#hiatus info

[flfverse]

Hiatus Note/Content Warning

RETURN DATE: AUGUST 30TH 2023

Free Falling Part 1: Growing Up, Getting Older is officially complete, woo! as you all probably know by now, i’m taking the summer to focus on personal projects and prepping part 2, bc unfortunately i can’t do all things at once.

i’ll still be around on the blog/posting a couple of oneshots and you all are ofc still welcome to interact, send asks, etc. i read everything and do my best to incorporate your ideas where they make sense.

and while we’re here, i want to give a little word of warning on FF Part 2: Honey Moon, Poison Sun. this upcoming part is probably going to be the longest of the four and while it will be focused on developing Dabihawks, i don’t want to misrepresent it as the pure happy romantic section.

i’ve added a dubcon tag to Free Falling, but nothing else, in the interest of not having a tag wall. that is to say that, as we know, dabi does his best to be a good dom, but hawks has a lot of trauma and no real model for a healthy relationship. there will be consent issues between the two of them and it will not be resolved overnight. hawks is also still with the commission for now.

obviously i’m still working on planning but i do have some things mapped out already, so if you have any questions about specific tropes/scenes/etc (or have ideas about how to better hurt our best bird boy, ofc) feel free to ask! i promise it’s not all doom and gloom either, i’m super excited to write domesticity and romantic fluff as well.

[kaeyachi]

im literally still on a mental health break but i just watched the livestream and...

he was...he was actually legitimately born IN Khaenri'ah?! Inside the currently hellhole Khaenri'ah? or did some timey wimey occur and it was actually 500 years ago Khaenri'ah? what??

place your bets kaeyanation

[mvsic0]

draculaura being the only monster to ever give toralei a friendship bracelet… iiii-ii-iiiiiiiiii…..!.!!.!!.!.!.!

[ageless-soul-au]

Hey everyone! We've missed a few uploads already, so we decided to make it official:

ASAU is going on temporary hiatus

You can still send things to the blog, and we do plan to keep writing. We're just taking a break because other things have caught our interest. Not promising a comeback date either, but we will!!

Thank you for your patience! We love y'all!

-Kio & Mizu

[ddodol]

there better be a seunghan birthday live tomorrow

if there’s no mention of seunghan tomorrow i will personally pull up to the sm building and bomb it

🪨

as much as i'd like to hope, i don't really think we're getting any sort of statement or even a greeting tomorrow. maybe it's just the pessimist in me.. 😭😭 i feel like i'll be more surprised if they did so i hope they will just to spice things up

though apparently riize will be in korea by today so, y'know, the fanfic writer in me is imagining that they're celebrating hani's birthday together in private <3

[sol-arium126]

No new Brilliant Minds tonight

[tenspontaneite]

hii, i am so curious about what you thought of tdp s7

Hi! I haven't engaged with tdp material since S4 on purpose, since I've learned I don't do well being a creator in fandoms whose canon is so actively updating. I'll binge all of tdp and catch up on everything eventually, but it might be a while, and I'd like to ask for strictly no spoilers for anything since S4 until then! I'm great at avoiding spoilers on my own but if people send them to me I can't really avoid that :P

(thank you for being so spoiler free in your ask btw, appreciate it!)

[pharawee]

🖇️BL WATCHLIST FEBRUARY

🎬To Be Continued - 3PLUS | NETFLIX - I won't be able to watch this as it airs which doesn't stop me from making heart eyes at Fluke Pongsapat. 🥰

🎬Time - GAGAOOLALA - I'm mostly watching this so I can figure out what M.Flow saw in this script.

🎬1000 Years Old - GAGAOOLALA - New favourite show detected.

🎬Playboyy - GAGAOOLALA - 🍌🍍🍈🍎🍑🍐

🎬For Him - IQIYI - Messy uni bl my beloved.

🎬City of Stars - IQIYI - This is going to be my new low-stakes comfort BL - in best Star Hunter tradition.

🎬The Sign - YOUTUBE - The fantasy lakorn BL of my dreams.

🎬A Secretly Love - WeTV - My long awaited oldschool uni BL with Kut and Kimmon is finally coming. If this doesn't have an inter release I'll cry.

🎬Dead Friend Forever | DFF - IQIYI - Okay, now I'm invested - mostly in Jin staying alive.

🎬The Whisperer - YOUTUBE - Will we ever get to watch that last episode?

🖇️COMING UP

⭐Pee Nak 4 - CINEMA - I love these movies and I'm counting the days until I can finally watch this. Maybe this time we'll even get some MeanPlan as a treat.

⭐Man Suang - NETFLIX - It's supposedly coming to netflix globally and in an extended version.

🖇️FINISHED

🎬7 Days Before Valentine - WeTV - This beautiful show has my whole heart and I'm going to miss it.

🎬Pit Babe - This wasn't supposed to consume my whole llife.

➕ MDL | ABOUT | ALL WATCHLISTS | COMMENTARY TAG | THAI BL NOVELS

[ivaeow]

So ig this is kinda important so listen up ppl!!

I’ve lost interest in editing ( for now ). Reqs have been rotting in my inbox so if you have req something I will put it below so other editors can look at them! anyways, I may or may not take a hiatus. Idk for how long or short but I will not be posting any reqs ( unless they’re req by mutual or I love them.) I’ve had fun but dw I’ll be back soon(ish) !! I’m never quitting fully since this blog is rlly special to me…

ANYWAYS ENOUGH OF MY YAPPING, I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND ILL BE BACK SOON!!

Love from, himubuki ! <3 ( will update this soon )

[aesfocus]

My spouse just took off my neurology appointment day off so I don't have to worry about driving and I have some support(I doubt I'll get findings just yet, but still).

I've been doing a great job managing my expectations and stress levels with it coming up. But the appointment was made 6+ months in advance so I can not miss it which makes it more stressful, but it is what it is.

But best case scenario it isn't anything major, and I can mitigate the effects to some degree with mobility aids and some RX treatments. But it's just gonna be there forever.

Worst case isn't even something I will entertain right now, but in the time since I made the appointment my feet/legs began to shake too. But I will cross that bridge if I come to it I guess.

Anyways! VERY! STRESSED! ABOUT IT!

[wackyscreamswithraisin]

Indefinite Hiatus and Clearing the air BIG TW ON //PERSONAL

Before I say anything this is the fanfic summary: It’s/ it was revolving around Raisin and Malcom (and Hamilton) from the Smart Talk With Raisin short, somehow stealing a meta cartoon remote from the, inaccessible to them; Cartoon Network ‘toonworld’ (like when you see the characters crossover in CN bumpers). They’d watch Courage the Cowardly Dog on their tv in their room like a comfort, but with the remote they start meddling with the character’s awareness of meta for entertainment - and when Barbara accidentally fuses with a glitched artefact, she is unable to be reverted to normal and she breaks the constructs of her own minor characterdom to try and track them down. The fic idea has changed a lot over the years but that’s what it (currently) has changed to. It’s rather Pibby adjacent and would focus on a lot of what’s changed about cartoons between every half decade - yeah it’s very complicated and over the top lol.

I know y’all are sick of me making these long ass walls of texts instead of proper content and I’m really sorry I keep pulling this 💀. I was going to make a nicer pinned posts] of explanation but since this blog is in a confusing place at the moment I just decided to do it quick instead so I don’t put it off.

For those who don’t want to read the full thing: TLDR,

1. I have personal attachment to Fred that has probably affected my judgement

2. My thoughts on Fred as schizophrenic rep is certainly not universal and the partial embarrassment about writing content revolving around him continues to catch up with me

3. The related problems below are reason why I have been so adverse to seeing Fred as being a r-pist m—-ster or SA’er

And 4. I’m starting to accept that it’s not that deep if my fanfic never gets told. Even if it would make me happy, it’s not the end of my work or me if I don’t. Nevertheless I hope you all understand and I’m sorry for any disappointment.

On the personal issue: First, bc some might not know, I am mentally ill and have had a vague diagnosis of psychosis for years that was never fully decided and that I understand now and abridge as ‘schizopsec’, but follows all the traits of OSDD 1B, enough that I tend to use both terms. ‘Fred’ is one of my alters - he’s my main ISH (internal self helper), caretaker, and fictive (fictional introject), and he has been for around 10 years. This is not a joke. This is as cringe as it sounds, even worse in real life when he fronts of course, and is embarrassing for me to admit even when I attach this post to my main blog where I share schizospec upliftment posts. It’s a complicated and excruciating subject matter for many many reasons, and it’s important that I clarify this, even though it’s uncomfortable for me, since this naturally affects my ability of separating Fred the alter from Freaky Fred in my writing and art. This is part of why I have to keep scrutinising my writing drafts. I believe I can keep them separate, but this is part of the reason why I guess my attachment for him and making content to do with him is there at all.

My thoughts on Freaky Fred in episode : As a schizospec, putting the alter aside, schizophrenic representation means the world and the moon and the stars to me, even when it’s bad. I can’t tell if this is an agreeable opinion amongst other schizospec/ psychotic people, but even damaging and dangerous rep involving homicidality like the axe crazy maniacs have something of catharsis in their rises and falls that I can appreciate, depending. Sexually depraved and violent rep however, crosses a line; obviously schizo killers in fiction are heavily drenched in misinformed stigma and is mostly bullshit and can be dangerous- we are dramatically far more likely to hurt ourselves or be hurt - but I think most people would agree that sexual violence is a different evil altogether, and I cannot stand to see the marginalised mentally ill conflated with such horrendous shit.

There’s the problem. I think Fred is a schizophrenic; other than him getting the equivalent to straightjacketed at the end and taken to presumably some asylum or how he narrates/ talks/rhymes in his own head and otherwise barely talks just disjointedly - he’s got that classic 90s-00s cartoon crazy grin and is instilling fear in the viewer through said unbalancedness,his whole deal is very ‘of its time’ on displaying scary madness. And, all that being said, even though he’s clearly not good rep by any stretch of the imagination, he doesn’t harm anyone - he’s even ‘nice’ - or at least doesn’t seem to be blatantly malicious. The bar is on the floor, but that’s already better than idk William Afton or something.

Fred as a predator: The point of view of Fred as a metaphorical molester is pretty obvious and is a popular opinion, and it would be dishonest to say I don’t completely see it, especially with how he says naughty - the implication steers more into the sexual predator area. Hair shaving isn’t violent as much as taking something away - subtracting, and this can be interpreted in a murderous or SA fashion, but the murderous interpretation I stick with, one akin to Sweeney Todd, is a very flattering view of it and I know it. It’s easy to see how it comes off fetishistic which favours an SA view and is naturally the reason why a lot of people see it as rapey.

The episode as a metaphor for SA or CSA enabled in a household that turns the other way is popular, and at first I didn’t like this theory because it felt like a dark theory made almost to tarnish child content with a deeper or darker meaning, which I had seen a lot elsewhere. But this wasn’t really honest; ‘The Mask’ works well as an episode with no subtext but is respected moreso as an episode clearly about domestic abuse and misandry born from trauma. ‘Freaky Fred’ can also be this.

I think the well and honest truth for me is, even when I do everything I can to touch grass, and remove my personal connection to the character/ the idea of him through the alter, away from the conversation; I really don’t want Fred to be a schizophrenic and a sexual predator character at the same time, and I cannot remove my view of him as the first one, but I have to admit that, in some ways, both was intended for him and this episode in some variation. It’s pretty upsetting to think about; I know a majority audience isn’t going to be that invested in the representation of mad people, especially not in cartoon antagonists, but it matters a lot to me. Obviously it would still be bad if he wasn’t a crazy character and it would still be scary and awful if he acted more ‘normal’, but that craziness is there and the combination feels particularly wretched because, once again, schizophrenics are far more likely to be victimised.

What I’m trying to say with all this; Fred is a mad character who despite being the most offputting and scary character I’ve ever seen in my life, managed to become irremovable from my psyche for almost my whole life, for better and for worse, and in some small way, seeing him as so scary and uncomfortable, but equally ‘good-willed’ and harmless by technicality in that episode, made me feel a little less alone. But people who have been yucked out by this blog and this fixation as I said before are fully in their right, and I am taking a step back to consider if I want to continue with making stuff to do with Fred or not.

The fanfic?: I still think about the story a lot but as you can probably tell I’ve made it very convoluted by involving a meta narrative, and as I’m just about to head into university by the time I’m writing this, it’s difficult to tell what will come of this. I will let you all know, but it’s in a continuous grey area and I don’t want anyone to get their hopes up. I’m sorry.

Will I still post art?: Maybe haha, I never know how to feel when I post it. Sometimes I worry it gives off the impression that I ship post-shaving incident Barbred (I don’t) or that I endorse Fred’s ‘freakiness’ at all. And sometimes I think it just looks bad, as in not a good recreation of the ctcd art style, or too sad - like idk why I think the audience is just going to understand these alarmingly emotional pieces when I’ve been pretty scarce on context, I apologise for everyone’s who’s gotten tonal whiplash scrolling. Fred art may come up elsewhere on my other blog which I will reblog here if I think it’s appropriate.

If you read all the way thank you so much💚, I hope you get what I’m saying, and if you don’t I understand. Consider following my main zebedeezing if you want somewhere I post more often though non ctcd related.

[simswithoutacause]

hey my lovely fellas! it got quiet around me, just wanted to let you know that i'm alright. But as it's always ist: life is full of things, i don't play TS3 at the moment and unfortunately it'll take some time till i can offer you my upcoming downloads for North Bend. I'll save all the houses i built so far in my bin so that i can upload them - but it'll just take some time. I'm sorry about that. Love and kisses for you all!

[yuseirra]

It's so weird. I keep listening to Fatal and this guy loves Ai so much. It's still something I can interpret as love, and is this the right way feel about it? Why do I still feel like Ai's chosen the one that'd treasure her when I'm so stern about moral values and feel like someone who's done wrong should be sufficiently punished in fiction if needed? Why do I still feel this isn't that unhealthy? This feels like intense longing from someone who's so lonely and hurt driven to the point of being utterly broken?

He misses her so bad. It's so painful. What is the point of making an originally good person like him suffer so bad? This is wrong. That's so horrible. It feels really bad... I sense these enormous, overwhelming feelings, and I'm still not sure if I can dismiss this only as pure insanity because this happened because he really did care about Ai. Is it that it's got overridden and taken advantage of? Fatal is so weird because that whole song screams.. of this feeling of becoming tainted and madness, the whole melody feels like it; yeah, I can see that, but..

I actually see what the story is doing as a whole. I think I have a good idea of how this is going to be wrapped up and why they made this choice, but as I always say, I'm not the one responsible for forming the story and having crafted these characters so I can't say it for sure.

If what I anticipate does come true, then this can be a really meaningful piece of work. I want to believe in that. But it's so hard to hold out on that and see these pointless sufferings in the process. Aqua's hate should not have been directed at this guy. This character...I think he needs love. If just one person was kind enough to him, he could have lived with that, and he just didn't have that, it's so unfair.

I think I can sense what this character is feeling you see, it's what's made me draw so much about him and Ai,

in that case, I see why the writers and staff cared enough for him to give him two songs, but if I'm wrong on this, I just don't know.

I think I will have the answers.. by December? I hope so.

I would like to believe in my feelings and go on because, in terms of feelings, I know what this is, what's being displayed doesn't entirely make sense, the only consistent things I can read about this character are the feelings and his state is really, really, really bad. They are so depressed on the near verge of death, they are so weak... If someone is feeling this despaired, maybe they can turn into something different but I'm not sure about that, I can't determine that, I need more information to piece things together, but I can say, this is a really huge feeling they're feeling, and I sense a lot of sorrow. It's so weird...

It's different from what I feel from seeing the comic, you know. You know how sometimes you act and you feel the sort of feeling your role may feel. Or when you read a work and you can get a sense of what a character may feel. I've been good with these. It's what I rely on...this sounds really dumb, I know, but... I feel really sad when I try to match up my feelings with what this guy may feel. With this level of sadness... I just don't know what to make of him but it's really reasonable for him to have this sort of feeling too, since someone who cared for died. They don't exist anymore... can I even sympathize with him? Am I supposed to? It's not.. actually insanity I feel as the core, it's sadness. Everything he does seems to stem out from that sort of feeling, "sorrow" is his core. so I can't help feeling pity when he's this... horrible mess right now. But what did he even do? we never even got to see that. Why is he like this? It's actually really painful to try and sync up with him, I do that when I draw characters, and I had to back out several times from getting too deep because it hurts. I'm adjusting my level of doing this with this character time to time because what he's going through is really intense. The same with other characters in this comic, had this happen with Aqua and Ai too, that's why I'm so impressed with how this comic builds its characters, the characters in this manga are suffering internally so realistically, you can actually feel their emotions if you try really hard haha. It makes it really intriguing, that's how I was drawn to it in the first place. Do you have these things happen to you, do? I certainly cannot be the only way who has this happen, I am sure!

The reason I keep talking about him is because. the information that is presented doesn't connect with each other.

Still I feel like I can sense what Ai saw in this guy. Then he should be saved; I want that to happen. And if the way I see it is correct, it actually will happen. I don't know how but by the end of the series, it will. I sound like I have little base, don't I? but I'm usually right with these, I had something like this happen lots of times, so I think-and hope-I'm being so this time as well!

[lionfloss]

as im gearing up to take my hiatus EOD i just want to say ILYYYY to all my mutuals!!! I've gotten flooded with messages and comments and i know i've missed a lot of them and dont want all the kind words and thoughts to go unnoticed. So again just wanted to say thank you for contributing to my positive experience here, all the kind words towards me, the content i share, tortilla, etc <3

[wackytheorist]

Last batch of hidden messages :(

1:Bonjour bonjour !!

2:Nice to see you again... Um...

3: It's strange, J'avais fait en sorte que ce soit beaucoup, mais alors beaucoup moins dur que ce que je vois la...

4:Désolé, je pense qu'il faudra utiliser des méthodes créatives pour en arriver à bout !

5:Pero sé que puedes hacerlo! Creo en ti

6:Merci encore d'ailleurs pour tous les retours sur mes commentaires d'hier, ça m'a beaucoup touché

7:But all things must come to an end, so I'll say goodbye, at least for now :)

8:Mal posso esperar para falar com você novamente

9:A une prochaine fois :)

[freakinator]

?? wdym only a week has passed between the pyramid prison and this?? its def been more than that lmao