#hidden thoughts

[elsaqqa-4ever]

Hidden thoughts

It is a punishment.

You keep trying to leave a certain 

time period and live in the present with all of its things, but something keeps pulling you back to the past.

People's actions may remind you of evils from the past, evoking feelings within you that they are unaware of.

[pixietinky]

If you ask me what I've done

the honest answer would be none

Yet so long I feel tired, as my mind lacks goals.

When goal and purpose we desire is the need to move those souls.

I wish I was a better writter.

Better gf and a daughter.

Most of all I wish I was better daily, for my future self involved.

That my focus I have little goes all in ,on final project being solved.

So I'm no writter but now I know I  have a goal .

Now question is when will I get my fulfilled soul.

[sadjoshsworld]

(T^T)

[quicksilver87]

Sunny Morning

Good morning my sun,

i can see it will be fun,

i allready had a clue,

but a message from you,

confirms it will be true,

i don't wanna say,

it's hope on the way,

just happy to see,

your spirit in glee,

our thoughts free,

i still wanna read,

you poem of need,

not to again cry,

just see your shy,

see eye to eye,

you know my mind,

what's hiding behind,

i love you soo much,

to that i will clutch,

our souls still touch,

can't wait for today,

to see you in play,

it's been a while,

to see your smile,

i'll walk every mile,

so see you real soon,

sun will light up the moon.

[burymysoul]

I'm stuck in my head, with no escape

There's a constant thought of never being good enough, I feel replaceable even when I do for him things I have never done for anyone. He mistreats my heart with neglect and isolates me with words never said. I crave the days we had in the beginning, when I meant something to him. Now I have to ask for basic love an affection, I have to ask for time with him.. I feel so tired of asking for the simple things I need to feed a relationship that I have stopped asking. I have just been quiet and watchful, day by day taking a piece of my heart and closing it off to him..

But there are days I let him in again and it's a feeling of euphoria that I can't explain, and the whole time I have to keep reminding myself it's just temporary.

He won't be this nice, kind, and loving consistently. I know those brief moments will be gone before I know it, but I soak them up all the same. Love isn't supposed to be like this, how can we be together everyday but move backwards towards being strangers instead? I know I'm not the one, I know from the songs he plays and moves he makes that someone else holds his heart. Even when he tells me I'm wrong, too many things don't add up. He can go all day without speaking to me and it doesn't bother him one bit, how? It never used to be this way, he used to crave me but that was all on the surface and now I feel I no longer am "interesting," enough to try for. I do all the things he needs and asks even when I'm drowning myself I lift him up so he doesn't worry but I've begun to sink farther and farther away from who I used to be.

I can't tell him these things, I can't be honest with my thoughts or feelings, I can't scream out that I need help, I can't ask for his reassurance that I'm the only one, I can't ask for kindness, I can't ask affection, I can't ask for communication, I can't ask for more of him,

I can't I can't I can't..

Because he won't

He won't care, every time he has gotten angry, turned things back on me with manipulation, making me insecure and telling me I am crazy for thinking the things I do. He speaks so disrespectfully to me, then shuts down and completely ignores my existence isolating me from any hope of growth. I have become wise to his ways and now say nothing at all.. It never does me any good.

I am nothing to him, I am not the one he truly wants, I'm just useful for the things he needs and nothing more.

Sit pretty, keep quiet, and survive.

That's all I know.

But I want more, I deserve more.

[hinamie]

long way home

[anna-scribbles]

last one i promise(<—lie)

[technically-human]

When the ghost who read to you as you died activates all of your Must Protect instincts

[tenth-sentence]

Plainly Boromir's thought was different from his final words.

"The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring" - J.R.R. Tolkien

[tipped-rigby]

this was a nice change of pace to come across while i searched "theyfab" on bluesky in some sort of rage seeking behavior im doing.

[muzzlemouths]

can i also be beautiful if i am dangerous?

[pixietinky]

APOLOGY FOR my loved ones

Bad and mean, not in a good way.

But if you hear a gossip,

they might be right in what they say.

Possessed, maybe, but whose fault is it.

Forgiveness is a thick strike for some it may never visit.

I apologise to those whom I hurt with my actions,

but that has sanctions.

even more the ones I hurt with words,

with a sharp blade of my tongue like sword.

and most with all of things I didn't say right

and I should've,so I'm saying I'm sorry tonight.

For being impatient when all I'm receiving is love and appreciation.

For ignoring your feelings when you've understood my sensation.

For being quick to react even quicker with my mouth.

When I should've said I love, what came out went south.

For not showing more appreciation for the way you are to me.

I promise I see.

I see you and all your glory,

and for not telling you how much you mean.

I'm sorry.

[lxmelle]

Those letters for his students was like Gojo’s way of showing consideration for them.

That’s what Geto Suguru, the “Gojo translator”, would say to them, if he was there.

I mean, there was a reason they were best friends - Geto understood him the best. He helped him learn how to (and the importance of) connecting to others - how to not be lonely.

It was the same in the scene with Kuroi. Right before he shouted for Gojo over the time, he just instinctively knew how to connect with Gojo and helped others with sympathising with Gojo.

I didn’t play the JJK game but I think the undercurrent dynamics is similar. Their bond. The exclusivity. Love. The whole breakup was about their friendship. The change the new generation got was also due to the path forged by them. As it stands, Gojo is shown to be largely misunderstood and nobody aside from Yuta has shown much affection for Gojo. Maybe Yuji ... to some degree. But I digress.

Maybe it’s an unpopular opinion, but considering how Geto-centred Gojo’s GIGA Character book was, he was likely influenced by Geto’s strong protective love for his “family”.

It makes sense to me that Gojo thought it would be important to put the students’ minds at ease with any thoughts/questions about their family. Hence the letters to help tie up loose ends.

Megumi was shown to be thinking about his father, whin he assumed was out there somewhere. Even if he didn’t want to know, there is a subconscious level of unfinished business from thinking this. And to know that Gojo killed him, may have helped him realise that his sensei had his back all this while. He was worth protecting all this while. That chapter of his life can truly close.

And just how bloody typical of his sensei, who has no “delicate-ness” about him!

As a sensei, and as a person, Gojo always protected others from his own personal concerns. He and Geto both stubbornly lived & fought “alone” because this was just their belief as the burden of the strongest = to protect others. The line was drawn and Gojo only ever wanted Geto to understand him, hence his conversation in 236. Only ever needed Geto by his side: hence his only complex was Geto leaving him behind.

We see this in how Shoko felt distant from them both. Stating in her inner monologue how she could never love either of them, but she was there - insinuating what they had between them was not something she could give (love) but her friendship was there if only Gojo let her in. And we see it in how, when she tried to connect with Gojo post-unsealing, by including Geto’s body as someone to be retrieved, he was a bit taken aback, starting his sentence with a long pause “……...” and keeping it simple / not elaborating (だな - it’s like the equivalent of a “yeah” but implies agreement).

Also, the fact the students and others can joke and call him an idiot, etc. means he really hid it well. Gojo protected them all. (As a teacher and adult should, I guess.)

I’m reminded of this scene.

Geto helped Gojo empathise & “not bully the weak”, but to also consider what else may be important... even if they may not think so themselves.

Until they receive what they thought they didn’t want, only to realise it was what they needed after all.

Cuz… y’kow: people (especially children) don’t always know what they want or need.

Sometimes what you want isn’t what you need. What you need isn’t necessarily what you want.

Gojo & Geto lived through that too... didn’t they? On so many levels… wanting, needing, denying, losing, yearning. Carrying their burdens they had nobody to share with. Making decisions on their own. Giving to the other a piece of their heart. Sacrificing themselves. Accepting each others loneliness as their own. Thinking they were better off loving the other by being apart.

The painful lessons that shaped the way for the new world. Children given the protection from The Strongest Sorcerer of the Modern Era. Granted a world with fewer curses for 10 years due to the Strongest Curse User.

Children who had adults to guide, protect, and care for them.

Children who do not have to be killed for the mistakes of others, who were forced to commit sins, or for being born a certain way.

I think every single sorcerer who were adults helped the kids in some way. The layers and layers of this story is just... overwhelmingly beautiful.

Much remains to be seen now. I’m worried that Yuta will have to live in Gojo’s body and that Kenjaku’s eerie words of Yuta being “the next Gojo Satoru” will extend beyond that battle.

People on X seem to be speculating whether a world without curses will exist (going back to jjk 0 and Geto’s ideals). What of the barriers without tengen? Some question reality as we are being shown - is it an elaborate dream? Hm.

I hope for the plant/flower trio at least... Megumi and Yuji can use their shared tragedy as vessels who committed sins to bond and support one another. Nobara is a great buffer and heroine in her own right. Their dynamics are really amazing. Independent, yet so bonded.

I’d love to see Gojo & Geto at peace. I guess whatever happens, chapter 236 is a bit like salvation. And doesn’t Megumi’s smiling pic (above) look similar? If these two smiled as if they had no regrets , we can assume Megumi smiled sincerely upon receiving the letter, too.

As long as Gege doesn’t do anything to change it.

Please please don’t. They deserve a reward for their hard work and sacrifice!

[quicksilver87]

Taurus & Capricorn

You ignore what i think, you won't let it sink,

you don't even blink, spill any more ink,

let yourself on a brink, let you and me sync,

my thoughts just stink, leave love to shrink,

i'm just little blue, only words i can spew,

these days were a clue, you saw it too,

all the way through to the wonderful view,

how our vibe is true, this still is our cue,

am i just so insane, is it just my brain,

coping with the pain still seeing this lane,

keep riding this train, old, boring and plain,

am i just a stain to be washed off with rain,

my heart is assuring i can keep enduring,

keep garden manuring, keep on maturing,

am i still alluring, you mind still touring,

the thought of curing, our love securing,

noone can deny we make eachother fly high,

we are a sunny blue sky, its our natural dye,

but i can still spy your soul internaly cry,

how you away shy, wish to give it a try,

our souls are tied, we can't let it slide,

nothing yet died but you keep a stride,

puzzle pieces still hide, moved by a tide,

pushed to the side, start looking more wide,

i love being your friend, don't wanna offend,

don't wanna contend, just make an amend,

my will to you send that you can depend,

just take my hand and let us ascend,

situation is a clot like the Gordian knot,

like a tangled plot that this life brought,

it's such a tight spot but give it a shot,

i keep stirring the pot to give all i've got,

just take a sword, cut the knot cord,

reset the chessboard, rise out of the fjord,

from your own accord step bravely toward,

please let us afford to again play our chord.

[changethecircumstances]

Gale after seeing my Durge's desires: "Oh, I didn't realize..."

Durge: "Gale, I have wanted to sleep with u since the moment I fought off the urge to chop off ur hand."

Gale: "What?"

Durge: "What?"

[niinnyu]

Rage (?)

+2 pages that didn't fit/were redundant but i liked them :)