#how do these people keep finding me 😭😭😭

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

This is referring to the "Everything we know about Neige" post. I was just going to comment, but since it became quite big I decided to send here.

Seriously, the RSA boys throwing themselves in from of the NRC always gets to me, because they essentially sacrificed themselves to a unknown treat and I love how this shows the difference between the students on each school, and how RSA is always playing as a team instead of the each men for themselves style of NRC. And especially how that strength is the exact why RSA keeps winning against NRC in the intarscholastic spell drive tournament, and has done so for 99 consecutive years!

I love how around the beginning of the manga (also in the game, but I personally fell like the manga explanation was better) Crowley says how because the mirror's choice are always magicians with big potential, that also leads for a group of people who are somewhat arrogant and refuses to work together.

This is such a core part of the story, but I don't see a lot of talk around it, and personally, I think it's one of the biggest charms.

I do really enjoy how even by telling a story though the villans side, the writers were still able to showcase the very core Disney idea that the reason the heros win is because they are working together, opposite to the villains who ,for the most part, work alone and isolated. It also highlights the importance of dialog and conversation while ALSO showing how naive and self sacrifizing most of the heros are, with Neige and Chenya without think twice throwing themselves into the flowers to save the NRC boys.

I appreciate so much the dinamic of this two schools because by that we can see the strengths and weaknesses of BOTH sides.

Sorry if that was to long and sorry for any grammar mistakes or misspellings. Hope you have/had a nice day/night. Take care. ♡

[Referencing this post!]

It was definitely a really commendable moment for the RSA students, especially when Ruggie and Idia (in the same event) wanted to abandon their asses and save themselves 😭

I feel the common sentiment is to claim RSA’s wins against NRC are “undeserving” or impossible to believe when NRC has so many powerhouses, but it makes sense when you consider the philosophies of their students are so different. Neige and the dwarves performed a popular children’s song from the Shaftlands—a song which adults have nostalgia for and kids love, a song which encourages everyone to join in singing and dancing. Vil had a new song made, but the style won’t appeal to everyone and the lyrics are hard and brag about beating down a foe and winning. You won’t win the audience vote if your performance fails to emotionally connect with people.

RSA’s 99-year win streak in magift/spelldrive is no coincidence either. Their cooperation (which is emphasized in their school curriculum as well) allows them to pull victories, whereas NRC often falls apart due to in-fighting. Ace and Grim give an example at the beginning of Stage in Playful Land. Leona also states that their team last year started fighting before the game even started. It's a consistent pattern.

With the end-of-year tournament being a team composed of one member from each dorm (dorms which have strong rivalries and think they are better than the others), there’s bound to be even more issues that arise in a match. RSA wins not only because they have talented students that can work together well, but also because NRC quite literally tears itself apart from the inside out 💀

It's interesting when we think about how the Mirror of Darkness seems to select students that have great magic potential but are also very arrogant because of that same potential. And this also reflects in their morals as well; it's not uncommon to find NRC students willing to use underhanded methods to get their way (Jamil and Ruggie controlling NBC students to be meat shields, Leona in all of book 2, Jade suggesting they use booby traps to take down their Sledathon rivals, etc.), whereas none of the RSA students we've met so far appear to have morals that deviate from that of a typical nice yet naive "hero". NRC values self preservation, independence, and ambition, whereas RSA is far more self-sacrificing and caring for the entire group. It makes me wonder if RSA has a method of enrollment that minimizes the arrogance and underhandedness in its student population (or at least boasts humility or open-mindedness)? As far as we're aware, the students at RSA also have great magic potential... so what makes the students enrolled at NRC arrogant about it and the students at RSA not arrogant about it...?

I think what separates villains and heroes in Disney films is their dynamics with others. Villains often have henchmen or partners in crime, but the villains are definitely presented as the ones in charge while the others are subservient to them. Villains give commands and/or manipulate to get their way. There is a clear power dynamic, a leader and followers behind that leader’s ambitions. Heroes are willing to compromise, and you’ll seldom see heroes bossing around their friends or allies. If people help the hero, it’s typically of their own volition and not because they are ordered to. Sometimes they help because they are moved or inspired by the hero—but ultimately, their autonomy remains intact. The hero treats others as equals and not as a means to an end. Their kindness is a virtue that attracts others to them. It’s a “me against the world” vs an “us against the world” mentality.

[heartyluv]

omgggg I loved your fic about asking zayne medical questions 🫶 if you’re feeling like it, could I request something slightly similar? You know how google and online doctor websites are infamous for making you feel like a mild sickness means you’re on the verge of death? Imagine going to zayne after working yourself up thinking you have 24 hours left or something 😭

Note: LOLLL THIS IS TOO REAL!!! I’m sorry it’s not super long. I honestly think it’s a quick interaction that doesn’t need to be, but it’s still fun, nonetheless. I hope you like it! And thank you for reading my fic, babe!

Creds to @/enchanthings for the dividers!

Zayne/Reader

This headache was killing you and you had absolutely no idea what to do about it. It’s been happening for well over a week, making it feel impossible to do anything when it throbbed in your skull. You thought it was a migraine, but it came and went too frequently to be that. You thought maybe you’d been listening to your music too loud, but it didn’t go away when you stopped entirely to test it out.

You were losing it and only had pain to keep you company. So you decided to hop on the internet instead of asking your doctor boyfriend because the last thing you want to do is bother him about something a quick search may answer.

And you didn’t want to be grilled about why you waited so long to say something.

When you typed in what are the reasons I could be experiencing headaches so often, the last thing you expected was to go down a rabbit hole. You’d done most of the things suggested, frowning as you rubbed at your temple while the insistent thumping persisted. You were convinced that the mindless scrolling and lack of answers was only adding to your suffering.

It was as you scrolled that other things started to fit into what could possibly be wrong, and that’s when the subtle panic started to set in.

Chronic pain?

Fatigue and insomnia?

Tumors?!?!

You were mortified, clicking on random conversations people were having about the same experience and feeling your heart rate increase when almost everyone was saying it’s safer to just go to a doctor because it could be a severe underlying issue. You didn’t want to have to go, but at this point, you needed to do something to give yourself some sort of peace of mind.

You came to the conclusion that in fact, you were going to have to bother Zayne. Frantically, you snatched your phone off the desk and called him, your leg bouncing in anticipation.

“Hello, love,” he spoke gently after picking up on the third ring. You were so relieved he even had the time to answer since he’s at the hospital right now. Typically, you never bother him too much when he’s working, but you needed answers.

He sits himself in the chair in his office, ready to listen to you. “Is everything alright?”

“No!” you exclaim abruptly. “Zayne, I’m not gonna make it!”

If only you could see his face, you would’ve seen the confusion and concern that etched his features. “What are you talking about? Are you hurt?”

“I’ve been in pain for over a week because of these stupid headaches, right? And so to avoid bothering you, I just decided to do my own research….” Your brief silence only makes it more dramatic. “And Zayne, I actually might be dying and I’m bothering you anyways!”

“You’re not bothering me at all. If anything, I’m worried. Calm down and talk to me,” he soothes. “Tell me your symptoms.”

“It’s this sharp pain either right in the middle of my forehead or to the left of my skull. It hurts so much that I feel nauseous sometimes. It’s even happening right now, and the internet and little groups on it are telling me if I don’t see somebody, I’m ignoring a potential chronic illness?!?! There’s no way this is real!”

“How have you tried to alleviate the headaches?” His tone is completely serious, telling you how determined he is to find a solution to ease your concerns and issues. He wishes you told him sooner, but all that matters is that he’s aware now. He doesn’t need to make you feel guilty, he just wants to help you in any way he can.

“I stopped listening to music, drank tea, turned down my phone brightness! I even go to bed earlier! Google is telling me if I don’t go to the ER within three days of the pain, I could experience blurry vision! Babe, it’s been way longer than that!”

The corner of his mouth tilts up. You listed everything but what he first believed to be the culprit. He caught you. “Working yourself up like this will only worsen it. Remember what we’ve done before? Deep breaths.”

Zayne always helped you regulate yourself in times when you’d panic, and he felt it was necessary to do now. Once a few minutes passed and you seem grounded, he continued. “And what about your game that you just bought a little over a week ago? The timeline in which you’ve purchased it seems to match up to when your headaches began. Have you stopped playing and sitting in front of the screen for long periods of time like I warned you about?”

When the realization sets in, you immediately feel like an idiot. You recently bought this new video game that you couldn’t stop playing, and unfortunately developed the habit of sitting close to the computer screen so that you could feel immersed and wore no protection on your eyes from the blue light.

You spend a minimum of five hours a day on it, that’s how addicted you became. Not once did it cross your mind to get off the same game.

“It’s the game,” you frown, sighing at your naivety.

“It is the game,” he confirms. “It’s good that we’ve figured that out, is it not? Why do you sound so down? Is it because you’ll need to give it a break for a while?”

“Partially, but I’m more embarrassed at how quick I was to believe some internet forums instead of just coming to my boyfriend who’s a doctor… I didn’t want to be annoying, only to still be that and I ended up freaking myself out in the process. I’m a mess.”

“You were trying to be considerate of me, but that’s not necessary. Concerns about your health is never something to withhold from me. In general, you never annoy me, love. I will always be here to listen to your every word and make sure to bring you back down.”

“I’m so sorry..” you mumble.

“Don’t apologize. Just instill the practice of finding other things that are easy on your eyes while you leave the game alone for a little bit. Perhaps I can help you find something.”

“I’d like that.” Your tone is brighter and no where near as anxiety induced. “You’ll be home soon?”

“I will. In fact, make sure you’re dressed. We’ll go out for dinner to celebrate,” he offers.

“You’re too good to me. I can’t wait.” You grin so much and he doesn’t even need to see you to know it. He can hear it and that warms his heart.

“It’s what I’m supposed to do. I love you, okay? And come to me when you have health scares from now on. The internet is only so reliable.”

You chuckle. “I will, babe. Promise. I love you, too. I’ll see you later.”

After a few days had passed, you made sure that you followed the doctor’s orders. As expected, the headaches disappeared and not only did you vow to only play the game in moderation, but you would never go to the internet for health advice ever again.

[ven0moir]

Clearing the air on the “Bychance vs Byler Civil War”

Bylers vs Bychancers? More like Bylers & Bychancers vs The Miscommunication Trope ( something like that ).

Why this is what i think is actually going on:  

This is NOT Mileven vs Byler 2.0 at all because bychance has not ONCE been proposed as a replacement for Byler, at least not from myself or @cypherheartnokey which are ( as far as im aware ) the main people theorizing about it right now. I personally don’t even see it as a real ship, but that’s just me. 

HOW THIS WHOLE THING STARTED ( as far as i know )

So a few days ago, i made this post:

I used the Byler tag and have continued to do so bc skeptic ( and even full on anti-bychance ) Bylers were my intended TARGET AUDIENCE for this. I knew there was a risk I would get some hate for taking it seriously since Bychance was never supposed to be more than just a silly and fun crackship that the fandom made up. (😭im not even gonna pretend I don't go into laughing fits over how absolutely bonkers I sound to myself most days. cypherheartnokey and others --you pookies know who you are <3-- who See The Things Im Seeing keep me sane istg my ride or die fr ) 

It was just supposed to be a fun writing exercise to see if my current ideas held up under scrutiny from bylers. To test myself, basically. 

MY INITIAL ASSUMPTION 

Before I posted, I thought the risk of getting dogpiled on & getting called 'delusional' & whatever else was worth it bc, to my surprise, my earlier Bychance analyses had been well received–even though some of the Bylers engaging with them don’t really think Bychance will happen, they still think the theories about it are entertaining and fun to read and offer input on. This has led to some interesting conversations about Mike and Will’s arcs, and it’s been nice through this content drought. 

However, what i did NOT anticipate was to cause a ‘ship war’--I really didn’t think this would cause harm and that anyone would stoop so low as to send death threats over differing opinions on hypothetical ships that may or may not even happen in the show & even if they do, nothing guarantees they’ll happen in a way we’re perfectly happy with, let’s please be real about our expectations here since we have 0 control over the creative direction the duffers will actually take. 

All we can hope for is that us Bylers truly are amongst their intended target audience and that the show delivers a satisfying closure.  

MY INTENTIONS & WHY I WILL CONTINUE TO USE THE BYLER TAG ( with discretion )

Using the Byler tag allows like-minded Bylers to find my theories–without the tag, it'd be harder for them to find them. 

However, I WILL be extra thoughtful with my use of the tag going forward, and make sure I'm using it when the conversation centers Byler/Mike/Will and other themes pertaining to Byler.

MY CURRENT STANCE

for anyone receiving death threats or insults on behalf of “bychance shippers”, you DO NOT deserve that. Please report and block, if possible. these people are saboteurs, and just want to stir drama without caring about the harm they cause to the community. In fact, they probably enjoy it tbh. 

i do also have to say that i am no authority here and cannot be tone policing other bychancers. i also can’t pretend i am entirely neutral in this scenario since from what I've observed, my bychance mutuals and anons are REACTING to hate we’re getting from bylers. And whereas I'm aware that type of hate is only coming from a handful of people in the community, not all of us will be patient and graceful at all times, we’re human after all.

I dont care if a mileven calls me delusional, i laugh. But when bylers i have admired and learned from for years call one of us stupid for thinking/suspecting X theory might be hinted at and getting stomped on for trying to bring the conversation to the table, yeah I can't guarantee that's not gonna trigger a defense mechanism over time.

Do you personally have to like Bychance or agree? Absolutely not, nobody is saying that. And good faith critiques of the theory are always welcomed and I actually encourage it in my space as long as we keep it civil and follow fandom etiquette, since it keeps fandom alive.  

FINAL THOUGHTS 

The very message of the show we’re discussing is to choose love in the face of fear, and to not let it drive our choices and unawarely continue to feed the cycle of abuse and trauma. Let's do our best to not keep repeating, amongst each other, what we have already been subjected to by the most hateful parts of the ST fandom. 

i'm here to learn and have fun, not to cause wars, discourse or division--bychance as a theory is just the jumpstart and can change over time and maybe even become something else entirely. the goal is just to open the door for those curious enough to investigate, share and discuss any findings. Whether or not you go in, it's up to you. Just don't be mean to the ones that do.

[miss0atae]

One thing that fascinated me in this episode 3 is the evolution of Jeff and Dean's relationship. We started with Dean coming back to the team after what he has previously done in season 1. Even if he was accepted into the X Hunter garage again, they don't fully trust him and Jeff agreed to "supervise" him to be sure nothing bad could happen.

And that's what happened. We know, Jeff is quite reserved. He doesn't open easily to people. Of course, he is loved among all people working in or for X Hunter, but he keeps his thoughts and worries for himself. He even has problems opening up to his own lover. That's what creates a rift in their relationship, in this episode.

Jeff doesn't know how he can make Alan forgive him. He may have been wrong (even if I understand his reasons and where he comes from), but he doesn't really have someone to talk to about this. Charlie (his brother) gave him some advice he can't use because his relationship with Babe is not the same as the one Alan and Jeff have.

Despite being closer to the X Hunter team, they are not his friends. They are more like family and sometimes you don't really want your family to meddle in your relationship (especially if your boyfriend is almost like the foster father of this found family). That's why I find the appearance of Dean really interesting. Could Dean become Jeff first friend?

In this episode, he showed care and gave Jeff the nudge he needed to try to mend his relationship with Alan. Dean was truly listening to Jeff and surprisingly it made him opening up about his helplessness on how to do it and where to start. Dean's advice wasn't bad (and it was easier to do than the one Charlie gave). It didn't work, but it could have. I felt like Dean was quite supportive.

There is another small scene, where the team was talking about the accident and the culprit who hurt Babe? Everyone was eating, and Dean gave food to Jeff. I found that nice. He was making sure he would eat too. It was kind of uncomfortable for Jeff because North was suggesting using his power to know the truth, and Jeff has always considered his special ability as a "burden" (and it's becoming even more complicated to deal with).

I hope it's not just for this episode and that it's the beginning of their friendship. Jeff needs a friend.

Also, it hurts to see him and Alan being at odds, when will they make up?! 😭

[dialecticaldimensions]

no one is more doomed by the narrative than my pals/lomls special agents dana scully & fox mulder!!!!!! 

i just started season 9 and tell me why i couldn’t bring myself to go beyond the first two episodes out of sheer frustration at the writing choices 😭(i will try again to continue at a later date)

season 8 had its flaws but at the very least gave us a somewhat decent through line and importantly a solid ending for mulder and scully, and their love, faith and strength in each other. 

And while i haven’t watched anything beyond s9 e1&2, i did not save myself from spoilers, so i do know what is coming – and still i was so put off by just these two episodes because it did not make sense to me!!! (so lord knows how i will feel trying to get through the rest of the season … and the second movie … and the revival mytharc additions …)

in what world would scully be the one to push mulder to leave!!! after just getting him back!!! and mulder would fully have put up a fight about staying and protecting both scully and william if there was still a threat (which i was also just like ??? what was happening in the s8 finale then, but i digress). 

scully, who says she has the strength of mulder’s beliefs, who asks for forgiveness because she cannot be with him on this journey anymore when she thought a life threatening illness would take her, who does not trust anyone else to care for him, to look out for his needs, to save him from himself the way that she does, would not have just let mulder leave like that, on the word of kersh saying that ppl are out to kill him (people are always out to kill mulder tho, why was this different?!). 

and mulder, knowing what he knows, knowing that both scully and william are at risk would not walk away like that, especially because there is no indication that him not being there somehow eliminates the threats that scully and william face? Mulder who would break into government facilities (any facility actually), who would threaten every last man in his path if it means keeping scully safe, who would literally go to the ends of the earth for scully and who JUST got his family, would not just up and leave like that. And definitely would not leave the figuring things out to just scully, esp when she is also concerned about william and his capabilities. 

in sheer frustration i went back to some of my favourite episodes in the earlier seasons and that was both soothing and also mind blowing because it really puts into perspective the growth, trauma and healing that both mulder and scully go through to get to the end of season 8. So to start off the ninth season with what i think is pretty poor writing and not very good storytelling was just sooooo 🥲 i get that dd had to leave, i get that there needed to be more focus on doggett and reyes, but the way that happened was sooo not it!! (how did y’all survive the original run omg! in all honestly idk if i could’ve continued back then, not having hindsight).

@randomfoggytiger has a great post on what was going on in the writer’s rooms/bts around s7, s8 and s9 – which was a great read for me post watching these s9 episodes, bc it validated some of my frustrations. 

It clearly seems like the team was focused more on telling certain stories, without really thinking about how the story would be told with the characters that they currently have. So it felt like mulder/scully (and from what I’ve heard other characters too) are regressing into behaviours/choices simply because it’s convenient for the story -- which is not good writing imo!!

Personally, I find it interesting that the focus was on what stories can we tell to keep people interested, instead of how can we preserve the legacy/joy/comfort in these beloved character journeys with the new stories we want to tell. 

And because of that so many awfullllll things happened!!!! Mulder and Scully were forced into situations only by the narrative, not by their character arcs, and what a shame that it was that way!! 

Anyway, i still love m/s with my whole heart and will continue to grind my way through the rest of the show, albeit very very very slowly. So grateful for the very active x files community (again speaks volumes to the fact that it's the characters that shaped the show/stories) so that i can drown myself in fanfic and gif sets and artwork and meta!!!! 👽🛸

[camerainbow]

Something I feel like needs to be said (since I haven’t seen it anywhere)

As much as I LOVE the idea of Buddie roommates being a reality aka. teased in the finale montage since Buck ~has not found a place~…

To me the montage was not necessarily moments all happening at once (or super close to one another), and the montage definitely has some sort of time jump between that finale emergency to the Madney baby’s birth (there definitely has to be a month or two to justify her giving birth… because I CANNOT fathom her giving birth so soon after that emergency lmaoo). Also time jump explains why we sadly didn’t get any hint of Mara’s adoption in those later S8 episodes (some logistics happened offscreen post-finale emergency), as well as the fact that we have no idea how long it was until Athena’s house was put on the market (that takes some time, just like for eddie’s place in El Paso). The fact that all of Buck’s stuff is out of the apartment when Eddie and Chris move in means to me that he’s not living there.. (why would he move all his stuff into a storage unit and pay for it…? the concept of him being houseless is wild to me and pure speculation ns)

As cruel as it is, I believe they just chose to show that Buck touring scene to reveal that there are aspects he misses of Eddie’s place (its “character” being some sort of placeholder for the feeling of home he’s had there, including before he moved in) and he (likely) feels like he had to leave to respect Eddie (return it to how it was before he moved in). Also I personally don’t believe the “it wasn’t really mine” line contradicts the “not really a guest” line earlier in the show”.

I do look forward to Buddie fanfic of the roommates concept with Buck not being able to find a place (! <3) but I very much expect him to be in some new place in the premiere oof

If that finale taught us anything: we should keep expectations LOW with these writers (ending and beginning a season are probably the hardest episodes to be fair so I expect S9 Ep1 to shock some people’s theories/assumptions, though that doesn’t excuse poor season arc planning or lack there of in S8).

I WOULD LOVE TO BE WRONG THOUGH SO PLEASE DO TELL ME WHY IM WRONG IF YOU DISAGREE 😭😭😭

[peechglaze]

I could be totally off the mark but I feel like this week’s episode is going to completely re-contextualize ellie’s behavior this season. the new still released by hbo ellie seems really upset about something and joel is comforting her. I think they’re really going to hammer in the fact that ellie was only ever vulnerable with joel or showed her “true self”. like the therapist already said this, but I feel like it will have new meaning in retrospect: “she only told the truth to one person and he’s gone” (paraphrasing). she can’t be vulnerable with anyone but joel so now that joel is gone who can she turn to? she is internalizing everything shes feeling because as much as she loves dina tommy jesse they’re not her safe place in the way joel was. I think this scene may serve to show this stark contrast. 😭 anyways episode 6 is going to kill me

This is a really interesting and well put observation!!

I've played the game and also know roughly what's going to happen because I keep checking the Warner Bros promotional photo database each week LMAO (they release stills from each episode that are cleared for news sites and such to use, so you can vaguely put the pieces together if you look at them), but I think you're definitely on the mark for some of it!!

I won't talk game spoilers, but I do think this is a really interesting point to talk about.

Despite Ellie having a tense relationship with Joel because of events that we can hopefully put together by now (and have seen hints of so far), she still recognises that Joel is the only other person in the world who went through what she did-- with the exception of some things.

Joel was there when Tess died. He was there for Sam and Henry. He was the one she fought so hard to keep alive during that winter. He saw her in one of her most vulnerable moments, right after she was assaulted by David and she brutally killed him. They walked across the country together, and that brings people together like you wouldn't believe.

Now he's gone. And Ellie can be vulnerable with Dina, she can talk to Tommy, but it's not the same-- and it won't be the same ever again.

She's only letting herself talk so much about her emotions, controls how much other people see. They think she's being reckless in her grief now? The minute she finds herself alone she books it on a suicide mission to find Nora. She shuts off completely and is driven by her rage and grief the moment she gets her hands on her. She lets herself feel everything, probably for the first time in months. She isn't worried about who might see it, because the only person with her in that moment isn't making it out of there alive.

So I think you're really on the mark with this one. We're going to see what Ellie is like with her only true source of understanding and support, and what she spirals into when that is so unfairly ripped away from her right in front of her eyes.

[yandere-daydreams]

saw one of the trending posts that asked the question "does your favorite author know they're your favorite author?" so i decided to submit this so you know you're my fav

you have such a large following and i've always thought it was so cool how you interacted with them, you handled sooo many annoying asks like "ew how could you write about yanderes why would you like something like that" to explaining why you don't include "i don't condone this type of thing irl" on every post that you make

i've always thought you were so eloquent in your writing and i know you did you got into this becuz there wasn't existing content out there that you wanted to see, so you made it yourself and i think your taste in literature must be so good since i've read what your writing is like

you have such a distinct style i can immediately tell when it's something you've written without needing to see it's your username at the top of the post

you have a true horror element to a lot of things that you make, and i've read some of the commissioned posts you make (which is just another thing that means your skill is real because people PAY YOU!!! to write their dirty fics like wow how cool is that) and even if i wasn't the person who commissioned them i thought they were so good in their own right that i would've been willing to spend money too

you churn new fic out like you're a 12-man team behind that screen like woah. meanwhile my drafts sit for wears collecting dust and cobwebs. which is another thing (this is the embarrassing part that made me go on anon) i desperately want you to follow me like i've genuinely sat in my bed wondering if i submitted an ask offering $5 for you to follow me if you would do it 😭😭😔

but i wanted to earn your following so i was like "well i write yandere stuff too so maybe if i keep writing stuff one day they'll follow me for it" but realistically that's not going to happen and you're just this cool untouchable person outside of my realm of comprehension

you have this no-fucks-given attitude which i really respect you for because alot of people have zero boundaries here and shamelessly demand things from people

i don't really know much about you outside of tumblr ofc so i wish you the best, like i hope you have an awesome job you enjoy doing that pays well with good insurance and days off and you find a super cheap affordable house and a good mileage car 🙏😔 times are tough and i hope you're doing well

ahhhh thank you thank you thank you!!! ngl it is very discouraging to be someone posting very niche content sometimes, so generously dulled out validation is always appreciated <3 i do accept paid promotions but you Must understand my prices are higher than that. i'm a whore but not a cheap one i fear.

also!!! about the wip thing!!! honestly i think it's just a matter of fully fleshing out + investing yourself into the concept before starting at all. it's much easier to stagnate when you don't know where your story's going. i've found the plot of plenty of fics halfway through but i have also. failed at that and had to start over entirely. what we do is not joyous but it sure must be fulfilling ig.

[walterdecourceys]

if i end up in another argument about the age of the earth i'm going to end up on the fucking news

[atomic-bobo]

Katie & Trip | Touch

[sukugo]

question!! if tumblr does go down, where are you guys going to? or at least where are u most active outside tumblr?

[sukibenders]

I'll never forget when Arcane was airing and Mel fans were pointing out the symbolism between her and Viktor, only for that side of the fandom to be so hateful towards her and her fans like it was bad. But now that their fave is gone and has nothing to do with the Noxus story like Mel does, that side of the fandom wants to talk about the symbolism all of a sudden but, here's the kicker, with only in regards to Viktor. Oh, they aren't even trying.

[todayisafridaynight]

rate the outfit

[toddtakefive]

thinking about todd and his resolve toward… not quite isolation, but being alone in a room full of people again. he goes along to the study room to sit on his own and do his homework, he sits at the poets table and follows along with what’s being said while keeping quiet, he goes to the meetings at all but doesn’t necessarily contribute (in fact, if you watch him when cameron is telling the story ‘from camp in sixth grade’, you can see that he recognizes it before any of the other poets but doesn’t voice it until they all have). he’s not alone, necessarily, if you want to get technical about it, he’s just lonely, and he’s generally okay with that. he doesn’t have friends and that’s fine, he doesn’t participate in class and that’s fine, he doesn’t have a relationship with his family and that’s fine—he could live without any real connection and he’d have been, more or less, fine.

the thing about when he says “i can take care of myself just fine!” is that he isn’t really wrong, you can infer that he’s been doing it his entire life anyway, it’s that ‘taking care of yourself’ isn’t the same thing as really living or being happy. todd’s an introvert, certainly, and even as he gets closer to the group he defaults to sitting quietly in the background, but he’s also denying himself community out of fear not introversion. todd isn’t friendless because he’s an introvert, although that definitely plays a part, he’s friendless because he pushes anyone that might want his company away. if anyone has every wanted for his attention in the first place. (neil’s unwavering interest in him is unique (even when it comes to the rest of the poets, who are fine with todd coming along and joining the group, but aren’t really hellbent on him being there in the beginning) and his refusal to accept it is a direct result of being so lonely growing up.)

there’s obviously something to be said about the implications of his parents neglect, and the more than likely fact that he grew up friendless, and how those both play a part in in him being so skilled at dodging social interaction/being so avoidant of it, but by the time we see him in the movie he’s all but accepted his fate as being alone his entire life. he’s already accepted being the family disappointment, and he’s already accepted he’ll never amount to anything, and he obviously doesn’t like it, but he’d have managed living with that knowledge without the confirmation that it was all wrong. would he have been miserable? almost certainly. but he’d have managed. he’d done it for that long already, anyhow.

[crystallizsch]

hellooooo sunset savanna event

not me just eating up the lil jamil crumbs (he doesnt even show up here)

also damn??? jamil CANNOT get a break. like kalim said there’s already a bunch of staff coming from scalding sands why do they still need the 17-yr-old college student 😭

you could argue he’s exceptionally great and capable at his job that’s why he’s still chosen to help but omg this poor guy just leave him alone 😭

dsfsd anyways this made me laugh (it was a note given to kalim by jamil) i love these two a lot

ALSO YUU AND GRIM ARE MATCHING AGAIN RAAHHHH

i actually havent seen grim’s cloudcalling ribbon??? so it was a really cute surprise when he showed up with it 🥺

“SURPRISINGLY NORMAL” “NOT STRANGE” BRO ARE THOSE SUPPOSED TO BE COMPLIMENTS OR???? 😭😭😭

i mean thank you to vil for calling us charming i guess even though it still feels a tad bit backhanded

aight back to the jamil torment

jamil you poor poor soul but this is so hilarious there’s just zero breaks for this guy

welp i finished the whole event in one go cant wait to see what’s next 😤

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Anyway, personally, I have always thought that the best remedy for getting dumped is to go on another date with someone you're not emotionally invested in yet [this is probably the polyamory and borderline talking but stick with me I swear it makes sense for at least some of us]

So when you CARE about a person and the relationship dynamic shifts, now you're in mourning right because you started to imagine them in different places in your life and it's emotionally painful to uproot those. But like. If you temper that pain with a person you KNOW that you aren't emotionally invested in (yet) it's a lot easier to challenge the weird thoughts a post-break up funk puts in your head.

Do I feel like a freak of nature who will always be alone because that's reasonable or because Jean-Paul over there told me he's got too much going on right now to keep going out with me? When I'm crying alone in my room, the answer is way less helpful! When I'm on a date with Steve From Accounting Who's Fun But Not My Type it's a LOT easier to remember that lots of different kinds of people are attracted to me, and my boundaries/choices in interaction with others can have a lot to do with how I experience them. See, Steve From Accounting can say and do a lot of things that just Do Not Bother Me, because. Well, why should they? And the reminder that I'm capable of setting down frustration or hurt, the reminder that I can mark lines with people on a case by case basis that I don't want them to cross, and it can be different for different people and that can be a GOOD thing, all that stuff makes it easier the next time I'm alone and feeling shitty to say "hey, these are sensations in my body that I deserve to tend to, but they are not Truth Coming Out Of Her Well To Shame Me Specifically and I can chill about it."

Honestly it's also really validating to remember that there are MANY kinds of affection and connection from others in the world. The loss of affection/connection that often comes with a break up can rattle me, and it's helpful to have the PHYSICAL IN MY BODY reminder that this will pass as I reorient within the other systems of affection and care I participate in. A break up hurts less if you're not also wondering where you'll get your needs met in the meantime.

Anyway it's day two of post-"let's be friends" stabilization and the playlist evolves with me so today's song is Perfect with Sam Smith and Jessie Reyez