#hospital talk

[vanweezer]

not to be all singing killed my grandma but ever since my first time in the psych ward as a kid i can like never Ever watch the superbowl the same. i like when my parents go to the bar or whoevers house to watch it. i like seeing my friends celebrate. but for some reason it puts me back to just. lying on an ez chair pretending it was a bed. sweating through my clothes with all the lights on. the loud tv. scaring myself awake when its really just nightly check ins. its so weird. i always expect the feeling to curl its way back on the day. it goes without saying i dont care for many sports. it also goes without saying that i love when those i love are happy. its just disorienting

[syntheticpaperd0ll]

happy pride to everyone and all, but specifically happy pride to those of us who:

are disabled in any way

are struggling with their health

are chronically ill in any way

are struggling financially

have oppressive families/environments

can't celebrate pride in general

are, have been or will be in hospital at any time this pride month

are bedridden, couchridden, anything like that

are or have been suicidal

you all deserve a good month, and a good life at that <3 i love you, happy pride!

[uozlulu]

So last month we got this notice from the doctor's office that she's moving to the next town over so everyone's got to change their appointments or you'll lose them. They wouldn't call me back because somehow my cellphone was listed as the default number to call which I never want because my voicemail won't work properly.

Anyway, I lost my appointment. Then they rescheduled me for Thursday. I get online to reschedule it yesterday and find out I don't have an appointment for Jan 25, 2024 but for January 24, 2025 (wtf)

So I canll them today and start out all "I need to move my Thursday appointment because I'm sick," and they're like "I don't see a Thursday appointment, but I see a Friday appointment for the 26th, do you think you might make that one?" and it's like no, friends, I will not I'm still congested.

So now I don't get to have my physical until September (bleh), but I did score a med refill appointment for Feb (yay)

[sentryvt]

Me: Had to go to the ER cuz of gut pain but I feel like I'm okay now

Also me:

:( they fucked my veins up but my lik guy gained a free galaxy

Long story short: went to the ER after a bad pain flare up to the point of struggling to stay conscious (and man it was a struggle), get to ER via ambulance cuz we fear it's pancreatitis again.

They run a bunch of test (blood and urine samples, glycemy test) while they get me Tradonal and other stuff through IV.

Doc comes to check on me and presses down on my abdomen, it's higher than normal and it seems to be my stomach so they give me anticid. Immediately start to feel some relief.

Turns out it's gastritis and im on meds for 4 weeks. Stress was really badly eating at me due to resurfacing trauma and me being in a bad period mentally wise over the past few months

I'm seeing my gastroenterologist tomorrow to talk and stuff. Like getting the MRI and more blood job done too to be extra sure I dont have pancreas issues.

Rn I'm genuinely fine. Exhausted beyond belief but fine. I did end up sleeping Monday away (I have barely any recollection of what happened. Apparently we did groceries?) and I rested plenty with light meals. The very good news to me is that I feel hungry. I haven't felt actually hungry over 3 weeks. Like actual "i need food in my belly" hunger and not "my sugar levels are too low and I havent eaten anything for how ling now?" Hunger.

[writinandcrying]

I had to do a medical procedure today and had anesthesia for the first time, I’ve always wondered what it would be like to go under the effect of it, I’d like to talk about some of my highlights according to my aunt

I bonded with a girl doing crochet at the patient waiting era, I said I loved crochet and did it too but I could only make one long piece and called it a “Barbie rug”

I poked 2 people next to me (I don't know who they were) To ask if everything was okay (they were also under the effect of anesthesia) and I remember that I got up to catch those hanging blood thingies (idk the name in English for that) for one of them, they weren’t taking anything but wanted to hold it none of the less, I stood up and took one when the nurse wasn’t looking LMAO

I didn't want to leave without hugging and saying goodbye to my nurse

Chief nurse: “who’s the nurse? Do you know their name?”

Me: “no, I know she had a baby in her forties and doesn’t have any wrinkles in her face, can I hug her goodbye?”

(I did not find the nurse and didn’t hug them goodbye which made me super sad tbh)

I asked for a cup of Coca Cola more than 3 times and got upset once again when there wasnt any. At a hospital.

there’s a bubblegum brand in my country that sells sort of like a little cup with several flavored type of gums in it, apparently my aunt had it in her car and according to her I held it close to my chest/heart the whole way to my place and told her repeatedly how much I love tutti-frutti bubblegum (I do love it a lot LOL)

When I got home I accidentally dropped a whole bowl of salad (whoopsie) and wanted to eat the bubblegum’s with regular food

Feed my dog ground beef with a spoon cuz it was “too hot” for her

If you ever feel afraid of doing anything that requires anesthesia, don’t worry!! you literally don’t… idk you don’t see anything happening? I was afraid I would wake up during the exam, i remember asking “will it take long to have an effect on me?” And the next thing I remember was the nurse saying “oh the procedure is already over :)” you can’t even recall falling asleep, and Literally going through the aftermath is so freaking fun lmao

[faofinn]

So I (Ev) have this thing that whenever we have Sicktember or Whumptober or literally any writing challenge, I end up in hospital. I've been here since Friday and Sicktember is fast approaching, whumptober prompts have just been released, and I'm staring at the same four walls going mad with zero inspo.

I feel sorry for Shiv, my long suffering partner, and partner in crime. Nothing ever changes, and it's not disappointed (in terms of consistency, I'm very disappointed in my health) us in the four years we've known each other.

Maybe next year, my body will understand that just because the boys get whumped, I don't need to be too.

...i doubt it...

[doyouevermakeasound]

Febuwhump Prompt Day 9: Voice Loss CW: Post-surgery talk, aspiration, hospital talk, vomiting mention

A/N: Admittedly, this one is going to hit closer to home since I’ve got a paralyzed vocal cord.  So, here ya go.  It’s a little more real whump than fictional whump but good to write down. 

The worst was the inability to yell for help.  The fear of being so close to everyone but being silenced, not by a gag, but your own body failing you was something they thought that they would never experience.  Now it was their reality.

How do you deal with your voice being snatched away like that?  How do you go to work once you’re recovered and find your limits have drastically changed?

Some spoke to them in a whisper back.  They were only mirroring what they heard.

Some got frustrated with them.  Speaking took longer.  It took breath that leaked away easily.

They grew increasingly uncomfortable even going out to order food.  If it was loud at the restaurant they relied on others to order for them.  For someone who tried to be independent, it hurt.  

Eating came with its own challenges.  Having aspirated once, the fear stood at the back of their mind.  They were alone when they had aspirated the first time and it was terrifying.  They gasped for air in between bouts of vomiting and coughing.  When they finally had the ability to catch their breath, they laid on the bathroom floor, not even crying because that brought their own challenges after their surgery.

Losing their voice took something from them.  It made them frustrated.  It made them anxious.  It made them depressed.  It made them feel vulnerable.

Vulnerable. 

@febuwhump

[talkfastromance4]

My grandma is back in the ER again. Please send healing thoughts and/prayers her way if you feel inclined🩷

[boldlyvoid]

7 years ago today i was in the hospital with sepsis, on my literal death bed, being pumped full of Dilaudid while i had to wait 13 hours for a surgeon to become available to take out my appendix. free healthcare is lit because i didn't have to pay but waiting that long and almost dying has fucked up my whole life

[jevsterchester]

Hello, everyone

It takes a lot for me to ask for help, but even though I'm a little scared I would still like to just kinda toss my hat on the floor and ask for a favor.

As some of you may know, two weeks ago my mom got gravely ill to the point that she had to be hospitalized.

Every single day I went over to the hospital and stayed with her all day to make sure she was doing well and to stay informed.

She had me jotted down as her personal caretaker and decision maker so I didn't go to work at all these past 2 weeks, almost three now @v@

I had some financial help from my family and also thankfully had quite a bit in my savings as well.

Driving back and forth, bills, and eating out did kinda help lower what I had saved up though, hehe;;

Even though she has been discharged from the hospital, she still has difficulty walking without support, let alone being able to like, cook and do other basic necessities, so I'm going to stay with her until she can at least manage that much.

I don't know how long this will take- at the rate she's recovering probably not that long but still, rather than let it get to a bad point I'd like to ask now for some financial help.

I'm...very embarrassed, and I know it's silly, but really if any of you can donate something, that would help a lot.

I'll be opening up commissions soon too when I feel a little more mentally stable so if you want to wait for that as well that's okay.

Thank you so much for...well, everything.

JevsterChester's Ko-fi

[tony-andonuts]

Update before I leave again

In the ER right now bc I'm finally having physical withdrawal symptoms (along with unberable anxiety and delusional episodes, idk if I'm just gonna be given meds n sent home after this liver test or if Im gonna be sent to rehab but I've been telling everyone (except the doctor i just realised FUCK) that they CANNOT tell my mom that I'm an alcoholic

[sevenoctober7]

Don't stop talking about Palestine 🇵🇸

[totghostly]

Bleeds so so sadly. I hate bloodwork, my arm hurts 😞

[uozlulu]

Can’t stop thinking about the new doctor I saw today suggesting a love coach.

Like just

1. I’d rather take the friends to lovers path rather than strangers trying too hard dating path 2. I am unkissed and almost 40. Which is why again, friends to lovers seems the more apt route. Let them get to know I’m a little weirdo first. They can unlock my backstory and then decide if it’s worth it 3. The level of pity that it was said with? Like I appreciate she doesn’t see me the way my peers and classmates did at school but like this lack of kissing isn’t due to a lack of trying

That said, it came from a place of respect in a way which isn’t a bad thing but I’m still just perplexed by it. Imagine wasting all that money on something that might not even pan out

[extroadinarily-empty-headed]

I'm so sick of going to the hospital. Over and over for the same issue. The surgery the medications, none of it worked anyway. Some made it worse. Months in the making of this build up of pain.

[bleakbluejay]

you motherfuckers have no concept of what "land back" or "decolonize" even mean. you're too busy demonizing entire groups of people, terrified, shitting yourselves, that they'll do even half of the horrors to you that you've done to them for decades or centuries. this shit comes off as hella racist for real. you hate arabs so much. you hate first nations people so much. you hate black people so much. even if you sympathize with them, you can't fucking bear the idea of them gaining freedom, independence, autonomy, safety, because you're so, so scared they'll hurt you back and cause chaos in the streets. these same people who just want to rebuild. who just want to go home. who just want to see their families again. who just want food. who just want medical care. who just want dry, warm shelter. you're so focused on the ideas of colonization, of "us vs. them", of one people displacing the other for a state to exist, that you cannot comprehend coexistence, and your only idea of peace is if an entire group of people were just gone and dead.

grow the fuck up. for the love of GOD, grow the fuck up.