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i just read chapter 46 of jinx and OMFG WHATSUSJDKFKFKRKD (spoilers)
fyi i’m absolutely zooted rn so if this is wacky then sucks 🤡🫵🏼
BROOOOOOOOO the fact dan suddenly went a full 180!!! like FINALLY HE REALIZED LIKE FINALLY DAN!!!! jaekyung is lame asf we don’t need him here
BUT OMG THE PLOT THERES A REAL PLIT WTAFFFFFF the fact some mafia bastard r targeting the human asswipe is so funny to me, like finally u reap what u sow bitch 🤡
but the plot is actually so interesting i was NOT expecting it like wooooaaa
it’s crazy man
#the room is spinning guys i’m on cloud fuckijg nine#hopefully this makes sense- it’s hard to think rn#jinx is my 13th reason okay#jinx mingwa#jinx#jinx manhwa#this manwha has cause me an unnecessary amount of stress like wtaf#manhwa#fuuuuck
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" just know that i'm always here for you, okay? "
i'm finally finishing up my s2 rewatch and getting to the 24th episode awoke a beast in me. so i wanted to make a fake screenshot based on some of their lore that takes place during that episode. i think they'd end up having a heart-to-heart moment since kuroba went through similar struggles after their grandfather's own hospitalization...
also have a bonus doodle bc i need to even out the balance between serious & goofy with these two.
#my urge to attempt writing a fic based on this is SO STRONG. even though i do not have a lot of experience w/ fic writing#buT GAAAA I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THE LAST TWO EPISODES AND KUROBA....#it's hard to put into words rn but god there's so much.....#like. kuroba trying to help out matsuyo behind the scenes since they sympathize with how hard things can be when i loved one ->#is in the hosptial due to something that could've been life threatening ( matsuzou's heart attack & chouji's hip + leg injury )#i also think they personally delivered some get-well flowers to matsuzou and checked up on him in the hospital#that's not even getting into everything that happens after the sextuplets die...#i won't go into it rn but there's a reason why matsuyo & matsuzou are very keen on kuroba marrying into the family#ALSO I FINALLY DREW A BACKGROUND AGAIN AFTER 50 YEARS#now ya'll have a lil insight on what the inside of kuroba's shop looks like hehe#hopefully my rambling is making sense rn. i hope it is 😭#osmt#yumematsu#osomatsu-san oc#karamatsu#mj ocs#oc : kuroba#ship : kurokara#mj draws
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#been a minute but let's update and vent for a sec#crazy couple weeks first of all with bobby dying (which completely wrecked me) and then finals right at the same time#lets just say i did my best and we hope I pass#i dont need the best grade i just need to pass#still in turmoil over bobby tbh its been up and down im numb at this point#trying very hard to ignore and live in the dream world of none of it ever happened#but then i think to hard and i get sick and so angry#like if anything im firmly in the anger stage im so pissed off at everything that happened#i could rant forever on that topic but I'll spare u#other good news i graduated!!! no more college#good and bad#horrible work weekend#in a constant state of anxiety and sadness lately cant say why.....#but ive got a trip coming up that will hopefully let me relax and recouperate#and then who knows#but im trying to get some art done#sooo many ideas but executing it's really hard rn#if i can just get past the weird mood of the week but#i keep coming back to 911 and how frustrated and pissed off i am#and sad#rahhhhh its so rough out here#i need the overwhelming impending sense of doom to go away too#911 is only making it worse tbh#someone free me#theres a life update for u since ive been kinda not the most active#but trust ill be back with art and other nonsense#and maybe eventually expand this blog to more of my interests#i also wanna get a proper tag system started....... long over due sorry guys#ris rambles
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Golden Apples — a Helen of Sparta themed playlist
Seeing people share songs that they associate with different greek mythological characters yesterday inspired me to curate some of the songs from a (very) long playlist of mine into this:
All the songs are intended to be from her perspective, and some relate to her relationships with different people (Menelaus, Paris, Hermione) and some relate to herself. There is an (attempted) chronological order going on here, starting from pre-trojan war and ending post-trojan war.
I hope you enjoy! 💜 (I'll put the tracklist + which characters each song relates to below the cut):
Wife by Mitski — (Helen and Menelaus)
Abbey by Mitski — (Helen)
Remember My Name by Mitski (yes there are 3 mitski songs in a row. no I am not sorry.) — (Helen)
King by Florence + The Machine — (Helen + a little bit of Menelaus and Hermione)
I'm Your Man by Mitski — (Helen and Menelaus)
I Just Threw Out The Love Of My Dreams by Weezer — (Helen, Menelaus and Paris)
Sinner by The Last Dinner Party — (Helen and Paris)
Rose-Colored Boy by Paramore — (Helen and Paris)
the fear is not real by WILLOW — (Helen + a little bit of Nemesis)
How I'd Kill by Cowboy Malfoy — (Helen and Paris)
Butterfly Net (feat. Weyes Blood) by Caroline Polachek — (Helen and Paris)
Children of the Empire by Weyes Blood — (Helen, Menelaus and Hermione + basically everyone. This is a fallout/aftermath of the trojan war song to me... :[)
A Lot's Gonna Change by Weyes Blood — (Helen and Hermione)
Phantom by Rina Sawayama — (Helen + potentially a tiny weeny bit of Hermione too)
Maybe at some point later I'll explain some of these choices and why certain songs for certain relationships... but for now, hopefully you can have a listen and decide for yourself what you think!
#helen of sparta#greek mythology#playlist#music#excuse the high percentage of mitski it was necessary. they all work so well how could I not use them??????#hm I don't think I have anything to say in the tags for once... unprecedented for me tbh.#okay 1 thing. I try to think about continuity and flow so there shouldn't be any jarring song transitions. hopefully.#I would give some explanations now but I'm finding it hard to do so lol... it makes sense in my head but I can't get it out of there rn#anyway. I'm pleased with how this turned out ^w^
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Despite all odds, I have arrived home safely👍
Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.
But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.
I do need to eat. But... later...
#speculation nation#im the special kind of tired where im more tired than hungry#which is to say my every cell is yelling at me to get some fucking sleep.#and i dont think id be much more successful at eating rn than i was this morning.#i ate. half a can of chef boyardee. which was half bc i was so focused on typing and half bc i could barely stomach it.#so i at least ate Something. but not as much as normal.#i did have an ensure in the middle of the day. so theres some nutrients too at least.#i'll eat after i get a few hours of sleep. when the edge is no longer so desperate.#and hopefully i'll be able to stomach things better then.#honestly have all nighters always been this hard or am i just getting older? i havent actually pulled an all nighter since uhhh#well there was kind of one on dead dad day. but that day sucked just in general.#last time i think was april '23 when i read t.rimax volume 9-14 within a 24 hour period while also finishing a final presentation.#even then tho i got like 2 hours of sleep. it was still pretty rough though.#like ok i guess those times were pretty awful and also i did get at least some sleep. which is more than today.#so it makes sense for me to be in worse shape rn. i also didnt get as much sleep the night before last as i wanted to#i got... ...maybe 4 hours sleep??? ummm. which isnt a good thing actuslly. no wonder im so fucking exhausted.#i can barely type right now i will be honest. it was so hard to bike home. it took all my focus to not drive off a bridge#or get pushed into traffic by wind. oh boy the wind sure did try.#then i almost tripped down the stairs at my apartment after grabbing the mail bc i Briefly was focused on my mail 🙄#barely present. total mess. but at least im home. and i already did all the thinking i need to do today.#i was brave. i perservered. i was tempted to give up around 6 am ish but i was like No. this is getting done TODAY.#so i did it. i turned it in. and i so bravely did my in class work for my 2nd class. even though i was so mentally not present the whole way#i did my thinking... i am home... rest soon.#actually its kind of funny im lying on my couch rn and i think if most other ppl were in my current state theyd fall asleep right here.#but the power of my insomnia is so. powerful. i am not at risk of falling asleep without meaning to.#only time thats ever actually happened are like. a handful of times i was like. the most tired ive ever been in my life. etc etc.#in fact idk how well i'll be able to fall asleep for my nap. i certainly couldnt last night despite how hard i tried.#hopefully this time... i am truly tired enough....pls i need to rest i am so tired 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<
#im gonna go and do my food shop etc to keep myself busy and hopefully my 2nd meds will kick in and we'll be able to handle it together#i think i kind of do this so regularly bc my brain is just processing everything bc i dont rly have time during the week#all cool tho im doing good overall def on the up n i feel way more capable of coping emotionally which is nice. i <3 meds#also.. possibly settling on the idea that i might be agender. very tentatively. lots of experiences n thoughts coming together rn#ive been reacting in unexpected ways to a lot of gendered shit atm which has made me reconsider the way i think abt myself#but very difficult to articulate it to myself let alone anyone else. so ive been sitting with it for now until it precipitates#gender stuff has never rly affected me much or ive never been in a place to explore it which is why i havent thought abt it super hard#but im not the sort of person who needs a lot of internal exploration to figure out my identity like im v self aware tbh#and while im wildly indecisive abt most things in my life for some reason i never have been abt stuff like this. i learned abt lesbianism#like idk 9 years ago-ish and straight away was like yeah that makes sense for me. never looked back since#n similarly ive experienced forms of gender dysphoria before n just immediately dealt with it symptomatically n moved on#its never been smth to agonise abt for me like i know what makes me comfortable in my skin so theres no question abt doing it#and ik im privileged to be able to do that. and also it helps that gender for me is mostly divorced from external perceptions#+ that im v autistic so social pressures dont stick to me very well. i mean yeah i was bullied for it as a kid but i was stubborn asf#so yeah from the moment i realised i was genuinely uncomfortable/upset abt it earlier this week i was like okay. lets try this instead#its given me pretty instant relief from any distress i was feeling so far which is nice. rare respite from one of my torture labyrinths#just testing out internally whether it frames things more clearly n makes me feel more myself/at peace before i choose to stick w the idea#but not gonna do a whole coming out fanfare either way. dont think i wanna change how ppl interact w me + im still a dyke#so i dont consider it relevant to anyone else unless they share a similar understanding of gender to me. or if we're v close#ill prolly broach it w other trans friends eventually bc insert philosophers talking image. but to everyone else its business as usual#happy to play my cis-sona at work. + w new queer ppl i meet ive been introducing myself recently w mirrored pronouns instead of any/all#and i think i prefer that. virtually indistinguishable but theres smth nice abt inviting ppl to recognise me the way they do themselves#like translating + localising a non-gendered language into a gendered one... simplifying decisions abt how to perceive me#and ofc ppl are still gonna perceive me however but idc much unless we're actually friends. the rest is all a performance anyway#doubtful anyone on here ever has reason to refer to me but if u do for some reason... im freeloading off ur pronouns now btw <3#but yeahhh. much 2 think abt. i need to read more alien/ai sci fi.. non-human sentience has been such a comforting concept lately#but yea tldr i woke up one morning this week like damn im prolly agender but i have a full time job to go to rn so idc abt that#.diaries#okkkk my dex is kicking in im no longer on the verge of tears lets go get these groceries wooohoooo
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don't be disappointed, but i might have to try writing again tomorrow ;; my brain is really fighting me rn
#everything sounds very flavorless to me if that makes sense?#i got ideas and excitement but my writing is lacking rn so i think it'll be best if i look at everything with fresh eyes in the morning#i maybe should've seen this coming bc my brain hasn't been operating at 100% all day tbh#i'm just!! so excited to write so it's a lil frustrating :(#but tomorrow i go in late and get off a lil earlier so hopefully!! i'll have an easier time getting stuff written uvu#i wanna write kisses and the build up so bad... especially bc some of the build up is so silly this time around :' )))#chiyo is pouting so hard in one of the responses i'm writing and i'm having such a good time imagining it asdfg#man... the braincells get to rest tonight ig but they better let me write tomorrow#get ready to ramble | ooc
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You know, after all the classes I've been having, I think I should stop reading text posts here for a while. Maybe only fandom. Wish I could block out general posts from my feed (there's a reason I have the #gen rb tag — for people to block out my non-fandom stuff if they so wish)
#i wanted to explain. i can't phrase it properly. so I'll just. leave it here#like. the schools of thought that are most predominant on tumblr are. idk i just...#I started noticing it after i started learning about the different schools of thought and it's. disappointing every time i see like.#ugh idk. im trying to find the names but i dont want to list every -ism ive seen on here and the flaws in those schools of thought#like. it's so ingrained on tumblr that you dont even notice it. it's just the norm.#the way people talk about certain topics has me tapping the relativism sign for example. or utilitarianism under disguise#etc etc and only after having classes about these schools of thought and how they manifest (again) am i starting to see the patterns#...i dont wanna go through dozens of schools of thoughts and discern which ones are on tumblr and which ones aren't.#(i started doing it and had to stop myself)#it's just something I've noticed and it's. idk. I just had to let this off my chest.#. this is just- life stuff is hard rn. and when i go to tumblr to destress and i see how some people talk. it makes me think.#it makes me think of all we're learning rn and how i actually disagree w some of the assumptions made in X post or another#... none of this is making any sense. im just stressed form real life and some tumblr stuff isn't helping. that's all.#this wasn't brought on by any particular post btw. i just was doing a reading for uni and thought of this#carime rambles#lmao. 'i wanted to explain but cant so I'll leave it here' -> *explains badly*. oh me.#i thought this was gonna turn into an 'im taking a break from tumblr' post but I realized that's not happening#but i will be... idk. less active. hopefully#uni is making me question a lot of stuff. and. yeah.
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in terms of art alone im sorry. im a jrjr defender to my last breath you be fucking nice to him. i dont wanna hear shit❗️❗️❗️
#can someone also get him better inkers rn i am begging. pleading even. HE MAKES GOOD STUFF THEY JUST GIVE HIM SHIT INKERS WHO DONT GET IT.#MY FIRM BELIEF. im sorry. i like his stuff. there are certain things not quite my taste but i think he does good overall im a fan. BE NICE#static.soundz#sorry that last post was so directly inspired by seeing someone go can u guys be nice he is on a fucking nutbag schedule. which he is.#i dont think some people understand the insanity of comic production. and how much it takes a toll on you.#many have said and i will say it too: comics is a killing industry. it is a beautiful fun job. it is fulfilling. it will also destroy you.#the most common and easiest to use example is in fact the manga industry. they want chapters in a week. 20 page type chapters in a week.#A WEEK!!! and currently look at things like webtoon as well which also expect the same amount of pages. in a week. an issue in a week#is an insane demand. it is an unreasonable demand. it is scheduling that leads you to a crash and burnout and health issues#because it is fully finished polished pages. as much as i poke and complain about how some things look there#i am also highly aware of production schedules. even if some styles are not my taste that still doesnt mean it isnt insane work#and it's the same in american big industry comics too. it isnt weekly demand the way those are. but it's still an intense schedule#you are working on pages and can get behind years before those comics even hit shelves.#and as it becomes more individualized too as we lose the team element and work becomes more one person doing all pencils and inks#that schedule is a lot. it just is. it doesnt matter if theres more time in comparison to other parts of the industry#the point is that it is all very demanding and exploitative. there is a drive yourself to your grave mentality here and i've had ppl try#to shove that mindset onto my and my peers which is the worst thing possible to encourage. highly alarming and disheartening to encourage#impressionable students already so worried about making it to drive themselves to an early grave. abuse substances to get through work.#work excessive hours while you still can because when you hit your 30s youre gonna lose that ability#become bitter and prepared for rejection as opposed to success because this industry sucks!#it's just such an unhealthy depressing mindset. i've had more artists preach the exact opposite as that and more ppl have been trying to#shift over to valuing your time and health. but still a lot of people are in that other mentality. and it's very very very sad.#i am only a student doing very low stakes homework for classes. i have no industry experience. and i still get it taken out of me#to do fully fledged out pages in my style in one week. this is also just a thing for me bc certain personal factors just make it hard#but still. comics are fun. they are fun. they are fulfilling. they will lead you to so many fucking issues if you are not highly careful#there is a reason why so so so many fucking comic artists have very well known issues. why you hear about so many ppl with substance issues#artists with very poor mental health. when you are in comics this is how it is.#i am glad there has been a big shift in recent years towards taking care of yourself as an artist. and that more ppl try to value it so tha#things can hopefully change at large in a broader sense. but please remember. we are an exploited chew up spit out industry too.
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i have a lot of thoughts and i need to let them OOOUT - This post is just a bunch of bullshit so don’t mind my rambling
Growing up I’ve never had much interest in people romantically- i did have a few crushes here and there but it was only like 3 people if i’m being completely honest- I never really bothered with dating and tbh no one asked me so it kinda worked out in a weird way lol- I have no desire to be in a relationship tbh, i enjoy being single and the idea of disrupting my current routine with another persons schedule is not appealing whatsoever- also, the thought of being in a romantic relationship icks me, i kissed someone once and it was the most disgusting experience of my life (tbh the dude was a TERRIBLE kisser, so i’m not completely closed off of the idea yet) and physical touch is not my love language lol- i don’t like being touched for the most part (expect by my mom or a few close friends)
And i’m not bothering to label these thoughts or tendencies with anythjng because I could change or my thoughts could change if i meet “the one” as my mom so graciously puts lol- hopefully someone can relate to the word vomit i just forced upon tumblr this fine wednesday morning 🫠
#relationship#sexuality#dating#i don’t wanna#i want to be left alone#just leave me be#relatable memes#hopefully this makes sense it’s hard to think rn
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Hii ik you said kenma was a bit hard to write for you but im getting on my hands and knees and begging u for more kenma content rn! ur last kenma fic was sooo goood and i need moree
4 + 4 + 4 + 4.
🫧 SUMMARY; — one rule in life: do not force kenma out of his comfort zone. (because it's mean)
🫧 WARNINGS; — anxiety attack; hurt/comfort
🫧 WORD COUNT; — 1484.
🫧 AUTHOR'S NOTE; — thank you so much, babes!! i hope you like this! i feel like kenma has a lot of suppressed feelings that he always deals with on his own, a lot of them being not wanting to be perceived by people. i'm also working on the final part of the other kenma fic so hopefully that should come soon :0 !!
please let me know what you think! -` ♡ ´-
“where is he?”
kuroo tetsurou’s fingers rubbed the space between his eyes, and he nodded up the stairs to kenma’s room, “thanks for coming. he won’t let anyone in. this hasn’t happened in so long.”
“of course,” you said, taking off your shoes, slightly out of breath, having run all the way from your own home at kuroo’s call. even though he hadn’t sounded panicked over the phone, there was a sense of urgency lying in the timbre of his voice; one that told you that he was worried and would really rather not be. when he offered you water, his shoulders were a little tense, and he kept trying to push back his hair, even though everybody knew how futile of an effort that was.
kuroo’s hair, for all intents and purposes, was a constant in this life; much like a fact to focus and bank on when things turned sour or when you needed a reality check. at least, throughout all the bullshit and the lemons the universe threw at you, kuroo’s bed hair stayed as messy as it was.
“thanks, kuroo,” you said, walking past him, and he called out after you: “i owe you ice cream.”
“make that chocolate milk, and you have a deal.”
you lost your smile when you stood in front of the wooden door, knowing that the door was unlocked but not daring to open it. kenma’s privacy was holy, his boundaries unshakeable, and when he felt like he needed to retreat most, there was no way in hell you were going to cross any of them.
so you spoke through the door, “kenma. it’s me.”
there was no answer, but you knew he heard you. as quiet and soft-spoken as he was, he was all the more observant to make up for the lack of talking. a sharp listener, even more cutting eyes, but there was a deep vigilance behind the gold, a duty of care that he tried to stuff deep down as much as possible lest he would have to deal with having his emotions spill out into the open, explain their existence, admit that he cared more than he felt comfortable to feel.
allowing your back to slide against the door down, you made yourself comfortable, slinging your arms around your legs, cheek digging into your knee.
“kuroo called me, but i think you already know that,” you said softly and you felt a weight settle on the other side of the door, a dull thump sounding out; the back of a head being leaned against the wood right next to your ear. you chose not to acknowledge it, “he said that the principal made you talk in front of the school, even though he tried not to involve you.”
so close to the door, you could pick up on the little quick breaths he was forcing through his mouth and you purposefully took an audible deep breath in before continuing, “that was pretty shitty of him, but despite being put on the spot, you did really well, kenma,” and exhaled just as loudly.
his breath hitched and you faintly heard the drumming of his fingers on the ground, the nervousness seeping out of his pores, the energy that he usually was able to contain so easily all over the place now.
another inhale, “you’re not in front of anybody anymore, kenma, it’s over. you’re here, alone and safe, nobody is watching you anymore,” another exhale. slowly he started matching up with you, though his breaths were still tinged with a little despair, heavy and panicked.
you breathed with him for a while, focusing on a specific rhythm, and asked him to hold his breath at times to stop his body from hyperventilating, forcefully pushing out the air as you talked, reminding him that he had suffered through those anxiety attacks before and came out of them fine each time, that he was safe and unharmed.
“my heart—” he breathed out, one, two, three, four, “—hurts.”
“i know, kenma. it will pass, i promise.”
his voice was so quiet, so tired, even more faint through the thickness of the door, “don’t go.”
“i won’t.”
“then why—” long inhale, holding, long exhale, “—do you sound so far away?”
you turned around at that; your fingernails resting on the wood, and you knocked with them, not wanting to startle him with your knuckles nor force him out of the dissociation that wanted to hug him like a cloak, “can i come in, kenma?”
instead of answering, you heard muffled shuffling and then the door knob turning. he didn’t open the door fully, but you knew that the little squeaking of the hinges was invitation enough.
you wasted no time in pushing it open, not even bothering to get up on your feet, just immediately crawling in, knowing that he hadn’t moved far. and you were right; there he was: kozume kenma with trembling shoulders that he tried to suppress, damp strands clinging to his neck and his temple, fingers incessantly drumming on his legs now, the other clutching his black shirt, fisting the material.
his eyes, usually so attentive, were far away.
“oh, kenma,” you sighed, forcing yourself to use his name instead of any endearments even though your tongue was used to using all kind of nicknames, but you wanted to ground him, wanted him to come back and not fall down any whirlpools of catastrophic thinking, “is it okay if i touch you, mhm?”
he nodded, quick and almost imperceptible, dragging a deep breath into his body, fingers tensing up then releasing the tension again. his shoulders followed, his abdomen, his legs, trying to let out all the pent up tension that worked itself into his muscles during his anxiety flaring up. your hands found neck and you pressed your fingers into his flesh in a rhythm he could follow, still breathing with him.
“i’m here, you’re okay,” you said quietly, voice calm and controlled, his pulse irregular underneath your fingertips.
his trembling gradually lessened with every second passing that you whispered any words coming to your mind that would be able to wash away his overwhelming thoughts; his breathing smoothing out, pulse calming, allowing his body to step out of the fight-or-flight mode it found itself in after having been forced outside of its comfort zone so harshly.
kenma’s head found the crook of your neck, his forehead tacky with sweat passing its warmth over to you. his voice was considerably calmer, though still a weak imitation of his usual tenor, “i felt like dying.”
“i don’t want you to die.”
“don’t worry, i have enough scrolls of revivify,” he groaned, trying to bury his face deeper into you, nose inhaling your scent, etching it into the folds of his brain.
you leaned back against the door and his body followed you seamlessly, draping his weight on you, one hand of his gripping the hem of your shirt instead, rubbing the new material between his finger tips, and you smiled against his hair, “i thought you can’t revive in honour mode.”
“don’t even remind me.”
you laughed, your fingers still on the back of his neck, nails drawing shapes onto his skin, and you felt goosebumps erupt on his skin.
he sighed, his eyes closing, hiding the intense golden irises from you, “i’m tired. sleep with me.”
it took you a lot of coaxing to convince him to get up from the floor and the position he was in, knowing he would hurt his neck that way. so even though it was only 6pm in the evening, at the end, you found your body entangled with his on the bed, his face buried in your neck again, a hesitant kiss pressed against your skin, one hand having sneaked up your shirt to hook his finger into your bra.
“thank you,” a breeze of air, low sound, almost like it wants to hide, but sincere, “everything feels right with you.”
before you could even answer, he had already fallen asleep, breathing softly against you, stray tears having dried on his lashes. your fingers didn’t stop threading through his hair, thumb following the curve of his ear, feeling his steady and now calm heartbeat against your chest, the twitch of his leg in his sleep.
“psst,” a whisper broke you out of daydreaming and your eyes scurried over to the door. the universe’s constant factor stared back at you with furrowed brows, sending a thumbs up poised as a question and you nodded.
kuroo’s shoulders visibly relaxed, the relief palpable, and he stood there for a moment, hands propped on his hips, shaking his head, exhausted from the worry he had tried to bury deep inside.
he disappeared for a second, before coming back up the stairs to station two milk packs onto kenma’s desk. chocolate milk for you, banana milk for kenma.
#haikyuu#haikyuu imagines#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x you#kozume kenma x you#kozume kenma x reader#kenma x you#kenma x reader#kozume kenma fluff#kenma fluff#kenma angst#hq#hq imagines#hq scenarios#hq x reader#hq x you#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu angst
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Allow me to go insane about perhaps the entirety of chapter 28
First and foremost, we are in it since page 1.
The fact that we are watching this interaction develop from the pov of the guys (since we are watching Hirano from above, like Kagi would and we are watching Kagi from below, like Hirano would) is totally insane.
This exchange is kind of so funny because Kagi says Hanzawa is gone and Hirano, who I would argue is still kind of processing the... straightforwardness and "strengh" (that's the only word I have rn) of the hug request is standing there like "and what does that even have to do with us?" and to some degree this is very important to me because this is Hirano we are talking about. Marriage = civial law Hirano. The 10 secs rule cannot exclude hair because it's made from protein just like skin, Hirano.
I need you to understand that this man has one hell of a convoluted thought process and in other situations he has taken mere seconds to come up with some weird analysis just so he can win whatever debate him and Kagi are having. AND REGARDLESS here we head a head empty no thought Hirano, he's thinking of one thing and one thing only, that being the hug and how it will fit in the puzzle that is his relationship with Kagi. And the hand clenching. Gosh the hand clenching. If only I had a nickel for everytime Kagi closes his fist or grabs at stuff to physically stop himself from crossing the line I would be a millionare. The hand clenching even makes me wonder if he actually belives no one will see them. In fact this is such a funny scene in the sense that Hirano is completely focused in their interactions and Kagi is the one coming up with unexpected loopholes to validate his actions.
I always think back on the "that passion... is focused squarely on me" scene whenever I see this expression on Kagi.
In fact it's interest to see how his expression has changed along with his feelings, desires and expectations about Hirano.
Let's do a timeline:
This was the first instance in which Kagi ever thought about kissing Hirano:

This is the passion scene I was referencing:

And then there's Kagi now who always looks five seconds away from devouring Hirano.
So it's no suprise that Hirano looks uncomfortable. This is the same passion and drive he has always admired from Kagi but now it isnt a driving force used to put effort in basketball or to study so that they can remain roomies, it's being used to expose Hirano to as many romantic situations as posible in hopes that he can reach a conclusion, hopefully a romantic one. And that a very complex expectation because romance and dating are uncharted terriotory for Hirano so ofc he's even more cautious than he tends to be and gosh I'm projecting but I dont think people get how GODDAMN frsutrating and tbh scary it is to know people are expecting something from you when 1. you arent sure what that would even entail and 2. you arent sure if you could perfom even if you knew it.
So anyway, what happens next is very important: (but there's also the whole translation deal so... let's take it with a grain of salt(? (I'll put in italics all the comments/analysis that was biased by the mangadex translation)
Kagi makes his request, Hirano is squeamish and he begrudgingly agrees because that's isnt he kind of thing he "cant's say no to"
As in, he isnt allowed to stop each and every of Kagi's advanced even if they arent directed towards something he's comfortable with simply because theirs is a delicate situation and first and foremost he wants to keep Kagi close. And keeping Kagi close and remaining as roomies is heavily dependant on him not breaking Kagi's hard so he can't refuse all advances right? Because he's pretty much uncomfotable with all things romantic but he can't properly deny Kagi a relationship unless he knows how a relationship would work, right? (I think that fron here onwards the things would remain the same regardless of translation)
And I love that here Kagi inmediately panics and backtracks. Because many things can be said about Kagi, he's passionate, he's intense, he can come on to strong but he would never want to hurt Hirano. He would rather lose sleep and study than stop having his presence close, he would rather clench his fist and stand at the line than ever cross it. Because ven if he would get what he desired he would lose the person he loves the most.
And this whole thing was a kinda tense so when Hirano finally exhales so can we as an audience. And we proceed to get back to typical hrkg antincs of "but are you 100% sure that I'm not presurring you into doing this because I wouldnt want to do this is you arent on board" x "stop whining and going in circles, let's do this and get over with it"
And once again we get Kagi's pov of Hirano. And I dont know if it would be crazy to say that it feel different than the first one but for starters now we see more of Hirano, other than his face and you can see the uncertainty in his hands.
Then comes the hug which is honestly the one and only reason I started this whole ramble.
First, let's look at past hrkg hugs: We have the famous infirmary one. And I want to draw your attention at a few points; first Kagi grabs Hirano sort of by the shoulders, in the 2nd page at the 3rd panel of the sequence Kagi pulls Hirano into the hug, a futile attempt to make it feel more reciprocal I would say and then he squeezes Hirano.


Now, this chapter's hug has much more movement.
In fact it's six pages long
Its starts fairly similar, with Kagi sorta holding Hirano by the shoulders
and it goes down from there
This... this panel haunts me. This is not the face of someone that's comfortable. We can guess that the culprit might be Kagi's hand on Hirano's waist since it's much more lower than where he usually puts his hands.
And no one is comfortable with this so, Kagi soon realizes and again, he backtracks
We finish with the usual hearty squeeze, this time there's no need to get pulled for it to be reciprocal since Hirano relies/lays on Kagi.
And then of course we have the guilt and crisis of feeling uncomfortable ("repulsed" is one of the word choices being questioned)
I don't have much to say about the rest, Hirano gets thinking thoughts, realizes that maybe it can work out if he's the one doing the hugging and we all celebrate.
(also, I find it so funny that all of their "realization" moments have literally the same page composition. I wonder if it's a Harusono quirk of if there's deeper meaning. In fact, the line gets straighther each time so maybe it's all about how they are reaching an understanding of each other )


Then he have a much more comfortable hug and perhaps some of the most kira kira sparkly pages we've ever had
In summary this chapter is very important cuz:
1. We (Hirano included) see Kagi backtracking. This is important because Hirano has gone from not realizing the dept of Kagi's desires to being aware that Kagi will never push him to do anything he's not comfortable with.
2. Kagi says that he knows how much care, which surely lifted a heavy weight from Hirano's shoulders and will helps us in the future
3. Hirano basically learned how to say no and that he has a right to work things in his own way (can be debated based on the translation but I feel the point would still be something to worry over in general(?)
#Yeah I think that's all#I feel I basically said nothing but oh well#Welcome to a re-read of chapter 28 feat Aster's commentary ig#Hirano to Kagiura#believe it ot not it took me like 2 hours to write this#Most of the time was spend looking for references (past chapters screenshots)#I think this is officially my longest post since forever#due to a mix of anxiety and the notice about the questionable translation I wanna make it clear that#in no way shape or form am I part of the Kagi haters and or demonizers#he's just a teen guy#and if I ever say that part of the chapter felt like horror to me it's just a reference about how stressful and tense they were#it's more about the suspense of what will happen than true actual horror#you know?#anyway excuse that and any other incongruences#Did edits due to the translation debate :D#But actually I think I focused much more on the visual aspects like pararels and pov so most points still stand(?
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hello author 👋🏻. Do you have any advice for readers who would want to play a low corruption MC and high corruption Lux route in regard to choices? I know you said it would be hard so I was just curious.
Im not showing you guys the corruption stats outright, because I want for players to figure it out their corruption levels while they go along.
However, if you want a low corruption MC with a high corruption Lux, you have to a) have your MC be upset at moral failures and b) not hold Lux accountable for their own moral failures. So for example, if Lux kicks a puppy in front of you, you’d have to be upset by it, but forgive them too easily and not cause them to think, “Why shouldn’t I kick a puppy.”
Hopefully this makes sense, I’m super sleep deprived rn so it might not make any at all.
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Pick a Card: Where is Your F/S?
Choose a photo that calls to you and the cards will tell you a message. As always, this is just for fun. Do not take anything seriously or above legal or medical advice. If your interested in personal tarot readings and want to support me, check out my Paid Readings! Masterlist



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Pile 1
Channeled Messages: "Fly high , little one. Fly high," empty, ducks in a row, distracted, just can't get it right
Okay, this is good energy here. Where are they? They are partying. Some sort of gathering or celebration. Something that's giving them a lot of inspiration. I'm almost feeling like this celebration isn't necessarily for them, but it's kick starting them to fulfill something on their own. It's kind of opening their eyes to something they haven't seen before and it's making them feel free from something they were struggling with in the past. This idea could lead them to make a hell of a lot more money, or maybe this celebration is due to them making more money and now they feel more comfortable and stable to pursue something they've been thinking about for a while. Wherever they're at, they're feeling a sense of joy, success, and youthfulness that they haven't felt in a while.
Pile 2
Channeled Messages: indented, stopping to think, CONTEMPLATIVE, mirror image, butterfly, spoon, shiver/cold
I had to stop and brainstorm a few times before doing this reading, so your person might be very in their head right now, for better or worse. Okay, we got all cards in reverse, so it's probably for worse. They are stuck somewhere. Hopefully not literally. I keep seeing a picture of a room. Maybe they're in 'hermit mode' right now, which is funny since I didn't actually pull that card. However, instead of working on themselves and healing like the hermit typically intends, maybe they're just hiding away in fear; spiraling with thought after thought about something. It's healthy to allow yourself to feel or to need time away every now and then, but I'm seeing they have definitely overextended their stay. The cards are saying 'its time to go now'. I'm seeing a shaded, quiet room with empty bottles and candy wrappers. I'm hearing they may have spent the past few months in a constant state of alertness which caused them a ton of stress which explains why they've been hiding away, just to get a break. Sorry, to end on a sad note, but they're having a really hard time getting their energy back right now.
Note: It took me a while to shake off the energy of this pile, and immediately upon starting pile 3 I felt this huge weight lift off my head. Pile 2, your f/s is likely in a really dark place rn, I'm sorry.
Pile 3
Channeled Messages: Easy by The Commodores, sweet, light & giddy
I'm not feeling an overall negative energy here right off the bat, however the cards are suggesting that your f/s may feel very insecure right now. I think they're in a place that is blocking their creativity or feminine energy. They might be surrounded by people that are pushing them around, unbeknownst to them, and this is subconsciously making them feel insecure and unsure about themselves. I'm picking up a lot of feminine energy from this pile, which doesn't mean your f/s is necessarily a woman or anything. Maybe they're surrounded by a lot of women, but I don't think in a romantic way. I'm feeling that a woman close to them is really getting in their head and influencing them in a negative way. All in all your f/s has very good energy, I think they're a very kind and sweet person, but at the moment they aren't surrounded by those that have the best intentions.
#love tarot#tarot#tarot cards#tarot reading#channeled message#intuitive readings#valentines day#valentines#love reading#pac#pac reading#pick a card#pick an image
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TMAGP 39 - Dependents Spoilers
Reactions and Theories
Reactions:
GEORGIEE!! Ok, so Sam episode! Yay!!
Alice's parents' house?
Could still be alive? So TMAGP!Alice's parents are dead?
Breaking and Entering, go Georgie! Be gay do crimes!
Sam's humming is a fun nervous habit
TMA!Alice!
She's kissing him??
They were married???????????
Oh shit, TMA!Sam is dead...
Oh that's interesting, a lot of couples were trapped together.
Dreamsharing??? Like Jon and Elias did????
Ok, so Alice is in retail, beep-beep.
They were in the Flesh domain... That would make sense with TMAGP!Sam's trauma with the skeleton at the Institute.
Oooof, as a trans person, I am relating really hard to this story(? statement?) rn
Not the flesh being transphobic too /jjj
T4T Sam and Alice anyone?
This is very statemnt-y... Is [ERROR] there? Or Sam, do you have something you want to tell us? A connection with the Eye perhaps?
I wonder if Basira's a dreamer? With Daisy?
"Don't leave." Ouch.
THANK YOU SAM, SOMEONE NOTICED!
Oh, so they ARE going back to Alice. That's gonna be bad. She and Sam in TMA-verse (from her statement at least) seemed pretty co-dependent...
THE ARCHIVIST CAN TRAVEL THROUGH THE TAPE RECORDERS???? IT'S THE ONE LISTENING??????????
Theories:
From what we know so far about TMA!Alice, everyone she loved (her parents, Luke, and Sam) is dead, and she is stuck alone, with the only connection to her past being through her dreams (to Sam). This STRONGLY parallels TMAGP!Alice, which makes me extremely worried for her and her meeting with Heinrich Unheimlich even more worrying, with his Flesh elements (the cannibalism (?) pigs).
However, there is a difference between the two Alices: Our Alice isn't with Sam, she is not in a co-dependent relationship with Sam. I hope that this is enough to change her fate. Furthermore, while Alice is working on getting Sam back, she is more focused at the moment, with retracing Colin's steps and figuring out what FR3D1 is. I'm hoping this connection (as well as Celia's friendship and Gwen's friendship (possibly more)) will save her. She has much more of a support system in TMAGP and she has the added "distraction" (for lack of better words) with Colin's notes (and Joe Spooky's cousin/j).
The Archivist seems to be growing more powerful, with the traveling through tape recorders and (possibly) compelling without being physical present or killing Alice (although, I'm more inclined to believe that this was Sam compelling her, as he has been the only one to survive the Archivist when giving a full statement). What's interesting about this is that it's not going after Sam. It not going after Georgie and Melonie makes sense - one cannot feel fear and the other severed her connection with the Eye, but it has no real reason NOT to finish Sam off, unless it can't. This might mean that Sam's connecting to the "leftovers" of the domain, however, he probably won't Become, since the Fears are much more present in TMAGP!verse.
As for the next Sam episode, I think Alice might die. It would make sense for her too, she's stuck with the Fears as the only chance to see Sam (her Sam), and would probably jump at the chance to see him again (sort of like Ash in ep 37). I feel like it's going to act as a wake-up call of sorts for Sam? Like, oh shit, this could happen to MY Alice (as she's actively in danger with Heinrich Unheimlich). Maybe TMAGP!Alice Becomes. She will probably get scars. Maybe (but hopefully not) she'll die (please don't die TMAGP!Alice). Either way, it would act as a nice parallel between universes.
Based on the pattern, episode 40 should be back in TMAGP!verse, so I guess we'll get to see what will happen to Alice (please don't die, please don't die, please don't die).
See y'all next week!
(No updates on the Bingo yet. I mainly based it on TMAGP!Verse- Gwen hasn't screwed up completely yet and we haven't seen those I predicted we would see from TMA so...maybe something next week?)
#the magnus protocol#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#the magnus protocol spoilers#alice dyer#celia ripley#gwen bouchard#gwendolyn bouchard#sam khalid#samama khalid#Melonie king#georgie barker#tmagp georgie#TMAGP melonie#tmagp season 2#ghost and tmagp#theories#reactions#tmagp speculation#tmagp theory#tmp spoilers#tmagp 39
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CAN YOU MAKE JEALOUS HEADCANONS OF THE METAL CARDBOTS A AKEGWJSGSJHSKSHS 😇
Scrolling through my dusty inbox rn, and YOU'RE the first one to be written!!! Congratulations, you won the lottery
Jealousy kills the cat (not really)
Who knew that giant, transforming, alien robots could be so jealous?
S1 Mcb
Fluff!!
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It seems like you've been spending too much time with your friends instead of them. Oh no! Hopefully they don't think you're abandoning them.
Blue Cop
• Most likely to immediately confront you about it.
• It doesn't bother him entirely, should you decide you want to spend time with your friends. But it's been days since you two spent time together!
• He's not one to hide in his jealousy, but it does tempt him sometimes. He doesn't even know how he got so attached to you.
• He's an insecure little bot, so don't be surprised if he feels like he's been abandoned by you. The poor bot just needs some reassuring!
• He confronts you about it in a way that's... a little bit awkward. The scene almost made it look like you two were either breaking up or confessing to each other.
"I'm sorry... I just.. get a little jealous sometimes."
*He apologized as he handed you FLOWERS.
Mega Trucker
• Denial is a river in Egypt, but he is also the embodiment of it.
• Unlike Blue Cop, seeing you spend more time with someone else than him actually does bother him. Though he doesn't confront you about it. He pouts a little seeing you with someone else.
• The one time he does confront you is when he has decided he's had enough.
• He's the type to drag your attention away from your conversation by quite literally talking over the other person. Then dragging you away, of course.
"Jealous? *scoff* Please!"
*He says whil slowly dragging you away from your conversation.
Mega Ambuler
• Even with how unbothered Mega Ambuler appears to be, there's no doubt that he's jealous. You could see it in his eyes... or optics.
• You don't expect him to be Jealous, so it is a surprise. He sulks in silence and broods whenever he's alone. At least when he thinks he's alone.
• He doesn't directly confront you, but you'd notice by the subtle hints of jealousy from him.
• Holding your hand whenever you're talking to someone else, scooting a little closer to you. It's all there.
"Are you done with your conversations? No?
... Continue on, then."
Phoenix Fire
• Poor bot, doesn't know what to do with his jealousy.
• He tries to confront you about it, but each time he does he gets a little nervous and instead just completely forgets about it.
• He gets a little anxious and antsy, so whenever he's around you he starts being a little fidgety. He thought that, maybe he just wasn't fun to hang around with anymore. That thought alone made him pout.
• He does confront you eventually, though it's, in a sense, indirectly. He sent a little note and some flowers, asking and or apologizing if he's not enough for you anymore.
"Wait, you're not... actually ignoring me? Oh... I thought-"
*He starts sobbing and hugging you like a wet dog.
Shadow X
• He's sort of a loser, so of course he gets jealous. Poor bot becomes a sad wet cat whenever he sees you busy in a conversation with someone else.
• He doesn't sulk in silence or broods in the corner. He huffs and puffs and stomps his feet whenever you're not giving him attention. It's true!
• In the end, he becomes sad and starts actually trying to gain your attention. In the most annoying way, of course.
• He pokes you, nudges you, doing literally anything just so you'd pay attention to him again.
"Come onnn! Look at me!!"
*He grumbles as he kicks the ground.
Dexter
• He's not one to get jealous easily. It's actually very hard to get him jealous!
• But... Sometimes there are exceptions. Let's say you've been hanging around without him for a whole month. Who wouldn't be jealous? Certainly not him.
• He quickly tries to confront you about it. Asking why you suddenly stopped hanging out with him, if he's done anything wrong and the likes. If he doesn't get an answer, then that's when he's had enough.
• He sulks in the corner one day and starts thinking about everything he'd done that month to see if he pissed you off somehow. He probably talks to the cats about his worries too.
"I didn't do anything wrong... Right? Please just tell me what's wrong..."
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It's been YEARS. /j
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