#hira

[gallusneve]

tevinter women are taking over my life

[bl-bracket]

Most Whipped Semifinals: Kurosawa (Cherry Magic) vs Hira (Utsukushii Kare)

[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]

Kurosawa: This man is out here reciting poems in his head about how much he loves Adachi LMAO

Hira: -always goes to support kiyoi at work -has a merch hoard of kiyoi in his wardrobe -does what kiyoi wants

He literally decided to pursue his dream not because it was his dream but because his boyfriend wanted him to. He will do everything and anything for Kiyoi. He's Kiyoi's biggest fan and left because he thought he wasn't wanted but as soon as he found out he was allowed to stay nothing else (including himself) was as importanf as Kiyoi to him. Kiyoi says jump and not only is Hira attempting to mind-read how high, he is also trying to jump higher than that.

[vegasthehedgehog]

Kiyoi

There is something about the way Kiyoi has always been independent, aggressive, and often following the "I don't need anyone" archetype . This shows that he doesn't know what healthy relationships look like or why they matter. He never had anyone he felt he could rely on. He did not even want his friends to know what his dream was or that he took the idol thing seriously. He did not have anyone he thought would be his support if he failed and most likely assumed he would lose the artificial friendships that he did have if he showed his real self to them. His whole demeaner screams lonely, hurt, and scared.

Kiyoi has always been so sure that nobody is around him for any reason other than to use him. He does not think anyone takes him seriously. He doesn't trust that anyone could ever be sincere. That is why when Hira comes into the picture, he doesn't trust him. He seems to see it as a way to go from being used to using someone. He never truly accepted that Hira truly just wanted to be around him because of him. This is most likely why they parted ways like they did.

This has been on my mind because of the development we see later on. It becomes even more clear that Kiyoi does not want to be aggressive or the one to make the choice. He has always wanted someone to prove they take him seriously, that they want him, that they love him unconditionally.

We see Kiyoi struggle to open up and communicate and how hard it is for him. We see his tendency to flee when he is scared or hurt. We see there communication suffer because of misunderstandings. But most of all we see them fight for each other even well fighting against each other.

This leads me into the bathtub scene. Kiyoi is no longer this mean aggressive man that we once saw but instead someone who is quietly asking Hira to give him more physical attention. This is a big deal because we start out with him physically throwing Hira to the ground but now we are here.

I am leaving so so so so much out but this show really took over my brain and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. Its been a while since I watched it and these scenes still live rent free in my head.

[bw2gold]

I'm hoping they'll make an appearance in DragonAge4.

[yakazakalb]

“Kimseden daha iyi olmadığınızı anlayacak kadar mütevazı, herkesten farklı olduğunuzu kavrayacak kadar bilge olun.”

İbn Rüşd

[archie-sunshine]

magma doodles for today

(feat. @ultravioletsodapop 's hira, @maxicaiman's aerin, @welcometothesewers's baph, and @icypolargirl78's glitch

[fallenumbra]

𝘚𝘰 𝘯𝘢𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘐 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯

[lelianasbong]

the way Rezaren says "I'm not a violent man" then proceeds to Force-choke a woman and slam her against a wall

the very specific way he refers to Hira as "the woman you so irrationally desire" when it's clear Miriam wants less than nothing to do with him

the way he threatens to make Miriam watch as he kills her girlfriend because, um. Hira has the gall to be more important in Miriam's life than him??

[burntchickennugget2468]

happy new year aru shah moots!

check ao3 :)

[kamibakura]

[nterini]

In Defense of Hira - A textbook case of C-PTSD caused by Childhood Abuse and Neglect

In a lot of the shows that I watch, especially with teens or young adults relating to trauma, or any genre really, there’s always a playful question on my mind: where are their parents? However, at this point in show, it’s becoming so much more apparent that the lack of support Hira received growing up, is fundamental to the way that he sees himself and his position in the world around him. So much so that as much as I want to joke about Hira being as dense as a stone wall, I find myself becoming increasingly uncomfortable in how much my own trauma and reactions to isolation mirror Hira’s.

Symptoms of complex PTSD

Feelings of worthlessness, shame and guilt.

Problems controlling your emotions.

Finding it hard to feel connected with other people.

Relationship problems, like having trouble keeping friends and partners. (Source: NHS)

How was Hira Traumatized?

He was left to his own defenses at an early age and had to fend for himself. Just because they provided him with a house and money for food doesn’t mean they took care of him. He was also bullied for a speech impediment and isolated by his peers as a result. He’s probably never had anyone listen to him closely or had close emotional or physical relationships in his life. Extended periods of neglect in childhood and then more intense isolation later on is extremely damaging.

Trauma manifests differently. Before therapy, it was really difficult for me to wrap my head around the fact that I wasn’t actually invisible to friends and family. It took a quite aggressive and embarrassing event, (now funny and touching really) for me to understand that if I deviated from my own patterns or if I disappeared or didn’t contact people for hours that people would actually miss me or think about me. I went out and watched a movie after an event, and told one person through text. After the two hour movie, I turned my phone back on and found 30 missed calls. My mother had informed me that she had called the police and that the principal had formed a search party for me. My face was plastered all over Snapchat by my classmates.  I was mortified by what I believed to be a waste of resources and time on my behalf. Such a loud display of love and even then all I could think about was hiding away and making myself smaller. I wasn’t even decent enough to acknowledge the pain, worry, and fear they felt at the thought that someone they loved went missing. It took multiple years later: a very a tentative mother and aunt, very involved teachers, mentors and friends plus therapy for me to stop feeling like a ghost. To get out of my own head and stop trying to fade in the background as a coping mechanism. After being abandoned by his mother to live alone in a house so she could be with the family she wants, after being isolated by his classmates for having a stutter all throughout high school, only one person knocked loudly enough at the door attached to the fortress Hira built in his mind to cope with his trauma. Kiyoi.

That mental fortress is why Hira is alive today. It kept him safe when he had to sleep in the dark alone as a young boy when he had to cook his own meals. His social ineptitude is due to years of isolation and degradation by those around him. He wasn’t deemed worthy enough by his own mother to be taken care of. Yet Kiyoi loves and sees him. Kiyoi says his name and holds his hand and kisses him and suddenly Hira is solid mass. Not a shadow on the wall or the useless child not worth keeping. He becomes slightly more than nothing. In Hira’s mind he becomes a pebble. Sigh. Well it’s a start. But it’s not enough. It’s gonna take a real miracle for Hira to overcome years of trauma and see himself as a human being. I believe in him though. He’s so brave. No like really though, some of the shit he says is so cringey it takes real guts. Kiyoi is not going to give up on Hira anytime soon he’s too much of an exhibitionist for Hira and a freak (endearingly). Also, Hira is obsessive and intense, so they’re a perfect match.

He just needs proper counseling and a bit of time. I’m rooting for them.

[bl-bracket]

Most Unhinged Round 2: Hira (Utsukushii Kare) vs Kiyoi (Utsukushii Kare)

[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]

Hira: "Idolship at first sight. This man completly skipped the love phase and went straight into obsession. While very much attracted to and in love with Kiyoi, he is also intensly devoted to their inequal power dynamic, to the extent that he often ignores (or as some might put it kindly, is oblivious to) Kiyoi's feelings to preserve his ability to worship Kiyoi. To him Kiyoi is like a star or a god, and Kiyoi really just wants Hira to acknowledge that Kiyoi has feelings too and isn't some unfeeling piece of plasma floating in space. Kiyoi also frequently refers to Hira as his stalker, which Hira seems to like?"

Kiyoi: "He hides it better, but he's just as unhinged as Hira"

[donexmiras]

dragon brainrot time

[nongnoopran]

I finally watched My Beautiful Man - Eternal and OMG ITS SUCH A GREAT MOVIE 😭😭😭 What a perfect ending to this series. Sounds fake but I legit laughed and cried and screamed, the movie was soooo good and I love Hira and Kiyoi sooooo much 🥹🥹🥹 I think I believe in romantic love again…. Am I being dramatic? 😅 yes, but that’s how I feel. Def one of my fav couples and I think…. My fav Japanese BL ever and just one of my favs overall. Anyway…. If you have not watched this movie, you should! And def watch the first 2 seasons before because it provides so much wonderful context and history about these characters and their story. 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[hazellevessque]

Tbh I would love a Hira standalone book

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

Aru Shah quotes as things my friends say

Aiden, upon hearing of the new Olivia Rodrigo album: Are you ready for the ~THIEVERY~?

Aru, to anyone taller than her: i have to VOLLEYBALL SPIKE to reach your head

Brynne: Wait, your middle name is Arthur, like the rat?

Aiden: He's an anteater- no childhood istg 🙄

Mini: ... He's an aardvark.

Nikki: I did an emo photo shoot!

Aru: another one?

Sheela: Did someone say Ryan Reynolds?

Aru: KIERA KNIGHTLEY MY GODDESS

Hira and Rudy, in synch: D O L P H I N S ✨

*on the decorating committee for the dance, ten minutes before said dance*

Aiden: Hey, sorry I'm late I needed to grab gum!

Mini: GET THE FUCKING TABLES MOVE, MOVE, MOVE!

Aru: Y'know, Marry You is about to play for the test music run, if any of y'all wanna absolutely shred it on the dance floor before Judgement arrives.

Brynne: Are you a feminist

Aiden: *tiredly throws pad at her*

Rudy, in a swivel chair: do you wanna find out what month your parents banged in to make you???

Mini: *aggressively vacuums*

Aiden: stop, I need something to do after you all leave