#honestly frustrated with myself rn
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Average conversation between these three dweebs.
I don't actually know their canon heights (I think Lea is supposed to be the shortest) but Emilie being small fits the meme format better and is funnier so french gremlin she is. Also my heart tells me that Apollo is built like an actual blade of grass.
The og meme btw:
#gender c:#unstoppable force (my desire to keep making shitposts for this game)#vs immovable object (my lack of motivation to actually put pen to tablet)#honestly frustrated with myself rn#hope i get a second wind art-wise soon#(hopefully while this game is still living rent-free in my brain)#i did attempt to play around with some different brushes/markers on this one#so kindly disregard any inconsistent and terribly half-assed coloring/shading you may notice ;)#myartwork#artwork#sketches#crosscode#lea crosscode#emilie crosscode#apollo crosscode#memes#p.s. I feel like you could replace lea's shoes with crocs and literally nothing about her would change
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yk what just kinda frustrates me a bit? it’s that whenever someone hates on taylor swift, i need to defend her, not bc i think she can do no wrong ever, but because they always choose the wrong things to criticize.
like if someone tries to say shit abt the i hate it here 1830s lyric to me? i’m obligated to point out that uh no it’s not racist, literally look at the next fucking line, you idiot. she’s saying the exact opposite of what you’re implying. nostalgia is a mind’s trap.
and if someone tries to call her a climate terrorist, then i’m going to have to point out that yes, she uses a private plane a lot, but she’s not even in the top 30 of celebs with highest carbon emissions. if you really want to criticize a celebrity and not the huge factories/companies that are polluting the air, then focus on travis scott
but like?? you could literally choose any argument that doesn’t have to do with literal false information. or better yet, you don’t even need a reason! say you don’t vibe with her music and that is literally none of my business. good for you. enjoy whatever music you like. but don’t try and put yourself on this moral pedestal for hating on this musician who doesn’t even know you exist and let me listen to the grand theft auto lyric in peace.
#wrongcaitlyn#both of these have been told to me at school bc i’m like the resident swiftie#and it’s just?? so fucking frustrating???#like honestly even if they criticized the charlie puth or golden retriever line like i would have no defense#those are silly lyrics and i can vibe with them but if you don’t it’s fine#but when they go for such stupid arguments?? like really?? can you not think of anything better??#oh right. you can’t. bc there’s literally not a reason i know of to hate this woman SO vehemently that you have to include it in every#conversation#i never bring up taylor swift at school#just bc i’m worried of coming off as annoying and obsessed (which tbf i am but i keep it to myself and online)#and yet i still end up talking abt her like 3 times a day because PEOPLE bring her up to ME#so am i (the swiftie) really the one so obsessed with taylor swift here?#honestly this may be incoherent i’m half asleep rn#but like i’m just sick of having to repeat the same arguments and coming off as some crazed fan just bc i wanna wear a taylor sweatshirt
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Hiii!! I just wanted to check up on you. How are you feeling? Are you doing ok? I hope you are taking care of yourself and able to enjoy the holiday as much as you can. Thinking of you ❤️
hii lovely
life has kinda quieted down some? which is good and things are going okay when im not frustrated with the rest of my family (feels like im the only one whos rly... being a caretaker at all...) but im just kinda taking it one day at a time rn
ty for checking in <3 i hope u get to spend the holiday happily as well <3
#wooahaes.ask#completely-zoned-out#ive barely been writing lately and i think im more frustrated over That than anything else#just bc its always been my outlet ykno? so not being able to do it is just.... hnnghghgh#i did get the 25 + 31 fics written and ill schedule em#maybe i can get a couple other days done and posted if i feel up to it? idk#i honestly nearly pulled the plug on them entirely like 'i dont think i can do this' but im glad i kinda just let myself have time n space#to work as i please p much since i think that helped a lot more than i thought it would#sorry abt the wonu fic when it gets posted its... definitely affected by my life rn. obvs nothing has happened Yet#but it does like. ykno. pull from it a liiiiil bit
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sudden realisation that the thing holding my art back is that I never had an anime phase
#going to find a time machine and get my younger self into death note or smth#I have been driving myself insane for the past few years bc I wanna draw characters but all I know how to do is portraits#I’m trying to figure out how I could recreate smth similar now and tragically I think it does just come down to draw more :/#however! I am also going to try using brushes which will be bad for sketchiness and better for lineart bc I might need to force myself here#I just gotta simplify things down to basic shapes how hard can it be#[has been thinking this exact thing for years and it’s not worked]#I am getting better every time I do stuff I’m just not satisfied bc art is frustrating when you know what you want but can’t get there#god it’s 2am I should not be awake rn but I could draw again tonight so I was taking advantage#endlessly frustrated by hair. why is it so awkward. I need to understand hair better how do I do this#i have a feeling it’s bc I’ve not figured out how to apply the shit I figured out abt volume yet#I’m also getting impatient bc I’ve been trying to do a study thing for some art styles but I decided I wanted to draw ocs instead of that#when I hadn’t gotten to the actually important bit which was. making smth new. but I can still do that#and I ended up doing a different style anyway (someone pls stop me rounding everything make me use high opacity square brush for my health)#the Other problem is I never wanna switch brushes. like I want to use one brush for whole drawing bc the extra clicks annoy me#I wonder if there’s a shortcut to swap brushes#anyway I’m gonna stop complaining bc drawing is fun but god I wish I’d drawn some more pokey mans when I was a teenager yknow#ideally younger. would rlly like to not have to actually think to figure this out rn#I’m probably overthinking stuff anyway honestly and I KNOW I’ll get it if I practice enough but goddamn it is hard to practice#especially when my me insists on making the bad things look better by making it more realistic#instead of figuring out why the shapes aren’t working#OKAY IM DONE WITH THIS NOW. GONNA TRY NEW ART THINGS LATER STOP TALKING <3#luke.txt
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sigh 😔
#so fucking frustrated with my sleep rn!#was trying to fix it so last night i slept like??? 3/4? hours?#and i literally refused to go anywhere near my bed all day. made sure i was always doing something and i waa quite productive tbh#only to feel exhausted at 10.30pm and think ok. Maybe you can sleep now and get a full sleep then wake up early#i can usually only sleep 6 hours at a time which is enough for me i think#anyways so i fall asleep. only to fucking wake up at 11pm. so i basically just had a nap#and i know what im like. i wont be able to sleep for at least a couple hours now so basically my sleep was fucked#i tried so hard to just force myself to lie back down and try to sleep again but i couldnt do it#i know its not that big a deal but im just so. fucking tired. and i guess i just kinda hate how hard i tried to sort my sleep just for it#to fail so miserably. like its usually not great. hasnt been for years but this is honestly on some other level.#anyways idk why im here complaining about it. will probably delete this later. time to go do whatever awake ppl do i guess#le text post
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Hgod, okay, I'm a lot more emotional (/neg) rn than I'd like to be so I'm gonna need to ask everyone for a small favor rn (like. Very small favor)
Please be nice to me and my f/o's for the time being. Which, sounds super silly- I know, but I'd really super appreciate it for the time being rn
#time being means until my period blows over bc it is making me a lot more moody and emotional than I'd like to be#which means I'm not rlly thinking too rationally and may take some words/jokes to heart than intended#I really didn't wanna resort to asking this from y'all I'm so so sorry hdjshdj#but I'm already noticing that I'm getting more frustrated at small things and need to just. distance myself#which might be a better idea but also a simple thing like this probably shouldn't deter me from interacting overall#AUGH I don't know. like I said. I'm not feeling too good or thinking straight atm so I'm really sorry#also. the reason why I said to be nice to my f/o's also is bc I'm finding a lot more comfort in them than I'd like to admit rn#so jokes/insults towards them may... kinda set me off than my usual reactions (which sucks but I'm trying to manage I promise)#I don't know if this is a good idea honestly. am I being a little too sensitive rn? I definitely am honestly#but I don't really wanna end up isolating myself since I also wanna just continue on my day still like nothing's wrong#I'M SORRY I'M HDNSNFHDJSHSJDHJ OTL OTL OTL#once my period is over I'll definitely go back to joking around and taking jokes at face value. but for now I am. an emotional wreck#🌸 lin speaks!!#tw menstruation#tw period#tw slight vent#tw vent#< jic
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good news: ive chosen a pokemon form for all 8 travelers. bad news: there is an overwhelming amount of grass types among them for some godforsaken reason
#ITS NOT MY FAULT I SWEAR .#Therions base form is a Floragato bc thats the reason i started this whole thing (it reminded me of him)#H'aanit is a Decidueye bc thats the most fitting one for her#Primroses base form is Hisuian Lilligant bc. Yeah#and Alphyn is a Bayleef but honestly theres a number of pokemon he could be. BUT THEYD ALL BE GRASS TYPES#4 of them!!!!!! are grass!!!!!!! theres 8 total!!!!!!! half of the entire team are grass types!!!!!!!!!#thats like the only type anyone has in common too. except for ghost theres 2 of those but thats nothing compared to 4#it bothers me Souch but ive made my decisions already. made the bed now im laying in it. but mildly frustrated#welp. onto all 170+ side characters or whatever#after checking that list theres a few who arent actually important enough to warrant giving a pokemon form for the pmd au but#theres still A Lot#its cool tho i love making pokemon sets. genuinely one of my favorite passtimes its why i keep doing this to myself#hm. thinking back i could technically alter Therions typing bc he is a hybrid of several cat pkmn (Floragato + Espurr line n Purrloin line)#so he could be like. pure dark. or psychic dark but i dont rly see him being a psychic type#im aware Floragato isnt even dark type but since Meowscarada is and the Purrloin line is i have him set as Dark/Grass rn#so yknow.#but he does still benefit from the Grass type in some ways both thematically and w his moveset..#tho ig his base form is Floragato regardless so it doesnt matter much w his moveset. dont have to change that#hes the only one i could even change bc the other 3 im just. too adamant abt and they arent hybrids so i cant play around w types n stuff#ftr the other 4 are Tressa as an Eevee. Olberic as a Corviknight. Ophilia as an Alolan Vulpix. n Cyrus as a Mismagius#i think theyre neat. and hilariously different in size#ive also got Erhardt as a Ceruledge :] very fitting.. perhaps with the colors of Armarouge would be more fitting..#trying to come up w excuses for why everyone is relatively the same color palette as canon is. both hard n surprisingly easy#the only one im still not sold on in that regard is Cyrus.. what could make a black n gold Mismagius..#hm. i need to sleep actually#so yeah this is what ive been doing 👍
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so some things to clarify before i say anything:
watcher is NOT deleting their videos or archiving their old stuff on youtube, it's still going to be there for everyone to watch!!
they will upload new content on there but only the season premieres of their shows
i think a lot of people are forgetting that they're still, essentially, a small company with a small group of creatives trying to make a living
all this to say-- i get that it's frustrating and upsetting for a lot of people (and honestly myself included at first bc im going through some financial stuff rn) and i do think there should be a better middle ground for those who cannot afford this, especially for people in other countries.
but i think a lot of us are forgetting that they are independent content creators who have to support their own staff and crew, give them livable wages, while also finding ways to be sustainable for the future. they are not a Corporate Streaming Site. a bigger budget with better quality shows costs money unfortunately so they had to find a solution that was better for them. and it does suck because this ostracizes a lot of their audience (seen from most of the backlash). so that's why im hoping they eventually find something for those who can't be able to pay in the future since most of their audience seems like they can't afford it. which i totally get in this economy 😭
we also don't know how much content they'll put out on the streaming site- if it's gonna be daily content, weekly, etc, it might change from their usual youtube schedule.
i'm still excited for them!! this is a huge step forward for them especially since they can control whatever they produce now vs having to be controlled by a media conglomerate. and eventually, i hope i can support them. i'll still be here bc i love them. but i get why people are upset about this, but again, please don't spread misinformation!! their old stuff is still gonna be on youtube. so let's wait and see y'all 🙏🏽
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neurons (roman godfrey x reader)
WARNINGS: 18+, mentions of sex, foul language, author knows nothing about neurons lol
summary: Roman Godfrey is most certainly not the best study partner to have the night before an important test. what a shocker (not).
word count: 1,106
a/n: kingkat is BACK!! exams are fucking killing me, so when that is over, you best believe I will be back to my usual uploading schedule!! however, I scrapped this together for y'all (and also for myself because pls I need a Roman to get me through this study period). also, WARNING, I don't know anything about chemistry and neurons, I just had to think about anything other than my test rn which is in 6 hours... ENJOY<33 (also the gif is from @godfreysteel if I remember correctly, pls kick my ass if I'm wrong ouf)
"A neuron is an excitable cell that fires electric signals called action potentials across a neural network in the nervous system. They are located in the brain and..." Roman peeked up from the chemistry book with a rather offended look streaking across his face; "You're not listening to me, are you?"
Realizing I was being spoken to, I raised my head from the bed, flaunting a nervous smile. Honestly, I had nearly dozed off. "I am, I am! I swear, I was just!--"
"Listening with your eyes closed?"
Fuck. With a groan, I buried my face in the duvet I was lying on. "Look, Ro, I really appreciate your help, but I'm not going to learn this the night before the test... We should just give up,"
I knew that Roman Godfrey wasn't known for being the best at school-- however, he was the only person in my contacts who was available at midnight, and I was having the biggest case of brain fog known to man. Nothing was sticking. Seven hours and forty-six minutes until I was supposed to be seated in the auditorium at school, taking the dreaded midterm exam in chemistry, this was my only option. This test was supposed to be notoriously hard, so of course I hadn't bothered looking at it before now. Of course.
Huffing, Roman spun around in my chair, looking both bored and frustrated. "I'm so glad I took this test last year," he muttered, just like every other senior did when this test had been mentioned over the past few weeks. "I'm aware that I can't help you with much, 'cause you didn't exactly call the designated nerd or something. But now that you've dragged my ass all across town to not sleep with me, you could at least listen?" He moved the chair closer to the bed, leaning over to poke my head. "Think of it like you're listening to an audio book, okay? My voice is nice, after all. Deep and warm, like--"
"Honey?" I chimed in, raising myself to look at him.
Roman blinked. He looked at me like I was the biggest idiot in the world before he plainly answered; "No. Pussy,"
That was it. Having my fuck-friend teach me chemistry certainly didn't make me the brightest girl in the state. This was a bad idea; I groaned, rolling my eyes as I shifted on the bed, sitting up. "Keep going, then," I said, doing my best not to yawn. "A neuron is an... excited cell?"
Smirking, Roman shook his head-- I wondered whether this made him feel smart. He had taken this test last year and passed it, after all. It wasn't looking like I would be passing it, so did that make Roman Godfrey smarter than me...?
That was a mortifying thought.
"The neuron is an excitable cell, whatever the fuck that means," Roman pointed to the paragraph in the book. "Let me continue, maybe it'll make sense to you if I keep going?" He kicked back in the chair again, leaning his legs on my bed before he lowered his voice, getting into a rather caricatured character of a narrator; "They are located in the brain and spinal cord and help to receive and conduct impulses. Neurons communicate with other cells via synapses, which are specialized connections that commonly use minute amounts of chemical--"
I yawned. Loudly. I couldn't take it anymore.
Roman's eyes shot up from the book, wider than ever. I held my breath, ready to be told off once more for not focusing properly, yet the next words that left his lips were ones of charming amusement; "I see that this isn't making you very... excitable,"
I let out a relieved sigh. "I give up. Could we just fuck instead? That thought makes me excitable,"
Slamming the book shut, Roman grinned. "You never disappoint," he murmured. Getting up from the chair, he motioned for me to lay down again; he didn't waste any time making his way between my legs, pressing soft kisses to my thighs. His words were interrupted with every kiss; "If you don't pass the test-- I'll pay someone to-- tweak your scores. Don't-- worry about it."
My breath hitched as I smiled up at the ceiling. "Why didn't you say that-- fuck, earlier?" I squirmed beneath Roman as he pushed the soft pillows of his lips to my clothed sex, humming. Every kiss, every touch, felt electrocuting; I wondered whether the neurons in my body had anything to do with these bodily reactions. Did they? I had no idea, and I realized I wasn't going to know at the end of the night either.
"Because," Roman said, a hint of a laugh in his voice as he kissed his way up my body, listening to my nervous giggles of pleasure. "I like feeling-- helpful. No one has ever-- asked me to--" His kisses were getting wetter, more eager; "--revise anything-- with them."
My hands went to his hair, tugging at the tips of his soft, brown locks. "Makes sense," Of course. Who in their right mind would call Roman Godfrey to help them practice for a test? I knew that the only thing on his mind was pussy and... pussy. Along with all the other things about the female body that made him excitable, certainly.
Roman pressed teasing kisses to my neck, wrapping his arms around my tired body. "Are you gonna call me the next time you have a test?" he purred.
"Um... Depends,"
"On what?"
"On whether I'm planning on taking it seriously," I gave Roman's hair another tug, hoping he'd kiss me properly soon. "If it's a life or death thing, you're probably not gonna get involved. However, if it's another chemistry test..."
Hovering above me now, Roman nudged my nose with his as he smiled against my lips. "I see where you're going with this, I'll take it. But let me redeem myself, okay?"
"Uh... how?" An impossible task.
"I'll teach you the one thing I actually remember," he breathed. Judging by how quickly his smile turned into a smirk, I could almost foresee the next thing coming from his mouth; "The neurons are connected to the nervous system, so they're responsible for making you feel this."
Roman's lips pressed against mine for the briefest moment-- it was so gentle, so tentative, that for a second, I thought I had simply imagined it. This wasn't usually how he kissed me. This was different. This was gentle, sincere. My breath felt stuck in my chest as my fist in his hair faltered, feeling as though my body was on fire.
Fucking neurons, giving me hope that I could both pass the test and have Roman Godfrey for myself.
(thank u to Wikipedia LMAOOO I would go on and refer to the article like I've been taught but I'm SALTY so no<3 mwah)
#roman godfrey#hemlock grove#smut#x reader#roman godfrey x reader#bill skarsgard#bill skarsgård#fanfiction#oneshot#fanfic#drabble#hemlock grove fanfiction#roman godfrey fanfiction#bill skarsgård fanfiction#bill skarsgard fanfiction#why tf did I choose neurons??#I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THIS SUBJECT#is it even chemistry or is it science#don't ask me#this is so so so far from my major#LMAO SOMEONE PLS CORRECT ME IF I'M SUPER SUPER WRONG
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AAAHHHH????
after weeks of grappling with the potential reality of calling the stupid same-day self-referral clinic at 7 in the morning, a kind stranger who happened to be at the shop today pointed me in the direction of a separate clinic that has nurse practitioners on site for gender-affirming care and don't require that early morning phone queue bullshit
i found out after stopping in that APPARENTLY that nurse practitioner has already left and started their own practice, BUT i was still able to get in touch with them and book an appointment with them almost immediately!
due to it being handled as a private practice, that means it's an expense that's gonna be coming out of my own pocket (I'll see it again come tax season lmao), and there's a lot other steps i gotta go thru before HRT is on the table, but hot DAMN this feels like such a crazy step forward that's left me feeling all kinds of mixed emotions, of relief, of terror, of exhaustion and frustration that it took me this long to finally pull the trigger - but most of all, joy and excitement over something that I had convinced myself for a while I "didn't need" or "could live without". Now that it's actually a real, tangible option that I'm able to make steps towards, I'm feeling euphoria and happiness that I haven't felt in a long, long time.
And honestly, getting this excited over just the assessment appointment already feels vastly reassuring, not only that my ADHD meds are working because you bet your ass early 2024 me couldn't have done this shit LOL but also that my fear and doubts were never true, that I was never "faking it", and most of all, that the version of me who I see in my dreams is out there - he just needs to be found and welcomed back home.
It's a long road ahead, but the first step is already complete - it's all forward from here <3
(now excuse me while i go jump over a parking meter sksksksks i'm so full of hype rn fr)
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Still 36 days to go and I don't think I ever got light-headed because of my excitement for a tv serie coming out (especially for a 2nd season),,
I was right in predicting I wasn't going to survive the wait :,>
Yeah I just watched the trailer for Good Omens 2 at least 5 times now. I'm unwell and I'm about to combust.
I'm not gonna survive these 50(?) days, nope. Just nope.
#the cloud can speak oh boi#brain is literally jumping and running on the walls rn while I'm trying to catch it so I can properly finish the last assignment stretch ec#I was even gifted the book and I'm reading that to keep my fixation at bay in these dark times oughhh#(also kinda frustrated with it since I got it in italian.. and some traslations just really arent it for me-#thank god for the fandom that compiled the Gold quotes so I can still enjoy 'em in their original wtf glory <3)#I even started going to sleep at a good hour so I could read some pages before bed??#What are these -tricking myself into doing selfcare- shenanigans?? /j#The new promos also arent helping aaa <- me proceeding to lose composure because of a teacup a mug and a wine glass with funky smoke#honestly once it comes out I will either be the most annoying being ever or I will just be g o n e- just dead- obliterated even.#ALSO- for once I'm glad I'm too busy to be on socials.. been helping avoiding leaks apparently so niceee
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22:43 - HYUNJIN
pairing - nerd!bf!hyunjin ♥︎ fem!reader
genre: angst, comfort & college AU
word count: 0.7k
warnings: negative self talk & swearing like once
A/N : this is very self indulgent bc 2 weeks in and math is already eating my ass ! also I’m sorry if this sounds rushed 🙏🏾 like I said math is beating me rn
“Ok, then after that you carry the x and combine the common factors.” He says, but to be honest, it all sounds like gibberish to you.
Math is the hardest subject to master in your eyes. All those formulas and variables go in one ear and out the other.
Hyunjin, being the incredibly smart and sweet boyfriend he is, kindly offered to help you. Of course you gladly accepted his help, but it would be a lie say you weren’t 5 seconds away from crying.
You groan, throwing your head down on your hands. You couldn’t understand a thing. The feeling of inferiority and stupidity were wracking your brain.
“Im so stupid, why can’t I understand this.” and more self deprecating thoughts were going through your mind. You hadn’t even realized that you had started crying, or that hyunjin was trying to get your attention.
“Y/n, what’s wrong?!” You hear his voice cut through your thoughts. He looks at you, obviously panicked from your sudden outburst. “I- I don’t know, i’m just s-so-“ You can't finish before a fresh set of tears and choked sobs are coming from your body.
Immediately he’s moving to hold you in his arms, stroking your lower back as you continue to cry. Quiet praises and hushes come out of his mouth, small kisses being placed to either side of your face.
It takes you a while to get yourself together again, choked sobs turning into small hiccups. You look up at hyunjin, a small, warm smile plastered on his lips.
“Can you tell me what happened, my love?” His voice sounds gentle, slighting healing the current tears in your heart. “I don’t k-know i think I got a little frustrated” You lie. You didn’t want to tell everything about how you were feeling to him.
It’s not that you didn’t trust him, you just didn’t want to be so vulnerable. However, he obviously caught this.
“You’re more than a little frustrated. Tell me what’s wrong so I can help you baby, that’s all I want to do for you.” The way he says it and looks, has all your walls opening immediately.
“I’ve just been so stressed. I can’t keep up hyune i can’t. I can’t stop myself from comparing me to my classmates. They’re so much better than i am. They don’t cry under the littlest bit of pressure, and they certainly aren’t crying over fucking calculous. I just.. don’t know what to do anymore.” You trail off at the end, heat rushing to your cheeks in embarrassment, even more so from his lack of response. You’re about to apologize for ranting before his voice cuts yours off.
“Oh Y/n, i wish you could see your self through my eyes.” He starts, eyes warm. “You really don’t know how absolutely intelligent you are. You got into this amazing school, your writing is so beautiful it brings me to tears, the way you explain your work is so incredible, and so much more. You are the smartest person I know baby, don’t compare yourself to anyone else you hear me. Not understanding something doesn’t and will never ever make you dumb.”
All you can do is hug and kiss him. The thoughts of inferiority don’t disappear, but they are definitely drowned out by the love of your life’s words.
You pull away, flashing him a bright smile, which he gladly reciprocates. “Now, why don’t you say we take a break and watch some spirited away, hmm?”
“But love, we still have all this left to finish.” You frown. You don’t want to pull him away from his own work just for you. “It’s okay, I honestly think I could use the break too.”
You sigh as you agree, his puppy eyes he starting staring at you becoming to much to handle.
As you get up, packing away your belongings, you can’t help but to think just how lucky you got to have a boyfriend as smart, loving, and caring as him.
back to masterlist
#skz x reader#skz#stray kids#straykids x reader#kpop#skz fluff#straykids x you#hyunjin fluff#hwang hyunjin#hyunjin comfort#hyunjin#hyunjin x reader#hyunjin x you#hyunjin skz#skz comfort#straykids comfort#needed this cus math is actually my biggest enemy
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In Dawntrail did you enjoy a different character playing the main role, or do you prefer when the player character is leading the narrative?
this is definitely a major point of contention in the fanbase rn and i can generally see valid feelings/criticism on both ends of the spectrum. i myself do fall somewhere in between the most extreme takes on this. i won't go into too much detail about actual events but ill tag this as spoilers anyway just in case. ok so my thoughts are:
firstly, i like Wuk Lamat a lot. i don't think she deserves even half of the pure unfiltered ire that she is receiving from a large subset of the community rn. the amount of people who have already turned being a wuk lamat hater into an advertised personality trait really frustrates me. i really enjoyed seeing her personal journey through the story and i was overall very satisfied by her inclusion. however, i do not think the story was perfectly paced or balanced, and i definitely do understand where people are coming from when they say that they could have used a little less of her in the forefront. honestly it did kind of ultimately disappoint me that we missed out on a lot of potential interaction/development with someone like Krile, who in spite of being promised a big breakout role in this expansion still somewhat felt like a SLIGHT (i have to stress slight) afterthought. she did get some notable moments of development and emotion, but i feel like there could have been more.
okay but, your question is about our role as a player in the narrative. i hold the opinion that for THIS EXPANSION SPECIFICALLY, the warrior of light taking somewhat of a narrative backseat actually made a ton of sense and fit the themes of the narrative as well as the promise of a somewhat breezy summer vacation for our heroes. now, i will say this: i really do not agree with the idea that the WoL should be in a mentor role indefinitely because our story is done developing and we need to give the spotlight to "the next generation" of heroes in the world. i appreciate the SENTIMENT of this, but like for me personally.... i don't want Pella's story to be done, yknow? i definitely would be disappointed if this was the DE FACTO role she played in every expansion past this. but i don't even think that is factually what's going to happen. we're currently in a setup phase! and, again, bringing it back to this narrative and the themes within, a lot of Dawntrail about the experience of entering unfamiliar places and learning about the customs and the traditions of people already within it to best help them without unwelcomely trampling on their culture in the process. i think a story like that is the PERFECT time for the WoL to take a bit of a backseat. wuk lamat is also somewhat unfamilar like us yes, but Tural is still her home and she is about to be tasked with leading it. i feel like centering our character in that equation would feel.... really disingenuous? it was kinda frustrating sometimes when it felt like hey.... there's a situation happening right now that can be solved by skilled combat and you have a literally god killer standing right here doing a frown emote, but at a certain point i could chalk it up to growing pains or necessary suspension of disbelief in the interest of the overall emotional hook of the narrative. a lot of those moments could be explained away with enough thought about the character motivations and culture at play, though sometimes it does feel like a stretch. again, far from a perfectly written MSQ. it starts slow and it's messy and it throws a LOT of stuff at you that doesn't always pay off like you expect or want. but i dunno! i think we're gonna see some really interesting stuff come to the forefront in the future, and i think especially now knowing that much of the playerbase thought we took TOO much of a backseat here CS3 will probably adjust their focus accordingly next time. so i can't be too upset really about the stuff i wasn't into. the rest of it was great imo!
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Missed you,
A Christopher Sturniolo Fanfiction
ex!Chris x Reader
Warnings: no use of y/n, smut, ex boyfriend, pet names (baby, princess, mama, good girl, baby girl), oral (fem), p in v, alcohol, semi rough, soft!dom!Chris, begging, creampie, no protection, spanking, praise, party
Summary: You see your ex Chris at a party and try to ignore him…but that doesn’t work out so well.
A/N: is this short? Medium? Idk. Basically just wrote this cause i was bored and had an idea. Enjoy! P.S im so fucking hungry rn chat 😢
I arrived at the party around 8pm. I honestly didn’t want to go at all but my friends invited me and I had nothing better to do. My eyes fell on him immediately as I walked in. Even the sight of him is fucking annoying. Why does he have to be everywhere?
I hate him. Truly. Through and through. So why was him talking to some cheerleader pissing me off? Honestly, no idea.
The girl was blonde anyways. He doesnt like blondes. She meant nothing. Just a distraction from the overwhelming scenery.
Avoiding him was on the top of my bucket list. I went to the kitchen to pour myself a drink, trying to forget about his existence as a whole.
“I thought that was you.” His voice sent a shiver down my body. I clenched my eyes shut in frustration before turning to him.
“Half the school is here. Why wouldn’t I be?” I stated bluntly taking another sip of my drink while observing the atmosphere around me.
“Because you hate parties.” He said knowingly. Why does he have to know things?
“People change.” I said with a shrug, still not meeting his piercing gaze. He didn’t say anything. The silence suddenly started to annoy me. “Is there something you want?” I ask.
“I miss you.” He said looking over my face. He always seemed to observe every detail.
“No you don’t.” I said with a glare.
He suddenly stepped closer, tilting my chin up as he caressed my jaw with his thumb. “I do.” He said again.
“I don’t believe you.” I whispered.
He suddenly leaned forward and ghosted his lips over mine, asking for permission. I hate you Christopher.
I nodded, giving him permission to kiss me. He pressed his lips into mine so gently, so perfectly. My hands went around the back of his neck and into his hair, pushing him impossibly closer.
When the kiss broke he leaned his forehead against mine. “Do you believe me now?” He asked, his voice almost a whisper.
“I don’t know.” I said honestly, avoiding his gaze again as I looked down.
“Tell me what I need to do.” He said desperately. His hand rubbed circles on my thigh.
“Can you take me home?” I asked, finally meeting his eyes.
“Of course, baby.” He said lifting me up from the counter and placing me back on my feet.
He walked behind me with his hand on my hip as we navigated through the crowd and outside. He took his keys out of the pocket of his sweatpants and clicked the unlock button.
I was about to open the passenger door when he stopped me and opened it for me. He always insisted on doing that.
I settled into the passenger seat and looked out the window as he started the car. The only sounds heard were the hum of the car and the quiet music playing over the radio.
He eventually pulled into my driveway, the car coming to a stop. I looked at my house, lost in thought for a moment.
“You wanna come in?” I asked turning to him.
“Thought you’d never ask.” He said getting out of the car and running to my side to open my door.
I giggle at his antics. “You’re so stupid.”
“You love me.” He said with a playful smirk.
I rolled my eyes. “We’re going through my window. Mom’s home.” I explained.
He nodded and started leading me around the back of the house. He opened my window and let me climb in first before following after me.
I sat down on my bed as he looked around my room. I watched him as he inspected every detail. “Why are you acting like you’ve never been in here?” I asked with a giggle.
“Im usually focused on you when im here.” He said stepping forward to stand above me. I tilted my head up to look at him. “So pretty.” He muttered running his thumb over my bottom lip. My cheeks flushed at his actions.
“C-Chris..” I stuttered out. He looked from my lips to my eyes letting out a questioning hum. “Can we..? Please?” I asked hesitantly.
“Can we what baby? Tell me what you want.” He said, his voice dripping with seductiveness. His tumb moved from my lip to my cheek as he caressed my face.
“Please just fuck me.” I breathed out. My head tilted into his touch involuntarily.
“So needy.” He said gently pushing me back into the bed. He crawled over me, kissing my neck and collarbones. His trained hands worked on the button of my jeans, never lifting his mouth from my neck.
I gasped as he yanked my pants down. I felt him smirk against my skin. He finally stood up, grabbing the hem of my shirt.
“This has to go baby.” He said looking down at me. I nodded before pulling it over my head, leaving me in my bra and panties. He trailed his hands over my curves. “So beautiful.” He breathed.
He pulled his shirt off before grabbing my legs and dragging me to the edge of the bed. He got down onto his knees and trailed kisses over my thighs. I whimpered in anticipation.
“You’re so desperate. How cute.” He chuckled against my skin as his mouth trailed painfully slow to where I needed it most. I gasp as he kisses my clit through the cloth of my panties.
“Please..stop teasing.” I whined in frustration, trying to push myself into his face. He grabbed my thighs and held me in place.
“Behave or I wont give you what you want.” He said sternly. I nodded in agreement, only because I was so desperate for any sort of touch from him. He kissed my thigh again then moved further up to take the hem of my panties in his teeth before tugging them down. I reached behind my back and unclasped my bra, tossing it onto the floor.
His tongue flicked over my clit making me arch my back with a throaty moan.
“I’ve barely even touched you, baby.” He chuckled. “You’re so sensitive.” He teased before licking a stripe between my folds. I high pitched moan fell from my lips as he licked figure eights over my clit.
“Shhhhh” He hushed. “You’re gonna wake up your mom, princess.” I nodded and bit my lip in attempt to keep my moans in. He continued the movement of his tongue, every lick building onto the pressure in my abdomen.
“Chris..need to- please.” My words came out in mixed rambles as my mind went blank. His nose grazed my clit with every lick. My legs shook as the band in my abdomen threatened to snap at any moment.
“Cum in my mouth, baby.” He purred as his movements sped up. My back arched and my eyes rolled as I struggled to stay quiet. My hand gripped desperately onto his hair as my orgasm washed over me.
I looked down at him, he lifted his head to meet my gaze, chin and lips soaked with my juices. My body continued to quiver with the intensity of my orgasm. “You’re so fucking good at that.”
“I know.” He said with a smirk. He stood up, the bulge in his pants unmistakable. “Hands and knees. Now.” He commanded as he worked on his belt. I obeyed him without question and got onto my hands and knees, ass to him. “Such a good girl.” He praised, massaging my ass with his hands.
I whined as I felt him press his tip against my entrance. “This what you want, mama?” He coo’ed. I nodded, he suddenly slapped my ass. “Words, baby girl. Wanna hear you say it.” He muttered.
“I want you inside me. Please.” I moan out my words, my ass stinging from his harsh smack. He groans at my words before pushing into me slowly.
“Fuck….such a perfect pussy..so fuckin’ tight.” He moaned leaning forward to cover my mouth with his right hand, his right gripped tightly to my hip. He thrusted into me fast, giving me no time to adjust.
I moaned into his hand as my eyes started to water. His tip slammed against my cervix with each thrust, the pain was so pleasurable. He leaned down to whisper in my ear.
“You feel that, baby? Feel how deep I am?” His words were punctuated by a groan. I nodded due to my inability to speak. “Gonna cum so deep inside you princess.” He muttered into my ear, making me moan into his hand.
My legs shook again as another orgasm threatened to rip out of me. His tip rubbed against my g-spot triggering my release. I screamed out a moan that was muffled into his hand. I felt him twitch inside me, meaning he was close.
He thrusted for the last time, slamming into my cervix as he painted my walls white. He let out a groan of relief before standing up and pulling out. I whimpered as he slipped out of me.
“You did so good for me. Took me so fuckin’ well, mama.” He praised as he pulled his boxers back on. I turned over and laid on my back panting heavily. He picked up my panties and tossed them at me.
“Thank you.” I said grabbing them before sitting up and sliding them up my legs. He laid back onto the bed. I laid next to him resting my head on his chest. “Missed you.” I murmured.
He smiled. “I missed you too, baby.” He whispered before kissing my forehead. We stayed there for awhile before it got really late and he had to go home. He put his clothes on and I put on a hoodie. He climbed out of the window before starting to leave. “Chris.” I called out to him leaning out of the window.
“Hm?” He hummed walking back to my window. I leaned in and kissed him. He kissed me back, his tongue exploring my mouth. I pulled back, my fingers running through his hair. I rested my forehead against his. “I love you.” I whispered.
He chuckled. “I love you too, baby.” He said with a smile.
A/N: do yall fw this or what. Lmk.
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girl help I just wanna read pokemon fic but I have to do a mock exam :(
help I just wanna play splatoon but I have to revise :(
#I made the mistake of reading a 16k thing with lunch today#after getting up late. it’s now 2:25pm.#this mock exam is FOUR HOURS LONG and I don’t know if I have it in me but I have to do it today#bc I’m going home Friday morning so I have shit to do tomorrow. can’t do it at home just won’t happen.#and if I wait until I’m back it’ll be too late to get feedback#and I was so prepared yesterday I went to bed on time and did my work and was feeling good abt it#but then I wake up today randomly at 6am?? sun is RISING and I’ve already opened the curtains by the time I’m conscious#so I’m convinced my alarm had already gone off and I’m being insane despite the fact that THE SUN WAS RISING#I then realise it’s 6am. internal war rages. decide I’m too sleepy to get anything done and promptly pass out until 9:30#but don’t move my phone away from my bed so I manage to not get out of bed until 11:30 :)#it’s not even that late!! on a normal day this would be fine I’d just start working now and be chill with it but#the real exam is 8 hours so I’d prefer to sit down and do this one in one go which is in theory still possible I just. don’t wanna. so badly#bc four hours from now is 6:30 and I’m not honestly in the right mindset to do an exam and my head still feels fuzzy bc tired#am I severely burnt out? MAYBE.#unfortunately this is not the kind of burnout that can be fixed by a week at home when I won’t be able to Not work anyway#and I have a month left to go when I can’t Not be doing shit bc if I don’t I will actually fuck up my exams and I pretty badly need to not#I know the solution to my problem today is just to start doing the exam (2 essays) and split it up if I need to but that’s. so frustrating#the things I would give to be able to just fuck off for a while and catch my breath#god. maybe a phd is a bad idea.#okay no thoughts for another day + what will I be able to do otherwise + project work is different to This.#okay fine. FINE. I will sit here I’ll do the exam at home and pray that’s not a bad idea. and if I start around 3pm I’ll be done by 7#and if I can’t focus the whole time I can just give myself some extra time tonight after I’ve eaten or like tomorrow morning or smth#but unfortunately I do have to do this today and any amount that I can do on it will help me even if I can’t manage it in one go rn#save me pokemon lo-fi sinnoh mix#luke.txt
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Oh PLEASE post it! Almost every time I see an au or a fic that diverges significantly from canon that I like, I Always think about what the canon reactions to that universe would be and I've had Many thoughts about the cc universe crossover, a lot because there are so many points in time that would change what the crossover would look like
Because you could do it in cl or cw. But I myself do have this concept in my head for a crossover that happens in the middle of cl, where canon Donnie sends the others to the cc dimension. Maybe even During the closet thing. At first they don't find it Super suspicious that the other Donnie doesn't really seem to be... Around at all? Because they don't really know how cdonnie set this up, maybe he's somehow in contact with ccdonnie and that's how they made connections between these two dimensions in particular and they're both managing the situation behind the scenes.
Leo does express his old reliable gut instinct that something is wrong but Raph's just like "there's carbon copies of us standing in front of us. It's Gonna feel a bit weird"
So they all split off and compare notes. I feel like ccMikey would have the least to say about it but if Donnie did come up he'd be like "yeah Donnie's just been so... DONNIE lately. You know how it is" and cMikey would think that just means he's been like... Not taking breaks and stuff. They basically have two different conversations about it without realizing.
CcRaph would probably mention how disappointed he is in Donnie, that he hasn't been being a team player, especially lately and like cRaph gets that frustration
Then Leo's over here, the ccLeo makes an annoyed comment about that time Donnie "stole medicine" and cLeo's like "... For his experiments? For his experiments right? Haha yeah he should be doing that haha..." ccLeo's like "nah he threw up or some shit." And that has cLeo over here like °<°
Cut to him rushing over to his brothers like "you guys I was right! Something is DEEPLY FUCKED"
But there are Several avenues this could go and I would Love to see what you've come up with for it! And honestly I haven't even considered Donnie being the one to switch places. Foaming at the mouth rn. I Love canon crossovers!
THIS IS ACTUALLY A REALLY COOL CONCEPT i shouldve thought of it ,,,, the comic im nearly done with is post-movie but your enthusiasm is heard frrr here's a preview
cc!leo my beloved mess
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