#horrible from start to finish

[myrmecomorphisme]

Traumatised a goat today

[starry-bi-sky]

do yall ever think about bruce/batman!clone danny standing in front of his bathroom mirror after finding out he was a clone and silently tracing his face. The slope of his jaw and point of his chin. The high angle of his cheekbones and the shape of his eyes, the curve of his brow bones and the shape of his nose. The volume of his hair and the way it curls and gets fluffy when it gets too long.

His hair is black the same way a crow's wing is black. His dad's hair is black the same way a black bear's fur is black. His dad's eyes are blue like the ocean is blue. Danny's eyes are blue the same way a glacier is blue.

His dad has a square jaw and straight flat hair, and he tans and gets a face full of freckles when he's out in the sun for too long. Danny burns like a lobster and his face remains untouched. Danny has a sharp jaw and tall cheekbones, and Sam says when he's not smiling there's almost something regal about him. You would never call Jack Fenton "regal" when he's not smiling.

Sam says when he's not smiling he looks scary the same way a stone statue is. Jack Fenton when he's not smiling looks scary the same way that german shepherd staring at you across the street is.

Do you ever think he grew up wondering if he was adopted. Because of course, he has black hair and blue eyes like his dad. But having the same color doesn't make you someone's child.

Or, worse, things he's heard from the other kids and the other parents and even some of his teachers growing up; that he was the product of an affair. And that his dad was just too stupid to notice. And Danny would defend his parents until the day he died, because Jack Fenton wasn't an idiot and Maddie Fenton wasn't a cheater.

But doubt comes in with fickle tongue. his parents swear up and down that he is their child when he asks about either. That Danny just had his grandparents' features, but he was their son and they loved him.

But Danny doesn't look like either of his parents. His mom's eyes are blue like an aquamarine and Jazz's too. And they burn like lobsters in the sun too, but Jazz gets freckles on her face and so does Maddie. And as Danny grows up he doesn't bulk up or get stocky like his dad did, and when he hits puberty he doesn't shoot up like a tree like Jack Fenton did.

He stays small, and they say he's a late bloomer (and he is), or that he just has his mom's height. But he's fast and has good stamina, and some days it feels like he's built entirely different from his family. That the things they went through growing up just didn't apply to him. Jack and Maddie Fenton both had acne and breakouts when they hit puberty, and Jazz inherits it and he's seen the amount of skincare products she keeps on her side of the bathroom.

And then he hits puberty and breaks out maybe once or twice, but his skin stays clear for the most part and the problems and changes his dad went through just don't happen to him.

And the truth is worse than all of the lies.

How horrifying.

[expelliarmus]

[deus-ex-mona]

we’re really in it now chizuchan…

[anastacialy]

alright as much as everyone (including me) has been nitpicking and critiquing season three of bridgerton i have to hand them one thing and that's no other season has made me this insane

[creaman]

You look lonely… I can fix that.

[apostatively]

Finding out folks’ respective opinions on the end of DA2 for the past few weeks while we all discuss whether DATV has been Good, Bad, or The Same has been a massive surprise for me.

I guess my perspective had been that Hawke didn’t fail to save the city, since Anders is not their dang legal dependent and potentially they’ve truly done their best to be there for him and support him while he’s been going through a particularly fucked-up time (at least in my worldstate). And since Hawke hasn’t been elected the Anything of Anything, and didn’t agree to take full responsibility for the entire city when Meredith or whoever named them Champion. Like yeah, okay, cool - this is probably ceremonial, right? They didn’t campaign for it and weren’t elected. And since they actively fight to put down immediate threats to the city in the final act - Meredith and (for some dumb reason) Orsino, and succeed at that and prevent as much loss of life as they are physically able…how is any of that sincere effort a failure? I’m not saying it isn’t possible to try your hardest and fail either, but in a situation that was never in Hawke’s control in the first place, that’s not what I see from the game’s ending at all.

A Hawke who isn’t purposely evil and doesn’t torture their companions or punch down maliciously on their community and acts in good faith has NOT failed to save anything, imo. There were always going to be circumstances beyond their control, and part of what makes them a hero is how much unnecessary pain and responsibility they willingly shoulder to try and protect anyone/everyone. If they fully supported their friends, with the exception of a potential DLC character, they all fight to save those who can’t save themselves, and they and the people they care about make it out in one piece.

There are multiple inevitable “failures” Hawke is set up to experience in the narrative, but the ending, fighting to defend others and living on another day with your family of friends, always felt like winning to me. I’ll probably replay DA2 multiple times over the next few years in search of hope or comfort.

Veilguard has not felt that way to me at all, because it’s intentionally not written with “your friends make it out” as an achievable win condition. Aside from the development hell resulting in a much shorter/more narratively limited game, I don’t understand how this feels similar to DA2 to some players.

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

[vivi-illniat]

"I love you in every universe"

[certifiedmaidenlessblog]

Trying so hard not to be a detestable human to my project partner

[rollercoasterwords]

What other fandoms do you think you’d write for? Or are you strictly an HP writer?

PS. Love ATWMD and THTF. Your writing is impeccable.

i’ve written a captive prince & succession fic as well so! & have also briefly written fics in some other fandoms when i was much younger which r now too embarrassing 2 name lmao

honestly not sure what other fandoms i’d write for it honestly just comes down 2 whether i’m gripped w an idea for certain characters…would love 2 escape hp fandom lol but i think part of why it’s sucked me in so bad is that i like fucking around w the holes in the canon universe…like most of the marauders fic i’ve written has been either canon compliant or canon divergent & me going “hmmm what would these characters do in this context” & now bc i’ve spent so much time thinking abt & writing them it’s just also becoming easy 2 plug these characters into aus 🤧

actually thinking abt my fic writing experience generally the thing that tends 2 make me wanna write fic is if there’s something abt canon that i wanna patch in…like my captive prince fic is just canon but from a different character’s pov & my succession fic is just “what if kenstewy were canon” lol. have thought abt writing aftg from andrew’s pov & the first book of the feverwake duology from dara’s pov simply bc that’s something i enjoyed doing w atyd & captive prince but never actually did…guess i could also see myself potentially writing spn fic if i came up w an idea i liked…& honestly i think if i ever reread trc i might go crazy for real & could then potentially decide 2 write fic who knows. but atp i feel like marauders fic has just become my comfort zone…it’s just a weird balance to strike where a story has to have characters i love but be unsatisfying (poorly written/queerbait/not actually queerbait but i’m delusional/would be fun 2 see from another character’s pov) enough that there r gaps i wanna fill. so like there r various stories/franchises/series i’ve loved where i’ve just never felt compelled at all 2 read or write fic bc i got everything i wanted out of the story etc!

[snakegirllovehandles]

👁

inscryption is scary

[goatskickin]

I WOULD retexture objects again, but I just really hate everything thing about the process of doing it

[ladykyrin]

Told my psychiatrist today that I’m tired of fighting my mental illnesses because I’ve been in treatment for eight years and I’m still suicidal, and she responded, “I mean, what have you really been doing to fight, though?”

It would’ve hurt less if she’d punched me in the fucking face.

[iwakuraz]

it'll all be okay because there's only one more day left in the school week and after that it'll be the weekend. wait no what do you mean after the weekend I'll just have to go back to school? what do you mean the cycle of going to school and coming back home completely worn out is gonna continue?

[skyward-floored]

I might be writing something Christmas-y? maybe