#hopefully my last
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
deleted last post I think i'm going to keep this blog strictly fandom
#i know this is my blog and I can do whatever I want but I think that this is unhealthy#i'm in a fandom talking about personal things and this is not the purpose of this blog#im trying to look at this from the perspective of a stranger and it's awful#maybe i like to pretend i have an audience but i'm just tricking myself and shoving my drama to other people's throath#and i dont want that#i need to move this somewhere else#and yet here i am oversharing again on a social media post#hopefully my last#i just have a compulsory need to belong and thats why i try to make a lot of “”art“” to post#i want to give things to other people because i need to be seen even if it just for a short moment
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I have an in-person organic chemistry class tomorrow morning and I'm so afraid
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
autumnal chill....featuring the girl
#my art#oc#svanhildr#furry#anthro#goat#almost typed ''featuring the girk''#my favourite girk of all time baby#this took an INORDINATE amount of time but also i was experimenting with style so maybe it's somewhat ordinate#i did the brush/texturing too small but it looks nice when you zoom in on some parts#and i finally have a decent twitter banner so small mercies#anyway summer kind of sucked this year - not much warm weather. better than last year but still pretty bad#hopefully september comes in clutch with some last minute sun. so i can appreciate the autumnal chill more when it comes#also scrumping season is coming to a close and i regret not eating more greengages when i had the chance...they rotted off so fast#apple season save me. save me apple season#illustration
11K notes
·
View notes
Text
Been noticing some strange weather patterns on the hc server lately?
#hermitcraft#hermitcraft 10#hermitcraft clips#hc s10#grian#rendog#cubfan135#goodtimeswithscar#skizzleman#vintagebeef#ijevin#this is my second time trying to upload this video hopefully it goes through#but yeah all these clips are just from the last week it's driving me a little insane
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
another super insulting part of the watcher situation i haven't rly seen ppl addressing much
ryan deadass saying smth like "nobody else on youtube has made tv quality content"
like... i really feel like it's important to highlight that bc not only do they obviously have no respect for their audience, but that statement shows they have no respect for their peers in the industry, either.
not to mention it is a shining example of bleeding arrogance to such a high degree, you will straight up fucking lie bc you're truly convinced you're that special when you're anything but.
there's been NUMEROUS online creators who were recognized by entertainment industry workers BECAUSE they made tv quality content & even full stop blockbuster quality content.
bo burnham started on youtube & is now one of the most wellknown & loved standup comedians of our generation, with numerous netflix specials & even a movie he wrote & directed under his belt.
the try guys, fellow ex-buzzfeed employees, had their own tv specials on food network (based off their youtube shows, btw) & a documentary made about them as well
rosanna pansino has also been on numerous food network shows both as a host & a judge
quinta brunsun, another fellow ex-buzzfeed employee, went on to create her own whole ass sitcom that has been highly praised
matpat cameo'd in the fnaf movie because of his theories & multiple other fnaf creators had small cameos through the employee of the month board easter egg
markiplier made multiple high-quality shows on youtube & is now working on a highly anticipated movie (he was also planned to cameo in the fnaf movie but couldn't due to conflicting schedules with his own movie)
hot ones got their own tv gameshow due to their popularity & they are still one of the most wellknown, beloved & respected internet shows
many short films made on youtube went on to premiere at film festivals & even in theaters
the hit horror film "talk to me" was created by youtubers rackaracka
webseries of actual fucking tv shows have also existed for literal decades
the list goes on.
to seriously think that overproduced bullshit is all you need to make "tv quality content" is not only tone-deaf, but shows they do not even know what they're talking about. many tv shows & huge blockbuster movies are made with absolutely microscopic budgets & small teams, & they still get praised & awarded for the passion, dedication, & creativity that shined brightly under those restrictions.
the blair witch project is probably the most wellknown & highly praised example of this, but it is far from the Only example
it is a whole other slap in the face, again ESPECIALLY when puppet history is one of their most popular shows, to spit in the face of internet history. to see the success of their predecessors, even ppl they fucking worked with at buzzfeed, & deny them of all their success & efforts to get where they ended up.
no, y'all are not the first people to make "tv quality content" on the internet. FAR from it. because your crap isn't even genuine "tv quality".
but you are the first ones to ever disrespect not only your audience, but your own fucking industry & your peers on this level.
& you are the first & i sorely hope the only fuckwads dumb enough to pull a stunt this fucking stupid, out of touch & utterly tone deaf.
#mine#watcher#sorry this is hopefully my last post but this pretention grated me#& im floored nobody has mentioned it#like sincerely how fucking dare you? what the fuck is wrong with you?#how far up your ass is that building long stick???#not to mention youtube is 18 fucking years old.#it is literally statistically impossible for a website as huge as youtube is to exist that long#& never have any 'tv quality' content on it. be mother fucking serious.#many ytbers were recognized by entertainment industry marvels BECAUSE they made content that was already tv quality#fuck off.
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
misc sun x moon im soo normal (lie)
#some of these are older. and by older i mean at most like afew weeks#some of therse i was also gonna actually finish and then was like naaaah. so doodle dump!!!#the last one is from their theatre days btw !!! <3#they used to be separate. guess what happened <3 (ive talked about it before)#xandraws#not tsams#not sams#need to make that clear ... ahem. theyre not brothers in my au. as you can. hopefully tell.#fnaf#fnaf sb#fnaf security breach#security breach#sun fnaf#fnaf sun#moon fnaf#fnaf moon#dca fnaf#fnaf dca#dca sun#sun dca#moon dca#dca moon#sun x moon#moon x sun#sundrop x moondrop#sun x moon fnaf#fnaf sun x moon#fnaf au#macabre maltreatment au
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
The loud thumping wakes you up, and you blink tiredly as the sound persists. You look at your ceiling for a second before you realize someone is knocking at your door. You groan, bringing your duvet over your ear as you snuggle in again.
“Leave me alone,” you mumble against your pillow as the knocking becomes more forceful.
Suddenly there’s silence, and when you finally think that whoever is bothering you has left, the knocking starts again.
You groan, cursing under your breath as you stand up, grabbing your gun from your vanity. You walk to your front door, opening it angrily.
“What-” your outburst dies down at your lips when you lock eyes with the last person you’d expected to see standing outside your apartment, but one you’d longed for, for years.
Your first instinct is to panic, there’s no way you were conscious. The person standing at your door was supposed to be dead.
So you raise your gun up, hand trembling, “This isn’t real.” you choke out, and Vander raises his hands slowly, opening his mouth to speak but you cut him off, “You’re not real, you’re not here.” There are tears dripping down your cheeks, the gun threatening to fall from your hand with how much you were shaking “Y-you’re dead, this can’t-” you clutch at your chest, heaving, and Vander’s hands grab at your shoulders when your knees buckle,
“My love,” The gun slips from your shaky grip and falls to the floor the moment the words leave his mouth. His voice, god fuck, his voice. You’ve dreamed of it, you’re certain you’ve heard it, back when the grief first clawed at your heart, when the illusions spilled into reality to try to mend what was broken.
But this sounded too real, and you gasped when his hand cupped your cheek, thumb wiping the tears that wouldn’t stop falling. “Darling, my darling girl. It’s me,” the sweet but rough sound of his voice sent shivers down your back, and you wanted to drown in it, you wanted to hear it again and again and again until you couldn’t anymore. You blinked rapidly, tears blurring your vision as your eyes danced across his features, the five bright white dots across his forehead would have confused you, if you weren’t on the verge of a panic attack.
You didn’t realize you’d raised your hand to cover his, until you felt the warmth of his hand under your skin. “S-stop, this isn’t real, this isn’t real, this isn’t real,” you squeezed your eyes shut, whispering frantically in order to wake up from this sickly realistic dream, to end this before you woke up and missed his touch again. And yet you craved more, desperately running your hands down his sides, back up to his chest, his shoulders, his back.
God, he felt real, and he was so warm, not like the previous dreams you’ve had when he was always cold, just a silhouette of the man you loved. He even smelled like your Vander. A sob broke through you, and you threw your hands around his neck, crying against his chest. Even if this wasn’t real, you’d still take advantage of this opportunity to feel close to him one last time.
You tried not to cry harder when his arms immediately circled around your torso, hugging you tight to him as you both slipped down to the floor, “Shh sh, love it’s me. Please, look at me,”
“If I do then I’ll wake up and you’ll be gone.” you muttered against his chest, nuzzling closer to him, “Let me have this, just for a moment.”
“You have me, forever.” His rough gravelly voice vibrated against your chest as he spoke, his breath hitting your ear as he nuzzled against your hair, his hands running up and down your back, spreading warmth everywhere.
Too real, too real, too real.
“I miss you so much. I-I can’t-” you take a shuddering breath in, “I can’t live without you. I need you back, please. Please, I’ll do anything.”
“My love, my heart. You beautiful, stunning creature. Look at me, I beg you.”
You could feel him leaning away just so he could cup your jaw, lifting your head up softly, so so softly.
Please.
“Look at me.” he mutters, the softness of his request filled with desperation. You slowly open your eyes, blinking away your tears, gaze immediately locking with his.
Your lips part as you take him in. The color of his eyes was much greyer than you remembered. You raised your hand to follow each feature, each wrinkle of his. After a moment, You brought your other hand up, as well, cupping both his cheeks in your hands, feeling his stubble prickle at your palms. “Vander… This- this can’t be real.” you move to pull away but he cups both your hands, keeping you in place, leaning his forehead against yours, “It can, it is. I’m here honey. I’m here.”
You can’t help but stare at his lips, watching them move as he speaks, your mind trying to make sense of what you’re seeing, hearing, feeling.
Please.
You can’t let yourself get too hopeful because this isn’t possible, and he seems to get it too, so he starts explaining.
He tells you everything. How he was on the verge of death, how a man, Singed, found him, turned him into something vile, but the mutation kept him alive, even if he wasn’t entirely himself. He tells you about how all he felt was pain, but you and the kids were the only thing in his mind the whole time, trying to block away everything else. Tells you about Powder, Vi, and Isha, how they found him, brought him somewhere, a colony of some sort. A man, the Herald, helped him, and “..honest to God he kind of scares me, but it-it didn’t matter then, and it doesn’t matter now because I’m here. I’m here with you.”
Please.
You don’t realize you’ve lost track of time until you’re looking at yourself. You blink quickly, eyebrows furrowing, but then you realize you’re looking at yourself in the mirror. Vander is still holding you tightly, and the side of your face is pressed against his chest, listening to his heartbeat as he whispers sweet nothings against the crown of your head. You stay there, listening to his voice and his heart for what feels like forever.
He grabs your shoulders, pulling you away from him just enough for him to look at you in the eyes, “Are you okay?” he asks, but his voice is muffled, sounding too far away. You blink slowly up at him and he frowns sadly.
“I missed you so much. Even in death I missed you, but I wasn’t selfish enough to wish I could see you again because that would mean you’d-” he cuts himself off, the strands of his hair moving as he shakes his head, eyes clenched shut as if to rid himself of that painful thought. “I-I’m here. I’m real. Darling, I’m alive, and I need you to know this.”
His eyes are pained as he stares down at you, once again cupping your jaw, thumb caressing your cheekbone “Say something.”
“I love you.”
His face immediately crumbles, eyebrows squeezing together as his tears start falling, and he tucks his head against the place between your neck and shoulder, crying as he squeezes you impossible tighter, “I love you.” he chokes out, and you feel him pepper soft kisses over your skin, the brokenness of his voice bringing fresh tears to your eyes as well.
You don’t know how long you stay tangled together like this, just holding each other, but Vander leans back suddenly, looking at you with so much adoration that it makes you want to scream. “Hi,” he mumbles, petting your hair softly, his other hand drawing circles on your back.
You start pressing soft kisses all over his face, not being able to contain your affection, and he closes his eyes, laughing giddily, the deep sound traveling over your skin, spreading warmth everywhere. God, you’ve missed this, missed him. “Hi.” you mutter, pressing one last kiss at the corner of his mouth.
His puffy eyes glance down at your lips, “Can I-”
“Please.”
He kisses you.
2024 © l13 | Do not steal, copy, edit, translate or re-post any of my works.
#arcane s2 ep4 spoilers#arcane s2 ep5 spoilers#not proofread#i bawled my eyes out at the last two eps#the second act broke me#this is just smth to make me feel better#and hopefully you guys too#vander x reader#arcane vander x reader#vander x you#vander x y/n#arcane x reader#arcane fluff#vander x reader fluff#fixing the canon#l13
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Woahza!! Spongbob critterpants?! (Again?!)
As well as huggy hassleholf
And another art because im insane
#i was thinking about posting all these in lil bunches#but ehh its fine#poppy playtime#smiling critters#dogday#catnap#huggy wuggy#poppy playtime chapter 3#art#ppt#im very normal dw about me#hopefully this dosen’t look to bloated hwbhd#oh dogday and catnap my beloveds#maybe ill do the last bit and ask people for their lil smiling critters ocs to be shown#cause thees a bunch of fish#why are catnap and dogday underwater#silly of them#tbh
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
picodelix was crazy huh
#my art#she got better things to do bro#fnf#friday night funkin#fnf fanart#friday night funkin fanart#funkadelix#fnf funkadelix#funkadelix fanart#boyfriend fnf#girlfriend fnf#fnf bf#fnf gf#pico newgrounds#picos school#newgrounds#newgrounds fanart#last drawing for a while hopefully i gotta study for my trial exams man#DUDE i have the worst FUCKING headache rn FFFUCCCK
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
whos he texting?🤨
#up next on top ten worst type of people you could ever meet……#also thanks for all the sweet asks and stuff it really makes me happy that people enjoy my art 🤗 if theres anything u think would be fun lmk#always open for requests!!!#do not excpect too muxh from me tho…… hopefully i dont disappear for another year like last time 😅😓#just kidding#my art#obey me#omswd#obey me!#levi obey me#omswd leviathan#obey me leviathan#obey me levi fanart#levi om#omswd levi#levi#leviathan
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
EGO DEATH
#metal gear#metal gear solid#mg#mgs#mgs2#raiden#my art#HAPPY APRIL 30THHH#(WHICH I HAD TO CRAM FOR BECAUSE I FORGOOOOT)#my love for raiden has lasted 4 years and is going strong <3#i hope next year will FINALLY be the year where i dont have to rush something#everything was going perfect for that to happen this year#but i forgor#*pensive face*#also. please forgive the edgy caption but i had had it in mind since before i even began the drawing lol#and also please excuse the jpg format#*praying hands*#the file was to big as a png for some unknown reason#hopefully the quality doesnt suffer for it#anyways. enough rambling.#no thoughts only raiden <3
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
love is stored in the parallel play
#mine#original#ouagh . hello !!#we had to say goodbye to one of my kitties last week....she was we think maybe 16 or 17!! old lady!!#i will do a drawing for her when it hurts a little less#we are going to pick up her ashes in like. 15 minutes#ah.....th cruelty of time...#thank u all my commission people u r being very patient!! i will send sm more pics tomorrow hopefully#this and two other drawings will be new prints also!! i will probably order those this week i think#i still plan on making stickers but its too big brain for me rn sfbsks
9K notes
·
View notes
Text
uhhh this is really messy and took me like 8 hours, but i feel like if i don’t finish this whole 6 minute animation im never gonna share a single thing of it, so im making sure i do not do that
#i’m having so much trouble posting this pls ignore me#this is only like half of what i worked on today#but this is the cleanest part and i like it so i thought id share it#i’m trying to animate a bit every day#even if it’s just getting storyboards/concepts drawn#i’ve had this very vivid animation in my head to this song since last year#hopefully i retain the motivation to see it to completion#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#fnaf dca#fnaf daycare attendant
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
*sighs* hello.
here, have some hurt/comfort reylo.
you're welcome.
#been having a very heavy burnout lately#lately meaning the last 3 months#cries#haven't been able to draw anything other than uni work#sometimes it be like that#but soon#soon i'll be back with some more updates on all my unfinished projects that I've been teasing#hopefully#it's been a while#who am i kidding it's been more than 4 months at this point#my deepest apologies#anyway#reylo fanart#reylo#rey nobody#kylo ren#ben solo#hurt/comfort
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
changing room mishap
Kons a lil confused but he will ALWAYS get pissed at bad guys hurting his friends
#tim: surgery scars kon: oh like ur spleen removal#tim: well the spleen thing was unintentional#could work w bart aswell#kon: tf is a mastectomy im 5 yrs old#i kept laughing at the last panel so i decided to not delete these doodles#hopefully im not the only one who finds this amusing but knowing my track record...#tim drake#conner kent#superboy#dc red robin#dc fanart#timkon#tw stab mention#archiving eeblydeebly#daiwild
14K notes
·
View notes
Text
POV now your friends are REALLY squaring tf up
#will likely be the last in progress thing I show publicly for this project since I'm gonna slate it for march caprice hehehe#i'm really excited to keep chipping away at this! the vs. player fight is something I've always wanted to adapt in some form#and since this'll be the big project I can hopefully have the smaller rougher ideas penned down and posted whenever i need a break from thi#data strelitzia animatic....... i'll come back for u. i promise.......#my art#kh ephemer#kh skuld#kh#khux#kingdom hearts
620 notes
·
View notes