#his husband whom he pays 3$/h

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with the knowledge that teru last saw his parents years ago and that he regularly visits spirits&such I have now fully become a "reigen adopts teru" believer

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KIDZ!

The Young People of the Lucyverse ~ Part 3

W.C. Fields famously warned performers never to work with children or animals. Luckily for us, Lucille Ball consistently disregarded his advice. Here’s a look at some of the young performers and characters of the Lucyverse.

“Lucy and the Drive-In Movie” (1969) ~ Jackie Berry is a married friend of Kim’s who has a newborn named Wendy. Her husband is said to be in the service. Jackie Berry uses her married name for the character. She ws the real-life wife of Ken Berry from 1960 to 1972, an actor championed by Lucille Ball. 

“Lucy and Jack Benny’s Biography” (1970) ~ Lucy plays Jack’s mother and  Michael Barbera plays Benny as a boy. Barbera was a child actor who was 12 years old at the time of filming. He accrued 18 screen credits before leaving the industry.

“Lucy Cuts Vincent’s Price” (1970) ~ Lucy says she previously talked on the phone to Mrs. Vincent Price when arranging entertainment for a big party the Price’s threw. In 1970, Vincent Price was married to costume designer Mary Grant (inset photo), although her name is never mentioned here. Making small talk on the telephone, Lucy asks about Little Vicki. This is a reference to the Price’s 8 year-old daughter, Victoria. Although Lucy visits their home, both characters remain off-screen.

“Lucy the Laundress” (1970) ~ Lucy smashes into a laundry truck. In order to pay for the repairs, she has to go to work at the laundry and encounters the owner’s two daughters Sue Chin Wong (left) and Linda Change Wong (right). Linda is played by Rosalind Chao who makes her screen debut with this episode. She created the role of Soon-Ye Klinger on “M*A*S*H” and “After M*A*S*H” but is perhaps best known for playing Keiko O'Brien on “Star Trek: The Next Generation” and “Deep Space Nine.” During that series she also filmed The Joy Luck Club. More recent credits include “Blackish,” “This is Us,” and “The Catch.”  Heather Lee (Sue Chin Wong) makes her screen appearance in this episode. When Lucy meets the sisters, she greets them in an exaggerated and condescending Chinese accent. The girls look horrified and answer back in voices totally devoid of any Asian influence. To further the humor of Lucy’s backward thinking, the girls are eating hamburgers with ketchup, a typical American-style meal.

“Lucy and Ma Parker” (1970) ~ A criminal mastermind (Carole Cook) enlists two little people (Jerry Marin and Billy Curtis) to play her ‘children’. Milton (Marin) is dressed as ‘Little Mildred’ in the style of child star Shirley Temple. Curtis plays Herman Golab, who is dressed as Buster Brown.  

“Lucy and the Italian Bombshell” (1971) ~ Harry’s former flame Donna Colucci (Kaye Ballard) is married and has a large brood of children: Ricardo, Anna Maria, Louisa, Luigi, Vincenzo, Dino, Lucrezia, Alfredo Jr., Margarito, Bruno, Rosa, and Frederico - all of whom appear uncredited.

“Lucy and Donny Osmond” (1972) ~ Lucy takes her pre-teen niece Patricia (Eve Plumb) to see her favorite singer, Donny Osmond. Plumb is probably best known as the middle daughter, Jan, on TV’s “The Brady Bunch” (1969-74). She filmed this episode simultaneously with “The Brady Bunch” which aired Friday nights on ABC. This is her only time acting with Lucille Ball.  Coincidentally, Desi Arnaz Jr. made a guest-appearance on “The Brady Bunch” in 1970 where he was the ‘dream date’ of Jan’s sister Marcia (Maureen McCormick). 

“Lucy and Her Prince Charming” (1972) ~ Harry hastily arranges a home wedding ceremony for Lucy and a Prince (Ricardo Montalban) - including a flower girl and a ring bearer - played by two uncredited young actors. 

Mame (1974) ~ Lucille Ball plays Auntie Mame to orphaned Patrick Dennis, played by Bruce Dern as a child. 

“Life With Lucy” (1986) ~ Lucy Barker and Curtis McGibbon (Gale Gordon) are grandparents to Becky and Kevin McGibbon. Becky is played by Jenny Lewis. Ten year-old Lewis appeared in all 13 episodes, only 8 of which were aired.

“Yes, Lucy was a bit rough around the edges, and yes, she constantly smoked cigarettes on the set. She would pull her face back with tape, sort of like a cheap face-lift.“ ~ JENNY LEWIS

Philip Amelio (Kevin McGibbon) made his screen debut on “Life With Lucy” at the age of 10. He played Stephen Baldwin’s younger self in the film Born on the Fourth of July (1989). He gave up acting by his early teensPhilip died in  2005 at the age of 27 due to a mis-diagnosed bacterial infection. 

Kelli Martin (right) played Becky’s friend Patty in two episodes of the series. Born in 1975, she made her acting debut at age 7 and went on to be seen as an Emmy-nominated regular on “Life Goes On” (1989-93) and “Christy” (1994-95) in which she played the title character. 

BONUS KIDZ! 

“Lucy the Diamond Cutter” (1970) ~ German diamond cutter Gustav (Wally Cox) calls Kim and Craig “the Katzenjammer Kids.” The Katzenjammer Kids was a comic strip created by German immigrant Rudolph Dirks which appeared from 1897 to 2006. The strip featured twins Hans and Fritz, who rebelled against authority. 

“Lucy and the Generation Gap” (1969) ~ In the final sequence of the musical episode set in outer space, the Carters sing “Kids” a song written by Lee Adams and Charles Strouse for the 1960 Broadway musical Bye Bye Birdie. The musical was filmed in 1963. This song is originally about the generation gap, so it requires the least lyrical changes. It was sung on stage and screen by Paul Lynde, playing the father of free-thinking kids obsessed with an Elvis-like rock and roll singer.  

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Monday 12 December 1836

7 40

1 35

no kiss the ground covered with snow and small snow falling and F31° now at 8 40 a.m. breakfast - 25 minutes filing off the padlock of one of A-‘s deed-boxes - then talking to John Booth about getting his son-in-law (Martha’s husband) to the Dispensary - the man cannot walk - laid up in the rheumatism - at my desk at 10 ½ - snowy (small snow) wintry day - from about 1 to 2 (an hour) had Messrs. Hainsworth and Dobson - evidently very anxious to have the stone but I would say nothing either one way or other - H- thought of bidding 3/. per yard for the stone and £30 per annum for the farm - I made no remark on this but that I thought £30 very fair for the farm - I wished the farm to go with the stone - should be guided rather by the bid for the stone than for the farm but not bound to take the highest bid - at last I said there were several I knew would bid of whom I had an equally good opinion and among whom it would be difficult to choose without some principle laid down - I should therefore among these take the highest bid - was only anxious to do what I thought fair and right - on coming upstairs wrote note to Mr. Parker giving the conditions to be produced at the letting this evening at 6 pm at the Stump X Inn - sent off my note by John Booth at 3 ½ to ‘Messrs. Parker and Adam solicitors Halifax’ - dinner at 6 ¾ - coffee upstairs - A- read French - from 8 ½ to 10 ¾ as all the morning from 10 ½ to 1 and from after writing my note that is from about 3 to 6 ¾ siding in my study and library - Had Joseph Mann from 10 ¾ to 11 ½ - he brought the tickets (biddings) in a packet from Mr. Parker - said Dodgson was the highest bidder the 1st round - Dodgson! said I - I never thought of him; but I might have thought of him, for I knew he intended to bid - then talked about the colliery - It will be March before they are up to the engine-pit, but will answer for having Listerwick pit bottomed in August - came upstairs at 11 ½ - looked at the biddings - it is between Dodgson and Womersley - each 7/6. per yard for the stone but W- £40 per annum for the farm and D- only £30 - hard bidding for D- but W- must have it - and I do not think of letting him pay more than £35 for the farm - wrote all but the first 4 ½ lines of today till 12 10 at which hour F----- cannot get at it - has blown up and fasted itself and the window in some sort that I cannot open the window - snowy, rainy, sleety, haily, wintry day -

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“Promise me you're not leaving me, yeah?”

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This is my first time writing, well not really, I tried writing before (7th grade) and it was cliche af. Anyway, I wasn't planning on that ending, my initial plan was to make it really angsty but "Dream with Me" made me soft. I wrote this for only 40 minutes so I'm sorry for the bad grammar and wrong spellings, English is not my first language.

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You'd like to consider yourself very lucky and blessed; a stable job, a roof above your head, food on your plate every time you get hungry, a generous amount of spare money to splurge on your luxuries, and a very loving husband.

The both of you never struggled with money, with your husband being the Harry Styles, and you being a pediatrician.

You love Harry so much that when he dropped into one knee in front of your friends, families, and fans, you didn't hesitate to say “yes”.

Of course, the married life isn't as easy as everyone thinks, the two of you tied the knot 2 years ago, the both of you nearing your thirties and struggled with 3 things: fans, distance, and getting pregnant.

You were never bothered with the hate you received, even at the start of your relationship, probably one of the main reasons why you two last this long. His fans love you, but there are still some of those who couldn't accept that Harry is already married. Then it brings us to the distance. 

Harry still makes music for a living even though he could support both of you without needing to do so, and your job pays more than enough money either. The both of you are getting tired of the constant distance, with you having your own clinic and couldn't be with Harry all the time, and the fact that you two have been trying to get pregnant for the past year. The distance always prevents you from trying for one and it's getting to the both of you. You and Harry were never in a rush before the marriage, but you both know that you want to have a child before your thirties. Which brings us to now.

"Y/N, love you know I had to, the tour will only last for 6 months, I'll be back before you know it, you can visit me too!"

"H, why didn't you tell me earlier? We're supposed to talk about matters like this, we're already married...", you're more upset than anything, in times like this, you tried being optimistic but this is the second time he made a rather big decision without talking to you first.

"I know baby, I'm sorry, Jeff needed my answer right away and I forgot to tell you about this.", he scooted closer to you and grabbed both of your hands in his but you just looked down.

Harry tried to cup your face with his right hand so you'll meet his eyes, "baby you can always come with me, it has always been on the table, join me in the tour, watch me ever-", you didn't let him finish.

"Are you saying that I should give up my job?", you don't know why but what Harry said suddenly made your blood boil but you keep your voice as calm as possible, you don't want to start any unnecessary fight.

"No lovely, all I'm saying is that you can come with me and have a little break from your job. It'll be good for you too! And we get to travel together, I'll take you to my favorite places, it'll be like our second honeymoon lovie.", he's smiling so big, with a look of hope in his eyes, you can tell that he's so excited on the fact of being with you and traveling with you but as tempting as that sounds, your mind is already made up.

"Harry you know I just can't leave my patients! I have a life too! And unlike you I don't make drastic decisions without telling my significant other first.", you removed your hands from his, crossed your arms and faced sideways to him.

"I'm not saying that you should lea-" 

"But that's what you're implying!", you can't help but throw your hands in the air. Your job is very important to you and you're seeing red.

"No, it's not! I also told you that you can visit me! It's completely up to you, I don't know why you're making such a big deal out of this!", his voice boomed in your bedroom and you couldn't help but stand up.

"Then the answer is no! Can you hear yourself?! You should have considered that you have a wife bef-"

"Goddamnit Y/N! I already told you that Jeff needed an urgent answer and I forgot to tell you! I'm not leaving for another 3 weeks!", both of you are having a screaming match now. It rarely happens but you're sure that your neighbors can hear it.

"How long has it since you knew, huh Harry?", you taunted him.

"It doesn't matter! I told you I forgot okay? And I'm apologizing for it Y/N!"

It's getting too much for you but you don't wanna cry, you're stronger than that.

"You know why I refuse to leave this job even just for a month!"

"Or maybe you love your job more than you love your own husband?", he asked you sarcastically and it irked you to the core. You both know it's not true!

"HARRY! We wanted to have a baby for the past 2 years! And my job is to take care of babies and taking care of them gives me hope that we will get pregnant soon and now you're leaving?!"

“That's why I was asking you to come with me! Seeing babies every day both pressures us! We can try while on tour or we can just relax and forget about getting pregnant for a moment!", that's when it happened - after he said that you completely broke down.

"Are you being serious right now?! You don't know how much it hurt me seeing you down when our pregnancy tests comes out negative! You don't know the pain I felt! You don't know how's it feels not to give the man whom I love so much his only dream! You don't know how useless and helpless I felt as a woman! As your wife!"

"Are you saying that you only want to have babies because I wante-", Harry cautiously moves closer to you.

"No! I want us to start our own family and that couldn't happen with you being away!", you wiped your tears with the palm of your hand, "I just wished you had considered me - us, before you decided to leave.", you whispered sadly and left the room.

Harry felt like a complete dick. What was he thinking? Not only he did upset you, he hurt you too. He knew you were right and he needed to make up for it.

He went downstairs and saw you on the kitchen holding a glass with water, you were still sniffling and his heart broke at the sound. Harry slowly approaches you but before he could come closer, you began to speak.

"You're right...", you said while slowly turning towards him.

"No baby, I'm sorry, you were right, I wasn't thinking and I want to make it up to you. I shou-", his voice sounds desperate and you know that he's also about to cry.

"No H. You're right.", you repeat. "We need a break.", you said not meeting his eyes.

"Yes, yes we do lovie.", his waterline felt full but he blinked his tears away, in his mind he was so thankful that you're agreeing with joining him on tour so he pulled you to his chest and kissed your temples. "I love you so much lovie, I'm really sorry... but on the brighter side, we can start planning on packing, yeah? And make a list of the places you want to visit.", he looks down at you with a smile on his face.

"No Harry."

"What do you mean no? You don't want to start packing yet, baby? That's alright too! It has been a very long day for us. We got a few weeks up in our sleeves anyway! We're going to have so much fun!", he winked at you. He sounds so excited and it hurts to know that you'll be ripping his happiness in the next few seconds.

"Harry, i-i meant th-the break, w-we need it...", you met his stare and that's when it hits him.

"No, no, no, I- baby I'm so sorry, I- lovie plea-", the waters in his eyes came back.

"Harry, baby we need it. We're both feeling the pressure of getting pregnant before our thirties. I'm sorry about what I said earlier. This is a much-needed break, plus you'll be doing what you love and I'll be doing what I love, and when you come back, we can try again."

"No, love, please...", he's crying now and you are too.

"Bubbles, I'm not leaving you, we're just going to be away from each other, like old times before we get married.", you tried to smile through your tears but just couldn't.

Harry pulled you tightly to his chest, "promise me you're not leaving me, yeah? You still love me, right? Baby, right?"

You pulled away, "of course I still love you, it's impossible for it to change, I'll be waiting here for you to come home. Maybe because we couldn't keep our hands off each other that's why we feel so pressured.", you try to laugh on the last part and your husband smiled at you.

"I couldn't help that my wife is the most gorgeous girl that's ever walked on this planet.", he pinched your bum and wiped your tears.

You swat his arms and the both of you laughed, "now, now Mr. Styles, stop being cheesy.", you wiped his tears away.

"Well Mrs. Styles I'm just stating facts here.", you just shook your head and brought your arms to the back of his neck to pull him down for a kiss.

"Damn, I'll miss that.", Harry said after your kiss with his eyes still closed.

"Good thing we got three more weeks yea?"

"Definitely!", and with that, both of you kissed again and it's like nothing ever happened, no screaming, no shouting, and no tears.

And that same night you made love like it's the first time again.

Maybe the both of you couldn't start your own family now but you both believe that it'll come at the right time but for now, you're just going to do what you love, take care of your baby patients while waiting to have your own whistle Harry do what he loves, performs the music he wrote with his heart.

Little the both of you know that that night, you'll have your little bubs growing in your tummy.

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[little-chattes]

Ok so I’ve done a complete re-read through and one thing that kept nagging at me was how little Gideon and Harrow’s relationship makes sense given its quite frankly abusive origins. Harrow spends her whole life making Gideon’s a living hell and Gideon just… forgives her. Total and complete forgiveness for an irredeemable girl.

At first I took the sudden shift in their relationship as lazy writing to rush along the end of the story, but that didn't make any sense either. Muir strikes me as an intensely purposeful writer. Then I remembered that Muir is also an intensely Catholic writer and it hit me. Muir isn’t writing a story about a healthy human relationship, oh no, she’s writing a story about Christ’s relationship with The Church… if Christ was a sword toting butch lesbian and The Church was a sardonic bone witch. Call it tender blasphemy. 

Now Gideon’s role as a Christ figure is fairly easy to parse out given that her dad is… God. But for the sake of self indulgence (I have to put my 15 year long flirtation with Christianity to use somehow) I’m going to go through all the parallels anyway. There are a LOT of them.

Let’s start at the very beginning (a very good place to start).

Miraculous Conception

Luke 1:34-38

34 But Mary said to the angel, “How will this be, since I [e]am a virgin?” 35 The angel answered and said to her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; for that reason also the [f]holy Child will be called the Son of God. 

Gideon is conceived by artificial means when one of God’s own servants (Mercy) delivers a sample of John’s genetic material to Wake, a ‘normal’ human woman who chooses to carry Gideon in her womb. Notably, the sample lives far beyond its point of expected viability, thus making the conception somewhat miraculous (“Only the sample was still active, no idea how considering it was twelve weeks after the fact” HTN 441). 

The Cuckold

Matthew 1:18-25

18 Now the birth of Jesus the [a]Messiah was as follows: when His mother Mary had been [b]betrothed to Joseph, before they came together she was found to be pregnant by the Holy Spirit. 19 And her husband Joseph, since he was a righteous man and did not want to disgrace her, planned to [c]send her away secretly. 

Gideon the First decides not to kill his lover, Wake, and releases her out the airlock (AND HE TOOK PITY ON ME! HE TOOK PITY ON ME! HE SAW ME AND HE TOOK PITY ON ME” from Harrow’s vision of Wake’s note, HTN 124) just as Joseph took pity on Mary, his betrothed, by deciding to divorce her quietly instead of making her infidelity public which would condemn her to death by public stoning (Deuteronomy 22:21). Gideon the First knew that Wake was pregnant and didn’t tell John because he thought the baby was his. Similarly, Joseph goes on to raise Jesus as his own son.

The Birth

Luke 2:7

And she gave birth to her firstborn son; and she wrapped Him in cloths, and laid Him in a [f]manger, because there was no [g]room for them in the inn.

 Neither baby Jesus nor baby Gideon were given a proper cradle, one being laid to rest in a manger where the animals ate and the other stuffed in a transplant bio-container (GTN 23). 

The Dead Children

16 When Herod realized that he had been outwitted by the Magi, he was furious, and he gave orders to kill all the boys in Bethlehem and its vicinity who were two years old and under, in accordance with the time he had learned from the Magi.

King Herod intends to kill the prophesied King of the Jews and instead of finding the specific baby, he just has a bunch of them slaughtered. However, Jesus escapes the slaughter of the innocents by Herod when his parents secret him away to Egypt.

 When the great aunts gas the nursery and kill the 200, Gideon is meant to die along with them but escapes her fate.

Now this event has a completely different biblical connotation for Harrow. 

Firstly, the murder of the 200 children represents Original Sin. In the bible, Adam and Eve disobeyed God in the Garden of Eden, and as their descendants, all of humankind is doomed to also bear the weight of that sin from the moment we are born until the day we die. This is a fact that is drilled into Christians as soon as we’re able to understand it, we are born wretched and unworthy sinners, and there’s nothing we can do ourselves to fix that. 

“I have tried to dismantle you, Gideon Nav! The Ninth House poisoned you, we trod you underfoot—I took you to this killing field as my slave—you refuse to die, and you pity me! Strike me down. You’ve won. I’ve lived my whole wretched life at your mercy, yours alone, and God knows I deserve to die at your hand. You are my only friend. I am undone without you.”

Harrow is a multitude, she is 200 children, the entire future of her house. Shes not just one human being,, she’s the whole damn church.

Naz/Nav

he went and lived in a town called Nazareth. So was fulfilled what was said through the prophets, that he would be called a Nazarene.

Although Gideon is not from the Ninth, she is given the Ninth name Nav when she arrives as a baby. Similarly, Jesus is known as Jesus of Nazareth, though that is not where he was born.

The Poor Bondservant

Jesus' role as a servant is emphasized many times in the bible. He was a carpenter's son born in a stable 

Philippians 2:5-8

Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God, but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men. And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross.

 Gideon is described as being made “a very small bondswoman” (GTN 24)

The Sword

Matthew 10:34

Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword.

The Wretched Sinner

Harrow is wretched, self loathing, and cruel. 

She is in thrall of the enemy of god, a figure who was once gods most favoured warrior, cast into hell.

She is like the depiction of the sinner who loves the devil

It's important to note that Harrow isn’t a single person, she is a multitude, the entire future of her people condensed into one body. 

The Enemy of God

20 Then I saw an angel coming down from heaven, nholding in his hand the key to othe bottomless pit1 and a great chain. 2 And he seized pthe dragon, that ancient serpent, who is the devil and Satan, and qbound him for a thousand years, 3 and threw him into othe pit, and shut it and rsealed it over him, so that she might not deceive the nations any longer, until the thousand years were ended. After that he must be released for a little while.

Before the fall, Satan was described as a “guardian cherub” who resided in the garden with God (Ezekiel 28:14) 

(a funny aside, in the bible the devil is known as the great deceiver but in HTN Muir specifies that Alecto is incapable of lying)

A Life of Abuse 

Isaiah 53:3

"He was despised and rejected by mankind,

    a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.

Like one from whom people hide their faces

    he was despised, and we held him in low esteem”

They got up, drove him out of the town, and took him to the brow of the hill on which the town was built, in order to throw him off the cliff" (Luke 4:28–29).

Gideon lives a life of mockery and is abused by Harrow.

An Unlikely Savior

Despite the fact that Gideon does not fit the expected image of a Cavalier, Harrow chooses Gideon to be her sword and protector.

Despite the many openings Gideon has to make Harrow pay for the pain she caused her, she remains loyal to her

Trust

Harrow realizes that she cannot face the lyctor trials without Gideon, and places her trust in her

Christians are told they must place their trust in jesus in order to reach salvation

Purifying Water

Acts 2:38

Peter replied, "Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.

Harrow confesses her sins to Gideon and puts herself at her mercy

Gideon forgives Harrow totally and completely, she baptises her

One Flesh

Mark 10:8

and the two shall become one flesh; so they are no longer two, but one flesh.

“The imagery and symbolism of marriage is applied to Christ and the body of believers known as the church. The church is comprised of those who have trusted in Jesus Christ as their personal Savior and have received eternal life. Christ, the Bridegroom, has sacrificially and lovingly chosen the church to be His bride” (x)

Ephesians 5:25-26

25 gHusbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and hgave himself up for her, 26 that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by ithe washing of water jwith the word,

They take the vow of necro and cav, one flesh one end

Gideon’s forgiveness of Harrow is reaffirmed

Harrow risks her life to stay and fight with Gideon, even if it means her death and thus the destruction of her death. Her love for Gideon is now greater than her love for the Body.

The Sacrifice

John 19:34

Instead, one of the soldiers pierced Jesus’ side with a spear, bringing a sudden flow of blood and water.

They will look on the one they have pierced'" (John 19:36–37).

Gideon chooses to die for Harrow, death by piercing

and when he had given thanks, he broke it and said, “This is my body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of me.” In the same way, after supper he took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood; do this, whenever you drink it, in remembrance of me.” For whenever you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until he comes.

In order to complete the lyctor process, Harrow both physically and spiritually consumes Gideon

Because of Gideon’s sacrifice, Harrow attains eternal life at the right hand of god

The Tomb

The Resurrection

1On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women came to the tomb, bringing the spices they had prepared. 2 They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, 3but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus

Harrow turns her body into a tomb for Gideon, a tomb fashioned after that on the Ninth

Resurrection on the Third Day

Thus it is written, and thus it was necessary for the Christ to suffer and to rise from the dead the third day, and that repentance and remission of sins should be preached in His name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem. Luke 24:46-47 

“So many months had passed: and yet, at the same time, she had only lost Gideon Nav three days ago. It was the morning of the third day in a universe without her cavalier: it was the morning of the third day—and all the back of her brain could say, in exquisite agonies of amazement, was: She is dead. I will never see her again.” (HTN 374)

Just in case you missed this important piece of information, Muir repeats it three times.

Go, and tell them, then, that he that was dead is alive, and lives for evermore, and has the keys of death and the grave,"

[skgway]

1828 Dec., Tues. 30

5 40/60

11 20/60

Some time talking to Jno [John] etc. Goodish motion as of late yesterday and the day before. Another motion loose and largeish as if after a dose. Take treacle to my pudding every day – 

At my desk at 7 35/60 – wrote the following note to  “John Rawson Esquire, Ash grove, Elland” (and sent it to the post by Jno [John] a little before 9) 

“Dear Sir – I hear you are thinning your woods of some very nice young beeches and sycamores – I want about eight of each to plant out as single trees, and, if you can spare me so many, shall be very much obliged to you – I can send a couple of men and the cart any day you may have the goodness to name – I beg my compliments to Mrs. Rawson, and am, dear sir, very truly yours Anne Lister, Shibden Hall Tuesday 30 December 1828” – 

Breakfast at 7 55/60 in about 20 minutes – On considering over what William K– [Keighley] told me yesterday made the marginal observations and references on the margin of yesterday – William K– [Keighley] said Thomas G– [Greenwood] was losing by his hard wood (meaning oaks, sycamores, ashes, beeches, and suchlike) but gained by his mahogany and cabinet making – 

His better stick to what he understood – Not right to sell his wood at such a price as 15 1/2 d [pence] a foot – 6d [pence] for grower and everybody theirs to undersell, and lower prices – Must have lost by it – It was sold before he had got it away from here – The common price a pair of cart shafts oak 10/6 ash 9/. [shillings] 

Greenwood sells the latter at 7 /. [shillings] a pair – Many a man will not deal with him – If this widow woman’s husband had been living, he would have had nothing to do with him – When Greewood came for the wood, and I told him the other lot was about￡5, he said that was much higher valued then the other – There ought to be above 100 foot of wood for that price. Should not be more than 14d [pence] a foot – I suppose he calculated to make 1 1/2 per foot – William K– [Keighley] says he ought to have 5 percent for his money – and 1/2d [pence] a foot would do – 

Wrote the above of today – Then at my accents till 10 1/4 – William K– [Keighley] yesterday calculated the alder at the fish pond 5 feet at 13d [pence] = 5/5. 2 grained sycamore in hall lane 13 feet and 12 feet at 1/6 = 1.17.6 sycamore bottom of calf croft also 2 grained 6 feet and 5 1/2 feet at 15d [pence] = 13/9. Sycamore Well Royde fence between Ing and Brow, 5 feet at 15d [pence] = 6/3 Elm in a same hedge row 2 feet at 1/6 = 3/. [shillings] – 

Again looking over my accounts till 10 3/4 – Went out at 11, down to Mosey and his man taking up the railing in Charles Howarth’s field along the top of Lower Brook Ing wood and setting it 4 feet farther from the holly hedge – Ordered the about 9 yards of hedge cut down yesterday by William Keighley junior in mistake at the top of Lower brea wood and bottom of Well Royde crow to be double railed this afternoon and Mosey and his companion did it – 

The pruning and young oaks in Hall wood till 1, and then went to Throp and the 2 wallers planting in the Cunnery plantation – Sauntered about there and in the upper fields during the 55 minutes the men were at dinner – Went down about 2 3/4 and sent Jno [John] up with more oaks – Throp had then planted near 300 today – Except this Jno [John] did nothing for me today – William finish the little bit of clearing of the plantation that remained to be done – 

Then went along the walk and cut across the fields to Well Royde – Sauntered about there, then, went along the Northowram road to the end of it beyond Quarry house – Admire this road the view etc. and returned by Wellroyde – 

Had just got into Lower brook Ing at 4 1/2 when Jno [John] met me to say Mr. Waterhouse was coming – Hurried home – Sat 10 minutes in the little breakfast room – At 4 50/60 went up to dress came down at 5 1/4 – and sat talking – They drank tea and I had my dinner at the same time in the drawing room. Mr. W– [Waterhouse] gave me the account of the canal tonnage and of the stock and dividends – The cut up to H–x [Halifax] cost ￡600000 – Wont pay more than now (nine percent had yearly) these 7 or 10 years – Shares now worth 100 guineas percent ∴ [therefore] pays 3 1/2 percent on the investment – Mr. W– [Waterhouse] went away at 8 20/60 – 

Went upstairs for near 1/2 hour – Then came down – Sat talking – Wrote out from my father the contents in day works of the different fields my father occupies – Wrote the last 13 lines – Very fine mildish day – Went upstairs at 10 25/60

A striking proof of how very little influence I have with Marian occurred this evening – I have repeatedly observed that all the jesuitical party and all the knowing ones among the Roman Catholic priesthood feared nothing so much as emancipation – Hated Canning because he was for it – Looked up to Wellington as their champion against it – No impression made on Marian – 

Mr. Waterhouse happened casually to say this evening that his brother said all the well informed of the Roman Catholic clergy in Portugal dreaded nothing so much as emancipation and bringing the Roman Catholics more in contact with the protestants – I saw Marian was struck by this observation – I have just named it to her – She seems already more than 1/2 converted – 

Well! Said I, how often have I made similar observations in vain – You will come round at last – but I must not convert you – Oh! no said Marian you will never be to blame – True – I know none with whom my influence in all matters of opinion is so small as with my own  and only sister – 

Wrote the last 8 lines and had just done at 10 40/60 at which hour Fahrenheit in my room (52º and the wind very calm earlier in the evening) highish – Mr. W– [Waterhouse] mentioned Todd’s the great ready monday haberdasher’s shop in the city – 70 or 80 shopsmen – 

[sideways in margin] Speaking of the manor of Southowram, mentioned the circus of the waste near Joseph Hall’s said I had asked Mr. R– [Rawson] if he was tired of the manor, and he had answered it was worth ￡3000 to one – He gave ￡1000 for it – Mr. W– [Waterhouse] agreed he could not do better than take the same money for it again – I said if he let me consider too long I might change my mind, but I was a thousand for it now – 

[youcantundothepast]

second chances - Javid

I posted this before with spongebob gifs but I cringed whenever I saw it so I’m editing and getting rid of the gifs so here it is 

Jack took a deep breath and he straightened his dark grey blazer. To say he was nervous would be an understatement. He couldn’t screw this up. He lost Davey once, he couldn’t lose him again. Anxiety coursed through his veins as his fingers instinctively went to play with the rings that had been on his finger for 3 years of his life. But they weren’t there anymore. Instead, they were safely tucked away in a box under his bed, and Jack hadn’t dared to look at them since the divorce. He remembered the night he had to take them off. There was a tan mark, but it had now faded into nonexistence as the years had passed.

Jack and Davey getting married was a mistake. They were too young, only 19, and they were just getting a taste of adult life. Jack knew they both made mistakes they deeply regretted, but it was too late. Both of them were too caught up in their work. Jack with his art, and Davey with his writing. When they were 22, they split. The marriage had just become too much for both of them to handle as they both tried to find a stable career. At least the divorce wasn’t too messy. It was nowhere near the cleanest it could’ve been, and there had been a few big fights; but it wasn’t the worst it could’ve been. It was obvious neither wanted to let the other go, but it was for the greater good. Now, they were 27 and had settled out of each other’s life.

That night would be the first time Jack had talked to Davey in 4 years. After the divorce, he couldn’t bring himself to call because Davey didn’t seem to make an attempt to call him, locking them into a non-communicative stalemate. When Davey had called out of the blue and suggested dinner, Jack had to stop himself for accepting it a second after the words left his mouth. Why would Davey ask him to dinner so suddenly? Was he coming to this dinner to rub that fact that he was happy with a new husband and a few kids in Jack’s face? The thought made Jack have to wipe a few tears from his eyes. Maybe he was too late. Or maybe Davey was just coming to reconcile and that’s all.

Thoughts of every kind plagued him all the way to the restaurant sending his mind into a frenzy.

When he actually walked into the restaurant, though, only good memories filled his thoughts. It was always his and Davey’s favorite restaurant, they went for every one of their anniversaries. It was where they proposed to each other. He couldn’t help the smile that creeped onto his face. Maybe the better wording for his thoughts would be that he couldn’t help still being on love with Davey.

“Can I help you, sir?” the host asked as Jack walked up to the podium.

“Yeah, uh has anyone come for the reservation for Jacobs-Kelly?” Jack asked, making his heart beat faster. He hadn’t heard those two last names together in forever. After the divorce, both went back to their respective last names, but he put the reservations as that because that’s what name they always put their reservations in. Even before they were married. Would Davey remember? He wasn’t sure what to expect from Davey anymore. 5 years might not have seemed that long of a time, but it seemed to trudge one slowly for Jack.

The host looked down at his monitor and looked back up to say, “no, but your table is ready now.” Jack nodded and followed the host to a table near the back of the room. It was in one of the darker parts of the restaurant, but Jack knew Davey wouldn’t mind. He waited for a few minutes, looking down at his watch every thirty seconds. He made sure to be early. The thing was, he was 13 minutes early so looking down at his watch at least 26 times soon got tiring. He sighed, realizing the only thing he could do was wait patiently.

Slowly, the minutes counted down until it was finally 7:59. He knew Davey would be there right at 8:00 because that was what Davey did. He never failed to be right on the dot. Before he knew it, his ex-husband was walking towards the table. “Hi,” Davey breathed out, as if he had been holding his breath for the last 5 years.

“H-Hi.” All they could do was look at each other and noticed everything that had changed. Jack’s hair was a little shorter and more well kept. He wasn’t as muscular as he was in his teens because he had a job that took up most of his time where he would’ve been playing baseball with his friends or running through the streets to figure out what trouble they could stir up during his teen years. He was still in shape, just didn’t have as much muscles on his arms.

Davey, on the other hand, seemed like he hadn’t changed at all. His dark hair was still well kept, and it was obvious he still picked at his nails when he was anxious. He kept his hands under the table when he sat, but Jack could tell what he was doing by the way he was also chewing the corner of his lip. It was like Jack had gone back in time and was sitting across from his still-husband. If he could, maybe he’d stop them from ever having to have this meeting. “So, uh, how have you been?”

Davey only smiled, looking down at his lap, probably realizing Jack was just as nervous as he was. “I’m actually doing pretty good. I’ve gotten a stable job at a local middle school not far from here. The kids, surprisingly, don’t make me want to cry in a corner so it’s pretty nice,” he joked making Jack smile. He couldn’t help but think about how the strangers around him probably thought the two were a couple. One thing they hadn’t ever lost over the years was the sparkle in their eyes when they were looking at the other. “You?”

“I’m doing pretty good. Albert taught me how to use a computer, and I’m a free-lance graphic designer right now. I got some good commissions going on. It’s been working itself out pretty nicely,” Jack shrugged. He had never been the best with technology, a real citizen of yesterday as some people called it, and Davey knew that from the look of surprise on his face.

“Wow. That’s really cool. My boss, the principal, is working on this new program with the school board and they’re actually looking for someone to design the logo. I could recommend you if you’re not too busy with your other work,” Davey offered. It was obvious he never lost touch of his caring, concerned side. “I hear it could pay pretty well.”

“That would actually be pretty cool. Thanks Dave.” After that, the air between them was dead. What do you say to your ex-husband whom you still love?

“I’m, uh, just wondering, did you keep the ring?” Davey asked, picking at his nails like crazy. “Both of them?”

“Of course, I did. I’d never dream of selling them or anything. Did you?” Jack wasn’t going to lie, the thought of Davey selling the true sign of their love away for a few bucks hurt more than he thought it would’ve.

“No no no. I’d never. I’m sorry if I made you think that.” Jack just sighed, feeling his heart clench. They both needed to hear those words. He reached across the table and grabbed Davey’s fidgeting hands and held them. Something he always did when he could tell his husband was stressed. The feeling of his familiar. smooth hands made him relax. They both needed this badly.

“I’m sorry, Davey. About everything. Things were said that shouldn’t of been, and I miss you. I understand if you don’t want to start up a relationship like we had once before, but I still want you to be in my life, even as just a friend. We ended on not-so-great terms, and I don’t want this to be our end. So, what do you say?”

Davey had a dazed look on his face for a second and Jack wasn’t sure what to take from it. He had known his for practically 20 years, but not once had he ever seen Davey with that expression before. After Jack’s heart stopped, waiting for a response, he smiled and squeezed Jack’s hands. “I’m sorry about what I said as well,” he said with the most beautiful smile. Jack had never been so relieved to see his beautiful smile again. “But, if it’s okay with you, I think more than friends would suffice. So, what do you say, Jack Kelly?” 

Jack smiled as well, taking Jack’s other hand within his own so both of their hands were intertwined on top of the table. “I believe in second chances if you do, Dave.”

“I do.” 

[fluorescentpipedream]

I love when new characters talk to me, and especially when they involve established characters in what they’re telling me. So here’s a few new things

-Reverend is RJ’s son, with his brother’s wife. When RJ first came into my head, he established he was Rev’s uncle and his brother hated him because he’d fucked his wife, not once but twice. The first time was 2 days before their wedding and the second happened sometime in the middle of their marriage, before Rev was born.

Turns out there’s a bit more to that. RJ and Willow (There’s a reason all of the Jamison boys have weird names, mom was a hippie, though now she’s turned into more of a Stepford) has been dating throughout most of high school. Or...what you might call dating. RJ would take her out on his bike, they’d have sex and then get dinner somewhere before he’d take her home. He was very much in love with her but him going nowhere fast in life scared her because she wanted security more than love. RJ’s brother Darren somehow convinced her that his brother was never going to marry her, or give her a safe, secure life (he was in a gang, after all) and so she ended up running off with him. Pissed and hurt because his brother not only stole his girl but it seemed that his girl never actually loved him, RJ got her into bed with one more time, before they were married, and had his way with her. Afterward, he told her she’ll never get what she wants out of his brother, they both know she’s a trashy little whore and likes to be treated like it. She slapped him, married his brother and 2 years later had their first son, Dax. (I’ll have to figure out everyone’s ages, the way it’s looking RJ might be 50 instead of 42)

When Dax is 5, RJ was just getting out of jail and with nowhere to go, he fell onto his brother’s house in suburbia, seemingly trying to get his feet back on the ground. The Slayers have his back, of course, but he spent 7 years in jail for possession with intent to sell and was released due to overcrowding and the non-hostile nature of his crime made him less of a dangerous criminal. His brother spends several days berating RJ, continuously referring to him by Robert instead of his monicure, which he hates. When Darren leaves home for a business trip, he tells his brother he can stay for another week, then he’s got to leave. He can’t have “his type” in this neighborhood. Willow ends up crawling into bed with him the same night her husband leaves on his trip and the two spend most of that week doing nothing other than each other. Before Darren returns home, RJ tells Willow he’s leaving, she’s not going to get to keep him as a fuck toy unless she tells his brother the truth.

Afraid of losing her nice house and fancy car, she instead tells Darren that RJ raped her and threatened Dax. Darren confronts his brother and the two go at each other, ending with RJ pulling his switchblade on his brother and telling him that Willow is only with him for his money. Enraged and unable to think straight, RJ breaks into their house while the two are visiting the Hamptons and steals money that Darren has hidden, even from his wife, in Dax’s toy box. He ends up arrested, this time for trespassing but there’s no real proof he did anything. Dax had been home when it happened, never really allowed to go to the Hamptons or anywhere else with his parents and told the police that RJ only got him some water and spent the night on the floor of his room before leaving when the babysitter came back. His parents get in a little trouble because their sitter wasn’t staying all night though they claim not to know anything about that.He’d seen his uncle but refused to tattle on time, RJ never hurt him, didn’t even threaten him. (Who threatens a 5 year old?)

Willow seeks out RJ about 4 months later and says she’s pregnant with his kid and he needs to take “responsibility for his crimes against her” He tells her to get fucked, if she wants him to take care of it so bad, give him the kid. She never comes back, and 5 months later gives birth to Reverend. Her husband knows he’s RJ’s kid and they raise Rev with the same kind of hands-off, who cares as long as we’re rich, mentality that Dax had gotten up til then.

-When Rev gets into middle school he meets Zachary Sullivan, though because of a speech impediment he’s unable to say Zach, he starts calling his new friend Jax. Jax takes it, originally finding the younger boy annoying but eventually they become pretty fast friends. Especially since Jax is the “wrong sort” Willow and Darren want their son hanging around, that fuels a fire in both boys and they become inseparable. Jax learns about blood brothers from something he’s reading so he and Rev do that, cutting their hands and agreeing they will always be friends. Every attempt by Darren and Willow to separate the boys fail, and eventually Rev’s parents throw in the towel and give up altogether.

-when Jax is 19, he tries to go through the Slayers’ initiation, which culiminates in getting into a pit with the leader’s pet tiger, Zara. She’s generally well behaved but a bit battle scarred as she’s been doing this for some time. (RJ gave her the scar above her right eye when he went through it when she was still young) Rev never made it past the first round of tests, but he’s supporting Jax when he climbs into the tiger pit. Jax can’t stand the heat, though bows out gracefully as you can when faced with a massive tiger growling at you. He’s told to leave, but at least gained the respect of the Slayers.

-Jax joins a small gang of petty car thieves, and Rev does as well and over time, Jax becomes their leader, pushing the original guy down below him. Damien is pissed but Jax doesn’t stay in that position all that long. He gets involved with a man named John but is rather unceremoniously thrown into a dumpster when John’s friend Ryki, who is also a member of Jax’s gang, finds out what kind of abusive boyfriend he is.

-Rev, having just been arrested while the Jax, John and Ryki thing is happening, is bailed out by his father who is utterly disgusted by the boy with scattered tattoos, and blue streaks in his hair (which John did). While driving Rev home and angrily venting about how this behavior is going to stop, Darren pops off with how he shouldn’t be surprised, Rev is turning out just like his good for nothing father. Confused, Rev asks what he means and finds out Darren’s side of the truth, which his mother repeats, almost word for word. Angry and confused, he asks Dax, who is packing to leave home as well, not wanting to deal with this train wreck of a family anymore. Especially since their parents now have Falco, their baby brother and model to dote on and use. Dax tells him that no matter what mom and dad say, uncle RJ has never been anything but kind to him. He tells Rev that he remembers their mom going into the room RJ was staying in willingly, a lot, and only getting mad when he told her he was leaving. He also tells Rev that RJ would probably have been a better father. Dax leaves that night and never looks back, moving to Las Vegas.

-Rev originally wanted to get RJ to help him but after meeting an angry Jax after Ryki “threw him away” and his crazy mother kicked him out after finding out her son is gay, the two decide to just leave California and never look back. Rev steals about $700 from his mother’s purse, and get into Jax’s POS car. Wherever it stops, they stop. They wind up in southern Illinois, moving into a small apartment complex in Belleville together. Jax isn’t gay, he’s bi, but very homophobic even towards himself. Rev meets Drake and Jax starts dating Kristy and the rest is history.

-Skip to 2006, RJ gets a call from his sister in law out of the blue telling him that his son, Reverend, has just married a psychopath in southern IL and they now have some kind of demon spawn together, before hanging up. RJ is, admittedly, a little confused by the entire conversation and thinks nothing of it until the uprising in the Slayers following the death of their leader and Queenie’s promotion to their new leader. Some understand and follow the “family don’t end in blood” rule (meaning if you’ve been brought into the Slayers and completed the initiation through the blood rite, you become family and the selection of leaders is passed on through the lines, even if that means a 3 year old kid is now your boss) Others, like the Vikings and a handful of others tried challenging the rule, causing dissent and ultimately infighting leads to RJ getting shot, twice. The first time was from Rollo when he tried to shoot Queenie. Rollo pays for that mistake by taking a barbed wire baseball bat to the face, courtesy of RJ and dies of a broken neck. The second time is by Lisa “Lagratha” his ex-lover whom he broke up with after he starting pursuing his current girlfriend and the mother of his child. While he’s on the ground and with a bullet in his hip he realizes he has a kid he’s never known, is about to be a father again and has a grandchild and he wants to have something resrmbling a relationship with them. Even if Rev tells him to fuck off, at least he would have tried.

-RJ volunteers to go to IL and speak with the gang leaders in Chicago and the Scorpions of East St Louis, figuring he’ll stop in to see Rev and the so-called psychopath while he’s there. After being met at the border of Chicago and threatened by the Marcone crime family, he heads down to Belleville to find Reverend. What he finds is pretty close to what he’d been expecting. While Drake is a little odd, her and Rev are sweet together and the boy found genuine love with her. The two talk outside for a while, RJ tells Rev he’s about to be a father himself and would like more than anything to be part of his life and that of his granddaughter’s as well if Rev would have him. Rev doesn’t put much thought into it, telling him that he and his family are going to be moving back to LA in a few months after they settle some things here, since he got offered an internship at Henson Studios and they’re going to be closer, he’d love to have Sunny know an actual grandpa, as opposed to his now estranged parents.

-RJ tells Rev by agreeing to spend time with him, he, Drake and Sunny are coming under the protection of the Slayers and if they need anything they have a very large family watching out for them. Through Rev, he also gets to meet with the East St Louis Scorpions and strikes a deal with their leader wherein one (or more if they want)of their guys gain access to the Slayers in LA and have a permanent place in their meetings and vice versa.

-RJ has two vehicles (3 if you count the silver bullet trailer he lives in), one is a ‘96 Trans AM he’s been rebuilding for a while. This is what he drives to Illinois.

The second is his motorcycle, a Harley Davidson sportster with custom exhaust. This is what he was riding when he meet Jamie.

((Side note, Ragnar and his Vikings don’t end up leaving LA completely, as he gets involved with a good little Catholic boy, and tries to convince Ireena that he didn’t know Rollo and Floki were going to start an all out uprising with them and he, Lagretha and some younger ones would like to return to the Slayers, since no one else will have them)))

(((One other side note, RJ wears a small vial of blood around his neck hidden inside of a hollowed out bullet casing. He said it’s the leaders’ and his best friend’s blood, which he keeps close to his heart at all times. He notices that Rev wears one too and when he asks why, rev tells him it’s just a bullet from he and Jax were younger and struck up their blood brother pact. They had found the bullets along a back road and Rev emptied and cleaned them, filling them with sand and turning them into pendants that both the boys still wear. RJ makes a crack about Rev winding up like him after all when Rev tells him the relationship he and Jax have is thicker than blood. )))

[grandmasterofwangxiancultivation]

MDZS ch.103

so as you can see i’m almost fully back on tumblr screaming my heart out, i can’t believe i managed to hold on this long??????? i missed you all and my sons so much?????? thank god i didn’t go on with mdzs, i left with jiang cheng crying and that was AlReDy ToO FreAkInG MuCh for my heart so-

*takes a deep breath again*

Sect Leader Jiang’s words were eternally tainted with mockery. But this time, whom he mocked was no one but himself.

Suddenly, he said, “I’m sorry.”

Wei WuXian hesitated, “… You don’t need to say sorry.”

how

is it

that i already feel like crying. jc said sorry. okay but can i hug him? moreover, can i hug wwx? LET ME IN, MDZS, LET ME IN

EDIT:

It wasn’t something he liked to reminisce about. He didn’t want to be reminded again and again of what it felt like when his core was cut out or what price he had to pay. If this were exposed in the past, he’d most likely laugh and comfort Jiang Cheng, ‘It’s not that big of a deal anyways. Look at me all these years. Without the core, I still managed to come through, didn’t I? Beating everyone I wanted to beat, killing everyone I wanted to kill.’ But now, he indeed didn’t have the strength left to put up such a confident, nonchalant pretense.

From the bottom of his heart, he knew he wasn’t so indifferent about it after all.

*chokes*

oh dear god... so, this chapter apparently really wants to kill as by starting out with all those things we already knew deep down, like how hard of a decision it was for wwx to give up his golden core, how he can’t pretend that it’d didn’t hurt anymore, both physically and emotionally -we all know how proud of his skills wwx was, and he gave up everything for jc. how much, at the same, he owns to the jiangs for the life he was able to conduct. it pains me to imagine how conflicted he must have felt with himself.

we all knew this, but it’s all in plain sight now, for everyone to read.

and it freaking hurts, it hurts so much and wwx is hurting too and i can’t absolutely stand it.

EDIT 2:

Take it as repayment, or take it as redemption. Take it as he’d never received the golden core to begin with.

After explaining things to himself like this again and again, it was as though he was truly as confident and as nonchalant as he made it seem like on the surface, and along the way he could even praise himself for such a state of mind, whether he was lying or not.

But that was in his past life.

(wwx’s soul is so good and full of light it makes me feel like reading his thoughts is astonishing but incredibly dangerous like walking on water. 

but that last line also tells me that he is growing out of the pain he suffered and caused, which shows maturity, which feels like real redemption to me. I WANT MY SON HAPPY-)

He clenched Lan WangJi’s hand, saying to Jiang Cheng, “Right now, I do really think… it’s all in the past. It’s been too long. There’s no need to struggle with it any longer.”

(LOOK AT MY SON DRAWING STRENGTH FROM HIS HUSBAND)

EDIT 3:

At this point, still enveloped in Lan XiChen’s robe, Nie HuaiSang gradually woke up. Moaning lightly, he managed to crawl up, still bleary-eyed, “Where am I?”

hello sleeping beauty! how is it that nhs is always where he should be, poor boy

EDIT 4: nhs waking up to wwx and lwj snuggled against each other and feeling like he is gonna faint again is me

EDIT 5:

At the same time, a series of strange sounds came from behind the Guanyin Temple, as though something was being spurt out. A moment later, the cultivators who’d been digging began to wail too.

okay, PLOT. i keep forgetting that. WHAT’S GOING ON

WHAT SCENT

oh no, sushi is alive

oh yes!! seems like jgy isn’t feeling sO gOoD-

EDIT 6:

Lan XiChen hesitated for a moment before asking, “What happened?”

Jin GuangYao paused in surprise. Blood finally seemed to have rose to his cheeks as he managed a smile, “An accident.”

uuuugh maybe i feel a little bad for him, like, why do you have to be so bad, jgy-

EDIT 7:

The pungent smell dissipated gradually. Wei WuXian and Lan WangJi got up as well. A tall mountain of dirt could be seen beside a deep ditch. Quite a delicate coffin lay at one side, atop it a pitch-black box. Both of the two had been opened already, and thin, white smoke continued to rise from within.

wait. wait, so, i am confused, what the hell. why the coffin? what’s that black box? white smoke?? like the white thingy making living people a little less living?? so jgy is going around opening coffins for what? the white pouder?

*yi city arc, triggered*

EDIT 8: nope, okay, it actually looks poisonous enough, it killed so many people!! what the hell is going on uuuuugh

EDIT 9: oh, no, okay, he wanted that coffin, expected someone was in there probably. (well, of course he did, ptf, it’s a coffin)

but oh? no corpse!

Lan XiChen approached. After he saw the horror that had become of the palace, he was shocked, “What in the world did you bury here? How could this be??” 

(thank you, xichen, for giving voice to our inner questions!!)

His expression was terrifying indeed, sending chills down Nie HuaiSang’s spine. He didn’t even dare vomit too loudly, covering his mouth behind Lan XiChen’s back, shivering whether out of fear or the cold. Lan XiChen turned around and said a few words of comfort to him, while Jin GuangYao didn’t even have the strength to upkeep his kind, gentle front.

(is it me, or seeing jgy angry is actually comforting? like, he is always so calm and smirky, chilling in the background while the world collapses following his schemes, so him being like this, angry and no longer able to keep up his facade... hello, human jgy!

also, nhs!! OMG BABY, he took it bad, tho i would probably throw up too)

EDIT 10: okay people, let’s all sit back and admire wwx being more clever than everyone else alive.

EDIT 11:

Jin GuangYao’s eyes slowly moved towards him.

Wei WuXian, “The one who told Qin Su the good things you did was Madam Qin’s previous maid, BiCao. But when BiCao suddenly decided to expose everything, did you really believe nobody was pushing things forward from behind? And Maiden SiSi, the one you locked up. Who saved her? Who was the one that told her to go to the YunmengJiang Sect with BiCao and expose your secrets in front of everyone? If they could find out every single one of those hidden secrets of yours, Sect Leader Jin, what’s so hard about coming here beforehand and switching what you wanted to dig up with poisonous smoke to give you when you came?”

oh, wow. wow. okay, so someone effectively was behind it, someone different from jgy, sushi and their peers, i think i guessed right, tho i thought it was lxc pulling the strings secretely. but since he was a prisoner... uhm. it’s gonna be someone unbelievable but totally fitting.

WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY EXCITING OMG

was i right with lxc? or is it maybe someone from the jin sect who wished to wash his/her hands of what jgy is doing? or uhm.......... nhs? uh. because i’m thinking the coffin could have been the one where nmj’s corpse before everything happened...?

EDIT 12:

Wei WuXian grinned, “Sect Leader Jin, have you ever thought that perhaps tonight you’re a mantis, yet there’s an oriole* behind you? The one who’s been watching you might be hiding in the dark this exact moment, observing your every move. No, maybe, it’s not a person…”

The storm muffled the thunder. As he heard the words ‘not a person’, for a split second, something that could be described as fear flashed across Jin GuangYao’s face.

I AM FREAKING SHIVERING WHAT THE HELL WHEN DID THIS BECOME A HORROR STORY!!! can it really be a strange entity trying to get revenge or something? OMG EXPLAIN

uuuuuh that fAcE jgy! THAT’S WHAT YOU DESERVE, T R E M B L E

EDIT 13:

Wei WuXian thought, To other people, Su She’s quite sarcastic, and to Lan Zhan, he’s even more resentful. But he’s sure quite respectful towards Jin GuangYao.

As he thought this, he couldn’t help glancing at Lan WangJi, just in time to see a streak of ice flash before his eyes.

Voice cold, Lan WangJi spoke to Su She, “Turn around.”

Su She was looking down, applying medicine to the scratch marks at his chest, facing them sideways. As he heard Lan WangJi’s almost inviolable command, he involuntarily turned around. As he turned around, both Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling widened their eyes. The grin on Wei WuXian’s face disappeared as well.

He almost couldn’t believe it, “… It’s you!”

GUYS W H A T

WHO IS HE WHAT’S THE MATTER WITH THEM ISN’T THAT SUSHI tho it’s true, he is rude with everyone, wth wTH-

WHO IS THIS

WHAT ARE THEY TALKING ABOUT? GOOOOOOOOOOOD I WANNA KNOW!!!

[queenmarytudor]

Elizabeth in Mary’s reign

There’s a wide assumption that the two Tudor sisters hated each other. It’s well known Elizabeth was imprisoned in the Tower during Mary’s reign... and that’s about it for their whereabouts and relationship until the former becomes Queen in 1558. I was curious to see how much time the two sisters actually spent together during Mary’s 5 year rule; here’s what I discovered.

1553

On the 3rd of August, a triumphant Mary rode into London. By this time her sister Elizabeth and her household had joined her, though how many days the pair had been reunited is unknown.

Elizabeth had sent a letter to Mary c.22nd of July to “congratulate her on her accession, and to beg her to let her know in what dress she desires to see her when she goes to salute her: whether her garb shall be mourning or not.”

It is clear she had arrived at least a day before the 3rd, as the Spanish ambassador Simon Renard notes  “Her estate has been increased since the Queen's accession.”

On the 19th October Renard writes “Elizabeth is soon leaving Court, as she told me herself last Tuesday.”.

On the 28th, it is confirmed “The Lady Elizabeth has left Court.”, but despite officially leaving the court, Elizabeth still appears to be frequently around Mary.

She is recorded on the 4th of November as being in “the house in town that the Queen gave her (Somerset Place); [and] not gone into the country as I [Renard] had been told”.    

It seems that while Elizabeth wasn’t living at court at the time, she spent most of her time there; almost a month later on the 3rd of December, Renard writes that “The Queen told me that Elizabeth had asked leave to depart for her house next Wednesday.”

In the same dispatch he mentions of an incidence on the 30th of November involving Elizabeth on the way to Mass, indicating Elizabeth was virtually a courtier but living in her own, separate household nearby at Somerset Place. As mentioned earlier her household/estate was increased upon Mary becoming Queen (likely to emphasise her new position as heir) so this makes logical sense to avoid overcrowding.

By the 8th of December, Elizabeth had left for Ashridge, “a place thirty miles away on the road to Scotland. She very courteously took leave of the Queen, who also dissembled well and gave her sister a rich coif of sable.”

1554

In the beginning of 1554 Wyatt’s rebellion broke out with serious consequences for Elizabeth. Suspected to be working with the rebels, the relationship between the two sisters soured and Mary immediately summoned Elizabeth back to court.

The first mention of Elizabeth returning is on the 23rd of February. She is recorded as being “dressed all in white and followed by a great company of the Queen's people and her own."

Despite ordering Elizabeth to come, “the Queen would not see her and had her lodged in a part of her house out of which neither she nor any of her suite can pass without crossing the guard.”

The situation quickly became worse for Elizabeth. In March it was decided she would be moved to the Tower of London, and 2 months later, on the 20th of May, “the Lady Elizabeth was taken out of the Tower and conducted to Richmond. Thence she has been conveyed to Woodstock, there to be kept.”

Elizabeth would be kept on virtual house arrest for the remainder of the year.

1555

While Elizabeth remained at Woodstock, Mary married Philip II of Spain and believed herself to be pregnant. As the suspected due date for the new heir to England approached, around the 25th of April “it was decided to bring Elizabeth here to Court in a few days, before the Queen's confinement takes place”.

By the 6th of May Elizabeth was at court. She had arrived “very privately, accompanied by three or four of her women, and as many more [male] servants, but was neither met nor received by any one, and was placed in the apartment of the Duke of Alva, where she lives in retirement, not having been seen by any one save once or twice by their Majesties, by private stairs.”

On the 25th, James Basset wrote to Edward Courtenay that “My Lady Elizabeth is at her full liberty, yet she remaineth still at the court. She hath seen the Queen's highness twice.”

At the beginning of August, Mary retired to Oatlands Palace, and “leave was given to “Miladi” Elizabeth to withdraw with all her attendants to a house distant three miles from her Majesty's; and on the Queen's expected return to Hampton Court in eight or ten days, it is supposed that said “Miladi” will not come back again, but either remain where she is, or go to another of her palaces, as she is completely free.”

On the 27th, Mary and Philip went to Greenwich “where the Queen will remain during the whole time of the King's stay beyond sea.”

Mary and Elizabeth’s relationship, severely damaged from the last year and a half, seems to improve over this summer. Perhaps Mary wanted comfort after her false pregnancy and Philip’s departure, and genuinely missed her little sister. Perhaps she was once again showing England that for now Elizabeth remained her heir. Whatever the reason, the two sisters were now enjoying a close, if not entirely comfortable, relationship again.

Though not stated at the time, we know Elizabeth stayed with Mary for the next 2 months.

On the 21st of October, Mary opened Parliament after “coming from St. James', whither she retired on her return from Greenwich. The Lady Elizabeth, who resided permanently with the Queen at Greenwich, has had permission to proceed to a house of her own 17 miles hence.”

1556

The first half of 1556 was dominated by the Dudley conspiracy, where suspicion was once again cast on Elizabeth. Though not meeting physically, the sisters sent letters to each other. In June:

“the Queen was induced to send to her [Elizabeth] in the country [at Hatfield] yesterday, Sir Edward Hastings, Master of the Horse, and Sir H. Englefield, one of the Lords of the Royal Council, to console and comfort her on behalf of her Majesty, knowing, as may well be supposed, that this circumstance had distressed and dejected her; and to present her, as a token of loving salutation, and of a message of good will, according to the custom here, with a ring worth 400 ducats [...] using in short loving and gracious expressions, to show her that she is neither neglected nor hated, but loved and esteemed by her Majesty.”

The sisters reunited in person later in the year; on the 23rd of November it is reported that “The Lady Elizabeth is expected here in four days from the country, nor is it yet known whether she will lodge in the palace with the most Serene Queen, or in her own house [Somerset Place], with her attendants”.

On the 1st of December, the Venetian ambassador Giovanni Michiel writes that

“Three days ago Miladi Elizabeth arrived from the country, 15 miles off, with a handsome retinue, having with her, including lords and gentlemen, upwards of 200 horsemen clad in her own livery, and dismounted at her own house [Somerset Place], where she has remained ever since, to the infinite pleasure of this entire population, though she was not met by any of the lords or gentlemen of the court, but many visited her subsequently. Three days afterwards she went to the Queen, and according to report was received very graciously and familiarly. [...] It cannot yet be ascertained whether she came for any other purpose than that of visiting the Queen, she having with great earnestness solicited to come, and not having been called.”

A week later on the 7th, he is disappointed that “The Lady Elizabeth departed so suddenly that I had not time to pay her my visit, which will be reserved for another occasion.”

It is unknown whether Elizabeth had planned to have such a short visit, or left after an argument with Mary, though it is worth noting that the French King heard:

“that the Queen sent for the Lady Elizabeth to the Court, and proposed to her to marry her to the Duke of Savoy, to which she replied that the afflictions suffered by her were such that they had not only ridded her of any wish for a husband, but that they had induced her to desire nothing but death, and then by a flood of tears she brought them also to the eyes of the Queen, who seeing that she still persisted in this opinion of not choosing to marry, dismissed her from the Court, and purposed assembling Parliament to have her declared illegitimate and consequently incapable of succeeding to the Crown.”

Though this report contradicts Michiel’s account of Elizabeth being the one to initiate a visit, it is well known Philip urged Mary to marry Elizabeth to the Duke.

Whatever the reason, the sisters were in each others company for around a week before separating once more.

1557

At the time of writing this post I’ve found no evidence that Elizabeth visited Mary throughout 1557. On the 13th of May the Venetian ambassador Michiel wrote his infamous report about the two sisters, stating:

“It cannot be denied that she [Queen Mary] displays in many ways the scorn and ill will she bears her [Elizabeth]; the Queen, whenever she sees her, fancying herself in the presence of the affronts and ignominious treatment to which she was subjected on account of her mother, from whom in great part the divorce from Queen Katherine originated.

[...]

Having no suitable cause to proceed against her she dissembles her hatred and anger as much as she can, and endeavours when they are together in public to receive her with every sort of graciousness and honour, nor does she ever converse with her about any but agreeable subjects.”

1558

Henry Machyn writes in his diary that “The xxv [25th] of February came riding to London my lady Elizabeth the queens sister with a great company of lords and noble men and women, to her place called Somerset Place.”

Elizabeth stayed for around a week, with Machyn later writing “the 3rd day of March a’for-non my lady Elizabeth’s grace took her horses and rode to her place at [?] With many lords, knights and ladies, and gentlewoman, with a goodly company of horses.”

This is the last recorded meeting of Mary and Elizabeth seeing each other in person. Though I have yet to find a source detailing a visit to court during this time, it is easy to assume that like previous occasions Elizabeth visited Mary whilst staying at Somerset Place.  

The sisters continued to correspond through letters throughout the year until Mary’s death, and in the last days of Mary’s life the two sisters seemed to have finally made peace with each other.

“She [Mary] was moved to send two gentlemen to that lady [Elizabeth], to let her know that, as it had pleased the Lord God to end her days, she was content that she as her sister should become Queen, and prayed her to maintain the kingdom and the Catholic religion, in words replete with much affection; to which she [Elizabeth] sent a most gracious reply by two of her attendants, who visited the Queen in her name, condoling with her on her malady.”

[basicsofislam]

THE COMPANIONS OF THE PROPHET (PBUH) : Jabir bin Abdullah (r.a.)

The preparations for the Battle of Uhud increased day by day. On the one hand, the Muslims were completing the preparations for the provisions under the supervision of the Prophet (pbuh); on the other hand, they exercised fighting with the sword and throwing arrows. In the meantime, the young and brave Muslims who could use a sword applied to the Prophet (pbuh) and asked for permission to join the battle.

A young man who was suffering from the agony and sadness of not being able to participate in the Battle of Badr also applied to the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) to participate in the battle. The Messenger of Allah (pbuh) told him he could join the war if he went and got permission from his father. This young man, who went to his father in a slightly sad and excited way, was Jabir bin Abdullah, who paid allegiance to the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) in the Second Pledge of Aqaba with his father at a young age.

Hz. Jabir's father, Abdullah bin Amr, answered his son's request as follows:

"My dear child! If there were anyone else to look after and protect your seven sisters, I would like to see you being martyred in front of my eyes at Uhud." [ Musnad, 3: 395. ]

Jabir’s father could not see his son as a martyr at Uhud, but he was martyred in the same battle by fighting heroically.

After his father's death, Jabir, who took over the leadership of the family, became a Muslim at a young age and was praised by the Prophet (pbuh) several times due to his distinguished qualities. The Messenger of Allah often visited him in his house and ate dinner with him.

Jabir inherited a lot of debt from his father. The creditors were Jews and they constantly asked their money from Jabir. Abdullah bin Amr left only a small amount of money; Jabir had a small date palm orchard; it was impossible for the income from this orchard to pay for the debt of his father in several years.

Jabir, who was in a very difficult situation, went to the Prophet with the hope of finding a solution. He said,

"O Messenger of Allah! My father was martyred at Uhud. He left a large amount of debt. The creditors constantly ask the money from me. Help me so that some of the debt is postponed to next year."

The Prophet accepted Jabir's offer. The next day, Jabir began preparations. The Messenger of Allah was going to visit his house. He said to his wife, "The Messenger of Allah is going to come to us; do not disturb him!"

The next morning the Prophet went to Jabir's house. Jabir slaughtered a sheep. The Prophet, Hz. Abu Bakar and some Companions were at Jabir's house. Later, the Prophet told Jabir to call the creditors. When Jabir’s wife saw the Prophet, she said from behind the curtain, "O Messenger of Allah! Pray to Allah for me and my husband." The Prophet said, "May Allah forgive you and your husband!"

What happened after that is described as follows in the book called "Mektûbat":

“Jabir offered the creditors all his father’s possessions but they did not accept them. The fruit produced by his orchard over many years would have been insufficient to defray the debt. The Noble Messenger (pbuh) said: “Pick and gather in all the fruit in the orchard!” They did so; then the Noble Messenger (pbuh) walked around the crop and prayed. Then Jabir gave from the amount corresponding to his father’s debt. What was left was as much as the annual produce of the orchard. And according to another narration, it was equal to the amount he gave the creditors. The Jews were amazed and astounded at this.”[ Mektûbat, p. 108; Musnad, 3: 373. ]

Hz. When Jabir heard later that his wife asked the Prophet to pray for them, he said to her, "Did I not tell you not to disturb the Prophet?" His wife said, "How can it be possible for me not ask the Prophet to pray for us when he comes to our house? We got rid of our debt thanks to the help of the Messenger of Allah."

Jabir, who always felt the sorrow of not being able to fight in the Battle of Badr and Uhud, took part in all of the battles after the death of his father; he participated in 19 battles together with the Messenger of Allah (pbuh).

After his father was killed at Uhud, Hz. Jabir married a widow. When the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) was informed about this marriage, he asked Jabir, "Did you marry a virgin or a widow?" Jabir said,

"O Messenger of Allah! You know that I have seven sisters. I wanted to marry an experienced woman who would take care of them, comb their hair, nourish and raise them. Therefore, I chose a widow."

The Prophet liked this behavior of Jabir, who could have married any girl she wanted with his handsomeness and heroism. He said, "O Jabir! You did the right thing." [ Bukhari, 2: 580. ] Suhayma bint Mas'ud, whom Jabir married, served Islam a lot afterwards. [ Musnad, 3: 334. ]

Hz. Jabir, who was one of the notables of Ansar, lived about two kilometers away from Madinah but participated in all daily prayers led by the Prophet in the mosque. The tribe of Sons of Salama, to which Jabir belonged, wanted to settle in an empty place near Masjid an-Nabawi but when the Messenger of Allah heard this, he said, "O Sons of Salama! Do not leave your homeland so that your thawabs will be abundant.” [ Muslim, Masajid: 281. ]

During the Battle of Khandaq, the Muslims experienced the most troubled days. On the one hand, the Muslims were digging trenches and on the other hand, they faced the danger of starvation. The incident reported by Jabir is a clear example of the hardships and sufferings of the Muslims in this battle.

The Companions who were busy with digging trenches came across with a piece of rock but they could not move it. The Messenger of Allah told them to sprinkle some water on the rock; then, he took the sledgehammer and hit the rock with it three times; the rock broke into pieces. Hz. Jabir says, "When the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) was breaking the rock, I noticed that he had tied a stone on his stomach to suppress his hunger." [ Musnad, 3: 303 ]

On one of those days of distress and suffering, there was some barley and a kid in Jabir's house. He talked to his wife and decided to treat them to the Messenger of Allah and a few Companions with him. Besides, they did not have enough food for more Companions. Jabir went to the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) and said, "I have some food. I invite you and a few people to my house." The Messenger of Allah said, "All right. Tell your wife not to take the food from the stove and not to remove the bread from the oven before I come."

After a while, Hz. Jabir left the place of Khandaq and returned home. Meanwhile, the Prophet put his two hands around his mouth and shouted so that all Ansar and Muhajirs would hear: "O people of Khandaq! Jabir has prepared a meal for us and invited us. Let us go."

Hundreds of Companions who were trying to suppress their hunger by the stones they had tied on their stomachs proceeded to Jabir's house. The Companions filled Jabir’s house and the area near his house in groups. In the meantime, Hz. Jabir looked at the food that was cooked and the number of the people that came to his house and did not know what to do due to his astonishment. He could not help saying, "Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi rajiun."

Then, the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) arrived and ordered them to put the food in the middle. He started to distribute it to the people. He took some bread, put some cooked meat on it, and handed it over to each of the Companions who were in line.  Although hundreds of Companions filled their stomachs, the meal, which had been prepared only for a few people, did not run out. After everybody ate, the Messenger of Allah also ate some. And there was still some bread and meat left. Hz. Jabir said,

“About a thousand men ate from that barley, which was about one sa’ (about three kilos) and the meat of the kid. Then, they left. There was still some meat in the saucepan and bread in the oven. For, the Messenger of Allah prayed for that bread and meat with his blessed mouth.“ [ Musnad, 3: 337; Mektûbat, p. 103. ]

Jabir, who received such compliments from the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) several times, learned knowledge from the Messenger of Allah first, and from Hz. Abu Bakr, Hz. Umar, Hz. Ali, Abu Ubayda and Talha after him. He conveyed what he learned to others and taught them very generously; along with more than 500 hadiths that he narrated, he trained many valuable students who became scholars such as Imam Baqir, Muhammad bin Munkadir, Said bin Mina and Asim bin Umar bin Qatada.

He had a long lifespan. He acted very compassionately and mercifully toward all Muslims. He supported Hz. Ali related to the conflict between Hz. Ali and Muawiya but he did not support anybody in the conflicts that occurred after that. When conflicts between the Muslims were mentioned, he would report the following hadith:

"People entered into the religion of Allah in communities. They will come out again in communities in the future. "[ Musnad, 3: 343. ]

Toward the end of his life, he became very sad and got very weak due to the persecutions and inflictions by the governors of Hajjaj. He died at the age of 94 in 74 H. Thousands of Muslims including Hajjaj participated in his janazah prayer. May God Almighty not deprive us of the intercession Hz. Jabir, who caused the Muslims to come together both when he was alive and when he died!

[ajw720]

Okay so bare with me, this is probably going to be a long multi part ask hope that is okay. I am the anon that talked about the "Pump Up the Jams" scene in acs and the more I think about it the more I am sure that is absolutely what he was referencing. If that is the case than it is pretty insulting. If my husband used that relationship to describe how much he loved me I'd be very concerned. (Part 1)

Now I originally thought he was using it as a metaphor for removing her from his life, but now I am wondering if it was more literal. She is the one that pumps up the music is his life just like Andrew did to David. I think this was his very subtle way of telling the world that she is forcing him into situations that he feels extremely uncomfortable with just like Andrew did to David. Part 2

In that interview he said he thought about what he would say for a long time, and I think he did. He had to figure out the exact right way to say something that sounded sweet but was actually a statement of his true feeling about the whole thing. He also winked when talking about adding a romantic flourish to his speech. I think that wink was to someone in on the joke so to speak. Thoughts? (part 3 end)

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Hi Anon, I love the way you think.  I agree, I think D spent TIME thinking about what he could say about M in front of millions of people that would sound loving and sweet to the GA but that he knew had a meaning that only a very few would comprehend..  This is similar to my theory about the XO to M in the h/edwig playbill (I think it was kiss off) and also the naming of E/lsie which I absolutely think is a reference to her “renting by the hour” not in the literal sense, but because she is willing to sell her soul and spend YEARS of her life bearding for someone, not to further her own career, but to derive fans solely though the hard work of another person that she is legally attached to through a contract.

There is speculation that he may have gotten the words from one of 2 songs, but neither is an exact fit. One is H/anson “Penny and Me” and the other is Reckless by Ala/bama.  But if he were going to steal lyrics from a song, would he need use the exact quote?  Further, this is a person who claims to have HUNDREDS of songs that he has written that are unpublished. I have read and listened to the love songs he has released and they are full of absolutely beautiful words and tributes to the person that is in fact the love of his life. 

Would we not think that if he was going to stand on stage and pay “tribute” to his “fiancee” instead of paraphrasing lyrics from potentially one of 2 songs (the hans/on one in particular makes me chuckle as rumor had it D had a crush on one of the members when he was younger), would he not “praise” her with something he wrote himself?  He had 2 months between the nomination and em/my night to think of 2 sentences that he could stand on stage and say about that woman, I would think he would have come up with something original.

But instead he paraphrased not 1 but 2 existing songs and he made a blatant reference to a scene in the tv show that he starred in (and that one him that em/my) that involved 2 men, one of whom has virtually kidnapped the other against his will, had unrequited love for, and that he eventually murders.

Do I think D is talking?  Yes, like you I do believe he is making a parallel. To be clear, NO ONE Is suggesting that anyone is as deviant as A/ndrew.  Parallel’s can be made on a more subtle basis. But M is HOLDING D captive in many ways, by forcing him into an encage against his will and furthering this fiasco well, well beyond its expiration point.  This year has been a disaster for D, he has been forced to lie exponentially more than ever before, she has tried to overshadow every single one of his accomplishments, and he was forced to take her and pay tribute to her on a night that should have been 100% about him and his plus one’s role should solely have been to support him and not post about how the GREATEST MOMENT of her LIFE was him KISSING her in front of millions of people.  (would think to date it would be the proposal but as that didn’t happen, it can’t be the best moment of her shallow life).

In conclusion, I absolutely agree with you and the more i think about it, the less subtle i think he was and the more direct the statement to any person paying attention and knowing his truth.

Here’s hoping that we do not need to have a repeat on GG night, D deserves to shine solo on that night, as he should of on Monday.

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Tuesday 10 November 1835

7 ¼

11 ½

no kiss ready in 50 minutes damp morning F48°  at 8 5 and sat over it talking to A- till 9 - came upstairs for ¼ hour and at accounts - then left A- to go to Cliff hill and I went out into the farmyard and about in the fields till 11 50 when George told me A- would stay at Cliff hill tonight and John said he had brought 2 letters from her from H-x (1 from Huddersfield Miss Atkinsons and 1 from Mr Barber Leeds) - opened the latter  - wrote A- a kind note a ½ sheet full containing copy of what I advised her writing and sending back by George to post to Mr Barber in brief answer to his rigmarole of 3 pages and ends - thank him for his letter would have made no objection to paying his expense had he come - but glad he did not come - glad he was saved the useless trouble of the journey ‘as  I am satisfied you are not at all the sort of person I am in want of for my intended school - I had no expectation that anyone of your superior education and attainments would have answered my advertisement; and I can only hope that you will soon meet with a situation much more likely to suit you than a village school like mine -  I am sir, your obedient servant’ - went out again at 12 40 - saw the men at work again at 1 ½ and came in - a little light shower sent me in - fair in less than ½ hour - dressed    at my desk at 2 - I think more and more A- and I will never go on together forever I felt this strongly on Sunday at church even last night just before getting into bed she was in one of her out of sorts humours I knew not what for unless that I asked for the plan I got done of the old church some time ago she has a queer temper and as she gradually begins to have a will of her own her queerness her requiring much attention her emptiness as a companion strike me more and more her leaving me shall be her own doing but I hope I shall be ready when the time shall come and not fret myself to death about it till 2 ¼ wrote the above of today - from 2 ¼ to 4 ½ wrote 2 ½ sheets full nice enough kind chitchat letter to Lady Stuart - had Charles H- up - no deals good enough at Hainsworth’s - Charles told the foreman they loose not worth 6 ¾ per ft.- saw Hainsworth himself who that was mistake - were 6 ¼ per ft.- told Charles I would not have bad wood - to see if Greenwood had any good deals - if not, to take Mark Hepworth and his wood waggon and go to Harrison at Leeds on Thursday - then went down to Mr Husband for a minute or 2 - he brought me the bill for Adney bridge labour £39+ - including these interruptions from 4 ½ to 6 ¾ wrote and sent 3 pages of ½ sheet and under the seal to Lady Stuart de R- and enclosed my letter to her ‘The Lady Lady Stuart de Rothesay’ and my letter to ‘the honourable Lady Stuart’ under cover to the ‘Lord Stuart de Rothesay Highcliffe Christchurch Hants’ - and sent also A-‘s letter to Mr Barber 7 Alfred Place Leeds - dinner at  6 50 - coffee - went to my father and Marian about 8 and staid reading the paper (latterly alone) till 9 - letter tonight from Mr Johnson ‘107 Regent street London’ dated yesterday the 2 first containing a copy of a letter to Mr Johnson from a Mr Davey who Mr Johnson thinks very likely to suit us for the Lightcliffe school - the account Mr Davey gives of himself what is said of him by Mr Johnson is very promising - he about 38 or 40 married but has no children except an adopted niece of his wife’s - seems a very clever sort of man - I am taken with the description - How A- may feel upon it is another matter - seems to be assez fort is mathematics and all we want - was instructed in the Central National school about 13 years ago -  Began my letter to Lady Stuart with ‘A letter from Vere a few days ago inquires if I am yet alive - I think I should scarcely know that I am, were I not roused by the incidental remark ‘aunt Stuart never mentions you so I suppose you are equally communicative to her’ - I see that I seem to forget even those whom I most constantly and affectionately remember - this is too much - I meant merely to wait till you would be about arriving at Highcliffe - Perhaps you have already been there a fortnight or 3 weeks - the happiness of all around you, the fine sea-breezes, the place you like best next to your own pretty Lodge, must surely have done you good, and this satisfies me - for I am not so unreasonable as to fancy you have had many thoughts to spare for me - But do not quite forget me - the very shadow of a fear of being absolutely forgotten would only add to the melancholy of my tied down here’ - should be delighted to join the  Xmas party at Bradfield house but I cannot leave home -.....’I sometimes half regret (tho’ I have never owned ½ so much to anyone before) that I have entered into so many and serious concerns - yet, if all was to come over again, perhaps I should not better know how to keep aloof - I am, in point of property, so close upon the heels of my busiest neighbours, there is always something they want me to do, or undo - I long to be en voyage again..... you do not know how much I regit  [regret] that  I have seen so little of you during this my 2 years stay in England’ - the schoolmaster-seeking failed in London but hope all will now be settled by Xmas -  ‘not so easy as I fancied it, to find good solid information combined with good conduct and good sound [?] as to church and state - political! the mind of the people is sadly warped - it is more and more evident and I know not what to make of it - the registration has not gained us much if anything - I cannot understand the injudiciousness of those of Mr James Wortley’s friends who declined his offer to pay the whole or part (I cannot possibly learn which) of the expense of his last election - those very friends were probably neither the wealthiest of his supporters, not those how would again come forward in the same way with the most real cheerfulness - the people call out for a man of money - the town is said to say it cannot support such expense again - whether H-x is to be a corporation town or not, seems to hang upon the calculation of expenses - I suppose parliament is to be petitioned next session for the din of steam carriages to pass within 3 or 4 miles of us - whenever I dare think of travelling, it is, to try the railroad at Leipzig, and be steamed down the Danube - but I have not forgotten Copenhagen and the north’ .... ‘Do not quite forget me and believe me, dearest Lady Stuart very affectionately yours AL’ to Lady S- de R- ‘my dearest Lady Stuart it was very good indeed of you to write to me so soon and from dear Charlotte I really did not expect one syllable - she had excuse quite enough - I rejoice with all my heart at all your happiness - Poor dear Louisa! I daresay she behaves beautifully - but surely her reward is at hand - I regret (tho’ I am ashamed of being so selfish) that Mr Canning gave her a watch - I conclude Lady Stuart is with you, and, I hope very much the better for all the

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happiness around her, and for the fine sea-breezes of Highcliffe - Time slips away from me most extraordinary, tho’ it is not exactly an absolute freedom from anxiety that makes my days and hours seem so short - I had no idea of its being so long since I had heard from and written to anybody till a letter from Vere, the other day, roused me up, and put me in sad fear, that, seeming to forget, I should really be forgotten - may this evil, at least, be far from me! - I am very busy, far too busy - I see my building and other concerns gradually enlarge themselves beyond my 1st intentions - but I have still time for thought of other things - Surely the cholera will not always  rage in Italy - and, if some of or Pyrenees party may meet again en voyage, may it be in Italy!’ anxious about Lady S- to know how she bears so much journeying - ‘but I know from experience, that the real is often much greater than the apparent amount of bodily strength - a love of change of place sometimes clings to us to the last - my aunt told me the other night, she could very well bear to return to Paris! yet her state of dropsical feebleness and suffering seems extreme..... my love to Charlotte and Louisa - you know I have always been one of Lord Stuart’s admires, that hommages from him are particularly valued, and I hope you will tell him so with my best regards - Believe me always my dear Lady Stuart, very truly yours A Lister’ - 20 minutes with my aunt till 10 0 - just before and afterwards till 10 40 wrote the last 15 lines of the last page but one, the whole of the last page and so far of this - damp but tolerably good working morning till 12 then a little light rain - rain between 1 and 2 for ½ hour and heavy show at 3 - afterwards damp but tolerably good working afternoon - F50° now at 10 ¾ pm in my study - (fire in the stove)

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Saturday: Preparation for the Twenty-eighth Sunday in Ordinary Time

This week's blog post is here. It has a review of The Message Bible translation, the fate of the rich in God's kingdom, background on Lazarus, information on Job's friends, and more.

Complementary Hebrew Scripture from the Minor Prophets: Amos 3:13-4:5

Hear, and testify against the house of Jacob,  says the Lord God, the God of hosts: On the day I punish Israel for its transgressions,  I will punish the altars of Bethel, and the horns of the altar shall be cut off  and fall to the ground. I will tear down the winter house as well as the summer house;  and the houses of ivory shall perish, and the great houses shall come to an end,    says the Lord.

Hear this word, you cows of Bashan  who are on Mount Samaria, who oppress the poor, who crush the needy,  who say to their husbands, “Bring something to drink!” The Lord God has sworn by his holiness:  The time is surely coming upon you, when they shall take you away with hooks,  even the last of you with fishhooks. Through breaches in the wall you shall leave,  each one straight ahead;  and you shall be flung out into Harmon,    says the Lord.

Come to Bethel—and transgress;  to Gilgal—and multiply transgression; bring your sacrifices every morning,  your tithes every three days; bring a thank-offering of leavened bread,  and proclaim freewill offerings, publish them;  for so you love to do, O people of Israel!    says the Lord God.

Semi-continuous Hebrew Scripture from the Writings: Job 20

Then Zophar the Naamathite answered: “Pay attention! My thoughts urge me to answer,  because of the agitation within me. I hear censure that insults me,  and a spirit beyond my understanding answers me. Do you not know this from of old,  ever since mortals were placed on earth, that the exulting of the wicked is short,  and the joy of the godless is but for a moment? Even though they mount up high as the heavens,  and their head reaches to the clouds, they will perish forever like their own dung;  those who have seen them will say, ‘Where are they?’ They will fly away like a dream, and not be found;  they will be chased away like a vision of the night. The eye that saw them will see them no more,  nor will their place behold them any longer. Their children will seek the favor of the poor,  and their hands will give back their wealth. Their bodies, once full of youth,  will lie down in the dust with them.

“Though wickedness is sweet in their mouth,  though they hide it under their tongues, though they are loath to let it go,  and hold it in their mouths, yet their food is turned in their stomachs;  it is the venom of asps within them. They swallow down riches and vomit them up again;  God casts them out of their bellies. They will suck the poison of asps;  the tongue of a viper will kill them. They will not look on the rivers,  the streams flowing with honey and curds. They will give back the fruit of their toil,  and will not swallow it down; from the profit of their trading  they will get no enjoyment. For they have crushed and abandoned the poor,  they have seized a house that they did not build.

“They knew no quiet in their bellies;  in their greed they let nothing escape. There was nothing left after they had eaten;  therefore their prosperity will not endure. In full sufficiency they will be in distress;  all the force of misery will come upon them. To fill their belly to the full  God will send his fierce anger into them,  and rain it upon them as their food. They will flee from an iron weapon;  a bronze arrow will strike them through. It is drawn forth and comes out of their body,  and the glittering point comes out of their gall;  terrors come upon them. Utter darkness is laid up for their treasures;  a fire fanned by no one will devour them;  what is left in their tent will be consumed. The heavens will reveal their iniquity,  and the earth will rise up against them. The possessions of their house will be carried away,  dragged off in the day of God's wrath. This is the portion of the wicked from God,  the heritage decreed for them by God.”

Complementary Psalm 90:12-17

So teach us to count our days  that we may gain a wise heart.

Turn, O Lord! How long?  Have compassion on your servants! Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love,  so that we may rejoice and be glad all our days. Make us glad as many days as you have afflicted us,  and as many years as we have seen evil. Let your work be manifest to your servants,  and your glorious power to their children. Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us,  and prosper for us the work of our hands—  O prosper the work of our hands!

Semi-continuous Psalm 22:1-15

My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?¹ Why are you so far from helping me,  from the words of my groaning? O my God, I cry by day,  but you do not answer;  and by night, but find no rest. Yet you are holy,  enthroned on the praises of Israel. In you our ancestors trusted;  they trusted, and you delivered them. To you they cried, and were saved;  in you they trusted, and were not put to shame.

But I am a worm, and not human;  scorned by others,  and despised by the people. All who see me mock at me;  they make mouths at me, they shake their heads; “Commit your cause to the Lord; let him deliver—  let him rescue the one in whom he delights!”²

Yet it was you who took me from the womb;  you kept me safe on my mother's breast. On you I was cast from my birth,  and since my mother bore me you have been my God. Do not be far from me,  for trouble is near  and there is no one to help.

Many bulls encircle me,  strong bulls of Bashan surround me; they open wide their mouths at me,  like a ravening and roaring lion.

I am poured out like water,  and all my bones are out of joint; my heart is like wax;  it is melted within my breast; my mouth is dried up like a potsherd,  and my tongue sticks to my jaws;  you lay me in the dust of death.

¹Jesus, on the cross as he is dying, says these words, as recorded in Matthew 27:45-56 and Mark 15:33-41 ²This passage, starting with “All those who see me mock me” is reflected in accounts of the crucifixion in Luke 23:35-36 and Matthew 27:39-44.

New Testament Gospel Lesson: Matthew 15:1-9¹

Then Pharisees and scribes came to Jesus from Jerusalem and said, “Why do your disciples break the tradition of the elders? For they do not wash their hands before they eat.” He answered them, “And why do you break the commandment of God for the sake of your tradition? For God said, ‘Honor your father and your mother,’² and, ‘Whoever speaks evil of father or mother must surely die.’³ But you say that whoever tells father or mother, ‘Whatever support you might have had from me is given to God,’ then that person need not honor the father. So, for the sake of your tradition, you make void the word of God. You hypocrites! Isaiah prophesied rightly about you when he said:

‘This people honors me with their lips,  but their hearts are far from me; in vain do they worship me,  teaching human precepts as doctrines.’”*

¹There is a parallel passage at Mark 7:1-23. ²Exodus 20:12 and Deuteronomy 5:16   ³Exodus 21:17 and Leviticus 20:9    *Isaiah 29:13

Year B Ordinary 28 Saturday

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THE BOOK OF TOBIAS Or Tobit* - From The Douay-Rheims Bible - Latin Vulgate

Chapter 10

INTRODUCTION.

This Book takes its name from the holy man Tobias, whose wonderful virtues are herein recorded. It contains most excellent documents of great piety, extraordinary patience, and of perfect resignation to the will of God. His humble prayer was heard, and the angel Raphael was sent to relieve him: he is thankful, and praises the Lord, calling on the children of Israel to do the same. Having lived to the age of one hundred and two years, he exhorts his son and grandsons to piety, foretells the destruction of Ninive, and the rebuilding of Jerusalem: he dies happily. Ch. --- The Jews themselves have a great regard for the book of Tobias; (Grot. Sixtus Senens. viii.) which Origen (ad Afric.) says they "read in Hebrew," meaning probably the Chaldee, (C.) out of which language S. Jerom translated it, preferring to displease the Pharisaical Jews, rather than not to satisfy the desires of the holy bishops Chromatius and Heliodorus. Ep. t. iii. W. --- The Greek version seems to have been taken from another copy, or it has been executed with greater liberty by the Hellenist Jews, between the times of the Sept. and of Theodotion. C. --- Huet and Prideaux esteem it more original; and Houbigant has translated it in his Bible, as the Council of Trent only spoke of the Latin editions then extant; and S. Jerom followed in his version the Hebrew one of a Jew, as he did not understand the Chaldee. H. --- The Syriac and the modern Hebrew edition of Fagius, agree mostly with the Greek, as that of Munster and another Heb. copy of Huet, and the Arabic version, both unpublished, are more conformable to the Vulgate. The most ancient Latin version used before S. Jerom, was taken from the Greek; and the Fathers who lived in those ages, speak of it when they call the book of Tobias canonical. S. Aug. leaves it, however, to adopt S. Jerom's version, in his Mirrour. The copies of all these versions vary greatly, (C.) though the substance of the history is still the same; and in all we discover the virtues of a good parent, of a dutiful son, and virtuous husband, beautifully described. H. --- "The servant of God, holy Tobias, is given to us after the law for an example, that we might know how to practise what we read; and that if temptations assail us, we may not depart from the fear of God, nor expect help from any other." S. Aug. q. 119. ex utroque Test. --- The four first chapters exhibit the holy life of old Tobias, and the eight following, the journey and affairs of his son, directed by Raphael. In the two last chapters they praise God, and the elder Tobias foretells the better state of the commonwealth. W. --- It is probable that both left records, from which this work has been compiled, with a few additional observations. It was written during (C.) or after the captivity of Babylon. E. --- The Jews had then little communication with each other, in different kingdoms. Tobias was not allowed to go into Media, under Sennacherib; and it is probable that the captives at Babylon would be under similar restrictions; so that we do not need to wonder that they were unacquainted with this history of a private family, the records of which seem to have been kept at Ecbatana. The original Chaldee is entirely lost, so that it is impossible to ascertain whether the Greek or the Vulg. be more conformable to it. The chronology of the latter seems however more accurate, as the elder Tobias foretold the destruction of Ninive, twenty-three years before the event, which his son just beheld verified, dying in the 18th year of king Josias. The accounts which appear to sectaries to be fabulous, may easily be explained. Houbigant. --- Josephus and Philo omit this history. C.

* One of the seven Deutero-Canonical books, missing from most non-Catholic Bibles.

The additional Notes in this Edition of the New Testament will be marked with the letter A. Such as are taken from various Interpreters and Commentators, will be marked as in the Old Testament. B. Bristow, C. Calmet, Ch. Challoner, D. Du Hamel, E. Estius, J. Jansenius, M. Menochius, Po. Polus, P. Pastorini, T. Tirinus, V. Bible de Vence, W. Worthington, Wi. Witham. — The names of other authors, who may be occasionally consulted, will be given at full length.

Verses are in English and Latin. HAYDOCK CATHOLIC BIBLE COMMENTARY

This Catholic commentary on the Old Testament, following the Douay-Rheims Bible text, was originally compiled by Catholic priest and biblical scholar Rev. George Leo Haydock (1774-1849). This transcription is based on Haydock's notes as they appear in the 1859 edition of Haydock's Catholic Family Bible and Commentary printed by Edward Dunigan and Brother, New York, New York.

TRANSCRIBER'S NOTES

Changes made to the original text for this transcription include the following:

Greek letters. The original text sometimes includes Greek expressions spelled out in Greek letters. In this transcription, those expressions have been transliterated from Greek letters to English letters, put in italics, and underlined. The following substitution scheme has been used: A for Alpha; B for Beta; G for Gamma; D for Delta; E for Epsilon; Z for Zeta; E for Eta; Th for Theta; I for Iota; K for Kappa; L for Lamda; M for Mu; N for Nu; X for Xi; O for Omicron; P for Pi; R for Rho; S for Sigma; T for Tau; U for Upsilon; Ph for Phi; Ch for Chi; Ps for Psi; O for Omega. For example, where the name, Jesus, is spelled out in the original text in Greek letters, Iota-eta-sigma-omicron-upsilon-sigma, it is transliterated in this transcription as, Iesous. Greek diacritical marks have not been represented in this transcription.

Footnotes. The original text indicates footnotes with special characters, including the astrisk (*) and printers' marks, such as the dagger mark, the double dagger mark, the section mark, the parallels mark, and the paragraph mark. In this transcription all these special characters have been replaced by numbers in square brackets, such as [1], [2], [3], etc.

Accent marks. The original text contains some English letters represented with accent marks. In this transcription, those letters have been rendered in this transcription without their accent marks.

Other special characters.

Solid horizontal lines of various lengths that appear in the original text have been represented as a series of consecutive hyphens of approximately the same length, such as ---.

Ligatures, single characters containing two letters united, in the original text in some Latin expressions have been represented in this transcription as separate letters. The ligature formed by uniting A and E is represented as Ae, that of a and e as ae, that of O and E as Oe, and that of o and e as oe.

Monetary sums in the original text represented with a preceding British pound sterling symbol (a stylized L, transected by a short horizontal line) are represented in this transcription with a following pound symbol, l.

The half symbol (1/2) and three-quarters symbol (3/4) in the original text have been represented in this transcription with their decimal equivalent, (.5) and (.75) respectively.

Unreadable text. Places where the transcriber's copy of the original text is unreadable have been indicated in this transcription by an empty set of square brackets, [].

Chapter 10

The parents lament the long absence of their son Tobias. He sets out to return.

[1] But as Tobias made longer stay upon occasion of the marriage, Tobias his father was solicitous, saying: Why thinkest thou doth my son tarry, or why is he detained there?

Cum vero moras faceret Tobias, causa nuptiarum, sollicitus erat pater ejus Tobias, dicens : Putas quare moratur filius meus, aut quare detentus est ibi?

[2] Is Gabelus dead, thinkest thou, and no man will pay him the money?

Putasne Gabelus mortuus est, et nemo reddet illi pecuniam?

[3] And he began to be exceeding sad, both he and Anna his wife with him: and they began both to weep together: because their son did not return to them on the day appointed.

Coepit autem contristari nimis ipse et Anna uxor ejus cum eo : et coeperunt ambo simul flere : eo quod die statuto minime reverteretur filius eorum ad eos.

[4] But his mother wept and was quite disconsolate, and said: Woe, woe is me, my son; why did we send thee to go to a strange country, the light of our eyes, the staff of our old age, the comfort of our life, the hope of our posterity?

Flebat igitur mater ejus irremediabilibus lacrimis, atque dicebat : Heu, heu me, fili mi! ut quid te misimus peregrinari, lumen oculorum nostrorum, baculum senectutis nostrae, solatium vitae nostrae, spem posteritatis nostrae?

[5] We having all things together in thee alone, ought not to have let thee go from us.

omnia simul in te uno habentes, te non debuimus dimittere a nobis.

[6] And Tobias said to her: Hold thy peace, and be not troubled, our son is safe: that man with whom we sent him is very trusty.

Cui dicebat Tobias : Tace, et noli turbari : sanus est filius noster : satis fidelis est vir ille, cum quo misimus eum.

[7] But she could by no means be comforted, but daily running out looked round about, and went into all the ways by which there seemed any hope he might return, that she might if possible see him coming afar off.

Illa autem nullo modo consolari poterat, sed quotidie exiliens circumspiciebat, et circuibat vias omnes, per quas spes remeandi videbatur, ut procul videret eum, si fieri posset, venientem.

[8] But Raguel said to his son in law: Stay here, and I will send a messenger to Tobias thy father, that thou art in health.

At vero Raguel dicebat ad generum suum : Mane hic, et ego mittam nuntium salutis de te ad Tobiam patrem tuum.

[9] And Tobias said to him: I know that my father and mother now count the days, and their spirit is grievously afflicted within them.

Cui Tobias ait : Ego novi quia pater meus et mater mea modo dies computant, et cruciatur spiritus eorum in ipsis.

[10] And when Raguel had pressed Tobias with many words, and he by no means would hearken to him, he delivered Sara unto him, and half of all his substance in menservants, and womenservants, in cattle, in camels, and in kine, and in much money, and sent him away safe and joyful from him.

Cumque verbis multis rogaret Raguel Tobiam, et ille eum nulla ratione vellet audire, tradidit ei Saram, et dimidiam partem omnis substantiae suae in pueris, in puellis, in pecudibus, in camelis, et in vaccis, et in pecunia multa : et salvum atque gaudentem dimisit eum a se,

[11] Saying: The holy angel of the Lord be with you in your journey, and bring you through safe, and that you may find all things well about your parents, and my eyes see your children before I die.

dicens : Angelus Domini sanctus sit in itinere vestro, perducatque vos incolumes, et inveniatis omnia recte circa parentes vestros, et videant oculi mei filios vestros priusquam moriar.

[12] And the parents taking their daughter kissed her, and let her go:

Et apprehendentes parentes filiam suam, osculati sunt eam : et dimiserunt ire,

[13] Admonishing her to honour her father and mother in law, to love her husband, to take care of the family, to govern the house, and to behave herself irreprehensibly.

monentes eam honorare soceros, diligere maritum, regere familiam, gubernare domum, et seipsam irreprehensibilem exhibere.

Commentary:

Ver. 1. But. Gr. "And Tobit, his father, counted each day; and as the days of the journey were ended, and they did not come, Tobit said, Is he not put to shame?" (H.) and refused payment? C. --- Old Vulg. and Prot. "detained."

Ver. 3. He. Gr. "He was much troubled. But his wife said to him, the boy is come to an untimely end, since he tarries; and she began to mourn for him, and said, I am not, or am I not full of solicitude, my son, that I have let thee go, the light of my eyes and Tobit ?", v. 6. Without this interrogation, (H.) the Gr. seems to be corrupt; (C.) and wV, "how," or oi, "woe," should be put instead of ou, "not." Drus. Grot. &c. "Now I care for nothing, my son, since I have let thee go, the light," &c. Prot.

Ver. 6. That. Gr. "and she said to him, Be silent, deceive me not. My son is lost: and she went out daily into the road without, by which they departed. In the day time she eat no bread, and the night she spent in bewailing her son, Tobias, till the 14 days of the wedding were finished, which Raguel had adjured him to tarry there. And," v. 9. H. --- Thus the converted Jews lament that Christ should so long abandon their nation, while some hope like Tobias, and others are in more suspense, like his wife. V. Bede. --- So Catholics, in countries fallen into heresy, are in great distress for their brethren; (Rom. ix.) While some more confidently hope that God will enlighten our nation again, as sight was restored to old Tobias. W.

Ver. 8. Raguel. Gr. "Tobias," as v. 9, which is transposed.

Ver. 9. Days. It would require 42, (T.) or 38, (Torniel) or 34 days, (Salien. M.) to perform what is here recorded. H. --- But it would be difficult to ascertain the precise time. To go from Ninive to Ecbatana would occupy eight or ten days. C. ---If, therefore, the parents of Tobias expected that he would return in about 20 days, they might well wonder at the 14 days’ delay occasioned by the marriage. The distance might prevent him from giving notice of this event. Gr. "Dismiss me, because my, &c....no longer hope to see me again. But his father-in-law replied, Stop with me," &c. v. 8. H.

Ver. 10. When. Gr. "And Tobias said, No; but dismiss me to my father and mother. Then Raguel rising up, gave him Sarra, his wife, and half his goods, bodies, beasts, and silver." This expression, bodies, (H). or men generally denotes slaves; but it may also be put for others, (C.) who were in the train of Sara. Grot. --- Safe. Gr. "with blessing, saying, May God prosper you, children, the God of heaven, before I die; and he said to his daughter, Honour thy father and mother-in-law, they are now thy parents. May I hear a good report of thee, and he kissed her; and Edna said to Tobias, dear brother, May the Lord of heaven re-establish thee and grant me to behold thy children by my daughter, Sarra, that I may rejoice before the Lord; and behold, I place my daughter with thee as a deposit, and thou must not grieve her. Afterwards she departed, and Toby also blessing God, and he made his journey prosperous and blessed. Raguel, and Edna, and his wife." H. --- The Jews still adopt many customs similar to those which we here behold, as this is a most excellent description of a holy marriage. Serarius. C. - Some also prevail in the Christian Church, though marriage is now become more holy, and a sacrament. Cat. Rom. q. 22. - The proper intent of the contract, and many rites accompanying it, may be seen in the preceding chapters. W.

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“Me and dead owls don’t give a hoot”: Justified Season 3, Episodes 2-4

We’re back at it, as the major conflicts of Justified’s third season begin to take shape. My recap of Episode One, “The Gunfighter”, is here; the previous season’s notes are tagged with ‘#justified season 2′, and the general tag for related business is ‘#did you miss my heart on purpose’.

Episode Two: “Cut Ties”

-In the aftermath of the encounter with Fletcher Nix, Raylan wakes up in the house Winona shared with Gary, only to have his morning routine disrupted by an ill-timed visit from the new realtor.

-Raylan goes to visit Boyd in jail, and the two of them muse on their unconventional relationships-- Raylan’s contemplating moving in with his pregnant ex-wife, and Boyd is, as he describes it, sleeping with “his dead brother’s widow and murderess”. Raylan also drops a hint that he knows why Boyd was so keen to get himself locked up this time around.

-Marshal Service Case of the Week: Art Mullen gets a visit from his old pal Bill Nichols, who works in Witness Protection. Nichols gets cornered outside a diner and shot in the leg. Following up on his disappearance is Agent Karen Goodall (Carla Gugino) up from Miami, and it’s implied that she and Raylan have a shared past. As the two of them track down a possible lead, Art sends Rachel to the home of one of Nichols’ witnesses--a woman with two small children-- with orders to watch and wait. Art tracks down the man who shot Nichols and, after interrogating him, establishes the link: he sold the addresses of Nichols’ other witnesses to a mob boss named Little Joe DeLaHunt (the man Raylan and Agent Goodall are tracking). Raylan, Goodall, and Art show up to help Rachel, who has managed to fend off two attackers and keep the witness and her children safe.

-Meanwhile Boyd, acting on a reluctant tip from Dewey Crowe, engineers another fight to get himself placed in solitary confinement, where his new neighbor just happens to be Dickie Bennett. Boyd sneaks into Dickie’s cell and holds him at knifepoint, demanding the location of Mags’ money. Dickie informs him it’s with a man named Ellstin Limehouse. Next morning, Boyd is released into Ava’s arms, and explains that getting the money will be trickier than they anticipated.

-In the final scene, we meet the mysterious Mr. Limehouse (Mykelti Williamson)-- aside from Rachel, he and his assistants, Errol (Demetrius Grosse) and Bernard (Cleavon McLendon) are the first major Black characters we’ve seen on the show. While carefully carving up a pig, Limehouse lectures Bernard for falling asleep on watch duty, and offers a choice: Bernard can submit to having his hand burned with lye, to settle the affair, or he can promise not to screw up again, knowing, if he does, the consequences will be dire. Bernard takes “Door #2.” As the camera pulls away, it lingers on Errol’s hand, which is marked with a heavy burn scar.

Episode Three: “Harlan Roulette”

-Ava makes a nocturnal visit to Limehouse’s BBQ shack-- clearly, they know each other well. She brings him to meet with Boyd, who is decidedly out of his comfort zone. Boyd offers to dispatch Dickie Bennett, but Limehouse doesn’t bite, and instead, slyly hints at Boyd’s “weed problem”. Boyd takes a swing at Devil for not burning the marijuana as ordered.

-Trooper Tom Bergen calls Raylan down-- they’ve caught scent of Wade Messer. They’re looking at him for a series of armed robberies, possibly connected to OxyContin trafficking, and Raylan expresses surprise that the generally benign Messer would be caught up in such business. Messer escapes the roadblock, but his buddy JT is caught and arrested.

-We catch up with Dewey Crowe and Dickie Bennett, bro-ing out in the prison yard. Corrupt guard Ash Murphy, who assisted Boyd in the previous episode, bends Dickie’s ear about the Bennett money. Jeremy Davies, as Dickie, gives possibly my favorite line-delivery in whole series when he tells Murphy to “h-h-hold your horses.”

-Messer and JT show up to apologize to their dealer, pawn-shop owner Glenn Fogle. Fogle makes JT play a few rounds of ��Harlan Roulette” in punishment. “Maybe it’s just your lucky day, son,” Fogle says, as JT escapes round after round. “Maybe not,” Fogle intones, after shooting him.

-Errol arrives at the Givens home to offload the ruined weed stash, and Boyd directs Devil to help. Arlo puts a flea in Boyd’s ear about their discontent. Inside, Boyd pulls Devil, Arlo, and Ava in for a meeting and lays out his plans for the new Crowder empire. “We will not work with outsiders,” he declares.

-Off to Lexington, where Robert Quarles is describing his plans to take over the Oxy racket to Wynn Duffy. Quarles takes a phone call, and Duffy asks for the restroom. He takes a wrong turn, and discovers a seemingly naked man, gagged and bound on a bed. Quarles cheerfully redirects him- “Other side, buddy,” and Duffy turns away, visibly creeped out.

-Raylan visits Glenn Fogle, on Messer’s trail. Fogle makes a panicked call to Wynn Duffy, and Quarles, listening in, suggests that Fogle arrange for Wade Messer to kill Raylan.

-Step one of Boyd’s agenda: re-taking control of Johnny’s bar. Johnny, who has been conspicuously absent up to this point, unveils some new recruits to the crew: young punk Jimmy (Jesse Luken), about whom Johnny affectionately says, “We never know what he’ll do, so that’s a problem,” and the menacing, longhaired Rip.

-A very glum Wade Messer, having summoned Raylan to his house under the pretext of surrender, finds Raylan already waiting on the front porch. It turns out that Raylan went inside and found the gun Messer was supposed to shoot him with. Messer lures Glenn Fogle to the scene, and a standoff ensues, with Fogle and his henchman each offering Raylan information before unwittingly shooting each other.

-Boyd drinks with Devil, who reminisces about the glory days of Crowder’s Commandos, to Boyd’s obvious discomfort. Finally, Devil comes to the point-- which Boyd Crowder is he being asked to follow? Boyd responds that he’s the same as he’s always been, which, while probably true, isn’t the answer Devil thinks it is.

-Raylan, acting on a tip from Fogle, pays Wynn Duffy an impromptu visit, just as Robert Quarles is showing off his new wrist-gun rig. Raylan roughs Duffy up a little, and then, in an escalation of his previous threat, drops a bullet on Duffy’s chest. “Next one’s comin’ faster,” he growls, to Quarles’ obvious amusement.

Episode Four: “The Devil You Know”

-Devil meets with none other than Robert Quarles, at the recommendation of his friend Tanner Dodd. Quarles claims to sympathize with Devil’s plight (as told to him by Dodd), and suggests Devil join forces with him. Devil isn’t an idiot, repugnant politics aside-- he knows an opportunity when he sees one.

-Speaking of joining forces, Dewey Crowe jumps in to defend Dickie Bennett during a ruckus in the prison yard, and Murphy, who planned to help Dickie escape, expresses profound irritation. The infirmary nurse Lance (Clayne Crawford), on the other hand, seems to think Dewey might be useful.

-So, there’s a thing in dog training called the “blanket test”, used to measure problem-solving skills. You put a towel or blanket over the dog’s head (gently), and most competent pups will be able to extricate themselves in less than 30 seconds. As Murphy goes to let the two miscreants out of the van, Dewey Crowe falls out, and begins flopping around in a panic, still inside the body bag, failing the blanket test in spectacular fashion.

-Raylan goes to visit Loretta McCready, to ask if she might have any ideas about Mags’ missing money. She gives him a hard time, but clearly, both of them enjoy the interaction, and she mentions Limehouse.

-Next, Raylan and Rachel go to visit Limehouse, and Raylan explains the history of Noble’s Holler-- founded by emancipated slaves, and kept in self-willed isolation ever since. When Raylan mentions his surname, Limehouse pretends not to recognize it. He reluctantly agrees to let the marshals set up a roadblock, watching for Dickie Bennett. Dickie and Murphy see the police lights and head back to a motel, where Dickie makes new arrangements with Limehouse.

-Raylan heads to Johnny’s bar, trying to sniff out Boyd’s angle on Noble’s Holler. More history is revealed: Limehouse has offered sanctuary to white women looking to escape abusive husbands, including Raylan’s mother Frances. Raylan witnessed Arlo receive a beating at Limehouse’s hands when he attempted to get Frances back. Raylan then pulls Boyd aside, alerting him that Dewey and Dickie are out and looking for Mags’ money.

-Back at the motel, Murphy, Lance, and Dickie squabble-- Limehouse is supposed to call Dickie when the money has been delivered, and hours have passed with no word. Murphy goes out for fried chicken.

-At the bar, Johnny finds Devil lurking in the back office, and asks what’s on his mind. Devil says he’s through with Boyd Crowder, and he knows how to get in some “deep pockets”. Johnny drily says, “Start talking, Devil.”

-Raylan tracks down Murphy, tray of chicken in hand, and literally runs him down, as Dickie and the others escape from the hotel room. Murphy details the plan, and makes a remark about things potentially getting “weird”. Dewey tries to run away at a gas station, and Lance takes him, while Dickie and the others head to the store.

-Rachel stops Errol’s truck, which he claims is full of pig manure, and makes it clear she has every intention of searching it before she’ll let him through the roadblock. He turns back around, and a dismayed Raylan realizes that he was probably carrying the money. “Goddamn if I don’t have to save Dickie Bennett,” he mutters, driving off.

-Sure enough, Dickie is about to meet some unpleasant fate at the hands of the two men from the motel when Errol and Limehouse arrive at the store. Dickie opens a cooler, only to find that there’s significantly less money in it than expected. He angrily hands it back to Limehouse, saying their business isn’t finished until the whole $3 million is recovered. Raylan shows up, and Dickie surrenders.

-Devil makes his play-- with Johnny at his side, he corners Boyd for a “come-to-Jesus” meeting. Boyd sighs with regret, calling him “son”, and seeming to surrender. He asks for one last word, and Devil nods. “Knowing me the way that you do,” Boyd says softly, “What ever led you to believe you could pull this off?” Johnny raises his pistol to Devil’s head, and Boyd shoots him in the chest. He’s clearly furious, but there’s also grief in his voice-- no doubt Devil reminds him of his younger, angrier self. The episode ends with Boyd firing directly into Devil’s forehead, to ease his passing.