care much for anything except silly shit thats just a distraction from uni work ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh#sucks sucks everything sucks#sorry for this stupid fucking essay im just having lots of thoughts and no one to tell them so.. um#vent#i know this is all my fault but also like. what am i supposed to do about it every solution sounds like literal hell to me -_-#i guess ive been feeling less suicidal recently which i guess is good but i feel like its bad cause like ykiyk ig#idk its all a huge contradiction
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In @bluedandylyon 's High School Musical AU, Glimmer is Chad and there being a significant lack of jock Glimmer content, I knew what I needed to do.
Especially after we were joking about how this means she's wearing an assortment of ridiculous t-shirts in the background.
#I can't believe this is the second time I've made HSM SPOP fanart#what are the odds?#also that basketball is bow colored#which feels weird but it was in my recent so i went with it#I started to draw adora too but I ran out of evening#glimmer#spop#shera#she ra#tippen attempts art#fan art#fanart#high school musical#hsm#chad#she ra and the princesses of power#artists on tumblr
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Blorbo's Eepiest Soldier
Thank you everyone for your kind words, I'm doing better and am back to it <3
#helloo!#thank you all for the well wishes#I have really appreciated every kind word#I'm doing better now and have gotten back to school work#i am so eepy though#eepiest soldier#im also being overworked on my capstone game team and the team lead even told me shes over working me so thats#fun#counting going to this capstone class and meetings and such im putting like 25+ hours in a week for it#and i do have 2 other classes#and a social life i enjoy having#haha#but im happy to do the work cause its good portfolio stuff#except when my producer comes up to me and says "yknow how ur in charge of all the 2d art and concepting and branding and ui and pr? yeah g#make a 3-4 page detailed comic for plot at the start of our game cause we dont wanna cut plot (even tho we dont have time for it) and we#dont wanna show plot through interactable objects and dialogue/text so more work for you even tho u legit dont have time for it#ngl tho i have genuinely been enjoying designing icons and doing model concepts#i made some fire designs recently#please hire me a game company tm#anyway enough of capstone talk#love you all!!!#im excited to graduate and finally be able to change my bio!!#hope you all have a very lovely rest of your day <33#furry#fursona#digital art#art#eepy
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Got another question! Anyone can answer this time.
When you all were still in the pizzeria before the guards came, what did you guys do for entertainment? Were you able to play any of the arcade machines or mess around with the plushies, or did you guys just kinda hang out until it came time to get to buissness? Hope this question finds you all well!
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#ughh sorry for not uploading school started recently for me#and also i've just been low on energy#and on top of that i was casted for my school's alice in wonderland play so yeah im not gonna be updating as much for a while#but moving away from that evan got a small redesign :D#just a teeny one tho#five nights at freddy's#fnaf#fnaf au#ask blog#fnaf fanart#ask#Fractured Family Plot#cassidy fnaf#fnaf cassidy#the one you should not have killed#evan afton#fnaf crying child#crying child#the crying child#fnaf charlie#charlotte emily#charlie emily
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i find it just a smidge comical my unofficial break from pjo stuff happened right as i was working on an oc comic that had big lore in it. oops
#half finished bomb in my csp files#ok recently (like as of yesterday) i’ve once again been debating what medium i want to share oc stuff in#because i still really like the story i’ve made and it’s good for me to work on it#i want to do so much like i want to write out scenes in prose/like a book but i also love making comics#but yknow how it is. adhd and fluctuating interests and life and blah blah#school is starting for me and considering i’m now working on getting a whole ass degree in comic making i should get back to it LOL#simon says
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wanted to put this here but I did pause my patreon for the month of August and it will likely be paused for the rest of the year as I head back to Boston to finish out my master's next week. I also recently accepted a short-term contract so I'll be working on that while in school (woo-hoo). I'll be online less and less as schooling picks up, but im excited to finish the year ^-^ I'm interning at a college counseling center for an art university and im looking forward to supporting young artists, i'm looking forward to connecting with friends, and im looking forward to the rest pausing my patreon will give me. i'll still be drawing and posting art, but I have been nearing artistic burnout (and maybe even autistic burnout lol) over the past few months and I definitely need this break <3
#muerto talks#also been having brain fog recently so im trying to focus on my health and rest while finishing this final school year#also if anyone has tips for brain fog lmk lmfao its been annoying and i think its related to my gut health cuz i was on antibiotics recentl#and i feel like theyve started since then so thats annoying#anyway yippe to rest and finishing school and godspeed for another degree
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#so i think this is the first time within memory that i've had both a depressive episode and an extended anxiety attack happen simultaneous#like i've had them happen individually but i fear they are combining in bad ways#i've had some shit from four ish years get triggered recently and it's good cause i need to work through that#but that started a depressive episode that may have started a couple months ago and has slowly been culminating to the past week#and then some shit is happening with a person i care about so that's started an anxiety thing#which is terrible cause usually i just dissociate if there's anxiety or activate the adhd hyperactivity if there's depression#but now i can't do either so im stuck#and also i'm very burnt out rn#so i've literally just been in my bed except for things i Have to do Or I'll Die Or Get Kicked Out Of School#like i think i would not get up if the fire alarm went off rn genuinely#anyway yeah if you see me online more that's why#i'm sure i'll be fine i'm just figuring out what's going on#personal
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I'm not on t yet and it's already so bad. how to prepare
Prepare? Nuh uh. It just happens.
The rabid animal phase does go away, sort of.
The level stays mostly the same but you learn to ignore it.
If you can do it, exercising helps.
But when it hits randomly at the worst moment I’m sorry there is nothing to be done LMAO
#also you will be so hungry#hungrier than u ever thought possible#that part does mostly go away#I’m sorry idk what else to tell ya#idk how different hrt is compared to ur body just doin it#like idk how sudden it is. i guess it depends on what dose ur on#it’s just like. oh ok i guess that’s happening now well alrighty#also the mind and body disconnect WILL HAPPEN#ur body just starts doing shit and ur sitting there like damn I gotta study for this quiz#that also… doesn’t go away but#ok what I’m trying to say is after like uhh 2 years you’ll just be used to the bullshit#GOOD LUCK..#how did this become the topic of anons recently i feel like a middle school teacher 😭#is this what being the oldest sibling is like idk im the family baby but no one told me shit LOL#ask#asks#non voice post
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I bought myself some CDs :3
#five of them in fact. i have a collection of cds that i started in high school#and i've been making more of an effort to add to it lately with the decline of physical media#cds are so expensive now. like everything else. but it's worth it to me anyways#i did get two of them used so that brought the cost down a bit#but also! 3 of them have the little booklets with the tracklist and lyrics and extra art or photos#and another has a booklet that's just a ton of art the band commissioned for the album (or one of them did it themselves idk)#one doesn't have a booklet at all unfortunately and it's one that i bought new so it's not like it's missing they just didn't include one#which is too bad cause the one with all the art and the one with no booklet are by the same band so it would have been cool to see somethin#similar for the other album#still tho i'm quite pleased with my finds. i really love having physical cds#i'm certain one of them was the only cd from that artist in the entire store (huge place so much to look at i love going there)#her cds were completely sold out when i looked in the section they should have been in but i found ONE in the recent arrivals#they just keep all the cds they acquired within the last week in this one display organized only by the day they arrived#so i leafed thru the entire week's worth of cds and found this single album and it was such lovely serendipity#august talking
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💖Professor Kosmos ✨
I like to think that after graduating from Hogwarts, Serena continues to study music and comes back as the music professor 🎶 This has to be at the beginning of her tenure at Hogwarts because she looks too cheery 😂😂 she hasn't experienced the chaos of teaching yet
#I just recently got a job as the adjunct string professor at a nearby university and i'm so pumped#i'm ready to be called professor 😤#also i wish there was more music stuff in HL 😭#like i wanna know more lore about it#like do they still play instruments or is it all like enchantments??#i'm thinking of making a comic exploring my headcanon of music in HL universe#but i haven't made a comic since i was in high school and idk where to start 😭#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#hphl mc#hphl oc#serena kosmos
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Apple and Raven chat in their dorm
Apple entered the dorm, humming cheerily as she sat at her vanity and began reapplying her makeup.
Raven, already on her bed and trying to relax, rolled her eyes. "Come on! It's the first day of school. No one can be that peppy all the time."
"Oh Raven, that's where you're wrooooong!" Apple sung the end of her sentence. "I'm happy because it's the first day of school. It's the perfect start to another perfect year. Why wouldn't I be happy?"
"Really? A perfect day." Raven sat up.
"All my days are perfect, silly."
"I refuse to believe you have a perfect day every single day of your life. It's not realistic. Surely something bad, however small had to have happened. Come on, tell me the entire day went off without a single thing not going your way."
Apple paused. "Well. I suppose technically there is one thing that did not go my way today. Not that I'll ever let one little hiccup stop me from having a perfect day."
"What happened, stubbed your toe? Accidentally stepped in some mud? Dropped something by accident?"
"No, nothing like that... I was told I wouldn't be taking a math class this semester."
"What??? You're bad thing that happened is you got out of math for a whole semester?"
"I happen to like math!" Apple said, staring sternly at Raven as she said it.
"Who likes math???" Raven laughed.
"As I just said, me! Math is straight forward and always true. Unlike with words where sometimes people say one thing when really they mean the opposite."
"Whaaaaat? The princess doesn't like sarcasm?" Raven asked sarcastically. Seeing Apple fail to laugh, Raven quickly apologized. "Sorry."
"No, it's fine. You're supposed to laugh at me. So really, I should be thanking you."
"Actually... About that. If you don't like sarcasm, are you telling me those times where I'm rude to you and you thank me for it... Are sincere?"
Apple finally returned to focusing on her reflection in her vanity. "Well if course I am, why wouldn't I be?"
"Because people don't usually like when people treat them badly."
"Well you're supposed to treat me badly, you're a villain. My villain, specifically."
Raven sighed then rolled her eyes. "Yeah... Your villain."
"Since we're opening up and being sincere right now... Can I ask you something, Raven?"
"I guess it's only even." Raven responded, crashing to return to lying on her back in bed.
Apple, in the middle of applying mascara, held her arm in place as she asked, "Do you... Not... Like? Being a villain?"
Raven breathed incredulously. "No, not particularly."
"Why... Not?" Apple asked.
"Are you serious right now? Who would?!"
"Well I assume I would in your place."
Raven scowled as she raised her voice. "Oh, and why is that?"
"Because... That's just nature. I was born to be a Snow White so it's in my nature to be beautiful and perfect. Isn't everyone is the same way?"
Raven took a moment to process what Apple was saying. "Your... Nature? You think you are the way you are... Because you were born that way?"
"Well yes of course. We're all born with the talents needed to help us meet our destinies. That's why you're born with magic, right?"
"Uh... No, actually. We only need to poison you with a magic apple, you don't need freaky sorcery powers like my mom and I have to accomplish that. My mom was just a natural and did... Something to make sure I was born with just as much magic potential... If not more." Raven unleashed small bits of magical energy from her hand and watched the faint purple flames dissipate into the air.
"Huh. I was always told the Evil Queen line was full of menacing witches. I guess I just assumed your powers were per the course."
"You seem to assume a lot of things about me."
"So those times where you... Aren't rude to me. Those are... You being genuine? Not just part of the Evil Queen act where you try to gain my trust to betray me with the apple?"
Raven groaned. "There is no act! I don't want to be evil. I just want a normal life where I can just do my own thing and no one has to live in fear of me."
"But why would you want that?" Apple asked. "You have a legacy. You're one of the most important people in the entire world. There's so much responsibility on your shoulders and you just want to... What, ignore it?"
"I never asked to have this responsibility! It's a lot of pressure and maybe someone 'perfect' like you can handle it but I'm just a normal person! A normal person who already feels bad every day being avoided by everyone because they see me as a monster! So sorry, if I'm not as thrilled to live out my destiny as the world's most perfect princess who at least gets a happily ever after out of it."
Apple looked away to contemplate. "I... Never considered that someone might not be as enthusiastic about their destiny as I was. I mean not all destinies are as glamorous as mine... But. Our destinies make us... Important."
"Well I'm stuck having to choose between being important or being happy." Raven said solemnly.
Surprising both the girls, Apple's makeup began to run as a single tear fell down her cheek. "Raven... I'm. I'm so sorry for you. That sounds so hard."
Raven didn't know how to respond. For as smart as Apple is, it surprised Raven that she had genuinely never considered another person's perspective in regards to destiny. She felt the instinctual urge to tease her for this astonishing lack of empathy.
But on the other hand, this was the most... Human she had ever seen Apple. She was always so well put together and also so busy. She went from extracurriculars, to volunteering for the less fortunate, to studying to get ahead on classes that hadn't even started yet. All the while, she managed to keep it up with an impenetrable, smiling facade. But now here she was, crying. Over Raven of all people.
"Thanks... Apple." Seeing her face continue to be bereft with sadness convinced Raven even more that this was not some polite social script Apple was doing for appearances. It was genuine.
"For what it's worth," Raven continued, "I also think you're more than just your destiny."
Apple seemed to rein her emotions in enough by now to begin drying her tears and fixing her makeup. "What... Do you mean by that, Raven?"
"Well... You're destined to get everything handed to you on a silver plate. You don't even... Do much as Snow White, things just kind of happen to you."
Still teary eyed, Apple's face became terse as she prepared a rebuttal, but Raven cut her off. "Let me finish. You're destined to get everything and yet you're still out here working hard like you need to earn it. You're at the top of the class, you're involved in everything. You barely even sleep. You may be the most privileged person I've ever met... But I've also never seen anyone work as hard as you. And that has nothing to do with your destiny. That's all you, Apple."
Apple let Raven's words sink in. "Thank you, Raven. That was. Very kind."
#ever after high#apple white#raven queen#eah the retelling#au#context is this is supposed to be after they're rooming together but before they're friends#also my au has way more time between the start of school and legacy day so we can slowburn their friendship a little bit#anyways I saw wicked recently and was extremely inspired recently can you tell
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