#hhh. cant i just go to bed. please

[mistyechoes]

hhhh i just need to lock innn

[hannie-dul-set]

emerging from my grave to share a few lines from peach tree bcs it's been so fucking long god i'm so sorry 😭😭.

[atheliasnotebook]

hey! how are you ?

i'd like to request something, but feel free to ignore/delete my ask if it breaks any rule or if you just don't feel like doing it.

can i ask for a kaeya and/or diluc* comforting a crying gn!reader ? to be more specific, the reader is really down and has been crying all day long. in the end they're exhausted and almost begging their body to just stop crying, only to cry even more.

i hope this isn't too vague hhh. thank you very much if you do it :) and if you don't, that's okay! i wish you a nice day/night.

*you can pick which one if you decide to do only one of them

Take Care of Me, Please

pairing: kaeya x reader, diluc x reader

note: reader is gender neutral

tags: mentioned family death (to the reader), pet name: "hun" (kaeya), pet name: "darling" (diluc)

author's note: (i love ur writing sm i cant believe i got a request from u -///- it makes me so happy i rly hope you like it it)

Something About Kaeya’s Hands…

There’s something about the way that he cups your face with both hands when you’ve been crying all day, gently wiping your tears while he puts on this somber smile. It hurts him—not nearly as much as you’re hurting, but every time he hears you sob and cry, he’s gently caressing your face with his thumbs. His hands are cold—soothing to the touch after the immense heat that you’ve built up from crying all morning.

He’s hurt too. And he wished he could have stayed with you all day, but rumors of attacks on the city call for immediate action, leaving you to your own devices most of the day. Luckily, the letter sent was an elaborate prank (more or so less an accident) from Klee in collaboration with Diona. In turn, he was able to return home to you just a little after noon—only a few hours after both of you had awoken.

Jean, prior to having him take his leave—noticed that his rather smug demeanor had disappeared.

What could be bothering him so much? she thought, before assuring Kaeya that matters about his patrol will be covered by Amber and Eula. She was so concerned when Kaeya simply told her that “it’s nothing that anybody needs to worry about” and “with a bit of live target practice, I bet I’ll be spick and span” In turn, she genuinely decided to consult albedo after ordering him to rest. And Albedo’s response was simply:

“I just think he needs a break right now. I mean, have you seen the state that ______ is in? He’s most likely just worried about them.”

Sucrose’s meek response followed:

“______ has j-just been having a hard time since this morning, I’ve heard. One of their close family members just passed away…”

Jean, after hearing their responses, became firm in her decision to send Kaeya home to supposedly rest.

Kaeya comes home to you, immediately throwing his coat on the rack and preparing a pitcher of water and two glasses to bring to the room and place on his side of the nightstand.

“Hey hun, look at me,” he whispers and cups your cheek, looking you in the eyes as he sits beside you on the bed. “It’s going to be okay—I promise.”

His hands are cold. Albeit, you shudder from his sudden touch and after the initial shock, sink into his hand to soothe your throbbing head, but in the end, you sob even more so, eventually burying your head in the crook of his neck.

“Hey—shhhh, I got you—it’s alright…” he says, rocking gently back and forth and nestling his fingers between the locks of your lush hair, just newly combed through.

“I’m here—I-I’ll be here… don’t worry, I’m not leaving, Jean has let me have the day off. and now, I’m all yours, hun.”

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About Diluc’s Embrace…

His arms are so warm. As soon as he woke up, he heard quiet sobbing from the bathroom, noticing that the empty space in his bed where you were supposed to be.

“Darling…?“ Worry overwhelms his heart and he shudders before taking a deep breath. “Can… you let me in?”

You don’t unlock the door, and simply just… sit there, sobbing louder. You can hear Diluc’s breathing just hastening in a hitched cadence. "P-please?”

And it breaks your heart in two to hear him so worried. It breaks him just as much as it breaks you. Watching the door with blurry eyes, you heard gentle knocking. There are the sounds of other footsteps, the signature clacking of boots from one of the maids approaching, and immediately walking away.

“Please, ______, open the door hun…” he mumbles. And both of you sit there… in silence, for approximately 5 minutes. You can hear his sigh digging into both of your hearts. And you want to open the door—for the reason that you want to feel him warm you, for, you’ve been up since the early morning, taking walks around the winery to try and get yourself back to sleep somehow.

Diluc hears the lock unclick, seeing you shivering and sobbing, immediately taking you into a warm embrace and weaving his fingers in your hair, brushing through and kissing away your tears.

“Darling, what’s wrong—? What happened?”

You try to choke out the words through your sobs. “M-mom… s-she’s—“ and you start coughing, only crying more.

Diluc, hearing these words slip out from your lips cradles you, both of you on the floor on your knees, and having you nestled warmly in his arms.

“Darling, I’ll have the maids and workers take care of everything today, and cancel my shift at the tavern… anything you need, just say the word.”

[shigarakislittlepet]

im so happy to find a blog with good nsfw content for literally all my faves lol we share the same braincell it seems! how about fluffy nsfw headcanons for Dabi, Shigi, Aizawa and Shinsou and well, Baku but I don't want to overwhelm you even if you don't have a character limit hhh, with a s/o that was completely inexperienced in sex before they got together? They grew more comfortable with the idea of sex over time as they used to be really shy about it but they're scared they'll mess up and disappoint their loves? If possible could you mention what kind of approach each boy would have for the first time with their virgin s/o? I'm just feeling some fluffy dick tonite ya know lol stay safe out there <3

Ohhhh my gosh, this whole thing gave me brain rot lmao, thank you for giving me this power <3<3<3

This also took me literal months to finish because life got crazy, so I’m sorry about that. Hope you enjoy it anyway!

TW: loss of virginity, gentelness, fluffy smut, unprotected sex bc I’m a whore (Y/N is on birth control), and as always all characters are adults especially Y/N

-Dabi-

> You are surprised by how patient he is with you. You were sure he’d have gotten tired of waiting, but he didn’t push. He didn’t make you feel badly about it, and the last thing he would ever want to do to sweet little innocent angel is coerce them into something they weren’t ready for. So, he waits.

> It happened so gradually. Over time, light kissing became making out. After a few months, you got more comfortable and it didn’t feel at all odd to fall into bed with him, cuddling and “swapping spit” as he called it, which always made you giggle like a schoolgirl at his crudeness. His hands would test the waters, but he was always feeling for nervous tremors and flinching, never wanting to go further than you were comfortable. At first, he only rested a hand on you lower back, drawing lazy circles into your waist, his other cradling your face gently, reassuringly. Eventually he could get his hand beneath your shirt, still just at your lower back, but he was content with his progress. Your skin was soft and you said he felt warm, and that was the first time he ever thought of his quirk as “sweet, comforting”, as you described the warmth from his hands.

> After a few months went by, he had progressed to the point of being able to freely roam your body with his hands, the warmth helping you stay calm and anchored to him.

> What continued to surprise you is how easy it felt, once you were ready. You didn’t even see it coming. He asked you, so gently, if he could take your shirt off. You told him he could as long as he promised to keep you warm. He went along slowly, constantly reassuring you, “God Angel, you’re so beautiful. I gotta see more of you, can I? Please?”, “You’re so soft, I need to feel more of your skin, angel, please?” You didn’t even hesitate, you didn’t need to. You felt safer with him than you ever had in your life.

> You realized, once you were both naked together, just how comfortable you were with him. And suddenly you felt like you needed to give him everything he ever wanted, and you knew he would do the same for you.

> It happens so slowly, or at least, it feels like it does. His hand slowly grazes down between your bodies until he reaches your core. You gasp, no one but you had ever touched you there, and it feels so foreign and wonderful. And warm. Once you begin bucking onto his fingers, an insatiable grin stretches across his face. He retracts his fingers, bringing them to his lips, and you watch as he sucks them clean. He calls you delicious and rolls on top of you, asks you if you’re ready for him. For the first time, you look down between your bodies and see just how huge and hard he is for you. When he sees your concern he kisses your forehead, then your lips. “I won’t hurt you Angel, I promise.” You nod and smile, and he starts easing into you, stopping every so often when he can tell the stretch is too much. He kisses your cheeks, your shoulders, your lips, whatever he can get his mouth on as he pants and mumbles little praises. “I love you”, “You’re doin’ so well”, “You’re takin’ me sooo well”, “God, you’re so beautiful, you know how beautiful you are Angel?”, “Ahh, you’re so fuckin’ tight and wet for me Angel, you want me that badly?”. The praises and teases help you considerably to keep you relaxed, and fuck, you DO want him. So fucking badly, you need him. When he’s finally seated inside you fully, he waits, clearly using every last bit of his restraint and self control to give you time to adjust. When you finally whine and buck your hips up on him, he loses it. “I hope you’re fuckin’ ready, Angel.”

>You find rather quickly that Dabi’s style is a beautiful mix of “fucking” and “making love”. He fucks you, hard and deep, so much so that it makes you see stars, but while he does it he’s caging you in-between his arms, holding you close while he pistons in and out of you. He looks you in the eyes, watching your reactions, quickly finding what angle makes you convulse and let out those beautiful moans and coos that he’s now desperate to hear.

>When he nears his end, he reaches down between you again to rub sweet circles against your clit, because no way is Dabi cumming first. It’s just not his style.

-Shigaraki-

>BRAIN ROT

> Shigaraki is definitely happy that you’re inexperienced, he’d kill anyone who had ever laid a hand on you before him. You belonged to him.

> It also means that you’re a virgin, which really gets him going because hes a pervert. ((He’s also secretly glad that he’s not the only virgin))

> He is touch starvvveeeeddddddd. We all know this. But at first, he’s so hesitant to touch you, for fear of destroying you.

> You are patient with each other, and together you find out what works and what doesn’t. He got some artist gloves so he could hold your fucking hand without hyperventilating about dusting you. He’s still afraid of you disappearing beneath his fingertips.

> You were never, not even for a second, worried that he would hurt you. You knew that he could, that he had the ability, but you knew that he wouldn’t.

> He wasn’t so sure, he was afraid of rolling over in the night and finding a pile of dust where you used to be. He wakes up from nightmares about it and has to wake you up to hold you while he shakes uncontrollably. He just has to know you’re alive.

> You both get more and more comfortable with physical proximity and contact together, because you both wanted it, you were both just so worried about fucking everything up.

> When the time came where both of you decided you were ready to have sex, you admitted to him that you were afraid of not measuring up to his expectations. All these “what if’s” kept popping up in your mind: “what if he doesn’t find my body attractive enough”, “what if I don’t know how to move right”, “what if I cant please him”, etc. etc. etc.

> He just looks at you kind of taken aback and confused. He was worried about you not being able to see him as sexually attractive because of how he looked, he was just as self-conscious as you. “Darling, you’re the most perfect person in existence, how can you not see that? Look at me! I’m... I... Look like this! How could I ever hope that someone as beautiful as you could ever see me that way?”

>You didn’t immediately know how to respond. You were... heartbroken that he saw himself that way. You couldn’t image him being self-conscious about anything because in your eyes, he was a god. He was perfect and angelic and you told him as much. You looked at him with such adorably big eyes and your voice was full of so much honesty and adoration, he had to have you immediately. He’d never felt desired, he had never felt lovable. He always thought it would be a miracle if anyone would ever be able to even stomach looking at him without cringing away in disgust. But you were so perfect and you loved him so immediately and so much that it knocked him out. He launches himself at you and just kisses you for a while.

> You both fumbled around a bit at first, trying to find what felt best. You both quickly came to the conclusion that you were going to have to practice together. A lot. As much as possible actually, because even in your inexperience, you both felt more amazing than you ever had in your lives. When you were connected like this, panting, kissing, licking, trying your damndest to become one being, it felt like bliss. You never wanted it to stop.

-Aizawa-

> MORE FUCKING BRAIN ROT

> Aizawa has an innocence kink. There I fucking said it.

> When it comes to the person he’s with, he’s a shameless flirt, and while he would NEVER cross a line or pressure you, he definitely does his best to get you in the mood whenever he can, much to your naïve frustration.

> At first you genuinely don’t even realize he’s doing it on purpose. The heated looks he gave you that made your knees weak? You didn’t think he was doing that on purpose, it’s just because he’s... tired? And he always looks so gorgeous, so that’s why. He ALWAYS makes your knees weak. Yeah that’s all it is, obviously.

> And when he comes up behind you, hands on your hips gently, and lowly rumbling in your ear. Sometimes it’s just comments about whatever you’re doing, which was bad enough. But sometimes it was mumbled compliments. About your outfit, how good it made your ass look. About how soft your hair was, how good you smelled, the softness of your skin while he gently rubbed his stubble against your neck.

>YOU COULDN’T FUCKING HANDLE IT.

> He was so soft most of the time, cuddling you while watching movies, cooking together, dancing in the kitchen with you at 3 in the morning after he finished grading papers. The shift that happened when he would get flirtatious was dizzying.

> You were nervous though, Aizawa was a bit older than you, and obviously way more experienced that you. One night while you were curled up in bed together, you told him you were nervous about disappointing him when the time finally came. He sat up and turned a light on immediately and pulled you into his lap. He held you and stroked your hair and told you how much you meant to him, how you could never disappoint him, how much he wanted you, and how he was willing to wait however long you needed. He held you until he was sure you felt better about it, and then he held you until he was sure you were asleep. You were the most important person in the world to him, and he wasn’t gonna let you think anything was ever gonna change that.

> When you finally got tired of his teasing and felt like you were ready, you decided to get him back. Before he got home, you put on one of his long shirts as a dress and started getting dinner ready.

> When he walked through the door and saw that you were wearing nothing but one of his black button ups, he had to maintain every ounce of his self control to contain the rush of feral need that suddenly consumed him. Now it was HIS turn to assume you were being innocent. And man did you play it up. “What’s wrong Shota? Are you feeling okay?” And you bat your big beautiful eyes at him. He was going to have a stroke.

> It wasn’t until you bent over and he noticed you weren’t wearing anything under his shirt that he realized it was an invitation. He came up behind you, caging you in against the counter, and growled lowly in your ear, “Do you have any idea what you’re doing to me?” He gently pushed his growing erection against your ass, making you gasp. Score.

> “W-what do you mean?” you looked up at him as innocently as you could. He took your hand and pressed it to the front of his pants. He groaned low in his chest, thankful for any friction. “Don’t play dumb with me, kitten. You know exactly what you’re doing. I think you should take responsibility.” You grinned.

> “Yes Sir,” he jolts at that, and you sink your knees and get to work undoing the fastenings on his hero costume. When his cock springs free, you eagerly give it kitten licks until he’s had enough. He grips you by your hair and gently guides your mouth down onto his cock. He’s big, bigger than you can take, but that doesn’t stop Aizawa from purposefully making you gag on him every so often. He really does get off on how innocent you are, the tears that hang in your eyes from gagging on his cock. He’s gonna cum soon if he’s not careful.

> After he’s had his fun making you suck him off, he pulls you up and carries you off to bed. No way he’s taking your virginity on the floor, he’s too much of a gentleman. And dinner, what dinner? Thank god nothing happened to be on the stove or in the oven.

> He sets you down in bed and kisses you, takes his shirt off of you and finishes ridding himself of his hero costume. He takes pride in getting you ready for him, relishing in your sweet noises and how wet you are for him. A fact that he teases you about. “S-Shotaaa~” you moan and clench down on his fingers. He smirks, “What happened to ‘Sir’, hmm? I liked that, you know...” All you can do is whine up at him in response.

> When you feel like you’re close to cumming, you whine louder and clench down harder and before you can reach your peak, he stops. You whine in frustration before he leans down and rumbles, “Oh no, kitten, the only way you’re cumming is if you cum on my cock.” You gasp and nearly convulse at his filthy words, but you’ve never felt like you needed him more.

> He fucks you gently, at first anyway. For as long as he can. He rolls his hips into you and angles his thrusts expertly, aiming for that spot inside you that’ll make your head spin. And he hits it. Every time. And your head DOES spin. And soon you can feel the pressure build again and you start whining again, “Sh-Shouta, please! I’m s-oh! So close!” He smiles, and decides to take pity on you. He pistons harder, faster, brings a hand to your core to rub circles against your clit and when you cum, you scream his name and he can’t take it anymore. He slams into you, chasing his own high and simultaneously extends yours. You’re seeing stars by the time he cums deep into you. He rolls over, bringing you with him. You lie on top of him and he strokes your hair, and you just hold each other for a while.

-Shinso-

> I wanna say this now, Shinso is Aizawa Jr. I’m so sorry, but its true. They’re both tired, overworked, cat lovers that just wanna come home and cuddle and pass out.

> He knows he’s your first boyfriend. You met at UA and pretty much bonded immediately. Now that you’re both pro-heros working for the same agency? It was only a matter of time before he made a move. And thank whatever higher power exists that you have the same schedule. More time for cuddles.

> HOWEVER! Don’t let the fact that he’s a cuddle-bug fool you. He frequently has to remember that you’re a virgin and you’ve never been in a relationship before, so you have no idea how much he’s affected by you answering your door on a Saturday morning you both had off wearing one of his hoodies that absolutely swallows you. Looking up at him smiling and yawning sleepily, rubbing one of your eyes and groggily asking, “What are you doing here so early? I thought we weren’t going out till tonight?”. He has to breathe deeply to stop himself from jumping you.

> Because much like Aizawa, seeing you so sleepy and soft and small and knowing how innocent and naive you are to all of the things you do that make him need you... is going to make him lose his mind. Quickly.

> Instead of an innocence kink though, this motherfucker has a corruption and a mind break kink. He wants to make it impossible for you to feel pleasure without him, he wants to make you need him desperately, forever. And he wants to do it without the help of his quirk. But that would all come in time, at the moment he has to stop himself from cumming in his pants because you’re bending over on your way to your room so you can change, stooping to pet your cat and his hoodie rode up your ass and he can see your lacy black panties and you were GOING to drive him insane long before he ever got the chance to make you his, he was sure.

> He had brought you coffee and suggested you just stay in all day since you both had such a late night. Watching movies and stuff. You know, normal stuff. He told himself he wasn’t going to try and make a move. Right? Right.

> But when you emerged from your room 45 minutes later, showered and changed, your hair still damp and a droplet of water drifting down your neck and landing in the dip of your collar bones, all he could think of was licking it up. How good your hair must smell, how your skin was still probably warm form the water... He was staring, and you pretended not to notice.

> You were nervous about not measuring up to his expectations. You’d seen the women he usually went out with, and how comfortable they were with their bodies and their sexuality. How beautiful they were. As far as you were concerned, you were nothing like them.

> He could see the gears turning in your head and the downturn of your mouth, and he asked you what was wrong. He motioned for you to come sit with him, and it wasn’t five seconds before he pulled you into his lap. After some coaxing, you let him know what you were worried about. He assured you that the reason he was so happy with you is because you weren’t anything like the women he had dated before. Because, not only were you far more beautiful than they were, they had also been conceited and cold, only dating him because he was an up and coming pro-hero that could get them into events so they could dump him for the first bigger hero they’d meet. He liked that you were soft and warm and he could trust you, that you had always trusted him, even despite his quirk.

> You talked for awhile, and as the morning sun drifted higher into the sky, you decided it was time to door dash some food. While he ordered it, you excused yourself the restroom. You needed to think. The heaviness of the conversation still weighed on you, and you’d never felt closer to him than you did now. It was time, you were sure. You wanted to give him everything he’d been waiting so patiently for, he deserved it. And so did you damnit, no more of this scaredy-cat bullshit! You gave yourself your best war face in the mirror before you exited the bathroom and going back to the living room where Shinsou was reclined on your couch. Head tilted back, resting on the pillow behind him.

> He was so beautiful. Lavender hair a wild mess, eyes closed and lashes fluttering softly. You wanted to kiss his neck suddenly, and unlike when urges like this usually happened, you didn’t shove the thought away. You quickly straddled him and, before he had the chance to question you, you began kissing up and down his neck softly. “K-kitty...” he groaned beneath you, gripping your waist, his hips jerking up against yours.

> After a while of your explorative kissing, he growled impatiently and flipped you over easily, pressing you into the couch. He kissed you like he might die if he didn’t, deep and slow and desperate. When he finally broke for air and looked at you, he felt his heart and his dick jump. Your flushed face and your eyes that were looking up at him through your eyelashes heavily, your mouth hanging open gasping and your kiss bitten lips, your brows softly cinched at the effort it took for you to remember you needed to breathe.

> He asks you if you’re sure you were ready, and when you nod dazedly up at him he doesn’t need any more convincing.

> He takes his time, he’s slow and methodical. He wants your first time to be an enjoyable experience. Something you can look back on fondly and remember how much he loved you, how good it felt, how comfortable you were. He wanted it to be better than his first time, drunk after a hero convention, with some woman who didn’t remember his name in the morning and never called him back. He pushed the thought away. He focused on you, on how perfect you were.

> When he finally thrusts into you, you think you want to feel like this forever. You tell him so, and beams with pride, pushing your pleasure further. Kissing your neck and praising you. Telling you how perfect you are, telling you all the things you do that drive him crazy, telling you that he’s never going to let you go, that you’re his forever and he’s yours.

> You cum together, and you think that everything in the world must have always been this beautiful. You spend the rest of the day cuddling, eating, and making love.

-Bakugo-

> No thoughts in this mans head. None. At least when it comes to romance. When you first start dating, you had to make the first move cause his oblivious ass just thought you were challenging him. You had to explain to him that what you were actually doing was called “flirting”.

> So when it comes to your first time, you know you’re gonna have to make the first move there too. He fears rejection, so he avoids the things he really wants the most. Which in this case is you whining on his dick.

> But he also knows you’re a virgin and he doesn’t wanna scare you, so he leaves it be. Trusting his fist to get the job done when he really needs to let off some steam. Either by punching shit or jerking off.

> One day, you do catch him jerking off, and you immediately start to (stupidly) think that you’re not enough for him, that he might leave you for someone who can give him what he needs. You don’t think he notices you having a mini panic attack in the hallway so you sneak back to the kitchen to catch your breath and think. Why HAD you waited this long? What were you waiting FOR? You guessed you had just been worried about not knowing what to do, about him getting impatient and annoyed with you for your lack of experience.

> Making your final decision, you square your shoulders and march yourself back to your shared room. You confidently open the door to find him ... waiting for you?

> “Tch, took you long enough. You done freakin’ out now?” He grumbles from his spot on the bed. You nod meekly and he opens his arms for you, an invitation you gratefully accept. He pets your head and continues grumbling, “ just as bad as shitty-hair, nobody ever knocks anymore. You shouldn’t be surprised when you just try to walk in like that...”

> He keeps petting your head until eventually you hit him with it. “‘Tsuki, I wanna... uhm...” you look up at him with pleading eyes hoping his quirk somehow suddenly allows him to read your mind.

> It doesn’t. “ You wanna what? C’mon, spit it out.” No thoughts, remember?

> You huff and blush and finally squeak out, “Wanna make you feel good, ‘Tsuki...”

> His brain stops working momentarily. When he catches back up, he smirks. “Seriously? It just took you gettin’ jealous over my left hand for you to be ready?”, he teased. You stick out your tongue and he grabs your jaw, looks you dead in the eyes when he says, “I have something much more important for that cute little mouth to do.”

> Your eyes go wide at his suggestion, even though it really doesn’t surprise you. When Katsuki wants something he wants to go all out, no half-assing it. You nod nervously and he laughs at your apprehension, allowing you to shift down his body until you were face to face with his fly. You undid the button and zipper with shaky hands, and gently guide his dick out of his jeans.

> Beautiful is the first word to come to your mind. Beautiful and massive, just like the rest of him. He was easily over six feet tall, and built too so it really shouldn’t have surprised you, but it did. For a moment all you can do is look up at him from your place below him, your big strong hero. You melt a little and you notice him smirking down at you again, “What ‘ya lookin’ at, princess?”. He gently strokes your cheek while you admire him, “You.” you reply dazedly. His smirk widens to a bear malicious grin, “Me? How come?”. A feeling you’re not totally familiar with, but you’re pretty sure is called submission, fills you suddenly and you feel warm and content. “You’re perfect,” you bat your eyelashes and bite your lip as you gently start to stroke your hand up and down his length.

>He controls his breathing, because he really can’t handle you looking so cute with his cock that close to your pretty little face. “‘Tch, and? What’s got you so worked up about it?” You giggle and nuzzle your face into the base of his cock and look up at him innocently. “I’m just glad I’m yours,” you smile and lick him from base to tip before gently taking him into your mouth. You’d read enough smut online to at least have some idea how to do this.

> He almost cums when you say that you’re glad to be his. His, he grins. He doesn’t get to think about that for too long though because your warm, wet tongue is sliding up his shaft and then your pretty little mouth engulfs him and he thinks he might hyperventilate if you keep looking up at him like that. He’d almost say it wasn’t fair, but then you start moving and he thinks that he could actually die happily from the warm bliss that fills him while he watches you try to take more and more of him down your throat.

> This is much more fun than you thought it would be, especially because Katsuki keeps letting out those little sighs and groans, you’re pretty sure he doesn’t even realize he’s doing it. You hollow out your cheeks and suck a bit harder before taking a deep breath and relaxing your throat as much as possible. You lower yourself down as far as you can, pushing past the ring of muscle in the back of your throat before moving down further. You feel him lay his hand gently, encouragingly, on the back of your head. You’re surprised when you find your nose nestled in the light blonde fuzz at the base of him and you stick your tongue out to lap at the underside.

> He jolts when you begin your descent. You’re not really gonna try to deep-throat him, are you? He watches you, mesmerized. No ones ever even tried, always saying he was way too big. It felt way too good. He laid a hand on the back of your head to ground himself, quickly realizing he had to control himself so that he didn’t clench his fist in your hair or shove you down all the way and hold you there. When you reached your goal, he sighed. Your throat felt perfect wrapped around him, just like he knew it would. When he felt your tongue sneak out of your mouth and lick, he thanked whatever creator there was that your tongue was long enough to reach his anchor. when you start to move your head up and down, he can only take it for so long before he’s thrusting up into your mouth. When you gag on him, that’s it, he has to pull you off him before he grips your head and suffocates you on his cock.

> He’s nearly at the point of begging, but thankfully, mercifully, you seem to get the idea. You wipe your mouth and lie back on the bed, giggling at his abruptness and he growls in response. He kisses you, and praises you, telling you how good you are, how much he needs to be inside you as he undresses you. You’re surprised at how automatically your legs open for him, and you tell him how much you need him inside of you as well. You feel so empty all of a sudden. Until one of his thick fingers finds your molten core and gathers some of your slick before sinking into you and you gasp.

> He continues to kiss and praise you as he works you with his fingers. You whine and moan and beg, it’s like music to his ears. When he thinks you’re ready, he lines himself up with your entrance, sliding up and down, grinding against your clit briefly before continuing. “I wanna hear you beg for it, princess.” and fuck, did you beg. A beautiful litany of filthy fucking words fell from your mouth, and he couldn’t take it anymore. He sinks into you fully in one thrust, gripping your open legs for stability.

> At first you can’t speak, you can’t make any noise at all. You feel so unbelievably full, and you look up at him and his eyes are clenched shut and his jaw is set. He’s holding himself back. He’s trying to be gentle with you because it’s your first time. He really is very sweet when he wants to be. You raise a shaky hand to his face and he leans into it. He met your eyes and you watch as his control falters when he sees you bent in half like this. You smile, “Katsuki, please”, is all you can say. It seems to open the flood gates. For all his self control, he pounds into you mercilessly and it fills you with the most intense feeling of ecstasy. “F-fuck ‘Tsuki, you feel s-so fucking good,” you moan and gasp brokenly.

> He cums hard. Grunting, growling, and near snarling the whole way through. You’re seeing stars, even though you haven’t cum. It had felt so fucking amazing, and you’re more than content with that. Katsuki is definitely not however, and is intent on eating you out until you beg for mercy. He always takes such good care of you.

[yostresswritinggirl]

so idk if u write for scara but i just desperately need to get this out to smn its been stewing in my brain everynight for the past week

u can take this as a req or as js a little discussion abt scara ig? up to u

so what if reader was made to be a doll but when raiden created scara, some of that divine power leaked out by accident and brought reader to life?

readers creator, lets call them r/c, is a dollmaker, who makes different sized dolls for a living, and he makes life sized dolls sometimes

so reader was made by r/c, and when r/c went to bed after completing reader's main body and features, ei's divine power somehow leaked out? and brought reader to life.

idk how r/c would react but i have 2 ideas

no 1: r/c cant support another living bring bc hes barely coping with his meager income, so he lets reader free to fend for themselves

no 2: r/c figures he could get reader to be his maid/servant and mistreats them; doesnt feed them well, no proper living conditions bc hes broke

and the night reader tries to escape, r/c almost catches them, but a gust of wind blew past reader, allowing them to run faster and escape, essentially having freedom. basically, venti gave them an anemo vision, bc reader fought for their freedom kinda?

this is their first betrayal, with their creator abandoning/mistreating them, similar to scara

nect ,reader finds a village and makes a friend, ill call them f/n. so f/n and reader become closer, and reader finds out f/n steals things for the thrill of it. one day, f/n drags reader along on one of their theiving trips, and gets discovered. f/n disregars reader, and escapes without sparing a glance for reader. reader gets caught and takes the blame for the theft. this is the 2nd betrayal, where a friend turns on them

after escaping? finishing the punishment that was met out to them, reader finds a cat maybe? idk abt this one

but they become inseparable. think of tomo and his cat maybe? reader and the cat would chill tgt and cat would sit on readers head or shoulders and nuzzle into their hair or cheek. but one day the cat gets sick and reader goes out to find some medicine/herbs to help

but by the time reader gets back, the cat succumed to its illness and passed

ik these are all pretty similar to scaras backstory but im not creative ok 😪

all i started out with was reader being a doll lol and i came up with these from the timespan of 11pm to 2am

as im writing this its 12.40am lol

reader and scara meet, and scara realises theyre just like him

one is a puppet, the other a doll, and both went through similar experiences

scara and reader open up to each other eventually and fnd company in each other ig idk

another one could be r/c treated reader like his own child, but died of age eventually, and reader is alone, then meets scara after hes gone through his 3 betrayals

scara trusts them bc theyre a doll, similar to him being a puppet. but bc reader was brought up with love, they are a lot more caring and kind, and they cause scara to develop a soft spot idk

this was just rotting in my brain for the past few nights so yea 🧍

love ur work btw 😍

they always make me go awooga in excitement whrn u have a new post

*shakes head* I do write for Scaramouche but I don't have my requests open so please keep that in mind

I'll try to make sense of this with my sleepy mind hhh *cleaning glasses* I don't really have much to say for fear that it might spill over to my puppet fic already and you pretty much got the details down, but a replica of his story with so many side characters doesn't sit right with me

I do very much lean on the creator tending to them - actually the set up is quite complicated and uhhh I honestly thought they'd be a doll made for Kuni or a doll commissioned by Raiden haha. We can say that the thing that made them come to life is archon residue and that the dollmaker either slowly became corrupted while in the presence of the doll or like Teppei and met an early death

From then on it could be that the people they want to get close to or even those that have bad intentions always die in their presence and so they became closed off, viewed as cursed, and scared to be near others. And since Scaramouche is a puppet, he doesn't have to worry about dying in their presence so he's pretty much the only one they can even be close to!

Maybe Scaramouche might go mad down the route from the exposure (angst) or upon acquiring the gnosis, the divine power cleansed the archon residue or exchanged it with the gnosis' power to make them alive (good)

Thank you very much for your support, ah I really need to work on writing, bastard sickness getting in the way

[tfw-no-tennis]

mtmte liveblog issue 36

time travel arccccccccccccc yessssssssss

I have been waiting SO LONG to reread this arc hhhhh yessss

starting off strong with the sexy roller cover. nice

I love the disconnect of ‘orion pax: outlaw’ compared to the last time we saw him in shadowplay where he was orion pax: supercop

he’s still punching people for JUSTICE or whatever so I guess not much has changed

oh my god this is the issue with the many many two-page spreads...the first time I read this issue I didn't realize that was a thing and GOD I was SO fucking confused. there's already a lot going on in this issue/arc but this made things so much worse hvbhjkdfbsk. I powered thru and still managed to understand most of the arc despite reading half this issue out of order (essentially) bc the website I read it on split the pages up and I couldn't tell they were supposed to be doubled (and also I'm dumb so I didn't figure it out)

anyways, the actual issue...windcharger is out here using his powers to rip a dudes arms clean off. wow!

and there's skids getting punched in the face. Ls

and glitch! a totally minor character of course...

MANNNNN I SO adore the panel of all the lost lighters appearing in a cloud of purple smoke, all posing epically....SO fucking good, peak sci-fi coolness vibes, A++

as usual jro killing it w/the titles, ‘elegant chaos’ is such a great name for a time travel arc

also reading the tfwiki has shown me that many of jros titles are song or album titles, to which I say - that's epic and I love it. with jro doing it, I feel like it straddles the line between referencing music and the very fanfic-esque ‘title things after music’ vibe. I love it

oh god I forgot they use bs cybertronian time units in this sometimes lmao...I mean of course they do but still like, what the fuck is a cycle. is that a day. I feel like these words all have no meaning/the meanings change drastically depending on continuity. I cant keep up and also I'm lazy and don't care enough to try

I love rodimus did u know

poor riptide looks so confused lmao

IS....IS REWIND PIGGYBACKING TAILGATE...THATS SO FUCKING CUTE....I cant fully tell bc of the page layout but ooomg so precious. minibot buddies

whirl saying ‘chuff’ just reminded me how british jro is hvbhakjhdsfbs sometimes it just Jumps Out in mtmte and I'm like Oh God Britain Is Real

I really like the mtmte approach to time travel and paradoxes and whatnot. its just complex enough to be interesting but not too convoluted that it bogs down the story. perfect sci-fi fun!

mannnn chromedome talking abt brainstorm :( I'm sad abt those two hhhhh

and I love how at this point, nobody in the cast ACTUALLY knows brainstorm well enough to know what he’s really doing - including chromedome, who’s ostensibly his closest friend, somebody he’s known for a while - and even the readers don't really know what he’s up to...I like the mystery tbh

cant believe rewind wrote orion pax’s biography, omg. completely forgot abt that detail

cd saying ‘I love it when he talks history’ about rewind....hhhh I love cdrw so muuuuch

godddd the line rodimus says abt whirl - how they need people like whirl around who are ‘happy to get in the way’ of danger and death - that shit haunts me man like...rodimus is basically saying that he’s bringing whirl along to potentially die in place of someone like orion pax (nevermind the fact that whirl dying would ALSO fuck up the timeline)...like, how deep does it go?? is he saying that bc he knows whirl has been trying to get himself killed for a while now, or just bc whirl likes violence? mannn I cant...the character intricacies...man

anyways...I love rodimus he’s such an interesting character. you have that fucked up moment and then in the next panel he’s saying ‘if you want to call it a time phone, I wont stop you’ about the quantum walkie-talkie. he has the RANGE

oh and then rodimus casually volunteering chromedome to do mnemosurgery on anyone who might accidentally find out about them time traveling, which is again fucked up on multiple levels. the raaaaange

vjaksbhdhfusajbfdjk that panel of the lost light squad just standing there like idiots reminds me of that post where someone said abt that panel ‘these characters have a collective 3 brain cells’ or something hvbjadkfnksfdl

rodimus IMMEDIATELY breaking his own rules by trying to reassure pax that they're good guys by pointing at his autobot badge, even tho the autobots DONT EVEN EXIST YET at this point...my boy PLEASE go purchase some brain cells from the store 

and the fact that rodimus introduced himself to pax w/his real name...shouldn't he go by an alias or st??? that seems like a good time travel rule since optimus and rodimus definitely know each other later 

and like, did they not anticipate that some of the people in the past would recognize some of the lost lighters hgbajkhdjfnjksf like cd and whirl get Instantly recognized...great job guys

they are all SO bad at this hvbahskjdhfbasjkf I cantttt luckily for them the orion crew is handing them easy alibis 

‘the dugout’ is that a baseball reference????

also I love the scenery here, the bg looks like rock but there's metal piping and stuff running thru it, its so cool...really adds to the whole ‘cybertron biomes are made of metal’ thing

‘ancient history’ rodimus are you KIDDING ME-

cyclonus time travels to the past and IMMEDIATELY finds a window to stare broodingly out of. icon

tailgate thinking orion pax is SUPER COOL continues here from shadowplay and I love it...tailgate is so cute

and the tg saying ‘don't you think that's awesome, cyclonus?’ hhhhh so cute

one reason I love this arc so much is that this is the arc where the gay Really amps up 

TRAILBREAKER.... oh man ;_;

are you telling me that this outlaw base they're in has ONE bed for all of these people. what the hell vhbaksjhfnsal

cant believe rung sampled roller’s steroid juice box

also cant believe robot steroids exist. except yes I can and I love it

oooh roller’s a 0/1%er? I forgot abt that 

cant believe orion pax just grabs some random phone that belongs to these weird new people and answers it. WHO does that

goddddd megatron and orion’s conversation....destroy me

HHHHHH like...the HISTORY....the regret...the missed opportunities...its all so palpable....goddddddd

and of COURSE, the whole thing is steeped in tragedy...the ideological differences that will become the foundation for a 4 million year long war...megatron, who believes that you need to burn things down and start again to really make change stick, and then orion, who says ‘reform is the answer, not revolution’....AUGHHH the intricacies. mannnn

‘you sound lost’ 😭😭😭

‘its tragic.’ yeah, that about sums up their relationship, especially at this stage and in this continuity 

anyways. [cries about old man megatron talking to young naïve orion pax] goodbye

AUGHHH and then we jump to rodimus ONCE AGAIN breaking his own rules and trying to save trailbreaker...IT HURTS MAN...god I love rodimus, I feel like him being broken up about crewmembers like trailbreaker dying is one part regular sadness over people he knows dying for tragic reasons, and one part personal guilt at someone under his command dying, even if he’s not involved/at fault. I love the dichotomy of this emotional reaction that comes only partially from empathy/emotion, but also comes from a kinda self-centered need for success as measured by people under your command staying alive. and taking into account rodimus’s life it totally makes sense that he’d act like that...GAH I love it. the complexity of it all!

orion pax saying ‘you should read [megatron]. it’s powerful stuff’ I'm screaming, so many LAYERSSSSS

I fucking love time travel AHHHHHHHHH like the opportunity for interactions like these....chefs kiss

‘hey, best friend! miss you!’ rodimus is such a shit hvbdajkfksjhfd 

‘very sus’ rodimus ahead of his time w/the among us lingo

oooh and then they realize that the senate is trying to kill the sparks...gotta save the babies!

tailgate scolding cyclonus for bluntly stating that you'd wanna be subtle when killing newborns...hhhvbhsdfhhhhhh I love them sm

ooooh and rewind has an interesting suggestion - that the senate is actually trying to irradiate the sparks into being outliers...rewind is so smart I love him

and the fact that he’s using history from his database...love it

rodimus sending cyclonus and whirl out like pokemon

ROLLER NOOOO DONT GO OUT THERE

also wow this is literally the 5th (I think) double page spread in this issue...the confusion I felt the first time I read this...lmao 

and now this is literally one of my favorite issues so I'm glad I know what's going on lmao

oh man rodimus telling cd not to erase trailbreakers memory even tho that could jeopardize the entire timeline... :( 

oh man I didn't even notice but roller getting debris blasted into his face like that makes the whole ‘roller is tarn’ theory even more legit considering tarn’s face scars....

‘tighter the better’ hhh don't say that orion. but also, that’s the companion phrase to megatron saying ‘the deeper the better’ hvbhasjkhdfbaksjlf

I do love the semi-campy action hero antics that orion pax gets up to. its just so fun, even when the stakes are high and things are serious

‘this is the greatest thing I have ever seen’ tg ily

THE REVEAL THAT THE SPARKS WENT TO NYON...so rodimus just saved himself, basically...time travel is so trippy

GODDDD ND THEN TRAILBREAKER...HVHHHHHh 😭😭😭 THATS SO CRUEL MAN

oh man that last panel of trailbreaker holding up roller’s juice box...iirc the first time I read this I thought that was roller (cause of the juice box I guess? idk I'm an idiot) so I was like oh ok he must've come back or something. very much related but I didn't really think about tarn being a particular pre-established character and totally didn't read the whole ‘roller is tarn’ thing that was going on 

which in my defense ruth also didn't pick up on any of that while reading this and eventually like 2 issues before the reveal I had to prompt her like ‘you should maybe be wondering WHO tarn is’ vhbahjksdfbaksjdf

so! issue 37! this issue is a solid favorite of mine, id say definitely top 5 or even 3. I'm super biased bc I fucking LOVE time travel, it’s seriously one of my favorite tropes ever, and this issue hits all the time travel beats I love. characters traveling to the past and interacting with people they know! conversations that have multiple meanings bc of TIME TRAVEL! trying to save someone who meets a terrible fate in your future! fun time travel action! the time traveling characters being generally terrible at hiding the fact that they're time travelers! ITS SO GOOD. 

and I love the clever way everything is tied together here - where we get a nice continuation of shadowplay, with this taking place shortly after that with a lot of the same cast, and time travel classics like the good ole ‘if we hadn't travelled back in time and done what we did, the future we came from wouldn't have existed at all,’ in the flavor of ‘rodimus saving his baby self’ and ‘rodimus NOT saving trailbreaker’ and ‘everyone forgot about roller :(’ 

ok but like, did the lost lighters just go ‘oh well, guess rollers gone now.’ like they DID realize that the outlaw crew would have no idea what happened to him if they got their memories erased, right?? did the lost lighters figure that since roller never reappeared after this time period, that was how history was ‘supposed’ to go and they shouldn't mess with it? am I overthinking it? as usual: yes, probably. I love overthinking about comics, in case that wasn't obvious

basically...I love this issue soooo much. so so good and a bunch of fun tropes that I love. I mean the whole arc is like that for me since I love time travel so much. so I cant wait to (re)read more!!

[smallestclowninthecircus]

Tma season 2 notes baybeee

I made myself take several breaks so I could give my frie d who is listening to it at the same time as me a chance to catch up. Honestly just posting them so I have them saved somewhere but whatever.

ep 41: real graham wrote keep watching before he was replaced. Jon feels like he's being watched. But they werent replaced by things related to the eye. It's the web that's on the box that replaces them. Endless hallways and doors to nowhere. I bet nicholas will have ideas what entity this relates to. If it even does. They're like the tunnels in the one with the builder guy. Tunnels closing in etc. Also like the cave diving one. He's assuming it's just one

ep 42: so 100 gecs? (IM SORRY I LIKE 100 GECS BUT LMAO) so there's some entity related to music right? There's the piper episode and the 27 w/ the calliope. Ah yes, this season is gonna be the season of Paranoid!Jon

ep 43: section 31? fucking books. god no. smashed lights? cult lady did that. covered the lights too. she mentioned a spooky clown doll. thats not random.

ep 44: is this that same circus that got mentioned before? it is! the pipe organ! pop off organ! pipe off! mouth on the stomach! yes! mouths in unusual places my beloved!

ep 45: antiques! like that one ep!

ep 46: every time books get mentioned i sigh. hhh sus smells. it got brighter. I get the vibes occasionally that the dark and the eye are sorta at odds with eachother. GRRR BARK BARK LEITNER. ayyy ex altiora. entity go brr. which entity do we thing it is? my guess is The Dark. The book buyer's name is Mike. He has scars? Electricity? The childhood friend of the guy who got it later on perhaps? The Vast? its formatted like an entity idk. This happened before the other one. He got trapped in the wood carving. a win for the web lol spiders go brr

ep 47: did i hear spiral? ITS THE NOT THING FROM THE EPISODE WITH NOT GRAHAM "it didnt move, it shifted" is like the exact same sentence as before. ay john's starting to remember. the laughing woah thats weird. is "michael" one of the entities? "you make it seem like theres a war" supports my theory that theres a struggle between a couple of the entities. I said i thought it was the eye and the dark i believe but im not sure. its whatever entity michael is vs the worms? what did nicholas say the worms were again? The Corruption? still dont know which one michael is tho.

Had to take a break after that episode. smth about the quality of michael's voice makes me feel like im gonna slip into one of those states where it feels like nothing is real, so i got a nice cold glass of water.

ep 48: jesus ok this one's kidna corny. you're telling me love made the crowd go away come on now. Ur losing it big J. also shouldnt it be more sus that "sasha" is so unaffected by the worm incident/ finding of gertrude's body

ep 49: haven't we heard hector's name before? oh is he the crime guy? fucking jared... so it's a throat? chompa chompa. (it's just a little bit hot) the good part about these episodes is that we know whoever's telling the story isn't gonna die. even if it's a close call, they're not dead. hotworth? ok not jared keay. it bothers me how theres so many repeated names, can they not come up with other names? "sasha"'s computer is breaking... sus. Elias our favorite weed man! jon ur so paranoid lmao

ep 50: robert smirk, at it again. this is like that one episode with the old dude who locked his door. who said idle beforehand? was it smirk? fingertips. thats so weird lmao. bahahah tim

ep 51: simon fairchild. im sure jon will mention the name at the end i cant remember where we've heard it. this is just like the cavediving episode. a hand? there was a hand in the last one right? the scalpel! and an eye thing. she's trying to throw them off.

ep 52: thats the guy from before! with the hearts! god i hate this guy writing the statement hh. lights blowing, and brackish water. we know how this ends but its still tense. rainer? reigner? rain man. we've seen him before

ep 53: pls not a leitner. oh boy mans scratched out his eyes. rip skelly. why would gertrude have had this statement off the books? jon stabbed himself?? bruh im? big man are you okay

ep 54: cockney boys! ayy its our favorite delivery men. she cut out their eyes. she knew that the eye was a thing?

ep 55: oily residue like the retirement home!

ep 56: worms? no. spiders?? bruhh. aaah yelling :(( aww martin anyways yeah i called it about paranoid!jon he needs to take a nap and drink some hot chocolate and calm down for once please

ep 57: just remembered, i think theres an entity called The Lonely?? This feels pretty lonely idk. fairchild, lukas/ lucas, some spooky place in norway idk. "sasha" knew he was recordinig hmm suspicious cmon jon figure it out. Sasha and tom. hm sus. for records sake i feel liek i should note here that I did have it spoiled to me simply that that's not sasha, but thats really all. i assumed it was like the thing that happened to graham in S1

ep 58: i feel like i recognize the name eustice (?) wick. someone please tell me im not just watching jon's descent into madness over the course of this podcast. im hoping it isnt so but, (and pardon the dsmp reference) im getting real wilbur vibes from this one.

ep 59: oh dear ok account from the fielding house. swirling designs? Spiral time? oh boyy. oh wait! 6 inch hole in the middle! is it not a spiderweb type design on the table? thats what i had assumed but that description sounds more like a spiral thing. cobwebs is a Web thing. ayy nicholas was right! the box goes in the table! the place that she kissed him was burning. Raymond is an avatar of The Web and agnes is the burning one. Lightless Flame! Why did she save him? i guess she was against this guy eating ppl or wtvr but why was she at the halfway house then? I think she's like michael.

ep 60: the eye go brr

ep 61: breacon and hope once again. tom. sasha's boyfriend. vampires sleep in coffins. the guy just walking in seems similar to the mind control of the vampires

ep 62: bones! its that one leitner. is this mother keay? the mom of gerard? this is what happened to her right? her skin was found on hooks? oh yeah thats what i thought the pages are made of skin. yeesh. The End!! sounds like an entity. phrased like one, and i think i remember it. are the people trapped in the pages? or... kept?

ep 63: eaten by the darkness! cavediving episode! (just like eaten by the sky) did my brain make up one called The Vast? it feels like it should be one, and all these episodes have some similar description about their feelings when they do whatever chosen hobby they have. ok now this one kinda feels like the dark. lights going out and all that. ok so not really a The Vast thing, its more of a Dark thing. feckin smirk gah.

ep 64: dice! the death guy! the death game thing! the person tricked somebody else into becoming death and then they were immortal? but if the egyptians wanted to kill him or punish him or whatever couldnt they just kill him? it worked in the end when he had the person giving the statement stab him, that did the job and actually killed him

ep 65: finally jon is actually acknowledging something is wrong.

So we know Mary Keay was revived most likely with the book by gerard.

Gertrude was way more aware of the entities than Jon. mary keay referenced The End openly and she cut the eyes out of her magazines and all that which makes me think she was aware of The Eye

ep 66: please not buried alive pleeaase not buried alive. lukas of the tundra? didnt we hear the name lukas before? she wanted it to be difficult to find important files because that way bad people couldnt find them?

ep 67: agnes... the girl in the hilltop house? agnes poppin off!! he's really not gonna question how she knew where he lived?? oh no D: the tree. were they the ones working on the house? aww they kissi- OH DEAR. why did she kiss him? it seemed like she cared about him? also she could kiss that other dude on the cheek and he was fine, but maybe it was cuz she was younger? lightless flame go brrrrr.

ep 68: oh god books. yup its bitchboy leitner. mans said "this seems supernatural, its a werd book!" bruuh.

ep 69: heh nice. aw cmon jon listen to martin. gahhh spiders. is that the class we heard about in the other doctor one with the teeth apple? some kind of psych class? oh dear. fucking spiders. aaaah. web do be goin brr. it's like the girl in the homeless shelter! who made the guy leave and she took his bed.

ep 70: is this gonna be the book that mary keay had? Most likely a leitner no matter what. Oh boy latin. Why did it start in latin then become old English? I'm guessing people put them in the book? He cant burn it. Phrophecies go brr. He says eh it's a decade in the future it's fine. Its gonna have changed. Ayy called it. Just accept it, it's a magic book. His death is getting closer. Leitner didnt make them but just collected them? Gertrude burned the book! She burned them down there so no one would know.

ep 71: oh boy tunnels. Our favorite thing /s. is The Buried a thing? Idk this seems pretty buried. Oh dear he's trapped here isnt he. "Not enough space to move, never enough to breathe" is that from the computer episode? With the guy who uploaded his consciousness? Somebody living down there. Hmmmm. Guesses: tom, sasha's boyfriend. Gertrude herself? (Though I doubt it)

ep 72: sweeney todd moment. Meat. The slaughter? Idk we'll see what the supernatural part is. Meat is meat. Similar to the slaughterhouse episode. Is it fucking Jared I swear to God it better not be. Hooligan teenagers, you know how it is. Meat is me lmao. Is the kid gonna be in the freezer. Ok that's good. OWW. Oddly textured candles. Made from people? Human fat or smth? Tom from the meat processing plant!

ep 73: outer bay shipping. Bet it's a subset of breacon and hope delivery. The Dark go brrr. Uh oh mans is gonna die. Leo or whatever. Cult ppl go brr. The people's church of the divine host. Who is the divine host? Is it reigner or whatever his name is? I dont think Jon can quit tbh. Probably an anonymous tip but from who?? One of the entities?

ep 74: fucking teeth hhh. I dont know which entity is related to teeth. Spiral. Isnt the spiral an entity. It feels like it could be related to many things idk. Yeah this sounds like the spiral. Heart attack at 29? Jesus... michael! That's kinda what I was thinking. Sasha goin in the tunnels. Hmm sus. They move the floor. Wack. Bet its tom.

ep 75: Man with a lightning scar. Has one of the leitner books. The childhood friend of the one who first introduced us to leitner. Oh my god that sounds terrifying. Michael crew.

ep 76: scalpel? Hmm spooky. NotSasha... think jon think.

ep 77: another double! NotThem, The Stranger. Not related to the table?

ep 78: what was that at the beginning? Question mark?? Oh boy more NotThem. Decker... what is the deal with the table. Does it contain the creature? Fucking Michael. Bitchboi himself.

ep 79: yes pop off martin. Ugh fucking Michael just leave man. I hate that dude. New person. Hmm. No idea who it is.

ep 80: shitener himself! Ok sir tell us the entities. Ayy The Spiral. Ok we know what that one is. The Eye is the beholding! Oooh. The Stranger. Did elias just kill leitner? Popping off honestly.

[mythiica]

hi! could I please request D, F, K, O, V and X for Shingen from the NSFW alphabet? thank you so much for all your writing and I hope you have a lovely day

Title: NSFW Headcanons 

Fandom: Ikemen Sengoku

Character: Shingen Takeda

Genre: ;)

Warnings: kinks

Kinks: a lot idk

Intended Gender Audience: Female Audience

Word Count: 722 words

POV: second person w/ (Y/n)

Other comments: HHH this was fun af to write <3 shingen and kennyo are my biases for ikesen i cant pick between them but shingen was my first love <3 i hope you like!

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Just one?! Shingen has an endless supply of dirty secrets, which one do you want to know

One time, on an excursion that you did not attend, Shingen had a lewd dream of you and was moaning your name in his sleep… the army did not have a goodnight listening to the things he was saying

He caught you masturbating and it made him really horny, but instead of disturbing you right away, he got off himself and then barged in to fuck you properly

Loves the thrill of fucking in the middle of the day somewhere that someone (Kenshin or Yukimura) might accidentally walk in on

Has considered taking you down to Kenshin’s dungeon and tying you up, but he won’t do it if you are not comfortable with bondage

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Something where he has access to your shoulders/back (looking for those angel wings)

OR something where he can watch your face contort in pleasure

Chair (your back pressed against his chest, where he has access to your should blades, neck, breasts, and clit as he thrusts upwards into you

Doggy (will start with you on your hands and knees, but Shingen will curl over you and paw at your breasts or will pick up one of your legs and fuck you like that)

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

LOVES dom!you – take control and tell him what to do, Shingen is very fluid when it comes to gender roles in the bedroom and won’t argue against dom!you

PRAISE AND WORSHIP KINK

Tell this man how good he makes you feel and he will give you his everything

He loves hearing your voice among the lewd sounds of skin slapping skin

“Sing for me, my angel, I want everyone to hear your sweet song~”

Kind of has a thing for his own voice too, so dirty talk is a big kink

Fucking outside? In the moonlight? Sign him up! He’d love to see your naked body illuminated by the glow of the moon in the night sky

MIRROR SEx - he wants to watch himself enter you and he wants you to see it too ;)

In an AU setting, he would be very excited to test out various sex toys

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Both; he does not discriminate giving/receiving

Shingen adores giving his goddess pleasure, and he is very experienced

The first time he eats you out, it does not take him long to make you cum

This man knows how to use his tongue, fingers, or both at the same time if he’s feeling like it

He will also lift his head slightly or make sure you are sitting up so that you can watch him

Aka, Shingen loves seeing your facial expressions and how flustered you get when you cum on his face

If he is receiving, Shingen has two modes – resist or complete sub

Shingen likes to play hard to get sometimes, and this will result in him biting his lip, running his hand through his hair a lot, even pushing your head down on his member, basically acting like the utter sex god that he is

If he is being a complete sub, expect Shingen to be overly vocal. He will describe how amazing you are and how well you are doing. He will be a blushing, panting mess but will not be ashamed of it

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Can do anything from grunts, growls, moans, mewls – it all depends on what he is doing/receiving

If you are in a situation where you might be caught, Shingen will try to be more quiet

But if you are in his quarters, Shingen won’t be afraid to let everything go, he does not care who hears him, because they’re just going to learn how good he is in bed

No shame

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Above average length and girth

Curves upwards slightly when hard

Shingen keeps himself pretty clean and trimmed

Prides himself in how he looks and probably stares at himself in the mirror

[lunawings]

King of Prism SSS episode 4 commentary (Kakeru)

Ahhhh.... finally seeing this episode again after a long time was really good. You may think I’m just being over-dramatic, but I honestly think I felt normal again for the first time since seeing SSS Part 4 while I was watching the stream with you guys. Like halfway through I was like WOAH IM SMILING... ahah....... ha......... Part 4 messed me up even more than I thought holy s--

Thanks for always coming to the streams! And thank you Kakeru, for reminding me about love.....

*deep breath* Now, let’s get to it...

So like I mentioned last time, we’re now on what I know as the “Part 2″ episodes.

 My experience seeing Part 2 in the theater was like night and day compared to seeing Part 1. For Part 1 I got to go to the midnight showing, and it was super emotional and exciting seeing it with an entire theater-worth of people also seeing it for the first time. 

But for Part 2 I had to work until 1am and thus couldn’t make the midnight showing. Instead I slept for about 2-3 hours, went all the way to Nagoya, saw this at 8am, went all the way home, and went back to bed before waking up again to go to work at 4pm wondering if it was all a weird dream. So needless to say I was super out of it. I got about two minutes into Kakeru’s episode when I was like... wha... huh..... wait wha....... and comical sweat-beads started rolling down my forehead when I realized I had NO idea what was going on. I felt like the entire theater was just as out of it as I was since they were really quiet. Probably because most of them went to the midnight showing and got just about as much sleep as I did....

The whole what is going onnnnnnnn feeling never quite left me. Especially with this episode in particular. But.  

My favorite feature of Kakeru has always been his eyes....

So seeing him go through 8 stages of acceptance in this opening always gives me chills....

OH MY FUCKING G..............

So in the past I have railed on Crunchyroll for their wonky wording, but this is the first outright mistranslation I think. (Unless “solid style” wasn’t on purpose, but that one was so ridiculous I kinda feel like it may have been....)

If you have seen Pride the Hero, you’ll know Kakeru doesn’t leak the Prism System to his friends. He leaks it to the Itsutomo Group. 

To be fair Sadana doesn’t say Itsutomo Group here. Just Itsutomo. But still, what did the translator think the “Itsu” part meant? They leave so many things as-is, but this... THIS they decide to attempt to translate into something. 

Okay. OKAY...................................

I really, really like Kakeru’s dad. But not for anything he does in the movies/anime. He’s a super boring pushover here. But if you take Young of Prism and layer it on top of all that..... he’s fucking great. 

I was so out of it when I first saw this the entire natural gas plot went over my head. I was just like “Episode 5: Kakeru goes to Madagascar. Does a prism show. Then he comes back for some reason. The end?????” 

I also missed the earlier reference as well. To think when Kakeru looks at the newspaper in episode 1 and is like “Natural gas is expensive!!” that was foreshadowing ahah. 

So this is the most controversial part of the episode I think. Globalization/colonization/industrialism has done damage lot of nations which were just fine beforehand, and I think paving over all of Africa’s natural habitats would likely cause.... various problems. 

Do I really have any right to be commentating on this? No. But I don’t think King of Prism does either. I just don’t think it’s really the time/place for it. 

But all-in-all I suppose Merina’s opinion isn’t too unusual for someone who works for Juuouin Group. I just wish they made it more clearer that his opinion and not the general opinion of Madagascar. 

But then again what do I know. I really don’t even want to be talking about this!! It was just such a weird choice to take this episode to Madagascar at all. 

This brought me so much joy. Please go read Young of Prism if you haven’t yet. 

NNghkdhgkdhg baby Kakeru................. face......... uuuUUUgfh and his cute little voice...........

I also often wonder what Kakeru was doing in Kodama’s office in the first place. He’s not actually his uncle I believe.

My headcanon is that his mother dropped him off there one day when she was busy with something and needed someone to watch him quickly, then Kodama-san’s office just gradually became Kakeru’s daycare. 

In cheering people will point up one concert light shaking with increasing intensity. Usually orange because nobody knows what other color to use. 

.......GGDGDGDGdksl;fl;sgs.......... AHHHHHHHHHH.....HHH........hhhhhhhhh.. K.....

Crunchyroll agrees with me that Kakeru’s father is “Momojiro”. I know that’s the most likely reading, I’m just really bothered and concerned that there is just no furigana for it anywhere.

And behold, my favorite Kakeru face of all time. 

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh poor baby you were so pure back then

And behold my second favorite Kakeru face of all time aahaha

Okay now is as good a time as ever to bring it up, but. 

I’m a bit disappointed that young Kakeru doesn’t wear glasses. 

Because most kids get glasses before middle school if they are going to get them, don’t they? It makes me worry Kakeru’s glasses are just an image thing. 

I mean he’s certainly frikkin adorable without them, but I dunno.... It made me weirdly happy to learn that Hiro wears contacts in episode 1. 

I just want visually impaired comrades in my anime I guess!!!

Or maybe he just went without for longer than he should have by memorizing the eye test by listening to the kid in front of him like I did. 

Kakeru can you see I’m worried about you.

Okay I’ll move on......

So someone pointed this out in the stream, but he doesn’t really say “mood” here. He says “kao iro” which would translate more into like... health? I don’t know. I honestly have no idea what he was getting at and it’s always puzzled me. 

Oh the controversy.....

Okay so, that whole non-issue aside. About the rest of this scene. 

I am not particularly offended by it for two reasons. 

First...

Kakeru’s grandfather is giving him important life advice while his face is IN A BOOB

YOU CANT TAKE THIS SHIT SERIOUSLY COME ON 

King of Prism has a tenancy to pair serious moments with ridiculous visuals that nearly ruin them on purpose and it’s a whole other level of humor ahah. There is an even better example of this in the next episode.......

Secondly...

KEI-CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN

In the theater people hold up two light blue lights as soon as she rises up and then go nuts. It’s the best. 

While most of the other characters were inspired by watching male prism stars like Hijiri or Rei, Kakeru watched mostly the girls and I get a kick out of that. We have already known he’s their fan for a while due to his Blowin’ in the Mind ringtone and side materials saying he has their magazines in his room, etc. 

“What” - cheering audience

So if you look up “kakeru” in a Japanese-English dictionary, you’ll know it has.... a lot of meanings. And since they always write the boys’ names in katakana (to make it ambiguous I guess) you can never know for sure. 

Here we confirmed for the first time it is intended to be 翔 = to fly/soar

This is a theme throughout SSS. How much Shin changed things for everyone............(I’ll come back to this)............

LOVE

So I guess when Kakeru got back from Madagascar Leo was like “So what do you want for your Prism One outfit?” and he was like “Make me a flamingo” and Leo was like “......You got it.”

Or maybe Leo was already like half done with Kakeru’s outfit and then he just burst in the door like “LEO I NEED TO BE A FLAMINGO--” 

I only have one bad thing to say about Kakeru’s prism show and it has nothing to do with Kakeru’s prism show. I noticed that his legwork is really similar to Taiga’s, which was when I realized for the first time that it’s the same person doing all the motion capture. So that kind of brought me back to reality a little bit. But oh well. That person is really fucking talented. 

They have been talking about Kakeru doing a prism jump where he’s naked with a pile of money for YEARS. HE DID IT. I’ve seen it in manga, I’ve seen it on Prism Rush... BUT THIS

Also how similar this is to the Prism Rush version amazes me...

CYALUME CH--

.....So I guess the translators haven’t watched PriPara either huh.

Wait is this even supposed to be for “Cyalume Change” because the subtitle is at such weird timing. 

Also I felt bad afterwards about putting “CYALUME CHANGE” as one of my shitty out of context spoilers ahah. I hope I didn’t ruin it for anyone. At least I didn’t say what episode it was. My hope is that anyone who read it has been waiting to be blindsided by CYALUME CHANGE and it came at the best possible moment. 

The first couple times I saw this episode I really wondered how cheering would go since so much of this episode is just business mumbo jumbo and if a lot of people would even show up for Part 2 cheering at all. 

But then after about a week in I found myself waiting in the lobby before a sold out cheering show and saw a girl whip out a giant pink feathery fan. 

Then the girl next to her was like hold my beer and took out a giant (fake) money fan. 

Never underestimate Kakeru fangirls is a lesson I have learned over and over and over again. 

A lot of people will also have three or four pink concert lights in one hand and an orange one or a color changing one in the other for this part ahah. 

PAINT IT ORANGE PAINT IT ORANGE 

(The lyrics to this song are nonsense. But it’s Kakeru, you can’t expect anything less.)

Prism shows with jungle animals are always a good time. (I can’t help but think of Shi Yoon.) 

And there you have it, Kakeru saved the entire country of Madagascar.... with his prism show........ let’s not..... let’s not think too hard about this........

I suppose there are multiple ways this could be true so I shouldn’t be thinking too hard about this either. But. 

The debut of the Leo pigtails. 

Well actually I think he had them earlier in the episode too, but this was the first time I noticed. 

Nothing warms my heart more than the few times Taiga throws Kakeru a bone by showing him the tiniest bit of affection. Even if it’s tsundere. Look at him. He’s just so happy. Aw Kakeru. Good for you.  

I think this moment was kinda ruined by the new ending music though. In the theater it’s more quiet. 

So I have always kinda felt like the Part 2 episodes are a bit weak compared with Part 1 and Part 3, but that’s probably a bit unfair considering how I experienced them. All of them grew on me more with time. It was also kind of hard coming down off of Taiga’s episode. After Taiga’s was so high tension I kinda expected the same for Kakeru too, but they went in a totally different direction. It was nothing like I thought it would be.

Before it aired I wondered if it would be about Kakeru trying to decide if spending his life in the Juuouin Group was right for him or not. And he did question it at one point when he was younger, but unless I misinterpreted it this episode was more about him loosing what he had and trying to get it back? He had doubts in his mind at one time about whether love exists, but he already came to believe it does before the events of this episode. So I guess Kakeru really has no doubt in his mind about what he wants for his future. You know, I think I like that better. I worry about him burning out with all the stuff he does, but it really does seem to be his true calling.  

I find it rather sad that the Edel Rose boys never found out Kakeru’s backstory though. Instead he shares it with Merina. He couldn’t even tell them he was leaving. But then again, Minato quickly interpreted that it was probably too difficult for him, I’m sure he was right. The other boys seemed to understand and support him regardless. Kakeruuuuuuuuu...............

In side materials it’s kinda of hinted at here and there that Kakeru really wants to be more like Minato. He wants to be someone strong who supports everyone. He also really seems to not want to show any weakness to anyone, especially his friends....? (As I’m typing this I’m thinking back to the White Day event on Prism Rush when he was trying so hard to organize everything while also trying his hardest to hide that he was falling apart......) I guess he picked this up in the business world as well. Because of this I still feel there is a lot to Kakeru we still don’t know. 

Well. Since I remembered this time and I liked this one: The special video for this episode that they show in the theaters has a voice over describing Kakeru’s  intense schedule on a normal day. 

But apparently on weekends he does no work at all. He gets caught up on manga and then plays with his friends. They showed a lot of stills of him hanging out with the Edel Rose boys, but my favorite and the one I remember the most was him playing arcade games with Shin (on a mysteriously PriPara-looking cabinet.... I think it was a fighting game though?)

Also Kakeru has a secret trunk in his room which must never be opened. 

[septic-dr-schneep]

I cant not care about you from Marv to Chase please ^w^

It shouldn’t have beenany surprise that Chase was drinking tonight, but Marvin still felt thatsickening sink in his stomach that appeared whenever his faintest hope forChase’s wellbeing was dashed.

It’s his girl’s birthday and he’s not able to bethere. What did you expect, that he’d actually be satisfied withnothing but a call? he reproached himself as he drifted toward his friend.The more his eyes adjusted to the dim light, the more he could make out howexhausted he seemed. He looked like he could pass out over the table if he tookone more swig of whiskey…Maybe that was his plan.

“Chase?”

“Hhh…?” Just that feebleacknowledgement was enough for Marvin to gauge just how drunk he was. He was hammered.

“Don’t you think you’regoing at it a little hard?” It was the kindest way of approaching it, but theglower Chase gave him was no less than disgusted.

“S’prise, Marv, ’m nota lightweight,” he growled under his breath, tipping the bottle over againsthis glass and apparently overlooking the generous amount that splashed over theside onto the tabletop. “Grab a glass or get outta here, ’m not in th’ mood.”

“I’m not going anywhere.You, on the other hand…” Leaning overthe table, he deftly pried the glass out of Chase’s fingers, setting it downwith a firm clink. “You’re going to bed.”

“Bro, ’m already donewit’ you! I’m drinkin’ whatever I want an’ however much; ’ma grown man! Jus’leave me alone!”

“I’m sorry,” Marvin answeredhonestly, his tone mild, though he was no less persistent as he began to dodgeChase’s clumsily flapping hands. If he could just get his hands under his arms,he could easily lift him out of the chair. Chase would collapse against him assoon as the nausea from standing hit and from there it would be practicallyeffortless.

“Stop’t, st—stop—” theyounger Ego slurred back, breath hitching thickly, quickening as he slapped athim. “Stop’t. Stop it!”

The last protestskyrocketed in volume, forcing Marvin to lurch back in disbelief as his earsstarted ringing from the echo. Chase seemed just as startled by his scream asMarvin was, but his face crumpled before he could bother trying to form wordsabout it. With a shuddery gasp, he curled into himself, rocking forward intohis hands and whimpering.

“S-St—Stop caring ’boutme, Marv, ’m not worth it!” The words were muffled and broken by heaving sobs,but Marvin recognized them regardless. He had heard them before, but they neverfailed to sting. Deciding not to mess around anymore, he skirted around thetable and pulled Chase’s chair away from it to pull him upright, locking him ina painfully tight hug.

“I can’t not care about you,” he hissed againsthis ear. “And I’m never—never—letting you do this alone.”

[isitthescreaming20syet]

@tayloratthedisco ‘s GET IN MY BUSINESS PLEASE ask game.

The meaning behind my url: im done with this year and i wanna scream

A picture of me: already one on my page if you scroll far enough

How many tattoos i have and what they are: none but i really want one

Last time i cried and why: last night and i have no fuckin clue

Piercings i have: both of my ears are pierced, and i wanna get my nose pierced eventually

Favorite band: hhhh too many

Biggest turn offs: feet, pushiness, too serious, taking things too far

Top 5 (insert subject): First 5 things I think of: My dog, Day6, I’m tired, painting, sleep?

Tattoos i want: smth small with a big meaning

Biggest turn ons: hhhh idk exaclty

Age: 15

Ideas of a perfect date: picnic, etc. why is this on every single one?

Life goal: live

Piercings i want: nose, upper part of the ear? idk what its called

Relationship status: single, some one please fix it

Favorite movie: hhh lilo and stitch or love, simon

A fact about my life: i dont have one lol

Phobia: spiders

Middle name: bleh

Height: 5′3″

Are you a virgin? yep

What’s your shoe size? 9-11 womens, and like a 7 mens

What’s your sexual orientation? gaY AS FUCK

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? no but tbh I wanna try it at least once

Someone you miss: My sister

What’s one thing you regret? life?

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: anna kendrik

Favorite ice cream? no thanks

One insecurity: voice

What my last text message says: 3/4!!!

Have you ever taken a picture naked? no

Have you ever painted your room? YE!

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex? nope

Have you ever slept naked? yeah? it gets hot in the summer?

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror? nah

Have you ever had a crush? ...heh ye

Have you ever been dumped? no

Have you ever stole money from a friend? no

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? I mean, technically. like I didn’t know one of my friends brother before they gave me a ride somewhere? and sometimes i’ve not met someones parents before they gave me a ride?

Have you ever been in a fist fight? no

Have you ever snuck out of your house? yea

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? .... all the fucn time

Have you ever been arrested? no

Have you ever made out with a stranger? nope

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? define met up with?

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents? yea

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor? ..ye...

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun? no but i want to.

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yeah

Have you ever seen someone die? no

Have you ever been on a plane? yeah

Have you ever kissed a picture? no...

Have you ever slept in until 3? yep

Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now? never loved as in the like romantic sense? but i def miss someone

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yea

Have you ever made a snow angel? yes!

Have you ever played dress up? I used to when i was a small being

Have you ever cheated while playing a game? ye?

Have you ever been lonely? ... dont call me out like that

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school? school yes, work no

Have you ever been to a club? im assuming like night club kinda thing, so no. im a minor

Have you ever felt an earthquake? yea

Have you ever touched a snake? ye!!

Have you ever ran a red light? ..on accident...

Have you ever been suspended from school? ne

Have you ever had detention? nope

Have you ever been in a car accident? yea. it was Not Fun. 

Have you ever hated the way you look? ye

Have you ever witnessed a crime? yeah

Have you ever pole danced? no

Have you ever been lost? yes

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country? yes

Have you ever felt like dying? yes

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? all of 6th grade and most of 2019 so far

Have you ever sang karaoke? ye. i hated it

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? yes

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes, marshmallow cream ( i wasn’t drinking it, but it’s come out of my nose before) and pineapple soda. it was first time trying the soda and it hurt so bad. now i cant drink it

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger? define slept with. if it’s like actual sleeping not like sex, then yes. other wise no

Have you ever kissed in the rain? no but i want to

Have you ever sang in the shower? ye

Have you ever made out in a park? no

Have you ever dream that you married someone? no

Have you ever glued your hand to something? yea

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? nope

Have you ever gone to school partially naked? no? is this a problem for some ppl?

Have you ever been a cheerleader? no

Have you ever sat on a roof top? yes

Have you ever brushed your teeth? yes???

Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? yeah

Have you ever played chicken? like the train game?? no. 

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes. ive also jumped into a pool with my clothes on

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? no lol

Have you ever broken a bone? yeah

Have you ever been easily amused? yes

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? yep

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone? no?? my neighbor who was like 5 i think at the time has. we were on her trampoline like 5 ish maybe years ago? her mom was pissed 

Have you ever cheated on a test? yes

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name? yes

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real? yea

Give us one thing about you that no one knows. im GAY. jk. i am but uhh. I have a box of real gold and silver in my closet from an old mine in CO.                                                

If you want me to elaborate on anything send me a message/ask!

[samthewrestlingfan]

DIVE Part 2

Here it is everyone! DIVE part 2!

Thank you so much to everyone who messaged and commented on part 1. It really means so much to me, and motivates me more than you know!

I’m also a lil bit drunky right now, so some feedback would REALLY mean a lot! lol

But for real guys, please enjoy part 2 of DIVE. Let me know what you think, also I may be taking some drabble requests soon! ;)

Enjoy, Lovebugs. <3

Taglist: @naturalmeadows , @xfirespritex , @wrestlingbabe

I stirred from my sleep, woken by a combination of the sunlight streaming in through my window, and my phone ringing like crazy. I ignored it, and ran to the bathroom. Literally, I can't hold my pee for more than three hours at a time now...

Did I mention how great pregnancy is?

"You're gonna kill me little one..." I laughed as I rubbed my stomach. This little on just loooves to sit right on my bladder. I walked out to the bedroom to hear my phone buzzing again. I sighed as I walked over to it, glancing casually at the screen.

"Oh shit!" I mutter as I slid the screen to answer.

"Hello?"

The gruff voice on the other end laughed, "Hey kiddo, how ya doin'? Did we wake you?"

I smiled, "'Course not, Hunter! Psshh, I've been up for hours, you know just...hitting the gym and--"

"Yeah, Yeah, Yeah." HHH laughed, "Steph is here too by the way."

"Hey Ella, how are you feeling?"

I sighed with contentment, "I'm doing okay! I'm almost 5 months now, so at least the morning sickness is over."

She laughed before Hunter spoke. "So listen kid, we know you've been missing this place, and while we cant have you around the ring, we have an offer for you."

Stephanie continued, "That's right, and we were just wondering if you would be interested in being a backstage interviewer? We would make sure you wouldn't be put in harms way, and keep your segments from the chest up if you'd like."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing! "Absolutely! God I've missed it so much! I--" My voice caught in my throat.

"Ella? You still there?" HHH asked.

I cleared my throat, "Y-yeah! Yes I-I am. Just one question, what side would I be on? Raw or Smackdown."

I held my breath waiting for an answer, Stephanie spoke softly, "Unfortunately right now, we only have a need for a Raw corresponder..."

My mind raced, I can't go to Raw...can I? Seth is there. He'll see me, and I'll see him and then he'll know. I don't know if I'm ready for all that.

Clearly the filter between my brain and my mouth isn't working, because before I knew it, words came flying out."Sure. I can do that!" I slapped my forehead. Smooth Ella, real smooth.

I heard a clap on the other end of the phone, "Perfect! We're gonna fly you up to Boston for Monday morning okay?" HHH asked.

"Sounds great, thank you Hunter, Steph...it means so much to me than you could ever know."

They both sighed, "Anything for you, kid."

---

For my first flight while being pregnant, it wasn't too bad. I walked through the airport glancing out the window to see the sun just kissing the horizon. I checked the time, 5:24 AM.

I yawned, mindlessly heading for the luggage belt, when suddenly I felt two pokes on either side of my ribs.

"Ah!" I jumped up and turned around, to see a gorgeous pair of hazel eyes staring me down.

"Nia!" I wrapped my arms around her as best I could with this growing belly.

She laughed as she hugged me, "My little munchkin! I've missed you so much!"

"What are you doing here!?" I asked, still breathless to see my best friend.

She continued walking with me to the luggage belt, "Hunter asked if I would be willing to help you get outta sight and to the hotel safely. So of course I said yes! I had no idea you were coming back though, no one really knows..."

Nia gave me a look that said everything. "Well, that's good. I still don't know what I'm gonna do, girl. I'm going to see him, it's kind of inevitable at this point."

She sighed, "Maybe this is a good thing. You are going to have to tell him, Ella. Not to be too blunt, but no matter what he's done to you, he has a right to know, It's his child too."

I nodded. I suddenly felt unbelievably nauseous, "Let's just get to the hotel, I think I need to lay down for a little before we go to the arena..."

---

I paced in my hotel room, waiting for Nia to tell me it was time to head out. I tried on multiple outfits, trying to find something that would hide my ever-growing bump, finally settling one on that wasn't the worst.

I flopped on the bed, feeling defeated and all around icky about this whole thing.

I let out a deep breath, "Alrighty little love, you ready to do this? I mean, I think I am." I rubbed my belly as I spoke to the little life just inches from my hand.

"You don't know this, but you're the reason I do everything now. You're what makes me brave and you're what makes me want to be a better person. I just hope I can make you proud of you're Mama someday--" I paused, "...I also hope your Dad doesn't bolt when he finds out about you."

My thoughts consumed me as I felt tears fall out of the side of my eyes. I don't think I've ever faced the reality of having to see Seth again, and I definitely never faced the thought of being a single parent. I never even thought I'd be a parent before 30.

I wish I knew what his reaction would be, but--I don't know him anymore. When we were together, we were so in sync with each other, but now I don't even know if any of that was real.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock at my door. "Come in!"

"Hey! Ready to get going?" Nia asked joyfully. I stood up, "Sure am, just let me put my dress on." I chose my black maxi dress, and a long, patchy denim jacket.

"Whatcha think? I picked this 'cause if you look straight at me, ya can't see the bump fully. The jacket hides it a bit too."

Nia smiled, "Looks great, Munch--let's go."

---

I walked through the arena doors with Nia before heading our separate ways. Despite having a nervous mind, my heart felt right at home. I followed the weathered paper signs straight to Hunter's office, and lightly tapped on the door.

I heard the shuffling of papers, "Yeah? Come in..."

My hand slowly pushed the door open. His heavy brow looked up from behind his reading glasses, and a warm smile spread from ear to ear.

"Hey there, Ella..." He said standing to hug me. "Hunter, how are you?" I felt so relaxed in his hug, he embraced me the way a father embraces a daughter,it was as though I could feel the love coming off of him.

"You're joking--you walk in here 5 months pregnant and you as me how I am? Typical Ella." he laughed. "Please, sit." HHH pulled the chair out for me before walking to sit in his own. "So how the baby? Everything look good, normal check-ups?"

I nodded, "Yup. He or She is thriving so I've been told."

Hunter nodded in comprehension before leaning forward on his desk, letting out a sigh, "Look kiddo, I know this whole...situation isn't ideal for anyone. I'm going to try and make it as easy a transition as I can okay? This is your home and I want you to feel as comfortable as ever. If you need anything, and I mean anything from me, you let me know. If you're ever put in an uncomfortable situation, I wanna hear about it. I'll do my best to keep the rumor machine down but you know--"

I interrupted his kind words with a small sob. I pulled a tissue out of my bag, "I'm so sorry...hormones." I said dabbing my eyes.

He reached across and put his hand on mine. "If this is too overwhelming for you--"

"No...I'm okay. I'm just not used to having other care about me as much as you and Steph do. I love you guys like you were my own parents, ya know? I just wanna make you proud."

"You do, Ella. We're very proud of how you're handling this, especially all on your own."

I smiled as I wiped more tears, and let out a long breath. "Okay, let's go do this."

---

"Oh my God! I can't believe this!" Sasha said her hands on my tummy. "What is it?! Is it a girl! I bet it's a girl."

I laughed, "I honestly don't know yet. I haven't been letting my doctor tell me." Which was true, I don't want to know. Not yet anyways. I stood up from the makeup chair, my hair put in a high bun, my lips painted a gorgeous plum color.

"Excuse me, Ella? We need you to set in 5..." A producer interjected.

"I'll be there." I smiled at the man in the headset.

"Who are you interviewing?"  Sasha asked, her gaze still set one my bump, "Not sure yet, I guess I'm about to find out."

I walked down the crooked corridor smiling. I don't know if its the pregnancy hormones or what, but I've never felt so many emotions all at one time. I was feeling so happy, so content with my choice to come back to work and see all of these incredible people. Despite the smile on my face, my mind never let me forget that somewhere in this building, the father of my child is waiting--ignorant of my presence here.

I approached the set and saw Dean, waiting to be interviewed. I exhaled, "Okay Ella. You got this. You can do this." I mumbled under my breath.

I walked over to Dean and tapped him on the shoulder. The look on this lunatics face was priceless. "Ella! How've you been, Darlin'?"

He opened his arms wide, ready to scoop me into a signature Dean bear-hug when he froze in his tracks. His eyes landed on my stomach, and slowly drifted back to my face.

"Wow, um...I mean listen, if you wanted a snack we have catering for that, ya didn't need to smuggle a watermelon under your dress." He smiled, his dimples showing.

I hugged him softly, "I've missed you, Dean-o."

"I missed you too, Els. Looks like you've been pretty busy hmm?"

I nodded, "Surprise..."

He kissed the top of my head, as he often did when he was trying to comfort me. "Congratulations, Els. You're gonna be one hell of a Mom. That kid--it's never gonna feel unloved, that's for sure."

The producers moved us into position, "So, Els...who's the lucky guy?"

"Ready in 10, folks!" A voice yelled from behind the camera.

I cleared my throat and held the my mic up ready for the cue. "Well uh, funny that you mention that." I whispered with a nervous smile.

"7, 6,5--"

I leaned closer to Dean to whisper so no one around us would hear, "It's...it's Seth...he's the father. He doesn't know yet." Dean's eyes widened but the countdown from the producer shook him from his frozen glare.

"3, 2, 1" Headset guy pointed at me, as the light above the camera went on.

"Hello, WWE Universe, Ella De Luca here with a one-on-one interview, with the one and only, Dean Ambrose."

Dean walked into frame, "Good to have you back, Ella." Dean said with a wink as he punched his hands together.

"It's good to be back, Dean. But onto the business at hand. Later on tonight, you will be going one on one with The Miz in a good ole fashioned Falls Count Anywhere match. How are you preparing for what's to come later tonight?"

Dean paused before he spoke, "Well that's just it, isn't it Ella? You can never prepare for something like this. But you know what? A real man doesn't run from his problems. A real man turns his problems into opportunities, and a REAL MAN, doesn't bail when things get tough--he gets tougher."

With that Dean walked off camera, leaving me gazing after him.

The light on the camera turned off, and the man spoke, "And we're out! Thanks guys."

I ran after Dean, "Thank you for that..." my eyes locked on my fidgeting fingers.

"Not gonna lie, it's taking a lot for me not to find him and punch him in the mouth."

"Dean, please do--" Dean was one of my closest male friends here, so he knew what happened between Seth and I those months back. ...He hasn't really liked him since then.

He put his hand up, "Don't worry Els, this is your business. But if anything goes wrong, you know where to find me."

I nodded. "I'll catch ya later, Kid. Gotta go prep for the ring." He rubbed my back before disappearing down the hallway.

I quickly ran to the dressing rooms to change into my comfy clothes. I pulled on my black leggings and my baggy gray WWE hoodie and slipped into my fuzzy Bearpaw side-ons.

I contently sighed, "Thank God, now my feet can breathe."

---

My phone was buzzing with texts from my friends on Smackdown, all of whom were so surprised to see me back on TV, and so happy to see I was doing well. Thank God the camera didn't pan down to show too much of the bump.

I was on Twitter replying to all the fans that were freaking out about my return. So many of them were confused as to why I wasn't in the ring, but I tried my best to ignore those.

Suddenly I heard a crash that sounded louder than a car wreck, I stood at then end of the hall, frozen, feeling the blood rush from my face, and panic rising in my chest.

...Seth. He was dressed in his ring gear, and he was right in HHH's face, screaming at him. "How could no one fucking tell me, Hunter!?"

"Seth, take a walk and calm down." Hunter said firmly. I have never seen Seth this irate. He slammed the door against the wall so hard it nearly flew off it's hinges. Everyone in the hallway either scattered, or moved as far away as they could.

He ran his hands though his soaking wet hair, "Are you fucking joking? No one is telling me anything and it's bullshit, Hunter! She's back and I have to find out by hearing her voice on the God damn monitor?!"

No one, and I mean, no one in their right mind would ever speak to HHH like that, not if they valued their job. Seth clearly was not in his right mind though.

"Rollins this is your last warning. Take a walk...now."

Seth shook out his nerves through his hands. "This is bullshit and you know it. I wanna see her Hunter." He spoke slightly calmer now.

"That's not up to me, Seth. I'm sorry you had to find out this way, I really am."

My heart was racing, and my legs trembled beneath me. I was shaking but somehow, I was still frozen. I didn't know what to do.

He wasn't calming down, Seth's whole body was turning red, so I did the only thing I could think to do.

"Seth!" I called, quickly clasping my hands over my mouth.

Seth turned around, and his mouth fell open. Hunter sighed visibly, his hands on his hips.

"Ella..." Seth breathed, his face softening and his body relaxing.

Oh boy, I thought to myself, as I made my way down the hallway, Here we go.

[askthetotallynotsquad]

so Jeremy what's ur kink

Jeremy: uh- the thing closest to that is I sometimes wear cat ears and stuff- and collars- but that’s it dude- I’m not that weird

Michael: JEREMY IS A FURRY

Jeremy: YOU’RE THE ONE WHO GOT A NOSEBLEED WHEN I HAD A COLLAR ON

Michael: BECAUSE YOURE FUCKING HOT

Jeremy: o-oh h-heh *v v v v v red*

Michael: *v v v v v red*

Jeremy: *puts on cat ears and a collar ;)*

Michael: *v v v v v v v v red*

Jeremy: if you get a nosebleed-

Michael: if you don’t sHUT UP *v v v v v v red ;”)*

Jeremy: I would put on a dress but your face can’t get any redder

Michael: sSSSSSTOP BULLYING ME *v v v v v v v red*

Jeremy: *rings the bell on his collar* mikeyyyyy~

Michael: Jeremy stoppppp *v v v v v v v v red*

Jeremy: *sits next to thy michael* never~

Michael: jeremy qUIT iT *rrrrred*

Jeremy: but Mikeyyyy~

Michael: stopppp *:((* *redredredredred*

Jeremy: okayyy *kisses thy michael*

Michael: *hughughughughug*

Jeremy: I’m sowwy for being kinkyyyy

Michael: it’s fineeee *cling*

Jeremy: *picks up thy micheel* is my baby tireddd

Michael: yyyeah *leech*

Jeremy: do you want me to hold you or put you down, so you can sleep?

Michael: I want yyyou *cling*

Jeremy: you’re clearly really tired bub- *plays with his hair* go to sleep...I love you

Michael: *cccccling* *sleep úwù*

Later: wassup

Jeremy: *blasting Billie bc he can*

Michael: *awaken* jeremy it’s too lOUDD

Jeremy: *stops dancing and turns the music off* fineeeee *flops on the couch*

Michael: it’s cold in this house what the hell do you do in here

Jeremy: I blast music and run around the house in my cat slippers

Michael: why the fuck is it so cOLD JEREMY ARE YOU ELSA OR SOME SHHHIT

Jeremy: I was her for Halloween one time-

Michael: yes jeremy I remember I bet the costume still fits you

Jeremy: it does-

Michael: babe go become Elsa

Jeremy: ugh *goes to get the dress*

Michael: *plays Minecraft on his phone*

Jeremy: *comes back with the dress on* I hate this michael-

Michael: *cOUGH* *WHEEZE* OH MY GOD

Jeremy: SHUSH

Michael: LET IT GO LET IT GO

Jeremy: *still has the cat ears and collar on bc he never took them off??*

Michael: *WHEEZE* YOURE FURRY ELSA

Jeremy: I will be kinky again Michael-

Michael: go ahead

Jeremy: you like me when I’m like that?!-

Michael: sure why not

Jeremy: I- oh hello no *changes into a sweater bc fall*

Michael: HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Jeremy: Michael calm down- my dad is sleeping-

Michael: HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Jeremy: Michael! Stop!

Michael: nO

Jeremy: Michael I swear to god- *kisses him v intensely*

Michael: *kiss owo*

Jeremy: that’s one way to get you to stop yelling-

Michael: PENIS

Jeremy: *pins him against the wall* stop

Michael: PENIS

Jeremy: Michael stop

Michael: no why should I

Jeremy: I don’t maybe because I don’t want my dad to wake up?

Michael: why not

Jeremy: because- I’m not supposed to have people over right now, but you’re here so he can’t know

Michael: ew why are you not allowed to have people over

Jeremy: I don’t know- just please be quiet *kiss owo*

Michael: fineeeeee *v long kiss uwu*

Jeremy: this is kinda hot Michael-

Michael: I’m aware~~

Jeremy: but like- I kinda have you pinned against a wall- so I’m kinda topping you

Michael: would you rather it be the other way around?~~~

Jeremy: *v v v v v red* m-m-maybe

Michael: *pIns jerome against the wall* bAm

Jeremy: o-o-oh *v v v v v red*

Michael: *v v v v v v v long kiss owo*

Jeremy: *moans OOPS TEEHEE XD OWO MICHEEL PACKSON*

Michael: *v v v v v v v v v v long kiss OWO ÚWÙ XD*

Mr. Heere: *walks in* OH- USE PROTECTION BOYS! *leaves*

Michael: *wHEEZE*

Jeremy: DAD I WAS HAVING A GOOD MOMENT!

Michael: *wHEEZE* oH MY GOD

Mr.Heere: *walks downstairs* I’m sorry but Michael looked really into it so I’ll let you two continue- Michael just make sure Jeremy can walk after

Michael: *cOUGH* *WHEEZE* I CANT BREATHE

Mr. Heere: save your air child- Jeremy can get very into things- I hear him sometimes-

Michael: *wHeeze* oH MY GOD *fAlls over*

Jeremy: DAD GO AWAY!!

Mr. Heere: have fun kids *walks downstairs*

Jeremy: what the hell just happened-

Michael: *WHEEZE* JEREMY THAT WAS-

Jeremy: THAT WAS LITERALLY EVERYTHING IVE EVER DREAMED OF UNTILL MY DAD WALKED IN-

Michael: YOURE SO HORNY

Jeremy: SHUT UP

Michael: *ssstands up* are you okay??

Jeremy: that was the most embarrassing thing ever- I thought that was going somewhere-

Michael: it’s okay *kisses the Jerome’s forehead*

Jeremy: I’m not trying to be kinky but- that was amazing-

Michael: I know *pat*

Jeremy: we should do that more-

Michael: mhmmm

Jeremy: sorry about my dad- he always thinks we’re gonna do it when we kiss-

Michael: it’s okay- it’s extremely funny

Jeremy: *pushes him against the wall and kisses him ;)*

Michael: *spins around a pIns jerome to a wall???* get rekt n00b *v v v v v v v v long kiss owo*

Jeremy: back to this again?~

Michael: oh shut up-

Jeremy: never~ *kiss owo*

Michael: *puts his arms around Jerome’s neck ;”)* *kkkkkkkkiss*

Jeremy: *wraps his arms around around thy Michael’s waist;))*

Michael: stop being so fUCKING tall-

Jeremy: do I need to pick you up??

Michael: fUck no- let’s just- like- move to the couch or something- so you’re not a fUCKING GIANT

Jeremy: I’m sorry I’m so tall *sits on the couch*

Michael: *jUmps ontop of jerome* hiiii~

Jeremy: *is like laying down now bc micchael jumped on him??* hellooo~

Michael: *v v v v v v v v v v long kiss ;))))*

Jeremy: *puts his hand in Michael’s hair;)*

Michael: *wraps his arms around Jerome’s waist ;;;)*

Jeremy: *kisses his neck and accidentally gives him a ;)))*

Michael: *oopsie woopsie pulls Jerome’s hair ;”)*

Jeremy: *moans oops XD teehee frosty bby*

Michael: *runs his hands through Jerome’s hair XD heehee*

Jeremy: *blush man teehee*

Mr. Heere: kids dinner is done! You can continue after- make sure you clean up!

Michael: *fAlls off the jerome* ouchies

Jeremy: oh my god! Are you okay *half on the couch half on the ground-*

Michael: I’m fine- my neck hurts, JEREMY

Jeremy: well I’m sorry!- *walks downstairs to get food*

Mr. Heere: michael, you might want to cover your neck- theres multiple uh-

Michael: yes I’m aware tell your son to calm down next time

Mr. Heere: don’t act like you didn’t enjoy it kid, I heard noises up there

Michael: yeah I know

Mr. Heere: Jeremy, son, I know you want to be inside him but calm down next time

Jeremy: DAD WHAT THE HELL

Michael: mr heere I hate to inform you but your son’s a bottom

Mr. Heere: well then I’m surprised he doesn’t have any marks on him

Michael: he’s too damn tall

Mr. Heere: *making eggs??* then sit in his lap or something- I’m just very surprised- Jeremy always talks about how he wants to be marked!

Jeremy: D-D-DAD!

Michael: marked in what way? you see, Jeremy’s a furry

Mr. Heere: yes, I know- the ladies at Victoria’s Secret always look at me when I have to buy collars for him-

Michael: Ugh jeremy needs to learn how to be an independent man and buy his kinky shit himself

Jeremy: the ladies tried hitting on me when I did!

Michael: how do you think your dad feels, jEREMY? He’s a crunchy old man- no offense

Mr. Heere: non taken kid

Jeremy: well I’m sorry I like cat stuff!

Michael: mY BOYFRIEND IS A FURRY

Jeremy: true

Mr. Heere: yeah but you love him

Michael: I don’t know how

Jeremy: *gasp* wow rude

Michael: well I mean you were rude to me on Halloween soooo-

Jeremy: ......*looks down*

Michael: I’m sorry-

Jeremy: I’m sorry babe..*hugs him from the side*

Michael: no I’m sorry-

Jeremy: it’s okay *kisses his head*

Michael: *hughughughughug*

Jeremy: *sits at the table and puts Michael on his lap, facing the table and has his arms around him bc uwu*

Michael: *holds Jeremy’s arm?? oKay*

Jeremy: *rests his head on top of michaels*

Michael: you’re so sssoft *leech*

Jeremy: mmhmmm

Mr. Heere: boys just make sure if you do that again keep the door closed

Michael: yeah wwwwhatever *clings to Jerome’s arm :”)*

Jeremy: *kisses the Michael’s cheek from behind??*

Michael: *kisses Jerome’s hand :”)*

Mr. Heere: michael if your mothers don’t need you home anytime you are welcomed to sleepover! I was going to take Jeremy to the mall tomorrow if you want to come- but that means you’ll have to go into Victoria’s Secret with him

Michael: ew I don’t wanna be a furry with Jeremy

Jeremy: Michael I won’t let you have my arm

Michael: *:”(* nooooo *cLING*

Jeremy: that’s what I thought

Mr. Heere: are you sure Jeremy’s a bottom Michael?

Michael: you think this twig of a man could top

Mr. Heere: indeed I do

Jeremy: see michaelll

Michael: I’m way too tired for this *cccling*

Jeremy: okay c’mon baby *picks him up but Michael still has his arm* where do you want to sleep?

Michael: *oopsie woopsie already asleep* *also still has jerem’s arm*

Jeremy: oh- okay then *sits on his bed and tries to put Michael down without waking him up*

Michael: nnnooooo- *clings onto jerem’s arm*

Jeremy: hhh okay okay *sits on the bed and puts Michael back in his lap*

Michael: *clingclingcling* *sLeep*

THUNDER: WASSUPPPPP

Power: bye

Michael: *:”(* it’s LOUD

Jeremy: it’s okay babe...*plays with his hair bc it calms him down??*

Michael: *shoves his face into jerem’s shirt*

Jeremy: shhh...it’s okay

Michael: I’m tireddddd *cling*

Jeremy: *puts a blanket over the michael*

Michael: Jeremy hug mE

[caithedeservesbetter]

hhhhhhhhh i need to go to bed but final thoughts!! 

it was mostly an amazing epsiode, it really was. the map is bautiful, the brand and the shiverpeaks mix surprisingly well and theres so much fun interaction between all the allies weve gathered, the hearts are so much fun, the adventures, the metas, its all good! 

and bless the new mastery? cant wait to actually be able to jump off my griffon and glide and jump back on and stuff, esp in hot maps with the updrafts

theres so much voice acting? like a lot. its like half the npcs you run past starts talking? and all the events and the heart vendors and during the instances !! its so good i love it

and the story,,, its so good up until the very very end like the reveal at the end and if it wasnt so TERRIBLE it would have been good too, like the implementation of it is really effectful which is GREAT just FANTASTIC thanks a LOT hhh,, but the gameplay is soo much fun, the mechanics, the difficulty suits me very well bc im just so tired of all the annoying STORY instances that are SO difficult and never ending, save that for the fracs and raids and challenge motes please and thank you

but yea again with the story i love how you have all these allies that are doing things and helping and actually making a difference in the gameplay too not just story wise, like youre not alone in this, youre not left like you were after heart of thorns

theres hope

i think