#hhhh havent posted in years

[youarentreadingthis]

new fanfic!!

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Boys (TV 2019) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Billy Butcher & The Homelander | John Characters: Billy Butcher, The Homelander | John, Mother's Milk (The Boys), Starlight | Annie January, Hughie Campbell Additional Tags: Non-Consensual Drug Use, Compound V (The Boys), Terminal Illnesses, Hospitals, Non-Consensual Touching, that's tagged just in case, Pre-Season/Series 04, Post-Season/Series 03, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence Summary:

Billy Butcher knows he’s dying. With his brain leaking out of every bloody hole in his head, Temp V has fucked him up for good. For all he knows, he’s going to be spending the last miserable year of his life rotting away in a hospital bed.

Until Homelander comes bearing a get-well gift.

If only Butcher had been too dead to accept it.

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The Boys this time!! I'm really obsessed with this show...

[cinnabunnii]

yk what? in honour of repostober, (bc i lost motivation for goretober, and might pick it up again when i dont feel like shit) I'm gonna post ALMOST every windpower piece SINCE may 11th 2021. I havent drawn them in ages though, so theres only like 1 full piece for this year.

cw for like,,, cringe art i made when i was 13ish

2021

they were literally my everythin when i was like 12-13ish </3

2022

one of those is edited!!! kinda a meme thinggg but ykkkkk it counts!!!

And finally, 2023

kinda wish i had drawn them more this year, but i'm kinda fadin out of the ninjago fandom, i do still draw "versions" of them but like hhhh they are my beloveds though and i will always remain the ceo of them <3

I do have like 1 piece that will hint at wp comin up though <3

technically its not reposting if like... 95% of these have never seen the light of my blog before this, but whatever, they were all posted to my instagram though

[just-eyris-things]

WIP Whenever because nobody can stop me

i got tagged by lovely @archesa, thank you sm, i love getting tagged in this (even if i keep forgetting to do it right away hhhh)

i havent done much writing or art nowadays so let me just see what i have in my wip stash that I feel comfy with sharing...

Post-Combat Rotation

Airell leaned over their knees, taking heavy breaths, while Trahearne desummoned his minions. The once beautiful plain was now devastated with awakened corpses laying in their own tar puddles. The fight was over. Airell and Trahearne got to live another day. "Well done, commander." Airell straightened up as if electrocuted and looked at him with their eyes wide open. "What?" Trahearne raised an eyebrow, a shadow of a smile gracing his lips. "Nothing. You've just... it's been a while since you've said that, that's all." They answered, not hiding their shock. They saw him smile a bit wider at the sight in a quite comforting manner. It was so soft and similar to how he used to smile all those years ago. It seemed the realisation of that hit both of them. Airell and Trahearne looked at each other. They stood so close to one another. Perhaps too close. A hand brushed against a cheek. It stayed there for a second. For two. For three. Trahearne's lips were so soft, as soft as they remembered.

and im tagging.... @archesa right back at you buddy! @dasozelotvonnebenan, @i-mybrunettelady aaaand @ratasum? :) <3

[amaranth]

920921 - happy birthday to the brightest morning star, kim jongdae! thank you for always showing your sweet voice and spreading your kind words. you mean the world to me and i can’t wait to see what other beautiful things you have to share ♡

[neonacidtrip]

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[lesvegas]

[transslyblue]

Does anyone else just... hear this one song and it just makes your heart swell because of all the memories that goes with it? It's just it's such a good feeling

[save-the-spiral]

Today my physical therapist said “You’re too young to be this crunchy.” While he was seeing how knotted the muscles in my shoulders were.

[vampyre666-archive]

TIME ZONES SUCK

[it-was-yxu]

Anyone else watch Bo Burnham’s Inside and immediately regress back to the their worst mental state they’ve ever experienced because HHHHHHHHH I AM NOT WELL

[softlilpet]

life update i guess? since i kinda disappeared there lol whoops. anyways.

the guy who ruined my hot girl summer is still my boyfriend and he finally slept over for the first time last week and my booty hole was devirginized and let me tell you the only thing better than leaking cum from one hole is leaking from two. ugh i love him. and i told him that! and he didnt freak out! i was like "oops did i make things weird" and he was like "nah you're allowed to express your feelings however you want" and then cuddled with me all night and things have continued as normal like he's still super affectionate and everything so im calling it a success. ugh what a sweetheart. he slept over last night too and we spent today together literally doing nothing. we fucked of course but other than that we drank tea, i fed him raspberries, he called me cute, and basically we just enjoyed existing around each other. it was really nice until he had to leave for work but hey i got *another* sleepover so i dont really have anything to complain about lmao

and i also started talking to this other guy at the beginning of november and WHEW. idk if youd consider us to be Dating (TM) but he says stuff like "thats my baby" and he calls me his pupcake and he daddies me beyond my wildest dreams like the other day we were texting and i was feeling sicky and he made me take care of myself and im like !!!!!!! why is this making me wet!!!!!!! hhhh he's tall too and has a nice beard and a hairy chest and a warm voice and basically he's a dream daddy. we went to the same high school and played the same instrument in the same marching band!!! .....15 years apart 👀 yes he's 40 and honestly im into the age difference lkfdjflsdkj sorry if that makes me a freak but it shouldnt be a surprise that i like older guys lmao (my bf is 31 so thats 7 years between us). back to dream daddy tho we havent actually been on a date yet but we're supposed to get sushi tomorrow night and im so excited bc i love the restaurant we're going to and ITS OUR FIRST REAL DATE! and i finally get to see him too! i havent seen him in like a week and im needy what can i say. eeeee im excited.

ANYWAYS yeah i have two amazing men in my life rn which now that i think of it is probably why i havent really been on as much. its funny tho bc you would think id be taking n00ds to send to them and post online but i really havent taken many lately. idk i just havent been feeling very sexy i guess. but yeah i ordered some puppy ears in the mail for some petplay stuff so yall get ready

[smolla-than-a-bug]

NO BECAUSE SAME I JUST FINISHED MY FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL!?!? I FEEL GREAT !! OMG CANT WAIT FOR THE NEW FIC TO ARRIVE <33 but also since I'm online I've been using my school acc for 5 days and now I'm just starved since I need to rewatch trese at least once a week specifically episodes 1-3 because therapy but also I was binge reading ur stories bc their so well-made and also I WANT CHEESE STICKS

SAMESAME DKKDMF tbh im so happy i made friends even w the online setup i was so scared id have to go through the year alone bc new school hhhh but no!! and im like savoring the empty google classroom assignment tab rn <33 omg i havent rewatched trese since it came out hsmsksm ive been rewatching haikyuu and aot while waiting for new tokrev episodes

speaking of tokrev MY GOD I THINK I BINGE READ ALMOST EVERYTHING HNDER THE SHINICHIRO TAG I NEED MORE cue me rereading the drabble i posted and glancing at my drafts but shh u didnt hear it from me

[danger-honey]

Hhhh

School, pandemic, isolation.. man do they fuck up my productivity so much. It’s like ever since last year my brain’s ability to finish things just completely went out of the window. Except for homework, screw me. The only thing I can complete in my life nowdays is always school work, I’m almost tempted to just quit putting effort on them..

I tried to limit my internet usage in hopes of getting me focused on doing things that i actually want to do. Quit some social medias, left discord servers, resist my temptation to just post things in general, it barely worked. If anything, it just made me feel lonelier. And I did that for a year, why did I think this was a good idea lol.

So now here I am. Old discord dms i havent responded to (so sorry), inactive accounts, a whole lot of art wips, a dusty violin, and an unstable sleep schedule. I’m almost graduating high school what did i even learn.

Art takes so much more time. I still find solace in them, but now it takes me more than an hour to do a simple sketch. Normally i’d dismiss this as just a phase of an art block, but its been a year.

Tekken!! Its still fun! I’m still maining Steve, but now there’s Kunimitsu. Most importantly, my Tekken buddy on discord allowed me to borrow his arcade stick! I’m so grateful, knowing how pricey these are, its such a cool thing

K/DA. Man, that was one of the few things that really made me look forward to tomorrow. I followed its campaign on Twitter, it was such a fun and chaotic time (Akali deserves a solo,,). I remember seeing so many cool people who are fans too along the way, really wanted to interact with them, but i was restraining myself and all that. Really do regret that now.. i could use some friends. Now that the campaign’s over, hope theyre doing well. I’d start posting my kda sketches there but.. Twitter feels so open, everyone there can see, just feel like im not ready for that platform yet. But yeah, thank you kda.

Gonna cut off this rambling real quick. I’m tired and slow, i don’t know how to get myself to start doing things again. It feels like i’m still stuck stuck at day 1 of the pandemic laying in bed staring up at the ceiling, while everyone seems to have found their footing at this point.

[shytiff]

Jan 2021 Wins

ive “journaled” for 6 months now. it started as small ___ wins because when you feel rly empty, even doing the bare minimum feels like a win. written down some of the wins. i think until now i’d like to keep the “win” part. a win against my shadow sometimes. a win in life. some things to be grateful for. a win for remembering it later in the future. i know some days im just basically doing nothing.  there are a lot of wars not won by me. but im still tryna ✨manifest✨

1 - woke up. watched bts’ 2021 seasons greetings. read trap city. afternoon nap. pupuy’s mbah passed away. i got DOMS in my body even though i did the barest of exercise yesterday (frail, i know). shower, matcha latte.

2 - the x banner atikah and i sent for racil post thesis defense has arrived lmaoo. mom made delicious (and sweet) fried banana. did some studying (more than usual, bcs the bar is on the floor)

3 - ate muesli, 3 risols. Kopsus coklat at flavola. Stayed there from 12-ish to 17:30 lmaooo. weekly bahas soal w/ fi. Rapat nemo

4 - first day of collab module. Barely cicil ukmppd. My mood is normal-ish but i hardly have the will to study. Dinner is fried fish with mentai sauce, potato wedges, and saladdd by mom

5 - collab module, qa presentation for rsui reps. finished reviewing tryout 2 solid. did padi pretest (got 66,5). ate chicken porridge, a bit of muesli and vsoy, tan ek tjoan bread, matcha latte, fish and chicken and potato wedges and salad, fried banana. i ate well today lol.

6 - slept during collab webinar, went to clara’s place to study osce and attended padi together. i ate well at clara’s placeee lol. ate nastar, kusuka, white kwetiaw with soup (?), and lele goreng. went back home @ 9 pm. i feel refreshed. even though we’ve half studied half mukbang all day. human interaction rly does heal me. i need human interaction more than i think. at night i dreamed about going to bali, to waterparks, seeing sea creatures, watching a movie displayed on a concert-like stage and screen at the front row. 

7 - woke up at 07:55, finished my part for collab group work. felt a bit tired today. the rest of fam went to DM, and when they were on the way back i HURRIED my way out, not even taking a shower lmaoo. got pistachio matcha latte at starbucks dm. now im more skilled in searching the best spot in a cafe to distance myself from people lmao. the matcha latte is served with some sort of pistachio cream and sprinkled with nuts on top. its like when sbux had taro matcha latte and it had purple cream on top. the pistachio taste is quite strong. reviewed TO 1 padi, sent proposals for nemo sponsorship.

8 - did syndrome try out and padi 2 web try out. studied for osce and padi @ clara’s place. wanted to order pizza since clara bought me food before, but she insisted in ordering lmaoo. so dinner is pizza hut

9 - woke up at 11.00 lmao. havent had breakfast. lunch is muesli with the brand new delishhh chocolate granola and cimory banana milk. did one shot try out, got 71. had a google meet with Prof Agus (that ethics book ghostwriting job from a year ago is not finished until now huaaa) that went from 20.00ish and finished at 22.30,,,,, reviewed syndrome try out along the way. havent made my collab self reflection hhhh. i also need to study for osce. also havent edited article for bukang solid. and there goes my saturday nooo

10 - i swear i keep waking up late lmao. Flavola w atikah, racheel later came with wawa. Kopsus coklat and ukmppd class w dr yudo. After class i just talked at flavola (and ended not studying osce at all for sunday). Went to racheel's to pray and talk some more. Hurriedly went back for booty call with fi, watched konser dies natalis first. Tryout and sum study with fi and clar that went from 20:30 to 00:10. Powered by left over kopsus and 2 snackit pia. Rip my sleeping schedule

11 - woke up at 10:30 ish, the lack of meal and horrible sleep pattern (for my standard) produced stuffy nose during the day and a bit of headache that went away for a bit after i ate. Late bfast is muesli, drank protein, ate tan ek tjoan, plus 2 brownies in the evening. Tht coaching w dr niken. Did self reflection for collab. Had dinner without rice, as usual. Ukmppd class w dr ayu. Finished reflection at 21:30 lmao (deadline is 23:55). Tryna sleep and my nose is still itchy and i sneeze a more often. i hope it goes away 2mrw

12 - DV coaching, scele tryout, took a nap before padi cause my head kind of hurts. Les padi while drinking matcha with vsoy less sugar and no added sugar. I can withstand the horrible sugarless cy matcha taste bcs theres a taste of soy. Didnt do anything else. Havent studied osce on my own until now. Astagfirullah

13 - my head still kind of aches. Its goes away when im eating. im eating so well during the weekdays that i gained 2kgs lmao. lazed around the first half of the day. padi. finally tried saint matcha and damnn its an amazing upgrade from Cy matcha. the green color is super different yall. Cy’s green looks sick and tired compared to saint matcha. the taste? immaculate (although coco deli is more fragrant). caffeine? hits. awake and feel normal? yes. messaged an ao3 author and got replied and turns out she’s making a sequel for my fav fic of hers. yay

14 - osce practice w ara ren ness. bedah and anak osce coaching. had 3 of mom’s cinnamon rolls and matcha latte for the afternoon. cicil osce DV. edited some pld articles. did nothing else basically

15 - wasted my day, didnt have the courage to study osce (i feel like i procrastinate on it bcs it feels overwhelming to me), TO FKUI 2, hurriedly reviewed to 1 before, les padi. i feel like this is the least focused im being in a les. maybe its the too few matcha powder.

16 - woke up at 9 am. breakfast is muesli. reviewed to 2 fkui w apa salahku (finished at 12 pm, there goes half of my saturday). tried fried chicken master. its good and tender but i still prefer moon chicken. 

17 - breakfast is muesli, banana and 2 martabak tahu. snack is keripik pisang aduuu wenak (and picking bits of meat cooked by mom). went to devi’s place w/ racheel silvi. brought RJ to be wrapped. we watched okay madam and its super fun, hilarious and full of twists anddd a bit of cutesy romance. just the right balance to enjoy and let the stress out. late lunch is moon chicken yay!! went home after maghrib, did to padi 6 w/ fi and matcha latte. talked about a senior’s wedding and eating healthier til 22:30

18 - To fkui 3, wasted my afternoon playing my phone, finally mustered some will to study after ashar. My progress is rly slow today. Watched hilarious jessi interview with eric, heechul. Im telling u, i thought tiktok is the funniest internet content but i was wronggg. Seeing heechul flustered is hilarious. Tried to study again at night but only learned 1 disease hiks

19 - had no idea what i did before dzuhur lmao. went to racheel’s to surprise atikah. actually napped at her place lmaoo why do i feel so sleepy. gifted rj to atikah. we ate fried chicken master and pempek on a small green table and talked. its like korean movie lmao. we talked while im simultaneously listening to padi lol.

20 - woke up at 8, chicken porridge + muesli and low sugar vsoy for breakfast. arrived at clara’s @10am. to fkui 4. reviewed it. reviewed general physical exam. finished up to padi 7. tried bombo donut. studied osce. i felt sooo dumb in osce (and clara is already super smart). superrr motivated to learn after going back home (arrived at 7) but i ended up opening youtube and drinking protein lmaooo and its suddenly 9 pm

21 - matcha latte at starbucks dm. Studied osce. Obgyn coaching w the super kind dr ilham. Les padi. Read angel buddy and played with my phone til 12 pm

22 - to fkui. padi as usual. had low motivation, so i did the tryout that day close to the actual course.

23 - left home at 06:30 to study together in capitol. had breakfast in mcd first. thank god i ate rice + chicken and breakfast wrap cuzzzz. studied osce together w ara, ical, kelvyn, dio and kak ilonka til about 2 pm. WALKED to bk bcs my parents are there. apparently simply driving to capitol is too much for them. immediately ate muesli at 4 pm cause i didnt eat anything in capitol. did nothing else after that. did not pray maghrib together lmao somehow mom had mercy on me and let me sleep som more. mom bought sate padang but i didnt eat it. i cried in bed because as yoongi said, “this is the real you and this is the real me”. did not shower/wash my face at night bcs i felt like shit lmao rip my face (its a week before bukang photoshoot)

24 - i feel tired, lazy, and just wanted some sleep. like all that’s in me is drained. ate muesli with strawberry milk. tried fitmee beef. its better than i thought. because the noodle is chewy you spend more time to chew. also ate fried chicken and daun singkong. usually i cant wait to go to flavola but even at 12 pm i just feel like laying down. finally mustered the will to shower and go out. its raining a bit on the way. colddd. 

25 - to fkui 6, osce briefing, covid lecture (that was actually for ppds), padi

26 - spaghetti for brekkie, coaching neuro and ophthalmology, cicil osce

27 - cicil osce, the second to the last padi omg. the fastest padi ever

28 - obgyn osce practice at kak ilonka’s place (that nice kosan at forkabi) with ara, ren ness, kelvyn, dio with mannequins from og dept, tried meokja salemba that serves bulgogi rice. quite good. after arriving at home, studied neuro together with menno til about 20:45 an and i just dont have the energy lmaooo so i gave up and slept

29 - today is bukang photoshoot at bintaro. put base make up on the way. even put glue on my eyebrow. got eyebrow, eyeshadow and blush done by renata. took lots of photos. nebeng om coro afterwards to bxc to meet mom. we ate at genki sushi (renata ara kris mendel oca regan geordie eka). i missss road trips hua. did tryout fkui on the way back home. after shower and prayer proceeded to review TO with apa salahku. Last padi (havent done the questions beforehand so i sprinted it out while on the actual course). Muhasabah osce with kak widia afterwards lmao. Studied osce with clara

30 - studied osce with ara ren ness @ merra. I ate eatlah, moms muffin, kemplang, tango. I ate so welll. Its a productive sesh, neuro and infectious disease. At home i studied osce w clara til abt 22:15 ish. I feel like i miss my me time lmao its been 3 days. I can still go on w clara but i dont wanna get myself sick

31 - simul osce in the morning. Osce study with clara almira. Cicil osce alone. Played my phone at 10 pm even though i still have mental clarity post matcha latte -___-

[jensungf]

nooo pls dont post less!!!!!! i need your cute lil posts about everything 😔🥺 yes cancer sun moon leo!! thats me uwu n i watch football a LOT LOT i love it so much, but its the kind that americans call soccer btw hahaha culture difference ✨ n no its not my bday!! its taeyongs bday!!! but we didnt go for lunch bc of that (or maybe we did 🤔) but my friend n i are quite close so we went for lunch bc of that!!! n also!! no need to be productive? whos that anyway, idk her :p red anon p1 💃

sooo for things i got!! some new converse shoes (black ones), an nct album 🙈 (pulled the bday boy uwuwuwu), handcream, somestickers n some cards bc im almost out of birthday cards to send/give! n yes i stan some other groups!! my faves are day6, red velvet n got7, but theres many more that i like! especially girlgroups hihi, basically day6 got7 and nct21 are the only boys i stan and i like to write but i dont publish it much bc im an insecure potato n theres an about me carrd if you dig p2/3 💃

omg this is becoming such a spam HAHAHAHAHAH ive been on tumblr for years upon years, although this account is on the newer side!! also i remembered i LOVE ITZY SO MUCH theyre definitely also in my faves! i think i also said in my deleted ask that i had been working on a header for a story ill most likely wont write skskskks how do you find motivation/inspiration uwu do you have any plans for today!! -red skirt anon 💃

ima put my response underneath hehe to avoid spamming ppls dash <3

ur so cute bub ily my posts are deadass shit posts but ok <333 excuse me if im being a bit dry hksdhjs im half awake like always hehe and i will be on the lookout for that 😳😳 and hakjd i figured hehe but omfg do u play football? and thats so cute nonetheless!!! i hope u n ur friend had fun hehe taeyong’s spirit appreciates ur hangout dedicated to him <3 and unfortunately i have chores to do and errands to run :cc and OMGGG YAY THOSE R ALL GOOD SPENDS OMG but thats so much money bub?? ru rich 😳😳😳 chenle vibes my dear

hahaha jk ofc but i havent had black converse since my emo phase when i was 11 omg i bet they look so cute on u! i prefer black chuck taylors/hightops hehe wbu bub? also which album did u buy!!! ur blessed by the bday boy himself how adorable 🥺 ooo do u get any specific brand or scent of hand cream? i rly like the tonymoly rose scented ones haha but i ran out :c and i LOVE STICKERS my little sister has a lot and i always steal from her!! she usually uses them in her bujo haha do u use them for fun or on ur art/bujo? and thats so cute omfg stocking up on bday cards is something kinda traditional no one does anymore but thats so cute <333 i admire ur tast ein doing things

omg i dont stan any of those groups besides got7 and unfortunately i havent stanned any gg since sistar disbanded but who r ur biases bub?? ive listened to some day6 but if u have any recs lmkkkk and rv r queens <3 and ive heard about itzy!! i dont know too much about them but theyre all stunning and iconic queens (ive seen ryujin and lia hahaha) 

omg bub ur not an insecure potato,, i would lov to read ur writings and i bet theyre amazing! everyone has room for improvement but dont be shy hehe im sure ur writings would pique everyones interest! and time to go digging thru all my moots again round 2 hhhh 

and its ok hehehe thats pretty cool! ive been on tumblr since like,, 2015 or sum but like i fell out for two yrs and remade in march this yr haha so i feel u and OMG HEADERS i had the most trouble making headers cus i usually find a random pic of them i think is nice and slap on some txt using canva and call it a day!! id love to see ur header!! what do u use to make it?? (++ pls write a story for it i would love to read it 🥺🥺) and honestly idk sometimes inspo randomly hits and my motivation fluctuates!! like rn my wip is flopping cus i dont have any motivation to sit down and write but some of my other stories are spur of the moment writings hahah like better together or jsmr bc i was watching jenos jsmr fails or i fell off my bike and i decided to get inspired while sitting on the couch ahkdhfks so i think its diff for everyone!

and no hehe i dont besides doing stuff online for my fam and /hopefully/ making progress on my wip :c wbu bub???

[rnaeborowski]

i havent posted art in almost a year hhhh