#hermit is bawling

[pininghermit]

Being Nanami's Younger Sibling

Genre: feels and angst

Pairing: Nanami Kento x Sibling Reader (platonic ofc)

Summary: Admiring your older brother's every move was your birth right.

⚠️Spoilers ahead!⚠️

AN: I haven't read the manga. I've watched season one and I do not have the heart to watch season two without multiple breakdowns. So, please ignore plot holes, I am doing this because I googled the plot for fun (┬┬﹏┬┬). I want to do this series for some more jjk characters lmk if you guys are interested. P.S. I cried writing this.

Born out of a cryptic pregnancy, you were an unexpected addition to the family. Your brother, Kento, was just eight years old when you came into the world, and your life from day one revolved around him. Those tiny hands of yours reached out with joyful gurgles the moment your mom handed you to Kento.

He was always the cool sibling even when he kicked you out of his room or didn't take you on his friend's birthday party.

Like a devoted shadow, you were a clingy sibling with a tendency to follow your brother despite the stern looks or eye rolls thrown your way.

Maybe that was the reason that in order to stick by your quiet brother, you learned to fill the silence with your rambles. Even adapted to the shamelessness of ignoring your brother's apparent annoyance with you.

Your phase of copying him did not come as a surprise. Subtle side eyes, peaking over his side, waiting for him to pick something, all to know your brother's choices and making them yours.

Much to your rare embarrassment, you did end up copying your brother's high school hairstyle which remains a tragedy for both of you.

However, it wasn't your insistent following that endeared you to your brother or so you thought. Rather it was your failing grade in mathematics and a traumatic homework session with dad that led you to your brother.

Just when your eyes were full of tears as your tried to please your dad, scared of angering him further, your brother Kento looked up from his book. Sat next to you and taught you gently. Since that day, your brother became your tutor. A respite from your dad's hell tutoring.

That evening you promised to love your brother the most. Give him everything he wanted. Make him proud. You didn't say it out loud, those thoughts were too sweet to be said even by a loose tongued you. Laying in your bed, you looked up to your brother, quite literally, his bunk bed was above yours.

Sneaking you video games he had no interest in, asking for presents that you had been drooling over and he just ended up not needing, asking for your favorite foods on his special days your brother showed love in the most subtle but beautiful ways.

And when he became a sorcerer, your brother became your hero quite literally. For the first time in your life, you found yourself researching something with such passion.

He liked it. Your brother was noble. His heart found joy in saving people. He himself did not realize it for the longest time.

But then he left it all. You remember the ending years of your high school, when your brother took a normal job. Working fixed hours of the day. He needed it. Yet, it was not what he wanted. You could see it.

His eyes no longer gleamed at the end of the day. He was present. Yet, lost at the same time.

During the initial years of college, you lived with him. His apartment was conveniently close to your university. In those peaceful times, you spent evenings taste-testing his cooking, dragging him to college bars and then carrying him back because he drank more than the entire bar combined. Maybe an ordinary life suited Nanami yet, it was missing something as if an amazing cookie without a pinch of salt to bring out it's sweetness.

But it returned. The spark in his eyes came from the bloodied arm on Tuesday evening. Just like that, your brother went back to being a sorcerer.

So, despite the lingering bruises or rare injuries you supported him. What else could you do? You only followed him whatever path he went. Even the days when his blood scared you, you merely helped him with first aid or drove him to the nearest hospital.

You did not burden him with your fears, or your anxiety. His job was to protect the people, and your job was to worry for him.

But your tears did come. On instances when, you sat alone in a silent hospital corridor, you allowed yourself to be scared for your brother. You cried your heart out before wiping your tears and helping your brother with a simple soup that you cooked.

Maybe that day your brother sensed your sorrow. Perhaps that was the reason why he hugged you so tightly. Or simply ignored your soft sobs while hugging you.

But now, everything in the world feels different, foreign. It's as though the tether that once held you to this world has been severed. He never returned, and you were never given an answer. So you waited, evening after evening at six, but he never came back.

Your parents held a funeral, but you couldn't bring yourself to believe it. How could he be gone? He'd been by your side since your first breath. How could your world possibly exist without him?

Huddled in your childhood bunk bed, you'd look up at his empty bed. "Come back, please," you'd whisper, closing your eyes, hoping that when you opened them, it would all be a bad dream. You waited for him to come and take away the nightmare, just like he did on the nights when you couldn't sleep after watching a horror movie.

It became increasingly difficult to find joy in the world he had saved, as it felt so wrong without him. Did he know how much you treasured him? Did you hug him before he left that day? Was he wronged, was he in pain? You could never know.

You could have stopped him. He left in front of your eyes and you let him. Now you couldn't find him. No matter how hard you tried.

"Don't go where I cannot follow," your whispers were loud echoes in the quiet apartment.

[doingmylevelbest]

Whenever I see anyone being so completely enraptured by their career or their life decisions or the place they’re in I cry. Like when I see people doing what I just know they were meant to do, and what they know they were meant to do I get so emotional.

Like yes, you find yourself surrounded by what you love, and you’ve forged this path of complete and utter harmony for yourself and that’s so beautiful. Your passion does not consume you because it simply just is you.

Unsure if this emotional response is just because I’m happy for them or because I want that so badly for myself and have no clue how to get there but I love seeing humans happy.

[give-grian-rights]

I DIDNT EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT but it's hilarious..oh my god I'm so fucking excited for H to get on the server I feel sick

I think the wildest thing about the decked out 2 guest lineup is. the majority of those guys are like, at least coworkers of tango’s, if not buddies. they’ve done events and series together. they hang out, right? but like. I don’t think tango’s ever even been on the same discord call as hbomb? so I’m picturing tango asking for permission for this at a hermitcraft meeting and listing out names of friends who have asked to play decked out and the mcc hermits all going “WAIT THERE’S SOMEONE YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO INVITE. YOU DON’T KNOW HIM BUT LISTEN—”

[father-rizzmas]

random headcanons

yuwen would love the savannah bananas

kai secretly gets yuwen hooked on "real princesses" and sometimes he joins her and her grandma for watch parties (she is sworn to secrecy about this tho)

laurie and rochelle sing for "the first time in forever reprise" every karaoke night/sleepover (laurie is anna and rochelle is elsa)

they also sing "what is this feeling" (laurie is galinda and rochelle is elphie)

laurie is actually a really good singer and does theater/choir/voice lessons after quitting softball

laurie has t1d

laurie is the kind of person who just looks like she is allergic to peanuts so everyone assumes she is until one day she's caught eating a pb&j and everyone freaks out (besides rochie). poor girl is like "im diabetic not allergic to peanuts, this is my insulin pen NOT an EpiPen."

taylor is also a pretty good singer, but it isn't her main focus like laurie

taylor loved to get the boardwalk hermit crabs every summer at the beach, but ira told her about how badly they were treated and she never got another crab again

people think tom would be good at basketball bc of his height, but he's actually AWFUL

TW: laurwen (if you don't ship, don't interact)

their school makes them do a musical every year for some sort of arts credit, 6th/7th graders have the option to audition for actual roles but it is required for 8th graders. the pickles' 8th grade show is beauty and the beast (jr ofc) and laurie is belle (QUEEN). yuwen gets beast bc he has a beast living inside him yk.

a little crush on both ends begins here but isn't fully realized/acted upon until high school when they start dating.

laurie fell first, yuwen fell harder.

cast list heehee:

belle- laurie ofc

beast- yuwen

mrs. potts - taylor*

chip - ira*

gaston- borna

lefou- lucianna (thought this was silly for the duo)

lumiere- rochelle

cogsworth - tom

babette - kai

*you just KNOW their dad is bawling in the audience about his babies growing up and getting this cute sibling moment*

[avatatewrites]

Thankyou thankyou and congrats on the WCBF chapter!! I hope you are already digging into your TBR list! I was wondering, what’s on it?

(pls note that currently, your Daine x Sloane ship is ranking higher than the OG Xaden x Violet and this fic keeps taking re-read precedence over my entire tbr list…which has now promptly been abandoned now I’m back at work anyway 🥲)

If you keep flattering me like this, my ego will need its own post code. I cannot possibly thank you adequately for your comment, but... THANK YOU!

Ok, turning to my TBR... Currently, it's about 79 pgs long, so I'm just going to give you a fraction of the Empyrean fanfics currently on it, presented in no particular order. As you can see, there's a lot I plan to cram into the next week!

Lights, Camera, Bitch, Smile by @ellebellewritesfic and @curlyhairedkatniss: I actually just finished reading this, but I immediately wanted to read it again, so I'm counting it. It was quick, fun and PERFECT. I read it while I drank wine and ate cookies, and at the end, my cheeks were hurting from smiling so much. I would not change a single thing, and I truly cannot recommend enough if you're in the market for something lighthearted.

The Underpants Heist by yams77: I don't have words for how much I love this concept, and I have heard it's INCREDIBLE. I'm so, so, so excited to read this, and I wish I had something more poignant to say than that, but I don't.

Stay Your Pretty Eyes on Course by theoneiam2277 (@theoppositequeens): This is Slain omegaverse. Slain. Omegaverse. 'nuff said. A ship isn't a true ship until it has an omegaverse fic, and I'm pretty sure (?) this is the Slain ship's first/only? I just started the first chapter of this (with a glass of pinot grig in hand sitting by the fire pit), and I'm having the absolute best time. 11/10, no notes.

I love you, I'm sorry by mierelsorren: I very nearly broke my 'no reading while I'm in active writing mode' rule for this one, because SO MANY people are talking about it on the RQ discord. I have heard it's exquisite agony, and I cannot wait to sob, weep, bawl my fucking eyes out.

Flirting With Death (and Possibly Brennan) by wedonotsharekills: I'm so intrigued by this concept that my skin itches, and I'm nearly frothing at the mouth bc I just saw the second story in the series was Slain. SIGN ME UP.

Just Ask by @suebswrites: I went to start reading this the day I posted my first chapter of WCBF, then realised it was excellent about two sentences in, then realised I simply had to wait to read it because it was so good that it was going to influence my writing if I didn't. I wasn't a huge fan of how canon Halden panned out, so I feel like I'll be a sucker for any story that has a compelling/interesting Halden, which I have heard this story has! Also, Suebs is a wonder, and a rockstar, and I'm about to be the single most annoying/prolific commenter on and live reactor to her work until I go back into writing/hermit mode. Sorry in advance, Suebs!

Zihnal's Two by @june-s-pumpkins: In the spirit of full disclosure, June is actually one of my fav people on the internet (I don't know if I've told her yet, so this might be a very grand gesture), BUT that's not why this story is on my TBR. I was robbed - robbed, I say! - of a heist in Onyx Storm, and I demand justice. This is a canon compliant take on the research heist, and a lot of people who I think are incred love it, so I cannot WAIT to read it.

The Alchemy by @pretty-pleaseee: This is a modern medical AU with Violet/Xaden, Imogen/Garrick and Dain/Sloane. Please sign me all the way the fuck up. A lot of people say this is one of their fav comfort fics (and I'm ready to be one of the people who says that). ALSO, I already peeked at chapter 1 and IT'S SO GOOD.

I've probably missed some important ones, so if I think of more later that are high on my TBR, I'll add them in the comments!

[macaronsintrees]

I find it hilarious that the reason I got into the Magnus archives was because I joined the hermitcraft fandom and was desperate for more media so I started listening/reading the hermit archives, found it intriguing and was like, wow! I enjoy horror media ig, I should probably consume the what this was based off of. And 2 weeks later I was sat shaking in my boots listening to mag 200 and bawling my eyes out. So in short children, if you decide to watch silly adults running around playing Minecraft you’ll probably end up listening to a horror podcast that will only end in tragedy!

[bodhrancomedy]

a novel that stabbed you in the heart recently

3. the food you like to eat when you get a cold

7. an organ you would like to take out for 6 minutes (whatever you choose it does not result in death)

8. your favourite day

from the recent ask game! (side note: i love when you show up on my dash - you’re cool!)

I reread Nation by Sir Terry Pratchett and bawled my eyes out at “Ah, good one!  I must answer, mustn’t I?  Because you liked my blue Jupiter.  Because we keep going.  Because we’ve come so far and have such a long way still to go.  Because there are stars and blue hermit crabs.  Because you are here, and strong and clever.  The joy of the moment.  Those sorts of things.”

3. Buttered toast or pasta Bolognese

7. I wanna take my liver out and give it a little kiss for doing such a good job.

8. Thursday.

(thanks!)

[deathmetalunicorn1]

I’m glad your back! Can I request Part 11 of the Davy Back Fight? (You can take your time with this and not gonna lie, I thought this arc was Filler until I looked it up 😅)

After escaping from some Sea Monkeys (Reader thought they were cute) they find an island where everything is super long! Meeting the Old Hermit Tonjit and Shelly the Horse (Reader is sparkly eyed by Shelly and feeds her long apples) but end up battling the Foxy Pirates in a Davy Back Fight to get Shelly back

They lost Reader to the Foxy Pirates (The Foxy Pirates know her bounty) but they only want her because she’s adorable, as they’re gushing and coddling her for how cute she is (She’s confused, because even though they’re the enemy, they don’t remind her of ‘That Man’)

Regardless Reader wants to be with the Straw Hats, as she shyly says “I want to be with my Big Brothers, Big Sister Nami and Robin, they’re very special to me, like…like my treasure”, which makes the Foxy Pirates and Straw Hats bawl from how sweet that was (Zoro and Robin are clutching their chests)

The Straw Hats promise Reader that they’ll get her back, so she’s just watching the battles, trying the food and playing a few games (She wasn’t upset when Luffy choose Shelly, Nami and Usopp were beating him black and blue rather she was happy since she was worried about Shelly, and gently says “Of course I’m not upset, this was to get Shelly back, and I know my big brother will save me, he’s like a Superhero, a Cool Pirate Superhero!” Which made Luffy bawl, calling Reader ‘Awesome’) though she was confused about Luffy wearing something called an ‘Afro’ (Thinking it’s a giant puff ball) as she was with Robin and Chopper timidly cheering him on (And was happy when Luffy won)

- Reader didn’t call Robin her sister because she doesn’t feel that’s what Robin is to her (She doesn’t realize that the reason why Robin doesn’t feel like a sister is because she’s a Mother Figure instead *Mama Robin*) I just wanted to add that little tidbit of information (For some future drama)

Phew! Sorry if this was a lot! Some of these Arcs are long or have a lot of information! (A lot of them are longer after the Time Skip though, with a few exceptions *Thriller Bark, Water Seven which continued into 2-3 consecutive arcs and Marineford*) You can also shorten/abridged this arc if you want to as well, since this was a lot of stuff (I wouldn’t blame you)

I’m going to be completely honest- but Foxy is one of the few characters in One Piece that I absolutely can’t stand- not sure why but he pisses me off for some reason. This isn't going to be exactly what you requested for this one, but I hope you enjoy it!

-After leaving the G8 base, the decision was made to head to find someone who could not only fix the ship, but find a shipwright as well for the crew.

-You tugged on Ussop’s pants, “What’s a shipwright?” he kneeled down next to you, putting a hand on your head with a grin, “A shipwright is someone who builds and repairs ships. We’re looking for someone to fix Merry and then travel with us in case if the ship gets damaged again so they can fix it.”

-You nodded, beaming before Robin picked you up, holding you up on her hip, “Time for a nap Y/N.” you nodded softly, “Will you read to me?” Robin smiled softly, adoring your question as she loved to read to you as Zoro called out that there was an island coming up.

-You wanted to stay up because you wanted to see the new island but Robin smiled after she sat you on your bed, “I’ll wake you up if there’s anything interesting to see.” You nodded, agreeing before crawling up to your pillow to lay down and beamed up at Robin who grabbed one of her books.

-You were out within minutes, sleeping quietly as she walked back out to rejoin the rest of the crew as the ship approached this strange island, Long Ring Long Land.

-Robin didn’t wake you back up after the crew was bullied into a Davy Back Challenge by Foxy the Silver Fox and the Foxy Pirates, and they had all silently agreed to try to keep your existence a secret, just in case if Foxy tried to take you.

-You woke up after a loud crashing sound, sitting up with a small whine, rubbing at your eyes as you looked around, wondering what was going on.

-You wandered out, standing on your tip toes to see Usopp putting an afro wig on top of Luffy’s head which made question marks fly around your head as you headed to the gangplank, walking down.

-Porsche saw you and her eyes turned into hearts, “You’re so cute!!” she hugged you close after running over and you were struggling to get free, not knowing her as you began to panic as she shouted at Foxy to win so she could cuddle you and Chopper more.

-You managed to get out and run to hide behind Chopper, peeking out which made her squeal on how shy you were before Robin stepped in front of the two of you, protecting you both which made Porsche glare fiercely, seeing her as a rival for your affections.

-You and Chopper both hugged Robin’s legs who wasn’t bothered as you questioned what was going on as you watched Luffy and Foxy fighting one another.

-Robin explained that the Foxy Pirates challenged the Straw Hats to a Davy Back Challenge, where members of each crew competed against each other, and whatever team won could take a member from the losing crew for their own.

-You were horrified, hugging Chopper, tears welling in your eyes after you learned that he had been lost to the Foxy Pirates, but won back by Zoro and Sanji, and now it was the final battle, with the winning captain taking whatever they wanted, and Foxy wanted the Straw Hat crew as his own.

-You cheered for Luffy as he won, taking Foxy’s flag as payment, painting a new one and you even got to help, putting some glitter on it to make it pretty, something Porsche thanked you for before asking if you wanted to join the Foxy Pirates.

-You were polite in answering her, shaking your head, “I want to stay with my big brothers, my big sister Nami, and Mama Robin.” She pouted, wanting Foxy to issue another Davy Back Challenge, but they just took their new flag and ran off, swearing revenge while you waved bye-bye to them with Sanji. Robin couldn't help but smile, hearing your words, calling her Mama, but it felt nice that you thought of her in that way.

-Luffy beamed, holding onto your hand as he grinned, “I’m going to introduce you to my new friends, one is a really tall horse named Shelley, and the other is a weird old guy called Tonjit."

-Outside the front of the house, there was a very tall man sleeping, who was awoken by your approaching crew, you didn’t know this man but you froze, scared as you saw Robin fall to her rear in fear, introducing this man as Admiral Aokiji, one of the three admirals in the marines at the moment.

-Aokiji yawned loudly, surprising everyone, before he spoke, “I ain’t here to fight with you. I just wanted to see where Nico Robin wound up after Alabasta.” He looked down at you as you were hiding behind Luffy and he smiled, “Aww- you’re a cutie! Want a candy?” he held out a lollipop for you, which surprised you, but you took it after he kneeled down, ruffling your hair gently.

-You were in awe, your eyes sparkling as Aokiji used his ice Devil Fruit to make a path for Tonjit and Shelly to reunite with his tribe and you waved goodbye to them.

-Despite appearing friendly early, Aokiji instantly turns and spoke, deeming the crew as a threat, especially Robin, who can read something called a Poneglyph and that every time Robin joins an organization, she’s always the last survivor.

-Aokiji then looked at you, like he was going to say something before Robin attacked him and he easily blocked her attack with a blade made from frozen grass, going to attack her before Zoro and Sanji blocked the blow before getting thrown back, Sanji’s leg being covered in ice and the same with Zoro’s arm.

-Luffy tried to rush at him, throwing a punch before getting his fist frozen which made you fall to your rear in fear before Robin tried again, only for him to freeze her whole body, making your mouth fall open in fear as you screamed out her name.

-When Aokiji tried to break the frozen Robin, Luffy stopped him before Usopp grabbed her and Nami grabbed you and Chopper and fled back to the ship.

-You cried loudly once on the ship, clutching at Robin as you had used your quirk to unfreeze her, worrying all of them as Robin held you close, worrying for Luffy, Zoro, Sanji, and Usopp who had gone back.

-When you saw your big brother frozen just like Robin you felt like you couldn’t breathe before unfreezing him as well, using your reversal quirk. You only had a minor fever afterwards, nothing too worrisome, but you couldn’t stop crying, even after you gave yourself the hiccups, being held by Luffy who was glaring hard.

-They had all had a harsh reality check on the power of others in this world, realizing they needed to get some strong crew mates if you all were going to survive in this unforgiving world. They had to get stronger so they could protect you, something Robin mentioned after you cried yourself to sleep, “We were lucky that he didn’t take Y/N- if he wanted to, he could have.”

-Elsewhere, riding a bicycle over the ocean on a thin strip of ice, Aokiji sneezed suddenly, “Oh~ I wonder who’s talking about me? I wonder if I forgot something~ hmmm- must have not been important.” Before continuing on his journey.

[sugar-omi]

no bc the breakup anon is giving me ideas. Like imagine that step 3 moment argument (the one with terri and miranda) was one of the many fights you and cove had (some wayy worse). Then one day you've had enough and dump his ass at the poppy field :(. I can totally imagine being on his knees, crying and barely getting his words out. "Please don't leave too," is what he's giving if ykwim. After all you were his first friend after his parents divorce. Very much a waterfall for the next 3 weeks. Doesn't go to the beach, pretzel stall, aquarium, he's too busy bawling his eyes. Cliff's just standing at the door hearing his poor bby cry his heart out lol. Pretty sure Cove becomes a hermit. Omg don't even get me started abt if you accidentally run into each other. Right after the break up, he'll def try to talk to you, trying to talk things over. "Cove, we're over." "But I lov-" "Yeah no <//3" After awhile he'll just freeze up at the sight of you. lol i would type more but my fingers are tiredddddd

jfc. ""please don't leave me too"" would so be his reaction.

wouldn't be surprised if he said he needed you. because he does! he thinks he does. he believes he needs you.

you've been by his side so faithfully for the last 10 years. partially forced because of your houses being just mere feet from each other, but you still pulled toward each other like magnets.

his heart has been yours since day 1. and he thought he had yours. you fought, but who doesnt? you can't just call it quits after one argument, the argument didn't even make sense! you were right! he shouldn't have been so mad, terri and miranda can handle their issues on their own! you were right, he was too sensitive to the situation. so just come back! he won't overreact next time so just.. jus come back. he needs you. he doesn't know what to do without you...

please don't look at him like that, don't tell him he doesn't need you. don't say that stuff.

you've been there for every moment of his life since he was 8 years old. there's hardly been a moment you weren't together. you're in nearly every single picture with him.

even his graduation photos. you're in them, right beside him, or in the background. or christmas photos, you're right there, smiling that sweet smile as he cries over the sweet gift you got him that year.

you're everywhere. his room has pictures of you, his phone filled with your image, and his lock screen is of you. your scent is on his clothes, there's things of yours left in his room. gifts from you.

even if every piece of evidence of you was stripped away, he can't close his eyes without seeing you.

he knows he sounds crazy, probably looks crazier. maybe it's a trauma bond. call it whatever you want. it doesn't change the fact he needs you, doesn't change the fact that he's still yours.

even when you ignore him in the grocery store. even when you look away from him in the library. even when you quiet down when you make eye contact through the window of the Chinese restaurant..

even when his calls go straight to voicemail. even when your window is tightly locked. even when your sister tells him to leave you alone, a look of sympathy thick on her face...

he's still yours. he's so helplessly yours.

[galacticdoodles]

(teehee caps warning!)

RONIN YOU ARE POSTING STRAIGHT FEUGO RNNNN??? HOLY FUCK

My work schedule is ass, but as soon as I’m out tmmrw I’m catching up!

I mainly just wanted to say AUGHHHHHH—THE FORTUNE AND SVETLA POSTS HAVE ME BAWLING RN Q_Q

I’M LOSING MY MIND OVER YOUR DISSECTION OF THEM AND HERMIT FROM LAST CHAPTER, I’m so excited to digest it further and reply to that one as soon as Outback frees me oh my god ?

ALSO YOUR MUSIC RECOMMENDATIONS?? LOSING MY MIND IN MY OUTBACK CAGE I CANNOT WAIT TO POST MY REPLY TO THAT HOLY FUCK

Just wanted to bomb u w this until I can reply XD !! I hope you’re having an awesome sauce day!

RAHHHHHH I JUST SAW THIS!!!

I have indeed been editing A LOT with a couple posts (mainly the song recs one)

The prison that is capitalism is AWFUL

But I'm glad you like what you've seen so far!!!!!

[pininghermit]

Dreams with no Name

Request: @queenondeezmatatas Have you ever heard of the time traveler’s wife? I’ve been thinking about a similar concept with Adrian lately. A time traveler randomly starts appearing in his life who comes and goes and eventually he finds out they’re married in the future and omg. Or what if Adrian himself time travels into the past, before his partner died when they were both much younger, and seeing her again and so young breaks his heart…

Pairing: Adrian x Reader

Genre: Angst man angst with a possible happy ending 🤭

Summary: You were a fleeting dream in his life. An achingly sweet dream.

AN: I am so sorry for this massive delay but I struggled with this prompt. I don't know I wanted to write something different. Blend stories of time travel and I do plan to give it another try but this is based on the second part of your request. Hopefully, I can plan a good time travel story.

Adrian couldn't close his eyes. He couldn't allow himself to witness all that was lost. But like a bruise that tempts someone to press on it, Adrian's grief forced him to the thorough of the past.

Of all that he had lost, there was one loss not known to many.

It was a quiet chapter. Despair he gifted to himself.

He did not possess anything but fleeting images of you. All that he had was burnt to ashes. All that remained were memories of the past.

So, alone in the dark rooms of his castle, he replayed those memories. He reminisced about the feel of your lips, the tilt of your eyes, the bridge of your nose.

Some days he could feel it under his fingertips. He could hear the chimes of your voice in his dreams. It was better than losing you, he reasoned with himself.

He could still see your eyebags, your sunken cheeks, and hear the struggle of your failing lungs. Even in his dreams, he reached for your hunched form.

His mother was there in those dreams. Holding you with him. She fed you the best of the draughts. Anything to ease your agony. He remembered how hard his mother had tried to save you.

You were a fleeting dream in his life. An achingly sweet dream.

He was young back then. Lisa had found you battered, gasping in an unlit alleyway with a number tattooed on your wrist.

She brought you to Castle Dracula. And Adrian had been intrigued by the new addition.

You were frail. His mother told him, stuck with an infection in your lung. An infection from frequent drowning, forced drowning.

You never mentioned your past. Even the name he knew you by seemed to be made up.

Yet, despite the wounds on your body, the decline of your vision, the struggle of grasping for air, you were beautifully in love with living. You were easygoing with your smiles, never stingy with laughter that left you in pain.

Somehow all the cruelty that the world forced on you failed to erase your kindness.

Even in his dreams that seemed to take him back to the past with you, Adrian failed to notice even an ounce of grief. You sat next to him, talking for hours.

He'd heard all those words several times; after all, he did not possess enough figments of you not to be able to memorize everything about you. But every time your words seemed to settle into his heart with the same fervor.

"You know the snow and freezing wind won't be doing you any favors," Adrian repeated the words he remembered from the past. He dusted the snow gathered in your hair before his arms wrapped around you, picking you up.

Just like every other time, your arms circled his neck, and you rested your head on his chest. Your hair softly fell on your face. "Just because there's a danger of falling, birds don't stop flying, just because winter comes every year, greenery doesn't give up on blooming in spring. Then what do I have to lose," you spoke in riddles as always.

Adrian loved to listen anyway. He knew his next words, his tone, his expression so he followed it, playing the part of his past self. "You're losing comfort. Why are you so set on accelerating the speed of your demise?" His past self couldn't understand your inability to protect yourself from the inevitable pain.

You chuckled teasingly, warming your freezing hands on his nape. He irritably shifted you in his arms. Even in these dreams, your hands felt so real. "It isn't pain that scares me, Adrian. It's the inability to escape it. Every time I feel it, I try to find a way to free myself from the helplessness of enduring it," this was the closest he ever came to your past. Looking back at him, you smiled. "And you always come to get me, don't you?" You kissed his lips.

In the desperation of his dream, he clung to you longer. He kissed you deeper. His kiss wavered only when he felt your quivering lips. He stopped, looking back at you.

This felt different, as if his loss of control had reshaped his past. "How long will you keep rescuing me, Adrian? When will you save yourself?" His steps faltered as he looked at your words.

He stared at you. He didn't remember this. Was he forgetting you? Did he remember the past wrong?

Your hand rested on his cheek, turning his face to look at you.

Just then, passing by the corridor, he saw himself carrying a shawl, heading the same way he had brought you from. He looked at you, still in his arms.

"How long will you continue forcing yourself into a past long gone? Adrian," you cupped his face, "It's time to go." You smiled at him despite your words.

"I… let me stay here," he begged you. "Everything but this is gone," he barely gathered the courage to look in your eyes. "Please… please keep me here," he pulled you closer despite his trembling arms.

"Life isn't meant for past darling," you wipe his tears with you sleeve. The lingering fragrance of herbs fills his senses. "Go back to your present and let me find you again." You kiss him again and the world fades into the dark.

[billycorn]

Give us the deets on your experience moving out!

What was it like packing up your things? Did you feel anything strong emotions-wise when you put all your stuff in boxes to move away with? (I once switched rooms within the same house and got pretty sentimental upon packing all my things into boxes and tubs just to transfer them. It was very surreal) Did you have to leave many possessions behind at home?

What living situation did you move into? An apartment, a dorm, something else? What’s the three weirdest things you’ve learned after moving out?

What’s your favorite thing to eat after a long day when you don’t have much energy?

How hard is it to keep in touch with family? What’s your favorite way to feel close to them, despite the distance?

What’s the first thing you plan to do upon returning home to visit? What are you looking forward to? Is there anything you’re dreading? If so, is there a way to feel excited about even that, too?

You mentioned having a lot of animals growing up— if you still do, what are the names and species of the animals you’re most excited to greet upon arriving home?

A bit of a different question: What was your favorite meal to eat growing up, and has your opinion of it changed as you’ve gotten older?

I'm not sure if I actually answered all of the questions, more just rambling than anything, sorry! (More under the cut)

To provide some context for these, I'll recap my january-february real quick. To study Marine Bio I had to do a bridging course, so I was doing that online, 12 weeks of content condensed into 5 weeks, so it was very fast paced. So, naturally, I got injured! Split my eyebrow open and had to get stitches, which that got infected. So, I was on heavy painkillers and bouncing in and out of hospital for a bit, and trying to pass my course. Also, my older sister was getting married (to a guy I set her up with!) on the farm, so I spent a lot of time fixing up the house.

The day after my Sister's wedding was the day I left. So, between my course, my injury, the wedding, and moving out, I was too preoccupied to actually think about moving, so I was fine until my Aunt said "It's probably a good thing you're so busy, otherwise you'd be really anxious about moving." My Grandfather followed that up with, "hopefully you don't come slinking back with your tail between your legs!" Which really didn't help, though, neither of them said those things out of meanness.

I didn't feel emotional packing my stuff up, but I was fighting back tears saying goodbye to my family, and as soon as I drove out the gate I just started bawling. It was a mess. That weekend I drove, took a ferry, drove some more, covering 1480 kilometers in two days, after which I slept for 18 straight hours. I had to leave a lot of personal items and books behind, unfortunately, but I managed to take most of the important stuff.

I moved into a studio apartment which has been really weird. I went from knowing all my neighbours but being unable to see them, to sharing a building with 700 strangers. The wierdest thing I've learned since moving out is that people actually want to spend time with me. All my old friends are hermits and terrible communicators (I say that with all love) so if I wanted to see them I'd just show up on their doorstep like a kitten begging to get out of the rain. Now, living in the city, people ask me to go do things with them, even mundane stuff like grocery shopping. The first time I got an invite I was baffled, just did not understand what was happening. Still getting to used to that one, honestly.

Favourite thing to eat after a long day; hot chocolate and a muffin. I will get as comfy cosy as possible, make a hot chocolate and a muffin and all is right with the world.

It's not hard to keep in touch with family. I have three sisters and call them each once a week, plus a call to mum dad, and grandparents. My youngest sister is a lot like me so sometimes I'll jump on a call and we'll play a video game, often Pokemon Unite or Ultimate Chicken Horse.

First thing I'm doing upon getting home is getting a hug. I used to come home to a house full of laughter, now I get home each day knowing that no one is waiting for me and it gets lonely. I'm looking forward to catching up with everyone and just relaxing at home for a bit. Not dreading anything at all! Only excitement.

Animals I'm most excited to see are Misha (my dog), she's a rescue and took some time to come around but now she's the sweetest and will go ballistic when I walk through the gate. Also, Rusty, my pony who was born last November. He's a cuddly idiot who doesn't realise how big he is. And, of course, Timmy and Aqua, my Turtles, who are adorable.

My favourite meal growing up was bacon and egg sandwiches. My Mum is a nurse who often works the night shift, so I used to always make sure when she got home there was a hot plate waiting for her, and, when possible, I'd wait to eat with her before she went to bed. So, I love the taste, and now have nice memories to go with it!

[idinoodle]

planned to only do 5 pulls in the hermit gacha (because i'm saving for the whip the wimp girl gacha and I have a huge fear of my crystals being under 50k 💀💀) and I only got kanade I'm bawling

[freakshow-entries]

hi,

it has been a while since I’ve typed anything. but I have no one to talk to and i feel so alone. and weirdly i also feel hurt. it’s not anything that anyone has done to me. i just need to rant and this is the healthiest way i could think of expressing myself. sometimes i feel like pushing everyone away and go back to being a hermit. i know i have people who care about me.. i just feel so guilty not being able to fully heal. if not for me then for them at least. work takes a big toll on my life, and i acknowledge the fact that i don't know how to balance my priorities. i usually overwork myself until i burn out. and i think i am doing it myself again except a part of me is gasping for aid. it's almost like i know myself, that i need help. that i know what i need to do but yet i don't do it out of fear? laziness? who knows. but here i am bawling my eyes out at 12 am. all of these emotions make me feel like im not deserving of love. and all i want is to love myself. i hate that i have to deal with my stupid mental disorder because i know i have someone that loves me. and i want to be better for them. i try so hard to be better. i know i should talk to him about this. but i don't want to ruin his night, i want to give him this night to enjoy himself. i don't want to be selfish and make it about me. jeez. im a mess. my head is throbbing. i can barely see through my tears. my face is all red and puffy. don't get me started on the endless snot... i know i need to be easier on myself. i deserve to be treated with kindness, especially after everything i've had to go through in my life. it's just that sometimes i forget that im also included in that. that i need to treat myself with kindness too. i should quit my job. get married and move in with my boyfriend. and i should love myself enough to draw the line when things are enough. i shouldn't have to endure this anymore, this is enough and i need to do something about it.

[vega-and-me]

I just had a dream about the hermits (cc's)! :)

But it was also a dream about work :(

I literally haven't ever woken up from a dream/nightmare since I was a kid and I'm shaking. Anyway Impulse fucking died and me and a bunch of the other cc's - Tango, Skizz, I think Zed for some reason? And a couple of others cause as I write this the finer details are already fading. Anyway we all went to go pick up Impulse but at some point in the transfer process he ended up being okay?? Like upright and walking and everything despite his hands having been cold and clammy as fuck (I can still feel them). He somehow picked me up a numbly crushing hug and spun me around and when he sat me down on the floor I just... Kept sliding with two thumbs up, bawling my eyes out. Then Skizz was telling Tango like "this is what masculinity looks like dude! What she has to go through just to keep a smile on her face?? She probably only cries once a month!!" And then I woke up in a dissonance cause I could not move my body. But hey! A hug from cc!Impulse!

[mostlymalena]

April 8th 2024 1:31am

Okay this will be an ugly and unstructured note - it is ab my mental so, expected.

The contributors to how I am feeling I will be as follows

Period

Eclipse

Retrograde

Nostalgia has a fucking gun to my head. I have not felt insecure about my physicals appearance in so long - maybe that Is why I dyed my hair????

Something about me is off kilter. I am feeling so fucking stuck in the past and it just feels confusing.

I am rehashing old arguments, debating with myself about my career. Ive been SO anti social and not wanted to leave my house. Very unlike me. Not accepting suitors either.

I am just content being along but it feels wrong. I think I am meant to be in a resting period - I did pull the hermit the other day.

I feel like I am in an in-between. Im holding onto the past and what could have been and I am very afraid of the future. I was so comfortable in the chaos without it I feel naked.

Where has my poetry gone???

I need to cry. I did cry actually today! I was watching spider man and I paused it bc I got bored and so then I masterbated and after I started bawling. My period wants me to kill myself!!!

I am going to re-read old post and maybe write some more.

I will also be uploading some written journals so I can have a full year on here at least.