#holding out for a better tomorrow

[donotputmeinaboxturtle]

Bit sad and rambling, feel free to keep scrolling. Some mental health thoughts below the cut. Hope you guys are doing well, stay safe.

The holidays approach and so does the question "Can I form lasting deep relationships with family, or will i be unable to get over the possibility of them dismissing my anxiety and depression?" Got a lot of feelings about it, and it might not be fair to put blame on anyone. So let's keep it light until Im in a healthier, more secure place. Maybe when I'm with someone, that I can go back home to and be understood and fully myself, anxiety and all, then I will be able to take the chance. That way I wouldn't be completely cut off from people I care about. From what little I've heard about what they think about the subject of mental health in general, I don't have a lot of hope. This goes for a lot of people in my family. I can't think of someone who might support me if I were to be truthful about how much my mental health has suffered and shaped my every day life, and how upset it makes me that no one was able to help me. Maybe that's not fair. Yeah this might be cringe and emotional, but shouting into the void is one step closer to saying these important things out loud to real people. Maybe I'm making it more important than it needs to be. But I just can't seem to get past it. Truly addressing it might just confirm that I'm alone in my thinking, and that I am cut off from family. So I stew, and run through possible conversation in my head for now. Because I don't know what else to do. For now, it helps me sort thoughts. Get them out and call it done for the night.

[slavhew]

boys cry. real men weep.

[benevolenterrancy]

@hereticcryptid I appear to be slowly but surely developing an entire series about how Hensheng and Baxia apparently get fed up with their owners' inability to express their feelings and take matters into their own hands...

[the-wanderer-returns]

spearmaster is here too!

[veveisveryuncool]

i took this in the most literal sense ever but. kirby with glitter. imagine the possibilities.

kirbytober day 23: glitter/copy ability

[marclef]

hello there it is Day 15 of me drawing stuff in October.

i am very dead. i got both a flu shot and a covid booster yesterday and everything is sore and awful. but i cannot let the awfulness stop me from drawing ✨

here are some funny Toppins for today. i drew them in some little taunt poses because i love these little guys. enjoy ❤

[theloveinc]

two took edibles now all I can think about is you being takiishi’s little drug obsessed housewife that wanders around his home and annoys the crap out of Endo for taking up so much of Chika’s weird affection even tho you’re too spacey to acknowledge it fully

[lost-in-fandoms]

sort of medieval AU in which you don't ascend to the throne by birthright but because you've proven yourself. Daniel had been on the way to become king but then Max had arrived and taken his place. Now Max is king and Daniel is the knight closest to him, made confidant, protector and lover.

After a tourney in which Daniel competed and Max did not, Max helps him take off his armor, piece by piece, gently helping him bathe afterwards.

[b4kuch1n]

pre-holiday leave crumbs

[homopopsie]

my brain: hmmm... narilamb

[dreadfutures]

just finished, 100%'d everything except the codex (88% final codex) with a platonic inquisitor redeem positive rook + mythal's release.

on a scale from worst game ever to best game ever, definitely best game ever. it is certainly one of the best games to play - it's just really fucking fun. it's smooth. it's delightful and it's deep in a lot of ways. I would recommend it to people! and the team should be really proud.

As a game that's a love letter to Thedas, it really really works for the most part! There is so much fleshed out that we have been wondering about for so long, the characters do feel so alive and lovely. This was the first game where all of the companions were really, really compelling and real feeling. I enjoyed taking all of them out in different combinations and getting to know them and their relationships to the world. I really enjoyed the evolution of combat - I'm sorry, DA has *never* had fun combat, by the standards of its own genres. They have always been great games, but there are better CRPGs, better tactical RPGs, better action games. This one manages to nail that and was a joy to play.

As the conclusion to our worlds, the ones we shaped, it falls flat in a lot of ways - and actively undermines our world states, and the points of the other games, in a lot of ways that just... feel wretchedly unnecessary.

i have a lot of bones to pick with the game (how it handles its class issues, how it doesn't even want to touch the moral complexity that it spent *so long* belaboring in the past 3 games regarding mages and non mages or the dalish and their religion or the racism and prejudice at the heart of many of these flawed societies, how it *definitely was not justified* in leaving so much of your past personalized world state behind and it's insulting to claim so). Other people can write those essays though it's 2am I have spent more than a week, every waking moment, playing the game and i'm tired and delighted and inspired.

[donotputmeinaboxturtle]

Scraping the bottom of the barrel for 3 Things that I am glad happened today

1. Went for a walk, exercise woo hoo

🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁🍂🍁

2. Ummmm I got my work schedule, and I am indeed gonna be an adult who works yet again this week. Independent win, let's go

3. I made an effort and brought my plants in from the cold so they wouldnt die. Ironically, the hardy mums didn't make it, but my other guys did. 🌱🌵

[badolmen]

Not to be extreme but dear God hold onto hope.

Things will be better one day. People will sing and dance in colorful clothes under dazzling lights again. A parent will rock their child to sleep on a quiet night again. A grandparent will teach their grandchild to cook a family recipe again. People will laugh and cry and love and grieve in the most mundane of ways once more. This will happen no matter what you believe, but hoping and believing in such things will ease your heart and kindle your resolve to see it within your lifetime. Have hope, and you will give life to the world you hope to see.

[shatterthefragments]

Oof may have fucked up the left thigh reapplication (again) but yet again I am. Hoping to hell it’s okay.

(It’s. Perhaps. A bit stretched weirdly under the saniderm again. But. I shall maintain hope). (I am trying so hard to NOT hit 10k steps a day I am trying to rest as much as possible. (I had work then school after and work for six days.). I feel like I’m chafing even through the film :()

Plus I have my “skin issues” appt with my doctor tomorrow. So. If it is infected I’m sure she’ll be able to help me.

[lunesart]

Drawing Chlostine All February: Day 9

[nurseydexunsolved]

“you are poseidon’s son”

“i am SALLY JACKSON’S son!”

THATS MY MAMAS BOYYYY thats my baby percy right there