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why am i so bad at keeping in touch with people??!? not knowing what a frienship actually means???! i feel like im doing everything wrong. i feel like i never tried hard enough in all my 23 years of coordinating with people
#personal#girl i am so burnt out#my bestest friend is percy and we get so so so low when we are apart#i feel like all my classmates hate me???#or just generally unlike me??#i also dont push myself to hang with them after class. its mostly bc im 23 with own place. bills. cats#i also have a job where i work to live.#i feel.like im constantly fucking up#and then theres just the timing/money when everyone goes out and i work every fucking weekend at 6am#i really dont wanna go to class tomorrow#u ever realize HOW lonely you actually are?#family isnt close due to divorce. childhood trauma on the res. no communication amongst cousins.#dont know how to talk to people#i constantly feel like im fucking up every conversation#it still happens when i try and talk about something. anything. and im immediately ignored or the topic instantly changes#im not even the oldest or youngest in class but i feel so out of place??#everyone is either approaching 30 or fresh out of high-school/covid so like 18-20#no one is really that middle age that im in rn???#i dunno im getting really sad about school bc i thought i was making friends but now im not included in conversations 🙃#i dont know what i need
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while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best
#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#riz gukgak#figueroth faeth#sklonda gukgak#dimension 20#this. mmmmhhh this is so. I did Not know how to draw this really.#I am very normal about riz (<- lying)#it's a brennan-dm d20 campaign the bad guy is always capitalism (I am saying this with clenched teeth)#riz out of all of them being aroace fucks with me SO bad. bc its also established that elmsville specifically and probably the#majority of solace is not. made for goblins. and that becomes sklonda being worked to the bone and pok dying on the job#and riz spending all his time trying to keep his friends together. maybe to the point of it being injurous#like. do u get what I mean. its an economy of time it takes your time it eats up your time#not just the gukgaks but everyone you have to spend time to get to live and you don't have a lot of time left in a day#and you have to spend it carefully. you have to prioritize#you're somewhere without an established community and companionship is bought with your time spent working#this place doesn't take care of you. at the end of the day who do you have who'd prioritize you. do you understand me#the evolved aroace loathing where if your friends and family are granted more time nobody would have to choose. we live in a society#holds ur hand we live in a society. idk if Im making any sense#anyway . uhhh riz is my favourite that's my statement thank you for listening. au revoir
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timbern high school baby project with real babies bc gotham is insane like that and they get paired together and at first it's funny.
two guys raising a baby lol. oh look tim i'm holding our kid! jesus bear, don't fucking shake our baby like like that. darls, darls, take our pic quickly! we're going for jcpenney's family photoshoot vibes. wait why does tim get to sit in the seat? oh cause he's mom? your both guys dipshit, neither of you can be the mom.
and then it quietly gets a little more serious.
hey did you feed the baby? tim, make sure to change the diaper before you leave today. bear can you grab my phone, the baby's sleeping on my chest and i can't move. hey guys, you wanna- shhh! they're sleeping, dont wake them up. what does that have to do with you? bear fell asleep with his head on my lap i can't move now! and why are your fingers in his hair? ....bear likes it.
and then it gets too serious
what the fuck are you buying premium baby food for tim?! we dont have that kind of money! oh sorry that i wanted our kid to be properly fed! and it's not like you're doing anything! oh the extra job i work is nothing now? that's not what i said! then what did you mean? you're never home! tim-. when was the last time you read to the baby? when was the last time you changed the diaper, gave them food, burped them? i cant do this alone. i'm tired bear. im sorry baby, i guess i was too caught up in making sure you guys would have what you needed i lost sight of what was important. i'll make it up, i promise. this weekend, you, me, the baby, the zoo. how does that sound sweetheart?
and by the end it's too domestic and everyone has noticed
hey are they like... fucking for real now? what? your little goonsquad darla. are they together-together? what the hell are you talking about ty? don't play stupid with me darla. i've known you since 3rd grade. ....no i dont think they're together. darla what the fuck. look at them! bernard has his arms wrapped around tim and he's cooing at their baby from over tim's shoulder! jim caught them slow-dancing with the baby in between them in the band room after school the other day. i know, i know!!! but they get weird when i talk about it and bear's just started feeling okay about it, you know his dad's a piece of shit, and like it's complicated! honest-to-god, i think they'll be like this until the project's over and then they'll go back to normal. normal? dont even ask ty, don't even ask. anyway i'll catch you later, i gotta go be the best aunt ever. .....fuckin weirdos, all three of them.
#this is what happens when i get bored#what the fuck is this#in this au gotham teaches a frankly insane sex ed course where each person gets paired up with somebody and then gotham gives u#an apt and you're essentially that babies parents for the year. and like when i mean parents i mean Parents!!!#like they have to Provide. that mean's getting jobs or whatever. there's like a stipend set up so your not actually broke#whatever dont think about it too hard#it is the most sucessfull matchmaking system in gotham. and the teachers do get too invested in their students love lives#anyway#what else is there to say#this is the stupidest thing ie ever written#aj if you're seeing this im so sorry lol#it is also the single most effective safe sex education given in gotham and like it works!!!! everybody is exhausted after raising a baby#bernard dowd#tim drake#timbern#timber#no edits just pressing the post button
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the coolest kids in forgotten valley!!☆
(…it seems there may have been a stretch of time where rock and lumina were the only kids in forgotten valley…🥲)
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#in the remake hugh and the player’s kid are the same number of years apart#so i can see them having very similar conversations n friendship#surely these two kids will grow up well adjusted and they will have no lasting effects from this kind of isolation. they will be fine#i have been thinking a lot about what their childhoods were like. i want to protect both of them#everyone who has anything to say about them as kids says that both of them were not well behaved children at all#tei says rock was rambunctious and energetic and hard to handle. sebastian says lumina was less than amenable#rock says he was bored to death when he first came here and lumina asks you not to tell romana that she’s lonely#lumina also hated wearing dresses so. she is very mad and ready to bite people maybe#sos awl#bokumono#my art#rock tumbling (sos)#harvest moon#story of seasons#story of seasons a wonderful life#bokujou monogatari#i like to imagine a au where pony and cecilia come to visit their family’s respective farms#so these two can have more friends ;w;#i am always thinking about how they were both severed from their families and taken in by someone else at a young age to live in nowhere#and they are both not exactly enthused about following the path laid out for them#headcanon ⚠️ i wonder if rock’s moving out on his own happened when he was a teenager. he was extremely confident everything would work out#anyway he got fired from every job ever and after many years came crawling back. and he came crawling back blond#at the time of chapter 1 lumina is baffled by the state of the guy she grew up with. why is he using dated slang and wearing disco costume#she is also kind of mad at him for having been gone for so long#hc rock probably had more freedom as a kid than lumina did which probably annoyed her#once again takakura retrieves a small rock from the goddess pond and he’s covered in poison ivy bee stings etc. no remorse#lumina from her window on the hill feels somehow jealous of these misadventures#lumina mentions in her heart event that she doesn’t often visit the beach because her skin burns easily#meanwhile rock was probably playing outside always. if his kid is any indication#idk i like thinking about the history of this extremely small village
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ok so I KNOW im annoying about how much ooc shit bothers me, I KNOW. y’all have come after me for ranting about it several times, HOWEVER, one ooc thing i will always accept is post-s11 ian as an emt. is it logical? not really. is he a felon? yup. but i still have hope🙏 like everytime anyone has ever done a fic where they explain ian becoming an emt again the logic is so flawed but i do not care because i desperately need emt ian back. if i ever see ian referred to as an “ex emt” in fics i will cry JUST LET HIM HAVE THAT FUCKING JOB UGHHH
#emt ian my love#i could talk about him as an emt for hours because it means so much to me#it was so perfect for him#i get that emt ian being fucked up led to gallavich so i’m happy about that but i also want to pull my hair out at the thought of it#like wdym he worked at amazon… hes an emt#i honestly just wanted him to have an ending that somewhat honored his storyline from s1-7#like in s6 when he said that being an emt brought his old self back#…and then in s11 where hes worried about money and out of a job#it’s realistic unfortunately but i WANT HIM TO DO WHAT HE LOVES AND LIVE UP TO HIS POTENTIAL#shameless#ian gallagher
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do you make enough money from selling prints in etsy to sustain your life? how are you able to afford this beautiful house and time to crochet and go on walks and all of that? i’m not asking for nosiness but because i’m trying to figure out what i would need to do in order to make my life financially sustainable… is art an option… etc
short answer i mooch off my bf <333333333333333
#long answer part 1: i make enough off my etsy to afford my stuff (and i really don't buy much) and help out w th food bills where i can etc#i hvnt been able to do much of that OR save anything for the past couple months bc i hvnt been selling much BUT . things are beginning#to pick up again and i hve new stock to add when i get back from holidays :3#i have a smallish job lined up from my agent which is exciting! but hopefully i will make enough w her doing picture books etc to be able#to pay my keep / save more etc! i hve been anxious abt money this past months but thats just more so money for me to spend on small stuff :#i also dont drive so . i dont rlly hve many outwards expenses . im very lucky to have him hes very kind and lovely !!#if i wasnt w him and he didnt hve a house i would still b living w my mama which i did since i left uni!#long answer part 2: i always make time for goofing off during my work day. always!!!#part of the joys of being a freelancer! i can do what i want!!#i can share my routine in more detail if u guys want but i dont start work until abt 2pm-ish most days bc i dont rlly work well in the#mornings. when i hve more work that might change!! i have enough on to keep me busy but im not rlly hvin 2 manage my time u kno#im very very lucky to be in such a comfortable position :3 i hope one day u can be as comfy !!#oh also. i think once the agency work kicks in i will b fine financially ! and also u can absolutely make a living off etsy when its good#its very good for me ! i was very comfy financially around xmas last year i made a lot#u can do it u can do it !! art will always sell !!
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I do want to talk about sharing art online from the perspective of a hobby freelancer but before that I'll just toss this tidbit I mentioned on my main
Reblogs are not numbers. Reblogs are meant to share and pass on artwork that someone may like. NO ONE is forced to reblog anything BUT it is a core of engagement in a space like tumblr. Engagement is what brings in interest after all and it's one piece of what makes it important for freelance artists here.
When you look at the numbers and the notes, we need to stop viewing them and comparing them with likes (me included) or total in general. It doesn't help.
Artists do self rebloging to both show or remind folks they've done some work as well as to nudge people to reblog their stuff. Tags are nice and comments in them are a nice way to engage too but passing on the work, especially to help someone to get noticed, is a good way to just work the site as intended.
It will always be about luck because we can't guess who wants to engage with what online. You also can't blame yourselves for this. Don't use the internet mentality of "content" (eugh!) and "flopping" and go about it that way. People find stuff I drew years back and find ways to engage with it now. It's really about luck.
There are things that can help but I'll go about it in another post.
One more thing. Don't be shy about "shilling". Advertise your open commissions, your patreons or ko-fis. I promise it has nothing to do with how big of an artist you are. Remember that you're doing that within your own zone so "bothering" followers is hardly the case, it's your house. Make a tag for it if it helps your mind. I say as someone with social anxiety.
#sky rambles#sorry I know this topic has been everywhere but it made me have so much on my mind#I also vibe on Savvy's streams when I can and artists chatting there make a lot of good points and HELPFUL tips!#so I end up thinking about stuff like this a lot#freelancing is hard#it's also not a job that's sustainable where I live#but also because I can't pace my work differently because I will hate it then#and I don't want to hate working what I enjoy doing#and numbers can really add to that because it turns into 'content' mentality#(i swear i am becoming allergic to that word it physically makes me recoil every time)#it's about finding what works for you EVEN IF IT'S BUSINESS#you NEED to pace yourself HOW IT WORKS FOR YOU and not what brings more money#as unfortunate as that may sound#otherwise you will burnout fast and hate every bit of it
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"but you can use AI as a teacher to write lesson plans"
You could pay us more we could do it
"but you could use it to get grants done faster"
Or you could pay me more and I could get it done
"but you could use it to write creatively Faster"
I'm gonna go find a brick
#sometimes it just hits me how many jobs I've had where the answerr is just#'i Could do this job better If I Didn't Have Two More Jobs Pay Me More'#and i think about bricks#anti ai#acey speaks#these are actual things ive heard#tangentially#this is acey's work tag#( im a grant writer and sub teacher)#you think i write for fun bc i want to Not Wrire? that one always takes me#but also do yiu know how much more time i could write and how much less wrirers block id have if i had a living wage?
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Matched with someone with ‘ofos femme 4 butch’ in her tinder bio like eleven days ago and she messaged me right after we matched but I didn’t have the app downloaded at the time so I didn’t see it for like four days, and I messaged her immediately when I saw it but she hasn’t replied and it’s been like a week 😭 needless to say she’s living rent free in my mind
#and like her message was ‘hi!! i cant believe i havent seen u on here before - r u new to the area/dating apps?’#so i was excited. there’s definitely a chance she’s since deleted the app or just hasn’t opened it or something#finding people who identify as femme where i live is so hard. i have stone butch in my bio on tinder im fishing so hard#i did that dumb thing where you can pay like $3 to get read receipts turned on for a specific person#wanted to know if she was ignoring me or if she just hadn’t opened the app#but she has read recepits disabled#i did get a refund for that buts it’s only $3. the micro transactions on that app are deranged though#like this feels really silly but it’d be nice if it worked out#im also currently between jobs so i have too much free time to let this stew in my brain#I’ll give it another week. i could probably find her instagram if i really tried#would love to hear if i sound insane to other people
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So, I recently watched Helluva Boss and as always I've been prusing the tags for it on tumblr to see what other people think about the story and characters.
Something that stuck out to me is when people say Striker is a hypocrite because he hates the Royals, puts down Blitz and Fizz for being with Royals, but he, himself, works for one. Also that his pitch he gave to Blitz about teaming up to take down Royals was all a lie.
Now, I'm not going to say he's not being a bit of a hypocrite, especially given how much he hates Royals. What I will say is that I understand why Striker wouldn't see it that way (besides the fact he has a seemingly desperate need to feel superior to other imps).
Striker wants to kill Royals--that is very clear. A huge hurtle to that goal is that they are immortal. The only thing that can kill them is Angelic Steel--something that is rare and expensive. Yes, Striker is supposedly a well known assassin, but it's doubtful he'd ever make enough money to afford Angelic Weapons without taking on extremely wealthy clients. The wealthiest would be those at the top.
We don't know if Striker has worked with Royals before. If we assume Stella was the first Royal he was hired by, that makes his choice to work with her make far more sense. Particularly when we take into account who her target is--her equally Royal husband.
Unless stated otherwise later, Stella must have provided Striker with his Angelic Weapons so he could kill Stolas. She doesn't just give him a single weapon, either. She gets him a sniper rifle, pistols, a knife and a rope so he can incapacitate Stolas and take his vast magic abilities away, rendering him helpless. On top of that, she is also paying him money.
Given Stella never brings up the fact he lost the sniper rifle, or demands he return the weapons she provides, this deal he's making, although hypocritical, is only a benefit for Striker. He's getting paid to kill someone he wants to anyway, and a new arsenal that gives him the capability to kill Royals afterward.
This is why I don't think his offer to Blitz was a lie. I think what he told Blitz is his long term goal/plan, and was simply offering Blitz to join him since he found Blitz to be somewhat equal to him after Blitz did so well in the harvest games. Once they killed Stolas, got Stella's money, they would turn around and start using those funds and weapons to kill more Royals.
The reason Striker doesn't see himself as on the same level as Blitz and Fizz with their relationships with Royals is because he sees himself as using Stella, where he perceives Blitz and Fizz as being used. It's true that Blitz gets similar benefits from his relationship with Stolas (if Striker even knows about Blitz using Stolas's spell book for his business, I can't recall) but given what Striker saw of their relationship, he would see Stolas using silly pet names despite Blitz disliking it and see that as Blitz debasing himself publicly for Stolas. Yes, Stella doesn't treat him with the upmost respect, but it's over the phone, without witnesses. Nor does he give her anything in return except a dead husband--someone he would have targeted anyway.
He sees Fizz as even worse because, to him, it appears Fizz has given up his own autonomy to live a cushy lifestyle. Yes, Fizz gains many benefits from being with Ozzie, but Striker views it as letting Ozzie take advantage of him, to let Ozzie treat him like a pet (which some people do, do to some imps). He doesn't know Ozzie loves Fizz--franky I don't think he'd believe a Royal could love an imp at all anyway.
Yes, he may work for a Royal, and take her orders, but he does so to pilfer more and more Angelic Weapons from her as well as take her money, all of which I'm sure he tells himself he will later use against her and the rest of the upper class. It's a business transaction that he actually holds all the cards in. Unlike Blitz and Fizz he doesn't have to publicly debase himself to get the benefits he seeks. At least that's how he sees things.
#helluva boss#helluva striker#helluva boss striker#i'm sort of lost as to why he wanted to work for Crimson#idk if Stella didn't pay him because Stolas was rescued#and he needs the money to relocate his base since now the gang knows where it is#im not even sure if he's till working for Stella anymore#since she called off the hit#sure she wants to kill him later but we don't know if he dicking around until she gives him the signal#or if the job is considered done and she paid him#and he's just working with Crimson because he wanted an easy win after his last huge failure#also his pistol might be Angelic give it has some silver on it#but he did seem to lose a good portion of his shit after his base was raided#but if he has the money#his job with stella is done#and he still has an Angelic pistol#maybe hes not quite as full of himself as he pretends#is a bit of coward and putting off killing the upper class because he knows they're so powerful#also Stella and her brother are stupid for giving a fucking assassin weapons that could kill them!#they just made their lives way more dangerous#like I know Stella is to focused on killing Stolas to care#but her brother whose supposed to be smart should have been angry at her for that as well as not thinking about the inheritance
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Ask the librarian subreddit about getting my degree online and the responses were not encouraging to put it simply😭 other reddit posts asking have better comments? It’s different everywhere I look girl I just want to be a librarian why is life so hard😭
#I’m pretty locked in on librarian path so doesn’t matter😭#I actually really would love to be one it’s just the process is hard#I have to get my masters online because the closest colleges that offer masters in library science are at least an hour away and you need#your masters to be a librarian#like not an if you need it#some programs are only a year but most are like a year and a half so likely will still be in school and at home until 2026/2027 at quickest#I don’t have to work in a library there’s lots of places that have libraries but all of them need a degree#it’s just the most realistic job path for me where I can make a living and also be sane#not amazing pay but enough to be stable after a few years#the dream would be working in a museum and I saw one person say they got their degree in library science and now work in a museum so nothing#is really set in stone yet#idk#slowly dawning on me that now I’m like an official adult like college is still like a medium but now I’m a big girl#it’s scary and I feel like every time I read anything about the job market it’s bad#literally my only goal is to be able to move out and rent a one bedroom apartment in a relatively safe town that allows pets that’s the#dream#I am happy but scared#rae’s rambles
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That's why the dark types in your town are so more mischiveous that normal, your family invaded their natural habitat! They want their land back! Dar, you are in a family of colonizers.
I have bad news about what every city and town had to be built over. It's all natural habitat. There wasn't somewhere magically with no pokemon where they built Castellia or Jubilife or Lumiose. They had to kick wild pokemon out for that, too.
Also, there are still wild pokemon here? I have mentioned them repeatedly. We haven't kicked any except the bad ones out. I just saw a sawsbuck on my way to school. There are pidove outside. The dratini in the river.
#pkmn irl#pokeblogging#rotumblr#//shes not a colonizor having to kick out animals is just how building incredibly large settlements like towns and cities work 😭😭😭😭😭#//its easier for a lot of wild animals to stay near a settlement when its smaller but like there is not a magical plot of land where no#//animals live ever unless ur in a wasteland#//that being said natural areas within cities sosososo good for them#//like a little forest is so good in the middle of the city for so many reasons#//whats the fucking point if you cant go see rabbits in the woods#//but like yea no it becomes harder for most wildlife to live in cities that get larger. not even as a colonization thing but in the way of#//generally if you have a lot of people and big buildings bears do want to avoid it. this was a thing even thousands of years ago#//you had a fire and a couple of guys whos job was to start screaming if a bear or lion got close and then bears and lions wouldnt come over#//massive fuck off skyscrapers and cars everywhere are also not beneficial for wildlife to enjoy themselves.#//sorry if im rambling. generally what i mean is like this just what happens when you put a town down luckys place aint special
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It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.
Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.
#BECAUSE I knew I really liked filming and editing things and doing set design and costume design (from having done little bits of that#here and there in media classes and my own stuff - i used to be a lot more into making videos than I am now). BUT I was always thinking#that a movie is WAAY to big and long. even a short film. So I was trying to think of ways I could still like#have the fun of scouting locations to film and dressing up actors and etc. etc. without it having to be a Huge Million Dollar Production#on tv show or movie level. SO then I was thinking about like... just doing commercials. Or music videos. Like shorter things where I still#get the fun of the filming and everything but it's less of an intensive long term project.#So there is an alternate version of me (I suppose if i somehow did not end up having physical and mental health issues#as badly somehow.. or like.. randomly came into wealth and was able to pay my way through a nice college despite missing#days constantly being out because I'm sick or something lol) that works in some corporate advertising office coming up with commercials#and directing or filming them or doing the sets for them or something in that general vicinity.#I also was considering being a corporate psychologist. or whatever its called.. oh from google:#''Industrial and organizational (I/O) psychologists study and assess individual group and organization dynamics in the workplace''#I don't think I even knew what the job entailed. I was at the time just thinking like.. the type of person that comes into a business offic#and gives everyone personality assessments or does MBTI or big-5 testing crap for whatever reason that some businesses get that#done for people. Really i just wanted to be in a Corporate Big Office setting yet still do psychology. Because I used to be really fixated#on living in a big city. Like the ideas of everything being walkable. picking up a coffee in the morning. walking to my job in a Big#Skyscraper Building. people watching in a huge hotel lobby for lunch. flying frequently (I love airplanes and airports aesthetically).#living in an apartment with a giant window overlooking the city. etc. etc. BUT that was before i had really BEEN to a city. Then I actually#hung around a city a few times and went places and I was like... AUGh... The Sensory Overwhelm.. cars people lights loudness noise scary#everything happening all at once. etc. etc. (though even when I wanted to live in a city i NEVER strove for the Night Life. when i say I#enjoy city imagery I mean like... in the day time. Many people who like cities talk about The Night Life and post pictures of cities all#lit up at night and clubs and dancing and restaurants. none of that EVER appealed to me. perhaps a sign I am not a real city person. Like#I am NOT standing in a crowded bar full of loud people in the middle of the night lol.. get AWAY from me!!) but I do adore the#architecture of like bright white clean sterile modern spaces like huge airport lobbies or malls or etc. I think thats what reminded me of#city and what I liked about the idea of that life. Like I always LOVED the layout of schools and hospitals and trainstations and public#transport in general. Though even then I knew enough that I would not be a good architect/city planner. so I guess my adoration for those#spaces was merely to be channeled into LIVING there. but then I realized I didn't even really want to do that that much. I mean I still#definitely aim to live NEAR a city. like the little areas outside of it. I would never live in a rural place 4 hours from anything. I liter#ally just COULDNT since I need close access to hospitals sometimes lol. But I used to want to live in the CENTER of citites like high rise#condo. and now I'm like.... eh....... perhaps a smaller quieter walkable space nearby lol.. ANYWAY.. alternate me in my Business Suit eheh
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Well ladies (gn), it might have been unexpected but funemployment isn't starting off too bad.
#I was fired! Truly unexpected and truly proof that April is not my month!#(the break-up was last April)#anyway i was not passionate about investing which is true but also stupid because they were happy with my work#they kept telling me they knew I'd be spectacular at any job I wanted but they could tell i didnt really want this one#which is vaguely true but like i enjoyed it enough. i probably would have left in about a year but#for once! i would like a few months! where do i not have to make a life changing decision!!!#I'd like to just live for a bit!!#so I'm home now going to travel going to italy going to read and write and we'll see#s narrates her life#truly April 23-24 has been like... Blow up your life 2k19 HARD MODE#and more like have your life blown up really#c'est la vie#they're paying me for six months so I cant actually complain complain#it's the sabbatical i wanted but better because im being paif#paid*#but worse because im unemployed haha
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seeing the results on that poll abt liking your job and so shocked that after unemployed, the most popular choice is mostly enjoy it?? you guys are liking your jobs???
#indeed search jobs you will like. jobs you enjoy. enjoyable jobs near me#where are these jobs. what are you doing#im sorry that i often complain and bitch about my job but well. im right#but im stll thinking like. its your job . the thing that takes you away from the things you would rather be doing#???? i think unfortunately because of working customer service for the past 5 years (oh god) straight out of high school#maybe i have a fucked up perspective on jobs. but like THEYRE JOBS. where are the enjoyable jobs i do not see them.........#im sorry im joking more abt this now im sure enjoyable jobs exist but i also kinda think thats a myth cooked up by big job#anyway. you may not have heard me say this before but i dont like working for a living very much
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resignation letter is the most potent painkiller. i love you resignation letter i love you one month notice <3
#tmi but im regular again and literally the only change is because i've been eating enough to shit daily#i was in such a bad headspace these past few months that i could barely bring myself to eat#i'd go to sleep with my work uniform still on and wake up willing myself to get up for 30 mins and then brushing my teeth and going to work#with the same clothes i slept in#i stopped hanging out with my friends. i had nightmares abt my job.#i can only take care of myself on my days' off and i cant grok anything other than shallow entertainment like wrestling#everything else is too much for my brain to handle. i'd simply forget everything i read or play or even listen to#those three months are miserable lmao#its not just my job... its also the family issues i've been dealing with#yknow remember when i said i could have died? yeah that shit was real. fuckin love it when my mom admit my dad have the capacity to be a#family annihilator. but... since my dad have a job to keep him busy and we moved to a house where me and my sister and#my mom and dad get to have our own rooms... and my dad get to live near his old friends and family...#things have been getting better. usually we had a physical fight every two months but it hasnt happened yet and i seem to get on with him#better now. so... i guess im gonna be okay. i've been so tired and trapped#stuck between two places that are both physically and emotionally draining with no reprieve#things are changing. and i find that to be comforting despite how up in the air the future might be. i might be screwed but also? what if#i'll be fine? im at a point where im accepting any drastic changes even if its for the worse#funny how i used to like my job a lot. i guess im not to be comfortable with anything long term#posts about my life
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