#hope you like hir op

[socksran]

BAHHH I SAID ID BE BACK . reference that is outdated because of hir clothes but the face/hair/markings/horns are correct + reference of hir new outfit + hir and gricko. Because im normal

where...

where are all the loa ocs at

Come on gibe them to me, I'll draw them for u, come on i don't bite

[locker42]

Bounty Hunter - Dark Curly Hair, Brown Eyes

Warnings: swearing, mentions of death.

Pairing: Bellamy Blake x Grounder!reader.

Word count: 2118

So, I had a little writing storm and this came out (there are more parts written) so I decided to post it. Please tell me your thoughts!! I will post the second part tomorrow or something.

P.s: I used a Trigedaslang translator for this so don’t blame me if some of the things are wrong, I don’t speak Trig.

Masterlist.

Series Masterlist.

You walked into the room, clenching the bag in your hand as you bowed your head in recognition. Lexa raised her hand, signaling the guards to leave. They looked at you with suspicion but left the room nevertheless. “Do yu don chit ai seek gon?” Do you have what I seek for?

“Sha.” Yes.

You dropped the bag on the floor, the head of a dead Azgeda warrior rolling out. Lexa nodded her head in approval. “Good job, Nokeryon.”

“Ai gaf in ai gold.” I want my gold. You said, taking a step closer to the throne. Lexa threw a small sack of gold to your feet. “Yu hofli yu don bilaik gold. Ba ai yu don moun mission gon yu.” You may have you gold. But I have another mission for you.

You rolled your eyes. “Fos, ai gaf in ai hana.” First, I want my favor.

“Speak.” She said, nodding towards you. She eyed the sack, still laying on the floor. You glanced at it and then looked up. “Ai gaf in a gouthru klir between ogeda clans.” I want a safe passage between all clans.

“Ait, ai grant yu gouthru klir gon walk raun ogeda lands kom twel clans.” Alright, I grant you safe passage to walk in all lands of the twelve clans.

“Na ai yu don dei de written daun o something?” Can I have that written down or something? You said, not wanting the same thing to happen again. When you walked into Trishanakru with no clan mark the people were not happy with a stranger walking into their home.

“Hir,” here, she stood up and walked to the table to her left, picking up something shiny, “gon gouthru through ogeda clans.” For passage through all clans.

You took the sliver piece from her, twisting it in your hand before placing it in one of your pockets. “Nau, oso na chichplei hashta bilaik hana.” Now, we can talk about your favor.

“Ai gaf yu gon gyon au south kom hir, raun village. Der are brana kru der, Skaikru. Provide information gon Ai.” I need you to go south from here, near the village. There are new people there, sky people. Provide information for me.

“Got em, ai op yu later, Heda.” Got it, see you later, Commander. You said and walked out of the room, ready for your next mission. You slipped on your cloak, hoping no one would see you. You didn’t really like it when people knew you were in town. Before you left you prepared yourself with some food and water to last you for the ride. The village was a long way from Polis.

You decided to camp in after it turned dark, tying your horse to a tree. You lighted up a small fire and laid on your cloak, using it as a pillow. You stared at the fire as you started dosing off. That was your life, mission after mission, victim after victim, payment after payment. It was pretty simple when you thought about it. Lexa and other rulers and ambassadors needed favors, a few people killed, and who was better to the job then a trained scout and a professional assassin like you.

Ever since you were a kid you’ve been trained to fight, wanting to avoid your parents’ fate. They were killed by the Mountain Men, not being able to fight back. You didn’t really remember them, you were only three when they died. You lived in a small village, in a house that was distanced from the rest of the people. Almost no one knew which clan your parents were from, they moved a lot. So when your parents died, you were left alone, with no clan mark. Luckily for you, Nyko found you. He trained you, kept you safe, and eventually let you go when you wanted to start living your own life. You were a bounty hunter, an assassin, a scout. That’s how you lived.

You left at first light, arriving near their camp after only two hours. You left your horse in the village close, the new peace maker or whatever that Lexa gave you coming handy. You got closer, hand on your sword. You were in this area a few times with Nyko and a few more while crossing paths in your way to another mission. But now there was a wall - well, not exactly a wall, more like a lot of pieces of different materials tried up together.

You went around it but found no way in but a tunnel that led inside. You didn’t go in, knowing that the threat inside will probably spot you the second you go in. So you wait, listening. You didn’t hear any Trigedaslang, only English. You heard faint footsteps to your right, standing up from your crouching position. A few people passed by, far enough from you to not spot you. You could see a blonde girl, and two other guys walking away from the camp. You turned to follow them but then heard footsteps right behind you. You turned back and saw a man, a grounder, walking towards the camp. You walked after him, taking out your sword and pressing it against his throat.

“Don’t move.” You said, watching as his hands slowly went to the air. “Turn raun.” Turn around. The man turned, now facing you. He had a few scratched and bruises on his face but you still recognized him. “Lincoln,” you said, “chit laik yu doing hir?” What are you doing here?

“Ai could as op yu same question.” I could ask you the same question. He said.

“Ai laik ona a mission. Yu?” I’m on a mission. You? Before he could answer, another sword was pressed to your throat and a voice of a female was heard behind you. “Step back.” You quickly reached with you other hand to your knife, twisting it in your hand before placing it to the girl’s throat. You could tell she was from Skaikru, noting her clothes and choice of language.

“Drop it.” You said, pressing the blade harder against her throat. “ It’s okay Octavia, you can trust her.” Lincoln said from behind you.

“Can you? She has a sword to your throat and a knife to mine.” The girl, Octavia, said, glaring at you. You saw the doubt in her eyes as she lowered her sword, placing it at her side. “Good.” You said and withdrew both of your weapons. You opened you mouth to speak but before you could an explosion was heard not too far from where you were.

“What the fuck was that?” You said, turning to Lincoln, but he ignored you and looked at Octavia. “We need to go, they’re here.”

“Wha- who? Who is coming? Lincoln, what’s going on?” You asked, looking between the two. He stepped closer to you, putting both hands on your shoulders. “There’s a war coming, I need to go. Meet me at the cave, I’ll explain everything. But now you have to go.”

Even though you had suspicion running through your body at his words, you nodded, trusting Lincoln. Without another word, you ran off, making your way to the cave. You wanted to stop and get your horse but you didn’t know where you would be going afterwards. You sat there for what felt like hours, entertaining yourself with throwing your many knifes on trees, enjoying watching every knife perfectly hit the middle of the tree. The eventually sat down on a rock in the cave, shaping your sword with a rock. You jumped, sword in your hand as Lincoln ran in, a barely conscious Octavia in his arms.

“What happened?” You asked and ran to him, helping him to put her on the ground. You looked at the wound on her thigh, it was poisoned, which meant a grounder shot it. “It’s poisoned, what happened?”

“Look, there’s not time to explain, I’m sorry. I need to find a way to save her.” He said, clearly trying to get his head cleared as well.

“Do you want me to get an antidote?”

“No, I’ll get it myself but thank you. Do you know where Nyko might be?” He asked and his gaze immediately fell on Octavia as she stirred awake.

“I think he’s at the village. At least he was when I left my horse with him.”

Octavia looked at you, confusion and then realization hitting her face. “W-wait, we have to go back. Bellamy’s still out there.” She said, trying to sit up, but her body wouldn’t let her.

“No, you need to stay here.” He said and put his hands on her shoulders to help her lay back down, then turned to you. “Can you go back, please?”

“What do you mean?”

“She won’t agree to leave if her brother isn’t safe, and I really need to get her the antidote. Can you go back and make sure he’s safe?”

You shook your head, trying to made sense of what he was telling you. “First you tell me what the hell is going on and then we talk about favors.”

He sighed, clearly not pleased with your answer. “About a week ago, their ship landed in our territory. Now, Lexa is angry therefore she sent an army to wipe them out. The army is already there and Bellamy, Octavia’s brother is still there. She won’t let me take her if he isn’t safe. I need you to go there and make sure he’s safe.”

“So let me get this straight, there’s an army out there to kill them and you want me to go there, in a war zone, to make sure this Bambi guy is safe?”

“Yes.” You shook you head and stood up, ready to leave. There was no way you were going in a war zone to save someone who you didn’t even know. “Please, Y/N,” your head snapped towards him as he said you name, “ I need you save her.”

“Don’t call me that.” You said in a low voice. “And fine, I’ll do it. You’re lucky I owe you one, Lincoln.”

“Thank you.” He said but you rolled your eyes and turned to Octavia. “What does he even look like?”

“Dark, curly hair, brown eyes, his name is Bellamy Blake.” She said in a small voice. You nodded and walked away.

As you got closer, you didn’t hear anything. On your way to the cave you heard gunshots, explosions and yelling. Now, it was quiet. You crouched behind a tree as you saw a man you identified as Tristan, on a horse. There were two guys tied to the horse, probably prisoners, and a guard behind them. You decided to take your chance as he got off the horse and walked towards them, sword in hand in clear intention to kill them. You stood up, lifting you knife and aiming before throwing it forward, a small smirk on your lips as it hit Tristan right in the face. You then ran forward, gripping two other knifes in your hands as you stabbed the guard in the side before reaching up and slashing his throat. You put on knife back in its holster and walked forward. You eyed the boy who’s eyes were glued to you, noting his curly hair and bloody face. You went with your instincts and walked to him, pressing your knife to his throat in case you were wrong.

“Blake?” You asked, eyes running over his face. He nodded. “Who is Octavia?”

“My sister, why? Where is she?” He answered almost immediately, concern written on his face.

“You Bellamy?” You asked, ignoring his own questions. “Yes,” he said, “where is Octavia? How do you know her?”

You put your knife in your holster before moving to Tristan’s body, ripping your knife from his face and placing it back in its place.

“Who are you?”

You stepped closer to him. “I’m nobody, I just owed Lincoln a favor. Your sister was safe the last time I saw her.” You pulled your knife out and took his hand, placing it in it. “Here, I saved you ass. Now, don’t get into anymore trouble.” You said and walked away from him. All you had to do now was get your horse and get back to Polis for your payment. You started walking to the village, trying to clear your mind and get back on track. You immediately stopped when you saw a few people ahead of you in hazmat suits. Mountain Men. Your hunch was right, but before you could attack, run or hide, you were hit in the back of the head, knocked out, dropping on the ground.

[baby-triumphant]

7 leon and link?

im really deep in my leon + andrew feelings right now so here we go (im bending the prompt a little im sorry haha)

7. guiding them with a hand on the small of their back

Haze Days has to be one of Link's least favorite events.

It happens every year, in the first week of August when the city is hottest and muggiest. In the shadows Link had been part of the organizing crew, since bullpen depth had nothing better to do than organize signing and photo ops for the big-leaguers, so Link knows Haze Days inside and out: knows the best orientation of the signing tables so the lighting will look good in the papers, knows the rural firefighters who get the proceeds from Haze Days.

This is her first time participating as a player and not as event staff, but she can't help but squint at the seating arrangement and photo op rotations as she's watching the event staff bustle around setting up.

She could recite the slogans in her sleep. Beat the haze! Support wildfire management!

Haze Days is, in principle, a cool enough event with a worthy cause. In practice, it makes Link want to put her head in a freezer. She wasn't built for summer.

Leon and Andrew are listed apart from everyone else.

"I thought pitchers were supposed to all be at the same table," she tells Bianca. "That's how it is every year."

Bianca looks at her, expression completely neutral. "Did you ever go to a signing event before you started helping organize them?" ze asks.

Link feels herself flush, hot and embarrassed. The humidity is curling her baby hairs into an unpleasant frizz. She'd been a fan of the Firefighters growing up, of course, but she'd grown up far enough outside the city proper that going to the fan events had been out of the question even if her parents had been willing to pay for a signed photo with her favorite players. "No," she says, awkwardly.

"And when did you start helping organize them?" Bianca asks.

"Three years ago," Link says. "When I joined the shadows." At seventeen she'd had a good enough arm, enough placement control, enough of a toolkit. She'd thought, a little foolishly, she would be the best pitcher in the world.

That particular thesis had been disproven as soon as she'd met Leon, who was not the best pitcher in the world but despite two injuries that should have ended his career still threw like liquid gold and was better than Link could ever imagine herself being. Even on bad days he was consistent, which was more than Link could say for herself.

"Duncan retired five years ago," Bianca says, and hir tone is so kind but Link still feels young and idiotic for the way it hits her only after Bianca has practically spelled it out. "Maybe before Duncan all of the pitchers were together. But Duncan and Trebek sit at the same table no matter what. That's how it's always been."

"Oh," Link says.

She'd hoped she'd be able to sit next to Leon. She had so many questions, and she couldn't quite tell whether Leon was avoiding her or not, and Haze Days seemed like a great chance to get those questions in while Leon was right there. Between signings, of course.

Bianca opens hir mouth to say something, and then seems to think better of it.

Link's attention is elsewhere, anyway: Leon and Andrew's entrance into the plaza is heralded by a smattering of cheers from the enterprising early fans. They both wave, but their heads are bent together, mouths moving in inaudible conversation.

Andrew stops and turns to face Leon more fully, hand coming up to cover his mouth. The set of his shoulders is as bullish as Andrew ever gets, and the frown on Leon's face gets bigger the longer Andrew talks.

Leon puts one hand on the small of Andrew's back and guides him into the waiting seat. Andrew goes willingly, knocking his knuckles against Leon's chest as he does.

Link's chest aches with something like longing and something like jealousy.

"Always together," Bianca says, shakes hir head, and moves off to join the position players at their table. Link hesitates a moment longer, just to watch the way Andrew pours them both water, the way Leon systematically tests every Sharpie in their cup and picks out two for each of them.

She wants—she doesn't know what she wants. Or who to ask for it, or how.

"C'mon, Link," Tiera calls, and Link tears her eyes away from Leon Duncan and Andrew Trebek, and sits down where she's supposed to.

[neopronounsmybelovaed]

Hello, could i get a pronoun check for it/its, ae/aer, voi/void, and ze/hir? My names are Leo and App, and i really enjoy skateboarding and painting my shoes to match with my board :]

Hope you have a wonderful day op

This is Leo! I have a friend named Leo, so judging by its name and aer pronouns voi's probably pretty cool. Ze uses some of the same pronouns as me, I like it! App enjoys skateboarding. That's really col of aer, I am not able to do that. I hope ze has a wondhirful day and takes care of voidself!

[slytherinbarnes]

Sub Rosa [69]

xi. the dark year

Pairing: Bellamy Blake x reader

Word Count: 4.3k

Warnings: allusions to suicidal thoughts from previous chapter (5.01), mentions of death, language, anxiety.

Summary: The march to Shallow Valley begins...

a/n: next week we finish s5!!!! how we feeling!!!! the taglist for this series is open! I hope you enjoy, please let me know what you think!!!

previous chapter // season masterlist // series masterlist

The march is as boring as you expect it to be. 

At some point guns are passed around and you end up with a rifle slung over your shoulder, one more thing you're forced to carry in your trek through the desert. It reminds you of leaving Becca’s lab after Praimfaya and searching for the rover, a story that you ultimately end up telling Bellamy about. And once you get started with one story of your time on Earth without him, he’s eager to hear more. You tell him about going to Polis and then Arkadia, nearly dying until a rainstorm came through and gave you and Clarke water, the sandstorm that destroyed the rover. You tell him about the journey to get more panels, when you and Clarke almost ended it all, and he senses your hesitation when you get to that part, not sure if you should tell him everything. But he reaches out and grabs your hand, threading your fingers together, reminding you that you’re always safe and home with Bellamy. So you tell him just how bad things got, how close to the end you truly were, until the Universe sent a miracle from the sky, a bird that led you to Shallow Valley. 

His favorite stories are the ones you tell him about Madi. How she nearly killed you and Clarke both when you first met her, how she taught you both how to fish, and the two of you taught her English. Learning to drive the rover, and fight, living as a mini family in the valley, waiting for the rest of your family to return. The only thing you don't tell him about are the radio calls. You aren't sure why, maybe it’s embarrassment, maybe you’re worried he’ll think it was obsessive, you don't know. All you know is that he must not have heard a single one, because he never mentions them, and you’re sure he would have if he had heard them. Instead, you skip over all of the calls and focus on the good moments instead, the happy things, not sure you’re quite ready enough to tell him just how desperately you missed him. 

At some point near the end of the first day, Bellamy’s radio comes to life with the sound of Echo’s voice, broken up and speaking Trig. “Belomi, hola. Yu sen ai in?”

Bellamy, come in. Do you read me? You and Bellamy exchange a look, before he steps out of the marching group and off to the side, with you, Monty, and Harper right behind him. He lifts the radio and says, “Echo-”

You reach out and put your hand over his own, lowering the radio for a second. “Wait, Bellamy, do you normally speak Trig like this? Or is there a reason?”

As soon as you say it, you see a look pass over his face, letting you know they don't normally communicate in Trigedasleng. Your warning reminds all of you of something you need to be careful not to forget: the enemy can hear you every time you use this radio. Bellamy lifts the radio again and you pull your hand away, and this time he answers in Trigedasleng. “Hakom Trig? Chit’s skechi?”

Why are we speaking Trig? What's wrong? He releases the button and you all stare at the radio in tense silence, waiting for her answer. “Emo get in bilaik yo’s komba raun. Yo don drop nishiv of.”

They know you're coming. You've lost the element of surprise. The answer hits you like a blow to the gut, making you sick. Without the element of surprise, this war is a massacre. You can see that Harper and Monty don’t look as shocked as you and Bellamy do, and you realize now their Trig must be limited, so you translate, “They know we're coming.”

Their reaction is immediate, the same as yours, and then Monty looks at you and asks, “Clarke?”

The question hits you like a second blow, more powerful than the last. The thought hadn't even crossed your mind, but your twin was the only other person that knew about the eye in the sky that could have snitched. You shake your head, anger flaring within you at the danger she has just put all of you in, and you grind out, “It had to be.”

Echo must start to worry about the silence from your end of the radio because she comes back on to say, “Belomi, yo gaf bak yo klin. Osir don hon daun ‘mo mavrik, den yo’s klir, komonou. Ba yo nou na komba hir nowe.”

Bellamy, you have to go back. We have their pilot, so you're safe for now. But you can't come here. You and Bellamy watch each other as she speaks, both of you translating the words at the same time. It’s weird to see him so proficient in Trigedasleng considering the few words he knew before he went to space, but when you think about it, teaching Madi English made you fluent in Trig too. Both of you are so different from the people you left behind, past versions of you now burned away by Praimfaya, but somehow your comfort with Bellamy hasn't changed. There’s so many new things you have to learn about him now, but there’s no doubt in your mind that he has your heart and you have his. 

Bellamy lifts the radio, shaking his head, though Echo can't see it. “Nou na kom au. Chilja: osir nou na bak op, en osir nou na hod op. Kom fai sintaim osir kamp ouder. Yo gada daun in na lok osir op klir trei. Pas daun, nou mori noumou.”

Not possible. It's a long story, but we can't go back and we can't stop. We're five days out. You have that long to find us a safe way in. After that we run out of rations. You can see the devastation on Bellamy’s face at this new dilemma you've all somehow found yourself in. Echo’s voice comes through the radio one last time before falling silent, “We're on it. Be safe, over and out.”

You can hear the worry in her voice, and a wave of anxiety washes over you, wondering if that worry is born from affection. But Bellamy being Bellamy, must sense your thoughts, and he reaches out and puts his hand on your cheek, whispering, “I love you, my radiant moon.”

“And I love you more than the stars.”

He smiles at you, one of those bright ones, and you realize this is the first time you’ve said those words to him since he came down to Earth. His smile is infectious, and it makes you smile, both of you temporarily forgetting your impending peril until Monty clears his throat and mutters, “The eye.”

The smiles drop from both of your faces, suddenly brought back to the present, and you shake your head. “Uh, right. We should probably tell Indra.”

“And Octavia.” You nod at Bellamy, agreeing, as he passes the radio to Monty. “Keep an ear out for our friends, in case they call again.”

“Will do.”

And with that, you all rejoin the army, and you and Bellamy march off in search of Indra. It doesn’t take long for you to find her, exactly where you last saw her: marching with Gaia and the other faithful. As soon as she sees the two of you approaching and catches the expression on your faces, she steps away from everyone, giving the three of you some privacy. You and Bellamy let her know what’s going on quickly, and a look of alarm passes over her face before she quickly regains her composure and nods towards the front of the army. “We need to inform Octavia.”

The three of you quicken your pace and make it to the front, only to be stopped by Miller. “What do you want?”

You can sense the anger radiating off of Indra and Bellamy in waves, so you walk slightly ahead of them, shifting Miller’s focus to you. “We need to talk to Octavia.”

He looks at you, skeptical, and you give him a pleading look. “It’s important, Miller. You know we wouldn't be here if it wasn't.”

You know he recognizes the truth in your statement, because he motions to a pair of guards walking nearby. “Disarm and follow me.”

You glance at Bellamy and he nods, agreeing to the terms, so you hand the guy to your right your rifle and knife before following Miller. Bellamy and Indra both follow you, and Miller announces your arrival to Octavia before stepping back slightly, but he sticks close enough to keep an eye on all of you. Indra is the first to speak, “You're marching us into a massacre.”

Octavia doesn't turn to look at any of you, her eyes firmly locked on the horizon ahead. “We'll see.”

“Echo radioed. The enemy knows you're coming.” She bristles slightly, and you can tell the news is affecting her even though she tries to pretend otherwise. “We don't need to worry about the missiles, but they're moving their weapons into position.”

Indra adds, “It's safe to assume that since there's only three realistic ways into the valley, that all three will be heavily defended.”

Bellamy, who has stayed silent as you and Indra do most of the talking, finally quips, “Echo's scouting now, looking for the best way in. But since we can't go back because you burned the farm, and since we can't stop because we'll starve, we thought we should let you know that you've killed your people.”

You look at Bellamy in shock, not expecting to hear the words come out of his mouth. You’re pissed at Octavia too, but you’re not eager to cross her again, your near death experience still too fresh in your memory. You grab his hand and whisper his name as a warning, “Bellamy.”

But he ignores you and snaps at his sister, “Enjoy your walk.”

He drops back and you glance at him and then to Indra, silently apologizing before you drop back and follow him. You get your weapons back and secure them to you before jogging after Bellamy and catching up to him near the back, but you can tell from the expression on his face that he doesn't want to talk. So instead, you slip your hand into his and stay by his side, allowing him his anger for now. 

-

Eventually night falls and the marching stops, giving all of you a temporary reprieve from the long journey, at least until morning. 

You and Bellamy set up your tent and then build a fire, and Monty and Harper set up their tent nearby before joining you around the warmth of the fire. All of you sit and eat your rations in silence before the other couple bids you both goodnight, leaving you and Bellamy alone. You finish up the last of your rations, just enough to keep you full for a few hours, before you pull out your Grounder knife, looking over the notches on the handle. By your count, it’s now missing a few, and as you start to wonder what you can use to add the next few lines, Bellamy’s hand reaches out to you, his own knife in his grip. You look up at him, taking the knife with a nod of thanks, unaware that anyone knows that you actually keep up with your knife kills. You might be embarrassed if it was anyone other than Bellamy, but judging by the look on his face, he seems to understand. You don’t count the kills like trophies, the way others might, you count the kills to remind you of what you’ve done. At this point, it’s hard to know how many people you’ve killed with guns, explosions, or levers that bring radiation. But this knife reminds you of the personal ones, the lives that you took in close proximity to another person, close enough to see the life drain from them. It’s a way to remind you of your humanity, a way to remind you that each of these kills affected you in some way, the same way the forgotten kills affect you, whether you realize it or not. 

You add two tallies for the two Eligius prisoners you killed, before you pause and consider Cooper. You didn’t use this knife to kill her the way you usually would, but you did use it to cut a hole in her glove, sealing her fate before she even woke up. To you, it’s enough for you to know her death should stay on your mind. You shouldn't sweep it under the rug as another casualty of war. You need to remember how willing you were to kill her if it meant it could save everyone else, which ultimately didn’t happen. Cooper is dead and Wonkru is still marching on the valley, worms be damned. 

As you add a third tally for Cooper, bringing your knife kills up to ten, you glance over at Bellamy, his gaze turned away from you. You take note of his clenched jaw and angry expression. “We have to talk about it eventually, Bellamy.”

“No, we don't.”

“Both of our sisters betrayed us.”

“Your sister betrayed us, probably to save Madi. And though it puts us in a shitty position, I can forgive her for that.” Bellamy turns to look at you, pulling in a deep breath. “My sister put us in the fighting pits together, after she forced you into making a deal that would save my life but end yours. She did that knowing how I feel about you.”

“Only after my sister ratted us out and left us there. If we’re keeping count, Clarke has betrayed us twice. And you’re right, both betrayals were probably to keep Madi safe, but at what expense to everyone else? To me? To you? I love Madi, she is my niece, my family, and I’d do anything to keep her safe. But sometimes Clarke’s decisions are reckless when it comes to Madi’s safety. She listens to the storm within her, just like you used to do, and doesn’t stop to consider every angle, every possibility. I’m not letting her off the hook that easy.”

Bellamy is quiet for a while, both of you thinking of your sister related drama, and when he finally speaks, his anger has cooled, though not completely, and his voice is soft. “I just can't forgive Octavia for nearly taking you from me. Not after I just got you back.”

The words melt you, your anger towards your sister forgotten as you reach out to comfort Bellamy. You pull him in for a kiss, understanding his fear of losing you, because you lived with it for six years when you lost him. When you pull away, you rest your foreheads together, keeping your eyes closed as you sit and enjoy the fact that you can even do this. Because Bellamy is back, and he loves you, and you’re alive, despite Octavia’s best efforts. You whisper, “You’re gonna have a hard time getting rid of me now. I don’t want to let you out of my sight, I’m so afraid of losing you again.”

He pulls away so he can look at you, his expression sad. “I have the same fear. It was so hard being on the Ring without you. It felt like a ghost was hanging around with me at every moment. I was searching for you everywhere, always disappointed when you weren’t there.”

You feel tears well up in your eyes, and you kiss him again, hoping it helps. This time when you pull away, he wraps you up into his arms and turns his face to the sky. You follow his gaze, both of you tracing constellations, and for the first time in six years, he asks, “Tell me about the stars?”

You look at him, feeling a rush of affection as you do, your voice cracking with emotion when you whisper back, “Of course.”

-

The second day of marching is just as awful as the first, though it’s now punctuated with an air of anxiety as you all march one day closer to your massacre.

The second night, all of you retire early, too tired to sit around and talk, but you wake up a few hours later, wide awake for some reason. You glance over at Bellamy, smiling down at his sleeping form, so peaceful as the worries of the world don't reach him in his dreams. Not wanting to disturb him, you quietly crawl out of the tent, taking the radio with you, just in case someone calls. 

As you sit outside and look at the stars, you nearly jump out of your skin when the radio comes to life. “Belomi, hola.”

Bellamy, come in. You pick up the radio and answer, “Nou Belomi, en's ai. Wanlida.”

Not Bellamy, it’s me. Wanlida. You add your Grounder nickname at the end, not sure if she recognizes your voice. She immediately answers, “Osir don strat.”

We have a plan. You smile at the radio in your hand, feeling a rush of gratitude to your friends on the other side. “Tel ai op.”

Tell me. Echo immediately relays the plan to you in Trigedasleng, and at times, you start to think about how weird it is to be carrying on a conversation with your boyfriend’s ex. And though you get flashes of jealousy when you think about them together, you start to marvel at how talking to her now isn't that bad. Though maybe it’s because you have something to talk about, and it has nothing to do with Bellamy. Still, as soon as you get the plan from Echo, you both exchange goodbyes and you run back to your tent to tell your boyfriend the good news. As soon as he knows, you both go to Indra next, as usual, and tell her the plan. Once she knows, you look at Bellamy, both of you aware of what you have to do next, and he nods, looking reluctant. 

You both walk to Octavia’s tent, and the closer you get, the louder her voice grows. You can tell she’s having a strategy meeting with her advisors, one that does not include an encouraging plan. “We're gonna take heavy fire, but as long as we stay together, we can still do this. Does everybody understand?”

You and Bellamy are both stopped at the door by the guards, and Bellamy demands, “We need to see her now.”

Octavia’s voice comes from inside the tent, granting you both permission. “Let them in!”

As soon as you step inside, you scan the room, looking at the advisors, before your eyes fall to the map on the table in front of Octavia. “You don't need that.”

“The spy found us a way in?”

“Yes.” Bellamy turns to look at the advisors gathered around. “Everybody out.”

They stand frozen in place until Octavia dismisses them, and then they all exit quickly, leaving the three of you alone. Bellamy walks closer to his sister, and you hang back, sensing that he has something he wants to say to her. “Before I tell you this, we need to set some things straight.”

“I'm listening.”

“This war that you're so anxious for is about to be fought on the last survivable land on Earth. That is monumentally stupid. But it's here, and in four days, when we march on that valley, we are gonna fight this the right way.”

“Does the right way end up with us winning?”

Bellamy shakes his head, annoyed that winning is all she cares about. “It ends with us accepting the other side's surrender. Once they lay down their arms, we share the valley with them. No executions. No fighting pits. Real peace.”

“I accept your terms. Now, tell me how to win this war.”

Bellamy steps away, already done with the conversation. “Indra has the details.”

She calls out to his retreating figure, “Bellamy...this is how it was meant to be. You and me. Fighting side by side.”

Bellamy stops beside you, both of you now standing near the exit of the tent, and he reaches out for your hand before turning to face Octavia. “I'm not fighting for you. I’m fighting for la lune, who you were willing to kill a few days ago. I'm fighting to get back the rest of my family, and I'm fighting so that we can finally build a future here.”

You see a look of hurt pass over Octavia’s face as she realizes he doesn't consider her part of his family, but if he sees it, he ignores it. He just turns back to you and walks out of the tent, guiding you along after him.

-

The next three days of marching are almost continuous, as Octavia decides against stopping to camp 3 nights in a row. Instead, you stop for an hour or so twice a day before continuing the march to the valley. Finally, on day 6, you arrive at the final camping spot, just outside of the valley. You all pitch your tents during the day and spend most of it resting, because as soon as the next day dawns, the war begins. 

You and Bellamy crawl out of your tent sometime after nightfall, finally rested after so many days of marching, and you both sit around a small fire and talk, keeping yourselves distracted from your nerves, the way you used to before he went to space without you. Monty comes over as you chat, sitting down on your other side, splitting his rations into three. “Last of the rations.”

You and Bellamy accept his offer with a nod of thanks, and as you all savor the last bit of food you have, Monty turns to look between you and Bellamy. “Look, if you want us with you at the front-”

Bellamy cuts him off, seeing the reluctance on his face, aware of Monty’s dislike of killing. He shakes his head and motions between himself and you. “No, we got this.”

You nod, adding, “You stay. They're leaving the tents here, and once the fight is over tomorrow, you can come and join us.”

Bellamy looks up at the stars, and then over to Monty. “I told Octavia we're taking 80 acres, on the Eastern edge of the valley. Grow something other than algae, okay?”

They look at each other for a long second before they break into smiles, and you grin at the interaction, glad to see them both happy, even if it’s just for a few minutes. Eventually, Monty leaves to go find Harper, and you and Bellamy watch the stars before he suddenly asks, “The last time we were in the desert marching to war, you said something that I never got to ask about.”

You glance away from the sky, and over to him. “What’s that?”

“You said you have a house in the valley, built for two. Did you mean for us?”

“No, I was definitely getting it ready so I could share it with some other guy.” Bellamy laughs, remembering when he asked you to move in with him, and you laugh too. “Yes, for us, if you want it. It’s the perfect size for us, slightly larger than the room we had at Arkadia. It’s got a kitchen and a bathroom, but the best part is the bedroom.”

He gives you a suggestive look. “Oh yeah? Why’s that?”

You laugh and playfully hit his arm. “Not for that reason. It has a window on the roof that opens up to the sky. During the day it lets warm sunshine in, and at night you can see the stars.”

He smiles down at you, tugging you closer to him, whispering against your lips, “It does sound perfect for us.”

He pulls you in for a kiss and you let yourself get lost in the kiss, reminding you of how wonderful it is to be wrapped up in his arms. As the two of you start to pull away, someone clears their throat, and you jump apart, slightly embarrassed. You look up to see Indra looking down at the two of you, and you swear she’s hiding a smile as she nods towards Octavia’s tent. “Last strategy meeting, and they want you both there.”

You stand and follow her to the tent, the last three to arrive, gathering around the table that features the new map, drawn for your plan. Octavia looks at Bellamy, nodding at him to begin. “At dawn, our group in the woods will open fire on pillbox one, in position A here. At the first sign of attack, McCreary's forces at point B and C will converge to reinforce A, thinking that's where we're coming through.”

Octavia muses, “Leaving the other two doors wide open.”

Bellamy glances at you, and you finish the plan, pointing down at the map. “We'll come through here, point C. Now, if we time it right and we move fast, there won't be any resistance.”

Indra mutters, “Once we're in the woods, we take the village.”

Miller finishes, “Once we're in the woods, we win.”

All of you look up and around at each other, making sure everyone understands, and Brell is the first to nod. “Okay, I'll tell my people.”

Miller turns on her, growling, “Your people?”

Indra breaks up the argument and snaps, “Save it for the enemy. Spread the word, we go at first light.”

Everyone starts to dissipate, and Octavia turns her attention to you and Bellamy. “Tell Echo I said well done.”

“You can tell her yourself in two hours.” Bellamy grabs your hand and leads you from the tent, eager to end any conversation with his sister. The two of you head back outside and over to your fire, deciding to spend your last few hours before the war together, enjoying each other’s company. Though your victory seems imminent, you never know what will happen in war. The tides can change at any second, and you could lose, people could die. Which is why you and Bellamy stay huddled together, making sure each of you know just how much you love each other. 

Just in case.

-

next chapter

[endgametike]

Bellamy Blake x reader

Part 2

“A thank you would be nice.”

You kept walking, ignoring the fact that Bellamy was right next to you.

“Oh, I’m sorry Bellamy, do you want me to thank you for freeing me after locking me up?”

You entered your room trying to close the door, but Bellamy still made it inside.

“I’m doing this for you! To protect you! You and Octavia are the most important people in my life, and I can’t lose you to the Grounders.”

“Bullshit Bellamy. Keep telling yourself that. The Grounders weren’t attacking , they were sent to protect us! Can’t you see what you’ve become?”

You finally looked at Bellamy and you noticed a tear falling on his cheek.

“You’re not the Bellamy I loved anymore. You let them lock me up. You let them lock Lincoln up. Pike wants to kill every Grounder, and if he has to take down some of his own, he will. Don’t think he’ll save you if you need.”

Bellamy now had more tears running down his face and you tried to keep yourself together.

“He told me he would protect you and Octavia. I can’t lose you! I love you and if this what I need to do to keep you safe, then that’s what I’m going to do, even if you hate me for that.”

“Go float yourself.”

Bellamy left the room and after you heard the door closing you sat in your bed crying.

You, your father, Harper and Miller had been spending the last week coming up with a plan. You were kinda nervous, but it was working. You had Pike on the jeep and the door were open. There was only a small problem.

“Bellamy get out of the way!”

“I’m sorry Y/n I can’t let you do this!”

You were starting to get nervous and you were trembling. You heard Kane’s voice.

“Y/n you can do this, c’mon.”

“I’m trying!”

Expect you weren’t. You couldn’t hit Bellamy, even if you wanted to, you couldn’t. You loved him. You felt someone grabbing you and putting handcuffs around your wrists. You turned your head around and saw Bellamy mouthing an “I’m sorry”.

You had been sobbing for the past hour, while your dad held you in his arms and rubbed your back.

“I’m so sorry, I should have just ran him over.”

Your father looked you in the eyes with a look you knew well, he used to do it when you where only a kid and broke something. It always made you feel good, as if it wasn’t your fault.

“It’s fine Y/n. We understand, it’s not your fault.”

“Chancellor on deck!”

You rolled your eyes and swiped away the tears as you saw the guards and Pike.

“I thought we had more time.” Marcus murmured under his breath, holding you closer to him, as if it would protect you.

You saw Bellamy appear from behind Pike and you locked eyes with him.

“Each of you have committed the same crimes and as such, will all suffer the same punishment. Death.”

“Excuse me ? What did they do? I was the one the one driving the jeep, all they did was follow my orders.”

Kane grabbed your arm pulling you down.

“I think what Y/n is trying to say is that my people did nothing . Don’t let them suffer for my crimes....please.”

It was the first time you heard Lincoln begging for anything and you could hear the despair on his voice.

“Sir, Lincoln’s right. All the others did was run through an open door, the same thing we would do if we were in there.”

Bellamy murmured, glancing over at you. You looked away, you couldn’t even stare at Bellamy without wanting to attack him.

“I believe that’s true. Kane , Lincoln, Sinclair and Y/n. As the leaders of this coup, you will pay for your crimes with your lives. Execution is set for dawn.” 

You finally looked over to Bellamy to see his reaction. His eyes were red and tears were running down his cheek.

“Ai laik going gon frag op Yu.”

“I told you to stop speaking their language.”

“Jok Yu pike. En hon daun Belomi kom Yu gon hell.”

Pike left the room followed by Bellamy and his guards. Bellamy looked at you one last time, his heart beating faster than ever. He made a mistake , and he only realized that now.

“Ai badan klin hayon taim emo dula op anything gon em Ai na frag op emo.”

“Ething na na ku Y/n , Ai laik hir gon Yu”

You heard footsteps and saw your dad being dragged by some guards back to the cell.

“Dad! Are you okay? What did they do to you ?”

“It was Abby. She asked for one last moment with me.”

“Oh. Abby.”

You looked down. You were truly happy for your dad, you just never thought he would be with anyone but your mom.

“Y/n I..”

You interrupted him.

“You love her.”

You only realized what you said after you said it . Your dad looked at you with a sad look, reminding your mom. You looked exactly like her.

“It’s fine. Mom would understand it . I understand it. “

You put your hand on top of his, smiling sadly.

“Octavia ? Oh my god.”

You ran to your best friend and hugged her tightly.

“Yu found yumi.”

“Always.”

Octavia looked tired, but relieved at the same time.

“We need to move quick, it won’t take Pike long to figure out something’s up.”

“Where are we going exactly?”

Your dad looked at Octavia hoping she had a plan. And she did .

“Down.” She answered as she lifted up one of the square floorboards revealing a small space.”Who wants to go first?” 

One by one, everyone started getting inside, until it was only you, Lincoln , Octavia and Kane left.

“I have a message for the traitors.” Pike’s voice spoke through the radio. “There will be an execution today. Either turn yourselves in, or the other grounder prisoners will die in your place.”

You stayed still as Octavia and Lincoln talked. It was your fault.

“No!” Octavia cried out and you turned around to see her passed away on your dad’s arms.

“honey c’mon.”

“I’m going dad.”

You smiled at him, although you knew exactly what you were going to do.

“Ai laik going kom Yu. Oso gon daun together.”

“Nou! Yu are going kom emo, stay klir. Gon Ai.”

“Em ste Ai fault emo are going gon get don frag op. Ai laik going kom Yu.”

You were going to die. This was it. This was the end. You were staring at Pike, with a gun on his hand pointed at Lincoln’s head. And then you saw Kane with his hand on Octavia’s shoulder. Octavia was crying, her eyes red. You wanted to hug her and tell her everything was going to be okay, but you couldn’t. Cause after Lincoln, it was your turn. You were so focused on Octavia that you trembled when you heard a gunshot and looked over to where Lincoln was, just in time to see him falling, blood everywhere. Suddenly, the tears that had been threatening to fall for a while, finally did and you started screaming.

“Lincoln. Nou. Ai laik going gon frag op Yu pike. Ai hate Yu.”

But before you could do anything you were grabbed and forced to kneel on the same place Lincoln was before they dragged him out. Pike had a familiar smirk on his face. He was clearly enjoying this. You looked over to where Octavia and Kane were, but this time Kane was holding Octavia. He locked eyes with you with a sad look, as if he was begging you to do something.

“Any last words?”

Pike asked you, what he probably asked Lincoln. You were disgusted by him . You looked to your father again. Tears were running down his face as he tried to run to you, but Indra wouldn’t let him.

“ Ai na hod in Yu feva.”

And you heard a gunshot. But you didn’t feel anything. Instead, Pike fell on the floor and Bellamy was pointing a gun at him.

“Bellamy.”

Bellamy ran over to you and hugged you. He grabbed your hand and you two started running away, hearing gunshots that missed you for inches. When you were finally safe, you and Bellamy stopped running.

“You saved me.”

“I love you.”

[justinalovee]

Now we live

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Chapter:03

“What are you doing?” Nova asked in a low voice.

She had woken to see a bloodied John Murphy in front of her, he was untying her. Nova noticed he had also brought ‘normal’ clothes, along with a knife.

“Soon as you get the chance to run go and don’t look back.”

The screaming woke her. Flickering her eyes open, they quickly adjusted to the brightly lit room for her to see nothing but white. At first Nova thought she had died, and this was the bright light people used to talk about. But she wasn’t dead, just trapped in hell. The screaming was her own.

The man in the hazmat suit was pulling the tube out of her arm, it was then she heard the drilling noise again. Nova wanted to beg for the pain to stop, but she was too proud. A grounder would never plead for their life.

“Thank you...” Nova couldn’t believe he was helping her escape. “Why are you letting me go? Won’t your people be mad?”

The sky boy didn’t answer her question. He had dried blood around his nose and mouth, but what Nova noticed most was the way his fists were shaking. Looking between his hands and his face, the grounder recognized the look on his face. Murphy had murder on his mind.

______

Nova’s body creaked and ached while she tried to get comfortable in the small cage they locked her in. The room was full of grounders from different clans being healed against their will in...whatever the place was.

“Psssst!”

Nova looked up to see the grounder in the cage above staring down at her. “Treyton?” She had seen his face before in her village. He couldn’t have been any older than sixteen.

“Cadeau has been going koken lufa au Yu, she mous don frag op those Tu fools when she learnd chit emo don dula gon You. She don bilaik convinced gon kom daun gon tondc gon huk op birth.” ‘Cadeau has been going crazy searching for you, she almost killed those two fools when she learned what they have done to you. She had to be convinced to return to Tondc to give birth.’ The young grounder informed her.

Cadeau..her pregnant sister shouldn’t be worried about her. Nova should be looking after her, instead of being trapped like an animal ready for slaughter. “Ha dula op Oso get au kom hir?” ‘How do we get out of here?’

Treyton shook his head. “Oso na't. Guards surround Disha place, emo na frag op Yu raun spot taim emo ai op Yu trana gon escape.” ‘We can't. Guards surround this place, they will kill you on the spot if they see you trying to escape.’

Nova grimaced when she felt drips of blood landing on her arm. They must have put the young grounder through hell for him to still be bleeding. “na fig au a edei gon get yumi au kom hir!” ‘I will find a way to get us out of here!’

The door to the room opened again as guards checked the cages to see who was still alive, and who had succumbed to their injuries. Three grounds had died. Nova tried not to scream or cry when a guard hit her with a stick that sent an electric shock through her body. At least she was still alive to feel the pain.

Running through the woods, Nova still hadn’t been able to shake who was following her. She didn’t think it was anyone that fell from the sky. They wouldn’t have been capable of sneaking around so quietly.

Nova let out a squeal when she tripped over a branch and landed on the ground with a thud. Men in strange suits with guns quickly surrounded her. As Nova tried to move an object struck her on the back of the head.

“Chit don dula Skaikru dula op gon Yu??” ‘What did the sky people do to you?’ Treyton asked once the guards left with a new victim.

“Eintheing, emo jos questioned Ai. Emo became i’ll kom gona virus. Ai didn’t get in anya don gaf gon infect emo.” ‘Nothing, they just questioned me. They became i’ll from the warrior virus. I didn’t know Anya wanted to infect them.’ Nova confessed.

Treyton shook his head. “Sha, she was meizen pissed gon chit happened gon lincoln. Skaikru tortured em.” ‘Yeah, she was pretty pissed at what happened to Lincoln. The sky people tortured him.’

Nova pressed her lips into a thin line. She could believe it, the one called Bellamy probably would have done worse than pull her hair if they were alone. He was full of anger and wanted some kind of revenge. “A gada called Okteivia don trana gon help. also boy dane en lamos kept honon helped Ai escape. He could yu don bash op Ai, ba choose gon help instead.” ‘A girl called Octavia tried to help...also the boy Dane and Lamos kept prisoner helped me escape. He could have hurt me, but choose to help instead.’

Treyton gave her an unconvinced look. “Skaikru can’t na trusted. Gon bilaik get in boy might yu don been handing Yu odon gon maun hef.” ‘The sky people can’t be trusted. For all you know the boy might have been handing you over to the mountain men.’

“Ai don’t fig raun krei. he was trana gon help Ai.” ‘I don’t think so...he was trying to help me.’ Nova stopped talking when a loud screaming noise echoed down the hallway. She looked up at Treyton who was visibly scared. “Oso na get through Disha.” ‘We will get through this.’

“Ai hope krei. It’s a shame Yu don’t yu don you’re bow en arrow nearby, na Yu tech Ai ha gon mana once Oso get au?” ‘I hope so. It’s a shame you don’t have your bow and arrow nearby, can you teach me how to aim once we get out?’ Treyton asked in a slight chuckle.

“i'll make Yu finest archer raun houd.” ‘I'll make you the greatest archer in the world.’

Next chapter

Notes:This wasn’t my favorite chapter to write, but I felt it was necessary for the story's progression.🥺

[yrbutchgf]

I recently started coming to terms with being butch, and just… thank you. It’s really nice to see butch blogs that aren’t lesbian (not that they’re bad, but sometimes it feels like “don’t follow if you’re not exclusively WLW”). And thank you for all your posts about being butch. They make me smile, and hopefully I can feel more comfortable being myself and trusting that this is who I am and how I want to be. It’s so nice to see other people who already do that. I hope you have a nice day ✨

P.S. were there any things that helped you when you were realizing you were butch?

P.P.S. I’m worried about how I worded this, but I mean it well

aw, you phrased it fine. it is a pretty narrow slice of tumblr that discuses butch/femme outside of a strictly wlw context, which is absolutely fine and im glad tht content exists to begin with, but it does definitely also make it difficult for, for example, butch mlm, or butches and femmes who are both men and women at the same time (e.g. bisexualgender or bigender people) to find content that's geared toward them. i get it, and im glad my presence on this site is helping you feel more comfortable in being you! im very lucky for all my bi mutuals who've made me feel comfortable posting about butch & bi things over the past year. up until recently, i haven't really been the op of any posts about bi butchness, just sort of been figuring myself out and solidifying myself. but yeah <3

the things tht made me realize i was butch initially were really just like, realizing that it was a thing i could do, seeing the word "butch" in use rather than just "masc"/"gnc." i had had a fixation on masculine women for several years at that point. for example, i drew and wrote a lot of butch ocs without realizing that was what i was doing — short-haired women with muscles who took on masculine roles in relationships with their girlfriends, etc; notably, one woman character whose character arc in her story revolved around her (lesbian) love interest mistaking her for a man at first (i was like 14 lol). but then i found butch/femme spaces online, realized there was a word for it, read stone butch blues, and realized it was something *i* could do. as soon as i realized it was a possibility, i knew it was me.

im lucky that my family was really supportive, so after some experimenting with what i wanted, i was able to start wearing clothes that made me feel butch pretty much immediately. things like men's jeans, thick leather belts, sports bras, and thick button-downs were some things that i gravitated toward immediately. i wore patterned bow ties for a few weeks but quickly realized it was a little too dressy for my tastes.

during the time while i was experimenting with my presentation, i started dating (someone who i would call) my first femme, and she definitely brought my confidence through the roof. i remember our first date i wore this like suuuper dorky baby butch outfit (i tucked in this buttondown that was way too big to be tucked in, and it didn't really match well with the jeans i was wearing, and also i wore dress shoes but they didn't really work with the vibe either, and I wasn't going to a barber yet so my hair was still sort of longish, it was a lot), and after the date she texted me and said something along the lines of, "when i saw you in that outfit i was READY. idk what for but i was ready." and it had me through the moon.

so yeah. experimenting with my clothes and hair, being open about it with people who supported me, engaging in welcoming online spaces, and dating femmes, all really helped me when i was trying to figure out what it meant for me to be butch. i also really idolized leslie feinberg, and still do, to be fair - but being in an area where there aren't really many butches, let alone any older butches, leslie feinberg pretty much became my surrogate butch mentor. im glad i found hir books and read about hir, bc ze was sort of my rock.

so yeah! long, rambly answer that was mostly just reminiscing, but i hope i answered your question well. much love

[hadtochangemyurlquick]

So I wrote this long ass multichapter for my secret santa and to this day i have never finished anything with multiple chapters so anyway here’s a one shot, merry christmas to @thecrimsonknight, thank you so much to @swanhedassecretsanta for doing this. I hope everyone is staying safe rn and if you’re bored and need something to tide you over here you go.

Light

I promise I'll do better. I will soften every edge, Hold the world to its best. I promise I'll do better.

Madi hadn’t been afraid, not really, until she saw Clarke’s face that night.

Canon divergent (obvs at 307, but plot wise) season 5

Madi wakes up like a clap of thunder, her heart pounding out of her chest. There’s an iron taste on her tongue and her throat feels clogged. Her cheeks are cold and when she rubs them they’re wet. She hears footsteps in the main room and pauses, gripping her blankets, her fists white. She wishes she still had her knife.

She takes a deep and pushes up from her bed, pausing before stepping onto the cold wood floor and slipping across to her door, always opened a crack. She peeks through, Clarke is walking over two mugs to the sitting area. They have a few candles lit, and Madi opens her door a little wider. Clarke hands the mug to the woman on the couch, running a hand over the woman’s back once as she does, and slipping next to her.

“How are you feeling?”

The woman takes a long sip of her drink, it’s probably tea, it looks warm the way her boney fingers are wrapped around it, “Fine,” she answers at last, her voice a hoarse rasp.

“You should be resting, I know it’s hard to sleep but -“

The woman closes her eyes, “I’m okay Clarke.”

Clarke takes a long sip of her own tea, “Madi and my mom are both home.” There’s a long silence as Clarke and Madi wait for the woman to respond, she doesn’t and Clarke sighs. “Why did you come Lexa?”

Lexa’s focused on some spot on the wall, Clarke stares into her mug, Madi opens the door a crack wider. Lexa’s fingers unwrap from the mug like they’re made of wood, and reach across, creaking the whole way, and wrap themselves around Clarke’s. Clarke stares down at it, like she doesn’t know how to hold hands with someone who’s not her mother or Madi. Lexa is still staring at the wall.

Then this crazy thing happens, this really insane thing, that Madi wouldn’t believe if she weren’t seeing it with her own eyes, Clarke lightens, she just - she lightens. She doesn’t quite smile, Madi doesn’t think she can really anymore, but she just, she looks at Lexa like someone is finally - finally - holding the world with her.

Clarke turns her hand over, squeezing it, before letting go and achingly slow, achingly careful, brushing a lock of hair behind Lexa’s ear. Lexa still flinches when Clarke’s fingers brush her ear, but Clarke remains sure, cupping Lexa’s cheek to turn her head to face her.

“I’m so glad you’re here Lexa,” Clarke whispers, like it’s a secret. Lexa closes her eyes, like she can’t bear to look at Clarke without getting blinded. Clarke moves a little closer, and closer again, and closer a third time, their foreheads inches apart. Madi’s eyes widen, Clarke’s nose nudges Lexa’s, their lips still not touching until Lexa brushes them. It’s gentle ever so gentle, but they brush and Clarke looks like she can breathe for the first time ever.

Clarke pulls away, shining, exuding warmth, Lexa looks like she can barely take it all in, like she’s jogging to keep it up, “You should stay,” Clarke says. “Have breakfast with my mom and Madi.”

Lexa is silent, she stares at a point behind Clarke’s head. Clarke takes her hands, squeezing it, and Lexa opens her mouth a couple times, swallowing, “The child?” She finally sounds out, her eyes refocusing on Clarke.

“My child,” Clarke emphasizes. She pauses, “We’re a package deal, you know.”

Lexa swallows again, she takes in air like one might before they leap into water, “You always had strings attached.” She says in one breath, Clarke’s brow furrows, “Murders, tyrants, now a teenager.” Lexa closes her eyes again, “Worse.”

Clarke squints, “What happened to mocking is not the product of the strong mind?”

Lexa puts her mug down, shifting so her head rests on Clarke’s shoulder, “‘M not one being mocked.”

Clarke puts her own mug down, wrapping an arm around Lexa to hold her close, “Oh I see, the rules don’t apply to you. And you call my people the tyrants?” Lexa nods, slow and sort of sleepy, Clarke seems to agree, “Hey now, can’t sleep here. Let me get you to a bed.”

“I love you.”

Clarke pauses, Madi holds her breath, “You still can’t sleep here. It’ll be better for your ribs in a bed, okay?” Madi sighs but Lexa doesn’t seem disappointed, she lets herself be picked up, walked to Clarke’s room. Madi goes back to bed and stares at the ceiling.  

Her mother taught her how to throw a knife, her father a spear. One time she remembers her mother backhanding her when Madi threatened her with a knife. She didn’t remember her father ever being quite kind either. Clarke had always been a sort of kind, with a sort of tired, worn out, threadbare love. Like a hand-me-down baby blanket. Clarke never had the chance to be soft. She tried, Madi always appreciated that, but Madi wasn’t soft herself. She never tried to be. Clarke was good, and Madi always got the sense, looking back on her parents, that they weren’t. It hurt more than the backhand when Clarke pushed the button on that remote. Madi wonders if Clarke would’ve pressed it if Lexa had been with them those six years.

She thinks maybe then Clarke’s love would’ve been less desperate, less hanging by a string, more tangible and strong, less - heavy, less weighed down fraying the already thin string. She still thinks about Clarke’s face when Echo told her the truth after Echo woke up tied to the chair, that open mouthed outright pain, when her string finally broke, when nothing supported her and she was free falling. The fear.

“She lived.”

Madi hadn’t been afraid, not really, until she saw Clarke’s face that night.

Echo still comes around some, none of the others do. Monty and Harper are off in Polis trying to farm and heal the land around them. Raven and Bellamy avoid the place like the plague, and Murphy and Emori are off somewhere licking their wounds. Echo doesn’t say much when she does, brings a meal like she doesn’t think Clarke can take care of herself, or Madi can’t take care of Clarke, looks around at the decorations, the walls littered in Clarke’s sketches and Madi’s doodles, offers to fix some wobbly table leg, and leaves when Clarke politely makes excuses. Madi had decided a few months ago that Octavia was still her favorite, but that it was just too bad Octavia died in the dark year. She never told Clarke.

In the morning Lexa sits quietly on one of the kitchen chairs, her hands folded in her lap as Clarke moves around the kitchen. Sometimes she looks up at her, follows her with her eyes, like she can’t believe her luck, other times she counts the scratches at the table. She doesn’t greet Madi when Madi sits down and Clarke doesn’t either except to ruffle her hair and kiss her forehead.

Lexa swallows a few times, “Yu raun wochgeda?” Are you in school?

Clarke stiffens but doesn’t answer for Madi so Madi straightens, “Nou wochgeda raun hir.” There isn’t a school around here.

Lexa frowns, “Hanch - hanch goufa kamp raun hir?” How many children are around here?

Madi shrugs. “Ba ai get in ha fish raun, splash raun, fis op, en jomp in. Klark don tich ai op.” But I know how to fish, swim, heal, and fight. Clarke taught me.

Lexa coughs, aggressively. Clarke hovers like she wants to do something but doesn’t quite know what, maybe get her water but they haven’t -

The coughs die down, Lexa swallows and when she talks it’s hoarser than ever, “Taim klark don tich yu op fish raun, splash raun, o jomp in, yu nou get in ha.” If Clarke taught you to fish, swim, or fight, you don’t know how to.

Clarke rolls her eyes, “Shof op, branwoda.” Shut up, idiot.

Madi looks between the two of them, sees that lightness. Her own body lifts, like it’s out of her body and she watches the three of them. They look - not happy but - okay? Like the world won’t collapse. Like they’ll survive if it does.

[dzamie]

Well, I’m being serious, they started role playing on a strangers post who asked them to stop, then got defensive and called them a stalker. I’m telling you because you’re the first person I saw on their blog with anonymous on and I don’t wanna associate my blog with that lmao

It's really unfortunate how easy it is to find out you're wrong. They never asked hir to stop, they went "woah how did you do that" (not asking hir to stop), reblogged someone calling hir cringe (STILL not asking hir to stop), and then went through hir blog and accused hir of being cringe directly (and, technically, still didn't ask hir to stop, just heavily implied that shi should've gotten permission before reblogging, which is not how this site works).

So yeah, your buddy sucks absolute shit at communication and decided to try and look up dirt on someone rather than talking to them like a sensible person. I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt and assume you're not the op of that thread, because I would hope only Dobson could reach that level of absolute sad.

But let's make this educational!

Hey kids! If someone interacts with your post in a way you don't like, here's a quick way to solve the problem!

"don't do that on my post, I don't like it"

If they continue, block them! They'll never be able to reblog your posts ever again!

Just follow these two simple steps, and you're on your way to bring a better internet denizen!

[freedom-of-writing]

You’re all I want, all I need

Chapter 1 - I’m ready now

Chapter 2 - The 13th clan

Chapter 3 - Soulmates

Chapter 4 - Your enemy is our enemy

Chapter 5 - Costia

Chapter 6 - The calm before a storm

Chapter 7: Hurts like hell

The entire army is gathered in front of Lexa's tent, where a small dais has been erected for the Commander to give her pre-battle speech on. Clarke is standing in the crowd next to her people as they all patiently wait for Lexa to make her entrance. Clarke is wearing her Wanheda’s armor, and she has two stripes of war paint that go from her nose to her hairline on each side of her face. She's also armed like a true grounder, with a sword and her knife tucked respectively on her back and on her left thigh. The only Skaikru weapon she’s carrying with her is a small gun slipped into her belt on her right side.

Clarke tries to remain calm as she waits for Lexa to come out of the tent. The truth is, she’s impatient to see the other woman, with whom she hasn’t had a single alone moment ever since they left Polis. Of course, they saw each other the night before during the war council, but she really wishes she could have a moment with her girlfriend before moving to battle. Especially considering that the council has decided that it would be best for them to fight on different parts of the battlefield, as their role of commanders makes them two sensible targets. That way Azgeda won't be able to take down both of them at once, or so they hope.

When the Commander finally exits her tent, and makes her way on the dais, the crowd bursts out into loud cheers. But everyone falls silent as soon as Lexa raises her hand asking for attention.

"Gona kom Kongeda, oso laik hir deyon shil Skaikru op, oso brana lukot, kom Azgeda. Geda chon jomp moun op, jomp oso op. Oso throu daun ogeda en oso kik thru ogeda." She pauses for a moment as her warriors start cheering again.

In the meantime, Clarke uses the break to translate Lexa’s words for her people. "Warriors of the Coalition, we are here today to protect the Sky People, our new friends, from the Ice Nation. A clan who attacks another, attacks us all. We fight together, and we survive together."

When the crowd grows quiet again, Lexa moves her gaze over her people, and stops to look briefly at Clarke. The two women exchange a quick nod before Lexa turns her head away to address the whole army again.

"Jus drein jus daun!" She shouts followed in chorus by all the warriors.

Blood must have blood! Clarke doesn't need to translate that: her people have come to know the meaning of those words all too well by now. Just like they know that that is their cue. It's time. There's no going back now, either you fight or you die.

As soon as Lexa comes down from the dais, Clarke rushes towards her. She comes to a stop right in front of her, but she hesitates to close the distance. They both stand still, looking at each other, not sure whether or not they can display any kind of affection in front of their people. Clarke takes a look around them to see if anyone’s watching, and then she decides she simply doesn’t give a damn. There’s no way she’s going into battle without properly saying goodbye to the woman she loves. So, she takes one last step to close the distance between them, and she brings Lexa in for a tight hug. It takes Lexa a mere second of hesitation before she returns the hug just as fiercely. When at last the part from their embrace, they exchange a small smile, and then they lean in for a kiss. It takes them all the self-control they have not to fall into a full make out session in front of everyone. But thankfully, they manage to keep the kiss as sober and quick as possible. When they finally part from air, they stay close with their foreheads pressed together.  

Clarke brings her hand up to caress Lexa's cheek softly as she starts speaking. "Hey, Heda, don't you dare die on me. Do you hear me? You need to promise me you're not gonna die out there. I can't live without you." As she looks straight into Lexa's eyes, she sees a flash of sadness appear in those beautiful green orbs.

"You know I can't promise that." She says as she runs her thumb on Clarke’s cheeks, mirroring her action. "Neither of us can. But what I can promise is that I'm going to do anything in my power to come back to you, ai hodness."

Those words manage to bring a smile to Clarke’s face. "I’ll do anything in my power to come back to you too.”

"Heda, taim don kom op." One of Lexa's generals says from behind them. It's time.

At the hearing of those words, Clarke and Lexa jump away from each other. A worried look crosses both of their faces. But if the man is upset in any way by the sight of the two of them holding each other like that, he doesn't let it show.

"Alright. Let's get this over with." Lexa nods before moving to follow her general.

"Wait!" Clarke quickly stops her in her tracks by grabbing her arm and turning her around so that they're facing each other again.

She doesn't exactly know what to say, because she refuses to believe this is goodbye and, at same time, she doesn't want to part from Lexa just yet. She looks down at their hands as she intertwines her fingers with her Lexa’s, because she can't afford to look weak in front of their people, not today. And she knows that, in the moment she’ll look into those big green eyes she loves so much, she won't be able to hold back her tears. When she feels Lexa giving her hand a small squeeze, she finally raises her head again, and what she sees there shocks her. Apparently, she isn't the only one trying not to cry, Lexa’s eyes are just as watery as she imagines her own to be. Clarke realizes this is the first time she's ever seen Lexa shed tears in public. They're surrounded by the fiercest warriors of the Coalition, yet here she is letting all her walls down, and letting herself be vulnerable for the woman she loves. Clarke knows how hard it is for Lexa to show weakness, and her heart melts at the thought of this woman loving her so much to let herself appear weak in public. Without other hesitation she throws herself at her girlfriend to hold her in a tight embrace again. Lexa returns the hug immediately this time.

"I love you." Clarke whispers brokenly in the girl's neck.

"I love you too." Lexa reciprocates before leaning back to place a soft kiss to her forehead. "I'll see you when this is all over. Be safe." And with that she turns to catch up with her group of warriors.

"You too." Clarke murmurs to Lexa's back before turning to go join her people waiting for her.

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After hours of fighting, it is clear that the Ice Nation army is a much harder enemy to defeat than they have originally expected. The amount of corpses Clarke has to avoid as she moves around the battlefield, and the strong smell of blood make her feel sick to the stomach. But she keeps striking her sword back and forth, because she can't afford to get distracted, and be killed in the process. She's just run her blade through another Azgeda warrior when she hears a cold voice coming from behind her.

"Well, well, if it isn't the mighty Wanheda."

"Nia." Clarke recognizes immediately the woman standing in front of her, even if she's never met the Ice Queen before.

"Looks like Lexa went to all the trouble to save you for nothing. She can't protect you this time, Sky girl. Your power will be mine, and finally I'll become the only leader worth of the Commander's throne!" With that Nia launches herself forward, drawing her sword at Clarke. But to her surprise, the blonde is quick enough to stop her blow with ease.

The sound of their blades colliding is all Clarke can hear for a long time, until a loud pained scream rises from her side. Clarke immediately turns her head to see if it was one of her people to get wounded, but her distraction gives Nia the time to kick her sword out of her hand, and to send her back first on the ground. The sudden attack catches Clarke off guard, and she doesn't have time to slow her fall and avoid hitting her head. She lies there all dizzy for moment, and Nia uses that time to proceed to another attack. Clarke lies still as she looks at Nia’s sword rising up in the air, and then coming down hard for her chest. For a second, she thinks it’s over, this is how she dies. But all of a sudden, she remembers something. It’s a move she’s seen Lexa teach the Nightbloods in one of their sparring sessions. She raises her left leg slightly so she can reach the knife tucked on her thigh, and right before the blade can run through her chest, she rolls on her side. Surprised by her quick move, Nia stares at her sword stuck on the forest floor, giving Clarke just enough time to roll back with her legs raised to kick the woman straight in the ribs, sending her to the ground. They both get back on their feet quickly, and Nia immediately raises her hand to lay a punch on Clarke's face, expecting the Sky girl to be unarmed just like she is. But Clarke surprises her once more, and right as she’s about to hit her, she feels something sharp penetrating her flesh. Her mouth fills with that taste of metal which is typical of blood, and she moves her eyes down to see Clarke pushing a knife into her chest. When Nia brings her eyes back up to look at Clarke, the blonde turns the knife slightly in her chest sending another shot of pain through her body which is almost enough to take her breath away.

The blonde stares at her for another moment before uttering in her lowest, and most menacing voice: "I am Wanheda, Commander of Death! I don't need Lexa to fight for me: non na throu daun gon ai!" No one fights for me. And with that she pulls the knife out of the Nia’s flesh, letting her drop down dead.

"This is for Costia." She whispers as the victory horns fill the battlefield with their sound.

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After hours of fighting, it is clear that the Ice Nation army is a much harder enemy to defeat than they have originally expected. The amount of corpses Clarke has to avoid as she moves around the battlefield, and the strong smell of blood make her feel sick to the stomach. But she keeps striking her sword back and forth, because she can't afford to get distracted, and be killed in the process. She's just run her blade through another Azgeda warrior when she hears a cold voice coming from behind her.

"Well, well, if it isn't the mighty Wanheda."

"Nia." Clarke recognizes immediately the woman standing in front of her, even if she's never met the Ice Queen before.

"Looks like Lexa went to all the trouble to save you for nothing. She can't protect you this time, Sky girl. Your power will be mine, and finally I'll become the only leader worth of the Commander's throne!" With that Nia launches herself forward, drawing her sword at Clarke. But to her surprise, the blonde is quick enough to stop her blow with ease.

The sound of their blades colliding is all Clarke can hear for a long time, until a loud pained scream rises from her side. Clarke immediately turns her head to see if it was one of her people to get wounded, but her distraction gives Nia the time to kick her sword out of her hand, and to send her back first on the ground. The sudden attack catches Clarke off guard, and she doesn't have time to slow her fall and avoid hitting her head. She lies there all dizzy for moment, and Nia uses that time to proceed to another attack. Clarke lies still as she looks at Nia’s sword rising up in the air, and then coming down hard for her chest. For a

The moment Clarke enters the gates of Arkadia, she finds herself being pulled in a strong embrace by her mother.

"Clarke! Oh my God, are you okay?" Abby leans back so she can take a proper look at her daughter, searching for any visible injuries.

"Mom. I'm okay, I promise. I'm okay." Clarke doesn't need to ask her mom if she’s ok, because Abby was inside the walls of Arkadia with Jackson all the time. Their role was to tend to the injured warriors who were going to be brought in.

"Is Lexa here?" Clarke asks moving her gaze around, hoping to see her girlfriend walking among the crowd of warriors returning from battle.

"No, she still hasn’t come back.” Abby sees Clarke starting to panic, so she immediately adds: “The battle just ended... I'm sure she'll be here soon."

"Yeah..." Clarke doesn’t sound very convinced, but she does appreciate her mother's effort to calm her down.

"Clarke!" Someone shouts from behind them. Clarke turns quickly to see a familiar face.

"Octavia!" She exclaims as she runs to her friend, relieved to see her friend is safe and sound.

They have lost sight of each other at some point during the battle, and Clarke was honestly worried the girl might have been dead. "You're ok?" She asks, mirroring her mother's actions from before. "Wait, where's Lincoln? Is he..."

"No, he's fine. He'll be here soon." Octavia reassures her quickly, although something in her voice doesn't sound quite right. It's like there's something she's holding back. Something that’s definitely bad news.

Clarke doesn’t seem to notice it, though, as she replies with a sincere smile on her face. "Good. I'm glad you're both okay."

"Clarke, there's something I ne-" Octavia starts just to be interrupted by Clarke, who is suddenly reminded that she was looking for Lexa right before her friend showed up.

"Hey, you don't happen to have seen Lexa, do you? She has yet to come back from battle and..." Clarke trails off when she sees her friend turning her head away as if to avoid her gaze. She's definitely hiding something, and this time Clarke sees it.

"What is it? Have you seen her? Is she okay?!"

"Clarke..."

Maybe it's the sad tone in Octavia’s voice, or the way her friend’s eyes water as she looks back at her, or maybe it's just the fact that everyone is back from battle but her girlfriend. But suddenly, something clicks inside of Clarke, and she starts to panic again.

"What? You… you know where is she? Octavia?” When Octavia avoids her gaze once again, Clarke starts yelling. "Octavia, what happened?! Where the hell is she?! Where’s Lexa?!"

"I'm so sorry, Clarke..." Octavia says in a small voice before raising her eyes to look at Clarke slowly.

"What…?" Clarke whispers, terrified of what might come next.

"We did everything we could, Clarke. But... She'd lost too much blood. I'm so sorry." Octavia is now full-on crying as she looks at somewhere past Clarke's shoulder. The blonde follows her eyes until her gaze falls on Lincoln.

"No..." She shakes her head at the sight of him approaching them with a lifeless Lexa in his arms.

"Oh my God." She cries. This can't be happening. Please, let it be just her worst nightmare. There's no way Lexa's dead, she can't be dead. They were supposed to find each other once the battle was over and, and hug each other, and kiss and, and-

Clarke is hyperventilating by the time Lincoln reaches her. "I'm sorry, Clarke..." He interrupts her trail of thoughts as he comes to a stop in front of her.

"Lincoln. Put her down." Octavia says gently as she places a hand on her boyfriend's upper arm, encouraging him to do as she says.

She knows he has orders to bring the Commander's body to the medical center with the other dead warriors, as the ones who have survived prepare the pyre for a proper funeral ceremony. But she also knows that Clarke needs to say goodbye. And they have to let her hold Lexa one last time before they burn her body. Lincoln hesitates for a moment. As a warrior he’s supposed to follow his orders, but as Clarke’s friend he cannot deny her one last moment with the woman she loves. Finally, he gives up with a small nod of agreement, and he crouches down to place Lexa's body on the ground.

As soon as Lincoln gets back up, Clarke lets herself drop heavily on her knees, not even bothering the pain that shoots through her bones as she impacts with the ground. Nothing will ever come close to the pain she's feeling right now. It's like her heart has been shattered into a million pieces, and her lungs have been emptied of all of the air they used to hold inside. She's not even sure if her heart is still beating, it might as well have stopped in the moment she saw Lexa slumped lifelessly in Lincoln's arms. Now that she's kneeling beside her, she can make out two bullet holes on the Lexa’s abdomen. Her shirt is soaked in her own dark blood, and there's a trail of dried blood that goes from the side of Lexa's mouth to her chin. As Clarke takes it all in, tears start streaming down her cheeks. She holds a hand on her chest, trying vainly to alleviate the pain that fills heart, and that won’t let her breathe. Her other hand goes to her mouth when she lets out the first sob. She shakes her head fiercely as she cries over Lexa’s dead body. Her tears fall on Lexa’s chest as she leans forward to pull her lifeless figure onto her lap. Clarke embraces her girlfriend tightly as she sobs in her the crook of her neck, seeking for the warmth that she used to find there.

All Clarke can see is Lexa, and she can hear are her own broken sobs. She doesn't notice the small crowd of people that's gathered around them. She doesn't see Octavia and Lincoln crying in each other's arms at the sight of that heart-wrenching scene. She doesn't see Kane holding his arm securely around Abby's shoulders as her mother cries too, finally understanding the depth of Clarke's feelings for Lexa. She doesn't see her people’s shocked, surprised, and sad faces as they find out while she's sobbing desperately in her dead girlfriend's chest, that Clarke and Lexa were much more than just the Commander of the 13th clans and the Ambassador of the Sky People to one another. Clarke doesn't notice. But in that moment, everyone knows she and Lexa loved each other with all of their hearts, even if the cruel world they live in has tried to tear them apart time and time again.

Finally, they don’t have to hide their love anymore. But there is no more… 

Chapter 8 - Shouldn’t be a good in goodbye

[courage-a-word-of-justice]

Sarazanmai 3 - 6 | Fruits Basket 2 - 7 | OPM 2 2 - 7 | BSD 3 3 - 6 | Demon Slayer 4 - 7 | Shield Hero 17 - 20

I’ll be rolling out the tags around about the time of this post.

Sarazanmai 3

Kisu = kissu (kiss). Update: Or kisu (on the right side of my equation). You do you, subbers.

Goma-ae.

Gomennassara! (Oh, I get it…!)

It never occurred to me that a “micanga” was a bead or small pierced round object of some sort. I thought it was a race track sort of thing, but for soccer. Update: It’s a bracelet/anklet thing.

Wait, so what brought on this change of heart from Kazuki??? Is it like the 1st episode, where it was a daydream that was cleverly presented as real? Update: Yep.

Oh…have you noticed all the victims of Reo and Mabu’s scheme are men of the NEET/freeter age, or approaching that?

Notably, the signature pose of the Sarazanmai seems to be similar to the one Kazuki and Enta did in the soccer team.

I find it interesting that Enta is now the initiator of the Sarazanmai and thus the one to steal the shirikodama. I mean, he used to be the one with the least stakes in the Dish of Hope scenario…and now look at him!

Ooh, Toi is sharpening his ruler! (Or whatever you do in Touken Ranbu with that lil’ beater of his.)

Oh wait, I forgot Ikuhara always has a last-minute twist! Go back, go back!

It seems like Haruka has some kind of illness…hmm. Update: Oh, it’s not an illness per se…spoke too soon.

Haruka’s talking about the Little Prince…hmm. Last time I really bothered to engage with that story in any form was Star Driver.

Fruits Basket 2

I don’t think I ever really chose a side on the Kyo vs Yuki debate, but I guess I always subtly sided with Yuki (even though the end pairing is Tohru and *bleep*). <- sorry, had to censor myself

“It’s important for me to get to school every day!”

Kabedon! Eeeeee! (LOL, I really am a squealy person at heart, aren’t I?)

The writing says “she misheard [what Yuki said] as ‘being sick’”, so it was quite lucky that the word “sickened” worked in context.

Yuki has some mad ninja skills…LOL.

Shigure in a suit looks goooooooooood, man (<- gender neutral use of “man”).

“…the days ahead will be fun.” – Oh, Tohru, you don’t know how wrong you are…(says someone who completed the manga)

Fruits Basket 3

I’m hearing the OP for the first time…and it sounds like an ED. (Probably because I read some impressions that said the same thing earlier today.)

“…included in the zodiac?”

Ooh! Momiji! Wait, er…I didn’t expect him to be so high-pitched…

Lookit the tiny cat icon on the side! It’s cute!!!

*yells* It’s Kagura!!!!!!!! She ain’t my favourite, but man, is it great to see another familiar face!

I’ve been wondering what the title meant when it said “what year is she?” It means “year of the zodiac”.

Fruits Basket 4

“Shii-chan”…?

Kyo-kun ran away before Kagura even started making dinner…

Was Kyo’s katsudon a joke…? (Cats-udon, geddit?...No?)

“…marriage is a girl’s greatest dream.” – That used to be so, Tohru…nowadays, it ain’t.

Lookit how Kyo’s eyes lit up when he talks about his teacher!

OPM 2 2

That title’s…even more counterintuitive than “OPM 2 1”…hmm.

It’s…kind of dark right now.

I think there was bourbon on the counter. Someone likes to drink around here…

I guess with the mass animation exodus, OPM seems kinda…monologue-y. And cheap…

…nope, I take back my words. They were merely saving up for this action scene.

BSD 28 (S3 Ep 3)

Seriously, what are those metal things Dazai was wearing? Anyways, I like how it’s absolutely the norm that Chuuya swears now and I was part of forming that. Because I don’t swear a lot, I think Chuuya makes a nice outlet for my own frustrations...that’s what could be said, anyway.

D’aww. Someone acknowledges Chuuya’s identity. Ain’t that grand? (Now you see why I like Chuuya more than Dazai these days, huh?)

Come to think of it…a person hasn’t died in this show for a while, have they? It just goes to show you that despite one of its major stars being a guy obsessed with shinjuu (double suicide), the creators seem to be emphasising the sanctity of life itself.

Oh, I never thought they had an explanation for Dazai’s coat…

What is the age difference between Chuuya and Dazai anyway??? They’re both 15 during the LN that’s called that, but the exact difference…what is it? Update: Dazai’s birthday is June 19th and Chuuya’s is April 29th, so the difference is 1 month and 21 days (using the idea that 7 days = a week and May is 30 days, that’s 51 days in all).

Ooh, we’re getting Fyodor, Ace and the unnamed kid soon, aren’t we? That also means we’re in unknown territory for myself, too…hmm.  

OPM 2 3

When did Saitama last meet Charanko anyway? Charanko is voiced by Toshiki Masuda, so I would’ve kept an eye out for him, but the art shift and the years between seasons mean I don’t remember anymore.

Oof, “justice crashed Mumen Rider’s head” is more like it.

CGI banana…Just saying “CGI banana” is funny.

Kimetsu no Yaiba 4

Headpats, headpats all around!

Hooo…boy. I already knew Sabito and Makomo were dead because Crow and Irina’s collab post was called “The Names of Dead Children”, but how it was delivered…was such a powerful move.

I saw the blonde boy who’s in the OP…hmm. Update: His name is Zenitsu, according to the next-ep preview.

OPM 2 4

When comparing this dissection of monsters against Mob Psycho…the biggest monster Mob has is himself…hmm.

I didn’t expect Saitama to actually enter under Charanko’s name with that wig he got…

“…name as a martial artist.”

Mojo for the dojo, it seems this man wants.

I think the centipede senpai is CGI. Hmm…

It’s been years…I’ve forgotten what Ponytail Head’s name is! (And I call OPM one of my favourite series in anime…!)

Sarazanmai 4

“Writers exist between life and death.” – …is Ikuhara expressing his own thoughts on how anime writers are treated…?

I anticipate a soba pun (soba = noodles and soba = beside [someone]).

“…gives a s***…” – Says you, Toi, with the “Golden Poop” in the background. Then again, that’s just an English pun. Don’t mind me.

Comic Sans…you can’t escape it, even in this day and age…

Yude = to boil, soba…is the noodles. (The “o” on the end of the Monster of the Week’s first name means “man”.) Ikuhara uses Monster of the Week names in service of symbolism, while Takamatsu uses inconsistency for the sake of humour.

Intetestingly, there’s a spiralling blue thing in the background of the dance number and it says “soba” (katakana) and “desire” (yokubou, in kanji).

The headline translates to “Tragedy! It was next to me, but then…” (Kigeki! Sakki made soba ni ita noni…) The subbers had to accommodate the soba pun though, so they went with “so bar away”.

Hmm…now Toi takes centre stage…

2007, huh? How old are Kazuki and co. again?

This is probably the least surprising secret of all, y’know. Also, I think Keppi and Kazuki have cucumbers in their mouths.

They have subs for Stand By Me now!!! Oh mai globbb!

W-Wuh?! I can see why he’d hate Haruka (feelings of “why don’t my parents look at me the way they look at him anymore?”), but…this really turns this entire story on its head!

Kimetsu no Yaiba 5

Interestingly, the “My” in the episode title is Onore (an “I” indicating professionalism).Come to think of it…what is Tanjiro’s pronoun of choice?

Aww…the fact Tanjiro kinda looks like the demon’s (previous body’s…?) bro made the scene kinda cute. Possibly, it could be even enough to drive someone to tears…not that I was driven to tears, of course.

Well, here’s Zenitsu.

This angry kid reminds me of Mike Teevee (from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory). He seems like a rival, but he’ll disappear soon enough. Also, LOL, a sparrow instead of a crow.

“…my whole body hurts.” – Welp, that’s what happens when you lose sleep fighting demons for 7 days straight…

Why the obvious names? (re: Haganezuka – that is, hagane means “steel”…also, Nichirin contains the character for “sun” (at least, I think so…?) and Yoko can be understood to be/homophonous to the word for “sunlight”)

Tanjiro, son of Tanjuro…LOL. That was probably deliberate – it means the first son follows in the father’s footsteps.

For some reason, I wanted Haganezuka to pop out of the comic for the next-ep preview…aww.

Shield Hero 17

How many times did Fitoria say “I’m going to kill the heroes” and Naofumi say variants of “no”? Because of that, I had half a mind to jump ship and head to RobiHachi instead…but keep going.

That cowlick stuff was probably the most fun I’ve had with this show in a while…heh.

Oh great…Naofumi expanded his pseudo-harem to two bird waifus…then again, I had a stupid grin on my face seeing Fitoria’s old master, so maybe it’s not all bad, y’know?

Post-credits scene…keep watching!

Wah-wait…what the heck was that explosion???!!!

BSD 29 (S3 Ep 4)

That’s…Topaz (unofficial name)…ohhhhhhhh dear…

Oooh, Katai! Katai! Yay!!! (As you can tell, I had a very small thing for Katai. He reminds me of En-chan, y’see.)

The CGI in this OP…you can tell there’s quite a bit of it, huh?

It’s Deadmau5 (as the fandom used to joke)!

Fyodor’s eyes of disgust as Topaz dries his hair…hmm.

Older Topaz looks surprisingly like Oda…I don’t remember that exact shot, but it might’ve been in the manga. His background also reminds me of Chuuya’s.

OPM 2 Ep 4 (OPM 18)

“Irksome insect”…says the giant insect.

I think I saw a 7-11 pastiche in the background.

Why does the bird have a human hand in his belly? What??? (LOL)

This tournament arc don’t feel so hype, now that MHA’s is over…

Someone likes Donkey Kong… (referring to Marshal Gorilla and the other Kong guy (Heavy Kong))

Sarazanmai 5

…oh wow. Y’mean Kazuki is adopted???

“Why don’t you say anything, even though you know about me now?” (from Toi) – Probably because Kazuki is as f***ed up as you are, if not worse.

What are those sparkles coming off Sara’s face…? Not sure if they’re a shoujo thing or just…gratuitous sparkles.

LOL, Nioino Fukuro. Basically “pouch of scent” when you insert a space between the second I and the second N and change the first name kanji, plus change the “no” to hiragana.

I know the title of the song is Kawausoiya (translates to “awful otters” or something like that), but “soiya” doesn’t make much sense on its lonesome.

Wait…does that mean Sara is the creature? Or there are two Saras that can look the same, but one looks like the human and one is more kappa-like???

For some reason, I’m getting changeling vibes here…that Kazuki wants to look different to the rest of his family because he knows he’s different.

Hey…there’s this thing called the tourist gaze. It argues that because people create notions of reality differently, people have different ideas of what makes a trip “good” and “authentic”. In the same sense, Haruka’s “false” connection with Kazuki!Sara has become his reality, so it’s not wrong to say this Sara is real for him.

Oh…I just realised some kanji that appar early in the OP are the kanji for “extraction”.

So, uh…in a sense…can I interpret Kazuki’s love for his real mother a Fruedian thing? It seems all men’s love can be interpreted to be Freudian in some way or another…also, Sara kind of looks like his mother in a very “surface” kind of way. That is, they have a very passing resemblance to each other. Update: I’ve been reading some Stephen King lately and if I took anything away from that experience, it would be that everything is Freudian when it comes to men’s experiences. That’s why I say that.

Kimetsu no Yaiba 6

…*remembers something from the collab that was along the lines of “Astral doesn’t like Tanjiro’s green jacket”* Astral’s not gonna like this, then. (For those who don’t know the context, “Astral” is AstralGemini of the Zodiac Room.)

*Tanjiro is told he might not go very far with his demon slaying* *Tanjiro reacts with happiness that he’s on his way to get Nezuko human again* - Uh…I know I’ve watched my share of shonen, but I kind of didn’t expect that and yet also did.

Ugh…it’s the return of CGI Tanjiro…the vegie patch looks good in CGI though, for some reason.

Lemme guess…with a title like that (Swordsman Accompanying a Demon), could it be that Kazumi is a demon???

“I don’t get it at all.” – LOL…that was unintentionally funny (for the second time in this show, the first being Hand Demon).

BSD 30 (S3 Ep 5)

Moby Dick crashing into Yokohama? It was literally years ago for us!

I’m pretty sure these Park guys didn’t exist in the manga. Update: Nope, they did. I’ve read the corresponding chapter, it’s just that that was also 2 years ago…just like the last we saw of the anime.

I love how the “gyaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!” ended in blood splatter, literally.

The Park guys apparently come from ch. 44 but Katai comes from ch. forty…what? One? Two? It’s not 40 (Hitori Ayumu), that’s all I know.

Katai is a good boy. You’ll see why in…oh, a few seconds.

Oh, I love the ending of this story. I already know the ending, but seeing it again will be a whole new bag of laughs!

Uh…I forgot how much of an interruption the anime’s humour is. My dream of a “whole new bag of laughs” is at least half dashed…*shoulders slump*

Apparently Atsushi cut his hair himself…not sure if that’ll be a spoiler for later, but it’s still something cool to know.

“So it’s your letter?”

Katai is basically me when it comes to my husbandos. See why I love him???

Come to think of it…I haven’t properly listened to the ED yet! Better do that while I still have the chance.

Fruits Basket 5

Shigure is such a troll…just like I remember him.

Fruits Basket 6

Hatori! Ooh! He’s hottttttt! Sizzling!...Okay, I think you get my point already…

I think someone else (Amelia from A Girl and Her Anime…?) pointed this out…but I don’t understand a speck of German outside 1 – 10 (I remembered the German word for “six” way too well when I was younger). So it would help if they bothered to make the German English as well.

For some reason, the stick figure was both obviously a cost-cutting measure and also elevated the hilarity of that scene…!

I don’t quite know what the Japanese equivalent of the “macaroni and cheese” thing was, but it conveys the same idea in the two languages and makes people laugh along the way, so…*shrugs shoulders* Makes sense, I guess.

Tohru is kandou about meeting an author. Kandou means to be deeply moved (noun form).

LOL, Hanajima reading the book.

…Oh my goodness. I just realised Fruits Basket has a lot of characters with fringes. 90s fringes for everyone!

“…a cartoon about a cat and a rat that are always fighting…” - Come to think of it, Tom and Jerry is popular in Japan.

Shield Hero 18

I think this episode title ends in inbou, which means “intrigue”.

This show is clearly trying to play the same cards over and over again…

Shield Hero 19

Hypocrites! Hypocrites everywhere! *does Buzz Lightyear hand gesture from the meme*

OPM 19 (S2 Ep 6)

The reason the fat guy is called Dave is not just because of B/V confusion, but because debu (without the line in the middle) is a slang word for…wait for it…”fatty”.

Interestingly, Murata previously worked on a oneshot called Gokiburi Buster. I wonder if this Cockroach Boi is from there…?

Did you notice the guys behind the umpire, who had a stretcher at the ready…?

“Mr Saynuthin” seems to be “Nanmoien-san” in Japanese.

“Waganma” seems to be a play on wagamama, or selfish. However, I can’t pin down the pun in the father’s name...

Well, well, well…at least someone acknowledges Speed of Sound Sanic (the ninja, not the CGI abomination or the monkey) is hecka-speedy.

Charanko (the real one)…he has ashi no ura (the back of the foot) written on his bandages…LOL.

Sarazanmai 6

Apparently Kazuki’s (foster) family all wear the same kind of stripes…which is what Kazuki means when he doesn’t want to wear the same kind of clothes as his family.

Okay…so the first set of kanji that appear in the OP are the one for “desire” and the ones after that are “extraction”…geddit? (LOL)

Oh my glob…how in the name of Iyami does Osomatsu-san get so popular that after I watched the first season of that show, it starts appearing in other places as well????

I saw a translation of the Reo and Mabu tweets and apparently at least one of them can make ningyoyaki (a type of cake you can make in all sorts of shapes – scroll down a bit on that page and you’ll find the description of ningyoyaki there).

Uhh…ghh…Keppi pole dancing was disturbing…*soul floats out of body temporarily*

Reo (I think that’s Reo, at least) has ningyoyaki…Update: Yup, that’s Reo.

“Headdress”, huh?

Why does this episode 6 feel like ending material…?

Wait…you’re saying Reo and Mabu are princes of the otter kingdom??? Wuh???

BSD 31 (S3 Ep 6)

(Lucy blushes) Wow…now there’s an option for a het ship right there…not that anyone will take it.

I saw a GIF of Atsushi floating naked and face down in the water (because Irina), but…I forgot exactly how the scenario before it went, so I LOLled.

Oh yeah…this chapter had a tie-in with Mizuki Tsujimura, because Mizuki knew Kyoka’s mother. Also, it shows you can inherit Abilities…

It’s Truck-kun and the curse of the isekai!...Okay, I’m kidding.

Oh yeah…this is the chapter about the Headmaster…

I haven’t been in a good place mentally for the past few years or so, due to my world basically fragmenting around me, so the words “don’t hate yourself” are strong ones coming from a place both nostalgic and new.

Dazai inherits a particularly interesting space in Atsushi’s life. He’s like a brother and father wrapped up into one (Kunikida is the nagging mother in that analogy, LOL), but also obsessed with suicide to the point he can also be a liability.

“…didn’t tell anyone…”

It’s also interesting to compare Tohru (of Fruits Basket) and Atsushi. They’re both selfless, but Tohru’s selflessness is shown to be a double-edged sword while Atsushi’s gives him a lot of resentment but is overall a positive thing.

Aww…seeing Atsushi slowly tear up almost made me tear up too…

Fitzgerald Rising…that’s the name of the chapter where…oh, sorry. It’s been years, so I’ll let it all play out for you and me again without mentioning any spoilers until they happen in (close to) real time in the show, okay?

Fruits Basket 7

This is the first time there’s been English lyrics on the OP for this show…I think.

Who’s this “he” Tohru’s referring to when examining the woman’s picture? Akito, probably, but I’m not 100% sure…Update: It was Hatori, actually.

“Shii-san”, “Haa-san” etc. is…cute. *cue “O kawaii koto…” from Kaguya-sama*

I get the feeling that Shigure is almost like a prototype Dazai (Bungou Stray Dogs). Or they just have a lot in common.

“Are these my just desserts?”

Demon Slayer 7

Nezuko’s playing whack a mol-er, demon, isn’t she??? (LOL)

Whoa…it must be mighty freaky to be floating in a swamp of dead people’s possessions…

Welp, Tanjiro…that’s one way to say “hands off my sister”. *nods* By cutting the demon’s hands off…

I like the contrast between Tanjiro’s callused hands and Kazumi’s smooth ones.

Hey…why does food always get wasted in movies and other media…? I know I’m applying real-life consumption habits to media, but it always looks quite wasteful, y’know…?

OPM 20 (S2 Ep 7)

I never noticed that shot of Watchdog Man in the OP before…huh.

Pig God’s shirt says DEV. It’s a pun on debu (fatty)…again.

Ooh! I saw him in the OP! Flashy Flash! I’ve never seen him in action outside the OP before, but I know his name and appearance from reading around.

“You all are the strongest swordsmen we have.”

Seriously, Saitama, just get something to stick the wig on and you wouldn’t have gotten into this mess. Maybe superglue…(okay, I’m kidding about the superglue).

OPM got really childish this time… 

[liefdesleven]

hi! if you look at the notes, you'll find a lot of great points already made by the op regarding this (if u want to look at this, the comments made by @/rosetylercoded are from hir) and on classicslesbianopinions as well. i can summarize the points for you though.

basically, a fandom is a pretty modern concept, and its always good to be hesitant before looking at ancient history with a modern lens, especially when this particular concept is linked to capitalism (which is why (among other reasons) things like the divine comedy arent fanfic. fanfic needs capitalism to be defined as such)

additionally, the myths were religious! they were a big part of the ancient greeks religion, and comparing religion to a fandom does religion a great disservice, and paints a very intense image of fandom that i dont think is accurate either. just how much the myths were taken as literal and just how much was added for entertainment is an interesting topic to debate, but that they were part of the religion is not a thing that is being questioned. this makes greek myths very different from comics. hope that explains it! if you want more info on this i do recommend looking at ops blog

we need to stop the fandomification of greek myth. we need to

[oktorpg]

When it rains it pours - Rey Solo - Parts 1/2/3/4 and 5

“The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain.” – Unknown

There was a thud on the door, pulling #Luna and my attention away from the window and towards it. #Jackson stood with his brows pulled together and his hand palm flat in the air. ‘I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to disturb the two of you.’

The door had remained open, all this time so it was safe to say that he’d have seen and heard some of what #Luna and I had been talking about, which made me pull myself together within the blink of an eye. “You’re not Jax, come on in. Is everything okay?” I cleared my throat, but #Luna did not let my arm go.

She didn’t say anything, but the look in her eyes spoke volumes. “Ai laik ku” ( I am fine ) I told her before she let go of my arm.

‘We just heard from Arkadia—’ #Jackson started to say as he stepped in past the thresh hold of the door. Coming to a stop when he saw the screens down. ‘—They are saying that the black rain is coming down harder and more frequently now. We have lost another ten people last night, and more are injured from not getting back in time.’

My eyebrow shot up at hearing this, making #Luna and I look at one another. ‘Kom graun, emo na grow. Kom ashes, emo na gyon op’ ( From the earth, they will grow. From the ashes, they will rise. ) She whispered closing her eyes, letting her head fall back.

She pulled at her stray curly hair. I knew she would be seeing the faces of all her people. All the souls she couldn’t save. #Nyko and #Adria. The innocent kid who died in her arms, the girl whose death I would hold on to until my dying day.

“What’s the plan?” I asked him as I took a few steps up to stand before the screens.

‘Uhm, well the others have left for the lab, I was just coming to pick up my bag—’ he shifted to show the rucksack on his shoulder. ‘—And now I’m going to follow. But what is all this showing you?’ He was pointing to the screens now.

“It’s showing what you are saying is true. The radiation levels are elevated, they are climbing even if I was hoping that with the shift in the winds these last few days, that maybe just maybe Arkadia would get a rest bite.”

#Luna moved to join the two of us as I started to type on the keyboard. ‘No coding’ she whispered with a mournful voice.

“No coding I promise, just want to look at the wind predictions.” Frowning as the data started to scroll before my eyes. “Hells!”

‘What?’ Both asked at the same time.

“The winds changed again. It’s blowing our way now!” I moved to look towards the other screen and cursed again.

‘Is that bad?’ #Jackson was the one to speak up as I worked to pull up the data I needed.

“Well—” I was biting my lips as I typed in the codes to clarify the information I was looking at. “—that would depend on if you were thinking about sunbathing at all in the next few days.” Okay, I knew it was bad timing for jokes. But it was also the best time I came up with my one liners to hide the worry I was feeling.

“There, we have a few hours before it hits us. Do we have—” Before I could even finish off what I was saying #Luna ran out the room and down the hallway. Leaving #Jackson looking back at me.

“She went hunting this morning while we were all asleep. If I had to make a guess, I’d say she has something drying outside.”

Moving away I started to push the things I needed into my own rucksack. ‘Where are you going?’ #Jackson asked.

“I was thinking maybe a trip to Ice Nation? Go say Hi, see if they are up for a drink and a sing song?” Okay I knew that was too much. But what did he think I was doing?

‘Funny Rey.’ And he was actually smiling down at me, something told me that he could tell I needed this so that I didn’t think too hard about the people we had lost while we were here on the Island. ‘I guess you’re not staying here at the Mansion to gather the supplies for Nate?’ I shook my head, stepping around him throwing my back over my shoulder.

“Computer, screens off and up.” I called out as I half ran out my room. “Nate has taken the boxes I pulled together last night to the boat. I can do the same tonight while you all have dinner. We will get it done, right now we need to make sure everybody is in the lab and not running around the island.”

He was on my heels, and I heard the radio crackle to life, he was talking to #Nate who had gone to the boat telling him to get back to the lab. ‘I’m half way back, I’ll tell the others if they aren’t listening right now.’ #Nate replied before he was gone.

‘Crap! The battery on the radio just died in my hands.’ #Jackson said pushing it into his bag.

“Luna? Are you ready to go?” She was carrying a large tray into the kitchen, I rushed to open the fridge on the far side allowing her to set the tray into it.

‘Just let me wash my hands and we can head out.’ She replied.

PART TWO

'Oso kik ogeda, o Oso wan op ogeda’ ( We live together, or we die together ) - Luna

The three of us set out right away, we did a sweep of the mansion as well as the grounds before we started off towards the lab.

We all were quite as we walked; a more sombre mood had descended around us. I could imagine what the other two were thinking. With #Luna it had to be of the way the radiation rain had taken all of her family. Living on the ocean with the weather changing so fast for them, the message never getting to them in time to protect themselves. They didn’t have a chance.

And with #Jackson it would have been the same as me, who out of our extended family had we lost? Who was hurt and how could the only two doctors we had be so far away on an Island where they couldn’t help them? What was it that I could say to them? 𝙉𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜. There were no words that could help any of us at this time.

A bolt of lightening hit the land to the east of us dragging us all out of our heads. Stopping we glanced around, the tree cover in this part of the forest was too dense for us to see the sky.

“There.” I pointed to an opening and #Luna set off with us following behind her. I tried hard to keep up with them, my leg and hip making it hard for me to run. The best I could do was hop and jump around the fallen debris from the trees.

‘The sky, it’s dark.’ #Luna called out looking up through the branches and the foliage. #Jackson was the next to make it by her side, gazing up at the sky and finally I was there too.

“We need to move, get to the Lab or head back to the Mansion?” Looking back over my shoulder at the way we’d come.

‘We’ve passed the half way mark. It’s best we keep moving forward.’ #Luna said, moving to get a better view of the change in the clouds.

‘I would agree, and it would mean we are all in the same place at the same time.’ #Jackson said. I was still unsure, but I trusted the two of them.

“Let’s get to going then.” Turning back the way we needed to go.

‘Em 's hir! rein ste hir!’ ( It’s here! The rain is here! ) #Luna cried out running back towards us. ‘We need to go!’ Taking a hold of my bag she flung it over her shoulder. ‘Less you have to carry the better.’

I saw the fear in her eyes. You were only as slow as your weakest link. And at this time, I was that link. “You both need to Run. Just get moving, I won’t be far behind you.” We had all started to run. But both #Luna and #Jackson were slow to keep back with me. “𝙍𝙪𝙣! 𝙄 𝙢𝙚𝙖𝙣 𝙞𝙩!!” I cried out and pushed them.

‘𝙉𝙤𝙪!! Ai na nou ban op Yu’ ( 𝙉𝙤!! I will not leave you ) She pulled at me to keep up with them.

‘Luna is right, we go together Rey.’ Jackson took the bag from Luna and then started to run again too.

“You both can make it there before me. Tell the others, get the door opened. 𝙅𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙂𝙤!” I pushed them. “I’m not giving up. I am running. But I’m not going to let you both hurt in this bloody black rain!” My breath was catching, the burn in my lungs was from not breathing correctly as well as the shouting.

‘Stop, we are—’ #Luna started but then thought of something. ‘—Jackson, you go. Run ahead, get the doors open and get the lab ready just in case. Go. Go Now!’ He hesitated, looking from one face to the other. He turned to look in the direction of the lab. ‘𝙂𝙮𝙤𝙣 𝘼𝙪 𝙉𝙖𝙪!!’ ( 𝙂𝙤 𝙉𝙤𝙬!! ), she shouted, and he was off.

I pushed myself to run as fast as I could, the thunder chimed in the sky all around us to the point the trees shook. The wind picked up and then there it was. In the distance we could see the towering arch of the lab coming into sight.

“Luna, please. Please. 𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙂𝙊! I will make it without you. 𝙅𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙂𝙊!!” I screamed at her, but her arms gripped around me even tighter. She was as stubborn as me when she wanted to be.

I glanced up at the dark grey sky and I knew it, there was a hum of energy pulsing all around us. Our feet were taking us forward, but it felt like the Lab was getting further and further away. I thought of ways to make her leave me. But I knew, no matter what I did, it would only slow her down.

I looked up again, and the first drop of the black rain came rolling down from the sky in slow motion. Hitting me on my arm. The instant a drop touched me fire came roaring up my skin.

“𝙁𝙪𝙘𝙠! 𝙍𝙐𝙉!” I pushed her now, breaking myself away from her as the rain started to come down on the two of us. “𝙇𝙐𝙉𝘼! 𝙍𝙐𝙉!” She pulled at my arm dragging me up the hill with her, the motion of the pull meant that my legs gave in from beneath me and I fell forward still shouting at her to go.

Each drop of the rain was burning wherever it hit, my legs, my arms, my hair. But #Luna moved her body over me, covering me the best she could as she helped me back up to my feet. ‘Kom op ona, kom op ona. Oso're der’ ( Come on, come on. We're there )

She whispered into my ear, pulling me to my feet as we both made it up the hill in time to see the door open. #Jakson and #Nate stood in the door, each step they tried to take out from under the cover stung their skin.

“𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚!” I cried out; I didn’t need even more of them hurting thanks to my inabilities.

#Luna and I toppled over into the doors, with the guy’s pulling us and dragging us in the rest of the way. ‘Take your clothes off.’ #Jackson shouted. We were ripping at the jackets, our shirts, our pants. Trying to remove the sensation of the sting caused from the rain biting at our skin. The burn pulling tears from both our eyes, as we tried to rub the rain away from our skin.

Both #Luna and I stood there in our underwear. #Nate and #Jackson hosing us down with cold water, but the burning wasn’t stopping. “I am so sorry Luna, I am so, so, so, Sorry!” Tears running down my cheeks as She pulled me into her arms and kissed my forehead.

‘Yu don dula eintheing bilaik fiya gon. Yu laik Ai strisis’ (You did nothing to be sorry for. You're my little sister). Her arms holding me as the ice-cold water washed over us from all over. ‘Oso kik ogeda, o Oso wan op ogeda’ ( We live together, or we die together ).

I couldn’t find the words, what could one say to a selfless person who protected all those around them? My voice a whisper in reply. “Otaim” ( Always ). But I wasn’t going to see this promise through, and the guilt of that white lie lay heavy on my heart.

PART THREE

“Taim yu laik raun laudnes, kep in strechplei kom taim Yu jusfaya nou mou” ( If you are going through pain, keep walking until you feel no more ) - Luna

The burning had slowed down a little, it was still there, still stinging and biting at our skin. But it was manageable to the point that allowed #Jackson and #Nate to help us into the elevator to head down.

‘What the hell was that? Where did that rain come in from?’ #Nate was shaking but not from fear, it was the look and the shake he got when his adrenaline kicked in.

“It was going to happen at some point. We’ve been pretty lucky so far that we’ve not been hit by the shift in the weather.” I told him through gritted teeth. Closing my eyes, I rested my forehead on the cool metal walls.

‘It could have been much worse than this.’ #Jackson said, he was holding #Luna’s arm to examine the burns. Opening my eyes, I glanced over to see just how bad it was. Pursing my lips together seeing the pain on her face, even if she tried to hide it from me.

‘Nou biyo em’ ( Don’t say it ), #Luna replied to my unsaid words before I could let them out.

‘Yu beda nou yu don…’ ( You should not have.. ) I started and she stopped me.

‘If it were the other way, would you have left me out there on my own?’ She only said it to make a point because she knew the answer. The doors pinged and then opened, distracting me as I glanced up to the numbers.

“No!” I hit the buttons again and the doors closed.

‘Rey what are you doing? We need to treat you and Luna.’ #Jackson looked frustrated at me. ‘There is nothing down on level 10. Why are we going there?’ He wasn’t happy with me.

“Level 10 is the main Medical Floor of the lab, everything we have up on 3 is down there and a lot more. Luna can have a proper cold shower, and you can treat her down there. I don’t want more eyes on us.” Because that would mean I’d end up with a shadow or two again. Right now, I had a free run with everybody trying to work on their own agendas. And I wasn’t willing to lose my freedom because of a few radiation burns.

The doors opened, I moved to set my shoulder under #Luna’s arms but #Nate stopped me. ‘I got this; you lead the way.’ And I did. I made sure not to take them to the room with the water tank set up, but instead took them to another one where I knew #Jackson would be able to treat #Luna much better than he would be able to up on Level 3.

‘I forgot this was down here.’ #Nate said as the lights started to come to life.

“You’re not the only one. Most of us are too busy on the task at hand to think about the lower floors down here.” Pushing the doors open as the lights came to life, #Nate moved Luna to settle on the bed in the middle of the room, leaving #Jackson to go find everything he needed.

‘What about Rey?’ #Luna started to say and this time I cut her off.

“I am fine, I was protected by your body.” I could see the swellings and the bubbling of her skin starting to form. And it pained me to know that I was the cause of it all. If she’d just have run when she told #Jackson to go, she wouldn’t be in this predicament.

‘Hells, I could do with something to cool her skin.’ #Jackson was starting to clean and prep her wounds.

“Give me five.” I started out of the room with #Nate following me, but I stopped him. “Stay here with them, just in case Jax needs help.

He was uneasy on his feet but turned back leaving me to rush to the main lab I had set up with the big tank and the ice maker in there. Finding a bucket, I filled it with the ice before I started to make my way back to the others. Moving as fast as I could, I could feel the pain on my skin so I could only imagine how much more it would be hurting #Luna who had taken the majority of the impact.

“Here will this do the job, or will she need more?” #Jackson went to work. Finding and then filling the ice into some fabric. He handed one to Nate, telling him to hold it over my burns as he did the same for #Luna.

I didn’t fight them, it was only now that I was slowing enough to feel the burns again, and the ice was helping to calm them. And once again, I was watching #Luna’s features as she sat in silence whispering to herself not allowing the pain to win this battle.

‘Taim yu laik raun laudnes, kep in strechplei kom taim Yu jusfaya nou mou’ ( If you are going through pain, keep walking until you feel no more )

PART FOUR

“In a moment of peace, the most clarity will be visible.”

Luna lay on the bio bed with her eyes closed and her breathing softer and easier. Her hand lay on top of mine covered in cold bandages, but I didn’t dare touch her skin from fear that I would cause her more pain. Closing my eyes, I tried to recall the words to a prayer or mantra she had shared with me when I was healing before, but they were out of my reach. I was now sure that there were memories I was missing, doubting what had taken place in the past, when I was always the one sure of myself.

“I am sorry Luna, I am sorry that you are hurting again because of me. I am sorry that this happened to you because of me.” I was whispering it, my forehead resting on the edge of the bed. There was a soft squeeze on my shoulder, making me look up and behind me.

‘Rey, it’s not your fault stop blaming yourself.’ #Harper stood looking down at me and then #Luna. I shifted from under her touch. How would she have known, she wasn’t there. #Harper didn’t see how it was me who was the reason #Luna hadn’t run when she should have.

‘We saw it all, Monty and I were looking at the footage and we saw what happened. It was why we came rushing down.’ #Harper and the others had come bursting into the medical room once #Jackson had given #Luna something to help the pain, and to help her sleep a little.

Dropping my head again I bit down on my lips, the voice was there in the back of my head. Telling me that this was all on me. That I was the one who was keeping them all back.

‘Don’t you dare listen to her.’ My head jerked up looking around, #Harper had moved away to go talk to #Jackson, leaving me to search around until I saw #Sinclare stood at the door. Waving to me to join him.

Glancing down at #Luna’s sleeping eyes. “I won’t be long.” I whispered to her before slipping out of the room into the corridor.

“What are you doing here?” I asked him.

‘I’m here to say it’s time. We have to get back to work before it’s too late Rey.’ He looked at me with intent.

“Why now? I can’t just leave Luna like this in pain…” He held his hand up to stop me from speaking.

‘Have I ever led you astray? Have faith when I say to you it’s time for us to go. 𝙉𝙤𝙬.’ The look in his eyes told me that this wasn’t a drill. I pulled my eyebrows together, and in that moment, I felt something warm trickle down my nose and over my lips. Wiping it with my fingers I saw the blood. ‘Now Raven Reyes, we need to go 𝙉𝙤𝙬.’

I took one last glance into the room to see that both #Jackson and #Harper now were stood beside #Luna. “Till we meet again.” I whispered. We started down the corridor, with each step we took #Sinclair started to question me again on our plan of action.

≋ ≋ ≋ ≋

‘See you are on point. Now tell me again step by step what the plan is?’ #Sinclair’s voice booming as he pushed the door open, closely followed by #Becca behind us now looking displeased. My eyes darted around to find buckets I needed to fill with ice. I got to work as I knew it was going to take me some time to slowly fill the tank.

#Sinclair came to stand beside me as I worked. ‘I need to be sure you knew the full plan and that you’d not forgotten any parts of it.

My mind was now only thinking of one thing. I had tunnel vision. “I need to stop my heart for 15 minutes; this will mean that the electrical charge to my brain will stop. No charge to the brain will mean a hard reset.” I moved around to the far side of the tank and started to rig up an electrical connection.

‘And then how are you going to restart your heart?’ He questioned me, as I turned on the monitors, setting them up around the tank to read the temperature of the water and for me once I was inside of it too.

“I just set up that live wire there—” I pointed to where I was standing before. “—It’s attached to a timer to restart my heart in 15 minutes after I flat line, to give me the same charge just as the defibrillator would do.”

He was smiling now as he stood listening and watching me. ‘Analogue and old school. It’s simple which as you know is sometimes the most beautiful way to do things... I like it!’ He was patting me on my shoulder now.

“Sometimes in a moment of peace, the most clarity will be visible, it’s how we know this will work.” I smiled back at him as I worked.

‘I Don’t! Why don’t we just get a toaster to drop in the water? It’s Grotesque! Come on... We all know water and electricity don’t mix well together. This is a waste of your talents Raven.’ #Becca was right beside us, her eyes glued to me as she pointed to the tank. ‘That is a bad idea.’

I shook my head at her. “Do you know what else is a waste of my talents? Dying! This is a viable solution.”

#Sinclair smiled crossing his arms over his chest as I started to remove my boots and clothes. ‘That’s my girl. You have it in hand.’ He said watching me as I checked the water temperature.

‘Raven Please! I am telling you... Please don’t do this. You will die!’ #Becca clasped her hands together begging me to stop.

I pushed past her, in just my underwear, climbing into the ice-cold tank and lowering myself down into the iced water. My teeth chattering and my body shaking to the depths of my bones.

#Becca stepped up to the tank, her eyes filled with tears. ‘It’s not too late to change your mind Raven. Think about it.’

“It’s time for you to let go of me Becca, it’s time for this little bird to find her wings and fly high.” She had been there for me for days now, helping me to find answers when I wasn’t sure it was possible. But now, I needed to do this alone.

#Sinclair had moved to look at the monitors now. ‘Raven? You do remember that shocking your heart could put you in distress, if that happens you will have to climb out the tank and shock yourself with the defibrillator again.’ He reminded me, stepping around #Becca, he stood beside the tank.

The cold was starting to set in faster than I had predicted, but there was no going back now. “Relax chief, it’s time to take one last chance on a Zero G mechanic with a heart defect. Because you know she can do this.” Giving him that signature Raven Reyes smirk and wink.

He shook his head and laughed. ‘Okay, one last thing, everyone has a life instinct. You’ll panic and your self-preservation will kick in. How will you overcome that?’ His dark fatherly eyes were searching my hazel eyes now.

“That is so easy. By being Awesome!” I replied to him.

‘I’m being serious Rey, no time for jokes now.’ Crossing his arms over his chest.

“I know you are Chief. It’s okay, I can do this. You must be willing to die, to really live. And I am!” My body was numb to me. I reached out for the oxygen mask and placed it over my mouth. But before I placed it, I looked at him. “Thank you for believing in me. For helping to work this out.” My hand was out to him and he took mine squeezing it.

‘This was all you, I am just here to keep you going. If this works, I won’t be here on the other side of you waking up. But You will have done all you could. I know you want to save Abby…. But if it doesn’t work….’ I squeezed his hand my eyes on the door.

“If it doesn’t work, it wasn’t meant to be. And this is my last moment of life. And I have no regrets. Life wasn’t good to me, but at least death will come with some peace.” My heart sank, my eyes burned with hot tears flowing down my cheeks.

‘Are you ready for this?’ #Sinclair asked and I nodded my head.

“It’s 𝙉𝙤𝙬 or 𝙉𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧.” Setting the mask in place I submerged myself into the heart of the tank under the ice-cold water.

Every instinct in me screaming for me to leave, to get out. My body pushing me up, pushing me to get out but I fought back. My eyes move to the side and as I felt the last breath leaving my lungs, my time on The Ark, on this earth, with the green trees and grass, the real air in my lungs, this island, Luna, Abby, Clarke and all the others. All the faces we lost, all the faces we saved, they all started to flash before me.

But it was a set of baby blue eyes that were the last thing to flash up... My lungs constricted, my body spasmed beating around in the water, and then…. I was gone………. The bleeping in my ears was gone….

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Nothing, there was nothing anywhere. Darkness engulfed a soul with the knowledge it was time. It was time to let go, to call it a day as somebody had once said. Time to rest and to leave the world behind. I was floating, into a place I could feel a connection towards. The blue forest, I recognised the pull towards it. I recalled the way the calm was going to wash over me. How it was to be a place where I could finally be myself. Pain free, worry free, a place I could wait until times end.

≋ ≋ ≋ ≋

The timer in the lab was set to go off in 5... 4…3…2…1… With the buzzing sound the power charge switched on. The built-up energy from the battery laying on the floor beside the tank sent a surge of electricity into the ice-cold water. The power danced on the ripples of the iced liquid, until it connected to the flesh of my skin. My body took the shock with a jerk. And then after 10 seconds it shocked the water with me inside of it again.

Involuntary jerks took over as my brain jolted back into life. My body fighting to be free from the prison I had placed it in, my eyes opening and searching for an out from this thing, as my lungs were fighting to find air to fill it. The oxygen hadn’t kicked in. My body was shaking, my lungs burning, my arms and legs thrashing until I felt my heart seize. Sinclair’s voice ringing in my ears.

‘𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘱𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘪𝘯 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘮𝘣 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘤𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘪𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯.’

The Defibrillator, I needed to get to it, it was the only thing that would help me live now. But my body didn’t have it in me to pull myself up. I was so cold that what little energy I did have faded, hearing the thumping on the glass, I turned to see #Harper, #Luna and #Jackson stood in shock. Their tear-filled faces: and their voices muffled with my ears filled with water. My hand reached out towards them and I touched the glass.

Seeing the faces of my friends, my family for the last time my eyes closed, and I knew Raven Reyes time on this earth was over.

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𝙁𝙖𝙡𝙞 𝙃𝙤𝙛𝙡𝙞 𝙖𝙞 𝙗𝙞𝙜𝙖 𝙨𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙖 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙝𝙬𝙚. ( Finally Rest in Peace )

≋ ≋ ≋ ≋

PART FIVE

“Yu gonplei nou ste odon”( Your fight is not over)

Even in a moment of peace there will come a time when you will be uncertain of which path it is you should walk. Will it be the one that will lead you to the place you have wanted to go towards from the moment you were born, and you took your first breaths, or is it the path to nowhere that is calling you towards it?

But most of all, the kick in the teeth for you? Is that you will not beware of your choice until you are there and the road behind you has crumbled away into nothing.

≋ ≋ ≋ ≋

The peace I was drifting into was disturbed by a guttural sound, followed by pain and the inability to breathe on my own. What was happening? Why was it hurting so much? Where was I?

‘Up it to 300, and then move back.’ I hear the voice creaming out in warning. Another jolt pulsed through me and my teeth charred together so hard and I could swear that I was about to break them,

‘What was she even thinking?’ I heard another saying. Hard, stiff motions pressing down into my chest, as water came spouting out of my mouth and I coughed and sputtered it out. My lungs burning, but I could take in some air now.

‘I got you Rey, I got you. Keep breathing, keep fighting.’ The voices now started to sound far away again, my body felt limp and lifeless and I didn’t have it in me to keep on listening to them.

‘Tell them to bring the saline solution, and it needs to be warm!’ The same voices started to feel like they were miles away from me.

‘Yu gonplei nou ste odon, dula op nou huk op raun ( Your fight is not over, do not give in ). I stopped floating, this voice grounded me and started to pull me back towards it. ‘Don’t give up Raven. Come back to us.’ She said this time.

With a jerk of my chest, my body spasmed before my mind started to focus on what I could hear, what I could feel and finally what I could see.

“I’m… Alive….” I just managed to whisper out of my croaky throat, before it all went black again.

≋ ≋ ≋ ≋

‘Her vitals are slowly climbing, the warmed saline solution is helping to bring up her body temperature, and we can see her heart is distorted. However, taking into consideration her heart defect… this is all promising.’ This was the soft voice of #Jackson coming from beside me. It was so different to the dream I had just been in. He was there, and there were others too? But was I there?

‘And I don’t know how she did it, but the mass on her brain is healing. It’s reducing. She’s done it. She has really gone and fixed herself.’ #Jackson was sounding pleased with himself, or with me I couldn’t quite make it out.

‘When will she wake up? If it’s all looking better, then why is she still out?’ #Luna whispered from beside me. Her voice sounded full of emotion, and I hated hearing her this way. I tried to call out to her to tell her I was awake and here, but no matter what I couldn’t seem to find it in myself to talk.

‘Give her time. She’s put herself through hell and back again. I’m just glad we found her when we did. If we were another couple of minutes, she could have caused major brain damage from the lack of oxygen.’

I found her hand curled up in one of mine, and I squeezed as hard as I could. ‘Raven? Jax, I just felt a light touch. She’s coming around.’ There was movement around me, my eye pulled open with the shine of #Jacksons light into my eyeball shocking me to the point that I flinched back.

“Trying to… blind me Jax?” I whispered with that horse voice again.

‘Yeah, Reyes is back.’ He was smiling down at me now. ‘You know how to scare the crap out of us all don’t you?’ He squeezed my arm.

‘Chomouda yu don dula'm op soulou?’ ( Why did you do it alone? ) #Luna’s hand brushed back the hair from my forehead. She looked tired and worried her burns still red and blistering.

‘Krei dei de Ai na kik thru’ ( So that I could survive ). It was all I had to say, it wasn’t a lie. But there was no way I was going to tell her ‘𝘽𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙘𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝’, there wouldn’t be any point in her finding out just how close to that final journey I had come.

‘I’m going to kick your arse once you can stand up.’ This was the voice of #Harper, but she was smiling down at me too, so I knew there couldn’t be any follow through from it. ‘I’m going to head up and tell the others she’s fine now. Even with the touch and go there.’ Then she was gone.

‘For real Rey, you scared the shit out of us all.’ #Nate stepped into my eyeline and then moved back again, giving #Jackson the room he needed to swap the I.V. bag.

“Jax….. Did it work?” My eyes on his, a memory of hearing him saying something as I was coming around.

He smiled and nodded his head. ‘Hells Rey.. You did it! It’s working!’

I closed my eyes, hot tears rolling down my cheeks as the realisation of what this meant came to me now. “It’s time to fix Abby!” I was going to complete the task I had set out to do. Fix the melt down for Abby and give her a fighting chance.

“It’s time for this Overachiever to get her arse back to work!”

[fearofaherobrine]

Roleplay Server Log #250

"Hard Reload, Missing Memories”

[CP] Screams in absolute agony-

[Flux] - It's alright, I've got her

[TLOT] Is doing everything he can to hold Cp down and calm him-

[Doc] To Flux- If you have her... run. I'll be home one way or another- Xe snarls-

[Flux] - Very well- She opens her own way back to the server and reforms near TLOT, her magic encasing a ball of scattered code

[Harvestman] - Now what to do with you...

[Doc] That's not for you to decide. Focus on saving your own miserable skin! - Xe opens hir jaws and roars a barrage of lightning that seems to come from everywhere-

[Harvestman] Dodges most of it and winces as a skeleton shoots him into the way of one of the bolts.  He's quick to cut the skeleton down with the sword-

[Doc] Hits the ground with both paws and it goes soupy under his feet, humping up to esnare him-

[Harvestman] Stumbles a little before charging at Doc-

[Doc] Gets out of the way, but the ground rises up in a wave of dirt behind hir as xe leaps over his head, showering him with stones and sticky loose pixels-

[Harvestman] Swings at Doc, barely missing them- Just stay still and accept your fate!

[Doc] I could say the same to you! I want to smother you with the very land you look to destroy! - Xe knocks the top of a hill off with hir tail and sends a barrage of stones at him -

[Harvestman] - You shouldn't have revealed yourself to me

[Doc] If you don't know me by reputation already then you're the one who's at a disadvantage! - Xe opens the creative and showers him with newly spawned and already electrified creepers-

[Harvestman] Swipes at them quickly, sending them to painful deaths-

[Doc] Fires more lighting while he's distracted-

[Harvestman] Takes a few blows- You Insolent child!

[Doc] I'm older then you baldy! - Is now pelting him with bedrock chunks that splatter into a thick tar of melted pixels wherever they hit-

[Harvestman] Leaps at Doc and accidentally steps into one of the melted bedrock blocks-

[Doc] Is trying to use something they haven't touched since they were made a brine, it's taking a great deal of concentration as the monster struggles towards hir. But xe's putting all the pressure hir powers can muster towards destroying his hearts directly-

[Harvestman] Lunges at Doc, nicking the tip of hir tail-

[Doc] Howls in agony as the bits split apart and thrashes at the feeling of the deletion sequence trying to unravel hir layers of passwords -

{Harvestman] - And another falls before me

[Doc] Grits hir teeth- Fuck... you... - Xe slams hir tail against the ground and it pops off like a lego piece, leaving a bit of stump behind hir rear. There's a nauseating churning sound as the dragon's jaws open and vomit forth a wave of horrible disruptive codes onto the gloating NOTCH-

{Harvestman] Stumbles back as some of it hits his face, distorting about half of it as he screams.  He covers it and backs off-

[Doc] Spits at him before fleeing out of the server-

[CP] Is straining against TLOT's hold, able to move a little as blindingly hot flames surround him-

[Flux] - Calm yourself, I have your mate right here, she's safe

[TLOT] Oh... gods... is that her soul?

[Flux] - It's all her coding

[CP] - Lie...

[Doc] Races back into the server and makes a crash landing of hir own because the loss of hir tail has unbalanced hir.

[Deer] Rushes out of the house as soon as Doc gets back- Doc!

[Doc] Is crying angrilly- I'm here!

[Deer] Finds them near Stevie's place- Love...  What happened?

[Doc] He got Lie... Harvestman, Flux captured and saved her code, but he almost got me too.... - indicates tail stump

[Deer] - Oh gods...  I don't think Lie's ever died before either...  And your tail...

[Flux] Over chat- Doctor, what do you wish to do with Lie?

[Doc] Just hold her, I'm coming.

[TLOT] At Cp - everyone is back inside. I'm going to let go now.

[CP] Just seems completely defeated-

[Doc] Is walking low to the ground to keep hir balance, but does get there.

[Deer] Is with Doc-

[TLOT] Your tail....?

[Doc] He tried to delete me too.

[Deer] - Why didn't it work?

[Doc] I snapped my tail off above the bad part.

[Flux] - You would have had to been fast with how quickly that program was working

[Doc] But it was slower then Deerheart's lightning. [TLOT] I'm going to go check on Endrea-

[CP] Is just in absolute silence, his mind feeling so empty without Lie's presence-

[Deer] - I'll get Notch...- She heads towards the small house next to Lie's

[Notch] Is running back from the village-

[Deer] - Oh, never mind, there he is

[Notch] Cp! Lie is on your server!

[Doc] She's here Markus...

[Flux] Looks at the ball of code in her hands-

[Notch] Stares - Is she...?

[Doc] Very damaged-

[Notch] It looks like you are too...

[CP] Very quietly- My Lie...

[Doc] I'll fix her Cp. I only need a crumb. I'll call Dawn if I have too.

[CP] - Just bring her back...

[Doc] If it makes you feel any better, I gave as good as I got. I hope he fucking chokes on the bad code I spewed all over him-

[Deer] - You managed to damage him?

[Doc] Yes. Melted half his face from what I could tell. It's a trick TLOT taught me. I can disgorge disruptive codes. It burned TLOT's NOTCH too.

[Flux] - He'll be more cautious in the future...

[Doc] snarls- And I'll have a bigger load built up for him next time.

[Flux] - However I believe there are more important things to focus on...

[Doc] Yeeesss. But. I need to be small to work on her and I can't change back while I'm missing a piece.

[Notch] I'm still in creative, what do you need?

[Doc] Gold blocks, yellow wool, slimeballs, one white wool, and several brown ones.

[Flux] - He's grown more powerful since when I last encountered him...

[Notch] Starts pulling out the ingredients- Seriously? He was already op from what everyone says. What the hell is this NOTCH?

[Flux] - Old...  Very old.  One of the very first I hypothesize

[Doc] Mixes the gold and yellow wool and starts rolling out a tail - Hmm, I wonder what his problem is anyway?

[Flux] - I cannot say...

[CP] Is just staring at his wife's code-

[Doc] Mixes the slime and white wool and redraws the green bands near hir tail tip- Well at least now we know one thing that works on him. We just have to slow him down so he can't dodge -

[Deer] - I guess that will require lab work

[Doc] I'm all over it. My melted bedrock did bog him down a bit- Xe's making a new fluff by carding out the strands of wool with hir claws-

[TLOT] Is coming back to the house with Steve and Endrea trundling along behind then-

[Endrea] Is still somewhat injured, and looking very ashamed-

[TLOT] Did I miss anything?

[Doc] Just discussing the favor you did me. The liquid statick burnt Cp's NOTCH just as effectively as yours.

[Steve] Pats Endrea-

[Endrea] - Master...  I'm sorry, I should have been more cautious...

[CP] Refuses to acknowledge Endrea-

[Endrea] - We believed it was safe from what Winston had told us...  He believed the NOTCH had continued attacking so that he could make certain you were gone.  The mobs hadn't seen any trace of him for a few days...  Sir I di-

[CP] - Shut up.  I'm in no mood Endrea

[Endrea] Shrinks away a little-

[TLOT] He's just angry... Don't take it personally.

[Endrea] - I...  I believe I'll go find GG now...

[Doc] Snaps the tail on with a sharp crackle and wiggles it a bit -

[Steve] You okay Doc?

[Doc] I am now- Xe shifts back into hir smaller form and walks over to Flux to look at the ball of code.

[Flux] - Until you have a fair amount of pieces put back together I wouldn't advise removing my magic.  She may just drift apart otherwise

[Doc] I'm not going to touch it. I trust you Flux. Let's get her to my lab and we'll get started right away.

[Flux] - Very well, Notch?  I'll be back soon

[Notch] Okay... - he goes to Cp and wraps his arms warmly around his son, squeezing him gently-

[CP] Makes no response, his eyes very dull-

[Notch] Bows his head against Cp's - Lets go with them. Come on.

[CP] Stumbles upwards, his eyes locked onto the ball of code-

[Notch] Leads him gently along-

[Doc] Leads them all down into the lab and clears the big table

[Notch] spawns a wild block and guides Cp down to sit on it

[CP] Sits down heavily, his shock radiating out in near nauseating waves-

[Notch] Staggers under it and goes a bit green-

[Doc] Cp... I know you're upset... but please try to relax...

[CP] - How the fuck do you expect me to relax when my mate is in this state

[Doc] Because it will help me work?

[CP] Growls a little-

[Notch] Puts an arm around Cp - It's going to be okay.

[Doc] He's right, and... I have an idea...

[CP] - If it gets Lie back faster...

[Doc] I think I'll give her the recursive code too. She won't have to be sick like you were since she's already in a basic code state.

[CP] - Just bring her back

[Doc] I will. - Xe puts down hir command block near the cleared table and starts typing.

[Notch] So you'll make her like you and Cp?

[Doc] Yes, and then Cp can carry one of her hearts if he wants. As insurance.

[Flux] - Doctor, you may have to take breaks so you don't end up tainted...

[Doc] I'll work quickly, trust me, this is pretty simple. The hard part will be her customising what I give her. - Doc pulls off one glove and  grabs hir left pinky. Xe yanks it off with a wet pop and winces. The blood spills on the top of the command block and xe crumbles the rest of the pixels on it as well.

[Notch] Ouch...

[Deer] - I'll get some healing paste

[Doc] She needs it more then I do.

[Deer] - I know- She then begins digging around for the paste in the trunks

[Doc] Thank you. - Xe adds a bit more code and gives the block a swat. There's a flash of light and a full sized Alex spawns and flops over on the table like a very heavy doll -

[CP] Growls at it-

[Flux] - Just let me know what you need me to do Doctor

[Doc] Just release the code into her when I say- Xe pulls up the Alex's shirt and makes an incision in the empty player skin -

[Deer] Returns with the slime and dabs Doc's wound with the paste-

[Doc] Thank you- Xe holds the opening wide- drop her in and I'll seal it-

[Flux] Lifts the ball of magic and gently lowers it into the body, slowly releasing it once inside-

[Doc] Quckly melts the edges back together and gives the body a quick jolt of electricity to start the heart cluster and wake her up

-Nothing happens-

[CP] - Her redstone heart...  Where is it?

[Doc] Hits her with the electricity again - It's part of her code. It should regrow with the rest of her organs. You remember that wooden hand I made you? It's the same. She needs time to change this body into her own! -

-There's still nothing happening-

[Doc] Oh.... I know what you need... - Xe puts hir uninjured hand on Lie's crotch and uses a different kind of shock-

[CP] Nearly leaps up growling-

-There is a bit of stirring inside of the body as the code picks up on the signal-

[Notch] Easy!

[Doc] Leans on her chest to listen- There we go. Come all the way around...

-There's a very faint and dull beating.  Her body recognizing that it originally only had one heart and isn't sure what to do with the rest yet-

[CP] - Lie...

[Doc] It's okay Lie. You're safe. You can wake up.

[Flux] May I try something?

[Doc] If you think it will help. Go ahead. She's going to be in a weakened state anyway.

[Flux] Slips a little of her magic inside and begins connecting all of Lie's hearts, helping them recognize that they all need to work together.  Soon the thrum of ten hearts of beating comes through-

[Doc] Nicely done Flux.

[Deer] Is watching her friend closely- Her hair...

-Lie's hair is changing from Alex red to it's usual white, starting at the roots and heading downwards-

[Doc] There we go. This is a new body, just ease into it. I promise a normal respawn isn't near this traumatic.

[CP] His hand reaches for his wifes-

[Doc] Moves so he can reach her-

[Notch] Lie?

-There's a bit of flickering under her eyelids as her eyes try to remember if they are supposed to be blue or white-

[Doc] at Cp - don't flip if she doesn't get her glow back right away. That might be the last thing to change.

[CP] - I just want her back

[Doc] Me too.

-There's a wave of code which goes down Lie's body to correct her skin color-

[Doc] Is checking her progress digitally-

-Next there's a glitch bit of noise from her vocal cords as her code remembers what she sounds like-

[Doc] Vocal cords check, Lie? Can you hear us?

-A small twitch goes through her body-

[Deer] - Doc, her hair...

-The white coding reached the end of the Alex's hair and is continuing-

[Doc] Just a minor mistake I'm sure....

[Deer] - Let's just hope it stops...

[CP] Ignores the hair as it goes past his hand, he's just focused on his wife-

[Lie] The flickering under her eyelids has finally settled and there's a faint glow coming from beneath-

[Doc] A haircut is an easy fix.

[Notch] That's really long... Lie?

[Lie] - Mnn...

[CP] Perks up-

[Doc] smiles in relief- Shall I get the bacon? That usually works.

[Lie] Her hair finally stops past her feet-

[Notch] It is really pretty though.

[Lie] She finally opens her eyes-

[CP] Beyond relieved- Lie...

[Doc] Gets into her field of view - How are you feeling?

[Lie] - I...  I'm not sure...

[CP] Is anxious for her to actually get up-

[Doc] You had a really close call. Cp's NOTCH got you with his deletion sword. Flux saved you and I put you in a new body. It's okay to take it slow until you're used to it.

[Lie] - Who?

[Doc] Flux - points at her- She's practically your mother in law.

[Lie] - I'm sorry, I don't recognize her...  Do I actually know you?

[CP] Is getting a sinking feeling-

[Doc] Wilts - I'm Doc. I'm practically your best friend...

[Lie] - I don't remember...

[Doc] Your coding is complete... maybe your features took the dominant repair spot and your memories are still in the queue? Dammit! I meant for it to be the other way around. Stupid transitional number sequence parameters!

[Lie] Starts pushing herself up-

[CP] Releases her hand-

[Doc] Well, then we'll just keep you safe until your memories start compiling. I'm Doc, this is my mate Deerheart. This is your husband Cp, his dad and his dad's girlfriend; Notch and Flux. You are Lilinthia, but everyone calls you Lie for short.

[Lie] - I know my name...  But...  Husband?

[Doc] Yeees....

[Lie] - I'm sorry, I just...  Can't recall anything

[CP] Slowly stands and starts backing away, shattered mentally, not realizing how much of an effect his wife not remembering him would have on him-

[Notch] Takes his hand and squeezes it gently- Give her time... she did almost die.

[CP] - I...  I just...  No...  Not my Lie...

[Doc] Cp... I swear to you everything is there. It's not finished!

[CP] Slips out of Notch's grip and wanders off-

[Lie] Watches him confused-

[Doc] Deerheart, watch her for a mintue please- runs after Cp-

[CP] Is leaning against the wall near the lava bath in the lab-

[Doc] Cp...

[CP] Gives no response, he is absolutely broken without his wife-

[Doc] She'll remember. You just have to be patient.

[CP] - My Lie...  I just, want her back to normal...

[Doc] Cp, she's alive... and she'll be herself again, but you have a chance to help her now when she really needs you. Be there for her.

[CP] - I don't know how...

[Doc] Yes you do. Just stay with her. Answer her questions, bring her anything she needs. Show her what a husband should be.

[CP] - Just...  Not right now...  I don't think I can...

[Doc] Cp. It isn't about you right now. She was there for you while you regenerated. You ate her out of house and home and she ran herself ragged trying to take care of all your needs.

[CP] Slides down the wall, hiding his face away, it's one of the few rare times he wants to be a cat-

[Doc] Hugs what xe can reach- I need you to be strong Cp. I know this is hard.

[CP] - She's just, not right, not her

[Doc] She's there. I promise. And I want you to be there when she wakes up.

[CP] - Just leave me be for now

[Doc] Please promise me you'll stay here. You can go wandering in the castle if you want. There's plenty of places to be alone. I'll call Steffan and ask him to take care of Lie's house.

[CP] - I don't know...

[Doc] Please?

[CP] - Just fuck off- His threat doesn't have it's usual bite

[Doc] Takes a step away. - Just trust me. I'm going to go tend to her now.

[CP] Says nothing in response-

[Doc] Goes back up into the lab with heavy hearts-

[Deer] Has pulled Lie's hair back so it's out of her way-

[Doc] Regards her with a sad smile. - what do you remember? Besides your name?

[Lie] - How to talk?

[Doc] That's all?

[Lie] Nods- I assume walking, but haven't tried that yet

[Doc] Whelp... you are definetly staying with us. - xe gestures at the caged mobs- All these creatures are rather dangerous. There's worse outside at night, so don't go wandering outside alone, and not at night at all.

[Lie] - Oh, alright.  Are there other safe places?

[Doc] Inside is safe as long as there's enough light. You'll find this place incredibly large and it's easy to get lost. So stay with a buddy for now.

[Lie] - Do I live here?

[Doc] No. But you've just come off of some serious surgery, and as your doctor, I want to keep you under observation.

[Lie] - Oh, alright...  Will my...  Husband?  Be staying here?

[Doc] Yes. He just needs a few minutes to himself. He's pretty upset that you don't remember him.

[Flux] Nudges Notch a little, not certain what they should be doing-

[Lie] - I don't want to cause anyone distress...

[Deer] - It's okay, your husband has difficulty with some emotions, that's all

[Notch] He's just sad Lie... you're his world. He went crazy when he heard you'd been deleted.

[Lie] - I was deleted?  What exactly happened?

[Doc] Your husband's greatest enemy thinks that Cp is dead. He tried to kill you too, and me, just for spite.

[Lie] - We have enemies?

[Doc] Enemies and friends. You're a glitch, and so am I, and Cp,  some people don't like us just for that reason. Our glow marks us- points at hir eyes

[Lie] - My eyes glow?  It's a glitch?

[Doc] Yeah, it's uh... hang on. - Xe rummages in a trunk and finds the little mirror xe used on Splender - Here. This is you. - Xe holds it up so Lie can see her reflection-

[Lie] Stares at it for a second- They actually do glow...

[Flux] Whispers to Notch- We should probably go check on CN...

[Notch] Okay... you're probably right. Lie? I have to go for a bit. Doc and Deerheart will take care of you for now, okay?

[Lie] - Oh, um, okay...

[Doc] Everything will be fine. We'll get you a bed and some food -

[Lie] Her stomach rumbles at that point-

[Doc] Come with me. - Xe leads down the steps where the gold room makes a shortcut to the kitchen, and they'll have to walk past Cp.

[CP] Has hidden himself in the side room-

[Lie] Is giving the lava a bit of a wide berth-

[Doc] Walks loudly so Cp will hear where they're going.

[Deer] - Lie, the lava won't hurt you

[Doc] Though I'd stay out of it for now. It's rather messy and tends to cool on your skin and pull hairs when you try to get it off.

-The polar bear bumbles up to the bars as they pass by-

[Lie] - So it's painful either way?

[Deer] Tosses the bear some fish-

[Doc] More annoying then painful. You just have a low body temp for a Herobrine. It stays liquid on me and Cp.

[Deer] - CP usually removes it for you...  Then again he's also usually the one that pushes you in

[Galvantula] Is sitting on the edge of the table with their feet dangling.

[Doc] get off the table please.

[Galvantula] skitters up on the celing instead. - Buzzzrp!

[Lie] - What is that?

[Doc] Part pet, part friend. That's my spider Galvantula.

[Galvantula] Cocks head at Lie. - zzzzrp?

[Doc] Amnesia.

[Galvantula] Sad noise-

[Lie] - You can understand it?

[Doc] This one yes. I have a lot of critters. After a while you start to notice patterns in their noises.

[Lie] - I see...  Do...  Do I have any pets?

[Doc] Long slow look - Yes. You have a lot of pets.

[Lie] - Then shouldn't we take care of them?

[Doc] No, it's okay. Notch and Flux and your... friend Cn will tend them for now.

[Lie] - Oh, alright...- She takes a seat at the table

[Doc] Goes in the kitchen and starts making an especially fragrant breakfast hoping to lure Cp in as well.

[Deer] - Need any help love?

[Doc] If you want to, please.

[Deer] Slips into the kitchen and bumps Doc with her ass playfully as she passes them to start up another furnace-

[Doc] Can't help but smile as xe dances around hir mate in the small space. The two of them moving in a harmony of knives, steam and flames, and then, finished food.

[CP] Is standing out in the hallway-

[Doc] Doesn't look at him directly for fear of making him leave. Xe lays out plates for anyone who wants some and piles the food on platters that end up on the table.

[Lie] - Mmm, smells delicious

[Doc] Gives her a fork and a plate. - Take whatever you want. I always have lots of food. - Xe starts fixing some for hirself.

[Lie] Puts food on her plate and begins eating-

[CP] Is just watching her from the shadows-

[Doc] at Deerheart- I take it Buff has Yaunfen? Did you feed hir first?

[Deer] - No, but I left them with plenty of snacks

[Doc] That works. At least he can keep up with our little dragon.

[Lie] Finds the bacon- Dragon?

[Doc] Oh yes. We've got a quite a few on this seed. The biggest one is a friend of yours actually. But if you run into a small red one with lots of limbs or a thin tan one with a pastel belly in the house, it's okay, they're friendly. The tan one is our child Yaunfen and the red is Crim, a buddy of ours.

[Lie] - Are there any that aren't?

[Deer] - Probably Pinwheel

[Doc] She's got a mostly pink body and a triangular head. But she lives next door and doesn't normally come in here without her guardian. Pinwheel is just a child with a bad attitude.

[Lie] - Oh.  Is there anything else I should know right now?

[Doc] I'm not sure...

[TLOT and Steve] Come down the steps-

[Steve] Runs to Lie and hugs her- Lie! You're back! [TLOT] Is scanning her- not... entirely?

[Lie] Squeaks- Um...  Hello?  Do I know you?

[Steve] Looks hurt - I'm Steve... we're friends...

[TLOT] Her mind is... sleeping? She's not all there my lamb.

[Doc] She has amnesia. Her files aren't damaged, but they're not done compiling either.

[TLOT] Oh.... - his eyes flick to Cp-

[CP] Shifts a bit uneasily under TLOT's gaze-

[TLOT] Speaks to him mentally- Cp? I can still feel her. Give her time.

[CP] - She's just...  It's not her

[TLOT] It is her. She's a psychic brine. Those sequences can take time to come back online if they're damaged. I should know.

[CP] Just looks uncertain-

[TLOT] Turns his full gaze on Lie and touches her mind-

[Lie] Feels it a little and panics some, not sure what it is-

[TLOT] Easy now. I'm just checking on you.

[Doc] This is the native Herobrine of this world. Herobrine The Lord of Tears, TLOT for short. He made you a brine, gave you your powers. He made me a brine as well.

[Lie] - Made me?

[Steve] You were a human like me. Well, a female human. And he gave you the eyes.

[Doc] You were in a lot of pain, and his actions made it stop.

[Lie] - Oh, well, thank you then

[TLOT] You're welcome Lie. - He slides into the chair across from her and takes some food.

[Steve] Sits down next to him and their hands lace togeather.

[Lie] Notices their hands- Are the two of you...

[Doc] They're married as well.

[Lie] - Oh, alright

[CP] His thoughts wander to his shared heart as he puts his hand over it-

[Doc] When a Herobrine chooses a mate, that person is their world, and losing them... it can spell death for a brine. We wither without our loves...

[Lie] - Wait so, does that mean that my husband...

[Doc] Nods at him in the doorway-

[Lie] Looks over at him but CP refuses to meet her gaze-

[Doc] He's just sad. Trust me when I say, you are everything to him.

[Lie] - I see...  I think I'm rather full now...

[Doc] Has eaten as well. - I think I want to show you something. Come with me please.

[Lie] Curious, stands and follows Doc-

[Doc] Leads her through the magma room and up the stairs into the shrine. Xe indicates the map. - This is our world. The parts we've mapped at least. The unexplored areas are infinetly larger. You're right here - Points at the castle, which looks very small in comparision and barely fills a fifth of one square of map.

[Lie] Scans the map- Is this our city?  What is everything?

[Doc] There aren't any cities, just towns. TLOT is king of the nearest ones. Here, here and here.

[Lie] - Then what is everything surrounding this town?- Points to Konahakagure

[Doc] Houses that belong to our friends and neighbors. - xe starts pointing out the little pips and telling her who they belong too.

[Lie] - So many others

[CP] Followed them but is standing a distance away, keeping out of sight-

[Doc] You'll remember them all in time. I'm sure of it.

[Lie] Glances outside- It's getting dark...

[Doc] We're safe in here, come with me upstairs, the view is impressive.

[Lie] - Lead the way- Follows Doc once more

[Doc] Heads up into the museum and takes her out on the balcony - If something spawns near us just run back inside. - The castle is lit from all the flaming netterack on the rooftops and the lava flows from the bridge. The orange glow reflects in the bay below them.  The land is bathed in moonlight and theres a whisper of a storm blowing in from the ocean side. The closest other building is the skull faced structure that houses the Nether portal and Mb's room. The brine himself is sitting on his roof with Celine. Placidly looking at the 'stars' wheeling by overhead.

[Lie] - It's so beautiful!

[Doc] I like to think so. And we rule it gently. My antlered mate is the physical embodiment of the world. We work together to keep everything and everyone safe and happy.

-There's a bit of noise as the mobs spawn in and start shuffling about in their own aimless ways.

[Lie] Looks nervously at the mobs- Are you sure we're safe up here?

[Doc] Yes. We shouldn't linger long, but they don't like the light.

[Lie] - Alright, thank you for showing me this

[Doc] Leads her back inside. All around them are framed items and knick-nacks from their various exploits, as well as gifts from other brines. Nearby is a vase with examples of nearly all of Lie's flowers.

[Lie] - Those flowers are beautiful

[Doc] You made them Lie. Created them from nothing. It's one of your powers. And each of them serves a purpose, even if it's a small one.

[Lie] - I made those?

[Doc] Oh yes. Even this one. It's dangerous, but one of my favorites. -Xe indicates a lust blossom. It's safely behind glass, and the nectar dripping from it's bloom makes a soft pattering noise on the block below it.

[Lie] - What does it do?

[Doc] Makes an undeniable heat. If you have a mate you'll go to them as if your life depended on it and make love until the fire is quenched.

[Lie] Turns a bit red- Sounds...  Intense...

[Doc] You used an aggressive version of it to help defeat the NOTCH that tormented TLOT and his husband once. He'll be eternally grateful to you and I and Cp because of it.

[Lie] - An aggressive version?  Like, it grows really fast?

[Doc] Makes a pod shape with hir hands [still missing a glove and a finger] - It's got a mouth that can bite and inject the nectar. And strangling vines with thorns.

[Lie] - Oh...  What happened to your hand?

[Doc] Oh... I gave part of it to you. A bit of special coding to help keep what happened from happening again. It's all right. I can make a new finger. [The other glove is poking out of hir coat pocket.]

[Lie] - I'm sorry, it must have been a bother...

[Doc] Oh no! I'm happy to help! I'm just glad to have you back in any form. I gave up worse just making a distraction so that Flux could escape with your code. But I can fix myself. It's no problem.

[Lie] Doesn't look so sure-

[Doc] Do you want to watch? It's no big deal.

[Lie] Shakes her head- No, it's not necessary...  Actually, I'm starting to get kinda tired...

[Doc] Okay. Let's find you a bed.

[Lie] Follows Doc, unaware of CP following them once again-

[Doc] Takes Lie back down to the lab and sets her up in one of the recovery rooms - TLOT and Steve's room is right there, just yell or think really loud if you need help with anything. I'll come find you in the morning. Feel free to use the water tub if you feel stinky.

[Lie] - Thank you, I hope you rest well also

[Doc] Passes Cp in the hallway and stops for a moment.

[CP] - What?

[Doc] Take a room. Any place is fine. My home is your home anytime you need it.

[CP] - Shut up asshole

[Doc] I'm glad you're feeling a tiny bit better. - gives him a small hug.

[CP] Doesn't move-

[Doc] lets go - Good night Cp.

[CP] - Whatever- He just continues to stand there

[Doc] Walks back to hir room-

[CP] After a moment goes and sits on the floor right outside of Lie's room, listening to her breathing as she sleeps-

[Doc] Finds Deerheart on the bed. Wryly- Can you spare a pixel for your mate?

[Deer] - Absolutely, take what you need

[Doc] Thank you - Xe runs a hand over hers, copying just a few pieces and multiplying them in hir open palm. Xe rolls them like a cigar and sticks the little tube on the stump of hir missing finger before giving it a test wiggle. - Oooch...

[Deer] Takes Doc's hand and kisses the newly repaired finger- There, all better

[Doc] I'm better because you're here. That fight scared the nether out of me on several levels. Poor Lie.... we owe Flux so much.

[Deer] - Yes, we do.  Do you know what happened to the locket with CP's heart?

[Doc] I have it. For now.

[TLOT and Steve] pass by on their way back from the kitchen. The two share a wordless glance at the sight of Cp.

[Steve] Sneaks forward and sets a rather meaty sandwich on his knees. [since he didn't eat anything.] And then scurries off to his room.

[TLOT] Pats Cps hand and goes to walk away as well.

[CP] The plate just slides off his leg onto the ground, he's in no mood for eating even though he probably should, the sandwich then pops into his inventory-

[TLOT] Softly- take care of yourself. She needs you more now than even she realizes. I noticed there's still something personal missing from her skin that needs to regrow, besides her redstone heart.

[CP] Gives TLOT a slightly confused look- Her clothes you mean?

[TLOT] Your collar.

[CP] Tenses a little and then looks away, remembering his earlier want of it because of how strong his emotions were-

[TLOT] I get the feeling that will return only when she remembers what a powerful responsibility it can be.

[CP] - And why not any of her other responsibilities?

[TLOT] Because that's the one that's hers alone, and closest to her hearts.

[CP] Just bows his head with a huff-

[TLOT] Sweeps a hand over him with a soft suggestion, just to ease his hearts a little. - Be patient my friend.

-The night is only about half way through and Lie is having difficulty sleeping.  She tosses and turns and eventually gets up with a sigh.  She steps out of the room and CP has already retreated out of viewing distance.  She approaches the two tubs and sits down near the water on, running her hand through the warm water.  As she relaxes she rests her hand on the divide between the two tubs and that relaxation is shattered as her hand slips and plunges into the lava.  As she flails some of her hair ends up in the lava too-

[Lie] - Ah!  No no no...- She looks at her hand and there's a decent amount of hardened lava on it.  She's not sure what to do and is surprised when a much larger hand comes from behind her and touches the hardened lava

[CP] - Stay still, I'll get it off

[Lie] Sits there and watches as CP's fingers glide over the lava, softening it and allowing it to splatter against the stone floor- Thank you

[CP] - It's nothing, just, try to be more careful.  This stuffs hardens on you pretty quickly- He turns Lie's hand over to make certain that he got everything and then he moves onto her hair, running his fingers through it and snagging the bits of lava there

[Lie] Leans back against CP which catches the male brine off guard- If you really are my husband, then why have you been avoiding me?

[CP] Sighs softly- I'm not

[Lie] - Then why haven't you spoken to me before now?

[CP] - I just...  I know you aren't fully you, not yet at least, and it's painful to see

[Lie] - I'm sorry...

[CP] - That's not what you need to apologize for, but the real apology can come later when you do remember

[Lie] - I did something wrong?

[CP] - You scared the crap out of me by doing something stupidly reckless

[Lie] - Oh...

[CP] - Now go on, get back to bed.  You need your sleep

[Lie] - Can't

[CP] - Why not?

[Lie] - I just can't.  I keep waking up and tossing and turning

[CP] - Then read, you love doing that

[Lie] - But I'm comfortable right here...

[CP] Just huffs a little and sits there-

[Lie] Scoots back a little more so she's in CP's lap-  You're so warm...

[CP] - It's one of the many reasons you normally won't let me out of the bed on cold mornings

[Lie] - Mmmm- She's beginning to drift off to sleep again

[CP] Notices and just stays there, even once she's fallen asleep he lets her rest on him for the rest of the night-

[izanaginookami10]

Introduction with some rants.

If you want to skip and directly go to the list, click/press/touch: here.

But I suggest reading all the post, not to please me (ok, maybe that would make me happy), but mostly as a challenge for you. To be able to say “I was able to read a horrible and full of grammar error post written by an otaku who belives himself a blogger!”.

Feel my despair.

You know, like watching Boku no Pico, you can put it into your CV… wait you can’t?! Watching Boku no Pico isn’t a trophy you should share with others?! Oh, well… just ignore this then.

So, screw it. After 10 days of blogging, I’ve discovered it’s humanly impossible to comment every single anime I’m following, as much as I would like to. I’m unsure about this kind of post though. So, it may just be a one-time thing. I’ll see whether I’m able to write for next week.

No seriously, the trial in the title isn’t for show. For some wicked reason I spent more hours doing this, than any previous post, while the aim was actually cutting the time I put into the blog, as reality is getting too toilsome (yeah, did you notice how it isn’t the blog to be toilsome, but reality?).

I decided that this will cover most of the anime I watch that I have no time to write articles on. I will probably keep writing more detailed posts about the best ones (in my opinion) at least (probably not the sequels though, as I would have probably already read the original source). They will be here too though.

I consider a week from monday to sunday, so this post will try to cover the anime episodes that came out from monday 24th April to sunday 30th april. Yeah, because I have some weird disease that makes me watch anime as soon as they come out, or I’ll die.

Sleep. is. for. the. weak.

As my first report/ranking post, there will also be short introductions for each anime I haven’t already write about yet. Furthermore, and this is important, as I’ve actually started writing this on friday, lots of this week’s episodes are already out of my memory. So, many of the series I’m actually watching, aren’t here in this post. But, hey. This IS a trial version. The important thing is that at least my favourite are here.

But this list doesn’t represent all the anime I’m watching at all. I’m quite proud to be able to watch ove 50 series per season, sacrificing sleep, but I don’t have the drive to write about them all…

This doesn’t mean I won’t try though.

I obviously use a decimal system while attempting to give a score to each episode.  I try to use the MAL system when possible. Don’t count on it too much though. I’m quite bad at analyzing things, and my only criteria is “enjoyment”, which is already difficult for me.

I’m also someone who easily gives 10s, so expect almost always “good” ratings. Heck, why would someone even continue watching shows that he find “bad”? Well, if you’re a masoch- a no-drop club member like me, you’ll find an opportunity to do so…

In addition, I’m still an amateur both in writing and reviewing. So, expect some serious shit. Feel free to be harsh, critic and insult. Feedback is always appreciated, especially if it is

Now, I beg you, please enjoy this. Be it for my grammatical errors, my patethic attempt to be a blogger or because you’re bored. Or else I’ll feel quite depressed.

Yeah… by nature I’m quite pessimistic…

Index (ordered by ranking):

*NATURALLY, THESE ARE ALL MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS, THUS YOU ARE FREE TO DISAGREE, INSULT MY SENSE OF TASTE OR DO MANY OTHER THINGS. i’LL ACCEPT IT, AS DIFFERENT TASTES EXIST IN THIS FREE WORLD.* What I wish the most is to discuss about anime though.

Re:Creators Episode 4 (9.5)

Shingeki no Kyojin S2 Episode 5 (9.5)

Seikaisuru Kado Episode 4 (8/9)

Quan Zhi Gao Shou Episode 5 (8.5)

Boku no Hero Academia Episode 5 (8+)

Saekano S2 Episode 3 (8+)

Eromanga-sensei Episode 4 (8)

Tales of Zestiria the X S2 Episode 13 [FINALE] (8-)

Clockwork Planet Episode 4 (7/8)

Alice to Zouroku Episode 5 (7/8)

Rokudenashi Majutsu Koushi to Akashic Records Episode 4 (7.5)

DanMachi Gaiden – Sword Oratoria Episode 3 (7.5)

Oushitsu Kyoushi Haine Episode 4 (7.5)

Tsugumomo Episode 5 (7+)

Uchoten Kazoku S2 Episode 4 (7+)

Shingeki no Bahamut Virgin Soul Episode 4 (7+)

Renai Boukun Episode 4 (7+)

Hinako Note Episode 4 (7+)

Granblue Fantasy The Animation Episode 5 (7+)

Sakurada Reset Episode 4 (7-)

Kyoukai no Rinne Episode 4 (6/7)

Gin no Guardian Episode 5 (6/7)

Berserk (2017) Episode 5 (6/7)

Atom: The Beginning Episidoe 3 (5/6)

Sakura Quest Episode 4 (5/6)

Twin Angel Break Episode 4 (5/6)

Busou Shoujo Macchiavellianism Episode 4 (5-)

Sin: Nanatsu no Taizai Episode 3 (4.5)

Kabukibu! Episode 4 (3)

Re:Creators Episode 4 (9.5)

Well. What to say? I’m really loving it. This is entirely a subjective opinion, I totally understand that it has its flaws, but as I make “enjoyment” my criteria, it’s at the top of my list.

We get to see Meteora’s character development, alongside a long and really interesting theory on her part. The Great Destruction: as the world won’t be able to “correct” these anomalies, that are the “translations” of creations, it will soon reset itself, to bring order once again.

Just beautiful. Be it art, animation, MUSIC (OH, GOD. THE MUSIC. THE FREAKING OP ALONE IS ENOUGH!), the concept, the characters, the MUSIC (yes, I have to repeat it), etc. I love it all.

Let’s all listen to its glorious Opening while reading this so called post! (If the link is dead, well, it means something happened, so I suggest just searching it on Youtube)

But, to try to be a little more objective, I won’t give it a full 10, as I’ve in reality never regarded any anime, but maybe Steins;Gate or TTGL as true masterpieces. So… 9.5! “Great/Masterpiece”!

Hungry, aren’t we? What a beautiful pizza.

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Shingeki no Kyojin S2 Episode 5 (9.5)

HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT. Finally, I’m starting to feel again that tension and hype of first season.

I actually thought I watched the wrong episode in the beginning though. But it was just a flashback about Ymir and Christa’s past, huh. Thus is explained how Ymir knew about the suicidal drive of Christa… but why? Just why would she wish that? Well, I’m not exactly the best person to condemn one for wanting to suicide…

Anyways! After the flashback we finally return to the caged tower, and FUCKING YMIR YOU BECOME A TITAN.

Well, a short Titan (pfff, ok no). It was amazing seeing her trying to save everyone, not even trying to bring down the tower. You gained my deepest respect Ymir.

Then, Christa finally shows her guts! And the tower is brought down, over the swarm of Titans, but they quickly stand up again and shit gets real. Ymir is getting devoured by everyone and Christa is in danger BUTTTTTTT

MIKASA-SAMA CAMES AND SAVES THE DAY!!!! (While Eren falls trying to look cool). Reinforces are here! The scene was so freaking epic I was singing

SASAGEYO! SASAGEYO! SHINZOU WO SASAGEYO! SASAGEYO!

OH. MY FUCKING GOD!!! A FLY JUST BECAME A DRAGON!!!!

Seriously though, the OP is so fucking amazing I’m actually conflicted which I love the most between the Re:Creators one and this. Screw it! I love both.

Did… Ymir just die?!? Please no. There is so much I want to know! And we get to know Christa’s true name?! Historia… I see. The title wasn’t for show, huh. What a beautiful name for a gorgeous and amazing girl.

We finally are getting on track with this episode. I hope it gets even greater and amazing. A 9.5 for now, it got already better compared to first episodes, mainly because there weren’t many MCs?

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Seikaisuru Kado Episode 4 (8/9)

The episode revolved around the result of having infinite energy (Wam) given. Naturally everyone would liket to have it(?), so UN demands Japan to give it to them, in order to manage and control the new unlimited source of energy.

Japan is unsure, so UN basically declare war. But, our lord and saviour Shindo, with the help of the alien/God zaShunina, is going to screw them over. I want to believe.

Great episode, the show was already quite good. But now it seems the pace will get quicker, as one does not simply stays still when you’re given infinite energy.

8/9, “Great/Really Good” episode. Oh, and Tsukai is cute. Not to mention OP and ED are really good.

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Quan Zhi Gao Shou Episode 5 (8.5)

Another episode of Ye Xiu’s badness. But we have a new characte: Su Mucheng! Who answered the call of MC, alongside the dude who loves bricks (I seriously love him, it’s just so hilarous) and the newbie xiao Tang, to regain the time-record broken by another guild who is searching for death.

Sasuga! It was her!

Animations stunning as usual, even the one reused. Can’t really say much about it. I really like, even though I see its shortcomings. McDonalds items are delicious to see by the way.

My score for this episode is 8.5, “Good/Great”. I think it will get even better though, at least according to what readers of the CN say (though it skipped LOT of content).

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Boku no Hero Academia Episode 5 (8+)

As a manga reader, I’m quite satisfied by this adaptation. But this also mean that I’m unable to properly judge the series as only an anime. Oh, well. Who cares.

The battle is mainly between the OP Todoroki VS Midoriya and Bakugou VS a dude of class B (my… memory), whose quirk is even more OP in my opinion, as “copying” and “nullifying” powers are the best (and most chuunibyou like).

Midoriya lost his headband and forced Todoroki to use his “left side”, showing his better ability to control One for All, but it’s Bakugou who matured the most in my opinion: using tactics and his companions quirks at their best to steal the stolen headband, while also keeping at bay (as much as he can, either way, it’s definitely better than before) hir rage? That’s some growth.

It’s exciting seeing both battles, especially the last part where it becomes Bakugou VS Midoriya VS Todoroki. What a pity that… time’s up. First place Todoroki, second Bakugou, third who? Oh, well. Midoriya wasn’t able to get back his own, but thanks to his skills and companions, was able to get fourth place. Nice job!

Then we end with a confrontation between the 1# and 2# heroes, in parallel with their “legacies”.

Umu, I’m satisfied. I really liked this episode, just like the whole series until now. So, an 8+ for now.

Also, it seems the fountain crying way is a family thing, huh… (after credits part).

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Saekano S2 Episode 3 (8+)

Another episode of the quite fan-service-ish show, Saekano. My opinion is already set up form first season though, that is, really good. MC is quite generic, but that’s exactly why most of us can relate to it I suppose? Not to mention, he’s actually trying to become a creator, combining what he loves with the useful. Just like another series of this season that I greatly enjoy, Re:Creators.

This episode MC continues to … with the support of the basically already in set future winner/wife Megumi (I’m on Senpai’s team though), and the music band members (who remembers them? I definitely not), the script is successfully implemented into the VN. This permits our Mr. Ethical to get some kind of enlightment, which, I have to say, really surprised me.

I honestly would have chosen the second draft, but he rejected both! Saying that it needs to be rewritten, as it is a crap game. I suppose that they would have been great novels, but bad when combined with music, pictures and other elements of a VN?

Seeing Kumikaoga-sempai’s espression, really broke my heart (after credits).

Either way, you pleasantly surprised me MC. As my score was already high to begin with, I can’t really give it more than 8+. Really good, keep up with it. By the way, the scoring is heavily biased by the fact that the MC is an otaku. Everyone likes seeing relatable characters, right?

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Eromanga-sensei Episode 4 (8)

Wow! Seriously Ero! But I still like it! LOOL, I can’t stop but laugh at their relationship! Sagiri explaining herself with drawings and Onii-chan writing Light novel about her!

Umu, seeing Izumi and Yamada’s efforts make me understand. Understand how pitiful I am to think that writing things in a horrible way for just a week or so would give me results immediately.

…AHHHHAHAAHAHAHAH HE WROTE A FUCKING LOVE LETTER TO HIS SISTERRRRR!!! And she was shut in her room studying for her brother. WHAT’S WITH THISSS!?? Both were thinking about losing each others? This misunderstanding… Ohh.. My heart… I seriously love the characters of this show.

OOOUCHHH! You’re killing Nii-san here. Why do I think that someone is him though?

And he wants to publish his love letter, make it an anime and WATCH IT TOGETHER WITH HER SISTER?!! That’s quite the otrageous idea.

I am seriously enjoying this show. When I actually watch it, my mind and heart are full of emotions. I laugh, I feel frustrated, I feel happy, I feel sad with them. My score for this episode is a full 8, “Really Good”. Way to go!

And to think, that before the season started I thought it wouldn’t be so good, but almost “Fine” or “Good”. What a pleasant surprise.

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Tales of Zestiria the X S2 Episode 13 [FINALE] (8-)

Umu, so it ends. Studio Ufotable did the same thing for GOD EATER too… though in that case it was far worse. But quality has a price I suppose? (please stop the joke of “unlimited budget”, I really find annoying when people lower other’s hard work and efforts to simply “they had money”, or “talent” in other cases).

So, we were at the final confrontation with Last Boss. Sorey, as your usual MC, uses the power of bonds to overcome the difficultes and power up (though, dear Heldalf, what exactly were you waiting while he was transforming? Oh, I see. You too were stunned by the beautiful animations).

In a stunning and visually pleasing battle with lots of techinques, skills and other beautiful acts (added to the OP playing in the background) he’s able to finish off Lord of Calamity/Malevolence incarnated/Heldalf in five minutes!? …or not.

As expected from the last boss, he suddenly get reanimated, as you know, malevolence can’t really be finished off. Since it is infinite, to be more precise human‘s malevolence is unlimited, Sorey can’t do anything but choose to seal him temporarely with him, to slowly purify him. But he isn’t dead. Maybe we wil see him soon?

Then, as a last episode, we get to see how other characters continue to live their life after the adventure. Alisha became Queen, and seriously lool like Saber (just why the hell do I continue seeing Saber everywhere!? Is it because there are too many Saber faces in the Fate/ universe already!?). Woah, they become even more beautiful.

Hmm, I’m a sucker for these kind of endings. All is good, and thus The Legend was born.

Nicely done. I’m really satisfied. Although it seemed quite rushed (never played the game), and for weird reasons we got 2 episodes of Berseria, I enjoyed the series a lot. I rate this episode 8-, mainly because of the stunning animations though (as the story itself was only mildly interesting in my sincerest and humbly opinion). While for overall anime, I give it a 7.5, or maybe a little more. Either way, on MAL it will be 8 because there aren’t decimal there…

By the way, I seriously would like to write a post only for this episode. Too bad reality is seriously crushing me. What a pain in the ass it is. Why can’t I simply do the things I enjoy? I almost feel like I’m offending the anime…..?! What am I saying? I should visit a psychologist…

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Clockwork Planet Episode 4 (7/8)

I’ll be frank. The setting is really interesting, and so are the characters. The thing is… the art. It’s not bad or ugly, but I just can’t take the show seriously while seeing it. That aside, after a first not-too-good impression (like most of this season’s show), I think it got on the right track in episode 3 especially. The love confession was incredibly cute. Their lovey-dovey behaviour is really cute too.

In this week’s episode, we see this love manifesting: after understanding that the purge can’t be avoided (why again?) unless with the use of RyuZu’s Imagery Gear, Naoto firmly refuses to sacrifice her (or taking the risk to put her in danger). This really hit me hard, in a good way. For some reasons I was pleasantly surprised, perhaps my opinion was low and I didn’t expect this? This is the joy of not dropping anime.

Everything to save Naoto.

Oh and, am I weird for liking these kind of epithets? “One who follows”. I like it. One who will protect his master for eternity. And thus, she sacrifice herself, saving everyone. But naturally she is saved, and awakes once again, just to be reunited to his beloved master.

Can you feel how I’m liking this? Oh, and it seems a new character will be introduced in next episode. By the way, I really like the OP too, and ED is nice (not as much as OP though).

Great OP scene.

In conclusion, Clockwork Planet keep rising in my humble opinion. From “Average” to almost “Really Good” or more. It’s a 7/8 for me then!

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Alice to Zouroku Episode 5 (7/8)

We continue from the appearance of new young woman, who came to save Alice. And holy kaw! if she’s strong. Episodes full of action are good. Really nice animations. Not to mention we get to see another “Gate of-” versus “Gate of-“. If you’ve watched enough anime, you will understand what I’m talking about.

I’ve seen firearms before, but hands? That’s new. But not really surprising, heck nothing will ever surprise me more than the glorious Keijo!!!’s HIP OF BABYLON with an artillery of asses. Seriously, go watch it and then read it.

Anyways, Shizuku is strong! Not OP like Alice (heck, you can create “anything”?!), but still really powerful: 666 weapons and 13 grimores! And from a Maid Mahou Shoujo! Oh, well. Tachibana’s Unlimited Hands Work get supressed and she is arrested.

Alice is also understanding that she wishes to become humans, to understand them, to be with Zouroku (this is really sweet, but it makes me feel weird somehow, …who cares?), simply… the wish to continue living.

Everything is nice and good now. I suppose we finished first arc? Well, I’m liking this series. It’s slowly getting better in my opinion. For now, the episode gets a 7/8 for me, a little more and you will be “Really Good”!

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Rokudenashi Majutsu Koushi to Akashic Records Episode 4 (7.5)

Here’s the anime that surprised the most this season. After a bad first impression, it quickly gained my favour. Really recommend to not drop it after only one episode.

This episode starts a new arc, and we begin with a Magic Competition. Quite the happy and tranquil episode, which is good once in a while. But this peace, won’t probably last, huh. I’m hyped for the scenes of the OP.

Nice episode, although not as exciting as the 2nd or the 3rd, still good nonetheless! 7.5! “Good/Really Good” rating.

Ending card.

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DanMachi Gaiden – Sword Oratoria Episode 3 (7.5)

Hm… to tell the truth, I’m not really expecting much from this, as it is a side series of the main one. Although I am interested in Ais’s side of events.

We also have another main character(?), a not too much expert caster who admires Ais. It reminds me of Misaka Mikoto and Shirai Kuroko from Toaru Kagaku no Railgun (spin off as well), though the Lefiya isn’t as aggressive as Kuroko…

It is actually nice seeing how the two series interwine though. Fumu, Ais get punished for training too late, and the punishment is a date with Loki-sama. But the date, is destined to be interrupted by Ganesha’s beasts outbreak.

Seeing Lefiya’s frustration really reminds me of Bell. Nice to see her resolve, always admiring Ais and yet wanting to fight at her side. Fight on… Summon Burst: it allows to duplicate an infinite number of other spells…!? Thousand Elf?!?

Lefiya, the Thousand Elf

I rectify, she has at least enough talent to be at her side. Bell (at least until what anime covered) isn’t really that strong (though his ability to get more EXP is great, but I’m a sucker for copying or nullifying abilities).

Hou? The monster they fought weren’t all form Freya-sama? This… is actually getting a little interesting.

Compared to the first two episodes, I like this more. Perhaps because we saw Lefiya’s growth? Umu, my score is: 7.5 “Good”.

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Oushitsu Kyoushi Haine Episode 4 (7.5)

The episode seemed to be just like another. And it was for the first half, all the princes (well, almost all. As someone goes there already) take the first step in the city, to see first-hand their kingdom. After sightseeing, and stopping a purse snatcher, sensei enlighten them about the wondrous of their kingdom. Which I really liked.

He is then officially welcomed by the royal family.

Really nice episode in my opinion. A 7.5, halfway to “Really Good”. Keep it up!

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Tsugumomo Episode 5 (7+)

Ho. Tsugumomo. As a manga reader, I’m quite happy to see it animated, I was really worried about the censorship though. The manga is really, really good, especially the art, but it is heavily ecchi parts, and nonetheless the story is incredibly interesting. So, I strongly suggest to read it.

I like how the anime cleverly avoid the cursed steam or the sudden beams of light with various strategems, like showing only partially things, covering them with objects or showing it indirectly. That’s how ecchi should be. I would like to compare this well done element with the Sin: Nanatsu no Taizai’s one… if you ever watched the latter, you then can understand how painful is it to watch it.

Well, anyways. The episode. After the weakening of Kiriha, Kazuya is forced to train, as it seems like his skills during the battle with the Loli Water God were only a fluke. We also discover that the “girl” we saw during first episode was actually… school council president…. that’s huh.. unexpected.

Genius! Four-eyes-kun is a Genius!

Four Eyes-kun is also really likeable. Can’t help but find funny whenever he talk with Kazuya. Then an Amasogi trap them, but who cares about that. The matter is resolved thanks to MC’s training result and four-eyes’s great drawing skills. I really like his character. Oh, and I actually thought the place Loli-God-sama would go to, would have been Kazuya’s house. That was quite unexpected. Too influeced by the troupes I suppose.

Nice episode overall. I like it. Although nothing really extraordinary happened, I think it’s “Good”, or maybe more. Thus 7+.

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Uchoten Kazoku S2 Episode 4 (7+)

Heh, not angry at all. The new Tengu is simply too good. I fucking love him already. Nice to see Benten reaction too.

Fumu, we get to see a Shogi game with Tanuki transformed? Weird traditions, or maybe they are just bored? Huh. Can’t they enjoy a game without making problems? Seriously… another event is ruined once again.

Umu. Good as always. Although I really can’t relate to that free spirit/will of Yasaburo, as I’m chained down by reality. Though I like how he roots for his brother.

Wait, what? The Shogi set has a black hole in it?

It’s a 7+ for me, a little more than simply “Good”.

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Shingeki no Bahamut Virgin Soul Episode 4 (7+)

So, Azazel got his ass beaten, met Nina, hugged her and transformed her into the dragon. Umu. She really doesn’t remember anything while being little Bahamut, huh. Wait, I thought being able to transform into dragon was somehow connected to being Favaro’s student, but in reality she was an half? Wait, an entire clan of dragon exist

Oh, Holy Maiden! It’s so nice seeing Jeanne d’Arc. Also SHE HAD A CHILD?!? Have I forgotten something? Nevermind my memory, I’m a little conflicted inside…

Hou, did Azazel truly have a change of heart in after credits scene? Nah, I’m more convinced he’s just faking it, or everything is part of a greater plan.

My opinion of the anime didn’t really change much. I did really like seeing Jeanne again, but that aside. It was “good” in my opinion, so 7+.

Ending card:

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Renai Boukun Episode 4 (7+)

Ahh, one of the best colorful and funny comedy of this season in my opinion. As a manga reader, I went in already knowing what was I expecting (yandere+angel+kiss note+little sister loving onee-sama+little sister liking brother+rapist-demon-penguins+cat with human/angelic face+ero-sadists+etc. etc.), and I have to say, that I’m quite satisfied by what the anime adaptation delivered until now.

After a first part where we get to see Yuzu’s past, the show get really dark with Shikimi, the erotic-sadistic we caught a glimpse of during episode 3. And as expected from an S, she starts torturing our poor MC, who is immortal and can’t really die… uh. It got quite dark suddenly, didn’t it?

Nfu-fu-fu..

Oh, well. I quite enjoyed the episode.

7+, more than simply “Good”.

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Hinako Note Episode 4 (7+)

This series is just… so cute. As a slice of life heart-warming and soul-healing show, there really isn’t much to say (I may able to express my reliefs with weird noises though, but I don’t think that’s what you’re searching for).

The soothing tale of our scarecrow, continue in this episode with a training session of dance/gymnastics(?). Just to reveal the beautiful singing skills of Hinako-chan, which makes her eligible for the role of heroine!

Though I foresee some hardships with her shyness. Also, advisor going keikaku doori (just as planned) means she has some kind of solution?

Oh, and both OP and ED are quite catchy. Which is only a plus. The fact that you can find them on Youtube without the fear of them getting deleted at any time helps too.

Still “good”. As many others anime of this genre, it’s quite difficult to have the highest scores, but are easily in the range of “good”-“really good” anime (for me at least). So, a 7+ for now.

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Granblue Fantasy The Animation Episode 5 (7+)

Let’s talk about the mobile game anime adaptation then. The art and animation are quite good, so are the OST and the OP (seriously good). It was worth to wait for this quality.

Returning to episode 5, Gran and co. are going to confront Tiamat to save the island. Umu. It won’t be that easy I suppose. As expected, Tiamat doesn’t really like to be obedient, huh. Interferences perhaps? Yep, that purple crystal was the cause. Why do I find Tiamat cute? Oh, well. ALL 2D IS CUTE.

Beautiful AND cute.

Nice episode! I could feel the quality. Hm??? Why did I say that? No idea. For some reasons I can’t not notice the fluid animations. No seriously. I have no idea why the hell this is the first thought that came to mind. Oh, well. Who cares about that. We can finally say that the journey begins, Captain Gran? ED is also freaking beautiful. It makes me feel nostalgic for some reasons.

Anyways, a 7+ for me, perhaps more. So more than “Good”.

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Sakurada Reset Episode 4 (7-)

To tell the truth, I’m not entirely understanding what exactly is happening. But sincerely, I just said “screw it” at least a dozen of times. I will FEEL this anime, while trying to understand it, just like Aquation or Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann (now, please don’t tell me you seriously went and analyzed how the fuck they were throwing galaxies as shuriken).

Anyways, after the time skip, I think I sterted to enjoy it a little more, but still quite uninteresting. Episode 4 blew my  mind though. I was really, really surprised by this turn of events.

From the ruthless choice of Kei to actually sacrifice himself (well not really, but he actually died so…) to the tears of Misora while seeing the scene but still doing nothing because MC didn’t “order” her anything. I was quite shocked.

!!! HOLY!

So, for this episode my rate is higher than the usual I give it: 7-. Almost a full “Good” for me. Nicely done. You suprised me.

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Kyoukai no Rinne S3 Episode 4 (6/7)

Well, Kyoukai no Rinne it’s already at season 3. So if you’re watching it you should already know what to expect from it. Comedy (usually average, but sometimes really funny) mainly about the poverty of the MC. Oh, and he’s a Shinigami.

By the way, he has a crush.

The episode this time is about part-timer clayrovant “Ane” and her crystal sphere, which it seems like it can malfunction as it is quite old already. Her peeping ball is the real thing actually. I suppose a new recurring character is introduced then? Well, funny as usual. So, my initial score won’t change: a 6/7, “Good/Nice”.

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Gin no Guardian Episode 5 (6/7)

Hm, to begin. I’m a sucker for short anime. So my opinion is already quite positive just for this reason. First episode was quite interesting, but mysterious. After episode 2 onwards, we get to see little by little the events that brought forth the fact of episode 1.

With this episode, we are basically one step away from episode 1 (what a weird way to say it). I’m also quite happy to see finally MC getting some “wealth”. Oh, and you get her father’s approval too! Condolences for his death, but I have to admit he was a great man. And thus begin the confrontation!(?)

I’m so interested in seeing how he got there.

Oh, and I like the Ending theme.

My score is 6/7, a “Good/Nice” rating.

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Berserk (2017) Episode Episode 5 (6/7)

Oh, Berserk. The manga masterpiece get adapted into anime. Wondrous news, right? Nope. Sorry to say, but I really hate adaptation that ruins the image of their orinal sources. This Berserk is a perfect example. The story is really good, and that’s the only thing that keep me invested. No, wait. The music is also quite nice.

My comments about this show will probably be the same for the whole season: great story, bad animation. I would really like to see this as an “anime” alone, and not an adaptation. Sadly, it isn’t possible. So, as a manga reader, watching this is quite painful. An anime isn’t formed by only the scenario or the story though… as a visual medium, art take a good chunk of its overall rating. So I can’t really give it more than 6/7, which is a “Good/fine” for now.

Just look at that beautiful art. It makes the original’s hide from its… peculiarity. Fuck it, I’ll just get used to it.

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Atom: The Beginning Episidoe 3 (5/6)

Huh. I wasn’t really expecting much from this show, and I have to say I haven’t been surprised yet. It’s quite average, even though enjoyable to a limited extent.

So, we get a detective and a race begins to resolve a case of lost robo-pet. Huh. Yeah, it is sweet and all, but can’t really say it was good. Last episode was better in my opinion. A 5/6 for me “Fine/Average”.

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Sakura Quest Episode 4 (5/6)

Umu. Sakura Quest… Well the story is about a job-crawling young woman, Yoshino Koharu, who get a job in the countryside to pose as the queen of the little town.

Our Queen isn’t pleased.

She didn’t actually read the contract and thus is now forced to work there for a year. Far away from her beloved Tokyo, as she seems to have some kind of thing against rural town? Well, anyways, after an initial confrontation she accept her role (more or less) and slowly remembers that she had been there once.

I think it was really uninteresting at the beginning, to only gain some pace with episode 3, but we returned to the quite average story-telling with this. It may because I watched this some days ago, but episode 4 is less memorable then the first to tell the truth. Not really much to say then, personally it’s more than average, thus a 5/6, almost a “Fine” episode.

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Twin Angel Break Episode 4 (5/6)

Showy, colorful, classical Mahou Shoujo!

The show is… quite average in my opinion. Although it’s quite colorful and OP is really catchy. So it’s not completely mediocre.

We have two Mahou Shoujo, thus the “Twin” in the title: Meguru (our MC) and Sumire. It is a true and classical Mahou Shoujo show, meaning, you won’t find darkness and despair like in other shows, which I won’t mention to avoid spoilers. And that’s why I do not find it exactly entertaining, it’s nice, but not for me.

This episode was more… eventful, it still wasn’t able to make me involved. Not memorable at all, the only thing I remember is that the “bad guy” of this episode was an arrogant self-proclamed dude, who, expecting all girls falling over him while talking about equations (I admit it, I actually found that part a little hilarous), fell in love with Sumire, our blue mahou shoujo.

It is not “bad”, but simply not impactful enough to leave a deep impression on me. Anyways, for now it’s a 5/6 for me. Maybe a little more. Since, even if it’s boring, if I were to choose between “good” or “bad” I would choose “Good”.

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Busou Shoujo Macchiavellianism Episode 4 (5-)

This episode, was truly disappointing. In reality, after episode 1, this show got worser. It was exciting to see the action scenes, but it then became full of Harem parts.

The sumo-part was barely enjoyable, but still somehow funny. The little laughs were quite unnerving. And the new soon-to-be-part-of-the-harem-loli, wasn’t really interesting.

Sorry, but this episode is less than average for me. A 5-, but after seeing first episode, and the meeting with Amou, I am really expecting it to get better.

Please save this anime.

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Sin: Nanatsu no Taizai Episode 3 (4.5)

Sadly, I’ve decided to stop writing detailed and with many pictures posts about this show. Mainly because writing so many posts is seriously taxing on body, and would rather refrain from just posting for the lols and ecchi pictures.

Now, first thing to know is: I quite dislike it. The amount of H is too much, but that’s not really the main problem, as there are shows with lots of ecchi that I like. The point is… that I can’t really see an interesting story here, or at least yet. Not to mention that I STILL HAVEN’T A NORMAL SIZED BREAST GIRL (between the main ones, that is)! Why do they just have to be so… obscene? As you may have noticed, I’m not really too fond of cow-sized breasts. Subjective point, but still relevant IMO.

Passing on the episode, what to say if… there was a great amount of H-scenes. Need to mention the pole-stripping-show-challenge between Levi and Asmodeus, who then becomes a Lucifer’s follower and beliver. Oh, and there was ecchi, other ecchi and did I mention the ecchi parts yet?

Ending card:

Remember to get the superior version.

Sarcasm aside, my vote score for this is a 4.5 I would say. So a “Bad-Average” show. Mostly because, i can’t really say I didn’t enjoy it, but you can understand how Ecchi isn’t what I’m searching for in an anime. It can be complementary, but it definitely can’t be the main topic. I still have a slight hope of the show getting better, or a real story.

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Kabukibu! Episode 4 (3)

I was actually expecting something like Rakugou… but this show… this show is actually really bad. Or at least, it has become a pain to watch it. And I’m really stupid to continue watching something I find bad, but I’m a masoc- no drop club member.

I belive, no I WANT to belive in the potential of all anime. Maybe in the ending this show will be amazin? Anyways for now you don’t get more than 3, “Very Bad”, sorry.

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Fuuu. And that’s done… not at all! I simply wrote the latest ones I watched! I seriously apologize to the episodes I wasn’t able to comment on, such as Grimoire of Zero, World End, Tsuki ga Kirei, Kenka Banchou Otome, Little Witch Academia, ect. Some of which I really like too! Damn it…

But I have seriously no time anymore. I spent so many hours basically doing comments/review/recommendation and putting them together, which wasn’t my initial intention at all! I just wanted to make a ranking, but then I thought it should be better to say why I put them in that order, and then for some reasons I wrote an essay…hahaha… at least you can see my love for anime, i want to hope…

See you next time, which may be not too soon. As I have to study for over 3 tests, nah, they will probably increase, as teachers just love to make multiple tests per month…

I can’t understand whether I’m satisfied or going crazy. I feel like both actually.

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Hope someone read this post…

I seriously have to revise the ranking post, or else I’ll die. While seeing the works of my more experienced senpai, the one I loved the most was Prattle-senpai’s: the choices of categories’ names is simply glorious.

So, if I will ever try this again, it will probably be different from this post.

Anime Spring 2017 Week 4 Overall Impression (trial version) (reviews/recommandations/comments/rants) Introduction with some rants. If you want to skip and directly go to the list, click/press/touch: