#hmmm what to do and where to put this

[koipalm]

having fun with writing....

[her-canine-teeth]

why the fuck are people writing analyses about if taylor swifts gay. write about jackie instead she's called taylor too

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

Of my 2% capacity to be attracted to anyone, my type is like 90% women, 5% pretty men and 5% men you would swear are super fucking manly, and never questioned being straight and cis, but are now suddenly *stressed* that they can't figure out why their attraction to me [fully socially interpreted as a woman and labelled that way up until relatively recently] feels incredibly fucking gay

[kijosakka]

au where through training for the,,, fuckin skate olympics or whatever alejandro did he realizes how shitty his family is and manages to leave the situation (probably getting disowned,, living off of money won through skate competitions or smth idk) and years later reunites with josé on ridonculous race to try and rekindle a real family relationship

[robo-dino-puppies]

eyyyy look who tried to do some modding in veilguard :D

I love that Rook gets to wear this coat with the feathers but I hated the leather high-collared studded whatever-the-hell shirt thing that was going on underneath. so I tried to swap it with the "civilian" version but keep the feathers :D

the coat and pants clip like hell on my shortass elf, but still! (actually I checked and it clips on the civilians who wear it too... so that's not a me problem lmao)

anyway to elaborate: initially I tried to edit the textures to get rid of the weird shirt thing BUT the chevron stitched pieces are part of the model (BOOOOO) so despite changing their color/texture I couldn't get rid of them entirely. then I saw that swapping armor/character parts was a thing? …that I don't really understand, honestly, but there's a tutorial and I can follow steps. anyway, some civilians in Treviso wear the same coat with this low-cut shirt underneath except no feathers, and I wanted that BUT WITH THE FEATHERS. so. I did it! YAY GO ME!!! not super thrilled with the pants but I like the civilians' boots better too.

here was my initial check to see what it did to npcs that share the outfit:

and checking the color-changed version next to a civilian npc

coat and feather colors achieved! now to do the shirt and pants.

to elaborate more: so in the Rook and Ivenci versions, there are three meshes (? correct term idk?) that combine to make the whole ensemble: feathers, coat, and undershirt-belt-arms-pants-boots. can't just make the undershirt invisible bc there's no torso under there lol and it would also get rid of the arms and legs. in the civilian outfit there are two meshes: coat-and-belt and undershirt-torso-arms-pants-boots.

but like. they're basically the same? so I thought I should just be able to leave the feathers in place and replace the coat and undershirt! which worked! (after uhhhhhh several fails. yes I can follow a tutorial; that doesn't mean I can follow it on the first try because using the frosty editor feels approximately like me walking blindfolded through a convenience store knocking things off shelves. or something. idk what the hell I'm doing lol)

I hate wearing the same outfit as Ivenci tho. seriously considering putting Ivenci in something else and giving the random civilian npcs Ivenci's fit lmao. or just dress the civilians in some other civilian outfit? I wonder if I can do that...

[13eyond13]

one of the lesser talked about fun things about intentionally reading more books is finding new stuff to be a bit of a hater about tbh

[keeps-ache]

[staring out the window but it's just a sticker on the wall] i actually need to make something right now or i'll espode

[bmpmp3]

when drawing i spend a lot of time. like a LOT of time blurring my eyes because I used to be a huge perfectionist and doing that helped me picture what it might look like to someone who is not me (especially to someone just passing by or not super familiar with art in general) AND it does help a lot with that but I've also noticed sometimes I focus so hard on what my art looks like blurry and from afar that I forget. what it looks like normally. it's made me really pay attention to tonal distinction at least LOL

[mechahero]

lambda vc: save me highly specific summer aesthetic in my head... save me...

[yoshistory]

got this weird thing always where im always wondering if im a gay man or a bi dude-kinda or a bi girl-a-little-bit or a gay man-also-woman-a-bit, and its like. whenever im like "OKAYY I DONT CAREEEEE MAYBE I DO LIKE GIRLS" .... IMMEDIATELY my thoughts about liking women are gone like. when im trying to appease that. and then im like "hmm maybe i DONT like girls??" the thoughts about liking girls comes back

[devilishdelights]

dame mammon wip + first time drawing in clip studio paint

[florenceisfalling]

don't worry guys if you're ever in a bad place emotionally and seeking guidance some woman with an entirely different outlook on life than you will thrust shitty advice upon you whether you like it or not and then make you feel completely fucking awful about her wealth of wisdom that she is so genuinely convinced she has despite not having any idea . this will make the bad place so much more bad also

[glimpsesofeuterpe]

that laggy time travel delievery app thing reminds me of that first job where had to use a shitty app alike

it also had something to do with putting stuff here and there

[nothingbutalgae]

Long rant post bc ugh doctors and weight.

I'm happy but also annoyed. So I stopped weighing myself as much this year because fuck it, I don't care anymore. I'm overweight and always have been and I'm pretty active and always have been, so what gives?

Every time I go to the doctors they go well you need to eat less (I eat 2 meals and a few snacks a day, just want me to do 2 meals?). Eat more veggies/leafy greens! "You can cook up spinach in some oil on the stove and that would be a good way to get more leafy greens in!" I'm a very picky eater, always have been, but I've been getting better as the years go on, but I'm not frying up spinach and eating just that. I snack on carrots, sometimes cauliflower, cherry tomatoes, etc. Not leafy greens but at least they are veggies. Work out: "have you tried working out? how much do you work out each day? you need to be working out every day". Last time I went to the doctor in June she went "so have you been working out?" and I was like "well no, but I haven't really had time or energy because I've been working 12 hour days a few times a week, but I'm literally always on my feet and moving at work" she literally looked at me with the most unamused/annoyed expression and was like "so that's a no to working out" and I was a bit pissed off. I work as a floor person at a pet store aka constant walking around, regular lifting and carrying heavy bags up and down ladders/out to people's cars. I work as a massage therapist aka constant movement there. I started working at a garden center where they have me do random odd jobs (moving clay pots, cleaning shelves, watering or moving plants, etc all without air conditioning) or just stand at a register occasionally. Well my cholesterol is high. Yeah I know, it's been high for a while but I stopped eating fast food except for rare occasions now so I was hoping it would go down (I did start eating more chips however after that so....). With the results of the test she was like "you need to be eating less, smaller portions, more veggies, and you need to be working out for an hour a day, every day." and I was like fuck okay fine. So I started going on the treadmill for like.. 15 to 30 minutes a day, but stopped again because I really don't have the energy or time. I also have depression that idk if we ever got fully under control because I struggle to get out of bed unless I have to go do something which is actually part of the reason I started working at the garden center because at least if I'm working a 12 hour day or morning shift somewhere I have to get my ass out of bed in the morning. I do not have the energy to work out, especially when I'm working. But I figured I would gradually start with 15 to 30 minutes a few times a week and then get to 60 a few times a week (yeah that lasted like maybe two weeks and I haven't worked out since). However, despite not working out still and going down to one day a week at the garden center (so only one 12 hour day a week), I've lost 12 pounds since June without working out. How you may ask? I cut chips and egg yolks out of my diet. Literally that's the only real difference. I still eat the same portions, I may have a few more veggies because it's summer and we have the garden going (so plenty of zucchini and cherry tomatoes), but literally I still eat just as much sugar as I have, I still snack quite a bit (just not on chips) AND I'VE LOST 12 POUNDS GRADUALLY IN TWO MONTHS. LITERALLY THAT'S ALL IT TOOK. THAT'S ALL I CHANGED! I've literally struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember, and while I will have to see how far it goes down if I keep this up/maybe also start working out, I've always been classified as overweight. I got the short and stocky genes from my mom. My mom works out 30 minutes to an hour a day almost every day, in addition to being on her feet from 6am to 2pm plus whatever she does at home, she is still classified as overweight. This lady is pure muscle, she doesn't eat a ton, but nope she's still overweight. I hate that even at my lowest weight as a pre-teen/teen (which is about 35 pounds lighter than I am rn), I was still overweight. I'm happy I've lost weight but also am sad and frustrated because even if I lost 40 pounds it wouldn't be good enough to not be overweight.

[dynasty889]

Okay so these doodles are both meant to be Odysseus. The first one is like teenage Odysseus. The second one I’m thinking is Odysseus post-spending seven years against his will on Ogygia (yes I know the hair is a little f’d up on the second one gimme me a moment)

(I was gonna try to also draw a body for the second one but I gave up as usual)

[0fps]

idk if anyone plays reverse 1999 here but i might upload the "journey in the rain" album in a hot sec