#honeydew syrup

[morethansalad]

Monochrome Fruit Salad (Raw Vegan)

[naomiknight-17]

Horrible lighting because the overhead light in here is dying but! Made French toast with bacon and fruit salad for dinner which was a very nice treat :)

[abigailspinach]

I want to eat old timey food

Presently Anne came down again, clothed and in her right mind. The muslin dress she had fondly hoped to wear was bobbing merrily about on the line outside, so she was forced to content herself with her black lawn. She had the fire on and the tea steeping when Diana returned; the latter wore her muslin, at least, and carried a covered platter in her hand.

“Mother sent you this,” she said, lifting the cover and displaying a nicely carved and jointed chicken to Anne’s greatful eyes.

The chicken was supplemented by light new bread, excellent butter and cheese, Marilla’s fruit cake and a dish of preserved plums, floating in their golden syrup as in congealed summer sunshine. There was a big bowlful of pink-and-white asters also, by way of decoration; yet the spread seemed very meager beside the elaborate one formerly prepared for Mrs. Morgan.

Anne’s hungry guests, however, did not seem to think anything was lacking and they ate the simple viands with apparent enjoyment. But after the first few moments Anne thought no more of what was or was not on her bill of fare. Mrs. Morgan’s appearance might be somewhat disappointing, as even her loyal worshippers had been forced to admit to each other; but she proved to be a delightful conversationalist. She had traveled extensively and was an excellent storyteller. She had seen much of men and women, and crystalized her experiences into witty little sentences and epigrams which made her hearers feel as if they were listening to one of the people in clever books. But under all her sparkle there was a strongly felt undercurrent of true, womanly sympathy and kindheartedness which won affection as easily as her brilliancy won admiration. Nor did she monopolize the conversation. She could draw others out as skillfully and fully as she could talk herself, and Anne and Diana found themselves chattering freely to her. Mrs. Pendexter said little; she merely smiled with her lovely eyes and lips, and ate chicken and fruit cake and preserves with such exquisite grace that she conveyed the impression of dining on ambrosia and honeydew. But then, as Anne said to Diana later on, anybody so divinely beautiful as Mrs. Pendexter didn’t need to talk; it was enough for her just to look.

[lilianekhalil]

Honeydew Juice With Chocolate Syrup Recipe This delicious fruit juice drink that the whole family will enjoy is made with honeydew, ice, and chocolate syrup.

[macncheesenibblers]

It was so hard growing up in a minimal-fruit household. Only fruits we had consistently were apples and bananas which aren’t juicy enough to be considered true fruit imo. I was so jealous of my friends that had oranges and berries and melons. I thought they were millionaires. Other people nowadays complain they didn’t have snack foods like cheez-its and cheese-filled crackers and potato chips and pop tarts and things growing up but we had all that. Cuz it was cheap in bulk at Sam’s Club and didn’t require washing or cutting and didn’t make a mess. But it was soooooo dryyyyyyy and I didn’t even like those foods. It was like eating sand (and still is to me). All I wanted was some juicy ass fruit 😔

[finniusastraeus]

This chart doesnt give you precise amounts and some numbers are innacurate so let me clear up here

30kcals per plum

78 per one 2-3'' apple(small), 116 per one 3'' apple (large)

45 per cup of chopped up watermelon

40 in 10 MEDIUM sized strawberries

1 kcal in 1 raspberry. So 10=10

In 10 red cherries there are 45 kcals

17 in 1 apricot

119 for a whole papaya so 59 for half

60 in a cup of cut cantaloupe

50 per 1 orange,

201 in a whole mango, 100 in a cup of cubed mango

37 per 1 tangerine

50 in 1 medium peach

105 in a 7'' banana, 70 if it's less than 6'' long

82 in a cup of pineapple cubes, 452 in whole thing (ik no ones eating a whole pineapple but yk)

20 in 5 olives

64 in a cup of cubes honeydew, 360 for whole thing

33 in 1 large cucumber, 10 in a mini, 8 in a cup of slices

42 in 1 kiwi

100 in a medium pear

240 in 1 avocado

82 in a cup of blueberries, 1 per blueberry

62 per cup of grapes, 2 per small grape

62 per cup of blackberries, 2 per small blackberry

EXTRA

Breakfast tips I learned at the hospital

One english muffin is 130 but if you cut it so you're only eating the edges it will look like youre eating the whole thing but only be getting a 3rd or about 45kcals!! and 1 teaspoon of margarine will cover both of those "halves" and there's 35 kcals in that. so 80 that looks like 160.

A cup of dry plain cheerios is also 80

78 in one large egg BUT throw out the yolk and only have the white. It looks like a full over easy egg but the white is only 17 kcals. Trust me on this one, have it for every meal you can get away with.

Fruit salad

10 raspberries=10kcal

half a small banana, thinly sliced=35kcal

5 thinly sliced strawberries=20kcal

15 blueberries=15kcal

2 tsp sugar free table syrup=0kcal LITERALLY BEST THING EVER

total 80 kcal and the syrup makes it the best breakfast in the world while adding no calories but it makes you feel like youre eating pancakes and keeps you full.

Frozen waffle/pancake, 1=95kcals

Lunch

Use the english muffin excuse to make a sandwhich with just lettuce in it and whatever veggies you like.

what I do is 1 english muffin cut to look like halves but its a 3rd = 45kcal

1/4 cup lettuce=1-2kcal

1 slice of tomato=3

if you want more you can have 30kcal of margarine (1 tsp) on the toasted muffin and half a cheese slice which is 56kcal. so i dont reccomend it.

plus 1 egg white if you want=17

or fake balogny (im a strict vegetarian of 8 years) for 20kcal and like 5g of protien

Supper

One pack of mr noodles has 190kcal. never eat more than half

always make a salad if you can. most can be made under 20kcals and actually taste amazing but dont add dressing they're really high cal.

RICE CAKE PIZZA

this is made to look like you're eating a lot

2 plain rice cakes=70

or one tomato basil=60

2 tbsp grated cheese=70

or 1 tbsp herbed goat cheese=35

slice some mini tomatos and mushrooms/peppers, onions, ect=5kcal

total 100-145 and it tastes amazing

this one would be hard to hide bc the brand name is literally skinny noodles but buy some skinny noodles (9 kcal per serving!! vegan and gluten free) and put them in a box or something. my family puts our noodles in long containers so it wouldnt be noticed and the package could be thrown away

[ntls-24722]

Domesticated crops! (and secret not-plants)

This post is more for me and actually putting to paper the things that the Bolur species would eat. I had more fun than I thought I would've.

cw? tw? for unsanitary mentions sorta

Going from top-to-right,

Land Barnacles

Exactly what they sound like. Did you know that Earth barnacles are arthropods? That they're crustaceans? I got inspo from that. Juveniles, like Earth barnacles, are mobile and have very inefficient, blanket-y wings that they will use to one day cement themselves onto the ground, hopefully next to another one of their barnacle colleagues for reproductive purposes. Their abdomens are actually folded so that their anuses are right next to their mouths, because like an aphid, they have a very sugary, liquidy waste that (alongside their floral-looking heads) brings in a lot of bugs for them to eat! When bugs try to feed on their waste, they use the remnants of their tube feet to grab them and eat them.

Zebrapeople cultivate land barnacles in order to drill holes right into their abdomens and harvest their honeydew sewage. It's like a gross version of drilling holes in maple trees for maple syrup. I imagine they view it kind of like hot dogs, so tasty but so grossly made...

Floor Climbers

They're these kind of "flatworms" that eat underwater plant growths and store them in their skin to be able to photosynthesize for themselves. Their blankety backsides is the part of them with the most, so they evolved to completely have that part of them be a solar panel blanket and just walk with their front.... well, they never had legs, but they now have "legs." They're handstanding everywhere

They're invasive little shits that reproduce like rabbits. They're introduced to small, usually music man-made bodies of water in order for them to completely take over, and for the music men to harvest. They're really chewy and savory if you cook them right. Might be a little poisonous if you undercook them, so it's better to burn your climbers than have them medium rare.

Bucca

THATS TUBER, BABY

They evolved that Phat Root in order to anchor themselves in the water. They have flowers at the base of their main stem for bugs that walk on water to pollinate, and to make sure they don't move around too much, their stem and leaves became super aerodynamic to the point it looks like a big red feather coming out of the water.

Amber Tree

MISNOMER. NOT A TREE. LAND CORAL! Sometimes called "cow sails" from the way its topmost "branches" and leaves just hang down over everything like a debu's sail does. Since its branches are thin, its limestone outer layer is at risk of breaking a lot, so it evolved this really thick sap so bugs don't try and take advantage of its downfall.

Except, well, Debu took advantage of its sap. It's a cash crop! Badlands Debu harvest its super thick, fast drying sap to kind of make instant-amber, dipping various things in it to make jewlery. Things like...

Thansum

Imagine if a sunflower, when it got pollinated, became a giant dandelion. That's thansum, the complimentary Debu cash crop to amber trees, which is the most popular thing to dip in its amber. But it's not just a Debu cash crop, it's also used to make paper and cloth for zebrapeople, mostly zebraelves. They crush its seedlings up and add water to make a thansum-meal out of it - if they use more seedling and dry it, it becomes paper. If they use more fluff, then it becomes cloth! Or they can eat thansum-meal straight up if they're desperate. It's not poisonous, but it's a very sad meal, don't eat thansum-meal

Spittle Berries

So, i've been excited to talk about this, because lemme tell you the more popular way that Bolur plants reproduce. Spittle berries are fruits, they are Bolur fruits, but bolur fruits are special - they are the flower, the leaf, and the fruit all at once. The method is that fruits are made through leaves, leaves that're inflated full of gametes covered in a soft shell (think like a pomegranate seed) and fruit "meat", which in turn also colors them a striking (ususally cool) color. When something eats a Bolur fruit, the soft shell that their sperm and eggs were covered in gets dissolved and they meet up together in the stomach. The gametes themselves are made of some gross, hard-to-digest material so that they remain unharmed, and so that they can become embryos by the time whatever ate it passes them through their system, right into some fresh fertilizer that they can grow out of. Spittle berries are the least interesting fruit in that it's just a fruit, but they're a perfect introductory fruit for the weirder ones, like:

Seeing-Squash

The only fruit actively being selected for cuteness! It's also a debu specific - the squash evolved to be eaten specifically by mountain cows since the shell their gametes are covered in are too tough to be digested by most other animal. So if a zebraperson wants to eat, they might want to take those out lest those bigass "seed" gametes gives them blockage.

It's less cuteness, but more "liveliness," if that makes any sense? Looking more and more like a little animal, a little dude. The eyes are getting bigger and the originally modest striping is becoming more exaggerated to look like a spitting monkey.

And finally,

Bempo

The only plant here to have a skeleton. It's the "shrub" version of a land coral where its base will have a dense limestone skeleton for its photosynthetic parts to pop out of, and soft pith to be protected underneath. Bempo actually takes forever to grow, because it takes years for it to build up its "pyramid" base. But when it does, then you are set, because fruit-bearing coral-shrubs like bempo have the shortest growth times for its fruit to the point where you can watch and hear the growth of its giant fruit plates that adorn the top of its base.

Those fruit plates also have a skeleton of their own, but it's only a single "bone," like if a plant had a baculum for its fruit.

[aurumacadicus]

Got a bee in my bonet and decided to make honeydew syrup 🍈

[flowery-laser-blasts]

DINE 'N CRIME: SHE'S GOT THE GREEN MAGIC

This recipe is part of the menu of 'Chez Molerat vs Dine 'n Crime'.

HOW TO PREPARE THE TAPIOCA. Ingredients: - Black Tapioca pearls - Brown sugar (2 to 3 tbsp)

Black Tapioca pearls can be easily purchased from local Asian grocery stores or online. The brand I use is 'Wu Fu Yuan black Tapioca pearls - black sugar flavour' (they also have other colours). Despite it's name, it doesn't hold much flavour by itself hence why we need the brown sugar. Want to make your own Tapioca pearls from scratch? Follow this great recipe by Emmymade (I tried it myself, it was fun and pretty tasty, but I only recommend doing this when you got time on your hands). Instructions: - Cook the Tapioca pearls as instructed on the package (or according to Emmy's recipe). - Once fully cooked, drain the pearls from the liquid and add 2 to 3 table spoons of brown sugar. - Cook the tapioca in the sugar on low/middle low heat until the crystals are disolved and you end up with a thick syrupy consistency. Be careful to not burn the sugar, keep stirring! - Turn off the stove and set aside. HOW TO PREPARE THE MATCHA LATTE. Ingredients: - Milk (Less than 1 cup/Less than 200ml... at least for this glass) - Hot water (1 to 2 tbsp for mixing the Matcha powder) - Matcha powder (2 tsp) Matcha powder, like the Tapioca pearls, can be obtained from said places. If you do NOT like the taste of Matcha, alternatively you can switch it out with Melon (specifically Cantaloupe or Honeydew) powder or Pandan. If you use the Pandan powder, make sure it's specifically for 'instant milk drinks'. These two alternative methods might also give you a way greener result than the Matcha. Instructions: - Combine the hotwater with Matcha powder in a seperate cup. If you have a powerdrill, now is the time to use it; If not, I suggest either a hand held milkfrother or a spoon (if you use a spoon make sure that the Matcha is thorouhgly dissolved). If you use the Melon or Pandan powder, this same step counts unless the instruction package tells you otherwise. - Once the Matcha is dissolved, add the Milk and stir it well until fully combined. PREPPING AND DECORATING THE GLASS - Using a spoon, pick a few Tapioca pearls from the syrup and slowly let them slide along the walls of the glass. Use the syrup to decorate more parts of the inside. - Add the Tapioca pearls (and optional ice cubes/crushed ice). - Pour the Matcha latte in the glass. - Foam Milk with the milkfrother and add ontop of the drink. - Drizzle the left over sugar syrup over the top and serve! So you must be wondering, dear reader; "Why don't I see the Milkfoam on top of the photo?" The answer is simple... I was out of Milk by the end of making this drink and if I were to make this, again (yes, this is my second attempt to make a pretty glass for just a photo) I could never fit into a size six.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy this recipe!

"Cousin tried to poison me but the texture was good. 2/5."

[morethansalad]

Avocado + Melon + Lime Sherbet (Vegan)

[acocktailmoment]

Midori Shochu Sour !

Ingredients:

3 tablespoons (1 1/2 ounces) Mizu Green Tea Shochu (see Note)

2 tablespoons (1 ounce) melon liqueur (such as Midori)

1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice (from 1 lemon)

1 tablespoon fresh lime juice (from 1 lime)

1 tablespoon simple syrup

¼ cup club soda

Honeydew melon ball

Directions:

Combine green tea shochu, melon liqueur, lemon juice, lime juice, and simple syrup in a cocktail shaker. Cover and shake 15 seconds.

Pour mixture over fresh ice in a highball glass; top with club soda. Carefully slide a spoon down inside wall of glass, and scoop upward to nuzzle the ice up, allowing ingredients to come together.

Top with additional ice if desired.

Garnish with a honeydew melon ball, and serve.

Created by Julia Momosé,

Photo: Jennifer Causey / Food Styling by Ali Ramee / Prop Styling by Lydia Pursell.

This article was not sponsored or supported by a third-party. A Cocktail Moment is not affiliated with any individuals or companies depicted here. 

[doodling-doodle]

Can you give us your ABO headcanons please?

Sure!

(Don't take this as I will make ABO content, Unless I'm given an actual prompt. These are just the headcanons)

Okay, just really quickly becuase I don't know much about ABO, other then the basic, but, a few quick details that I don't know if it's in traditional dynamics

Scents have a generic undertone to distinguish Alphas, Betas and Omegas from each other, but everyone does have a unique scent other then that.

And those scents are: Alphas have a woodsy, natural type smell (this can range from flowers, to herbs, to actual wood. Also maple) betas have a citrus type smell, (lemon, orange, etc) and Omegas have a sweet, dessert smell (can range from cinnamon, to vanilla, to maple syrup. Any sweets you can imagine) and I'm debating a scent for heat and rut

Betas (don't know much about them, so, don't know if this is true) are intersex, and males can get pregnant (a little rare)

Scent blockers hide the scent of heat and rut, as well as the generic scent (mostly used for undercover ops and stealth ops, but people could also use it to hide what they are)

Now, onto the good stuff!!

Price: Alpha, cedar undertone, smokey overtone. Doesn't hide his scent unless in rut or on a mission. Doesn't hide he's an Alpha since everyone knows any way

Graves: Beta, orange undertones, but actually smells like pine (can't get pregnant) hides his scent if he's around other people then his Shadows or the 141, on a mission, or in rut. Hides the Beta status around other Alphas

Laswell: Alpha, Rosemary undertone, but smells like gingerbread. Rarely hides her scent. Everyone knows she's an Alpha, so she doesn't hide it

Ava: Alpha, oak undertone, smells like honeydew. Doesn't have to hide her scent. Doesn't make it known she's an Alpha, but is quick to use it if her friends are being harassed

Alejandro: Alpha, cedar undertone and Thyme. Never hides his scent unless on missions. Won't use his status, for anything. If he needs to stop anything, he does it gracefully. Only a few times has he used it.

Rodolfo: Omega. The man smells like cheesecake and strawberries, and Alejandro loves it. He tends to hide his scent and hides he's an Omega from anyone that isn't known or a friend (anyone other the Los Vaqueros and the 141)

Ghost: Alpha, eucalyptus undertone and a dandelion scent. The eucalyptus is so strong that he literally can't hide it without blockers. Which he always wears. Not to hide the alpha status, per se, but to hide himself

Soap: Beta, lemon undertone and hazelnut scent. Ghost always hovers over him, so, his scent is naturally masked by ghost's when he's around, but, if he has to, he will use blockers. Everyone knows he's a beta, only hides it on missions (can get pregnant? Still being decided)

Farah: Alpha, lime undertone and smokey scent. Doesn't use blockers, its known she's an Alpha

Alex: Alpha, dandelion undertone and honey scent. He doesn't hide he's an alpha, but he won't hesitate to use it to help his friends and Kyle. Blockers are only for missions

Kyle: Omega, maple syrup undertone and rose scent. He tends to hide it, but Alex hovers over him, so those scents mix and mask it. He uses blockers a lot when Alex isn't around, but it's known he's an Omega.

[mickimomo]

The 'I Worship My Wife' Committee (Part 3)

The Panther's Wrath

Link to Part 2

Namor entered the room and sat down with a forlorn expression on his face.

Attuma: Aj K'uk'ulkan, what is wrong?

Namor: Shuri.

Oni: What about her?

Namor: She got mad and said she hated me.

Aneka: What happened?

Namor: We had an argument.

Attuma: About?

Namor: I've been trying to plan out dates, so that we can spend time together. But she keeps forgetting and getting mad when I get frustrated.

Aneka: Did you try to remind her?

Namor: Yes. I tried dragging her out of the lab, and she exploded.

Oni: Then it sounds like you need to give her space.

Aneka: Yeah. Knowing Shuri, she'll come around.

Namor: She hates me.

Attuma: They were only words of anger.

Namor: And she meant them.

Oni: No. No. Hey. *gently pats his shoulder* Shuri gets really angry when people drag her away from her lab.

Aneka: Yeah. Whenever she gets an idea, she has to see it through.

Namor: But hate is such a strong emotion. How could she not mean it? *lowers his head* I mean, have any of your lovers ever told you they hated you?

Attuma: Okoye said it once while sobbing because the shaved ice shop didn't have anymore honeydew syrup to make the melon trifecta flavored ice. Being pregnant has often made her feel very strongly, so I do not take it to heart. She cried about it later and refused to leave my side until I had convinced her that I was not offended.

Aneka: How did you convince her?

Attuma: I worshipped her body.

Oni: So you fucked her.

Attuma: That word sounds less heartfelt. It should not be tossed around when describing the acts of lovers. You should not use it thoughtlessly.

Oni: Would you prefer busting it wide open?

Attuma: That sounds violent.

Oni: Making love?

Attuma: That's a nice way to describe making a child.

Oni: Wow. That's deep.

Attuma: Thank you.

Namor: What about you two?

Aneka: I've actually been the one to say it after a really nasty argument. It's rare, but it is my way of expressing that I really am angry and that I feel extremely wronged. Ayo usually lets me work through my feelings, and then we talk it out when we're both calm.

Oni: And I've never told Amora that I hate her, and she's never told me that she hates me either.

Namor: But what if you did?

Oni: Mm. I don't think we would. At least not seriously. I think the closest thing I've done to telling Amora I hate her is call her Namora.

Aneka: But that's her name.

Oni: To everyone else. From me, it always pisses her off.

Aneka: Why?

Oni: Namora is like K'uk'ulkan's second name... the origin comes from sin amor. Without love. When I use it. I am withdrawing my love that makes her Amora.

Aneka: Awwwww. That's so sweeeeeeeet.

Namor: How do you make amends after calling her Namora?

Oni: It usually ends with her fuc- *Attuma glares at her* -I mean worshipping me until I call her Amora again.

Namor: But what if she makes you really angry?

Oni: Then she repents by apologizing and doing everything she can to make amends. And I eventually forgive her.

Namor: I'm not seeing a solution for my own issue in any of this. *groans as he rubs his face*

Attuma: I think you should just wait things out.

Aneka: I agree. I mean. It doesn't sound like you did anything wrong. Just give her time to think about it.

Namor: What if she doesn't come back to me?

Oni: She will.

Namor: How do you know?

Oni: K'uk'ulkan. You married my best friend when everyone thought it was the dumbest idea in the entire world. You've endured judgment. Reminders of your wrongs. And so much more.

Namor: That's not making me feel better.

Oni: The point I was trying to make is... do you really think Shuri would marry you and stay married to you if she truly hated you?

Namor: I don't know.

Aneka: She would have ran that spear through your neck on that sandy shore if she hated you. And if not then, she would have definitely gotten you back by now if she truly didn't like you.

Namor: What if she's getting back at me now.

Attuma: I do not know Shuri's heart. In fact, none of us do. All I can suggest is that you give her time. She showed you who she was when she spared you and won your heart. You must trust that she will come around eventually.

Aneka: Yes. Distance makes the heart grow fonder.

Oni: And if it doesn't, we'll come up with a grand plan to fix everything. Ok?

Namor: If Shuri does not want me, I will not beg for her. *gets up* I will give her space and time, but I will not wait forever.

They all watched him walk away.

Attuma: How long do you think Shuri will make our king wait?

Aneka: A week?

Oni: Three days.

Attuma: Mm.

Link to Part 4

[realvicoba]

Gon Freecs was, unequivocally, extraordinarily odd.

For the first time in what felt like an eternity, Killua let out the breath he had held. It felt like he was breathing snow from a dream, where all physics deviated and common sense was unnatural and rare.

“Why?” Killua, soft snow in his lungs, asked.

“I can just feel it.” Gon replied, and he glowed. He glowed like the stars got swallowed into his smile, he glowed like the world was only dimmed in shadow because he was there to cast it with his light, he glowed like magic straight out of a children's fantasy book. It didn't matter that he was tired, soul one foot somewhere else, somewhere Killua saw many times but never touched, it never mattered. Gon was captivating the way sunrises were, filling him and wrapping strings around his soul, honeydew syrup heavy in his throat. “For four years, Killua, I've been looking for yo—ugghgg!”

He couldn't take it anymore, fuck curiosity. Killua had the shower head faucet open at full capacity straight into that stupid anomaly’s face. It got in his mouth, his pretty eyes, into his hair— Gon reached behind him for the second head, and Killua got drenched.

Chapter eight is here!! 🥳🥳🎉🎉🎉

[nosydogsoaps]

HONEYDEW MILK TEA (c...at?! CAFE SOAP)

Juicy honeydew, creamy milk tea, and touch of honey boba make for this boba shop classic!

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honeydew is my go-to flavor whenever i go to a 'classic' milk tea place (you know... with the powder flavor and sugary syrups... that tapioca express vibe.)

funny story, i actually couldn't find any honeydew milk tea at my local boba places (which are all about ~natural tea flavor~ and ~fresh organic fruit~ etc.etc. haha) so i made do with melon calpico instead.

[munsonbrackets]

ephemeral

TW(s) : angst, unprovoked confession, self-blaming

You wanted to bask in the warm light that his smile and his crinkled eyes gave off.

You wanted to drown in his nice cologne that seemed to fill your nostrils so nicely.

His name was Eddie Munson and you were such stark contrast, that you doubted the chance of ever hearing what you could only imagine to be a honey coated voice. That voice which belonged to that laugh which would fill your head, Eddie Munsons voice.

When someone told you he sold weed, you couldn’t have jumped at a bigger and better opportunity to force some words out of his pretty mouth. Sure, you could just take your ADHD medication like a good boy and move on, but what fun would that be? Weed would make you just as calm as any medication, not like you would stop taking yours.

So you set up a ‘meet’ with him. Well technically you didn’t, your best friend did. She had asked you to pick up some product for her and who were you to decline your oh-so-sensical pot-smoking best friend?

You arrived first, walked around the forest. You wanted to see the magical moment that his beefy shoes crunched leaves and sticks in his path to glory, or well, in his path to payday. You hoped he would attempt to overcharge you. You could then start a discussion of how many grams of pot costed, then let him know you took medication, looked for a replacement, get invited to his DND sessions after he finds out what a wicked and cool dude you are, and then-

“Can I help you?”

It threw you off guard, it simply and utterly threw you off guard, you could truly only whip your head around to make deep unfiltered eyecontact with his cautious doe eyes. His voice wasn’t just honey coated, it was like eating honeydew melon that had been syrupped in with a glaze of honey. It was bittersweet to finally have him speak to you. Especially in that wary tone, not that you could blame him.

“I'm picking up a drop? I don't know if that's the right word.”

You responded and his figure laxed, but stayed tightened. As if he was ready to drop everything and run. You were sure he was considering it. At least until he gestured to the picnic table. He only made a move for it after you did though.

And in this moment you could only curse yourself for getting sweeped up in your own thoughts as the sound of his boots was now meddled in the sound of your own shoes.

“Even if you are just picking up a ahem ‘drop’ so to speak, you do know how this works, right?”

Eddie broke the silence and you both took your seats sooner rather than later. 

“Unless it's like prescription medication, then no, i don’t” 

You responded and immediately saw his body tighten and shift. Maybe he wouldn't run, maybe he was just uncomfortable under your studying gaze. Maybe the way you looked at his chest rise and heave was throwing him off, or how you stared at his lips a little too long.

“Are you sure you wanna do this? You seem kind of…scared…by this whole thing” 

Eddie said, a more sympathetic look taking hold of his features.

Oh my god. Eddie Munson didn’t think he was prey. He wasn’t scared of you. He saw you like a deer caught in headlights and his concerned brown doe eyes seemed to immediately disappear as you could feel your face contort into something that could have only been offense. You took a deep sigh to calm your flustered heart (that you had only just realized was beating so fast), and responded with a calm-ish, 

“Yeah, this is…fine. I mean, my bestie would probably cork me if she found out i didn’t pick up her stuff. I’m sorry if i’m making you feel uncomfortable or anything like that, i’m a little awkward in new situations.”

Eddie in his own moment of confusion, had looked like he just dawned on a realization and now it was your turn to tense up. His expression made you feel like your truly were a deer caught in the headlights of his grin that suddenly lit up your heart.

He gave a chuckle that sounded like he was in complete disbelief, 

“You’re socially awkward?”

His quizzical expression did not let up even for a second as he stared so intensely that you wanted to curl up into a ball and hide somewhere, maybe in his eyes?

“Is that so hard to believe?” 

You must have looked offended with the scoff you felt bubbling on your lips. But then again, you weren’t sure if what you felt was a scoff or hard boiled tears shattering over his beaming glare. He looked at you as if you were another hostile creature in the night that he was forced to be wary of, he looked at you as if he was bothered by being forced to deal with just another asshole. And then his expression was scared, then shocked. 

He took hold of your upperarm and for the first time since you sat down very briefly ago, he let go of his stupid lunchbox, filled with stupid pot, that he sold to mainly stupid seniors, just so they could get some stupid high and-

“H-hey I didn’t mean it like that, I didn’t mean to make you cry. I just meant that I never thought a boy like you- I mean you are the captain of the soccer team and all…I just never understood how you could be socially awkward, but I really didn’t mean it like that.” 

He rambled with that cute joking smile and as if his words were magic, you finally felt the singular hot tear roll onto the edge of the table and the sleeve of your zip-up hoodie.

And then you could feel the same ramble and panic fall out of your mouth before you ever had time to realize and stop it.

“No, it's not that. I just, i had this idea that i would be totally rad and you would like me and then you looked at me like i was just another highschool boy that was gonna be an asshole to you a- hic and that really sounds like i'm blaming you, but i'm not and i'm sorry if i'm making you uncomfortable…I just really wanted to make a good impression on you and i am totally failing at that, aren’t i?” 

You sniffed at the last sentence and you felt a small smile fall onto your face as you dawned on how totally dumb you were for messing up this one chance at impressing a guy, you really liked.

“You…want me to like you?” He slowly withdrew his arm and looked wary again. “You want me to think that you’re rad? Is this some sort of joke?” 

Fuck. His defenses were totally through the roof as he stared at you like you were pure danger. His expression made you realize how your tears seemed so out-of-character and manipulative.

“Please tell me this is some joke, that your soccer buddies are gonna pop out of the woods, or that the cops are here to bust me, for crying out loud, you are another highschool jock.”

He quickly grabbed his lunchbox and stood up.

“The only difference between you and them, is that you think you’re gonna get a better deal on your friends pot.”

Fuck fuck fuck fuck. How could he possibly have gotten you any more mad. You were ok with him yelling at you, looking at you with that angry expression. At least he was looking at you, not through you like everyone else and you stood up and slammed your hands on the table.

“YOU…YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT SOME FUCKING DEAL? YOU CAN YELL AT ME, YOU CAN LOOK PISSED, HELL YOU CAN EVEN HATE ME, BUT DO NOT FOR EVEN ONE MOMENT THINK THAT I AM LIKE THEM, I AM SIMPLY WITH THEM BECAUSE I'M SCARED. IN FACT YOU DON’T EVEN TAKE ONE MOMENT TO CONSIDER THAT MAYBE I AM DEEPLY INFATUATED AND INCREDIBLY IN LOVE WITH YOU.”

And as the words stopped falling from your mouth, you realized what you had said, you realized and you bit your sneering lip so hard that it almost bled and you could feel yourself cringing and holding back tears. He must think that you're just another big bubble blowing crybaby of a jock.

You felt fine after what felt like hours. It was so out of character for you to cry in front of someone. He must be so weirded out. You closed your eyes deeply, stopped your teeth from digging further into your lip. And you looked up. He was gone. Nowhere to be found.

And your tears fell harder and faster than they had ever as you threw your back against the bench and just laid down on your trembling feelings.