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cranberryjuice-posts · 9 months ago

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-She likes a boy-

Pairings - clarisse x fem! reader

An - You like a Boy clarisse likes you

You laid on top of clarisse as you continued to swoon over her brother. As you continued your love sick antics clarisse had been debating for the past half hour on taking her spear and using it to put herself out of her misery.

“You realize he leaves his underwear around right” clarisse scoffed and inspected her now polished spear with her free hand wrapping itself around your waisr. You rolled your eyes and scoffed. “Whatever”

“The other day though henry he came up to me right!” You continued now sitting up on the girls toned waist, she just nodded following along. “He’s like 5’10 right and so I was trying to-”

Clarisse Just tuned you out, she didn’t understand what you saw in her brother. He was loud rude a player and so what if he was 5’9 she was 5’10 big shit. It’s not like height matters anyways. She knew someone like henry didn’t deserve you— shit she was pretty sure no one deserved someone as perfect as you.

“— and then he kissed me! He’s just so- Clarisse your not listening” You complained which brought the girl back to earth.

“I was” clarisse spoke in retaliation.

“Oh yeah? What was I talking about hm”

“Uh.. something dumb about Henry helping you grab a book or something” she sarcastically spoke. You rolled your eyes, “Common lise at least try to be intrested I need your support since this is your brother, I can’t do this without you” you grabbed her cheeks squishing them softly while looking down at her. Clarisse knew she was always gonna loose when you gave her those eyes.

“Fine..” she sighed giving in. Anything was worth it if you smiled, to her atleast.

——

The following day as clarisse spun her spear in the arena you ran up to her and jumped on her excited.

“Holy shit!” Clarisse yelled as she caught you. “Dude I—” She started to go on a lecture before you squeeled excited. “Clarisse guess what guess what!” You laughed while jumping up and down..

She calmed down and sighed watching you with a raised eyebrow. “Hm?” She responded trying to sound uninterested. “He did it! Henry finally asked me out! Oh my gods it was so romantic” you continued excited.. clarisse tried to be happy for you but the overwhelming sense of dread sat in her stomach. “—And then he grabbed my waist and pulled me into a Kiss!!”

“That’s great babe” she spoke quietly,calming down you gently grabbed her arm your cheeks still flustered. “Did I say something?“ you chuckled worriedly

Clarisse nodded while putting up a façade. “Nah course just thinking of a way to threaten Henry to treat you right” she spoke in her usual aggressive tone. You rolled you eyes and teased the girl to not kill her brother.

You eventually left, she sat down on a bench near by while letting out a deep sigh. She didn’t know what the hell you saw In Henry that she didn’t already have.

———

The next few months were living hell for clarisse. How Henry talked about you behind closed doors, only sexualizing you. The way you would run up to him in the mornings instead of her like you use to.

How you two snuck off to makeout somewhere after hours. She hated how much she just hated your relationship. Your were a half Greek demigod who had the most beautiful face she’s ever seen, it pissed her off how you wasted your strawberry lipgloss on some boy who liked the chase..

At this point clarisse didn’t even know why she was angry .. you weren’t even her girlfriend.

You were at the nightly bond fire, cuddled up to Henry that you didn’t noticed how he was stairing off at other girls. Clarisse however did. She got up and jerked Henry’s shoulder back making you sit up and him almost fall.

“Clarisse what the fuck!” He yelled, Henry started to fix his jacket rather than check if you were ok.

“Let’s Go we Need to talk” she grabbed his arm not letting him even get a word in.

Clarisse threw her brother against a tree before quickly spinning her spear off her back and stabbing it into the tree by Henry’s head. “You keep on fucking around with y/n and if you break her heart” she turned her spear in the tree starting up it’s electric current— finishing her threat for her.

Henry laughed in response calling clarisses bluff. “Your just mad that she wants me and not you” Clarisse furrowed her eyebrows before giving him a misleading smile.. she backed up pulling her spear out of the tree. She looked up at the spear watching the electricity fly out of it. “Know what, your right.. I am mad” she looked back with a smile before jabbing her spear into Henry’s gut.

Clarisse returned to the campfire, she place she jacked around you once she realized how cold you were. “Thanks” you smiled at her, leaning on her shoulder once she sat down. “Wheres Henry” You asked confused.

Clarisse wrapped a hand around your waist. “Oh him? He got sick needed to go back to the cabin”

“Oh.. we’ll tell him I said love you when you go back ok?”

“Mhm ok”

———

Reluctantly she let you go so you could return to your cabin. Clarisse watched as you left, sighing she turned around however only to be met with silena.

The daughter of Aphrodite had her arms crossed while looking up at clarisse angrily. “Your not sly”

“Wasn’t trying to be”

“I saw you clarisse” silena gave her a harsh look. Clarisse bit the inside of her cheeks embarrassed and irritated. “Don’t know what your talking about” she continued.

“Stabbing your brother with your spear might make you remeber” she stepped closer to the girl. “Your my bestfriend and so is y/n, if you love her then tell her but don’t hurt her boyfriend and your brother.”

Clarisse looked down at silena not wanting to step down from where she stood. “It’s not That easy silena”

“And Why’s That?”

“Because did it ever occur to you that she likes a boy and incase you didn’t see I’m not a fucking boy”

Clarisse shoved past silena not really caring to be gentle. She was just gonna have to deal with the fact that, she was yours but you weren’t hers.

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welcometothejianghu · 29 days ago

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Welcome to another round of W2 Tells You What You Should See, where W2 (me) tries to sell you (you) on something you should be watching. Today's choice: 某某 / Mou Mou / The On1y One

The On1y One is a 2024 Taiwanese coming-of-age drama about two high school students who fall in love, but more importantly, become friends -- and oh, they're also living in the same house now, because their parents have decided to get married.

Let's get this part out of the way: Yes, they're (almost) stepbrothers. No, that is not a kink thing at all, especially since they meet and start having complicated emotions about one another before they know their parents are together. Look, I had a childhood acquaintance promoted to stepsibling when I was in high school too, and I can tell you that your feelings about someone do not immediately jump to close family status just because your mom likes their dad. This is a show about how becoming a family; it is not a show about fucking your family.

Here are five reasons I think you should absolutely watch this twelve-episode drama -- and they're going to be as spoiler-free as I can make them, largely because...

1. Holy shit, it's ... actually good?

Believe me, no one could be as shocked as I was to find out this was a thing of actual quality. I first found out about this as 'hey, the handsome doctor from House Haunters is in a Taiwanese BL about high-schoolers' -- which of course sold me on it immediately, as I thought Liu Dongqin was the absolute highlight of the beautiful disaster that is Psych-Hunter, but which also, you must admit, sounds more like a novelty than a real thing of objective value.

Thus, I was prepared for trash! More accurately, I was prepared to enjoy trash. I am clearly on record as a trash-enjoyer. I was going to tuck in and gleefully laugh my way through awkward antics just to see that handsome boy kiss another boy.

Which means I was not prepared to be knocked off my feet by how thoughtful, intense, well-acted, and damn beautiful this series is. It's good. It's actually good. It is, like Beyond Evil, a thing you could put in front of Your Average American Television Enjoyer Who Can Handle Subtitles (And Boys Kissing) without having to apologize every five seconds about the jank. It's stunningly lit. It's chunked into episodes that have reasons to be episodes. It's well-written in a way that even comes through the translation.

Here's a clue to its quality: It's directed by Liu Kuang-Hui, known for Your Name Engraved Herein, an explictly gay film released in 2020 that won, like, all the awards -- which it fucking deserved to. (You don't need to have seen Your Name to watch this, but I think if you have, it adds an extra layer of meaning.) This is a BL made by someone who understands how being a teen boy in love with another teen boy is like being expected to walk around with a knife in your stomach while you pretend everything's fine.

But this is not a show about misery! It is a show about building connections, learning to trust, getting over yourself, and finding joy in taking care of other people. Maybe that sounds a little grandiose for a tiny Taiwanese BL, but it's not an exaggeration. When this drama bills itself as a coming-of-age narrative, it means it's going headfirst into the beautiful hell of being seventeen.

Keep those tissues on hand. You'll need them.

2. What if you fell in love with someone you also liked?

This is a true cat4cat relationship -- but different cat personalities! Finally, diverse cat representation!

Jiang Tian is a feral kitty who has spent so long telling everyone he hates them that he has no idea how to convey that he likes someone, and thus spends the first several episodes basically dropping dead birds at Sheng Wang's feet. Don't let his stoic nature fool you -- he's exactly as into this as (and much sooner than) the much more demonstrative Sheng Wang. Episodes end with little scenes you saw earlier, but recontextualized from Jiang Tian's perspective. So don't ever worry that Jiang Tian's being taken advantage of or coerced in any way. The boy has agency, and he uses it.

Meanwhile Sheng Wang is like a pampered little housecat who only eats wet food and sulks about everything -- but he's earned at least some of it, as he's clearly dealing with some major life upheavals. New city! New school! New friends! New house! New stepmom! New stepbrother! New and horrible things his teenage body is doing to him! So it's not surprising that he's clinging to what familiar comforts he has, even if it means being a total bitch about it.

And they become friends. That's the great part. This is a love story, but it's a love story where the love is friend-shaped. If anything, the friendship is the more important (and visible) aspect of the dynamic. It's not saying that one is more righteous or correct than the other -- it's saying that friendship is part of romantic love! Maybe it's even the best part of it! Maybe the only thing better than falling in love is making your crush your best friend and then falling in love with them.

It gets to the point where they spend most of their time not thinking about being in love with one another because they're such good friends. This is just what having a best friend is like, right?

(Jiang Tian knows it is not just what having a best friend is like. Jiang Tian is constantly chewing glass because he's sure friendship is the best he's going to get out of this, and also it's the best friendship he's ever had, and if that's all he gets -- and it will be, he's sure of it -- it'll be enough. It'll have to be.)

My favorite parts of their relationship are when Sheng Wang and Jiang Tian get to just enjoy spending time with one another as complete goobers. They're such teen boys! I mean, they're teen boys from very particular circumstances that have made them have to grow up fast, so it's great when they just get to regress around one another and act their age. The whole scene at the carnival is by itself worth the price of admission.

Look, here's some more shots of them being cute at one another. Don't let Jiang Tian's stoic face in the other pictures fool you. He's capable of making expressions, and it's so good when he does.

See?

3. This, too, is yuri

I mean, shit, you make a gay teacher and I'm already there. You make two gay teachers and I'm going to love you forever. Then you make them both gay teachers and gay owners of a little gay cafe? I don't know if my little trope-loving heart can take it!

Enter Zhao Xi and Lin Tingbei ("Benny").

From the moment you meet these two, it is obvious to you, the viewer, that they are a married couple. Except they're not. They're not married. They're not even a couple. It took me like nine episodes to realize that the reason they're acting so weird is not that they're trying to hide their relationship from other people, but that they're not in a relationship. They are mutually pining for one another and have no idea that the other one is having similar feelings.

Sorry, I have to go feral about these two sapphic-coded gay men for a moment: You two had an incredible meet-cute, went abroad at the same time, came back together, opened a cafe together, call one another "partner," have rainbow motifs on various visible objects in your life, AND YOU STILL ARE UNAWARE THAT YOU'RE BOTH IN LOVE WITH ONE ANOTHER

I can't stress this enough: When you meet them, your first thought is, oh, you two are married. MARRIED. Not just dating, but comfortably wedded. I kept expecting one of them to have a gentle After-School Special moment he tells the children, no, we're life partners as well as business partners. But they didn't! And do you know why? It's because THEY DON'T EVEN SEEM TO KNOW THAT THE OTHER ONE IS ALSO GAY

The only thing that makes sense is that they're both male lesbians. This is some Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko! shit right here. How do you unknowingly wind up in what is basically a marriage with man you've never even kissed? I don't know, but they've somehow managed to do it. It's insane. It's incredible.

I don't even feel like I'm spoiling you for anything here! Like, I wish I'd known from the start they weren't actually together, because I was baffled by their side plot for fully three-quarters of the series. Why are they behaving like this? Why are you being weirdly jealous about the hot lady teacher? Oh, it's because YOU DON'T KNOW YOU'RE HUSBANDS, THAT'S WHAT MAKES YOU HUSBANDS

WE GOT DOUBLE MUTUAL PINING HERE, FOLKS, DOUBLE MUTUAL PINING, TWO SUCCESSIVE GENERATIONS OF GAY DIPSHITS WHO ARE AS BAD AS YOU CAN BE ABOUT FEELINGS WITHOUT IMMEDIATELY DYING OF IT

Sorry about the caps lock, just ... I'll be over here screaming into a pillow about it, okay? Okay, thanks.

4. Actual Teen Feelings

So nobody in this production is an actual teenager; both leads were just on the underside of thirty when it filmed, and all the other "kids" are at least in their mid-twenties.

And honestly, I like the aged-up casting better, since ... look, I'm over forty, and I just don't find the youths as attractive as I did when I was much closer to that age. Seeing actual 16- and 17-year-olds do this would have given me the ick. So I feel kind of like, this is a teen story told for adults, and the way it does that is by giving you actors that embody how cool you thought your peers looked when you were that age, and not how gangly and awkward everyone actually looked.

I've described the behavior of the teen characters as "rationally irrational" -- like, you know that the decisions they're making are bad, and they kind of know it too, but you also get that they don't have the regulatory mechaisms to compensate for when their hormones tell them it's time to sulk, or or talk back, or lie, or do something reckless. They're stupid teens, but they're not stupid because the writing is stupid. They're stupid because the writing is good and knows exactly how stupid teens are.

And of course this is most visible with our boys, who are complete dipshits in some very rationally irrational ways.

I alluded earlier to the fact that I have stepsiblings, and that I acquired them during my teen years, so yeah, a lot of the complicated stepfamily dynamics hit hard for me. Sheng Wang's mother is dead, and he's being a sulky baby about it because he (kind of correctly!) feels like his dad both is trying to replace her and has started paying attention more to his new partner than to his son. Sure, an adult with more coping mechanisms would be able to handle it without being a dick to everyone around them. But he's not an adult -- but also he's not not an adult? He's in that awful place of adolescence where you feel all grown up, but people still keep making huge life decisions for you. I remember it; it sucks.

Meanwhile Jiang Tian's father is still alive, but that's complicated too and has led to Jiang Tian's being kind of estranged from both his divorced parents. His then becomes a story less about how to get along with your new stepfather, and more how to reconcile with a mother who wasn't always in a place to make the best decisions for you she could, as you are yourself approaching the age she was when she made those decisions.

It's just so many feelings! Just a giant fucked-up Sargasso Sea of feelings! Every nerve is raw and every emotion is like staring straight at the sun! So many characters are completely at the mercy of their worst instincts, to the point where you can't even be mad because, yeah, if I had no ability to tell my most visceral intrusive thoughts to go away, I'd be ruining my own life left and right too.

Also, you are not prepared for the parts with boners. I say no more.

bonus: LUCKY CAT!!!

When was the last time you saw a fat character in a piece of Asian media -- or a piece of any media -- who was just allowed to be fat in peace? Whose fatness was not the constant butt of jokes? Who was not depicted always (comedically) eating? Who wasn't thrown into the mix just so their sexual/romantic interest in some skinny person could be turned into gross-out moments?

Lucky Cat is the best. Her students call her Lucky Cat because she's always cheerful and she does a precious little paw thing. The name is meant to be endearing! They like her, and she's portrayed consistently as a good educator and generally nice person to be around. She's fashionable, too! She has the cutest little outfits!

And she's fat! It's just a thing about her not worth commenting upon! Shit, I wish the show's lack of commentary weren't worth my commenting upon, except, ugh, you know it is. It's even more so worth saying because I've seen her in something else where she was exactly what she isn't here, and it was vile. The contrast is incredible.

Love you, girl, one fat, overcaffeinated educator to another.

5. Delicious(ly timed) pining

I want to talk about the structure of the show for a moment, and I'm going to try and do it as spoiler-free as I can. Even so, this gets into territory that you might be better off going into blind, especially if you like the tension of not knowing where a love story is going. If you're convinced already that you need to watch this show, skip this section -- scroll right down to the picture of a pitcher and glass of lemon water on a kitchen counter.

Go on, now, get.

However, if you're still on the fence about watching it, though (or if you've seen it already and just like reading my thoughts on it!), here's a very slightly spoilery selling point for you:

Normally, BL shows are all about waiting for the moment those boys finally realize what's up and kiss one another. The On1y One makes what I think is a brilliant decision to frontload the kissing. These boys smooch twice all the way up in episode 2 -- but under circumstances that are, respectively, a dare and a faux-casual demonstration that the dare didn't mean anything.

And that's it. They don't kiss again.

I think this is such a good choice because it makes those boys spend the entire rest of the show with three thoughts in their heads: we have already kissed; it didn't mean anything to him; I think it might mean something to me. Their entire friendship is colored by the knowledge that, yeah, that happened. If anything, it makes the BL-style waiting even more glorious, because now it's not about wondering if I kissed him, what would he do? but about wondering if I kissed him again, would it still be a joke to him?

There's also some very good asymmetry in there, in how Jiang Tian is clearly already the world's greatest expert at stuffing his gay desires into a little box and not making them anyone else's problem, while Sheng Wang is having a sexual awakening in real time.

You figure out very near the end why Jiang Tian has a complicated relationship to his own gay longings, and boy, is it a hell of a reason. I know we joke about characters who are both gay and homophobic, and I don't want to call him homophobic, because that's not it. But you definitely get to see why, of all his locked-down feelings, he's locked the gay ones down hardest of all.

Meanwhile Sheng Wang is popular, has friends, has surely been on a number of cute and chaste little dates, has probably even kissed a couple very nice girls -- and has clearly never had a horny thought in his entire life before now. He is both falling in love and figuring out what makes him hard at the same time, and oh boy, that is some rough shit to hit at seventeen. You get to see him recontextualize those kisses several times, slowly putting names to the emotions he didn't know he was having. And when he does finally understand the extent of what he's feeling, he makes a stupid decision about it, because of course he does. He's seventeen. Stupid decisions come with the territory.

Anyway, once they finally get to fucking, Sheng Wang is going to be the lord high king of the bratty bottoms. Just an absolute menace. He's got Jiang Tian's number so hard, and Jiang Tian is going to love suffering through every minute of it.

Okay, did you scroll down? Here's a little more spoiler buffer! Hi! How are you doing today? I'm having fun writing this. I hope you'll like watching it. There, that should be enough.

caveat: This is not an ending.

I need to stress how much this is clearly made to be a part one of more, and also how a second season has not been announced and thus is not guaranteed. I am being optimistic based on a) how good it is, b) how much clout the director has, and c) the fact that it's so new, it makes sense that further installments might not be announced yet. But if an unfinished (and possibly never-finished) series bothers you, maybe put this one in your pocket for later.

But oh, this show needs a second season. I am burning incense to the television gods in hope that it gets a second season.

Want to tuck in for some actual good television?

This one is wonderfully easy to find. We watched it on GagaOOLala, but you can also find it on AppleTV, WeTV, Viki, and iQiyi.

Back to the Your Name Engraved Herein connection: The On1y One reads to me in many ways like a celebration of how far Taiwanese culture has come about gay people. Like, things still absolutely aren't perfect in 2012, when this show is set, but at the same time, it's no longer 1987 -- which was the homophobic, hopeless world Liu Kuang-Hui grew up in. If Your Name tells the story of what actually happened, this series tells the story of what the person that all happened to imagines things could be like today. It's so hopeful it makes me choke up a little thinking about it.

Bah, just go watch it. Do it! Go! There's links right up there!

Gay thoughts say peek-a-boo.

#The On1y One #mou mou #moumou #某某 #rec post #i made this

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destiny-in-the-universe · 1 month ago

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A Fox and A Dog: TOTNT Analysis

I'm working on the last two fics I need to be up to speed to Whumptober, holy shit-

I still need to go back and continue updating the older fics so I can properly be a completionist, but since I chose a certain K-Drama as the winner of this silly, little prompt - I couldn't go without saying this. Lee Yeon has me frothing at the mouth because a; he does care about Lee Rang, and while this is not the center of the series, it's still so important and b; in a completely unrelated note, the scene where Lee Rang protects and saves the Labrador puppy from the baseball players has me snarling and clawing at my enclosure.

I also refuse to accept Yeon was the sole responsible reason for how Rang turned out because while yes, Rang was in fact, hurt and betrayed - his behavior was also completely unpredictable and dare I say, disproportionate. Though holy cow, Rang being such a wet fox is such a foundation for what I'm writing.

There's something very particular he says in one episode, specifically episode 5 where he mentions having lived too long has made him bored; and admits he's unimpressed, uninterested in anything he eats or buys. Even bigger and what I feel is most important: he's sick and tired of waking up, and my goodness, someone get this boy some therapy because he needs it a lot. There's a lot that's said about him in that episode and it's something I began to notice from when he caught the sound of the dog in pain.

Rang's behavior is extremely erratic and while most of it seems to be done for shits and giggles, there's a point to it: other than my headcanon he has the signs of Borderline Personality Disorder, he's also depressed. I want to highlight the scene with the dog in this post so a lot of what happens in future episodes isn't relevant! For one thing, when Ki Yuri tries to have him take the dog in: his eyes shift and darken before admitting he doesn't want to.

Dogs live short lives and it all goes back to Geomdung (which means "Blackie") which boy, Rang really loved that pup. We're given more of a clear reason of what a young Rang had to do, if it meant putting that puppy out of its own misery. Though in doing so, he also can't bring himself to care again because why would he? Why hold sentimental value for something he'll just lose again?

Though he still went out of his way to save the Labrador puppy, and tormented the baseball player. Lee Rang's defined by his own trauma, but he also never quite had someone to pull him out of it and instead, acts out in order to fill that hole. He's also a fox and I will talk about this later, but he also taunts and plays with the lives of others.

There's also something I wanted to bring up from an earlier episode where he attempts to goad Yeon into killing him, if it means getting rid of the one obstacle preventing Yeon from finding Aeum's reincarnation (the yet-to-be-revealed Nam Jiah), and here's the thing: it almost like he wants to let Yeon kill him. Though does he?

Rang's character is so intricately designed and it makes him so much more of an interesting individual, hence the fic I'm working on - although it might take a bit before its release.

#destiny talks #infodumping #infodump #media commentary #media analysis #character analysis #korean drama #k drama #tale of the nine tailed #season one #1x05 #totnt 1x05 #lee rang #lee yeon #analysis #meta analysis #hyperfixation #im hyperfixating again #can you tell im hyperfixating

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autisticandroids · 3 months ago

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someone sent me an ask about soulless sam and in order to successfully answer it i actually have to give my opinions on soulless jack. basically this post is about what being soulless "means" in different episodes and whether it actually matters that jack is soulless.

i'm only going to talk about s14 because i don't have a lot of respect for s15 and also it doesn't super matter that jack is soulless in s15.

so the episodes in which jack is soulless are peace of mind, don't go in the woods, game night, absence, jack in the box, and moriah.

jack's actions in those episodes are

going to see donatello about soullessness, killing the snake to put it out of its misery

playing with the girls from lebanon, trying to show off to win their approval, eventually causing them to get scared but not listening when they tell him to stop, losing control and accidentally injuring one of them, and then healing her

torturing nick to death to keep him from resurrecting lucifer while mary begs him not to, then accidentally killing mary

running away because he's freaking out, trying to resurrect mary, kidnapping and threatening rowena in the process of trying to resurrect mary

trying to be good by doing what the angels tell him without understanding that what they're telling him to do is bad, failing to show sufficient contrition for killing mary, trying to be good by doing what salmondean tell him without understanding that they mean him harm (partly because he's unable to empathize with them well enough to understand that they're angry), busting out of the box because he realizes they lied to him and mean him harm

telling everyone to stop lying, going to see his grandparents in the hope that someone out there still doesn't see him as a monster, telling cas that he can't love him back [because he's soulless], and trying to allow dean to kill him

that's not like every action he took in those episodes but i think it's all the relevant ones and i'm not rewatching that shit again. well, i probably will. but not right now.

the rest under a cut because holy shit 3k words.

so in peace of mind, it definitely matters that jack is soulless, but what that means is kind of an open question. that's the point of the episode. donatello gives this whole speech about being soulless where soullessness is primarily framed as tragic for the soulless, which makes sense, because donatello became soulless in season eleven. in season eleven, soulless characters play a dual role as both victim and problem, and so get to have way more complexity than soulless sam or soulless jack, both of whom exist narratively only as problems. watch 11x05 "thin lizzie" for my favorite example of eleven's distinct handling of soullessness. len the lizzie borden nerd losing his soul and therefore both losing his capacity for fear and his capacity for joy, which is what allows him to be heroic (because he's not afraid and also has nothing to lose), is like a perfect way to take soullessness and turn it both tragic and positive. actually sometimes when i think about spn soullessness i actually think about this hyperbole and a half comic. mostly because thin lizzie and to a lesser extent peace of mind are both playing in kind of a similar space.

so we have this tragic framing of soullessness as primarily about a kind of emptiness. but then also there's this other thing more relevant to the rest of the arc. which is donatello's framing of soullessness as "without moral guidance." this is obviously kind of silly and very spn, but it's also kind of... inherently giving the lie to the premise, isn't it. donatello asking himself "what would mr. rogers do" is in fact a kind of morality. he is able to successfully simulate moral behavior in his mind, which means... he has a sense of morality. just like anyone else's. but it does set up the way in which jack's soullessness causes problems for him later on (not just a lack of an inherent sense of morality, but also because he (maybe?) lacks an internal moral compass, where he gets his guidance becomes very important).

this is also a thing that comes up in 6x09 when dean offers to be soulless sam's jiminy cricket. more on that coming in another post.

also this introduces the concept of "what would the winchesters do" as jack's guiding light. which like. lol. that COULD be thematic. if you wanted it to be.

and then jack kills the snake which is like. totally a thing that's a result of him having a mistaken belief about what's best because he lacks an internal sense of it. which makes sense as an answer to the questions of the episode and the themes of the arc. so him being soulless matters in this one.

so being soulless matters in peace of mind and what it means here is that jack doesn't have enough moral compass to figure out what the Right Thing To Do Is, despite wanting to, so he needs to find an external moral compass to follow. it also means he feels empty and lacks emotion, which is mostly a problem for him.

then there's don't go in the woods. and this one is supposed to be about how him being soulless is Scary. there are several moments in it where we're meant to be scared on the girls' behalf, because Something Is Off With Jack.

but the thing is... jack behaves normally in dgitw. he tries to fit in with and impress some kids who are narratively framed as his own age-peers, normal kids who he would have grown up playing with if he'd lived a normal life. jack trying to fit in with and impress people is normal, he does it all the time. the fact that he does it via tools of violence (throwing knives) is offputting, but that's a result of him being raised in a bunker full of serial killers, not of him being soulless. that's what he knows. jack also loses control of his powers and injures one of the girls. which is in fact totally par for the course with jack. he doesn't have very good control of his powers, and he's very powerful. see tombstone for details. he then panics and tries to fix it. which he succeeds in doing, although the girls don't forgive him.

the only moment in dgitw where him being soulless actually seems to impact his behavior is that there's like a quick moment, just before jack loses control, where the girls from lebanon become nervous and ask him to stop messing around, and jack doesn't pay attention to them. potentially if he had, maybe he wouldn't have lost control. but even this is overstating things - the boy who is their friend remains impressed with jack and encourages him to continue to mess around. jack not immediately stopping because the girls are scared is not exactly outside the range of normal behavior, though it kind of is for jack because he is normally mr. sweetheart goodboy.

so if being soulless matter at all in dgitw, it means that jack can't quickly read, react to, and acquiesce to to emotions of others. he can't, when things are split second, notice and care about the girls' fear, and then react in the most deferent possible manner.

it's also notable that what scares the girls is jack's otherness, his powers, and not his emotional affect. which kind of matters for how all this is framed, and is again, more continuous than discontinuous with things that happen to and around jack when he is ensouled.

alright. now we've come to the big one. game night. man it doesn't matter that jack is soulless in game night at all.

jack tortures nick to death because torturing enemies to death is normal. he JUST did it to michael and everyone clapped and cheered. sam and dean torture people all the time. they love torturing people. they love killing people. they love combining the two things. the only problem here is that it's jack who is doing it. also maybe that nick is human, which means killing him is more bad for some reason.

additionally, jack has tortured a person before, the gas station kid in let the good times roll. (yes what he did was technically torture). (man not really related but you guys should watch that one jacob geller video). torturing is clearly normal and acceptable to jack. i would say this is because he was raised by serial killers who torture people all the time.

also, people freak out when jack tortures that kid too, because the idea that jack isn't capable of correct moral judgement doesn't actually start with him being soulless. jack is frequently framed as the Creepy Threatening Weirdkid Who Can't Be Trusted To Distinguish Right From Wrong throughout season thirteen, except then it's because he's not human. the idea that a soul prevents him from being like that is kind of silly given how often he's framed like that while ensouled.

killing mary is also easily something that could've happened while jack was ensouled. i direct your attention once again to tombstone. jack simply does not have very good control of his powers. he did what teenagers do: he had a moment of "i wish you were dead" type anger toward a parental figure because he was frustrated, but unfortunately, due to his godlike powers, his wish was granted. this has nothing to do with him being soulless (and in fact is kind of. antithetical to soullessness as a concept. since that should mean he shouldn't be able to get that angry).

(man. doesn't really add a lot to my analysis but the two people jack tortures and kills while not soulless are people of color. like come on. this show is so racist.)

the only moment where it MAYBE matters that jack is soulless is that mary freaks out while he's killing nick and begs him to stop and he doesn't listen, just like in dgitw. also like in dgitw, this isn't necessarily like, crazy behavior. salmondean torture people all the time. it's not insane to think that he's just asking himself "what would the winchesters do."

then in absence, jack is framed as menacing but like..... all he does is panic and try to fix what he did to mary. also it's worth it to talk about how all these episodes but ESPECIALLY absence utilize gender in order to make their case that jack is dangerous. like the fact that it's rowena he goes to and not like, cas, is because the show wants you to see him as threatening, wants you to empathize with A Woman Menaced By A Man (even though rowena is certainly in less danger from jack than, say, sam or dean would be), wants you to see threatening a woman as uniquely morally bad. but what he does in absence is just. run away, panic about the fact that he killed mary, be wracked by guilt, kidnap rowena (which, sure, bad, but the winchesters kidnap people and force them to do things for them all the time. jack has SEEN them do this. they have DONE THIS to rowena. more than once!), and try to fix mary being dead. which like. in tombstone when he killed the security guard, he also panicked, tried to get someone to fix it, then ran away. fully consistent with his ensouled actions. it does not matter at all that jack is soulless in absence. the episode frames him as scary and unsettling but his behavior is not at all different from his usual behavior.

then jack in the box. ohhhhhhh jack in the box. stupid episode. genuinely almost everything about it is bad. the buckleming special. honestly season fourteen would genuinely make more sense if you just took jack in the box out because it comes pretty much out of left field, actively contradicts a bunch of shit and is generally inconsistent with the characterization of every single character except maaaaybe cas, and then doesn't end up mattering very much. i guess i could say that i kind of like the sam stuff, in theory, but even that.... like the execution is not great. man i hate jack in the box. like, bottom ten spn episode, easily.

anyway jack being soulless ABSOLUTELY matters in jack in the box and it like...... matters in a way that impacts all of his characterization. we return to the idea of soullessness that peace of mind proposes - lack of emotion, lack of emotionally-guided moral compass, need for guidance. except that what happens in jack in the box is quite explicitly that jack, because he lacks an intrinsic, emotionally guided moral compass, takes guidance from the wrong source and does bad things. that's explicitly the issue.

and then. and then buckleming argue that jack is insufficiently contrite for killing mary. that he does not understand the harm he's caused. which like, okay, that IS consistent with the characterization of soullessness that they've gone with. but it's not consistent with everything that has happened in this arc. like, absence JUST happened. this is just clearly not... accurate. jack clearly does understand the harm he's caused, he's clearly horrified over killing mary, and in general he's been highly emotional while soulless (desperate for approval in dgitw, angry and stressed in game night, panicked and upset in absence). this characterization of soulless jack would make sense if you skipped straight from peace of mind to jack in the box but i didn't, lol.

jack is also genuinely impaired by this emotional emptiness. he is unable to accurately predict the winchesters' actions because he can't comprehend the depth of their hurt, and therefore he can't predict the depth of their anger. he also can't just tell that they're lying, because he can't directly empathize.

which honestly. is actually pretty interesting and cool. for being soulless to be portrayed as having serious personal drawbacks in this way, rather than just making you an Evil Guy. like soulless sam was a "better hunter" for some reason, even though "difficulty empathizing" would obviously cause you problems in a people-facing activity such as hunting. but jack is actually impaired by it. it's not an impairment in morality. it's an impairment in general, and one of the things it affects it the ability to act morally. which is conceptually one of the better ideas of soullessness that's presented in supernatural. joss whedon (the guy who invented soullessness) (this is why soullessness is so stupid in spn. incompetent cribbing of an already bad concept) is rolling in his cancellation-grave. that's what soullessness means in jitb.

but it's still wildly inconsistent with the rest of the arc. and stupid. and jack is throughout the episode framed soooooooooo scary it's dumb. like there's a different soulless jack arc that could exist that centers on a better version of jack in the box. but in the soulless jack arc we have, jack in the box is an incoherent diversion. a narrative cancer.

alright. okay. moriah. time to talk about moriah.

so the first thing jack does in moriah is run away again, and then he does the no lying thing. which is more about him having bad control over his powers than being soulless.

then the next thing. the next thing is the fake out with his grandparents. we once again get this moment where jack is menacing a female civilian (his grandmother) and we are supposed to be afraid for her. except..... it's a fakeout. maybe jack is harmless after all and we were being unfair, the narrative says.

then we get this:

JACK: And then I tried on my own, but every time I try, it- it never goes right. It never... All I ever wanted was to be good. But now I'm just empty. Even this. I know you're here because you love me, and I want to love you back. It's just, I can't.

so we return to soullessness as emotionlessness as personal tragedy. actually, given that andrew dabb is a consummate trekkie, i would bet you real money that this is an intentional concept-quote of lal's death scene in tng 3x16 "the offspring." jack's soullessness is fully portrayed as a personal tragedy here, not a threatening thing. it matters, but it only matters to him, not how he interfaces with the world. jack wants to be able to feel love, but he can't. he can't feel and this is sad.

his soullessness may impact his decision to let dean kill him, but it may not. jack is routinely suicidal while ensouled, very happy to accept that he deserves to die for various things, starting way back in 13x02. this isn't outside the range of normal for him. but on the other hand, he could be like len in thin lizzie - willing to destroy himself because he has no fear and nothing to lose. it could be the soullessness talking. it's not clear.

so. that's an overview of whether soullessness matters and what it means in every episode of the moriah arc. stay tuned for another post about soullessness coming soon (tonight or tomorrow), this time about sam.

#spn

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whumpshaped · 1 year ago

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drained for your bingo?

masterlist bingo card

tw vampire whumper, noncon biting (like my guy is unconscious, its fucken vampire somno), home invasion, invasion of privacy, violating bodily autonomy big time, dehumanisation

In a moment of gross selfishness, Beck decided to crawl under the covers before Helle arrived. He didn't feel like waiting any longer. It was already late, he had work tomorrow, and he was exhausted. All he wanted was some rest.

He closed his eyes and let out a pleased little sigh, almost unable to believe that he was alone in the apartment. It was so peaceful. The buzzing of electronics and the noise of the street below began to fade rapidly, and he soon drifted off into a relaxing sleep.

His eyes fluttered open a single moment before Helle bit down. He let out a startled yelp and tried to push them off, but he couldn't even do as much in his half-asleep daze as he usually could — which already wasn't a lot.

They didn't even wake him before feeding. They just waltzed in and helped themself to a generous serving of his blood without him even being conscious. Maybe this was his fault for having fallen asleep before they arrived, but holy shit, this was a new level of terrifying.

He let them have their fill while he stared at the ceiling, only illuminated by the faint moonlight from the living room. He couldn't help it when he began to cry softly. He had no idea why he thought Helle would be considerate enough to let him rest. It was stupid. He was stupid. He should've known better, he should've known that sleeping away his problems wouldn't work if the problem was nocturnal.

Helle licked the wounds closed, then rolled over to the other side of the bed like a cat that got the cream. The low hum of contentment they let out was almost a purr, and he couldn't understand, he couldn't imagine being this comfortable with violating someone's living space and body.

"You went to sleep early," they whispered.

"Y-yeah." He was still shaking from the experience, and his brain was screaming at him to go and clean out the fresh wounds. He couldn't. He'd thought he was drained when he got home from work, but... Helle always found a way to make him feel just a lick more empty. "Could you... could you wake me next time?"

"Mmm, but I liked you like that. Calm, peaceful... unaware."

"Please."

His desperate plea hung in the air between them, and the knowledge that he was the only one so distressed by the situation weighed heavy on his heart. It made sense, of course. Helle wasn't the one whose autonomy was being ripped away. But he hoped they would at least understand. Sympathise?

"Is it scary?" they asked quietly, and Beck realised it wasn't even that they didn't care; they loved making him uncomfortable.

"Yeah... It's... it's very scary."

"Would you stay up for me every night, just so this could never happen to you again?"

Beck swallowed. "I... I don't want t-to..."

"Would you? If I began visiting well after midnight, would you deprive yourself of precious sleep to put your mind at ease? I wonder how many nights it would take until you fell asleep anyway. I wonder if you would be exhausted enough not to wake while I drank from you."

He choked out a sob, curling up into a little ball of terror and misery. "P-please... I just– I just want to be awake for it, is– is that too much to ask for..? I d-don't want to wake up to this... I don't want t-to wake up with– with new wounds... I just... I just want to be awake..."

Helle let him cry, and he felt like they enjoyed the sound of it. They must've, they had no other reason to mock and taunt him to the point of tears. Still, he wished they would at least answer him, and assure him that this was a one-off.

No such assurances were given. Beck couldn't sleep for more than five consecutive minutes for the rest of the night.

taglist: @whumpsday @the-scrapegoat @hidden-dreamland @dismemberment-on-a-tuesday-night @delicateprincepaper @whumppmuhw @florissimps @nicolepascaline @oliversrarebooks @the-cyrulik @pirefyrelight @there-will-always-be-blood @pigeonwhumps @echo-goes-mmm @whumpycries

#at my beck and call #whump #whump writing #beckett #helle #vampire whumper #home invasion #invasion of privacy #dehumanisation

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slapjacq · 3 days ago

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okay red valley first listen, round 5 s3ep3-While you were Hypersleeping 3:

Im gonna try and finish it today i believe in me

S3ep3:

Clive is having the time of his life and honestly I’m loving it for him

Real as fuck Pam I don’t blame you one bit

Dude what the fuck was that

ARE THEY SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY

JESUS CHRIST WHAT EVEN

oh so we’re being realistic with our political climates oh lovely

I mean SHES NOT WRONG

oh wow

Oh yeah

look I love Clive and Pam but if these guys go out like this I um, I don’t think I’ll mind too terribly

BLOW UP THE SHIP BLOW UP THE SHIP

AUBREY? HOMEGIRLS DOING ON THE GROUND WORK AND ACTIVISM?? LETS GO THATS WHY SHES THE GOAT

Clive and Pam god love you two filthy bastards, but uh Aubrey’s not wrong idk

I was originally gonna be like wow this is kind of an underwhelming episode but honestly I should know better by now

S3ep4:

Sorry Pam girly I got no sympathy for you rn

Clive buddy you are fucking heartless and lowkey an idiot I’m not gonna lie you’re starting to sound like a certain billionaire I know.

Also the weight of the election tomorrow is ABSOLUTELY NOT weighing on me as I listen to this

Ah wow I miss whimsy this is not whimsical guys this is deeply depressing to listen to.

oh wow Clive’s getting FUCKED OVER ISNT HE

hes being captained to a sinking ship Jesus h Christ

Oh wow

That just got even more depressing Jesus

Head in my hands clutching my head dear god-

Red Valley writers you twisted mfs you’ve done it again

S3ep5:

The Americans are in the house

GUYS WE ARE AMERICAN WHAT THE FUCK WHERE ARE THE GUNS

My head is in my hands Jesus fucking Christ

Holy fucking shit JESUS WHY ARE PEOPLE GETTING SHOT

bro Becca is kind of a G for that I can’t even lie Fran was fucking off her rocker

Subaru Casket, my new Midwest emo band

America has a weird history with frogs, DMT, now this

It didn’t go for 1000 years? Shocker (no offense Pam but there’s just no shot even with the fancy ones Overhead had)

Honestly at this point if mfs like Clive and Becca are gonna be actively destroying the world, then uh, ig get used to dying in it like the rest of us.

This shit got so dark I’m a little upset now, I can’t lie. Hopefully the “while you were hypersleeping” series cheers me up a bit.

While you were hypersleeping:

Oh Warren buddy

Someone get this man a cup of tea and some cookies

Also let him know what’s going on. Like this man knows nothing ever, which honestly almost is one of the main tragedies of this character. This dude has been in the dark for almost 45 years straight with everything.

“I need to see him, please” someone put me out of my misery please LET THIS MF SEE HIS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT NERD I BEG OF THEE

Gordon was such a dramatic bitch lmao his memoir is simultaneously the worst and best thing so far.

Bro had a Power Nap.

Something something those affected by ptsd experience a level of time insensitivity if experienced trauma for extensive periods of time, something something Warren Godby’s sense of time and space must be so fucked up to the point in which his brain is gonna at least take upwards of two working months for it to finally come to that realization that he is when and where he is.

God Gordon is such a fucking nerd (affectionate)

Gordon WAS ORIGINALLY AN ARCHIVIST FROM THE BEGINNING????

ALSO THE FUCKING SOUND DESIGN MAKES MY BRAIN GO BRRR AND MY HEART SING

Oh Jesus Gordon waits for Oscar the way WARREN IS WAITING FOR GORDON AHSGSHSJSJSHSBSBAVAV MY FUCKIGN HEART EVERYTHING HURTS ALSO THE SOUND OF RAIN ON THE CAR JUST MAKES MY BRAIN MELT

Oh jesus Warren buddy it’s not your fault dude

Oh god those haikus are incredible

IM CAUGHT UP FUCK ME DUDE THIS FUCKING WYWHS HAS ALSO DESTROYED ME BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY JESUS CHRIST

#red valley #first listen #I’ve been screaming at a wall or staring into the void for the past two hours because of this podcast #this shit is just oh so good I cannot wait for more soon #im so tired so I apologize if this isn’t very comprehensive

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oddcryptidwrites · 1 year ago

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10 Songs Tag

Rules: Use your WIP playlist and put it on shuffle. Write the first 10 songs that come up and quote your favorite lyrics from each song and/or the lyrics that fit your WIP best (they might be the same lyrics), then tag 10 people.

@druidx tagged me in this and I'll tag... @delusionisaplace @wordswrittenbynight @nemaliwrites @missaddledmiss @lili-loves-whump @pga-books @downtoithaca @jubatuslucifer @from-the-depths-into-your-soul @fluffy-with-the-red-clouds and whoever else wants to play!

I'm going to do this one for Not Your Typical Fairytale (a post-post-zombie apocalypse thriller-ish wip). get ready for a WILD fucking ride

1. The House of the Rising Sun -- The Animals

Oh, Mother, tell your children/Not to do what I have done/Spend your lives in sin and misery/In the House of the Rising Sun

2. Dead Mom -- Beetlejuice

Hey mom, dead mom/I need a little help here/I'm probably talking to myself here

3. DARKSIDE -- Neoni

There's no heroes or villains in this place

4. The Snake -- Eric Church

Rattlesnake said to the copperhead/"You know we were the original sin/And I bet my rattle against your copper/The bitch takes the apple again."

5. Unholy -- Sam Smith and Kim Petras

Dirty, dirty boy, you know everyone is talking on the scene/I heard them whispering 'bout the places that you've been/And how you don't know how to keep your business clean

6. Who's Ready for Tomorrow -- RAT BOY & IBDY

I think I need a hero (oh)/I don't have no ego (oh)/'Cause I'm spinning out now

7. The Devil Went Down to Georgia -- Zac Brown Band

The Devil went down to Georgia/And he was looking for a soul to steal/He was in a bind, he was way behind, he was willing to make a deal

8. Rasputin -- Boney M.

For the Queen, he was no wheeler-dealer/Though she'd heard the things he'd done/She believed he was a holy healer/Who would heal her son.

9. Survive -- Jorge Rivera-Herrans

You have hurt me enough/Six hundred lives I'll take/Six hundred lives I'll break/And when I kill you, then my deed is over

10. Hell's Coming with Me -- Poor Man's Poison

He wiped the blood from his face/As he slowly came to his knees/He said I'll be back when you least expect it/And hell's coming with me

Also just for shits and giggles, 1, 5, 7, 8, and 10 are all about the same person (and 9 is someone else referring to that person). @thetruearchmagos here's a little glimpse into NYTF's soundtrack that plays in my head

#tag game #writeblr tag game #writeblr #writing #song lyrics #wip #nytf #athens answers

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moonjxsung · 1 month ago

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HI STAR I MISSED YOU SO MUCH ASKJFHAKJH GRHAHHHH

also important to note i dont know who the fuck put in an ask saying that im pregnant and pretended to be me...??? im not??? wtf did i open your blog to.. who in the freaky pretends to be an anon on a tumblr blog and say that theyre pregnant ..?? 😭😭😭😭

im so sorry i havnt texted you or sent you an ask or anything in forever... its been like 4 months holy shit i missed you so much and ive been wanting to reach out and send in some kind of message or whatnot but something just kept pulling me back and also ive been in this pit of misery recently

TW below (mention of abuse)

my mom used to abuse me both physically/verbally really badly when i was a child up until high school and when i finally left, but very long story short it resurfaced again recently when i saw her and i got fed up w her bs, law enforcement got involved, still figuring things out w the case rn and etc... but yeah!! (this happened maybe a month ago but its still ongoing)

honestly i think ive just been dealing with a rough transition through pretty much a lot in life including family, friends, overall workload etc etc so even if i wanted to reach out, i couldnt really do so because my mental state was just at the lowest of the low so even if i wanted to reach out to someone to talk i was too tired to ..

I AM VERY VERY GLAD TO BE BACK THOUGH!! im doing decently okay recently, still processing some bad news here and there and definitely very rocky every now and then but finally knowing that someone whos been torturing me since i was born is finally getting cut off from her bs is a lot more relieving than i thought it would be. definitely a lot less nerveracking than i thought asw

also kinda had a rough little patch with my close friends a few months back and we're all still kinda processing through it but i think ive definitely filtered out who they are and who exactly supports me when i support them back, and who only really socializes with me for their own benefit, etc.

but yes that has been the past few couple months while i disappeared!!! im v sorry i left out of nowhere and didnt even send in a stupid little message or anything <//3 how are you star?? i missed you so much :(( any life updates on your end??? now that im back youre probably going to see me for a couple while and i wont be dropping off the ends of the earth again hehe

love, your actually and most literally biggest fan, clover! (also feedback for no guts no glory coming soon so be prepared 💔)

~ 《 ☘️ 》

HI BABY I MISSED U SO BAD

IM CRYING YALL WHOOOOOO IS PRETENDING TO BE MY CLOVER ANON AND LIED TO ME THAT SHE’S PREGNANT LMFKFJDJSKDKFJGKGJ 😭😭😭😭 I came THIS close to messaging you on discord and wishing you a safe pregnancy PLSSSSSSKDKDKDJ

*TW heavy topics below*

:((( I am so so so sorry to hear the past few months have been so hard on you oh my god. I’m so sorry for not reaching out on discord and checking in on you sooner. I’d assumed you were just swamped with over school/work stuff, but I’m so sad to hear you’ve been going through all of this by yourself :( I’m glad at least the situation seems to be under control, and that it’s in the hands of the law now. I hope you’re in a safe living condition as of now (please reach out if you’re ever in need of anything at all) and I hope everything is okay in due time :( sending you so so so much love and I’m so sorry you had to deal with all of that.

I’m sorry to hear your friend situation is a bit spotty right now too :( my friends and I have been in a rough patch for a little while now and it absolutely sucks. But just like you mentioned, I do also feel like it’s truly allowed me to find out the real intentions some of my friends have and to reevaluate if I even want them in my life at this point. I hope you can either mend things with them, and if not, I have no doubt that you’ll be able to find much better people in the future. You deserve people who put you first and make you a priority, especially during this rough patch.

I’m doing okay <3 A lot has happened at work (honestly for the worse) and I’ve been so insanely stressed I feel like I’m dying. I cried all of last week because of some shit that happened at work and I think I’m losing hair bc of stress and it’s just jfkfkdjdkdkdjjttj I’m so tired 😭 but in GOOD news I do have a girlfriend for the first time on this account and she’s so lovely and supportive and we are so so so happy 💓 I feel like the fall months just tend to be full of so much stress and grieving and loss before things get good again in the winter. I just keep telling myself things will get better eventually :’)

ANYWAYS I MISSED YOU SO BAD I’m so glad to hear you’re not pregnant (not that it’s a bad thing but I was STRESSED for you) and please please please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need anything at all 💓💞🩷💕 I love you so so so much my little clover you have been SOOO MISSED ON HERE ☘️🫶

#☘️ anon #ask

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sixofcrowdaydreams · 11 months ago

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Six of Crows Thoughts

So I finally read Six of Crows and it was a ride. It was probably the first actual physical fictional book I've read in a decade.

I watched the Shadow and Bone show first and knew plot beats and general spoilers/important quotes from the books. And I'm not gonna lie, knowing what was going to happen, but not how it happened made reading the book so much more fun.

Thoughts below.

First of all, holy shit, the crows are so mean to Wylan in the beginning! Even Nina and Inej. That poor boy!

Like, knowing Wylan can't read and that his father tried to have him murdered for it made the rest of the crows' speculation about him running away so petty and unnecessarily mean. But it's not their fault because they don't know. Really glad the book shared the details of what's written in Van Eck's letters to Wylan. The message is so cruel, Wylan's better off know knowing what's in it them. If I hadn't been aware of the spoiler, I wouldn't have even registered all of the little hints Bardugo left. Like the unread letters. Wylan not labeling the map he made and pushing the pen toward Mattias to let him write the ice court names in Fjerdian when Kaz demands to know why it's not labeled. And asking what the book says when they pass it to him before he realizes it's a spyglass. As someone with the mathematical equivalent of dyslexia (math version called dyscalculia), Wylan and his learning disability representation is so important to me.

It was so exciting to hit the big plot beats. There's Inej getting stabbed and Kaz going feral to rip a man's eye out! *fangirls* Waiting for the goddamn tank to appear. Inej's shoes melting as she climbs the incinerator shaft. Nina taking parem.

Every. Wesper. Moment. God, I squealed so hard at the "Just girls?" "No, not just girls," line and had to read the scene out loud to my husband. (Thank you for indulging me, Love.) Their slow burn build up was so satisfying. I get to enjoy their speedrun show version and slowburn book version -- it's the best of both worlds! The shocking part was that the not-just-girls conversation took place while Wylan's hands were bloody from trying to hack away at the chain link. Like, Wylan may be new to crime, but like he goes all in and gives 100% the entire time. Ouch.

Despite knowing so much of the story before reading it, all of the things I didn't know were equally entertaining. Like, I knew Wylan sings a Fjerdian drinking song, but learning the context when and why was so satisfying. (Fuck netflix for not letting Jack Wolfe show off his voice in this scene. Fuck netflix in general.) I also have a new appreciation for Nina and Mattias and their very complicated ... everything. I probably knew the least about them coming into the book and walked away really liking both of them as characters far more than I expected.

Breaking someone out of jail: barely an inconvenience.

Boarding a ship: The most dangerous task of the entire book. lol.

The most unexpected moment in the books was the Crows stumbling across the burning bodies on the pyres. This is a YA novel. I had to remind myself that this gruesome scene straight out of a horror story Is. In. A. YA. Novel. Then Bardugo says, you think that's bad, and makes the entire scene so much darker! Goddamn. One of the bodies is still barely alive, suffering, and Jesper puts it out of it's misery like it's a horse with a broken leg. All Kaz can do is snap at Jesper for giving away their location with a gunshot. Jesus christ.

Speaking of ... Kaz is waaaaaaaaaay more violent in the books. Holy shit. The show neutered him. Little Kaz swearing at Jakob Hertzoon. Him climbing out of the harbor at 9 years old and robbing a kid in front of a candy store, taking the boys pants just to humiliate him. Cutting another kid's feet up just so that he can steal the boy's job. Brutal. Every time I came across those scenes, I summarized them for my husband (who is a saint for watching the Crows scenes of the show with me and listening to me talk about this series non-stop) because my hubby thought Kaz came off as the most useless member of of Crows because for someone said to be so violent, Kaz Brekker never actually did very many violent things. Hubby pointed out the Inej, Jesper, and even Wylan have a higher body count in the show than Kaz.) SO I felt obligated to prove just how insane and deranged Kaz was in the book.

Nina is a queen for taking parem and saving all of them. What a sacrifice.

I'm so proud of Inej for stealing Heleen's diamonds. Take back your autonomy!

I also really appreciated the irony of the entire Ice Court being Grisha made. Like, my druskelle dudes, you hate Grisha but you depend so heavily on them. You can't have it both ways.

Jesper's horror of the kefta lined tophy wall and his internal struggle after killing the tidemaker gave him so much more depth. He denies his powers pretty hard, but he acknowledges that it could have been him captured, strung out on drugs, or murdered. Part of him died after killing the tidemaker that was actively attacking him and Wylan ... it's so heavy. He knows that he should have volunteered to take the parem with Nina or in her place, but was too scared to do it. I love Jesper so much.

I knew there was going to be a body switch, but didn't realize it happened in Six of Crows. I thought it would just be in Crooked Kingdom. Van Eck's betrayal was ... woof. Sad that Kaz and Wylan's conversation about being a useless hostage/Wylan's disability/and the body swap plan was summarized in Kaz's narration and not shown. I have a mighty need to read that entire scene, dialog and all! Give. It. To. Me!

Kaz probably threatened the shit out of Wylan to not tell Jesper about the body swap onboard the ship. (That's book Kaz's usual style of persuasion.) But Wylan as Kuwei standing near Jesper on deck each evening is the most romantic, sweet gesture I've read in years. God, the pining. And it's just treated as a throw-away line! Excuse me, I'mma need some fanfic about this. Meanwhile, Jesper's like, why is this new weirdo following me? lol.

Jesper thought Wylan (and others) were on the ship as it blew up. And Kaz wanted him to think that. Goddamn. The book just straight up says that Kaz let Jesper think Wylan had died to punish him. Again, Kaz is insane. This cannot be understated. He really earned that title of Dirtyhands.

Random, but I also really enjoyed all of the names, whether characters or locations. The naming was a point and easy to pronounce, (aside from Kuwei, which I double checked the pronunciation but that's probably just me being overly cautious.) Fantasy names can be kinda tricky, either sounding too modern or using obscure letters to be an incomprehensible mess of x, q, and z. So well done with minor phonetic changes and lots of double letters.

I'm so excited to read Crooked Kingdom now.

#six of crows #my thoughts #shadow and bone

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fuzzydreamin · 1 year ago

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What The Companions Say About... Feral Ghouls!

I'm posting these just because I find the companions in-game reactions to things rather interesting. You might be surprised by what some of them have to say about certain things.

These are just their dialogues for during combat, and after combat or walking through areas inhabited by this enemy type. It does not include anything from specific areas, quests, or other dialogue.

⌨ Ada

⌨: It's difficult to fathom that these ferals were once human. ⌨: Be certain to check every feral corpse, they tend to carry items useful to humans. ⌨: Radiation exposure can have an astonishing effect on human flesh…. oh, forgive me… I tend to forget the company I keep. ⌨: Perhaps one day you'll discover how to communicate with these feral ghouls. ⌨: {an attempt at humour} Ferals feast on human flesh, yet leave each other alone. A bit overcooked perhaps?

☘ Cait

☘: Shamblers! Take 'em down! ☘: Come on, you rad-spittin' zombies!

☘: Damn, these things reek! ☘: Shamblers! I hate these wretched things. ☘: Best thing about killin' a shambler is that dry sound they make when ya snap off their limbs. ☘: Good, I've been itchin' to bust some shambler heads. ☘: Goddamn shamblers. Only thing they're good for is torchin'.

⚙ Codsworth

⚙: Feral Ghouls! ⚙: {Neutral} Let's put these poor creatures out of their misery.

⚙: {a sincere sentiment} Feral Ghouls, a sorry lot, indeed. To lose one's mind slowly like that. ⚙: {with some bravado / Concerned} Be wary of Feral Ghouls, mum. ⚙: {a sincere sentiment} One ought remember the folly of man created these Feral Ghouls. ⚙: {talking to cover his nervousness} I imagine the scent of Feral Ghouls is most unpleasant. ⚙: {talking to cover his nervousness} What irony that radiation heals the Feral Ghoul.

⚕ Curie

⚕: Monsieur Platt predicted this condition. It appears he was correct. ⚕: A "ghoul." Most intriguing. Starting recording. ⚕: Detecting an increase in radiation. ⚕: One must wonder, what causes the deterioration of this ghoul condition?

⚕: Some "ghouls" are in possession of their mental faculties. Others are not. Why? ⚕: Should ghouls be considered a new species? ⚕: I wonder if my oaths apply to ghouls, as well? ⚕: If you find any scientific journal articles on ghouls, I would be much obliged. ⚕: I should give a ghoul a full physical. I am certain the data would be very interesting.

♞ Danse

♞: Die, you godless heathen! Die! ♞: No mercy! Blow it's goddamn head off! ♞: Exterminate the heathens! ♞: Godless bastard! To hell with you!

♞: Skinwalkers, ferals, shamblers… call them whatever you like, but they're not human. ♞: Ferals might have been human once, but now they're scavengers of human flesh. ♞: If it was up to me, I'd make it my life's work to wipe these things off the face of the planet. ♞: Extermination is the best these ferals deserve. ♞: The only things ferals are good for is scraping the mud off of my boots.

🕶 Deacon

🕶: We got ferals. 🕶: Anyone got some holy water? I always wanted to try that on them.

🕶: I avoid ferals if I can help it. 🕶: Glory came up with the bright idea of putting ferals in the catacombs. Not a fan. 🕶: More ferals. Great. 🕶: Some jackasses call ferals "ghouls". Like ghouls don't have enough problems. 🕶: Bet you crapped your pants the first time you saw a feral. I know I did.

☠ Gage

☠: I'm doing you a favour here, slimeball. ☠: Keep your irradiated ass away from me!

☠: I ever start looking anything like that, I hope someone puts me down fast. ☠: Being a ghoul's a fate worse than death. ☠: They look like shit, but damn if they can't move. Watch yourself. ☠: God I hate ghouls. Never know when one is gonna pop out at you.

☣ Hancock

☣: {Apologetic} Sorry, pal. ☣: {A tad remorseful / Neutral} Had to be Ferals.

☣: {Question} Ghouls, huh? You lookin' to fix me up? ☣: {Neutral} Least Raiders and Mutants have the politeness to know when to die. ☣: {Neutral} Ferals sure make it easy to forget they were ever people. ☣: {Amused} Lotta good lookin' faces around here. You gonna introduce me? ☣: {Question} Wonder how close I came to going feral. Or maybe I did? ☣: {Neutral} Poor bastards. ☣: {Neutral} Hate to put down a fellow Ghoul. ☣: {Neutral} Shame. There were some lookers in that group.

☸ Longfellow

(All of Longfellow's lines have the {You're disgusted by ghouls and a little afraid of the idea of becoming one} note) ☸: Don't you worry, if I see you turnin' into a ghoul, I'll put a bullet in you quick. ☸: Damn… can't think of a worse fate than turnin' into a ghoul. ☸: Way I see it, killin' a ghoul's an act o' mercy. ☸: A ghoul's lost every shred of what once made 'em human. I'd rather be dead than one of them. ☸: They might look like shamblin' corpses, but ghouls are lightnin' quick. Don't let 'em flank ya.

⨁ MacCready

⨁: Feral over here! ⨁: {Mimic (mocking) zombie grunt noise} Eeeeehhhh! Shut up!

⨁: Oh good, ferals. Like shooting ghouls in a barrel. ⨁: I can't believe these things move so fast. ⨁: If too much radiation leads to looking like that, I think I'd rather die. ⨁: Yeah, they were people once. But trust me, their humanity vanished the moment they changed. ⨁: Oh god, not these walking piles of flesh again.

♥ Nick

♥: {Stern} Sorry, folks. Won't be chewing on us. ♥: {Stern} Nasty cannibals.

♥: {Neutral} Wandered into College Square on my own once. Never seen so many Ghouls in one place. ♥: {Neutral} Sometimes you can still make out the person in there. ♥: {Neutral} First time I met a Feral, I hoped it would ignore me because I wasn't made of meat. Guess they'll eat anything. ♥: {Neutral} Keep your distance. Ferals hit hard. ♥: {Sombre} Poor bastards.

✉ Piper

✉: {Neutral} Watch your digits, Blue. Ferals. ✉: {Neutral} Poor Ghoul bastards.

✉: {Question} Nasty cannibals… wait, are Ghouls cannibals? They don't eat each other, right? ✉: {Stern} These things stopped being people a long time ago. ✉: {Neutral} Mayor McDonough chased all the Ghouls out of Diamond City. I wonder if any of them ended up out here. ✉: {Neutral} Ghouls love to play peek-a-boo. Keep your eyes open. ✉: {Playful / Amused} I don't have to outrun the Ghouls, Blue. I just have to outrun you.

☀ Preston

☀: Ferals! Don't let them get behind you! ☀: Oh, dammit. Ferals. ☀: Come on, you zombie bastard.

☀: Those things are the worst menace in the Commonwealth. ☀: When I was a kid, these things gave me nightmares. ☀: The scariest thing about ferals is they used to be people like us. ☀: If I ever turn into one of these things, you have my permission to put two in my skull. ☀: You can smell these ferals a mile away, if you're down wind. ☀: Nobody seems to know exactly what makes a normal ghoul turn feral. Kind of scary.

☢ Strong

☢: Ghouls not worthy foes. Bad warriors. ☢: Human, shoot ghouls. Don't let ghouls get close. ☢: Watch for glow. Ghouls with glow are bad. ☢: Ghoul flesh taste bad. ☢: Worthless glowy ghouls.

☾ X6-88

☾: {Emphasis on "they"... disapproval} Ghouls... without the Institute, they'd be the future of humanity. ☾: {Urging caution} Careful, ma'am. Ghouls are quicker than they look. ☾: {Disgust} That smell... should have brought a breath mask. ☾: {Urging caution} Don't let the shamblers surround you. ☾: {Almost sympathetic} If you ask me, ma'am, killing a ghoul isn't murder. It's more like mercy.

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So, interesting stuff right? Some things I found noteworthy:

Deacon doesn't call ferals 'ghouls' and tries to seperate the two, as a kindness to non-feral ghouls. Hancock does not make this seperation.

Both Cait and Preston use what can be considered slurs against ferals, such as 'zombie'. The word 'shambler' also comes up a few times with Cait and others.

Danse's issues with ghouls seem to have some religious untertones. Not all that surprising seeing as he is from the Capital, where both pre and post-war religion is popular.

Ghouls do not ignore Nick and will try to eat him.

Gage, Longfellow, Mac, and Preston all claim that they would rather die than become a ghoul.

Longfellow even says he will shoot you if you become one. (I didn't include dialogue from quests and the like, but Danse also has a line saying he will kill you if you turn into a ghoul.)

#fallout #fallout 4 #fallout 4 companions #ghouls #fallout 4 dialogue #fuzzy.post #did some of these voice lines surprise you?

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grozaperspektive · 1 year ago

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Toji ramblings because I realized that I'm allowed to do other stuff besides drawing lmao

you know, I have this impression that Toji's trauma is slightly different from regular PTSD or being abused

because (at least, as far as I know) people who were abused, especially by their family members, usualy have self-esteem issues

Toji, though, does not have any... It seems, he's fully aware of his strengths and weaknesses. And, damn, he IS a professional (a gentle reminder that Toji does not see cursed spirits, and yet his fight with Geto in premature death arc?? omg)

so, Toji is a confident, self-aware man

however!!

he'd never known that he's worthy of love, just like any other human being (maybe even more so in some ways), until he met Mamaguro. So, he'd just accepted the fact that love and emotional bonds are not for him

I think that he doesn't feel any longing or craving for close relathionship with someone

he's a lone wolf lmao

maybe he's even cynical???? But, honestly, I believe that he just never cares to think about deep stuff like that

and dammit, I'm trying to put myself in his shoes rn, and the only thing I can think about is that he probably wanted to die, quickly and painlessly

preferablly, in a fight

he's just... too lazy to unalive himself

so, he just exists, waiting for it all to end

but then Mamaguro came into his life and showed him that he can live and love living

and then she died.............

and everything came back to how it had been

and yet!!!!! she changed him!!!

no, he's not the best person in the world, he's far from it, really

his morals are still ugh..... debatable...

but he started to??? be more sociable?? can I say that??

idk, to my mind, he just started to care more...

I think, he hadn't even been that close to Shiu before he met Mamaguro(((

and his meeting with Megumi in the recent episode??? I'm gonna explode

so, yeah, he's so precious((

actually, he's giving me the vibe of someone with a fucked up family who thinks, "holy shit, I'll never become a parent because I don't want to traumatize my child"

but his wife was amazing and everything COULD work out perfectly if only she hadn't died T-T

they would be so freaking happy, it's killing me((

and I really can't stop thinking about the fact that Toji is a person who is SO worthy of being loved, cherished and appreciated...

and he had a chance to receive all this support and care(( but life had to fuck it up by killing his wife, thank you very much

just fucking imagine, he was living in literal hell with the Zenins, then, he met the love of his life and finally became happy, and then)) he was robbed of his happiness and was sentenced to living in misery again

AND THEN THEY FUCKING KILLED HIM. TWICE!!!!!!! I fucking can't I caaaaan't

and he died just because he remembered to have an ego and some fucking ambitions. like a normal person, you know

I don't know, I just want to hug him??????? so bad??????????

he deserves the whole world and I stand by that even if he's rude and wrong, I really don't care

⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄☆

anyway, feel free to ignore, I have a fever, I'm sad and English is not my first language, so yeah.... have a nice day, everyone

#fushiguro toji #toji fushiguro #jjk toji #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk headcanons

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fictionalreads · 2 years ago

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Love Is Blind Season 4 Episode 5

Marshall and Jackie

Jackie no. Don’t be messy. I like you. Don’t fall under Micah’s influence.

LOOK AT MARSHALL BEING A MATCHMAKER acknowledging they wouldn’t have been good together but letting his boy know she was a good one.

AHAHAHAHHAHAHA SHE CALLED HER A PEASANT 😂😂😭💀

They seem fun

👏👏 Yes Marshall!! Speak about vulnerability and it’s role (or lack thereof) in the black community!!

Zack and Irina

Run Zack Run

Did she just tell him his face was sexy? Ma’am your fiancé is there. So is his.

They need to put us all out of our misery and just end it.

I’m with him. I’m not chasing after you. It may suck like hell but either you want me or you don’t.

Damn she don’t even want to sit next to you. That’s bad.

Ooh yes they broke up.

Damn she’s rude!

Oh don’t try to push him to someone else.

Oh fuck! He brought it up with her and reminded her Paul was with her best friend!

Brett and Tiffany

Oh they did it. Just good? Seems like more since you can’t talk.

Kwame and Chelsea

Good for her! Setting her boundaries and letting him know she’s not putting up with that shit.

I feel like other couples that were in this situation before kind of brushed it away and didn’t fully talk about it. Like they scratched the surface but didn’t actually say what needed to be said so good for her for having that courage.

Cacao ceremony isn’t my cup of tea but I can appreciate it.

Damn he said no with the quickness when asked about Irina and Zack

Paul and Micah

That is gorgeous. I want a vacation so bad.

Don’t get yourself in trouble Paul. That’s her bestie.

Bliss

Holy shit he’s meeting up with Bliss. What happened to wanting her to be with someone who chooses her? Say no Bliss.

Miscellaneous

God that water is gorgeous.

I love this black male convo.

I kinda wish it was just the three couples instead of five.

LMAO Brett was like “I had no choice but to see it. I was there. An unwilling participant in that situation”

It’s Irina I dislike the most now. It used to be Micah but Irina takes the cake.

What the fuck? Josh is coming back?

Brett and Tiffany better get married.

#love is blind #season 4 #Chelsea #Kwame #Micah #Paul #Irina #Zack #Jackie #Marshall #Tiffany #Brett

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hextechmaturgy · 1 year ago

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7 and 8 :-)

7. Weapon of choice?

Hmmm depends on the game I guess........ I avoid P2 combat as much as I can. Never helped Stakh with those worms, didn't even bother to defend my dad's house from robbers LMAO they can keep that shit. I just find combat to be a huge waste of time, and I'm not good at video games so the chances of me dying during it are high, and dying in P2 sucks. This is another reason why I prefer P1! The combat is just as wonky but it's not taking itself too seriously. Most of the guns in the game are fun, I'm a big fan of the shotgun , but I think my weapon of choice is a knife. 🔪 Can easily find new ones if you keep killing muggers, and trying to melee in this game is just glorious. You can practice being good with a knife for hours and you still won't be any good with it, and that's fine because this is all make believe <333 I also get a kick out of stabbing people thinking of it as a character choice. Doctors using a cutting tool to kill instead of healing etc etc, this shit writes itself.

8. Best side character? (You can only choose 1!!!!)

Who could've seen this one coming, she's about to say Bad Grief!! P1 and P2 Grief are two miserable little rat men that won't leave my house for very different reasons. It's my understanding that P2 Grief never really had much to his name, besides his friends. Probably grew up poor in the streets, mischievous to a fault but always good deep down. He wanted to not be miserable all his life, and in his universe this goal demands some selfishness. He gains notoriety in the streets, gains people's respect at last and some modicum of financial stability, but in so doing he loses all his friends, who now see him as one of the bad guys. And you can't blame them for thinking that, he's literally hanging out in shady warehouses selling knives, but we know he never partakes, he even warns his men not to kill and possibly requests Andrey's help to put the ones who disobey in line. Is it worth "being someone" if the price you pay is crushing loneliness? <- Grief arguing with his own reflection. And then P1 Grief is a whole other can of worms, he's SO fucking funny for a start, everything he says needs to go into a quote book. He's the opposite of his P2 counterpart, playing the part of the innocent fool just trying to get by, when he's actually the mastermind of the underworld. That is already a really fun character concept, but then you get to the Changeling route and a whole new side of this character is revealed. You sit there going, huh. You've known you were a toy this whole time too? P1 Grief is much older, he's been around the violence and the misery and hopelessness of this game he can never escape from, playing the role of the big bad wolf. I reckon he figured: hey, if I'm doomed to be a bad guy all my life, I might as well be best bad guy I can. Let it be fun for me too. Doesn't mean he doesn't want to change, he's absolutely devastated that even Clara may not forgive him, and if the holy girl can't do it, he's doomed doomed. I've mentioned before that P2 Grief could grow into P1 Grief in a way, after what Aglaya puts him through. Nothing matters, so why should I care that cutting is wrong; the blood on my hands isn't real. EVERYONE needs to play the changeling route !!!!!!

#thank you so much for the question!!#ask #multicarinata #bad grief #pathologic #i'm having plague thoughts (beware)#is anyone surprised i brought up andrey while rambling about grief

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grigori77 · 2 years ago

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Critical Role, Campaign 3 Episode 57

Oh no. Not Love Shack. Leave it alone, Sam. How could you? "Rock lobster barbarian from Hell?" SERIOUSLY?!!! "I'm starting to lose the will to live! Please put me out of my misery!" Really, Sam? Oh dear gods ...

Taliesin: "Did you say gothy?" Ah yes, that's catnip to Jaffe.

"Applebee's Soulcycle" again ... (snort)

Ashley and Laura rocking the caps, I love it ...

Yes, they are all talking to each other in their heads. Chetney (immediately): "Balls!"

So clearly sound = gruesome death.

FCG: "If the stag had a dream I could talk to it." Yeah ...

Chetney: "Get loose, FRIDA, get loose!" FRIDA: "Someone oil me!"

Yuck ... fumes ... lovely ...

Massive tower. ALWAYS a dead giveaway.

"Round here" ... Counting Crows, now? Oh, that's set Matt off, that dark grin! Travis: "No, don't roll, don't roll!"

There's motes and spores IN THE AIR?!!! It's like the Upside Down out here? Not good ...

Aaaaaaaah ... undead traces? Lovely ... it's getting worse ... Matt is totally messing with Travis now. XD

Creepy tree ... CREEPY TREE ...

Imogen: "A fiendish tree? Is that loke a thing?" Chetney: "I don't know, I didn't read the books!"

"Orgies"?

Oh fuck ... it's a PEOPLE TREE ... that's nasty ...

Ashley: "How do I have a minus 1 (for Nature check)? I rolled a ZERO. What ARE plants?"

Deanna: "I'M DISTRACTED!!!" Imogen: "We can all hear that!" Deanna: "Shit! I thought this was like a single line!"

My gods, it's like Annihilation. With dead horses ... oh shit, yes, don't let Imogen see THAT!!!

Oh fuck ... not Fearne's topiary again ...

Decompose? Are you SURE? In THIS place?

In a nutshell, Imogen means STOP MESSING WITH THIS SHIT!!!

Chimes? Really? And a HOWL?!!!

Chetney has advantage on scent based stuff and Travis STILL rolls balls ... and Chetney inhales a spore! XD

Slow going, so another stealth check, but Pass Without A Trace is still up ... phew ...

"We're in Molaesmyr, it's Upside Down day!"

Ask the Changebringer? FCG casts Divination ... so what's the skinny? Ooh, wind based response! Cool ... Imogen: "That's the first time I've ever seen a god actually DO something."

"Flippers"?

More ghosts? Fuck ... it's the Paths of the Dead! Not good!

Little teeny FRIDAs! That's adorable! :3

Aabria: "Can I insight check the ghosts before you say the scary thing?"

Shiiiiiiiiit! That didn't go well at all ...

Fuck, these thing are moving like the Weeping Angels! Aaaaaaaaaaah!

Channel Divinity ... JJ Abrams lens flare? Cool ...

Am I the only one thinking that that's a whole FUCKLOAD of rolls?

Five left ... and FOLL INITIATIVE?!!! Shiiiiit ...

Holy fuck that is a SWEET Battlemap ...

Slightly mesmerised by the minicam's slow pan ... O.O

Spiritual Weapon! A tiny FCG? Cute ... Superman style ... "Can you read my mind?"

Deanna turns her staff into a HALBERD?!!! Awesome!

Another Spiritual Weapon ... giant Dawnfather mace! Cool. Boosh!

Travis: "We don't need to see a crazy mini with baby arms." Don't give him ideas, Travis!

Fuck, there's something watching from the tower? Great ...

The ghost tries to REACH INTO Deanna? Seriously? Fuck ... Dirty 20 gives it a hit, though.

Tiny FRIDA whirlwind? Hmmm ...

Chetney getting attacked now ... Charisma Save ... 2? Shiiiiit ... and now he's POSSESSED?!!!

Now FCG? 13 ... what, Us that NOT good enough? Oh ... just worked! Phew ...

Imogen would be a hard attack, wouldn't she? And Fearne KILLS her save too, NICE!!!

Mind Whip! Cool ... and they FAIL!!! Ouch ... and Laura rolls THREE ONES in damage? Oh fuck, the dice gods are CRUEL ...

Mister! Yay ... Fearne shoots out three Scorching Marisha Rays? XD Cute ... all three hit ... aaaaand it doesn't do much ... oof ... they're resistant to fire. Crap.

Chetney is now ATTACKING FCG with Turmoil! Crap ... 17 points of damage! Ouch!

FCG: "Chetney, what's gotten into you?" Laura: "Her name's Rebecca!"

Divine Strike! Yuuuuuusssss!!!

Sam: "I'd say I am a Close Friend to FRIDA now since we've swapped spit!" XD

Deanna beelining for Chetney ... Greater Restoration! Nice! "GET OUT!!!" at the possessing spirit ... BOOF!!! Nice ... Full blown exorcism ...

Deanna: "Are you all right?" Chetney: "I'm a little salty!" Deanna: "Thanks, I hate it!"

Desperate crossbow action ... and that actually WORKS against ghosts? Trippy ...

Aabria (at Sam): "God, baffle your fucking dice!"

Scare effect ... ouch ...

Sam's flask ... RIP Gerry? Oh. My. Gods ...

Imogen casts Dissonant Whispers ... 3D6 psychic damage! Cool ...

FCG gets to Divine Strike on an Attack of Opportunity ... and KILLS that ghostly bitch! Nice!

Mister's mad so he shoots flaming shit at the ghosts! XD Fearne chucks an Ice Knife at another one ... nooooooo, she backs up and takes a devastating Withering Strike! Aaaaaaaah ... thankfully FCG takes HALF of it ...

Oh ... that Ice Knife ghost kill was REALLY COOL, though ...

Ashley: "I'm not scared anymore!" Aabria: "OWN your power, girl!"

Chetney gets the HDYWTDT ... Matt: "You kill it. That's what you get."

"A large wing type tip"? REALLY, Matthew?

Matt makes Ashley roll for concentration ... Nat1? Fuck ... she just RECASTS Pass Without A Trace instead ... phew ...

And now there's something FLYING AROUND out there ... great ...

"Trained as an absolute unit ..." XD

Oh ... that is FREAKY ... multiple legs AND streamers? Forty odd feet wingspan ... and NO HEAD?!!! Sweet fuck, Mercer ...

Creepy place ... are they SERIOUSLY gonna stay here? And there's a tree growing in the middle of the place ... okay ... and it's got a face like the other one ... lovely ... carefully please, FRIDA!

And now it's GRABBED them ... great ... RUN!!! Oh, that wasn't fun ...

Impressive view ... and COMPLETELY terrifying.

Don't talk to the tree, Fearne. PLEASE don't talk to the tree.

Still a half mile to go ... time to move, then ... znd FRIDA keeps watch ... hmmm ...

Chetney: "If only I had a Bonded Blessing." Aabria's explosive laugh is adorable. Sam: "With hindsight that was a mistake ..."

Time for a break.

They're now lost, essentially ... shit roll, Sam!

And now FCG has now fallen into s hole that's just erupted open in the ground! Shit! Everybody gets hit by the miasma! Aaaaaaaah!

Imogen pulls FCG out JUST IN TIME ... but they feel like SHIT. Oh, discussions of their potentially LOSING IT ensue ... yeah ...

Chetney (while they all start babbling): "We're sll gonna die. This is how it happens."

Crap ... the flying thing is COMING ... and it has one massive purple eye instead of a head ... and it's been hunting? So maybe it's gonna be busy for a while, at least ...

Time for FRIDA to head out snd join the others ... and that's a Nat1 on stealth ... crap ...

FRIDA gets halfway back to the others ... Travis: "Oh, he's in storytelling mode." Yup, bad sign ...

Oh, that is a NASTY tumble ... and NOISY. Double crap ...

Howling ... shit ...

"The barks and snarls of MULTIPLE beasts" ... oh, that is LOVELY ...

RUUUUUUUUN!!!

Chetney wolfs out ... but only his UPPER HALF?!!! Ye gods ... running round on creepy little baby legs ...

Oh, decisions decisions ... this is fucking CHAOS ...

Seething Storm? Whoa ... that is AWESOME ...

Oh my gods ... Fearne PICKS UP a sobbing Deanna and just BOOKS IT for the tower.

Wait ... did that actually WORK?!!!

Chetney Donald Ducking it with his tiny legs ... Matt (dismayed chuckling): "That is HORRIBLE ..."

Stoneshape for cover? Cute ... is it gonna work?

The Gildhollow Tower ... hmmm ... looks like it's gonna be HARD to get in ... but lots of COVER, at least ...

Dire wolves? Oh shit ... MUTATED dire wolves ... oh, it's just ONE BIG FUCKED UP RAT KING of a creature ... that is HORRIFYING ...

Everybody's all over the place and it's FUCKING CHAOS ... and now it's dusk ... lovely ...

Imogen tries to Send to FCG ... and Matt makes her roll a D100 ... shit ... is her hair gonna fall out again?

Chetney and FCG home in on the tower ... snd now it's howling! Great ...

Trying to find some way into the tower ... and now Imogen's just CLIMBING up the growth on the outside ...

Guardian of the Faith? Okay ... shaped like a giant Chetney wolf? Cool ...

Fearne makes a Mirthful Leap ... nice roll!

Everybody's climbing now ...

FCG: "Imogen, what the fuck are you doing?" Imogen: "SOMEBODY'S gotta save their asses!" (hair flip)

This fucking thing can CLIMB?!!! Shiiiiit ...

Hiding inside the windows now ...

Guardian of the Faith is SERVING right now! Nice!

Oh, so IT IS the Wolf King. Lovely ...

Ah ... it's backing off ... phew ... thank fuck for that ...

Freaky attempt to comfort Deanna from werewolf Chetney ... "Relax." Deanna: "I can't relax, this is CREEPY!!!"

So ... to business. This is where Ludinus came from ... what can we learn?

Chetney's smell adventure ...

Laura: "That's skin ..." Oh PLEASE don't tempt fate like that ...

Heavily looted ... shit ... not a good sign ...

Fearne tries to "Vibe Check" the place ... XD

This is indeed The Place. Okay ... going upstairs, then ...

Let's not loot the nasty mouldy corpse, guys ...

Traps ... crap ... burn? Oh dear ... a glyph? Hmmmm ... Dispel Magic! Quickly! Oh ... that was cool.

The ring ... snack or souvenir? Hmmm ...

Investigating the weird papery strips ... it IS shed skin ... charming ... and now we're considering the possibilities ... oh boy ... whatever it is, it can't be good.

Looking for clues ... mouldy scroll ... oooh ...

Casting Mending go try and repair the scroll ... SMART.

I'm sorry ... Laerryn? REALLY?!!! O.O

"An Exandrian TED Talk" ... XD

"What is her name? There is power in names."

I swear, one mention of Exandria Unlimited: Calamity and Travis starts channeling Cerrit ... :3

Oooh ... Chetney funds a clue ... intriguing ... what is it?

Arcana Check ... Aabria rolls a NAT20!!! Nice ...

It NEEDS magic? Ooooh ... interesting.

Matt: "FCG, a fickle bitch." Laura: "Fickle Care Giver?" XD

Trying to get at whatever it is in the back of FRIDA's mind ...

Something SOFT ... oh fuck ...

Everything starts shaking ... great ...

A pinkish OOZE?!!! Really? FACES?!!! WHAT THE FUCK?!!!

Some freakish shape-shifting NIGHTMARE ... Matt: "And that's where we're gonna end for the night." SHIIIIIIIIT!!!

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