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blackkatdraws2 · 8 months ago

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There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]

#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but #i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead #because i just think they're so neat and cool okay #listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs #because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested #but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings #i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that #in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh #i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding)#but also #i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube #its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all #maybe an animation reel will do for now?#i hope so :(#because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU #and honestly i dont regret it #i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black)#but yeah!#apart from this little video #you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be #and why theyre there #actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc.#but i got lazy HAHA #tsp blank scripts au #tsp au #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp

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kkoct-ik · 6 months ago

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i dont think i will ever forgive what the internet did to DID because please explain to me how "your sense of self is so torn apart you think youre multiple people" turned into "youre actually multiple people"

do you understand what i mean? please understand what i mean

#kostik speaks #yes cat 3 are real things ive been told and things that honestly really traumatised me and ruined my relationship with myself & disorder #some reassurance im not the only person who finds this super upsetting would be nice #my mental illness: causes harrowing feelings of disconnection from my life and a tendency to disown and/or reject my identity #some people for some fucking reason: reinforces the mental illness in ways never thought possible #i love and appreciate everyone who knows about my bullshit and yet doesnt deny me my personhood or treat me like some freak #i got really triggered about this yesterday so ive deleted the bulk of the tags i wrote (dehumanisation trauma when)#but i stand by this and ive been assured i make sense so sure. posting #this is the real reason i hate giving my disorder by name if you even care. it is specifically this treatment #did tag

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arsenicflame · 6 months ago

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shes finally coming together!! still got a bunch of hand work to do on the blouse and corset, and of course, style the wig, but annes gonna be ready for mcm next weekend!

#nyxtalks #nyx sews #ofmd #anne bonny cosplay #mcm london #ha honestly feeling. so unconfident about this right now #the pants r def. mid. i keep telling myself theyre the best i could do and other such things but i feel like. they let the side down n just #make the whole thing look eh #you cant see a lot of the issues bc of how im stood but. theyre there #gonna go back to making skirts foreverrrrrrr #(also the boots being darker DOES annoy me. ill weather them up at some point before i wear her again i think)#anyway sorry for the complaining i know nobody else sees the issues i doooooo #onto wig styling i guess

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 year ago

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#spheal #i wish i could post circular images on tumblr. because this one is deserving of a fully circular PNG. i could technically just take a #regular square image and then make the edges transparent to make it *effectively* a circle‚ but like… would that appeal?#if that would appeal then i'll do it. i don't think it would be *too* prohibitively hard. i would be willing to make an addendum #with a circular transparent image of spheal staring at the screen if enough of you want it. either way #this guy rolls everywhere and i think tumblr is gonna like that. i feel like this is gonna end up being a well-liked pokémon amongst tumblr #as in. i feel like. it already is. because. of how it is. i just don't know bc spheal isn't like. one of my favorites #it's cute don't get me wrong but it's just not one i think about all the time. it's one that i'll like if prompted but not unprompted #i'm gonna stop before i dig myself into a hole. i beat totk finally. it was very good and i honestly had way way more fun with it than i did #with botw. i have my criticisms obviously. it's not perfect it's not pmd. but it was very good. and now i've moved onto the next game in my #backlog. which is very long but i'm steadily working through it. hopefully i can get it done before i graduate this december and stop having #any time for the rest of my life ever forever to play video games. dreading that day. but uh #until then i will game. and hang out with my friends. and go on tumblr. and do all these things i like to do. until i no longer can #wow this got depressing i'm gonna Stop here. enjoy spheal

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s2pdoktopus · 10 months ago

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I just did this to show an aged up character design of the precious child to be honest.

#why you might ask? i dunno. sometimes i make things complicated for myself I guess.#i'm too lazy to find my of shitty comics thread featuring the child™ so here #if theres a ranking for young mistresses in jianghu. jiang cheng would be conflicted about being happy that his darling girl made it #or angry that teen aged boys ogled at his child.#i also honestly just gave jiang cheng a daughter 'cause I wanted to populate the female species in mdzs.#i didn't think I could use it with the overprotective dad trope but here we are.#jiang cheng #wei wuxian #an oc

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somnimagus · 1 year ago

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did some vesperia chibis, i always forget how happy i get drawing these guys. i love them dearly

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#tales of vesperia #tov #tales of #the raven chibi's kinda old though. but i wanted to draw the rest #i do feel a little bad cause i always forget patty when i draw the whole cast. have to make myself add her in #mostly because i played tov years before the definitive edition; wee lass does not feel real #though honestly all of def edition just feels like a fever dream. people who played that version first/only:#did you notice yuri gaining an almost southern(?) drawl at random. and did it drive you insane #the way he says flynn. flyeahn. it's burned into my mind #and flynn's just like. yes yuri my best friend. you have sounded like this the whole game. you are not a frankenstein of 2 voice actors #fan art #my art #sorry that was probably super off topic; i just still think about it all the time. and i think i'm a little scatterbrained recently #i've been making time to draw and think about dumb things so i don't just sit and doomscroll all day

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laracrofted · 9 months ago

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– who could ever leave me, darling?

#because i felt personally victimized by del's posts about him yesterday #honestly made myself sick to my stomach with the 'started out friends' transition lol #rhett abbott #rhett abbott edit #lewis pullman #lewis pullman edit #outer range #outer range edit #ames makes things

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halfdeadwallfly · 7 months ago

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hi!!!! thank you @summercampghostie @im-the-son-of-rage-and-lov3 and @biromanticboba for the tag! i'm making a new thread so i could respond to everyone at once. i love this picrew so it was really fun to do again with the changes in my look hehe

it's supposed to be what you look like vs what you would want to look like, but if i'm being completely honest, i've just been really happy with how i look lately so i only did that version :))))

EDITING TO ADD THE LINK LMAO HERE YOU GO

np tags 🪄 @spectral-mycoblin @starry-eyed-darling @trips-around-the-sun @mack-anthology-mp3 and ofc anyone else who wants to join!! love you all <3

#boink #picrew #im so happy i cut my hair haha #ive also been letting myself do fun makeup things #like i sort of have a new routine of lipstick + eyeliner for a darker color #and then just lipstick for eyeshadow and blush #and smudged eyeliner and spidery mascara lashes #i am a huge fan of doing this #in addition not doing makeup that will make me more conventionally attractive #like the goal is not to look as if i am not wearing makeup #its to have fun with it #we're feeling vampire #we're feeling gothic spring #im also not making my face all matte lol #ive always been so insecure that my face is too oily or too shiny or whatever the hell people are made to feel insecure about #and i have decided that actually that does not matter #and my face is going to look like what it fucking looks like #its a great time #ive been having more fun with clothes too honestly #im really trying to lean into this whole gothic floral thing you know #lololllllll #anyway #thank you tags for beingy happy ramble space as always #go forth and picrew my friends

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nestastits · 24 days ago

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Something that lowkey pisses me off is how Nesta is always portrayed as this girlboss by her stans because she was a bitch…

Like, yeah she was bitchy and at times she had good iconic one liners but it was a trauma response, her using harsh words to tear into others before they could tear into her was a defense mechanism rooted into her from the mental and physical abuse she suffered from as a child. This side of nesta is commonly the only one portrayed and it’s so sad. Especially when we see this soft side of nesta in acosf when she’s finally able to just be herself in the house of wind, like at heart she’s just a girl who loves to eat chocolate cake, read smut, cuddle, and have sleepovers. She’s not some bitchy club girl! (Not bringing down anyone for this lifestyle.. it’s just not Nesta’s lifestyle lols)

And nesta hated herself when she said harsh things to others. She hated that she was a bitch 😭. It’s just sad seeing people who say they love her uplift her for things that nesta hated about herself and wanted to improve on..

#nesta is that bitch but she’s not a bitch like yall want her to be if that makes sense #acosf #nesta archeron #pro nesta archeron #pro nesta #I just feel like she’s the most mischaracterized character honestly #and it’s always by her stans 😭#like why!?#also #the drinking and going out to taverns and sleeping with strangers #was all a trauma response too #and she did those things as punishment to herself #bc again she HATED herself for how she treated others #and yes I say this myself too as a nesta stan #but I would never uplift her for things she hated about herself/punished herself #the tags turned into a rant my bad lmao

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einaudis · 7 months ago

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ALL OF US STRANGERS (2023) dir. ANDREW HAIGH

#filmedit #filmgifs #movieedit #moviegifs #All of Us Strangers #aousedit #filmtvdaily #filmtvcentral #cinemapix #fyeahmovies #dailyflicks #mine*#mygifs #movies*#I can't believe this is done. and you won't believe how long it took me to make it. insane... because it's just a scene #I didn't even use different fonts. or a cool template. or transitions... it was a single scene... but look... I made captures for 10 gifs #and things kept happening and I kept finding little gestures and beautiful things and I just couldn't keep them out the gifs #I mean look at Harry and that slow realization. please look at the glow around his shoulders at the beginning #and how ethereal and out of this world he already is AND THEN when Adam says 'I found you' he becomes more... real and present!#and those eyes and the intensity of that 'you're here' and their eyes and faces and smiles and how Harry's desperate but Adam calms him dow #and his voice when he asks 'how come no one found me?' the realization that people didn't care to check on him. it screamed to my soul #I haven't stopped thinking about that scene since the moment I first watched it #honestly... I wish I could live in this scene forever #now this is a super long post and I know it won't get many notes and it was surely made before... but I needed to make this for myself...#so here it is :) I'm tired but I love it #GOD the way Harry goes full baby when Adam caresses his cheek and he SMILES LIKE THAT! AHHHHHHH!#*runs down the hill screaming*

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deoidesign · 4 months ago

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I'll either succeed or I'll learn trying

#I wanna REMEMBER THIS!!!!!!!!#its helpful for me to keep in mind #not failing. learning #learning. learning makes failures into something worthwhile #grimacing as I repeat this to myself #text post #delete later #idk saying it cause it made me be like heh. nice #so idk might make someone else be like hm... nice #so LAMGOMSAGKLSAJGALKGJASLKGMSALKGJ #there is not much thought behind the things I post there's just not really much thought in general #honestly that is not true #I overthing everything. on account of the anxiety #but it's all good #speaking of the doc gave me an anti anxiety med on top of the adhd thing #so that's cool #seems to be working though..#she told me I could up the dose and I might do that in like a week if it feels like hrmm #I asked for all the instructions about starting stopping upping lowering or changing the time I take things #cause yknow. those things matter and I like to experiment to figure out whats best for me #this has nothing to do with the post #also they messed up my order again #i only got 180 books #bro theres 120 more #where are they #give me my books!!! please!!!!!!!1 #I'll wait til tomorrow #its possible they just didnt fit on the truck. thats completely reasonable

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littlecutiexox · 3 months ago

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I’m so happy with how much I’ve improved my relationship with food

#ive loved and learned so many new recipes lately #been trying out different things every week #trying to find healthy alternatives #but also allowing myself to have treats and snacks when i crave them #ive not been labelling food as avoid anymore #i enjoy it when i want it #just make sure everything in moderation #my protein oat cheesecake is by far mh favourite recipe iv learned honestly the best breakfast #but considering my issue with binge eating or not eating enough am really happy im finding a balance lately #its been nice to eat and enjoy food #i know with me gaining 16kg in the last year i was really freaked about food #but ive gained muscle #good weight #i am healthy #just because the number went up #it doesnt mean its a bad thing #but yeah ive been doing so good with it and having so much veg protein and loving the carbs #im so glad food isnt scary anymore 🥰

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emblazons · 7 months ago

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"Let us take to the skies together, and bring a new dawn to Valisthea."

Phoenixflare Week || Day 1: Red Thread (String of Fate) Joshua Rosfield, Dion Lesage & The Honor That Binds Them

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 5 months ago

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childhood friend!sugu vs childhood friend!toru

YOU’VE COME TO THE RIGHT PLACE .

thank you for saying this anon i’ve been thinking of it a lot actually. i’m morally and legally binded to choose childhood friend!sugu no matter what because he’s literally……. my favorite Ever. and i think the inherent devotion of the childhood friend trope blends soooo well with his natural devotion. his protective urges. etcetc. i have wayyyy too many thoughts about childhood friend!sugu 😭 but it mostly boils down to him wanting to be by your side forever. he wants to make you happy and he wants to protect you and he knows you so well that he doesn’t trust anyone else to love you like he can. he’s selfish and he wants you to lean on him more than he wants anything for himself.

childhood friend!toru though….. i feel like he would be your estranged childhood friend. that makes most sense to me :3 like, you met when you were really really young, and ended up playing together in an empty park. he was a brat, kind of quiet, and you were just sweet, y’know? you were the closest thing to a friend he had as a child. then you ended up moving away, he never got to say goodbye… and you meet again as adults. you don’t remember him — it was just so, so long ago — but he remembers you. he remembers you a little too well.

so now you just kinda have to deal with this tall, handsome, cheery man who keeps talking to you like you’re best friends even though you literally don’t remember him…. he’s sweet though. a little annoying, but sweet. he has a soft spot for you. i think having anything remotely close to a childhood friend makes him feel human in a way he can’t help but crave.

sooooo. overall!!! both are good :3 i will always be a childhood friend!sugu truther before anything else but childhood friend!toru has sm potential..

#THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTION MY ANGEL #the childhood friend trope is my Absolute favorite i’ll never get tired of talking abt it :3 #childhood friend!sugu is the most devoted sugu btw #that’s a very tough thing to say but. it’s true #honestly it’s a toss up between a specific brand of cult leader geto and childhood friend sugu…#buuuuuut . like.#i think childhood friend sugu would do Anything to see you smile. he’s so devoted to you.#you’ve been the center of his world before he knew who he was or what he wanted #so . like. when he thinks of the future he just sees You. all he wants is to be with you #…….. when i think abt it . he’s literally just yuuta isn’t he 💀💀💀#the geto/yuuta parallels keep haunting me somebody helpppppp T_T #BUT I LOVEEE CHILDHOOD FRIEND!TORU I THINK HE . could be . so fun :333 #he keeps pouting about you forgetting him and calling you his bestie so you assume you were really close #… then you eventually find out that you only played together like . four times.#but those few few hours are still precious to satoru because he was always so isolated #it’s a little heartbreaking!!!! the idea that to you he was just a quiet boy all alone in a park.#but to him you were the closest thing he had to a friend……..#i’m just imagining him waiting for you in the park all day. after you move. and he just waits and waits and then goes home.#………….#ok nevermind i’m making myself sad #.. but anyway . i think that kinda plot would be interesting because it gives reader an insight into satoru that no one else has #to you he’s still a quiet boy in a park. who looks a little lonelier than he should be #i love him T_T #ask tag ✩

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absenthearted · 25 days ago

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FIC: BEFORE THE ENDING, A DANCE the quarry | travis/laura | work-in-progress | pacific rim AU

The day after the kaiju attack on Anchorage, Laura Kearney has her first drift compatibility trial with her partner. It doesn’t go well.

Seven years after the apocalypse begins, Laura Kearney enlists in the Jaeger Academy on Kodiak Island. There, she meets Travis Hackett, her instructor and a retired Jaeger ranger. To achieve her dream of piloting a Jaeger, Laura must find a drift-compatible partner. It's just not as easy as she thinks.

#travis x laura #hackearney #travis hackett #laura kearney #the quarry #hackearney fanfiction #my writing #i am so sorry this is not an update of bite the hand buuut i have an almost fully drafted fic instead #that will definitely by finished by the end of the year?? honestly i'm hoping i finish these last couple chapters in a couple weeks #i've got some runway for at least a few regular updates until then #also sorry about the blurry cap for siobhan i tried my bestttt #i told myself i would never write anything but canonverse AUs for the quarry (unless it was for a request) and now well. here i am.#first cap from seaquest; second from pacrim; third from tracker #sometimes i make things

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possamble · 6 months ago

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realizing that the characterization of Falin being more dragon-like is a really fine line to toe because like. In terms of pure magic and biology the dragon is a teeny tiny part of her. It wouldn't actually affect her in ways beyond her control. She's not really a Dragon Girl so much as a chimera with like. 10% dragon at most

But Falin herself really, REALLY likes being part monster. She would most likely lean into it and enjoy making it part of her identity/how she sees herself. So when you're writing from her perspective, you get this very weird balance of like... Falin attributing things about herself to her "dragon side" in ways that aren't necessarily true. Or her taking a very minor urge/instinct, incorporating it into her existing desires, and just running with it because it makes her feel cool.

anyway idk where I'm going with this, I just wanted to say that like. I really like that Falin's world bible blurb emphasizes that "she is herself, first and foremost." when I talk about her being very Dragon-y, it's because she gets to choose to be that way and I think it's neat!!

#possramble #honestly a little creature is all about falin getting to choose so im hoping i make that clear but #but im also not exactly going out of my way to Spell It Out #and also i DO have to catch myself sometimes like #am i being faithful to her character or am i doing the same thing as her and believing the dragonism way too earnestly

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