#honestly I hate writing out tags

[captora]

I wonder what they’re talking about?

[jewelulu]

Here comes Jewel for the twst stitch event!! Shhh I know I broke the rules for this a bit but she’s matching with Grim in sprit! (she’s loyal to her clothing color palette)

Honestly this took longer than I expected, it was supposed to be finish like three days ago

But where there’s water there is chaos bound to happen:

Also nice little Jewel fun fact… she indeed cannot swim!

I actually got lazy by the time I drew this one out

Taglist: @skriblee-ksk

[mbat]

i literally read the book of bill days ago but its only now kinda hitting me how fucked ford and bills whole thing was though cause ford literally talks about being so unable to sleep (to try to keep bill away), and when sleep inevitably caught up to him, he would wake up to his body abused and things messed with and he just couldnt seem to find an escape (and he literally didnt get to truly escape until 30 years later)

(also keeping people awake for unhealthily long periods of time is another tactic used to mess with and control people because of how it impairs brain function)

listing off the things we see in those few pages in the book of bill:

i mean, punching and scratching at a steel door for hours would be so damaging to your hands and probably hurt like hell for at least 2 days after. then bill says he was hitting fords head against a wall, though its said in a post-it as if its a joke, but he also isnt exactly above doing that, and honestly he says most things like its a joke.

i also dont need to say 'bill really doesnt know how to take no for an answer' because he makes that very clear in literally any interaction we see with him.

bill literally puts a venomous snake near ford while fords asleep, which could have killed him if he wasnt lucky+skilled enough to deal with it.

he nearly gives ford hypothermia, and in the same action actively threatens ford with the idea of making him jump off of a high spot, and like ford says, doesnt do it just so he can send a message to ford about how hes the one in control.

he gets ford in trouble with not only the law, but also with other people that are probably not very happy with him after. he mutilates fords body in several ways, and i dont think i need to go into detail on them because theyre... so ew. and he even exposes part of fords body to the world. like, its just taking his shirt off, but thats still showing off his body in a way that he didnt agree to or want

and then he attempts to (or purposefully fails to) call stan, using fords voice to threaten suicide and tell stan that ford never loved him.

and he punctuates it with a final power move, in a hallucination that he creates, hes messing with stans memories and making him feel like his body was basically about to implode

and like. okay, we all joke about toxic old man yaoi, and its a good joke and toxic old man yaoi is great and its an interesting ship, but holy fuck.

like. to say the absolute least, that had to be so, so deeply violating. its no wonder that when we see ford in the past, when he finally contacts stan, he looks like hes on the verge of shattering into a million pieces. he just went through, and still wasnt yet out of, some deeply abusive shit.

like... everything coming out lately both in this book and what ive heard is on the website, mixed with what we already knew from the show itself... the stans are both so, so fucking tragic dude. their whole lives were thrown away over things that really didnt even need to be the way they were, and then they both get into situations that are pretty damn screwed, and those situations follow them for the rest of their lives. its basically a miracle that things worked out in the end for them.

i dont really have a point, i just had to talk about all that. i read almost all of the book of bill in one sitting, and while i was really enjoying it, i was also getting kind of tired of sitting in one spot only doing this one thing for several hours straight. i still felt a lot of the emotional bits of it of course, but man this part specifically just really didnt hit me until now.

i mean, to say the absolute least, i know what its like to feel violated in a similar way, though not anywhere near to the extent of what he went through at all. someone get that man some therapy got damn

[purpleponder]

Next step is to learn how to draw guns, then learn how to draw comics…

Speed paint under the cut, also a close up

I was getting frustrated on how to draw this so I messed around on the shading, I think it ended up looking decent tho.

[harrowscore]

why are you, as an adult in 2024, still hung up on reylo. why are you still mocking the shippers. why do you believe yourself to be superior only because you dislike a stupid ship from a fucking space fairytale. girl (gnc) get a grip

[werewolfsmile]

Not me over here just casually coming up with a dark fic idea aka The Worst Thing Eliot Ever Did (For Damien Moreau). I know there are heaps of theories out there already. But this idea ... I am probably gonna end up writing it one day.

Yes it's dark. Yes it involves kids. Yes it will hurt. A lot.

I have no regrets.

[guppygiggles]

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[novelconcepts]

The fucking choking noise I made when I tuned into a podcast for my run and heard a recent favorite actor go, “I’m still on Tumblr, don’t tell anyone.”

[hiemaldesirae]

old art i need to redraw (posting these now bc the first redraw is almost done cackles)

[loserboyfriendrjl]

dorcas realising they like marlene while watching her making out with another person

"are you okay, cas?" evan asked, looking at dorcas with a huge grin. "what happened, love? too stunned to speak? cat got your tongue?"

dorcas wondered what exactly made her decide that going to the gryffindor tower, to mckinnon's birthday party, was a good idea. now, their drink was spilled all over the floor (had she crushed it in her fist?), and their eyes were fixed on her, sitting in the lap of a hufflepuff girl they had only seen in passing.

mckinnon, sitting on the lap of a hufflepuff girl.

making out with her.

"fuck off, evan," they said through gritted teeth.

maybe she should have stayed in the common room with regulus. they could have read together, done some homework (which included regulus helping her with arithmancy), smoked some cigarettes (regulus had the habit of serving himself from dorcas' whenever he felt like it).

in other words, they could have done anything but attend the party.

and it wasn't like dorcas liked mckinnon. they hated her, loathed her, despised her to every atom. they hated her blonde mullet, her hazel, black-rimmed eyes, her stupid face and plump lips.

yet what was the ache in her chest when she saw mckinnon with that girl? what was hurt that she felt? why did she want to be in the hufflepuff girl's place?—

oh.

oh shit.

[electricbluebutterflies]

Oh I just love when creative burnout hits...

(Tag rant below / why am I like this...)

[faithfromanewperspective]

feel like as a pdaer the number one thing that sets me off is when (and this happens all the time) the interests/needs of some people conflict in any way with the interests/needs of other people because it's the two things i want the most (autonomy (as in for everyone) and connection) clashing and like. i need both; it's like a sensory profile. or when someone's desires don't match up with their deeper needs and i can tell that, that either they're not self aware enough to know it or are set on self-destructing and i can't connect and get into their heads to try help problem-solve. and then my surroundings can't feel in balance with the autonomy and connection (of me but also of everyone because i need emotional boundaries but i don't know how to build them when i'm dysregulated) i need.

but i'm wondering if actually, though they have roots in my pda profile, that because not all pdaers experience this and many of us are actually quite hostile (and i am, to power structures. iykyk) which seems like the opposite (it's not imo but that's a whole other argument)--if for me it's something my unmet needs attached themselves to in my head, rather than something i actually need met in order to be happy (impossible). if i figured out somewhere along the line that in order to get the autonomy and connection i need this is most likely to happen if every other person in the room feels that same sense of autonomy and connection and balance and peace and is therefore open to connect and isn't gonna take my autonomy away to feel like they have more. and so little me just constantly schemed on how to meet this for everyone and absorbed their emotions as my own in order to do so and now i can't turn it off

[lonely--seeker]

Saw op red film today and firstly, I enjoyed the movie, really did. Secondly tho, why do I feel there was so much, so much, potential lost?? Can I trust fanfiction will fix this?

[armafidelium]

something i look forward to hopefully exploring in his phel's canon verse is him gaining trust in others and kinda just . . . learning to be a person outside of his duty. we'll see how long that kinda stuff takes but i enjoy exploration like that

[catastrxblues]

good morning it is now 4 am and i have just finished watching atonement good night

[crossbackpoke-check]

do you really believe in him? is he a good kid? no problems? you're gonna love him. you're gonna love him.