#help me i started this uhhh a month or two ago?
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sirenspells · 8 months ago
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In Stars and Time AMV - Break Stuff
(Inspired by break stuff hoodwinked amv by @/girl-debord)
Song: Break Stuff - Limp Bizkit
In Stars and Time gameplay footage from Carrot Helper, START AGAIN: A Prologue gameplay footage from Shienh
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paleangels13 · 5 months ago
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Helloo, I still exist did anyone even notice I was mostly gone lol
Anyone interested in ehhh...slightly unhinged work-related talk?
No?
Well. Too bad
Anyone that knows me irl please ignore the tags – I'm embarrassed ✨🥰
#I said ignore the tags#please ignore them#I'm serious#alright soooo...i started this new job about 1 1/2 months ago... It's not great or anything neither is the payment but it's alright#also I can walk there from home bc it's so close by which is nice I guess#anywayyy it's a grocery store owned and run by a family (my boss and his wife + their 2 (3??) adult children)#now my boss is kinda hard to figure out I always think he's annoyed which makes me insecure but I think that's just how he is idk lol#but he isn't rude or anything (at least I never noticed??)#his wife seems nice and so does (one of) their daughter(s(?))#his son – who is idk probably in his early 30s?? could also be late 20s but I can't guess people's age – is the manager#he's nice as well I think and he even jokes around with (some of) the employees from time to time#either way...this is all rather irrelevant. Point is some part of me has decided to be uhhh weird about him in the past week ig#and I don't think that feeling was there before?? Idk I don't consider him attractive or anything (at least I don't think I do??) + he's#married (?? He's definitely taken) and has two children I think judging from his profile picture in our work-app at least and like I said#he could also be quite a bit older (I mean...yk)#anywayyy i am being weird about him and something within me turned into teenager mode or whatever and iiiiiiii don't know what to do lol#not that it's really a big deal I suppose it's just that he's my boss' son and my supervisor/manager/superior/?? which makes thoughts#outside of work weird (:#no i will not elaborate#alright tag rant over I'm not sure I really wanna post this this feels awkward to post publicly hah :')#will probably delete later#someone send help#((:
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yumecel · 1 month ago
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Closer to God ❤️
yandere wriothesley / reader | 3k words
summary: the duke finds himself fascinated with you. to an almost unhealthy degree. scratch that, it is unhealthy. but in the underground world of vitamin D deficiencies, questionable mystery meats, and near-agoraphobia towards the overworld, does the “health” of one’s desires really matter so much?
character specifics: uhhh i think nothing but so heavily written from reader’s perspective that you may not feel his essence is fully Captured
reader specifics: female reader girl/she/wife terms
world specifics: i have no idea how fontaines legal system works and it will show. hinted matchmaker sigewinne but don’t hate her
tws: yandere, non con kissing, stalking
a/n: i could chew through fucking steel right now i am so full of lust and felt possessed to write something to this iconic song despite there being NO ACTUAL SMUT sorry.
i promise i’m 18+, i promise i’m okay with seeing dark content, i know this will haunt me in the world to come should i lie [yes⬇️] [no↩️]
——❤️——
You have been instructed to deliver his tea. The box feels like it’s more valuable than your entire existence, all gold-trimmed edges and swirling designs. That’s probably why it was entrusted into your hands when the usual runners are preoccupied.
Probably.
But it’s the third errand this week, and it seems so unnecessary for you personally to run it. And your sentence will be over in six weeks. And seeing the Duke now only makes your anxiety spike, lest you stumble straight into a crime you wouldn’t even know you were committing and somehow end up extending your sentence.
He’s not like that. Surely not. But you’ve been worrying.
Something in his bone-chilling gaze towards you betrays his casual demeanour. It’s the same something in the forced lingering, the excuses. The ways that he swindles you into staying in his office for an hour or two when you want to leave. Today is no different. One of the teas comes such a long way, you see, all the way from Inazuma, and you must indulge in a cup and let him know your opinion on it. Is it similar to the last one from Liyue? They have different methods of drying out the leaves. Did you drink any of it when you were in the overworld?
You always answer his questions the best you can. It’s easiest when they’re all small talk like this, and you’re not trying to play oblivious at his advances. There’s going to be a further advance soon, you can feel it.
It’s six weeks until the end of your sentence and Wriothesley’s interest in you seems foolish. With a little luck, you’ll never return to the Fortress of Meropide in your life. You did everything right, you deserve to leave, surely?
But you know that Wriothesley is no fool, and that he would not be playing these games so boldly if he was not certain to win.
——❤️——
Eleven months ago, you didn’t make much conversation with anyone in the prison. You did what you always thought you should do in a prison; kept your head down, worked hard, and didn’t associate too intimately with anyone.
Ten months ago, you had started to assume Sigewinne pitied you, or whatever the closest melusine approximation to “pity” was. Somehow designated to running errands for the infirmary, you talked to her more than any of the prisoners. Though you were grateful for her support, you kept displaying the autonomy and dignity that would let her know you were of the composition that didn’t desire company. It wouldn’t fool a melusine as observant as Sigewinne. You knew this. But you persisted, holding onto shreds of pride.
Nine months ago, Sigewinne had managed to get you to open up. You had believed at the time you were contributing to her understanding of human emotions, but now you suspect that she had motives of helping you.
“As for why I don’t really talk to anyone outside of working, well, I… I’m still processing everything. I feel like people won’t accept what I did, and get the same pushback I felt from people up there and I just… can’t relive that. People that I thought would understand didn’t, and it’s been difficult to recover trust in others.”
Sigewinne’s eyes examined you thoroughly. You maintained a perfectly still expression, under the impression that her observations of your face were for her research.
“Hmm… what if someone was guaranteed to understand you?
You took a little time to think before answering, “I think it would help. But I doubt I would personally pursue someone like that.”
“You wouldn’t?” Sigewinne queried.
“I wouldn’t. And I don’t know where I would find someone who understood.”
“Where indeed…” she whispered, more to herself than you, eyes flitting back to yours. A slight raise of the eyebrows indicated that she had come to a conclusion about something, and you weren’t sure about what. You were just happy to help, and it didn’t occur how deeply you had revealed your emotions until later.
Eight months ago, you had started running errands for Wriothesley. This followed a mixup with your records, where Sigewinne accepted blame for not filing your work hours accurately as your manager. The Duke himself had to personally review your entire record in prison to confirm that there were no inconsistencies. You were a little embarrassed by the whole thing, though Sigewinne insisted she was entirely at fault and deeply sorry. You didn’t blame her as it was an exceedingly rare mistake on her part. If anything, you were a little touched that Sigewinne cared so deeply about this. Also, the apology cake from the overworld certainly washed away any remaining feelings of irritation you held.
Eventually, you found yourself walking into the Duke’s office like Sigewinne had told you to, hands clasped in front of you. “Sigewinne sent me, Your Grace.”
“Oh, (Y/N). Thank you for coming along. I just need you to read some documents and sign them.” He said, motioning to three papers on his desk.
Hearing your name spill from his mouth so casually felt surreal. Nevertheless, you took timid steps forward and examined the documents.
“Sigewinne speaks highly of you, you know.”
Unsure how exactly to respond, you paused for a moment. “I’m glad she does, Your Grace.”
You continued examining the documents, quickly signing the first one off.
“If you wouldn’t mind, I need someone trustworthy to help me hand some medical records to Sigewinne for me. Well, maybe “hand” is an understatement.”
In your peripheral vision, you catch the way he gestures towards some boxes, more than one person could reasonably move at a time.
Ink meets paper on the second document.
“Of course. I’d be more than willing to help.”
“Ah, great. Our head nurse is capable, but I’d just feel bad making her carry these on her own.”
“Yes, I understand.”
“I knew you would.” The Duke says.
Silence hangs in the air. You pull the final document closer towards you to interrupt the unbearable quiet. Eventually, you make the final signature and turn around, moving towards the boxes.
The files look rather haphazardly thrown in, papers sticking out from their respective folders. That’s when the Duke approaches from behind, placing a hand gently on your shoulder. Not expecting the touch, you jump slightly, and then pretend to act like it never happened. He felt it though. He couldn’t have not felt it.
“Also, maybe you could do me another favour and help me sort these before we give them back to her?”
There is nothing else to do other than nod and say, “Of course, Your Grace.”
Eight months ago you learned that the Duke is exceptionally chatty around you. Eight months ago, your work became more divided between his office and Sigewinne’s infirmary.
Seven months ago, you had first divulged information about your crime to the Duke.
“What are you in for?” is a common enough question in the Fortress of Meropide. His Grace has never asked you it, and he wouldn’t need to either. And yet, his speech is peppered with implications about your crime that you can either refute or accept. You had dodged every hidden question artfully, and he would be very blatant about acknowledging this, saying you didn’t have to answer if you didn’t want to. Comforted by this, you had started trusting him.
Seven months ago, you had started trusting Wriothesley, and that had been a mistake.
Of course he already knew your crime. How could he not? A murder in self defence is quite a notable trial in the overworld regardless, and nothing in the underworld slips past Wriothesley.
You may have been a free woman if it was simpler. If the man in that alleyway had been less beloved by his community, if you had not ran away from the crime in fear, if you submitted evidence at the time, if being dragged back to Fontaine was never part of the ordeal. If it hadn’t divided the people around you over whether you should’ve really did it.
If they just understood.
You accepted the sentence nonetheless. Evading the court is a crime in itself, and in that respect you could be considered a prolific criminal.
Sat in his office, you had retold the tale.
Wriothesley understood.
——❤️——
Six months ago, you had entertained the thought of Wriothesley as a fling.
Your heart wanted emotional connection, your brain knew it would be unreasonable to pursue a long term relationship. And your pussy really just liked the idea of him pinning you down and fucking you like an animal.
Some of his little gestures towards you supported this notion. A hand on the small of your back, maybe going a little low, the warmth of his presence behind you. The leering that’d stop when you picked your head up, but you still caught in reflections and out of the corner of your eye. The occasional innuendos. Wriothesley is fairly down-to-earth all the time, but with you, some more primal desires seep through.
But sometimes, it was different. The way he’d sweep hair away from your face. The possessiveness around you when other prisoners- now seemingly assuming you were a member of staff rather than an actual prisoner- talked to you. Always played off as professionalism. And the endless desire to know exactly what you were up to, inside and out.
Noting this, you were a little less reciprocative of his hints, afraid of feelings being hurt. He seemed to accept it. You were friends now. You knew about his crimes, which he had confided to you in private. He knew everything there was to know about yours. You would come to chat over tea. You continued working with Sigewinne, but saw her less. Wriothesley dominated most of your waking moments.
But the possessiveness didn’t stop, and the curiosity was starting to become intrusive.
——❤️——
Four months ago, you had learned that Wriothesley personally went through all of your mail.
All mail of yours was immediately forwarded to his office, where it would be opened and sent back to the mailroom. You had only found this out when you wandered into the mailroom and inquired about the mail, expecting a monthly letter from your family that was a little late.
“Oh, I take it she’s one of your patients? All of that mail gets forwarded to the Duke first. Guess there was a contraband incident or something. Anyway, don’t have it.”
It was information the attendant would have never divulged to you if he realised who you were. You blended in so well as a member of staff that people had started to see you as a nursing attendant before anything else. The clothes you now wore that treaded the line between prisoner and staff member were another layer of this disguise, courtesy of Wriothesley. Now, it was working against him.
Despite how perturbed you were, you managed a, “Oh, thank you for telling me.”, and immediately darted towards Wriothesley’s office, knocking with a shaking hand before you heard him telling you to come in.
“How nice it is to see you on your day off. Take it you missed me?” He said, closing his book and getting up to get another cup. It’s like a routine to him, and one he’s very comfortable doing.
“Well, I do have a reason to be here.”
“Cold. Well, let me pour you a cup, and you can tell me all about it. It’s Chenyu adeptea today.”
After getting seated and engaging in a few pleasantries with him, you pose your question, about if what you heard in the mailroom was really true.
He doesn’t deny it.
With a piercing gaze that doesn’t deviate from yours, he says, “Hm. I didn’t want to worry you at the time, but dangerous contraband came through in a parcel addressed to you a couple months back, and I’ve been going through it ever since.”
A reasonable explanation, you suppose. But why keep it from you this long? Surely he must understand this is a betrayal of your trust?
You remain quiet, still trying to process everything.
“My apologies if your feelings are hurt, but I acted in your best interests. I promise that.”
Your fingers glide along the edge of the teacup. “That’s alright. I shouldn’t have doubted your reasoning.”
You finish the cup of tea over lighter conversation, until just before leaving, you pose one last question.
“Ah, uh, you don’t go through my outgoing mail too, right?”
Wriothesley chuckles dryly with a smile that doesn’t quite reach his eyes. “There’s no reason to do that, is there?”
You’ve known him too long, been confined in his presence with nothing else to do but observe. His perceptiveness is second to none, but you’ve trained yourself. Dodging the question is suspicious. As you close the door to his office, there is no doubt in your mind that he reads every letter you send.
It didn’t surprise you that the mail attendant you first spoke to seemed to no longer work in the mailroom when you next approached it.
——❤️——
It was difficult to remain amicable after that, but you tried your best. Treading a thin line between not upsetting him (not that he’d ever show it) and not allowing him to encroach further on your personal life, you may as well have been walking on the edge of a knife.
The advances started again. He’s more demanding of your time. Sigewinne simply lets you off work to do whatever he demands. She seems to believe there’s something amusing in all of this, and you don’t dare confide in her about your discomfort around the Duke. You don’t think she’d be playing on your side.
Two months ago, he started getting far too touchy. He wants to be next to you, he finds any excuse to put a hand on you, rub your back, your shoulder, the top of your hand- all gestures of comfort that come across more like domination and marking territory. You don’t feel like you can tell him to stop. He has too much power, and you don’t wish to interfere with it. The reality of who he is seems more imposing than ever, and you steel yourself, trying to remain as professional and inoffensive as possible.
The clock ticks down. Less and less days to the end of your sentence.
——❤️——
Two weeks now remain of your time in the Fortress of Meropide.
“I think you might owe me something for that.” Wriothesley says.
You stare down at the cards scattered across the table, remnants of a finished game that Wriothesley had won. He looks slightly smug about it. It’s only been a few rounds, too. He’s often happy to play many more.
“Like what?”
“Something I’ve always wanted.”
You look up at him, seeing his hand beckon you closer. You get up slowly, carefully stepping around the table. He pats the sofa beside him and the world around you starts to feel dreamlike as you sit down.
His hand touches just under your chin, thumb stroking your jaw, before reaching up steadily to your lips. You know what comes next, and shut your eyes as his lips eventually meet yours. Obediently, you kiss back until he pulls away. When your eyes meet, you immediately look down, observing how his hand was now on your thigh, touching lightly.
You gasp as he squeezes, feeling his gaze remain on you. “I… I’m not sure if we should be doing this. I’m l-leaving soon, and I don’t want anyone’s feelings to get hurt.”
“Leaving to where?”
Your blood runs a little cold then, but you steady yourself. “The overworld.”
“You don’t have to.”
Making an earnest attempt to get him to sympathise with you, to understand like he always has, you place your own hand on top of his. “I think I do. I’ve served my sentence with the intention of getting out of this place. I need to go back up. Reintegrate before I forget how.”
Wriothesley doesn’t understand.
When you look up, he’s now looking right through you, into space, into nothingness. “I guess you’re not going to make this easy.”
“I don’t understand what you mean.” You say, roughly swallowing. Against your will, you do understand. You always do.
“We’re made for each other. Circumstance is a powerful thing, (Y/N). If it wasn’t for circumstance, you wouldn’t be in jail. You wouldn’t be like me. I wouldn’t be here either. Two people, who can perfectly understand each other, in the same place. But I suppose you don’t think that’s something worth pursuing?”
“I can’t be here forever.” You reply definitively.
“Don’t exaggerate things, now. I do go up to Fontaine every now and then, you know.”
“You know what I mean.”
Wriothesley sighs.
“I guess I can have your sentence extended. I didn’t want to play that card, but…”
“I- I’ll report you to any authority that will listen!” You exclaim, retracting away from him in horror.
“And it’ll be your word against mine. Wonder how that would work out.” He states, as if he was simply pondering the results of the card game.
Tears have started falling from your eyes. A wave of nausea rolls over your entire body as a thumb gently swipes over your cheeks. You’re utterly stunned and lost for words, slowly collapsing into yourself. Wriothesley takes the opportunity to inch closer and wrap his arms around you, letting you freely sob into his shoulder. There is nothing else to do. His arms are like a prison, and his hot breath is tickling against your ear.
“You’ll understand in time. For now, let’s calm down and maybe we can start preparing for your permanent residence, huh?”
As another sob emerges, his hand rubs your back with overwhelming tenderness.
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kissforyouu · 10 months ago
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Can you write a drabble of Oc being mad at him because some old fling sent him a pic through his DM’s and she saw, even though he never responds to the girl she still got mad
your eyes go completely wide, your expression just— shocked. wait, no, no! jumpscared is the right word. you grit your teeth while staring down at your boyfriend's phone displaying the nude photo of some other woman. and you couldn't help but think that if this was proof of jungkook cheating on you, you would've gone crazy on spot. but fortunately, it's not.
still though, due to your own suspicions you scroll up the chat only to be met with messages exchanged about 5 months before you two's relationship started. thank fuck, he is not cheating. you just almost had a heart attack.
still, you were mad though. the audacity for this bitch to send nudes to a man who's clearly in a relationship. it's not like jungkook doesn't post you, he posts you on all his socials, there's no way she wouldn't know. shame on her, she's just embarrassing herself.
but that's not even what made you mad, though. it's the fact that jungkook had already viewed it. he's already seen the picture and had left it on seen. despite being glad that he didn't reply or anything, you still couldn't help but feel jealous over the woman. you had everything she didn't - jungkook. he has just left her on seen, hasn't even bothered to block her!
you huff, blocking her yourself. fucking hell. great, now your entire mood's ruined.
"my phone's with you?" here he comes.
you don't say anything bad, clearly upset with him.
"i was looking for it. what'd you do with it?"
why? is he scared i'll find all his hoes?
you sit in silence. there was a big fat frown evident on your face, the face you often make when you're angry.
"y/n?" jungkook stands in front of you, raising his eyebrows wondering what the hell he did wrong again. he doesn't say anything but reaches forward to grab his phone from the grasp of your hand.
the moment he does that, you get up, storming out of his living room and into his bedroom. uh oh, you're stomping on the floor. —eek, here it comes ; jungkook pokes the inside of his cheek once he heard the door shut with a very loud thud. at this point, he was used to your attitude. but he just couldn't figure out why exactly you were mad at him.
—oh, nevermind. the man sighs, running his fingers down his face while he took a short glance at the explicit image sent to him by one of his old flings about a week ago. he didn't know you'd go through his instagram. coming to think of it, your attitude is justifiable. its his fault too, noh? he didn't block or anything. i mean, not his fault he doesn't even remember the girl's name.
but he noticed that you had already blocked her. he takes another deep sigh, eyes staring at his door, now closed. he had to console you somehow.
"baby?" your boyfriend knocks on the door thrice, and when you don't answer him, he decides he's gonna break in. it's his room anyway.
he walks in to be met with the sight of his pretty little (angry) girlfriend sitting on his bed, staring into the nothing of the nothingness. you looked cute, he thought. but now's not the time to pull jokes. (i think)
"my love." jungkook walks closer to you and bends down to meet your eyelevel on the bed. but you look away, avoiding his eye contact. he giggles, accepting the challenge and moving his face in front of wherever you're looking at. three or four of these and you're sick of him already, breaking into a whine as you slapped his shoulder.
"who the fuck is gianna and why's she not blocked?!" how come you remember the girl's name and not him when he was the one who talked to the girl for like, uh, uhhh, like, a few months or weeks, jungkook thinks.
"baby, she sent me that shit recently. i haven't talked to her ever since we both started dating, you know that very well. whatever you think happened, did not happen." he looks at you, waiting for a response.
he did say the truth though. you should—
"you're overreacting." nevermind. "overreacting" is crazy.
"i am NOT overreacting." you break your silence, "what would you feel if you saw the nudes of one of my exes on my phone, huh, jungkook?! bet you'd fucking LOVE that."
jungkook remains silent for a few seconds while you gave him the "told you so" look.
"don't fucking talk to me—"
jungkook flicks your forehead, forcefully pulling your upper body towards him so that your face would be pressed against his stomach. you let out muffled screams, completely annoyed.
"come on, i'm sorry, babyyy. we're fine, okay? i will immediately block and even report if this happens again. y/n—"
"eeek! i said don't talk! now—let me. go!" he had you on a headlock so it was harder for you to get out of his grip. you kept wiggling around like a worm, but in the end, you just give up, accepting defeat.
"i'm sorrryyy, my princess. you want my instagram pass? i'll give you. you know i love you only. i'm sorry i made you feel that way." he cups your cheeks, planting a sweet double kiss on your forehead.
but you just glare at him.
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hazbininlove · 10 months ago
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Hopelessly Devoted - Chapter 3
-About 5.5k. No real warnings in this chapter!
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Charlie is more or less freaking out at the moment. She received news a week ago that Esther would be coming back down to assist with the Hotel and would be bringing a guest. Now today is the day of that visit and she feels like nothing is ready. Everything in the hotel feels out of place and she doesn’t know how to fix it.
“Charlie, you need to relax,” Vaggie says, coming up to her and placing her hands on Charlie’s shoulders. Charlie grabs at her own hair in frustration.
“I can’t, Vaggie! Esther didn’t come into the hotel last time and I just want it to be perfect! And she said she’s bringing someone else! What if it’s Sera? What if it’s Michael?! WHAT IF IT'S GOD?!”
“Charlie! She’s not bringing God to our hotel! And I doubt she’d bring Michael here! He’s probably the last person who’d ever willingly down here.”
Charlie groans and slumps into Vaggies hold. “What am I gonna dooooooo-“
“Do about what?”
“Ah!” Charlie jumps out of Vaggie’s hold and looks to the entrance where her dad is standing. His eyebrows furrow in concern.
“You doing alright, apple pie? You look uhhh kinda tired,” he inquires.
“Dad! Hi! I could really use your help right now! Esther is coming down any minute now and he’s bringing someone and-“
“Esther!” Her dad yells, his hands now gripping her arms. “She’s coming here?! Today?! Now?!!”
“Ooooh I see I forgot to mention that,” Charlie replies sheepishly, laughing awkwardly to herself. “I knew I was forgetting something.”
Lucifer’s hands let go of her to grip his own hair, knowing his hat off his head. He starts pacing as he freaks out.
“Oh hell she’s coming here. I haven’t prepared anything. Nothing has felt right! I haven’t even had the time to fix up my wings. My WINGS!”
He yells, and his wings pop out behind him in the largest form Charlie’s seen from him in months, knocking over a painting as he does so. “Satan’s smelly asscrack! They’re a mess! How the fuck am I supposed to impress her with this disaster?!”
“I don’t think Uncle Satan would appreciate that comment,” Charlie mumbles, trying to defuse the situation.
“He’s an ugly sweaty fuck! He can handle a few insults in his name!” Lucifer yells back. He pauses, groans, and rubs at his temples. “Sorry, apple pie. I’m just nervous and didn’t mean to yell. Satan definitely deserves it though.”
“Aren’t the two of you supposed to be twins or something?” Vaggie asks, approaching the two of them. “Isn’t that why people confuse you two so often?”
“Aha, no, you know all those pictures of a red dude with horns that people think is me? That’s Satan. He’s just such a damn menace that of course when shit goes sideways, they think he’s the actual devil which then confuses people and- you know what? It’s a whole thing. The point is, he smells like shit half the time I see him and I think he does it on purpose.”
“Dad, I think we’re off track again. Why are you freaking out about your wings? And can you please make them smaller before you break anything else?” Charlie asks.
Sheepishly, Lucifer does just that, letting them get smaller until they’re at a more appropriate size indoors. He snaps his fingers to fix the things he knocked over and continues pacing as he fiddles with his hands.
How does one explain to their daughter that he has an inside joke of sorts with his soulmate and now as part of proving himself to her again, he has to behave like a duck during mating season and impress her.
Shit, had Esther even meant that literally? Knowing her humor, she probably did, though she definitely expected more than just that as an apology. He wasn’t entirely sure how to apologize either. He’d told her everything the week before. Of course, just because he explained and apologized doesn’t mean she had to forgive him. And he knew one apology wouldn’t make up for several millennia apart, due to his own actions, but he really didn’t know what else to say or even do to make it up to her.
It just stressed him out more that he couldn’t think of anything to do about this. He couldn’t lose her again, not when he finally had a second chance. He’d been struggling to sleep for the past week just thinking about her. Her beautiful dark blue eyes, her wavy black hair with the streaks of white, the rich blue on the underside of her beautiful wings. Lucifer feels his heart beat a little faster at the thought of her bright smile aimed at him, eyes crinkled at the end in pure joy and those cheek marks on the corner of her mouth so high they almost look like they’re reaching her eyes.
“It’s nothing Char,” he replies to his daughter. “I just want to look my best when she arrives. And you said she’s bringing a gues- Who the fuck is she bringing?”
“We don’t know, sir. We can only assume it’s another angel,” Vaggie answers for her, likely stopping Charlie from panicking again.
“Oh fuck me! It’s probably Michael! It’s definitely Michael,” he replies, hands in his hair again as his eyes start to turn red and his voice sounds almost layered. “She talked about him so much last time, it probably is him. That fucker probably did mess with her head. She said she doesn’t love him but someone with Stockholm Syndrome probably wouldn’t admit they have it!”
“Okay!” Charlie claps loudly. “Let’s not get ahead of ourselves here! Vaggie’s right. We need to relax and think things through. I doubt she’d bring him of all people here. So let’s just focus on one thing at a time! Like cleaning up the lobby!”
Lucifer looks at his daughter with a blank stare and snaps his finger. A burst of gold sparks from his hand and sweeps around the room, cleaning up any dust and straightening out paintings and chairs alike as it goes.
“Can I go back to panicking now?”
“No!” Charlie yells, grabbing her dad and leading him towards the elevators. “We’re going to go get ourselves looking presentable!”
Vaggie watches in amusement but also concern as her girlfriend drags her whining father out of the lobby. Looking around the room, he definitely did a good job of cleaning up and saved them a good amount of time. Especially after the disaster left in the wake of Charlie’s own panicking.
She’s thankful that her and Charlie’s relationship isn’t as complicated as Lucifer’s and Esther’s. She feels bad for them. Knowing what she knows now, it all seemed like a “right person, wrong time” situation. And who knows how long those two even actually spent together before Lucifer had fallen.
The books she read aren’t exactly clear on how long between Lucifer’s creation and the creation of Eden took place. Lucifer is older than Earth, that much she knows, but how much older remains a mystery to everyone except the man himself, and she isn’t sure if asking is appropriate.
And to an immortal being who’s been around for as long as he has and still looks like a relatively young adult, how does time pass for him? Sinners remain the age they died at, but was Lucifer like Adam, Lilith, and Eve? Was he also created as an adult? Were the older angels created as children and then raised into adulthood before the aging stopped? Looking at a picture of Lucifer and Charlie, Lucifer looks the same age now as he did then. Now that Charlie’s older, he looks like he could’ve been a teenage father.
Had Lucifer and Esther had thousands of years between their creation and the Earth’s creation to spend together, or had it just been a few short years together before their forced separation? It doesn’t really matter, at the end of the day. They seemed to be the first and most functional of three pairs of soulmates ever made.
Like Esther had said the day before. The first attempt to recreate them ended in disaster with Adam and Lilith, Eve… No one in heaven had seen Eve in thousands of years and Adam never cared to talk about her besides when insulting her. The only pair that seemed to want to be together was Lucifer and Esther, and even they weren’t actually together because of the miscommunication between them that caused eons of loneliness for the two of them.
No wonder God never made more soulmates. The more Vaggie thinks about it, the more her head starts to hurt. She walks around the lobby instead, making sure nothing was out of place even with Lucifer’s magic.
A knock on the door alerted her to a guest. Vaggie paused, looking over to the bar where Husk had paused in his own polishing, and stared back at her.
“Try to keep the drinks to a minimum, please,” she says to him. He rolls his eyes but continues wiping the bar as she walks towards the door.
Before she can reach the door, a swirl of shadows lifts from the ground, and she curses to herself as she sees Alastor appear from it. She’s practically sprinting and he shifts his eyes to look at her, smile stretched impossibly wide, as he grips the door and pulls it open.
”Welcome, dear guests, to the Hazbin Hotel,” he says, greeting the two at the door.
There is Esther, smiling softly in greeting, with a taller man beside her. His skin is ghostly white like Lucifer’s, but his hair is black like Esther’s. It’s a bit longer than Lucifer’s, falling more into his face and curling around his neck. His suit is impeccable, white pants, black coat, and gray waistcoat. Along the shoulders of his coat are black pads lined in silver with intricate designs. His eyes are dark gray, bordering on blue closer to the pupils.
He looks like royalty, carries himself with an air of importance, but his eyes look soft and his expression is easygoing. It takes Vaggie a few moments before his appearance clicks in her mind.
This is Azrael, the Archangel of Death, the Virtue of Patience.
He’s rarely seen in any of the spheres of Heaven. He, like Raphael, spends most of his time on Earth. When he does return to Heaven, he passes through the spheres and says his hellos, but typically spends most of his time on Primum Mobile with the other higher ranking angels that aren’t ruling over a sphere like Sera.
If he spends any time in another sphere, it’s likely the first sphere where the majority of the winners reside, or in the third sphere where he was created, Venus, just as Lucifer and Esther were.
Well, Azrael is certainly better than Michael in terms of who would stress Lucifer out the most, but Vaggie isn’t holding out much hope. Esther had mentioned that Azrael was likely to visit, but she hadn’t expected it to be so soon. Especially since it’s only her second visit.
At least she could say that of all the virtues or archangels to bring, the Virtue of Patience would probably be the best to deal with all the chaos the people of this hotel were capable of causing.
Both of their wings were tucked away and out of sight, which was probably for the best both to get them through the door and so they wouldn’t take up too much space. They likely planned on spending a good amount of time there, if that was the case.
Vaggie bows to both of them, nervous at the sight of one of Heaven’s strongest angels. Azrael doesn’t fight, might as well be a pacifist, but that doesn’t mean he’s incapable. The Seven Capital Virtues all have more power than most beings besides God himself, and even they aren’t the top of the hierarchy the way that the Seven Deadly Sins were down here in Hell.
“Welcome! It’s an honor for you to visit us,” Vaggie says. She may not live in Heaven anymore, or agree with everything they do, but even she knows the Virtues and the Archangel of Death deserved her utmost respect. Esther visiting had been a shock, especially since Vaggie had never seen her so she didn’t know her importance.
“Please, no need for all of that,” Azrael replies. His voice is light, almost airy, but strong. It’s so different from Lucifer’s rich and smooth tone of voice. Lucifer, despite his awkwardness around his daughter, talks in a voice that is loud and boisterous when he wants it to be, like he’s demanding attention. Azrael’s voice sounds more like a soft breeze, calming and comforting.
She supposes when it’s your job to console the souls of the dead and guide them towards their final resting place, a comforting tone is probably for the best.
“I assume you know who I am?” Azrael asks, taking a step into the hotel after gesturing for Esther to enter first. Vaggie nods, not sure what else to say. “I don’t get to say this often, but it’s a pleasure to meet you.”
He holds his hand out for her to shake, and she takes it. His grip is just as soft as his voice. “It’s nice to meet you too, sir.”
“None of that. Azrael is just fine,” he replies.
Behind them, Esther is greeting Husk and Alastor. Vaggie wants to warn Esther that staying away from Alastor is for the best, especially considering Lucifer’s hatred for the other man, but there’s really no nice way to say that.
Lucifer’s not going to be happy when he sees both a brother of his that he hasn’t seen in eons suddenly here, and Alastor around the love of his life.
Today’s gonna be a shitty day in hell, that’s for sure.
“Well, where is our lovely host? I’ve been dying to meet my little niece,” Azrael says, looking around the lobby. Esther chuckles behind him.
“The puns will never stop with you, will they?” Esther asks him, a knowing smirk on her lips.
“Not until my last breath,” he teases back. It’s then that Vaggie realizes he’s been making references to death. It’s not something she expected, but knowing how Lucifer acts, she can’t say she’s entirely surprised that the weird jokes run in the family. “Now, my niece, please?”
“Right, yeah, she actually just went upstairs with her dad a few minutes ago, so they should be down shortly,” Vaggie’s replies. She wants to offer to go get them, but the idea of leaving them alone with Alastor sounds like a bad idea. Especially knowing that Husk is likely too drunk even this early in the afternoon to do anything about it.
Something in Azrael’s eyes flash at the mention of Lucifer, and his smile tightens just a bit. It’s not a good sign in Vaggie’s eyes.
“Samael is here as well? How splendid, I’ve missed the little one,” Azrael says back. Vaggie sees Esther roll her eyes at the nickname. It appears Lucifer’s height is a running joke. “My workload increased drastically when my fellow angel of death fell. Of course there are others but Samael was always a joy to work with.”
“You know he prefers to be called Lucifer,” Esther scolds him. Azrael pats her gently. They don’t look alike, besides the black hair, but they act almost like siblings.
The way Lucifer and Esther were created, to be practically married, and the fact that they’ve known each other for thousands of years, Vaggie wouldn’t be surprised if the other Virtues did see her as a sister.
Azrael hums but stays silent on the subject. Instead he chooses to move around the lobby. He goes to the bar to greet a stressed looking Husk as Esther approaches her.
“It’s Vaggie, correct?” She asks and Vaggie nods. “It’s nice to see you again, dear. I apologize for not mentioning Azrael’s visit. He likes surprises and once he has it in his head, there’s no stopping him.”
“Yes ma’am. It was definitely surprising, but I think that’s because I tend to forget that Charlie’s dad was also a high ranking angel.”
“Technically, he still is,” Esther replies. She smiles down at Vaggie, her eyes warm despite the dark cool blue color they have. “He may not be allowed in Heaven anymore, nor is he a Virtue as he once was, but he’s still one of the oldest and strongest of the angels.”
“How interesting,” Alastor says, approaching them. “One would think we’d see more of this strength you speak of.”
“If that was the case, you’d be wiped from existence with the way you like pissing him off, asshole,” Vaggie replies to him. She pauses for a moment to look back at Esther and apologize for her language, but the angel doesn’t look upset at all.
“Well, I suppose some good came from our king’s reclusive nature then!”
Alastor’s eye twitches but he says nothing more, thankfully.
Even after the battle against Adam, Vaggie knows that was nowhere near Lucifer’s full strength. The man was once a Virtue, an Archangel who answered directly to God, and a Seraphim, the highest rank of the angels. He wasn’t called God’s favorite angel for nothing. With all the power Lucifer was given upon his creation, being called the favorite almost felt like an understatement.
Not that there weren’t angels stronger than Lucifer, but Vaggie read about the fall. Lucifer wasn’t just tossed out of the gates like Charlie’s story makes it seem. Lucifer fought, and he fought hard. Michael may have led the charge against him, and been the one to throw him and Lilith towards hell, but it took several angels, mostly Seraphim, to finally weaken him.
Lucifer truly was a terrifying being, even before becoming the first sin.
“I hope you know you have nothing to worry about, dear,” Esther says to her as Alastor walks away. “If he’s anything like he was before, he’s never cared much for power.”
That much is obvious. Alastor didn’t call him a recluse for nothing. Lucifer has made it clear many times that he doesn’t care for sinners or want to truly rule them. The only times he shows off his powers is when he wants to show off for Charlie or do something for her.
“Now, tell me about the hotel, dear. Any new arrivals?”
Vaggie sits with her on the couches as she discusses the details. She’d prefer Charlie to be here, but she won’t keep her waiting either.
They haven’t had any new guests. Half the sinners were scared another attack would come from Heaven and wanted to avoid it. A few cannibals wanted to but really only for the promise of more angels attacking so they could eat more angels. Rosie had taken those few back quickly enough.
Vaggie wasn’t going to mention the cannibals to her, though she did mention their dilemma.
“I see, so an announcement should be made then, to confirm the end of these exterminations,” Esther decides.
That would require either Vox or Katie Killjoy, neither of which Vaggie wanted to deal with or felt Esther should have to.
Before she can respond, the elevator dings. Before she turns, she notices Azrael’s attention now off of Husk and turning towards the elevator as well.
“Okay, we’re ready to get this plan done!” Charlie says as she exits the elevators! Lucifer is behind her, messing with his clothes and patting himself down to make sure nothing is out of place.
“Uhh, Charlie?” Vaggie says, loudly enough for Charlie to hear her. Charlie looks to her, catches sight of Esther, and her eyes go wide.
“Oh shit she’s here already!”
“Where?!” Lucifer calls from behind her, his wings once more popping up. He doesn’t make them as large as last time, but they definitely look a bit better compared to minutes before. They puff up behind him, shaking a bit like a rattle snake’s tail, though clearly more from anxiety than warning.
Vaggie’s eyes shift to look at Esther, who’s covered her mouth a bit and looked away from the display, though based on the way her cheeks are raised, she’s trying to hide a smile.
“Well isn’t this a marvelous display?” a soft voice says. Vaggie turns to her other side where Azrael is standing now beside her, a smile on his face just as before. “Wonderful display of wings, brother.”
“A-Azrael? What are you doing here?” Lucifer shuffles closer to the door of the now closed elevator.
“I do believe Esther mentioned my desire for a visit. I simply couldn’t pass up the chance when she mentioned her plans to return so soon. It’s not often I have a moment to myself after all. But enough of that, this must be my niece, Charlotte, correct?”
“Yes! Hi! I’m Charlie! Um- Uncle?”
Azrael chuckles at Charlie’s stammering and approaches them. It’s at that moment that Lucifer moves forward, eyes narrowed and wings spread high and wide to cover Charlie behind him.
“What are you doing here?” Lucifer repeats, his tone much harsher now compared to his panicked tone before. Esther moves forward now, stepping between Lucifer and Azrael calmly.
She steps closer to Lucifer and grabs one of his hands. “Listen to him first, please. Don’t be rash.”
“Don’t be- You want me to believe one of my brothers just suddenly wants to visit?! Out of the goodness of his heart?!”
“Lucifer-“
“It’s fine, dear,” Azrael says, cutting Esther off. Lucifer’s eyes narrow further at the term of endearment. “He has every right to be suspicious. Our siblings, myself included, have let this go on for far too long right under our noses. And after the last time he saw us, it’s only fair he should be worried.”
Lucifer looks at Azrael with suspicion as he continues.
“Worry not, dear brother, I have no ill will. My intentions were solely to express my apologies for not being aware of this massacre of souls.”
Lucifer’s wings lower a bit when Esther’s hand tightens on his own. He looks at her briefly before looking back at Azrael and rolling his shoulders, allowing his wings to fully disappear again. Esther sighs in relief in front of him and gives him a comforting smile before moving completely out of the way, giving them the full view of Azrael.
It’s Charlie who looks between the three of them before coughing and offering them a seat. Both men nod and Charlie guides them back to the couches where Vaggie is still sitting.
“Thank you, my dear. It truly is wonderful to finally be able to meet you. I wish it were under better circumstances but I suppose there’s no better time than the present,” Azrael says to Charlie. She lights up a bit as she sits beside Vaggie, and motions for him to sit across from her. Esther sits beside him on the couch, and Lucifer looks conflicted before taking a seat beside his daughter, his scowl clear and directed at his brother. “I’m sure you’re aware, but I am Azrael, one of your father’s older brothers. You may call me uncle if you’d like!”
Lucifer’s scowl deepens but says nothing as Charlie squeals in excitement and bursts with questions towards the older man. Vaggie is grateful that Azrael just happens to be the Virtue of Patience, because she isn’t sure any of the other Seven, especially Michael, would’ve lasted as long as him or answered as many questions.
“Babe, slow down. How about we talk about the hotel,” Vaggie suggests. Charlie takes a deep breath before rushing to go get her poster presentation that she’d apparently made especially for this.
She goes into detail about how she understands the number of sinners is greater than the number of winners which is why redemption would help even out the numbers and keep Hell’s population more steady. Azrael and Esther nod along as she speaks, taking in all of the information she presents to them.
“My biggest concern is that so far, we’ve only redeemed one person, and we had to watch him die for that to happen. Does that mean every sinner has to die and just hope they’ll be redeemed?”
“That’s hard to say,” Azrael replies. “Little is known about this, or that redemption was even possible. It shouldn’t be a surprise though. Father always says there is time in one’s life to repent for their ways.”
Charlie nods, happy that someone agrees.
“However,” Azrael continues, “it’s hard to say exactly in the afterlife. There’s a reason I never realized what was going on. I am fine tuned to the lives of living souls, and it is my job to guide them towards their afterlife, whether that be Heaven or Hell. Once they pass either gate, my connection to that soul is lost. They are not meant to die again in their afterlife. They are meant to remain where they are, whether that be punishment in Hell for their sins, or reward for their good behavior in Heaven.”
“But we can change that! We can give sinners a chance to repent in their afterlife,” Charlie replies. Azrael nods, but his face grows a bit more serious.
”I will be honest with you, dear child. This is new territory for all of us. We have yet to see if the souls of the dead can receive a retrial that does not require a second death. But if those from Heaven can fall,” Azrael says, his eyes shifting briefly to Lucifer beside Charlie, “then I have no doubt those from Hell should be able to ascend. I ask that you remain patient as we all navigate through this new discovery.”
Charlie nods along and Azrael smiles brightly at her. He stands, patting down his clothes to remove any wrinkles and offers his hand to Charlie.
”Now! I would love to hear more of your plans to entice sinners to the idea of redemption and a tour of this lovely establishment of yours! Let’s go, I believe your father needs a break from my presence and I would love to hear more about you without his glare on my head,” Azrael announces, already walking towards the elevator with Charlie who’d taken his hand. Vaggie follows after them, confused and a bit entertained by the man’s behavior.
“Now hold on a minute,” Lucifer begins to say, before he feels a hand on his shoulder. He looks over his shoulder at Esther who is smiling at him, and nearly forgets his worries. “Esther, I don’t know how I feel about this.”
”Do you believe I’d bring anyone here that would harm your daughter?” She asks in return. Lucifer pouts a bit but shakes his head. “He’s been very excited about this trip to meet her. The other Seven have wanted to visit as well but Azrael convinced them not to overwhelm you.”
“I think I would prefer Ramiel. Or Raphael. Or Uriel- Or, really anyone but Michael,” Lucifer replies. “Ramiel definitely would be preferred though.”
“Funny you should say that. Uriel and Cassiel send their regards, by the way. They say they love and miss you, and that they will be sure to judge you themselves should I choose to forgive you.” Esther laughs when Lucifer throws his head back and groans. “Ramiel managed to convince them not to, though Michael… Well you know how Michael is. He is hopeful, though he has his concerns.”
“Michael can shove his concerns up his own ass,” Lucifer mumbles to himself, though he smiles finally when Esther laughs a bit at his words. She moves her hand down his arm until it stops around his forearm just below his elbow. He instinctively curls his arm and moves his other to hold her hand on his arm.
“How about you give me your own tour?” She asks him, changing the subject. “I didn’t get to see the hotel last time I was here.”
Lucifer nods and guides her through the hotel for his own tour while his daughter shows his brother around. He’s still wary of it all, but he knows Esther is right. She wouldn’t bring anyone that would hurt them, and Azrael is the least likely, besides Raphael who’s dedicated his life to saving lives, to ever start a fight. Had it been Michael, Lucifer isn’t sure if he could’ve been stopped from attacking him on the spot. He at least has much fonder memories of Azrael.
He guides Esther through the hotel, showing off some of the different rooms such as the parlor, kitchen, or the more recreational areas he added himself simply because he could upon the hotel’s reconstruction. He puffs his chest in pride as she looks on, impressed by the hotel’s amenities.
He vaguely motions towards Alastor’s radio tower, not keen on taking her there, and she doesn’t question his reasoning, thankfully. She seemed to have caught onto his distaste.
Instead, towards the end of their tour, he leads her towards his own workshop. Not his room, he knows she won’t appreciate that level of forwardness, but he knows his new growing collection of rubber ducks will amuse her.
It’s not something he’d typically show off to anyone, and he’s sure under normal circumstances this isn’t something you’d show to someone you were interested in dating, but Esther wasn’t just anyone. This was something so much more than dating.
Part of him wondered, after Hell’s creation, if maybe they were meant to be separated. If humans were allowed to choose their partner, why couldn’t he? It had bugged him for so long. Part of it was what led to Charlie’s creation if he was being honest. But then he’d think of Esther, of her beauty and kindness, of the warmth he felt just when her eyes were on him, and he thought being bound to someone like her was the greatest gift his father ever gave him. He doesn’t regret Charlie, not in the slightest, even if he wishes Charlie’s mother could’ve been Esther, but sometimes he thinks his greatest punishment wasn’t his fall, it was the loss of his other half.
He’d give up everything if it meant another chance with her.
He leads her into his workshop, grinning proudly at the wonder in his eyes at the sight of all his rubber ducks.
She moves further into the room as she lets go of his arm, rushing towards the ducks in the rooms and grabbing at a few.
“Lucifer, what is all of this?” she asks as she chuckles, holding a rubber duck in her hands to inspect its design.
“My rubber duck collection,” he says, laughing to himself as he picks one up. “This isn’t even half of it.”
“Where are the rest?”
“In my manor,” he responds. He sits at his desk and watches her inspect another duck. “I think I made at least one a day for years.”
”That… doesn’t sound very healthy,” Esther says, lowering the duck in her hand and approaching him.
”No, I don’t think it was,” he responded, a melancholic smile on his face. “But they were something that comforted me when I felt like everything else was falling apart. Lilith left, can’t say it was without warning. She was getting tired of my moping and there was really nothing either of us could do about it. The friendship was already falling apart after Charlie’s birth. We tried to get along, we’re still friends, I think, but she didn’t want my hatred for Hell to affect Charlie. Charlie and I weren’t always close because of it. And for a long time, I felt more alone than ever. So I started making these to take my mind off things, and it helped.”
Esther is silent as she kneels in front of him, a hand on his knee in comfort.
She looks at him with those beautiful dark blue eyes, hair falling into them, and he reaches out to move her hand behind her ear.
”Why ducks?” She asks, voice just above a whisper.
”They reminded me of you,” he replies, pressing his forehead against hers. “They were something we created together. I used to create these beautiful projections of them for Charlie when she was a little girl and she loved them. They felt like a little piece of you here with me.”
Esther’s hand that isn’t on his knee moves to his hair, moving through the short hairs on the back of his neck.
“I’ve never stopped thinking about you. I’ll admit I wanted to sometimes. I thought maybe it’d hurt less if I just erased the memory of you, but then I’d think of your smile and everything hurt a little less. I’d think of the times we spent together, of how blissful everything felt with you by my side, and I couldn’t forget you. And then Charlie was born and I wanted her to have a piece of that happiness.”
He closes his eyes as his hands comb through her hair, enjoying the feeling of her’s in his own.
”You truly are something special, Lucifer Morningstar,” Esther says to him. He chuckles lightly and lifts his head to place a kiss on her forehead.
“Only because of you, Esther Eveningstar,” he replies, lips still pressed against her skin.
He never wants to be apart from her again.
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Apologies for any typos. My sleep schedule this week has been lacking to say the least.
Another character introduced! Learning about Azrael was fun for this. When I read he was from the “third heaven” I panicked a bit because it didn’t seem to fit with Dante’s spheres of paradise, but then I remembered that he and Lucifer(Samael) are angels of death, so having them all from the same sphere felt fitting! I was originally going to have Ramiel be the first to visit, as the Virtue of Kindness, but decided on Azrael instead because I thought Patience would be the best for Lucifer to be reintroduced to.
Anyways, at this point I feel like I can’t post a chapter unless I include a drawing at the end. This time I I decided I wanted to draw an idea for Lucifer’s look when he was still the Virtue of Humility. The Story of Hell shows him in a robe and still with his hat. I’ve seen people say his eyes were blue before his fall, but as his name means “the shining one” I feel like gold is more fitting. I also headcanon that his halo didn’t take the shape of a snake until after his fall, with the apple being added because of his actions, and as he took on a more demonic form, his appearance shifted as well. His eyes shifted to red, and when in his demonic form, his irises shift back to gold, but now with red sclera.
I’m not entirely happy with this drawing but, I didn’t want to hold off on posting the chapter so here it is!
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psst hey uhhh... any tips for gaining as fast as youve been? cause. you are like. goal for me I realize.
Omg thank you! It’s wild that I’m someone’s goal, that’s amazing! I love to hear it.
As far as tips go, I’m on three medications (two of which are related to HRT) that are known to cause weight gain so I’m sure that those help! But those aren’t practical for everyone, so real tips.
Calorie counting. A lovely feeder on here once suggested I get into it and I swear, once I started paying attention to them it helped me to make more fattening choices.
Consistency is crucial. Easier said than done, I know. I’ve seen posts about how irregular eating tricks your body into putting on fat, and that may help, but I’ve had a lot of success from just eating consistently larger portions. I know that sounds like obvious stuff, but it has helped to stretch out my stomach and increase my capacity so much that I’m surprised at how much I can eat now, and how much more it takes for me to feel full. Like a few months ago I struggled to finish a large pizza myself. Now I can finish one and still be hungry. It takes time but not as much as you’d think.
Ice cream. It really helps. Seek out the highest cal ice cream you can and go to town.
Enjoy your gain. It can be easy to get down on yourself for not being as big as you want, but the small changes to your body add up little by little every day, and it is super encouraging when you appreciate them. Plus it feels incredible when you look back and see older pictures of yourself and see how far you’ve come without realizing it.
Take part in the feedist community! This is probably the biggest point for me. The people I’ve met on here have been so lovely and encouraging. Talking with some of the kindest feeders on here, and chatting with fellow feedees about how fat we are getting has helped me embrace my gaining more than I would have alone, and pushed me to greater heights. Even beyond the kink aspect, just having a little community of friends where you gas each other up has been incredible, and I’d be much thinner than I am now without them. 💖
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m3r1m4r5u333 · 2 months ago
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You know, with the way that both Eddie and Buck are canonically prone to making these impulsive, rushed, desperate attempts to move in with their partners -- way too soon into their relationship (Buck having now tried that twice, first with Taylor, then with Tommy! Ooh actually, thrice! He moved into Abby's apartment as well. Which wasn't super smart. Yikes!)
... and have then been burned by this idea because oops, that impulsive decision backfired...? Bye relationship...?
So. This tendency combined with the way these two are often so oblivious about their habit to nest with each other!!!
I'm just ✨imagining✨ that once they actually do get their shit together, and start dating each other...
They'll probably be, as usual, just so, so, sooo dumb about that step of moving in to share a home. They'll probably both want to do that like... stupidly soon, but hey.
They've been burned before and this thing is so important this time to get right... So what to do? Help, there is no manual for this!!
Which... results in this awkward situation of them just avoiding talking about this topic. At all! Both actually wanting to live together, but afraid to ask for it, or even really mention their desire to live together and share a home full time.
Which still... doesn't actually stop them from starting to live together! Like always, they just can't help the way they naturally gravitate towards each other. All the time, like the bonded pair they are.
So in the end the whole thing will probably end up being discussed like:
Buck: Hey Eddie. I was wondering. Could we... Maybe. Uhhh. Maybeeee. Move in together? 🫣
Eddie: What? Oh. MOVE IN TOGETHER?! Did you say, move in together?
... Yeah! I'd like that, Buck! You do know that I love having you around! I'm so glad that you asked. Yes. Lets do that 😁
Buck: Oh.. You want that Really?
Eddie: YES. REALLY. I'm SURE.
Buck: That's... Such a relief. Yeah. Lets do that, then *hesitantly smiles, then grins. THEN BEAMS!!*
Eddie: *coughs* To be honest. I was already maybe... Thinking. A bit! That you'd already... moved in. Kinda? Was just nervous to bring it up.
Buck: Huh?
Eddie: Well. I was nervous to ask you to, or confirm if you had... because I don't want to rush things, again... I want to do this right! I want... Us. Like, this is it for me, Buck. You are it for me.
So... I was just scared to rush this. And ruin us. But. Anyway. Now that the can is open 🤔...
Yeah. I was thinking about it the other day, and I'm pretty sure it's been months now since you spent the night at your loft?
'Cause remember the last time.. When you... Actually, we both slept at your loft, you know... After we broke the bed here 😎...?
Yeah 🤔 Aaaannd then, the next day we were already back to living here. Because of this plant kick you've gone for. Which, to be frank, is starting to feel less like a kick and more like I'm in a throuple. Me, you, the plants... 🤔
Anyway, as we know, of course you worry if you're not around to water all of these hundreds of delicate house plants that you fallen in love with. You know, which is why we are standing in a jungle right now, Buck?
Buck: *stares at Eddie*
Eddie: Really, Buck. I'm telling you, we already live together. IN A JUNGLE!
Buck: ...It's not a jungle! Stop saying that it's a jungle, I don't have problem. Look, this plant grows on savannahs in nature! So it CAN'T possible be a jungle! Are savannahs jungles, Eddie? Don't think so! So there you have it!
Eddie: You do have a problem, Buck. I don't mind the problem, Buck. I like the plants, Buck.
... My point was, you already live here.
Buck, we both live here. Together. In our home. You moved in... about seven months ago, I think? That was when you hauled in your favorite things and stopped sleeping at yours.
It was right after your birthday, yeah. I gave you those records as a gift, and then you brought your vinyl player here. Along with your entire vinyl record collection. Because apparently "I'm not a nerd, vinyl just sounds better, Eddie" and you wanted to listen to them here, while you chill and water our entire jungle of house plants.
... Again, I don't mind any of it, Buck. I love it, sharing a home with you. I love you.
Buck: Oh.
Eddie: Yeah.
Buck: ... Oooooh we ARE living together, Eddie! HEY, I could sell the loft! Or rent it. And then we'd have more money to spend on our ju--plants!!
Eddie: Yeah. Guess you could. *Smiles, goes for a kiss*
Buck: 🥰 Love you, Eddie. (...Love you, plants.)
(Plants: Stop killing us then, murderer!!! For real! How hard can it be?!)
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sociopathicartist · 11 months ago
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Sans x Reader (BREAKFAST COMBO)(oneshot)
‘BreakfastCombo’
“so… how did the two of you meet anyways?” Fell asked, folding and unfolding the napkin he grabbed with his breakfast.
You were at a hotel (yes, all 7 of you, including you) in Colorado, staying there for the day until you drove down to the ski lodge tomorrow morning. Originally the plan was to leave today, but it started snowing. Snowing bad.
“Sans and I?” You questioned, not sure what he was referring to. There were 6 other skeletons.
He nodded, looking back to see his brother trying to make a plate of food with the hardly salvageable hotel breakfast buffet. “who else? m’ curious. he’s talked about you since the first day we showed up here.”
Hm. You sighed, staring down at the wooden table. God, how did you meet Sans? That was a long story that happened a really long time ago.
“Uhhh, I could tell you. Whydda ask?”
“m’ just wondering. s’ not like any of us had a human best friend like you at home. s’ weird seeing him like this.” He poked at the dry biscuit with his fork, a small snarl on his teeth.
Huh. No you in their AU’s? Interesting.
You tapped your fingers on the desk, thinking back to when you two did meet. Stars, it feels like forever ago.
“Technically,” You started. “I met Papyrus first. I was at Muffet’s and he saw me struggling with the morning crossword. He helped me finish it, promptly suggesting afterward that I try Junior Jumble instead. We just kinda became friends that morning and kept in close contact. I knew Papyrus for at least four months before I ever met Sans. It’s odd.”
“hm? whyssit odd?” Fell slurred his words together like usual, a bad habit of his.
“Well, you know.” You took a bite of your toast, swallowing down the hardly edible substance. “Everyone always meets Sans first. Before Papyrus trained with Undyne, Sans worked for her at the sentry station. Before Alphys met Papyrus, Sans ran into her in hotland and they’d watch anime together sometimes. Before Papyrus met Toriel, Sans would tell her jokes through the door. Everyone always met Sans first, but I didn’t. I didn’t even know the guy existed for a hot minute.”
“THIS FOOD IS DISGRACEFUL.” Edge suddenly appeared next to the two of you, startling you a bit. His arms were folded angrily. “I WILL GO GATHER BLUE AND DISCUSS ABOUT A POSSIBLE SHORT DRIVE TO A DINER SOMEWHERE.”
“Isn’t the whole point of staying at the hotel today because we can’t drive in the snow?” 7 people in one car during a snowstorm was a tad bit wild, especially just for some food.
“THE LODGING IS A 3 HOUR DRIVE. RESTAURANTS ARE CLOSER BY. I’M SURE THIS IS NOT HOW YOU WANT TO EAT THE ENTIRE DAY.”
Fell shrugged, not seeming to care about the whole ordeal. “room service food is way nummier. could jus’ order that, idk.”
Edge scoffed at his brother. “NEVER SAY ‘I.D.K.’ OUTLOUD EVER AGAIN.” He walked away, presumably to go grab Blue who was oddly still asleep.
“Anyways. We met for the first time when Papyrus invited me over for his birthday. I had already met Undyne and Alphys before, so there weren’t too many faces at his party that I didn’t recognize. I suppose Papyrus had talked about me to Sans before because I didn’t introduce myself and he just kinda… Stared at me the whole time.”
“that’s weird. prolly thought you were smokin’ hot and got nervous.”
You scoffed, rolling your eyes. “Again, anyways. I figured I’d break the ice, so when Paps was opening gifts I sat by Sans and cracked a birthday joke and his whole face just lit up. I knew that the guy loved jokes, but I didn’t expect him to crack one-liners and puns at me for the rest of the night.”
You trailed off in your words, the memory playing vividly in your head. After the party you had gone home and decided to scroll through some photos you’d taken earlier, deleting many that Undyne and Alphys spammed on your phone when you had left it unintended. You saved some photos and went to send them to the pair, but saw a new contact added. You clicked on it, seeing the only message being an awful one-liner.
(—-,—-,——) - 9:12 pm - why did the cell phone bring a sweater to the party
(—-,—-,——) - 9:12 pm - it didn’t want to get a cold signal. lol.
(—-,—-,——) - 9:15 pm - it’s cold. stay warm on your way home.
Ah. You must have given Sans your number at some point during the party. Who else would send these horrible puns?
10:05 pm- LMAO. I made it home safe, don’t worry.
You two ended up texting on and off for about an hour before retreating to bed.
A few days later you ended up having a shitty day at work. Unlike your normal tendency to bottle things up, even to your best friend, Papyrus, you wanted to spill your feelings... You called Undyne and Alphys. No answer. Papyrus was busy with Mettaton today, so both those options were out. Toriel answered but said she was at the park with Frisk. You didn't want to impose and passed off your call as a simple check-in. BP would only bring more down since he wasn’t the best at comforting, so you were led to your last option.
You rang the number and heard the pickup tone.
“hey?”
“Hi! Sorry, I’ve just had a long day and wanted to talk.”
You heard a soft sigh before a response. “go on. i’m not busy.”
“you called for how long?” Fell gave a bit of a surprised look to you.
“7 hours! I know. After I told him about my shitty day he ended up telling me about his equally awful one. I don’t know, we just talked.”
Fell stared at you for a moment, the end of his phalange picking at his gold tooth. You raised an eyebrow.
“What? Do I have something on my face?” You battered.
“no, no. keep talkin’.”
After the two of you ended the call, you had asked to call the next day.
So you called the day after that.
And the day after that.
And the day after that one.
It took a long time for you to notice how close you and Sans had become. Papyrus was the realization moment for you.
“HUMAN, I MUST SAY THAT YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT INFLUENCE ON SANS.”
You looked up to Papyrus, setting your menu down on the booth table. “What?”
“HE HAS BEEN MORE ACTIVE NOW THAT HE IS TALKING TO YOU SO MUCH. I MUST SAY, I AM VERY HAPPY WITH THIS DEVELOPMENT!”
“Oh, uhm…” You took a sip of your water, the ice-cold temperature giving the roof of your mouth a bit of a cold shock. “Thanks.”
You did feel a bit bad at the fact that you were spending a bit more time with Sans over Papyrus, your best friend, but he was occupied with Mettaton and didn’t mind much. The two brothers still ate up a large portion of your time.
For Sans’ birthday, you chose to knit him a blanket. You had corrected him several times that it was knitting, not crochet, but now you were convinced that the smirk on his face when you corrected him meant he knew the difference and just said crochet to patronize you.
Although he tried to avoid you from coming into his room, mostly because it was messy and unfurnished, you had caught glimpses of it from time to time. A big ringer you noticed was the lack of a proper blanket in his room. While the temperature didn’t bother him much due to the lack of skin, you still didn’t like the idea of him being without a blanket at night.
You had been sneaky with it, casually asking him to go on a shopping spree with you and stopping at the yarn store on your way home. While you picked out your yarn for a separate project, you watched to see which yarns he liked. It was easy to tell, if he liked the color of it he’d pick it up and see if he liked the feeling. If approved, he’d hold onto it for a few moments before putting it back up. You kept note of which ones he liked and went back to the store alone the next day, picking out enough yarn of the two colors he was amused by.
It turned out as a soft blue blanket. The main yarn was a sky blue that was silky and cold to the touch paired with a dark blue crushed velvet that wrapped as a border. It took about two weeks of knitting in all your free time to finish it, completed by being folded nicely and wrapped up in paper.
After the small party you and your friends planned for him, you chose to give him your gift alone.
Well, not alone. You had attached a letter you wrote for him to the gift and placed the blanket on his mattress, knowing he’d see it later. You were correct, receiving a text from him later thanking you for the gift.
He seemed to open up to you a lot more after that.
“Sooooo, the rest is history.” You tossed the paper plate (still full of gross food) into the trash.
“wow. wowwowwowwowwow.” Fell shook his skull. “boring story.”
You scoffed at him, heading into the elevators as he followed beside you. “Yak it up. You asked. What did you expect, hm?”
He shrugged, pressing your floor number once you were in the elevator. “dunno. sounds like you two were going to shack or somethin’.”
“Fell, you perv! Nothing is going on between him and me.”
“yeahhhh, alright sweetheart.”
You scowled at him, breaking separate ways once you were out of the elevator and going to your hotel room.
You were lucky. Being the 7th member of the ‘friend/family’ group meant you were the odd one out, and also the only female. (ignore if you’re gender-neutral) If there was ever a situation like this where you all had to stay in rooms, you always got your own while all the individual brothers shared theirs. You can only imagine the chaos breaking out between Edge and Fell, cooped up in that tiny room together.
Your bed was cold and plush when you laid down on it, all made up by the hotel cleaning service. You stared up at the ceiling, your hands over your stomach. There wasn’t anything going on between you two, right?
Ugh. It was only 8:30 am, so most everyone was still asleep except the malicious duo, that was unless Edge successfully woke up Blue. You couldn’t just go back to sleep either. All the talking and walking around made your sleepiness wear off, so you were just a bit stuck. You grabbed your phone, choosing to mindlessly scroll on Pinterest.
You wouldn’t make a move on Sans since you were almost 100% positive that not only was he not interested in you, but that he wasn’t interested in a relationship at all. Every time you brought up the subject he just got dodgy, so you just chose to bury any feelings you had deep down so that you wouldn’t risk the friendship and be a hopeless romantic over some guy.
But now?
Ugggggh. Your feelings were all in a wad. Fell had successfully just made things complicated. He may be a bit of a punk sometimes, but he wouldn’t say something like that to you if he didn’t think you two were interested in each other. Even though he’s a bit rougher around the edges, he still is a Sans. He has the same morals and motivations similar to Classic, unlike Blue on the other hand. He would be your next best dig at getting into Sans’ thoughts since asking him directly was too risky.
You could ask Papyrus, but Papyrus is loyal to keeping his word. You heavily admired it and used his loyalty as a bit of a role model for yourself, but unfortunately, that meant that going to him for an inside scoop meant you’d have to be tricky with your words. Sure, he wouldn’t let you go in completely blind since you were his best friend. If he knew of your little crush he definitely wouldn’t let you get heartbroken, and would give indirect suggestions that technically don’t break his loyalty.
You chose your next best option.
8:34 - u up?
8:35 - i wanna ask u smthn.
8:39- did u go back to sleep ?
8:41 - evil sans (satan) - what's up
8:42 - do u think he likes me?
8:42 - don’t make fun
8:43 - evil sans (satan) - jfc, you woke me up for this?
8:43 - evil sans (satan) - im going back 2 sleep
8:44 - fell pleeeease:(:(:(
8:45- evil sans (satan) - im not sure. he doesn’t talk about that stuff to me. he does act interested in u though, esp compared to how he acts around everyone else.
Mh. You typed and sent a short thanks to him, feeling pretty satisfied with what new information you’ve learned.
You shut your phone off, sighing and tossing it beside you. If you were back home, you’d go and talk to Toriel about this. She’s always so nice and comforting to talk to. Granted, Alphys and Undyne were also good options, but they had a bit of a hard time keeping a secret in relation to crushes. You’d be teased high to no end. Mettaton would be nice to talk to, you could have a day with facemasks, mani-pedis, and gossip.
But you weren’t home, were you? So… how to pass the time…
The time went by slowly. It wasn’t until about 10 am that Blue and Stretch woke up, begrudging you to hang out with them downstairs in the hotel lounge. Since you already had plans to take a short drive to get food, eating at the hotel wasn’t really on the table. Blue dragged you and Edge to do one of the community puzzles the hotel had while Stretch and Fell lounged in chairs, occupied on their phones.
It didn’t take long for Sans and Papyrus, the iconic duo, to show up in the lobby. The short skeleton stood behind you, ruffling your hair a bit while Papyrus rambled on about why they were up so late.
“HORRIBLE. JUST HORRIBLE. WE HAVE BEEN UP FOR THE PAST HOUR AND I HAVE WASTED 30 MINUTES JUST DRAGGING HIM OUT OF BED!” Papyrus complained, some snickers being heard from Stretch about the situation.
“I’m sorry, Papyrus.” You tried to console him, elbowing Sans in the ribcage for his older brother's havoc. “When we get to the ski lodge tomorrow we’ll have our own room.”
Sans nodded, feigning a hurt expression from your elbow jab. “sorry bro. i really gotta work on my self o-bed-ience.”
Several groans were heard, and Fell waved Sans off. “boring, lazy, sloppy. you’ve been lacking on your puns recently.”
Blue connected another puzzle piece, a small look of pride and victory on his face. “I SUGGEST YOU CHANGE OUT OF YOUR PYJAMAS, LAZY ME. WE ARE GOING OUT TO EAT.”
Papyrus’ attention was caught. “GOING OUT? I THOUGHT IT WAS TOO SNOWY.”
“FOR A 3 HOUR DRIVE, YES.” Edge corrected. “BUT THIS DINER IS ONLY 5 MINUTES AWAY AND SEEMS TO SERVE EDIBLE BREAKFAST OPTIONS.”
“hmmm. who’s gonna drive, again?” Stretch eyed everyone in the group. None of you preferred driving.
Papyrus’ face changed to fear, quickly holding up his hand to his nasal socket. “NOES-GOES!”
The crowd of you went wild, the once tired and calm group now screaming “noes goes” while raising their hand. A few people in the lounge looked over at you, trying to see what was disturbing the peace.
Blue groaned once he realized he yelled out last. “WHY DO I ALWAYS LOSE AT NOES-GOES?! I SWEAR, YOU ASSHOLES ONLY PICK IT BECAUSE IT IS THE ONE GAME I AM BAD AT.”
“sorry, bro.” Stretch showed a half-hearted sympathetic look. “we don’t make the rules.
“Why don’t we put up the puzzle and head out then? There’s nothing wrong with being in your pyjamas. It’s not like we know anyone here.” You gestured to your lazy pyjama outfit, vouching a bit for Sans.
“see? they get it.” Sans commented, looking at you with a lazy grin.
“I SUPPOSE IT’S OKAY… BUT JUST FOR TODAY.”
The drive was chaos.
Somehow just five minutes in the car leads to sibling fights, Blue yelling at everyone to shut up so that he can focus on driving, Sans pestering Papyrus with puns and Fell showing you TikToks on your phone that he found funny. You never got a break from them.
Blue managed to park the car with several harasses from Edge about how “HE NEEDS A CAR SEAT TO EVEN LOOK OUT THE WINDSHIELD PROPERLY.” The snow was still relentless, just occurring to you that Blue was right and you should have not gone out in your pyjamas. While the others didn’t have skin and weren’t temperature-bothered, you were. You kept trying to rush them all into the diner as quickly as possible.
“I RECALL THAT YOU WERE THE ONE WANTING TO STAY IN YOUR PYJAMAS.” Edge teased you, watching as you sat down and tried to conserve your warmth by wrapping your arms around your waist.
You grabbed one of the menus, glaring at him. “I didn’t realize how cold I’d be. Gimmie a break, man.”
You loved him, but he could be a tad annoying sometimes. Quite frankly all of them got on your nerves now and then.
Food items, Food items… Hashbrowns, some ‘Waffle Topple’ special for 9.99. Your stomach grumbled at all the options.
“still cold?” Sans’ familiar voice rang out.
You looked down at him, seeing that he was sitting next to you. Odd, usually Papyrus or Stretch sat by you.
Checking around the table, you saw the chatter amongst the other skeletons. The two of you would be able to talk one one-on-one for a few minutes before any interruptions.
“A bit. It’s not my fault it’s still cold in here.” You scanned over the menu again. “Whatcha gonna get?”
“not sure.” Sans shrugged, tapping his phalanges on the menu. “all of these options are pretty eggstraordinary.”
“Sans.”
“but i think the breakfast combo looks grape.”
You crossed your arms, watching as his amused expression developed. “I’m not doing it. It’s too early.”
“what?” Sans looked over to you. “you got something to hash out with me?”
“10 am. 10.”
“just one? then i’ll quit.” Sans pleaded. “don’t grit your teeth at my puns.”
You groaned in annoyance, hiding your face behind your menu and peeking at him. “Uhmmmm. I’m really tired. I don’t think I can mustard up any good puns.”
Sans stared at you for a few seconds, a bit of a confused and enticed expression. “wow. mustard isn’t even a breakfast food.”
“You didn’t say it had to be.”
“didn’t i? i thought it was obvious with the way my puns were roll-ing.”
“I thought you said you’d quit.”
“i know.” Sans winked, setting his menu back on the table and shrugging off his jacket.
He pulled you in by your shoulders, wrapping his jacket around you to provide a layer of warmth.
You smiled softly, your cheeks heating up a bit since he got so close. Breathe. “Aw. for me? Your musty ketchup jacket?”
Sans brushed you off, his permanent smile twinging upward a bit more. “whaaattt? diddya think i’d give you the cold shoulder?”
You elbowed his arm, pretending to be annoyed despite enjoying his puns. It was a bit impressive how witty he was. You wrapped the jacket around you a bit tighter, not seeing the way Sans was busy staring at you.
“Whatcha gonna order, Papyrus?” Your voice rang soft to him.
Papyrus looked up to you, beginning to ramble about all the options they had, Blue occasionally piping in to debate on which one was best. You glanced over to Sans while listening to them babble, catching a glance of him before he quickly looked away.
You’d tell him soon, one day.
first one shot upload:3 idk if i should make it a two part or not? thanks for reading <3
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local-enby · 1 month ago
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The Eternal Dance of Push & Pull
Lin Beifong x Kya ii x Original NB Character (Rating: Explicit)
Chapter 22: Reconnecting, Part 2
Kyalin flashback!!! Then back to present.... there will be a part 3 of this chapter!
***Air Temple Island, 32 Years Ago (Lin = 20, Kya = 23)***
“Bonfire down at the beach after everyone goes to bed. You know the place,” Bumi whispered into Kya’s ear before venturing into the kitchen and offering to help his mother with dinner.
Lin raised an eyebrow in Kya’s direction, wondering what was said. Kya had been traveling for the last 6 months and Lin had desperately missed her best friend. She was an easy sell when Aang and Katara begged her to take off work and spend the weekend on the Island to celebrate Kya’s return & Bumi’s visit.
A lot changed in the past two years, after the incident. Suyin had been sent to live with their grandparents in Gaoling. Lin had moved out of the Chief’s house, graduated from the police academy, and started dating women. She’d carried a torch for the waterbender for as long as she could remember, but she was pretty sure Kya never saw her as anything more than a friend. Being 3 years her junior didn’t help. She was just grateful to be in Kya’s presence in any capacity at all once again.
Kya touched the earthbender’s shoulder and leaned over to her ear. “Bonfire at the beach later,” she whispered, flashing Lin a wink and a dazzling smile. 
Lin felt her skin ablaze at Kya’s touch. How could Kya be so casual when every smile, every  look, every contact, threatened to push Lin over the edge? It was going to be a long weekend. When Kya left 6 months prior, she’d been dating someone in Republic City. Lin wasn’t sure if they were still together, Kya hadn’t mentioned her in any of the letters she’d written.
Lin sat on the cushion next to Kya at dinner, as she always had. Growing up, Lin would stay in Kya’s room whenever she slept on the Island. The waterbender would keep her up talking til the wee hours of the morning – Lin was always thrilled to oblige. It had been a while since she’d stayed on the Island; the last time she could remember was before the incident.
Throughout dinner, Kya would touch Lin’s knee or lean over to make a joke hear under her breath for Lin’s ears only. While Lin wanted to believe it might mean something more, she kept her guard up. Kya was a generally flirty person, it could mean nothing at all. 
Still, as they ate, Lin took every opportunity to admire the gorgeous brunette next to her. Her long, flowing hair pulled back in a half-bun, half-ponytail. The dimple that materialized next to her smirk while she rolled her eyes at her brothers. The way the mole under her left eye disappeared whenever she laughed. How her long, slender fingers wrapped around her glass of wine. The way her aqua eyes sparkled whenever they made contact with Lin’s. 
“Uhhh… Earth to Lin!” Bumi yelled from across the table.
Lin snapped from her trance. “Um… what?” Lin realized she hadn’t been absorbing any of the dinner conversation while she’d been staring at Kya.
“I was just saying you’ll be seeing more of me down at City Hall, now that I’m getting involved with more political affairs! We should get lunch next week,” Tenzin repeated hopefully.
“Oh, right. Sure, lunch sounds great,” Lin replied flatly.
Tenzin beamed. Lin thought she saw Kya make a face out of the corner of her eye, but she could’ve imagined it. The rest of dinner went on as usual with lively chatter and lots of laughs.
After helping Katara with the dishes, Lin walked out to the living room to see that most everyone had already gone to bed. She stepped outside to look around, unsure of where Bumi had set up the bonfire for the night. Deciding the evening chill merited a jacket, she made her way over to the guest room in the women’s dormitory where she’d left her bag.
As Lin retrieved her sweatshirt, she felt a familiar presence occupy the doorway to the room.
“You’re not staying with me?” Kya questioned, leaning against the doorframe.
Lin tried to find the right words to reply, “I– We’re– I wasn’t sure you–” 
“Relax, Lin,” Kya chuckled, stepping closer to the earthbender. “I get it. I’m gone for 6 months and now you prefer my brother,” Kya goaded with a shrug.
“What are you talking about?” Lin asked expectantly, her brow furrowed as she studied Kya’s demeanor like the detective she’d soon be.
“Your date with Tenzin next week,” Kya said, trying to sound uninterested. 
“That is absolutely not a date,” Lin replied firmly. Where was Kya getting this? And why did it rile her so?
“He wants it to be a date, then,” Kya corrected, her eyes raking over the muscular, raven-haired woman before her.
Lin scoffed and rolled her eyes, realizing that Kya was jealous of her presumed date with Tenzin. Could there be a chance Kya had feelings for her too? Lin pulled the sweatshirt she was holding over her head and reached down to pick up her bag. Kya’s eyes widened as Lin walked towards the door. 
“What are you doing?” Kya asked, worried she’d pushed Lin too far.
“Putting this in your room,” Lin replied, stepping past Kya to the doorway. She stopped short and turned around, just a few inches from Kya. Green eyes met blue. Lin ventured, “If I didn’t know better, I’d say you sound rather jealous, Kya…”
Kya’s eyes widened, her skin flushed. The way her own name sounded on Lin’s lips unnerved her.
“Pshhh… What’s there to be jealous of? You’re sleeping in my room,” Kya defended, trying to regain her cool. Her best friend suddenly had an effect on her that she wasn’t used to. The earthbender had always been attractive, but now… she was downright sexy. 
“My point exactly,” Lin said with a smirk and walked down the hall to drop her bag in Kya’s room.
Kya swallowed thickly. What have I started?
Kya led Lin across the Island to Bumi’s bonfire, finding her brother already there waiting. The three sat in a circle around the fire and Lin pulled out a flask, taking a long drink before passing it to Kya.
“Alright, Beifong!” Bump exclaimed.
Kya took a sip and passed it to Bumi. Avoiding eye contact with Lin, Kya reached down the front of her dress and produced a joint from between her breasts. She held it close to the fire before lifting it to her lips and gently inhaling. She exhaled slowly, smoke spilled from her dark pink lips as she looked out towards the ocean.
Lin would normally be prepared to give the waterbender her spiel about illegal substances, but the display was so mesmerizing she couldn’t formulate any words.
Bumi took a large gulp from the flask, watching the little show his sister was putting on for Lin. He looked back and forth between the two of them. The earthbender was practically undressing his sister with her eyes. How did I miss this? Bumi had been deployed for the past few years and only spent a few weekends on the Island per year. But surely I would’ve noticed this!? Bumi took an even longer drink from the flask before screwing the lid back on. 
Kya held the joint out to Bumi from the tips of her pointer and middle finger. “Southern Water Tribe’s finest,” she noted. 
Bumi accepted and peeked over to Lin. “Didn’t know Officer Beifong was cool with plant medicine,” he said with a raised eyebrow as he inhaled the joint.
Lin rolled her eyes. “It’s a special occasion, I’ll allow it.” 
With the quick quirk of an eyebrow, Kya grinned at Lin.
Tonight was not the night Lin wanted to be ‘Officer Beifong.’ Not when her best friend looked like the most desirable thing on the planet. Not when there was a chance that Kya was interested in her, too. 
Lin accepted the joint from Bumi and took a hit. She didn’t cough, so she took a second hit – pushing her luck. As she reached to pass it back to Kya, she broke out in a short coughing fit. 
Kya giggled, taking another hit. The joint was passed a few more times before Kya put it out.
“I think we should play a game! Truth or Dare?” Kya posed.
Lin was laying on her side, propped up by an elbow as she gazed across the dancing orange flames at the waterbender. “Ugh, I don’t want to have to get up,” Lin complained.
“Fine. Truth or truth,” Kya conceded.
Bumi chuckled, maybe he hadn’t missed anything at all. This was happening right here, right now. 
“Fine,” Lin replied, defeatedly.
“So, Lin? How many days a week are you working out?” Bumi inquired seriously.
Lin laughed, “Seriously?”
“Yes!!” Bumi confirmed.
Kya felt butterflies in her stomach when she heard Lin’s unrestrained laughter. How long had it been since she heard her friend laugh like that?
“Everyday. It’s one of the only two things keeping me sane these days,” Lin answered honestly, looking into the fire.
“What’s the other thing?” Kya wondered aloud.
Green eyes met blue. “I know you’re the expert on these games, but don’t I get a turn next?” Lin smirked.
Kya’s cheeks reddened as she smiled and pushed a tendril of hair behind her ear, a bit embarrassed, “Right, yes.”
Bumi rolled his eyes. These two had it so bad. Best to leave them to it, his sister was obviously crushing on Lin, hard. Bumi forced a yawn, reaching his arms above his head. “Suddenly, I’m exhausted. I’m turning in,” he said, standing up. “See you lovebirds in the morning,” leaving without giving either of them an opportunity to object.
Lin smiled and shook her head, before looking back to Kya across the fire. She debated what to ask her. Especially now that they were alone. 
“Are you still seeing that firebender?” Lin asked.
Kya felt those jade eyes peering into her soul. “Nami? No, we broke up before I left Republic City. I must have told you that!”
“You didn’t mention it,” Lin replied.
“Are you seeing anyone?” Kya asked, surprising herself with how much she cared about the answer.
“Not at the moment,” Lin replied. 
Kya nodded, wanting to know more.
“Are you seeing anyone?” Lin asked back.
Kya smirked, meeting the intense jade stare across the fire. “Not at the moment.”
Lin smiled and rolled her eyes. Kya watched the shadows and flames flicker across Lin’s face. Her short black hair perfectly framing the sharp lines of her cheekbones. The pink scars that wrapped around her sculpted jawline. Her teeth pulling against her pale pink lip.
Lin pivoted to a line of questions with less sexual intensity, catching up on Kya’s travels; truly enjoying her friend’s company and looking at the beautiful creature. 
Kya lit the joint again and Lin had moved to sit next to her against a large log so they could easily pass it back and forth as they continued their game. Kya asked Lin about work. She admired and respected the passion her friend held for protecting Republic City. 
Kya found herself even more obviously ogling the earthbender now that she sat so close to her. The fact that Lin was staring right back at her made it feel impossible to breathe fully. 
“What was the other thing?” Kya asked, twisting her body to face Lin more squarely.
“Hmm?” Lin wondered aloud, unsure of what she meant. Maybe the lilyweed was going to her head.
“You said working out was one of two things keeping you sane these days,” Kya explained. “What’s the other thing?” 
Lin took a deep breath, but didn’t answer. Instead she looked into the fire.
“C’mon, Linny. You know you can tell me anything,” Kya said.
“I know,” Lin said softly.
“So tell me,” Kya pleaded.
Lin looked back at the waterbender, “Your letters. You.”
Once again, Kya felt like she couldn’t breathe. She found herself gravitating closer to Lin, leaning forward without even thinking. 
“Why?” Kya breathed, unable to take her eyes off Lin.
Lin felt magnetized, inexplicably pulled towards Kya. They were so close now, their faces merely inches apart. She found herself blatantly staring at Kya’s plump, slightly parted lips. 
“I think you know why,” Lin whispered, slowly closing the remaining distance between them to gently brush her lips against the waterbender’s. She pulled back, wanting the decision to move past that to be Kya’s.
Kya all but threw herself into Lin’s lap, wrapping her hands around the earthbender’s neck and kissing her deeply. Her fingers tangled into thick black hair, tugging gently. Strong hands roamed from Kya’s hips up her back, holding her tightly. Lin’s tongue requested entry to her mouth, which she immediately granted, a desperate whine escaping her. 
Kya had never felt more turned on in her life. Her previous sexual encounters were admittedly good, but she never felt affected like this; it was intoxicating. Everything felt like it was falling into place as she realized how long she had wanted this, with Lin. 
Lin’s heart was hammering inside her chest with excitement. Kya’s lips were like a drug she knew she now needed to live. She was consumed by Kya’s scent, a mix of smoke and salty ocean air. Lin dragged her lips to Kya’s cheek and down her slender neck, while her hands ran from Kya’s hips down her thighs. She pulled the waterbender as close as possible, desperate to feel her.
When Kya pushed one dress strap off of her shoulder to give better access, Lin immediately ran her tongue across the waterbender’s collarbone. The sounds that spilled from Kya’s lips sent a wave of heat directly to Lin’s core. 
All at once, it dawned on Lin how fast this was all happening and she forcibly ripped her lips from the soft, brown skin. Lin rested her forehead against Kya’s chest catching her breath. 
“Are you okay?” Kya whispered, her hand cupped Lin’s scarred cheek and tilted her head up.
“Yes. More than okay. I just… want to make sure we’re on the same page about this,” Lin said, looking up into the blue eyes she’d happily drown in. “I want you, Kya. I’ve always wanted you.”
Kya gently pushed some of Lin’s black hair behind her ear. “I’m sorry I didn’t see it before. I want you so much. I want this,” Kya said softly, bringing her lips back to Lin’s. 
They kissed tenderly, their lips moving slowly against one another. The heat from before was still present, but it wasn’t fueling this moment; this felt like pure love. 
Eventually, they parted; content to hold each other and stare, memorizing this moment. 
“We should go inside,” Kya said, her thumb pulling on Lin’s lower lip.
Kya doused the fire using her waterskin and the two headed up toward the women’s dormitories. Using her seismic sense, Lin felt Kya’s heart racing. It calmed her to know the waterbender was feeling this just as intensely as she was. 
Though normally Kya rued all the stairs, she was suddenly grateful her room was near the top of the dormitories; only empty guest rooms immediately surrounded hers. 
Inside Kya’s room, moonlight flooded in through the open window. Kya walked over to the nightstand to switch on the lamp. Soft pink light illuminated the room, thanks to the silk scarf from the Fire Nation covering the shade. 
Lin had been in Kya’s room a hundred times before. A hundred times she’d wished Kya would look at her the way she was looking at her right now. A hundred times she’d imagined what it’d be like to feel Kya’s body against her own. But this time, everything was different. She stood immobilized in the center of the room, looking down at the floor. 
Kya stalked towards her, reaching out to take Lin’s hands in her own. She slid her fingers over the strong muscular adorning the earthbender’s body, drawing her closer. Lin didn’t meet her eyes; Kya watched her chest quickly rising and falling. “Lin?” 
“This almost… doesn’t feel real. I’m just… feeling so much right now. Maybe it’s the lilyweed… I haven’t done it before,” Lin whispered without looking up. 
“Linny, we can go slow. We don’t have to do anything you’re not comfortable with,” Kya started, backing off of Lin slightly.
Lin laughed, grabbing Kya’s hands to keep her in place. “I meant I haven’t been high before.”
“Oh,” Kya smiled embarrassedly, biting her lower lip. 
Lin’s hands grabbed the waterbender’s hips and pulled her in closer. Jade eyes locked with aqua blue. 
Lin’s tongue darted out to wet her lips. “I want this to be real so fucking badly, Kya. Us,” she said sincerely.
Kya’s breath caught in her throat, overwhelmed in the best way by the earthbender’s intensity. “It’s real,” Kya whispered, slowly closing the distance to kiss Lin once again. 
Lin felt her head absolutely spinning at the soft, petal-like sensation of Kya’s lips. Soon the waterbender was pulling at the hem of her shirt.
“I want this off,” Kya whispered against Lin’s open mouth. 
They undressed each other slowly, garment by garment. Green and blue summer linens littered the floor of Kya’s room. 
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bonbonchocolates · 1 year ago
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Yandere Best Friend Jimin x Reader
Summary: When your best friend had different intentions for you.......
Warnings: yandere Jimin, dumb Y/N, obsessive behaviour, forced marriage
A/N: Again originally from my Wattpad account. I hope you like it.
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It was Friday evening, you were helping your mother as she was cooking. Then you heard the sound of the doorbell and you rushed to open the door knowing who it was.
Y/N Dad: Wait Y/N, let me open the door.
Though you wanted to open the door you let your father do it. You went back to the kitchen where your mother was. You took out the chopper board and started to chop the onions. You were very excited to meet your childhood bestfriend after a whole year.
You were lost in your thoughts when you heard a familiar voice of your best friend. You left what you were doing and went to the living room to greet your best friend.
You saw him sitting on the couch beside your brother and was laughing at something your father said.
You: Jimin
Jimin: Y/N
You hugged each other.
You: I missed you
You said and broke the hug.
Jimin: I missed you too.
Your mother also came and greeted him.
" Dinner will be ready in an hour"you announced and rushed to the kitchen. This was the first time you felt shy around Jimin.
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While having your dinner you were completely lost in your thoughts of your childhood when you spent nights and days cuddled with Jimin. You wondered if now you could do the same. Both your and Jimin's parents were friends and this is how you both became best friends. The fact that Jimin was two years older than you and belonged to a rich family while you were from a middle class family didn't stop you from being best friends.
Y/N Dad: So, how long are you staying here?
Jimin: About a week.
Y/N Mom: When will you come again?
Jimin: With the pressure of my job, I don't think I will be able to come before a year.
Actually Jimin got a good job in Paris two years ago. He was so busy with his work that he used to call you like once a month. Sometimes it felt like he totally forgot about you.
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After the dinner Jimin bid goodbye to you and your parents and was about to leave when you caught his wrists and stopped him from leaving.
You: Do you have to leave in a week?
Jimin: Yeah I have to pompom( it was a nickname Jimin calls you), you know work is important.
You pouted.
Jimin: But I won't leave without you.
With that he left your house. You wondered what his last sentence meant, he must be joking, right!
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2 days later:
You just returned home from your work and found that your parents were not at home. You wondered where they went at this time.So you decided to ask your brother. You went to your brother's room and found him playing video games.
"Kookie"
"Yea"
"Where are mom and dad?" You asked curiously.
"They uhhh.....are at Jimin's house."
Why were your parents at Jimin's house at 10 at night. You thought.
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After a hour your parents returned home you rushed to them and asked that why were they at Jimin's house . They didn't replied to your question which was strange.
They looked extremely happy so you asked them the reason for their happiness but they told you that you will know in a few days.
"Dad please just tell what's going on? " You asked him curiously. What is happening?
"You won't miss Jimin again."Your dad replied.
"What?"It was more a question to yourself. You didn't knew what was going on. You were totally confused. "Is he not going back to Paris? "
"No, it's even better. "your mother replied excitedly. "You'll know in a few days. "
Why is everyone acting soo weird? What is going on? You thought. You'll probably know in a few days.
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After two days when you came back home from work, you found your mom in your room. She was packing your bag.
What is happening?
"Mom! What is happening?"You asked confused.
"We don't have so much time before the marriage."Your mom replied.
What?
"Marriage... whose marriage?"
"Yours, of course."
"What mine? When?"
"Tomorrow"
"What? With whom?"
"Jimin"Your mom replied.
Now everything hit you the reason for why did Jimin told that he wouldn't leave without you. The reason why your parents were at Jimin's house. The whole time your parents and Jimin knew what was going on but they didn't told you. You felt anger inside you which was directed to Jimin and your parents.
You quickly took out your phone from your purse and dialed Jimin's number waiting for him to pick up.
"What the hell is happening Jimin? "you yelled at him the moment when he picked up his phone.
"Whoa..whoa easy there Y/N."
"I'm to marry you tomorrow, but why? "
"Because I love you Y/N can't you see that, I have been in love with you since 8th grade. But you did not see my love." Jimin replied as if nothing happened. "So I told my parents that I love you and I want to marry you. They were more than happy to hear it so they invited your parents for lunch and told them about the proposal and they didn't had any problem."
"Jimin you're saying like this is normal. If you ever loved me so you could have told me, asked me out on a date. "You didn't knew what else to say. "You never thought of what I want, my decision doesn't matters"
"Yeah, you're right. Your decision doesn't matters. "This made you more angry.
"And why so soon? "you asked angrily.
"Cause I only have a week to stay here and I don't want to wait for another year."
"I won't marry you."You told.
"You will."He replied before ending the call. There were already tears gathered in your eyes.
Why was Jimin doing this? He was your best friend. Right.
Jimin's words broke your heart. You decided to tell your parents that you didn't want to marry Jimin. When you told them instead of understanding you they scolded you. They told you that the wedding is tomorrow and that there is no going back now. The wedding rings were bought, the wedding dress was decided, your bag was packed and your tickets for Paris was already booked.
You never ever thought in your life that your parents won't care for your decision just because of Jimin.
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The next day came too soon. It was 6:00am when your mother woke you up. You completely forgot that today is your wedding. You didn't got up from your bed instead you layed down and covered your face with the pillow.
Your mother took the pillow off you and dragged you out of the bed. She pushed you towards the bathroom and told you to get fresh.
After a few minutes you changed into your wedding dress and the makeup artists arrived soon after. They did your makeup. You requested them to keep it simple. They did as you told.
Then your mother came and told it was time for the wedding and she dragged you outside.
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You were walking down the aisle clinging to your father's arm like a child. At the end of the aisle you spotted Jimin who was wearing a black suit and was looking handsome as always. He had a smirk on his face.
When you reached there your father gave your hand to Jimin. He brought it up to his lips and kissed.With that the ceremony started.
"Do you Park Jimin, take Jeon Y/N, as your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health until death do you apart."
"I do."
"Do you Jeon Y/N, take Park Jimin, as your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health until death do you apart."
You kept quiet but then Jimin held your hand tightly and glared at you.
"I do" You were forced to say.
The wedding was small. Only Jimin's and your relatives and friends were present. Everyone was happy except you. They thought that your years long friendship with Jimin just turned into love. When you told your parents that you don't want to marry him, they thought that you were doing drama cause either you don't want to get married soo soon or you wanted a grand wedding. They told you that it was for your own good.
The reception went as quick as the wedding. You danced with Jimin, your father and your brother..
It was 1:00am when you started to feel sleepy. You just wanted to go home and fall asleep but you knew that you can't do that cause the flight was at 4:00am . That's when Jimin dragged you towards the car and pushed you in the backseat. You saw your bags being loaded . Then Jimin entered the car. He sat beside you and asked the driver to start the car.
"Can't wait to have you for myself alone." Jimin told excitedly.
"I hate you."You told with all the rage inside you.
"Ohh don't be like that sweetheart, I know you love me."He pouted "I love you and I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together."
You still can't believe why was Jimin doing this. He was supposed to be your best friend. You just wanted it to be a nightmare. You never ever thought that your childhood best friend to spoil your life.
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Borahae 💜
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minmin-the-stpd-king · 14 days ago
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yesterday was a year of me being a system. like, the voice of my first alter appeared this time. but a few months ago i had this huge self-fakeclaimimg thing to the point where i started to think i was just faking this whole time and im not actually a system. then my alters helped me to snap out of it, but the consequences are still affecting me.
now it's like... my "common" alters are not showing up, but "i" has kind of split on two sides, one denies the system and wants to live a completely different life, has opinions that are not common for me and so on, and the other is sociable cool being with my common views, that part of me is happy with my regular life. this two has the same name and to clarify, now i feel like the second one, when im the first one i don't wanna interact with people on internet and kinda isolate myself. i am always feeling like me being myself, just with completely different opinions....
and i knowwww that this sounds like alters, buttttt uhhh im not used to that type of plutality, before this happened to me my alters was like "oh hey i just appeared im your new alter" and i feel so confused now jsjsnajjjdjskk
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surftrips · 1 year ago
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LOVE HIM (I DID)
OBX WRITING WEEK DAY 4 — SECOND CHANCE W/ RAFE CAMERON
word count: 1093
summary: rafe leaves for the last time. y/n comes back for the last time.
a/n: sorry this is a day late! was absolutely slammed this week with work, so the rest of my stories for obx week will be pushed back by one day. <3
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You should’ve known better. You had met Rafe through your favorite cousin, at a backyard pool party. It was late and you two were the only ones left standing outside, lighting cigarettes off the oven. 
That was in the summer, you could’ve never seen the bloodbath that was coming. Never would have known what a waste of time being with him was. Because no matter how good it felt, none of that was worth how awful his absence felt.
And no matter how much you wanted it to work out, loving him was just not fair. It was sad really, how often he left and how often you let him back into your life. 
“Why are you leaving again? Please tell me,” you begged. 
"Because I don't want to fucking hurt my girlfriend.” Rafe snapped. "God, half the time I'm with you, I'm scared I could break you, even though I'm doing everything I can to hold back."
You wanted nothing more than to help him. It broke your heart to see him struggling and instead of going to you for help, he would run away. Every time. 
“Rafe, I can handle it. We’re supposed to be in this together,” you responded.
“No, no I can’t hurt you anymore.”
“You’re hurting me right now.” 
That was the last time you two spoke, nearly a month ago. You, too tired to try anymore, and Rafe, too stubborn to come back for one last time. 
He had his issues. He would come over upset sometimes, from a long day of work or dealing with his father. You were always able to calm him down, but you could tell that he felt like a burden. You always assured him he was anything but, that you loved him and you would never get tired of him. 
It never seemed to get through his head, or his heart, the fact that he was loved. You began to believe that maybe love wasn’t enough, that maybe you weren’t enough. 
Being with him started taking a toll on you, and he knew this too. But this didn’t mean that you wanted to break up, you were willing to fix things with him. You always were. 
Even though you weren’t seeing him anymore, you had his best friends send you occasional updates on how he was doing. Topper said that he was, quote, “sad, but getting through it,” which you’re not sure was reassuring or not. 
Still, you were glad to see him back at work and smiling sometimes on the beach. You kept your distance from him, knowing that maybe this was the break he needed to finally get better. If you weren’t going to help him, you just wished someone or something else did. It was a hard truth to swallow, that the love of your life might be better off without you, but you loved him more than the truth. 
One day, his other friend Kelce told you something that stopped you in your tracks. Apparently, Rafe was in therapy. You could hardly believe the words he was saying to you.
“Like, he’s talking to a professional? About his feelings?”
“Apparently, he didn’t say much to me. You know how he is,” Kelce explained.
“What were his exact words?” Maybe his friend had heard wrong.
“Uhhh, ‘Nah, I can’t go, I got therapy.’” 
“That’s it?”
“Yeah, that was it.” 
“Well, how does he seem nowadays? Better?”
Kelce hesitated, knowing that if he said yes, you might feel bad, but if he said no, you would feel even worse. He settled on the truth, “Yeah, honestly he does seem better. Smiling and laughing. Making jokes again. He was so serious a few months ago when you guys broke up for real.” 
The word “break up” was still sensitive to you, but you pushed on. “Good, that’s really good. Thanks, Kelce.” 
Back at home, you wondered about what this meant for you two. If there was even a “you two” to begin with. You both had been on your own for so long now, it almost felt like that backyard pool party had never happened. Almost.
You knew that no matter how hard you tried to forget him, Rafe would always be an important part of your life. You told yourself that you didn’t love him anymore, that you only used to, but that wasn’t true. No matter how hard loving him got, losing him was even worse. You decided that this would be the last time once and for all. 
He answered his door on your third knock. 
“Y/N? What are you doing here?”
“Hi, Rafe. How are you? Can I come in?” you said, trying to sound nonchalant. 
“Uhh, sure. Come in, is there something wrong?” His eyes scanned your face and body for any signs of distress or hurt. 
“No, nothing is wrong,” you smiled at him gently, hoping to change the anxious expression on his face. “Kelce told me you were in therapy.” 
“Oh.” 
“Is that true?”
“Yeah.” He wasn’t offering you anything. “My therapist says that I should take time to be alone right now. To work on myself instead of depending on other people.” 
“I understand,” you said slowly. “I just came over here to check on how you were doing.”
“Look, Y/N, we do this every time. I appreciate you checking on me but this is my problem to fix.”
“You can fix this problem, but that doesn’t mean you have to be alone all the time. You know I’m here for you, right?”
“I know, but that was the issue. I only depended on you. It wasn’t fair to you.”
For the first time, he was admitting it out loud. The fact that there was never a balance in your relationship.
He continued, “You didn’t have anyone to lean on. I knew that and I was being selfish because I couldn’t stand the thought of being alone.” 
“Rafe…” 
“Y/N, can I just ask you one thing?”
“Yes?”
“That you’ll be there for me when I’m better. I’m not telling you not to see anyone else, or even wait for me, just that I’ll at least have a friend when I find myself again. Because I’m worried you’re not going to like who that is, hell, I don't even know who I am underneath everything.” 
You sighed, “Of course. I know you, I know how incredible and kind and sensitive you are. You’re my best friend, at the end of the day. Always.”
With that, he pulled you into his arms and you hugged as if for the first time. 
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prettyb0ycvnt · 3 months ago
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24, 40, 42 :>
eeek hii >_< okay!!!
24 - what is your perviest confession?
i do admit there have been times where i've touched myself while engaged in completely casual conversation with someone... it's very hard! im not good at typing one handed!!! in a similar vein but more focused on tumblr,, if ur reading this and we've interacted in a sexual manner at any point or i've read any of ur hornyposts i definitely have jacked off to the thought of you and that's the truth >_<
40 - describe how you usually masturbate
it's a little boring i fear >_< !? hmm ok so i don't really tend to get that wet initially even if i'm really turned on by something,, my body goes through allll the works Except getting this stupid pussy wet LOL sooo i do have to kinda bring that on myself which i usually do by clitoral stimulation !! whether that be flicking it or rubbing it with my finger... grinding onto my pillow helps quite a lot too and my chest is also really sensitive lawd i remember this one time i was playing with my nipples for funsies and then all of a sudden it was like a tsunami within my body i was like Huh. Okay then! once i'm properly lubricated that's when the real action starts,,, i don't own any toys or anything so literally all i have to work with is my fingers!?? but they do the job ^_^ you know the motions with fingering. two middle fingers! come-hither motion! i have pretty small hands and thus pretty small fingers so it does make it a liiitle difficult to reach right in there but i find that if i thrust my hips in the same rhythm as my fingers it's like . oughh... i tend to start slow!!! i like building that heat within me before increasing the pace. then i either slow down or withdraw completely because uhhh i like torturing myself yayyy! pretty sure if i didn't have a clit i'd die probably GODDD i love playing with it sm its so fun hellooo ! usually at the same time as i'm fingering myself but other times i stop completely and just focus on that . aiden nsfw lore update he's a Squirter & clitoral stimulation really triggers that so naturally i do it every chance i can . it takes quite a while for me to like actually have a proper orgasm but!!! it happens eventually,, and it's always fun :3 also why the fuxk is this so long HELPPP OK to the next question we go
42 - describe your most recent sex dream
OH MY GOSH ok so im pretty sure i had one like last week but i can't remember it LOL sooo we'll go to the one from like. months and months ago that i haven't been able to get out of my head. it had a whole fucking plot line so im pretty sure i was a worker at this like research facility buuut oooh omg high stakes!! something went wrong. and now we've all gotta escape the facility or we fucking die. and genuinely it was so scary i was tweaking so bad in the dream HELPPP like it felt so urgent and we were kinda trapped so it felt real claustrophobic and horrible Until... until it took a wild fucking turn. so i had to go and find one of my co-workers (someone I've seen irl like genuinely i think it was some random person who i saw on the street one time) who had his own little section within the facility because it was Where he Lived basically,,, and the moment i got to his base to inform him about the High Stakes Escape Plan i realised he had just got out of the shower and was very naked ! and suddenly the plan was very much forgotten . it's a little blurry but i do remember dream me being pinned against the wall and his hands sliding between my legs,, and of course i know what that feels like so my body in real life felt so tingly and weird it was so vivid oh my god!!! it's a little blurry after that for a while buuut,,, dream me and random guy did end up fucking on the floor. and also against the wall...and on his desk... and the thing is i don't know what it feels like to . you know. have a dick inside me because im a loser virgin!!!! but my stomach felt sooo tight and so hot and it was like. guh,,, there's only one line of dialogue i remember and it's "want me to fill you up, huh? want to be bred?" AND LIKE HDHDHJFJDJG sorry I got dizzy just thinking about it . . so i did >_< or rather dream me did !!!! and i also don't know what it's like to have a load shot in me so it didn't feel like anything but im just saying i would like to!!!! very much !!! god i can't even remember where the dream went from there but needless to say the whole escaping the facility plotline was very much forgotten in favour of dick . a welcome diversion ! and then i Woke Up Different. i don't know what it is with me and wet dreams set in weird ass places bc like 3 years ago i had a wet dream where i was in a prison,, and i was assigned the Prison Fucktoy basically and all the guys in there lined up for a chance of me sucking their dick??? sucked a lot of dream dicks. i also think about that dream every day but uhh i digress
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boogleboot · 1 year ago
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One year since Fateheart
A year ago I posted Fateheart: A Starless Seaquel to Ao3 (link here) - the mammoth fanfic sequel to Erin Morgenstern's The Starless Sea.
Fateheart has had an incredible year, and has completely changed my life, by all measures. Posting it has connected me to so many wonderful people and helped bring together a genuine community over on the Starless Sea discord (which you should join hey here's a link) who have supported me through the last hellish few weeks of uni assignments as well as months and months of creative projects and ambitious fic writing.
So on this blessed solstice day, here is a lil update for those who are following the slow progress of the unofficial Starless Sea canon as developed in Fateheart.
Oh that's right, baby. It ain't just one fan sequel. It's gonna be uhhh (checks notes) at least four.
I really really wanted to get the next book out at this year mark - on the solstice and year anniversary - but despite hitting that 50k mark for NaNoWriMo last month it just didn't happen (it's been a rough couple months - I am currently doing a master's course that is kicking my ass).
But I am determined to get Fever Pitch, the next full-novel-length follow-up story, out in full as soon as humanly possible. Toward that end I have gone ahead and made a posting for it. The first few chapters are done and have been done for a while, so I shall slowly be posting them as I work on the rest.
Watch this space!!!!
I never really intended Fever Pitch to be a fully-fledged sequel. Mind you, I didn't intend that with Fateheart either, but in a different way. In my mind the next book in the sequence is and always has been a story called The Lotus Flowers. Nearly 180k words of that one exist, but it is too important a story not to get right. So I'm gonna give it as much time as it needs - and it may need quite a lot.
But in working on Lotus Flowers, I came to realise that a lot of the world-building and character development which I was taking for granted was in fact not as obvious to the reader as it would be to me - LF is, after all, set ten or so years after Fateheart, and considering all of The Starless Sea (at least for Zachary and Dorian) takes place in about two weeks, ten years is space enough for a LOT of story.
So in order to strengthen my sense of where Zachary, Dorian, and Kat have found themselves by the ten year mark, I started noting down some of the more important moments from that decade of time. And then just kept writing. And writing and writing and writing until a handful of them were fully fledged novellas.
I have put up the polished ones - they are collected together on Ao3 as 'Fateheart: The Extended Canon'. Which is. A bit pretentious. But whatever. (Also I'm not kidding myself that all the fics in this collection are vital plot points, but there are a couple standout ones which are Canon Events in my mind, that will be referenced in later full-length fics. Namely A Heart That Won't Break, Death in the Valley, and The Man Named Sky.)
But one of these short (aspirationally) stories seemed as I wrote to have particular space in it for so much of that world-building and exposition, and that was Fever Pitch.
Fever Pitch takes place five years after the birth of the Harbour, and the events of Fateheart, and is an Alice-in-Wonderland themed story which explores the lives of all the main Fateheart characters (Zachary, Dorian, Kat, and Leander, namely), introduces some new players (shoutout Tabuzae and Kirsty Baudeville), as well as establishing the limits and life of the Harbour they live in.
I'd say a solid sixty percent of this story currently exists, and I'm gonna amp up the pressure on myself to complete it by posting it as I go - something I've never done before, so bear with me.
It means so much to me that there are people out here who care as much about these people and this little world on the Starless Sea as I do - even more so that so many people have loved my offerings of more story. The above photo is of my christmas present from a housemate who was one of Fateheart's earliest readers. It's so beautiful it makes my heart leap.
We rise, we fall - as stories do.
I am committed to seeing this story through, by the way - all the way to the end - and that is gonna take years. But we start here - with the next book in the series. First few chapters to appear over Christmas.
Until then, happy solstice. To seeking x
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froppy-butterflyfan2000 · 6 months ago
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It is another snowfall on a winter day in the city of Townsville. Joby and Josie, children of Johnny Test and dress in their winter clothings, came out of the house to spend the remaining winter break they have left before school start. The two kids are sitting on the bench waiting for the bus. The bus arrives, that the children get their stuffs.
“Last one to reach Fitz Maurice Hill is a rotten egg and buy hot cocoa!” Said Josie, carrying her wooden toboggan.
“Oh you are on!” Said Joby, carrying his plastic green sled, wearing a competitive smirk.
The bus took them to their respective destination, as the kids exit the bus, they then climb up to the hill by foot. Josie and Joby put down their sled and get on.
“Ready?” Joby asked.
“Ready!” Said Josie.
“GO!” They said in unison.
The two take off.
Meanwhile, the daughter of Brandon and Stella, Twinkly Astrid Bloom Solaria walking through the city, avoiding being follow. She is dress in a velvet winter buttoned up cardigan jacket, black knee high socks, black snow insulated pants, pink winter boots, and a white scarf wrapped around her neck. The one who is following her is a small, pink droplet shaped furry body, and has small bright white specks which resemble stars and have no visible limbs. The creature is looking at her with a gold-orange eyes and mouth trembling. Twinkly grumbles because all she wants was to be left alone. Honestly, why is that creature following her? Can’t she go back to Kai or back at Scaris/Paris with her family?
Twinkly is minding her own business, when she is not watching where she is going because all of a sudden she heard a loud voice, “Look out!”.
“Huh?”
Twinkly is crash into Joby, who’s failed to move to a different direction. They groaned in pain.
“Hahaha! I win!” Said Josie, reaching the finished line. She get off her toboggan and enjoy her victory by throwing her arms in the air. You are gonna buy me hot cocoa because you…. uhhh,”
Josie is looking at Joby, faced down and on top of Twinkly.
“Ouch. That is not how you falls in love,” said Josie.
Joby groans again, he got off of Twinkly and is now lying on the snow on his knees.
“Get off me hooligan!” Twinkly shouted. “I am already off of you. You are so impatient.” Complained Joby. He groan, as he slowly got off of Twinkly and is now lying on the snow, on his knees. As he get up from the snow, the two lock their eyes again.
“Great, not you again!” Said Joby.
“Me? I obviously don’t want to see you too!” said Twinkly.
“You two know each others?” Josie asked.
Joby points at Twinkly. “This is the crazy girl I told you about!”
Twinkly’s mouth stretches wide. Crazy?!
“For real? Wow,” said Josie.
“No, I am not crazy!” said Twinkly. “I am a fairy, whose is not at the Winx level yet. I can do magic.”
Joby rolls his eyes. Josie flick her hand and scoff. “Phew! Nah, I am tired of seeing enough magic in my life. I don’t need more,” Josie denied. “Come on Joby, we need to go to the hot cocoa stand, you are paying.”
Joby let out a sigh, admitting that he lost the race. “Fine, coming.”
Josie run for the hills to the hot cocoa stand. Joby wipe the snow off his black winter jacket with his gloved hands. He picks up his earmuffs to put them on, when he saw Twinkly acting weird. He shouldn’t ask, but he did anyway. “Why are you cautious for no reason?” Joby asked, regret his decision later.
Twinkly’s eyes start dancing back and forth. “Well… I… Um…,” Twinkly muttered. The creature start whining. “Can you please help me hide Lilly?” Said the bothered Twinkly.
Joby lifted an eyebrow, and stares at the creature calls Lilly. “That’s your weird dog.” Said Joby.
“No, that’s a staryummy. That creatures you saw in the news a couple of months ago.” Twinkly corrected Joby that Lilly is a staryummy, and not a dog.
Joby is even more confused, so he gives it a thought. He then remember something about an infestation and everyone has to avoid these creatures, not to attract them by giving them sweets or soft drinks, and let either the superheroes from The Roundtable or the pest control handle them.
“Oh, I forgot.” He said.
Twinkly let out a hmph. Joby let out a hmph too, because why is she asking him to help hide this creature in the first place? They don’t like each others, and if she don’t want this ‘staryummy’ creature around her, why not call the pest control? It must be her fault for attracting this staryummy somehow. Question is, how?
“HURRY UP!” Josie screamed.
“I AM COMING SIS!” Joby screamed back at Josie. Then he turned to face Twinkly one last time. “Just calls Camp Synonymous or Townsville’s pest control…. They know what to do than me, a civilian. See ya never again!”
He leaves to go to his little sister.
“Ugh!” Said Twinkly, she is experiencing the cold weather for the first time and wish to be back home in Solaria right now. Why did her parents decide to go visit Townsville again? She glares at Lilly and kick the poor staryummy. Lilly start screaming as she got kicked by Twinkly and landed in the snow.
Lilly and Twinkly Astrid Bloom Solaria belong to @gloriousdreamunknown
Josie Test and Joby Test belong to @froppy-butterflyfan2000 (me)
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mamadoc · 9 months ago
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1 - Talk about someone who changed your life.
Okay. I took far too long to think about this. Since we're all in a post 6x6 and TTPD era, here's a vulnerable, tortured answer.
I had a very close friend for several years. My husband and I were very close to her and her husband. Our kids were friends. We went to the same church, all loved to travel, had similar interests and tastes, had all lived internationally, went on double dates, etc. We even considered having them raise our kids if my husband and I both passed away. In sum, we were super close.
Then COVID hit. As a doctor COVID was difficult. I struggled a lot because I was taking care of sick patients. I recall one tearful day of talking to a pregnant mom who was about to be transferred to the ICU and was saying goodbye to her other children. It really wasn't safe or comfortable to go to work for a long time. I wasn't really dealing with it well, especially with the people around me treating it like it didn't matter. I was really depressed for the first time in my life.
This friend didn't understand that or if she did, she didn't care. So, when I said I wasn't interested in going out in public and having any type of birthday celebration for my birthday (who wants to celebrate turning 41 anyway?), she started attacking me on a personal level. I was already in a dark place and instead of being a good friend and supporting me, she just keep sending me hateful messages.
That was the first and only time in my life I considered suicide. I reached out for help and got it. I wasn't in that dark pit for a long time. I'm much better now. I mostly have my sister to thank for that.
I brought her flowers for Valentine's Day with an apology note a few weeks after that. She never apologized. I brought treats to her a few weeks after that with an apology note explaining why I felt so hurt. I tried to call to explain how I felt so that I could heal. She never answered the phone.
I'm still not sure what I have to apologize for or why she never seemed to accept or offer an apology. But that was two years ago. We still don't talk. Our husbands don't talk. Our kids don't play together anymore. For a long time, I didn't like going to church because I knew I'd have to see her.
Most of that is better now. I'm just sad for a lost friendship and for the dark place I had to crawl out of.
I've used a slight modification of her name for a character in one of my stories who betrayed Lucy. I thought that might be therapeutic, but it just brought the situation up to the surface again.
Uhhh... I can't believe I just wrote all of that. I'll try to keep the rest of the answers a bit lighter.
2 - Talk about something you really want to do.
I LOVE to travel. I've been to 47 states and 16 countries. My husband and I had all of our plans in place to get to all 50 states before we turned 40. Then COVID hit and all of our plans were dashed when travel shut down. We're going at a slower pace now, but we're getting close to it. #48 (NM) in October, #49 (HI) July 2025 as a 20th anniversary trip, and #50 (AK) the summer of 2026.
11 - Share something you're proud of.
According to AO3's stats, I've posted over 339k words since I started posting 7 months ago (plus another 9-10k chapter I hope to finish tonight). I know there are those that blow me out of the water (Ahem, ahem @girlintotv and @centralperkchenford) with their numbers, but I'm pretty proud of that as a first-time writer and working mom with 4 young kids.
20 - Share with us a random fact or two.
I'm afraid I've already overshared. *yikes* But here we go.
I'm the oldest of 6 kids. The first 4 of us are all 23 months apart, then 27 months apart, and 25 months apart. So, we're essentially every 2 years for 10 years with all of our birthdays clustered together. 3 boys and 3 girls.
I had the chicken pox for my eighth birthday. My grandparents came to visit for my birthday, but they were afraid of getting shingles. So, I had to stay in my bedroom on the second floor, and they stayed on the first floor for the whole time they were visiting. I still remember standing in the hallway near the dining room while they sang happy birthday. One of my siblings blew out the candles for me and my mom brought me a piece of cake in the hallway. (Man, I'm still rocking those depressing TTPD vibes, aren't I?) I was officially not contagious the day my mom came home from the hospital with baby #5 in our family, and I remember being so excited to be healthy enough to hold my baby brother.
Sheesh. Now you probably won't ever ask me anything again. Between TTPD, 6x6, and the angst I'm supposed to be writing right now, I'm coming up with some strange answers.
Sorry to be the Eeyore in the crowd. Thanks for asking me to play though.
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