#toxic bl

[vegasthehedgehog]

Kiyoi

There is something about the way Kiyoi has always been independent, aggressive, and often following the "I don't need anyone" archetype . This shows that he doesn't know what healthy relationships look like or why they matter. He never had anyone he felt he could rely on. He did not even want his friends to know what his dream was or that he took the idol thing seriously. He did not have anyone he thought would be his support if he failed and most likely assumed he would lose the artificial friendships that he did have if he showed his real self to them. His whole demeaner screams lonely, hurt, and scared.

Kiyoi has always been so sure that nobody is around him for any reason other than to use him. He does not think anyone takes him seriously. He doesn't trust that anyone could ever be sincere. That is why when Hira comes into the picture, he doesn't trust him. He seems to see it as a way to go from being used to using someone. He never truly accepted that Hira truly just wanted to be around him because of him. This is most likely why they parted ways like they did.

This has been on my mind because of the development we see later on. It becomes even more clear that Kiyoi does not want to be aggressive or the one to make the choice. He has always wanted someone to prove they take him seriously, that they want him, that they love him unconditionally.

We see Kiyoi struggle to open up and communicate and how hard it is for him. We see his tendency to flee when he is scared or hurt. We see there communication suffer because of misunderstandings. But most of all we see them fight for each other even well fighting against each other.

This leads me into the bathtub scene. Kiyoi is no longer this mean aggressive man that we once saw but instead someone who is quietly asking Hira to give him more physical attention. This is a big deal because we start out with him physically throwing Hira to the ground but now we are here.

I am leaving so so so so much out but this show really took over my brain and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. Its been a while since I watched it and these scenes still live rent free in my head.

[xxtraspoiledfujoshi]

Arghh!! I wanted to reach through my screen and wipe that smug look off of his face!! Then, Joe just casually mentioning how Ming must enjoy doing it from behind. Joe, please…if you only knew. Ugh!

Gahdamnit Joe, gahdamnit

[gillianthecat]

someone in the thaibl subreddit asked for recommendations for "toxic and disturbing" bl and some people are saying theory of love and others are saying the shortest distance is round. the range is hilarious.

[tikklil]

Summer stench 🌻🩸

[khaopybara]

❝This is your only chance, Ai'Mook.❞

CHANYA AMARIT as VIVI and AYA ORAPAN as KAIMOOK episode 8 of LOVE SEA

[cynicallyneutral]

「coward」

[fanfictionroxs]

I really love it when couples get the 'torturing each other' part out of the way before the relationship starts, you know? Like yes, you're in a toxic relationship, but the abuse stuff was just for the courting period. Now that we are together, it's time to be gentle with each other to create a healthy relationship and go for couple activities like murdering people.

[freakyarty]

Well Nikita, not all of us can have what we want

[0l-unreliable]

After a falling out with his previous backers, Bro is quickly running out of money for his various schemes and projects. While looking for new sponsors he manages to catch the eye of Mr. Harley, a strange older man of mysterious wealth, and is given the funds he needs to continue his work. However, it seems Mr. Harley is more interested in the inventor than the inventions...

(this is a warm-up sketch that got out of hand)

[usertoxicyaoi]

"You know I'm not a kind person, and I don't listen to others. How do I make you mine, and mine alone?"

TAIKAN YOHOU (2023). EPISODE EIGHT.

[9-93]

a bitter sweet chapter <3

[heretherebedork]

Pit Babe is one of my favorite types to trope that BL does not take enough advantage of and that is 'what happens when your only way out is hypermasculinity but you really aren't like naturally and so wear it like a shield again the softness so deeply inherent in your nature that your cannot risk it being exposed?' and the answer is... Babe. Babe happens.

A hypermasculine racer who tries to avoid any kind of sexual or romantic connection and pretends he doesn't care at all who melts the instant anyone shows him that they can treat him sweetly and loses himself entirely in even the tiniest amount of affection because he has never been able to safely allow himself that affection.

Babe wears masculinity like a second skin and he blocks people out and he snaps and he glares and he teases the friends he doesn't love because they are safe and they remind him that he will never love or be loved because he is not that kind of man and he scoffs and bets the first person who's given him what he wanted on a race because that's what men do. They don't care.

But the longer he spends with Charlie the less comfortable he gets in his second skin. Charlie peels him bare with a stroke of his hair, with a kiss to his forehead, with a sweet smile, with breakfast in the morning, by fighting for him, by protecting him, by waiting at home for him, by soothing him when he sulks and pouts. Charlie found all those soft parts that Babe has been protecting with his masculinity and exposed them so tenderly and so kindly and with nothing more than love.

And I love that. I want more of that. I want more toxic masculine characters realizing the persona they've crafted for themselves is not their true self but rather a mask, armor, a second skin for the world and to be able to expose the softness in the safety of the person they love.

[lyleaqui]

Jimmy x Curly(?)❤️‍🩹

[gunsatthaphan]

🤓🚩🫶🏻

[hallowpen]

[X] This pretty much sums it up...

[befuddledcinnamonroll]

THIS SHOW

Can we talk about how they are literally not wasting a single frame in the storytelling? It's short, but so damn effective.

I've talked before about how this is not just a story about individuals, but about existing within a fucked up system.

It's about how we get accustomed to terrible treatment, because we exist in a space where everyone sees it as normal.

And those who realize it's not normal, those who try to push back, don't tend to last.

But once they're gone, we realize how much they (and their ability to see the truth) were protecting us from things being the absolute worst.

How our acceptance of this kind of life and workplace perpetuates the cycle for the new people as they come in.

And though we think we are only martyring ourselves, it results in the sacrifice of others. Because in our choices for ourselves, we are helping to feed them to the machine.

But it's still so hard to walk away, because you become so numb to it all. Until you are sure that parts of you are permanently broken.

And you also know that these systems are everywhere, they are our society, so who's to say you could ever find anything better?

It's the slow crushing of the soul, that makes you feel like it all could just be so futile.

Which is why what Kai is doing is so brilliant here.

He's not denying the reality of the world they exist in. He's not being pushy or angry about Hiro's choices.

Instead Kai is utilizing temptation, showing that there are things, some of them quite simple, that can bring joy. That can break through the futility.

That prove that you can still feel.

But you have to choose them. Because like all things in this life, they are ephemeral.

The systems might not go anywhere in our lifetimes, but that doesn't mean the choices we make don't matter. For ourselves - and for those who see us do it.