#hyperfixation what are you doing hyperfixation

[monster-effer]

ADHD reader x LaDS headcanons

Summary: My headcanons on how the LaDS men would be with a reader who has ADHD. Content: Sylus x reader, Xavier x reader, Rafayel x reader, Zayne x reader, Caleb x reader (separate), ADHD mention, impulse control issues, money management issues, inattentiveness, forgetfulness, hyperfixations, Caleb being toxic™, a smidgen of angst, fluff, gn!reader, no reader pronouns mentioned (1.4k wc) A/N: These are some headcanons I wrote in response to a request I received on AO3. I included some of the traits mentioned based on personal experience with my loved ones + ones mentioned in the request.

To my ADHD babies: I hope y’all like this ♡

Sylus – impulse control issues + poor money management

You and Sylus have been dating for a few months now, and during that time he’s become well acquainted with a few things:

You are diagnosed with ADHD You are impulsive when it comes to fun purchases You struggle with money management

He has seen how you put yourself into tight financial situations because you cannot resist buying a special edition plushie that just released at midnight.

On multiple occasions you have spent countless hours and your last dollar at the arcade trying to nab a plushie that is smooshed into the corner of the claw machine. Some days you get the plushie you want and other days you don’t. But in either scenario, you end up eating ramen noodles until your next paycheck hits.

Although you have tried to hide this impulsive side of yourself, Sylus doesn’t miss a single thing about you. He has eyes, ears and a crow at his disposal in and outside of the N109 Zone.

He has no interest in trying to “correct” this part of you, instead he tries to help you in his own way.

He gives you his black card so you can impulsively purchase whatever you want, guilt free. And when you refuse to use it, he replaces your payment information with his on each website you frequently use to go shopping.

You eventually notice this and re-enter your information, but Sylus would follow up and replace it with his card information once again. He was relentless, and eventually you gave in.

He also (secretly) became the owner of the arcade you frequent so you get unlimited coins and can hog the claw machine for as long as you like without being disturbed.

He never wants you to fall behind on your bills or have to skip a fun purchase due to the limitations of your bank account. Sylus is filthy rich and has everything he could ever ask for, including you.

Nothing else in this world gives him as much pleasure as fulfilling your desires and he will always strive to do so.

Rafayel – lost in thought/ignore your surroundings

Every time Rafayel meets you in a new timeline, he notices small differences. In one you were a member of the royal family desperate to escape your responsibilities, in another you were an author, and in this one…he’s not quite sure what to make of you yet.

You were noticeably introspective, to the point that you often get lost in your thoughts. Blocking out any and every attempt to get your attention unless he is exceedingly persistent.

At first, this concerned him because he thought you weren’t interested in him. It felt like the ultimate rejection, and it hurt him deeply in way that he could only express in Lemurian.

But as you got to know each other you shared with him that you are diagnosed with ADHD. Which results in your inattentiveness.

Rafayel was relieved to have an explanation for this phenomenon and from that day he forms a new habit in response.

When you two are hanging out at his place, yours or in public he always carries a sketchbook with him. He never misses the opportunity to depict your visage when you are lost in the multitude of thoughts that race through your head.

Luckily for him, your mind wanders frequently when you’re together, and so far he has five sketchbooks filled entirely with your beautiful face. Some of the sketches are unfinished and others are completed with color, it just depends on when you come back to him.

Rafayel is always patient with you and never tries to “fix” you because you are his perfectly imperfect muse.

Caleb – impulsivity, daydreaming, hyperfixations

Caleb knows everything about you, from the various ways ADHD manifests in your daily life, to the fact that thunderstorms scare you.

He has witnessed your impulsiveness firsthand when it comes to jumping headfirst into danger. And although he’s seen it time and time again, it never makes it easy for him to bear. He feels overwhelmingly protective of you, he wants to hold you close and never let go. But he knows that you value your freedom and independence. So, he tries to dampen his controlling tendencies. At least the very obvious ones.

There are times when he has been mid-conversation with you, only for you to stop replying. And when he looks over, he can already tell that you’re lost in your own world. He takes this time to observe you with no repercussions. To really take you in, because you always berate him for his “creepy” staring otherwise.

And for completely selfish reasons he loves the fact that you’re currently hyperfixated on him since he’s returned from the dead. You may try to hide it, but he can tell that you’re absolutely obsessed with him. He thinks it’s sooooo cute how you blow up his phone, want to occupy all of his time when he is in Linkon and how you bombard him with question after question about what he got up to during his time away.

He knows that sometimes your hyperfixations don’t last long. But there are some you’ve held onto since you were kids. He secretly hopes that your hyperfixation on him lasts a lifetime, as wrong as that may be.

Although he feels a little guilty about enjoying it so much, he is in love with you. He wants no one else and it gives him a rush to know that you feel the same, in your own way.

Xavier – forgetfulness + daydreaming

Xavier has traversed time and space to find you again and keep you safe. He cherishes every moment he gets to spend like it was his last.

When he opens up to you, you feel comfortable enough to do the same. During your heart to hearts you share with him that you have ADHD. It affects your memory in a way that is hard to describe, but you settle on the description of “out of sight out a mind.” This combined with your tendency to get lost in your own thoughts has resulted in more than a few mishaps throughout your life.

Once Xavier is aware of this, he makes it his mission to always be by your side, so you don’t forget him. You try to explain that that would be impossible because he is such an important person to you and also your mission partner, but he is stubborn. Because to him, nothing could be worse than you, the light of his life, forgetting that he existed. Even for a brief moment.

When you lose track of time and almost miss an appointment, Xavier is there to teleport you to your destination.

When you almost miss work because you forgot to set your alarm for the 10th time in the past 2 weeks, he is gently nudging you awake.

He does not see your inattentiveness and forgetfulness as character flaws. They are just a part of what makes you uniquely you.

If Xavier has to serve as your personal planner and alarm clock sometimes, he doesn’t mind. Because you are the most important person to him.

Zayne – hyperfixation

Zayne has a sharp memory, so when you two meet again as adults he is already aware that you have ADHD tendencies. Now he sees you have an official diagnosis once he accesses your medical records for the first time.

He has a logical explanation for why you engage in the behaviors that others may find frustrating to deal with, like your almost unbreakable concentration when you are hyperfixated on something.

Your brain lacks dopamine, so you are naturally drawn to stimulating activities, which results in you locking in when a new activity, show, or topic captures your attention.

Zayne would never push medication used to manage ADHD on you, unless you expressed interest in them.

He would actively monitor you when you get into one of those hyper focused moods though. He would periodically bring you water, meals/snacks, snap you out of your trance for stretch breaks and urge you to sleep if you show no signs of winding down for the day.

IMO Zayne would be a very accommodating partner because he knows medically what’s going on and he would never get annoyed with you for chasing what fuels you.

But there is one stipulation, he wants to be by your side to make sure that you are properly caring for yourself. Because your health and wellbeing mean the world to him, as your doctor and your partner.

[icantbotherwithusernames]

Gravity Falls fanart but it’s a reference to a response cover of a sung version of a comic parody of an 8-bit cover of a Steven Universe song

[dyke-will-graham]

People who don’t read fanfic and are ingrained in fandom culture freak me out.

What do you mean you don’t maladaptive daydream? What do you mean you don’t have a self inserted OC for every hyperfixation with such complex lore you couldn’t even begin to explain it? What do you mean you just “watch a movie or show once”???

I feel like Sherlock when he’s like “what’s it like in your funny little brains it must be so boring.”

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

For Child of a Wandering Star I'm so curious what kind of research you did for Tyk's people. What kind of arthropods did you reference as a starting point? How did you construct the society?? Will Tyk get a cool sword and adorable animal sidekick to go with her status as chosen one on a journey of destiny???

I was hyperfixated on evolution and reproduction for about fourteen or so years through high school and uni and hymenoptera was a specific fixation of mine for several years, so you might say that the inspiration to fuck around with creative genetics (as well as making Tyk's people bugs, possibly) is inspired by that order. However, Tyk's people aren't based on any given Earth species, and if their style of reproduction is similar to anything on Earth, I've never heard of it. A lot of people have tried to make guesses about her people based on Earth biology -- I've seen people theorise about haplodiploid determination a la hymenoptera, or theories that their government system must somehow be based on having a queen because ants have a queen, and then seen counterarguments that ant queens don't control the nest and that's a reason why Tyk's people wouldn't have queens controlling the nest... all of that's just nonsense. Tyk's people are not based on any specific kind of life on Earth. I designed her people by going "hey wouldn't it be cool is some species reproduced like this" and then designing the sort of people that could evolutionarily result from such a strategy.

I'm sure they do have a lot in common with a lot of Earth species, but this is coincidental. They're not modelled after any specific one.

Tyk's already got an adorable animal sidekick! Her name's Smon!

[emotionallychargedtowel]

The em dashes in this example don’t exactly “belong” to Emma (the character) though, right? I’m pretty sure this is a summary of Mrs. Elton prattling. I guess I just don't want it to sound like they're Emma's responsibility, which adding them to her name seems to do. Unless they are her responsibility. Hm.

She is the reader’s point-of-view character. She's arguably the one who summarizes Mrs. Elton in this way. If she took Mrs. Elton more seriously it doesn't seem like her words would be summarized in this way. But then we’d have to read every word Mrs. Elton says here—verbatim. No thanks.

I was wondering if the reason Emma is such an em-dash outlier might be because of Mrs. Elton and/or certain other tiresome or longwinded characters (I'm thinking of Miss Bates, of course), along with Emma’s halfway listening to them.

So I cracked open my copy. And now I'm taking a perfectly good joke and turning it into a detailed discussion of my hyperfixation. Well, hopefully it's of interest to others anyway.

The short version of the answer to my question is that Emma's em dash quotient doesn't seem to be entirely, or even mainly, attributable to any specific character, including any propensity of Emma's as our point-of-view character. It's mostly just that Austen goes all out with the em-dashes all over the place. Now, I love em dashes and overuse them habitually. But the em dashes in Emma seem downright excessive to me.

Check out this bit where Emma and Harriet are looking at Mr. Elton's house:

“…there could be no possibility of the two friends passing it without a slackened pace and observing eyes.—Emma’s remark was— ‘There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these days.’—Harriet’s was— ‘Oh! What a sweet house!—How very beautiful!—There are then yellow curtains that Miss Nash admires so much.’”

They really are extraneous here.

At other points, they seem to serve the usual purposes in dialogue, like making a sentence into a sort of aside or showing when someone has been cut off by another person. And sometimes they accomplish other worthwhile things. For one thing, as in the Mrs. Elton summary, they often do the work of helping to condense a bit of small talk. There's also a part where Miss Bates goes off at length twice in quick succession, in which the em-dashes show how abruptly she jumps from one topic to the next.

Mr. Knightley's response when he thinks Emma is upset because of the revelation of Frank Churchill's engagement to Jane Fairfax makes good use of them in a related way:

"...[S]he found her arm drawn within his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him thus saying, in a tone of great sensibility, speaking low, 'Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.—Your own excellent sense—your exertions for your father's sake—I know you will not allow yourself—.' Her arm was pressed again, as he added, in a more broken and subdued accent, 'The feelings of the warmest friendship—Indignation—Abominable scoundrel!' —And in a louder, steadier tone, he concluded with, 'He will soon be gone. They will soon be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for her. She deserves a better fate.'"

The em dashes show the abrupt way he switches from one phrase or exclamation to another. If his tone is "steadier" at the end of this passage, the em dashes seem to show how unsteady he was at the beginning of it. He's not just changing his tack repeatedly, he's doing it because he's agitated.

So, yeah. Austen does some worthwhile things with her preponderance of em dashes in Emma. But for the most part, she was just wilding out.

An ode to em

One of the reasons that I love Jane Austen's work is that she loves an em dash. Just how much does she love an em dash? Behold:

That's right, baby—Emma has 3102 em dashes in it! Not hyphens—this is just the count of true em dashes alone. It's glorious.

Let's all bask in the em dashes in this famous Emma passage:

“The best fruit in England—every body’s favourite—always wholesome.—These the finest beds and finest sorts.—Delightful to gather for one’s self—the only way of really enjoying them.—Morning decidedly the best time—never tired—every sort good—hautboy infinitely superior—no comparison—the others hardly eatable—hautboys very scarce—Chili preferred—white wood finest flavour of all—price of strawberries in London—abundance about Bristol—Maple Grove—cultivation—beds when to be renewed—gardeners thinking exactly different—no general rule—gardeners never to be put out of their way—delicious fruit—only too rich to be eaten much of—inferior to cherries—currants more refreshing—only objection to gathering strawberries the stooping—glaring sun—tired to death—could bear it no longer—must go and sit in the shade.”

31 em dashes in that sequence alone! And that's not even the whole paragraph—there are 9 more em dashes in the rest of the paragraph before that quotation! Iconic.

[lenalvthor]

but what if i don’t WANT to say goodbye to bells hells huh????? what then????????

[tsuutarr]

YO I KNOW HOW TO RUIN THE EVIL SCIENTIST!!!!!

So we do a little trolling-

Jk, darling wakes up with no problem, buuuuut she doesn't like that he's old now, doesn't like that he's got this weird aura going on (it's called being evil), nitpick everything she doesn't like and eventually, admits she doesn't like him anymore!

"I mean, thanks for reviving me, but I want a divorce."

So this ask plays really well into the "routes" you can take for Thomas if he ever becomes a yandere dating sim ML. The routes are as follows:

Reader remembers Thomas OR is good enough at trickery to make him believe they remember.

Reader doesn't remember Thomas BUT Reader is grateful towards Thomas and willing to learn how to live with him.

Reader is ungrateful towards Thomas/dismissive to him.

1 and 2 would be the "good routes" with 2 being better than 1. In 2, Reader isn't exactly like how Thomas remembers Reader to be, but Thomas loves Reader all the same because people can change and he accepts that. As long as Reader tries, he's satisfied and happy. This is more of a soft yandere route since Thomas would be possessive and stuff over Reader but Reader lives a normal life for the most part.

In 1, Thomas hyperfixates on past Reader, so while it's technically a good ending, Reader kind of has to live in their own shadow. This is also a route where Thomas is super yandere and locks Reader up, ensuring that Reader can't leave the mansion.

And for 3, Thomas has had many failed experimentations. A successful experiment would lead to Reader being cordial with him as a bare MINIMUM. If Reader dislikes Thomas, it means that his experimentation failed, so he'll dispose of the Reader and continue his experiment to revive his love.

Thomas is extremely devoted and delusional, but he's also calculative and pretty cold. If Reader was rude and dismissive to him, he wouldn't really be ruined -- just disappointed that his experiment failed again. He doesn't even need the Reader to be all over him, just being neutral is a success to him.

Once the Reader is rude to him, he doesn't view Reader as his love anymore. Instead, he views rude Reader as another failed experiment and is extremely detached. Though, he'd also feel massively guilty because he doesn't blame Reader for turning out rude -- he blames himself. It's all his fault he couldn't bring back Reader properly, it's his fault the experiment failed. So he'll do what he can to finally, finally succeed.

[suzukiblu]

LOVE your writing, however, I was just curious, is writing your full time job and is this just a side thing? If yes, do you have any work outside fandom? Would love to read anything you have!

thank you! 💙 but naw, my day job's a reception gig; I've never published any writing or anything like that. I just write a lot because, like, the hyperfixations Compell Me, lol. they compell me but GOOD. also, like, my job not only lets but ENCOURAGES me to write/draw/fuck around with my own stuff at work, so I have a looooot of time for it.

writing and the feedback I get FOR writing are pretty much 95 percent of my sources of consistent dopamine rn, so honestly the only reason I don't write more than I do is because my meds aren't as effective as they could be and it makes it hard for me to control what I focus on and when.

and yes, "an average of 2.5k words a day, usually about 70k words a month, and WELL over 500k words since last June" IS how much I write when I can't focus for shit, apparently, so like . . . thanks for ur blessing writers georg I guess lol.

. . . yeahhhhh maybe I should look into, like, a side gig in genre fiction one of these days, considering. maybe I should see if I could do anything with that.

[mrgrey777444]

No games, just Goon. Kitten

[do-u-know-this-autisticcharacter]

Do You Know This (non-canon) Autistic Character?

Propaganda:

America is explicitly stated to have trouble making and keeping friends due to poor social skills (not in those exact words, but that’s what it boils down to), and he has trouble with boundaries. He also has a strong sense of justice and has a very black and white way of thinking and perceiving the world. He’s incredibly blunt, and is shown in canon to have trouble understanding sarcasm and reading the atmosphere.

He’s genuinely compassionate and want to help others, but has low empathy (for the record, this means he can’t understand others’ feelings and emotions and has trouble putting himself in their shoes). He also makes a lot of arm movements, which could be stimming. America also mainly eats hamburgers and junk food, which could be a sensory thing. He has a canon hyperfixation on heroes. America also is loud/has volume control issues.

Anything else

Hetalia IS a problematic series and should be consumed critically. The dub is far more problematic than the sub/manga, but the sub/manga still has problematic elements.

[kruegerspillow]

A maneuver ; bruce wayne (2022)

Creator's note: heeeyy... Sorry for disappearing for like three weeks straight, i've been suuuper busy with my own stuff in this (very exhausting) life but i'm back (for now) with a new hyperfixation.

Warnings: mostly fluff with a smudge of angst (?), pathetic needy bruce, mentions of violence, reader is a detective and knows who Batman is, and uh... Bruce has a weird habit of watching you. NOT PROOFREAD.

Word count: 1k

Everything hurt.

The twitching of your strained muscles to the shiver of your bones, the pain was immense, both physically and emotionally. With your work getting to you and (probably) having no one to rant to, loneliness follows you around like a lost puppy.

He was too.

The stomping of your boots against the harsh, cold ground echoed through the empty alleyway. Streetlights around you flickered in agony, and the pulsing in your head continues. You didn't know which one was worse—

Coming home to your deserted apartment, tidying up yourself and continue with the paperworks. Or—visiting the Wayne Manor just for Alfred to tell you that Bruce was indeed, not home. Either way, you'll be left alone and end up with an apology in the morning.

The thought of it made your stomach churn in disappointment. All you've ever asked of him was for his attention, for his care and his mere presence—you've never asked him for wealth like others did. But even he could not give you the bare minimum; it was as if he wanted to make you fall out of love.

These thoughts ended up clouding your mind, nearly causing you to trip over a garbage bag. Though, you made it to the Wayne Manor as if your body was pleading you to do so. You noticed how isolated it looked from the outside.

What you didn't notice was that a pair of eyes were watching over you, hunched over a rooftop with binoculars in his hand. He watched the way your chest heaved, the curve of your lips and the dark bags under your eyes.

Meanwhile, you were about to walk back to your apartment with a heavy heart—wanting to save the disappointment for yourself—

That was, until you heard a metallic thunk.

Thunk. Thunk. Thunk.

The sudden sound caused you to stop on your track, your fight or flight fading away into freeze. The thunks of a familiar pair of boots caused a shiver to run down your spine, and you immediately snapped your head towards the source of the sound.

"...Bruce?" You hated how vulnerable you sound.

Receiving no reply, you took a cautious step back—until the man in black emerged from the shadows. His eyes gazed over your tense figure, taking in the exhaustion that were plastered on your face. Though, you immediately relaxed after realizing that it was just him. He was The Batman—no longer Bruce Wayne or The Prince of Gotham.

"What are you doing here? At this hour?" He murmured oh-so-sweetly.

Your eyes hovered over his figure, looking at his armor and the cowl that hid his features. The words that threatened to leave your lips were swallowed down by your ego, not wanting to make a fuss about anything now.

"I just got back from work." You paused, "had to stay back a bit longer to finish paperwork. These cases in Gotham aren't... Beginner friendly, to say the least."

A few moments of silence passed and you could feel his eyes burning through your figure. It made you nervous in a way—and you're sure that he can feel your discomfort. He's used to it, the fearful gaze that people give him. It didn't bother him.

Because like he said—fear is a tool. But, unlike others, he would never take advantage of your fear.

"This isn't the way to your apartment."

"Um," you started, not knowing how to continue this very much one-sided conversation. "I just happen to pass by the Wayne Manor, that's all—wait, how do you know that?"

At your sudden tone of surprise, he was nearly startled out of his armor. Shit, he could feel his cheeks heating up under his damned cowl. Feeling like a deer in headlights, he looked away from you.

"Know what?" He murmured, his voice laced with confusion.

"Where my place is,"

"I don't."

"You just said—"

"You shouldn't be here alone. It's not safe." He spoke through gritted teeth.

But you weren't dense. Hell, even he knows that himself. You can tell if he's trying to avoid a certain topic. You shot him a look of suspicion, observing the clench of his jaw and the furrow of his brows under the cowl.

"I think that I am just fine." You stated, pushing his worries away. "I can protect myself."

The corner of his eyes twitched at your tone, causing him to look back straight at you. But it was too late, you had turned your back on him and started to walk away.

His eyes widened before his hand shot up to your wrist, pulling your back right against his chest. Your body tensed at the sudden movement, looking up at him as if asking him 'okay, what the hell was that?'

But when you meet his gaze, realization hit you harder than a brick. There was no longer the coldness in his gaze—as if it had melted into something more... Soft and personal. It was a mix of longing, exhaustion and love—a deadly combination for the Batman to have.

"Stay." A plea for help. For love and for care.

At the tone of his voice, your body relaxed against his, molding perfectly into each other. His eyes searched for any sign of acceptance in yours, hoping that you would agree at his offer.

But how could you refuse when the man you'd trusted your life with was standing right in front of you? The man that helped you solve these damned cases and the man that held you in his arms... he needed you just as much as you needed him.

"I'm done with my... my work, I just—need you with me. In the Wayne Manor." He paused, "please?"

And the plea in his tone was (embarassingly) enough to convince you. The ache in your muscles and pulsing in your head had faded away—no longer present as it is lost in the feeling of love.

"Okay," you hummed. "I'll stay."

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[l0v3lili]

Jayvik and Epic The Musical being the only thing on my tumbr feed for two weeks is amazing thank you tumblr gods what would I do without you fueling my two current hyperfixations 🫶

[noirtcnes]

look maybe its just because i deeply deeply love admire and respect every aspect of squid game that im saying this but like

i genuinely, as a neurodivergent hyperfixating lil bitch CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME remember player numbers - 100% i remember them by their names and unique characteristics only. so when i see people say they dont know the names and only the numbers i know they either watched the show out of peer pressure or to be relevant or because they probably are literally such white souls they have trouble remembering names that arent 'john' or 'tom' like - ???? (no offence to the cool white ppl who actually love the show though ofc <3)

like what do u mean you just know them by their numbers? did you pay attention to even a single fucking millisecond of the show?????

ESPECIALLY GIHUN?? THE MAIN CHARACTER OF BOTH SEASONS AND THE UPCOMING ONE??

its so hard to understand that he's so underrated in his own show but thats another raging talk i might have in a separate post

the internalized racism and carelessness when it comes to actually watching something to watch and analyze and digest it simply because its not from hollywood is just so unironically hilarious to me

anyway

scratch what i said at the start, this isnt a me problem at ALL some of you guys are genuinely just weird

The casual racism and homophobia people display when discussing Squid Game will always make me infuriated.

How is it possible to watch a 7-episode long show and not know the names of any of the characters? Are you so devoid of working brain cells that you can't identify an individual after staring at their face for eight hours in a row?

I think it's especially insane when you take into account that this is the second season of the show. How do you not know Gihun's name? He's the protagonist.

Claiming to only know these characters by their numbers is so crazy to me because I have a really difficult time memorizing their player numbers. I know Gihun's and Inho's but everyone else's is a blank.

Or, even worst, knowing them as their most basic trait - pregnant girl, old woman, trans woman, marine guy...

THEY HAVE NAMES!!!!

Hyunju isnt just a trans woman, she is brave and selfless and kind, a leader and a fighter, someone who protects the weakest around her and defends them fiercely. Daeho isnt just an ex marine, hes a man forced into a toxic masculine role by his father, who neverthless display incredible softness in his interactions with others. Geumja isnt just an old woman, she is a kind woman who cares deeply about those around her and would do anything for her son and who shows that you can change and accept others from who they are.

Their names are not difficult to memorize at all, especially if you are watching a show for hours on end.

And mixing up characters from both seasons? Like no, Jungbae wasnt in the game in the first season, that was another man. Neither was Geumja, or Minsu, or literally any other character aside from Gihun.

This definitely isn't my lane because i'm a white woman but it just reinforces the idea that all Asian people, especially East Asian people, look the same when that isn't true. It's just blatant racism and it makes me sick to see it so normalized.

The homophobia is also insane but this is from a different angle because there aren't any opely LGBT+ characters in the show.

Back in season 1, I heavily shipped sangihun, in fact I still do. And the ammount of brain dead morons who were convinced they were brothers is actually insane.

WE SEE EACH OF THEIR MOTHERS!! THEY HAVE DIFFERENT LAST NAMES!!!

How are they brothers? Because Sangwoo calls Gihun "hyung"? It's a cultural tradition, not a matter of actual familial bonds. In the second season Youngmi calls Hyunju "unnie", but we all know they aren't sisters and it never even comes up (although this is probably about transphobia).

And WHY do people insist that Inho is married? He's widowed. Junho literally visits his wife's grave. I know he says during the game that his wife is alive (sick but alive) but he's lying to get Gihun's sympathy.

I don't understand how its possible that someone can pay so little attention to a show to the point where they don't retain any of the plot points.

Or, even worst, people saying that Gihun and Inho are brothers... HOW??? Are you really so homophobic that you can't see two men being shipped without convincing yourself that they are brothers despite complete lack of canon evidence?

It pisses me off so bad and its so rampant, especially on TikTok, where just proudly announce that they are so brain dead they don't even know the name of the protagonist of the show they are watching.

EDIT: as @belladoes so rightfully pointed out, when i said that there were no openly LGBT+ characters in the show, i meant non-heterosexual people. Obviously, Hyunju is trans and a part of the LGBT+ community. I was so focused on s1 when writing that section of the post that i used the wrong language! So sorry!

[awesomest-sauce]

“Intimacy you never asked for

with Azul Ashengrotto”

“Are you sure this is okay,” you murmured into his skin.

He had flinched the minute you pressed a small kiss to his shoulder. Though you weren’t one to hyperfixate on such a small action, this was different.

“Yes, it’s fine.” With his explicit permission to continue, you followed your previous path. Littering small pecks on Azul’s back was a simple enough task. It was ensuring his comfort that was tricky. Despite his assurance, that it was okay for you to do, he seemed to shrink under you.

When you finally stopped, he seemed tense. It was difficult to decipher what was on the boy’s mind. Always calculating, it was strange to witness him crumble under the pressure of intimacy.

“Sorry,” was all you could say when you pulled away from him. You grabbed his shirt from the nightstand and placed it next to him before turning back around. After all, he preferred to change without your eyes on him.

But he didn’t make any effort to move. There was no shuffle of the sheets as he maneuvered. He was still. “You stopped?”

“You were uncomfortable, Azul. Of course I’d stop at the first sign of unease.”

He didn’t say much else that evening about the situation. Not that he was worried you’d leave after witnessing the filth of his body. Not that he was on the verge of tears when you turned around out of consideration. And certainly not that he cherished your love for his body.

[ratinacoat]

I don't personally think autism will have a direct affect on the frequency of (fictional) introjection in systems

Introjection doesn't come from finding comfort, interest, or enjoyment in something . It's internalizing the characteristics of something around you , usually a parental figure but it can be something fictional . I don't see how hyperfixations or special interests would connect with introjection at all based off that alone . One person, Plurapony (no hate to them ! This is just their thoughts they've shared) , mentioned autistic people being neglected and bullied more often than allistics could cause more fictional introjection because of a lack of interaction with the people they would typically introject like parents . That makes sense to me, but, I don't think that makes the introjection caused by the autism personally

Autism raises chances of being neglected , being neglected could raise the chances of fictional introjection , but autism doesn't raise the chances of fictional introjection itself . An autistic person who wasn't neglected would still have less of a chance of introjecting something fictional than an allistic person who was neglected in that case . It wouldn't be a direct cause of the autism, the autism just increases the likelihood of going through something that could possible increase the likelihood of the introjection

This is not coming from sources , do not take this as fact . These are my thoughts on the idea since there's no sources on autism causing more fictional introjection in systems or non systems . Whether or not autism causes people to be "fictive" heavy or not is not proven as far as I'm aware

If you wanna read my longer post going in depth on what introjection is and how it works though, I made one here

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Destiny Eris & Drifter Lore Catchup - Primary Sources - Video Only

My friend was looking for a video to summarise the story between Eris Morn and the Drifter in preparation for Heresy tomorrow and I begged her to just read the lore and not go off of someone else's skewed perspective because the actual writing in-game is so beautiful and it feels like chewing tinfoil when I see people going "Oh I'll just watch so-and-so's video."

But my friend is at work overnight tonight and cannot read while she works. She can, however, listen to things, and Heresy is tomorrow so I don't have time to just record myself reading the lore (totally would do this if it meant getting another person into my hyperfixation).

So to provide something at least somewhat helpful I've made a list of all the Eris & Drifter in-game footage videos I can come up with off the top of my head and with quick searches.

This is not to replace the fantastic list of Eris & Drifter lore already made by Robyn here: https://www.tumblr.com/dredgensimp/756035408544120832/so-i-was-combing-through-l-o-r-e-on-ishtar?source=share

Which is WAY BETTER because it contains the written elements that are so important.

So much of their relationship is missing from in-game video/audio and you can only find it written down in descriptions of a sparrow or a gun or in lore tabs. Please believe me there is so much more and Robyn's list is a far better reference than this set of videos I'm providing.

But, for people who, for whatever reason, aren't able to (or interested in) reading the lore (although really, you really should - the writing is so fucking good) at least you can listen to the actual audio and video Drifteris from the game and not someone's condensed version of it designed for clickbait and ad revenue from selling hair product and meal kits instead of what it should be doing: showing off how glorious the writing in this game actually is.

Arrivals - Contact Public Event Dialogue: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZINq_mu1Ys

Prophesy Dungeon - Voice lines and cut scenes: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZr6Q7dtcFA&list=PLS2hBTtCDufSJZnB65N-Mz0IhJeFzjRpS

Beyond Light - Fight scene: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IAD6E_vESJY

Beyond Light - Fireside Eris & Drifter: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8mW-zC03aU

Haunted - Radio message from Eris to Drifter: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAWFdsVwKak

Plunder - Ketchcrash Eris & Drifter dialogue: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qVZj0WtAt4

Plunder - Ketchcrash Eris & Eido: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1z2_0b2atQ

Plunder - Eris declines "gift": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuPqQPPJRoY

Deep - Beam of Moonlight: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ta2DKchL2uY

Witch - There on the other side: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoHm_OWy_pQ

I'm sure I've missed some. If you know of any, please let me know and I will update the list.

Bonus points: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfWpoQfVJh0

Also, if anyone knows of anywhere where someone is just straight up reading the lore tabs, no "interpretation" no "summary" - just individual videos containing nothing but someone reading a lore tab, for people who prefer to hear rather than read, please let me know so I can gather a list based upon Robyn's reference and give it to my friend (and I'll post it here so anyone who wants it can refer to it in future).