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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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aibotaurs

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Our dog likes licking his head and he just wanna be leave alone and digest what happened

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Thinking about the countless times art and music and cinema and literature have saved and comforted me during difficult times i really owe my happiness to everyone dedicated to their craft

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i think we should hear them out

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Nøkken by Theodor Kittelsen

in it’s true form and disguised as a white horse

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when you get an idea for a fic but you know you’re going to have to really take your time with it in order to properly capture all the little details and plot points and themes you want to convey, but also you’re an impatient bitch who wants to write out and read that fun story in your head right fuckin’ now

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not all character interpretations are valid some of you are sexist

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life is actually about thanking the bus driver when you get off the bus

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A MOMENT OF ROMANCE 天若有情 (1990), dir. Benny Chan

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Angel of small mercies

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started this little painting like a year ago and didnt get around to finishing it until this week

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made a digital version of this painting i did about a year ago !

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im really enjoying painting on these small canvases like this!

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ive seen a lot of plane furries but not a lot of train furries so... bart and muni metro furries !

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oh so we're doing scooby doo crimes now