#hes not perfect you wouldnt like him if he was perfect his flaws only make his best characteristics better so please dont erase them

[gentil-minou]

I'm so tired of takes that say Wei Wuxian was absolutely perfect in every way in his first life because yes he was good and so very very good and had the best intentions and saved the others not just because he wanted to but because that was what was good and right.

That was never his fatal flaw though his hubris was that he convinced himself he had to do it all ALONE. That instead of talking to the people who cared about him and working with them, he thought he had to do it alone because he does have a hero complex in that he thinks everything will be fine as long as he's the only one getting hurt. That, combined with the other political machinations, is what led to his downfall. Not his arrogance or his actions, but that he refused to share any of the burden with others.

It's why he and JGY are such excellent foils for each other because as WWX pre resurrection became more and more isolated we saw jgy's social connection and standing get stronger. Then, after the resurrection we see that jgy is almost on his own whole wwx gets the support he needed and actually takes it this time.

Because in his second life he survived because he followed lwj, because he let him help him. They turned the tide of the second siege at burial mounds because the juniors amd the wen remnants helped them, because lwj was there. They took down jgy why because nhs got involved and had witnesses. And guanyin temple succeeded because they all were there not because wwx is a God who never makes mistakes

In his second life he learned he can rely on others and let them help him. That he doesn't have to be alone. That's his character development and without it he'd have never survived

Wei WuXian suddenly murmured, '… Lan Zhan.'

He reached out and grabbed one of Lan WangJi’s sleeves. Lan WangJi had always been beside him. He immediately bent down and whispered, 'I am here.

-

A voice inside of him said, If he catches me, I'll...

He wasn't scared of falling. All these years, he'd fallen many times. If someone was finally there to catch him, it'd be more than wonderful. Hearing Wei WuXian thank him, Lan WangJi's body seemed to freeze for a second. The hand that was about to be laid on Wei WuXian's back paused before it returned. After a moment of silence, Lan WangJi responded, "You are welcome."

Don't take the lessons he learned away from him. Don't make him have to be alone again

[suffarustuffaru]

Genuine question do you think there's a chance that Julius could be into Subaru? Because I only really hear about Subaru being into Julius when it comes to Juilsuba

(no arc 5+ spoilers in this post)

short answer: yes, i think there’s a chance. a pretty good chance. but whether you want to interpret julius as being Romantically into subaru is up to you. however theres no denying that subaru is special to julius and that julius Loves this guy.

long answer: so i will give the following disclaimer to this, which is that i can only really speak for my own interpretations of the text. for this ask i talked a bit with a few different mutuals about this (bc while i really enjoy julius and julisuba A Lot i wouldnt consider myself an Expert so—peer reviewing it is :3) but—yes im speaking for my opinions here, so in general i recommend looking over the text/media yourself to see what you think too 👍👍

and i think in general like. i wish we saw more subaru ships from the non-subaru lens of it!! :o speaking as someone whos made shippy content from both subarus pov and the other pov, while im not perfect with it either, i just think that it’s always important to get that other pov. and sometimes its kind of a forgotten part !! :< i just think its interesting 1. seeing someone fall in love from subaru, 2. getting that outside pov of subaru, and 3. it makes the dynamic truly equal to focus on the other side of it too 👍 i dont have a lot of julisuba content atm (this will change eventually) but in the past ive rambled a bit about julius’s side of julisuba in one of my….. bdsm……………… posts :3 but anyway ill summarize what i think is going on with julius’s side here:

for julius, his prim and proper knightly persona is pretty like. i get the vibe that hes really Cultivated himself into this over time, especially bc he wasnt involved with nobility until his parents died and his uncle took him in and joshua started trying to shape julius too into what he is now. julius used to be a bit of delinquent (dont know How delinquent he was exactly but just that he was) and of course theres a big switch into julius learning noble and knightly ways and norms, julius trying to keep that armor around his heart, according to subaru. it’s learned behavior and now he struggles a little taking it off. being a knight is entrenched into julius’s familial and personal values, and julius Always strives for perfection. julius seems so put together that we kinda forget he too has his flaws but similar to subaru, he can be a bit pushy, a bit oblivious, a bit reckless. looking at the world in slight rose colored tint. pushing for More. accidentally stepping over others, maybe, but striving for strength in their own ways. Greedy. they’re kindred spirits in that way.

on the flipside of that, subaru inspires imperfection out of julius. repeatedly. subaru inspires julius to get that part of him from his childhood where he was this earnest overzealous passionate little kid and let it out again instead of being prim and proper 24/7. “juli”.

julius steps in to save subaru during arc 3 also bc julius sees himself in subaru—a passionate kid who fumbles in every single direction but that heart is there, and subaru is a walking whirlwind bc unlike julius, he can’t slap a prim and proper persona over it. he wears everything on his sleeve. he’s misguided, in the wrong, but still. his Heart is a tempting sight, and it hits julius a little personally. subaru was a mirror of julius, the part of julius that julius tried to hide a little all while subaru Offends the knights and says shit like how the knights cling to their father’s names (when julius almost kinda does cling to his family name and his knightly ideals to make himself into something Bigger and Grander), but of course julius has Morals and cant let subaru get hurt to the other knights. and sacrifices his reputation in the process—

(these are from the Arc 3 interlude that shows Julius’s side of the duel aftermath)

“did you find his tarnishing of your knightly pride unforgivable to that extent”…… and of course julius readily accepting punishment 👀👀

“the very symbol of his pride as a knight”…. yeah that duel meant several things to julius, and it sets up the entirety of julisuba from here on out. julius treasures idealism—

(hooray juliemisuba crumbs!!) but… julius noting how this duel wasn’t enough to break subarus spirit 👀👀 “It would not be such a bad thing to trade swords with a fool full of idealism once more.” “As for an annoyance… perhaps he was that, a little bit.” fucking hilarious but also so true—bc julius himself is Also a fool full of idealism. naturally, he takes a liking to subaru quickly which then leads to him declaring subaru his friend in later arc 3 <3

“It is truly in Lady Emilia’s nature to cause pain in others…. That very nature is what allows her to live as nobly and beautifully as she does. I do not deign to wish her to change. Thus, all I can do is hope that she lives more righteously, more genuinely, without anything to be ashamed of.” / “Does that go for the boy, too?” / “It goes for everyone…. It is for that very reason I wield a sword.”

It goes for everyone, julius says. these are values he treasures most in himself and in others, and once he sees it in others, he finds himself drawn to them. (though def interesting how julius doesnt 100% answer ferris’s next question on subaru straightforwardly…) julius comments on emilia here, but its also like. why does julius, the upstanding picture of a knight, follow anastasia, a cutthroat business woman? (other than her being the absolute coolest and the ana camp being a whole family <3)

its bc of greed and ambition. the strive for something greater, to dedicate your life to your passions and devotions. theres a whole ss about how julius is told by ana that she wants the best knight possible and bc of his own insecurity assumes she Must mean reinhard—but no. julius is the finest knight for a reason—bc he painstakingly shapes himself to be that way. of course he sees a similar sort of trait in subaru, how subaru shapes himself to be something greater too, and julius finds himself a littleeee starry eyed. perhaps. pun intended.

anyway. this is my long winded way of saying—yeah, julius is drawn to subaru for a lot of reasons. julius quickly finds himself attached to subaru in arc 3, and subaru coaxes out julius’s imperfection while encouraging julius’s passions.

as far as i know (of course feel free to add onto this if im missing stuff), there isnt anything in canon that reads as particularly homoerotic about subaru from julius’s pov. at least not to the same level as subaru repeatedly checking out julius’s body and saying julius is oh so handsome LMFAO. (though julius’s rainbow spirits are super cool.) so i cant definitively go “julius is 100% romantically into subaru”. especially as im asexual myself so personally romance is fun to me but not always a requirement for every ship’s depiction (or at the very least i Love exploring ships having different dynamics across different iterations of them)—so this is more so me going “theyre so intimate with each other in their own ways !!! i love viewing them from multiple angles !!!” <3 but their friendship and what they have in canon is extremely good foundation for romance. and julius likes subaru a Lot!! theyve gone through quite a bit together and theres More to come !!

[metis-iphigenia]

its like 2 am and im very tired so im sorry if this doesnt make sense i just want to talk about why i love scott summers.

•one of the reasons i love scott summers is because he is a flawed character who is quite doomed by the enviroment he was raised in. he makes mistakes a lot and learns that his actions have life altering consequences, later on he actually works on them.

for an example, in x-factor; scott left madelyne with their son nathan because the original 5 of the xmen were getting back together.(also the news of jean grey being alive) later on, Nathan is in the hands of apocalypse and mr sinister, later gets infected with that stuff etc.(idk how to explain sorry) and scott becomes aware that maybr if he didnt leave, maybe if he stayed he wouldnt lose the son he always wished to have. he is consumed by his guilt and grief. at least to my interpretion.

this is why i dont like actively calling scott a deadbeat dad because in the end he did come back for nathan.(he shouldnt have left in the first place i get that too) but calling him a deadbeat dad in my opinion just ignores his character as a whole.

or in xmen animated series, where in like the first episodes he has to leave morph. wolverine is angry at him justifibly(but its also not scotts fault(and morpherine canon guys)) scott does his best later on to be more careful to lead the team in missions, trying his best to not leave anyone behind etc its not very underlined that he does this but you can see it when you look for it.

•and not only that, i also find him very relatable and think his anger, frustration against the world very relatable. i also agree with his ideals.

cyclops ideals are a perfect balance between magneto's and professor x's ideals from my observation.

im gonna speak in xmen 97 terms because explaining my opinions is easier that way

professor x(as much as i admire what he stands for) is trying to help mutants but he is working towards tolerance, not acceptance. and like said in xmen 97, tolerance really is extinctence(i think this is how you spell it?? idk sorry english is not my mother tongue)

magneto doesnt want acceptance nor tolerance he just doesnt want humans(because of the years of opression he has faced, leading him to fight back against id but be the opressor as the time passes because humans(yes mutants are humans too) are corrupt like that)so he is trying to cause war for mutant liberation but his actions are causing people to be prejudiced about other mutants and causing them to be more violent towards them. even in the apocalyptic future, camps are being made for mutants because magneto himself started a war.(i will talk about my views on magneto on an another post because he really is a very interesting character corrupt by his own cynicism)

however what scott is working towards is acceptance and he is aware that if he just stands quiet to all the violence towards mutants and just busts his ass to save humans, he is the same as professor x, working towards tolerance. so now he uses violence to make people aware that mutants are going to live with them if they like it or not because he knows sometimes to be heard you have to scream. but his ideals towards mankind never changes because he doesnt hate them he hates their ignorance.

i do believe that since his mental health was declining(becasue of the years of opression and brutality he and his people have faced)he has done some things that were definitely problematic but this brings me to my first point of him facing the consequences of his actions.

overall, i do believe cyclops was right, i just think he also went about it wrong in some ways and that led to people not understanding him.

i find his backstory very interesting too(even though in changes but to me the orphanage later jack winters and professor x is the true one) i think about him being gaslit into forgetting his own little brother but him never faltering once and believing his own mind instead of someones tongue,his time with jack winters

(which i believe the interpretion of it being abusive because of the signs etc and how more impactful it makes that the first mutant he had ever actually known had hurt him instead of helping his own kind. it a parallel to our own world where even the opressors have managed to turn us against eachother even though we are all opressed by them, shunned because we are minorities)

later on him coming to live with professor and still being in a place where he is being used(i believe with my whole heart that professor saw scott as his son and sometimes forgot that they didnt share the same flesh but that doesnt change that professor did use scott, even without meaning any harm because professor in the end wants the best for all mutant kind but forgets to think about them as individuals)

•anyway to cut it short:

> i love scott summers because he makes mistakes AND learns from them, faces the consequences. and because of his mentality and the things he faced throughout his life that led him to making those mistakes.

there are lots of main characters in media who never really gets called out of the things they do(for example, annabeth from pjo with how she treated tyson, i love annabeth but it was just awful, also piper and her overall character(i chalk it up to rick riordan writing her badly because she is sorry to anyone who loves her))

>i love his upbringing and reading about it in any shape or form

>another reason why i love scott is because hes so bbg and miserable in a way i want to hug him so hard but also strangle him yknow

>>>>>TELL ME YOUR OPINIONS OF SCOTT SUMMERS WITHOUT BEING RUDE PLEASE!! if there is anything you dont agree with, you can always write it with the condition of being kind and not rude!!<<<<<<

[cartoonrival]

ok + for goodness' sake sasuke so that the screenshot takes up less space

1)parallels between naruto/sasuke and naruto/kawaki. i think honestly carrying over and actually bringing attention to the love-obsession thing that was going on sort of mostly unaddressed in the original series (in terms of no one called naruto as insane as they frankly shouldve) has the potential to be very interesting, especially because bringing it into the sphere of a father-son relationship rather than a platonic/romantic one is not really something i've seen before, along with the fact that kawaki doesn't actually know naruto much at all, making this very much an idolization of an idea of the person who saved you, someone who can do no wrong and is so without flaw. it was what this dude said:

like kawaki's obsession is weird and emblematic of how he grew up. also, the way that both of them sort of end up treating the other like a thing to be protected or owned or passed around, kawaki trapping him in time prison with zero regards for the fact that no one wants to be in time prison, and naruto's famous "give sasuke back/dont talk about sasuke like you own him in front of me/i'll get sasuke back/ill break your legs if i have to", there is the dismissal of actual personal wants However.

kawaki does this because he thinks that naruto's life is worth more than anything ever, and the reason he thinks this is because he thinks naruto is the most perfect person in the world and the only one who can save the world from evil. in naruto's case, even though he has a habit of possessiveness, sasuke is very much still a person to him, someone he violently and desperately wants to be close to. he doesnt think sasuke is perfect or can do no wrong, he just doesnt really give a fuck what wrong things sasuke does because he loves him too much and wants him too bad to ever hold anything against him. anything sasuke does is understandable and forgivable. naruto wouldnt put sasuke in time prison to protect him because then they couldnt hang out, and he knows sasuke wouldnt want that anyways. while i think naruto's obsession is insane, its more possessive than dehumanizing, which is def the angle kawaki is taking. again, i think this could be interesting if it was expounded upon but i dont think anyone in boruto is enough of a character for this actually do be pulled off in any satisfying way.

2)boruto/kawaki vs naruto/sasuke. i think honestly i just dont really have it in me to even act like kawaki and boruto have a dynamic that even comes close to the bullshit naruto and sasuke have going on, but if i were to attempt to explain why i dont think this is the case than i think at least part of it (beyond the fact taht ever character in boruto is painfully undercooked) is that boruto and kawaki's bond is based almost entirely around both being marked by karma. like they become friends sort of on a more surface level same way boruto is friends with anyone else, but its definitely not the same as naruto and sasuke's inexplicable pull towards one another since they were kids. even though kawaki has like sort of stupid convoluted internal strife going on, boruto doesnt honestly have enough inner issues to even shadow the bizarre knot that is sns. boruto and naruto both didn't want to kill their wayward friends because it's hard to kill someone you care about, i don't think that reads as a strong parallel because its like . what kind of story would it be if boruto was just like Okay lets kill him... now! also if kawaki dies naruto stays trapped im p sure so if he kills kawaki he is also functionally killing his dad

3)naruto and sasuke are both terrible parents but sasuke is leagues leagues leagues worse and he sees boruto has his son more than he will ever see sarada as his daughter. to him, she is his daughter because that is the only way she should have the sharingan. he can't really stand being around her and any interaction he has with her is out of guilt. boruto is his son because boruto is naruto's son

4)why did they bring up that jiraiya might get resurrected and then just drop it or is this me forgetting since i watched boruto 6+ months ago

[mer-acle]

I'm so bored so finally sharing that alisha lore with you hehe

My ass forgot where I left things with you. Ahhh.

But. Alisha has been pushing herself as hard as she could for years. Just so she could have the approval of her mother. It was only time before she cracked yn. I just had to give it a little shove. (Evil smile) (Also omg I had this exact thought today seconds before dropping water all over the floor. Yey)

She has a quest, finally after years of waiting for a chance to prove herself. A quest designed for her alone, to find and retrieve some tool hephaustus lost ages ago. Whats different about is that she has to go to it alone. (Demigods usually take 2 people with them. To my knowledge only clarisse refused to take anyone bc she wanted to make ares proud) She has been warned about not trusting anyone she meets on the quest. She has a choice to not go (does she really.)

Luke and her have a little fight about it. (Luke has just come back from his quest months ago. Wait yk this part right?) Luke doesnt trust the gods, not anymore. And the order of not having anyone accompany her sounds suspicious. This is a test, not just a quest. (Alisha knows this but by the gods how can she refuse the thing she has been dreaming about since she was a child.) Luke has a really bad feeling about this. But he cant tell her to not go, she wouldnt listen anyway. They have a little luck runs out moment (ahhhhhh) where luke questions alisha's decisions and trust in the gods. Alisha feels like he doesnt think her as capable. She knows he has his reasons to worry and tries to assure him but there is that self conscious thought back at her mind. In the end luke has to watch as alisha leaves.

The quest is... traumatic for sure. Alisha does nearly everything right. Passes every test except one. Athena had advised her to not trust anyone she met at the quest, told her to rely only on herself. Alisha did not do that. She met someone, made friends with him, gave him her trust. Paid dearly for it. (None of this would have happened if athena let her take someone with her. But that was the point wasnt it. She wanted to test if alisha could be the perfect warrior, wanted to see if she'd stop being so trusting. After all her loyalty is her fatal flaw. Unlike the most children of athena.)

Alisha doesnt remember what happened really. She thinks he tried to kill her and get the stuff. She has the scars to prove it, bruises on her throat and claws in her shoulder. She doesnt even remember killing him really. It must've happened fast. After the adrenalin, she only remembers bits. She remembers the feeling of deep betrayal. Pain. Fear. The golden dust all over her clothes, which are damaged- scraps really. The sensation of wrongness. The feeling of guilt, of shame pouring all over her. The numbness. Everything is so wrong. And she thinks her friend has tried to kill her. He fooled her, he was a monster all along. (Will she remember what actually happened. Who knows. Does it matter. When she is scarred all the same. Her trust broken. Does it matter which way.)

Oof I was gonna write more here but this is enough angst for one ask isnt it

(sry I'm late)

Athenaaaa noooo you broke the child!!!! I'm livid rn

The gods don't really do anything to prove Luke wrong istg like I get in life-or-death it's better to be the one "to push someone down the stairs" instead of being pushed but ATHENA your daughter can develop emotional intelligence and pick the right people jdhdbdjdbfjdn you don't have to destroy her

Epic Athena would never (she would try but let's be real she always let Ody get away with having emotions and attachments in the end)

Poor Alisha

I love (FBI open up) that she doesn't remember it. That's such an underused tool in storytelling esp as not the main plotline (like in Jason Bourne or whatever it's the entire premise but side amnesia plots? Good stuff)

But omg the poor baby 😭😭😭😭

Thank you for the lore dump dudbiddnjdjdbdjd I'm obsessed

[dogbound1128]

Ok so I just had a mini dose of closure so I'll just give the quick outline to what I thought in my imagination

tws: guilt, self blaming, literally just the story of OMORI, perfectionism, PTSD implied, mental issues, moving away, long-distance friendship, kinda unstable friendship

He looks around, still unsure of how he's gonna get out.

Progress

Hero opens up his eyes.. He's still in the Dark Part of His Mind.

Something catches his eye, he turns to it.

It looks like his younger self.

He's surrounded by,.. well.. all the difficult stuff he had in his life.

He's on his knees, looking down, and clutching the sides of his head. His jaw is clenched.

"Oh.." Hero thinks to himself. He sometimes forgot that he dealt with that much back then.

*cut to 15yoHero venting about literally everything*

Younger Hero had his forehead on the ground now, he was breathing as if he hadn't in an hour, he was shaking.

"......And I just... didn’t do anything." He said, his voice wet with tears. "I didnt fix it." "and... and I hurt everyone."

Hero was silent. What was he supposed to say? He couldn't think of the perfect advice to give to his younger self. He knew it existed, but he just somehow couldn't find it.

He thought, hard. It took him a while but eventually, it hit him. It didn’t exist. There was no fix-everything-at-once solution for this.

Just like everything in life.

No amount of inspiration could get Sunny to make the perfect drawing in one moment,

No amount of motivation could get Aubrey to do a ballet dance perfectlyin one try,

No amount of skill could get Kel to make every shot in one game,

No amount of knowledge could ensure Basil wouldnt run into any issues while growing a flower,

No amount of determination could let Mari perfect a peice and hit every note perfectly

And no one peice of advice could fix everything at once.

It takes a bunch of imperfect pieces to fix something.

Maybe it takes multiple flawed people to make each other happy

And not just one perfect one

This wasn't gonna be perfect, but perfect was impossible anyway, so this is all he could do.

He knelt down to his younger self.

His Younger self looked up at him.

Still, from this angle, he looked so small.

"...Hero, you were a child then."

Younger Hero's eyes widened.

"You cant send yourself to the guillotine for being a child and not responding to a horrible situation perfectly."

Younger Hero said nothing. He just stared into his older self's eyes, with a look of slight bewilderment.

"..........I need to talk to someone." Older Hero said.

-cut to next scene-

Sunny walked through the door to his room and closed it behind him. He tossed his bag off to the side. He took off his jacket and put it on the hanger.

Just then, his phone started ringing.

This scared him.

He didn't know why he did it, but he looked at who it was from.

It was Hero.

Oh no.

Why was Hero of all people calling? What would he say if he picked up?... Sunny quickly blocked out that thought.

What does Sunny have to lose if Hero screams at him and tells him to kill himself? He didn't know how Hero felt about The Truth, but it, of course, wouldn't be good.

Anways, what does he have to lose?

Well ever since he moved, he made a new group of friends.

Well he wouldn't really say him and them were close friends, and he only joined a week ago, but.. he knew that if something happened, they would be there to support him.

Okay

He was gonna do it

He picked up the receiver.

"Hello? Is this Sunny?" Hero asked.

"...Yes." Sunny awnsered.

...How was Hero supposed to start this

"This is Hero!" (What the fuck was that)

"I know..." Sunny responded

"How have you been?" Hero asked

Despite the awkwardness, Sunny tried to focus on the good- Oh my gosh-

The way Hero's talking? Right now? That means he doesn't hate Sunny, he doesn't hate him

..And the status quo of Hero being the one Sunny could be near when he was going through troubles came back to him.

"...I mean not good, but, it's way better." Sunny awnsered.

"Oh, well that's-" Hero almost said "good" "...better." Hero finished with a sort of chuckle.

"..."

"..."

"I,,- If you don't want to talk about it, I completely understand.. I wanted to talk about,, the last time we saw each other."

"..."

"N-No,, I don't want to." Sunny said, his hands holding the receiver sort of shaking.

"It's okay, I understand."

"..."

"So, uh,, just checking in.."

"Yeah.."

"Thank you.. for that"

Hero was suprised

"Of course."

"..."

"..."

"Do you want to talk another time?"

"Yes." He said it with 100% certainty

"Tomorrow?"

"...Next week."

"Alright!"

"..."

"Bye."

"Bye"

Hero plopped down on the side of his bed, sort of dazed by what just happened.

That was good

That was Progress.

[tenzobito]

Hiiiii how about obito and madara for the character ask game?? Hope you're doing well! -seoz

Aww thank you seoz!!! I am doing fine, I hope you are doing good too 💗💗💗

Obito

1. Favorite thing about them?

Everything? bxhabdhahsdhdh He's my absolute perfect baby warcriminal boy with no flaws he never did anything wrong ever in his life.. No but I think hes so great and his actions make a lot of sense and he's very relatable and tragic and I just want to hug him 😭

2. Least favorite thing about them?

That he had the audacity to die in the war and not survive and live a happy long life is ONE thing! Otherwise I hate him for being ridiculously sexy and also cute

3. Favorite line?

When he speaks 💗

4. brOTP

Obito and all the Akatsuki hehee, especially Kisame I think they are cool bros.

5. OTP

ObiYama of course ❤️ They both deserve the world and they could've both ended up in similar ways if their lives would've gone different I think.

6. nOTP

Noone I basically ship him with anyone he deserves to fuck and get fucked!

7. Random headcanon?

I think he cut his long hair again eventually because he didn't wanna look too much like Madara and still wanted to have SOME sense of self. And since hes letting them grow again later during the massacre he kinda stopped taking care of himself but eventually cut it again and it always went in kind of a circle like that because he has depression

8. Unpopular opinion?

Idk if it's unpopular but I think Obito did have some fondness for Madara somewhere deep down, in a very twisted and of course unhealthy way but I think if he WOULDNT have then he wouldn't have asked him things like "What am I to you?"

9. Song I associate them with?

I'm just gonna copy @wind-becomes-lightning here and say It's Alright by Mother Mother because its just SO PERFECT. Another song I always associate him with is Could've Been Me by The Struts!

10. Favorite picture of him?

His Juubito transformation like....

Perfect. SHOWSTOPPING SPECTACULAR yada yada

Madara

1. Favorite thing about them?

There's like two sides of him. One side is so fun and sassy in some way like he just roasts everyone left and right and complains about bad fashion and I stan that LMAO, but on the other side hes also a very sad character who went through a lot in his youth and I think at least SOME of his actions were also very understandable. ALSO I love him 💗

2. Least favorite thing about them?

Obviously the way he treats Obito, I like to just ignore that and give him a fun old grandpa personality.

3. Favorite line?

Everytime he swoons about Hashirama (sorry I am so blank when it comes to quotes lmao)

4. brOTP

Can I say Madara and Obito as a brOTP? I think they are very funny together. Otherwise I dont think he has any friends sorry king.

5. OTP

HashiMada all the way, they are my one and only my everything I've been obsessed with them since I am 16 or so and me and my best friend have a matching HashiMada tattoo I hope that explains it.

6. nOTP

MadaTobi. I don't hate on it or anything but they just don't vibe for me. Rather go and fuck his big brother, Madara.

7. Random headcanon

He has / or USED TO have a soft spot for children. He needs to protect.

8. Unpopular opinion

I refuse to go with the "Madara is very slim and pale" vibe some people having going on. He is BEEFY and TANNED!

9. Song I associate them with?

I have an entire playlist full with songs for him BUT my favorites are:

K/DA - Villain and Animals - Maroon 5

10. Favorite picture of them

I don't like this question lmao I dont wanna post any art here without permission aaah but I love pictures of Madara with cats :)

[creepycrawliesinyourwalls]

rambling; online diary

i truely believe i can do heroin and not be addicted. i've been on dilaudid before, ive gotten high off my ass on weed, i took some vyvanse to see how itd go, and ultimately it was boring. being high is kinda boring. i complain about not having my cart, sure. but being so fr rn i do it for show. no one would ever believe me in a million years, but it is genuinely for show.

i have a hard time defining myself as a person, given the disorders i have. anything and everything that i could add to myself to humanize myself is a positive, never a negative. humanity is by definition flawed and faulty, if i have a flaw im more easily humanized.

im also incapable of being perfect, though if i wasn't abused to the point of my brain never fully forming a cohesive personality, i'm sure id be a prodigy. if my brain genetically disabled, i'd be top of my class, 4.0 gpa with honors.

with dissociative identity disorder, autism, adhd, bipolar 1, ptsd, clinical depression, arfid, and probably some sort of personality disorder, its hard to care about anything at all. these are only the mental and neurological disorders and defects, too.

inherently i was given the worst hand i could have gotten in birth. my potential is wasted, trapped inside this failure of a body. i could have been so much more. my face is somewhat conventionally attractive, so theres a win.

im confident that without my memory issues, joint pain, and depression i could be a full blown doctor. i have to settle for marketing, because my gpa currently is too low to get into engineering. i wanted to do mathematics for awhile to get into finance or something. i wanted to do geology bc my special interest is rocks, but i don't want to work for an oil company.

if i am not constantly improving with my life in any aspects, if i am stagnant for a stretch of time, i consider it a failure.

i do not have a personality, at least nothing coherent and consistent. some people say im loud, some say im shy. sweet, mean, smart, dumb, its all contradictory traits.

i consider myself better then most of the people i choose to be friends with. a good lot of them (danny, chloe, viktor) will probably never go to college. kaden might go, but im sure she'd just party the whole time. alix is maybe the only one who i'd even consider on my level, since he's aiming for law and finds debates enjoyable. he has the drive and determination to do well in life, and is at the very least takes steps to get where he wanted to get.

chloe wanted to get into medicine and be a doctor. she is chronically disabled and was failing half of he classes. from disabled to disabled person, there is no way in hell you are making it that far. id be surprised if she made it past 25, honestly. she viewed mental hospitals as a vacation, even excluding the morals on that view, its incorrect. she believed she wasn't addicted to her medication, and that it actually helped her. she never even tried.

i am beginning to become fond of alix, though. i hope my headmates realize how much better his is compared to others. taylor and vee are already fond of him, which is a good sign.

we seem to be improving our depression symptoms and dissociative amnesia, and we joined a cbt program to further along process after being voluntarily admitted to a psychiatric facility. (yes, we did ask to go. we were going to kill ourselves as soon as we were alone, we needed immediate help.) i want to work on breaking down our gatekeepers resolve, and get us to a place where we can work on final fusion. i would also like to address our npd traits, but our therapist wouldnt believe us, so ill have to work on that myself.

we haven't been practicing our religion as much as we used too, its kind of sad. we send a prayer up to apollo occasionally, and he usually answers. but otherwise we havent done any spell work. its sucks to admit it, and god to i want to delete this paragraph but i need to work on vulnerability to create and foster friendships that are mutually beneficial.

ive never seen the point of online friends, i think the concept is pointless. i've tried doing it, and everytime we ended up ghosting them. the effort did not match the spoils. if im going to have friends, i need them to invest in me before i invest in them. it can be materially, emotionally, or physically. as long as i gain benefits, you will too.

[thickest-slimiest-malware]

more detailed spiderverse thoughts

if spiderverse 2 was the final one itd probably be miles dad quitting and thats how we find out you can change canon events or whatever. we didnt need a second story with a second cop dad. i think gwens story wouldve been sufficient if it was just about her band. they also couldve cut the bland bird fight and moved the other spider teams introduction, it wouldve been fine if we just followed miles story until gwen came to him and were introduced to the in-charge spider people when entering the spider world or whatever. if they werent making a sequel thats probably how it would go.

if they wanted to make it better, they should make gwen be less annoying, or have some more insightful thoughts about her being annoying.

also idk what theyre gonna do with uncle aaron but im suspicious of how theyre framing him and that universe. i dont think he would do that to miles, even an alternate miles. hes just a guy with a job. and even if he would do that in a specific snecario, the fact they created the perfect scenario for him to do that makes me think theyre trying to frame him as a bad guy which i dont like.

i hope theyre gonna roll that back in the last movie or make it some sort of misunderstanding, without giving him a redemption arc because he doesnt need it.

ok so this next thing isnt a real problem as is but it would be if they cut the things i described and suddenly lacked content: the villain (spot?) has very little going on. but i think hes a cool guy, they could figure something out. make him more inquisitive like the scientist he is, make him struggle more at the start and maybe show some of his daily life. im tELLING YOU HE HAS CUTE PATHETIC POTENTIAL but i suspect thats not where the story is going just because of the way hes designed. the movie really doesnt favour certain body types (thats a whole other can of worms about this franchise that im not opening here, its been going on since the first movie)

or build up miguel more, maybe make him more prominent as an antagonist (although he works okay as it is, i think the scene where he tries to bend miles to his will is great and he works well as a representation of a forced narrative that miles has to defy). they have to be careful with him, hes kind of a basic superhero guy, whose only (but important and interesting) flaw is that he's too lawful. they should follow that lead

also im repeating myself from a previous post but some of the characters just dont have much personality. i hope they let spiderwoman take more of a stance on things in the next one because shes quite inconclusive. is she a career person that doesnt see anything wrong with what theyre doing? does she let miguel do all that stuff because she respects him? or will she completely change camps and support miles when we see her again? what we currently know about her is that shes a spiderwoman and shes having a baby. thats not very anticapitalist of them, to only focus on what a character is doing for society and how shes useful (although showing that she is useful and valuable will do it for some people, that might be important too. but i never buy that archetype "i balance career with my baby perfectly! look how strong of a woman i am")

to sum it up, words cannot describe how little i cared about gwens deal. i wouldnt have brought back uncle aaron at all but since they did they need to make him endearing again. flesh out miguel and spiderwoman

also im only saying this because i care about spiderverse, and i think it has potential, and it has responsibilities and standards to meet that the first movie has set. i still think if youre gonna watch anything in the theatres right now, it should be spiderverse

[yellowbluemoonshine]

Have you seen the spoilers for chapter 387? How did you react?

Thanks for the ask, @trinityrus.

Bnha Chapter 387 Opinions;

Geten is Himura confirmed and having chat with Mr Compress in prison.

I already write my opinion about this theory before. I think Geten didnt need to be Himura. Because he is a character written to be parallel with Touya but i dont mind.

New information about Himura's could've been mentioned before this arc too. Himura family seems to be ambitous, just like Endeavour when it comes to quirk, just in different way. It is messed up but not surprising since y'know, they basically sold their daughter.

If this is the last arc and this is the last moment for Compress, i think it is dissappointing for his character. Every other league members had a more chance to shine. Hero corruption arc would be perfect arc for both Compress character and to adress flaws of hero society so i hope this isnt the end. Otheriwse, such a shame. Same with Geten too but he is a more background character so i dont mind it that much.

Dabi has a ice quirk.

This theory is already been made before so not surprising. Like, he could've been 'the one' for Endeavour. Though, even if he didnt have ice quirk, Touya would still shine, just like Izuku did. Basically, i am not surprised about this information but it would be better with 'more show, less talk'. Explanation part could've been done before this arc. This is why we should've get a arc about exploring the nature of quirks and how it effects the users since we have characters like Toga.

Dabi is mentally regressing and dying, again.

I dont think Dabi will die but still watching him like this is painfull. I am kinda used to this though since this is always the case with Izuku, Shigaraki and Dabi etc but yeah, it is painfull.

This is so sad but again, not surprising. He is dying and it is only chance to revenge on the person who ruined him.

I love the parallels between Toga, Shigaraki and Dabi. Such as how Toga viewed Ochaco and Izuku's rejection as similar to her own parents's rejection of her as child. Shigaraki's turning into child, Tenko and keep repeating how he was always ignored, how he could've been helped etc. And now with Dabi, he is turning into child, Touya and repeating the words he said as child in a child leanguage, just like Shigaraki did. I love the inner child parallels but at the same time, none of those characters are children right now so reaching out to their inner child wouldnt solve the problems with the teenager/adult side of them. I dont want them to just reaching to children side of them, i want them to reach out to adult side of them too.

Endeavour is reacting to Dabi.

Ok, first of all, i love the fire punch scene.

And i hate this and i am not surprised. Like, he does 'seems to looking' at his son but this is just not right. When he looks at him, all he thinks about quirks, his failures and his responsiblities. Once again, it is all about him. There is no space to how Touya and other members of family felt and how painfull it was for them and this No 1 hero's solution to all of these is killing himself and Touya...This isnt out of character though but i dont think that its character development either.

Once again, he choose to be 'hero' and decide to sacrifice his son to protect complete strangers. While his desire to protect others is understandable, i dont think he had to give up on Touya like this. Telling him that he doesnt want him to die is not enough, he should show it with his actions too, not just words. He could've run to a place with ices or he could've get helped from people who have ice quirk to cool his son down so he can 'put out' fire but no, he is burning himself with his son. I know his quirk is bad match and all but this guy is pro hero. We've seen that true heroes make miracles or at least try to make ones so that they can save the ones who need their help.

Basically Endeavour could've try to help Touya other than telling him to stop because his son repeatedly told him that he cant put out the fire, the fire wont go away. It is the fire Endeavour lifted so he should've find better solutions and i think if he truly truly wanted to help Touya, if he truly see him, he would find a way. Thats what true heroes do. Thats what caring father would do. How ironic that by failing to his son, he is not just failing as father, he is also failing as hero because he chose to not help the person in front of him.

This is my problem with Endeavour's arc. He gets so many screen scenes but his character is in core, it is the same. And this chapter is full of him, his feelings and how much he feels sorry for what he did but i dont think he earned that because if you truly feel sorry, your focus should be on people whom you hurt, not yourself.

Rei is coming to save the day.

I was kinda hoping for something like this to happen. I hate how Endeavour is the one who gets the main focus in Todoroki family. Especially with his relationship with Touya. Rei is his mother and we hardly get any scenes about their relationship. And i find it hard to believe that Rei's being send to hospital didnt affect Touya at all. Their relationship deserves more focus so i hope this scene is less about 'saving Endeavour and others' and more about 'saving Touya' for Rei.

If Rei is around, most likely, Fuyumi and Natsuo too. So kinda hoping family hug for Touya.

Unlike Endeavour, i think Rei being here might change things for Dabi. Because Dabi's problem with Endeavour was how he always run away from him, how he never look at him properly etc and he did the same thing in this chapter. While his problem with Rei and others is basically them watching and doing nothing, also being side with Endeavour. But Rei and others are here. They are not standing and watching Touya's pain. They are trying to help him. While this can be still seen as 'they are siding with father' so i really hope they at least tell him how much they love him, how they dont want to loose him again. I am sure this will help him a little more for him to come his sense and cool down. It wont happen that simple, he might get angry at them for getting his way too but at least, even for later, it will help for Touya/Dabi to be saved. I hate this 'this is whole family's responsibility thing' because it is not. This all happenned because of Endeavour but both family and Touya/Dabi need this to happen. I hope story focus on this more, not Endeavour.

I dont like the idea of Rei getting 'scar', as if this is her karma for hurting Shouto and her other children but i hate the idea a lot. Because Rei already suffered more than enough. She doesnt need more karma. She lost her whole life, her children and she lived with guilty for her entire life and unlike Endeavour, she was always ready to take responsibility. Not to mention Rei putting boiling water on Shouto...I hate how it is always used as an example of Rei being 'abusive'. She literally 'snapped' at that scene. She was most likely wasnt aware of what she was doing. If she wasnt aware, then how can she seen as responsible for this. Shouto was right about to see who is responsible for his scar. It is Endeavour. Not Rei. So i hope she doesnt get scar, if that scar supposed to mean 'she is sinner'. Because she is not. Of course, she made wrong decisions too but it is understandable since she wasnt in mentally right place as victim.

Next chapter might be POV change again, or if its not i am really hoping more interaction betwen Touya/Dabi and Rei, Fuyumi, Natsuo so there might be things i forgot to say but for now, thats it.

[strawberryraviegutz]

@starfishes-and-watercolors

I know right! I still enjoyed Ruby Gillman though. Don’t even get me started on Puss In Boots The Last Wish..I honestly loved that movie and used to Simp for Jack Horner( however if you’re one of those people who makes fun of others for simping for characters that aren’t attractive to your standards or use the term tumblr sexyman as an insult then you can leave) and wanted to make a whole thing with him and my oc who was supposed to based off of swan lake. She was also supposed to be a magical being that Jack captured for his collection because, well, it’s Jack Horner. And we know that he captures and or collects things that are alive such as the Phoenix and jimeny(ethical bug). So what’s stopping him from kidnapping a woman that has wings, right? That’s sorta the idea I wanted to go with. She would’ve also been both the white swan and the black swan, with the black swan being her darker half/self.

But of course nothing is sacred..

I hated these fucking DreamWorks pick me’s saying shit like “It’s gwood and refweshing to finawy get a viwain like Jack Horner. The twagic villain twope is so overdone..” or “haha Jack solos other villains and generational trauma”. These bastards also used the movie to put down Turning Red, a really good movie movie that already had a lot of hate before it even came out because of cringe culture, sexism, and racism. Disney only made 2-3 movies about generational trauma and these dickheads lost their damn minds.

Not to say Disney is perfect they’re an extremely flawed company but my point still stands. What these dummies don’t realize that literally EVERY TROPE IN EXISTENCE HAS BEN OVERUSED INCLUDING VILLAINS LIKE JACK. There was probably a lot of asinine takes that I saw but I can’t remember them all rn. But what I will never forget..the shit I always hated..people using Jack as a Trojan horse to do and say bigoted shit..all these memes and people saying like “lmao he’d say this slur” “or Jack would *insert something bigoted here*” drawing Jack with the r word pass and the n word pass out of his big bag thingy..THIS ONE DISGUSTING INDIVIDUAL LITERALLY MADE ACCOUNTS FOR IT. THERE WAS A TRANSPHOBIC JACK HORNER ACCOUNT WHICH WAS THANKFULLY SUSPENDED BUT THEN ANOTHER ONE POPPED UP CALLED,

RACIST JACK HORNER WHICH MADE ME WANNA FUCKING THROW UP. I THINK ITS STILL UP BUT I AM NOT GOING BACK TO CHECK… and the cherry on top..those DAMN MEMES. YOU KNOW THE ONES. THE ONES THAT INVOLVE STEVEN FROM STEVEN UNIVERSE.

Listen Steven Universe is not a perfect show, but so many people REFUSE TO HAVE MEDIA LITERACY FOR IT AND MISCHARACTERIZES STEVEN TO ALL HELL WITH OTHER MEMES INVOLVING OTHER CHARACTERS AND THE ONES INVOLVING HIM AND JACK HORNER ARE JUST ABSOLUTE GARBAGE!

LIKE NO STEVEN WOULDNT BE CRYING FOR JACK HORNER TO CHANGE HED LITERALLY STILL TRY TO FIGHT AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM CONSIDERING THE FACT THAT IN SU FUTURE, STEVEN LITERALLY SHATTERED JASPER AND ALMOST SHATTERED WHITE DIAMOND OUT OF REVENGE. NO STEVEN ISNT AND HAS NEVER BEEN A PUSHOVER CRYBABY, HE CAN TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF. EVEN THEN HES A FUCKING TRAUMATIZED CHILD WHAT DO YOU EXPECT HIM TO DO?? These stupid memes are also the reason why the “you can make a change” song has

just been completely ruined for me because of memes like this, and I’m not only talking about the ones involving Jack. And these bitches even had the nerve to make edits of Jack SAYING THE FUCKING N WORD…like..WHAT?? WHAT?? THERE WAS LITERALLY NO NEED FOR THAT, NO ONE ASKED FOR THAT! LIKE YES JACK HORNER IS AN ASSHOLE WITH NO TRAGIC REASON AS TO WHY HES LIKE THIS BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN I WANNA THINK ABOUT HIM SAYING SLURS AND SHIT. ACTUALLY ID EVEN ARGUE AGAINST ONE THING BECAUSE ACCORDING TO THE

OFFICIAL BOOK ON PUSS IN BOOTS THE LAST WISH THAT WAS RELEASED, IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY IN JACK’S SECTION IT SAYS THE REASON WHY HE IS THE WAY HE IS NOW IS BECAUSE OF SOMETHING ALONG THE LINE OF HE HATED THE FACT THAT HIM, A NURSERY RYME WAS OVERLOOKED BY FAIRYTALES. SO THESE DUMB BITCHES ARE LITERALLY WRONG ABOUT HIM LMAO(could be wrong about that too but whatever). So yeah it’s because of all of these things that I now fucking hate Jack Horner with a passion and he’s lost his appeal on me either way..that and some other stuff about his personality that now looking back on I just couldn’t vibe with in the way like I do with other villains. Sorry if I got a bit heated there. I’m just so damn angry.

These are most likely the same assholes used Chelsea to be racist towards Halle like I said..They cry and whine about “Disney boot lickers” when they’re literally doing the same thing with DreamWorks, like hellooo?? It’s like..DreamWork ain’t gonna notice ya hun..DreamWorks ain’t gonna pick you 😂. Anyways I wish I could’ve avoided that side of the DreamWorks fandom that I bore witness to..

Heck I’m pretty sure the Puss in Boots the last wish movie as a whole has been ruined for me now..such a shame too..and those tweets from those same pick me dudebros making fun of the panic attack scene and or someone talking about how good the panic attack in that scene was depicted in the movie too. Along with them making fun of media touching upon panic attacks as a whole because of that scene int Puss in Boots..disgusting fuckers..

This fucking tweet has some how cause a storm of hate for  Ruby Gillman WTF happened? The replies are like “That’s what you get for dunking on the real mermaid”. God forbid an original IP becomes successful. I know also this movie didn’t have much marketing months in advanced but looking at the replies of that tweet I’ve seen some real distain towards Ruby Gillman, Like even some of the Mermaid fans think this film doing badly is payback for racism  Halle Bailey received, even though the Arial their parodying is the original. Anyways I hope this does well enough.

[marunalu]

AFO gives quirks and steals kids but all this time just ignores Izuku, Garaki was Izuku's doctor, a perfect quirkless boy that easy could turn in a nomu or anything but he just left Izuku goes. At this point dfo is the only good explanation for all this.

I wouldnt say he "steals" kids. Its more like he takes abandoned children nobody wants in (tomura, touya, chisaki and other orphans), but he gives them to babysitters (kurogiri, the doc and that creepy sunflower guy in chapter 350), because he clearly doesnt care about them and feels zero attachment for them. I saw posts about afo being a terrible father to these kids, so izuku should be glad not to have him around. But people seem to forget that afo DOESNT have father feelings for this children. All of this children are tools for him and nothing more then lab rats, vessels for his quirk if something happens to tomura. As soon as he doesnt need them anymore they end as noumus (Im looking at you little tsubasa) or dead. He isnt a father figure for them and it seem like as if he never was part of these childrens life except tomuras. And even with him he mainly interacted with through a computer monitor. So fact is, we still have no idea what kind of father afo would be to izuku. He could geniusly love izuku and be a good father to him before he left "overseas".

And yes, the fact that izuku is the only child afo and garaki ignore, despite being the perfect test object, is pretty much one of the biggest dfo hints so far. Afo doesnt care about if these children have quirks or not, look at aoyama. He gave him a quirk and from then he and his parents had to work for him. Even if afo was not interested to use izuku as a vessel because of him being quirkless, he could have used him for something else. He isnt picky when it comes to using people for his own gain. An other fact that is also still sus is garaki not talking about or mentioning izuku at least ONCE in 349 chapters, despite knowing that he is the current ofa holder and the only person that could stop afo and tomura. As if he was ordered never to talk about him no matter what.

Also we need to ask ourselfes the question, if dfo is true (and you are absolutely right anon, it IS the only logical explaination) WHY did afo fathering a child and MARRY a woman, when he already has like 30 back up kids in his storage, that arent even his own? Also the timeline makes clear that afo took tomura in when izuku was already born. His son was between a few months and a year old, but he STILL decided to use an other child/ren for his plans. And at that age it was impossible for even garaki to find out if izuku has a quirk or not.

So to me garaki telling that izuku is quirkless was because of 3 reasons. 1. Izuku ISNT quirkless (enough hints in the manga) and he has a version of his own afo quirk (again enough hints) 2. At the age of 4 little izuku was already the biggest all might nerd in whole japan and has already decided he wanted to become a hero just like his idol. Pretty sure that was a BIG thorn in afos eyes and it reminded him of an other family member who was obssessed with heros and turned against him. And 3. Hoping that growing up in an anti quirkless society, shunned out by all the other people and treated like "worthless and useless" trash (well done bakugou *sarcastic*) would change izukus world view and make him start to hate hero society, so izuku will follow him willingly when the time comes and not rebell against him like yoichi did. But that completly backfired, because izuku still wants to safe people, no matter if they treated him like shit or not. And thats the reason why afo is still trying to make izuku see the flaws and fuck ups of hero society by sending people like nagant after him.

Sorry my answer got a little bit out of hand 😅, but thanks for the ask anon 😙

[zeravmeta]

funniest thing about the potential cyrus volo giratina dynamic is that volo would be obsessed with cyrus but cyrus would absolutely despise volo hour long discussions about the nature of the world and the value of spirit where volo is like "actually the world is flawed inherently and thus we need to remake it, becoming god is the answer of course because hardships and suffering are an unecessary part of this world and I (graciously of course no need to thank me) will become god for everyones sake" vs cyrus going "actually its the people who are inherently flawed and need to be reset into unfeeling perfect beings (including myself ofc godhood is for losers) in order to erase suffering because otherwise id have to acknowledge my trauma and i refuse" with their giant fucked up centipede dragon dog looking down at the two pissed because it fell for volos pyramid scheme out of genuine pokemon affection and after being defeated was like "oh...yeah ok i can see how destroying the world might not have been the right play" and is now like "cyrus listen to me you cant handle they/them godhood dont try to bcome god" but neither of them get that cyrus WASNT trying to become god he was just trying to set off a universal nuke because he refused to go to therapy and inherently just wants to be understood by others. volo is also a catty minimum wage worker who has infinite amounts of patience (for his plans) but also messes with people so after a while he decides itd be funny to Not Shut Up (volo is as insufferable as melli here (well. anyways)) but cyrus' face is long locked into the eternal grimace of 4 am espresso shots for a degree that went nowhere so he cant be crack by even the harshest of karens, the only thing that makes him crack is the fact that giratina actually does like him and try to give him a chance because unlike volo cyrus def feels like he has way less options, ultimately resulting in a yakuza 0 style brawl between the two because they also share the same tendency to just to absolutely berserk and volo wouldnt be able to handle that fact that not only god but satan also passed him over

[johannwolfgangvongoethe]

(adding my opinion since i was there for the anime rewatch. its flawed bc i havent read the manga at all. but for diary documentation purposes,)

please save my earth was a nice anime to watch :) it is very beautiful. the emotion delivered through shots and perspective and changes of viewpoint in it was amazing. i feel like i learned a few things about visual communication through it. it was definitely worth watching.

did i have a good time with the story? eeeeehhHHHHHHH-.....

the plot is interesting and touching. the characters are lively and convincing as young people who have started to regain some memory of another life. they have charm and you feel for them.

ah but rin..... he is a good character? i understand where his behaviour is coming from, i think. he is the perfect believable combination of a man left to die alone (who apparently sexually assaulted a woman), and also a 7yo child. of course he is offputting and uncomfortable. there is no way he wouldnt be. a lot of the things he does are deeply inappropriate for how he looks, sometimes because of their violence and sometimes for their light romantic nature. neither is easy to watch. like laska said, he is key to everything that happens and him being terrible is... well. the point.

but my god did he ruin most fun for me. watching psme, i could never shake of this discrepancy... i enjoyed watching it... but i felt a strong discomfort around rin... which, to be fair, i hardly get this uncomfortable around fictional characters, so he is really outstanding actually. i dont feel like i wasted time. it was a worthwhile experience.

hes also the reason i wouldnt want to watch it again. or read the manga and see More Of That Shit. he reminds me of things i had to experience in real life and, more damning, to my eye it didnt seem like he expressed guilt or regret in front of others. what pain he has, seems to be reserved for himself. and it can only be funnelled into negative actions. it is hard to sympathize like this... a character like this can work for me but not if he has this much presence and power over the plot and other characters in it. it quickly feels disheartening. like i am just here to experience the control he has over others. like he becomes the only active role in the play and therefore the only character. does this make sense.

very odd case for how much it actually bothered me. bc ofc i could be bothered by some of the violent actions here but nooooo its his personality that is most scary to me. like, what the hell.

UNRELIABLE NARRATOR TIMEOUT FOR 20000000 YEARS

watched psme again w some friends and it got me thinking about how a lot of stories have polarizing characters + ones who might even be core to (not) enjoying the work but shions notable for these qualities being inseparable from the storytelling. which is awkward!!!

(manga spoilers + mentions of sexual assault under the cut)

theres the fact that their memories are flawed (incomplete and subjective, even before they were eroded by time) but shion consistently sees both himself and others in the most bad faith way possible. this i think is part of why he can act on his resentment the way he does (The worst way!!!! every time!!!!). when he approaches shusuran with the proposal that the two of them go down to earth the way he thinks to sweeten the pot is to add WE COULD PLAY GOD. he doesnt say they could end war with deterrence and never have to suffer the same loss they did back home, which are his actual dreams. he just appeals to base desires of control

rin spends most of the manga terrified of what shion built after he was left alone, thinking that itll destroy their peaceful life on earth. to this end he systematically ruins every relationship he has, even going as far as to try to kill innocent people despite his trauma around it. except in the end, shion chose love!!! but no one knows that, not even he himself.

and this is where things come apart, because to the rest of the moon gang the guy whose eternal soul theyve felt such responsibility for is 1. a scoundrel 2. a rapist.* which would be a remarkable act of forgiveness if it came from people he had more of a relationship with than "uncomfortable coworkers" and also, you know, were the victim. but mokuren never claims he did so and is instead hung up on her mark not having disappeared after they had sex, a sign that she can never shed her divinity and be loved like a human would.

the story doesnt make it obvious if shes shrinking back from a memory that was later invalidated by the presence of the mark, or if her protests were to the act itself. still, she Was unwell for days after the fact, and shion (who notably doesnt have intimacy issues or a problem with treating himself as evil) seems to confirm it as assault. and then they get closer. and the manga ends as a circular, cosmic love story reuniting the two.

If at the heart of that is assault, id rather throw the whole thing out. i cant take the ending as anything other than a refutation of it. but the fact that such an ambiguity exists makes this a difficult work to reccommend

*going unsaid here is, 3. a child. which is fair, but hard to lean on when rins name all but falls out of use for shions

8/21

[aries-writes-shit]

Heartbroken

Pairing: C!Jschlatt x reader

Request/Prompt: ¨Your in love with him, Aren't you¨,¨Hes beautiful, i hope he makes you happy¨ ¨the truth is, i never loved you¨, ¨who could ever love someone like you¨ 

A/N: mmmm more angst, angst makes Aries´ brain go brrr.

You had a picture perfect life, A loving husband and a beautiful home. That was until you and your husband moved to a small nation so your husband could run for president.

When your husband won the election, you payed no mind to him coming home late, nor to his drunken state. You thought you still loved him.

Humming a small tune, you walked towards the whitehouse, a bag with a homemade lunch for the man you thought you loved.  You gave a quiet greeting to George as you walked past into shlatts office, only to find him making out with his vice president on his desk. With a small wail you dropped the bag and ran. You ran like hell, your husband on your tail. You only stopped when you reached a small clearing just outside of the city

Schlatt huffed as he came to a stop, he didnt plan for you to find out like this. ¨Babe-¨ he began, only for you to shoot a glare at him. ¨you love him, Dont you?¨ you asked, holding onto the pendant schlatt gave you on your first date. Schlatt nervously rubbed the back of his head as he turned away from you. ¨Hes beautiful by the way¨ you whispered ¨i hope he loves you more then i did¨. Those words set shlatt off ¨God, (Y/N), This is why i was cheating on you¨ he shouted ¨I hope you realize i never loved you, it was all an act so my fucking parents would leave me alone¨. Warm tears began to stream down your face as you made eye contact with the angry man. ¨You know (Y/N)¨ schlatt began, his voice becoming more steady and calm ¨I dont see how anyone could ever love you, Your So clingy and annoying¨. He continued off, listing your every flaw as you stood there and took his words. ¨Fine then¨ you stated, the anger and betrayal you felt, you yanked off the pendant then threw your wedding ring to the ground . ¨we´re over¨ . With those words, you stormed off into the woods, leaving shlatt behind.

After you left your husbands old friend, Wibur, found you alone in the woods. He listened to you through the broken sobs. He was just as angry and upset as you, so he invited you to join pogtopia. You took his invitation eagerly, and the two of you set off back to the ravine him and several others called home. 

You and wilbur grew close over the short span of time, eventually begining to date. And it seemed his growing insanity was rubbing off on you.  ¨oh wilby¨ you jokingly called out, looking all around for your newest partner. You loved him more then you ever loved schlatt. ¨yes my darling melody¨ he responded, pulling you into a hug. ¨schlatts festival is coming up and i have an idea¨

It was the day of the festival, You sat in your the crowd, just watching your ex husband. You grew to loathe him. During your time in pogtopia, you realized how horrible of a person that man was, and how he treated you was never that of someone who loved you. When he began his speech, his eyes scanned the crowd, and they landed on you sitting next to philza and technoblade. He visibly gulped and continued on, inviting tubbo up, only to execute the poor boy. You stood up, pulling a match out of your pocket, lighting it, then dropping it on the ground, Causing the first explosion to happen. Standing in the middle of the chaos, you watched the people begin to scatter as wilbur set off the rest of the explosions. You felt a person tug on your arm, pulling you away from the explosions and towards the building that started this entire thing. ¨why would you do that (Y/N)¨ george´s familiar voice asked. ¨im destroying the thing that cause me so much pain. You wouldnt understand¨ you stated. Both schlatt and quackity were now standing alongside George. ¨You wouldnt know what heartbreak could do to a person¨ you laughed, you took pleasure in watching their horrified reaction. ¨im sorry¨ shlatt whispered. You looked up at him, a sadistic grin forming on your face as you pulled your dagger out of your waistband. 

¨sorry doesnt fix everything, and boy oh boy am i happy to finally have someone to love me and treat me well¨ you took a step back, placing your foot on the edge of a very large crack that had formed due to the explosions. ¨and yet, wilbur loved me more in the span of a month then you did over six years¨ your grin faded to a wistful smile before you stepped into the crack

 ¨see you in hell mother fucker¨

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How We Got Here

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A/N: still working on other stories, but had a dream about this so I had to write it.

Steve Rogers x Reader

Word count: 1.6k

Warning: fluff and angst

You had an itch, a problem per se. You needed everyone to like you.  So you tried really hard. To smile, be happy, be likable. 

You never faced a problem of someone not liking you, at least not until recently. Not until you met the one and only Steve Rogers. Or how you liked to call him Mr. Perfect. Perfect in the way he smiles. Perfect in the way he cares. Perfect in the way he is America's golden boy. You two could have been friends. Maybe if the situation was different. 

You joined the avengers not so long ago. With your training as an agent and your bad-ass powers of mind-control. You were the best candidate to join the elite superheroes.  Besides all that you had a talent. A talent with technology. 

Your obsession began when you accidentally broke your dad’s computer at the age of 12. You were so determined to put it back together before he could find out. In doing so you used some spare parts from your also broken Nintendo console and upgraded his computer.  You were considered a prodigy from that point.

A plan was set for you. You were going to become a computer engineer. With the support of your parents, you continue your studies all through college. And a month before graduation Hydra found you. 

They wanted you and they werent going to stop until they had you. Your parents so valiantly fought them. But at the end, they lost the battle and you, well you lost your parents. 

Hydra had a hold of you. They experiment on you like crazy. You were going to be their new super weapon. As much as they tried to turn you. You wouldnt let them, you would be their rag doll to use and abuse. You weren’t about to let your parents die in vain for you to become a monster. 

What felt like centuries of being locked up were actually a month. A month when Nick Fury came bursting in and saved you.  After a much needed shower and sleep, Fury and you had a chat. 

You didnt know how to repay him for what he had done for you, you should have chosen better words than that. Because sooner or later he was asking to train you, use your powers for good. How could you say no to the man who saved you?

Two years of training, Fury took you to meet the Avenger. You arent going to lie, you fangirled hard over them. They were all so welcoming. Even Steve. 

Fury made it your new assignment to learn from them, which meant you were going to  be staying in the compound.  

It was a lot to get used to. You mostly stayed by Wanda’s side. Occasionally you and Peter would train together. Tony was more of a mentor. And Nat loved playing around with your powers. But Steve and you had never had a chance to interact other than the welcoming party.

You really wanted to be friends with him. There was so much you wanted to say but always bite your tongue when he’s around. A friendship could blossom or better yet could have. 

The possibility of a relationship flew out the window when he overheard a conversation you had with Tony one early morning. You wanted to give the compound a technical upgrade. Including everyone suits and equipment. Tony was intrigued, not because he never thought of that because he has, but because of how bold you were. 

You had so much faith in your skills and Tony respected that. He agreed to let you mess around with some of the equipment for starters. You were smiling, you were excited like a child who had too much candy and was on a sugar high. But that sugar high came crashing down as soon as Steve made his appearance.

How could you forget the conversation. The way he yelled. 

“Excuse you! You can't just come in here and demand for change. Our dynamic works, it has worked for a while. I dont know who you think you are but you dont get to mess with our equipment and you certainly dont get to mess with MY team”

His voice rang throughout the whole compound and the image of his nostrils flaring as he yelled haunted you for weeks. 

It still haunts you. You hate being yelled at. Tony told you to ignore him,  that he is too “perfect” for his own good, but even all perfect people have their flaws and his way technology. Hence the name Mr. Perfect. 

Tony and the rest of the gang kept encouraging your journey well all except Steve. Your fighting got better and you were proud to say you were finally in control of your power. 

It was their pleasure to finally declare you one of them. As you all party Steve stood there scowling. Not even Bucky could wipe that scowl off his face as he had a mouth full of cherries. 

You weren’t going to let him get the better of you. If he wanted to be snarky you would be snarky. If he wanted to be cold you would be cold. 

That became your new routine. He pushed you, you pushed back harder. From bumps in the hallways to calling him Mr. Perfect every time you can. 

The team thought you guys would get over this, that over time you two would learn to get along.  But you were always at each other's throats. Missions become harder and harder when there’s a constant argument. 

You werent like this. You knew that but that man was just too infuriating to do nothing about it. 

Currently you were on a way back from a mission with Nat. You two were sent to stop a shipment of guns from being delivered. As smoothly as it was going, Steve was on the comms just nagging how it should have been him and Nat out there. You turned off your comms, knowing the earful you are going the get when you arrive back.

As you walked into the kitchen, there was Steve nursing a glass of what seemed to be bourbon and tapping his foot. You knew what was going to happen. 

Nat made a B-line for her room, not wanting to hear the argument that's about to go down.

You stood in the middle of the room thinking of all the comebacks you can. Ready to fire at any moment. Steve stood up from his seat and made his way towards you. His jaw was set and his fists were clenched. 

He stalked over you and you suddenly felt small.  His stare was burning through you, you have never seen him like this. You looked down at your feet but Steve stopped that movement and he grabbed your chin with his hand forcefully to make you look at him. 

With your chin in his hand he had a full view of your face. As he looked at you, his demeanor changed. The tension in his body was gone, the look on his face soften and the force in his hand was replaced with a gentle touch. 

“ Who?”, he asked.

You were confused, “ who what?”

“ The bruise under your eye, who did that”, he asked, a little more annoyed this time.

He noticed the bruise? It's so small it doesnt even hurt, you forgot it even happened.

“ Oh, that bruise. The mob boss Sergio showed up. It surprised us and in our state of surprise he sucker punched me in the face and got away. But dont worry we got control of the shipment, we will get him eventually”, you stammer out.

He lets go of your face and takes out his phone. He turns around,  “ Tony, yes it's me. Apparently Sergio, the mob boss got away. I need all focus on him, can you do that? Okay thanks!”

“ What was that”, you surprisingly ask. 

His focus goes back to you, “ No one hurts my team and gets away with it”

He turns around to walk away. But stops in his tracks when he hears you murmur, “ You hurt me everyday with your words''

He goes back towards you. “ My words are never meant to hurt you, Y/N,”

“ But they have, since the moment we met.  I let it happen but then I had enough and started to talk back. If one thing I learned from my parents is to always fight back”, you quietly stated. Looking down at your feet shifting weight from one foot to another.

All that energy to fight back was gone. You needed answers. 

He grabbed your face, cradling it between his two hands. This time there was no force but it was a touch so soft, so warming, so welcoming.

“ No words can describe how sorry I am. I let my emotion get the better of me.  You joined the team and you were everything I am not. The person I am is thanks to a serum. But you, you have it all. You have the strength, the smarts and the beauty”, he sincerely apologizes.

“ Beauty?” you question looking into his eyes. Using his eyes are filled with what looks like hate, but right now they are filled with something more, could it be love?

“ I dont deserve this but if you allow me”, he asks, leaning closer. 

You know what he is asking and you too want it.  The ball is in your court.  You move your body closer to him and he takes that as an indication to smash his lips onto yours.

The kiss starts off rough, like you are in need of each other. But it becomes softer and more passionate. An apology in itself. Both of you cant and wont pull away. You were deprived of each other for so long. 

Now you knew, Steve Rogers did like you. Maybe a little more than you would ever imagine.