#toxic bl

[vegasthehedgehog]

Kiyoi

There is something about the way Kiyoi has always been independent, aggressive, and often following the "I don't need anyone" archetype . This shows that he doesn't know what healthy relationships look like or why they matter. He never had anyone he felt he could rely on. He did not even want his friends to know what his dream was or that he took the idol thing seriously. He did not have anyone he thought would be his support if he failed and most likely assumed he would lose the artificial friendships that he did have if he showed his real self to them. His whole demeaner screams lonely, hurt, and scared.

Kiyoi has always been so sure that nobody is around him for any reason other than to use him. He does not think anyone takes him seriously. He doesn't trust that anyone could ever be sincere. That is why when Hira comes into the picture, he doesn't trust him. He seems to see it as a way to go from being used to using someone. He never truly accepted that Hira truly just wanted to be around him because of him. This is most likely why they parted ways like they did.

This has been on my mind because of the development we see later on. It becomes even more clear that Kiyoi does not want to be aggressive or the one to make the choice. He has always wanted someone to prove they take him seriously, that they want him, that they love him unconditionally.

We see Kiyoi struggle to open up and communicate and how hard it is for him. We see his tendency to flee when he is scared or hurt. We see there communication suffer because of misunderstandings. But most of all we see them fight for each other even well fighting against each other.

This leads me into the bathtub scene. Kiyoi is no longer this mean aggressive man that we once saw but instead someone who is quietly asking Hira to give him more physical attention. This is a big deal because we start out with him physically throwing Hira to the ground but now we are here.

I am leaving so so so so much out but this show really took over my brain and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. Its been a while since I watched it and these scenes still live rent free in my head.

[xxtraspoiledfujoshi]

Arghh!! I wanted to reach through my screen and wipe that smug look off of his face!! Then, Joe just casually mentioning how Ming must enjoy doing it from behind. Joe, please…if you only knew. Ugh!

Gahdamnit Joe, gahdamnit

[gillianthecat]

someone in the thaibl subreddit asked for recommendations for "toxic and disturbing" bl and some people are saying theory of love and others are saying the shortest distance is round. the range is hilarious.

[tikklil]

Summer stench 🌻🩸

[khaopybara]

❝This is your only chance, Ai'Mook.❞

CHANYA AMARIT as VIVI and AYA ORAPAN as KAIMOOK episode 8 of LOVE SEA

[doublel27]

I’m still thinking about Daou Pittya’s live last night where he roasted fans and his current mission to get people to stop using the terms koojin and fanservice.

And thinking about how Pond and Phuwin admitted they hang out a lot but they don’t post any of it because they don’t want their actual relationship outside of work to be called fanservice.

And thinking about the interview BillyBabe gave recently where they reiterated that they don’t engage in fanservice and they can’t make anyone believe anything about their relationship anyway.

And about old videos of Earth during early ATOTS era asking MCs not to use the term koojin about him and Mix.

And about YinWar, BossNouel and MaxTul always having been very honest that they are friends who work together. Never obscuring that fact.

And about Tay Tawan loudly saying that OffGunTayNew all kiss each other all the time since Gun showed up and the realties of their friendship are none of your business.

And about Krist loudly saying he’s allowed to have friends.

Because none of these pairs intend to stop acting with their current partner (aside from MaxTul because Tul has left the industry entirely.) They’re not protesting being paired with another person for multiple projects. They are protesting the commodification, the telling a person who they are with know actual knowledge, and frankly homophobic/toxic masculinity drenched idea that for a man to show care to another man they either have to have a deep romantic relationship or they’re faking it all for the money, even the stuff with no branding attached.

And half the stuff that gets filed away as evidence that two men in a pair or are dating or that everything is definitely fanservice and is entirely manufactured are things that are completely normal in female friendships:

Looking at a person when they speak

Knowing someone’s likes and dislikes

Thoughtful gifts

Saying you love them/care

Acts of service

Physical affection

Sometimes being jealous of a friend’s relationship with other friends

Hanging out outside of work

And yeah, some of them may be just coworkers that they grit their teeth and work with and fake it til they make it. But some pairs out there have a genuine relationship, however they label it. And however it’s labeled is none of your business.

As a fan, you have no right to tell them how to act, whether it’s to call out fanservice and demand they stop or to tell them they can’t have other friends. Both are toxic extremes and treating a person like an object you can control.

There’s a longer essay on this, that I plan to finish soon, but this is where my brain keeps cycling through.

Bottom line, listen to these men when they speak. Trust their agency. I hope they keep clapping back at everyone.

[cynicallyneutral]

「coward」

[singto-prachaya]

Daou held a twitch live and he went off at the haters!

And we applaud him👏👏👏

[fanfictionroxs]

I really love it when couples get the 'torturing each other' part out of the way before the relationship starts, you know? Like yes, you're in a toxic relationship, but the abuse stuff was just for the courting period. Now that we are together, it's time to be gentle with each other to create a healthy relationship and go for couple activities like murdering people.

[freakyarty]

nikityom?? :p

[guzhufuren]

BTS of the wedding ceremony between Jianwei and Xiaoxi and them walking in markets from upcoming chinese wuxia BL The General's Son (from the director of Word of Honor)

[lurkingshan]

I really wish LITA fans* would not be weirdo assholes about the Japanese adaptation. This adaptation is supported by MAME and MeMindY, and its success is good for them and the actors in that studio. Which is clear because they’ve been participating in promo events for the show! There’s really no need to pit the shows against each other or tear one version down to prop up the other. It’s a good thing that we got both! They bring different styles and strengths to the same story. If the adaptation does well we’ll likely get more Japanese shows for MAME works, and MeMindY will have another revenue stream that will support them developing more Thai shows. Fans should stop and think for literally two seconds about who they’re actually helping with this nonsense.

*not talking about anyone on tumblr, the mess is mostly in other corners of the internet

[0l-unreliable]

After a falling out with his previous backers, Bro is quickly running out of money for his various schemes and projects. While looking for new sponsors he manages to catch the eye of Mr. Harley, a strange older man of mysterious wealth, and is given the funds he needs to continue his work. However, it seems Mr. Harley is more interested in the inventor than the inventions...

(this is a warm-up sketch that got out of hand)

[usertoxicyaoi]

"You know I'm not a kind person, and I don't listen to others. How do I make you mine, and mine alone?"

TAIKAN YOHOU (2023). EPISODE EIGHT.

[9-93]

a bitter sweet chapter <3

[heretherebedork]

Pit Babe is one of my favorite types to trope that BL does not take enough advantage of and that is 'what happens when your only way out is hypermasculinity but you really aren't like naturally and so wear it like a shield again the softness so deeply inherent in your nature that your cannot risk it being exposed?' and the answer is... Babe. Babe happens.

A hypermasculine racer who tries to avoid any kind of sexual or romantic connection and pretends he doesn't care at all who melts the instant anyone shows him that they can treat him sweetly and loses himself entirely in even the tiniest amount of affection because he has never been able to safely allow himself that affection.

Babe wears masculinity like a second skin and he blocks people out and he snaps and he glares and he teases the friends he doesn't love because they are safe and they remind him that he will never love or be loved because he is not that kind of man and he scoffs and bets the first person who's given him what he wanted on a race because that's what men do. They don't care.

But the longer he spends with Charlie the less comfortable he gets in his second skin. Charlie peels him bare with a stroke of his hair, with a kiss to his forehead, with a sweet smile, with breakfast in the morning, by fighting for him, by protecting him, by waiting at home for him, by soothing him when he sulks and pouts. Charlie found all those soft parts that Babe has been protecting with his masculinity and exposed them so tenderly and so kindly and with nothing more than love.

And I love that. I want more of that. I want more toxic masculine characters realizing the persona they've crafted for themselves is not their true self but rather a mask, armor, a second skin for the world and to be able to expose the softness in the safety of the person they love.