#i also dont drink caffiene

[alteredsu]

My F1nn5ter stuff came in 😊

[terrminallycapricious]

((sorry ever since august after hte coffee scare ive been nonstop being lightheaded and i still cant get to the doctor without being put in a worse state. ive sworn off any caffiene ever since then and tried other methods to make myself feel better and none have helped. i also nearly passed out at the renaissance fest, and twice tonight. i cant play exciting games anymore. so i have this constant light headedness and brain fog. and im lucky whe nit does go away and pass but it comes back around like clockwork. i know what i need to do (medical care wise) but my situation is so complicated .i WISH i could go to the doctor. its not about the money its about my mental state which is severe. so im sorry i do not respond well enough or stay very long. im so unwell. and i feel like im gonna die sometimes. it isnt anxiety or fluids or noneo f that. if that was it id be better by now. this is CAUSING my severe anxiety though thats for sure. ))

[hyah-lian]

hmmmh I was trying to like. Be very online and do a big art challenge thingy but the Yearly Existential Dread/Weird Complicated Feelings are kind of grabbing me and shaking me like a floppy doll

[altruistic-meme]

just sitting here, crocheting, suddenly wondering why im full of anxious energy and why im vibrating out of my skin. forgot that i took the Caffiene Medicine earlier (midol) jskdkakf it dawned on me and im like OH RIGHT YEAH that'd do it

[master-gatherer]

soooo i gotta know more about your oc alex after you mentioned him on that terrible daily routine post lmao

So I tried to copy the link for my "Alex Penguino" tag, but I'm currently on mobile so it's not letting me ���� but that is my OC, Alex

If it's not apparent by the name, he is a penguin. He is also insane. He and his little group are just some silly little characters my bf and I play around with sometimes. We were writing little 6-panel comics with those guys for a while, but then we moved and all my art making stuff was packed up for a bit and I just haven't really gotten back to drawing them (even though bf has some scripts written up).

Anyway if I do post something and tag it as Alex it's important to know I'm talking about this guy:

[autumnoakes]

did some biochem homework, realized that arguing with my tablet was what was draining my braincells and not the assignment itself and i got over those reblogs. things are just better when i don't go online genuinely

[cpunkbubby]

"Feeling achy and flu-like with muscle pain or back pain, or having an upset stomach are also common caffeine withdrawal symptoms, although they may go less noticed and less frequently reported." WHAAT TH EHELL.

[gemharvest]

FINALLY.

FUCK the cruise bubble is such a pain in the ass to steer.

[tea-and-secrets]

i sometimes worry im pregnant despite the tests coming out as negative and bleeding monthly and not getting any for a while. i would be a terrible parent i have so many mental issues and it runs in the family i dont want to pass that on through nature or nurture

i also drink a lot of coffee and i don't think that would be good for a potential developing fetus.. it's frusterating too, i looked into what happens with caffiene and why it's bad for the fetus and just.. no fuckin answer. none at all. just a "dont do it" and "it'll effect the brain" okay.. how does it effect the brain? "... dont do it it effects the brain"

ARRRGH

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[nullbutler]

interesting things I have learned on the job:

manhattan clam chowder and regular clam chowder are not the same. mostly because the manhattan clam chodder has so much tomatoes in it it makes you go "hey dude i thought we were supposed to have clam chowder today, why did you make vegetable soup"

cream of x is the stuff of legends and its sooooooo easy to eat the right amount of vegetables if its dipped in a sinful amount of butter and cheese

boston cream pies are cakes having an identity crisis. no one from boston actually likes them

green tea has slightly less caffiene than black tea, but unless its uncaffinated, it will still have a minor amount! it also makes you cramp when youre on your period!

caffiene can have a calming effect on some people with ADHD and anxiety disorders (case in point: me)

black tea tastes like basic ass boba tea if warm minus the boba, but that taste is ruined the moment you add sweeteners, then it becomes a very very very underwhelming latté

small portions of applesauce can remedy a stomachache

bread makes you feel fuller longer

similarly you dont have to piss right after you drink water if you drink water on a full stomach

baked potatoes taste good. as in. potato and spoon and maybe butter. like a victorain peasant

[namelessdeceased]

.🕰 D-6 ✧ tue ✧ 17.9.24 ✧ sawc day 48

akfnowjwkdnfiek ok i guess? went alright. had to do a painstaking recording for music and realised i barely sing anymore i have no more guts i am insecure about that specifically i used to be super proud and after i stopped nope. nada. BUT ALSO UPDATES ON DND i was asking a few of my irls but they dont want to play so i mean. i dunno. im only digging this rabbit hole deeper tho i am running on excitement for my exams to be over and caffienated drinks. also my dad got me this sick weighted blanket yesterday which is CRAZY but im sleeping well!

.🦇 academic

chinese PP2

science PP 2023

create flashcards for chinese (词语成语 for EOY)

MM2 T9, T10 corrections

maybe MM2 T11 corrections

.🦗 personal

plan today + tmr

studylog post

shower

fill in some details for new solace

.☕ sawc

sleep: 5h?

routine: night

focus: 1.5h

body: shower + walk

read: c&p

.📜 goal productivity: 4h?

.🌙 01 00

.☀ 06 00

.♬ ~ jacket over hoodie over shirt 〢 marco azriel

.🤎 positivityposting

take a rest okay? sometimes all you need is to be alone for a while.

good afternoon!

╰ theo 🪐

[weevilsart]

MASSIVE CW: Vent, suicide mentioned, Drug and alcohol addiction, Caffiene addiction, Accidental Overdose, child abuse mentioned, mental health neglect, medical malpractice, mental hospitalization, police brutality, prison mentioned, AND THIS IS A VERY POLITICAL POST (FAR LEFTISM (I am a anarchocommunist)) PLEASE ASK ME TO ADD MORE CW IF NEEDED,

It really bothers me how I will never relate to or feel nostalgic to late 2000s to early 2010s post about elementary school.. I see picture of the inside of buses, school activities, and all of that, I can’t relate to any of it.. I didn’t go to elementary school and I only did 2 months of 7th grade and 1 week as a freshman and 1 fucking day as a sophomore, the rest of my schooling was at alternative schools that sucked and homeschooling which I can’t remember most of it cause at the time I was still actively being abused, I see my three youngest siblings and how they are still in school, how they got to learn and have friends, and I have none of that.. my two older siblings also have been to and completed high school, I have nothing.. I was too autistic and weird and mentally Ill to have done anything, I had been hospitalized twice and fucking spent my whole summer of 2018 (my last year in my home state) in a fucking residential program that said they were duel diagnosis BUT THEY ONLY FOCUSED ON THE KIDS THERE THAT HAD DRUG AND ALCHOL ADDICTIONS AND THEY COMPLETELY IGNORED MY CAFFEINE ADDICTION AND DOWNPLAYED IT SO MUCH THAT I GAVE UP ON QUITING they had FORCED me go to NA, MA, and AA meetings WHEN I DIDNT HAVE TO GO and they ignored my mental health, I LITERALLY HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH SCHIZOAFFECTIVE DISORDER SINCE I WAS FUCKING 4 YEARS OLD AND IT TOOK 17 FUCKING YEARS TO GET A DIAGNOSIS CAUSE NO ONE WANTED TO DIAGNOSE A CHILD AND CAUSE OF THAT I WASNT ON ANTIPSYCHOTICS INTIL I WAS FUCKING 18!!!!! I WAS IN CONSTANT PSYCHOSIS AND I WAS PARANOID ALL THE FUCKING TIME AND I COULDNT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!! AND MY AUTISM AND ADHD WERE NEGLECTED CAUSE MY PARENT WERE TOO FOCUSED ON MY MENTAL ILLNESS AND MY TWO BROTHERS WHO WERE DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM EARLY ON!!! I WAS DIAGNOSED AT 12 AND THEY DIDNT TELL ME INTIL I WAS 15!!!! I WAS CONSTANTLY DRINKING ENERGY DRINKS SO MANY IN A FUCKING DAY THAT I FUCKING OVERDOSED AND WAS UP FOR 3 WHOLE FUCKING DAYS AND MY MOM STILL DIDNT TAKE ME TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL AND I WAS DOING ALL THAT TO SELF MEDICATE MY ADHD AND I DIDNT GET PUT ONTO STIMULENTS INTIL I WAS 18 AND THEN MY PSYCH TOOK ME OFF CAUSE I DIDNT DO WHAT SHE TOLD ME TO AND I SPENT MONTHS TRYING TO GET A NEW PSYCHIATRIST AND WHEN I DID SHE PUT ME BACK ON THEM WITH NO STIPULATIONS CAUSE ITS FUCKED UP TO DO THAT!!!!AND I MISSED THE LAST 4 APPOINTMENTS WITH HER CAUSE THEY ARE ONLINE ONLY APPOINTMENTS AND I HAVE MEMORY FUCKNG ISSUES CAUSE OF LONG FUCKING COVID SO NOW IVE RUN OUT OF MY FUCKING RITALIN AND I HAVE TO SELF MEDICATE WITH ENERGY DRINKS TO FUNCTION PROPERLY BUT I HAVE A FUCKING HEART CONDITION AND SO NOW MY HEART RATE IS HIGHER THAN AVERAGE (USUALLY ITS 100 AND NOW ITS BEEN AROUND 150) CAUSE I DONT HAVE PROPER STIMULENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK THE MENTAL AND MEDICAL HEALTH CARE SYSTEM IN THE FUCKING UNITED STATES OF FASCISM CAUSE NOW I HAVE FUCKED UP TEETH AND CAUSE I CANT GET THEM FUCKING FIXEX CAUSD I DONT HAVE FUCKING DENTAL INSURANCE CAUSE MY STATE INSURANCE DOSENT COVER DENTAL OR OPTICAL AND GUESS WHAT? BLINDNESS RUNS IN MY FAMILY AND MY VISION HAS BEEN SLOWLY DETERIORATING AND I JUST HAD TO PAY 80$ FUCKING DOLLARS TO SEE AN OPTRISTION AND I ONLY RECEIVED 628$ A MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK THE SYSTEM FUCK CAPITALISM FUCK CHRISTOFASCISM FUCK THE GOVERNMENT FUCK COPS FUCK THE PRISON INDUSTRIAL COMPLEX FUCK THE MILITARY INDUSTRIAL COMPLEX FUCK IT ALL

I AM FULL OF SO MUCH FUCKING RAGE I SWEAR I COULD TAKE ON THE WHOLE POLICE FORCE HERE BUT I KNOW I CANT AND THAT IT JUST BE POLICE ASSISTED SUICIDE!!!!!!!

[cgi-heart-eyes]

GUYSAN IM LITERESYLLY SO AWAKE RN. I HAD TWO ENERGSY DRINKS AT THE CONSERT I WENT TO. ALSO CAFFIENS MADKD MY HAND TREMORS WORSE SO DONT PAWY ATTENTION TO SPELLONG…

[hyah-lian]

I lost the odds at the energy drink gamble earlier (drank one, made me sp sleeby)

So im doubling down and hoping THIS one wakes me up

[lyubochka]

soft asks by sunnysideanon

i treat ask games like surveys, we all know this.

what song makes you feel better?

who listens to music to feel better?

what’s your feel-good movie?

i dont watch movies qwq im sorry these are rough answers

what’s your favorite candle scent?

i usually like winter fruit smells. so plums, pomegranates, grape, deep and rummy sorta scents. i also like rich sweet ones, resin-y smells. i like a nice light floral mix (iris, jasmine, lily, rose) on cleaning days.

what flower would you like to be given?

lillies. any lillies, but i like madonna lillies

who do you feel most you around?

my partner system, but specifically trent. he is me, and ive never felt it more than when we're together. my brothers are a close second.

say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical)

i have gold rings around my pupils i just noticed the other day. they're gorgeous and i have no idea where i got them from genetically-- maybe my mother. she has gold in her green eyes. i'm glad i got something from her eyes, i'm jealous of them. i have insanely enviable hair. my nails are elegant... also enviable. im wicked talented and sharp, nobody can create the way i can-- BITCH???? ok one of my favorite songs paused randomly that was a whole experience. answer cancelled next question

what color brings you peace?

pale green. this isn't bad, though.

what calms you down?

being alone in my own space. writing music/poetry. having a clean space. music-- hey, i guess that first question was onto smth

what’s something you’re excited for?

grocery run tomorrow, haircut sometime this week. yay.

what’s your ideal date?

taking turns spitting vodka into each others mouths and banging our skulls together til we pass out

how are you?

im fine! a lot of excess energy strangely which is funny b/c i haven't had any caffiene today. that reminds me i need to add energy drinks to my grocery list. eeeeeeee also feeling sappy. in love. so in love hehe

what’s your comfort food?

probably any kind of salad theyre very safe foods

favorite feel-good show?

i dont dream of watching televi-- interview with the vampire.

fairy lights or LED lights?

fairy lights. LED lights make me anxious to look at but now Everyone has them so what do i know

do you still love stuffed animals?

yes.

most important thing in your life?

myself, but secondly, my fiance.

what do you want most in the world right now?

a kiss.

if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

don't smoke cigarettes and don't tell that girl everything.

what would you say to your future self?

keep doing it, even if it's uncomfortable. trust your gut, not your body.

favorite piece of clothing?

my black turtleneck or my fur coat.

what’s something you do to de-stress?

bounce and moan on it

what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

moneyyyy!!! oh, personal. money from their personal bank account!!! (a card. i collect those.)

what movie would you want to live in?

childs play. id fuck that doll and save the little boy JFIOWEJFE

which character would you want to be?

... oh myself isnt an option ok. then id wanna be in clueless and be cher. id like to be rich

hugs or hand-holding?

hugs. i need my hands for other things but i can be hugged forever

morning, afternoon or night?

ALL OF THEM ALL OF THE TIME

what reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)?

horses, dirt roads, hotel rooms, cigarette smoke.

[ofpine]

yes yes yes i live in a rural wood area now so theres no lawns but its pretty barren on its own in the shady places other than a little bit of wild grass and vines (which is great and ill leave those alone ofc) so im planning to get seeds of weeds and shrubs native to east texas. there are already just a few american beautyberry bushes so ill propagate those and spread them. im gonna plant some woodsorrel, chickweed, clovers, dandelion, and cleavers too (all used to grow in my old yard a few hours away) and ✨️YAUPON✨️ theres almost none on my property right now but i wanna grow it cause its beautiful, native, an edible caffienated plant that the deer also munch on when other food sources are scarce. oh how i miss it 💜 ill also look into some other native plants that flower a lot so that itll help the pollinators. since its so bare in most of the property deer dont really hang out here they kinda just pass through, maybe munch on some plants in the sunny spots but thats it. i really hope bringing in a little more biodiversity will attract some more wildlife. ill probably also make a little pond by my house for animals to drink some. i really wanna make the area a safe haven for them

i need y'all to steal and repost my anti-lawn memes to as many pinterest boards and facebook pages as possible