#hope they keep things like that 🙏
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baekhyun’s better than me because if i had fans like him i’d be doing crack
#this is under a tweet from the second person about the whole debacle sometimes i genuinely can’t tell if some of his kfans hate him or not#that stupid bald bitch was ranting on twitter about the whole thing also he was saying he isn’t a trainer so now i’m confused#everyday i understand more and more why exo don’t make new friends and only hang out with people they’ve known for a long time#hope they keep things like that 🙏#best part of this is watching bbhls and dandans fight to the death (i’m waiting for them to kiss)#.txt
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Her kisses were all-consuming and he felt his heart surrendering to her with every gentle nip, losing himself in the feeling of her. Her soft body pressing tightly against him, her breathy moans, the soft hair at the nape of her neck, her taste.
When Eloise finally pulled away from him, breathing heavily as their foreheads pressed together and their eyes locked, Sebastian was dazed and content and...happy. Merlin, he was so happy. Her cheeks were bright pink, and her lips were swollen and red and smiling up at him. His breath caught in his throat - he didn't think he had ever seen anything so beautiful as Eloise in that moment. Sebastian knew that he was grinning like a fool but he didn't care.
Happiness was bubbling up in his body and he was leaning down to kiss her again because it would never be enough and -
She started coughing.
Eloise abruptly pulled away from him, covering her mouth with her sleeve as she doubled over. A terrible, horrible, familiar wracking cough that Sebastian never thought he would hear again.
When she pulled her sleeve away from her mouth, there were little flecks of blood.
They both looked at each other in horror.
"Eloise..." he started, his voice cracking. The balloon of happiness that had filled him burst and he felt himself crashing back to the grim reality that had been his life for too long. Arms hanging limply at his sides. When his voice came out again, it was a whisper. He could barely choke the words out.
"...what did you do?"
their first kiss😇😇😇
#sorry guys I can’t help but be an evil gremlin🫡😔🙏#idk if I’ve drawn them kissing before but this was fun!!!!🥹 so I’ll do it again💓💓💓#do you like when I add these little excerpts from my writing??#also😫#I was thinking of rewriting my fic from the beginning is that like…okay? normal? something people do????#it was the first thing I’ve ever written and I’m just pantsing the whole thing#I like the plot and basically all of it SO MUCH😫#but I feel like my writing’s improved since I started and I have a better idea of who Eloise is#so I want to rewrite and tweak things a bit so it’s BETTER#idk😫😫 maybe I’ll just keep going forward with my disaster😇#anyways hope you enjoyed this KISS😙😙😙💓💓💓🥹🥹🥹#😇😇#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#sebastian sallow#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart
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it doesn't feel real to me fellas. but I don't have time to sit by and chat and unload unfortunately so I'll just drop this and be on my way, cya kind folks very soon ✌️
not professional but I liked how his eye looked goddang it. I knew I was screwing myself but I did it anyway
#don't worry ill actually be screaming in my reblogs now and again if I dont get to make a post soon with my tremendous mound of m#messy words#guyz😫 i watched it 3 days ago and i still cant believe it happened#it's definetly cause i dropped out of the anticipation train for the last like what 5 months? just slapped me like a truck with a hand#bb jeezez christ im so happy fellas it's so goofy and best of all it feels safe(I COULD BE VERY WRONG)#ya know me tho. things in life be pretty tough so i keep my hoping and optimisim for the escapism spaces 🙏😌#anyway i can't stick around and tag ramble im afriad. if i don't come back soon#at the very least count on me during the summer!#.... but also no way im not atleast watching what everyone will be saying about this season#i have an ambition to draw something small after every episode release. so we'll see!#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#fanart#sebastian michaelis#ciel phantomhive#digital art#weston college arc#black butler anime#kuroshitsuji anime#kuroshitsuji: kishuku gakkou hen
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need 2 find myself again in 2025 . tbhwu
#depression has hollowed me out in2 a shell of my former self#and i thmk i need 2 grit my teeth and just get over It whatever It is#recognizing its no easy task but also knowing i cant keep on like this#and allowing myself to spiral into misery thereby preventing any possible change or growth#sigh …. sogh .. i want 2 be a person again . picture friends circa 2008 outlining me in chalk. i want 2 know theres something there#how u ask (me asking myself)#idk but one way or anotjer . and not in that new yrs resolution fallacy way#anyways . anyways z . crazy how a week off from work will leave u feeling real again#i gotta get out of there . step 1😭🙏🙏#its especially hard when everyone arnd you is objectively doing better. partners finances purpose . >staring in2 the camera 1000 yd stare#u get thru the beast of being a teenager like thank god thats over and then b4 you even catch ur breath#your mid 20s are casting a shadow over u like some menacing thing and u have to gulp and say hes right behind me isnt he#i think people often like to give the advice that youll figure it out but it leaves me feeling so disquieted#bc its like sure im sure i will ive made it this far i can do what i need to get by when the moment matters#but it does nothing to assauge the immediate anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and lack of direction yk#goddmanit assuage i spelled it wrong everyone point and laugh#bc its like what if i dont and i mean that in a very like . existential & not material way . idk what im saying but i think thats the advice#i hate most . not sure if u have felt or do feel the same . -__- like yes oersonal experience sure whatever happens will happen and you will#simply adjust but will i ever feel like its something i want to experience/endure .#whatever anyways x2. im journalling i think that helps me the best rn . and its the one thing thats allowed me hope and i think#having that time to examine and mull over and deconstruct is rly helpful tbh. and i would like to think#over the long term i can repair my creativity and cultivate a new outlet that doesnt leave me feeling empty if i cant draw as i used to#yaar#i feel like i dont write for very long tho thats the one thing that kinda blows#two pages maybe and ive only addressed two maybe three points if im being generous lol i get so bored with the actual motion#when my mind moves 10x as fast . and idc for audio logs either ykwim.#ohh tumblr how i love u . tag system like no other
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Society insists on drinking cows milk when its not even a necessary part of human diet and also oat milk is literally right there. Oat milk ❤️
#full disclosure im not vegan i just like oat milk and also dont take this very seriously#yes i did just buy oat milk for the first time in years#and I'll talk about it because i need to keep myself occupied or else another horrible thing happens to me somehow#great hopes for august 🙏 i mean not like i have someone to get dumped by#julian posting
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okay girls im going to be a little hashtag critical here but i have been ruminating LONG ENOUGH and i really really do not like that scene in the graphic novel murder on the rockport limited where lucretia recognized the umbrastaff. i understand what they were trying to do and i understand you have to change things for the medium but its kind of a disservice to both lucretia and taakos characters imo. lucretia works so hard to keep the boys from questioning things like why would she have a reaction like that. like they couldve alluded to her recognizing it but a scene like that is so in your face and it takes power away from the scene in crystal kingdom where red robe barry recognizes it. and wrt taakos character like. hes never Particularly trustful of lucretia like on a personal level but overall he trusts the bureau and lucretia until reunion tour. adding in a scene like that at that point in the story makes no sense like u cannot convince me taako would not start questioning what the directors really up to and why she had such a personal reaction.
#taz balance#main tags for this 1 coz im curious if anyone else has similar thoughts. any of the other girls really freaking autistic abt this show lol#and again i get tht its partially the medium just. i dunnooooo like#the foreshadowing in balance already feels good feels organic. and i get they gotta allude to the bigger behind the scenes plot for new#readers but they do that already with the scenes w the red robeeeee likecjdknf#does this make any sense. do i sound nutz#ugh god girls once we get the animated series (🙏) i am going to. explode i hope they make some different decisions kfjfjdnf#creatively speaking#i rlly do think the medium has a lot to deal with it tho like i just dont think balance works in a graphic novel#like the plot is overall tje same but it doesnt have the same story feel. does that make sense#UGH AND ANOTHER THING. i get tht by showing her reaction adds to the freaking angst or whatever but part of why her character is so tragic#is that we dont see that! she keeps her emotions in check the girl does not let ppl in bcoz she feels she cant! and like#when we as like the readers the audience or whatever see her react like that so strongly and so angrily its like. shes no longer mysterious#and finding out who lucretia really is by the end of stolen century doesnt have the same impact. bcoz we already Know shes hiding something#its not just hinted at#ugh WHATEVER im normal about this show im so normal
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bengals win today yes?
#manifestation post 😊🙏#RIGHT#against a team with a winning streak#🤠#We Shall See#playoffs seem very impossible i can't lie lmaoooo but honestly i just want to see them Play Their Best and idk have fun#last home game this season!! and possible Last Home Game Ever for Some People apparently or whatever#i don't want to know ok. fuck that. fuck that endlessly.#so please win <3 i believe in you bengals i love you <3#insane passing and receiving yards!! insane touchdowns!!! insane passer rating!!!! insane receptions!!!!!!!#break bengals recordssssss#defense step the fuck upppp offense you're going against a savant of a defense is what I'm hearing here apparently lmao so just idk#do your best 😭👍 have fun#to be Honest i don't expect much 😭 because again. savant of a defense. holy shit. and rain?? BUT WHATEVER WE BALLLLLLL#bengals defense 👉👈 time to prove it isn’t just a minute thing okay? okay.#defense when i tell u u need to stop a run game u need to stop a run game genuinely why can’t you tackle. how. how the fuck.#god two more games im so sad 😔#no but really i read the what to watch article and just broke down a bit i genuinely don’t know what to expect#(also look at joes tongue poking out as he reaches out a pinky to ja’marr 😀 ok.)#is it too much too ask for a 60+ td from ja’marr ehehe#like ik its supposed to rain (oh boy) and he’s going against ps2 (oh boy) but i miss it#miss him 😔#anyway did u know mims my beloved favorite child mims is going to play through a broken hand. golly 🤠 and objs back!!!!#just keep everyone healthy i beg#i hope we get a pick six too lmaooooo am i really asking for too much for the last home game of the season against a team with such good#stats and players and with the probability of rain (?) am i really am i. am i.#im so anxious im sorry 😭#anyway hope joe keeps his streak going chase and geno too lol and ja'marr gets to break the rec and td record etc etc bengals win ilu
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#GAGGGEDDDDDD#yay omg yay:)#guys i am going to die#oct 27 2024#no cosnlike. in dreams or whatever WHATEVER#sick to my stomach i've literally been hallucinating delusional etc#u don't understand i'm going to die#LIKE FAVORITE PERSON EVER SORRY#the way i cross my sevens and z's and don't leave a space for the smiley face :|#hope she never knows how obsessedddd :)#oct 28 2024#:| idk it's the only thing keeping me going but also i survived six months#oct 29 2024#giggling twirling my hair kicking my heels looking at my phone get a grip...#. no bc my brain#i am having a terrible day but i love her#being delusional works!#i am SO EXCITED lutkkenekenfksnfn i am so excited i've missed her so much#actually soooo sick and twisted the way my irl ummm what do you call... emotional support older white women are actually the best huggers in#the world like it's not my fault#lik i don't i don't i do not i donut even care !#no thoughts head empty#stoppp cos like building it up in my head based on the past etc etc ...... but it always lives up 2 it & more!#oct 30 2024#cointinuing to be insane 🙏#idk there is something so tender ............#waaaah ok waaaaaaaaaaah i cant#just want to go HOME#want to swim in prelude 4ever#girl who is so so tired and just wants it to be 7:30 east
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to the anon who 😭😭😭 over the spoke shiping.
bbg, he is a picture, he cant feel pain.
also "this person isnt comfortable being shipped" boundries only apply where the content creator can see them, last i checked spoke doesnt have tumblr.
so yeah youre not doing anything wrong mel, anon just doesnt wanna admit the art is cute. side note, they could have also been reffering the zipbomb/spoketech discussions because cc!minute is 20 iirc. but like i litterally have a friend who wrote a (17x19)spokezy fic, it doesnt matter.
live an let live, ship and let ship, harassment is stupid.
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thank you. i'm really unsure how to refer to you other than the basic 'anon', but i appreciate that people understand my point.
i do not enjoy being dragged into those discussions, but i do understand the concern about cc's ages. i'm trying to keep that stuff in mind, but i genuinely don't believe i did anything i deserve to be called out for. i'm open to people correcting me, though.
i could've wrote a whole post about it, explaining my point, but i really don't want to bring that stuff into my blog. i'm just being silly and trying to have fun with my friends, but i will try to be more careful with that stuff.
#☆ inbox .#sigh. i understand people trying to be careful with things like that#thank you emoji anon (that's how i keep referring to you in my head i hope thats okay 🙏)
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Also realized I’ve only been posting about writing for liiike a week at LEAST 😭 I promise I do other things; I just don’t post about them here. I’ve been busy with the semester starting, things keep going wrong, and I’m kind of in a slump in general sooooo. I will post about other things again eventually 🫡
#not like I post anything other than fic stuff and DnDads stuff anyway#😭😭#I have some fics planned for other fandoms eventually. so maybe I’ll interact with those fandoms on Tumblr. EVENTUALLY#but today is not that day#today.. I am finally getting through this second scene 🥲🙏#here’s hoping things will just keep rolling from here#it’s looking good but. knock on wood#chalcy stuff
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#biggest mental health flop year in fucking forever. aghh.#whatever. gonna pack my suitcase tomorrow and get ready for my flight on monday#really hoping I can get sucked into the holiday and pull myself out of this state#at least I may have found a new flatmate#and as for a job....hopefully I can find a new contract position by the end of August 🙏#i spend so much of my life trying to keep myself level and there are just too many things up in the air for me to completely relax#like genuinely i have barely thought about blorbos sneezing all day. how fucked up is THAT#i'll be fine though! bad feelings are temporary etc etc ✨️#i really hope you guys are having a better time than me rn 🥲💕#nttalks
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#since I did a fast eloise only sketch yesterday#here are some Sebastians😇🙏#he got tired after sneaking into the restricted section and…I feel like classes are kind of boring to him#I’m almost done with the most wretched book ever🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏#it’s so terrible and depressing I am just hate-finishing it at this point#it just solidifies in me that I was just meant to read old books over and over again lol#like…this book is SUPPOSEDLY really popular and I DONT GET IT !!!#I also HATED The Overstory which is also popular…it’s weird though#bc the first part was genuinely one of my favorite things I’ve ever read#so i stuck with the rest in the hope it would keep that momentum and it…didn’t…#oh well I just keep reading and rereading novels I already know I’ll like😇😇 and avoid this author forever and ever 🙏#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart
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What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.
MY BAD it has taken me a little while to get to every fic writer question ive been asked pfft but i appreciate all of them and theyre really fun to answer :o and alright ok common things—character psychology is a big thing in all of my work :o aa every time i write a characters pov i try to do at least some research into their personality, backstory, etc etc bc my writing is almost always like?? character study type things?? i Really like delving deep into how characters think!!! :o so a lot of my works are like. you Will hear almost every thought in their head HAH. ive been told i have a very recognizable writing style widndnd but i do try to switch up internal dialogue at least a little bit depending on the pov character. i dont know how effective i am at that but i try HAH plus i think its fun trying to capture how someone thinks in the same way that youd try to capture how they speak in their dialogue. i think the most obvious example is probably my recent reinhard stuff—i tried to sound more formal with him? even with little kid reinhard i wrote his internal dialogue kind of formally because i figured that Might be able to create that bit of Dissonance that reinhard has as a character, you know? hes uncanny.
and uh because i focus on internal dialogue a lot, by the nature of things i kind of Have To slap the unreliable narrator tag on the vast majority of my fics HAH but unreliable narrators are fun and i love playing with them!! and i think its realistic in the sense that even a character thats very fair and just and honest may still have the wrong information at times or have emotion cloud their judgment or be a little unreliable for those reasons. that and i tend to pick the mentally fucked characters (which is pretty easy with the rezero cast HAH) whenever i write Very detailed internal dialogue so!!! unreliable narration and spirals into madness it is!!! i just really like exploring like. the humanity behind each character and all their nuances <3 and i Love having to squint at internal dialogue and add that up with a characters thoughts and actions and figure out who this person Actually Truly Is Like?? its like a puzzle :o !!
as for themes. i went into this a lot in another fic writer ask thingy but Definitely like. when characters change as a result of shit hitting their fan and/or their own choices and now theyre Different from the person they used to be. they came back wrong so now what are they going to do? how are the people around them going to treat them now? how will they treat the people around them? i just really like going into like. identity crisis… and um…. suffering that triggers massive self searching bc. the character changed in some way in order to survive through it physically and/or mentally. like seeing characters change for the worse and seeing them either try to crawl their way out or they. keep going down. it can be hopeful or very tragic!!! (bc i love hurt/comfort and tragedy a lot ajdnd) and complicated relationships are a huge favorite of mine to tackle. fascinating multi-layered stuff that i want to study under a microscope!!! i like when multiple contradictions exist within a dynamic or like. a character and their journey. the complexity feels very real to me and i find it intriguing :o
i also love queer themes but due to um. some of the toxicity in this fandom i do hesitate to do stuff with that in this fandom but i DO love queer themes its just not in most of my work atm but thatll change eventually 👍 ill at least slip in a little bit every chance i get 👍👍 (i have exactly one fic with queer themes atm wjdnd)
motifs/random imagery i use a lot also!!!! mostly bc i find them cool and fun but. yes theyre there for a reason. in my first pride otto fic i used second person pov and avoided using his name at points to emphasize that hes 1. being dehumanized and 2. hes dehumanizing himself too as a result. i uhh have also used star related things for subaru a lot bc Of Course. butterflies and moths for emisuba things…. economics themed titles for my pride otto multichap…. bugs for general pride if things…. comparing the knights uniform to bird wings in my reinhard and heinkel fic… i like to describe outfits in general too (pride otto vs main ottos outfits, also felix not wearing blue in the 2 seconds of screentime he has in my pride if fics atm wkdndn) etc etc :o
#this is such a long response but wkdndnd hope this all made sense HAH#i almost decided to study psychology in college!!! atm i am not doing that but it is still a possibility i suppose.#i have no idea what im doing. but anyway!!! yes this is a good summary of the stuff i usually like writing pfft#i will like the skrunkliest characters im so sorry thats why i keep otto and heinkel posting KANDNDND#but it IS nice writing side character content if only bc ur one of the only people doing it in the fandom on ao3 so its almost kind of??#free reign??? they dont have as much like. fanon tropey things bc theyre not as Big. u know?? so absolute freedom to go buck wild writing#fic for them wofndndnd#and im also so starved of content ill make it myself just so i dont starve 👍#like its def a little less of an uphill battle to write uh for example. otto pov vs emilia pov. bc at least with otto pov i dont feel like#im fighting against loud fandom opinion + tappeis opinion. if that makes sense.#like i try to be as canon compliant as possible at all times but WHAT do i do with emilia is 14 yrsand 18 yrs and 100+ yrs at the same time.#sometimes i want tappei to shut up a bit HAH#i do hope to see more content for side characters tho fr 🙏🙏 otto fics where are u…#ask#and also rip if ur writing in depth content involving any rezero kids bc u have a 99% chance of having to wade through tappei being weird#about kids. cries.
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thank fuck my work mindset and routine are positively affecting my home life and cleanliness. before, cleaning up and wiping down surfaces and changing out bin bags was such an insurmountable task because several reasons to do with my parents.
but now that I keep my workstation relatively clean and tidy on shift and have set cleaning tasks for each day of the week and reset everything to zero (cleaning up the day's mess at the end of the night), cleaning up small bits at home on the fly is almost automatic now. love it.
#thank you work for teaching me things my parents never did#also thank you sweet coworkers who keep up my morale and spirits like nothing else <3#really hope i can be the same positive presence in my coworkers' shifts 🙏 <333#because i love them so!!!!!!#love our banter and how we all help each other where needed without much prompting or reminding#just so much love <3333
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Im venting on the tags ignore this
#🙏 every day i wake up and scream into the void ablut the circumstances and one day it will kill me#until then i stay silly! :3 i stay silly! :3 i stay silly! :3 i stay silly! :3 i s#but ngl fellas i absolutely do not believe in any of this ''keep going on itll make sense in the end you can recover from stuff'' shit#like at all#im very tired of being hurt by stuff i carry from years ago and shpuld have unburdened myself from#bc god knows ive put the effort gid knows ive woken up every day and done whats good and right and correct and it has Not#made a difference it has not improved my state i still suffer from the same exact things in the same exact way i suffered them.#so i hope. i hope this comes with a reward i hope this work brings me anything positive at all i hope this gives me a break bc fairly#i fucking deserve it. fuck off. gnight everyone i care yall
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i was truly born to be a hater actually
#ping qiney#dawntrail media tour deets are ouuuuuuutttttt#and i am. whelmed i guess#they killed black mage and summoner remains dead wnd well#drk is like just more of the same but i hate that we are losing blood weapon and plunge.#esp the animations im modding those suckers back in asap#im more mad abt the animations than i am the gameplay tho which is admittedly better than how i feel abt my casters (bad)#thankfully gnb looks cool. no major shakeups but improved cartridge shenanigans thank u for winning#ok hater moment over they said content will be harder so im hoping for that to keep things lively🙏
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