#help me im unwell

[mo-ok]

Guilt: feelings of deserving blame especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy

[clockworkrobotic]

I'm really sorry guys hazbin hotel got me

[touchlikethesun]

considering how many military AUs i’ve read and obsessed over over the years, is it really surprising that all of bangtan enlisting is what really drew me back into the fandom full time??? like yeah im sad that they’re gone but im having a ball on this bitch thinking about what’s gonna go on

[beebundt]

thinking a little too much abt durge/orin sibling relationship rn. 🩸ft. my durge (briar, they/them)

[dizzybizz]

my brain latched onto ratio in the span a day or two and i am. struggling with that. have a hsr magma dump about it.

these are in reverse chronological order so that it looks like i get more normal as the post goes on (it doesnt)

[painted-kneecaps]

In an alternate universe, Powder gets caught and left behind when Jayce’s lab explodes. Realizing that she will likely be shipped off to some dismal prison or orphanage, Jayce argues that keeping her around will lure back the real culprits of the attack- she’s just a child, after all, and nobody was really harmed- besides, somebody has to keep an eye on her, and they were his crystals. What’s the harm in letting her tag along?

In an alternate universe, Viktor notices her genius and takes her under his wing, consults her on his experiments and encourages her to undertake her own. She becomes an expected presence in their lab, tinkering away at her own projects and offering a fresh perspective when Jayce and Viktor get stuck.

In an alternate universe, they notice her despair and betrayal when her sister doesn’t come back for her. They notice when she breaks down, her grief and rage, the internal violence her mind wreaks on her, and they search for a cure. They get her help and medicine, and if need be, they talk her through her delusions with cool, scientific detachment, explaining what is going on in her brain until it doesn’t scare her anymore. If, in the process of helping her, they both begin to reconcile with their own self destructive tendencies- well, that’s just a convenient side effect.

In an alternate universe, she is understood and listened to and valued, and she is not a weapon or a tool or a jinx. She is respected for her brilliance, and her illness is acknowledged and not feared, and her genius is put toward progress and not violence. She never quite fits outside the lab- she is a Zaunite, after all, and she clings to that identity with teeth and claws- and though Jayce never quite understands, Viktor always defends her to him.

In an alternate universe, she builds Viktor braces and prosthetics and mobility aids as his condition declines, new and improved with every model. They tweak the designs together, and their witty banter as they work staves off the threat of impending mortality, just for a while. Hextech products begin to sport animal motifs, a phenomenon that neither Jayce nor Viktor feel the need to explain. Their lab is covered in graffiti, which they both complain about, but never actually discourage.

In an alternate universe, Vi finds her sister, and she is eccentric, but not broken. She is supported and cared for and hailed as the protege of the two most brilliant scientists alive. She is angry and confused and betrayed, yes- but she is not alone, and she is not afraid.

And they can work with that.

[astrobei]

the whiplash of spending the last two years seeing everyone talk about s4 mike being a mini eddie and following in eddie’s footsteps and being inspired by him (which are all true and real) just to be shot point blank by st5 pics of mike with short hair and a dorky little outfit and dustin with eddie’s haircut and outfit and rings instead. i’m fine i swear

[chonkymoth]

*through gritted teeth* i love having blorbos and ships for hyperfixations *clawing at my floorboards* i love focusing so wholeheartedly on a character that I cannot consume them enough *rattling the bars of my enclosure* i love having ships that i'm obsessive over that are ultimately just queerbait and/or shipbait *sliding down the wall, sobbing* i love needing to write fanfiction and create art for characters just to never let it see the light of day, if i even finish it *shaking like a chihuahua* i just love loving media. i love it soooo much

[thesmpisonfire]

Forever and Cellbit fought. Badly. Forever has 4 prohibited itens, and he wants to give all of them as soon as Cucurucho gives him the chestplate he asked for. Cellbit wants Forever to give only one instead, holding back the other 3 for more negotiations

This is what sparked the fight. Forever is terrified of what the Federation can do. He said it himself, the only punishment that would work to him would be hurting Richarlyson, but he would never risk that. Cellbit disagrees, he thinks the Federation would never hurt the eggs and Forever should push more

"You're able to give up Richa, I'm not"

Cellbit tried to convince him once again, this time backed up by BBH, by saying the eggs would die anyway. Forever agreed, and then said that it didn't matter since he'd rather lose Richa fighting that just let the Federation take him

"I already toed the limit. I'm standing on the yellow line by the railway track, barely missing when the train pass by me. You are leaning in and waiting for the hit"

Cellbit tried to argue that it would be for the better of everyone, it would mean freedom, and maybe Richa didn't even get hurt, they wouldn't be sure the Federation would actually hurt him. BBH agreed but Forever didn't even move, kept his position all the same.

"I'm the one with him everyday. I complete his tasks, I go out with him, I put him to sleep. I'm not letting you just give up on my son"

By the end, Cellbit made an offer and Forever agreed, saying he'd give 2 out of the 4 itens to both Cellbit and BBH and then the two would have to deal with Cucurucho as his part of the deal would be solved

Forever then went back home to see Richa had drawn him and Forever, which made Forever tear up as he tucked Richa to sleep. He sang Richa s lullaby and ended saying nothing would take Richa from him. He'd let the world burn before letting Ricga go

[bee623]

I genuinely cannot describe how deeply DEVASTATED I am about riz being the only one who can take stress tokens for the others. Yes fig is a protector and will fight endlessly for her friends and I love that about her but there is something about the way riz loves his friends. It’s a more subtle kind of love, but just as relentless and passionate and he will take any burden for the people he cares about and bear the weight of it on his shoulders so they don’t have to deal with it without any hesitation. I am ILL.

[extravagav]

AND WE JUST DONT TALK ABOUT THIS?!?!?!!????

[basrars]

hey so why woudl they say this . hey man so why would th

[fruitlemontea]

hey do you ever think about how croissant & timekeepers blinking is completely synced. timekeeper & director croissant are too except director croissant blinks first to break out of that expression she was in. and then rotef is just completely out of order with all of them. as if they. dont belong. like theyre on a. separate plane of existence. or smth. haha hey chat do you ever think about that. hey. hey do you. do you ever think about that haha……

edit i just realized that rotef and director croissant only sync up in ONE frame where they both close their eyes I FEEL SO ILL. IM GOING TO THINK ABOUT THIS FOR FOREVER

[cookieluverr]

[starpil0tblue]

as much as i like clowning on Kabru for being Gaslight Gatekeep Girlboss but spectacularly fails when it comes to Laios, he makes me SO ILL because as pleasant as he acts, so many subtleties around his character paint him as someone who clearly still suffers from massive trauma in regards to his childhood and personal loss, causing him to be self-sacrificial to the point he clearly neglects his own needs. whenever i think of the quote "eating is a privilege of the living" in regards to Kabru, his nigh aversion to food might stem from the fact he still harbors immense survivor's guilt and constantly feels the need to justify his survival by giving and giving and giving until there is nothing left of him.

[fairyhaos]

N O HE'S SO GORGEOUS WHAT THE FUCK