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stuckinapril Ā· 10 months ago
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i canā€™t show it to him bc itā€™s basically my personal diary he went ā€œoh so I canā€™t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??ā€ he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#Itā€™s just so different#even though itā€™s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head Iā€™m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts Iā€™d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. Iā€™m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile Iā€™ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. Iā€™m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. itā€™s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& Iā€™ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc Iā€™m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least itā€™s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and Iā€™m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#itā€™s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and itā€™s low stress and people get me#I donā€™t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. itā€™s just nice to have this#so idk thatā€™s why I think Iā€™ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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gods-favorite-autistic Ā· 8 months ago
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Track list for Fig and the Cig Figs independently published Junior Year album (officially named ā€œInfaethableā€)
Teenage Rebellion
Night Yorb (a heavy metal banger)
Summer Scaries
Devils Nectar
Time Quangle (a love song about Ayda)
Multiclass (Gorgug sings on this!)
The Ballad Of Lucy Frostblade (Kristen was the one who convinced Fig to write this)
So Late, So Tactical
Do You Have A Fucking Warrant
Cassandra (Can You Hear Me)
Hall Of Mirrors
President Applebees (written entirely in the night after Kristen gets elected by a drunk Fig with extremely drunk notes by Kristen)
Raging For Love (inspired by Gorgug, of course)
The Elven Oracle (Has A Day Job) (So Stop Bothering Her)
Maximum Legend
Fury Of The Ball
Cursed
Infaethable
The Bad Kids
#i neeeeed fig to go indie itā€™s her destiny#she promises each of them that sheā€™ll dedicate at least one song to them and then dedicates a track to each of them individually#sklondas seething a tiny bit that she called riz the ball but he wonā€™t stop playing it so it keeps getting stuck in her head#adaine summons mephits to help with her track#you can hear her in the background near the end yelling ā€˜yeah!ā€™ and ā€˜fuck off!ā€™#fabian wanted his to sound like a shanty but fig said it wouldnā€™t go with the vibe of the album#they eventually compromised by having the noise of waves and seagulls subtly in the background throughout#kristen actually cried the first time fig played the ballad of lucy frostblade for them#summer scaries sounds like an olivia rodrigo song#gorgug gets a sick drum solo in raging for love#time quangle opens with fire crackling and a bird cawing and a quiet clip of ayda saying ā€˜I love youā€™ before the instrumental starts#fig stuck a quiet sound clip of gilear saying ā€˜oh fuckā€™ and then a louder sound clip of her saying ā€˜oh fuck!ā€™ in cursed#devils nectar is one of the slower tracks on the album#hall of mirrors is heavily inspired by the events at evil mordred and baron so you can hear a lot of influences from baronesian music in it#fig has a fucking sick as hell guitar solo and a couple of samples from just the bottomless pit in general in infaethable#Gorthalax also gets some lyrical input on it#fig manages to get a clip of riz saying ā€˜the ball bitch!ā€™ to kalvaxus in freshman year to put in fury of the ball#is this too long for an album? maybe but who cares I love this#a good portion of the profits made from the album goes towards college for the party#having thoughts about fig and the cig figā€™s Junior year album#autism (mads) speaks#fantasy high#fhjy#fig faeth#fantasy high junior year#dimesnion 20#d20 fantasy high#fig and the cig figs
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bluewinnerangel Ā· 1 year ago
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spitblaze Ā· 7 months ago
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You know I probably would have figured out something was up with me genderwise sooner if people assigned female at birth were not conditioned from a young age to absolutely loathe their bodies in order to sell beauty products and diets and unattainable standards
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septimusmoonlight Ā· 2 months ago
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You doing ok?
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hi
#i'm alive. simply being chewed upon by multiple things#work is more stressful than i'd like it to be. for instance i'm hoping that i submitted my time off notification for tomorrow correctly#because otherwise it might read as a no call no show and i would . like to continue having a job#now to be fair. i do have it on the system that i requested it at the beginning of the month and i emailed my supervisor about it last week#so even if i didn't submit it correctly i'm likely in the clear#but nonetheless. i also got a firm talking-to the other day and now i am on āœØthin iceāœØ for dicking around too much#because they track ur idle time at my work (computer) and mine was Quite High so my supervisor was like man what the hell is this#but even though she was kind of baffled at me spending so much time dicking around#she couldn't even really be all that mad in the end because i'm still doing good numbers and have made no (zero) mistakes#so she was just like. it's kind of impressive that your numbers look this good when you literally have 50% idle time#so she goes imagine what you could do if you weren't wasting so much time#and yeah i can whip out some Really Good Numbrers when i put the effort in.#so the problem is not my numbers it's just that i'm not spending long enough doing my tasks for the day#but i don't want to drag out those tasks intentionally so i've just been upping my own standards/goals#as much as i hate giving any more of my brain power than is necessary to giant corporations#it's still easy to feel smug after you get Talked To and then immediately turn around and show off#like yeah i coulda been doing this good the whole time. literally pulling up by 20 points. i just didn't want to.#trying to keep everyone's expectations low but accidentally toed the line of um. not working enough to keep my job#...anyway. EAS national weather system issued a . hi#i haven't forgotten about all of you i'm just having trouble tracking all my shit that i got going on āœØ yaaaaaaay#im gonna post things on AO3 soon. i promise. my weakness is that i get sidetracked trying to unwind from work#...i know i said 'soon' last time. but this time for real#asks#not sexy#anonymous
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auspicioustidings Ā· 4 months ago
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If you see a Call of Duty fanblog that claims they are or were in the military I can say that 99% of the time they are lying.
A cishet white man who had a good experience in the military will not engage in fandom and will only brutally make fun of it, if he had a bad experience he is nowhere near the fandom.
A cishet POC man is the same, it's just a lot less likely he had a good experience.
A cishet woman who had a good experience in the military is, almost certainly, an ultra conservative who would despise fandom spaces.
Anyone outside of the categories above 99% of the time did not have a good experience with the military. They may have PTSD not from war zones but from how they were treated in their own departments. They may engage with fandom, but they will never idolise these characters uncritically and are not going to joyfully make it a part of their online fandom personality that they are ex-military so can totally help you with details (which given that all branches of the military function totally differently and countries again function totally differently they can't).
As a good rule of thumb, if anyone on the Internet is making something about them that conveniently relates to the fandom they are in a major part of their personality, treat that claim as unverified and move on with your day. You do not owe strangers on the Internet your blind trust and they do not owe you proof of their claims if they are not actively hurting anyone with them. If you think they are using their claims to actively try hurting someone, block them. These people thrive on attention and negative attention spends just as good as positive, do not give it to them.
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canisalbus Ā· 1 year ago
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just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3
Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.
#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though#it often takes me a long time to write that response#my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly#I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times#I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory#so I keep putting off reblogging gift art#because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give#maybe that sounds dumb and fake#but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that#often weeks sometimes months even#and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed#I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time#not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person#so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet#please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess#and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you#feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot#and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it#because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond#thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it#sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot#because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness#I'm trying to work on that#answered#anonymous
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fandomsarefriends-notfood Ā· 14 days ago
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Happy anniversary to *beep beep beep* Halloween... MWAH ha ha. It's heist time. Aaah! Thought you could get a headstart on heist prep? Good luck, *whips blanket* I'm already dressed. Well, *whips blanket* I am also dressed. And I made breakfast. *whips blanket* Wait, where are my eggs? In my belly. *lights* AAH! Now get a move on. It's heist time. I love Halloween!!!
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locrianking Ā· 17 days ago
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this is your daily reminder that demanding that women boycott or sacrifice their fucking HEALTHCARE is not only unethical but also absolutely depraved.
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brittlebutch Ā· 10 months ago
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SUCH an autism moment to me -- not only for the mirroring but also the strange, tense way Spock moves to do it. Like he's not at all confident in his ability to move his limbs in the right configuration to reach the desired endpoint and he's not even 100% sure if he wants to try -- Dyspraxia moments my beloved; Mr. Spock i'm Love you <3
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crispyjenkins Ā· 11 days ago
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just got morrowind for pc and have to run it on the Family Computer in our parents' study, so am really living the 2002 experience of huddling around the desk with my younger sib while i play and they read bits of the guide (wiki) to me
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aroaessidhe Ā· 13 days ago
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2024 reads / storygraph
At The Feet Of The Sun
book 2 in a slow paced high fantasy duology*
the right hand of the emperor (who is off searching for an heir) struggles with what to do after passing on his responsibilities and also discovering various pieces of information that are mindblowing to him, personally,
after adventure is thrust upon him, he travels to find His Radiancy and they go on some otherworldly adventures while growing closer and figuring out the nature of their friendship
(*thereā€™s extra novellas & i think another book coming? duology adjacent, currently,)
#At The Feet Of The Sun#lays of the heart-fire#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#giggling and kicking my feet. and also crying#bro the yearningā€¦.the yearning#I can definitely see why this loses people - itā€™s so long and very self indulgent#(listen. i enjoy it a lot . but does it need to be THAT long (i just checked. 375k? lord))#but it is easy to read and also very funny. it felt less repetitive than the first book to me#I did find it hard to keep track of some of the side characters though#The first world-travelling stuff caught me off guard initially - I feel like all the weird magic was more background in book 1?#or maybe I just didn't pay attention.#taking a step back it is a bit like - kip sure does achieve everything and then some and just continues to achieve everything huh#and it gets to a point where it's like.....okay yes I get he's so talented at this etc etc.#but I guess itā€™s a nice change of pace from the kingly swordfighting fantasy protagonist whoā€™s perfect and wins everything -#someone whose skill is people and negotiation in a humble way is a bit more interesting. still. it maybe felt less grounded after a while?#the deep exploration of platonic yearning and desire for strong friendship and fear over that person just wanting romance/sex#when thatā€™s Not what you want out of the relationshipā€¦ā€¦ā€¦#not to mention his complex feelings over meeting two people who were like his platonic soulmate rolemodels#and then finding out they just used that term because gay relationships werenā€™t accepted and trying to not be disappointed#(because gay is also good!) but also like. so lonely in feeling like nobody understands his desire for a platonic soulmate#to be treated equally as romantic relationships are. oof#I am a little baffled to see people interpret it as a romantic asexual relationship?#I feel like that does such a disservice to the . everything that has been set up in what 600k words of books#like the implication of that is that you think other romantic rships w/o sex are unheard of in this world. I find that hard to believe idk#(I mean - a bit romantic on fitzroyā€™s end; and in the nebulous queerplatonic area between friendship and romance; sure#but like a straight up romantic relationship just without sex - I donā€™t understand how it could be interpreted that way lol?)#(anyway other peopleā€™s interpretations donā€™t matter)#I do have questions about the telepathic dinosaur soulmates. you canā€™t just mention that and now show me them#also. kip being like 'wait there were sirens? i wonder if i can hire them' kshfkjsgkf#asexual books
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akkivee Ā· 2 months ago
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in their recent track, bb had to juggle and resolve three different partiesā€™ issues in the mtc track their issues were caused by three different parties in the fp all of them had to confront their secret thatā€™s shaped their identities so maybe with the mtr track where we know hifumi is about share the trauma that shaped him we will similarly get jakurai and doppoā€™s raison dā€™etre out in the openā€”
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s0fter-sin Ā· 5 months ago
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me to me: i would like to buy one disability support item please
me: but you already have something like this
me: i know, but this is easier to use and will put less strain on my body
me: but you can just use the other one
me: the other one puts me off doing essential things bc of how daunting it is to use
me: but itā€™s a waste of money
me: itā€™ll improve my quality of life
me: but-
me: just buy the fucking thing
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madebycoffee Ā· 5 months ago
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fun fact about my deco sims. I often reuse sims I've made (mainly so I don't have to spend 5ever in CAS) But I reuse them across sets that I think make sense lmao.
so: one of the strippers from that set last year, is also the bassist in the rock band set. (her name is elektra)
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Che, was a stripper I made for my legacy a while ago. Made sense to include him in the stripper set. But he's also appeared as a wasteland and snow day deco.
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and there are many many more examples including ones that are being added in to my current sets i'm working on šŸ¤øā€ā™€ļøit's a fun little easter egg to mE.
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cuz-reasons Ā· 9 months ago
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Summary: Emmet comes home to a kitchen covered in flour. Ingo tells another story.
Ingo's making a baking mess and no one can stop him
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