#hmm 'sung' probably Korean

[lalune9x]

SCTIR Translation - Chapter 472: Letter (3)

The central table was also decorated with flowers. A five-tiered tray was piled with various desserts. The elegant tea set was adorned with flowering vines that spilled over and cascaded down to the floor. Beyond all that stood Sung Hyunje.

Chapter translation under the cut.

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Chapter 472: Letter (3)

'This is close to what I expected.'

It seemed to be a banquet hall or something of the sort. The overall lighting was dim, with only the center brightly illuminated. Round tables and chairs had been pushed to the edges, leaving just one table in the middle.

The air was perfumed with the scent of flowers and grass. Not only were the tables decorated with fresh flowers, but every corner of the room was adorned with them. I wondered how much all those flowers must have cost.

'Looking at this, it seems he really does like flowers.'

Director Song once mentioned that over the years, he'd received enough flowers from Sung Hyunje to fill several trucks. He also had an indoor garden at his house. Though on the other hand, Yoohyun and Hyuna-ssi had apparently never received any flowers from him. Soyoung had said she'd gotten one or two occasionally, though she'd grimaced while commenting that they felt more like a warning, the way the mafia sends messages.

The central table was also decorated with flowers. A five-tiered tray was piled with various desserts. The elegant tea set was adorned with flowering vines that spilled over and cascaded down to the floor.

Beyond all that stood Sung Hyunje. I'd often wondered before why he went to such lengths for this kind of thing. Though in fairness, he probably just gave orders while his subordinates did all the hard work.

'They must be well-paid.'

Probably something like 100,000 won an hour. Honestly, I was also kind of tempted. Imagine earning a month's salary for a single day's work. And even though those tasks could be done by a regular person, given that an S-rank hunter was involved, they probably got hazard pay too.

As I crossed the plush carpet, I couldn’t resist asking. "How much did you pay for all this labor?"

"…Hmm. I’m not sure."

"But you must have had a budget."

"It's pocket money. I don't set a budget for light hobbies. Surely Han Yoojin-gun is the same."

"No, not really. I even recorded things like the cup of tteokbokki I bought on the street in my expense journal. I set limits for how much I can spend on snacks each month."

I had been the same even after becoming an adult. Even when I bought a cup of coffee on a cold day, I'd think about how much money I had left to spend that month. Now, though, my assets were so vast that keeping track had become difficult, but I never spent money carelessly on personal hobbies. I always checked roughly how much something might cost and how much I'd already spent.

"Well, Sung Hyunje-ssi, I suppose if you went bankrupt, you'd bounce back quickly."

Even if all the Awakened and dungeons disappeared tomorrow. Maybe he could go into show business. These days, high-rank hunters were considered the new nobility, but before that, celebrities had held that status. He was Korean by nationality, but I bet if you dropped him in Hollywood, he'd fit right in, as if he'd been a child actor there who'd been successful since a young age.

It was late autumn, almost winter, but the table that I stood resolutely in front of smelled like spring.

"I was too agitated yesterday," I said, meeting his golden eyes squarely. "Because I like you, Sung Hyunje-ssi. That's why I got so angry, disappointed, and frustrated."

If I hadn't been fond of him, I would've just thought, 'Oh well, this is a hassle,' and left it at that. If I had never stepped inside the marked boundary, I wouldn't have felt suddenly pushed out. If a close friend said out of the blue, 'I'm moving away today,' of course, I'd be confused. I'd be hurt they didn't tell me sooner, and I'd worry about why. But if it were just a stranger from the neighborhood moving, I'd just think, 'Ah, those people are moving,' and end it there.

"I also like you very much, Han Yoojin-gun," Sung Hyunje said as he lifted the teapot.

"If you're sincere, then you could show me the letter. And you could also tell me exactly what you're planning."

He poured the tea into a cup.

"You said you received a proposal, but you didn't tell me any of the details."

Given that the people involved were those who had dragged me to China, I was naturally sensitive about it, but maybe the proposal was something trivial. It could just be a dinner invitation. Maybe Park Hayul's noonim even had a thing for Sung Hyunje. He did seem to be popular with older women. If you thought about it, even the Crescent Moon was older than him.

"This letter, you mean?"

Sung Hyunje put down the teapot and took out the letter. I immediately held out my hand, but of course, he didn't give it to me.

"There are restrictions, naturally," he said.

"A contract, huh? Well, there's no way someone would deliver such an important letter without any precautions. It's probably something like 'don't show or share the contents with others,' right? Come here."

It was just a contract. Surely it couldn't be SSS-rank or higher. I opened my arms as if to hug him, but he just placed the letter down on the table.

"If the contract is broken, Chloe will leave too."

Ah… Of course. Even if they locked down the airports, an S-rank hunter could easily cross borders. She could swim to China or Japan if she had to.

"Then will you help us catch Hunter Chloe?"

"What should I do?" Sung Hyunje said, the corners of his lips curling in a mischievous way. "The contract terms aren't that straightforward. Naturally, there are exception clauses."

He tapped the table lightly with his index finger, right next to the letter.

"I don't have the loyalty to be willing to risk my life," he continued. "If I can't protect the letter with my own abilities, and it gets taken from me, it won't count as breaking the contract."

"Hey, Sung Hyunje. If you don't want to die, hand over that letter."

Obviously, he didn't give it to me. That so-called exception clause was basically meaningless. How was I supposed to take the letter from him? Maybe I should butter him up and take him to meet the Elder.

"If you have time, would you like to go on a date with me? I know a nice dungeon nearby," I said. I'll treat you well.

"As much as it's a shame to turn down a rare date invitation from you, we haven't even visited the aquarium yet, so I'll have to decline."

"I think we could make do at your house for that."

Sung Hyunje put on a disappointed face, as if he was going to cry. He really could make it big in Hollywood. Just look at that detestable expression.

"Ah fine, let's go to the aquarium," I said. "How about we take everyone along?"

"If even one S-rank hunter accompanies us, taking the letter out of my inventory could result in a breach of contract."

"…That's annoying. So you can only bring out the letter when you don't feel threatened?"

"That's right. Right now, I can even place it on the table with no problem because Sung-Han Gyeol didn't come along."

"It's Han Gyeol. Maybe it'd just be easier to check the letter after we've caught Hunter Chloe."

How could I possibly take the letter from him by myself? Even if he took a few steps back after putting it down, I wouldn't even be able to touch the table before he restrained me.

"She might not come in person to get the reply," he commented.

"Then could you just... Ah, that would be a waste."

If Sung Hyunje stayed on our side, it would be better to keep the contract intact, regardless of whether Chloe came in person or not. We could dig up more information that way. So, the best course of action would be to check the letter's contents without breaking the contract.

'...But there's really no way, is there?'

F-rank stats, no attack skills, and even though I had various gear, my opponent was a disgustingly strong natural born S-rank with combat foresight. There was no way I could take anything from Sung Hyunje with my abilities. That was why he was so relaxed, knowing the contract would remain intact.

I had to take the letter in a situation where Sung Hyunje was absolutely certain he wouldn't lose it. It was like being told to go through a closed door without opening it, breaking it down, or using teleportation.

His golden eyes curved in a relaxed smile.

"Shall I add a condition that if you successfully take the letter, I'll obediently cooperate?" he offered.

Was he making fun of me now—wait a minute.

"You're annoyingly confident," I said.

I frowned deeply and tensed my legs. I glanced to the side, pretending not to look at the letter, and—

Crash!

I lunged towards the table. The letter that had seemed to be within reach vanished in an instant, and the table tilted sharply. The flowers and dessert tray came crashing down to the floor alongside me. I ended up sprawled on the carpet, covered with the tablecloth and flower vines. My thigh, which had hit the table hard from my forceful lunge, was throbbing.

"That wasn't a very commendable attempt," he chided.

I raised my head from the pile of flowers. Golden chains that had appeared out of nowhere were holding up the teapot and teacups. Not a single drop of tea had spilled. Forks and knives jingled as they dangled in midair.

"Well, I thought I'd at least give it a try," I muttered, sitting up among the heap of flowers.

Sung Hyunje lightly flicked the fallen table up with the tip of his foot. As if pulled by invisible strings, it righted itself neatly. The teapot and teacups settled smoothly back on top.

"As you can see, there's no way I can take the letter from you by force," I said. "So how about a wager? Judging by the conditions, it seems it might work."

"If there's even the slightest chance I could lose, then it's impossible."

"We'll make it something where you have no chance of losing. If I win, you hand over the letter, completely intact, with the contents readable. If I lose, I'll do one thing you want, Sung Hyunje-ssi, whatever it is. But it has to be something related only to me—nothing like handing over the Rearing Facility, or asking Myungwoo to make you a weapon, or forcing Han Gyeol to change his family name."

If Sung Hyunje lost a bet that he was absolutely certain he wouldn't lose, it would be like losing the letter by a force of nature. That level of loophole should work, and was probably why he was taking out the letter and putting it down in front of me.

"That's quite tempting."

"You can ask me to side with you, if you want. Or you could even take me with you when you leave Korea."

At my words, Sung Hyunje's eyes narrowed momentarily. Did he interpret it as me asking to be taken along if he was going to join Park Hayul's side or wherever else?

"The condition will be one I want, not one Han Yoojin-gun wants."

"In any case—what do you say?"

"And the wager is?"

"Hmm, let's play tag. It won't be for long—let's say just ten minutes. I absolutely won't go through the door, or break the walls, ceiling, or floor."

"You have teleportation items, don't you?"

"With the points I have left, I can't afford any. And teleportation can't pass through barriers. Besides, it's only ten minutes—do you really think you couldn't catch me if I jumped outside? If I receive help from anyone else, I'll automatically lose. That includes monsters."

Sung Hyunje tilted his head slightly. He knew that, on my own, I couldn't possibly escape him for ten minutes.

"Since I'm at such a disadvantage, how about you give me three tries instead of one? What do you think?" I suggested.

"I could still win even if it were just five minutes, however…" He looked at me carefully. Of course, he'd be suspicious. "You said you spent almost all your points in the Nightmare Dungeon, didn't you?"

"Before that, I blew through them buying Yoohyun a sword. I can't afford anything like an SSS-rank item, even if they're one-time use."

"You had been serious about trying to kill Director Song Taewon, too," he said thoughtfully. He seemed to be recalling the items I had used back then. The most useful one I had left was probably the Mini Mini Cookie.

"And the dungeon rewards this time wouldn't be for yourself either," he said.

"You're unnecessarily well-informed."

Sung Hyunje took out a pocket watch from his inventory and placed it on the table. A contract appeared beside it.

"If I happen to win, you can't break the contract or withhold the letter," I added.

"I don't have the loyalty to suffer a penalty. If it's taken away because my abilities fell short, I'll accept it gracefully."

Just in case, if I won, I would deactivate my Curse Resistance immediately. We each signed the contract. Right after that—

Clink! 

"Ugh, wait a moment!"

In an instant, chains wrapped around my body. I was lifted lightly into the air, flower petals falling in a flurry.

"That's try one."

"Shouldn't you give me time to equip my gear?!"

"I'll give you three minutes. And of course, I won't deduct it from your time."

How generous. Just before the chains released me, I used an item. The King of the Mist Sea's 71st Drawer. My surroundings immediately shifted. I could see the bright blue sky, and beneath my feet—

"What—!"

Splash!

The sound of displaced water echoed loudly. Damn it, was it because she was a jellyfish? Why was there water here?! I had Grace activated, of course, but that didn't prevent me from swallowing a mouthful of water. At least it wasn't salty.

"Damn it—ugh—stupid Jellyfish!"

— Tweet! Tweet!

Wasn't it called a 'drawer'! Even Grace seemed startled and popped out. I floundered in the water, trying to swim, but even staying afloat was a challenge. Quickly, I pulled out a wire and threw it toward a tree that I'd caught sight of. The wire wrapped around the tree, and I used it pull myself and crawl onto land.

"Cough—that was close…"

I could just leave this place immediately, but then I'd lose. So, soaking wet, I collapsed onto the grass looking like a drowned rat. Both my shoes were gone... they had been expensive.

"No, but this… Can't I specify where I land?"

Appearing above water might not matter for the Jellyfish, but it did for me. With Grace, I'd honestly prefer a fire pit. Then again, I guess being in a fire pit could still be dangerous if I ran out of oxygen. But seriously, what kind of drawer was this…

"This drawer…"

— Tweet!

As I stood up, a building that looked like a villa came into view. It was a three-story mansion painted in bright colors that reminded me of a resort in the Mediterranean or some kind of vacation spot. It was on a small island surrounded by water, but the lake wasn't very large. The horizon curved like a dome enclosing the area in all directions. It felt like being trapped inside a snow globe.

"...Is this supposed to be small compared to Myungwoo's smithy?"

They had said it was just a simple storage room? And that it wasn't spacious?

"Grace, you'd better head back inside. It might be dangerous."

I couldn't be sure what might pop up. To kill 10 minutes, it would be better to stay put and not wander around unnecessarily.

I felt pleased at the thought of how surprised Sung Hyunje must be right now. He definitely didn't expect me to have an item like this. In terms of grade, it would probably be about L-rank. Especially since I'd gotten it from someone who had been a former enemy and who had no reason to be friendly towards me. Unless he was a fortune-teller, there was no way he could have known.

I decided to leisurely wait out the 10 minutes before going back out.

"If I can keep using this, it could really be used as a vacation home."

The weather was nice, and the water looked clean. I wondered what the inside of the mansion was like. It seemed that it would be quite difficult to replenish the drawer's mana stores, though.

As I slowly walked toward the entrance, casually glancing around, something caught my attention.

'...Huh?'

Something moved. What was that?

[manawari]

Imagine a solo leveling au where the korean s_rankers meet their most challenging ever in the history of dungeons. The scenario is called survive high school drama. In this scenario,you have to act based on the system giving you a role to play aka as school stereotypes. If you succeed,you get amazing upgrades and a weapon. If you fail the role,you have to read fairy tale books that are like dr seeus and grimm fairy tales.

lmaoooo that'd be so chaotic!

The S-Ranks as high school stereotypes? Hmm. . .

Sung Jin-woo

definitely an emo. The system will give him that role and he will do it naturally. All he has to do is wear black, stay quiet, and do whatever he wants by not bothering people.

Cha Hae-in

I imagine her as a "popular girl" for a challenge and she won't likely do a good job on it. She hates attention and being gawked at, preferring to be alone or with people closest to her. Yep, she will end up reading fairytales instead.

Choi Jong-in

shockingly for him, the system gives him the nerd role. He will probably do well. . . Or not. Nonetheless, he won't mind reading Grimm's fairy tales.

Baek Yoon-ho

a jock, to be precise. I think he will do well in his role as he's already got the looks and demeanor, but he can't stand acting tough all the time. He gets through the challenge and hopes to forget everything he had done for the system.

Lim Tae-gyu

the class clown! Of all the S-Rankers, he is the one who hates his role the most. It feels an insult to him. He fails a few moments later, but Tae-gyu still hates it since he's not fond of reading fairytales, and at least it's better than acting like a clown even though he is.

Min Byung-gyu

this man will squeal if he gets the nerd role. Or theater kid. Either way, as long as he gets to talk about history, he will be fine. Though, he might request the system to let him read Hans Christian Andersen stories despite succeeding the challenge.

Eun-seok

maybe "popular guy"? Lol, he'd mess his role just like Hae-in. Or not at least, since he's friendly and wouldn't mind communicating with others while ignoring how annoying it gets. Plus, he likes challenges, and will likely fail on purpose just so he can read the "punishment" books.

[gillianthecat]

I'm writing up a whole long thing on my reactions to this film, and how I would adapt it to be queer, but that's taking a while, so here are my thoughts on casting

BL Castings for The Apartment: 

Korea

is my first instinct based on the actors I thought of. And based on their non-bl dramas, I feel like they could get the mix of darkness, humor and cleverness right. I’m not sure their BL industry is there yet to do it justice, and 2/3 of the actors I choose probably would never do a BL proper, but since this (I assume) isn’t even on anyone’s radar to get made I feel like I’m allowed to go wild with it. This is how I worked through it in the comments of this post:

I don't know that the Korean BL industry could handle it, but I kind of want to send it over there for the actors. Maybe Ji Sung for the boss? I feel like the character needs the charisma and sex appeal to explain why the Shirley McLaine character is in love with him, which is inexplicable in the original. Although in queering the film you could keep him just as unappealing and find other ways to make that make sense. Maybe the actor who played Seo Joon in To My Star? For either the Lemmon or the McLaine role actually, I could see him as both and I think he can do comedy. Hmm... now my mind is turning. I don't know the third one yet. He's even less of a BL actor but the one who just came to mind for the third part is the actor who played Vincenzo and the lead from Reborn Rich, I forget his name. I think Seo Joon's guy as the Lemmon role and Vincenzo's guy as McLaine's role—he has this watchful stillness that I think would work well, and obviously he can do comedy. If we want a slightly less overtly sexy but still charismatic actor for the boss, perhaps the older lead from Beyond Evil? (I'm basically running through all the Korean shows I've seen with actors over 30, which isn't many. I'm sure there are others I'd pick if I'd seen more.)

So to sum up: Son Woo Hyun as Baxter, Song Joong Ki as Kubelik and Shin Ha Kyun as Sheldrake. 

At 37, Song Joong Ki is perhaps too old for the role, but a) he can look much younger than that, and b) I actually think it adds an interesting pathos to the story to have him as still trapped in this deadend secret relationship even into his late thirties, maybe having given up on finding anything better. Son Woo Hyun can do pining, he can do self-deprecating comedy, he’s gorgeous but I still think he could be convincingly everyman. 

As for Sheldrake, I ended up going with Shin Ha Kyun of Beyond Evil over Ji Sung (The Devil Judge). Mostly because I think Ji Sung is too gorgeous for the part. I think the character needs more sex appeal than Fred MacMurray gave him, but Ji Sung has too much, although I’m sure he could handle the role very well. I’ve only seen Shin Ha Kyun in the first couple of episodes of Beyond Evil, but my instinct is that he would be excellent at balancing the sleaze and bluster with enough charm to make it work. 

Taiwan

I feel like could do the best job with the story, characters and tone, but I haven’t watched enough Taiwanese shows (BL or otherwise) to know for sure, or who to cast. I don’t think I’d cast anyone from the three BL’s I’ve seen so far. About Youth—all way too young. Plus and Minus—I honestly remember almost nothing about the actors. We Best Love—hmm, I could actually see Lin Zi Hong in the Shirley McLain role, he can do a mix of charm and vulnerability that would work well. And he’s a good enough actor that he could handle Jack Lemmon’s part as well. Shu Yi’s dad could handle Mr. Sheldrake, we know he can play an asshole, and he’s got charisma that I think would help. But there are probably better options available.

Any thoughts from those who know Taiwanese BL better than me?

Thailand

seems to be what you were thinking about, @aliceisathome, but I think my instinct is to cast older than most of the Thai BL actors that I know. @alt-drama, Ohm Pawat and PP Krit are both amazing actors, but they both feel too young for me. And I haven’t actually seen Mew in anything, so I have no opinion on him.

Hmm. Well, if I give up on older actors, I think War Wanarat could do a good job in the McLaine role, he also has a combination of vulnerability and strength I think it needs. I was thinking about Saint for it too at first, and while I feel like he could do any role and be good at it, I think I’d rather see War. Perhaps just because I think he’s one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever seen, but the more I think about it the more fitting he seems. @placetneplacet also mentioned Mark Siwat, but I haven’t seen him in anything, so I can’t opine on that either.

And Baxter… for some reason this seems the hardest one to cast for me. I’m intrigued by placetneplacet’s idea of Off, although I’m not sure he has the comedic timing for it. He can do lovelorn and pathetic as well as charming flirt well, and those are the other important qualities.

oooh. Nanon. He also has that kind of everyman feel that Lemmon has and the character needs. I’ll pick him. And he can handle the comedy and the pining. Yes. Ohm perhaps could also be great, but I’ve only seen him as Pat, and the character feels so different that it’s hard for me to picture him as Baxter.

As for Mr. Sheldrake, the sleazy/asshole boss, while Saint can do anything, I really would like to see someone older in the role, because I feel like that’s a crucial part of the dynamic. Unfortunately I don’t know many older actors - since all the Thai actors I’ve seen so far are from QL dramas their playing parents and teachers and I’m generally not paying them much attention. The only one that has stuck out enough for me is the actor who played Mon’s stepdad from GAP, who MDL tells me is named Wo Jirawat Wachirasarunpat and is 60 years old. Which is actually more of an age gap than I was thinking, but what I liked about him was his air of charm and friendliness, which is something I want in the character, to make more sense of why the Kubelik character falls in love with him.

To summarize: Nanon as Baxter, War as Kubelik, and Wo Jirawat as Sheldrake (though he’s kind of a placeholder). With those two, I've kind of talked myself around to thinking younger actors could work.

Japan

I’m honestly having trouble envisioning this as done by Japan. Who knows, they could do an excellent version, but their style somehow seems so different to the tone of the original. (I’d love to hear the thoughts of those who know Japanese dramas and films better than me.)

Likewise, no actors stand out for me as right (probably because I’ve seen so few Japaneses shows), but, given that I’m looking for older actors, I am curious as to what Takeda Kōhei and Kimura Tatsunari (Nozue and Togawa of Old Fashion Cupcake) would do with the parts. I think I’d give Takeda the Lemmon role and Kimura the McLaine. Or perhaps Kusakawa Takuya (Minato from Coin Laundry) as Kubelik and Kimura as Baxter? None of them are exact fits for how I picture the characters, but they’re all such good actors that I think they would do something interesting. Takeda can do awkward charm and everyman appeal, I’m just less sure about that specific sort of Wilder comedy. We know that Kimura can handle the pining from afar and up close as Baxter (although he may be too pretty for the character), and I can see him doing the undertones of nihilism and angst of Kubelik as well. And I suspect he can handle to comedy well. Kusakawa is more of a guess, but he’s beautiful enough for Kubelik, and has the acting chops in general, given the difference between him as Minato and as Rokkaku in Cherry Magic.

As for Sheldrake, probably many of the older actors I’ve seen in supporting roles could do an excellent job, but I haven’t paid enough attention to them to pull one out.

I just saw someone talking about the sublime Billy Wilder film The Apartment on Twitter and am now thinking it'd make a fantastic workplace BL. But who would you cast? We'd need the Jack Lemmon and Shirley MacLaine characters plus the sleazy boss (that's an easy one - I'd cast Mew!). @placetneplacet @heretherebedork @thequeenofsastiel @absolutebl @gillianthecat @clairificusrex @weekendatennuis

[yourfavouritetragedy]

okay i’ve made posts about this before but something still is so weird to me about how people (excluding introjects, and IDK kinning so not getting into that, but would like to say I’ve seen anti-factkin people do this) use CC’s names as their own.

And when I say CCs I mean Wilbur. I’ve only seen it happen with Wilbur. And I think it’s really weird that people that are anti-factkin and pro-following boundaries would use his unique name made up for his internet persona as their own personal name.

Like, that’s weird, right? Because it literally cannot be the same as going “I really like the name Tommy, hey, Tommyinnit’s a cool guy I like, that’s a cute reference that makes me want to pick the name Tommy more.” Using the same example, going by Wilbur can ONLY be “OMG I LOVE Tommyinnit he’s my favorite CC I really want to be just like him I’m going to name myself Tommy just like Tommyinnit” because it’s not a generic name; it’s a name unique to him. Like, I’m not weird for finding that weird, right? I mean, that’s a very high level of investment paired with a very low level of self awareness (toxic parasociality??).

Like. I’m fcking parasocial about Wilbur Soot. I’ll openly admit that. I think he’s a cool guy in the way that I want to be like him. However, I’m VERY aware that I am but a number to him and that there are thousands of people that feel the exact same way as me. It’s not like my internet handles are original — my main is a direct reference to My Chemical Romance, though I suppose a band is slightly different than a person — but when it comes down it, imaging myself with a [xx]Soot username (much less going by “wilbur” but that gets into funky gender and name stuff for me) is just. Weird. It seems immature to me. In need to taking a step back and being my own person.

I guess that’s it, at the end of the day. I don’t know the ages of any of these people, but most of them are probably younger and just caught up in the idol complexes that youths have, misguided interpretations of admiration: I thought I wanted to marry an older kid I admired, you want to be the adult that you admire. It’s going “I can relate to him in some ways and want to be like him in others. Clearly the best expression of this is using his objectively nice name.”

I still find it fcking weird though. Especially people who are against even c!shipping. Like, you do realize that this could be uncomfortable to him too? Maybe you could make the argument that since it’s his internet name he probably doesn’t feel too connected to it? That just seems to be further proof of over-investment in something not real to me (and, y’know. assuming boundaries). Just because it hasn’t been brought up doesn’t mean it’s not a possibility. If I were a CC, I would absolutely be uncomfortable with people naming themselves after me (rather than as a reference to me, re: the Tommy example. a reference is about the user, not the referenced. invented names can’t be merely referenced because they’re unique creations with no other context). I know this isn’t universally true: Taesung Tao constantly tells people to name themselves Tae. But doing it without encouragement or even confirmation that it’s okay seem really weird to me.

[purplesurveys]

1031

Do you usually take blame or blame others? Depends on the context, I guess? When things go wrong on a very deep and personal level between me and people I deeply care for, I usually try to find reasons to blame myself. But if it’s something superficial, like if someone messes up at work through no fault of my own, then I’m able to point my finger to whoever fucked up.

Have you ever been to a McDonald’s in another state? I’ve been to McDonald’s in different provinces and also  in different countries. The McDonald’s we went to in Baguio was so surreal because we discovered that they were still using styrofoam containers that they had already phased out years ago everywhere else, and they also never changed the original spaghetti and chicken recipes I grew up with. It was such a blast from the past. As for other countries, I’ve tried out the McDonald’s in Malaysia, Indonesia, and China and made sure to order items that we didn’t have back home.

Have you ever seen 50 First Dates? Yeah, it’s one of my semi-guilty pleasures. It’s such a cheesy movie, but idk the concept is unique and the supporting characters made the whole movie enjoyable for me.

Do you like or hate the smell of fish? The fishy smell at the market can be pretty strong and bleck, but generally I don’t mind the smell of fish. I live in an archipelago, man. We live and breathe seafood. Idk anyone in real life who doesn’t like fish.

Have you ever been to Sea World? No.

Do you know someone who suffers from short term memory loss? I don’t think so, no.

Have you ever read any of John Green’s books? Yeah, but the only one I’ve gotten to read in full was The Fault In Our Stars. I also got to start on The Abundance of Katherines and Paper Towns, but because I only borrowed those copies from friends I never got to read either until the end. All were okay, but I don’t find John Green’s writing to be as great as it was once hyped up to be.

If so, which one is your favorite? I guess TFIOS, since that’s the only one I got to read through to the end.

Are you a protective person? With my loved ones and pets, yes.

Have you ever experienced an earthquake? Yeah I’ve felt a lot but fortunately it’s never been a severe one. Just super brief earthquakes where the most that happened to me was a little swaying.

Would you rather go to a beach or city for a vacation? I love beaches, but a change in scenery would also be nice because I already go to beaches for vacations fairly often. City.

Does your license plate number contain the number 8? I never actually memorized my plate number LOOOOOOL I think so? It’s either a 6 or 8.

Were you ever a ghost on Halloween? Nope.

Has someone ever held the door open for you? Yeah, security guards tend to do that for customers/guests. Sometimes, nice strangers that I enter a place with will do it for me too.

Are you a fan of penguins? I think fan is pushing it far lol. I like penguins, but I’m not obsessed.

Have you ever stayed up all night on a school night? Just a handful of times, and it was always as part of a groupwork. I’d never willingly go through an all-nighter for myself.

What’s your favorite brand of chips? Doritos or Pringles. We also have a local brand that makes these deeeeeelicious salted egg chips, but I’ve never actually taken note of what the brand is.

Has anyone ever sang to you? Not to me. But a lot of people have sung around me.

Are you a good painter? No. That’s why I opt for paint-by-number kits, because those come with a guide haha. I can’t actually craft images by myself – that skill belongs to my sister who has an insane talent for painting.

Before buying a car, do you usually test drive it? I’ve never bought a car by myself; my dad takes care of the car purchases. I know he test-drove the Vitara, but idk about the other cars we have.

Have you ever written a poem and then read it aloud? Hmm, I don’t write poems. I don’t find the vast majority of them appealing, and only once in a while will there be a poem that is able to speak to me.

Do you like pineapple? Nope.

Have you ever met your favorite author? I don’t have a favorite.

Do you look more like your mom or dad? Most comments point to my mom, but I’ll get the occasional remark that half of my face is my dad’s as well. I’m a good mix of both.

Have you and your best friend ever liked the same person? This hasn’t happened before.

When was the last time someone called you babe or baby? Maybe August? I’m not too sure. It’s been a few months.

Do you have an older brother? No. But I’m super close with my eldest cousin on my mom’s side and we grew up together and all that, and I pretty much consider him my older brother. He’s definitely more a brother than a cousin to me, and it has always felt and been that way.

Are you a fan of art? Yes, especially paintings and dioramas.

Did you get your mom or dad’s eyes? My mom’s, I think? I really don’t know, I’m bad at recognizing this kind of stuff. You’d have to ask people who actually see me on a daily basis.

Have you ever seen the movie My Girl? Is this the one with the really sad scene of a boy’s funeral and the girl’s like, “He can’t see without his glasses”? I haven’t seen the movie, but I’ve heard about that scene a million times.

Do you watch Teen Wolf on MTV? Ugh, MTV’s teen shows are such a cringefest to me. I never followed it, but I’ve had to watch a few eps back in high school when my friends would watch it while we were at someone’s place. Not my cup of tea.

When it was on, did you watch Cory In The House on Disney? I watched a few episodes, especially when it was still new. But we were also in the process of moving then and we didn’t have cable for a few years in our new house, so I had to miss out most of it.

Do you have any blackheads? I don’t.

Do you have any freckles? Nope.

Do you have a movie that you have to watch during the summer every year? No, but I have something similar. I like watching Love Actually at least once every year, during the Christmas season. I like watching Two for The Road once a year as well, regardless of the time of year.

Do you think that life isn’t fair sometimes? I mean yeah. It doesn’t revolve around me, so I know it won’t always be fair.

When was the last time someone bought you flowers? Valentine’s Day last year.

What was the last book you read? Midnight Sun. Haven’t touched it since September, though.

How many books do you plan to read this summer? It’s past summer, and I haven’t been doing a lot of reading in general.

Does your house have a dishwasher? No, not a common appliance here.

Do you know anyone who has a flower tattoo? I probably do. But I haven’t seen people outside of family for so long that I can barely remember who has which tattoos. I’m pretty sure I know someone who has flowers.

Do you like the name Carter? It just reminds me of the underwear brand honestly, so not a fan.

Have you ever had a secret admirer? No. Should there be one, they shouldn’t be having high hopes; I wouldn’t be interested in the least.

How many different languages can you say goodbye in? There’s English, Filipino, Korean, Spanish, German, French, Japanese – 7.

Agree or disagree: You like Adam Sandler movies. Disagree for the most part, but 50 First Dates is cute.

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Did the last type of shoes you wore have laces? Yups. I wore sneakers when I went out to get Starbucks last Friday evening.

How much money did you spend yesterday? The charging cable that I ordered arrived yesterday, so I had to shell out ₱140 for that.

What genre is your favorite movie? It’s a romcom/drama. My other favorite is a drama.

Are you texting anybody right now? Nope. I’m all alone today, which is the way I want to be for this weekend.

Who was the last person you were in a car with? My parents.

Do you like the picture on your license/I.D. card? I really do, hahaha. I don’t know why the people at the LTO gave me a pass, but I had been allowed to smile with my teeth. That helped make my license photo turn out super well and I no longer feel embarrassed whenever I have to take it out and present it somewhere.

What’s your favorite thing to snack on while watching a movie? Potato Corner fries. Can’t be any other type of fries.

When was the last time somebody hit on you? July or August when this random guy slid into my PMs. I had never had so much fun blocking somebody so fast.

Was the last person you met a male or female? The last new person I met was male.

Which one of your friends do you feel most comfortable around? Angela or Andi.

Do you own a map of the world? I mean, I guess. I have a collection of the World Almanac for Kids books, and it had always included a world map in its Countries chapter every year.

What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? We don’t celebrate Thanksgiving.

Is the light on in the room you’re in? No, doesn’t have to be as it’s bright out and I can see the sun from my window.

Who did you last spoon with? Gabie.

Are you currently watching TV? No.

Have you ever had surgery or stitches? Never. Hope I’ll never be needing one.

Do you own any clothing that has animal print? I have a tank top with cheetah print that I sometimes wear at home.

Does your family eat dinner together? Yes, every evening. We don’t eat together when my dad is working abroad, but since he has stayed home for all of 2020 because of Covid, we’ve gotten to eat together as a family all year.

Where do you work? Somewhere in Metro Manila; I’m not giving the city away.

Are you in high school? I got out of there nearly five years ago.

Do you have a TV in your room? I used to, but not anymore.

Are any of your electronics charging right now? My phone and laptop both are.

What was the last video game you played? Mario Kart 8.

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Are you hungry?: I can def go for a snack, or maybe even a full meal. It’s taking everything in me not to order Popeye’s or Army Navy from Grab rn.

What color is the chair you’re sitting on?: I’m sitting up in bed; my sheets are blue with gold/yellow prints.

What did you buy last time you went to the store?: I got bottled coffee when I went to 7-Eleven a week ago.

Do you like salsa that has fruit in it?: ...Don’t all types of salsa have fruit in them though? It would be brand-new knowledge to me if I was told not all salsas have fruit.

Have you ever opened up your computer to clean the fan on the inside?: No. I’d rather have professionals do that.

Can you count in binary?: No, and I never even understood how it works.

Do you think stained glass windows are pretty?: No. Mostly because it reminds me of cathedrals.

Are you a chocoholic?: Nah. I like chocolate, but I can live without it.

Are you scared of snakes?: I mean if they were venomous or obviously wanted to eat me whole, of course. But I’ve also already held a couple of snakes before.

Have you had your wisdom teeth removed?: No.

Do you like hard or soft pretzels better?: Soft all the way. I find the hard ones too salty.

What was the last magazine or catalog you looked through?: I don’t even remember. Maybe Tatler? My grandma has loads of those at her house.

When was the last time you wore a raincoat?: I don’t think I have ever worn a raincoat.

Have you ever been carded when buying something?: Idk what that is but nothing out of the ordinary has ever happened to me whenever I’ve made a purchase, so I’m gonna go ahead and say no.

Do you eat meat?: Yep.

Corn and mashed potatoes, or beans and rice?: Both pairings aren’t really a part of our cuisine, so neither sound appealing to be honest. As someone who thrives on rice, I hate the idea of eating beans with it; so I would go with corn and mashed potatoes even though I’m having a hard time imagining how it would work.

Can you sleep with the light on?: I probably can, but it would take me a lot longer to fall asleep.

What’s your operating system of choice?: Mac/iOS.

Have you ever broken a bone?: Never.

Do you have a favorite highlighter color?: I don’t have a favorite color to use, but I prefer pastel shades in general over neon.

Do you have a flashlight?: My phone has a built-in flashlight, but we also keep a couple of emergency flashlights at home in case of blackouts.

Do you like watermelon?: I like some watermelon-flavored stuff like candies, but I’m not fond of the fruit.

…Honeydew?: Hahahahahaha. BoJack Horseman, anyone? Anyway, I’ve never had honeydew and probably wouldn’t like it considering my established opinion on fruits.

Can you shoot a gun?: I’ve never tried, so I’ll say no. I’ve always been meaning to go to a shooting range though; I feel like it’ll be such a cool experience.

Do you like salad?: Not for the most part. The only kind I enjoy is spicy tuna salad, which only has lettuce in it alongside tuna sashimi and spicy mayonnaise.

When was the last time you smashed your finger?: I don’t know if I ever have? This doesn’t ring a bell to me.

What color is your computer?: Silver/gray.

Have you ever made ice cream in chemistry class?: No, my chemistry classes in high school and college were never that fun.

Has anyone ever walked in on you while you were on the toilet?: Sure.

What color hair do you have?: Black.

Do you use the microwave often?: I wouldn’t say so; just a couple of times a month.

Are you good at spelling?: Sure, I’d claim that. Thank the movie Akeelah and the Bee; that movie made me super passionate about spelling and dictionaries for a time. I can still feel its effects today because I’m still very much particular about spelling more so than any other kind of writing/language mechanic.

Have you ever petted a donkey?: I’ve never even seen one before :o but I’d love to have the chance to pet one, heh. It would make me so happy.

When was the last time you went to the doctor’s for a physical?: 2016.

Do you like a lot of ice in your drinks?: Sure.

Have you ever painted a room? Never have, but would like to give it a try.

[f-l-writes]

Hide Away

Warnings: Swearing. 

Word Count: 2.8 K (honestly, I was expecting it to be longer but eh. It’s not horrible)

Feel free to request!

Chan was your best friend of five years. He was your rock, as you were his. You treated one another like other was everything good in the world. And to you, he was. Unfortunately, you couldn’t say the same for him and, while you direly hoped it to be so, the last few weeks had been quite disheartening.

You and Chan had always hung out. Be it in his studio where he worked, you listening and giving feedback on the songs, or on his days off where the two of you just chilled in the JYP cafe. The two of you were, to put it simply, inseparable.

However, Chan had begun to avoid you. Whenever you called and asked for him to hang out, he always declined. Always said he was insanely busy (though that hadn’t stopped him before). When you were stressing about school, which was getting to be more and more often considering midterms were coming up and you didn’t want to fuck anything up, he simply sent Chang Bin or Woo Jin over to help you.

While his avoidance allowed you to grow closer to the other boys, you felt like you were losing a grip on the one person who you cared about more than anything in the world. It almost felt like five years of friendship were just… going down the drain. That all the time the two of you invested into one another didn’t matter.

It hurt you inside but, as you always seemed to do, you kept it to yourself. You fooled yourself into thinking you were really having fun with the rest of the boys when Chan was missing. You forced smiles and laughs while you were with them, leaving your mind to wonder what you did wrong. Leaving you to question if Chan just… stopped caring. You felt like you were at fault for what was going on.

“Y/N!” Felix called out from the hallway of the door, a smile adorning his freckled face. “We want to show you something!”

You were confused as to who else was in on his tactics, but you shrugged it off, excusing yourself from the “conversation” that you were having with Chang Bin. That conversation, of course, only consisting of head nodding and the occasional “hmm” of thought.

Making your way over to where Felix stood at the mouth of the hallway, he led you to a room that you had become extremely familiar with. It was Chan’s and Chang Bin’s. On the bed, you spotted a laptop that was open with a video of Chan sitting in one of the studios in the JYP building. There was no title to the video from what you could tell and Chan seemed to be either distressed or venting something to his laptop that was extremely serious.

“Guys, we shouldn’t pry into Chan’s stuff,” you scolded, walking over to close it before Jeong In, who had been in the room previously alongside Seung Min and Ji Sung, moved to hit play on the video.

There was a beat of silence before Chan began to speak, his introduction and first word being none other than your name.

“Y/N… I don’t think I’ll ever actually get around to showing you this video or sending it or whatever but… I just wanted say that you have been the greatest supporter I had after coming to Korea. I wasn’t necessarily lonely my first two years here but… I was, in a way? There were people I interacted with and enjoyed conversation with but I was never really,” he paused for a moment, turning his head to look at the door before he faced the laptop camera again, continuing.

“I was never really there to them. When you showed up, just before I met Ji Sung and a year before Chang Bin even showed up, you were the first one to make me feel like I was there and active. And to think you weren’t even part of the company,” he laughed a bit, “you were just there hoping to see the members of 2PM or Wonder Girls.

“I remember you were having your own struggles speaking Korean to the barista at the Dunkin Donuts across the street.” a reminiscent smile settled on his face, his eyes no longer focused on the camera. He stopped for a moment, letting the memory settle before he spoke up again.

“We sat together and spoke for a while, getting to know one another. You didn’t act like I was some sort of god because I was training to be an idol like some other people I had met did. You showed genuine interest in what I did. From then on, it was almost like we had immediately connected and I was so much happier than I had been before. I was more active with talking to the other boys I trained with and I looked forward to every meeting we had.

“I remember when Felix got eliminated, you had locked Chang Bin out of the dorm just to comfort me. Told me that you’d fight Jin Young the first chance you got if he didn’t bring back Min Ho and Felix. You are part of this group just as much as the boys, even if you don’t promote with us. You are at every domestic concert that you can manage despite school and you never fail to congratulate us every time we get back.

“Every time I catch myself thinking about you, it’s always about how you’re here for us, no matter what the circumstances. You’re always sending us words of encouragement and love. You never get annoyed at the lack of time we have to talk while promoting and you’re always so patient and caring with us. Hell, you’ve practically moved in by this point to make sure we were taking care of ourselves.

“But, what I really wanted to say is-”

“Why the hell are you guys on my laptop?” Chan questioned, his cheeks tinted a brick red as he marched over, snapping the device shut before tucking it under his arm.

His eyes caught your own for a moment and, before you could say anything, he was off. From the front of the dorm, you heard the door bang shut and Chan was off again. Now, you were left with a feeling of wanting to watch the rest of the video or, at the very least, to coax the words from Chan himself. Whether it was him saying he no longer felt the care he did before and he no longer wanted to be friends or something else entirely, you were dying to know.

With silence enveloping the room quickly, the air had become thick with tension before Felix spoke up, a cheery smile on his face and a sound of triumph in his honey voice.

“Well, at least we got to know how Chan feels about Y/N. And I think we all know what his final sentence was going to be,” the Australian male joked, winking at you slyly.

You rolled your eyes, shaking your head as you turned to head out of the room, a simple farewell leaving your lips as you passed by Chang Bin, Woo Jin, and Min Ho on the couch. They had put up no argument or question to your departure and, soon enough, you were out the door and making your way towards your car, heading home to think.

The following week was one of uneventfulness. Unfortunately, you were studying to hell and back for midterms so you didn’t have much time to see the boys in the flesh unless you brought them some quick food or absolutely needed to check in, but the last time you had stopped by was Wednesday, three days prior.

As you finally closed your notebook of notes for Psychology, you got several frantic messages from Chang Bin, Felix, Ji Sung, and Woo Jin and a follow up call made by Min Ho. Answering the call before you read the messages, you were extremely confused when Min Ho began to speak.

“Have you seen Chan? He’s not been back to the dorms since Tuesday and we just got back from scouting the studios and he’s not there either. We didn’t know if he went to your house or not.” Min Ho’s words were frantic and, in turn, got your heart beating quickly as you registered their words.

“I haven’t seen him but I’ll go looking for him. There’s a few other places that he might be that I know of. If he isn’t in those places then I’ll call you guys and, if need be, we can call the police to help us.”

You heard a flurry of thank you’s from the other end before hanging up and rushing to throw on a coat and shoes, grabbing your keys off of the hook by the door and then quickly taking off.

The first place that you had often found Chan when he needed to isolate himself was at a park that was near the previous JYP building. He had a little area he always went to that was undisturbed by others. How he found it, you had no idea, but it always led to you finding him when you couldn’t otherwise.

However, he wasn’t there. This caused a bit of worry, but you knew better than to overreact. After all, there were still a couple of other places for you to look before you had to report back to the rest of the boys or, what would be more likely, continue to search the rest of the surrounding areas for the boy.

The second place that Chan frequented was a music store that was probably about two or three miles away from the new JYP building. Stepping in, you were greeted by Jun Young, a man who had come to know you and Chan quite well over the years. When you asked if the male had stopped in, he frowned and shook his head.

“However,” he stated, stopping you before you could turn, “give this to him when you find him. He stopped in a couple weeks ago and I guess he forgot to pick up the guitar he needed to fix.”

With that, almost like you were in a video game receiving a key item, Jun Young had passed you a pack of guitar picks alongside the case containing the guitar. Thanking the older man, you made your way back out and set the case and picks in your backseat before taking off, finally heading to the last place you could be expected to find him before you double checked the studios.

Closer to the dorms was a place that you often saw Chan frequent but had never actually been there with him. It was a bookstore, plainly enough. Chan seemed to adore the place, always coming out with one book or another on music theory or science fiction. Stepping into the place, you were hit with the smell of books and, while it would be appreciated any other time, the anxiety that had set in your stomach had tried to reject the scent.

Wandering around the store, you searched the aisles thoroughly to ensure that Chan wasn’t, in fact, sitting on the floor and reading a book he had found interest in. When you came up empty, you had to take a deep breath before heading out and back to your car.

“Back to the studio we go,” you mumbled, making the quick trip back to the building before you called for someone to come and meet you.

By the time Woo Jin arrived, alone surprisingly enough, your stomach was twisting in violent knots. You were worried out of your mind at this point and you didn’t know what you would do if you and Woo Jin would come up finding something undesirable.

Staying beside the older male, you followed him to the elevator to take the two of you up to the studios, ready to scout out and see if the missing male was actually hiding away in his safe space.

When you came to the first set of doors, you and Woo Jin split, going through the rooms and hoping to see some sign of life. As you came to the last set, you pushed open the door to see the male stuffed away on a corner of the couch that was in the studio. His head was resting uncomfortably on his shoulder and he was covered with a jacket. On the desk was his open laptop and many boxes of food from the cafe.

Sighing in relief, you turned to see Woo Jin walking towards you, a questioning look on his face. Holding your index finger to your lips, you stepped into the room, saving the track that was open before closing the lid of the laptop and tucking it under your arm. You turned to see Woo Jin slowly talking Chan out of sleep, the 21 year old slowly opening his eyes and showing visible confusion as to why Woo Jin was there.

Walking over, you crouched down as well, setting a hand on his knee as you spoke up, your relief from finding him visible in your eyes.

“Why don’t we get you back to the dorms, Chan? You can get some decent sleep there.”

He only let out a groggy noise of acknowledgement before he sat up, rubbing his eyes with his knuckles. It wasn’t until you had helped him up that he decided to actually move and get around to moving, walking beside you and heading out to the car. Woo Jin had left you to take him back to the dorm, almost foreshadowing the situation that would happen in the car.

As you waited for Chan to situate himself in his seat before passing him his laptop, you stared out the window, letting the silence drape over the two of you. For you, it felt smothering. Like it was grasping your throat and pressing down, waiting for someone to speak. To kill the silence before it killed you, you switched on the radio, letting out a sigh of relief as the choked feeling finally let up.

Just as you went to pull out of the parking lot, Chan finally spoke up, his voice still hoarse and tired.

“How far into the video did you get last week?”

“Video…? Oh! I think we were almost at the end before you came in,” you admitted, the apples of your cheeks taking on a red hue.

You still felt bad for letting the other boys play the video but you had been so interested in what he was saying, along with your own memories from when he was still a trainee, that you had just let it play.

“Do you want to know what I was going to say?” he questioned, his eyes refusing to meet yours as he kept his gaze on his lap.

“I would like that,” you admitted with a shrug. “But you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to, Chan. You know I wouldn’t ever force you to tell me.”

“I know. You’re horrible at forcing people to do things, even if it’s for the better,” he chuckled a bit. “But, to be honest, I ended that video by telling you I liked you. I have since a couple years ago and… I just haven’t found the courage to tell you before now. That’s why I’ve been pushing away,” he responded, his eyes still on his lap.

“I like you, too, Chan,” you admitted, the red hue becoming darker and spreading down your neck, the heat almost making your eyes water.

“Really?” he questioned, clearly surprised by the reveal.

“I thought I made it obvious enough, but yes, I like you. If it wasn’t for the three year ban I’d probably ask to go on a date the next time you’re free,” you admitted.

“God I hate this three year ban thing now,” he groaned, earning a chuckle from you.

“Well, if we know each other’s feelings for one another, does it really matter? I’m sure we can both withstand 3 years. After all, you’re already almost one year into it.”

“You’re right about that… Do you promise to wait for me, then?”

“I promise, Chan. I don’t think anyone else can make me feel the way you make me feel. I know we just went through a rough patch but… I’m hoping the rest can be relatively smooth sailing from here. No more hiding away from one another, no shutting each other out, no overworking.”

“I can’t agree to that last-”

“Chris.”

“Sorry. No overworking. Got it.”

And so it was settled. The two of you would wait. And so you did. It was a dream at first. Almost a happy ending. You were in love with him and, according to what he told you, he was in love with you as well. Hopefully it would stay that way for a long while. 

[haeyeongs]

No stress when answering! Answer whenever you have the time. :) Oohh I don't watch many jdramas (I really should though) so I'll definitely look up Kikazaru Koi ni wa Riyuu ga Atte. The synopsis sounds cute~! I saw Be Melodramatic via gifs here on tumblr and I think I'll save it for when I want a good cry. I LOVED Into the Ring! Nana and Park Sung Hoon were ridiculously adorable and healthy and adorable together. Their chemistry was sooo gooood!

hmm... from the top of my head the dramas that I would like to rec. are...

The Crowned Clown: It's the drama ver. of the film Masquerade. The drama has dark and really heavy themes especially in the first two episodes but it's sooo good. Yeo Jin Goo and Lee Se Young and the rest of the cast are amazing in this drama. Also, the PD for Vincenzo also directed this drama too! It's one of my top fav historicals.

Extraordinary You: Like you for Run On, the drama aired when I was having a hard time and helped me come out of a funk. I related to the character Dan Oh so much. Her character, fighting to make her own decisions when her whole world was against her really hit me.

20th Century Boy and Girl: I feel like this is such an underrated romcom gem. It has Han Ye Seul and Kim Ji Suk as leads. They're soooo cute in this drama! I really recommend it if you're looking for a cute binge watch. If you want to watch a good thriller/horror I would recommend watching Midnight Mass on Netflix. I just finished the series and wow it was really good!

Are there any genres you tend to avoid?

I don't watch many jdramas either but I've LOVED the few ones I've seen so I'd like to watch more jdramas! And yayyy an Into the Ring fan!! I'm glad that you loved it too!

It's very funny that you ask what genres I tend to avoid..... because I always avoid thrillers and horror stuff 😭 I prefer character-based stories but thrillers are plot-based so I avoid them because I know I will probably be bored watching it. As for horror, I want to enjoy it but I'm such a scaredy-cat and get very anxious easily! So I avoid it because I know it will makes me feel bad. When it comes to kdramas, I don't watch sageuks. I actually love European period dramas but I know very little about Korean history so I'm afraid of not understanding sageuks enough to enjoy them... But I've started watching Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung last year and I've loved it!! I know this one is not very accurate but it's so light and easy that it can be a nice gateway to sageuks!

Your recs are so interesting!!!

I've heard very little of The Crowned Clown but it sounds so great! I'm adding it to my watchlist! I don't think I'll watch it anytime soon because of the reasons I've mentioned before but it's so intriguing so I don't want to forget about this one!

I've been intrigued by Extraordinary You since it came out!!! The plot seemed so cool but I wasn't sure if I'd like it because it's set in a school... I've made my mind now and I've added it to my watchlist as well! I hope I'll get to watch it soon!

I've actually seen 20th Century Boy and Girl!!! But I haven't finished it yet... My toxic trait is that I never finish watching the shows I like... I think I only have like 6 episodes left?? I need to watch those last eps because I need that serotonin boost. I totally get why you like this drama, it's such a cute romcom! (If anyone who's not my Secret Valentine is reading this: go watch 20th Century Boy and Girl!). Thanks for the reminder, I need to binge the last episodes!

One of the reasons why I've loved 20th Century Boy and Girl is because friends to lovers is one of my favorite tropes!! What tropes do you like the most? (they can be romantic or not)

[seoulofakwonjiyong]

Kpop Stan Icebreaker Challenge

I went through my old tag games and found this as the name of the tag, but it’s been a while since I did it. And I was tagged by the amazing @julla and I’m totally not worthy! who doesn’t know much about me! So here I go, again!

Ultimate bias? Kwon JiYong

Ultimate Bias Wrecker? Hmm... Song Mino (winner)

Favorite Kpop song? At the moment it’s I Love You – Bobby 

First Kpop Song? Password 486 – Younha 

Favourite Kpop Album/Single? I did album last time, we’ll do single this time, favorite single is As If It’s Your Last – BlackPink because it’s so damn catchy and I can’t help but do the dance and scream sing it whenever it plays. 

Favourite Kpop Ship? Any BlackPink combo. I just love them so much, their friendship makes me smile a lot!

Hard Stan or Soft Stan? Both... at the moment, probably mostly soft.

Favourite Kpop company? YG, for the artists. 

Backstory of how you got into Kpop I’m gonna be lazy and copy paste from another tag game, I got into KPop via a Korean friend at school in 2007. It actually started with anime openings and then she showed me a BLEACH opening that was sung by Younha. Then I heard Password 486 and I was hooked. BIGBANG was right on the heels of Younha. I watched the MV for Lies when a friend said, “I have to show you this KPop group, they’re amazing!” she wasn’t wrong. 

I shall tag: @bae-jagiya, @jijagi, @aflaxtonjaegerbomb, @screaming-bigbang, @craftywhispersinternet, @haruharu-soloday, @hitomebore08

[sungggyu]

171119 sunggyu fm fan account

the following account of sunggyu’s recent fanmeet in taipei may get rather detailed at some point, as it is pretty much a word-for-word transcript based off my own fancams and audio recordings of both the afternoon and evening shows. just a heads-up, it is a little lengthy as more than it being something i want to share with everyone else, it is something i want to keep for myself, with as many details i can remember as possible. i will be putting in bold some of the more interesting portions in case you want to just quickly scan through it for some of the highlights. so, here goes:

2PM SHOW

when i finally got into the venue around 1.40pm, sunggyu's solo songs were blasted from the speakers one after another with a simple 'kim sung kyu mini live & fanmeeting 2017' as the background on the display screen. after 60 seconds finished playing, a little vcr (a compilation of his photos from their latest ot6 photoshoot) started playing and when it ended, the lights in the venue dimmed. everyone started buzzing as sunggyu had not come out immediately as we had thought he would and that was when he took us off-guard, walking out from the left side of the stage suavely in a blazer that made him look like a prince.  

🎶 kontrol

🎶 i need you

🎶 shine

immediately when he reached the mic stand, the music for 'kontrol' started to play and the fanmeet officially began. after 'kontrol', sunggyu went on to perform 'i need u' and 'shine' immediately after. listening to 'i need u' and 'shine' live was really sgdkskzdjkd because i've never heard them both live before  'shine' made me especially emotional because it is my favourite of all sunggyu's solo songs.. at the bridge of 'shine', the part that goes '너의 목소리, 너의 그 눈빛...' he sang '그 어떤 것도 잊질 못해' in falsetto for the album recorded version of 'shine' but over here, he sang the first one in falsetto and the second one in his real projected voice (? idk the term for it i'm not a music person,, just, like, his actual voice) which was super duper amazing. after finishing these three songs, he said thank you and headed backstage for a bit to rest while the mc for the event came out. if i'm not wrong, she was the same mc who hosted the infinite only fanmeet in taipei back in february this year  she's really bubbly and nice, when she came out, she warmed us up by asking some basic questions. i also want to make a quicknote that she kept calling sunggyu (小)圭圭, which translates to (little) gyugyu, which was super cute especially when she referred to sunggyu using that a lot to which sunggyu even responded to at some point sjkgdfdhdgjgh

mc: were those three songs good?

fans: yes!!!

mc: is gyugyu handsome today?

f: yES!!!!!!!!!

mc: this year is the ___ year of his solo debut?

f: fifth!!!

mc: are you excited for today's show ?

f: yEs!!!!!!

mc: how many of you are coming to both the afternoon and evening shows?

me: ME 😂

mc: gyugyu has been practising really hard for this. earlier while i was backstage, i kept hearing him going ahhh↗ahhhhh↘ahhhhh, he was doing his vocal warm-ups really seriously.

mc: have any of you watched his interview from the yesterday?

fans: yes!!!

mc: wow let me complain to you a little, did any of you see how many buttons he left unbuttoned? the audacity!  anyone saw anything from the deep lowcut? yeah, a little bit of a shadow right?

after a bit more small talk here and there, sunggyu finally returned to stage. a lady translator followed shortly too. his first greetings were in korean, so the mc asked him if he had been practising his chinese, to which he said "oh, chinese? my greetings earlier? 大家好 我是金聖圭 (hi everyone, i'm kim sunggyu)。" five seconds after saying this he became shy and burst out laughing, scrunching up his face a little.

mc: your members' reactions when you told them about this fanmeet, how was it like? it was a little bit cold, wasn't it?  (a/n: she probably got this from the interview gyu gave the day before to taiwan press)

sunggyu: *sputtering* oh, no, um. *breaking out into high pitched embarrassed laughter* i guess it's because they believe in me? they did say something like "hyung, you'll do well" so..

mc: sunggyu mentioned he wanted to come to taiwan together with his members and film a variety together here

sunggyu: ah yes, if given the chance i would really love to come together with them and eat good food together

mc: yeah from the moment he arrives yesterday, he barely had any rest and hasn't gotten a chance to explore the streets of taipei

sunggyu: oh yes, well, my schedule just happened to be packed like this.. after the interview i went out to eat with the staff..

[ ‘sungkyu in taipei’ segment ]

after a while, they sat down and proceeded to the first segment where sunggyu has to pick an alphabet from 't a i p e i'. the alphabet he picks will give a word/topic he'll tell us more about. every time he had to pick an alphabet, he'd ponder his choice out loud and if fans were yelling anything other than what he picked, this would happen:

sunggyu: hmm

fans: e! e!

sunggyu: i'll go with t! :)

fans: p! p!!!

sunggyu: p? p??? alright, i'll pick e ^^

you can really feel the ^^ seeping out from his words and actions.. know that when i include a ^^ at the end of quoted speech from sunggyu here, it means that i felt it from his word 😂

sunggyu: i pick a!

mc: ooh, achieve! everyone, follow me. repeat after me, a!

sunggyu: a!

mc: achieve!

sunggyu: achieve!

(a/n: this was so cute all the fans went wild because he was just repeating after the mc so cutely)

a - achieve

q: your solo activities have been very successful thus far. are there any more goals you'd like to achieve before the end of 2017, or any dreams you'd like to fulfill?

sunggyu: basically, i feel that i've more or less accomplished most of the things i wanted to do this year. for example, i wanted to be involved in a production and release an album, so i've been working on my solo album. i've also wanted to be part of a musical, hence i'm currently participating in a musical and i hope it will be successful.

mc: so i guess you can say sunggyu is a careful planner who works effectively, right? he set a few goals for himself and he has achieved all of them within this year.

(a/n: the above exchange was pretty long as the translator translated for quite a while due to his long message so the whole time sunggyu was sitting there nodding nodding nodding his bobblehead and it was so cute fans started yelling)

sunggyu: yes, yes, that's right, that's absolutely correct.

i - impact

q: were there any solo or group activities from the past year that left a deep impression on you?

sunggyu: ahhhhhhh. for my first solo fanmeeting in tokyo, i was so nervous on the first day that i ended up entering the stage even before the music started playing. if there was a live band on stage with me then they could coordinate with me and start as we had the mr audio playing over the speakers instead of a live band, i couldn't do that. so i had a lot of thoughts in my head, should i stop the music and start over again, or should i go ahead regardless, although in the end, i went ahead anyway. once i returned to our hotel after it ended, i couldn't stop thinking about it and felt very sad.

mc: it just weighs down on you, doesn't it?

sunggyu: yes.. but well, it's alright, i guess? you guys weren't there to witness that anyway so i think it is okay? ^^ (a fan in the crowd signalled that she had been there too) o-oh, you were there too??

mc: oh, you were there? the tokyo show? OH, you're japanese? *to sunggyu* fan from japan!

sunggyu: a-ah.. ah! konichiwa!

mc: gambatte kudasai

sunggyu: sunggyu-desu ^^

t - talent

q: the sunggyu we know is extremely talented. be it singing, variety or acting in musicals, you've proven yourself to he multi-talented. if you could gain another talent, what kind would you want to have?

fans: aegyo! aegyo!!!

sunggyu: i'm sorry, what? aegyo? aEGyo? aegyo is a talent that i don't really want to have. i am DEFINITELY not going to do it.

fans: ehhhh

sunggyu: for me.. if i had to pick..... i'd say sportiness?

fans: ehhhhHHHhhhHHH

sunggyu: *indignant* what? why???

mc: are you guys unsatisfied with this answer? you want him to have a talent in aegyo?

fans: yesssssssssss

*sunggyu throughout the above exchange between mc & fans: shaking his head with his eyes shut tightly and a little small playing on his lips*

sunggyu: aegyo, i don't have it-

fans: aegyo! aegyo! show! show! show! show!

sunggyu: *resigned to his fate*

sunggyu: *did a cute v pose with pouty lips for literally 0.1s and put his hand down immediately after*

fans: KSJDHLKDHKFJFNFKS

sunggyu: ah indeed, i do have some aegyo..

sunggyu: *embarrassed, starts laughing and fanning his face before reaching forward to drink some water*

mc: that was okay, right? everyone let's let him off the hook for now. later we'll have him do the ultimate aegyo challenge, yeah?

sunggyu: *almost choking on his water* ah, i-is that so?

(a/n: the way he drinks water is SO CUTE. he uses a straw and he always takes a big big sip till his cheeks are full and puffy before swallowing the water slowly then repeat ;~; )

i - infinite

q: you have been busy with individual schedules up to now. roughly when will we be able to expect a group comeback where you will spend time together as a group with your fans?

sunggyu: firstly, infinite is preparing for a fanmeet in korea at the end of this year. right now, we aim to release an album around that time. please anticipate it a lot.

mc: as infinite's leader, could you give us a tiny little hint on the album's direction? will there be impressive choreography like before?

sunggyu: truthfully, we haven't started practising our choreography.. the dance has already been choreographed though.

fans: show us! show us!

sunggyu: ah no, well, thing is the members haven't had much time together till now so we have not started practising it yet. this album, because it's one that we've been preparing for such a long time, we recorded so many songs. we spent a long time pondering about the title track as everyone has many different opinions. we had a meeting just the other day and finally decided on the title track. we really hope that you will like it.

mc: we will be wrapping up this segment now.  can we invite our little gyugyu to introduce the next two songs?

sunggyu: the next song, i actually released it even prior to my solo debut. yes, yes, that song. 'because' from over the top. the next song after this is a song called 'daydream'. it's a song written and producdd by a senior i really like and respect a lot.. ^^

(a/n: he sounded so happy talking about nell.. the more he talked about 'daydream', the more you could the smile in his words, it was so cute!!)

🎶 because

🎶 daydream

listening to 'because' live was truly AN EXPERIENCE because ever since the moment i got into infinite and watched my first ever 'because' fancam, i've always thought that i would probably never get to hear it live considering how it's a solo song and such an old one at that but!!!  i love it so much it used to be the one song i would loop for hours and days on end without rest.. 'daydream' was incredible too, finally witnessing rap!gyu with my own two eyes and ears probably added to my lifespan by ten years. it's not that he made a mistake or anything since he put his all into the rap but i simply just couldn't get over how cute his rap voice sounded :( speaking of this, i think they've actually had the whole song re-recorded with sunggyu's rap? i couldn't really tell if it was sunggyu instead of jongwan's voice at the part towards the end too because the speakers were right in front of me messing up my listening judgement but i'm still pretty certain tablo's part has been re-recorded with sunggyu.

[ game 1 ]

once sunggyu finished the two songs and had ample rest backstage, he returned to stage to pick ticket numbers for the games segment. let me tell you this, he was really annoying while picking the ticket numbers  he would put his hand into the box (it was transparent), turn his hand here and there, grab a few tickets only to toss them aside, sweep the tickets left and right and then pick a few up at once before holding onto just one while letting the rest of them fall back into the box. how dare he play with my hopes and dreams like this..  after a few agonising minutes, of him very adorably announcing the selected ticket numbers in chinese (by repeating after the mc), the lucky fans went on stage.

this first game was a game to test for mind-link/telepathy between gyu and fans. a word would be given on stage and sunggyu, along with the three lucky fans, will have to make the same action that best describes the word simultaneously at the count of three, with the rest of the audiences as judge. they first did a trial run and after it, the mc asked the fans on stage some questions.

mc: are you nervous?

fan: yes

mc: are you confident you'll win?

fan: yes

mc: is sunggyu handsome?

fan: super handsome

sunggyu: ah, thank you ^^

the first word was their title track from infinite only, 'the eye'. they mostly did the same action, except for one fan who made a slight movement wrong. sunggyu being sunggyu, he told her "our dance isn't like that ^^ it's like this ^^” before proceeding to do a demonstration. poor fan. some of the next few words included 'bear', where he put both his palms up above his head but switched them to his fists by the side of his head instead upon seeing the other three fans' actions. even the mc couldn't resist saying "sunggyu, your 'bear' is so cute", to which sunggyu sputtered before replying shyly "ah.. t-thank you". the next word was 'hulk', where he did the cutest imitation with the cutest expression. i'm pretty sure there had been fansite previews for these. he ended up winning this game because us fans, who are biased and weak for him, were appointed the judges of the game. it's a bad combination if you asked me since we basically let him pass every round as long as our judgement was required.

oh and before each of the fans left the stage, sunggyu *initiated* hugs with them on top of the basic handshakes hdgsksjd

continuing on, the mc said they will be moving on to the next segment.

mc: okay, moving on. let's invite sunggyu to the next game segment!

sunggyu: *surprised laughter* what, there's more??

mc: you said you were the sporty kind earlier..

sunggyu: ah yes, yes, bring it on. it's great! great!

[ game 2 ]

staff then brought the box containing the tickets out again and after a few more painful moments, sunggyu finally selected another three fans for the second game. this game was charades, where sunggyu was to first pick a random topic and words of the topic will be the questions for the day. of course, as main character of the day, sunggyu has to act out the word for the lucky fans to guess. every correct guess gains them one point and to win the game, they need five of such wins within 1 minute. the topic sunggyu picked was 'sports'. some of the words that came out included bowling (where he struck a really cool pose), dodgeball (you should've seen his face he had the most incredulous expression 😂), yoga, brisk-walking, ice-skating and water-skiing.

sunggyu won this round too since the lucky fans were surprisingly good at guessing so after the same handshake and hug routine with the lucky fans, the mc proceeded with some simple questions.

mc: what were some of the more interesting questions?

fans: brisk-walking! oh, yoga too!

sunggyu: i've actually been learning yoga these days. like, i am really taking lessons outside and all.

fans: *cheers*

mc: how about we have you do a little demo of what you've learned?

sunggyu: *flustered* ah, n-no. i'm not wearing the suitable outfit for it now..

mc: no matter, we'll get sunggyu to remove these clothes and change later, okay?

mc: it's starting to feel a bit warm, isn't it?

sunggyu: yes, i didn't know the games would be this strenuous. it's great!! wheeew

mc: okay, so we thought your had good rapport with your fans earlier

sunggyu: i think i was just too good with my explanations.. oh, and of course my fans had quick thinking too.

sunggyu: actually i've never once tried bowling ever since i was born

mc: whaaaat? why is that? how can you live your life like this?

sunggyu: *sputters, embarrassed* ah, i just, i spend too much time on music that's all..

mc: since you did well and won both of the games, we have prepared a special prize for you!

sunggyu: *excited* oh, for me? give it to me, quick

mc: aaaand the prize will be.. sunggyu doing aegyo for us!

fans: *wildly cheering*

sunggyu: *bewildered laughter* i'm sorry, whAt? unbelievable!

mc: let's finish the prize quicker and get to singing songs again!

sunggyu: AEGYO???? what should i do?........... just to check again, this is me receiving my prize, right.......?

fans: hiyoong hiyoong! hiyoong!!! hiyoong!!!!

sunggyu: what? oh, that?

mc: okay, 3 2 1, go!

sunggyu: HIYOONG HIYOONG *throws his head back and bursts into laughter immediately after, slapping his thighs and fanning his face in embarrassment before proceeding to drink water*

mc: was that cute? was that ok?

sunggyu: i thought i did pretty good..

fans: yes!!!! do it again!! do it again!!!!

sunggyu: it seems like all of you recorded videos though? just hit that replay button on your fancam.. HIYOONG HIYOONG *more embarrassed laughter*

mc: alright, sunggyu did pretty well, right? he put up with all of your aegyo requests. let's let him off now and continue with songs, okay?

sunggyu: ah, yes, singing. of course i should sing.

just in the bit of time before the music to only tears started to play, fans were yelling all sorts of stuff, some acknowledged by sunggyu, others probably unheard.

fans: hhs7JwusjsajsjJYou'RE SO HANDSOME;!&@*-

sunggyu: i know

fans: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH YOU'RE SOOOOKJSKHSHDSHHDHSJS

(a/n: this was so damn hilarious it was the kind of blood-curdling screams where you could hear the vibrations in their voice.. if you get what i mean??? it's difficult to describe )

🎶 only tears

🎶 alive

his falsettos in ‘only tears’!! the most beautiful thing my ears have ever had the honor of being blessed with??? and ‘alive’, god. tl;dr ’alive' was so beautiful i wanted to cry. pretty sure the faint black smudges found by my eyes once the 2pm show ended came from my mascara while dabbing at my eyes countless times after being thoroughly attacked throughout the entire fanmeet.

[ final ment ]

sunggyu: did everyone have a good time here?

fans: yessss!!!!

mc: time flies exceptionally fast when you are having a good time

sunggyu: right?

mc: we are actually a little pressed for time today. so now, coming to the end of the fanmeet, do you have anything to say to the fans present, sunggyu?

sunggyu: ah, firstly, i’m really thankful towards all of you for coming. it’s actually really nerve-wrecking to be standing here on this stage all by myself, but from another point of view, i’m actually very happy to be standing here. before, i was only able to sing infinite songs for you guys but i have an opprtunity to perform my solo songs for you through this concert so it makes me feel pretty good.

mc: 2017 is approaching its end soon, could you share some of your future plans with us for 2018?

sunggyu: uhhhhhh….

mc: ehhhhhhhhh ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

sunggyu: hmm… firstly, in 2018, of course we’ll work hard with the release of a new album. i’m practising hard for our concerts as well. infinite concerts, my solo concerts as well, both are in the midst of preparations. it seems like we’ll be able to meet each other a lot at such concerts next year? i hope you will look forward to it a lot. i’ll be in a musical from end of this year until january next year too so i wish for your support in this as well. i feel like i didn’t do as much as i wished to this year, in part due to health considerations. so next year, irregardless of my stamina, i hope i can participate in more acitivities and boost my career even further be it in variety or music. i hope to have your support in these future activities, thank you.

mc: i hope that in 2018, kim sunggyu will continue to shine brightly! now let’s save this beautiful moment, shall we? how about a group photo?

mc: and now, we will invite our adorable gyugyu to perform our last song of the day.

fans: *whining* don’t leave! no!!

sunggyu: the final song is ‘the answer’, one of the two title songs from my second solo album.

fans: *yelling* i love you!! oppa i love you!!!!

sunggyu *smiling wordlessly*

🎶 the answer

at the end of the song, the screen turned black and what seems to be a hand-written message by sunggyu flashed on the screen. it was personally signed off by sunggyu, stroke by stroke in chinese characters .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. the message read:

“和你們共度的時光，我會一直珍藏”

which can be translated to:

“the times i spent with you, i will always treasure them.”

[ hitouch ]

for the 2pm show, my friend and i joined the hitouch queue almost immediately after the queue was formed as we were both really hungry. i barely ate breakfast that day and although my friend did eat something, it was already nearly 4pm while the last time we actually ate was before 8.30am. the hitouch queue moved pretty fast, as the organisers were really rushing people. it’s to be expected i guess, since he has to hitouch the entire crowd of 2,000 fans :(

so fast forward to finally getting to hitouch him, it was simply amazing ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ‸இﾟ)ﾟ｡ his hands were really, really, really, really, really soft. i have literally never touched hands these soft. i can’t emphasize enough how soft they were, and how i mean it in every sense of the word, without any exaggeration, because they were really!! that!! soft!!!! he might’ve applied some handcream while he was backstage or something, i don’t know, but it was just really, really soft and i bet anyone else who hitouched sunggyu that day can vouch for this. the closest thing this soft i’ve ever touched would be a baby’s skin, baby’s cheeks in particular. please believe me when i say it really was that soft because it really was thaaaat soft. his hands really aren’t just for show. they don’t just look beautiful, they ARE beautiful. this aside, it was also a little damp? maybe he has sweaty palms.. or it was from hitouching a few hundred fans before me 😂 whatever it is, that moment seriously felt like one of the peaks of my inspirit career? the past six years that i’ve been here for this man, this is the first time i’m getting this close to him, being able to touch his hand. it was an emotional moment!! i was barely holding myself together after it but the first thing i recall saying was “was that for real? his hands are so??? soft????” to my friend. 😂

6PM SHOW

🎶 kontrol

🎶 i need you

🎶 shine

mc: every time you come to taiwan, your schedule is fully packed and you have little time to relax by yourself. if you had the chance, what are some of the places here that you’ll want to explore?

sunggyu: uhhh, i kinda want to go to clubs.

fans: ehhhhhh

because i’ve never been to one.

fans: EHHHHHHHHHHHHH

sunggyu: let’s go together? i think that isn’t a bad idea

mc: you’re having your own fanmeet alone this time. is there any difference if you were to compare this to a group fanmeet?

sunggyu: i do feel a little empty. with my group members, we would joke and play around on stage but my myself, this can’t happen and i feel it’s bit of a pity.

[ ‘sungkyu in taipei’ segment ]

t - taipei

q: coming to taipei for the first time as a solo artist since your solo debut, what are some of the things you look forward to?

sunggyu: actually i anticipate everything. but one thing i anticipated the most was performing my solo songs for fans in taiwan since i have never been able to do so before ever since the release of my solo albums. it’s been a while since some of these songs were released but being able to perform them for fans in taipei despite the fact that some time has passed is something i looked forward to.

mc: speaking of your solo album, it seems like your new solo album is under preparations, is that right? (a/n: the mc’s exact words when suggesting the possiblity of his solo album being under preparation were “好像似乎貌似很像” and i can’t explain this but it was so funny 😂 chinese speakers will probably understand lmao)

sunggyu: yes, yes, that’s right. actually, i have already wrapped up the recording for my solo album a while ago. there’s quite a number of songs as compared to before as i wanted to make it a more meaningful one.

fan: when is it coming out!!

sunggyu: uh, early next year?

mc: raise your hand if you are buying the album!

entire crowd: *raised hands*

sunggyu: *surprised, laughed a bit and stood up to bow* ah, thank you!

p - passion

q: what are some of the factors that continue to motivate you in the pursuit of your passion?

sunggyu: well, if are speaking about passion, i must say it’s inspirits.. really. of course, there is a sense of self-satisfaction being able to do what i like. it's because of inspirits that there are people listening to my songs, supporting me. if i were to release an album now without the knowledge that there is a group of people out there who will definitely be supporting me, i guess i wouldn't feel too good in some way? but now, because i know that there are people anticipating me, people who often support me in my performances, people who will listen to my album well, i feel that owing to them, i can continue moving forward with this passion and put in lots and lots of effort into everything i do. (a/n: because it was a long translation, he kept nodding at everything the mc said. he looked like those bobblehead toys that run on solar power it was seriously so cute fans kept cooing everywhere.)

mc: alright, i hope that sunggyu will continue to keep this passion alive and advance forward with inspirits!!

sunggyu: *nodding vehemently and flashing a thumbs up sign with a shy smile*

i - infinite

q: the other infinite members have been participating in their respective individual activities as well. if you were to start having group activities again, what are some of your expectations for it?

sunggyu: firstly, dancing? i would say dance is one of those things. since it’s been a while since infinite has done anything as a group, i think it would feel nice being able to promote and perform together as a group with a new album and new songs. actually, if we were to start having activities together as a group, i would also look forward to sungjong’s hair color. in fact, what sungjong’s hair color will be would be the thing i look forward to the most. he’s had tried many different colors before. this time…

fans: blue! blue!!!

sunggyu: *making a noise of dissatisfication* no, but actually, what color he dyes his hair to has nothing to do with me.. *laughs* it’s not like i want him to dye his hair to any particular color and i don’t really have any thoughts about this issue.. *laughs*

i - idol

q: you've been an idol for seven years and a solo artist for five, successfully maintaining your popularity both domestically and abroad. are there any secrets to your success?

mc: any secrets to being a superstar?

sunggyu: hm, to be a superstar.. *laughs* well, i suppose you have to have a very good-looking appearance *laughs* hmm…

fans: sdhjfsyoU’RE SO HAndSOMe!!l;qrnw

sunggyu: ah yes, i am aware of that. hmm.. of course, eyes are included as part of one’s appearance too ^^

fans: hands!!!!

sunggyu: hands? oh yeah, that too. oh, voice is important too, of course. i guess that makes me a natural? ^^ alright but honestly speaking, i don't think there's any secret formula in particular. you just have to be really serious, hardworking and passionate, it’s a combination of these.

mc: you have to be powerful

sunggyu: yes yes, energy, i like that word

🎶 because

🎶 daydream

[ game 1 ]

this was the telepathy game like before. basketball happened to be the last word here and he was super extra with his actions, he kept pretending to dribble an imaginary ball left and right and slam dunking over and over again even though the time is already up. i think his head inflates with the fans' screams.

[ game 2 ]

when picking the numbers for lucky fans to go on stage and play games, he called for 八四二/842 (cn romanization: bā-sì-ér) when he meant to say 八十二/82 (cn romanization: bā -shí- èr) due to a slightly wrong pronunciation.. the number of heartbreaks or should i say heart attacks? he caused that day…. (。•́︿•̀。)

🎶 because

🎶 daydream

mc: sunggyu, you have to do well and win the game if not there’ll be punishments

sunggyu: ah, i won earlier in the afternoon show though but.. *scratches his head while making that ‘i-wonder-why’ expression*

the topic he picked this time round was ‘animals’ so some of the questions were cats, hamsters and rats. at one point, he was really desperate because the fans have not managed to guess much correct answers so when trying to describe ‘hamster’, he bucked out his teeth like that of a rabbit’s and put his hands in front like they were paws before pointing at himself and IT WAS SO CUTE. right after ‘hamsters’, the word that came out was ‘rats’ and he had a total mental breakdown right there because while ‘hamsters’ was already a difficult stage to pass, they are now asking for ‘rats’, which have little to no difference in the ways you can imitate it to describe it. when this game finally ended, he did his handshake + hug with the lucky fans too and he burst out laughing after the last lucky fan whispered something to him. turns out, she told him that there were lots of nightclubs around that area 😂

after the second game ended where sunggyu lost terribly,

mc: you’ll have your punishment now. you have to do aegyo, you know that right?

sunggyu: *nods with a confident smile directed at her*

mc: let’s have our music!

*music to ‘oppa ya’ starts playing*

sunggyu: *looks shocked before bursting out in embarrassed laughter and looking around helplessly. he then started to clap along a bit* ah wait, wait, i really can’t do this

mc: you can do it! let’s try again!

sunggyu: *heaved a long, heavy and audible sign with a resigned smile*

*music to ‘oppa ya’ starts playing again*

sunggyu: no, wait, wait, i really- this is too much please turn off the music. ah this is so difficult..

mc: shall we try one more time?

sunggyu: this is really difficult.. i think i’m going to cry.

fans: show us! show us!

mc: okay, how about just one pose?

sunggyu: alright.. ah how do i do this? *mental breakdown* how do i do this?????

mc: 3, 2, 1

sunggyu: *did bunny aegyo* *music to ‘oppa ya’ starts playing again* *exasperated, resigned, does the bunny aegyo one more time*

mc: it’s really hot, isn’t it?

sunggyu: yes.. ah i really wanted to do it for you guys, but my body isn’t moving..

mc: sunggyu has tried his best, let’s stop here, okay? otherwise he won’t come to taiwan anymore in the future

mc: being able to interact with your fans through these games, how did it feel?

sunggyu: i felt really happy! *burst out in laughter* it’s just that when i have to do aegyo, i miss my members especially more.. there are lots of members who are really good at aegyo. i am really sorry i couldn’t deliver…

fans: it’s alright!! you did well!

sunggyu: regardless, i had a really good time today with everyone. i am really happy.

mc: it’s okay that you can’t do aegyo, let’s try serenading fans with your voice instead, shall we?

🎶 only tears

🎶 alive

sunggyu: did you enjoy the concert?

fans: yessssssss

sunggyu: it’s my first time in taiwan alone. i was actually really nervous and worried because of this. i was afraid i would be lacking or make the atmosphere awkward and difficult. even though i’m sorry (for not being able to do aegyo), i’m really happy to be here and to be able to interact with you through these games and activities. i’ll be returning to korea tomorrow. although i really do want to stay longer, i have to return to korea to wrap up preparations for my new album. i’ll be participating in a musical as well. even though i’ll be performing in a place really far from here, i hope to have your blessings. oh, we will be having a fanmeet called ‘begin again’ at the end of the year in korea as well. it will also be held in a place really far from here but nevertheless, i hope you will support us a lot and if possible, come and join us. soon, infinite will be having promotions again for our new album. you guys may be able to listen to some of the new songs during the fanmeet. it may not be just one song, it could be a few too. i hope everyone will look forward to our group’s new album as well as my solo album and songs. after the album releases, i will definitely come back to taiwan to perform, both as part of infinite and as a solo singer. let’s take a group photo now, shall we? i want to bring it back to show it to my members.

* surprise fanmade video started to play after group photos *

sunggyu seemed to be enjoying the fanmade video, there are a number of fancams of his reactions to it on youtube. i personally felt that the video was touching and almost teared up too :( of course, it was not just the video, it was the whole atmosphere in the concert hall. the video included performances of sunggyu’s three solo title tracks and when they started playing, the crowd started singing along and it was a really beautiful moment. as a fan who was part of the crowd, i got goosebumps myself and it really makes me wonder how sunggyu felt watching it. once the video ended, i thought sunggyu sounded a little different. i personally thought he might’ve choked up a little before recovering quickly although i wasn’t too sure but a friend of mine said she suspected the same as well so who knows? i wonder what other fans thought.. anyway, just as he started speaking, staff brought in a cake specially prepared by taiwan fans and sunggyu sputtered a bit before laughing shyly.

[ final ment ]

sunggyu: is this me?

fans: yesss!

sunggyu: it’s cute

fans: *started to sing ‘happy birthday’*

sunggyu: *sings along*

sunggyu: ah, i don’t know how to say this well. it’s really embarrassing. *shy laughter* actually, i myself often forget the fact that this day is my solo debut anniversary as well. it just so happens that today, i can celebrate it with you and i am really thankful for this opportunity. more importantly, being able to make a solo debut, meet my fans, have an event like this, all of this, it is all thanks to infinite. i'm really really thankful for infinite. it was because i made my debut as a part of infinite that i can stand on stage like this today as a solo performer. infinite gave me the opportunity to express myself in many ways and show different sides of myself like the one i'm showing as a solo artist here today. it’s been five years now, so in the future, maybe ten years or if possible, twenty years, i hope there will be more chances to spend time like this with you in the future. we’ll be meeting at hitouch later again, you know that, right? i’ll perform the last song for you now, then.

fans: *a chorus of ‘thanks you’s’*

sunggyu: thank you, too.

(a/n: this made me reaaaaaaaaaaaally emotional i think i actually teared up. the way sunggyu said this, voice dripping with 100% pure sincerity without the slightest trace of playfulness at all, it was an absolutely beautiful moment. i’m sure the entire crowd thought the same, judging by the collective ‘awww’ that sounded the moment sunggyu said that. if i had to pick the most unforgettable moment in my entire day there, this has to be it. this tops everything else, it tops seeing his aegyo attempts, listening to him singing because/shine live for the very first times, hitouching him both times, all of it doesn’t compare to this moment. immediately after he said it, the music to ‘the answer’ came on along with the lights and there on his face too, the most beautiful smile. personally, i think it was the video that really boosted his mood. he just had this happy glow around him after it and this was probably behind what became the happiest performance of ’the answer’ ever. throughout his final performance of ‘the answer’, he was all smiles, shaking his head, swaying his body from side to side, just being really.. happy. or maybe he was just really happy he could finally go home. although i’d like to believe it was the former. 😂)

🎶 the answer

[ hitouch ]

two hours later for the 6pm show, my friend and i decided to drag our hitouch out a little longer this time unlike for the afternoon show as it meant we could stand there watching him just a little longer since god knows when we can see him again. one thing i’ve observed about sunggyu during these hitouch sessions is that he was really sincere in his gestures and expressions. despite having to hitouch a total of 4,000 fans that day, his smile never once faltered or became awkward, as one might expect when you’re tired or when you’ve been smiling too long? his smile is always there on his face and when there are fans brave enough to say something to him before being dragged off by staff, he gives really genuine reactions. as i had watched him a lot longer for the evening show, i’ve seen him reply to fans and laugh with them as and when anyone of them tells him anything. it was such a warm sight to witness.

when it was finally my turn to hitouch him again for the evening show, i got my act together and told him ”happy solo anniversary!” in english, and i’m pretty sure i must’ve said it too fast due to the staff’s pressing presence which made me super nervous. sunggyu was stunned for a couple of moments, his head went back a bit and he blinked a couple of times with a zoned out expression, before giving a little smile and nodding. jfhjskfhkslsjdk. i am so bringing this moment to my grave.

this is where my fan account finally ends. thank you if you have read through every word from start to end, misspelled words and grammatical mistakes and all. being able to attend this fanmeet has made me really really happy and i hope one day, everyone else will have a chance like this as well to see for yourself how great a guy kim sunggyu really is!

oh, and if you see any similarities in the way some accounts are phrased with the way this twitter user phrased hers, it’s because that’s my twitter account so don’t be alarmed or anything 😂

finally, please do not repost this anywhere else on tumblr and just reblog this instead. if you want to quote a part of it and post it on other social media platforms, please give appropriate credits and include a link back to this post, thank you.

[surveysonfleek]

546.

A! What is your AGE? 26. Have you ever been to ALASKA? nope. Do you want to go to AFRICA? i’ve been before but not to the mainland. What is one of your biggest ACCOMPLISHMENTS? getting a degree. When if ever was the last time you were on an AIRPLANE? back in april this year.

Have you ever eaten ARUGULA? yes. What is your favorite ANIMATED movie? aladdin, mulan and the lion king. Do you have any famous ANCESTORS?  nope.

Have you ever seen an ALLIGATOR? yes. Have you ever sprained your ANKLE? i feel like i have. When was the last time you had a doctor APPOINTMENT? i never really make an appointment, i just show up. Do you enjoy doing ART? sure but it depends on the subject matter. Have you ever gotten a celebrity's AUTOGRAPH? yes. Who is your favorite AUTHOR? jk rowling. Have you ever AUDITIONED for anything? no. Are you interested in ASTRONOMY? hmm not so much hey. Do/did you have good ATTENDANCE in school? yes. B! When is your BIRTHDAY? dec 5. What color is your BACKPACK? black. Have you ever done BALLET? nope. Do you know anyone who's expecting a BABY soon? yes, two people from work. Do you have BARBECUES in the summer? yeah sometimes. Does your house have a BASEMENT? nope. Do you enjoy going to the BEACH? hmmm sometimes. not usually tbh. What is your favorite BOOK? the harry potter series. What time do you usually go to BED? usually 3am. What did you eat for BREAKFAST? nothing. Do you know anyone who is BLIND? no. Are you wearing anything that's the color BLUE? nope. Do you know what BOOMWHACKERS are? nope. Have you ever been BLUEBERRY picking? no. Are you wearing a BRACELET? yes. Do you like the song BRIDGE Over Troubled Water? it’s okay. Have you ever slept in a BUNK BED? yes. C! Do you have a CAT? no, i’m not a fan. Do you drink COFFEE? not often. How much CASH is in your wallet right now? nothing, i hate carrying cash. Do you like COUSCOUS? eh, it’s okay. i don’t like nor hate it. How about CHEESECAKE? i prefer mudcake. What kind of CAR do you have? a suzuki alto. What is your favorite kind of COOKIE? any with a soft centre. Have you ever been in a CHOIR? no. Do you enjoy riding CAROUSELS? i’ll only go on it if it’s a short line. Are you sitting in a CHAIR? no, i’m in bed lol. Do you go to CHURCH? nope. What is/was your favorite CLASS in school? visual arts. Do you like COLORING books? depends on the images, but yeah.

Who is your favorite COMPOSER? i don’t have one. Do you like COWS? haha no. What was your favorite Halloween COSTUME? wednesday addams. D! Do you like DUCKS? not really. i don’t hate them though. What is your favorite breed of DOG? corgis. What would you name your DAUGHTER? no idea yet but i’ve loved the name sierra for the longest time. What is today's DATE? nov 16. Are you good at DANCING? not at all. Do you have DECORATIONS on your bedroom walls? nope. just a huge corkboard. When was the last time you saw your DAD? nearly two weeks ago. Have you seen the musical DEAR Evan Hansen? nope. Have you ever seen a DEER in your yard? no, that’d be a shock. Do you own any DIAMOND jewelry? yes. Do you like DOCUMENTARY films? generally yes, depends on the subject. Does your house have a DECK? nope. What's your favorite thing to eat for DINNER? it depends on my mood. How about for DESSERT? usually something warm like waffles, pie etc. Have you ever lived in a DORM? no. What's the last DREAM you remember having? i forgot. E! How do you like your EGGS? scrambled. Are your EARS pierced? yes. Have you ever seen an ECLIPSE? no :( next time! What is an activity you ENJOY? sleeping. Is your favorite animal an ELEPHANT? nope. When is the last time you rode in an ELEVATOR?: ummm. tuesday. Do you know anyone named ELIZABETH? yes, a supervisor at work. Do you believe that everyone should have EQUAL rights?  yes.

Have you ever been in an EARTHQUAKE? i don’t think so. Are you EXCITED about anything? i’m excited to eat. i’m starving. Do you get a lot of EXERCISE? not enough. F! Have you ever been to FLORIDA? yes, once. Do you like FISH? yes. Have you ever been to the FAIR? yes. Who was the last FRIEND you hung out with? four of my friends. Do you like FIREFLIES? i’ve only seen them once but they were amazing!! Have you ever wished you could FLY? i’d rather teleport than fly. Do you like FROGS? no. What FOREIGN countries have you visited? singapore, philippines, fiji, usa, canada, uae, mauritius, england, france, italy, belgium, spain, greece, germany, the netherlands, czech republic. i think that’s it... Can you run FAST? nope. Do you have a big FAMILY? yeah kinda. Do you have A FACEBOOK? yes. Do you like FRENCH toast? yes!! Have you ever been to FINLAND? nope. Are you FEMALE? yes. Do you know anyone who lives on a FARM? yes. G! Do you believe in GHOSTS? nah. Are you good at GEOMETRY? nope. What is one of your GOALS? find a good career. Have you ever pet a GOAT? yes. What year did you/are you going to GRADUATE high school? 2009. Are any of your GRANDPARENTS still living? unfortunately not. What GRADE in school was your favorite? 11th i think. When was the last time you gave someone a GIFT? yesterday! Have you ever seen a GRIZZLY bear? i don’t think so. If a GENIE granted you 3 wishes what would you wish for? unlimited money, happiness and health for me and everyone i love. Does your house have a GARDEN? yes, a huge one. What about a GARAGE? yes. Do you like to chew GUM? yes. Have you ever done GYMNASTICS? as a kid. H! What is your HOMETOWN? i live about 30 minutes form my hometown. When's the last time you had a HAIRCUT? maybe three months ago. What HAND do you write with? right. Have you ever ridden a HORSE? yes. Do you like HOT chocolate? yes, but i only ever drink it in winter. When's the last time you ate a HAMBURGER? yesterday. Do you have neat HANDWRITING? not super neat, but it’s legible. What is your favorite HOLIDAY? christmas. Do you like the musical HAMILTON? i haven’t seen it. when i was in nyc this april every show was sold out but people were reselling their tickers for thousands of dollars. no thanks. Are you in HIGH school? nope. Do you enjoy HIKING? no, i hate it with a passion. What is your HEIGHT? 5'4". Who is your HERO? my parents. Are you HUNGRY? nope. I! Do you like ICE in your water? yes. Are you INSIDE right now? yes. What's your favorite INTERNATIONAL food? japanese and chinese. oh, greek food is nice too! and korean! Have you ever been an INTERN anywhere? yes.

Do you use the INTERNET a lot? everyday. What is your favorite musical INSTRUMENT? piano or guitar. What is something you're INTERESTED in? traveling. When was the last time you used INDEX cards? i never really did, not even when i was studying for exams. Do you like the color INDIGO? yes. Have you ever had a job INTERVIEW? yes. What's your favorite ICE cream flavor? cookie dough. J! Are you wearing any JEWELRY? yes, i wear my necklace and bracelet 24/7. Do you like JAZZ music? it sounds good but i don’t actively listen to it. Are you JEALOUS of anyone? no. Do you write in a JOURNAL? nope. What is your dream JOB? something that allows me to travel a lot. Do you know anyone who's a JUDGE? nope. Can you JUMP high? no. Do you know any funny JOKES? eh, not really. What does your favorite JACKET look like? it’s just a plain denim jacket from h&m. Do you know anyone named JOHN? yes. Have you ever played JEOPARDY? no. Have you ever seen a JELLYFISH? yes. How about a JAGUAR? i don’t think i have. not even at a zoo. K! Do you like KALE? from the very few times i’ve had it, it was good. Do you know anyone in KINDERGARTEN? i know someone that will start next year. Aren't KITTENS adorable? i don’t really like cats in general. Do you own a KEY to your house? yes. Do you have any KIDS? nope. Do you own a tea KETTLE? yes. Have you ever seen a KOALA? yes. Do you have a lot of KNOWLEDGE? i do. maybe not as much as other people but whatever. Have you ever worn a KIMONO? yes. Do you like KEBOBS? yes. Do you know anyone who's had a KNEE replacement? no. Are you KIND? for the most part, yes. Do you know how to KNIT? nope. Have you ever sung KARAOKE? yes. Do you always KNOCK before entering a room? not unless i know someone’s in there. L! Do the LEAVES change color where you live? yep. obviously only in autumn. When was the last time you did LAUNDRY? i don’t remember. my mum still insists on doing it coz apparently i don’t do it right. How many LANGUAGES can you speak? two. When was the last time you went to the LIBRARY? no idea. back when i was in uni i think. Do you know anyone who's LEFT-handed? yes. When was the last time you wrote a LETTER? i wrote a quick birthday message in a card yesterday for my friend, does that count? Post some LYRICS from the song you're listening to: not listening to anything. Do you have a driver's LICENSE? yes. Is there a LIGHT on near you? yes. Have you ever seen a LION? yes. LOOK out the nearest window. What do you see? the street. Do you buy LOCAL food? yes. Have you ever eaten LOBSTER? yes. How LONG is the song you're listening to now? not listening to anything. Do you like LEMONS?: only to compliment food. M! Are you good at MATH? very basic maths i guess. What is your favorite genre of MUSIC? rnb, hip hop, neo soul. Have you received any MAIL recently? yes. What is your MOM'S name? rather not say. Do you believe in MAGIC? no. i do love illusions though. Do you wear MAKEUP? yes. Have you ever been in a MADRIGALS group? nope. Do you put MAPLE syrup on your pancakes? yes! What is one of your favorite MEMORIES? any time i’ve gone traveling. What would you do with a MILLION dollars? pay off debts, give some to family, invest in a house and save the rest. Are there any words you often MISPRONOUNCE? probably. Can you see the MOON right now? nope. Do you enjoy going to MUSEUMS? yes, i’ll happily visit any museum. When did you last use a MICROWAVE? today. Do you drink MILK? only soy or lactose free. What were you doing at MIDNIGHT last night? sleeping. Do you MISS anyone? yes. N! Do you like your NEIGHBORS? i don’t really talk to any of them. Have you ever been in the NEWSPAPER? yes haha. Do you have a NICKEL in your wallet? yes. Is it NIGHTTIME? yes. Do you have any NIECES? yes kinda, they’re my cousin’s daughters. How about NEPHEWS? same ^ but my cousin’s sons. When is the last time you wrote in a NOTEBOOK? i don’t remember. Have you ever been to NEW York City? yes. What is your favorite/lucky NUMBER?  7. What makes you NOSTALGIC? looking at old photos, listening to old songs, watching old videos and/or movies. Do you have any NICKNAMES? yes, plenty. Do you ever take NAPS? only if i haven’t had enough sleep. Do you enjoy spending time in NATURE? not usually, but i can. Do you know anyone who has a NEWFOUNDLAND (the dog)? nope. Were you born in the NINETEEN NINETIES? yes. When was the last time you read a NOVEL? a couple weeks ago. O! Do you like to eat OATMEAL? nope. Have you ever been to the OCEAN? yes. Do you work in an OFFICE? no.

Are there any OAK trees in your yard? no. Do you like OLIVES? no, i hate them. Have you ever seen a live ORCHESTRA? yes. Have you ever been to the ORTHODONTIST? nope. Are you ORGANIZED? yeah kinda. Do you like OTTERS? yeah, they’re cute. What is your favorite OUTFIT? just a plain summer dress or a tee and leggings. When is the last time you were OUTSIDE? just then. Have you ever been to The OUTBACK Steakhouse? yes. What is something you're OBSESSED with? netflix lol. Is there a door OPEN nearby?  nope.

Are you part of any ORGANIZATIONS? not really unless you count the union at work. P! Do you have a PUPPY? yeah but he’s not a puppy anymore, he’s an oldie. Do you like PAINTING? i haven’t painted in years. Have you ever had a PEN PAL? yes, just my cousin lol. Do you own any PALAZZO pants? nope. What's your favorite kind of PIZZA? meat lovers. What are you PASSIONATE about? tbh i’m not sure. is that bad lol. What's the best PERFORMANCE you've ever been to? beyonce. Do you get along with your PARENTS? yes. What's the last thing you PAID for? presents for my god daughter. What kind of PHONE do you have? iphone 7. Can you play the PIANO? i can but very basic stuff. What is your favorite kind of PIE? apple. Is PURPLE your favorite color? not my fave but i still like it. Have you ever been to a PLANETARIUM? yes. Do you like POETRY? not really. Do you carry a PURSE? yes. Q! Do you like answering QUESTIONS? sure. Is it QUIET in the room right now? yes. Have you ever made a QUILT? nope. Have you ever been in a QUARTET? no. Did you ever collect state QUARTERS? no. When did you last have a QUIZ in school? no idea, maybe five years ago. What is your favorite QUOTE? i don’t have one. Do you ever QUACK like a duck? umm nope lol. R! How often do you listen to the RADIO? every now and then when i do short driving trips. Do you like to READ? yes. Is it RAINING? no. it was earlier though. Have you ever been to a RALLY? nope. Name 3 things in your REFRIGERATOR: ketchup, cheese, water. Have you ever had a REHEARSAL for something? yes. Have you ever been to a RENAISSANCE festival? nope. What makes you feel RELAXED? massages. Does your family have REUNIONS? yes. What is your favorite RESTAURANT? i depends which cuisine. but i do love any kbbq. Have you ever sat on your ROOF? nope. Do you have a ROOMMATE? no, just family. Do you have a Labrador or Golden RETRIEVER? nope. Do you know anyone who is RETIRED? yes. Do you like RASPBERRIES? they’re okay. When you go to an event do you buy REFRESHMENTS? yes. S! Have you ever been SAILING? not proper sailing. Do you ever shop at a SALVATION Army? i have before. Do you like to eat free SAMPLES in the grocery store? sure. Do you have a SISTER? yes. Can you speak SPANISH? no. What SCHOOL do you go to? I'm not in school. Do you like the game SCRABBLE? yes. Have you ever been to SPAIN? yes. Have you ever been in a SPELLING bee? no. Name someone you know who is an amazing SINGER: eh... idk lol. When was the last time you saw a SQUIRREL? when i was in usa. Does it SNOW a lot where you live? it has never snowed here. Are you wearing SOCKS? nope. Do you own a SKETCHBOOK? yes, but i don’t use it.

When was the last time you took a SHOWER? today. Do you know the song from West Side Story called SOMEWHERE? idk. T! Who was the last person you TEXTED? my boyfriend. Do you like to drink TEA? i do but very rarely. Have you ever played a TAMBOURINE? yes. Who is/was your favorite TEACHER? tbh i didn’t have one. Do you like to shop at TARGET? yes. Do you have a TAPESTRY in your room? nope. What's the TEMPERATURE outside? idk probably around 20 degrees c. What is your favorite T-SHIRT? my oversized striped one. Do you own a TEDDY bear? no. Are you a TEENAGER? no. Are you interested in THEATER? not really. What TIME is it? 12:28am. Do you have a TRAMPOLINE? nope. Can you read music in TREBLE clef? nope lol. Have you ever had a pet TURTLE? no. Have you ever TUTORED anyone? yeah kinda. U! What is UNDER your bed? a lot of junk and early christmas presents that i’ve bought. Have you ever had to wear a UNIFORM for anything? yes, work. When was the last time you saw your UNCLE? in april. Do you go to a UNIVERSITY? no i already graduated. Do you live in an URBAN area? yes. When was the last time you used an UMBRELLA? i forgot. Do you know anyone who is a UNITARIAN? nope. Have you ever been an USHER? nope. Can you UNDERSTAND other languages? yes. What makes you UNIQUE? just the way i look i guess. When was the last time you went UPSTAIRS? just then. How many months are there UNTIL your birthday? less than a month. V! Do you know anyone who is a VEGETARIAN? nope. When did you last use a VACUUM cleaner? last week. Where is the last place you went on VACATION?  vegas. Do you know anyone who plays the VIOLIN? nope. Have you ever wanted to be a VETERINARIAN? no. What countries would you like to VISIT? japan and the bahamas. Have you ever taken VOICE lessons? nope. What was the last thing you bought from a VENDING machine? a drink. Have you ever been to Martha's VINEYARD? nope. How about VERMONT? no. Do you like VANILLA ice cream? no. Have you ever VOLUNTEERED anywhere? yes. Are you registered to VOTE? yes. Do you have perfect VISION? no. i wish! W! Do you drink a lot of WATER? yes i do actually. What's in your WALLET? license, debit card, credit card, membership cards. Do you wear a WATCH? not since my apple watch broke :( What is the WALLPAPER on your computer? it’s of cityscapes all over the world. it changes every five minutes i think. Have you ever read the WARRIORS books? no. Can you WHISTLE? yes. Do you like WOLVES? tbh i’ve never seen any irl. What is your favorite WORD? fiasco. Is it WINDY outside? no. Have you ever painted with WATERCOLORS? yes. What time did you WAKE up today? midday. Are there any WATERFALLS near where you live? nope. Have you ever seen a WHALE? yes. If you have a dog does it WAG its tail a lot? whenever he sees anyone. Have you ever been to WASHINGTON, DC?  yes. Have you ever been to a WEDDING? yes. X! Have you ever had an X-RAY? yes. Can you play the XYLOPHONE? i mean i can but i can’t play anything nice lol. Can you speak or understand XHOSA? nope. Y! Does your house have a big YARD? yeah, it’s huge. Have you ever done YOGA? no. Do you like YOGURT? sometimes. Do you have a YEARBOOK from high school? yes. Are you wearing anything that is the color YELLOW? nope. Have you ever had a YARD sale? no. What YEAR were you born? 1990. Have you ever heard the song YOU Will Be Found? nope. Have you ever been part of a YOUTH group? yes. What did you do YESTERDAY? had dinner with friends. What's something YUMMY you ate recently? tacos. What's the last YOUTUBE video you watched? some buzzfeed video of a girl going on a date with a real life vampire lmao. Z! Have you ever seen a ZEBRA? yes. What is your ZODIAC sign? sagittarius. Are you wearing anything with a ZIPPER? nope. Have you ever seen the movie ZOOTOPIA? yes, it was cute, Do you use ZIPLOCK bags? no. Do you know anyone named ZOE? no. Have you ever been to ZIMBABWE? no.

[acrispyapple]

50 more interesting questions

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

Tagged by @incorrectmidc i had this open for days and i answered a few questions per night lol @o0w0o and @deathbymidnightcinderella  <3

1. What kind of food can’t you stand? spicy stuff and umm food loaded with exotic spices / herbs

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick? my mouse ending up double clicking after a year or so

3. Have you got any useless talents? i have way too much trivia and animal facts. plus random skills with no practical use. oh and playing the piano is also a useless talent for me since i don’t really “use” it

4. If you were really really good at one thing, what would it be? my answer isn’t an “if” thing lol. i have a really good memory. it really helps with mostly anything i do + it makes studying easier. but sometimes people think it’s creepy that i remember little things about them, they think i keep notes about them or something lol-- but i really do just remember.

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking - umm neil caffrey (matt bomer) from white collar, nick burkhardt (david giuntoli) from grimm, daniel shaw (brandon routh) from chuck -- i seem to have a type haha. omg i forgot jo in-sung. i’ve always thought he was handsome! 

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid? i was a pretty boring kid. i just read books, watched cartoons, and organized things. as a kid i’d look at my toys but never really play with them because i liked seeing them all set up nicely. i just kept collecting stuff i liked. the most i’d do that’s remotely active was play with my dogs

7. What is something you’re proud of? i do well academically and i learn fast. and somehow i’m proud of how i’ve remained the same over the years.

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate? i don’t know if this is considered a character flaw but i really dislike poor manners haha. it drives me crazy when people open their mouth while chewing or if it’s too noisy. i die a bit inside. besides table manners and manners in general, i dislike people who are rowdy during inappropriate times.

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower? both but to avoid stress sometimes i just want to follow. i’m a bit of a perfectionist / rule follower so i get frustrated a lot. i know not everyone is like a machine but it’s hard with my ocd lol. and no this isn’t just me saying ocd like most people when referring to certain things, i actually do have it and i have medication for it

10. What kind of student are/were you? normal i guess. i got along well with people, i didn’t fail anything, and i never rebelled or did anything wild. it was uneventful lol. i’m still technically a student now, but i see it more as an adult thing.

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life? i’m sure everyone has one

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion well it’s not a fear per se, but i have an aversion to most asian food, sorta? the smell sets me off especially if it has a bunch of spices or herbs in it. my nose is just sensitive and i get affected easily by strong scents. but i’m fine with japanese food, maybe some korean and chinese stuff. for fears, iono, i don’t think it’s irrational to be afraid of spiders and big cockroaches ><

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable? a bunch haha but it’s mostly people associating them with me first. i’m not tsundere..... how dare they

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties? i don’t think i’ve ever gotten drunk the way people imagine people getting drunk to be like. i remain the same except i get a headache. i don’t really change at all. and in parties i guess i just stay close to my friends. stranger danger lmao

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone? umm no i do not. i mean i can trust them fine but i don’t think i can believe their feelings until they can prove it isn’t just a short time attraction. i’m in for long term stuff so i don’t really wanna waste time if it’s not headed there. but yeah currently in a long term relationship

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends? having fewer friends makes it easier for me to update all of them without getting tired of repeating the same story over and over haha

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak? always organized and no one’s allowed to touch my things haha

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy i’ve always wanted a seating area near a huge window with a good view, bunch of pillows, earphones + music

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday? nah i don’t think i can handle it. i’d probably go insane trying to control them and making them become my idea of what a person should be like

20. What was your favorite book as a child? the chronicles of narnia, still love it to this day because it’s really written well

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about WHAT IN THE WORLD DOES A FIDGET SPINNER DO -- yeah i’m sorry, i think it’s stupid

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated i should have an answer for this but i totally forgot lol

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose? since im in the midcin fandom i’ll just say byron

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday? visit all the haunted places i’ve ever read about, and prolly explore old ruins. i was way into archaeological finds etc way back

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat? i try to say it in the most courteous way possible. i can’t keep it to myself because it would bother me and my mind would just dwell on it forever but i also don’t like offending people haha

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in? sTiCkY cApS in chat (but i stopped after a month okay, and i was 12)

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for? typing in sTiCkY CaPs. kill 12 year old me pls

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable? being kind and yet still firm when needed even when it comes to friends. i really admire people who don’t just blindly agree with their peers

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.) people give me stuff with owls, bears, hedgehogs, or stars because i love them. i also love stationery and pens. i like getting different colors and i never use them. i just keep them forever haha

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones? i know a bit of stuff from other languages but not enough to be proud of it. i don’t want to be a poser and claim yeaaaahh i speak this and that lol

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside? city please. i hate the quiet countryside. it’s like if someone comes to kill you and there’s no one around and you’d be all “this is why i should’ve been in the city with people everywhere”

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving? byron wagner from midcin. when i first started and i saw him i was all, ehh eyepatch dude. so edgy. lmao. i even purposely skipped him during certain events and i regret that now.

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else? i don’t want to be the center of attention, i’d feel awkward

34. Favorite holiday? the usual, christmas and new years eve... but i miss having an actual christmas where it isn’t summer...

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously? i always have a plan lol

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.) hmm, i can watch something over and over with no problem. all good

37. What hobbies do you have? reading (but it’s mostly fantasy and sci-fi), watching crap, annoying my dogs, playing video games, making stories in my head. I WISH I COULD WRITE AND DO IMAGERY WELL. oh well

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have? the ability to moisturize instantly, one click. that’ll save me time daily

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you that i like video games and anime lol. and that i’m happy to talk to them T_T

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out i still don’t know how to knife. how to knife~ i mean how to slice things or chop things or do anything in the kitchen

41. Worst injury you’ve had? is it considered an injury when you’ve had to get 4 major surgeries in a year? i mean i guess tending to / waiting for the surgery scars to get better can be considered an injury since it took a while and it was sorta a pain

42. Any morbid fascinations? umm, i can’t think of one

43. Describe your sense of humor i don’t really know lol. i make a lot of jokes and sometimes it breaks the mood for people lol

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? i really like princess stuff but the real medieval stuff would be dirty people who don’t take baths and really horrible stuff so maybe just the fantasy version of that + high speed internet

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at not rambling when i really like something. to the people who’ve ever had to listen to me whenever i got excited about something-- i’m sorry

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through going to a nature retreat thing 3 months ago or something. i had no internet and it made me cry inside but i guess it was fine

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.) i don’t really want tattoos in general so i guess the ugly one.

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist? optimist

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you? something that isn’t physical or shallow. i’d be really happy if people noticed my achievements or if they liked something about my personality-- or if they found me funny lol

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you that i’m not nice lol because i keep to myself unless spoken to irl + that unimpressed scowl i always have. it’s like my default facial expression!

not forcing anyone to do it since it’s very long, just tagging for the sake of tagging! and i think most of the people i know have already been tagged? i’ve seen this tagged post done by most of them lol

@ashnable @nimmywik @captiveotomeprincess @otometrashcan  @princessdiarymdc @arimii @madamemalfoy21 @kinkymint @oh-my-otome

[honeyedmilks]

1-12, 14-19, 27-29, 32. 42 and 54 :D You don't have to answer them all hahaha

assiehfaefa ima answer them all! thank you so much angel!

1: favourite kdrama

let’s say that my current favourites are; the princess’ man, and jealousy incarnate!

2: least favourite kdrama

least favourite… hwarang, strong woman do bong soon, and drinking solo. i just dislike these. but if we’re talking one i like but wouldn’t have at the top of my list… then moon lovers. 

3: first kdrama i watched:

it was boys over flowers!!! wow!!! the memories… the tears… so iconic… i couldn’t watch lee min ho in anything for a long time because go jyun pyo broke my heart!!! 

4: last kdrama i watched: 

i’m currently watching school 2017 (!!!!!!!!!!!! kim tae woon i loveth you) and also watching an oldie drama called the woman who still wants to marry. it’s based around female friendship and i’m at ep 11 and still going!

5: kdrama otp (s):

oh boy so here we go!!! in no particular order, here are some pairings i really do love/ cried over/ had lots of feelings over!!

kim shin and eun tak (i miss my sweet souls) from goblin

lee se ryung and kim seung yoo from the princess’ man

park do kyung and oh hae young from oh hae young again

pyo na ri and lee hwa shin from jealousy incarnate

do min joo and cheong song yi from my love from another star

i’m sure there are more but these are whay come to mind right now! :’)

6: kdrama notp (s)

dugfsfhdsi 

wang so with tragedy and injustice!!!

7: preferred drama genre

honestly it first of all romance, but these days i love a good melodrama! romantic comedies are good too if they’re done well! i do also love a good fantasy… or saeguk, but again it depends on what kind of saeguk… drama’s about friendships… family… they can be really interesting. i’ll be honest and say my least favourite genre are workplace dramas. 

8: first drama i considered my favourite:

ooh… that’s hard… let me think… i think it was reply 1988- until it crushed my pathetic heart into a million pieces.

9: favourite korean actors

ooh… gong yoo (not just because he’s a fantastic actor but he’s also such a lovely awesome guy),

lee joon gi (for his magnificent micro-expressions)

ryu jun yeol (WHEN WILL HE RETURN TO DRAMALAND???!!!)

jo jung suk (you all must see him in jealousy incarnate)

seo in guk 

seo kang joon (he played my love, baek in ho)

 and so ji sub!

10: favourite korean actress (es)

zamn let’s do this then!

gong hyo jin (she is sooo lovely and brilliant!!)

kim go eun (again lovely and brilliant!!!) 

jun ji hyun (who doesn’t love her dramas tho) 

shin min ah (i love all these talented ladies so much it’s not even funny)

yoo in nah

uee

kim hee-ae

kim seul gi 

and lee sung kyung!

11: favourite kdrama cliche

ha! i honestly am such a sucker for the main leads doing sweet things like looking after the female lead when she’s hurt- even if it’s buying her medicine, looking after her when she’s drunk. just thoughtful things in general. and i like it when the female lead does the same for the male lead. like just doing lovely things for the other :( 

i am also a whore for long hidden glances and petty silly jealousy or crushing babbling nonsense (not like scary jealousy tho) and honestly who doesn’t love a good hearts racing, cheeks blushing cliche moment? 

when drama’s do parodies of other famous drama’s idhfud they just take the mick it’s so funny

food, everywhere, yummy ramen, yummy spicy rice cakes… yummy… yumness…

oh and a good crying scene… shed those dramatic tears my boy!!!!

12: least favourite kdrama cliche

wrist grabbing oiadhc’iuafh 

MISUNDERSTANDINGS, like the real ugly kind

noble idiocy is just… it rarely works… please stop making my soul suffer… 

evil mothers ;(((((( 

the dreaded make over

14: boys over flowers or secret garden?

boys over flowers!!!! watching secret garden makes me sightly sick now oahiduhfa the main lead :////// plus bof has lee min ho and his perm and i live for that look

15: weightlifting fairy kim bok joo or cheese in the trap?

now what cruel person… i want to say cheese in the trap just because i love baek in ho so much and it was such a thrill at the start… but i’ll have to go with weightlifting fairy… there’s more pro’s in this drama… like the fact i actually finished it when it was airing… 

16: jealousy incarnate or oh my ghostess?

definitely jealousy incarnate, lee jong suk is really brilliant as lee hwa shin and even though i have to admit that i didn’t watch the side stories, and mostly only the stories of lee hwa shin and pyo nari… it’s still better than oh my ghostess in my opinion. the latter show made me uncomfortable- mostly due to the fact the main lead was falling in love with a mix of two people. it just made me a bit itchy :(( and sad :(( because then the romance is a bit of a mess

17: descendants of the sun or w: two world?

hmm.. i actually did start descendants but dihfiadhf for the life of me could not get past the first two episode, maybe it was the dramatic love song at the end of their first meeting that had me both scratching my head and stifling laughter. but i’ve heard good things about w, and did want to pick it up until i heard the ending went a bit lopsided, so to save myself disappointment, i did not watch it. 

18: moonlight drawn by clouds or legend of the blue sea?

okay so this is tricky… mdbc is critically… probably a better drama but despite it’s flaws i really have to say legend of the blue sea. i watched it the whole way through, and i really love the soundtrack (which im actually listening to as i answer these) and the main characters, and it made me laugh a lot even if i did cry a little over the greatness it could’ve been :((

19: strong woman do bong soon or shopping king louie?

dsuigfiddifdfiv shopping king louie! how cute were booksil and louie ::((( so cute!!

27: favourite kdrama bromance

okay so this is an interesting question… probably the friendship between park do kyung and all his male friends from oh hae young again… their loyalty was heart warming, but grimsie and kim shin from goblin were cute friends too.

28: favourite kdrama friendship

i have a few!

oh hye won and her friend ji soo from secret love affair. i really loved their friendship, how ji soo was a pillar of support for hye won, she was a real friend. 

i really truly love the friendship between the three main female leads in the woman who still wants to marry- it’s so warm. 

oh hae young and her friend in oh hae young again are also very sweet, i’m really glad hae young had a friend she could talk to. 

oh and the friendships between shim cheong and all her cute oddball friends in legend of the blue sea :’((( that was pure stuff right there

and let’s not forget the kids and family on the block in reply 1988, its honestly so lovely :’((

i feel like there’s almost always a sidekick friend in kdrama’s but never are they good friendships that make me feel things :( sometimes the friend is just a prop 

29:  favourite actor/actress duo? (one male, one female)

oooh… this is hard… if this was bollywood it would be easier because i would’ve just said kajol and sharukh khan… but here… lemme think… now that i think about it… i really liked gong hyo jin with so ji sub in the master’s sun. i also really liked park hyun sik and lim ji yeon together in high society. but otherwise… my brain is frazzled!! 

how could i forget minah and namgung min in beautiful gong shim :((( they had such great chemistry 

but lets be real jo jung suk and gong hyo jin in jealousy incarnate were hilarious. 

32: do you watch drama’s with 30 plus episodes?

oh boy oh boy… i think i did watch one? but skipped a load of it to watch one couple… i mean i’ve thought about it? especially with father is strange… but it’s a pretty rare case. i know i’ve started some but couldn’t get through them all :(

42: favourite kdrama kiss scene 

ihfr’iue ye’qewu the kisses in coffee prince… are truly something… 10/10

54: recommend 3 fluffy AF dramas

efrhiptfuohf’rgh let us see… this is hard because kdrama’s don’t like being complete fluff… but the woman who wants to marry is a wild bit of fun :((

my girlfriend is a gumiho is a really nice watch, wouldn’t call it 100% fluff because… i cried a little 

oh and splash splash love is short and sweet without being too silly :’)

and i guess my only love song is a load fluff, you can enjoy its strange antics and not take it too seriously! 

thank you for these lovely questions

send me some asian drama asks!  

[thedarksideofthewoon]

18, 29 >:D, 33 ;) (& 44 for science ofc)

Hello Miyu, why do I already have a bad feeling about this XD

18 - Favourite tv show? A british comedy called Miranda, it will always be funny and Miranda is honestly such a relatable character ahhhh I love her 

29 - What’s the worst thing I’ve ever done? This is about the locker incident isn’t it, that might be the worst thing again, but then again 18 and a half years is a long time, I’ve probably done something worse at some point, I wouldn’t be surprised.

I can tell you the thing I feel most guilty about though

The year was 2015, we were in Yamaguchi in Japan at the 23rd world scout jamboree and we were sat round a ‘campfire’. There were people from several countries - UK, South Africa, Sweden, Indonesia and a few others. Anyway, so we’re all teaching each other campfire songs (and stuff) and it’s South Africa’s turn and they decide to go with the muffin man or something, and of course there’s action’s that go with it. So you do then and then you go round the circle and find someone else to join in with you. So I’m safe, I haven’t been picked yet and I’m the last person still sitting down and Thomas (one of my swedish friends) comes and tries to get me to join in and I refused (I mean I did have a valid reason but still!!) and so that’s what I feel most guilty about, seeing the look on his face.

Honestly I feel like apologising but you know, just randomly popping up and being like ‘hey Thomas do you remember…’ would be kinda weird idk

BACK TO BUSINESS!!

33 - Favourite actor? Look at you with your winky face smh

Hmm if we go just by korean actors gosh I have five battling for top spot:

Choi Jin Hyuk

Ji Sung

Ji Soo

Ji Chang Wook

and of course Lee Jong Suk (who I totally didn’t forget) 

44 - What is my biggest fear? For science???? What do you mean? Like my brother’s brain? Because oh god no, not happening

Anyway, for science, my biggest fear is hanging from a harness, you know like on high ropes, yeah, I can barely do that because I’m afraid of what the harness will feel like when you fall off… if that makes sense?

Ask me anything, go for it!

[nepitamnunmurl]

yoonseok bit #2

Hey guys! Another bit for you! This one is completely unrelated to the first one. Summary:  It took Hoseok five minutes alone in his room for him to know it wasn't gonna happen. He wasn't sleeping alone. Not today.

Read it also on AO3

Enjoy!

00:12am

Hoseok hovers on the hotel corridor, pacing out of nervousness and so the lights won't go out. In his back and forth he passes the members' doors. Stops. Looks. Sighs. Resumes pacing.

He shouldnt have let his date talk him into watching that scary movie. Why had he broken the promise he'd made to himself over 10 years ago when his noona made him watch 'The Ring' and he'd peed his pants during the night? No scary movies ever again.

Why did he betray himself like this? Sure, Ji Sung was incredibly attracrive and Hobi was super excited when the boy he'd been eyeing since last award season showed interest in him, especially considering it's really hard to find other gay men who are actually willing to act upon their sexualities in the Korean idol world.

But this was no excuse! He was supposed to have learned how to use the word "no" by now right?

I spent all that time teaching you when we were rookies and because of one pretty boy you forget everything you've learned? Yoongi hyung's voice says in his mind.

The light suddenly goes out in the corridor and Hoseok jumps, letting out a small noise. A mixture of fear and guilt spread through the back of his neck and he can feel the hairs in his arms standing up one by one. He moves quickly to remind the light he's still there.

I'm so stupid. Damn. If he was back in the dorm, it would be alright. He wouldn't even have to ask for company to distract from memories of bloody faces and lost limbs and all those jump scares. Back in the dorm, besides having the company of his lively dongsaengs, Jimin and Taehyungie, Jungkook would end up climbing in his bed at some point before he fell asleep anyway.

Things are different when they're on tour. On tour is when they get precious time off from the constant company of each other. And it's good. Necessary, even. He doesn't mind it at all. Except for now. Now he's regretting all of his life choices.

It took Hoseok five minutes alone in his room for him to know it wasn't gonna happen. He wasn't sleeping alone. Not today.

Except, it'd been probably about twenty minutes since he gathered up the courage to leave his room to go knock on somebody's door. He just hadn't had the guts to actually knock yet. It's not that he was ashamed of being scared. It's just that he knew there'd be questions. And he was just as afraid of the questions as he was of the dead lady in the movie.

He wasn't in the mood for explaining where he'd been and who he'd been with. Sejin-hyung had come along, discreetly, so that there wouldn't be any talk in the media. So that it'd be like just an outing with a friend who happened to be in the same country during their schedules. It was kind of the truth. He also knew that the members didn't mind. In fact, he could talk openly about boys and being gay with them - it wasn't a big deal. It wasn't the problem at all.

The problem was that today Hoseok felt silly. He hated feeling silly. Unless it was for fun, in front of ARMYs and on purpose, because he decided to act like it. Not when a situation made him feel like it was beyond his control. He felt kind of humiliated. He'd always thought of himself as strongminded person. Ever since he'd debuted he knew exactly who he was and who he wanted to be.

He'd just compromised his intergrity for a boy. And now he couldn't sleep. He couldn't face anyone.

So he was stuck. Stuck in a long corridor that was terrifying in and of itself and he couldn't go back to his room where a much more terrifying thing awaited. Silence.

Get your shit together, Seok-ah. His inner Yoongi-hyung voice said. Yoongi-hyung. Why was his voice inside Hoseok's mind like the voice of reason? And why hadn't that voice spoken up when he needed it to?

Actually, he knows why. Suga was being extra prickly during a group interview they had earlier. But only towards him. Hoseok got mad. Yoongi-hyung almost never acted prickly towards him. To everybody else, yes. Hoseok was special. Or he thought he was. He seeked him out to confront him about it after their schedule, but hyung had ridden a different van from his and when they got to the hotel he was nowhere to be seen.

So Hoseok decided to forget about him. And shut his voice out. He had a date with a cute guy! Yoongi-hyung shouldn't matter at a time like that! So he put on his tightest pants and his best perfume and happily set out to the theater and, unknowingly, to one of the worst nights of his life.

Now, though, the boy thinks Yoongi-hyung was probably mad at him in advance. Like he'd somehow predicted Hoseok was going to be an idiot.

The light goes out again. This time Hoseok screams. Right after he moves to get the light, however, a door opens. He screams again.

"What the hell are you doing?"

Yoongi-hyung. Great. The last person he wanted to encounter.

"Are you crying?"

Damn. Was he? Probably. He was paralyzed from fear.

Blink.

Blink.

"Seok-ah. Did that guy do anything to you?"

What?

"What are you talking about, hyung?" Hoseok hiccups.

"Didn't you have a date tonight? Why are you crying?"

Blink.

Blink again.

"Hyung!" Hoseok bursts out in loud sobs.

Yoongi looks alarmed for one second, then steps out into the corridor and proceeds to thoughtfully steer Hoseok into his room so the other members don't wake up and a pandemonium starts. He shuts the door, goes to the minifridge, grabs a bottle of water, pours it into a glass, gives it to Hoseok and says with a serious and low voice:

"What did he do to you?"

The tone of Yoongi's voice takes Hoseok out of his crying attack and he starts babbling.

"Oh my god, hyung. No. He didn't do anything bad to me. He just insisted we see a horror movie. And I told him I didn't like it, but he asked me like two more times. And I don't know why I couldn't say no. Then all of a sudden I was sitting in that dark room watching a bloody ghost lady go around scaring people and I came back and Sejin-hyung left me at my room but I couldn't stay there because I was so afraid and I wanted to sleep in somebody else's room, but I was too embarrassed because I couldn't say no to him and I know that you're going to say I'm stupid and give me a lecture, I'll accept and I'll agree, but can you please let me sleep here tonight?"

Blink.

Yoongi walks into the bathroom and comes back with a toilet paper roll in his hand. Goes to his suitcase and grabs his long black shirt from Heich Bleide that Hoseok likes and then hands both items to the younger boy.

"Dry your tears, wash up and then come to bed"

Hoseok's heart feels a little bit warmer. He does what Yoongi tells him, although he has to wash with the door open because what if a water ghost comes to kill him? After he's done, he treads softly back to the room to find Yoongi resting on top of the covers with his eyes closed. He looks soft and cuddly. Hoseok gets the impulse to dive into bed and press his nose into his hyung's neckline.

Huh.

"Aren't you coming?" Hoseok jumps. Yoongi keeps his eyes closed.

"Hyung! Don't scare me!"

Yoongi chooses to ignore him and lifts the bedsheets to get under them. He folds the comforter on the side next to him and taps the bed, motioning for Hoseok to climb on.

"Get the lights"

The younger shuts off the lights, momentarily forgetting about his fear and yelps when he becomes aware of the darkness. He rushes to get in bed, but miscalculates the shape of it and falls half on top of Yoongi.

"Oof"

"Omo! Sorry, hyung!"

Hoseok rushes to get off, but Yoongi's arms tighten around him to keep him in place. He adjusts their limbs into a comfortable position and Hoseok can't see anything, but he thinks his nose might be close to his hyung's neck. He can smell soap and the detergent they use back at the dorm. The thought of being so close makes him blush.

"Hyung"

"Hmm?" Yoongi murmurs sleepily.

"How did you know I was on a date?"

His hyung stays silent for so long Hoseok thinks he might've fallen asleep. Then:

"I overead one of your texts earlier when we were doing makeup. By accident. Sorry"

"Oh. That's ok, I guess"

"Sorry" Soft breathing. "Hyung. Why were you mad at me today?"

A beat of silence longer than the last overcomes them and Hoseok's sure Yoongi's asleep now. But

"Seok-ah. Next time you want to go see a movie, hyung'll take you. We'll watch a very stupid romantic comedy"

Hoseok's heart skips a beat. He's sure that it's because Yoongi spoke out of nowhere when he was supposed to already be asleep. It starts beating faster when his hyung surprises him by softly caressing the back of his head and his hair.

"Alright?"

Hoseok's heart is beating madly now. He relaxes under Yoongi's touch and his nose touches the elder's skin. His neck is warm and the scent calms him. He feels like nothing could ever scare him right here and now. He sighs softly.

"Alright, hyung"

[natural--trash]

Tag thing, wanted to do it for some time but now im at my comp and stuff so uh yeah anyways

Rules: once you’ve been tagged you’re supposed to write a post with eighty-two truths and then tag twenty-five people

I was tagged by @fluffyliontae

Name: tsu (just call me that, or susu or smth yknow)

Blood type: A-

Nickname(s): susu, mym

R/s: single

Zodiac Sign: libra

Pronouns: eh whatever, on some days its he > she > they but it can also be a diff order so yeah seriously whatever floats your boat

Favorite TV Shows: W - Two Worlds (same), a Persona 5 anime could be one of them but there’s none

Long or short hair: long

Height: 162cm or so

Do you have a crush on someone: romantic none, aesthetic ones? squishes? hoo boy

What do you like about yourself: my eyes, that cute scar on my hand

Right or left handed: right

List of three favorite colors: too many, i mostly like colour combos, but light blue, black and #540003 i guess

RIGHT NOW

Eating: nothing, i had brownie ritter sport a bit earlier tho

Drinking: water

I’m about to: draw

Listening to: Believer - Imagine Dragons

Kids: 0

Get married: nah

Career: I want money

MOST RECENT

Drink: water

Phone call: i think my uncle??

Song you listened to: before Believer there’s Bonfire on my spotify playlist but rn its Queen by History

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: nah

Been cheated on: thats a long story

Kissed someone and regretted it: dont think so

Lost someone special: hmm

Been depressed: yeah

Been drunk and thrown up: never drunk alcohol

Kissed a stranger: nope

Had glasses or contacts: yeah

Had sex on the first date: nope

Broken someone’s heart: not that im aware of it

Turned someone down: kinda??

Cried when someone died: yeah

Fallen for a friend: im aro, that doesnt work

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: yes

Fallen out of love: no

Laughed until you cried: yes

Met someone who changed you: mhhh dont think so?

Found out who your true friends were: kinda (I’m sorry that I’m always answering like this omg)

Found out someone was talking about you: cant remember

Kissed someone on your fb list: i dont use fb

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: eyes

Hugs or kisses: hugs

Shorter or taller: taller

Romantic or spontaneous: platonic

Sensitive or loud: sensitive

Hookup or relationship: friendship

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

FIRST

Best friend: have conatct with both or them but we’re not as close? although I still don’t mind lying/rolling around on his floor

Surgery: does removing my wisdom teeth count? (does it?)

Sport: swimming (I wish I hadn’t stopped)

Vacation: Turkey

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: depends on the day (same)

Miracles: yeah

Love at first sight: i dont rly believe in romantic love, but other than that yeah has flashbacks to when x impulse bought a ps vita

Heaven: i want to

EXTRAS

How many people from your fb list do you know irl: i still dont use fb

Do you have any pets: i used to have a duck

Do you want to change your name: yeah kinda i’d prefer something gender neutral

What did you do for your last birthday: i played video games at home bc i have no friends

What time did you wake up today: idk, fell asleep again

What were you doing last night at midnight: internet

Something you can’t wait for: when i move out

Last time you saw your mom: some minutes ago

What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: how my brain is sometimes

Have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah, had a classmate with that name

What’s getting on your nerves: loud noises in the morning, often ppl i dont consider as friends

instructions: You can tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people. No skipping.

(should i do the whole thing?? ok lemme get my phone pls note that i havent gotten the p5 ost yet)

Obtained a Berry! - DP OST

actually there comes some more Nintendo OST

Awake -BTS

Young Forever (unplugged ver) - BTS

crow tit (jpn) - bts

Mein Block - Sido

We don’t talk anymore - Jungkook

a song i do not remember what it was

Faint - Linkin Park

La la La - naughty boy

i think its time to make a new playlist bc i dont listen to some pop songs anymore

so uh yeah the whole thing it is

5 things you’d find in my bag:

tissues, a shit ton

wallet

probably some paper

charger

phone

5 things you’d find in my bedroom:

desk

clothes

stuffed animals

bed

my computer

5 things i always wanted to do in life:

Travelmore

Get a job i love

Own a cat

Get a life I like

Have ppl I’m close with that are not far away

5 things i’m currently into:

video games

persona 5, fire emblem heroes (they deserve their own point)

kpop

art

ummm edgesthetic?

5 things on my to do list:

go to a BTS concert

get a part time job

learn Japanese and perhaps Korean and get better at French

visit all the countries I still want to go to

get better at drawing

5 things people may not know about me:

I would love to study video game development but I’m too scared of what’s after that plus there’s no way I’ll get accepted hahaha

i love min yoongi and his mixtape bc he idk he helped me think that maybe not everything in my life will be shitty later and that maybe I’ll be able to be happy one day

I’m currently in a more down phase

i have problems with my sense of reality

i have a cute scar on my hand

Top 10 BTS Songs Tag:

  House Of Cards (Full Length Edition)

  House Of Cards [OUTRO]

  Good Day

No order from here on

4. I NEED U (Japanese Ver.) 5. FOR YOU 6. 쩔어 (Dope) 7. 등골브레이커 (Spine breaker) 8. 24/7 = Heaven 9. Blood Sweat & Tears 10. Not Today

I have time

10 groups/artists you like besides Kpop/liked before Kpop:

nqrse ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎

Fall Out Boy

Panic! at the Disco

DAOKO ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎

Casper

Die Ärzte

I think that’s it

DAT ADAM

uhh I liked Abingdon Boys School at some point

idk the old Sido songs aint bad?

10 favorite non-kpop songs:

ダイスキ - DAOKO

BANG! - DAOKO

Das Grizzly Lied - Casper

パラサイト(Parasite) - nqrse feat.まふまふ,luz  

ECHO - まふまふ (mafumafu) feat.nqrse

p much any song sung by nqrse im sorry im trash hmu and ill link you some good stuff

Believer - Imagine Dragons

Bonfire - Felix Jaehn, ALMA

Die Vergessenen 1/2 - Casper

omg i totally forgot about OSTs Toberu Mono from The Last Stiry, too much from Persona 5 liek Beneath the Mask, Last Surprise etc

10 favorite movies:

i don’t watch enough :c

10 favorite tv shows, including anime & cartoons:

W - Two Worlds

Acchi Kocchi

Psycho Pass

I’m giving up

10 things you enjoyed before kpop/enjoy besides kpop, that won’t fit in the lists above:

music

art

video games

esp atlus n nintendo games!!

cute soft stuffed animals

flight rising

sarma

collecting cute key charms

collecting cute things in general

dancing

ten tag last movie you watched: i dont know

last song you listened to:  that one song mentioned above by Daoko

last show you watched: I Hear Your Voice

last book you read: Der Vorleser by Bernhard Schlink, don’t read it

last thing you ate: chocolate

if you could be anywhere in the world right now where would you be: Tokyo

when would you time travel to: itll be spontaneous

first thing you would do with lottery money: buy a loft

character you would hang out with for a day: P5 Protagonist

time right now: 23:52

the ‘or’ tag

build a snowman with v OR have a snowball fight with j-hope

get coffee with suga OR get ice cream with suga

go to the cinema with jimin OR the amusement park with jungkook

do a dance cover with j-hope OR sing a duet with jin

kiss rap monster OR cuddle suga

babysit with jimin OR dogsit with v

meet j-hope’s family OR have v meet your family

film a commercial with j-hope OR film a sketch with v

hug jimin OR hold hands with jungkook

go to paris with jin OR go to london with suga (sorry been to paris already)

film a drama with jin OR do a photo shoot with rap monster

attend an award show with rap monster OR wear couple t-shirts at the airport with jungkook

spend a lazy day with suga OR explore a city with j-hope

fall asleep next to jimin OR wake up next to jungkook

make up a silly rap with v OR a silly choreography with jin

have a fun picnic with j-hope OR a fancy date with jin

have jungkook serenade you OR have v sing you to sleep

have a dance party with j-hope OR sing karaoke with suga

go camping with jimin and v OR go to the beach with rap monster and suga

cook with jin AND bake a cake with jimin

have a sleepover with the hyung line OR a birthday party with the maknae line

celebrate halloween with jungkook, suga, v and j-hope OR christmas with rap monster, jimin and j-hope

rules: answer the questions with the first letter of your name, then tag 10 people. If the person who tagged you has the same initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use the same word twice.

What is your name? - Tsu

A four letter word? - text

A boy’s name? - Tom

An occupation? - tailor

Something you wear? - t-shirt

A color? - turquoise

A food? - tomato

Something you find in the bathroom? - toilet

A place? - Tokyo

A reason for being late? - traffic

Something you shout? - yells

A movie title? - something that starts with “the”

Something you drink? - tea

An animal? - turtle

A type of car? - tesla

Title of a song? - Tage wie diese - die toten hosen

I’m,,, maybe later @mama-kisu @metroid-fr (you can do the non kpop stuff) eh whoever wants i guess