#i actually need help with music

[joshbruh10x]

So...uhmmmm

I wanna make a goofy augh little silly FNF mod again. Well, just like a personal mod, I'm not gonna post it online (but I would give it to people who wanna give it a go)

Anyways, here's some progress shots, I'll keep it updated if I can

If anyone wants to actually help with the mod (COUGH COUGH MUSIC WISE BC I CAN'T MAKE MUSIC FOR THE SAKE OF MY LIFE) feel free to contact me

[r-aindr0p]

the possibility of throuple rugjamidia has captivated me

Ok ok wait though I have to share the vision I have with these 3 !! Been thinking about how Jamil did "quit" his job as a treasure guardian for a life of peace but he still can't chill in his pond for five minutes because of the other two idiots, they just keep coming back....

This is only part one ! Part two is still cooking in the microwave

Hopefully he'll get the blue thing back on his feet and have them go away once and for all (lmao no)

[turbo-tsundere]

Content warning for gore, blood, burns & body horror.

A king with no crown and a holy fool.

(The element of venom/poison, stabbing/puncture wounds and destruction of a whole body is present in both of their deaths. Kokichi's pristine white clothes also end up being shoved down the toilet, and the poison made it difficult for him to breathe, so there's plausible callback to Miu also. Karma at its finest?)

If I could be the devil, you could be the sinner.

(Don't mind them, they're just spilling their guts)

(...)

(Concepts for scenes from a Gonta-centric survival horror game I'll never make. But it was fun to daydream about - maybe one day I'll finish other sketches and doodles relating to it into a more presentable state. The Cat Lady OST was playing on constant repeat while I drew this - Lily of the Valley, Don't Follow the Light, String, Plainwalker, Early Winter, Storytelling, Susan's Blue Sheep (alone again) - those in particular are now stuck in my brain when I look at those drawings, and what I imagine the "game's" mood to be like, at least the opening segment.)

(I felt both heartbroken and like a monster when drawing this one... But I wanted to draw something that doesn't conveniently erase nor tuck his mangled, swollen face away from view. Sure... in game it looks goofy. But I think mockingly disfiguring him was the point in all of this, too. And given the venom, the Schmidt pain index, how it rates some wasp species, the fact that those robot wasps could be packed with anything necessary really... it had to be awful. Really, every stage of Gonta's execution was excruciating and enough to kill a person on its own, but due to his strength he likely suffered through them all. I remember begging in my head he was at least spared the flame, that he was already gone by this point... But it's foolish to pretend it definitely was the case.)

I wanted to post something new, but I was either busy, ill, or focused on something else, so another sketchdump with oldies and wips it is. This time strictly 2020-21 stuff, drawn during the first few months after finishing the game; mostly to process the post-game/Ch4 sorrows. All very emotionally raw, very edgy stuff that I felt, to be honest, too shy to show before.

Like with any wip I posted before, I do hope to finish some of them properly one day, even though I don't know when. But that's fine, I've signed up for a very long ride with the bug man. Taking it easy is the priority.

Speaking of long-term projects, maybe there's no need to, but I do want to talk about my Gonta fancomic, so here goes.

It's a bit long, so I will continue under the cut.

(Some panel teasers first! ...Gonta sanity fine.)

I took a few months long break from personal drawings - an *actual* break, not just sitting in front of a screen, tired, stewing in guilt that I'm tired, and that I can't magically muscle through burnout, or headache, or exhaustion.

My brain was stuck in a loop of berating myself for underperforming, not doing well enough, for taking so long on "mere" 27 pages, when in the past I could finish a 90-page webcomic chapter much faster. I wouldn't let myself rest, because I didn't do enough; but I couldn't do enough, because I didn't allow myself to rest. And it's been going on for months and months.

What a stupid, unconstructive thing to do to myself. I was only spiralling down, intimidating and overwhelming myself with work on the one thing I specifically wanted to keep doing out of joy, not ambition and pedantism. So I decided to just say "fuck it" and stop for a while. Like, actually stop, do something else and try to feel unapologetic about it.

So I briefly took up sewing, a creative activity I had no personal stake in, and then I started PVP-ing in DS3 (sorry if I happened to kick your butt in there. Rest assured my butt gets kicked just as much), which did wonders, too, as non-artistic pastime.

And, in the end, it seems it worked.

I finally feel this internal drive to draw again. Sadly, I can't spend all of my free time on the doujin (I might need to open commissions soon), so my pacing will still be glacial... But there was an internal change from "I have to, I have to, I must..." back to "I want to". And this is all that matters.

Still, that makes me think... while technically I don't have deadlines, the comic has taken so much longer than I thought it would - and it will take a while still. Thus, I wonder if I shouldn't change my approach re publishing it.

The initial idea was to post it all at once when it's fully finished, but I debate releasing it one page at a time instead, while it's still work in progress.

Thing is, I don't think it would be good for overall pacing. I don't want to sacrifice it, plus I can't guarantee regular uploads, esp since I don't exactly work on the pages in chronological order (While the first page is done, it was drawn after I finished a few in the middle & at the end; and there are still a few important pages/panels in first half I'm a bit too afraid of touching just yet, wanting to do them justice. This is how I work in general, jumping around rather than sticking to overly strict linear order.)

The compromise would be to post like 3-5 pages per post, making it so each upload covers a specific scene, however, same issue arises - I can't promise regular uploads. In the end it feels like a half-measure. But maybe it's a good idea, despite that impression?

There's a secret option, too - if this takes absurdly long, my plan was to just post the storyboard, after replacing some panels/pages with already finished drawings. The thing is readable as is, and long finished on that front anyway. My personal deadline for that was "right before my current lease ends", but, well… I plan on extending it anyway, and again... it's just a back-up option for when everything else fails. In the end, I just want to finish the comic, and present it how it's meant to be presented, however long it will take.

All those things considered, I'll stick to the original plan for now... and then we shall see. I simply wanted to share where things stand currently, and where they might go.

And that's it! If you've read this far, thank you. See you in the undetermined future.

[blackkatdraws2]

There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]

[turtleblogatlast]

“Haven’t You Noticed (I’m a Star)” from Steven Universe works so ridiculously well for Leo

[sixpossumsinaclownsuit]

Me, self respecting: I would never be a groupie for some guy in a band I've never met, girls really throw themselves at rockstars and cry and scream to get to meet them? Have posters of them all over their room? How do you fall that in love with some guy who makes music—

Joey Batey from The Amazing Devil: (sings Old Witch Sleep and the Good Man Grace) (sings Inkpot Gods) (sings Rockrose and Thistle) (sings Welly Boots) (sings Fair)

Me, suddenly twirling my hair: obviously that doesn't apply to YOU, pookie, omg stawwwp...

[s0fter-sin]

rewatching s1 and in ep2 w*ndigo, dean makes a joke about not bringing provisions into the woods just to pull out a bag of peanut butter m&m’s and stick with me here, it’s why the later seasons’ “goofy dean” loses me

this moment is clearly a joke but if you think about it too much, it also makes some sense; a family size bag of peanut m&m’s is calorie dense and even the high sugar is good to keep you moving which they need on an overnight hunt. it also shows how due to their upbringing, they’ve had to eat lower quality food, things they always had access to that was cheap and also in bulk

what does dean eating ghost pepper jerky then tipping water on himself exist for other than to be a cringy joke? what does smelling old chinese food, testing to see if it's still good then shaking his head with cabbage hanging out his mouth when it isn't serve? it's just to make him look stupid and contrast sam's healthy/clean diet (and superiority but that’s another conversation) which has always existed but it used to be nuanced and natural

we see dean as a child give up the food he wanted to eat so sam could eat it. (“i’m sick of spaghetti-os,” “you’re the one who wanted them,” … “i want lucky charms!” “… there’s only enough for one bowl and i haven’t had any yet!” proceeds to give them to sam, 1x18) we know he hustled and stole food to ensure sam ate. (“so, what’d he take?” “get this- peanut butter and bread.” 9x07)

we also see throughout the early seasons dean teasing sam about his salad or healthy choice while he eats some form of burger or other fast food (or notably, cheerfully eating prison food that sam won’t touch, 2x19). it's typical sibling teasing but it also shows that it isn't new for sam to eat like that and for dean to know he eats like that

sam being picky isn't just a character trait they chose for him, it's a result of how dean raised him; he raised him to like and want healthy food and be food secure enough to reject food he didn't want

but dean eats anything he is given and seeks out unhealthy - cheap, plentiful, filling - food

he is the opposite of picky to the point of it being a consistent bit; they show him multiple times eating when it's socially frowned upon to do so eg. questioning a grieving victim when they're trying to be discreet (1x14, 2x15, 2x18)

a similar moment to the chinese food is in 4x19; dean wakes up in the car while sam brushes his teeth outside and is hungry. sam says there's a sandwich in the backseat, dean smells it and recoils bc it's an old tuna sandwich. the moment is funny on its own but it also exists as a comparison of their lives to adam's; he has a loving mother, goes to school and importantly, a steady stable childhood

it’s a joke with a purpose

it also supports dean's food insecurity; he wakes up and is immediately hungry, enough to complain about it and seek out food before anything else

dean is always hungry bc he never has access to nutritionally rich foods bc he got used to using the money he earned to buy sam's more expensive food. he got used to his cheaper, denser foods and grew up with (and continues to live with) intermittent access to said foods. think of how long it takes to drive from one state to another; how many hours it can take to see another town that offers food, if you arrive at a reasonable enough time for anything to be open. also think how they can’t keep any food beyond what fits in an esky; nothing that needs defrosting, nothing can be heated up. it’s bags and jars and take out for as long as they can trust it

then they get the bunker which has its own kitchen

dean even describes himself as "nesting" when he decorates his room, something he hasn't had since he was four years old, and he uses said kitchen to cook a burger from scratch that he is proud of. he is food secure for the first time in his life and it shows in how often he cooks for both himself and sam

so these moments where they have him acting goofy regarding food are no longer character driven and only exist as a joke which is why they come across as cringy and out of character compared to similar earlier moments

a lot of my issues with dean's characterisation started when they introduced the bunker. the argument can and is made that the reason these jokes happen is bc he feels safe in the bunker, that bc he now has a home he can relax and unmask but that still doesn't feel sufficient. they crank up these sillier moments for both of them, giving them a sort of playing house comedy vibe of two roommates with completely different personalities but it doesn't feel like an authentic progression. it feels forced; an attempt at humour for humour's sake

food stopped being an informed part of their characters and their trauma and instead became flanderised; sam is the judgy vegetarian health nut and dean is his borderline slovenly carnivore counterpart

[made-my-peace-with-all-the-bad]

Fanfic idea: The Socs' football team asks Dally to haze the greaser gang including Pony and Soda.

Clarifying for anon- they meant Darry not Dally

Ok so I’m not the best person to come to with fic ideas bc I do fear I’m not a good writer lmao but I can offer my thoughts on this idea

I think it’s something the older guys on the team would ask of Darry as a way to prove that he was “one of them”. I don’t think Darry would do it because he loves the gang and he could never bring himself to hurt pony or soda (especially if we assume Darry is a freshman because that would make Pony and Soda 9 and 11/12). I could see something happening where Soda gets jumped or gets into a fight so he comes to school kinda beat up one day and one of the older guys on the team would come up to Darry and ask if he finally got the guts to do it. Meanwhile, Darry hates the fact that his little brother got hurt and he wasn’t there to stop it, so he has to stop himself from throwing up and the suggestion that he did that to his little brother. So he just stares when the older guy asks. Then, Paul comes over, slings an arm over Darry’s shoulder and tells the older guy that it was Darry and Paul was there so he can vouch (a lie). I also could fully see Paul pulling Soda aside and telling him about what he told the football guys and how if they asked, soda needed to say it was Darry. It’d also be such an interesting idea when we consider the musical line where Dally says Darrel almost went Soc and it’s soda who immediately sticks up for him and says that “Darrel NEVER went soc”

[angelpuns]

Me when I started the game: okay not putting any money in this guy. Okay maybe just for asesprite

Me now: okay but I'm an adult and I have adult money and I wanna spend it to make a BETTER game

[ourtalechara]

Y'know what? I'm pretty normal about the Stupendium. I listen to their music a normal amount. Like an average amount. Like as much as a normal person who is normal about the Stupendium would listen to. It's not like they're the only music artist I actually really listen to or anything like that. It's not like I'm addicted to their music. I could totally stop listening to Losing My Patients at any moment. Or stop staring at the music video. They don't make my heart race. I feel a natural amount of warm fuzziness in my body as I look at them. And very few of my waking moments are spent thinking about them. About how much I love them. Imagining how it would feel to be with them. Just. Obsessing. Because I don't. I'm not obsessing. I'm normal. I love the Stupendium a NORMAL amount and I am a NORMAL person and I am AROMANTIC and I AM NOT FALL ING IN LOVE WITH

[scrawnyghstts]

bg3 my beloved and so I'm trying to do some writing for it, specifically rewrite the Wyll romance bit at the tiefling party

however I'm rather a perfectionist and I'd like to have the dialogue options with all the characters as accurate to the game as I can help it, but I can't find proper transcripts anywhere. Which sure I guess makes some sense, no spoilers etc, but then tell me why are there so many search results for transcripts for Astarion?? and seemingly only him? I don't want to get upset but idk it rubbed me the wrong way a lil (even though I know why it's like this)

[baggidude]

Spoiler for Venom 3: Divorce so move along if you haven't seen it NOW.

So I've seen a lot of fix it posts but I haven't seen too many people talk about how hard it would be for eddie to adjust to normal life after Venom "dies".

Like imagine how it would be to go back to a alien free life after being connected to it for a full year (specially if you grew close to the alien), it must feel super quiet, too quiet. Yeah at first it would suck that his thoughts are no longer private but as his relationship with venom became more it would have most likely turned comforting.

Also think about how venom was the only really close "person" eddie had, yeah Anne and Ms.chen care for him but they are nothing compared to what he had with venom.

Worst of all is how it would feel to lose your other half within a week, a single week, going from living somewhat happily in your apartment with him to nada, nothing would make everything feel empty.

I feel that after all that Eddie would end up cutting himself off from getting close to people, he would put up walls and have a fake smile plastered over his face at all times of the day just so that no one tries to care for him.

And you could say "But the cockaroach", and yes if Venom is still alive he most likely will search for eddie. HOWERVER, that would most likely take months if not years to even just get to new York.

So in conclusion I need to read some "Eddie tries to live a normal life without venom" fics that venom dosent appear in. It can be about him finding help and moving on, it can end with him dying (Maybe even both) im fine with anything all I know is that I need to see this wet cat SUFFER.

[cuteniarose]

Modern AUs seem so fun in theory right up until you have no idea what interests to give to your characters because you don’t have any yourself

My playlist primarily consists of soviet cinema soundtracks, I can’t remember the last time I’ve watched any show apart from watching AtLA with my friends, all the books I’ve read in over two years were part of the school program (with the exception of Tomorrow was the War and my THG reread), I’ve been wearing the same hoodie since I was 14 with either plain jeans or sweatpants… must I go on?

And you’d think this would make, say, a rusreal AU easier to make, but no, because I’m not well versed in modern russian culture either and NONE of these guys would have a soviet actor shrine, that’s just me being weird 😭😭

[emmiethebaldbaby]

Sometimes life can be hard when you're just a swingin' (aaah) space aaaage (aaahh) bachelor man

[thatonecrookedsmile]

I would say that, considering his history, he's not that wrong, but even I have doubts as to whether that would be right. But at the end of the day, this is just a joke that's been in my head for a while, sooooo…eh.

Oh hey, an attempt at a comic? Made by me? That I didn't give up during the process or lost all motivation? What was my only attempt at this, 2019? Damn, it's been a long time.

I thought about leaving this here without editing or any colors, just the natural ones from the paper and pencil. But something in my head said "HAHAHA, no" so I went back to work. I had to put this idea down on paper this time (literally). If another year passes without me being able to execute this idea, I would lose my mind.

This scenario was inspired by this video by Jehtt, inspired by the original meme by Windii. Credits to both of them.

For a long time I wanted to joke - especially on the anniversary - that I wanted Sammy to only have less than 5 seconds in the next game (or in other words, take his screen time in DR, and shorten it even more). You know, just for the funnies (unless..?) But,thanks to the news released at the beginning of January this year about The Cage, I legally can't do this joke anymore…this year. Don't worry, after that comes out (and finally gives Sam the screen time he wants,hopefully) and we start to crawl into the Bendy 3 production era, I'll make this joke when I can.

Anyway, happy birthday Sammy Lawrence. You may not be my favorite character in this franchise, but there are some things I can actually appreciate about you. Plus, you made me laugh a few moments before (you know what I'm talking about) so there's that.

And happy 7 years to Chapter 2, and by extension, Susie, Norman, Alice, the Searchers, (Johnny????), and Beta Ink Bendy. (I would mention Jack too, but he was only introduced with the release of CH4, so technically it's not his birthday yet, but I'll consider him here).

And now? May I be able to do something for CH4's anniversary. Wish me luck,cus I'll need it.

(it might be really late now, but it's still the 18th where I live, so it's still his birthday, so I still won)

[asheatsspiders]

hello fellow falsettos/other musical fans!!

i have an upcoming audition for jason from falsettos, and i need help finding an audition song. preferably something by william finn, but anything works!