#i actuslly do appreciate it

[kissucrose]

no because now i need to actually talk about it like. i love every pokémon game pokémon has been such a dear thing to me since BIRTH literally i came out the womb w a pikachu ive loved pokémon for as long back as i can remember. but no game has ever done it for me like POKÉMON VIOLET DUDE the last pokémon game i can genuinely admit to being invested in like i was with violet was LETS GO PIKACHU and let’s be so fr it ain’t even have a real narrative storyline like violet like this was a real EXPERIENCE and i would do anything to play that for the first time again

[milfygerard]

hey does anyone here actually use ground news and have any thoughts on how it works? Are there other news aggregates I should look at or should I just download all the news apps?

[viridian-artist]

Okay I don't wanna be rude or anything rkght-? But I'm very new to the selfship community, I mean I've always selfshipped bit I didn't know there was a COMMUNITY yknow

Anyways whenever I selfshipped I never saw them as mine or anything or actuslly as my partner it was always just haha and wishful thinking, but when I joined that selfship community I saw stuff about sharing

Which I've never ever seen before. Then I looked at some people's accounts and realized they were referring to their f/o's as their boyfriends and girlfriends etc

So basically, do people actuslly get upset that other people selfship with someone they selfship

Like does it ACTUALLY affect their mental health

Bc for me they were never MINE they were js a character I was into. But then it gets kinda more concerning when it's not just Hobie brown or Alistor or Husk. Fictional characters aren't as concerning. But when it comes to real people, like Rendog or Joel or Grian can you really call them yours? These are REAL people mind you and they don't belong to anyone.

Anyways, I'm just hoping you can explain you're thought process or something,I hope this wasn't rude

First off, who said anyone here was selfshipping with IRL Rendog, Grian, or whoever else? As shown in the screenshot below of my PINNED POST::

I've personally only ever selfshipped with CHARACTER Rendog, hence the "c!" part in front of his name. I know there are people that purely see the cubito as the content creator, yet I am of the group that places a separation between the two. I love the content creator, don't get me wrong, but I ONLY selfship with the silly dog hybrid character he plays on the silly Minecraft server.

Secondly, yes. It can absolutely affect someone's mental health. I am not ashamed of admitting that I can get very upset by it, yet I'm working on it. I acknowledge it's not the healthiest thing in the world to be so heavily attached to a fictional character.

That said, it's not like I willingly act this way. I'm not going into the nitty gritty of WHY I'm so attached to cRendog other than saying that it's a mix of me having formally found Ren (the content creator) and his Hermitcraft Season 9 POV shortly after escaping a toxic/abusive relationship and seeking comfort as well as stress from having battled medical issues last year. I say formally because I knew who he was due to the Life/Traffic series, but I never quite got around to watching UNTIL Hermitcraft Season 9.

I personally view cRendog as my boyfriend. Not in a serious way, of course, but rather I find comfort in that. Even then, it's the specific version of cRendog that I've gradually changed? Nothing drastic or heavily different. The cRendog I selfship with is a mix of the one we see on Hermitcraft with some headcanons, as seen below::

The cRendog I personally selfship with is a fat transmasc bigender dog hybrid with a tooth gap, paints his nails, and (now) has grey hairs mixed in with his long brown hair.

There's more shifts and adjustments to his personality and mannerisms that I won't go into here (as it's not entirely relevant other than they exist). These changes exist because I've spent so much of my personal time drawing art and writing and simply talking about the relationship he'd have with my Hermitsona/self insert.

He may not be real, instead lines on a page and pixels on a screen, but it's what he REPRESENTS that affects me. I care deeply for him and genuinely appreciate what he's done for me as a comfort character. I refer to him less as a comfort character and more like a boyfriend, simply because to me? It simply suits the situation more.

Overall, I can't speak for others and how they selfship or how it affects them. Nor do I intend to speak for them. This is how it is for me with cRendog. Again, you're not being rude, and I don't mind answering further questions.

[onyx-void]

Answer 1 through 50

Okay. You called my bluff. (ok not really a bluff, tbh, thank you I appreciate you) Unfortunately, we're having an internet outage where I live, so this is gonna take a while. Also, I have to do this on the webpage, on my phone, cause otherwise I can't have an 'under the cut.'

1. Do you have a crush on anyone?

I suppose you could call it a crush. That's one layer to how I feel. Like an onion :p

2. What's your favorite candy?

Ferror Roche, or however you spell it, Unless it's a holiday, then I Love those chocolate covered marshmallow treats. 

3. Favorite love song? 

I don't really listen to music much, tbh, love songs included. The first one to come to mind is "Love Story" by Taylor Swift. My favorite when I actually think about it has to be "You Are My Sunshine" by Johnny Cash. 

4. What was your first kiss like?

My first kiss. I had my first kiss last year, actually, at the same age I am now, 22. That was my first date, too, such as it was during a pandemic. I hadn't -still haven't, I guess- had many 'first's.' It was awkward, but nice. Chaste, to start. 

5. What was your last kiss like? 

My last kiss, was a goodbye.

6. Sexual/romantic orientation?

I'm reasonably sure I'm straight, heteroromantic. I've questioned all my orientations several times over the years, but nothing seems to fit as well as that does.

7. Do you prefer poems or love letters?

I would be over the moon to get either. I've written a few poems, though they weren't For anyone. I would prefer love letters, though. Poems can wax and wain to the individuals interpretation, but love letters can declare for all to see. 

8. Favorite fanfic trope?

God, I'm Super self-indulgent with my fanfic. I love Mary Sue's, fix-it, time travel, amnesia, self-insert. I want everything to be okay, and for the main character to be able to have at least some idea of what challenges they'll face. 

9. Have you ever been in love?

Have been, still am.

10. Favorite milkshake flavor?

Strawberry. Also favorite ice cream flavor. Chocolate's fine, but strawberry Hagen Daaz is The Best. (tbh it's also a sorta reference to my fav character/anime, Ryougi Shiki from Kara no Kyoukai. It's also just damn good ice cream tho

11. Dinner dates or Brunch dates?

Dinner dates could be a great end to the day, but brunch date leaves the possibility for a full day together to look forward to, so I'll go with that.

12. Favorite flowers?

Sunflowers. Though lilacs are nice too.

13. Favorite perfume/cologne?

I've used a vanilla sugar scent in the past? Don't use or have others use it enough to have a favorite.

14. Favorite candle scent?

I got a pack of incense a while back, a dozen different scents. I think my favorite is called Celestial. It's smells like... lavender and petrichor and stardust, I suppose.

15. What's your ideal first date? 

Ideal, so everything's perfect. Hiking in the woods, a mountainous area, lots of ups and downs and winding paths and beautiful colors and views. We come to a clearing, and a picnic I've prearranged is already set up next to a glittering lake. We sit, and eat, and talk. 

16. What's your favorite love story?

Just the other day, I was finally able to watch The Princess Bride. I absolutely loved it. 

17. What's the most attractive thing a person could wear? 

Easy. One of my shirts, and that's all that's visible. Could they be wearing something underneath it? Maybe. But you can't be sure, unless they show you one way or another  It's a sort of, are they aren't they thing. That said, it works for just about anything where you can't tell if they're wearing short shorts or something, but it works best if it's something more casual than a dress, like a oversized hoodie or shirt. 

18. Chocolate, vanilla, or red velvet?

Chocolate. Vanillas alright, red velvets gross.

19. Snow, rain, or sun? 

God, we just got snow here that Actually Lasted All Day. That's a miracle tbh. I absolutely love it. 

20. Sweetest romantic memory?

We were swinging at the local park, just talking. And I looked over, and the sun was shining through the trees onto the face of an angel. I could have spent eternity in that moment.

21. Favorite dating sim? (And favorite character?)

The only dating sims I know are yandere dating sim, and hautiful boyfriend. Favorite character in general is Ryougi Shiki

22. Fictional crushes?

...Ryougi Shiki...

23. What's your dream wedding like?

It's a small affair, outside, in our backyard on our plant of land, amongst the orchards and vegetable gardens. There's a living arch made of roses I've been growing in secret in preparation, and the bride's bouquet is made from cuttings we took on the spot. The sun is shining, everyone's full of joy, and our love is sure. 

24. What makes you blush?

Sincere expressions of love, or even just Being Known. If you say you care for me I Will Melt and that is a Threat.

25. Do you believe in love at first sight? 

I have to. I can't disregard my own experiences. That said, it's important to say that love is also something you work towards, together, day in and day out. It's not always hard work, it might not even seem like work, but it's an active thing. 

26. Do you believe in soulmates?

I think there are several people you can meet over the course of your life you can call a soulmate. 

27. Denim jackets, leather jackets, or bomber jackets?

Leather jackets cause I live in Texas. Otherwise, bomber jackets.

28. What's your sign?

Taurus. Lmk if you want my complete chart from that star app.

29. Are you single?

Unfortunately.

30. Do you prefer to charm, or be charmed?

I think I'm quite charming, I'd definitely say I'm in touch with people, though my execution probably leaves something to be desired. That said, I Love to be charmed. Tell me you like me, tell me I'm wanted. Hell yeah.

31. Guitar or piano?

Piano. Love the classics. I was actually looking at how much pan flutes cost just the other day. 

32. Favorite romcom? (Or any romantic movie?)

Once again going with The Princess Bride here.

33. Do you fall in love easily?

Far too easily, I'm afraid. Show your interest in me, and you'll catch mine in you. Doesn't happen very often, though. And if it's just something like a dating profile, I'm far pickier. 

34. Valentine's decorations, yay or nay?

If it's something personal, absolutely. As long as it has meaning, it's worth it. Even if the holiday itself is just to sell cards. 

35. Would you like to propose, or be proposed to? What's your dream proposal?

I would propose, after it's been made mutually clear and discussed we're both up for it. As a kid I dreamed about proposing on one of those boat rides under Niagara Falls. Now, I think it'd be during a hike, on an overlooking cliff, basically like my ideal first date, actually. That, or somewhere personal to the two of us. 

36. Cloud gazing or star gazing?

Star gazing, definitely. Out under the stars, looking up and sneaking glances at each other. Telling stories and making up constellations. What's not to love?

37. Do you like to dance?

Oooh, no. I've never danced, not really the social dancing type. Never really took the opportunity too.

38. What's your OTP?

....Ryougi Shiki and Mikiya Kokuto

39. Kittens or puppies?

You're gonna make me CHOOSE?! ...puppies, because they're more lively and willing to interact with me, generally speaking. 

40. Coffee, hot chocolate, or tea?

Hot chocolate. Never got into coffee, I want to like hot tea, but eh. Iced tea is good tho y'all. 

41. Favorite soda?

God as a kid I Devoured grape Crush soda. Like. 24 cans a week. Mainly drink juice nowadays. Or choccy milk

42. Do you prefer gazing wistfully out the window or lying dramatically on the sofa?

Window, definitely. Light as well have a view if I've gotta be dramatic, right?

43. Favorite ABBA song?

"Take a Chance on Me" followed shortly by "Dancing Queen"

44. Fuck/Marry/Kill?

You didn't name anyone, so... Fuck Lauren German (I've been watching Lucifer) Marry the one I love, and kill, idk, Trump?

45. Favorite pajamas?

For myself? They're fleece, I think. Usually I just sleep in my boxers tho. For my theoretical partner? How about my boxers ;)

46. Favorite liquor?

I've never had any alcohol, and I don't really intend to.

47. Do you think about love alot?

Every day. It's what drives me.

48. A walk in the park or a walk on the beach?

Walk in the park. More cover ;)

49. Hand kisses or nose kisses?

How about a hand kiss going up the arm, slowly, sensually, all the way up the arm, to the shoulder, taking a stop on the side of the neck, and right before it gets to the lips... Nose kisses.

50. What's your dreamhouse?

It's in a mountainous area. On at least 5 acres. Plenty of woods with trails in them, bordering a national park. On my land, there's an orchard of fruit trees, and greenhouses with herbs and vegetables. The house itself is actually japanese inspired. There's an outdoor garden you can access after coming through the entrance. The bedroom door is a sliding one, through a shortened circular opening. The whole thing gives off a cozy feeling. The love of my life has made their presence known in every room of the house.

[othercrossee]

Wouldn't it be funny if

[tigerdrop]

bruh after you vented [is that the right word for it?] or talked about how you felt in the now deleted tumblr posts for some reason i stopped getting notifs from you? [i have notifications for you turned on] so i was getting really worried and when i went to your profile it said something like ,,uh oh we cant find that blog/user'' or whatever the fuck tumblr says when a blog js gone. it would do that or just continously load with no end, but every other profile i looked at was loading fine. and i was actuslly pretty panicked but then i got a notif for you posting and it was the ,,sorry for the mental illness'' one, i think my tumblr like. banished you to the void for jus speaking your mind bro. or you temporarily left it? sorry for the long ask i jus thought it was strange and i literally have no idea what to do with that information other than tell you about it so yeah hope youre doing well dude, i know that we dont know each other or anythin like that but i still wish you well cause your posts and cooperative game theory keeps me goin and youre just 𝔰𝔬 𝔠𝔬𝔬𝔩 okay bye thank you

i appreciate the thought but like if i ever do stop posting or delete or whatever please dont panic lol. im just some guy online. theres dozens of us

but that said.....thank u for the kind words. i have a pretty severe mood disorder and i make a lot of bad posts when im on a downswing and then later i get embarrassed when i remember that over a thousand fucking people are watching me melt down. i dont know if i got shadowbanned or what but that is weird and i am fine now. i have a lot of complicated feelings about Being An Artist and sometimes the bad ones come out but i am always glad to hear that my work means somethin to somebody

[halo-jpeg]

👀 I had an idea, what would happen if slashers had an S/O who was the relative of another slasher? Like maybe they’re the child of, sibling of, cousin of, etc.

Slashers with an S/O whos a Relative of Another Slasher

Bubba Sawyer

Bubba would be so happy that you have killers blood in you! It reassures him that you won’t judge his family for their work.

He’s also happy because this means your family won’t judge them either.

The Sawyers will want to meet your family, and will offer to have them for dinner quite frequently.

Bubba will want to learn from your family all about their killing techniques and anything similar. He’s curious as to how other killers live their lives.

Your families will be best friends! ChopTop and Nubbins are constantly comparing their kills and skills to those of your siblings, and Drayton is always talking with your father about how much work the killing business is.

Overall, Bubba is honoured to be one half of the marriage bonding the two killer families together.

Danny ‘Jed Olsen’ Johnson

The moment Danny finds out you’re relatives of some other slasher he’s bursting with excitement.

Why hadn’t you told him before?? He wants to meet them now, more than anything else. He’s so curious about what they think of him!

He’ll want to know everything about their technique and how they first got into the killing business.

He’ll be the super uncle, teaching the younger kids in your family everything they need to know about stealth and fame and efficient killing.

No matter how many times he meets your family he’ll always have stars in his eyes. He’ll idolize them forever and always.

If any of his nieces or nephews look up to him he’ll actually cry. Not even joking. Tears. And lots of them.

Leslie Vernon

Oh, perfect! He feels so much more comfortable with the idea of getting to know your family now. He’s only ever befriended other killers before, so this is a huge reassurance.

He wants to study them! He might get a little annoying, and he has no sense of personal space, but his research must be conducted.

He’ll ask some of your relatives if they want in on any of his hunts, or if he can have front row seats to theirs. He’s so curious as to what he can do to improve.

You’ll never stop hearing the question “when can we see your family again?” Hes never had his own, at least not for a long, long time, so he actuslly grows very close to yours, not just because they’re slashers too.

He’s one of the less recognizable slashers, so if your family holds a big name he’ll F R E A K

Michael Myers

N o

Michael doesn’t like competition, so he’s partially intimidated and partially defensive. He won’t like your family very much, at least at first.

He expected to meet someone hostile towards him, either that or afraid. He’s slightly less hostile himself when your family greets him with open arms.

He appreciates that he can wear his mask around them without judgement. It makes the entire situation much less stressful.

God forbid there are little kids around. He hates little kids, but only because they’re so loud. One trick- if the kids are calm, he’ll tolerate them. And maybe he’ll even get attached to them.

After plenty of getting used to, he’ll click in with your family and he’ll actually feel quite comfortable, giving his own tips and looking after everyone as if they were his real family.

[jrwiyuri]

Okay okay okay, time for self indulgence:

If I was in the Dream smp!

Overal personality: LOUD! So loud, almost always in a vc and wants to talk to people cause being alone is awkward. Very encouraging, will love (almost) whatever you do! *queer joke* *n word pass joke (is that allowed on twitch? If so :))*

My character: I am fundy except morally good. Also anxiety✨

Inventory: it’s always very clean & empty besides my necessary tools. I also keep a map cause I get lost

Political stance: Probably similar to Ranboo. I have a stance towards both Lmanburg and Anarchy. I’m more focoused in taking Dream down, believing that will finally bring peace.

Some (not all cause I’d be too long) character friendship:

Fundy - He probably slightly appreciate me cause he’s constantly looking for validation which is give him, also I can be there when ranboo isn’t to do stuff for him! I am the replacement helper :)

Ranboo - We vibe! Much chill, I probably encourage him to stand up for himself more. We both relate on not being able to remember shit. I probably ask about important dates and ranboo looks through his book lmao.

Tommy - I’d be chill but as soon as he tries to be rude I will not hesitate to say shit back. We are on equal grounds and he will drop his ego to know that if I have to force him to ❤️ ( *makes fun of his cobble towers* )

Dream - Hated, very PUBLIC hated. God I’d talk SO MUCH shut about him right next to him and he can’t do shit cause I’d never actually attack I’m (im shit at pvp and also a baby). Of course though if he hurt one of my friends I’d absolutely beat him.

Techno - I don’t bother him, he doesn’t bother me. I’ll help him if he asks, but I make it known that I still support Lmanburg. I just don’t hate him.

Niki - Very shy, what the hell she’s so nice. I probably go to her flower shop n buy all the flowers even though like.. I can get them anywhere.

Eret - we’ve talked once. It’d be chill as hell. Many queer jokes. Both use all pronouns we have so much in common. I’d probably be helping them build or something 😌

Where I live & go most often?

I probably have a small official house in L’Manburg for the aesthetic and so I can legally be part of Lmanburg, BUT- I’m extra so I’d have another big base. Probably wouldn’t even use it much because I think I’d stays near Lmanburg for the most part but I mean, it’s cool.

My house would have so many animals it’s insane. The reason I’d use my other base is just so I can keep more animals because 👉👈

I refuse to go near that damn egg no matter WHAT. Unless my best friend is in there dying then I refuse to go down, no matter how much protection is given.

I would also probably get lost easily so I’d keep a map on me lmao-

Roleplay skills? -

I might not have the best roleplay skills, but I WILL speak from the heart of my charcater. I will cry on command if I must, I don’t care. Not even a main character but you bet ima get into the animatics for these smooth ass lines 😌

My content? -

I don’t actually stream but uh.. I’d probably build! Just build a lot, make the smp actuslly fucking pretty. Work a lot to get different materials n shit, all that jazz.

[bnasheee]

Kind of tired of stupid ass antikin spreading lies and thinking their reasoning makes any sense tbh. Nobody is claiming that fanart was made specifically for us and only for us. Nobody is stealing art. We are appreciating it and it makes a lot of us happy, but maybe you should turn your misplaced fucking outrage on people who are actuslly doing what you THINK otherkin are doing.

There are real art thieves out there that you people don't even bat a fucking eye at. Grow some brain cells and go after the people who are actuslly harming artists instead of just attacking w group you don't understand.

By the way, if you actually pay fucking attention, otherkin isn't a fucking Tumblr thing. I wish you people would get your heads out of your asses.

[ghoulishnightmare]

It's going to be mother's day soon.

It's gonna be 2 years without you mom, I haven't been able go process my grief. Too many bad things have gotten in the way. I wanna heal but i can't im stuck and i don't know how to move on. There's so much missing in me i think I've given away all that i had. How do you live a life? Im full of regret.

I should have loved you sooner. You're the only love thst i know but youre gone now and i dont think i will ever be loved again. I do not know how to love.

It's 4 am but i can pretend for a split second that its only 10 and you're in the other room watching TV. I wish i appreciated life more.

I try to find comfort all the time but i never get to feel it. Action to reaction but instead i am numb. All i want is for a second where I feel safe because i dont feel thst way and i dont think i ever will.

This house isnt a home anymore. Im so sorry.

I wish i could just have one day where i can see you happy, where were having a meal together, watching one if those tv shows you actually liked with me, taking melody for a walk, back when i actuslly had a family. I don't have a family anymore, mom. Im sorry, it was my fault. I pushed them all away.

I don't feel alive.

[xserpentlife]

It’s fanfic writers appreciation day I just wanna give a big thank you to all the writers out there who provide the great fics for all of us including myself to read. I love writing myself and I know all these writers do as well.

I wanna give a shoutout to my girl @wayward-river she was the first friend I made on here and I coukd say we are super close now, she is one of my favorite peope from this size and she writes such good fics so please please please go check her out

@cherysbombshell took a break and got some hate for it but I know she is gonna come back as strong as ever becuase she loves writing and this community so please show her some love

@amazingphanisnotonfire-imagines makes amazing stories and has been putting out some great content lately so check her out as well. She is so sweet and makes you feel so welcome when you talk her her. She also takes pretty much any request under the sun and writes them so so well.

@theangriestpea what can I say about her well she is beyond sweet. Her oc’s that she thinks of never fail to amaze me. Each and every character she creates is so carefully thoigh out and every detail is so well written that you feel like you are emersed in whatever story she is telling

@whenallsaidanddone I met her through @wayward-river actuslly and she is one of the sweetest people I have come across. She is a great writer who is just starting out with her sweet pea fic so go check that out as well

Also to all the writers I did not mention please don’t be sad I know I missed so many of you, but if I wrote about everyone well I’d be here for weeks cause we all know I like to ramble. Anyway, you are wllcincredible and if I didn’t mention you we Probsbly don’t talk or my brain just had a fart cause I csnt remeber shit ever so know that I care so deeply for all of you and please never stop writing and doing what you love because each and everyone of you is special for so many reason.

[quixotic-quetzalcoatl]

how do you think allura would have reacted if when lotor said he was fine after zarkon's death he started to cry and then sob

I hope you don’t mind if I go on a tangent first. (You’re not afraid to hypothesize about ooc scenarios which I appreciate greatly as thought exercises) The reason Lotor doesn’t cry in the entire series is because he was beaten every time he did cry as a child. Crying is a weakness and he would have been severely punished for it. It’s why we don’t see him crying for Ven’tar or her people. I state it as if it is a fact, but I’m quite certain about my interpretation of it. (Abusers hate crying. You don’t even have to be Zarkon to beat up a crying kid for crying. People do it.) By the time he met Allura, he had built so many walls around himself that he would never reveal ‘weakness’ by crying in front of her. The only time we see him ever make himself vulnerable to anyone in terms of emotion is to Ven’tar, and that was simply telling her how he felt. Lotor would have had no tears like Alucard did bc his upbringing was different. I personally think he expected to feel relief after killing his father, but was dismayed by the fact that all he felt was emptiness. So with all that said, how would Allura react if Lotor was ooc and crying? I think is going to be long… apologies for that. 

In S1, we see her insult Lance’s ears. When he takes deep offence to that, covering his ears in shame, adopting a hurt expression, and defending himself by saying “there’s nothing wrong with them, they heard just what you said,” a normal person would have apologized for that. Allura cannot recognize that she has hurt him and ploughs right along. 

When she calls the paladins “lazy lumps” for taking a water break, her inability to recognize that fatigue adversely affects judgement and critical thinking, and lack of compassion and refusal to acknowledge their needs again betrays a severe lack of empathy. A normal person would have said, “ sorry, I know I’ve been under a lot of stress from Zarkon,” etc, etc… but she never acknowledges it. To me this implies again an inability to recognize and acknowledge the needs of others.

Let’s look at the way she treats Pidge when she reveals she wants to leave Voltron and search for her missing family. “But we cannot form Voltron without you.” (Sth like that). Uh, yes you can. You just need to find another pilot. But she DOESNT tell her that crucial piece of information. She strings her along and tries to guilt trip her into staying, completely ignoring Pidge’s autonomy as a person, and her agency to make her own decisions in participating in a war that she as an underage minor, shouldn’t be fighting in, in the first place. 

The most telling aspect of a person’s character is how they treat animals. (She’s nice to the mice, but they think and reason like humanoids so I think it’s different). Look at how she yelled at Kosmo. When a kid or a pet is doing something undesirable, you’re not supposed to yell st them right off the bat. You reprimand gently. But she hit the ground running by yelling at him, and followed up with a threat. She threatened Keith’s Wolf. And even after Keith said his wolf was lonely, she didn’t care. She didn’t try to be nice to it. She wanted it off her ship. 

Ok, so back to how she would view Lotor’s crying. At that point in the game, (remember she had him march to his death and actuslly yelled st Shiro for arming him, so she had expected Lotor to die mere fucking vargas before) I believe Lotor was only important as a pawn on the chessboard. His life meant nothing to her other than how he could benefit her and the coalition. He was kept in a cell like an animal the whole time prior. He had been nothing more than a murderer to her. But now he was worth keeping alive bc he killed Zarkon, yay. Would his tears have meant anything to her? Hard to believe they would have. 

[dingdonghun]

HEEEEEY I just reached 300 followers! I literally have no idea why you guys are here but I appreciate you regardless and so I just want to give a fast quick thanks to some people ; ; 🌻💛 but first!!!

I don't do much but state opinions and reblog things but I've written my very first story (Memories In Summer) and I figure I will continue writing if I can, because I often have ideas in my head. I may write a few more stories and get feedback and then start a Seperate blog for it all together but I honestly don't know, I strongly lack motivation due to working all day every day ; ; but I want to do my best for all of you, I want to pay you back for being so sweet to me 💛💛💛... OKAY LETS GET INTO MY BEAUTIFUL MUTUALS THAT I'VE FORMED FRIENDSHIPS WITH (if I forget anyone it may be because we haven't talked in a long time, my memory is really bad, PLEASE let me know)

@princeyeolie my baby Kaylee, thank you for being my very first friend when I started this blog. I love you so so much with all of my heart and I deeply appreciate you being here, even when you get grounded every 5 seconds. 💛🌻

@a-godchend my sweet Yanbun whom I feel I keep growing closer to. I'm close with you as well and I want to always be here for you uwu you fucking precious sweet peachy rose. I swear to god 😤

@sunkissedkpops my beautiful sun 🌞 always here for me, very very close to me, I love you so so damn much. I couldn't imagine being without you now that we've met and are in each other's lives ; ; 💛

@heylaybaeslayyay awe my cute little cinnamon roll. Very sweet and very precious. I love talking to you and it always brightens my day 💛🌻 I'm glad to have you around me all of the time

@galaxies-and-daisies though we've only communicated via asks, I care deeply for you and I always want to be around you because you're such a sweet puff pastry. I'm always here if you need me and I want to squish my face against yours. 🌻💛🌻💛🌻

@byunrelatable my Ari~ we haven't talked in a while but I miss you very much and you're a great friend to me. I want to give you soft gentle forehead kissies. Maybe choke you out wrestler style. 😚💛

@papermuse96 Abi! My sweet princess, I miss you all of the time uwu I can never get enough of you. I desire to eat your face. But like.... Lovingly 👀🌻

@noona-clock my T and B, I always feel happy when I see you two on my dash and you both make me so happy. I'm glad that we became friends and I look up to the two of you. You make me want to write, and I'll try to do so in the future ~ you're both so talented and beautiful inside and out and I love you so much 😚🌻💛

@kyungiebaby listen I know I literally just met you but I love you so fucking much lmao. I get so excited when I see you in my notifications and being ignored by you gives me a big fat uwu 💛🌻 you ignore me so good, baby. (I'm just teasing you, I'm happy to have you around 💛💛💛)

@xnamjoons-slutx you've been nothing but sweet to me and I'm always happy to see you on my dash and in my messages, even if we don't talk too much lately (this is completely my fault lets be honest, I'm terrible at keeping up with people) I deeply appreciate you 🌻💛 thank you for being in my life

@monsterpcy listen I came across an old post that you and I were in together and I said to myself... Holy shit I REALLY miss Amy B( so we are going to have to fix that, understand?? P.s I love you so fucking much. uwu you are a saint 🌻💛

@shimmie-shimmie-kokobop my precious baby whom always tags me in puppy posts. I love you Kaz and I'm sorry I'm so MIA lately, work is kicking my ass and my energy is low, but I miss you and I appreciate you and all of your spam uwu 💛💛💛💛

@isothetic I love you and all of your spam posts as well, you always send me things that I bust hard uwu's over. Sometimes even busting a big nut. You are also very sweet and we relate to most things, I appreciate you and you always make my day that much better when I see your posts 😚🌻

@phantasticforfob the same for you, you always send me amazing posts and I deeply appreciate you for it, you sweet precious angel baby. Thank you so much for always making my day a bit better when you're in my dms uwu 💛💀💀💀

@junsoohyun you're literally always in my notes and I love you to death lmao. We finally talked for the first time recently and you're actuslly extremely sweet and I love you so much already uwu please let me give you all of the kissies in the world that you deserve. 😘😘😘😘😚😚😚

For anyone I forgot, I'm terribly sorry, I'm doing my best over here lmao I'm typing this during break at work and my mind is elsewhere but I appreciate and love every single one of my followers and mutuals and if any of you ever need anything at all, please send me a note or an ask and I'd love to help. 💗❤💚💜💙💛💓💕💖💞💋💋💋💋💋

[dxmedstudent]

Friendships, and scars.

Usually, I’m quite sensible. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. Idf a friend doesn’t reply, or plans to meet up peter off, I assume that they are busy. After all, I have a trerrible track record for replying to my friends, or keeping up, so I really have no right to judge. But sometimes I wonder.

 Did I say or do something to upset them? Am I a bad friend because I did something horrible and I don’t really realise it? Perhaps they think I’m a bad friend, and they don’t really want to talk to me any more. I haven’t seen them in a while, so what if I actually am a terrible friend? Maybe they hate me after all. And I have to remind myself that these are just irrational thoughts, that this isn’t real, and it’s not how my friends think. That I have no reason to assume just because someone didn’t reply for a couple of days, or I haven’t seen a busy friend in a while, that they don’t like me, or I have done something to wrong them. That it’s just because they have a busy life, just like I do. That not every action people do is an act of passive aggression or hate. Funnily enough, this wasn’t always a problem. Sometimes I found it hard to to make friends growing up, but I never attributed those difficulties to others’ machinations, even despite the bullying I’d dealt with in the past. Even when I found it hard to make friends, I remember being weirdly positive about it ; most people are potential friends if you try to get to know them.  I was lucky to make a great bunch of close friends at school, the kind of friends you just know are going to be with you for the rest of your life. Friends you’d do anything for. However we alll grow up, and some of us change. It took me a long time to see what one of my friends had become, because none of us want to see the worst in those we care about. Or perhaps they’d just been horrible to other people. Quietly, insidiously, the way they were later speccifically horrible to me. It’s probably why our mutual friends are still friends with them now; know someone for long enough, and it becomes hard to see what’s really there. Especially if it doesn’t affect you. It’s a long and complex story, ending in my terminating a close friendship because I couldn’t take their behaviour any more. I’d never encountered passive aggression before, or had friends making belittling jokes at my expense. I’d never had friends trying to turn the friends I introduced them to, against me. I’d never had someone play so many mind games then feign innocence and hurt feelings, whilst confessing to other people that they were deliberately trying to mess with my mind for the fun of it. If it wasn’t for this confirmation, I’d never have inagined that someone I’d trusted so completely could be so cruel. I can’t tell you the effect it has on your self-esteem. The worst bit is the way someone can bully you in so many ways, and make out that you’re the bad friend. That you wren’t good enough.  That even years later, you can be left questioning if another friend secretly hates you, or doesn’t want to talk to you, or doesn’t want to see you, because someone else taught you to question yourself. I guess it doesn’t help that having been bullied as a kid, it was sonetimes difficult to believe anyone would genuinely want to be friends. Only for something like that to happen. But it’s not all doom and gloom. And that’s not why I originally wrote this post. Losing this particular friendship taught me a lot about the qualities I appreciate in good friends, including open and honest communication. And slowly, I’m unlearning the things that this dysfunctional friendship taught me. I want people going through difficulties to know that you can get through them, and you will be ‘you’ again. Oddly enough, I was never sure if I would post this particular post. I actuslly meant to send it to dafts, so it’s been a slightly interesting surprise to find it posted! Whoops! I’m not entirely sure how I feel about that… It was meant to be a message out into the void, a rant to deal with the feelings I had to process when this former friend initiated contact to gain “closure” a couple of months ago. I posted at the time about how you have to be sure that contacting the other person is really in their interest, too. Because I don’t believe in upsetting others for “closure”. But although I didn’t intend to post it, I’m not sure I want to delete it, either. I want people to know that losing a friendship can break your heart. I want people to know that you can also move on afterwards. That you’ll make new friends. Unlearn unhealthy messages. And learn to appreciate yourself as someone worth being friends with. At the height if my difficulties, I thought I might never make friends again. But that wasn’t true at all. I’m not the most sociable person, at all and yet at every stage I’ve been lucky enough to make amazing new friends who make my world a better place.

[unworthy-stars]

Formaggio- HFH North Italy Week 2k17

This is my forst submission for the North Italy week hosted by the @hetaliafandomhub​ . I had said this earlier to Hub Epsilon and Pi that I dedicate this to the Hub Gods because they deserve it to the full.

We love you.

This is the prompt for day no. 2: Photography with optional AU Gakuen Hetalia.

This is Formaggio

"Say 'formaggio', fratello mio!" Italy Veneziano held the old camera in front of his face.

Italy Romano sighed but said the familiar word trying to pull a smile. After the staggering flash hit Italy Romano right in his eyes he continued to sew the oair of trousers he worked on for the 'Home Economy' class. They turned out to be more stylish than expected.

"So, fratello, have you decided about last semester's project?" Veneziano asked with a bright smile on his shiny face.

"I'll probably do something in my orbit, like a dissertation on Westerner's policy or perhaps about the importance of the first production section in our lives. What I must worry about now is the club's presentation. There's not enough time to teach the other goofs how to dance the tarantella!"

"Ugh...I'm sure you'll do great! After all you guys are excellent dancers!" Veneziano smiled.

"It will settle itself somehow...grazie mille fratello!" he placed his HB pencil on top of his ear and looked his prompts.

"La tua felicità è la mia felicità!" he kissed Romano's tanned cheek, grabbed his camera and ran outside their dormitory.

Italy checked the photo he had shot previously. His brother was really good-looking and his beauty was perfectly refelected by the device. The sunlight fell on Romano's brunet hair making it look shiny, unlike his grumpy expression. He was about to finish his assigned homework and he wished to be left alone, something Veneziano didn't grant. The photo was interesting by the sewing macchine's presence too. An old Sainger was considered to be a wonderful antique.

As he was walking inside World Academy W, he came across a pretty familiar sight; China feeding a cute panda bamboo leaves. China wasn't in the same class as North Italy, but he was a close friend from the Asian class. China noticed him too and smiled. His slanted eyes made his cheekbones almost touch his thin eyebrows.

"N�� hǎo Yìdàlì! Nǐ hǎo ma?" he waved at him.

North Italy walked to his peer's side and sat next to him "I wanted to ask you if I could take a picture of you and your adorable panda!"

"Of course and you can! Why did you even ask? Japan always takes shots of me and I myself can't count how many 'selfies' I have shot! Go on!" he embraced the oanda and with a childish smile he looked at the flashing light.

"Grazie mille Cina! I really appreciate it!" he let the camera hang on his neck "What theme have you chosen about your project?"

"Endangered species! I know it is common but I really want to sentisise people about it!" he was always so cheerful.

"That's really cool!" he suddenly saw France pass by the nearest corridor "If you can excuse me..."

North Italy ran to catch up with his colleague. Fortunately France was really recognisable. He wore diverse clothes, yet always in fashion, and his golden locks never were out of perfect condition.

"France! Wait!" he exclaimed hooked on France's shoulders.

"Huh? Italie! Didn't expect to see you before class!" he tried to make N. Italy relax "What's all the fuss? Big brother is here to help!" he caressed his brown, towards red, hair.

"I just wanted to take a picture of you!" Italy smiled and showed France his camera.

"Is it for the Newspaper Club? Not that I mind if you keep it private..." he scratched the back of his neck "You can always take pictures of me. J-just wait for the next break- right now I have a really important meeting to attend. It concerns the Gourmet Club!"

North Italy wouldn't miss the opportunity to interview the holly trio of cuisine even if the end of the world occured. Moreover he needed Turkey's photo too and seeing two beautiful countries together was the chance of a lifetime.

He decided to secretly follow France to their meeting point. Apparently Turkey was always waiting for the other members. He was known for his punctuality, as a sideffect of his perfectionist ideology.

France greeted his friend by kissing both of his cheeks, a common European way of greeting. Turkey responded right away and started to chat with the other club member.

N. Italy took a photo quickly and ran away trying to remain unnoticed. Giggling he hid behind the trash bin, which was located two corridors away. He checked the picture; they looked lovely as always.

"Hello," said a quiet soft voice.

Veneziano turned around. A familiar, yet unrecognisable, country had approached him. He was experiencing something like a deja vu.

"You must be Canada, America's brother!" N. Italy remembered.

"Oh yes I am...have you seen my glasses?" he asked kindly.

"I've just arrived here, but I'm more than eager to hel- they are in your cardigan's top pocket!" he touched them.

"Oh mon Dieu! Thank you...I am really silly!" he wore them again and showed Veneziano his teeth, smiling.

Italy took a photo of Canada smiling. The flash hit Canada right in the eyes so he closed them immediately.

"What was that for?" Canada pushed his glasses closer to his forehead.

"Surprise!" he exclaimed and ran away again.

Veneziano moved to the toilets. Almost no one entered but lots rpefered to hang out outside them. That particular day Russia was eating his lunch resting his back on the wall outside the boys' bathroom.

"Ciao!" Italy waved at him bravely.

Russia noticed the Italian and waved back "Privet! Want some pirozhki?" he showed the opened lunch box.

"No grazie, I have already eaten!" he sat by him.

Russia curled up and brought the lunch box next to his crooked nose. Russia, despite his large size (or even because of it) felt quite insecure around his peers. Nevertheless he was considered to be very sociable when forced to socialise.

"Could you please say 'formaggio' and smile for the camera?"

"I suppose so...why do you want a picture of me Italy/" he lifted his head.

Italy pressed to button and five seconds after the click sound the flash gave lightness to Russia's round head. He blinked a few times and rubbed his eyes after.

"Because you are pretty!" Italy smiled once again with his always-closed eyes.

"Oh..."Russia flushed brightly "Spasibo! I feel flatterned!"

"You're welcome! And your food looks tasty!" he stood up and moved to his next encounter, at the wall of the girls' bathroom, Belarus.

Belarus wasn't particularly clingy to her brother that day, given that she would normally be at her brother's side. However that day she was almost three metres away by her own will.

Italy approached the young lass. He lowered his position and looked her in the eyes.

"Want to see it?" Italy took off his camera, which was hung on his cheek and presented it to his classmate.

Belarus grasped the device. She checked all its sides and proceeded on checking the image gallery. She squeeled at the sight of her beloved brother's picture however she quickly scrolled to right and saw the other countries' pictures. She laughed. She actuslly laughed.

"May I have a picture of you?" Italy asked.

"Of course!" she said still laughing.

This was Veneziano's favourite picture. He greeted the maiden again and walked to his friends' dormitories.

N. Italy was well-known to have been hanging out with Germany and Japan. They together formed the Newspaper Club which was created to inform all World Academy W students about current events, achievements and interviews.

On his way back though he entered the art room. He loved art and he was really good at it, especially at painting according to Reinessance's movements. In the art room he came across two recognisable figures, America and Greece.

"...and this happened before Jesus?" said America surprised.

'Well...yes! And many more...but I like this one in particular!" he pointed at a marble statue.

"Dude, I remember bringing one of those to the surface! They are really cool! Literally your ground is precious!" America claimed.

"I suppose so...it was all my mother's..." he snorred.

Italy took a picture of them looking at the magnificent statue and walked on the tip of his toes back to the exit. He didn't want to interrupt such an intellectual converstation. And he was afraid that he would be carried away by it too.

Thus he went quickly to Germany's bedroom and stopped his research there.

~*~

Dancing, awarding, explosions and Johan Strauss II could be mixed only in a World Academy W school year ending presentation! All the colours, the fragancies and the unbelievable sights were all gathered in the school gymnasium where all projects could be seen and all club presentation took place.

"Did you see Russia's project?" said England.

"Yes I did actually! It was exciting! I didn't know about all these musicians!" Hungary replied.

"How could you have not known? They are quite famous! Just...not for being Russian." Austria added.

"Since our projects are finished, we don't have to see them again right? We could just- oh my glob! Merlin's beards, is this me?" England moved quickly to the white wall.

No one had noticed before but the wall was covered by photos of each student of the Academy. England's specifically was taken when he was serving tea to Liechtenstein and Monaco. All of them looked really fancy and elegant.

Ameica's and Greece's photo was standing next to England's but it was surrounded by a mysterious aura like they were performing something mystic the moment the picture was taken. But what secretive could they do in the art room?

Belarus's, Russia's, Romano's, Switzerland's, Seychelles', Taiwan's, India's, South Africa's, Nigeria's, Brazil's, Peru's. Everyone's photo was taken and placed on the white dull wall of the gymnasium. It filled the room with awe and happiness.

Hungary had never seen Austria play chess, but the photo captured the moment perfectly. Neither had Belgium ever seen Sweden play with Sealand. Nor Moldova had ever seen Australia with his koalas taking a selfie with New Zealand holding a kiwi.

North Italy

Project Theme: Difference Notes:  La tua felicità è la mia felicità

The End

[heartoftheyugi]

Now that Yugi didn't see his friends as often, he didn't have the same reservations against treating one of them to a free snack. "Have some of mine," he offered, though quickly added, "Emphasis on some. I still need to eat too."

Honda asking after his grandfather brought an appreciative smile to his lips.

"He's doing okay, no worries." Yugi rubbed against his chin, a small frown forming. "Been complaining a lot about his back lately though. So I've been taking over more and more of the stocking lately. It's okay. I think i actuslly built up some muscle because of it."

heartoftheyugi‌:

At first he could only blink and grin at the figure that dropped down so unceremoniously in front of him. It was good to catch up with his best friends and hear what he had missed out on. Even if all he had really missed was homework.

“Yeah I don’t envy you.” Yugi confessed, his head tilted in a look of quasi pity, though it turned to actual horror real fast when the word essays fell.

“They’re having you write essays? As in, like, plural?!”

He pushed his box of chicken nuggets towards the other. “As much as I’d like to have you on board, I’m afraid we can only pay you in pity nuggets.”

There was something about the disbelief in Yugi’s voice that just had Honda snorting before laughing. “Yeah. Plural. It shocked me too.” The utter horror that he would have to write multiple essays for college-

The idea of pity nuggets was more than enough to have him start to perk up. Honda sat up straight, leaning back against the booth. “Well, if you’re buying, I’m definitely not gonna say no.” And it was probably a better deal than getting a job, anyways. Why work when you could make people buy things for you out of pity?

Fingers drummed lightly against the table top for a moment. “… so how is the shop? And Grandpa. He’s still doin’ okay, right?”